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We are ghosts. Ghosts disappear in the light.
word of honor rewatch (11/36)
#word of honor#wohedit#tuserashinlae#tusermona#userhanyi#baek1nho#tuserrowan#flashing lights#*#*woh#*wohrw#rowan look i did it!! after a million years!!!#(it has. quite literally. been 7 months since the last one of these.)#the others in this series have b&w gifs but you know what i forgot to do that so it's whatever#anyways i'm gonna try not to let half a year pass before the next set but no promises
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Misfits water gun fight! Who will emerge victorious? Only one way to find out
I did this piece for one of the @mairumadevizine prints! It was also done long before the beach chapters in the manga and I really just... balled with their designs
#mairimashita! iruma kun#mairuma#m!ik#mairuma devizine#illustration#fanart#purson soi#asmodeus alice#suzuki iruma#valac clara#gaap goemon#agares picero#allocer schneider#sabnock sabro#shax lied#caim kamui#ix elizabetta#crocell kerori#andro m jazz#id in alt#yuno art#tbh I had quite a lot of fun designing the water guns for this piece hehe#I completely forgot that Iruma should have another shirt under the jacket so uuh fanservice I guess <- disappointed in myself fr#also the alt text is slightly a nightmare I didn't know what to write so I'm gonna give some thoughts about what's going on :')#if I had a nickel for everytime I drew the misfits together as a whole I'd have 3 nickels. They are a hivemind.#the 13 goobers
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"Minthara is so abusive to the player" *INCORRECT BUZZER NOISE*
Minthara would literally go to fucking hell for the opportunity to personally beat the absolute shit out of the person who actually did abuse you. She will throw hands with gods and devils just to avenge you.
And you will not be able to convince her not to.
#bg3#baldur's gate#minthara#minthara baenre#evil murder kitten#when i'm having a bad day - i just remind myself that minthara would definitely have some things to say about my parents#i would literally have to hold her back from knocking their lights out#well... id hold her back from one of them. she can have free reign of the other#all you gotta do is whisper a name - and babygurl is gonna go fix it#within 48 - 72 hours - your abuser will go missing under mysterious circumstances#and you do not even need to tell her to do this#she will do everything she can to ensure you can sleep at night knowing your abuser is gone#and can never touch you again#and if you still have doubts - just remember that she made an oath (a divine vow) *to you*#in which she will never harm you nor allow harm to come to you#and to quite literally seek vengeance against all those who have harmed you#ya'll can miss me with your minthara hatecanons and your poorly misunderstood readings of her and the comments taken outta context
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#paldean wooper#alright here we go. the beginning of the end of gen 9#it's the paldean forms‚ retrofit evos#and then we're into the paradox pokémon. which is the end of the line for this blog#ssooooo pretty soon i'm gonna need to start thinking about what to do with this blog once we're done with the pokédex‚ it seems like#never thought this day would come‚ somehow‚ even though i haven't even been running this blog for very long‚ it feels like#it's become part of my daily routine‚ queueing these posts up every morning#i've been doing it for quite a while now that i think about it. i remember queueing up a bunch in advance for my trip to california#which was a whole year ago at this point. damn#time‚ uh. flies?#anyway if you have any semi-last-minute ideas as to what you'd like to see on this blog moving forward#do let me know. by the time this posts i think the queue will already be well into the paradox 'mons#so i'll be thinkin about it by then
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Am I the only one who thinks that damian retiring from superheoring would be the boringest decision on the planet
#fortunately i don't think pkj will have him. retire bc you know. batman and robin comic#but like when dick gets a bartender job I'm not like omg ge#he needs to quit nightwing and become a bartender 😻#he just gets stuff going on in his civilian life#but i feel like the only one withb this read bc ive seen multiple oh hes gonna quit ]#]pists#posts#dc comics#fade reads dc comics#wednesday spoilers#spoilers#batman and robin 2023#damian wayne#robin
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Something I've noticed about being in a small, 'dead' fandom... when you're a content creator, it's like the whole remaining fandom *reacts* when you do anything. I'm in a small but dedicated group of authors for a small fandom. If one of us posts after a dry spell, the rest of us perk up. The fans react. Other creators (like myself) are inspired to make their own stuff.
For a small while, we aren't just small-time creators. It's like we're the franchise itself! Everyone knows when we post stuff. Our content is THE content.
Wow. What a feeling.
