#i'm posting this so late rip

[wolfchans]

One, two, 3RACHA, get spotlight!

insp and used this template from a deviantart user and gave it a twist with my style.

this was originally going to be my stayblr secret santa post for my first giftee but they had to drop out and my second giftee never interacted with me so i don’t have anyone in particular to give this to so i’m gifting it to all 3racha enjoyers <3 

i also wanna give a shoutout to Tsu and Bee for organizing the event! I had so much fun talking with my secret santa and even tho i had technical problems with my giftees i really enjoyed the experience of doing this for the first time, so thank you <3

happy holidays to everyone who celebrates!

[twisting-in-wonderland]

Silver + glasses = wise old man trope...

. this has been a wip for like. weeks - i had no energy left to finish it properly lol so i'm posting it as is-----

'bonus' (VERY. UNFINISHED- )

[svtskneecaps]

lukewarm take of the evening: y'all care too much about being ""outdated"". fellas this smp moves inhumanly fast. it is ok to CHILL holy shit CHILL. y'all are like "(posts BANGER ART) super late guys sorry" friend i am hitting you with a blanket i am snapping you with my metaphorical towel WHAT DO YOU MEAN SORRY. "(posts BANGER FIC) rip this is outdated now" WHO CARES???? I LOVE YOU, OK. ohhhh woe is us as the fandom at large for having MORE HAPPY PILLS ARC CONTENT oh no how outdated!! how could you be writing speculative fiction about how forever felt during happy pills :( slash SARCASM!! WHAT DO YOU MEAN!!!! THERE ARE SO MANY BANGER ARCS, WHAT, YOU THINK WE'RE COMPLAINING????? FOR GETTING MORE OF THE CONTENT WE LOVED????? oh no we're past the period where everyone thought green gay ninjas were like Dead Dead, my work is now outdated and noncanon :( WDYM. GIMME. A BANGER IS A BANGER IDC IF IT TAKES THREE MONTHS. you think rome was built in a day?? fuck you, baltimore, GIMME. my ass has been cooking a goddamn backflipo family fic since july when it was ALREADY outdated do you think i fear god??? "oh no, you're making an edit of slime's (attempted) egg murdering spree?? how could you, that was months ago it's irrelevant" SAID NO ONE EVER.

save your wrists kidlings ok carpal tunnel is no joke. CHILL!!!!! CHILL!!!!!!!! TAKE YOUR TIME SHEEEEEESH OK LOVE YOU <3

[remnri]

xiao birthday yippee!

[holocene-sims]

i missed him 💚🤍

[kanene-yaaay]

Oh my, I am feeling so relaxed and happy rn, what a perfect moment to scroll through some of old fav tickle fanfics that I still enjoy immensely and read all of them ahain. I am sure that this will have no lasting consequences and will not make me get into a Tickle Mood or whatsoever :D of course not :DD

[mitamicah]

I guess I’ve felt a bit off from the rest of the kääryleet the last few days and I am not liking it very much.

I want to be in agreement with you guys and get excited like you do ... it has just been a bit harder this weekend which sucks since there’s a new song and cool new MV theories and I am here like: slow down would you for the old man? (me)

this doesn’t make any sense possibly but I guess I’ll just say sorry for not being up to speed and for being a bit moody/unamused.

[coolspacequips]

Have been mostly on Twitter the last couple days bc that's where I can see the most Kaveh birthday art LMAO but I've been coming over here and collecting what I can find on my likes, I'm gonna queue up a bunch of bday art of my princess so don't say I didn't warn ya

[addicted-to-the-knife]

something Hugh Dancy said at the Dallas panel that I thought was very interesting, was that Will uses (common) autistic traits very consciously as a means to protect himself.

it makes sense. he uses the frame of his glasses as a "social shield" early in season 1. and from season 2 on, that seemed to just "go away", as an example of one of those traits because he specifically mentioned the difficulty with eye contact.

I used to interpret his changes throughout the seasons as him simply dropping the mask. because to me - especially in the beginning - he was trying so hard to appear "normal" that his autistic traits and instability only became more obvious.

so, when he stopped trying so hard and felt more liberated in being himself, he became more comfortable just doing whatever feels right to him, instead of focusing on what makes him appear more socially acceptable.

but Hugh's thought of Will simply using the traits he knows are commonly found in autistic people and saying he's on the spectrum, but not formally diagnosed, makes this a lot more interesting to me!

[marshmallowgoop]

going and back and rereading your kill la kill meta, I should definitely rewatch kill la kill

I'm so flattered that there's still interest in my old meta all these years later! And that they encourage looking back at the series? 🥺

Thank you for revisiting them! Hope you enjoy the rewatch!

