#i've messed with the tweening before but

[keeskiwi]

Just a lil Quirk wiggle to play with krita's tweening :)

[one-chaotic-neautral]

There's a whole bunch of things I gotta say Abt act 3 that I don't have time to, but my god the SYMBOLISM, so I'm just gonna do the couple of obvious ones that stuck out to me.

Spoiler warning ofc.

In ep7 when jayce was in the pit, he broke his leg and used the design for viktors leg brace (which he knew well enough to recreate, the two likely worked on it together in the past which I love) and then painstakingly climbs out. He's in the undercity at the time.

The whole sequence, due to him wearing the leg brace, is very unsubtly a parallel to Viktors journey of metaphorically crawling his way up out of Zaun and into Piltover. Which is to be assumed as his backstory before meeting Jayce, and was probably still something he felt like he was doing his whole life.

(Also hallucinating both Mel and Viktor in the same place is very bisexual behavior Jayce. and adds to the parallels between Mel and Viktor, they're both mages that go through physical transformation this season, and whole bunch of other scene parallels)

In ep 9, during their little gay transcendence scene he basically tells Viktor he's perfect, that he admired everything about him and that his leg and his illness were never flaws etc. Last season also ended with Silco telling Jinx she's perfect.

Which I think its neat we got that happening at the end of both seasons, in a show where identity is so important, (and toward two of the main physically and mentally disabled characters specifically). Personally I loved Jayce including Viktors leg as being a part of him and therefore something he loved as well, that he never needed to feel ashamed about

Again in ep 9 at the end, when Vi is holding Jinx and Warwick over the ledge. This kinda parallels s1 act 1. (With the obvious first scene of teen and tween Vi and powder on the roof in piltover, where Powder falls but Vi is there to pull her back up)

Vi wanting to save Vander, Jinx trying to save Vi when that goes wrong. Now Jinx is hanging there with the literal weight of her dead family weighing her down, as Vi holds onto her trying to pull her up, despite the baggage being to heavy but being unable to let go. Vander so well representing the guilt and trauma she carries with her.

In the end she knows she'll pull Vi down with her too, so she forces her to let go. By stealing the hex crystal, which is what started this whole mess, but is such a jinx moment of quick thinking.

God I bawled at the end there I kept thinking they've gotta have another scene that shows maybe she didn't die, or Ekko came to save her again, but no.

I'd go into more detail cause there's just SO much about this season but I've gotta go and I'm sure someone else will cover everything. The show was just phenomenal.

[oneatlatime]

The Blind Bandit

I had honestly forgotten that the Gaang were trying to find an earthbending teacher, so the 'previously on' segment was actually useful instead of spoilery.

Nobody's face is having a good time.

Look at this sweetheart. You go ahead and treat yourself honey. You've single-handedly escorted a pair of earth-shatteringly overpowered tweens around the world for months; the least you deserve is a shopping trip.

"You kids like earthbending?" Has the same energy as "wanna buy a sun dial?" from that animated Hercules movie.

This guy is one of those strip mall karate types.

I take back everything I ever said about Zuko's season 1 haircut. This guy has a dust bunny poop on his head.

Momo's bag now.

My absolute favourite girl power: incredible violence!

The acoustics at this earth rumble place must be great. I don't see any microphones.

"That's what I paid for." Sokka is a simple creature at heart. Likes food and violence.

Something very strange about this guy's face. I think his mouth moves but his eyes don't.

So apparently earthbending gets you mad air.

Oh! I get it. This is a WWE parody. Somebody on the writing team did their homework too. Don't ask me how I know, but this is a very accurate parody.

Sokka thinks listening to big muscles is a very good idea actually.

And here's the heel. Complete with russian accent. And oddly homoerotic anthem. And cowardice when challenged! Yep, total heel.

I LOLed at the zamboni badgermoles and hockey organ.

She's like two feet tall!

I'm. in love.

I could watch little girls beat up grown men all day.

Earthbending sonar?

Omigod it predicts. She can see moves before they happen.

Well it's a good thing Bumi said to look for someone who Waited and Listened rather than Watched.

"I don't really want to fight you. I want to talk to you." Says the guy who just volunteered, in front of a full stadium, to FIGHT her. Time and place, Aang.

Get back on the ground you flighty airbender. She sees with that ground. No fair.

This is about the face I made when Aang pulled that move. Does this boy think at all? I love him, but what part of stealing her well-earned title is supposed to convince her to talk to him?

You messed up.

I love sartorially inclined Sokka. It's a tiny an innocuous little trait, but it rounds out his character so well.

I get to watch two different girls terrorise idiots this episode. I am blessed.

So I'm guessing the two idiots at the earthbending academy are doing that excercise where kung fu people stick their hands in sand (I've seen videos of it) but it really looked like they were in the 'beat back the dough' phase of making bread.

In this universe of plot-convenient clothing blindness, how do Dumb and Dumber recognise Aang as the one who beat the Blind Bandit?

I think the voice actor for the dumb kid with actual hair did a bunch of voices in season 1. The soldier who gives Aang Bato's map comes to mind.

Have I said recently how much I love Sokka and Katara?

These wrestling guys keep switching between first and third person. Too many rocks to the head.

This could be a board for a murder mystery board game. Or a map for a DND dungeon.

It's her hair. I thought the Blind Bandit had a cap type thing with a little brim for her costume, but it's just a pile of her hair? Like a beehive?

A lesson in character writing: if you want to make someone look super dumb, have them earnestly believe in the credentials and authenticity of a guy you have previously set up as a borderline con artist. Lookin at you, Blind Bandit's dad.

"Basic forms and breathing exercises only." That line is just so funny. And they're all so stupid. She snapped like half a dozen spines last night and this guy is preaching breathing exercises.

Wow! I hate her dad!

I hate him more!

Sokka going ham on some rice rather than listen to the idiots. Good priorities.

This passive aggressive fight between the girl and Aang at the dinner table is so fun.

Looking for somewhere to store your meal after you've face planted into it? Try the top of your head!

I need to get a hold of some of those magic napkins. Wiped up a whole multicourse meal in like 5 seconds.

That is indeed the appropriate reaction to this pint sized badass. Glad Aang is learning. (Also this episode needs more Appa. The last couple have been sadly bereft.)

Called it. Earthdending sonar. Or is it more like echolocation? No! Whiskers!

How does this pint sized badass - who if I am understanding correctly, is not known to exist outside the walls of her house - have more emotional intelligence than the entirety of the Gaang put together?

So much for the guards in the garden. They'd actually be useful now.

Sokka. Priorities. Although given how many times Aang has escaped custody/kidnapping he's probably ok to take a minute to fangirl over an autograph.

These idiot parents don't know their daughter at all. That chafes.

"I'm not smiling." I LOLed at that too. Perfect delivery.

Hippo man having a snack before he gets down to business. No wonder he's missing teeth.

All this blind and tiny and helpless and fragile talk is really making me hope someone smacks the crap out of the dad. What an awful thing to say, nevermind saying it where your daughter can hear.

SMACKDOWN INCOMING

This is gonna be good.

If this girl does join the Gaang the writers are going to have to nerf her in every major conflict. She's too powerful. I bet she could take on the firelord now.

And that's why you don't announce sneak attacks.

So remember how Sokka was absolutely losing his shit over the Boulder? That's me right now.

She waits. All these idiots are losing because they're getting impatient and attacking first. Which means that, to her senses, they're telegraphing their moves. That is so cool. And so is this visual.

Here's your chance Dad. Are you going to mess it up?

"I love fighting. I love being an Earthbender. And I'm really really good at it." me:

I don't have words for how much I LOVE when little girls STAND UP for THEMSELVES and THEIR INTERESTS. This would have had me HOLLERING if I'd seen it as a kid. It was a message I needed to hear too.

Wow I want to kill her parents.

OH FUCK OFF

COME ON

You made my girl cry.

Get wrecked belt stealer. I LOLed at this too.

Sokka just beaned a blind girl on the head. Not a good look. I laughed though.

Fun fact: everyone in this picture is a piece of shit.

I haven't been this steamed since Zuko's dad burned half his face off.

Final Thoughts

IT WAS SO GOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Seriously, this episode feels like it's movie quality. This show is usually excellent, but this feels like a cut above. I feel like I could sense the love the writers, animators, voice actors, everyone had for this episode. They had a good time making it and were enthusiastic about it. And there were lots of tiny background details in this episode too. I'm sure I missed quite a few. Oh No! I'll have to rewatch it!

