#i'm still scared for school

[wanderingmind867]

I suppose me stressing out about school isn't that weird. I haven't done full in-person school days since 2019. And knowing this is my last possible year of school sort of makes my existentialism about time kick in. I'm going to be 20 in February. I'll be a 20 years old with no friends besides my dad, and with a severe dependency on my dad.

But my crippling fear of being judged for my horrible temper and moods and interests keeps me too closed off to even make friends. So I'm pretty much suffering an existensial crisis, pining for time to just stop. If I could only remain at 18 or 19 forever, I could accept that. But the more things change, the more I feel this crisis affecting me. It's not great. sigh...

[deathricedrawn]

i'm ready to try

[lunabug2004]

Ya'll don't get me wrong, I love love love fluffy series. I mean, MSP is my favorite series of all time! BUT, that being said, I really hope that GeminiFourth stay paired long enough to have a darker BL plot together. We know from MC that they can pull off angst really, really well, so one of my main hopes as a Gem4th stan is seeing them together long enough to be able to enjoy at least one BL with them as the mains that has a darker plot.

[deoidesign]

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[call-me-copycat]

I just need to be told "You Can Do It" right now.

[cowardlycowboys]

birth certificate came in and I'm obsessed that I was born at exactly 7:59 like what an odd number

[donttouchmeillkillyou]

ABSOLUTE TERRITORY ‼️‼️🩵☀️

[dollfishu]

Can’t help but think how Kalego does his weird wing-like bangs just like Narnia. I was re-reading Kalego Gaiden and I noticed how his signature bangs weren’t a part of his ‘schtick’ as a child.

Nor at the time when he was chosen to be the next watchdog of Babyls.

At first I thought everyone in the Naberius clan might have the same hairstyle as Narnia and current adult Kalego, but Kalego’s Uncle didn’t. It’s just an adorable fluffy and messy tuft. (I’m not counting the horn-like cowlicks since these are a signature trait of all the Naberius’s as confirmed by Osamu Nishi)

During his time as a student in Babyls, you can see a bit of a ’style change’ in his hair.

Even the thought of changing his hairstyle from the one he is currently adopting was out of the question!

During the flashback sequence after Opera’s punch, he remembers his older brother’s words:

Narnia being the first person he thought off before he was about to ‘lose consciousness’ means that he obviously holds him in extremely high regard and respect. All younger brothers admire their older siblings. 

Osamu Nishi confirmed that the Naberius household consists of Kalego, Narnia, their uncle, and their father. Since it is evident that their father worked in Border Patrol that means he clearly wouldn’t have the time to take care of his children. Also assuming that their is no Naberius mother in the equation, and knowing that the Uncle is an irresponsible deadbeat, the brunt of the household was left on Narnia’s shoulders. Being the eldest sibling holds enough responsibility on its own with a level of duty and dependability that comes with it.

This is why Kalego obviously sees Narnia as a responsible, calm and collected individual. Even their Uncle was intimidated by his authoritarian behavior.

Essentially, almost all younger siblings have the innate desire to mimic their older sibling. They want to look like them, act like them and mostly want their approval. The first time Kalego fully adopted Narnia’s hairstyle with the side swept bangs were during his youngin days as a school-teacher trainee. Ponytail included.

And in the end we ended up with the full package (sans ponytail):

That’s why a part of me is extremely fearful about how Kalego would react if Narnia were to have returned to his demonic origins. It would be a major blow to him seeing the person whom he follows by example reduced to someone that succumbed to primal desires. His older brother, Narnia, whom he placed on a pedestal, whose existence is probably vital for his own sense of self - has let him down. I can't even imagine the whirlwind of emotions he will go through if that were true...

[cirqueduroyale]

what about the future designs do you not like specifically? I think they look really nice, especially when claudette has a mime pattern skirt to really compliment her yellow jacket! do they just not "fit" the characters quite yet? maybe her jacket can have bright red polka dots!

Thanks!

mmm, I think it's mostly Charlie. I'm never satisfied with his future designs. He kind of just ends up looking like Kingston with curlier hair.

I also generally don't think about what the Cirque characters would be doing beyond this first year of them ruling, which is the comic, so I'm like, wait no, you're not supposed to be older than this even though it's been 8 years and I'm now the same age as Kingston and Penelope. Time just keeps happening. 😨

[themintman]

yall y'all y'all I always forget that like. I post public art. On a public account. Like I don't realise that people actually SEE my art or think about it or whatever. Bbut. My GOODNESS. this month I have seen my art in the wilderness and I AM. TERRIFIED???? HELLO???? PEOPLE KNOW ABOUT MY PUBLIC ACCOUNT????? it's so scary goodness me. ANYWAYS KNOW THAT IF YOUVE REFRENCED MY ART AT ALL I DO KNOW. I HAVE SEEN IT AND I AM PROBABLY FREAKIG THE FUCK OUT GOODNESS ME. IM JUST TOO SCARED TO RESPOND BEYOND LIKE. A LIL EMOJI REACTION. HHH

[wanderingmind867]

Trying to think of a plus side to going back to school, considering my stress over not really having a notes app, having stomach issues and being stuck going for full days from 7/8 am to 2 pm. So that's all stressful. But i think i found one slight positive: if i can get past my stomach pain and tough it out for a full day, mahbe i'll actually manage to have a lot of time for reading. That'd be nice. That might mean I get more time to read stuff. So maybe it'd reinvigorate my hyperfixation in Percy Jackson and stuff. That might be considered a loose plus. But i have to hope i can still manage to make notes about the book as I read at school.

[coquelicoq]

perhaps it is pointless to go to a bakery in the dead of afternoon. however i am craving pastries so this is what it has come to. also i only have one marker and it's about to die so i have to make an appearance at the art supply store but i am not putting on a bra for this. post of getting myself to dress and leave the house.

[punk-sharkz-zero]

i hope every person who makes fun of food allergies has a warm pillow on both sides and has wet socks forever and ever. I hope they have a paper cut and then get lemon juice on it.

[guinevereslancelot]

decided to leave my job and i'm gonna fr gonna cryyyyy

[allthegothihopgirls]

having to advocate for myself is so SCARY..... what do you mean i'm in a situation where i HAVE to explain and defend myself to get things i probably definitely need.... instead of just flying under the radar and struggling

[distant-screaming]

Gun being terrified of his feelings (and of Tinn's), being scared of confessing - and still being the one to cross the line in every universe after Tinn's encouragement?

Yeah I'm normal about them