#i'm sick of being sad

[nonborderlinary]

i'm sad dude

[a-map-of-gays]

Jack Shephard is like. All he wants to do is fix people because maybe that will make up for the fact that he couldn't fix his father. He never wanted to be in charge but he will do anything to protect them. He'll let the island kill him if he knows the others made it to safety. He drinks when he can't handle his emotions because that's what his dad did and he knows it's wrong but he doesn't know any other way to cope. He plays golf and he hugs his friends. He tells everyone he has terrible bedside manner but treats them so gently. He doesn't know how to be in love. He gets scared and he gets jealous and he doesn't know how to try. He reads Aaron bedtime stories. He messes with Sawyer over his vision. He pointed a gun at John's head and pulled the trigger. He's a mess and he makes mistakes and he does terrible things but he's trying he's trying he's trying and one day he'll learn how to fix it. One day he'll learn how to fix himself.

[hikarry]

Btw, props to the people that work with David's hair in Good Omens, especially season 2

As someone with the same exact hair lengt of our fellow demon, Satan knows how fucking hard and annoying it is to defeat gravity and make the top part actually stay...up, ya know

Season 1 was not that hard cause his hair is considerably shorter, so: shorter hair is quite easier to get to stay up right

Longer hair tho

I pay tribute to all the hours I've spent with blowdryer in one hand and snapping my fingers with the other to try and perform some type of miracle, cause God damn (it does look hella sick when it works tho)

Anyway, all this to say: I have now concrete proof being sick and emulating Crowley DOES NOT MATCH

I've been laying here with a damp towel on my forehead in prayers it will somehow help break my fever and this bitch not only ain't helping, it has been sucking the red out of my hair for hours now and it has turned from white to pink

This virus I caught God knows how is literally sucking the vibe out of me

[wingedaches]

assassin's apprentice // royal assassin // fool's quest

[gloomydiary]

I'm so broken I don't feel anything, I just feel bad I can't cry I can't even describe the pain because I don't feel it but I know it's there

[flowery-laser-blasts]

Shego, checking Drakken's temperature: Wow Doc, by the way you're burning up with this fever, you'd think you would...

Drakken: I would what, Shego?

Shego: Turn from blue to healthy shade of pink or red?

Drakken: DOES MY HEAD LOOK LIKE A GIANT THERMOMETER TO YOU!? *starts coughing up a storm*

[simplepotatofarmer]

i miss techno. :(

[screaming--agony]

Dear Diary,

It’s the same shit on a deeper level on a different day.

[coldlikethestars]

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[theflyingfeeling]

...😭

[rimouskis]

actually seeing sid crack would be, like, deeply upsetting don't get me wrong, but I'd also feel validated in how I feel AND it would provide enough drama for people to take our Angst seriously

[sysig]

Wake up somewhere better, maybe (Patreon)

[the-blossica-fan]

A thought I had about Evil Matilda was on the lines of her thinking she is awful, and her being quiet (calling herself Matilda the Disgraceful), when in actuality everyone loves and admires her. But even then, she takes it as people faking it, thinking they're just pitying her...

I think that was my line of thought before, well, I forgot 😔

But yeah, Evil Matilda would have a very low image of herself. She's nobody, and she's nothing more than a disgrace to the Bouanich. She's humble due to this line of thought.

"I'm not good at anything so why would I be mean?" And so she's quiet, she's trying to just be.

She's polite and really kind, "You're doing good!", "you're amazing" and so many more praises directed at others, when directed at her, she's not like her other self

"This? Oh, I'm not that good at divination, I only follow the rules"

"My grades are not that good, Sonetto is better than me in everything"

"I'm not the greatest, I'm only Matilda. And, I'm not good at anything."

But people like her, they're kind to her and are always pushing it to trust herself. Matilda doesn't think of it this way. To her they're just pitying her for being the worst Bouanich in her family, the disgrace, the mediocre one

It's quite sad either way. People don't like OG Matilda for being too annoying and proud but she does it as a way to protect herself. People like this other Matilda who doesn't think they even see her and are only looking at her because of the disgrace she is to her last name.

Matilda has so much angsty potential to exploit

[foreverxdaydreaming]

x

[streamdotpng]

"I think I know why Wednesday could never say she has a crush on me," Enid says, as serious as one can be.

Yoko looks up, "because she's currently enamored with the normie?"

Enid shoots yoko a look, her face scrunching in a 'are you fr rn?'

"No!" she shoots back before leaning onto the palm of her hands and giving a grin. "it's because she'd rather break his heart than mine"

Yoko pauses. "girl wha-"

[futurewife]

Ven please, I'm begging you to go to therapy. Your posts hurt me so much cause I recognize myself and people I've loved in them and I always wanna say smth to make you feel better but I know from experience that that only helps for a little while or doesn't help at all or can even make things worse. But you don't have to suffer like this forever!! You can get better and there is help!! And as a fellow pmdd sufferer you can get help with that too. Idk how you feel about medication but going on birth control continuously so you never have periods or using antidepressants or mood stabilizers just for the two nightmare weeks after ovulation can help so much. Please please please I worry about you and I know you can have a good life if you get help! you're beautiful and creative and you have everything you need you just have to figure out how to access it and use it and I know you can do it. I know your F/Os would want you to and I know your future real life S/Os who are waiting for you would want you to too. You deserve to be happy instead of feeling like a ghost all the time.

Thank you anon I appreciate the concern, feel a little bit embarrassed about oversharing now but you know what...sometimes you just have to say it out loud somewhere. As you would know the nature of the disorder means there's often not much that can be done in terms of talking myself out of the way it feels cause biology is so (detrimentally) overpowering and intensifies other mental health issues and generally all pre-existing negative feelings about ones' existence. The ghost analogy is apt and I've often used this to describe how I relate to life and connecting with others. now idk if I can overcome myself and thrive but maybe I could switch some things up and see if it makes it suck a little less

I was on ssris constantly for years previously (edit: and therapy on and off) before I stopped taking them but your ask has me considering intermittent dosing even if I dislike the side effects just to see what happens. I thought I could just grit my teeth and bare it (put myself to sleep between being wracked by ugly crying as I cannot stand being conscious in my own mind) every month in lieu of meds but maybe I can't rawdog slog through dark funhouse mirror evil pmdd reality on my own/shouldn't feel that I have to in order to not "lose"

I was very touched by your reaching out and compassionately disagreeing with me (lol) and it means a lot from another person with pmdd. It helps to think someone out there sees the value in me as I am right now, and that someone else is also fighting their own good fight. When you said I have everything I need I just have to figure out how to access it and use it and you know I can do it you sound just like my grandma. (<3)