#i'm not like other teenagers i'm 30
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meii-jasmine · 2 years ago
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Yay!!! 🎈🎂🌸
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sulky-cabbage · 3 months ago
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The sukugo fight can't get animated any sooner I'm craving sukugo tiktok edits
#jjk#ryomen sukuna#gojo Satoru#sukugo#my post#sukugo's date night#Grown ass men beating each other up looking each other in the eyes thinking about love while a cutesy song plays in the background 😍#I saw a tiktok edit of Sukuna annihilating everything with the song “what is love?” by TWICE playing I was like wait a minute THISSS!!!#but with the Sukugo fight!!!!#I have a whole montage in my brain hear me out.... starting from 2:27 minutes in#Wonder where you are?~ I'm gonna find you~ Wonder where you are?~ I'm so dying to see you~ I can't take it much longer~#👆🏻these lyrics with that scene of Sukuna waiting for gojo on the rooftop before their fight...hmmm yes yandere vibes yes#How it could be as sweet as candy~ How it's like flying in the sky~#👆🏻These with Sukuna and gojo clashing in the sky over kenjaku#this part of the song is the slowest so a slow motion scene of them in the sky would look beautifulagghj#I wanna know know know know~ what is love?~ What love feels like~#👆🏻 these with Sukuna giving Satoru that look💀 and thinking about yorozu's words after Satoru chose their date to be on 24th..#How it keeps you smiling all day~#👆🏻 this one is obvious there are too many instances of them freakishly smiling during the fight that it's hard to choose lmao#How the whole world turns beautiful~#👆🏻cut to Sukuna saying he cleared his skies...yeah...#I wanna know know know know what is love?~ Will love come to me someday?~#👆🏻 and maybe if we're getting angsty with this... that scene of the last time “the one who will teach you about love” was brought up#in the airport where we see Sukuna from behind and Satoru says it was fun asdhjkkll#Then the song just continues with I wanna know~ I wanna know~ for 30 seconds until it ends#👆🏻 And here comes a compilation of Sukuna missing gojo and standing there looking bored and we have Yuji black flashing his heart#and sukuna looks behind him and has heart eyes for larue but it fades to him looking at yutagojo thinking it's gojo#because these two scenes are SIMILAR for some reason and then yuta failing at being gojo and sukuna copying gojo's hand sign and-#Do yall see what I mean this is their theme song fr The song being cutesy and upbeat is what makes this for me#Sukuna is living his first teenage girl experience Yall don't understand I need this so baddd I'm gonna learn how to edit and do it myself
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forestgreenlesbian · 8 months ago
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#feel like my relationship with my younger brother is changed completely forever not to be dramatic lol but i am sad#we used to b very close but he has kind of. found his faith again and gone full missionary christian which like. i knew meant the dynamic#was doomed lmao but actually acknowledging it makes me sad i feel like i'm grieving for the friendship we used to have even though#it is literally a me problem i think from his perspective he doesn't think anything has changed. but i feel weird about everything#also his new gf is nineteen and he is. almost 25 and i am the only one who feels weird about it like i know she's over 18 but! idk i can't#tell if i'm being overly cautious or if my gut instinct is right. my sister & her husband have a similar age gap but they met when they wer#both over 30 so like. it didn't feel weird. and i didn't feel comfortable actually seriously talking to him about it apart from the first#time he mentioned her over facetime (he went to another country to do mission stuff & met her there) so like an idiot i've just been#making jokes about the age gap becausee like. thats always been our thing lightly bullying each other lol but he blew up at me and said#i've had nothing positive to say about her since he's been back home and that he thinks i hate her and i'm out of line for constantly#implying he's creepy for dating someone younger. idk i felt like such a freak idiot horrible person about it. it completely blindsided me#bc yes the jokes were coming from a place of idk how i feel about this situation so i'm going to rely on the humour-based communication#we have always fallen back on as a safety thing but i guess i was wrong or the dynamic shifted or something anyway it's all fucked#& everyone is just telling me i feel weird out of some?? misplaced kind of jealousy thing?? because i'm 'losing' my brother to his gf lol#which does not feel right at all he has dated so many other girls and i have never had a problem it is literally the age gap like i haven't#even met this girl i'm sure she's very nice! i just worry about her being nineteen!! jesus. and yes maybe i do feel some resentment around#a brother younger than me who seems to be able to live his life with zero difficulty whilst i'm stuck being this unemployed loser who ruins#literally ever friendship & relationship ive ever had but i think thats ok right like i can't help feeling that. i don't fucking knowwww#am i just projecting all these sad feelings about our friendship dying onto his new relationship or like. am i right to be genuinely#concerned she's six years younger than him and still a fucking teenager!!!!!! i don't know
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selfinflictedgunshotwound · 5 months ago
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sorry for only saying this type of shit lately but i kinda wanna drive a car straight into a brick wall at the highest speed possible
