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I feel like if you're using a lot of disposable plastic bags in your day to day life, you've gotta do something sustainable to make up for it. Like using bamboo toilet paper or eco friendly cat litter or something, yknow
Honestly I exaggerate for comedic effect, while I DO routinely use ziplock bags to hold spaghetti I cook maybe once a month and the bag itself is usually for freezer storage. I actually throw out maybe one bag a week? I DO hate washing plates and tupperware and junk but that usually just means I eat sandwiches without a plate.
I agree though that needless waste should be avoided, and I do avoid it- biodegradable bags and recyclables, empty butter tubs used to store leftovers, etc.
This said, though, not applicable necessarily for myself but for a lot of others- I feel that it's importat to remember that there are many people who legitimately NEED things like plastic straws, or catheters, or pre-packaged foods
And the idea that that's a moral failing that individuals need to personally make up for when a single billionaire blows out more CO2 in a long weekend than I will in my whole life on a superjet meet-cute in the Bolivian rainforest between humvee drag races funded by the river-polluting textiles plants they planted in a third world country to avoid EPA laws and give an entire village stillbirths and stomach cancer is an idea that those very same bigwigs have spent a LOT of time and money investing in planting in the public psyche.
Like- Glass bottles are infinitely recyclable, so why are so many drinks in plastic now? Loads of drinks manufacturers used to buy them back and clean them for re-use, so why did they stop? If they chose to make something out of a limited and environmentally irresponsible material, why is it my failing to track down a correct process of disposal for them? What if there are none in my area? Do I lobby for more recycling plants in my area? Do I set aside some of my limited time outside the pain factory of my job- which I have more than one of, thanks to rising costs of things just like that drink I just emptied- to properly dispose of this company's waste FOR them?
Say coca-cola just rolled up to your town and started dumping millions of empty plastic bottles in the street, going, "wow, you should really think about building and staffing a recycling depot, it would be really shameful of you to just put these in the trash." When companies purposefully use materials with limited lifespans- because yes, even plastic can only be reused so many times- and tell you it's your own fault if it harms the environment- that's essentially what they're doing, just with more steps.
Yes, its important to be as environmentally concious as we can in our day to day life, but responsible sustainability is not catholicism. We don't get good boy points from our lord and savior Captain Planet every time the average low-income household gathers together to hold hands and repent for a single-use plastic that allows them to access something they need.
Entire families could eat trees and shit dead lithium batteries for years and still not do as much damage to the planet as an average dye plant or braindead celebrity does in a week just for fun, and I'm mad about it
...this went on longer than intended.
TL/DR: DO recycle and minimize waste, but don't beat yourself up over the little waste you can't avoid, and follow the money.
EDIT: Part 2
#I swear to god if any one of you in the notes calls me terminally online or pretends I'm saying you can just dump bags in the ocean#Yes definitely do your best to live sustainably#But also#You personally are not killing pandas#Unless you are in which case please stop#We put too much money into pandas but let them go in peace#Go do some yoga#Sorry if this is a lot but I have a friend with OCD who has legit panic attacks over stuff like this#Like they have to throw out a ripped plastic grocery bag they've had for six years instead of using it to weave yard furniture or smthn#And they'd go into a spiral about killing the planet#So like#I have strong feelings now
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I dw to go too deep into it bc the emotions are too high and the extremes are not fun places to stir up etc etc etc
but the way post Monza felt like a joint experience in misery for Lando and Oscar that they then took a joint approach to with the media, followed by a joint sense of relief and exuberance following this race...
and I always bang on about their joint decision to not do the whole joint content/bromance PR stuff or post when they have down time/social time together and asked to have both their drivers rooms accessible to only each other behind a door barring everyone else - this is exactly why. the job they have to do individually and together is far easier when they can keep fans and media - and Netflix - on the outside and just get on with it in private.