New team member! That hasn't happened since Momo. Actually, no wonder the episode was so good. Introducing the first new team member in at least a season's worth of episodes is a delicate operation. I bet they were workshopping this episode since early in the first season.

And Toph! (thank you credits for how to spell that - I was really hoping it wasn't Toff). Be still my heart I love Toph. She may well take Sokka's spot as my favourite character. Strength of character, self-assurance, emotional intelligence, badassery, mastery of violence, what's not to love!!!

How did she get so emotionally intelligent and articulate if her parents have kept her caged her whole life? I don't know but I'm not complaining!

How did her parents get away with caging her for her whole life? I do know (money) and I am complaining. Very much so. And yet Toph can still find it within herself to have an honest conversation with them, including apologising for leaving said cage. I never would have had the maturity to do that in a similar situation. I would have gone the Katara explosive rage route.

A little girl who stands up for herself. Against HER PARENTS. I just. Do you know how amazing that is? Especially in a kids' show? I was ROBBED by not being able to see this show when I was Toph's age.

Does bending work like a muscle, in that you build up stamina? Because if so, then Toph is the strongest human earthbender in the world by default. If she's using it in place of seeing, then she's using it 100% of the time that she's awake, all day every day. By the time she was like 5 years old she'd probably used her bending more than the average earthbender does in their whole lifetime.

My one complaint is Toph's voice. Nothing wrong with it; this is a me thing. It fits her perfectly, but my ears do not play well with nasal voices, which hers is. I had to rewind quite a few times and resorted to subtitles by the end. Hopefully I'll get used to it like I did Zuko's.

Sokka! My soon to be demoted beloved! He shone in this episode. I love that he has fashion sense and is not afraid to show it. I'm thinking, what with how hung up he was on masculinity at the start of the show, that the water tribes have a different conception of masculinity: one that classes fashionability as a masculine or gender neutral trait. Even back in season one it didn't take much to get Sokka into the Kyoshi warrior uniform, and he's shockingly good at applying face paint symmetrically. Which I still cannot do with winged eyeliner.

Katara! Not headed for a career in diplomacy but so satisfying to watch. I would love to have a Katara in my pocket that I could unleash on people. And her and Sokka bouncing off each other this episode was great. Every one was at peak performance this episode, except Aang. Not at his brightest this episode.

Checking for typos before I post this and I realise I'd already forgotten that Toph is blind! Just like in the Northern Air Temple, this is how you do disability right: as just a part of who they are, rather than an entire personality. This show is so good.

In sum, Toph:

[hurlumerlu]

Just wanted to say I appreciate your Kant posts - not only do you catch moments that I think some others miss (e.g. his expression after he "enthusiastically" told Style they're unbeatable toward the end of ep 4 - that is not the face of a man who believes his own words!) but you also treat him with a little more grace and nuance than most (whilst still giving him an appropriate level of shit!). Trying not to be one of those ppl, but it does make me a little sad the way some seem happy to dismiss him as the villain of the piece - the writers did not lay down all those situational parallels tween the brothers and Kant just for us to woobify one whilst crucifying the other! Anyway, point is I'm enjoying what you're putting out there!

Very kind of you to take the time to send that ask, anon! I feel like what I'm putting out there is more "excited flailing around" than it is anything else. I love Kant a lot, and it doesn't surprise me at all: I've always loved liars and petty crooks, characters who would do anything for their siblings, characters stuck between a rock and a hard place - desesperately trying to wriggle free, characters the narrative keeps grinding down, and shameless flirts. I love that in almost any other story, Kant would be dead before the credits roll, but here he's gonna emerge at the end - maybe not unscathed, certainly not unscathed - but free and loved, and it's gonna be it's own kind of triumph. And I'm not the only one loving him! The person who made the post I reblogged about Kant believing he's unbeatable (or not) clearly loves him too, and was maybe the first person to write a long post defending him and pointing out that his motivations and Fadel's are very similar. There's also a number of gif makers and fic writers who obviously love him, or they would not spend so much time writing and giffing him. We may all have slightly different reads on him, but we do love him. *solemnly grabbing your shoulders* you're not alone, anon. I do think the audience's reluctance to love him is interesting, though. Would it be uncharitable to say some of it comes down to liking the signs of a healthy relationship more than the exploration of what would make one? Not that all fictional relationships should be healthy, of course, but I've seen a number of analyses disliking how messed up K & B's whole deal currently is (valid, we've simply got different taste) without really grappling with the fact that it would still be messed up if they were healthily dicussing boundaries F & S style. But also, like I said, it is probably an uncharitable way to look at it, and definitely simplifies views I don't really understand. I'm just happy to love him in my little corner. Here are a (x) few (x) posts (x) celebrating (x) him (x) just (x) because :)

[thatgirl4815]

I think it's the not knowing when part 2 is that is really making ppl flip out, because even if you're pretty sure they'll get a show (which I am), having to wait until an unknown date to find out whether or not that's the case is just twisting the knife! They should at least have ended part 1 with a date for part 2 - are we talking before the end of the year?? Halfway through 2024??

I actually would really rather not get a S2 of OF just because I think they've towed the line pretty well tween hot mess and realistic/complex dynamics and I don't trust they could keep that up for another season without it descending into pure melodrama, with a Boeing equivalent introduced every other ep just to stir things up. Maybe it's my pessimism speaking re. how Boeing/Sand/Ray will play out, but S2s have a habit of destroying their established relationships, often through lazy writing and tired tropes, and personally I feel I've already seen Sand/Ray be destroyed - both as individuals and a couple - enough to last me a lifetime! So unless it's a drama-free, chilled out season of healing, therapy and the odd music festival, I don't want it! My nerves have enjoyed the ride up til now but they can't handle any more!

If I’m not mistaken the announcers mentioned something at the end about how whether a series is announced during P1 or P2 doesn’t necessarily indicate if it will be coming out in the first half of 2024 or the second half (granted, the Eng subs were pretty barren for most of the show so I might be wrong about this). If this is the case, then I’d suspect they will have P2 before the end of the year. My guess would be sometime in December.

OF season 2 is definitely a slippery slope, and while I think it’s a possibility, I don’t think it’s super likely based on GMMTV’s record and what the cast/crew has already said. You’re right that season 2s often stir up unnecessary drama and can ruin existing ships because of it; I would hate if that was the case here.

…I just need to know what that First/Khao/Jojo clip was about where First had the tattoo on his arm. OF or something else? I want FK to work with Jojo again if possible because I think OF has proven that they work really well together.

More than anything, I need the guarantee that FK will have their own series next year. I’m confident we’ll get one, but I need to see the proof with my own eyes. I NEED ASSURANCES!!

[kgraffie]

How am I Supposed to Look.

LONG POST.

Mental illness is so hard to understand most times. When I first got diagnosed Bipolar I got the phrase from many people- "You don't look Bipolar". Ummm okay how am I supposed to look? Am I suppose to look like that character in that movie that was off the walls and deranged looking? Like come on...do a little research or ask me questions before assuming things. 

I've suffered very big ups and downs over the years after my Bipolar diagnose. I was originally diagnosed as Biploar II. Which is more of the depressive side of it (or how I feel it is). As years went/go on I have had increased manic episodes. So quite a few years ago now I was offically diagnosed as Bipolar, Mixed. Biploar, Mixed is a lot newer and just recently within the last few years was added to the diagnose codes in the hospital system(s). Not sure if all of them have it, but the one I go to finally had it added. I actually came across Bipolar, Mixed while doing some research on Bipolar in general. Mixed fits better with the traits I've had and am having with my Bipolar. 

As I said previously on this blog...I have other mental diagnoses other than Bipolar. 

Bipolar, Mixed

Anxiety Disorder

Depression Disorder

Trauma and Stressor Disorder

ADHD

PTSD (so they claim)

OCD tendencies 

Those are the ones I've been diagnosed with at least. When you see it in a list like this (or at least when I see it in a list like this) it feels/looks like A LOT of stuff going on. Which it is a lot, but my mind says 'hey, it's not as bad as others', and as true as that could be...that doesn't matter. Everyone has their shit they deal with. Some deal some don't. Some get help others don't. We are all different. We all have our burdens or things to deal with. 