#megaman#megaman zx#I love my friends in the ZX fandom#we've got a new author posting 'Scarlet Clouds'#fandom olds and friend like NatGrim start a small landslide whenever they post#I've seen a spark ignite a little when I manage to shove a chapter out#we've had quite the mini-boom this new years#i goddamn live it#fuck you Crapcom#WE are the franchise!#w3 have the power to keep this ybing going#and we are doing so!#....maybe kinda slowly on my part#but gods it's so cool to kbow the actual people making content for the fandom#or even be one of them#suck it Crapcom if you're not gonna do anythhing with Megaman ZX#then I guess we're the official producers by default#stealing the franchise lol#i am slightly drink and taking the piss a little#bit also it's legit you and me and other ZX creators#we all know who we are#our content might as well be official#because we're the only ones making anyghing#and we've all been working on it so long#and frankly?#you know what?#the shit we're making is absolutely fucking glorious#my fellow creators are awesome#don't even get me started in how much I goddamn love the art#ModelXis yes I'm talking about you
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LOST: Season One
#lost#abc lost#lost one cap per ep#this was a project i was gonna do anyways but the timing worked out that i could post the first one on the 20th anniversary!#this is one cap per ep every season. from left to right. and this is important: its not a cap that sums up each ep#its a cap that REPRESENTS each ep. the way i choose them varies every episode#sometimes its an utterly iconic moment. sometimes it reps the theme of the ep. or it hits with a theme of the character themselves#sometimes the cap i use won't even involve the character whose centric episode it is. trust me. this makes sense#anyways i'll give a good example: for outlaws i was so tempted to use a shot of the judgemental soulful gaze of the boar#or perhaps sawyer in the rain after he shot that man#but! i used that shot of sawyer's dads legs as sawyer is hiding under the bed. i feel it worthy because this moment. this scene#is literally a core part of sawyer. it's a defining moment of his backstory. of his character. so yeah. makes sense yeah?#anyways some eps had Too Much going on (lord i could make one of these for exodus part 1 alone) and some not enough#or well they DID but like lacked in caps that Hit in the way im thinking. thank heavens charlie shot ethan cuz i was worried about that ep#i was like ''aw shit what am i gonna use'' and then an iconic lost moment happened kjhfdsjkhfd#anyways. there are 25 eps in season one. so im really glad that the last ep contains one of the moment iconic visuals/moments in all of los#oh i should add that these caps are unedited. i did not fuck with the colours or saturation in any way#i found 'em and i pieced them together. this is harder than it sounds. i browsed through all the screencaps of every ep of season one#and i will do so the remaining five seasons#some of these were super easy like i knew what cap i'd be using before i even started (eg. do no harm. the moth. in translation)#but some took some real Thinking. and some eps even had several caps that would have worked. this has all been quite interesting#also yeah. y'all already know damn well what cap i'm using for the very last episode
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Me: -checking my inbox after being sick all week-
Rando In My Inbox: OMG LAY OFF THE POLITICS AND STICK TO WITCHCRAFT, YOU'RE A WITCH BLOG NOT A POLITICO, YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND THE COMPLEXITIES OF-.....
Me, already blocking and reporting: Welp. Found the fascist trollbot. Or a straight up eejit. Either way. Byeeee.
#figure it out. this is fuckin embarrassing.#yall i'm 40-some years old. i have been around since REAGAN.#when i say shit's fucked and we ought to do something about it by voting instead of fantasizing about a sweeping revolution that won't come#(and wouldn't fix the problems even if it did)#i know from whence i fucking speak#register. vote progressive. get involved locally. educate yourself.#quit deepthroating the moral puritanism boot.#or we're gonna end up with 4+ more years of Orange Hitler and 30 more of Fascist Supreme Court.#now i'm going to eat this soup and go back to bed because i am ILL.#bree in real life#also my blog my rules i'm a grumpy old witch get fuckt
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You doing ok?
