#i'm so close yet so far away
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Text
"Yeah I'll be done with the ToC first draft by February"
3 notes
·
View notes
Text
Writing this fic just feels like pulling teeth. It feels so clunky and try-hard to me and literally the only things I can say to myself are maybe it won't read that way to other people and also, eventually (soon) it'll be finished and then I don't have to think about it again.
#i think it's just too long tbh#that's what i've decided#it has to be the length it is to include the tropes but it's too much really#mundane#i'm about to write the last like big sequence#it's two scenes in my outline but functionally one#like it will read as one#and then it's just intro/outro and edits#i'm so close yet so far away#it's fine not everything will be your favorite#i proved with zombie au that i can still write things i like
2 notes
·
View notes
Text
If anyone's curious I'm still making progress in cookie clicker but it's really slow because I've gotten just about every interesting achievement. It's all just milestones of 'make more cookies' and 'level 10 building' and like a couple more. I've kinda plateaued.
#my posts#cookie clicker#I've decided to keep my save. it only fucks up bad when my graphics drivers need to update#which is weird but w/e#I'm so close yet so far away#I feel like this is gonna take another year lol#I'm currently working on getting the stock market achieves#since I need loads more prestige to get another upgrade#and it's either that or get the 1k ascensions#so I figured I'd do this first#I'm sitting at like 20 I think?
2 notes
·
View notes
Text
In the same bed, but not on the same page
[First] Prev <–->Next
#Poorly Drawn MDZS#MDZS#season 1#wei wuxian#little apple#lan wangji#I know this scene plays out very differently but it would just be the same punchline from a prev comic#That said it might have worked because man oh man#wwx cannot figure out for the second life of him why his *excellent tactics* are not working#For someone so smart he sure does fail to adapt and change his strategy#Its for the fanservice obviously but what was the *plan* with literally cuddling up next to your apparent captor in bed?#Have you ever shared a bed with someone? Cause when youre tired it takes a *lot* to motivate yourself to kick someone out#I'm staying asleep whether you stay in your lane or not ->me and lwj apparently#though he's prob happy to have this domesticity. Maybe. It's probably extremely bittersweet and painful to be so close yet so far away
1K notes
·
View notes
Text
Losers
#legend of drizzt#kimmuriel oblodra#jarlaxle baenre#rukart#i'm just shitposting aimlessly and scratching at the walls#august 15th is so close and yet so far away...
124 notes
·
View notes
Text
going to bed but thinking about kon and his suicidality as selflessness and how heroism and self-destruction share quite the overlap and how saving the world with his death was heroic but also the culmination of a pattern of passive suicidality he displayed since practically his first day alive. what does it mean when you're so eager and willing to help at any cost to yourself that you assume you will not see yourself grow up? "i don't care what happens to me" is a scary place to be, but "i don't care what happens to me, so long as i can save everyone" is noble and brave, right? so when does heroism become an act of self-destruction? when you truly believe in helping others, but you also think you'll die doing it one day and that isn't enough to stop you... where's the line?
#yes ive been listening to close every door and thinking about kon for days. listen.#''i do not matter / i'm only one person / destroy me completely and throw me away''#''if my life were important / i would ask 'will i live or die?' / but i know the answers lie / far from this world''#is this about humility and the knowledge that the singer is just one of many lives and no more important than any of them?#or is it about the singer seeing himself as disposable?#is there even a difference between the two?#why is humility to the point of destruction so praised in martyrs yet frightening to encounter in a loved one?#(perhaps the loved ones of a martyr would say it *was* frightening)#what is heroism if not the pursuit of martyrdom?#like obviously that's not all there is to it but from the kon context (the kontext if you will).#the themes. the motifs. and my agonies. they are all there and real.#suicide ment cw#kon#rimi talks
72 notes
·
View notes
Text
Making The Bikeriders with paper thin plot and characters when we had Sons of Anarchy and all its glory is very, very bold. I get it’s based on a book and true events, but come on. They didn’t even try.
It only made me miss my SAMCRO babies even more.
#need the same cast with a better fucking script thank you#I'm amazed at the amount of missed opportunity#benny/kathy/johnny were very jax/tara/clay coded#so close yet so far away#kurt sutter had it so right#the bikeriders#sons of anarchy
9 notes
·
View notes
Text
Incalculable amounts of despair.
