#i'm feeling super self conscious about how i look rn

[sadthixx]

since today's halloween I'm cosplaying as KAITOOOOO

i feel like i'm living one of my childhood dreams rn, i've always wanted to cosplay as him when i was younger and now I'm so happy to finally cosplay him 🥹🥹

more photos of me with my plushies!! all of them are so cute and i just absolutely love them sm, i'm so proud of how much Kaito merch i got/made over the years 💙💙

[guardian5tiger3]

Waddup B) . Another general reading

Pick an album ! -

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1. Ice cube group

In da house!! Haha I feel like y'all in da energy of being bout yo money. Or the color green is significant. Shoot y'all might be about the green rn if u kno . This doesn't have to be a super conscious thing a lot of you either way though are in the energy of richness like that so you gonna be attracting money or it's because you're destined to be prosperous at this time or in the near future like that. For some of you it's because you're supposed to use that to help get rid of some form of negativity in the past some how. Others of you should consider getting a new pet if that will make your heart happy you know or confirmation if that's what u been thinking bout. Spirit wants you to make sure you're open to receiving at this time and in the future though cause some of you have an imbalance were you're a bit too humble maybe struggling with your own worth and self perception and this is making me feel sad so I'm really sorry and you guys need to maybe use your logic to conclude it's only the truth that you're a human with a good heart that deserves good things and anyone who ever told you other wise..... Is tripping like they're wrong and delusional and probably a hurt person anyway. If your childhood was bad you're manifesting a lot to replace stuff from all that time and make up for it and stuff and you all are just heavily in a deep great energy I can see y'all auras are mostly either green , blue and a very few of you purple. One specific person has some red. Make sure you stay in touch with your feelings though as I can see how the world might be making you a bit numb or you feel like a bit depressed actually when it comes to the fact that things constantly happen like , in the past I've been depressed and contemplated like how could it be that I have to drink water then go to the bathroom over and over again and it would wear me down thinking about it. It's good to practice having control over your own mental and perspectives ok. Just hella green and gold so wealth wealth money $$ . One love

2. Group KORN !!

You guys are winners in my book . I don't even know why I felt I had to say that . If you actually listen to Korn, while either way you got to listen to their first two albums you know... After that they were cloned for sure just saying . Ok anyway ...

You might catch something right in time whatever that might mean. This could be anything it depends on the individual, someone saying something, something falling almost, idk.if that does happen it must also be a confirmation of something. So I'm seeing a complete ending and then a revival. This group is somehow dealing with the general concept of time ... I'm seeing for some of you this is all past energy some of you right now some of you the future this could even be like way in the future ok. So it just depends . Someone most likely am adult male is speaking well on you and possibly other people you care about or can be related to yourself. This is looking good for your reputation and it might even be saving your reputation. U know what for a few of you this could be someone that's catching something right on time that's what that is for you . Something about something working and smoothly at that, or a job or you working with someone . This could be someone you know from work. Looks like they love you like they have love for you and a lot of other people , this is someone with a good heart even if you can't tell by their personality . Something's " falling apart " I heard and someone's getting away smoothly from anything affecting them . There's an energy of some type of trick being played or more so just an attempt at that. Maybe some type of verbal communicative manipulation. Maybe trying to convince someone to do something they shouldn't like join a group, sign a contract, say something wrong or that can be taken out of context so be careful but I see it being a separate energy that just has no place anywhere and is kind of awkward lol. I got 3 7's . Be careful of deceit at this time and moving forward. Especially regarding people's words and your own. People might be analyzing you or someone else or a situation . I'm getting almost like an investigation for some of you maybe a real investigation . Like the feds even. Especially if by the time you're reading this this as an older post. Holy f*********** I picked up another deck started shuffling and a card that says I investigation popped right out and a little magnifying glass I drew it's also an orange card like I d***n near wanna take a picture and show you guys. Strangely the other card I got is cult

So this is super deep in some way some form of group of people, big or small, serious or silly, depends on who is reading, has attempted to silence someone. I'm guessing a great majority of you it's you that was or is trying to be silenced. I'm getting the metaphor... If you can call it that this isn't even a metaphor I just don't even know I'm kind of appalled cause what I'm getting is that like if you like just decided ok this one needs to go to another life not stay on earth you know so they took something away and try to deprive them of something so either that happens or so that they do not have the energy , capacity, capability of being able to speak the truth but guess what that's the desert card and after that I have the wave card so not just here's a glass of water let's throw you in the ocean and let a wave roll over you ... Metaphorically for whatever you were being deprived of...... And also a card that says break through which also has rain in it :) . So this is gonna hit really fast cause of course that's the universes will. It's kind of like actually a miracle type of energy im even getting the word biblical and also maybe the story of the guy who parted the red sea or together is significantly sorry I should remember his name I read the bible 300 times as a kid haha. But, you guys this is really good the final two cards are the ace of sword , y'all know that's the truth, and four of pentacles so I feel in my heart chakra specifically a sense of calm and that everything is gonna be set right and you'll be feeling good and a there's a good amount about stability. Maybe church is significant to someone. Or a house of worship I don't know. Or a house in general too for some of you. Or a bulldozer ..? Also substantial evidence for a very few of you .

3. No Doubt !!!!

You guys might be family oriented, live with your family, I can pick up on some people's energy of a kind of busy household maybe the sound of pets nails on a hard floor (cute I miss that with having dogs )

Do not drink any open drinks at this time whoever I'm talking to you wouldn't expect this either you trust someone who would do something or you wouldn't expect it of the brand...or something I don't know I don't want to make anyone paranoid just keep your drink on you in your sight or drink unopened ones you know . I can also sense baked chicken I think or grilled you know when it's not fried or anything though ?? You think someone is loyal to you also if you have a dog this is significant. Im getting calm energy somewhat I think spirits around you are in that and trying to stay around you and have that energy around you :) honestly someone around you might be dangerous this isn't a matter of you getting paranoid this would , if it is true for you, be a matter of you coming to terms with something you've probably had hints about for a prolonged period. Maybe since you were young or it's multiple people even for someone else that this also resonates for. Y'all feel really cool like you investigate things kind of like a mystery vibe it's dope . Rainy days and cabins maybe you can dig that or that's what you give other people if they can read energy well. The things you might be into or interested in in the past too might be significant and spirit considered it to have been or be technically research y'all are really smart don't let anyone block you or stop you from anything ? . For real. Yep y'all are super cool and a smaller group y'all might have anxiety or any big or small issue you should practice breathing exercises. You know I make tea and breath in the air when it's hot it also helps asthma or I placebo that for myself but either way it's nice haha. I'm feeling like my brains working faster you guys are really sharp you might also like caffeine lol me too. You guys are so dope you're like putting together a puzzle or intuitively trying to figure something out and you will this is kind of a destiny situation like I can feel in my heart you guys are just the dopest but seriously w really intelligent pile I feel that something is time restricted , destiny, everything youre supposed to get to and have happen and do and it feels super fast paced and so do you , even if u don't notice cause youre used to it. You also feel like you avoid really negative things as easily as a ghost can avoid a human. Better days a head too even. Your bed is significant somehow . One thing I'll note is you may have to, and if so should sooner than later deal with any negative ideas ever put in your mind about yourself make sure you heal your heart and mind . You're moving so damn fast . Your soul has a PLAN . Like, a mission dudes. It'll all make sense in the end I suppose. Keep going 💯💯💯

4 . The Maiden !!!!!

I feel like you guys have some good philosophy or mentalities in life like you know how to and when to go with the flow. Like picture floating down a river and it's to chill out then you're like alright now I gotta get up and out cause there's a rock that will hit me in three feet. Your intuition might make stuff easier . Sometimes your intuition might surprise you or it would if you pay attention you know. You may get a bit frustrated because you don't get to straight up know the future lol I can relate. To. That.

The movie ice age might have something to do with something or if you remember watching it at any point maybe the memory is significant??,

Or someone you remember watching it with for someone. The universe wants to give you what you want and need but you already seem like a generally content soul just with like yourself existing I noticed from the start this is a super chill group . You guys definitely see danger before it comes. Breathing exercises to the point of deep relaxation might be helpful. You're just not supposed to consciously know the future though I'm not sure why but I guess it would technically like by law mess it up possibly . Remember to be calm , at peace when doing any form of work but also remember work is play deep down just like deep down we're still the kids we once were when we were young , which is a good way to realize every person is not so different and I was going to say also that you should maybe focus somewhat on your relations with other people and your social interactions. Just to sharpen your social skills I guess. There looks like there's chaos around you but I don't see it touching you so you're good . Mellow vibes just enjoy the moment and work on patience and stuff maybe. Working would be beneficial you might get joy out of that even if it's building something or it could even be playing in the woods, going to the store, but I am also getting to go play outside and they want me to say like play like you could go pick up a stick and start digging in the dirt hell kinda sounds like fun . Peace and rock on .

[fivestar-outlaw]

New Horizons (Park Seonghwa) (Ch. 3)

Chapter 3: Scorpions

Pairing: Park Seonghwa x Fem!Reader

Words: 3.5K+

Warning(s): insecurities and discussion of insecurities, angst, someone's rude to MC :( (None of the guys), slight hurt/comfort, dumbdumbs in love but dont realize each others feelings

A/N: Here is chapter 3. I think this one is the second hardest to write (The fourth chapter is kicking my ass rn). I'm not sure how I am feeling about this chapter? I had like three/four different ideas for it. Sooo I did a 'spin the wheel' and went with what it landed on for this lol. I feel like this is the weakest chapter but it has some charm. Regardless, I hope you all enjoy <3

Reader is implied to be living in the US bc uh TIMEZONES ARE FUCKY and i didnt realize how reliant i was on mine (PST) when looking up KST

Summary: Attempting an all-nighter while playing Animal Crossing alongside your bias, you didn't expect your turnip prices to be such a high amount... nor did you expect Park Seonghwa to actually accept your offer to sell his turnips on your island.

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"I can't tell her, Woo." Seonghwa sighed.

Wooyoung nearly ripped out his hair at the very similar phrase he has heard you tell him before. The others all groaned as they lounged around in the recording room, 10 minutes before they needed to start recording and re-recording lines for their last song on the next album.

It was now February, two months since Seonghwa figured out his feelings towards you that night you fell asleep on video call. He immediately told Wooyoung the next day he had been right and ever since then, the younger has been trying to push Hwa into confessing. He even tried assuring the older male that you most likely returned his feelings without giving away you told Wooyoung you developed a crush on Hwa just a few days before Hwa told him.

Woo's mind thought back to his conversation with you a week ago.

"I don't think he likes me like that, Woo. No matter how much you tell me." He heard you say with a dejected tone through the call. He had snuck away on his own during practice, having the choreography down before the others. "I mean, I met him as a fan. I don't want him to think I offered him to sell turnips for this outcome."