For me though I for a long time didn't deal with it. I didn't acknowledge any of it even. We were that family that didn't express things...let alone acknowledge something was wrong. Stuff it deep down. Which I guess worked for awhile (not in a good way though). By the time I hit the age of 13 or 14 (middle school) I was pretty well off as a anxious and depressive mess. Yes there were changes going on of course. I was a tween when it started and a teenager when it REALLY started. I remember my first BIG BIG anxiety attack. It was the first day of High School for me. First time since moving to Idaho that I had to take the bus to school. I was so nervous to the point I was pretty much sick. I couldn't breath, my heart was pounding so fast. I was so nervous I'd be late, or the bus would be late, or something. My mom though brushed it off as just it being the first day. It continued on worse and worse after the start of High School. Once I got a car it somewhat subsided, but I still had anxiety badly. Depression was in waves also. I had a lot of different daily things that I HAD to do. I had to have a routine or my whole day was off. I'm sure my mom noticed, but we really didn't talk about it or address it. 

As the years went on it all increased more and more. Once I graduated from High School I moved to Portland, OR for college...it didn't last long. If I'm honest it didn't do any good for me. I got into a group of friends that were okay, but not good for me. I went into a relationship fast with a guy and it was VERY toxic. I NEVER slept. I was 19 so at least at that time I could still function without much sleep. Still wasn't good for me, but still. I lasted about 6 months...when winter break came and I went home for it...that's when it all hit me. My then boyfriend and I broke up, and that was really the thing that broke it all.

I just remember sitting at my mom's kitchen table going over my brother's High School Senior pictures and when we were done I closed my laptop just shaking like no other. I didn't think it all the way through it was just a sudden thing I said. "Mom I think I have to move home." I remember the look on her face...and a squeak of okay, and then her going to her room and crying. It was never talked about why I need/wanted to come home. I never will probably know why she went and cried. It's all weird. Few days later my brother and I drove to Portland, did my exit stuff for the school, packed all my shit into the car, said goodbye to sa few people, and drove home in a day. It was a very long and emotional day for sure. 

Very long and emotional time in general. Years went on and when I turned 23 years old the next day I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder. At 23 fucking years old...like okay good it finally happened, but wow. Then again I ignored a lot of things that would have probably helped with a sooner diagnosis...for more than just the Bipolar. 

It's amazing what we feel is needed to keep us "normal"...whatever that is. I really feel growing up I saw that if you don't acknowledge it then it's not a problem kind of thing. I've learned later in life now that, that in fact is not correct (haha). It's okay to get or need help. Taking medication is not a bad thing. Going to therapy can be a good benefit. It's okay to be open (to an extent I suppose). It's okay to express yourself. Repressing things does NOT help anything. I was miserable for so long. I'm at least content and happier than I ever have been now. 

If anyone reads this and needs help or to talk...I'm here, but also it's okay to seek help from others. Take the steps you need in order to help yourself. The first step is always avocating for yourself. If you need someone there to hold your hand, talk to randomly, or anything I'll do it. I get it and it's not an easy thing to do. It's nice to have someone understand or at least be there to help and try and understand.

If you are suicidal or thinking of something along those lines...reach out to someone. Or even call a hotline. 988 is the Suicide and Crisis hotline. If you have even a slight thought about needing to have to call the hotline or someone you trust DO IT. It can help so much. You are NOT alone in this life! Reach out. Do what you need to, to get help and feel better. 

Enough Said. 

[the-invisible-queer]

HELLO I'VE DISCOVERED THAT YOU CAN SUBMIT ANONYMOUSLY BY LOGGING OUT OF TUMBLR so now we're finally back, with another wholly unnecessary and novel-length timeline of a Jonas Brother’s hoe ass antics. I almost didn’t do a Nick timeline after the Joe one, for reasons I’ll explain when I get there, but like I said I needed something to distract me/kill some time and writing out an extensive history of this man’s Nonsense turned out to be great for that, so here we are. I’m sorry so much of this focuses on the Disney love triangle (my preteen ass was HOOKED on that soap opera and apparently a lot of it has just been dormant in my brain ever since) and even more sorry it’s INSANELY long. Though at the end of the day it’s not my fault that this man’s teenage years alone were such a goddamn mess that they require extensive lore to fully explain so. Blame Nick for all of this is what I’m saying.

Same disclaimer as with Joe’s, this is all just stuff I remember with no research or anything, so I’m sure some of it is probably wrong and very sure some things were left out. Also I had to kind of weirdly switch up my formatting here since Nick’s first two relationships were extremely…entangled...for a while and couldn’t really be cleanly divided into “every girl gets her own bullet point” the way Joe’s timeline could, so bear with me:

Nick and Miley started dating in 2006, when they were both 13 years old. They were allegedly introduced by Zac Efron and Vanessa Hudgens (which is ICONIC honestly, like the passing of the Official Disney Power Couple torch) and apparently became attached at the hip right away. Here are some random bits of Niley 1.0 lore that I remember:

Nick once claimed that Franklin (who was like five at the time) also had a crush on Miley before they met and “tried to beat him up” when he found out they’d started dating. This is genuinely one of my favorite bits of Jonas lore ever lol like please that’s so funny and cute

At some point in like 2007 Miley was papped holding her phone in such a way that the background was clearly visible, and it was a pic of her and Nick kissing, which was hilariously major news on the tween gossip sites back in the day since they were still playing the “we’re just best friends!” game at the time; the same thing happened again when she was heavily photographed at an event with “I <3 Nick” written on her hand. At some point one has to assume she was doing this on purpose.

In literally like the mid-2010s Nick finally admitted that Miley was his first kiss (which, no shit??? Incredibly funny that he played coy about that info for years when like bro, you were 12 and homeschooled before her, literally who else would you have been kissing), and said he was embarrassed to realize later that he kissed her right after eating something with a bunch of onions on it and his breath probably smelled terrible.

According to a 2007 interview that I still vividly remember to this day, Miley and a certain “friend” (there’s Disney’s favorite word again) dressed up as Sonny and Cher for Halloween 2006. The fact that not a single photo of this has ever surfaced nearly two decades later remains one of the greatest disappointments of my life.

Niley 1.0 lasted roughly a year and a half: according to Miley’s autobiography, they started dating in June 2006 and broke up in December 2007, with one short ‘break’ at some unspecified point in between. During said break Miley wrote the song G.N.O. and a few others, and Nick wrote S.O.S., Still In Love With You and possibly some other songs I’m forgetting. They also worked together a lot during their relationship, filming the boys’ iconic Hannah Montana episode and then going on tour together with the boys opening for her on the Best of Both Worlds tour, which awkwardly was still going on when they broke up. Miley claimed they ended things mutually because they were just too busy to manage a relationship at the time, never getting to spend much time together because they were both so busy with work, and had started fighting a lot from all the stress they were under. Speculation abounded about whether or not that was truly the reason, especially once Selena hit the scene so quickly and the “you love me you like her” of it all, but it was the official story regardless.

Immediately post-breakup Miley dyed her hair black as a rebellion against Nick, who apparently liked her to have blonde highlights when they were together, and Nick seemingly coped with the breakup in a different way because rumors about him and Selena started cropping up as early as January 2008. One such rumor I remember involved them allegedly flirting at the Best of Both Worlds movie premiere, which is so hilariously shameless that I could easily believe it of Baby Fuckboy Nick despite there being, as far as I’m aware, zero actual evidence supporting it. Regardless of when it actually started though, by I want to say spring of 2008 Nick and Selena were definitely a thing and Miley was definitely mad about it. It was at this point that this entire mess truly started derailing into the endlessly chaotic trainwreck that captivated tweens all over the world for the next two years.

Very rough timeline of Nelena 1.0/general 2008 triangle lore, listed in the probably incorrect order that I vaguely remember things happening in when I was like 12:

Miley and her friend Mandy uploaded an episode of their “The Miley and Mandy Show” Youtube series pretty obviously making fun of Selena and Demi, who at the time were very close besties which just made Demi also guilty by association I guess. This video was the official start of The Feud between Miley and Selena (and their respective sidekicks for a while). Shortly after this they uploaded another video ‘apologizing’ for causing drama, saying it was all in good fun and the girls were all friends; this apology was blatantly insincere and nobody believed it.

Private photos Miley’d sent to Nick during their relationship, clearly intended for his eyes only, were leaked online after her computer was hacked. We don’t need to discuss this in any further detail as it was really gross and invasive, especially considering Miley was very much a minor at the time, but it was a notable event within the love triangle lore so I couldn’t not mention it.

The Burnin’ Up music video dropped, featuring Selena as Nick’s love interest. Fans everywhere were SHOOK by this, both because it seemed like much more of an official relationship confirmation than Disney “We’re Just Friends” Channel stars were normally allowed to give AND because fans quickly started putting together that Burnin’ Up was likely written about Miley, who’d worn the famous high heels/red dress combo commonly thought to have inspired it to an event with Nick long before Selena was even in the picture at all. The drama! The mess! To this day I would love to know if this casting choice was Nick’s decision or if it was Disney’s – it was heavily speculated that Disney sometimes escalated the love triangle drama on purpose, either to capitalize on it for publicity or to distance Nick’s image from Miley’s after the photo scandal by associating him with Good Girl™ Selena instead – but it was very entertaining either way. All of this was truly great television tbh.