#SO CLOSE AND YET SO FAR...#i was literally one ren ult away from that 3rd star#at least herta was doing well!#i'm honestly surprised she's unleveled and undergeared and yet did a lot better than himeko#power of true aoe i guess#honkai star rail#hsr#pink's (tear)laments#pink's musings
9 notes
·
View notes
Text
Tears in my eyes covered in blood.
I MISS ALFONSE FIRE EMBLEM‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️
#this is EXACTLY why i never even entertained the idea of college. that and debt#I CAN DO. THIS ONE THING . I CAN DO IT. TOMORROW I'M DOUBLING DOWN I'M BUCKLING DOWM I'M DOING IT.#I'M SO CLOSE. yet SO FAR. but i believe in myself. I HAVE TO. UPHOLD MY ENDNOF THE BARGAIN#ON MY HONOR‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️ as an unemployed faggot with undiagnosed adhd#i have been chipping away at it everyday. it should not be that hard. and yet#how am i supposed to live laugh love in these conditions#<- ??????????????#that'#that's not what i was gonna say but yeah you're so right. how DO i live laugh love under these conditions.#i'm just having trouble maintaining focus and momentum. many such cases 😔💔
7 notes
·
View notes
Text
photoshop is not unlike a small frightened animal,,, i have to extend my hand and let it know i don't mean it any harm
#* / 𝐓𝐈𝐓𝐋𝐄 𝐓𝐑𝐀𝐂𝐊 𝟎𝟎𝟏 : 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝒕𝒓𝒊𝒄𝒌𝒔𝒕𝒆𝒓 — out of character#this graphic i'm working on is Almost almost ready..... i'm so close yet so far away.....#if the personals find this post then i'm going to blow myself up and then them too
9 notes
·
View notes
Text
Hrrrrghghhh I WANNA DRAW COMIC SO BADLY
#wastepaper basket#I should probably start just chipping away at it but I'm TIRED and I still have design work left to do ):#Trying to strike a balance between 'it doesn't have to be perfect' and 'if I take on too much I'll burn myself out again'#Hoping and praying this place I have lined up to move into pans out so I can have my own little creative space I hope that will help things#It feels so close and yet so far I have to wait like 2 months at least 🥺
6 notes
·
View notes
Text
Okay I am LEGIT convinced that Splatoon 3 is just out to make you miserable and finds pleasure in ur failure I LITERALLY HAD PERFECT RAINMAKER GAMES I WON 4 TIMES IN A ROW EASY but then I magically get put on teams that just LOSE and lose 3 times afterwards but I still got to the Rank Up Battle AND THEN LOST 3 TIMES IN A ROW BECAUSE IT LITERALLY PUT ME ON THE SAME TEAM I LOST WITH THREE TIMES EVEN THO I LEFT BECAUSE THE TEAM WAS NOT GOOD !!!!!
#LISTEN I like Splatoon and I'm fine with losing games EXCEPT WHEN THE TEAM FUCKING SUCKS AND JUST#DOESN'T EXIST !! LIKE WHENEVER I'M PUSHING FOWARD MY TEAM DOESN'T EXIST so I try and back off wait for them to come back#AND THEN TWO OF THEM DIE INSTANTLY and then instead of INKING OUR BASE SO THAT WE CAN PUSH BACK UP AFTER I KILL THEM ALL#THEY JUST GO OFF INTO FUCKIN NARNIA TO CHARGE THEIR SPECIAL WHEN THERE IS LITERALLY ENEMY INK IN OUR BASE#THAT THEY COULD USE TO CHARGE THEIR SPECIAL and then by the time they charge their special the whole enemy team is back#I try to push foward to kill them so we don't lose lead AND MY TEAM FALLS BACK INTO SPAWN LIKE THEY ARE AS FAR BACK AS CAN BE#THE ENEMY HASN'T EVEN GOTTEN THAT CLOSE YET BUT THEY REFUSE TO CLOSE THE SPACE !!!!!!#and ALWAYS whenever I have the Rainmaker my team never goes in front of me they just stand behind me cuz they're SCARED#and they RUN AWAY instead of PROTECT ME !!!!#oh man I could go on and on honestly like SoloQ is hell it's just actual hell bro#it didn't use to be THIS BAD but it is BAD now#like I was playing Rainmaker and I can carry really well in that mode but HOLY SHIT TOWER CONTROL LIKE DON'T EVEN BOTHER BRO#EVERYONE JUST RUNS AWAY FROM THE TOWER I DO NOT GET IT !!! the enemy is literally advancing to the next checkpoint and my team goes#TO THE COMPLETE OTHER SIDE SO THAT THEY CAN'T REACH THE TOWER and then DIE INSTANTLY#I don't know man I do NOT know#I played some Clam Blitz cuz Tower Control was THAT BAD BRO which tbf I actually like Clam Blitz it's just#hard to communicate with ur team in SoloQ so it's hard to tell when I try and make a push foward if my team will follow or not#which