"I don't think he assumes any ulterior motives, (Y/N)." He said softly. "He speaks fondly of you."

"And that's another thing. He is Seonghwa. He is the super kind, very lovable, handsome, and talented guy who loves to mimic his villagers, build Legos, and is an all around great person. It's hard not to fall in love with him... and then there is me. The average looking, college student working at the local bookstore. I feel so inadequate-"

"Hey. Don't speak like that about yourself." He scolded, his tone and facial expression serious. "You are amazing. You are beautiful. You've been a great friend and we all deeply appreciate and love you."

"Sorry." You sigh. "I just... I want to believe you, but it's hard, you know?"

"I get it, I do. Just... keep thinking on it, okay?" Wooyoung smiled sadly. He could see the self-doubt was still eating at you and his words didn't fully penetrate the self-conscious wall you built up. He just hoped you'd keep holding out long enough for him to try and push Seonghwa into confessing.

"Okay, why not then?" Yuhno asked, exasperated.

"It's clear she only views me as a friend. And I am fine with that."

"You don't know that for sure, hyung." San offered a kind smile.

"Are you guys sure (Y/N) likes me like that?" Hwa gave them each a pointed look. Everyone tried arguing that it was clear to them you did, though the only one who knew for sure was Wooyoung. "I... I truly come to appreciate her and every time we speak I feel like I am falling further and further for her. She is sweet, funny, gorgeous, and I feel my heart is always about to burst when talking with her..."

"He's a love sick puppy." Yeosang teased, making everyone chuckle. The eldest's face adorned a bright blush but he made no attempt argue against the notion.

"It's adorable seeing you crush so hard on someone, hyung." Mingi cooed.

"Why not try and talk to her now? It should be..." Hongjoong looked at the time, seeing that it was nearly 10am for them. "... about 6pm for her. Try gauging her feelings for you and bring up wanting her to visit next month for her spring break."

"I don't know..." The eldest unlocked his phone and had your contact pulled up. Wooyoung immediately moved spots and sat next to Seonghwa.

"Seonghwa-hyung, just go for it. We are all here cheering you on." Jongho smiled softly and the others nodded in agreement.

"And its not like your confessing now either. We've told you the signs, now watch for them." Wooyoung added. The others decided to join in on the call, hoping to catch anything that gave away you had feelings for their friend.

Seonghwa took in a deep breath before slowly exhaling as he pressed the call button. He felt two large hands on both shoulders pat him and give a firm squeeze as he slowly extended his arm to make sure everyone could be visible to some extent. He felt anxiety building up with each ring, waiting anxiously for you to pick up.

They all smile when you finally pick up. You were sitting at your desk, adding what looked like the finishing touches of your makeup on your face. You looked at the camera with a small smile before you looked down, picking up a tube of lipstick.

"Hello boys. Usually you text me before you start a call. What's going on?" You ask, eyes flickering to the phone again before you focus on your hand mirror.

Seonghwa felt Wooyoung nudge him off camera. "I wanted to check in on you, (Y/N), and they all decided to join me."

"Aw, really?" Your face seemingly brightened at the fact and the eldest could feel Jongho on his left excitedly tap his leg.

"Compliment her, Hwa." Hongjoong hissed into his ear, a toothy grin was on his face as an attempt to mask any suspicion.

"Did one of you say something?"

"O-oh it must of cut out." Seonghwa nervously chuckled. "I said you look amazing. Is there a special occasion going on?"

You got a bit bashful and smiled, though everyone could tell it didn't fully reach your eyes. "I got asked out on a date."

Seonghwa felt like he was punched in the gut.

But his face remained soft with a smile.

"Really? Who is the person?" He asked, his voice steady.

The others eyed him in concern but did their best to mask it while on video.

"His name is Charlie. He is in my English course this semester. We worked on some in-class assignments together a few times before he asked me out today."

"I'm happy to hear. Well, we better get going. We are about get to recording." Hongjoong could pick up some shakiness in Hwa's voice. "Have fun and please periodically message me, just to give me peace of kind on your safety."

"Thank you, Seonghwa, and I will." You gave them a wave goodbye before hanging up the phone.

It was silent in the room. Seonghwa slowly lowered his arm, resting his phone and hands in his laps. The smile he had dropped just as slowly as he took in a deep, trembling breath.

"Hwa, are you okay?" Hongjoong hesitated, placing his hand on his friends shoulder.

"Yes. I'm fine, Joong." He asserted, getting up from the couch.

"Are you sure?" San asked.

Languidly, the eldest turned to face the rest. Their breaths caught in their throats. His eyes were full of tears, his lips were quivering as he still maintained his smile.

"I told you guys I am just a friend to her. And I will be fine with that." He sniffled, one tear rolling down his cheek. He hastily wiped his cheek with the back of his hand. "Please, lets drop it and get work done today."

"Of course, hyung." Yuhno spoke with a comforting voice and stood up, wrapping an arm around the older males shoulders. "Lets grab some waters together." Carefully, the taller of the two led Hwa out of the room. The second the door closed, everyone exhaled.

"Maybe...Maybe we were wrong." Jongho mumbled.

"No we weren't." Wooyoung insisted, pulling out his phone.

"Wooyoung-" San tried to speak but the younger male kept talking.

"We weren't! (Y/N) told me herself she likes Seongwa!" The others watched as he called you, pressing speakerphone.

The phone rung a few times when they hear the line click.

"It's just me, (Y/N)." Woo gave the others a look to be quiet. "What was that? What do you mean date?"

"Exactly that, Youngie." You sighed, your voice sounding as if it lacked any confidence.

"But you like Seonghwa... You love him."

"... I do." The others in the room looked at each other in shock, their eyes wide.

"Then why did you agree to the date, (Y/N)?"

There was a moment of tense silence before you spoke again, starting your sentence off with a sniffle.

"Because I can't logically believe he likes me the same way. He just see's me as a friend and I just feel so inadequate to be on any level with him." You faltered. "I don't have any particular feelings for Charlie but I... I just wanted to try to get over loving Hwa."

"(Y/N)..."

"I need to get going Woo. I'll... message you tomorrow." Before he could say anything more you hung up.

The room was just as tense as before. No one knew what to say. Wooyoung pressed his lips tightly together as he kept his own tears at bay. When they heard the door open everyone else started getting up and getting ready to start recording. Seonghwa looked to have calmed down. Wooyoung refused to look at his oldest hyung until he could calm down.

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After the video call with Ateez and the call with Wooyoung, you decided to try to to push any negative thought aside and finish getting ready. You put together a outfit that wasn't too fancy but still looked nice. You styled your hair the way you liked most for things like this. Overall, despite the heavy heart, you felt cute. You left your place with an Uber, figuring you may have something alcoholic to drink, with enough time to get to the restaurant on time, sending a message to Seonghwa letting him know you were heading there...

You glanced at the clock on your phone for the umpteenth time. It had been an hour since your uber dropped you off at the restaurant, 50 minutes since you were sat down at a table, and 35 minutes since that sinking feeling in your gut that you had been stood up started kicking in.

You sighed dejectedly as you finished paying for the meal you ordered. You may have been stood up but you weren't going to let that stop you from a nice meal. Luckily your waitress was kind and nobody paid you much mind. You felt that any pity sent your way would make you feel worse.

You slowly walked outside the restaurant, your phone out as you get ready to order another uber, when you heard loud cackling. Your head turned to the left and just a few cars down in the parking lot was Charlie in a car full of people. They were all laughing and looking at you.

It felt like a bucket of ice water was poured over you.

Ignoring them and the button to confirm the uber, you started walking in the direction of your apartment. You needed to get away. You could feel your chest tightening with humiliation and panic.

"Oh come on, (Y/N). It was a joke!" You heard Charlie yell but you just kept walking. You heard the car roar with life and could hear from their rolled down window various jokes directed at you.

They all cackled and decided that was enough teasing. Charlie then nearly squealed his tires as he drove away. The tears you kept at bay finally spilled over. You hiccupped as you glanced down at your phone. It was 8pm for you, which meant it would be around noon for him.

You didn't think, really. You just knew you needed to hear his low toned, comforting voice. You opened your phone and immediately dialed Seonghwa, pressing your cell to your ear as you walked back to your place. You felt pathetic but you knew you needed to speak to someone or else you would be a sobbing mess if you were left to stew.

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It was lunch time in the canteen area at KQ when Seonghwa heard his phone ring. His brows furrowed when he saw your name on the screen. He finished his last bite and quickly wiped off any possible crumbs on his hands with a napkin.

"Didn't she leave for her date like an hour ago?" Mingi tilted his head, everyone else had a confused look.

Seonghwa pressed the green answer button and raised his phone to his ear.

"(Y/N)?" His voice with smooth and low. "You're calling me so soon-"

"Seonghwa..." He heard your voice trembling, making him freeze. His face must of gave away to the others something was wrong, as they stared at him intently.

"Hold on, (Y/N). Let me go somewhere private." He quickly got up fron his seat and wasted no time getting into the hallway where there were less people. "What's wrong? Did something happen?"

"I-I got stood up." You sniffled.

"What?"

"I sat there for an hour looking like a fool. And then... And then I went to leave and I saw him outside in his car with his friends." Seonghwa could feel his blood start to boil with anger. "They laughed at me. They made fun of me." He could hear you take in a shuddering breath.

"Where are you now?"

"I'm walking home..."

"How long until you get back?"

"Maybe... Maybe 10 or 15 more minutes?"

"Stay on the phone with okay? I want to make sure you get home safe." He needed to take deep breaths to stay calm. In the corner of his eye he saw the others leave the canteen, though they stayed back, giving him and you some privacy.

"I just don't get what I did wrong to-"

"You did nothing wrong, (Y/N). Don't start blaming yourself for some asshole's behavior." He glanced to his friends, feel a pinch of confidence. "You are a wonderful person. It's his loss."

There was silence for a moment.

"Did I interrupt work?" You asked in a small voice.

"No, I was just finishing lunch. Did you eat?"

"I had something small after I realized he wasn't showing up." Hwa felt some relief when he heard your voice getting steady. "I'll probably have some ice cream when I get home."

"It better not be mint chocolate chip." He joked and smiled when he heard you giggle. "You really did look amazing, by the way. You should send me and the group chat any selfies if you took any. I'm sure the others would like to see the full look."

"Really?" Your voice was meek.

"I would never lie to you... You truly look beautiful. You always do."

"Thank you, Hwa. I really needed to hear that, especially from you." He could hear your voice tremble again.

"Don't start crying because of me, jagiya." He gently teased, the petname slipping out seamlessly.