The 7 Things music video also dropped, featuring a lot of very blatant references to Nick and completely gagging all of us again before we’d even finished gagging over Burnin’ Up. (I genuinely don’t remember now if these two songs/videos actually premiered like a week apart or not, but that’s definitely what it felt like at the time lol. Just new bits of wild drama dropping every other day like these damn kids thought they were Kendrick and Drake. It was insane to live through as part of the target demographic and tbh this whole experience probably rewired my brain permanently and is why I’m like this.) Dissecting this song and video kept fans busy for a good while; I still remember how super smart my friends and I felt when we realized the melody of 7 Things was just the melody of Hello Beautiful sped up.

Kevin, of all people, popped up somewhere wearing a “Team Demi and Selena” shirt in reference to the ongoing feud between them and Miley + Mandy. He of course denied that it was referencing this and IIRC tried to claim it had something to do with like a bowling team that Demi and Selena were supposedly starting??? Okay, Kevin. Again, I’d love to know if Disney orchestrated that or what bc otherwise what was his grown ass doing jumping into beef between a bunch of like 15-year-old girls to begin with lmao

At some point Nick was directly asked if 7 Things was about him and said it couldn’t be because his friends aren’t jerks, which is somehow the funniest possible answer he could have given so props to him for that one honestly

Miley performed 7 Things live at some event that all the other Disney kids were at, and during the song she walked into the audience to where Selena was and they sang a line or two together. Around this time (I can’t remember if it was also at this event or a different one) the three Disney girls took pictures together and Demi and Selena took pictures with the boys, but Miley avoided them. I remember there being speculation around this time that Nick and Selena might have been on a break or at least having issues, bc of how very suddenly the two girls appeared to start getting along and bc of Selena lowkey shading her own boyfriend? But I have no idea if that was true or not. Nick was probably rattled either way though lmao

Miley’s album Breakout dropped, obviously featuring a lot of songs about Nick but, infinitely more unexpected than that, also featuring a message at the very end of the dedication page thanking ‘Prince Charming’ for inspiring the album and saying “I loved you then, I love you now, and I’ll love you always.” Fans reached levels of gagged so unprecedented that one girl I personally knew jumped the Team Nelena ship and converted over this.

JB’s album A Little Bit Longer dropped (again, what felt like very very shortly after but may not have actually been idk, I’m not about to look up release dates for this) also obviously featuring a lot of songs about Miley – and ones spanning their entire relationship, at that. I don’t think I truly realized until years later how funny it actually was that Lovebug and Can’t Have You were literally released at the exact same time lol.

At some point in the midst of all this 15-year-old Miley started dating a 20-year-old underwear model, which always creeped me out even as a literal child. Not long into their relationship said pedo boyfriend took the tween gossip world by storm by dressing up as Nick for Halloween, which at the time I found somewhat funny despite my reservations with him, but looking back on that as an adult it’s sooooo…that kid is barely sixteen. Why are you dating this teenager and mocking her also teenage ex over their messy teenage beef that does not concern your grown adult ass literally at all AND ALSO WHY THE FUCK AREN’T YOU IN PRISON. Anyway. 12-year-old me always lowkey tried to avoid learning anything about this pedo since he creeped me out, so I really don’t know when exited the picture, but he must not have lasted super long because…

In roughly early 2009, Nick and Selena broke up. Just like last time it did NOT take Nick long to bounce straight back to his other option and in no time at all he and Miley were fueling rumors, publicly flirting and suddenly hanging out again – the iconic lunch date where they were seen alone together for the first time since their breakup and where Nick embarrassed himself by getting into a fender bender while driving his ex around lmao happened during this time period. I remember that Selena spent a lot of time publicly angsting and vagueposting about all of this on Twitter, but can’t really recall the specifics of that anymore. It was clear she was going through it though.

Niley 2.0/general mid-2009 lore highlights, again probably out of order somewhere (also for the full effect imagine all of these things happening literally back-to-back within the span of like two months):

Miley’s book released, suddenly revealing a ton of Niley 1.0 lore all at once. A lot of fans who met Nick around this time got him to sign the ‘Prince Charming’ chapter page of their copy, which admittedly was very funny and something I’m still surprised he actually did.

Before the Storm was written and recorded somewhere in all of this.

Miley, Selena, Demi and the boys all filmed the Send It On music video and its accompanying Disney Channel ads, including several clips the three girls had to do together in which it was painfully obvious that Miley and Selena couldn’t stand each other and poor Demi looked like she’d rather be eating glass than sitting there between them. Candids from the set dropped showing Nick appearing playful and flirty with both girls during filming, despite Niley being pretty obviously back on by this point and him and Selena still seeming to be on bad terms otherwise?

Joe opened his big mouth on Larry King and accidentally confirmed Niley 2.0 despite Nick trying desperately to avoid this, surprising no one but greatly amusing everyone (except Nick).

Nick flew out to visit Miley while she was filming The Last Song in Georgia, where paps caught potato-quality yet still iconic pics of them making out on a jet ski.

Miley made a surprise appearance to sing Before the Storm with Nick for opening night of the boys’ tour, which remains to this day the only time they’ve ever performed it live as a duet.

Selena Gomez & The Scene dropped a song called I Won’t Apologize which (on top of just dragging Nick for filth in general) pretty obviously referenced the love triangle, basically saying he’d tried to turn her into Miley or at least that she’d felt like she needed to turn into Miley to make him happy, and also seemed to imply there was overlap between Nelena 1.0 and Niley 2.0. At the time this last bit was very scandalous lore for young fans to digest, even though in hindsight that was really like. The least surprising revelation ever lmao. ALSO this song was meant to be like an empowered I Don’t Need No Man anthem, with her being all “you don’t deserve me” and “I won’t go back again” which is just…genuinely so fucking funny in context. Spoiler alert: she sure as fuck will go back again.

Then at some point that summer Miley got into her own insane love triangle which somehow seemed even messier than the first one, and after a few weeks of general chaos and confusion (apparently so confusing that even Miley herself walked away unsure of some of the exact dates involved) things eventually culminated with her and Nick apparently breaking up again and her stepping out with co-star Liam Hemsworth not long after. Mess upon mess. I very vaguely remember that in the months following Niley 2.0.’s death Nick was spotted two or three times with…some girl who had like a bit part in one of the Camp Rock movies, I think? I want to say Courtney or Chloe something but again I’m not looking shit up for this. To this day I’m not really clear on if there was anything to that or if it was just a rumor bc he was seen near a girl during his first time ever being single for more than like a month, but if he and Random Third Girl actually did have anything it must have been very brief because…

Did Nick learn from the experience of seemingly being on the other end of a love triangle, as one of the two people being played with at once by the third, that this feels like shit and maybe he shouldn’t do it to girls anymore? NOPE! By late 2009 he’d already run straight back to Selena, who happily took him right back as if she hadn’t just spent the last year publicly whacking him all over Twitter and in her music. God every single one of these kids was a fucking disaster GIRL WHERE’S THE SELF-RESPECT WHAT HAPPENED TO THAT ENTIRE DISS TRACK YOU WROTE

Anyway. Nelena 2.0 and general 2010 lore highlights, once again probably out of order but oh well:

Miley was very blatantly pissed when Nelena reunited and publicly shaded both of them several times, despite the facts that 1) she actively had a boyfriend at the time and 2) by all appearances she was the one who’d dumped Nick for someone else anyway, because apparently her not wanting Nick did not mean Selena could have him. Okay girl. One of these occasions that I remember being HUGE gossip was when she changed the lyrics in 7 Things to say Nick’s brothers were jerks, rather than his friends; it remains unclear to this day what, if anything, the brothers did around this time to suddenly warrant their own specific lashing.

Nick Jonas & The Administration’s album Who I Am dropped, featuring several songs commonly thought to be about each of the girls, but I don’t think Nick ever explicitly confirmed any of them.

For some occasion (maybe Valentine’s Day?) Nick, nothing if not dramatic, built some sort of elaborate rose garden at Selena’s house as a surprise – likely a reference to the NJ&TA song Rose Garden which was allegedly about her. Roughly a year later after they’d broken up again Selena would do her own on-stage lyric change in reference to this, bitterly saying something like “the roses you built me were only made of plastic.”