bc there have been drivers in their thirties with 10+ years of experience who haven't kept things as mature and balanced as these two and while the extremes of fandoms and media are projecting melodramas and hatred and conspiracy theories onto them, they deserve way more credit than they're given for maintaining such consistent unity and calm considering they've been thrown into the hottest oil fire situations with a team still struggling to get used to being front runners again, all while only having been teammates a season and a half and both under 25.
like I always say, I keep fully expecting them to at some point be normal and take swipes at each other sometimes and be in a funk w each other for a week or so before being buddies again etc etc the usual stuff for teammates who like each other but are also close rivals on track in a front runner team. and that may still happen and it still won't be cause for alarm for me! but goddamn they've faced some hellish situations and held their composure and traveled home laughing and smiling together each time and showing up for work at the races or MTC beaming into each other's faces. all while never once having a typical PR bromance to uphold/maintain for fans or therefore benefit from. they're just... wanting and choosing to respect and like each other when they literally don't need to do any more than tolerate each other - and could've stuck with rooms opposite management's offices like they used to. with the amount of people desperate for them to hate each other and the fact that teammate rivalries actually generate more engagement and headlines than friendly teammates like, they're (currently) choosing to huddle together and discuss and reach agreement so they can get back out and do the best they can with a team that's still strategically trying to learn how to be at the front again.
#inchidentallyanessay#landoscar#I've got lots of my stupid fun narrative stuff to write about and catch up on and godddd I am so so sorry to everyone in my inbox#bc I'm writing my stupid fic and it's taking most of my downtime#but also I just have actual legit srs feelings about them and obv they won't see them but I just need to get them out
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Been dead because of my finals and this is one of them xP
#rottmnt#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#rise of the tmnt#i legit wanted to make the whole thing but i ran out of time#i literally needed to turn this in today so hooray for me#also as you can see i don't know shit about animation i'm so sorry if it's bad#my art
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this is the emotional equivalent to a nuke being dropped precisely on my head
#david ferrer#rafael nadal#can you imagine playing the last match of your career and you're playing terribly and you're behind by an insurmountable distance#and your DC teammate of 2 decades-turned-captain tells you to go out there and just play for the love of tennis like when you were a kid...#they can never fire him as captain idc how questionable his picks are he was clearly BORN for these changeover pep talks#sportsman: rafael nadal#sportsman: david ferrer#sport: tennis#higher faster stronger#au where i don't feel like dissolving into tears everytime rafa nadal and david ferrer are within 100 feet of each other#if this didn't make me so emotional it'd be; like. REALLY funny#ferru legit shifted into sports anime mode on those last few changeovers huh#(also to the couple new tennis followers hi i love you all and i'm so sorry about the ways in which i will disappoint you#in particular i am so sorry in advance for what i am about to do when the darts world championship starts lmaooo)
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Heyoo!
I've been hooked on nomads recently so of course I just HAD to draw something
I know the series is pretty angsty right now, so here ya go!
the quartet (I don't know what comes after trio💀) riding on one of the turtles in the sea kingdom
I was admitedly very lazy with the outfit design and honestly I'm not even gonna try and hide the fact that that turtle was 100% traced💀
I wasn't in the mood to do ANOTHER study, which uh... probably explains a lot
Oh wow, I wonder how long that took me to-
oh well😭😭😭😭
hope @captain-juuter (the author) likes it at least💀
#nomads webtoon#nomads#lance nomads#satra nomads#poko nomads#saber nomads#the turtle from nomads#I'm legit kinda upset about the fact that I spent almost thirty hours on this and THAT'S THE QUALITY????#y'all I am regresseing😭#it's downhill from here on out#I am actually so sorry for like everything in that image#The shading is so uneven but I have lost all and any motivation to keep working on it#also the lineart is so💀#aight Imma stop complaining before y'all start thinking I'm fishing for compliments#I really just need to find a way to improve so I'm listing down things I don't like about it#so I can watch out for it in the next thing I draw#if you've actually read all this omg bless your heart#but why waste time like that💀#loser(affectionate)#go do something productive
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can i just say. and this is obviously my bias at play here but. rick and michonne's absence was sorely felt when they left the walking dead but by contrast the only characters from the mothership i want to see on the ones who live are their children lmao
#the only reunion i care about i'm sorry!#but i'm right!#the ones who live#richonne#they are so compelling on their own and towl is so legit. better than anything twd produced in years#'season 9 was a return to quality' you might say.#i mean sure#but at that point the bar was kind of on the floor wasn't it#and from what i've seen of michonne's treatment in her last two seasons well. maybe she should have left earlier
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I was laying in bed overthinking, as you do, and started to go on a depressive doom spiral. And then, to distract myself I started thinking about the things I like.