"Where are the others?"

"They are watching me down the hallway I'm in." He looked over and saw that they were still there. Wooyoung, San, and Jongho kept their eyes on him while the others were looking at their phones, occasionally looking back at the eldest.

"Am I keeping-"

"I want to be talking with you. They can all wait." Seonghwa huffed, which pulled a giggle from you. He was glad he was able to get you to cheer up, even if it was a miniscule amount. "They are very concerned for you though."

"You can tell them what happened. Woo will bug me when he can until I tell him."

"He is good at that isn't he?"

"Too good." You snort.

There was another moment of silence before Hwa spoke again.

"How close are you to home?"

"Uh..." You pause. "I'm pretty close. I'm passing the park thats nearby. I'll probably be there in two minutes."

"Good." He hummed. "I'm glad you called me."

"Really?"

"Yes, really. Besides enjoying the sound of your voice, I am glad you felt comfortable enough during this vulnerable time to reach out to me. It warms my heart."

"I'm glad you answered."

"For you? Always. Well, unless I am on stage or Joong is lecturing us." He couldn't help but beam when he got you to laugh again.

"I see my apartment. I'm walking up to the door now." Hwa heard your keys jingle in your hand. "I'll let you go now. Thank you for everything, Hwa."

"It wasn't a problem at all. I'll check in on you when I have the time okay?"

"You don't have to." He faintly heard you unlocking the door and then heard the door close.

"I want to." He smiled. "Get comfortable, have that ice cream, and smile for me okay, (Y/N)? I'll talk to you soon. Have a goodnight in case you fall asleep."

"Have a good rest of your day, Hwa." There was a lingering pause before you ended the call.

Seonghwa let out a deep sigh, his face dropping into a scowl as he pocketed his phone. The rest of Ateez took that as a sign to approach him. They nearly froze when they saw the angry look on his face.

"I'm going to need one of you to stop me from buying plane tickets right now." Hwa muttered.

"What happened?"

"Why are you so upset?"

"Is (Y/N) okay?"

Were questions all asked at the same time.

"Let's get back to the recording studio first." Hongjoong offered. It took a lot of restraint for them to not run down the hallways.

The second that door closed to the studio, everyone turned to look at Seonghwa, who still looked pissed off. He sat down on the couch staring past the glass that viewed the recording booth. He needed to take a moment to calm himself down.

"Did something happen to our dear (Y/N)?" Wooyoung sat next to the older male, looking at him with desperate eyes.

"She called me crying, saying her date stood her up." Seonghwa finally spoke. Everyone let out shocked noises and some curses. "That's not even the worst of it. She said he and his friends were waiting for her to come outside to make fun of her."

Wooyoung pulled out his cellphone. "I'm buying you and I plane tickets."

"Count me in, I want to beat that guys ass for making her upset." San sat on the other side of Seonghwa.

Hongjoong quickly snatched Wooyoung's phone.

"Hey-!"

"You won't be making a spontaneous trip to her place and you all are definitely not going off to fight this guy." He said, using his captain voice.

"Come on, hyung. It'll be worth it." Jongho tried bargaining but quickly stopped at the look he got from their leader.

"Seonghwa." Seonghwa's attention was on Hongjoong's face after he called his name. "You already did most of your recording today. Unless you want to hang out with those who still need to record and need to re-record, or do some choreography practice with Yuhno, you should head back to the dorm and spend some time with (Y/N)."

"Thank you, Joong." Seonghwa smiled and gathered his belongings.

"We want to spend time with her too." Wooyoung whined.

"Too bad. You're assisting Yuhno after you re-record your lines." The eldest male smiled at his friends playful banter as he left the room.

He quickly fished out his cell and called you as he walked down the hallway. He was heading to his managers office to get home. He wasn't entirely sure if he had the confidence to confess right now, nor did he want to spring on a confession to you after the night you had... but he wanted to let you know he would be there for you. That he would never let you feel less than or alone. That stupid guy lost his chance and Hwa wanted to be the one treasure you. He was going to confess and tonight would be the start to his plan to do so.

"Seonghwa?" Your voice sounded confused when you quickly answered.

"Hongjoong is giving me the rest of the day off. Do you want to watch a movie with me? Or we can play Animal Crossing? Whatever you want, I want to do it with you." He took in a deep breath. "I'll even pick up mint chocolate chip ice cream and we can eat it together."

You laughed. "Sure, I would love that."

There was a pause in the conversation. Seonghwa was now waiting in front of the manager's office.

"I have a question for you, (Y/N)." He wanted to wait for later to ask his question but Seonghwa felt he had the confidence to ask now.

"What is it?"

"You said you took time off work for your spring break next month, right?"

"Yes, I have the Friday before that week off to Monday after it. Why do you ask?"

"Come visit me." He was shocked he got it out.

"What?"

"Come to Korea and visit me. I'll help pay for the flight and you can stay with us at the dorm. Is the issue with your passport?"

"My passport is fine." You sighed and took a moment before speaking again. "Are you sure, Hwa? Are the others okay with that? What about-"

"Everything will be fine. The others, our manager, and I have already discussed this in length and will probably want to discuss with you later."

"Well..." You didn't speak, which had Seonghwa feeling rejection would soon follow. "I would love to."

"...Is this a yes?"

"Yes it is." You chuckled. "I've been actually thinking of planning a visit after I graduate in May, but honestly, the sooner the better."

"Make sure to message the others about this, they'll be so happy." He smiled, unable to hide his excitement. "I am about to leave the office here soon. I will call you when I am back at the dorm."

"Get back safely."

"Of course. I will talk to you soon."

"And- Fuck!" You swore loudly.

"Is something wrong?" Worry seeped into his veins at how your voice sounded.

"I got stung by scorpion while island hopping."

Taglist: @stopeatread@hee0soo@pocketjoong-reads@seonghwaddict@tridkeys

[danieyells]

got any random nsftish hcs of kaito? all i got rn is him getting pegged by a strap on but i wanna know what hcs other people got for him

hmmm I work a lot better with prompts(not that 'nsft headcanon' isn't a prompt but like marginally more specific) but maybe I can think of something!

Kaito is a virgin. But that's basically canon, I don't need to tell you that. This makes him a little easily excited. He's not Yuri "Flustered By A Girl's Exposed Shoulders" Isami but he can get unexpectedly aroused by little things simply thinking about where they could lead. Try not to surprise him with gestures unless you want him worrying over his awkward boner for a while.

Isn't as straight as he thinks, especially when it comes to some of the pretty guys around like Jin and Romeo and Subaru. It'll take him a while to consider that he might be okay with being with another man.

Kaito thinks he would be fine rushing into sex or having casual sex--because he's a boy and boys like sex and that's what's expected of him right?--but he'd either chicken out if his partner rushed him into it or he'd feel really awkward about it afterwards. He'd be super excited at first but get panicky and awkward and. . .it just wouldn't be a good first time with him even if he were experienced. He's too insecure to be rushed, he needs the trust and the intimacy. Friends with benefits could be fine as long as he doesn't have romantic feelings.

He would be willing to get pegged by his partner if it were something they were into. He's got that heteronormative mindset of 'i'm a man and so i should be on top' when he's with girls or people smaller/more feminine/more passive than him but. . .he's plenty suited to bottoming. In fact, he'd find himself surprisingly comfortable taking it from a more experienced partner, and he'd be eager to help a first timer figure pegging out. It'd be a first for him too so. . .no need to be embarrassed right?

On that note even if you're not pegging him he is very good for anal play. Even grabbing his ass gets him pretty worked up but, unbeknownst to him he really likes being teased back there. Finger him, rim him, spank him, scratch him, whatever. He'll be shocked by it and maybe protest a little lightly if he hasn't accepted it yet but once he trusts the process he'll be more open to it.

He's self-conscious about making noise. He feels like of he makes too much noise he's gonna come off as uncool or unattractive or not masculine. He bites his shirt a lot when he jerks off and when he has sex he tries not to be too vocal and when he is vocal he tries to play it up as grunting and growling and other ~manly~ noises that may come off as unnatural. But catch him off guard or encourage him to make noise naturally and he whimpers and moans a lot. And he yaps too. He's a chatterbox. He will talk to you.

He's a bit of a people-pleaser and he'll put extra work in if you tell him how good it feels. He also works great with instructions, so if you know exactly how you like it just tell him. He is a great follower! Awkward roleplayer, he's much better at being himself than trying to play a part, but if you give him an idea of what to expect or what to do things will go a lot more smoothly.

Canonically Kaito is good with his hands--he puts together furniture himself for example--so he's good with his hands in bed too. He's great at figuring out where and how to touch and stimulate and it just comes surprisingly easy to him if he's fingering or jerking off his partner. Same with smoothly removing clothes too--he'd surprise himself when he doesn't somehow mess up removing a bra okay his hands are smarter than his brain.

He'd be shocked but excited by little bits of public play. If you rub his thigh during class or move his hand toward your lap he will try his best to make it look subtle. If he's feeling really confident he'll test the waters himself.

His need to put on a certain facade of bravado means he'll pretty much try anything once. It won't necessarily go well and he might chicken out at first, but if he really likes and trusts you he can be persuaded. Ultimately he is a coward and will have a hard time with more extreme stuff.

He has fantasies about being the strong, powerful one in a situation and they upset him a little bit sometimes. Sometimes they get. . .a little more extreme than he feels comfortable with and he feels like a bad person. Even if he were able to comfortably express these fantasies he would need a lot of aftercare and reassurance that thinking about roughing up his partner or being forceful with them doesn't make him awful. Similarly, as he accepts his cowardice and weakness and maybe explores it sexually, he'll need aftercare. . .he'll probably need a lot of aftercare in general, even with regular sex sometimes. Which isn't a bad or shameful thing!! It just helps him process stuff!!

He gets a lot of his sex advice from, well, relationship and sex advice magazines and stuff. So he may frequently be the one to bring up trying new things in hopes of keeping his relationships 'fresh'. They may be questionable things, but until he starts to feel like he knows what works and what doesn't he'll rely on the guidance of "professionals."

Instantly turned on seeing his partner in his clothes. Simple boy. Also has fetishes for things like stockings and heels. School uniforms don't do it for him as much--he's been burnt by too many girls in his time in school. . . . Doesn't realize it but thinks crossdressing looks great on a girl.

Extremely weak to being seduced and approached and sweettalked. If you're forward with him he'll be puddy in your hands, though that won't necessarily negate the awkwardness.

Would flourish being stimulated while doing other activities like studying.

Gets tired easily but pushes himself instead of admitting to it--so he's likely to fall asleep after having sex.

Occasionally thinks back to when Luca held that knife to his neck and threw him around and gets a little excited. In the moment it was too terrifying but thinking back on it. . .it makes it a little awkward to associate with Luca the next day, whenever he's gotten off to it.