hi
#i'm alive. simply being chewed upon by multiple things#work is more stressful than i'd like it to be. for instance i'm hoping that i submitted my time off notification for tomorrow correctly#because otherwise it might read as a no call no show and i would . like to continue having a job#now to be fair. i do have it on the system that i requested it at the beginning of the month and i emailed my supervisor about it last week#so even if i didn't submit it correctly i'm likely in the clear#but nonetheless. i also got a firm talking-to the other day and now i am on ✨thin ice✨ for dicking around too much#because they track ur idle time at my work (computer) and mine was Quite High so my supervisor was like man what the hell is this#but even though she was kind of baffled at me spending so much time dicking around#she couldn't even really be all that mad in the end because i'm still doing good numbers and have made no (zero) mistakes#so she was just like. it's kind of impressive that your numbers look this good when you literally have 50% idle time#so she goes imagine what you could do if you weren't wasting so much time#and yeah i can whip out some Really Good Numbrers when i put the effort in.#so the problem is not my numbers it's just that i'm not spending long enough doing my tasks for the day#but i don't want to drag out those tasks intentionally so i've just been upping my own standards/goals#as much as i hate giving any more of my brain power than is necessary to giant corporations#it's still easy to feel smug after you get Talked To and then immediately turn around and show off#like yeah i coulda been doing this good the whole time. literally pulling up by 20 points. i just didn't want to.#trying to keep everyone's expectations low but accidentally toed the line of um. not working enough to keep my job#...anyway. EAS national weather system issued a . hi#i haven't forgotten about all of you i'm just having trouble tracking all my shit that i got going on ✨ yaaaaaaay#im gonna post things on AO3 soon. i promise. my weakness is that i get sidetracked trying to unwind from work#...i know i said 'soon' last time. but this time for real#asks#not sexy#anonymous
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i like how everyone collectively decided that furina thinks that neuvillette did not forgive her for her lies and neuvillette thinks that furina did not forgive him for the trial, at the same time canon furina: hiiii mind if i borrow the opera house for tonight? no? thanks <3 and canon neuvillette: haha would be so nice if you acted and sang yourself there because i am dying to see you perform and really want to gift you a vision because you deserve the world, haha just kidding... unless?
#genshin impact#genshin#furina#focallette#focalors#neuvifuri#neuvillette#somebody said something about the voicelines#babes i have no idea what they say in the voice lines#i quit some time ago so i'm not gonna know what is written about them somewhere where nobody's gonna look#all i know is the archon quests and furina's story quest#because i don't care about neuvillette enough to watch his story quest lmao 😭
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Me when I'm having a phenomenal day seeing Mel be introduced to league and have cunty dialogue then open twitter and immediately see new fan art of Mel being cucked by Jayvik.
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Let's kill the horse. I'm so tired, Finn. A day of peace is all I want.
#Listen it was funny at first#at least to me because I've only been in the fandom a few months#but its very quickly started to grate on the skin#I suspect some people may think they're punching down#they're not <3#its actually so incredibly disheartening to see constantly relegated to the butt of the joke over and over again#and the way the context is always sexual... like I don't wanna share her with y'all you people are so fucking weird#interestingly have never seen art of Melvika cucking Jayce funny that#funny that Jayce's character flaws have never resulted in the fandom making “meme” content that humiliates him sexually#but thats the only move you have for Mel#Think critically ABEG#arcane#mel medarda#viktor arcane#jayce talis#Because its relevant to these characters specifically#viktor#jayvik#arcane medarda#and I don't wanna hear no I'm going against classic fandom culture#classic fandom culture is racist af#fandom has quite literally always been a breeding ground for racism#I know that White people are always gonna think you're exaggerating when you discuss how insidious and instinctive their racism is#But like IDK its so blatantly obvious at this point#just get a new joke or something#leave Mel out of it#stop subjecting her to this shit istg
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3x12 | Clear
#no thots head empty#thoughts....i mean#Rick Grimes#*#rg#S3#i love me a heavy breathing man#it's art#that is quite the movement richard.....#dare i say thrus-#*glass breaking* *car horn* *cash register*#hi kevin#also his arm hair but i'm not gonna be that weird right now#his b a c k#why are backs attractive#someone call bill nye i need science#excuse me but the nose™#why do rolled up sleeves have so much power#we just don't know
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Obligatory noctilucent post and i probably won't bring it up again:
-been playing since ... whenever they officially launched
-for the longest time the game gave me two chars i had zero interest in , and i sobbed pathetically in Poison Relief when they asked me to tap their dicks
-i originally thought Poison Hotspots were determined by personality, but I'm starting to think it's randomly generated
-now curious if I'll ever have to slap mishe's dick around because the only time i PR'd him , his hotspot was his hand.
