#i'm gonna go now because i think i'm rambling and i don't actually have a point

[naomihatake]

LaDs' Rafayel rambling — "Oceanic Nightfall" tender moments

!!!!!slight poilers ahead. I also made a comparison with Caleb after his return (*cough*, coming back from the dead - it's written in a small font if you wanna avoid reading it)

This man is so special to me, to be honest. Last night I watched one of his limited Tender Moments card, Oceanic Nightfall — and when I tell you that I was absolutely flabbergasted with how angsty it was. I saw the card's image and thought "oh, this is gonna be spicy". I was so mistaken, oh Gods 🥲

That card is anything but spicy; sure, there's a lot of tension between them in the second half of the card, my heart was doing gymnastics when she entered on him being ass naked in the bathtub with a paintbrush in his hand. I hadn't expected him to be so shameless, considering I don't think at that point they were exactly lovers (or probably just at the delicate line between friends and lovers). Not that surprising, because it's Rafayel, after all; he does act strange a lot of the time if we take into account the usual standards.

I adore the fact that MC didn't walk away and the fact that she didn't give in easily. She told him square in the face that his manipulation tactics don't go unnoticed by her and I absolutely adore that, lol. Yes, gurl, say it out loud for everyone to hear.

Also, she calls him annoying and he seems to be pleased by that. Rafayel is so pleased with the fact that she does view him differently than others.

I have to admit that his tantrum with the glass had my jaw drop to the floor because I absolutely despise such behavior — I am hater through and through of that gesture, especially since she hadn't done something deserving of such a reaction.

Let's take another scenario as a comparison: when MC throws a glass at Caleb for what he's done to her, for locking her in his apartment and being an ass with his overprotective, obsessive tendencies. I completely understand her point of view and I think he deserved it, to be frank (as someone that appreciates and loves him as a character overall). I think she should've done worse, if you ask me, but that's another story (I am a hater of controlling behavior, sorry not sorry)

Actually, Rafayel's gesture triggered me. It took me several seconds to process what happened because I couldn't believe it — to the point I'm not even sure if the glass just slipped from his hand or if he really threw it on the floor (I'll do a rerun of that card just to be sure, but I don't think I misinterpreted it).

Despite it all, that made me fall for his character even more. This is a card from the beginning of their relationship, since before they even got a chance to kiss, so I think that makes it even more interesting. In later cards and events, it is shown how complex Rafayel is; he is deeply in love with her and stops his manipulative tendencies. The only people he's cruel with have nothing to do with her. Their begining seems very abrupt and he does act like an absolute menace, like a pitiful crybaby sometimes.

Later on, these moments just end up being part of who he is as a person. I know I kind of bullied him in this post until now. Truth be told, he's very mature and he's shown as being a very wise person, regardless of his childish tantrums — and they're not even exactly childish, they're just part of a very troubled personality. He's shown taking care of MC, protecting her, giving her wise advice in a way someone very old would. His soul is, indeed, old, especially since he remembers his past lives. He's watched the world change and crumble before his eyes and he's still there, in Linkon.

Rafayel can be a child in a good way, like the time when they ran in the rain together because he never did that (he's a Lemurian, it doesn't rain underwater); in several tender moments, he encourages MC to be kinder with herself, to find herself in the small things of life, to pursue her little dreams and the bigger ones. His devotion to her is undeniable, and as time passes by, there are less and less tantrums from him. It's almost as if he's found his own emotional security and stability once she appeared in his life.

Even in this card, Oceanic Nightfall, Rafayel tells her that he's changed since she appeared in his life. She questions his strange behavior and it seems like he's a bit self destructive — that makes him such a relatable and real character.

Rafayel is full of flaws and insecurities and they make him so much more beautiful; he's perfect because of his own imperfections and I love him that way. He shows that he tries to change for the better, even if it's shown as a slow process. Also, he does that for her alone. He doesn't care about other people and I think that's very interesting. I like him a little cruel, a little heartless; he has all the rights to be, considering his life (or lives) as a Lemurian.

Also, if anyone has some thoughts about this, you can share them <3 I'd be happy to hear some more opinions on this (I know that the Rafayel girlies are down bad for him exactly because he's got a twisted personality and I wholeheartedly agree 😫)

[ageofkarme]

Karme was so certain that he'd have to try harder to convince Polaris to sculpt him with a scythe that he didn't realize what the heavy pole was for at first. The realization hit him and he started buzzing. "Is this for my death scythe? I'm gonna look so cool! How big can we make it because I met the Dior once and he made me one with lots and lots of blades on it and that mockup was awesome and we could do something like that and I can even try to pose with it in different angles so maybe the sculpture looks like it has some motion and—

In any other situation, Karme would've gone on for much longer than he did. His brain was always jumping ahead and fixating on random details, so he missed what Polaris was doing for a few moments. Firm hands on his body manipulating his form like clay, the heat of the other's proximity and the intense focus that was nearly palpable hit Karme all at once, too, clipping his rambling off as he unconsciously held his breath. The quiet felt heavy, but he was mesmerized by watching Polaris amid his creative process. Karme didn't want to interfere.

