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nonborderlinary · 2 months ago

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i'm sad dude

#such a silly thing to be sad about when i'm literally losing the love of my life #but my fwb likes it without a condom and i've always had him use one bc in a relationship #like it was an open relationship but that was one of our boundaries #and my fwb said did i still want to use condoms now i'm single #and i said it depends like bc i know he's got another fwb and i don't want to if he's raw with someone else #bc of like stds #and he said he does it raw with her #and for some reason like. i just am so sad like #what do i want him to say #that he'll stop doing it with her so he can do it with me #we're not a couple and i don't want to be #i just want to be the best and the most wanted all the time #and like now i wanna ask him do you see her more often than you see me #do you make more time for her #am i second best #even though i met you first #am i just not as good #i'm just so fucking insecure #all the time #i'm fucking sick of it #i'm sick of being sad #i'm sick of myself #might go for a walk idk #it's dark but like. i feel shitty #got that impulsive feeling #might make me feel better #idk man #what do you do #diary

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a-map-of-gays · 7 months ago

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Jack Shephard is like. All he wants to do is fix people because maybe that will make up for the fact that he couldn't fix his father. He never wanted to be in charge but he will do anything to protect them. He'll let the island kill him if he knows the others made it to safety. He drinks when he can't handle his emotions because that's what his dad did and he knows it's wrong but he doesn't know any other way to cope. He plays golf and he hugs his friends. He tells everyone he has terrible bedside manner but treats them so gently. He doesn't know how to be in love. He gets scared and he gets jealous and he doesn't know how to try. He reads Aaron bedtime stories. He messes with Sawyer over his vision. He pointed a gun at John's head and pulled the trigger. He's a mess and he makes mistakes and he does terrible things but he's trying he's trying he's trying and one day he'll learn how to fix it. One day he'll learn how to fix himself.

#I'm sad tonight can you tell #I just love this dude so much #he's so pathetic #Also highkey sick of his trauma being overlooked #jack shephard #lost abc #abc lost #lost #lost spoilers #matthew fox #tw alcoholism #john locke #sawyer ford #james ford #james sawyer ford #kate austen #aaron littleton

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hikarry · 1 month ago

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Btw, props to the people that work with David's hair in Good Omens, especially season 2

As someone with the same exact hair lengt of our fellow demon, Satan knows how fucking hard and annoying it is to defeat gravity and make the top part actually stay...up, ya know

Season 1 was not that hard cause his hair is considerably shorter, so: shorter hair is quite easier to get to stay up right

Longer hair tho

I pay tribute to all the hours I've spent with blowdryer in one hand and snapping my fingers with the other to try and perform some type of miracle, cause God damn (it does look hella sick when it works tho)

Anyway, all this to say: I have now concrete proof being sick and emulating Crowley DOES NOT MATCH

I've been laying here with a damp towel on my forehead in prayers it will somehow help break my fever and this bitch not only ain't helping, it has been sucking the red out of my hair for hours now and it has turned from white to pink

This virus I caught God knows how is literally sucking the vibe out of me

#this is how someone with adhd works #thought process? this is it #no filter just ramble and nothing interesting #sad how this is how you find out you're a stereotypical man with the whole “i'm sick therefore i am dying” thing #it's funny because it's true #and i swear we ain't being dramatic #life is just a bitch like that #spencer sits back with the towel on his forehead and his lil orange juice on his barbie cup

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wingedaches · 5 months ago

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assassin's apprentice // royal assassin // fool's quest

#fitzchivalry farseer #rote #realm of the elderlings #do you see what i am getting at?#i'm rereading the series & it makes me so sad & sick to my stomach to watch fitz grow from #this lonely child who had no say in his life who had no say in being used by the crown #to this lonely man who thinks he is unworthy of everyone's love & time & is so buried under his own self-loathing & disgust #that he can't even hold his daughter because he doesn't think he deserves to #fitzchivalry farseer! please let someone love you like you deserve #ch: fitzchivalry farseer #lit: rote #**

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gloomydiary · 9 months ago

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I'm so broken I don't feel anything, I just feel bad I can't cry I can't even describe the pain because I don't feel it but I know it's there

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qu4kerider · 17 days ago

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“I hate them.”