His really good sight makes him very visually focused. He tends to watch his partner doing things, especially when they're doing things to him, and he's very observant sexually so he can tell from little reactions if something is good or not. This also comes with drawbacks--he always notices little things like erect nipples through a shirt, rubbing thighs together, peeks of skin or clothing that weren't meant to be exposed, the bounce of breasts and asses and thighs when someone moves around. . .it's easy to catch him staring.

Would be so nervous about being tied up you'd see a hint of his ghoul strength come out and he might break through ropes by accident. Something metal might fare better.

May accidentally leave marks and hickeys on a partner. Will absolutely do it intentionally if asked.

Nervousness and lack of confidence mean he'll frequently ask for confirmation that you want him to do something. . .this may unexpectedly and completely accidentally turn into denial or powerplay where you're expected to beg without him realizing it.

Speaking of begging, if you're edging him even a little he will be a babbling mess of begging. Overstimulation is the opposite--he'll start begging but eventually start drooling and groaning and being incoherent and crying.

Also on the subject of crying, don't be shocked or worried if he tears up during sex. There's just a lot going on and, as long as he doesn't seem to be emotionally distraught, it's probably just happening and not a sign that he needs to stop or have it addressed. He'd prefer you ignore it rather than act differently in response to it, unless he seems to be like crying crying. Then maybe check on him, give him a hug or a kiss or some reassurance of some sort.

Often doesn't like situations where he's too passive as they play on his insecurities and inexperience--he really and truly wants to be good in bed so it doesn't really sit right with him to just take it and never be giving anything. In contrast he has no problem if you just take it as long as you're reacting in a way he can get feedback from.

. . .i feel like a lot of these are very basic and vanilla and simple but like i said i do work better with slightly more specific prompting haha but also i feel like kaito is. . .a little vanilla? Or he has more common tastes. Or at least his cowardice makes it harder for him to try out or enjoy other things. . .i feel like he's very fond of intimate sex and a lot of vocalizing and feedback and active communication, he doesn't like to be kept guessing but he doesn't mind trying to surprise you if he thinks you'll like it.

Hopefully this satisfies you a bit, anon! Sorry it took a little while.

[heartshattering]

UGH, it just hit me... I wanted to do my grad application this weekend, but my aunt is here. But part of me is also putting it off because of anxiety even though I have time left but I feel like it's going to run out fast.

I wanted to go to the cinema, but again, my aunt's visit messed things up a bit... I thought she'd be able to watch my mom while I went, but I guess she wanted to come too, but then said she wouldn't watch a horror movie, and then made it sound like she didn't want to go in general.

My room is a fucking mess, again because I haven't been able to clean and all my shit is piled on my bed. It's looking like a depression pit again.

My sleep schedule is all messed up. I haven't had good sleep in a while and I've been needing the full dose of my sleep med to knock myself out, I've also been dealing with horrible anxiety during the daytime a lot, and headaches and stomach issues.

I have gallstones apparently but the doctor says it's not bad enough to need surgery, I guess that's good but it also means it hurts and I can't do shit about it. Same with my IBS, the only thing I can do about it is take antispasmodics and avoid trigger foods but sometimes I'll get a really intense craving and can't help myself even if it fucking hurts like hell later on. I'm actually going through a flare-up rn which I knew was coming but I was super hungry and it was 2 AM...

I feel ugly and under pressure to look better because I've been going out in public again after 5 years of isolation. I've been self-conscious about my appearance and letting it take over my thoughts more. I gained 40+ lbs and have a huge stomach which I hate (I also get IBS bloating which makes things even worse).

I feel like I've been having to relearn everything - how to dress, wear make-up, smile, talk to people, etc. And I do try to cut myself some slack for that but I still feel so awkward all the time.

I GO BACK TO WORKING THIS WEEK. Fuck it completely slipped my mind but yeah. My job is flexible and I work from home but I don't always enjoy it anymore... ESPECIALLY because my dad is back at his job (teaching) so I'm home alone with my mom almost every day and she needs constant help which makes it hard af to concentrate.

I've been bad at keeping in touch with people and three of my friends have bdays coming up.

Then there's the issue with my former friend, I keep putting off wanting to talk to her but I haven't been able to cut her off for good and like in constant anxiety of how I'm going to respond to her if she messages me or tries to come over when I don't want her to.

I feel so fucking alone and overwhelmed by everything, I feel physically sick and I just don't know how to cope with... everything.

[parksprout]

Sprout Journal 11/11/24-11/12/24

OKAY so this is part 2 of my journal I posted earlier today! That one was mostly thoughts about my love life and me yapping about my own feelings (boring, right?) so unless you're absurdly interested in my feelings of longing and desire to date this really cool, cute, interesting and sweet enby then think of this as the one and only journal entry for yesterday and the day before!

So two days ago was pretty eventful for me! I had my first doctors appointment since I was like 10, and it went surprisingly well! I have always been a bit of a hypochondriac. My health paranoia typically comes from my weight. I'm overweight and have been for about half of my life, but I think I've always been a little too self conscious of it - I'm not unhealthy, I'm very strong and can run and never get winded but.. I still have always been fully convinced I'm basically on the verge of death from being unhealthy. The doctor mitigated my concerns a lot yesterday, and.. she genuinely made me feel a lot better about myself than I have in a long time both through testing and words of encouragement, the later of which was really unexpected. All of my vitals are really healthy, my blood pressure is almost perfect, my heart rate and lungs sounded excellent, almost any aspect of health that everyone beats into your head would be "terrible beyond salvaging" by being overweight I actually tested well within healthy matrics for. The only thing that wasn't actually very healthy is the vision in my left eye lkajsdhflkasjdf I can't see a goddamn thing. I have an eye doctor appointment later this month where I might finally get eyeglasses! I think I'd actually be super cute with glasses so I'm kinda hoping that I qualify laksdflasdjf. Anyways, after that I had a pretty okay rest of my appointment! I had to get my blood drawn and I almost fainted alskjdfasjdf I was fine at first, just chilling, but it was taking a really long time so I looked over at the nurse and she was filling up her 5th big ass vial and that made me feel light headed - it seemed like so much.

After my doctors appointment I had a pretty chill rest of my day. I did my first pixel art, I took a realllyyyy relaxing nap, and then i got dinner with my former coworker/friend Ethan! He's a lot older than me so we can't really relate on most things but to be fully honest he kinda fits an older broter/mentor role within my life so it was really good talking to him and asking him for advice! I asked him for advice on relationships, healing, how to find myself again and more. He always has a lot of introspective but also funny things to say aklsjdfaskjdf he helped me a lot, even if some of the stuff isn't exactly what I wanted to hear. We got Mexican food btw! I got myself a burrito and an empanada but I sadly didn't really like the empanada :< I ended up giving about half of my meal to this homeless/destitute woman who was hanging out in the parking lot, she wanted money but I didn't have anything to give so I asked if she wanted the food and she said yes! Yesterday was a reallyyyy simple day. Work was super boring so I have absolutely nothing to say about that, and then once I got home I just went and worked out really hard and then bought stuff at the store to make soup!! I couldn't actually finish making the soup last night so that'll be what I make for dinner tonight!! I'm getting tired of writing and I'm in class rn so I'm gonna call it here! Byeee tumblrrrrr <3 if you wanna read my weird emotions check out part one of this journal, if not then STAY AWAY WHY WOULD I CARE ANYWAY!!!!! RAH!!!

[psychologeek]

I'll start with the end.

"I will not be overly litigious over the north African and Levant examples you chose as I'm not an expert on all sections of post colonial history and even the areas I do know it's not a scholarly level most of my classes are European and American history."

This, here, is important.

You talk about European colonialism, and act like this is the only bad thing, because that's all you know about.

You are mostly aware for things you were taught - which are also the things someone has considered important enough to teach.

From your words, I understand you don't study this field.

You say this yourself - you aren't an expert.

But you can't talk about a single place, to illegitimate a single state, without knowing the super complicated geo-religo-political history of the entire area (and more) - which is at least 150 years of history.

~

I'm not saying that they ARE the best solution, but I do say that what you call "ethnostate" was a counterpoint to the empires, end the rise of nationalism.

(which is why we see an increase in those after ww1, and in even more after ww2).

AKA Pretty much: "each group who desires it should have their autonomy and ability to self-government. A place this group won't be a minority."

~

"largely popularized by 1848 revolutions" - I'm putting a careful pin on that one, as (modern day) Zionism might been influenced by that, but is way older than that.

(I just. Can't deal with summarising 500 years of history rn).

~

Yes, there's a difference between the Ottoman Empire (Turks) and the arab nation (arab) - by language and some culture. Different dynamics then the previous Chaliphates, but still controlled a MASSIVE land.

Which is why the Arabs who lived in those places wanted to "liberate the arab nation".

(and yes, I'm saying arabs - as arabs, arabic, and Islam are NOT native to most SWANA area. From the babri minority in Morroco to the Hindus in India (and Pakistan) . Babri, Aramic (Assyrian), Coptic (Egypt), etc. are the og languages. Or, you know, USED to be.)

I'm sorry, but. Umm. This is an ethnostate. So, are you fine with that kind of "United Arab state"? Or is Jordan also to be destroyed?

I love how you compare "arab and Jewish state" like it's the same thing.

Hi, do you remember that part of Britain's way to help with this arab-state thing was to forbid jews from purchasing land in what they called "Transjordan"?

Anyway.

Things become important because people want/need them.

Looking back at history, we can't judge it by our own views - but at the viewing of the political and environment that were during that time.

You can't expect a 17th century poet to say "love is love". But you can recognize the "I don't think a man should be hanged for that" (non accurate quote).

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"I feel the need to state thar the reason the colonial powers exited Africa is not because there was a conspicuously large nationalist movement in any area specifically but that the the concept of colonialism started to deeply unsettle Europeans who were becoming conscious of the atrocities it entailed."

Oh yes, all the poor, innocent Europeans who just realized this might be bad.

Nothing to do with the falling of the German and Italian regimes, everything post-Vichie (france), or the massive political changes in Britain - and the general mess in Europe.

No, nothing like that.

Pan-Arabism is the result of over 1,000 of years being under similar government. Also the fall of the ottoman empire and the last Chaliphate. See "The Muslim Brotherhood" for more.

~

India, Pakistan, Bangladesh:

Please please read about the Bangali genocide. This was very needed.

"Relations between West and East Pakistan quickly broke down due to a lack of a contiguous border and thus Bangladesh fought to separate which ironically formed a micro nation state out of this as they are both majority Bengali and Muslim."