Justin Bieber made his first appearance in Selena’s life while she was still with Nick. While there’s no evidence that anything beyond some mild public flirting happened between them until after Nelena 2.0 ended, him showing up in this timeline at all is still just…incredibly fucking funny to me. A THIRD love triangle has somehow hit the fucking towers.

Nick performed the song Stay for the first time, setting off a fandom debate over its muse that still persists to this day. Some think it was about Selena because they were together at the time and because she was present and seen crying in the audience when he performed it; others think it was about Miley because she also had a song called Stay that Nick’s seemed to directly respond to in a lot of ways, and because Selena’s tears as he sang it didn’t really look like particularly happy ones. Many OG fans still have passionate opinions about this today, and we will almost certainly never find out which group is right.

Nelena 2.0 was ultimately rather brief, not lasting more than 3 or 4 months into 2010 I’m pretty sure, and with its death the official Disney love triangle era finally concluded as Selena jumped out of the frying pan into the fire left Nick behind to enter her Bieber era, which by all appearances was also a giant chaotic mess because apparently none of these kids ever did anything that wasn’t. It was at this point that Nick finally started to have confirmed relationships with people who weren’t the same two girls over and over, so we can finally try out the relationship bullet points now.

At some point that couldn’t have been more than a couple months at most post-Nelena, in like mid-2010, Nick started dating Samantha Barks whom he met while they were preparing to star in the Les Mis 25th Anniversary Concert together. They were pretty quiet about it, and I was also hyperfixating on something non-JB at the moment and not super interested in general, so I’ve never known too much about this and am honestly not sure if there was even any more public info to know. As far as I remember this relationship was also not particularly long-lived, lasting like 5-6 months maybe, but also didn’t seem to involve any public drama which was a new and refreshing change for Nick.

I’m really fuzzy on the order here but somewhere in 2010, right around the time Jonas L.A. started airing and their characters were will-they-or-won’t-they-ing and then dating, it was rumored that Nick and Nicole Anderson were together. Most fans never believed this (I personally still don’t) as with the timing it seemed like a very obvious ploy for show publicity, but to this day there are some truthers out there who insist something happened between them. If it did then it must have either been very short-lived or overlapped with either Selena or Samantha, if not both – but by this point it was clear Baby Fuckboy Nick was no stranger to his relationships lowkey overlapping so honestly who fucking knows.

GUESS WHO’S BACK, BACK AGAIN. MILEY’S BACK, TELL A FRIEND. Niley 3.0, which happened in I want to say very early 2011, was Nick and Miley’s briefest and last obvious attempt at…something. It was never clear if they were really back together during this period or just hooking up or what, but they were definitely doing something notable enough to include here. (Bonus: Miley was definitely also still being messy with Liam, who by this point she’d also already been on-again off-again with like twice, at the exact same time as this all this was happening because of course she was. Why would any of these damn kids ever have had one unhealthy situationship going at a time when they could have two?) They were pretty quiet about things this time and I also still wasn’t paying super close attention, so I don’t remember much aside from a few spottings of them together and a lot of vague Twitter flirting, and it didn’t seem to last longer than a few months. ALSO there was a really weird incident during this time where the day after an event they both attended, where they were rumored to have been very flirty and left in the same car, several articles came out alleging that Nick and/or his car had been spotted outside Miley’s house that night or the next morning…and then all of these articles just disappeared all at once. Like they were literally scrubbed from the internet, leaving only some gossip site comments from the young fans who’d happened to see them (including me which is how I vividly remember this) as the only recorded evidence that they ever existed at all. The most accepted theory for this bizarre occurrence is that it was true, there were pictures that someone was threatening to publish, and Disney, not wanting to clean up a “purity ring-touting teenage star spends the night with girl he’s not even officially dating” scandal and beyond rich enough to take the hit, just paid everyone off to make the entire situation go away by gaslighting everyone who had seen the original articles. So. That was a thing that happened once.

In like spring 2011 Nick started dating Delta Goodrem, who at the time was 26 or 27 and very fresh out of a broken engagement with another grown ass adult while he was barely 18 with no relationship experience outside of at most a small handful of teenage girls around his age. This relationship always made me uncomfortable at the time and if anything makes me much more uncomfortable now that I’m an adult, so I intentionally did not follow it at all then and am not about to seek out any information about it now either. All I really know is that it did seem to be relatively short-lived, which I can only imagine was probably a good thing.

At some point in like 2012 or early 2013, Nick and Rita Ora were seen talking at a couple of events. They looked kind of flirty but I don’t recall anyone thinking there was anything to it beyond them maybe hooking up once until he namedropped her in the song What Do I Mean, seemingly implying she’d burned him in some way…but when Rita was asked about it, she said she was super confused by the song because they were always just friends and she had no idea he liked her. Apparently she confronted him about it and he admitted he must not have done a good job expressing his feelings, and I guess it was all some kind of weird misunderstanding between them that he...made no attempts to clarify with her before publicly calling her out in an angry song. Alright then?

Olivia Culpo showed up in I want to say mid-2013. For full disclosure I was already not super into Nick when their relationship started, and after he broke up the band and then picked up his solo frat boy Jealous persona that I was just very very not into – it reminded me of my controlling over-possessive ex and grossed me out – I pretty much completely lost interest in him and just stopped following him at all for a few years, so I honestly missed most of their relationship entirely. Mostly all I remember of Olivia is that she wasn’t well-liked in the fandom (at least not in the beginning when I was still paying attention) because she and her family and friends were…incredibly blatant about very much enjoying the attention that her dating Nick brought them, we’ll say, and also quickly developed a reputation for being rude to fans both in person and online. Nick largely seemed happy with her though and they lasted…around two years? I think? She presumably inspired much of his early solo discography and I’m pretty sure appeared in at least one music video. Again, creepy possessive solo Nick gave me the ick, so I wasn’t consuming any of this and only know what I picked up through osmosis while keeping up with the fandom just enough to somewhat keep tabs on Joe and Kevin. (I do vaguely remember seeing a lot of discussion among fans about Nick’s then-bestie Demi not seeming to like Olivia/being subtly snarky about her on multiple occasions, which…hoo boy we’ll get to all THAT in a minute.) I want to say they broke up at some point in 2015. I feel like there should be more things to note in this section considering I’m pretty sure this was his longest continuous relationship until his marriage, but if there are I simply am not the person to note them because I just truly don’t know crap about this era of Nick’s life.

Continuing on from that, there was still at least a good few years post-Nolivia where I wasn’t keeping up with Nick at all, so other than the next few bullet points (that I learned about mostly via keeping up with the other person involved and not him) I really have no clue what he was doing. At some point he was connected to Kendall Jenner, and then I think Kate Hudson??? I have zero idea when these relationships happened, how long either of them lasted, or if they were even relationships at all or just rumors I saw on my infrequent trips through Jonas Twitter. This is why I almost didn’t write a Nick timeline to begin with, because there’s this whole big chunk of time that I’m just blank on so there’s definitely stuff missing. Sorry.

GUESS WHO ELSE IS BACK! BACK AGAIN!!! In I want to say 2015 there was a super weird little moment where Nick and Selena hung out together at some event, looking a little flirty, and then like a few days later he dropped the horny song Area Code out of nowhere and liked a bunch of tweets implying it was about Selena. Clearly this led to nothing, so I can’t count whatever this was as Nelena 3.0, but it was still notable and also very funny so I’m including it anyway. Jury’s still out on if they hooked up that one night and the song was written in response or if they didn’t hook up but he wanted to and put the song out as a request to be booty called; I’m equally amused by it either way. Maybe a tiny bit of subtlety next time, Nicholas.

This is kinda out of order but while we’re talking about the Disney days rising from the dead, Miley also popped back up a few times in surprisingly recent years, especially every time she and Liam broke up because Nick was apparently still perfectly eager to be her back-up plan. I feel like roughly 2015 and early 2018 both had periods where those two were suddenly interacting much more than usual, mostly via social media flirting that made observant fans wonder if something else was going on in private. Obviously we have no way to really know if anything was actually happening or if Nick commenting heart emojis all over every pic she posted was an attempt to make something happen that went nowhere, but either way it’s still enough to include here. (Also I didn’t mention it when we were on 2012 but obligatory shoutout to Nick performing Wedding Bells for the first time after Miley got engaged, which was genuinely ballsy as hell and a lowkey insane thing to do. Gagged the absolute hell out of literally everyone.)

