#i'm in my feels okay?

[nephriteknight]

i've made a playlist for my hanahaki-adjacent martin corruption fic! i spent way too much time on this, and it is ordered deliberately ;) it is almost entirely the crane wives because a) the themes!! and b) i just love their music okay. thought i'd highlight some lines from each song, think of it as a tonal sneak peak (can you tell i'm way too invested in this wip? ironically, it is consuming me)

"Feed me promises, keep my heart well, I'll sing you songs until the darkness does recede. But if in the end I lose my voice will you forget about your love for me?" (Canary in a Coal Mine by the Crane Wives)

"I bite my tongue to keep the worst of the words in so they don't hurt nobody but me. Swallow the poison I wanna spit, bitter medicine, I think it's making me sick." (Bitter Medicine by the Crane Wives)

"Oh, the path of least resistance, foolish misinterpretation. Your heart is a nasty place, I'm afraid to say no to you." (Predator by the Crane Wives)

"Folks 'round here are mean, spit fire and gasoline but all I want is solitude. I have half a mind to climb up in the sky and hide myself inside the moon." (New Colors by the Crane Wives)

"I will drown for you, sink to black from blue, and let the water win. Wear you 'round my waist, hold your heart like weight, open my lungs to let you in." (The Diving Bell by the Crane Wives)

"Someone teach me to love without it swallowing me whole. If to love is to be changed I'm only worsening, mosquito larvae in my ribs. He only loves me when I rot like him." (The Bog Bodies by Rabbitology)

"I should be counting blessings, something is better than nothing, isn't it, isn't it, isn't it? It's close enough to perfect, what does it hurt, a little bit?" (Nobody by the Crane Wives)

"All my aching bones are trembling and I may yet fall apart. Won't you stay with me my darling, when the war starts in my heart?" (Curses by the Crane Wives)

"Maybe it's the heat or maybe it's the pain but I can't shake the feeling we're not coming back again. We're not pure of heart but we're true of aim and our heads are full of love and blood and whiskey." (Blood and Whiskey by the Mechanisms)

"Dreams are sweet until they're not. Men are kind until they aren't. Flowers bloom until they rot and fall apart. Is anybody listening? I open my mouth and nothing comes out. Nothing, nothing gonna wake me now." (Flowers from Hadestown)

"There's a wind alive in the valley, it will fill your lungs if you'll have it. Where I go, will you still follow? Will you leave your shaded hollow? Will you greet the daylight looming? Learn to love without consuming?" (Thus Always To Tyrants by the Oh Hellos)

"Come my dear and drink while the water's still cold. I am naught but a scar upon your breastbone. So kiss me quick steal every secret I keep. You can have anything that you want from me." (October by the Crane Wives)

"When it's love turns you sour, only love can turn you back. Stop waiting on the flowers. Blood don't mean a thing in the end." (Caleb Trask by the Crane Wives)

"Been enraptured and tied, turn your ghosts into mine, all the years, all the years I'm alive. Softly a cold wind paints my face into your arms, sell my sorry soul." (Naked, the Night Falls by the Crane Wives)

"The moon will sing a song for me, I loved you like the sun. Bore the shadows that you made with no light of my own." (The Moon Will Sing by the Crane Wives)

"Time will change you. You'll leave behind what doesn't move. We all outgrow our roots." (Time Will Change You by the Crane Wives)

"So lets throw my garden party, you promised roses but gave me thorns. You'd leave me rotting 'til summer's over, guess I'll be digging alone." (Garden Party by Madds Buckley)

"Climb ye higher and higher and higher 'til you're far away and breathing cleaner air. Oh my brother, my brother, my brother who have you become in the wake of all that happened here? They're burning down the orchard to the soil, to the soil, to the grave. Spreading out the ashes of a love that only gave and gave." (Icarus by the Crane Wives)

"So I take a deep breath and turn to be brave. Harvest the fruits of being afraid." (Red Clay by the Crane Wives)

"I thank these walls, my hideaway, my sanctuary to worship the pain. I never thought I'd leave the cave, but I'm more curious than afraid." (Arcturus Beaming)

"I won't bargain, I won't break, my mind made up though my head still aches, and all my love you tried to take but you can't have it all." (Can't Have It All by the Crane Wives)