[brittlebutch]

ok. we are now over 40k words and wrapping up the final draft. i think the first chapter will get posted on sunday :3c

[flyingsquirrely]

Total Solar Eclipse 2024 - Fort Worth, Texas

[astriiformes]

It's definitely... interesting to look at the evolution of the type of characters whose narratives hit me the hardest, because there's a very real shift over time that corresponds pretty glaringly my own life experiences.

When I was younger (high school and into early college) I had a tendency to latch onto bright, eccentric genius characters, not just for their positive traits but also because I was awkward and often lonely and struggled socially, and felt like I could project that onto them easily while still feeling good about myself. There were very real reasons beyond just wanting to feel smart, but I still tied a lot of weighty mental importance and self-identity to characters like the Doctor, and Newt Geiszler, and Ford Pines, in ways that absolutely influenced things like my future career goals and college choices

--and as someone who ultimately fell short of that brilliant academic archetype, in the long run I think it did a lot of damage. I won't say that seeing myself in those characters was exclusively a bad thing (it helped me figure out I was autistic, for one thing, as well as recognize elements of my personality that are also very real during a formative period), but I do have sort of an awkward relationship with how I used to feel about them vs how I feel about them now.

There wasn't a huge transitional phase. I think the main character I can point to as a sort of pivot point might be Percy de Rolo, who still fits the brilliant eccentric archetype but is much more glaringly mentally ill and ultimately ends up on a very different path than he started on by the end of his story. That smug desire to be the smartest person in the room is very much still there, but it wasn't the main reason I latched onto him. And I don't think it's coincidental my biggest CR1 phase hit after I dropped out of school the second time.

Since then, my favorite characters have been...... different. There's Fjord, who picked the wrong patron, totally ruined his life for a bit, and then slowly rebuilt his self-esteem with the guidance of a friend, a new god, and a better calling. Hunter, who was driving himself to the point of a complete breakdown trying to live up to unreasonable standards, and Lilith who made questionable life choices that put her in a similar position prior to a full-on midlife crisis in her 40s. Harrow, who's brilliant and powerful but also completely broken for it and would have been better off if she didn't feel like she had to constantly apologize for existing. And now I'm having a lot of feelings about Andreas, who starts out as a university drop-out going through a total career shift and is clearly somewhat insecure about it who then.... well..... [gestures]

Even when I do like smart or particularly gifted characters, it's for totally different reasons. I like Raine because they're awkward and anxious but still willing to stand up for what's right, and have had a real impact on how I think about my gender and helped reignite my love of performing music. When I first read Gideon the Ninth, I spent a good chunk of the book thinking about how my younger self would have latched onto Palamedes instantly, whereas with my experiences now I almost felt wary to, before ultimately deciding I actually liked him because he was kind, had a strong moral compass, and deeply loved someone who was chronically ill.

And it's not like it's more virtuous to like characters for the reasons I do now, but for me, personally it's certainly healthier to have my preferred archetype be "people who have tried and failed (but aren't giving up)," and it's been a bit of a trip watching that shift happen when for so long I felt so differently.

[pekoeboo]

so there's this idea that my friend Cookie and I came up with where Aya essentially becomes like?? a literal villain in one timeline???

basically, this would take place as a result of both Khalan and Antony getting pulled into Ravenwood, leaving Aya by herself in Atria. with no one around to teach her right from wrong, her chaotic nature takes over and she slowly becomes an incredibly powerful Player as she gets older; with the sole intention of becoming strong enough to reach through the multiverse and locate Khalan so she can teleport him back to her.

that power gets to her head, however, and she starts to view everything as a mere game. all empathy that she had for anyone and anything is completely gone. all she wants is Khalan by her side again, and she will not hesitate to topple villages and take lives in order to become stronger so she can reach that goal.

because Aya's grief over losing Khalan turns into such an unhealthy obsession over the concept of wanting him back, that obsession is expressed through her outfit - adopting his desert-themed aesthetic for herself. and of course, her wings can turn into a cape - for extra flair lol. (she's gotta look fabulous while she's causing chaos!)

anyway, It was a lot of fun brainstorming with Cookie over the design, and we figured it was worth sharing 'cause we're both pretty happy with the result!!

Aya belongs to @cookieg122 please do not remove caption or repost. also on deviantart

[lilyharvord]

I missed mermay cause of school, but listen, consider this, a headcanon because I’m bad at writing gore (the song Mermaids by Florence and the Machine is the only inspiration behind this): 

- Mare is a mermaid who every year to help her and her other mermaid friends stay immortal steals the heart of a human prince (whether that be stealing metaphorically or literally 😈). If she does it metaphorically it obviously only helps her, if she steals the actual beating fucking heart and they all share it then, well it helps all of them. 