ARCANE S02E01 & STAR WARS: EPISODE II - ATTACK OF THE CLONES

#this one is actually insane and the worst #it made me sick #i was in shock when i heard her say those words #but cait won't reach the:#“i killed them. i killed them all. they're dead. every single one of them. and not just the men but the women and the children too” part #she can't!#anakin's one is very shocking too #but a little “easier” to understand bc we just saw how he's mother was kidnapped and tortured for nearly a month #(and all this after finally being freed from years of slavery AND being left behind when her son was freed and “taken” away)#but it's also so sad to see how in pain and full of hate he is knowing since the beginning of the trilogy where this feelings will lead him #and bc he ends the scene saying: i know i'm better than this #which can be ambiguous but #ugh #caitlyn kiramman #anakin skywalker #arcane #season 2 #star wars #attack of the clones #atoc #arcane x star wars

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flowery-laser-blasts · 8 months ago

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Shego, checking Drakken's temperature: Wow Doc, by the way you're burning up with this fever, you'd think you would...

Drakken: I would what, Shego?

Shego: Turn from blue to healthy shade of pink or red?

Drakken: DOES MY HEAD LOOK LIKE A GIANT THERMOMETER TO YOU!? *starts coughing up a storm*

#this time I'm not the one being sick ... still sad tho because I hate to see my bf being sick #but on the other hand: nice and warm #crack post #just flower thoughts #drakgo

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simplepotatofarmer · 8 months ago

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i miss techno. :(

#i miss rivals duo :(#i miss being able to be part of the techno fandom #ignore me i'm sad and sick #loyal talks about stuff and things

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screaming--agony · 2 years ago

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Dear Diary,

It’s the same shit on a deeper level on a different day.

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coldlikethestars · 1 month ago

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#yesterday i had this moment where i cried so much and so hard in a way i haven't cried in so long #it was a moment of pure soul crushing grief. it was like i had lost my dog already. i felt like i was never gonna see her again #(she's still here. tired and sick and currently sleeping. being very loved. still here.)#i was talking to my mom and sister a couple of hours ago and they said they had a moment like that too yesterday #and i think for me that was an extremely difficult but necessary moment of acceptance #in that crying i let go of my fear and denial and fully accepted that there is no getting better this time. she will be gone soon.#and god animals are so very sensitive aren't they? because it's like my other two dogs know too.#it's like thay had that moment of acceptance as well. they were so quiet yesterday. they didn't eat all day.#it's unbearably painful. i'm extremely sad and my heart is shattered. but i'm glad that i'm at peace #no dog has ever been as happy and as loved as she has been her entire life. i'm sure of it. and me and my family are going to be okay.

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theflyingfeeling · 7 months ago

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...😭

#i've never had a job in my own field that i've liked as much as i've liked my current one #the semester is ending soon and today i heard my contract will not be renewed bc the person i'm substituting will return to work after all #i've been feeling so tired and a bit poorly after the nokia arena show and i probably should have called in sick today #as i was absolutely useless today #and then after my only class today my students came to me with a gift?? 😭#a pink enamel moomin mug and some chocolate and a paper on which they had written nice things about me + a drawing of a dachshund 😭#and i burst to tears right there in front of them because i was so touched (and also because i'm just really really tired and emotional)#i'm so tired about having to apply for new jobs and having to start all over again #i'm so tired of having to do shitty short-notice substitutions again #i feel like i deserve better than that but on the other hand i fee like life's giving me exactly what i deserve and maybe this is it #i'm dreading the summer because idk if i'll have a job to go to in the autumn #and even if i did find something it won't be like the job i have now #also. it's may day eve and the weather's lovely #and i'm hiding in my apartment with the curtains closed so i won't see all the people going out and having fun with their friends #for me may day eve has never been like that. i've always felt so very excluded from those celebrations #on top of that i got yelled at by a bus driver and i'm the worst friend that ever existed #i'm trying to quit on whining about my sad little life but it gets so lonely #please know i'm not writing this for attention or pity. i know y'all have problems of your own and i'm just being a dramatic crybaby