"I have always known you, you have always been there in my mind. But now I understand you and I will not be part of your designs." (Dear Wormwood by the Oh Hellos)

[mybrainproblems]

"crab, belovedest of crab" sung to la vie en rose for a solid 2min

[mroddmod]

soos was crying behind the camera btw

[satanicdollx]

they should invent friends that do not live so fucking far

[soulmvtes]

sunday nights are for reflecting on your entire life and the fragile state of your present moment and what the future may look like

[hinamie]

in spite of everything, I had fun <3

[lizzybeeee]

When you spend 20 years attempting to bring down the child slavery, murdering, human trafficking exploitation ring that stole your childhood, murdered your friends, and killed countless innocents only to have them rebrand as 'Noble Freedom Fighters™' off-screen.

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

...Turns out gay sex actually was the solution.

(This is basically a redraw, come read the real deal over at Tiger Tiger)

[quadrantadvisor]

Thinking about DP x DC Jason Todd being a revenant again. Here's my scenario. Jason gets called that by some ghost. He's like "what the fuck is that supposed to mean?" He's heard the term before but he doesn't know any actual lore. He googles it. He scrolls past the Leonardo DiCaprio bear movie. He opens the wiki. Sees the words "animated corpse" and gets a chill diwn his spine. He starts reading the first section.

He closes Wikipedia.

That night he has a nightmare that his family buried him, again, this time with precautions. He wakes up in his own grave, full of stones, too heavy to move, to scream.

[cozmic-ash]

help help help I can't stop drawing gay lawyers

Trucy should be brown and I'll die on that hill

The fact that Klavier is 5'11" and Apollo is 5'5" 🥹 I love a height difference

I am convinced they drew Valant's hair Like That (tm) in-game because otherwise we would have all fallen madly in love with him

Wesley is my favorite witness in Apollo Justice, I'm so sorry for my shit taste 😔

I've drawn Godot without a mask before but I wanted to do it Again because I am still enamored with the idea of him having white eyelashes

Aromantic Miles means so much to me

I get that it's probably just the way they drew his jacket but why is Miles's little court sprite so caked though 😭

[egophiliac]

Since book 7 part 5 (the part where we meet Meleanor/Maleanor 👀) is coming to EN this month, i would love to see your take on lilia’s proposal to meleanor! i mean they were like little kids right? it couldn’t have been that serious…i think the only reason she even brought it up again is because she could tell lilia still genuinely loved her…(even if he didn’t realize it himself?) but, oh well! Let’s think about silly childhood shenanigans to numb the pain! ^_^ (orz)

oh shit?! get ready for a doozy guys, it's comiiiiiing ᕕ( ᐛ )ᕗ

I chickened out of posting the whole thing (look, I get VERY carried away when it comes to these wacky kids and their Tragedy), but I do believe that it probably ended with Lilia getting embarrassed and just shoving the first thing he sees into his mouth to try and cover for it.

(we're just lucky it wasn't a frog this time)

[inkskinned]

so one of the things that's so horrifying about birth control is that you have to, like, navigate this incredibly personal choice about your body and yet also face the epitome of misogyny. like, someone in the comments will say it wasn't that bad for me, and you'll be utterly silenced. like, everyone treats birth control like something that's super dirty. like, you have no fucking information or control over this thing because certain powerful people find it icky.

first it was the oral contraceptives. you went on those young, mostly for reasons unrelated to birth control - even your dermatologist suggested them to control your acne. the list of side effects was longer than your arm, and you just stared at it, horrified.

it made you so mentally ill, but you just heard that this was adulthood. that, yes, there are of course side effects, what did you expect. one day you looked up yasmin makes me depressed because surely this was far too intense, and you discovered that over 12,000 lawsuits had been successfully filed against the brand. it remains commonly prescribed on the open market. you switched brands a few times before oral contraceptives stopped being in any way effective. your doctor just, like, shrugged and said you could try a different brand again.

and the thing is that you're a feminist. you know from your own experience that birth control can be lifesaving, and that even when used for birth control - it is necessary healthcare. you have seen it save so many people from such bad situations, yourself included. it is critical that any person has access to birth control, and you would never suggest that we just get rid of all of it.