No, they fought to separate bc of military governance, and extensively economic discrimination against East Pakistan. (And things like Ethnic and linguistic discrimination, India-Pakistan war, etc.)

I mean, maybe the moral of this is that borders shouldn't be straight lined drawn on a map, but rather related to the population needs and opinions.

(btw, this is another ethnostate, with 99% of the population sharing the same ethnicity. Funny how no one complains.)

~

"Imperialism before the European colonialism was only small scaled, bc they didn't have the proper technology"

Screaming in history:

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Neo-Assyrian Empire

(Honourable mention)

Area:

670 BC: 1,400,000 km2 (540,000 sq mi)

had fast communication that equivalent to 19th century communication.

Moved populations from their og places.

(I use wiki for the image)

~

Ottoman Empire:

Area:

1481: 1,220,000 km2 (470,000 sq mi)

1683: 5,200,000 km2 (2,000,000 sq mi)

1913: 2,550,000 km2 (980,000 sq mi)

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Umayyad Chaliphates:

Area

720 : 11,100,000 km2 (4,300,000 sq mi)

(Arab Peninsula is Red. Everything else is, literally, NOT arab. I wonder how ARABIC got there?

Well, the same way that Spanish and Portuguese are in South and Central America. The same way English in North America and in India and Africa and Australia. The same way French in Africa and North America)

Empire statistics:

Here (yes, this is wiki - not a reliable source. But it gets the dates and places+- fine.)

18/27 (20/30) of the largest empires are pre-1491 (66%)

Only 5 are European: (British, Russian, Spanish, French2, Portuguese 2). 2 are arguable (Roman, Ottoman - as it was closer to Chaliphate. Don't judge places by current politics. Judge it by historical politics.) 23-25/30 (76-83%)

By population percentage, we have Roman (5th place) and British (12th) and Nazi Germany (25th) - 3/25, AKA: 12% (dropping the Romans (pre-1491), giving us 91% of, apparently, non-colonial empires)

This is what I'm talking about when I say "euro-centric view".

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Minorities in the middle east:

Kurds had been fighting since 1920s.

Rojava is fighting against Assad's regime - and Arduan (Turkey).

Also look up Baluchistan - Suni minority, constantly oppressed by the Iranian Regime, ~60% illiterate (schools can't teach in the local language, which is a HUGE problem.)

From what I know, there's also Druze fight for autonomy in Syria (this might be wrong, my Arabic is not so good and I only recently heard about it) in Suadye - Jabel Al-Druze (Druzes' mountain). Non-violent protests since August 2023, about discrimination and latest about economy (government say they have to sell the wheat to government, but pay very little=poor.)

(trilingual translation is hard.)

Oh, and let's not forget the Yezidis, under genocide and enslavement (many women and girls in sex slavery).

~

I feel like I'm losing track of my thoughts.

Anyway, good night.

Just because your sentiment is targeted towards jews zionists does not mean that its not repackaged right wing talking points and bigotry.

Putting a cut off date for jews indigenousness at its core is still anti indigenous folk and putting a cut off date for an indigenous group regardless if it's targeted towards jews.

Calling jews colonizers for trying to rebuild their nation on land that was stolen from them is at its core anti land back movements.

Claiming that openly queer jews are "pink washing" is at its core queerphobic as you want queers you don't like to be silent or hidden away.

Claiming that jews are inherently white is at its core erasing and invalidating poc who do not fit your idea of what poc should be/look like.

[ftm-radio]

a plus-sized trans masc's review of various chest containment methods*

*as you can guess from the title, this post will be discussing the chest area, so if this subject & related terminology is discomforting to you, please skip this post & I hope you have a good day 👍🏻

Okay, so I have 4 methods that I bounce between for dealing with my chest and existing as a pre-op trans guy. I'm gonna write a bit about each one, and I have photos of how my chest looks with all four (clothed, ofc) that I will put under the cut for both self conscious reasons and to be considerate for those who'd rather not see them. idk.

oh & quick disclaimer, this post is absolutely not meant to bash any particular binding method or ppl who use those methods, or ppl who don't bind! no one method is superior, some just work better for one person than another bc everybody's different and all that. just tryna share my experiences to maybe help out other folks like me. ✌🏻

Sorry in advance, I'm sure this is gonna be a long post.

Method #1: No Containment

Pros—

easy

free

may be passable as moobs with enough layering ?

Cons—

underboob sweat at 100% strength

chafing

oh god they move so much, why, please don't, i hate this

Wearing just a shirt with nothing else under it is a great feeling at times, but that's generally short-lived and it's not very comfortable in the long run, especially if I'm being active and moving around. Feeling my chest wiggle and jiggle and move around is just so gross to me, so I usually avoid this method.

Method #2: Compression Top (Tomboy X)

Pros—

pretty comfy for everyday wear

prevents the worst of the wiggles

can exercise in it

could probably sleep in it if I wanted to

Cons—

basically just a sports bra tbh

mine is uh.. ~2 years old & pretty worn, probs doesn't "compress" much anymore 😅

heard that this particular company has done some yikes things?? so I'm not super keen on purchasing anything else from them (I don't have details & don't feel like looking them up rn, just mentioning it so you can look it up yourselves if you want)

This is my go-to method for when I'm just hangin out around the house (which is basically every day). just wake up, yank on the compression top, and then I don't have to think about it until the end of the day! I actually got this as a baby-step to using an actual binder bc I was a little anxious about it lol.

Method #3: Full Tank Binder (gc2b)

Pros—

flat chest

full tank contains everything better than a half tank

ngl I appreciate the fact that it kinda helps contain my stomach fat too bc I am ~☆~insecure~☆~ (but working on it)

Cons—

tbh I think my binder is too big specifically in the chest area so it doesn't compress & hold everything in place for very long, esp if im moving around, but I can't size down any smaller bc that's unsafe

the bottom edge of the binding panel makes it pretty uncomfortable to sit & just makes my stomach look weird

can't exercise or sleep in it

can only wear for 8 hours at a time, max

I loved my binders when I first got them, and wore them almost daily, even around the house, because I felt good & happy in them. after a while, though, the constant need to readjust my chest & having to keep checking to make sure it looked alright kinda wore me down and I got tired of it. going to the grocery store and feeling my chest shift around in my binder and being unable to fix it is just not a good time. :(

Method #4: Trans Tape

Pros—

comfortable! (long as you put it on right 😅)

my tiddies are SECURE they are not going ANYWHERE, I can bend over to pull the laundry out of the dryer with no problem, gravity cannot emotionally damage me anymore <3

I feel like I can move and do stuff and be confident w/o having to waste any time or energy thinking about my chest

my chest is approx a C-cup? (and I'm fat) so the tape definitely doesn't flatten me out but it masculinizes the shape of my chest in a way I'm happy & comfy with! yeah i have a chest but it def doesnt look like girl boobs!! I just look like a fat guy! which I am! so I'm cool with it!! hell yeah!

can wear for days at a time (recommended is 5)

can sleep, shower, & exercise in it

no worries about rib damage/breathing problems

when I hug my mom I actually feel it in the middle of my chest

Cons—

can't reuse tape so gotta buy more to keep using it (~20 bucks a roll with shipping iirc?)

there is a learning curve!! first couple times suck & it can be discouraging (I gave up a couple times) and I'm definitely still learning myself how to use this stuff

physically kinda difficult to put on, it's a bit of a workout for me

itchy (especially if you overstretch the tape, try not to do that)

what goes on must come off 🥲 and removal is kind of a pain in the ass because oil is messy and you really have to give it enough time to soak

need to be patient & careful so skin doesn't get damaged in removal

if you damage your skin you have to give it time to heal, no taping for a while

I am quite new to trans tape, literally this is only my third time wearing it as I write this. My first two attempts were pretty rough (application and removal) but I'm starting to get the hang of it and it's becoming less of an Ordeal as I get used to it. there are definitely some less than ideal factors to keep in mind with using this method, but I've found that for me, the positives vastly outweigh the negatives. when I get better at using this, I plan to make it my primary containment method. I know a lot of folks say that using trans tape just doesn't work at all for bigger folks & bigger-chested folks, but that's not necessarily true. I'm proof.

Alright, that's all I've got!

I dont wanna make this a horribly long post, so I'm sure I missed some things but idk this is the gist of it. If you read all of this, I hope you got something from it (or at least don't feel like it was a huge waste of time....) and I hope you have a good rest of your day!

It's totally okay to reblog/reply/interact with this post, just, y'know, have common sense and don't be a jerk!

As I said before, I have photos under the cut to give you a visual for how these different methods look on me & how they might look for you if you're anything like me. Please do not be rude or creepy or gross, alright? alright.

Method #1: No Containment

...........yeah this is what I'm working with, let's just move on and pretend we didn't see this, please & thanks

Method #2: Compression Top (Tomboy X)

comfy & fine for everyday use but I don't love the look. still looks and feels like a feminine chest shape.

Method #3: gc2b Full Tank Binder

flattest results, looks pretty good, but only lasts about five minutes before the tiddies start their constant migration and it gets uncomfy and I have to adjust everything :/

Method #4: Trans Tape

not as flat as I get with a binder, but the goal with trans tape is a more masculine shape to the chest, not flatness, and I think im starting to achieve that even as a noob! my results will probably get even better as I get more familiar with it, but this is already my fave method by far

bonus photo because wearing trans tape makes me happy and i was feelin good:

That's the end-end of the post, so I will once again request that you do not make any rude or nasty comments about me & my body. thanks!

[fyodorslave]

Hello! I hope you're doing fine rn. Well I'm not sure if you're a bsd manga reader but if you are, may I request Ranpo,Atsushi,Kunikida and Tecchou with s/o who has heterochromia? (You can change tecchou to tachihara if you're not a manga reader!) Have a nice day and stay safe! <3

BSD characters with a S/O who has heterochromia

tecchou my beloved ♡ (I added tachihara because it's kinda short, so to compensate for that I added another character)

ranpo, atsushi, tecchou, kunikida, tachihara

Atsushi has segmental heterochomia himself which he was quite insecure about until he met you.

Would come to terms with himself and start loving his own heterochromia because of how good it looks on you.

Trend setter or whatever.

Since you helped with his insecurity, he will become your own hype-man if he ever sees you self conscious about your eyes.

He didn't even know he had a thing for those with heterochromia till he met you, will think those with the same coloured eyes are boring (not in a discriminating way, he's too kind for that but ya know what I mean)

Why do I feel like he'd bring it up in a fight with akutagawa. "Yeah? Well imagine being so boring, me and Y/N have cool eyes" They're both so stupid .

If I talk about akutagawa and atsushi again, this will turn into shin soukoku fic.

Will cup your cheeks and stare into your eyes at random times.

If your watching a movie with him, he'd get sidetracked and just space out watching the light reflecting off your irises.