Okay, now we have to talk about Demi. No one truly knows what exactly happened between these two, and unless Demi one of them decides to spill the tea in a memoir or something someday we probably never will, but whatever happened was definitely notable enough to be listed here. Basically they were very close friends for a long time and over that time other feelings definitely developed on at least Demi’s part, which was long suspected but finally confirmed in I think late 2017 when she dropped the songs Ruin the Friendship and Only Forever – both of which were clearly and unsubtly about Nick (No I Can’t Keep Denying Every Minute I think of you!), despite her refusing to outright confirm this no matter how many interviewers bluntly brought it up. She also claimed that the person they were written about had written songs about her too; many theories exist about this to this day but, as far as I’m aware, no one knows for sure which of Nick’s songs are about Demi or if these alleged songs were ever even publicly released in the first place. I can’t remember if Nick ever publicly responded to this whole ‘my best friend just told the whole world she’s both in love with and horny for me’ scandal or not (I kind of want to say he just ignored all of it and acted like nothing ever happened lol which…valid way to deal with that situation, I guess) but they did seem to spend a bit less time together right after that and it’s often speculated to have been the beginning of the end for their friendship. I’m not sure when exactly things exploded but I remember she publicly complained about not being invited to his wedding in late 2018, after unfollowing him on social media I think weeks or months before; there was seemingly a bit of drama between her and the boys when she left their formerly-shared team/manager and they stayed; and by 2020 she said in an interview that she no longer kept in contact with any of the boys. Two unreleased Demi songs have leaked in the years since that seemed to add more context to their falling out: Ain’t No Friend, which basically said he betrayed or abandoned her when she needed him most, and Big Little Lies, which seemed to confirm that there was something romantic between them at some point, or at the very least that Nick had made empty promises of something romantic happening in the future, and also implied he didn’t tell her about his engagement before the public found out and…kind of confirmed that the news was hard for her (I don’t really want to touch this too much but a lot of speculation exists that Nick getting engaged and Demi almost fatally overdosing like a few days later were directly related events). As far as I can tell they still don’t seem to be on speaking terms today, or at least they never interact publicly despite Demi having positive public interactions with Joe and Kevin since then, but apparently she did go to the boys’ Remember This tour in 2021? So. There’s that I guess.

In what must have been like April 2018, there was a series of pap pics of Nick kissing some totally random girl in Australia or somewhere after he like helped her when she fell off her bike or something???? Idk. The whole thing was very strange and I remember a lot of people speculating that it must be staged bc both the pictures and the whole situation were just so bizarre. As far as I know the girl was never identified and never popped back up with Nick again. Also this was very literally the last thing I heard that Nick was up to until literally like two months later when I heard he was suddenly engaged to a completely different person, which was a fucking insane thing to experience. This man’s life is such an enigma.

Anyway in like summer 2018 he got engaged to Priyanka, who I guess he’d met at some previous time when I wasn’t looking, and then a few months later they got married and now they have a kid. There’s…not much else for me to say about that really lol. The fun of these things is truly in recounting the past messiness, not the current longterm relationship everyone already knows.

SO WE’RE FINALLY DONE! That was absolutely ridiculous and I should be ashamed to have spent so much time on it but here it is. This actually was a really good distraction when I needed it but please feel free to judge me for possessing all this useless knowledge regardless lmao

[capricioussun]

How about I talk abt Dos a little since I so rarely do despite the fact I think of him often.

So, I've identified him as being from "glitchfell", but tbth I should really...change that. And just identify him as Glitched!Fell Papyrus or something, since his AU was actually destroyed a while ago. (Or maybe I can think up an alternate version where is wasn't destroyed but just super fucked up, which would actually be neat wait hold on I'll do that-)

Anyway. It was actually Dos that destroyed it! Entirely unintentionally but eh, whadya gunna do about it right? /j the scientist seriously messed up in the process of trying to make him, and when he shattered, permanently fractured Dos' code, which makes him, well, glitchy! Due to that, the DT, and part of his soul being attached to the void, it's near impossible for him to die or be killed despite how messed up he is, so inevitably, during a severe episode of destabilization when he was about tween-age, he tore a hole in his AU as he was violently glitched from it, which caused its immediate collapse shortly after.

The glitches are exacerbated by stress – the more unstable he is mentally, the more he is physically. So once he came to in a different Fell type AU, in a lot of pain and disorientation, it wasn't long before he glitched again. Thankfully, he doesn't usually collapse entire verses like his own, since his own code isn't part of the whole, but still, he can damage a universes code if the glitch is severe enough.

The following years were rough, since he usually found himself in Fell verses as his code most closely aligned with theirs and made the connection easier. He couldn't develop any bonds as he'd usually wind up glitching out of the verse soon anyway, on top of how difficult it generally is to forge good ones in a Fell universe in the first place. He bounced around a lot, slowing as he got older and gained better control of himself and his emotional state. But still, his soul was too unstable to ever fully control via just free will.

From that point, his story can split off into several different iterations I've explored. The most explored one is where he gets captured by a character called "The Collector" who seeks out strange or unique beings across the multiverse to keep or sell/rent. He’s absolutely abhorrent, and if he exists in a story then so does "The Council" (the guys Void works with), so at least he’s not just wreaking havoc willy nilly, but still. He’s incredibly smart and capable and somehow manages to always slip between fingers, so they've never caught him.

In that iteration, Dos is one of his favored "pieces", so he only rents him, even going as far as doing his own experiments to see what makes him tick. Due to the fact he travels outside proper universes via pocket dimensions, the constant changing of hands (and a glitch proof collar), and a cocktail of drugs to keep him relaxed enough not to damage himself too much, Dos can't escape, willingly or not.

Although, by that point, he doesn't. He’s hurt a great number of monsters and universes because of his inability to control the glitching, so despite how horrid the living conditions are, he thinks it's better that way, where he can't accidentally hurt anyone anymore.

Again, in this iteration, usually he's eventually freed, amongst a group of a few other "pieces", by members or allies of the council, including none other than Void himself. Sometimes depending on what I'm vibing with, they've met before, but sometimes they haven't, which can determine how long it takes for Dos to accept their help.

Thankfully, they've got quite a number of smart cookies on their team, and can eventually make a device and medication that Dos can take to help manage his glitching. That, on top of shuffling every so often between a few different AUs, keeps him from having serious episodes.

Those are the implications at the end of that Patch and Void fic btw!! That version of HT is one of the first verses Void asks to "provide a safe space" for Dos during recovery.

Speaking of, Void can also manually negate Dos' episodes, which is what leads to their eventual partnership! By that point, he’s become quite a good friend to Dos, and helped him a lot both physically and mentally. It also helps Dos recover to help Void help others, on top of learning more practical, common skills he never had the chance to before since he was so young when everything got so out of control.

All in all, he’s sooo messed up, but with time, he reorients quite well! He’s a big sweetie, even if he’s also kind of tsundere abt it ahdjjskskf

And for some reason, I associate him strongly with otters the end <3

[papirouge]

Since you're talking about pedophilia can we talk about the use and sexualization of the word lolita? I hate that word SO much it's unreal but also why are there products and even brands named after that book? There's literally a clothing brand in my country geared towards tween and teen girls with that word in its name (and no, its not clothing from that japanese trend or inspired by it). Like that word literally means an attractive/seductive young girl, since in the book the pedophile protagonist nicknames his 12 year old stepdaughter that (her real name is Dolores I think), yet nobody gives a fuck. I'm starting to think radfems are right when they say people don't take pedophilia when it's against girls seriously, specially if they're tweens or older. Like somewhat recently a major's son was caught raping a 12 year old, and all his father had to say was a message to parents telling them to lock their daughters if they didnt want that happening to them :/

Also as a side note why does it seem so many radfems like lana del rey? Didnt she write songs romanticizing all of that lolita crap?? And people say "oh, but she did that when she was younger". Bro, she was literally 23, she should have known better. Perhaps i'm exaggerating but I've seen and heard so much shit in my life, I feel like little girls should be radfems n°1 priority... I know it's not all of them but still, I even saw one say lolita was one of her fav books, like it messes me up because I always found her so smart and well spoken (written?), and I don't give a fuck that that book doesn't condone pedophilia because it has done more damage than good to this world

Society will literally sexualize every single inches of female body and experience, anon 💀

Remember creeps installing snitch camera in women's restroom? ...yeah.

And radfem can be full of shit so you wouldn't think that much of them liking fucked_my_way up_to_the_top.mp3 Lana del Rey. Sip they're good take but don't forget that in the end of the day, most of them are mentally ill women with a bunch of Nigel in the closet, and coping with their not so glorious (pickme) past by harassing non rad women for not being feminist enough.