[Spoilers and some gross details incoming, you know what Mouthwashing is about]
So, eventually I started thinking about Curly being in a similar headspace as I was, laying down, incapable of doing anything, constantly in pain and hearing time and time again how quickly things are going to shit and that it's all your fault.
Him replaying his mistakes over and over on his head, imagining the many ways things could've gone a different way if only he had done something instead of ignoring the issues to "keep the peace".
Remembering every interaction that led to the accident, Anya's confession, his friends poorly disguised resentment, him ignoring and filtering details of his crew's mental state, her taking the gun, the notice, Jimmy.
Him being a coward and disguising his hate of confrontation with the guise of being a good friend.
And then comming back to reality, to is burning flesh. To the blood, shit and bile staining the bandages, robe and bed, to watching and hearing his friends suffer and die, unable to do anything.
When the kid dies, in the midst of all the emotional chaos, he feels some sick sense of relief knowing that probably Swansea will deal with both of them quickly and it'll be over at last.
Then Jimmy finds the gun.
And he can't help but laugh. He remembers the conversation they had and he cackles bitterly because not even in death can her wishes be respected. She trusted him and he failed her even after she was gone.
Soon enough it's just the two of them left.
Through muffled ears he hears Jimmy rambling, talking to himself, asking questions and answering right after, he sees him moving the bodies around. When Jimmy carries him from the infirmary to the common room table he's still as stone, not a sound leaves his mouth, he doesn't look at the bodies thrown on the chairs around the table, he doesn't even breathe.
But all of Jimmy's attention, hatred, idolatry, and envy are on him only. Eyes glossy, cut pieces of a one sided conversation and a tentative smile on his lips when he reaches for the slightly dented knife.
He screams until his lungs close and his throat burns. When he's fed parts of himself he cries and throws up until he is forced to swallow and keep it down.
He's dehidrated, half delirious from the blood loss and emotionally checked out when Jimmy picks him up and tells him they can still fix this, he knows what to do. That he's going home.
Sure, he thinks, he wants to go home.
When he's placed on the cryopod he just stares at Jimmy talk to himself at him some more, about being heroes and everything being all right now. Then he steps out of sight.
It's on the silence after the loud bang when his brain starts working again, he's completely and utterly alone on a crashed ship of a company that's closing it's doors, with a now depleted shipment that wasn't even important enough to guarantee a search party, and no way of fending for himself in the case of 20 years passing and no one coming, even less if the power gave out before that.
As the cryopod finally starts to cool, the few tears he has left fall from his remaining eye.
He hopes he doesn't wake up to see what happens next.