Think's they look 10x more beautiful when they sparkle under the light.

Literally so pure and wholesome.

If you ever get insecure, you can count on him to make your day better.

"Imagine being insecure of looking different. Isn't it better than being bland?"

Regardless of his ideal girl, when he first saw you he was in awe

Thinks the rarity of it is extremely alluring

Your eyes was one of the main things that interested him

doesn't mean that's the only thing he loves about you, he fell in love with you personality, eyes were a lucky bonus

You would often catch him staring at you, zoning out at random moments.

Can and will blame you for being a distraction.

He doesn't want you to think your eyes are the only thing he likes about you, would constantly remind you how much he loves you alone.

If you ever do feel insecure about them, he will always be there to reassure how beautiful they are

Gives you eyelid kisses

"Your eyes are beautiful babe, I wouldn't change a thing about them"

I feel like he’d be super excited when he first saw you, would always point out your eyes and how cool he thinks they are.

If you are insecure about it, he wouldn’t make such a big deal, discreetly shows you he loves them and likes how unique they are.

Your eyes remind him of the candy he eats, would constantly compare the two

If you ever get insecure I feel like he’d get annoyed at first because he doesn't understand how one could hate your eyes.

That being said, he would end up kissing your forehead, telling you how perfect he thinks they are.

"he doesn't understand how one could hate your eyes." if he EVER overhears anyone making unkind remarks about you, he will become weirdly protective and wouldn't hesitate to intervene.

I do see Ranpo as a protective kind so rest assured he will never let anyone hurt you, mentally or otherwise.

If he's not talking about himself he's talking about you and without fail, your eyes.

Regardless of how much he brings it up- it doesn't seem forced at all, everything he says he genuinely means.

On the whole, he absolutely adore your eyes, thinks normal is boring anyway. At times he wishes he had them as well, has never envied anyone so you may as well be the first.

Now we all know he loves similar-coloured things.

So he never thought heterochromia would be something he’d prefer.

well that’s until he met you, like kunikida, thinks your eyes are mysterious and easy to get lost it.

Would compliment you all the time to reassure you that his preference of similar coloured things do not apply to you at all and that you should never feel insecure because of it.

Honestly, he just think they're perfect.

Would glare at anyone who makes you feel otherwise.

his favourite place to kiss -besides your lips- would be right underneath eyes.

Referring back to how he thinks your eyes are easy to get lost in- we know how he can stare at things for hours (like the time he spent 8 hours watching ants)

He can and will empty his mind to stare at you- no thoughts, just your eyes.

All in all, he adores them, will not give you a chance to feel insecure- he's always ready to give you compliments.

When he first met you, you were wearing glasses to cover up your eyes. (giving me gojo)

You didn't consider it an attractive feature, so you were sure as hell not going to let anyone see it.

That was until Tachihara accidentally happened to see them.

I imagine it being during a mission, you get hit in the face and your glasses get knocked off in the process.

Tachihara who happens to see your eyes and is dumbfounded.

Literally stops fighting for a few seconds just to stare in amazement.

When you act like nothing happened -post combat- he will definitely bring it up and bug you for not telling him sooner.

If you mention it's not one of your best traits, rest assured he will throw hundreds of compliments your way whenever he sees you.

Like Atsushi, I totally see him as a hype-man. He genuinely loves your eyes and isn't afraid to tell you.

While dating him, you don't wear your sunglasses around him, he finds it special but wishes you were able to see how much he- and most likely other- love it

Definitely convinces you to not wear them so often, if he senses you getting insecure he'd grab you hand while soothingly reassuring you.

Would make it his own personal mission to get you to love your insecurity just as much as he does (and me!).

💌 message to the requester💌 right UM idk why tachihara's was longer than the rest, he wasn't even supposed to be in it LMAO. Also sorry that it's so short, I literally didn't know what else to write. ANYWAY I hope you enjoyed it, thank you for requesting ♡ !

[sheepwasfound]

I think he is/was nervous to show george his face because in that cursed mcc 8 after talk about the face reveal and ily talk dream said to george

'I'm sorry looks matter to you' </3 he took george wanting to see his face in a negative way both of them were upset but george could care less about looks i think it was more about putting a face to your bestfriend and having that association.

when you love someone, you love their face and like to look at it no matter what it looks like, just cus it's them and all you see in it is the person you love. you don't focus on whether something looks bad or whatever. you see them smile and you're happy cus they're happy, and it's that simple. that’s probably how it feels on george’s side of things.

but dream has given me nervous vibes about showing his face to george (though we can't know anything). like when he said he didn't want to show his face to george because he hadn't shaved. how many times had he made some excuse like that in his own head i wonder? george begs him now and again for years, but it's never a good time. he's got a bunch of pimples on his jaw rn. his eyebags are super bad because he hasn't slept well. his hair is dirty because he hasn't washed it today. his outfit is lame. the lighting is bad rn. george's photo looked too good and he couldn't possibly compare.

especially combined with how they met when dream was in high school, the time in everyone's life when they feel the most self conscious about their looks. he'd shown his face to sapnap years ago already, when they were still little kids, so it wouldn't have felt the same. so you're in high school worrying about all kinds of shit in your life, including all the pimples on your face, and then this college guy with his shawn mendes looking ass pretty boy face shows himself to you, what would you do? that would be the moment to show yourself right back, that trust exercise between internet friends, but you'd feel woefully inadequate. what's the point in showing yourself when you don't look that great anyway?

then it just keeps going. even when there's sort of a reason to show yourself maybe, it's never a good time. you never look good enough. you get even closer with him and you see his face all the time, and it's starting to be strange that he hasn't seen yours, but that's exactly why the pressure gets even higher. you lash out about it sometimes and make excuses and try to say looks don't matter when you're actually the one that cares about them and he's the one that looks so good that he couldn't imagine what it's like for you. it's been so long and you've missed so many chances, why would now be the time? it would if you're in an airport about to meet him. that'd be the time. but that's scary too. so you make more excuses to delay that too and it never ends

[nethercomfies]

hello jupeteer 👋🏻 im the anon who sent that recent kaeya request with shy reader who is actually not so innocent hehe — i love that one, do you mind making a pt2 with kaeya's reaction lmaoo

also, maybe from now on I'll name myself 🦭 anon on your blog, because you just gained a new supporter which is me, an anon who will give you requests if you'd like

Hey hey, anon!! <3

This is a bit awkward but my phone and laptop chose not to display whichever symbol you picked so rn you're "empty square anon" to me ToT

But anyways, I'm so glad you liked it! I was actually thinking about doing a second part, so this request fits perfectly 👀

I apologize for the long wait, life has been a little weird lately ahaha… I hope you still see and enjoy this tho ToT

✨Sweeter than sugar pt.2✨

Pairing: Kaeya x Reader

Content: Somewhat nsfw, gn!reader, this is more or less a continuation of the first one, nothing super explicit is happening but there's some touching

Word count: 841

Part 1

A soft sigh of Kaeya’s name slips past your lips as you touch yourself. You’re so caught up in your bliss that you fail to hear the knock on your door, not noticing how it's then slowly pushed open. It’s only when you open your eyes for a split second that you realize you’re not alone anymore.

With a surprised yelp you scramble to cover yourself with your blanket, staring with wide-eyed embarrassment at Kaeya, who seems equally as shocked. It takes a few seconds of you just staring at each other in heavy silence before Kaeya quickly turns around. “Sorry, I didn’t want to interrupt you… I’ll come back later.”

Part of you wants to sink into the ground right on the spot, or maybe run away all the way to Inazuma to start a new life and forget that this moment ever happened… But at the same time, the mixture of all the love and trust you have for Kaeya, together with the aroused haze you’re already in makes you feel bold. You jump up, grabbing for Kaeya’s arm in an attempt to stop him. “Kaeya, wait!”

He turns to you, and for once it seems like he’s the one who’s unsure of where to look at. His eyes dart through the room, landing anywhere but directly on you. “I… Didn’t quite expect something like that from you”, he admits before clearing his throat. Kaeya being so awkward about it really isn’t making the situation any better for you - Isn’t he supposed to be the one who’s all confident about these kinds of things?

Feeling self-conscious after all, you let go of his arm, averting your eyes. You're ready to just let him leave, but something inside you tells you otherwise. “Could you stay?” You ask, heat rushing to your face. Then, in a slight panic, you add “Only if you want to…”

There’s no response for a moment, so you force yourself to look at Kaeya after all - Only to find him staring at you in shock. “Are you sure?” He asks in disbelief.

You give a shy nod. “You don’t have to, though.”

Finally, Kaeya seems to get over his initial surprise, as he just nods with a smile before closing the distance between the two of you by pulling you into a kiss. He’s being just as gentle as always, never trying to push you to do anything more than you’re comfortable with. He cups your cheek with one hand, the other resting on your hip.

You find that being near Kaeya in the state you are in only increases your excitement. Your skin feels like it’s burning up, goosebumps spreading wherever he touches you. It’s addicting, leaving you aching for more. You sigh into the kiss, leaning into Kaeya’s touch.

“I didn’t know you wanted me this much”, he whispers against your lips in that sweet voice of his. You grow a little redder, averting your eyes in embarrassment, which causes Kaeya to gently cup your cheek. "That's not a bad thing, though. It's completely natural, and I'm glad you trust me enough to want me near you in this state."

You give him a shy smile. "It's hard not to want you here when I feel like this because of you in the first place…"

Kaeya chuckles, pressing his forehead against yours. "Is there anything you'd like to do right now? I'm fine with anything you're comfortable with."

There's so many things on your mind that you want to do with Kaeya, most of which seem far too embarrassing for you to say out loud. Noticing your hesitation, Kaeya gently rubs your back. "It's okay. You can speak your mind", he assured you.

Your heart feels like it's about to jump out of your chest as you slowly raise your hand, lightly resting it against his chest. "Can I touch you? Here?" You ask, voice barely above a whisper.

Kaeya is quick to agree, parting from you for just a moment to rid himself from his shirt. Unsurprisingly, he looks quite good like this, too. For once, you aren't shy about the way your eyes are drawn to his chest, almost mesmerized by it. You let your fingers run across the smooth skin, feeling so much better than what you had imagined. Kaeya's breathing is calm as he watches you, but you can feel the way his heartbeat flutters. It makes you feel strangely calm, knowing that this is exciting for him, too. Even if it's surely nothing new for him to be touched in this way, it's special because you're special to him.

Emboldened by that idea, you let your hands wander towards his abs. Kaeya lets out a surprised gasp as he feels your touch wander, his muscles tensing for a moment before they relax once again. He pulls you into another gentle kiss while you let your hands roam his torso. You could get used to this feeling of excitement… Maybe exploring new things isn't so bad when it's with Kaeya.