He exhaled only after he heard the word 'perfect'. A simple word that he never heard to describe himself, he suddenly felt exposed on the stand in a way that warmed him. "Sorry, I probably shouldn't give unsolicited input, huh?" he concedes with a chuckle, stepping down and carefully setting the pole aside. Karme wanted to swing it around, but he could think of a number of ways that might go wrong. "Especially not since I want to see how I look through your eyes. I don't know, it'd be cool. And I'd get the best seat in the house when we actually start. I'll practice standing still … starting tomorrow. I'm too excited to see all your sculptures to chill out now!"

One of many of Polaris's burgeoning guilty pleasures was watching the other gather up some courage, only for it to dissolve into a litany of blunderous half-spoken words. He'd spare Karme any further disintegration, at least for a few short moments.

Every time someone said their best side, Polaris found a correction that needed to be made. Looking around as Karme flopped around and called it posing, he found a long pole that the other could hold. Karme was adamant he should have a scythe but the pole was a good stand-in for whatever Polaris inevitably decided to place in the witch's hand. "Here-" He said, "hold this," Polaris stepped onto the raised platform and moved to stand behind the other, maneuvering the man's frame in the following ways: tilting his head back, pressing a hand to Karme's chest while the other found the small of his back, moving his arm, lowering one shoulder - kicking out one foot to slightly bend the knee.

Polaris appraised every line, holding his own posture as he traced the other's body with his eyes while hovering in Karme's atmosphere. The sculptor abandoned personal space some time ago, now every time he breathed he could smell the enthusiasm coming off the witch in waves. "There." Polaris stated with some finality before he took a step back, stepped down, and looked up at Karme. "Perfect." Polaris undid the buttons on his overcoat before shrugging it off, rolling his sleeves as he'd done in the other's workshop. He smiled, then gestured with his chin - Gods knew he wasn't going to start working tonight. "You can come down now."

[silverselfshippingchaos]

the fact that j.oongi doesn't show up until the second to last chapter of y.akuza 8.............. how else am I gonna be motivated to play? /j

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

it's like. everything happens so much. it's all happening right now but at the same time nothing is happening whatsoever. it's a liminal space of an existence. it's slowly crushing me under the weight but when I look up there's nothing actually bearing down on me. there shouldn't be any weight. something is wrong but nothing has happened. I'm simultaneously overwhelmed and utterly bored. nothing is happening and maybe that's the everything that's happening. maybe the everything is the nothing. we aren't there yet but it's all so imminent. either everything is going to crash down or nothing is. I'm just waiting to figure out which.

[knifegremliin]

god it's so nice to be doing art again

[e77y]

Procrastinating so hard even though this is a fun topic about my embarrassing old interest... It's literally an excuse to infodump WHY am I procrastinating 😭

[theydoctor]

List 5 things that make you happy, then put this in the askbox for the last 10 people who liked or reblogged something from you! Get to know your mutuals and followers✨ no pressure tho! ( ◕◡◕)っ ♡

(This is really hard btw because the last 80 reblogs in my notifications are just you and your Patrick insanity xD)

wdym i did absolutely not go insane over patrick (also you're to blame tss)

oki uhmm

- You <3

- bisexual people.

- jon & martin (except for when they make me cry)

- not dying ?

- punctual trains

[highlifeboat]

No thoughts only under appreciated OC Elizabeta

[that-foul-legacy-lover]

just finished my work for tonight so now it's on to working on my writing- probably won't be online a whole lot tonight but i'll try to drop a lil brainrot before i go to bed!! >:D

on a sidenote the temptation to slip Baizhu into my next chapter of Blessed Heir of the Abyss is SO STRONG HHHHHH

[prick-love-for-pricking]

Me vs the instinct to chug

[threadmonster]

I don't really know how to describe the feeling? FOMO somehow, maybe? I don't like it though.

It's like when there's two or three popular anime series and everyone is only talking about them and you just sit there after giving them a try like, "yeah, okay I see the appeal but... *munches on some popcorn while rewatching an anime from 10 years ago*"

I don't hate the series that this applies to. I kinda feel like maybe I just don't get it? I have felt this way even in middle school about books.

This is more about experiences outside of tumblr.

[thedissociatives]

describing my college experience as "interesting" in my personal statement even though i know that doesn't even begin to cover it

[youremyonlyhope]

I really should know better than to watch dumb romcoms while I'm 90% sure I'm ovulating.

This time it was Netflix's Love in the Villa trying to make me cry.

[silverselfshippingchaos]

oh no. please no. no...

[arolesbianism]

Alright boys pack it up no more rain world posting new oni dlc is coming out in less than a week

[applejarjar]

realizing I missed my window to have a very important and soul bearing conversation with my boss