-yes ok i see that it is random now but that makes me a lil sad because i wish some chars were exclusively leg freaks or wrist freaks or ThatOneMicroscopicPartoftheHip freaks u know hwwhat i mean
-i learnt that i do not cry pathetically every time the game wants me to Tap Crotch. Only when i must Tap Crotch someone i do not desire carnally
-on that note, why TF havent yall given me someone i desire carnally
-why is a he a top. Ok >, i know why he's a top. But u know wha t? I'm gonna de-top him . Until someone more appealing wanders into my sightline
-im struggling to stay immersed because everyone is so sad but no one is coping in the same way as me (not a single depressed clown in the group from what i see so far)
-yes, the underlying profound sadness. Yes, there's ljttle point to life. Yes, everyone u love is dying. Or. U dont know what it feels to love at all. Ok, but can you do a little song and dance to run from your existential angst
-wAIT are They GIVING ME A CHARACTER I WANT???? NO WAY BOYYEEEEEE hold up i gotta throw mega chowder at this bitcj
-hahaahhahhaahhhahahahahahhaa hyasha and sen being the same element in both their SR and SSR units so they always end up on th3 same team Do Not Separate
-wait omg for real Do Not Separate? For real? Are you realsing me rnMqmam
-cockblocked by chapter 7 boss. It's been weeks. Months. I even saw that announcement where they adjusted chap 7 to be easier..how? Where? I dony see it. I dont feel it. I dont have enough HP in the world
-i have unlocked 2 SSR rooms and both of them have anli coming pathetically multiple times while his partner is like lol that wont do
-and tbh that's great bc i find that more relatable aHAHAHA 3 pump chump anli i get you. . Look at these dudes. Understandable
-why tHe Frck they dint giv me the fishamn
-Fishless. Nocti wont let me be a schooling fish. Guess I'll just sit still like solitary rock on floor forev3r
-ppl who set their arena defense team to their weakest units are the Ultimate Team Players and i will vouch as their reference for anyone seeking to hire them
-nice tits, sir. How about you bring em a lil closer so i can clear the 9-turn mission on that lightning team stage
-PPWERBOTTOM POWEBRBUTTONPOWERMBOTTOMPOWERBKTOTOMYEEEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA?!?!??!?!?!??!??!?!??!?!?!?!?!!????%GIMMEGIMEMMEGIEM
-legit not sure how long this game will keep me in its little claws. It doesn't have the same teehee factor as nuca . And the porn is certainly... serious? Poignant porn??? I can't take the serious seriously u feel me
-[timeskip] and yet here i remain,grind'd to level 58 to uncork the cockblock on ch7
#noctilucent: before dawn#i do my dailies in a ritual circle#start with the friends list and go counterclockwise#i am buying out the stopwatches from every store because i am tired of waiting for battles to finish#this feels similar to when i played twst and ultimately quit because i couldn't Instant Auto everything#i don't even touch the Ruins options#the only times i went thru the Ruins was... when i was idly eating#and had time to waste. just letting the battles play out while i did my thing#BUT THE RUINS HAVE TOO MANY BATTLES and i don't need materials THAT badly#game aint giving me many chars to upgrade with those materials!!!!!! ya know!!!!!! the curse of gacha#i'm still mad that they didn't give me hyasha#i want that angry little creature's lore#I HAVE SEN. COME ON. *dangles him in front of the redhead* ARE YOU GONNA FOLLOW THE 'DO NOT SEPARATE' RULE OR NOT
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I very badly wanted Jo to have a hashtag feminism arc where she latched onto Poppy and acted as her assistant... the power would go to Poppy's head and Jo would slowly absorb pieces of Poppy's terrible personality and they would both get worse... yeah I would have liked that a lot I think :)
#id in alt text!#i know jo's going to have something going on w dana season 4 but i honestly think that's gonna be more her learning to treat dana as an equ#this is probably early season dynamics ideally tho... maybe even season one?#anyway!! i've developed an obsession and i will def write fanfic so watch this space. or don't i'm very unreliable generally#quite proud of these since i was trying to get a feel for drawing the characters. top drawing poppy is definitely my favourite one here#this is ooc also. but i don;t care i had fun with it#my art :)#mythic quest#poppy li#poppy liwanag#jo mythic quest
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Fluent Freshman - Part 32
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He had the first week back from Thanksgiving break off from both classes and practice.
The week off of classes leaves FF feeling like getting stabbed has been a net positive experience for him.
First he feels like it really cemented the apparent friendship he had with at least Andrew and Neil. Second, he technically had a job offer in his Freshman year. Third, and most important, his language professor who had wanted him to come and speak to his gen-ed Latin class of over 100 students told him not to worry about it and that he had gotten one of FF’s friends to agree to the presentation instead.