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rimouskis · 9 months ago

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actually seeing sid crack would be, like, deeply upsetting don't get me wrong, but I'd also feel validated in how I feel AND it would provide enough drama for people to take our Angst seriously

#I'm sick of media talking down to fans for being upset at the team and management and stuff!#like we're fans we're supposed to be emotionally engaged are we not?#if we're just supposed to dully ''yes father'' everything the team did we should be getting paid for it lol like that's a JOB at that point #if we're not supposed to be mad are sad what are we supposed to be? placid? uncaring? snoooooooze!

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sysig · 6 months ago

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Wake up somewhere better, maybe (Patreon)

#Doodles #SCII #Damned #Harvey Dent #ZEX #Blood #Ask to tag #Stepping back even further - I'm sure you can understand needing a little extra time on this #For multiple reasons haha #It took such a while to finish the first one and not just on an editing front! Honestly that didn't take very long at all haha #There's a frame somewhere that's bothering me - I ''animated'' that movement frame-by-frame myself so if it's a bit strange it's my eye #At least it's mostly like what I wanted! Mostly like what I saw in my head! The three overlapping and then drawing back to show the depth #It really was such a strong mental image for me - it's amazing how simultaneous things can be despite being described separately #The dog - Harvey - ZEX - all moving at their own pace! A split second can be so expanded like a slow-mo shot ah #It's honestly a very beautiful medium #Hhhh ZEX's death was very affecting to me ;; I so very much wanted him to go out the way he wanted to #Befitting his Admiral status - strong and confident and surrounded by his crew #But by that point he was so tired and ready to rest - it would have been sadder to watch him continue to barely scrape by #Not even killed by his Beauty! Just one good chomp from one big sick dog :'0 #The others trying to protect him - they didn't know him just out of whatever empathy they had for their fellow!#Zero was a hero so that kind of character is easy enough haha but even Harvey! Even after ZEX made him uncomfortable with his long looks lol #He was still willing to help in whatever way he was able ;; And it still ended the same #His last word being just ''pain'' hhhwehhh ;;#It is always the saddest-saddest to me to have such an articulate and eloquent witty verbose and silly character reduced to singulars #Something so simple and still so expressive hh </3 ZEX dearest hweh #But loving also means letting go! Death was a release he needed even if it's sad #I'm a real sucker for Meet Me In The Afterlife kind of stories so I may or may not have batted that around as an idea down the line #He has plenty of loved ones that have seen the other side - even from the Institute specifically!!#It's not exactly a happy ending but it's something <3

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the-blossica-fan · 2 months ago

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A thought I had about Evil Matilda was on the lines of her thinking she is awful, and her being quiet (calling herself Matilda the Disgraceful), when in actuality everyone loves and admires her. But even then, she takes it as people faking it, thinking they're just pitying her...

I think that was my line of thought before, well, I forgot 😔

But yeah, Evil Matilda would have a very low image of herself. She's nobody, and she's nothing more than a disgrace to the Bouanich. She's humble due to this line of thought.

"I'm not good at anything so why would I be mean?" And so she's quiet, she's trying to just be.

She's polite and really kind, "You're doing good!", "you're amazing" and so many more praises directed at others, when directed at her, she's not like her other self

"This? Oh, I'm not that good at divination, I only follow the rules"

"My grades are not that good, Sonetto is better than me in everything"

"I'm not the greatest, I'm only Matilda. And, I'm not good at anything."