[slasherbaby]

YEEEESSSS!!!! I would love a match up! Slashers I'm most familiar with but literally anybody you think works is fine I'm excited by the concept!

Meg, she/her

I am 5'4" and extremely aggresive yet the sweetest nicest person. Only gets aggresive and intimidating when necessary like to keep creeps away or to protect my friends. But any other time I'm a bit of an airhead. Get distracted by looking at the world a lot. Love cute things and cooking. My fashion changes based on how I feel often cute dresses with a hat with a pokeball pin on it. Vintage or very kawaii. Or a complete dapper suit and ultra elegant sexy dresses. Depends how I feel but it's hot rn so usually cute dresses. Fashion is a huge hobby and I'm usually found in old markets diving through used clothes piles.

Very independent and bright. I like to think I'm a very kind and giving person. I give everything for friends and family often too much tbh at times I struggle with that. Imaginative and resourceful I love making things. Cooking, baking, diy projects. Writing and watching movies constantly. I love to sing and am quite proud of my singing voice I've worked very hard on it.

I'm indigenous, tan skin, very short hair in a pixie cut, large round gold glasses. Usually wearing a flower in some way. Can strut in heels like nobodies business. I'm very well endowed and curvy. Confident and love uplifting others. Not easily hurt or swayed as I worked very hard on my self esteem.

Very cuddly and love affection. Also giving it.

Not sure what else to say this is getting pretty long, so sorry if I made this difficult lol

Yesss I got so excited when I saw this! I love how long it was- the only difficult part was choosing which slasher to pair with you! I was stuck between Lester, Brahms, and Jason! Ultimately, I chose Jason ♡

I’d match you with Jason!

He would love it when you sing, especially if you two are cuddled up, his head in your lap, with you singing to him. Jason’s a tough guy, but he also loves very hard. He’d definitely always bring you wildflowers, and once he warms up, he’ll hand you all but one, and then tuck the last one behind your ear. If you’re sneaky about it, you could probably manage to do the same to him. Either tucked into the strap of his mask or behind his ear. He’d keep it on all day, pretending like he ‘didn’t notice’ he was wearing it, but secretly it would make his heart warm whenever he remembered it, because it would remind him of you.

Jason would be worried about you getting hurt or lost when he’s not around, especially since you get distracted easily. He doesn't see your kindness as a weakness, but he also knows it would do little to help if anyone wanted to hurt you, or if you fell and got hurt while alone in the woods. At first, he’d feel very overprotective of you, especially because you stand at 5’4 and in comparison to his 6'5, you're tiny. He’d be very concerned that you wouldn’t be able to protect yourself- he’s over a foot taller than you, after all. What if something happened while he was gone and he wasn't able to do anything to help you?

He gets over this very quickly, however, after he sees your aggressive side come out. Jason never really had anyone stand up for him when he was being bullied as a child, so seeing how you would do a lot to protect your friends? It would make his water-logged heart melt. Also seeing this would make him realize and respect that you can protect yourself. Honestly he probably falls in love with you right then and there, watching how you turn from the sweet, adorable person he knows to defensive and protective when needed. After that, he wouldn’t have any second thoughts when you two are apart.

While he doesn’t have much variety in his closet, he’d love the way you dress and how your style changes. If you came to his cabin in a fancy outfit (either suit or dress) he’d probably just die from how amazing you look. He may not outwardly show it, but he would definitely take the time to look over you, noting the different ways you express yourself through fashion. Jason wouldn’t want to join you when you go to old markets, he rarely leaves the woods after all. But he’d 100% adore it when you came back with bundles of new clothes, bonus points if you give him a little fashion show.

Jason may not seem like he’s sensitive, but he’d be very wary/not want to take off his mask in front of you for a while. He’d also be apprehensive to show you physical affection at first. You’re gorgeous, first of all. Second of all, he can lift a car off the ground without breaking a sweat. The last thing he wants is to hurt you, or scare you away.

He doesn’t think he has a low self-esteem, but that's mostly because he's been living in the woods almost all his life. He can protect you, keep you safe, get stuff off of the top cabinet for you- hell, the man would build you another cabin if you asked! But the things that don’t require brute strength? Like kissing, holding hands, and cuddling? He doesn’t think it’s possible for him to do them.

With your confidence and uplifting personality, you’d really help him ‘come out of his shell’ so to speak. It might take a long while for him to actually take off his mask, and even when he does, it would only be for a few minutes or when you two go to bed, but he’d definitely get more comfortable with physical affection. Maybe not outright seeking it out (at least not at first), but he would be more than happy when you sought him out for cuddles, or held his hand when you two went for walks. You trusting him would honestly make all the difference in his self-esteem.

You would probably end up introducing Jason to a lot of movies, but just be aware you’d need to bring a projector or movie player of some sort to be able to watch them. He would start off super apprehensive, but eventually cuddling up and watching a new flick with you would become one of his favorite times of the day.

NSFT under the cut!

If you’re into sex, just be wary that he’d treat you like you're made of glass at first. He’s never had sex before, so the main thing he’d be worried about is hurting you by accident, or not being able to fully satisfy you. Remember, he’s self-conscious. Especially about his looks.

I don’t think he’d be into rough stuff, or at least him being rough with you. He cares about you too much to even think about you in pain, let alone get off on it (even if you tell him that you’d enjoy it, it would only make him uncomfortable).

You would have to make the first move, after a while of the two of you dating. His favorite position would be you riding him. He would adore being able to see you fully as the two of you make love, especially so that he could run his hands all over your body. For such a big guy, he’s extremely soft in bed. His touch is never harsh or rough, and he loves worshiping you.

He’d desperately want to hold you close to him afterwards, or vice versa. He’s not opposed to being the little spoon, or being held. In fact, he loves it. You two may have to adjust your positions a bit because of the height difference, but it would make him feel so loved and comforted.

If you aren’t into sex, that’s perfect too! He would never made you feel pressured to do anything you don't want to do. Just having you by his side is more than enough for him.

[fallinforgyu]

bun i’m feeling kinda :(((( rn. allow me to explain.

i have a lot of insecurities (who doesn’t have some though, yeah ?) but the biggest one i have is my legs. i’m 5’1 so i’m pretty short but my legs are kind of… eh bigger ? hard to describe but they’re not super thin. and while im not overweight (im right in the middle of the bmi for my age and height which is GOOD) i always hate how my legs look :(

but today i was feelin myself so i wore a skirt even though it made me super self-conscious (side note it was a really nice day today. it was like 45°F and was sunny—it was so nice). but THEN i started thinking about heeseung and how he’d probably love it if his s/o wore a pretty skirt just for him :( and he would make them feel like the prettiest most special person ever despite any insecurities they might have and he would look at them like they hung the stars in the sky and i’m so ☹️☹️☹️ so then of course (like any normal sane person, duh) i put myself in the place of heeseung’s s/o and istg i almost started crying in the middle of the student union builing i was so 🥺 i want hee to kiss my thighs and tell me i’m sosososo pretty no matter what :( i just want heeseung lol

so anyways, that’s what i will be thinking about at work today 💀

bby i'm so proud of you for wearing a skirt!! i know that can be scary, especially when you have insecurities. i bet you looked amazing!! ❤️

and heeseung would absolutely love if you wore a skirt for him 🥺🥺❤️ he'd step back every few minutes just to stare at you 🥺💕

[smutty-ki113r]

Hi~ I wanted to hop on the match-ups as well cause I've read them and they're amazing. So could I request a romantic one? 👉👈

Hi, the name's Daniela but my friends call me Dina (pls call me Dina, after the Mr Worldwide post I wanna be your friend so bad 😭), I go by She/Her and I'm bisexual with a slight inclination towards males. I think I'm quite fun to be around, the most stupid things make me laugh and I can crack a few jokes even on the worst situations but at the same time I'm kinda serious, I get moody quite easily sometimes but for the most part I'm really bubbly. I suck at social interactions but I love people, so I'm absolutely an extrovert that's really scared to make people uncomfortable.

My insecurities are very much linked to me and my personality, I mean, I'm kinda self conscious of my weight and my body, but at the same time I always try to find beauty in myself, so much that it can lead to feeding my ego a little bit too much. And personality wise I feel like I can be really annoying, I like to feel special to the people I care about, so it lead to me being a really jealous person. Also I'm super competitive and that's not good at a certain point.

I like lots of stuff, very interesting things... I never really give much thought to the things I like, dang. I really like watching Anime and horror movies, drawing, going on walks, baking, I really really love to bake and clean, it's just so relaxing, ooh~ and I like dying my hair, a real fun activity if you ask me. In my friend group I'm chaos in person and also the one who's horny 25/8 and makes it known. Also, I'm known for hyperfixiating on anime characters (mostly mad scientists and intimidating blackhaired men). My music taste is quite normal, rock, punk, pop/punk, punk/rock, alternative rock, a bit of occasional metal. Some of my favorites are My Chemical Romance, Get Scared, Avril Lavigne, All Time Low, Three Days Grace, Hollywood Undead, Set It Off and Bring me The Horizon

The weirdest thing I do is thank the universe each and every morning for my incredible and amazing boobies 🥰🙏🖤🌸✨ and also I think being into esoteric stuff, crystals, demonology and that stuff could be considered a weird thing of mine(?) not sure how weird it actually is.

Oh yes yes, I just got admitted to college and imma be a Vet, super proud of myself, so I'm an animal lover. Btw I'm also libra, an ENFP with ego issues from time to time and an amazing person to dump your problems to (I love solving everybodies issues except mine). My ig is frutill.a, in case you need a physical description (don't be intimidated by how hot I am, I know I know, I'm amazing) and my abandoned art ig is frutill.art

For the ideal date thing? Yeah, cuddles, giving and receiving them, and eating, i like to be taken care of but also taking care of the other person(?. Even tho a picnic and cuddles under the stars sounds lovely. Yeah, maybe that's my ideal date, just doing something together at night that feels special to the both of us.

And to finish this up I just want to say that I love everything you do and you 😭 you're writing is so amazing, like just beauty, and I've read the other match-ups and they're so good, you're super duper talented and amazing. Keep up the good work and don't over do yourself, take care and keep it fun, I really look forward to see what other fic ideas you have in mind and I'll be there supporting whatever you come up with cause it'll be great. Kudos 🖤🖤🖤🤠

HI Dina, I match you with…..💞JEFF💞

Alright this was a hard one, quick quick why I didn’t match you with others. Demonology and EJ don’t mix, he has trauma. Plus, you seemed to be sort of similar to Jeff in some ways (not bad at all, you’re wonderful). I’m gonna go in order of what you talked about so that I can get my thoughts organized.