His relief was so immediate and all-consuming that he hadn’t even had the energy to pretend he was upset that he had been replaced. Thankfully his teacher just chalked it up to relief that he wouldn’t have to stand up and present when his stomach was healing from the surgery.
Coach Wymack and Abby wouldn’t even let him go to the Court. Kevin had tried to argue quite a few times on Sunday when that decision had been made. Argued that he could sit in and watch for strategy purposes if nothing else.
However, even Kevin couldn’t guarantee that FF wouldn’t get accidentally run into / knocked against considering his complete lack of presence.
Matt had rushed into Abby’s house having made a bee-line for it upon reaching the airport. “Smiths! You got stabbed!” Matt yelled as if informing him of his own predicament.
“Yeah.” FF agreed as if it were something that could have been debated.
“What happened?! Nicky just sent a pic of the flowers he got you and the card?” Matt had asked pulling his backpack off his shoulder and to his front as he unzipped it and rooted around for something before pulling out an orange envelope. “This is from me and Dan, you remember her right?” Matt had asked.
FF thought of quiet conversations he has overheard over the phone and not so quiet noises Matt makes when engaging in some phone sex with his girlfriend.
“Yes, I remember Dan.” FF had said diplomatically and accepted the card.
The card was sitting on the nightstand at Abby’s house next to the card the Monsters, his grandma, other teammates, and some cards from friends he had made outside of Exy. It feels nice to look at the multiple cards all wishing him well.
His Grandma was going to stay for two weeks and Abby was being incredibly kind to put them up
He spent most of that week sleeping, spending time with his grandma, getting yelled at by Abby for trying to do chores, and spending time with the Foxes that came to visit him.
Nicky had come over to hang out every day without fail. Most of the upperclassmen who were on the original ‘miracle’ team of the Foxes stopped in to see him regularly. Even Jack stopped in to complain about how Captain Neil presented a danger to the rest of them before giving him a Get Well Soon card and leaving.
It was a strangely thoughtful card that he’s near positive Jack’s girlfriend picked out for him. When the end of the week and the first game that FF would need to sit out from approached Coach Wymack asked if he wanted to come.
“You can’t play, but you’re still a Fox.” Wymack had said and his grandma had encouraged him to go and spend time with his friends. She’d hold down the fort for Abby, cook up a bunch of food for the the team to enjoy when they got back late.
So FF climbed onto the bus and sat next to Nicky who had declared himself FF’s bodyguard for the evening who’s safety he would only pass off to Coach Wymack during the game proper.
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They’ve come so damn far from the worst team in the Division. His kids are thriving and because of that he’s gotten a larger budget. A larger budget to better help his kids with. David would be lying if he said he didn’t spend some nights wishing he could tell himself of a few years ago just how good it would get.
Still, the match is a lot closer than it should be.
He looks to his side and sees FF sitting there watching the game with rapt attention.
He looks as Sheena fumbles a pass that his newest problem child had mastered the timing of a month before. He sees Kevin’s shoulders go up in anger but Neil’s quick reflexes save it before the play is fully fumbled.
Neil makes a feint to pass to Kevin and the goal lights up putting them in the lead by 2 goals. David thinks of the numerous plays that would have gone smoother with the kid next to him playing instead of Sheena but there was no point in wishing for things that couldn’t be.
FF wouldn’t be playing until the Spring Championships started up and David would need to address FF’s medical hiatus and Lisa’s ‘family emergency’ that had her leaving the team.
It always stung when a Fox left but it hurt less when it was of their own volition instead of in a body bag.
He looks to the side again and thinks of the numerous decisions he had needed to make as Kevin slept in the car on the way to the hospital. Honestly, if he still was thinking about going after the hospital.
How the fuck did the hospital just leave the damn kid in a hallway for over an hour? He hates the thought of FF laying there in pain and bleeding watching as people went by.
He’s grateful that the kid didn’t seem to remember it.
He wasn’t going to mention it to any of the other Foxes, not even FF if he could swing it. He has no doubt that at the very least Andrew and Neil would go on a rampage and he’s near positive that Kevin would take special delight in it considering a week on he was still bitching about what he had seen in the Nutritionist office.
He’s not sure what Nicky would do but he knows it’d give him a headache.
Nicky takes a hard hit that has him subbed out for one of the freshman backliners. Nicky’s a little woozy and Abby confirms a very slight concussion that she’ll keep an eye on during the trip back.
They win by slimmer margins than they should but it’s to be expected.
“Coach Wymack?” FF asks.
“What’s up?” David asks.