..ok see y'all when I wake up-
#I wish I was better at talking about the themes of the game and characterizing the crew. There's so much I wanna say-#I want to play the game again just to see if I missed anything in here but it's almost 6 am and my brain is shutting down#I would blame stress and insomnia on this but I legit think about this when I come across the tag again#I want to talk about his guilt of wishing he never helped jimmy get the job. how he wished he died first. how his crew didn't deserve it-#and *if* he makes it out. the surviors guilt. the trauma and the pain it would still chase him for the rest of his life#damn. in any sueing case the company could use him being traumatized and vulnerable to make him agree that it was all his fault-#I swear the rest of the time I imagine a what if AU where Jimmy gets yeeted into space by Swansea and they all live happily ever after#this is basically a fic at this point and I'm so sorry but I wrote too much to delete it all now in a state of post revision clarity lmao#me being a dumbass#mouthwashing#tw death#Ideally Anya would be the one throwing him into space. And Swansea would help her bc honestly fuck Jimmy#Curly would be held at arms length until they've gone back home. only left there to pilot them back safely#long ass post#long ass tags
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Game designers/visual artists going "yeah we'll minimize the narrative noise" while having literally zero expertise in storytelling/narration <33333
#thoughts#totk critical#it is SO painfully relatable#once I was in a meeting for a narrative game with designers#from a studio known for narrative games and praised for narrative games#going “yeah I legit don't give a fuck about story at all I just skip everything it's pointless to me I only care about mechanics”#to me and to my face btw!!!!!#here's the thing: verbose self-involved games that are too into their own mediocre story are a thing and they annoy me too#I do 100% agree that interactivity and player involvement will matter more always#(but also!! being engrossed in a good story IS inherently interactive and playful!!!!!! hgnnn!!!! anyway)#fun fact: that game ended up praised for its story and panned for its mechanics so oh well#should have maybe gave more of a fuck about narrative intent and the game would have been better and sold more maybe#crazy how these things happen#anyway sorry I'm a hater today
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Things I won't forgive the fight club movie for regarding the character of Marla Singer, entry C:
The manic pixie dreamgirlification of her own struggle with life and death. The narrator gets to have a serious issue driving his alienation but Marla gets her cancer removed so her pithy statement about the tragedy of death being that she doesn't fall over dead randomly is just a bit Offbeat And Interesting And Edgy haha! She's a real tourist, really, nothing ever stated to be wrong about her. Sure she overdoses. Sure you can see she's got a shit life. But she doesn't get backstory. She doesn't get a life beyond fun little statements that, when her own reason for saying and thinking them is removed, mostly just reflect the narrator. In the book, it is very, very clear. Marla does what she does because she has cancer and is afraid of The Slow Death. The Wasting. The Struggle. By taking that away you even reduce her suicide attempt. It puts it all in this context of nothingness. Sure, you can assume a depth, but I don't think we should be uncritical about the fact that they chose to remove it. Marla Singer is more than an object that bothers the narrator out of the support groups and gets fucked by Tyler Durden. Marla Singer is a person in her own right in the book, and in the movie she's just... not.
#fight club#the other major beefs are: Marla is the one who intervenes and chases the narrator down so he doesnt shoot himself at the end. she's not a#fucking damsel in distress#it's arguable she 'saves'the narrator#those are two interlocking beefs...#secondly taking away her clarity of the situation and thus her own choices in the entire later half .....#in the movie marla arguably never even knows about the split personality thing!!! he doesnt fucking tell her!!! she just suddenly gets#pushed around by big brave masculine man protecting unknowing victim woman who is stupidly resisting#*vomits*#bro in the book marla is keeping this fucker awake. tracking him thru the night#she slaps him across the face#she makes the KNOWING CHOICE to persue him to the parker morris building#to remove her entire reason for how she acts then also make her entirely passive in the latter half of the movie when she was previously#quite active.....#literally aside from this and the defanging of project mayhem i consider this one of the best adaptations of smth ever#but they really fucking let misogyny ruin a major part of the story#sorry this is incorherent i'm just like#this is legit the only way people come up with those 'marla isnt actually real!!' theories too#because she's totally reduced from her own person into a mirage for the narrator's interest