Stupid things make you laugh? At the worst possible times? At least you won’t be alone with Jeffy, he is the king of doing that, but he dosen’t exactly feel bad about it. AND you get moody often, Jeff too. Still, I feel like developing the relationship would take a while. You would have to constantly sit down with him and tell him what’s bothering you, open communication. Jeff is a master at feeding his ego, but he is fragile on the inside so be careful not to insult him, and once he warms up to you he is so so possessive. Does not want anyone else flirting with you at all, just goes to prove he thinks you might leave him for someone else.

He also loves horror (as we can tell) and he’s pretty much the chaos person too, you guys will bounce the energy off of each other for sure. //Also bro… what anime characters I have a thing for the murderers-// BUT BUT, set it off you say? Maybe go read some of this😏. I’m sure if you wake up next to Jeff he’ll be thanking the universe for your boobies too. HES AN ANIMAL LOVER TOO, and you being a vet is lovely, he wants to take care of his dog ya know?

I just know this man would bring you a rock thinking it’s a crystal. BRB BAWLING MY EYES OUT OVER THIS. Jeff isn’t one to dump his trauma on you, but he will tell you his current frustrations like how much Slender is pissing him off or something. He’s not very elegant but he would lay down a blanket and cuddle you if you like, once this man is attached he is attached. He loves being the big spoon in bed, and the little spoon too but don’t tell him I told you

He acts like he doesn’t pay attention but he really does, any slight changes in your mood and he will know what’s up. Very naggy about it, will try to pry it out of you (even though he doesn’t like other doing that to him), and gets angry if you don’t tell him. Just reassure him because he wants to help, he doesn’t want you to go to others for help when he’s right there.

Hope you liked this! BTW yes we ARE friends! Plz I almost cried at the Mr.Worldwide thing. I beg of you don’t let people dump their problems on just you, you need to have a space to share your struggles too. You can always message me, tumbler is like a safe place for me rn. I’m very understanding and wouldn’t ever make fun of you, I think that’s disgusting. You must be beautiful, I don’t have insta sadly. It got a bit toxic so-. You have great music taste, and I think you are a lovely person.

[dantesilvadraws]

Honestly, Idk if I'm the one who sent that omega!kiri ask you were talking about (it sounds an awful lot like something I'd do lol) but you're absolutely right; if that was my ask, I don't only want one more onega!kiri fic lol. Any omega!kiri fic (especially with preg!kiri or kid fic) you'd be willing to write would be an absoltue gift, I love your work so much and there isn't enough omega!kiri in the world. Also I'm super broke rn but as soon as I get a job I'm so donating to your kofi, ilysm ❤

Thank you~!! I enjoy writing all sorts of things for ya’ll!! :D 

And I know I’m not the only one who has a shortage of money, so thank you so much and I hope you’re able to find a good job! Jobs are tricky little things, they seem really hard to find – so I wish you luck!!

I hope this little fic is good!! :D Again, thank you so much for leaving asks and enjoying my work!! 

[bakushima tag] [bnha omegaverse]

WARNING OMEGAVERSE

“Eijirou, are you ready to go?”

“I, I don’t know.” Kirishima sighed as he stepped out of their bedroom and into the living room.

Bakugou eyed Kirishima, trying to figure out what it was that was making his boyfriend so apprehensive about leaving.

Kirishima lifted his shirt, and sighed, “Look how big my stomach is, don’t you think it makes me look a little weird?”

“You look fine!” Bakugou argued, and then added quietly, “And kinda cute too.”

Hearing his alpha’s complement made Kirishima laugh, “Thanks but…” He said and pulled his hoodie back down to cover his belly, “I still feel weird going out in public and everyone can see it and…”

Kirishima had felt the need to cover up his stomach with the use of sweaters and hoodies – anything to make his growing baby bump a little less noticeable. He wasn’t used to all the attention reporters from news magazines and websites were giving him. Everyone wanted to snag a shot of Kirishima and Bakugou, and all of this was making the young omega a little self conscious.

As if sensing his boyfriend’s insecurity, Bakugou informed, “If anyone talks shit about you, or bothers you let me know and I’ll deal with it.”

“Thank you Katsuki, but I don’t think anyone is going to be that annoying.” Kirishima admitted, and asked, “Can you help me with my shoes so we can go?”

“Yeah.”

Bakugou and Kirishima were attending an informal engagement party for Todoroki and Midoriya at a local restaurant. Which was good for Kirishima because he had been craving their spicy ramen for days. Spicy foods were high on Kirishima’s craving list, and Bakugou predicted that this was a sign that pup would have a quirk similar to his.

All of their friends were invited to the restaurant, and they were all given a private room to have their fun. Despite being with a familiar group, Bakugou kept physical contact with Kirishima. Whether it was one arm wrapped around his shoulder or waist, or holding his hand or touching his thigh, Bakugou wanted his omega to feel as comfortable and safe as possible.  He knew he was nervous about being seen in public, and was happy to learn they were in a private room.

“Katsuki, I need to use the restroom.”

Bakugou nodded, he took Kirishima by the hand and led him to the restroom in the main part of the restaurant. Of course, by this point, rumor had spread of Kirishima and Bakugou being at the restaurant. Bakugou knew this was probably the case, and so he followed his omega into the bathroom and stood outside his stall.

Thank god, there was only one reporter that Bakugou spotted, and as expected he followed the couple into the bathroom.

“Hey, we don’t feel like talking,” Bakugou immediately stated as the young reporter approached him, “So just take your shit and go.”

“What does he want?” Kirishima asked from the other side of the stall.

Bakugou glared at the young reporter, “To invade our privacy.” he growled.

“I – I just have a few questions!” the reporter stammered, “And, if, if I could get a picture –.”

“How about I shove that camera up your –,”

“Katsuki, it’s okay.” Kirishima flushed the toilet and opened the stall door, “I’ll answer three questions and take one photo.”

“Are – you sure?” Bakugou was surprised to hear Kirishima react like that, especially when he was so nervous to even step out of the apartment a few hours ago.

“Yeah, getting that ramen calmed me down a bit.” Kirishima stated as he began to wash his hands, he then asked the reporter, “So, um, what are your questions.”

The reporter, who was slightly shaken by having an alpha as powerful as Bakugou around, did his best to ask three, very respectful questions: Are they excited about having a baby? How long does Red Riot think it will take for him to get back into the swing of hero work? And what is the most difficult part of being pregnant?

Kirishima answered all three of them, and was more than happy to hear that the reporter decided not to take a picture. It probably had something to do with how intimidating Bakugou can be without even trying.

After their detor in the bathroom, Bakugou took Kirishima by the hand and led back to the private room where the omega eagerly ordered more ramen. Eventually as the night went on, conversation went toward Kirishima’s pregnancy when he started his fourth bowl of ramen.

“How far along are you again?” Midoriya asked.

“Twenty-two weeks!” Kirishima exclaimed, proudly.

Bakugou leaned over and kissed Kirishima on the cheek, he was equally as proud as his omega was. They were more than half way toward the end of the pregnancy, and soon, they would meet their first pup.

Throughout the remainder of the event, Bakugou continued to be affectionate toward Kirishima. Not in grand, annoying ways, but in soft, gentle ways, such as resting his head on Kirishima’s shoulder and tightly holding his hand.

Everyone seemed to have had a lovely night.

When Todoroki and Midoriya arrived home, Midoriya commented on an observation he had made, “You know, I don’t think I’ve ever seen Kacchan so happy before.”

[jasntodds]

um hi I'm really sorry but I love your blog and I'm just feeling lonely rn and needed someone to rant to? If u don't wanna deal with this just say so or ignore it, i 100% understand! So I'm going off to uni next month and I'm so nervous about it bc of my social anxiety and how I'm gonna make friends and stuff. and I'm 18 and never had a boyfriend or anything and I'm super insecure and just found out the only guy I sorta had a thing with for a while moved away and he's with someone now. (Part 1)

and I'm over him for the most part but it just got me thinking cuz all this while I was okay not having a boyfriend in high school cuz I thought it'd happen in uni which now I don't think it ever will. And I've just been obsessively scrolling through my instagram for the last hour looking at all my pretty and gorgeous friends and how the guys I'm even slightly interested in don't even give me a second glance or always ignore me when I attempt to talk to them (part 2)  (Part 3) and I wanted to work on myself for the 4 months I had off but clearly that didn't work bc I'm still insecure as hell and super anxious and idk what to do. I'm really sorry this was a 3 part rant and idk if u do this sorta stuff on your blog. Thanks for listening anyway and hope you have a wonderful day xx  

My dude, I promise, there’s nothing wrong with not having a boyfriend in high school. I know a LOT of people who didn’t get their first boyfriend until after high school. It seems like this huge deal now but I promise, it’s not. I WISH I wouldn’t have dated in high school, dead serious.But I do understand that like something like that guy moving and dating someone can get to you. I’ve been there and it does suck. And despite popular opinion, you can be upset. You’re allowed to feel that way for a little while. But, my dude, listen, scrolling through IG and looking at women who photoshop themselves or facetune themselves/have other people do it, have DAMN good lighting, literally just know how to take a good selfie or have someone take a good picture for them, etc. It’s not good. Like, people who are drop-dead gorgeous get self-conscious from looking on IG people.And here’s a spoiler: most boys are just UGH and they stay that way into their twenties, I can confirm. So honestly, don’t take boys not being interested to the heart. It’s their loss which I know is WAY easier said than done but really, if you can get that mindset, you’ll be alright. It’s the truth.You can still work on yourself. Sometimes it takes a long time to do that. It took me YEARS of trying. Literal years to like go “yeah I like me this is cool” and that’s after being made of for how I look, being rejected a lot, being ghosted a lot, being broken up with a lot, and someone pretending to like me as a joke. Working on insecurities and self-esteem and self-confidence, that stuff doesn’t usually come in just a few months. It comes with a lot of time and effort but even then, it’s okay to have those days where you just don’t feel GREAT or even good. And those are perfectly allowed. You can work on yourself through school and starting over at Uni might even make that easier and better for you.I’ve got social anxiety so I get the whole “AAAAAAHHHHH NEW PEOPLE” thing so I’m not gonna tell you to like...........go out of your way and talk to people (I mean hey, if you’re feeling it, DO IT but if now) make sure you try and look genuinely happy, approachable, and just open and people WILL talk to you. And I PROMISE, you’ll be okay. If you think you’re awkward because of it, you’re not nearly as awkward as you think you are and most people don’t even really notice. It’s kind of a normal thing now.I legit promise you, you’re gonna be okay. You’re gonna do amazing at uni and make some friends, even just one or two. And yeah, maybe a guy will come but if not, that’s okay. Focus on YOU. I can promise it’ll be a damn good decision.