#trying to keep it together so bad because i already know the problems and solutions and whatnot but i cannot do anything#i desperately just need to do something. accomplish any task. actually several would be nice. but i cannot stand just letting life go by#while i watch other people have the things i want. or even metaphorically living my dream like. that should be me why am i settling for thi#i hate even talking about this because i feel so stupid when i know it's not even a real tangible problem and that i actually DO have real#problems to tackle and the ability to do so but i'm choosing to be upset over the stupidest things i could possibly be sad about#and i can't even be sad about it in a normal way i'm cycling through like several different reactions to smth that isn't even real#or if it is real i literally do not have tanglible evidence for it one way or another like i'm driving myself insane for no reason#i can't even get catharsis because all i'm doing is digging a deeper hole for something i never should've gone back into in the first place#because i KNOW how i am i KNOW how i react to things and i still chose to do it lmao.#and i continue to choose to go through this shit instead of actively trying to change my life because... i'm lazy? and stupid? idk#negative self-talk isn't gonna get me to do anything either so let's just say i'm feeling particularly unmotivated like usual#i hated being a teenager but i really do miss when all my problems just amounted to 'someone was mean to me on tumblr today :(' or i failed#a test in chemistry or something. like i yearn for that simplicity becasue at this point all i'm doing is ruining my own life LMAO#i'm too scared to live i'm too scared to die so i just sit here and fantasize that life could be amazing if i wait#and i'll magically get everything i've ever wanted if i just wait long enough. and i know it isn't true and i still wait for it to happen.#because honestly like. i think deep down i am just convinced i will fail at anything i do when that shouldn't be what scares me.#what scares me should be never even allowing myself to fail because i never tried to do anything at all with myself or my life#like. wake the fuck up. get off your ass and put in the effort. learn some skills. gain independence and stability and discipline and do it#just live please i'm begging you just live so i can be happy don't i deserve to be happy... why am i not letting myself be happy#i'm literally keeping myself trapped in this negative feedback loop ON PURPOSE because teehee shiny toy#and it doesn't matter if the love is real it doesn't matter how i feel like i'm just using it as a distraction i can't say it's motivation#because it's barely motivated me at all. i have to start being realistic. 25 & just realizing you actually have to participate in your life#anyways. i've cried i've agonized i've pictured killing myself in 30 different ways. i think the only way i'm gonna feel better is#to just actually try this time without giving up. wish me luck
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itsaceokay · 5 months ago
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I've struggled a lot throughout my life with feeling pretty as an asexual. For a very long time, I actively didn't want to be pretty and firmly believed I wasn't and was okay with that. Because being pretty meant being desired and that made me feel uncomfortable.
As I grew up, I started to feel pretty and was okay with that because I'd finally internalised that beauty doesn't have to have anything to do with attraction. Beauty is everywhere, so why couldn't I be beautiful too?
But comments like 'you're wasting your good looks', 'you're so lucky to have X features', 'you're really pretty, how are you single?', 'I bet your kids will be so cute' have started to leave me feeling like I'm unworthy of looking the way I do.
I have no desire to ever 'make use of' my appearance by having a sexual relationship or children and I wish beauty was more generally appreciated for simply what it is rather than in relation to anything else.
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quasi-normalcy · 1 year ago
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#so first of all i'm not jewish.#but i feel like i occupy a relatively weird position with respect to judaism.#because the neighbourhood in which i grew up was like...30-50% jewish?#it was jewish enough that the local families requested and got a hebrew immersion programme at the local elementary school#that operated in parallel to the english programme that i attended#and about half of my friends growing up were jewish.#and so i absorbed a lot of the surface-level details of the religion by a sort of osmosis#like...i knew the dates and significance of the various jewish holy days#and i knew a smattering of phrases in hebrew (phonetically); most of them apparently quite rude#and we occasionally did jewish religious songs in choir (some of them admittedly lifted from the 'Prince of Egypt' soundtrack)#and once when i was in high school i was on a trivia team; and we asked a run of questions about judaism;#and i was the only one who knew them even though (i swear to god) i was the non-Jewish player on either team#(and then when i was much older i almost married a jewish enby and i would even have tried to convert for them#but our relationship fell apart for unrelated reasons)#but one of the things that was drilled into me when i was growing up (by my dad who grew up under similar circumstances)#was that you don't criticise Israel; it's antisemitic to criticise Israel#(which made for a lot of fraught moments as a teenager given that i was watching the second Intifada on the news)#and the thing is even now in the face of what seems pretty unambiguously to be a genocide against the Palestinians#i find that i'm more circumspect about criticizing israel than i would be just about any other country under the same circumstances#like i was writing things like 'fuck saudi arabia' when they were murdering houthis in yemen#but 'fuck israel'?#even though a little harsh language is least of what that regime deserves#ugh#i feel like i'm privy to the death of a dream that was never even mine.#personal#religion
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non-un-topo · 11 months ago
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Genuinely so sad because I wish I could just draw and write again
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daenerys-targaryen · 11 months ago
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Why do you like older ships so much?
