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[tamaiory]

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[polillamielera]

how i thought 2v8 would go...

[tswwwit]

Literally so exited for the final part of the portal au 🥹🥹 love you author

Good news, you won't have to wait too long! I only have a little more editing to do, and then I can post! I shall soon be Free from this overly-long project.

[xxplastic-cubexx]

what is your favorite thing about charles and your favorite thing about erik? separately, as in what you like most about their characters :]

a devious question this one is, my friend!!! it's hard enough for me to explain my thoughts cohesively, but having to pick ONE thing i particularly love is difficult. with characters like charles and erik, theres been so much done with their characters over the decades and so they have so many components to them that make them so interesting and fun to observe. BUT I TRY FOR YOU TODAY. under the cut i kinda ramble and the size of this text box makin me anxious

i think if i were to be simple and broad, what i enjoy most about charles is his determination to help others, even if he isn't really thanked and/or if people don't even like him. ofc, this isn't to say he hasn't done wrong- to be honest, the fact he does wrong/questionable things at times is another aspect of him i really enjoy, maybe because- broadly speaking- he's meant to be altruistic (intent vs outcome and all that). i don't know if that's super exciting to most people, but it is for me

as for erik, my reason for liking him is easier to explain tbh. To Be Simple And Broad, his progression from villain to antihero over the decades has been fun to observe (as much as i have so far anyhow) and analyze. i think to be a bit more specific, him using his rage and pain as justifications for his villainous actions is definitely what compels me the most: hurt people hurt and the sort, an idea i've always found interesting (something something vicious cycles and the like). yet now, he recognizes this wasn't really. A Just Thing To Do and is beginning to change that, which i enjoy

[mariocki]

Patrick Troughton guests as ruthless racketeer George, out to silence the man who can identify his brother as a murderer, in Dial 999: Key Witness (1.26, ABC, 1959)

[cuteniarose]

The consequences of my poor financial decisions are here!!

[solroskajan]

I refuse to believe Link's hair stays that neat through all those weather changes. (And skydiving. And fighting. And just walking around in the wilderness.)

[dirgewoods]

I have a very difficult time connecting with people which happens to be bad when you are lonely and you desperately want to connect with people more

[treel]

Hello! Um, Are you ok? How have you been doing?

Hello!

I am fine, thank you for asking. I had some health issues a while back, but all seems okay now after several unhelpful doctor visits. 👍

Most recently, I'm struggling with mental health. ADHD especially, which has gotten worse as I get older. I kinda thought my mental health would even out with every birthday, but apparently that is not the case. Sitting down to work steadily on a project is nearly impossible - it's a good day if I can get five to ten minutes of writing or drawing done at a time. It's become very frustrating to live like this, but I'm trying to manage, and continue working on things when I can! I have so many things I want to do (including finishing Éxtasis oh my god I'm so sorry for people who wait so patiently for every chapter - I promise I'm doing my best!)

Anyway, that's part of what's going on behind the scenes here! Also I don't go outside anymore because it's been 105+ degrees for three weeks straight.

Bonus Insmeeth snarlkitty sticker with holographic hearts because it makes me laugh.

[sorryimananti-romantic]

yumi yumi yumi.

do you have a playlist you listen to when you're working on your oneshots/series? or are you someone who needs a more quiet environment to immerse yourself?

hmmm i think i don't care either way the only time i put on music while writing is when i actually want to listen to music, otherwise i just write in silence, exactly like this, hunched back and all

[augentrust]

hi i just spent the past two hours literally sobbing while reading your cr fics and like i am not someone who usually cries at shit like this but holy fuck did those — esp the jester one — just hit me where i live in the most absolutely wrecking way. so yeah thanks for completely monopolizing this night i needed to use for Productive Things and instead leaving me unexpectedly weeping until my head hurts bc my god was A Wisdom Without Face or Name one of the most quietly devastating things i���ve read in a long time (not that quietly, considering i was sobbing the whole way thru, but still). you just, like, opened floodgates i didn’t even know i had w that one. christ

ANYWAYS! you write the nein beautifully (and i am very picky about my nein, especially my caleb, and he’s written so well in both!). do you have any recs for other good fics to look out for — either m9 in general or shadowgast specific? not necessarily emotionally destroying ones LMAO, just any in general; you write them so well that i definitely trust your taste!! thank u again for ur (devastating) contributions to cr literature they have not gone unappreciated

anon i am handing you tissues and a warm beverage of your choice. thank you for the kind words, and i hope the cry was a cathartic one  

i read fairly widely when it comes to critical role, but i’ll leave a few recommendations below the cut of fics that influenced how i thought about the nein — and shadowgast in particular — back when i was starting out. my writing today wouldn't be the same without them