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Social anxiety level: Chatting with someone experiencing a schizophrenic episode and becoming increasingly self-concious of how I'm just saying "That sounds really stressful", "I've never heard of that but it sounds scary", and "You must be pretty worried about that" over and over again
#They needed someone to wait with them while their friend came to pick them up#And the whole time I was waiting for them to call bullshit#Like YOU HAVENT SAID ANYTHING MEANINGFUL YOURE SO BAD AT THIS#I'm sorry I'm making this one about me ma'am I'm just terrified that everyone I talk to is gonna give be a bad grade#I don't understand or beleive most of what you're saying but from the legit science you're quoting I can tell you've done some research#The research stuff I appreciate we can totally talk about that#Please God let me talk about Chordata or HTML instead of the thing I can't see or hear wouthout encouraging your delusion#I'd get SUCH a good grade at discussing invertebrates with you
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Girl, help, the book authors are trying too hard to be "hip" with the fleeting "teen lingo" and trends again, immediately dating their works before they're even released
#eye twitching seeing certain modern slang in for real published books unironically#tiktokian slang that is out of date within weeks#it's a pet peeve of mine but so is modern books mentioning tiktok or stuff at all esp. when not relevant in general#god it pulls you out of the illusion#turns it into this very set in stone time frame rather than letting it just be or resonate on its own which is fine sometimes if natural#you can't avoid some mentions of some things when setting it today but in these cases it's so forced#hello fellow kidz.jpeg vibe in book form#books#this isn't even specific to ya books i've seen it in adult books as well#booklr#petty as i am i once stopped reading a first chapter excerpt for mentioning spotify by name on page 1 i'm sorry#this other book though oh they've used online phrases and boomer insult 3 times and brought up tiktok twice it's on thin f-ing ice#ignore me i'm petty but don't ignore me because this is a legit problem in the media industry#don't even get me started on text speak in the dialogue or texting sections yeah#it's not quite as bad if it's some fake variation of an app or just generic about being online but mentioning by name oh i'm gonna explode#most times anyway#i have yet to see it handled well#this was about slang though so tangent but !! gaah
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As a big sibling with a lil sib with epilepsy, when they read TBC they Honestly thought if they got struck with lightning reciting the lord's prayer they'd be cured like Shadowsight is from their epilepsy. I had a discussion with them on how that's not how it works, but ge was so upset they took it away from Shadowsight that he hasn't picked the books back up and has stated that 'he hopes Ashfur wins and starts a new religion.,'
I do not even know how to respond to this besides saying that your little sibling is 100% right to be pissed and I now also hope Ashfur wins and starts a new religion.
#Legit I did not know that Shadow's epilepsy being taken away was so deeply upsetting to SO MANY people#I put it back because putting it back was just the right thing to do (even asked the small following I had at the time what type to portray#(they picked the full tonic-clonics. I would have just done localized or absence if they'd asked me to)#And I did all that research for one single anon who asked for an epilepsy herb guide#So holy cow I didn't know that SO MANY people were snubbed and upset by canon's choice to do that. I'm so sorry#Your little sib isn't missing anything btw they do just go on to confirm that Shadow no longer has seizures.#In book 4 of TBC they say that it was all Ash all along and that's what they've stuck with into ASC#I'm sitting on an essay about... That plot thread. The Ashfur Grooming one#But it's in my drafts because I was a bit afraid of controversy#because i think it was written poorly. Even on top of Book 4's pivot to retcon away Shadow's seizures#I know a lot of people like and are invested in the grooming subplot of TBC. But. I think it was executed AWFULLY#and its really telling that THIS is the plot they tout as grooming *by name* in-canon.--#--and that Shadow has to 'pay' for what he 'did' in some way as if there was ever a choice in the books they wrote--#--But seemingly didn't even seem to clock that what was happening in Spotted's H was grooming until there was intense backlash#and a big part of my contention is the way that Book 4 suddenly tries to retcon that Shadow was groomed from the time he was a child#when it was actually part of book 1 that Shadow was able to personally tell the difference between a real vision and Ash's suggestions--#--BECAUSE he didn't have an accompanying seizure#So like... just know it's also NOT just 'you' if you connected to the character that was epileptic. It WAS there. It was a BIG part of him#Book 4 retconned it so that his epilepsy was part of a long scheme when before that point it was part of him#''ohh ur destiny is to see into the shadows'' BULL SHIT!!#bone babble