- Her target this year actually straight up falls in her lap after she rescues him from drowning and deposits him on the shore. She keeps an eye on him for a few days, and realizes that he sort of remembers her as this mysterious woman. He’s perfect, there’s enough kindness, morality and all around honor (she almost vomits when she learns about it) in that heart of his that she may not have to go hunting for years. His heart could sustain her and the others for years. So she makes a plan with a few of them. They’ll attend the ball that’s being thrown, and while her group distracts everyone, she will steal the prince away from everyone and take his heart. 

- leaving the water like they are only able to do once a year, shedding their scales and losing their gills and fins until midnight, they take what they need from passerby's and enter the ball as a mysterious group of ethereal women and men. Let’s be real, they should stick out like a sore thumb because they are just that freaking ethereal. One woman whispers: “fae” as they pass, but they are most certainly not that, and everyone knows fae and mythical creatures are just stories. 

- The whole thing is so easy that for a moment, she thinks this prince actually knows what she is, that he has some strange sense that lets him see passed the glamor and the magic to what she truly is. 

- it takes so little effort to get him away from the party and out on a balcony. She doesn’t even have to sing to get him to come, he just puts his warm hand in hers and lets her guide him away. For a moment, she wonders if she bewitched him by accident on the shore, but she would have known if she sang to him. He trusts her without even knowing her, putting his full faith in her as she leads him further and further into the shadowy alcoves until she finds the perfect place. 

- Even before she goes about putting him in a position where she can rip his heart out of his chest, she can feel the magic working because he’s already given her a little bit of his heart metaphorically which she wants to roll her eyes at because “humans, so gullible” kind of thing. 

- As he’s telling her that he knows its her, that he’s been looking for her trying to find her to thank her and whatnot, she smiles up at him and in the moonlight, he misses the flash of her fangs before she takes the hand she was resting against his wonderful beating heart and punches it through his rib cage. 

- It takes two seconds for him to gasp and start losing his footing, in which she lets him slowly sit on a bench as she whispers softly to him and rips his heart clean out of his chest. His eyes are wide in shock but he doesn’t even have a chance to say anything as she presses a kiss between his brows and thanks him. She never does that, but this time it feels right. When she pulls away those lovely amber eyes start to darken as she rips the skirt of her dress to shreds and wraps the now still heart in the scraps before turning and leaving his body to be found. 

[bettsfic]

so i finished rebels and i have some Thoughts and Feelings i need to process so they are going here on my blog. (spoilers ahead)

for three seasons i hated ezra bridger. i thought he was such a boring protagonist and poorly written and i was so bummed to find out he was the main character

but THEN

sometime during season 3 my hatred came full circle. i started hating him so much i began to devise interpretations of his character i would not despise.

at first my initial attempt was that he made a great side character and an awful protagonist

i love that everyone loves him and it's completely illogical but the writing seems to be aware of that and how funny it is? kanan, hondo, and maul are all ready to throw down for him immediately

but what really worked was

into the nothingness, apropos nothing, i said aloud, "puppyboy ezra?"

i informed my roommate that i could bear ezra as long as i interpreted him solely as a puppyboy

*sensible chuckle* how ooc, i thought

my roommate was like, uh strange you should say that.......

i thought, haha i bet there's a dog in an episode or something

i proceeded to outline a very long puppyboy ezra fic (which i definitely plan to write; whether or not i post it remains to be seen)

((i ship ezra with a certain character that is so obvious to me but there are only 5 fics on ao3 and i'm devastated. i guess there will just be 5 drabbles and one 60k psychologically fraught modern au in the tag))

and i am simply knocked DEAD to discover that the series ends with GIANT SPACE WOLVES

listen

i love wolves

love them

specifically i love giant

space

wolves

in fact i have purchased every piece of artwork i can find on the internet depicting giant space wolves and they are all hanging on my wall as we speak

and so i felt deeply eerily called out when ezra's conclusion involves being spiritually connected to a wolfpack

i'm mostly shocked that rebels seems to be that bizarre mix of amazing but falls steeply short of its own promise, a la sherlock and early supernatural. the stuff that pings my "gotta fix this gotta fix it gotta add porn" lizard brain and i end up writing 100k

actually if i get out of this fandom under 100k i'll be shocked

hellcheer have one scene together in a show i don't even like and i wrote 100k about it in a few months

i have nearly 4 years of graduate education in creative writing and i Cannot Determine if rebels is good or if i'm just so personally fucked up by giant space wolves that i can no longer see it clearly

also

i wrote 7k of organic chemistry today and i'm hoping to get ahead by a couple chapters so it'll still be a while before i post (wednesday maybe?)

and then i'll focus on office au bdsm rexsoka

and then maybe (?) my post-apocalypse au

and then the puppyboy ezra fic no one will read but that's okay because i am writing it for me

i have more thoughts on rebels and clone wars and i'd love to write some metas but right now i need to face the treacherous mountain climb of fic-writing ahead of me and make peace with it