“I’m going to go to the bathroom. It...uh...well it takes a while now.” FF says and David can read the embarrassment.
“Meet us at the bus. Be careful.” he orders.
FF nods and heads off.
Neil and Matt are on press duty and David preps the press to let them know about FF and Lisa. There are some questions about what kind of medical hiatus but David declined to answer knowing that Neil and Matt wouldn’t let it slip either.
His last two players get showered and on the bus.
He does a count and gets the correct number and starts the bus.
They’re just about to get on the highway when there’s a shout, “Wait! Where’s Smithy?!” Nicky exclaims full volume over the general conversation that had been going on throughout the bus.
David frowns, he had counted-
Abby. He had counted Abby’s head next to Nicky.
“Oh god dammit.” he says.
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FF looked at where the bus should have been waiting for him.
He closes his eyes and hopes that the bus will appear between blinks.
He opens his eyes again and finds...nope just fans milling about heading to their own cars and home. He gives a hopeful look across the parking lot wondering if the bus maybe just got moved back somewhere so that they could get out easier after he went and made them wait?
A lot of people. Some kids. Some disappointed Belmonte fans. Some excited Fox fans. Some general Exy fanatics who were discussing what the Belmonte team would need to do to stay in for the Spring Championships.
No Palmetto State Fox team bus.
He swallows a bit of disappointment and moves past it.
He pulled up his phone to plug in Abby’s house and saw that it would be a 4 day hike from Belmonte. He looked down at his shoes contemplating if they’d make the over 300 miles of walking. The doctors and Abby had been very clear not to do too much exercise but surely it wouldn’t count since he was just going to walk? They said walking was fine right?
FF sighed at the thought.
Yeah, it wasn’t going to work.
His stomach hurts at the thought of a 5 hour car ride. Maybe there was a bus station nearby and he could make his way back via greyhound.
He was looking at his phone again when it started to ring and Nicky’s face was on his screen to let him know who the caller was.
He hit the answer button, “Hello-“
There was an inhale and FF had been on the receiving end of this quite a few times at this point so he held his phone the entire length of his arm away from his ear, “SMITHY, ARE YOU ON THE BUS OR DID WE FORGET YOU?!” Nicky screeches and it hurts his ears even from an entire arms length away. He wonders how in the world Nicky can stand being that loud with his minor concussion.
He stares at his phone dubiously for a few moments, worried that Nicky may shout again.
“Smithy?! Smithy?” He hears Nicky’s not quite as loud but very concerned voice. FF decides to bite the bullet.
“Hello Nicky, I am not on the bus.” He says.
“We fucking LEFT SMITHY!” Nicky yells and FF can hear a collective groan from across the line.
He may even hear Coach Wymack yelling something about ‘again’ and feels shame burn in his stomach. He should have just held in his pee. He hadn’t really needed to go that badly and it’s not like Coach Wymack doesn’t take bathroom breaks.
“It’s okay.” He rushes to assure Nicky. “I can…grab a bus or something. You don’t need to come back, I’m-“
“Young man, if you say that you’re fine I can not be held responsible for what I will do when I see you in the next 20 minutes.” Nicky threatens. “I also can’t be held responsible for what I’ll do to Neil since I feel like he’s infected you somehow.” He says.
He hears a distant “Hey” followed by an even more distant “Man, I hate to say it but I think he’s right.”
“I don’t want to bother you.” He says.
“Smithy, you are so far from a bother it is insane. How about I stay on the line with you okay?” Nicky asks but something has caught his eye.
Two kids haven’t moved as the rest of the world continued to. He watched as they clung to one another and no one seemed to take notice of them. He doesn’t understand how anyone could miss them with the bright orange children’s jerseys they had on. One sporting 01 - Josten and the other 10 - Josten on the backs.
“That’s okay Nicky. Call me when you’re close.” He says and makes his way over.
He can see the little boy’s hand holding the little girl’s hand tightly and is careful to walk around them in a way so that he wouldn’t appear out of nowhere. “Hey,” he squatted down to their height and the little boy still jumped slightly, dropping a small book to the ground, and the little girl hid her face in his shoulder. “Sorry, I didn’t mean to startle you. I just noticed you looked a little lost.” He says and his muscles won’t pull in a way to offer a reassuring smile but he hopes he can convey it through his tone.
The little boy visibly swallows down nervous spit, “I’m not supposed to talk to strangers.” He says holding on tighter to the little girl.
“Smart, continue to do that.” He says immediately, “Can you just nod yes or no for me?” He asks instead.