Your last sentence is so real : there's been plentiful of post explaining how lolita was critical of grooming but it shows how scrote culture can hijack and twist the message off an initially wholesome material.

And scote will ALWAYS accuse female victims before male abusers. Just today I was watching a video of a Christian channel featuring an abused women who was exploited in the porn industry, and guess what? There were so called Christians scrote downplaying her struggle and making snark comment abt her posing for nude videos... (I couldn't help but make a comment to call them out lmao - I'm the "yona" commenter lol)

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Kiss Tag

@dyrewrites tagged me in this wonderful post, and while I've kind of fallen off the tag game lately, it just so happened that a recent chapter of Thereafter included a very relevant snippet.

On my end, I tag @owlsandwich and @teacupsandstarlight

In the end, Michael didn’t stab his short sword into Felipe’s solar plexus. There was no need to make a wounding blow out of it. Besides, Michael found himself thinking, there was a pleasant, if perverse tension to holding his wooden blade to Felipe’s heaving torso as he regained his breath. They were so close now, Michael wasn’t quite sure when he let his forehead rest on Felipe’s, but at one point he had. It was difficult to see much when you were as close as this, but Michael could see that Felipe had a bit of an expression on him.

Felipe’s eyes were glassy, focused on nothing in particular as he breathed heavily through partially open lips. There was an almost religious air to his awe, and yet, Michael wasn’t surprised when he heard Felipe whisper. “Kiss me.”

A part of Michael wanted to say “no,” to deny this desperate, spoiled little boy-man. It wanted to knock him down, step on him, watch him writhe in a mix of pain and wanton desire. Drive him mad with careless cruelty and then, at the apex of it all, when he was reduced to blearily swearing in his mother tongue and meek with desperation present his most vulnerable self, deny him. Kick him in the ribs. Tell him to take his mess elsewhere. Be every bit as much of a monster as he could ever have dreamed of, and watch how Felipe would cower before him like before an uncaring god. Michael felt all of that, in the span of a second he felt a chain of emotions and desires that he’d probably need a few more hours to process, let alone form an opinion about. There’d be time for that. Later. He kissed Felipe.

Felipe gasped as Michael brought his lips into contact with him. It was like the action revitalized the defeated archer, made him tilt his head, lean into the kiss, all but crazed with a sudden inexplicable need. Felipe tasted like some unpleasant lip balm, sweat and blood. It wasn’t Michael’s favorite taste, but the eager athlete clawing at his shirt was a pleasant enough experience. At some point, their weapons clattered to the ground, leaving only the cane holding Felipe up in Michael’s hand.

“Mother of God, Saint…” Felipe said. Michael wasn’t quite sure when they had stopped kissing, but it probably was recent. “You’re… hey how long have you two been here?”

The scuffle that brought on this lovely little moment and the resolution of this little cliffhanger, as well as the rest of Thereafter can be read on my buttondown

[mindrole]

You dislike Kazue and George Enomoto. But what's your opinion on Noa?

ok ok ok im so happy i got this ask...

i LOVE noa... in fact my dislike for her parents really does stem from that.

i think she is a super fascinating character.

she was born into a cult and homeschooled very strictly, with no other children to play with, even haruki was too sickly to mess around with her and by the time he was capable of conscious thought she already started to resent him. there weren't any other little girls in particular— there is no mention of her being involved with the affairs of followers.

in this sheltered life she's lived, she's made it to her 30s, but no matter how much of the outside world she could have learned about from books and magazines and tv she WAS born into an insane framework. i mention the earlier point about girls because the only women in her life that she had any meaningful relationship with were kazue and rai... just her mother and someone who was like a big sister or more accurately an auntie to her. her mother is her mother, and rai eventually got married which was a big event in noa's life... it's natural she thought "ok, then my role is to grow up and be like them." for all the shit i give kazue i do not think for one second she raised noa to think like that at all. i don't think it was on purpose that noa arrived at that conclusion, but she knew nothing else. she had two people she could try to approximate to and then fiction (stuff like princess sparrow).

since her life is centered on following hatsutori, the second step is "if i'm going to be like them, i have to marry someone, and hatsutori-sama is the greatest man i know." it's natural.

she was really set up to fail the second her parents brought her into the world. life is not so simple that you could raise a child so sheltered around so few people.

now i said rai's marriage was a huge event for noa, it must have been when she truly began to romanticize love and marriage and the end goal of having children for real. but what happens when rai is lacking in confidence in the marriage? even noa could pick up on it. maybe at first she could simply wave it away as an issue with rai's husband... but when their marriage started fracturing over haruki being experimented on, it absolutely disturbed noa's narrow world view. i cannot imagine being a tween watching something you once idolized spiral out of control and eventually look to push your parents to suicide. (sidenote: it really is so tragic that minoru likens his love for rai like a onesided love. i think rai really did love him. just...not as much as he did. i think she too was poisoned by the expectation to have a family, except it was paradoxically intertwined with a wish for another chance to have a family at all after losing her own so suddenly... something both she and minoru shared since they both ended up with no family at a relatively young age... but this manifested in entirely different ways as time passed)

and then later on she thought she "lost" hatsutori, and was being raised by the person she assumed had been responsible... then she mercy killed rai (personally, even if noa felt hatred, i do believe it was a multifaceted action from her that is absolutely a mercy kill on some level) its a crazy situation!! nothing noa or noriyuki could have done would have pleased the other!! its truly lose lose...

i am using this word VERY CAREFULLY and hope i can convey what i mean correctly, but i think that noa was groomed into a future prospective wife first and mother second by her environment. the only way it would have been prevented is if she was taken out of it at a young age... i don't blame kazue and george's upbringing in this context. not at all. i do blame them though, for involving her at all. i think that everyone in empyrean is a victim to some extent... even hatsutori! doesn't mean i have to feel bad for the enomotos (aside from noa) tho. i've said that before.

so with her parents gone and the man she thought she would marry also gone, i think she felt a loss of purpose... she was getting older, which is unfortunately considered to be a negative due to misogynistic expectations set on women (especially from a childbearing standpoint). she is both saddled with being noriyuki's successor and with the burden (which is a pressure unfortunately placed on her by herself that, while unfounded, is very real to her) that she has to bear some kind of successor. because her mother had her... rai had haruki... isn't that what she's supposed to do?

i think noriyuki did the best he could do.. he shielded noa from a lot of horrors in the wake of what happened in 1999 but it was too little too late... it really is the silent protector meme. it is better for noa to think noriyuki went rogue than for her to know that hatsutori threw a tantrum over theodore taking his pet nerd boy from under his nose and killed everyone, or that theodore came back at all, or that he... well you get it

but yeah, when you put all of that together i think noa's sudden impulse to try to rope haruki into having kids with her as a last ditch effort. i can only call her behavior in that moment downright manic. i usually do warn people about that scene when they start the series because it's a shock, but i can't condemn her at all for it. even from the base game it becomes obvious fast that she's a product of her surroundings.

i wonder how much burden she felt lifted from her shoulders when it seemed like beta was showing results, when jabuchi successfully became a host, its sad both were such shortlived reliefs. i wish we got to see noa and jabuchi interacting!!! she absolutely asked him about the outside world while pretending not to care!!! 😭😭😭

i think there is definitely a lot of nuance here and there are sensitive and complicated themes... i just hope i communicated my thoughts in a respectful way... i am not the most articulated person definitely feels over reals

sorry for the late response..!! im currently on a trip. i wasn't gonna respond for a bit but i found time since i'm laying here awake unable to sleep after taking my allergy spray wrong LOL

[mars-ipan]

....hi

[bisexualadamparrish]

i had an hour long conversation with one of my friends yesterday about the hunger games books & our thoughts reading them now as adults vs reading them in middle school and like... damn

[diadraws]

what program do you use to do animations? ive been wanting to get into it but im not sure how and i know you draw in photoshop which i do too. thanks!!!

it really depends!! for longer stuff, i use adobe animate, just because photoshop tends to start chugging if i do animations longer than like, 20-ish frames. I do all the compositing and tweening for my animation memes in animate as well.

in addition to roughing frame-by frame stuff for my animation memes, (such as tirona's dance for the fortnite one haha) i like to do sketching/doodly animations, like this lil kitty, in photoshop, since it feels most organic drawing-wise to me. BUT, photoshop animation is a bit tricky, and deff opaque to anyone whos never done it before. heres a basic guide, under a cut cuz it got long LOL

create a new canvas. you can do whatever resolution you want but keep in mind, larger canvases will lag more. i do 1920x1080. if you select window>timeline, a new menu will pop up at the bottom of the photoshop interface

you'll notice a dropdown menu, that has two options: "create video timeline" and "create frame animation". i use create frame animation , just because it's more fitting for what i do.

selecting that option will give you a timeline with frames and everything! each frame's delay can be chosen individually. during playback in photoshop, it will play a little slower than the actual speed when exported as a gif, so keep that in mind

i would advise you to think of layers (or layer groups, if you plan on cleaning up and coloring) as frames for this. a layer's position, visibility, and style can change from frame to frame.

pay attention to these following options, they will appear over your layers menu on the far right once you create an animation timeline.