everyone was actually pretty good about it! I lost 3 outta the 4 games I played but I actually had FUN#well except for the first one cuz there was an annoying dude and I was playing a weapon I'm not very good at if I don't warm up first#the other 2 games I lost I know at least one we made an amazing push at the beginning but then we got Clam Blitz @ the end#if you know you know#and the game I won MAN that was an amazing game honestly such a cooperative team they were always there right behind me#and when I used my walls and special they all pushed forward and I was stalling the basket MAN it was fun#but like LITERALLY I'm fine with losing games as long as it was fun and everyone was y'know actually playing as a team#and also if the other team is just actually really good like I cannot fault my team for that we just got unlucky lmao#but MAN I just think the ranking system in Splatoon 3 is supperrr broken I have seen people in S+ and X rank who LITERALLY#not even joking they literally looked like they had just picked up the game that same day they were LEGIT playing like a noob#NO idea how they can manage their way up the ranks like that like how did that happen#anyway I just had to blow off some steam cuz I really really like playing Splatoon but it is just really really REALLY shit right now ngl#I want to keep playing cuz I know it can be super fun but it is really pissing me off a lot lately especially with the disconnection issues
2 notes
·
View notes
Text
That piano version she just did really just shot How You Get The Girl even higher up on my list for 1989 and I already loved the crap out of that song aksksllsksks
Also before I Bet You Think About Me when she said she was gonna play a song she'd never played live before my heart stopped. I wailed in my bedroom. My entire life flashed before my eyes. I deadass thought she was gonna play Come In With The Rain and I was going to pass away right then and there I was HORRIFIED for my life. I ADORE IBYTAM but I was SO SCARED 😭😭😭 Taylor I'm not going to survive until June at this rate 😭
#she's gonna keep giving me heart attacks 6 times a weekend isn't she?#june 4th is so close and yet so far away 😭#literally get to see her on yugi muto's birthday and my best friend's birthday eve I can’t believe it 😭#literally her last day of being 22 we get to see taylor swift on a date that was ADDED that's main character energy right there#🕯once again taylor I'm begging you. you have to save TTWAS and CIWTR for sunday June 4th at soldier field in chicago you must 🕯#taylor swift#the eras tour#abby's just rambling don't mind her#abby after dark
4 notes
·
View notes
Text
Been thinking about making speed baking 3 the last achievement I try and get in cookie clicker. I'm still quite a ways off from getting the last 10% but it's pry the only one I could plan to get last and it seems like a fun & fitting final send off to be the speed running one
0 notes
Text
3 good things
Finally got to have a relaxing evening
Had a helpful meeting
Ranked a bunch of rotations
#3 good things#personal#I've been working so much lately I'm so tired T. T#spring break is so close yet so far away OTL
3 notes
·
View notes
Text
in just a few hours skz will be breathing the same air as i am and i’m trying not to freak out too much abt it and cry my eyes out but that isn’t promised.
#adri.txt#sad rant?#IM JUST#i could be going u know............ but fuck the distance and just how untimely everything is 4 me rn#i'm trying to condition my brain to be positive abt it bc there's still march for me for the concert but oh god i just wanna curl up into a#ball and cry for six months over itsjhfjjgjkdfkgjfkj#my babies............ i could have gotten myself tickets bc it's easier right but why must u be so close yet so far away#i can't breathe.#sorry 4 the dramatics but as soon as they depart from incheon pray 4 my ass bc i'm abt to hold my breath#until they step foot on manila#IM JUST A LITTLE BIT CONCERNED#bc rn it's scorchingly hot in here after the rainy days we've just had and oh god the internet sucks#but i'm hoping for their safe flight and i hope they have lots of fun while being here and seeing the stays who deserved to see them too#one day i'll get my turn hhhhhh
2 notes
·
View notes