The boy thinks for a long moment before nodding affirmatively.
“Great, good job.” He says, “Did you come to the stadium with your parents?” He asks
A nod in the affirmative.
“Do your parents know where you are?” He asks.
He shakes his head in a negative.
“Are you lost?” He asks.
Another negative.
“So you mean to be right here?” He wants to clarify.
A nod in the affirmative this time.
FF takes a moment to piece together what he knows and looks down at the book.
An autograph book. “Oh, you wanted to get an autograph from Captain Neil?” he asks.
The little boy looks up but it’s the little girl who answers. She finally takes her face out from his shoulder. FF’s eyes can’t help but see the large burn scar on her cheek but also see how her eyes sparkle with delight, “You know Captain Josten?!” she exclaims in delight.
“Millie!” The young boy says. “He’s a stranger!” he hisses.
“Nu-uh!” she shakes her head, “Number 13!” she points at his jersey he had worn in solidarity. “He passes to Captain Josten!” she says brightly. “See Brandon?” she smiles.
It could just be a fan jersey though FF highly doubts that anyone would buy fan merch for him. He is no Kevin Day, Captain Neil Josten, or Andrew Minyard.
Still the little boy, Brandon, looks at him with wide eyes, “You’re Smith?” he asks.
“Yeah.” FF nods, “Captain Neil is my Captain.” he says.
“I love Captain Josten! I wanna marry him!” Millie says and FF can’t help but wonder if Andrew would squash such adorable competition. “His face is like mine!” she giggles.
“Yeah, your face is as cool as Captain Neil’s is.” FF agrees with completely sincerity.
“We came out here to get Captain Josten’s signature” Brandon says with a pout, “All the adults were in the way and it was...kind of scary.” he admits with a flush.
A thought occurs to him. He doesn’t want to leave these kids and brave the crowds to find someone to announce the lost kids. It would only be about 12 more minutes before the bus comes. Coach Wymack would be able to help and...
“They’re coming to pick me up pretty soon. How about we stay right here and we can get Captain Neil’s autograph together?” he asks.
Both kids light up at the idea. “Really?” they both ask.
“Yeah, I also want Captain Neil’s autograph.” he says because he does. He’s wanted Captain Neil’s autograph for AGES but had been too awkward to ask. Then Greg had come and made it seem like FF would want it just to sell it or something.
Now he has the perfect excuse.
***
David pulled into the spot he had left almost half an hour ago and barely managed to put the bus into park before most of his more senior players were prying the door open to go look for FF.
Nicky had called but FF hadn’t picked up and it had set his more paranoid players’ teeth on edge.
The only one that stayed on the bus was Nicky since Abby had a firm grip on him.
David sighed and told everyone else to stay put before exiting the bus and began the herculean effort of trying to spot FF in a crowd.
It actually wasn’t too hard as he found his players standing and watching as FF crouched with his back to them as two little kids in orange Fox jerseys were re-enacting something for him.
He’d be tempted to let them keep going if he didn’t remember Abby’s list of specific things FF shouldn’t do with his still healing stomach and squatting like that was definitely on the list.
“Smith.” he says and watches as the Freshman jolts and tips over, thankfully onto his side, from his squatted position.
The kids get nervous when they see him but then their eyes both lock on Neil’s face. For a moment his heart aches for his player, plenty of kids have cried about Neil’s scars but then his eyes land on the little girl’s face more properly and...
Oh...
Those are stars in her eyes. David looks at the two different Josten kids jerseys that the Palmetto store had released.
FF recovers from his tumble admirably, “Coach Wymack,” he says getting up onto his feet. “These two are lost, can you see if there’s a way to contact their parents?” he asks.
David nods and pulls out his phone and steps away slightly.
He watches over the interaction that happens next.
**
As promised, FF had taken the awkward lead of asking for it and had them form a line. It had been weird but he watched as understanding dawned in Captain Neil’s eyes as he saw the two Josten jerseys. It had felt even less weird to get Captain Neil’s autograph when Matt had jokingly gotten in line behind Brandon because he too wanted Captain Neil’s autograph.
FF felt a little bad that Captain Neil had been so flustered by the requests but at least he finally had the Captain Neil autograph he’d wanted since last March. It also felt nice when Captain Neil had smiled the way he did at Millie when she babbled about how they matched.
Andrew had bumped into him in the way that FF was learning meant that he was pleased with whatever FF had just done. Kevin and Aaron had been the ones to ask if his stitches were okay after his startled tumble.