The biggest thing for me is history. I love the idea of 'right person, wrong time' as kids or teenagers and then reuniting and finding that love again as adults. Many of my ships knew each other and had some sort of relationship as kids, teenagers or young adults where it didn't work out for one reason or another and then they found each other again when it was the right time. And if there isn't that kind of history, I also just love the idea of finding that kind of love later in life because not everyone finds their person as kids or teenagers, you know.
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autumnrory · 3 months ago
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i don't want people working in television to be overworked but with some streaming shows i'm like what the fuck actually takes so long between seasons
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jacquiarno · 2 years ago
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Happy Trans Day of Visibility my trans darlings, especially trans gamers! 💖
Whether you have decided to come out or not, you matter, you are loved, and there will always be support for you, especially from this cis lady. 🌈
#the colour scheme with my profile picture and nameplate colour was a happy accident in genshin#yae miko and kaeya are both my favourite characters#i know the genshin community can be quite toxic but i've been playing this game since launch#so if anyone can gatekeep it's me against these toxic people haha#but seriously if you need a safe space to come to any of my socials are a place you can come to#i keep my genshin id hidden here but if anyone from the trans community or the lgbtqia community ever need help pop me a message#i play on the us server#the ff14 has a fairly decent community even if a big name in the streaming scene has come out as a toxic person#but you can message me about that as well although i'm not great at the game haha and i'm on the oceanic servers#i've been a gamer since the 90s and i've loved games since#the fact so many in gaming circles are toxic is a damn disgrace#gaming spaces are meant to be a place where we all come together and accept others and treat them how we want to be treated#but some of these gamers and especially streamers seem stunted in their growth#a lot still act like they have the mindset of teenagers despite most being 30+#bratty teenagers i should say as not all teenagers act immature#trans rights are human rights#lgbtqia#if you're wondering where i fit in the rainbow community it's the i love people regardless of gender#not sure if bi or pan but i just go with bi#ffxiv#Final Fantasy XIV#ff14#final fantasy 14#genshin impact#jacquiarno's screenshots#jacquiarno
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artemismatchalatte · 1 year ago
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So I'm signed up for this online 30's speed dating event for WLW and sapphics right?
Here's the thing: It looks like they aren't even bothering to regulate it at all because I see tons of people who aren't in their 30s and even some men are listed in the people who are signed up for the event.
What's even the point of a specific event for 30 something WLW if just anyone can join it? :/
#As a 30 year old I'm not interested in 18/19 year olds and yet a bunch of them are signed up for a event for women in their 30s???#any one who is in their 30s and wants to date teenagers is a total creep#I hope they realize that because I don't think they do#18 and 19 year olds look like children to me now#if you promise an event for women in their 30s please actually deliver it :(#If I'm using a site that's for women loving women- men shouldn't be allowed? I'm not looking for a man!#now I see why the lesbians and other sapphics get angry#I'm debating whether or not this is even worth my time because I'm not confident that it will be run well at all#so many people failed to understand the prompt or purposely don't care#they are either too young or the wrong gender- if you're not a woman in her 30s it's not for you?#If a woman is in her late 20s that's different but it was a bunch of people under 25#dating is inherently exclusive- most people aren't attracted to everyone else???#A lot of people fail to realize you CAN be pro equality and still not want to date most other people- it IS possible#Now selfish people are going to ruin something that isn't even for them :/#I am the target audience for this event and they are making me not want to participate#I'm 30 and sapphic- questioning whether bi or lesbian but I belong there#Should I be surprised? I really don't know what to think honestly#I'm a little angry that they don't seem to care who attends because I paid for a ticket- not too much but still?#mychatter
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raiiny-bay · 1 year ago
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finished s2 of heartstopper & ngl, i kinda didn't like how they handled the ace rep
#no spoilers i just have some thoughts about it & i need to vent them#it just felt like they glossed over the whole thing tbh#like. idk about others obviously but in my experience you don't REALIZE that your feelings as an ace person are any different#than those around you. like you just assume that everyone is exaggerating or using hyperbole or whatever#& when you DO eventually realize that how you feel is not how everyone else feels that's fucking terrifying???????#like you're literally gonna do whatever you can to make everyone else believe you're just like them#also peer pressure is a thing??? like you're gonna feel so much pressure to do what everyone else is doing! especially as a teenager!!!#like idk. maybe it's different now than when i was younger & it has been a while since i was a teenager but like.#being aro/ace is such a unique queer experience. like we're severely underrepresented & face exclusion even in queer spaces#or from other queer people & i feel like that was not addressed at all this season! & the rep just didn't feel all that thoughtful imo#also there was so much fucking kissing. like you have 8 30-min episodes & your gonna spend 1/2 of it on kiss scenes??#where is the plot!!! the PLOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!#like obviously i'm glad to have the rep since it is so rare & i'm happy that young people will have this character/these words to use#like that is honestly really awesome! & i wish i had that as a teenager!! i just. idk it didn't do it for me#also i do realize i'm not the target demographic for this show but like. idk. i still have thoughts about it#n e way#rainyrambles#dl