But people like her, they're kind to her and are always pushing it to trust herself. Matilda doesn't think of it this way. To her they're just pitying her for being the worst Bouanich in her family, the disgrace, the mediocre one

It's quite sad either way. People don't like OG Matilda for being too annoying and proud but she does it as a way to protect herself. People like this other Matilda who doesn't think they even see her and are only looking at her because of the disgrace she is to her last name.

Matilda has so much angsty potential to exploit

#Reverse 1999 #defining sanity #evil phenomenon series #I'm sorry if I'm taking too long to answer the asks I'm a bit sick so I'm avoiding using my phone too much #either way my baby is so sad #they either like the version she is not or hate the version she truly is #there's no happy ending for Matilda #at least she has Jessica Kanjira and Sotheby #Well i would also add Joe Vertin and Sonetto #but there's few who are seen interacting and actually being kind to Matilda #1.3 event must've been such a breeze for her #few understand her and ever fewer are the ones to be kind to her #she needs a parental figure

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foreverxdaydreaming · 2 months ago

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#just needed to vent for a sec but oh god am i tired of people #'friends' both irl and online got me fucked up lately #mental healths been in the shitter almost nonstop this year #familys always got me up the wall #i just feel like I'm constantly treading water and i am *tired*. like so fucking TIRED #it's never enough; it's too much; no not like that; but not that either; it's all wrong wRoNg WrOnG #ik im sleep deprived and possibly pms-y and that is most certainly not helping things rn but...#gods i see less and less of a reason to get out of bed and bother with anything ever again #wtf is the purpose #i can't keep friends to save my life bc im apparently a fuckin doormat and interesting as unflavored rice or smth #how hard is it to feel like you maybe sorta kinda matter and aren't an unlovable worthless piece of shit #years of therapy; trying meds; everything under the sun.... and nothing. lows and highs and dips of every kind and yet ..nothing #and maybe im just very much in my feelings rn and just yelling into the void.. but it hurts and im tired of pretending it doesn't.#i hate how hard it is to make friends as an adult especially irl. and how gossipy and cliquey and gross and mean ppl can be #of getting called childish and naive and boring for wanting to be a decent person and having interests outside of partying #(not attacking those traits but tired of getting attacked for *not* being 'fun' enough or 'social' enuf or 'sensitive' for having feelings)#enough*#i just want to go eat drywall and stand in the rain and let it help me pretend im not crying blood rn.#like every cell in my body isn't trying to spontaneously combust.#'it gets better' ..yeah? when. when i was 14? when i was 23? when im 37? when im 55? 82? WHEN.. bc im so sick and tired #and no this isn't me writing a final note or whatever it sounds like; i just wanted to word vomit bc ive never been good w sadness #and ive got such an overwhelming amount of it rn i can't even turn it into anger & spite & use that for productivity... i just want to rot #to lie down and be covered by plants as i sleep and just slowly fade into a cloud or smth like it's a ghibli movie or wtv.#im like shaking from how stupidly emotional i feel rn. the lack of empathy these days is fuckin astounding #common sense & empathy are lacking in absolutely droves these days. some days i hate the internet & tech for its irreparable damages sm #but here we are and here it shall remain. long after us; and *long* after us ..... *sigh*#anyway ima go try to take a nap or smth. I'll see ya when i see ya. take care my lovelies #if u read all this i prob owe you a cookie lol

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streamdotpng · 1 year ago

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"I think I know why Wednesday could never say she has a crush on me," Enid says, as serious as one can be.

Yoko looks up, "because she's currently enamored with the normie?"

Enid shoots yoko a look, her face scrunching in a 'are you fr rn?'

"No!" she shoots back before leaning onto the palm of her hands and giving a grin. "it's because she'd rather break his heart than mine"

Yoko pauses. "girl wha-"

#Wenclair #Writing #I'm high from being sick you're gonna be seeing these alot #Along with sad shit too bc it's been a hot moment #Enid Sinclair #Yoko tanaka

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