you were a little skeeved out by the implant (heard too many bad stories about it) and figured - okay, iud. it was some of the worst pain you've ever fucking experienced, and you did it with a small number of tylenol in your system (3), like you were getting your bikini line waxed instead of something practically sewn into your body.

and what's wild is that because sometimes it isn't a painful insertion process, it is vanishingly rare to find a doctor that will actually numb the area. while your doctor was talking to you about which brand to choose, you were thinking about the other ways you've been injured in your life. you thought about how you had a suspicious mole frozen off - something so small and easy - and how they'd numbed a huge area. you thought about when you broke your wrist and didn't actually notice, because you'd thought it was a sprain.

your understanding of pain is that how the human body responds to injury doesn't always relate to the actual pain tolerance of the person - it's more about how lucky that person is physically. maybe they broke it in a perfect way. maybe they happened to get hurt in a place without a lot of nerve endings. some people can handle a broken femur but crumble under a sore tooth. there's no true way to predict how "much" something actually hurts.

in no other situation would it be appropriate for doctors to ignore pain. just because someone can break their wrist and not feel it doesn't mean no one should receive pain meds for a broken wrist. it just means that particular person was lucky about it. it should not define treatment.

in the comments of videos about IUDs, literally thousands of people report agony. blinding, nauseating, soul-crushing agony. they say things like i had 2 kids and this was the worst thing i ever experienced or i literally have a tattoo on my ribs and it felt like a tickle. this thing almost killed me or would rather run into traffic than ever feel that again.

so it's either true that every single person who reports severe pain is exaggerating. or it's true that it's far more likely you will experience pain, rather than "just a pinch." and yet - there's nothing fucking been done about it. it kind of feels like a shrug is layered on top of everything - since technically it's elective, isn't it kind of your fault for agreeing to select it? stop being fearmongering. stop being defensive.

you fucking needed yours. you are almost weirdly protective of it. yours was so important for your physical and mental health. it helped you off hormonal birth control and even started helping some of your symptoms. it still fucking hurt for no fucking reason.

once while recovering from surgery, they offered you like 15 days of vicodin. you only took 2 of them. you've been offered oxy for tonsillitis. you turned down opioids while recovering from your wisdom tooth extraction. everything else has the option. you fucking drove yourself home after it, shocked and quietly weeping, feeling like something very bad had just happened. the nurse that held your hand during the experience looked down at you, tears in her eyes, and said - i know. this is cruelty in action.

and it's fucked up because the conversation is never just "hey, so the way we are doing this is fucking barbaric and doctors should be required to offer serious pain meds" - it's usually something around the lines of "well, it didn't kill you, did it?"

you just found out that removing that little bitch will hurt just as bad. a little pinch like how oral contraceptives have "some" serious symptoms. like your life and pain are expendable or not really important. like maybe we are all hysterical about it?

hysteria comes from the latin word for uterus, which is great!

you stand here at a crossroads. like - this thing is so important. did they really have to make it so fucking dangerous. and why is it that if you make a complaint, you're told - i didn't even want you to have this in the first place. we're told be careful what you wish for. we're told that it's our fault for wanting something so illict; we could simply choose not to need medication. that maybe if we don't like the scraps, we should get ready to starve.

we have been saying for so long - "i'm not asking you to remove the option, i'm asking you to reconsider the risk." this entire time we hear: well, this is what you wanted, isn't it?

[benevolenterrancy]

honestly. if you decided to create giant fucking corpse-head-spiders to populate your world with then this is exactly what you deserve.

[mroddmod]

what cipher has done to my hands

[jazzkrebber]

rip shadow and bone. we would have loved to see dark alina. we would have loved to see matthias finally get out of jail. we would have loved to see kaz learn to love. we would have loved to see zoyalai on screen. we would have loved to see wylan's story. we would have loved to see the ice court heist. we would have loved to see colm fahey. we would have loved to meet kuweii. we would have loved to see jesper get over his gambling addiction. we would have loved to see matthias relearn all he knew for nina. we would have loved to see inej find her family again. we would have loved to see mal find out what life is like without alina. we would have loved to see nina learn to live for herself, instead of her country.

we would have loved to see more of the characters we all know and love.

[sciderman]

How did your meeting go with the surgeons?

it was memorable