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*crawls up from the grave* I'm behind on... everything, and I'm still not ready to be even remotely active. But I've been looking forward to the Orange and Trigun panels this weekend for months, so I'm still gonna try and do my masterposts--if you see any news/info, pls do feel free to shoot it my way if you don't mind
#Last year Twitter was functional and I could find things myself#Spoons are still... nonexistent#But thank everyone so much for being so kind <3#Legit was about to abandoned ship#If not all of my accounts then Trigun#There are some fucking awful people out there y'know#But the support and understanding really means the world#I'm still gonna have to unfollow/block folks reblogging from the one person and I'M VERY SORRY#But for now#I'm huddled up in a ball hiding from the world#Sorry :'D
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local idiot experiences an emotion (hundreds dead, thousands injured)
#ok so i was like. going through ssri withdrawal for a couple of days bc i didn't realize it would fucking happen#i went fucking insane#and now i'm like. we're back to normal. maybe. here's the issue#i am experiencing so much ANGER everything makes me REALLY ANGRY#and i have a track record for not dealing well with anger (internalizing it completely and wholly)#and i don't know what to DO i'm so pissed off. about what ?? nothing#truly nothing so that makes me MORE angry at MYSELF bc idk what i'm mad about and i want to calm down#legit might go into a corner and start shadowboxing i'm not joking#hurgle says things#sorry for being insane on main it's. the mental illness
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Why do you want to hate Merlin? R
O baba no!! Rationally speaking,i legit love Merlin, have always loved him.
These days, it's just me being irrational and Merlin is main character and I've seen so many bad Arthur takes that I'm kinda fed up. Also cause of my own insecurities, but I promise that's just me being insane.
Whenever I'm able to think like a sane human, I love merlin, he's such a complex, lovable character that you can't not. But I'm in a bad space these days and well, you always need an outlet, Merlin is that kinda outlet for me. Even though I love him...think after sometimes I'd start loving him again, just like I used to do.
#Not right now tho#Pretty sure I love Arthur more#And that's just me trying to hide my biasness?#Idk#I love merlin#But yeah I'm confused#Full of insecurities#So lashing out on main character it is#I legit start crying whenever I see or read smth wrong(according to me)#These days#Hope it'd be over and merlin would again become the person he was inside my mind#Sorry for the rant tho#merlin bbc#and yet here i am#Merlin#merlin emrys#Should I tag#Arthur Pendragon#?#It's not about him tho#bbc merlin
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it's so weird that percy is still being written in books and he's like, a teenager. my nine-year-old cousin is telling me about all these new series with him in it and i'm like no percy is my age why is he trapped in these books
#this is why i'm so wary of sequels#i love how pjo ended and i haven't been able to get through HoO because i just didn't like the storyline that they gave him and annabeth#you know i know pjo had a hfn ending but i want to imagine what happened after that he had a full and happy life#of course it'd still involve the gods and fighting monsters and stuff but i don't want to read about it#(also i hate piper like legit could not stand reading her chapters)#i think if i just read the cliff's notes of the books i've already read and start where i left off i'll be able to get through them lol#but i'm Not reading the trials of apollo#PLUS DOESN'T JACE DIE IN THAT???? LIKE WHAT A BUMMER#i mean i didn't like him either but damn cheap shot#there were characters i fucking LOVED in HoO but i couldn't get over the betrayal of seeing more misfortune befall percy#he was named perseus so he'd have a happy ending! leave him alone richard!!!!!!!!#plus again. i really hated piper.#i'm sorry if i already posted about this i was thinking about it again#rum reads#also re: more books about him#there is legit an actual sixth “pjo” book and i'm like NO?? STOP IT
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