Millie and Brandon’s parents were incredibly grateful and swore to continue to be lifelong fans of the Foxes. Millie and Brandon themselves had been more excited about their Captain Neil Josten autographs than being reunited with their parents. They had waved goodbye with Millie loudly proclaiming that her and Captain Neil would get married someday.
Climbing onto the bus he was subjected to a check over by Abby when both Kevin and Aaron dragged him to her. Then he was sat down next to Nicky who shoved him into the window seat and cuddled up. “I won’t lose track of you if I’m on you.” was his logic.
The bus ride resumed.
“I didn’t know you liked kids.” Nicky says head on FF’s shoulder. “I’ve watched you go to the other side of the street to avoid middle school kids.” he adds.
FF feels ice in his stomach.
“Middle school kids are mean.” FF says and doesn’t properly answer the question but Nicky is just concussed enough to not call him on it.
MASTERPOST FOR ALL PARTS OF FLUENT FRESHMAN AU
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Like I said in my last part I will be tagging people separate from the actual update going forward. Still any requests to be added to the tag list feel free to put in the replies here.
#Fluent Freshman AU#Nicky was getting ready to call any and all local dairy farmers#to start the 'have you seen me?' campaign#Nicky was also trying to figure out how to tell Aras that he lost her entire grandson#He may have been freaking out in the bus with Abby#'I'm gonna lose GRANDSON PRIVILEGES ALL OVER AGAIN#Thankfully FF wasn't far and now Nicky knows to just truly superglue himself to FF. Buddy system for life#Yeah so you may have caught it in the previous bit#part 27#Andrew and Neil's concern about FF getting forgotten in a hallway did actually happen#and FF passed out there#Only Wymack's call for an update galvanized them to find him and start helping him#The Foxes get back and GS has a bunch of Tupperwear#full of delicious food for them since it's so late#Nicky and Matt are halfway through getting her a custom 'Foxy Grandma' Jersey#She's discovered quite a bit more knitting to be done for FF's friends#That sweet boy Matt deserves a knitted present too#Maybe even that brash young man Jack should get in on the GS knitted presents train#Well now it's out there in the world that FF is on a medical Hiatus#I'm sure nothing will happen#this is a lie I know the chain of events that are to follow#AFTG#AFTG AU#AFTG OC#Andreil#FF - Part 32
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There are two wolves inside me. One wants to embrace a new hobby in dance so I can be active and feel elegant and graceful and strong. This wolf wants to try something new and exciting, finally indulging in something I've always had an interest in.
The other experiences such frustrating emotions on a near daily basis that I want to go back to boxing, which is arguably easier to break into since I've already done it before. This wolf doesn't think of elegance, she just wants to fuck shit up until her body's so overworked and warm it fogs up car windows without having to do anything but sit inside.
Which one do I fucking feed??
#t. lee woes#like. do you know how hard it is trying to start something new that you've never done at all ever before??#and you've got no mode of transport until december - and ONLY if things go well#and now you're contemplating ways to mkre regularly earn a bit of money to afford the classes since paying weekly means my income#would wind up like $9 a fortnight since $40 would be spent by the end of each fortnight#it wouldn't necessarily be stagnant but it's not a desirable position to be in#I still have stuff saved up in a jar but I'm always hesitant to dip into that stuff#originally it was going toward a violin and lessons for that but I'm putting it off in favour of something a bit easier to dedicate time to#boxing is easy. in fact I could get support from my fam for that cause they like it#they don't see the point in dancing but I really want to at least try it and I'm worried about affording each term if I do end up liking it#also I already have boxing gear from before#but I'm hesitant about boxing at the moment for a lot of reasons I can't quite articulate but weirdly might have something to do with#internalised misogyny and biases... which is WILD cause my dad supports women learning martial arts#I can't do karate though I tried that and the class drove me a little insane#and it doesn't push you the same way boxing does and I really like to be pushed#if I don't leave sweating and hot and lungs and muscles aching then what's the point?? I can do mediocre exercise at home#and find more intense martial arts classes that also teach other kinds of self-defense#it's like... ehhhh#anyway but also I want to do something that's for fun that isn't so Serious Fight Mode#hence dancing#but I can only afford one not both and basically I'm grumpy today cause I was gonna trial a dance class - got ready and everything - but#my ride was suddenly unavailable. and I still can't stomach public transport. nor am I good at navigating it#it feels so different here compared to where I used to live - and I knew trains better not buses
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