Unify: can be applied to position, visibility, and layer effects. it will change all the other frames to match what the layer is like in your currently selected frame.

Propogate frame 1: if this box is checked, any position, style, or visibility changes made to a layer on frame 1 will be applied to all the frames. unchecking it disables this.

editing a layer with the eraser or brush (or any other tool) will apply the changes to every single frame. so to create the next pose, you will have to go to the next frame, hide the first layer, and draw the next pose on a new layer. I've colored the layers in 2 different colors here for clarity.

the blue is layer 1, and the red is layer 2. on the first frame, i will make layer 2 (the red pose) invisible and leave layer 1 (the blue pose) visible, and then on the second frame i do the reverse. You kind of have to do this manually for every single frame, so it gets a bit arduous if you have more than like 7 or 8 poses.

AND, exporting as a gif is also ridiculously silly and opaque too. go to file > export > save for web (legacy)

that will bring up this menu that is super complicated. the only stuff you really need to pay attention to is near the bottom, as everything else will work just fine on default settings (i've never messed with them in the 9-10 years ive been animating in photoshop, lol)

down towards the bottom you can change the export size, which is useful if you drew it on a big canvas but dont want the gif file to be enormous. also, you can choose how many times it loops. i usually just keep it on "forever", so i can watch it over and over again lol

and finally, make sure you click "save" and NOT "done". if you click done.. it does not export the file. i will not tell u how many times ive been in speed mode and click "done" and then get frustrated when the file dosnt appear in my folder. i am not smart.

anyways hopefully this is helpful.. ive been using ps so long i have extreme tunnel vision re: mentally filtering out all the useless extra stuff in photoshop's interface so i have no idea if this is confusing or not to someone who's never done it before. if you have more questions just let me know!!

[graveyartblog]

Helloo i want to talk abt the development process about this so heres my rambling below vv

I've been itching to play with blender and tweening for years, but it was just too intimidating to try out. my biggest recommendation is to start small with what you're trying to do and slowly build up from there. ergo: small ass attempts to see if this was even POSSIBLE for me to wrap my head around so made my first test

Very silly headbop animation akin to an edgy animation meme circa 2016. Very fun to do. The whole processes was done through shapekeys in this tab here.

It basically creates a "set" position for your object and then when you manipulate it, like say moving it up, it'll create process that moves the image to and from that position with the "Value" setting. Then you can create keyframes in your animation for the process to complete at a certain point in the animation timeline. And the reason why the "hands" are so much choppier is because you can change the tweening type from smoother transitions to flipping through the frames as they're set. Sorry if this is incomprehensible it took me so many tutorials to understand.

Drew all the files in CSP in separate layers before exporting them on individual pngs. same process throughout development. (with the exception of the details on the boarder.)

SO. i could at LEAST do the basics of tweening, and exporting objects in a coherent way. Now to try a thumbnail drawing for the BIG drawing above, because just because I could make smth jank doesnt mean i could do a whole coherent set.

Test 2! Very rough idea of the big image below. Once again everything here was made via csp, and exported. This was when my friend suggested using the grease pencil in blender which i DID end up using in the final product for a part of the drawing. Still messing with the basics here but it was fun to make the stars glow and play with the lighting settings. The shadow resolution is so high here but my computer could handle it bc of how little parts there were.

I did also try to export the files as one big PNG and chop them up but I couldn't figure it out.

So i went with exporting everything as different PNGS. Which did create an issue with importing? Nothing was exactly to "scale" but it was an easy enough fix.

So with that all handled there was enough confidence to go onto ACTUALLY creating the drawing fully. This part will have more artsy wips than not bc I actually had to Draw. and make so many layers.

So my first instinct was to block out the shapes and color code by how things would be layered. The lighter a shape the closer itd be to the camera via layering

Which is something i picked up from my 3d model of vitor

matchies!

And heres me ultimately settling on a pose and starting to build up the "paper" doll that is Eri

^ The layers were just for the lineart of eri. btw. my puter loves me.

Building up the stage + figuring out colors and the ground. eri did infact have a face considered but i thought they looked cooler without one.

Complete image without the texturing

Then you have the finished image in the first post :3! Here they are broken up into many many MANY pieces.

Then the stage. Kept Eri and the Stage in separate folders for ease of uploading!

I don't have many progress shots of me building up this all IN blender but I can open its finished file. heres the build without shadows on

Upward shot (with and withouth the border because uh.,? grease pencil is. strange. in blender. i think it follows your view no matter the angle?)

You can see Eri's layering here (as well as clipping issues)

Side view of everything (with shadows/camera/lighting objects on!)

The reason why the star is glowing is bc it has emission on in the shading view! I dont get nodes at ALL and im too scared to try but it looks cool!

I remember trying to add translucence to Eri's sleeves

But it got lost in the shading process

oh whale.

But ultimately the set up went well! Took a long while to get the animations sorted out (esp bc i switched em up like. half way thru and had to redo/change it up). It was fun to try and get timing right! I believe i wanted to add a squash n stretch effect to Eri's hair, but it looked a bit strange. Would like to try it again at some point.

ANYYWAYY with the GREASE pencil effect

This bit took. a minute. for me to figure out. Getting the symmetry effect to work as well as using a lineart/fill brush. Among MANY tutorials this one was my best friend . Really recommend it if you're interesting in 2d blender stuff.

The effects used was Glow, Shadow, and Rim! Rim being the thing that gave it it's texture. Which. isnt what its typically used for? but it worked anyway!

but heres it without that stuff. strange.

For the Modifiers I used Mirror (symmetry tool) and Noise (which is what gave its shake effect in the video!)

yeag. If you turn up the position slider it uhhh

does that! Very careful balance between clipping layers and such.

This was pretty much it though! Or at least what comes to mind. It was very taxing but very rewarding. I think i got this done in like... 2.5..? or 3.5 days. From the start of the eri color blocking to this. Faster than my other drawings but lord. so many tutorials. rant over

Birthday gift for my friend @spiritumantophila for their @thewizardprincessau! (Image ver below!)

Blender render vs the CPS file where I drew everything in separate layers! I referenced alleesaur's 2.5d art method and I recommend checking out her stuff!

[the-invisible-queer]

Oooh do it bestie, be messy. Spill the tea. I don’t even care what’s going on I’m just the Marie Kondo “I’m so excited because I love mess” gif at all times lmao

For context I had a mutual who I befriended for our shared love and admiration for Daniel "Danny" Henney, my beloved - last fixation before the Jonases wrecked my life.

And when my fixation for Danny started dying out and I started picking up the Jonas fixation this mutual kinda started being rude in DMs so we stopped DMing.

KEEP IN MIND I still kept posting about Danny and I have an entire sideblog dedicated to him.

This mutual set up Matt Simmons appreciation week. Matt is the character Danny plays on my favorite show, Criminal Minds. They did this because Danny's birthday is the 28th.

I WANTED to take part but my writing inspiration has been lacking and I've been on an online writing hiatus since August.

On Thursday - Thanksgiving for Americans like me - I got an aggressive all caps anon ask that said something to the affect of can't you stop your "stupid Jonas Brothers obsession" and do something nice for Matt Simmons today?

And I responded very nasty, I admit but I don't regret it. I got triggered by "stupid Jonas Brothers obsession" because I've been bullied for loving them when I was a tween and even now as an adult I got some shitty asks when I started posting about them on my blog.

Also there was NO need to bring them into the conversation. I would protect and defend those dweebs to the death against any undeserved bullshit. Because they are my saving grace.

Even though the ask was anonymous, I knew who it was because they seemed to be the ONLY one with an issue with my Jonas fixation.

And also they sent an ask off anon with an angry emoji before sending the anon ask.

I gave them a few hours to maybe apologize or stand their ground and send another ask but they did not. So I blocked them and all their side blogs.

After I blocked them then it started getting a little messy. They keep posting indirects about wanting to apologize. But I know MY worth and I was waiting for a valid reason to block them after the rude DMs.