“memory in double exposure” by hanap

this is the fic i look to when i think of jester and essek — it honors her depth in a way that i really fell in love with, and i come back to it often

“the other things that make us” by saturdaysky

one of my first shadowgast cornerstones. it does a remarkable job of exploring what is left unsaid, and certain scenes still make my heart drop (in the best way) even after many, many rereads 

“remote times and places and ultimate causes” by mllekurtz (TheKnittingJedi)

this is the shadowgast dynamic to me personally. the fact that it transposes so well to another universe is a testament to their characterizations, and i adore it a little more every time i come back to it

“Hard Mouth” by road_rhythm

an angst heavyweight for shadowgast, and a fic i still look towards for an incredible example of blending story and dnd mechanics 

“only code it knows is rote survival” by Chrome

such a well-written look into essek and the nein, and a wonderful exploration of love and caution and trust and the way that all of these intersect

“hold me down, hold me true” by lakrisrot (enheduane)

a really lovely subversion of expectation, and the careful exploration of letting yourself want things. i reflect on the conversations in this fic often, and it still influences how i think the wizards talk about love 

this hardly scratches the surface of the many wonderful fics i’ve had the pleasure of reading in this fandom, but i hope it can point you in the direction of something you haven’t read before, or at least inspire a reread. have a wonderful day/night, anon! 

[malachitezmeyka]

I love my auntie dearly, I really do, but good god is being around her nowadays pretty much akin to being in Alien...

And I feel so mean for saying that because I know she loves her kids and wants to have them, and it's rude in general, but watching her constantly groaning in discomfort and complaining and almost doubling over when one of them kicks, which happens at least once every five minutes... it's fucking body horror to me. The actual outline of a foot showing through her skin has burned itself into my memory and I wish I could forget it

In my defense she's very clearly reaching the end of her rope as well, always swearing and cursing out both her husband and herself for getting into this, repeating "10 more weeks" over and over again like a mantra, and just generally looking extremely exhausted, especially since she's got a hyperactive six year old on her hands too

And to think that this is technically the easy part, they're not even born yet... may whatever higher power there is give her strength, that's all I can really say

[stars-and-cows]

The best decision in my oc-making career is making Rix not wear any shirt ever

[da-riya]

I kinda realized I don't think I've ever actually criticised others or pointed out what I take issue with in a long time. I just kinda never feel like I'm the one to lecture someone on their behaviour, which makes people think I'm somewhat polite and nice

[fandomunsexyman]

The Spy-Maestro dynamic is the FUNNIEST thing to me because they’re both getting a taste of their own personality through the other but they are also so incredibly petty towards each other.

Spy recognizes Maestro as someone so committed to their job/persona that she’s borderline stopped being herself anymore. Maestro views herself as least important when it comes to her job and her future. She's not the person that she used to be anymore, she's Maestro and that is what matters most. What comes first is what needs to be done and how she needs to do it. And isn't that him? He's dedicated his life to his job but what about when it's done? What happens next? What is he doing this for? They all have skeletons in their closet but he’s recognizing his own.

But Spy also dislikes Maestro because they’re both full of themselves in a way that pisses off the other. It's hard for Spy to maintain his cool-guy persona when Maestro consistently recognizes him by the tar in his lungs and has no problem telling others as much. She also decided to wear a cheap suit to the battlefield because she does not care to spend the time to buy a suit that would be fashionable and comfortable like his own despite the fact that she could easily do so. Her fashion sense is an atrocity and-

Maestro sees Spy as what she could become. Maestro could devote herself so much to her job that she’s lost sight of why she’s doing it. She’s not Maestro the Mercenary, she's Maestro the Future Star, and it's important to remember that distinction. She is going to be famous and Spy is Spy. And there’s something terrifying about that. How easy it would be to get sucked into this world, and to stop fighting the cesspool. To become so dedicated to what has to be done that you’ve lost sight of why you’re doing it.

Maestro also dislikes Spy because fuck him her fashion sense is amazing. Nevermind that she hasn't had a composition played anywhere in years, everyone goes through rough patches who cares about hers. And actually Spy it says more about him that he's bothered to research her because he's probably the one who's "deluding" himself and not her. Also there's no point in her wearing an expensive suit to work because they are paid to kill and die everyday so who gives a damn about what brand of suit she's wearing as long as she's wearing it.

[fstbmp-a]

I need to not get so engrossed with videogames...