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tarkenee · 2 years ago
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i feel so bad my project group probably hates me bc i contribute basically nothinggg but i lichrally don't understand anything abt the topic like i don't get what im supposed to even do
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starpros-sunshine · 3 days ago
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I think the reason I'm so uncomfortable in conversation with cis men is because in my life the image I've grown up with is that from the American movies and while there's so much to be said about how women in those are basically objects or exclusively love interests or just Really Really forgettable I feel like there's also something to be mentioned about how most of these men are all the same pseudo-tough-guy character that's cool and suave and sexy and the only emotion he's capable of is nonchalant banter (it feels worth mentioning that the American movies I'm referring to are all from the last century I have no idea if that's changed in these last years but a gut feeling tells me no) and I also barely talk to the guys from my grade so the result of kind of growing up with that is that I just genuinely can not imagine real cis men with a complex inner emotional landscape. Maybe this is also an empathy thing but I genuinely can not imagine most cishet guys doing normal people things in their free time that aren't gaming or going to the gym or...idk. making music too I suppose. It's quite comical really but I just can not imagine cishet men with interests or doing stuff like having crushes and it's so strange because I know for a fact I am generally speaking not a sexist person but this little tidbit of apparently just not being able to view cishet men as normal people? Can't get that to go away even if I logically know it's silly. There's a point in this post about how toxic masculinity is a huge issue and affects even those not affected by it and runs really really deep or whatever but I'm too tired to coherently put it together. On the positive side now I get really happy when I see men online talk about how much they love their wives and all that because it's like "wow! Crazy you really are just a normal dude and not some James Bond knock-off like I thought every cishet man was supposed to be! Thank god!"
#i also think thats why I like poets so much#i mean sure there's poets that were complicated as people but what other kind of person would actually express emotions like that#you can really get me with men that are just genuienly chill and nice dudes because something in me does not believe they actually exist#and that scares me a little i have to confess that scares me a little#men scare me a little and that's so sad#women too but in a different way#that's just because I'm shy and awkward#thats more fear of the interaction#but with cis men it's just genuine fear of the human being#well more of an intense discomfort but still#i can talk to them but it's always awkward and stilted and I'm stuttering and tripping over words and all that#there's genuienly one man I can have an actual conversation with. one. well besides my father but thats different#it's also that underlying fear of being judged#I can handle being judged by a woman just fine we're on equal footing there we're good#but with men? nope. I just stay quiet before I can say anything dumb#i do wonder sometimes where that came from but I guess it's really just the stuff I grew up with#i mean I was basically raised by movies and audio dramas#and almost all of them were. older. on the older side. but not Old. that stuff came later#surprisingly though there's a whole string of musical comedies from the 30s where the main guys main thing is just thag he's really down bad#for this woman who almost never is also really down bad for him#never really heard talk of being a lovesick teenager who really wanted to go out with that one girl but was always too shy to ask from a man#in an old film. but also not really in real life i won't lie there.#anyways back to topic can we as a society please allow men to be cringefail and sappy in a genuine way instead of pretending to be cool#we need to bring back the romantic era where everyone actually made a big deal out of stuff like friendship and feelings#boy i should sleep
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janeromeroshow · 4 months ago
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i'm always lowkey terrified to post stuff like this bc i'm scared of coming across as "ship hungry" BUT i am fighting the anxiety away today so like this post if you'd be down to ship!!!
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barlowstreet · 1 year ago
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I also think this is kind of just... how dead people work. Or how death works.
Like actually my friend and I were talking about the idea of Sarah being queer and they made a joke about an "AU where Sarah lives and Joel's daughters date," and I was like, "Uhhh like we're getting rid of the time skip there too or?" and they were like, "Oh yeah she'd be old," because they straight up forgot Sarah wouldn't be 14 if she lived.
He can't talk about the adult woman Sarah would have been because he never met that woman (and that is tragic in itself), but that doesn't mean he didn't know her or he doesn't want Ellie to know what she was like.
Joel saying Sarah and Ellie would get on is actually pretty sad because Joel clearly doesn't remember that Sarah would be in her mid-30s now. To him she is always the teenage girl she was when she died.
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