#i'm a normal person a functional person

[lettucefather]

you really, truly did it

[lemonerix]

hetadoodles :P

[relicsongmel]

Something I've always found fascinating about Raymond Shields is that despite seemingly having altruistic reasons for being a defense attorney, his reasons for trying to convince Miles to be one are anything but.

It seems understandable enough on the surface. After Ray comes around and agrees to work with Miles in The Imprisoned Turnabout, he sees remnants of Gregory shining through him despite von Karma's influence. Whether or not he recognizes that Miles' decision to become a prosecutor wasn't just born from that alone—that it was in tandem with wanting to distance himself from anything that reminded him of his father to alleviate the burden on his heart—is up for debate, but regardless: he acknowledges Miles as Gregory's son through and through and wants to capitalize on his dedication for pursuing justice in a way that he knows would make his father proud. He wants to let Miles in on the life he was robbed of at 9 years old—the life he once dreamed of living, where he follows in the footsteps of his father by giving everything he has to save people, by fighting like hell for the vulnerable and the condemned.

That said, as much as Ray dresses up his proposition by making it out to be as if he's looking out for Miles' best interests (and the best interests of society, even)...his motives for trying to get Miles to switch sides are almost entirely selfish. Ray's efforts (and most of his actions in general, really) are ultimately a product of his desperate attempt to cling on to anything related to Gregory out of an inability to move on from his death. Wearing his hat and coat, leaving the name of his office unchanged...and now, requesting that his son literally change jobs just because he can't bear the weight of his own loneliness anymore. Because he can't bear to think that the damage done by DL-6 is irreversible and Miles has moved on while he has stagnated for the past 17 years. Because he has an idealized vision of what he thinks Gregory would want and fails to realize that his son's occupation wouldn't matter to him as long as it brings him happiness and fulfillment. In his mind, letting Miles go means accepting the circumstances that brought him where he is and allowing both of them to move on. And that terrifies him.

It's even more deceitful when you realize that Ray's pitch comes at a very opportune time for Miles given his circumstances at that point: that is, he's under threat of investigation for prosecutorial misconduct and at risk of being stripped of his badge. Ray might fake incompetence, but he's not stupid—and he takes full advantage of Justine's warnings to try to sway Miles when he's in a more vulnerable position in terms of his job. Which is...pretty fucked up, to put it lightly. Despite having a better idea of where he came from compared to most people, through this Ray shows a lack of understanding of who Miles truly is and a lack of respect for what he's come to value, even if his path toward obtaining those values had some bumps along the road. But he's so blinded by his grief that he doesn't even stop to consider how much he's really asking of him, or what Miles is really searching for.

Ray was moved by Gregory. He values saving people. Defending the weak is an undeniably noble endeavor. But to ask that of someone else without consideration for their best interests is decidedly less so.

For all his occupation requires a certain selflessness, Raymond Shields is far more selfish than he lets on. And I for one find that contradiction fascinating to unpack.

[lunacchi]

I want Fire Emblem artist friends, especially friends with OCs and self-inserts or those who like FE3H

GIVE ME YOUR CHILDREN I WISH TO LOOK AT THEM

[adustoflove]

I'm gonna do it one day (kill myself)

[vimbry]

kinda related, I reblogged a poll not long ago about if you have celebrity crushes and how you define that, where one of the options was: "it means I fantasise about having sex/a relationship with them." and people in the notes were like ewww, who does That, that's weird. which. huh. the amount of people agreeing with that sentiment struck me as odd. that's a very normal experience lol.

it's literally just a fantasy. it Could be a problem if it were maladaptive or developed into something parasocial that affected your actions in reality, but not inherently. daydreaming about people you find attractive is fine.

[uncanny-tranny]

You know... it's okay to trust your body. If you are separated from your body to such an extent you feel you cannot trust it, I truly from the bottom of my heart empathize and feel grief for you, but you can trust your body.

It's okay to listen to your body and to heed what it is telling you. I wish you (and your body) well wherever you go. You deserve the peace of mind to feel able to do what you want.

[evilkaeya]

being depressed sucks ass because there's so many things I wanna do but I just can't

[rudnitskaia]

yay a week until my 29th bday ✨🔥😎🔥✨

[olath124]

The interation between Kurt and Vlad seems to have a slight possibility to turn almost amicable...

After Vlad's attempt to kidnap Shark Norris ("It was a joke." "Was it?") Kurt decided to retake an updated and improved version of his old shark dick pic.

And who can do it better than the poor Elroy (who probably did it already for his friend Vladdick? "I just want to forget, please.")?!?!?

Of course Aon and Vlad belong to @ouroboros-hideout. I'm truly sorry.

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[iambadwolfgirl]

It feels like I'm floating, half the time

I swear I'm barely alive

Surviving through others

Thriving energy.

[hajihiko]

brain problems? brain solutions. you are correct

my brain makes up problems then solves them. this makes me very good at explaining bad media and very bad at functioning like a person

[dollsome-does-tumblr]

quick mental health rant--

i'm pretty sure this has something to do with either caffeine or one of my many daily medications (also my parent has a major surgery coming up that they are terrified about and therefore i am also terrified about it), but i've felt like my chest is going to explode from vague, nebulous Life Stress for every day for like the past week and it's driving me absolutely deranged. i feel so bad!!!!!!! my life is intolerable to me for technically no reason!!!! i hate myself for not being a more accomplished writer because that's where my brain always goes when i'm feeling unhappy about anything!!!! aughhhh!!!!! i also wonder if it's a post-covid thing to ... go emotionally insane???? i did have covid at the end of last month! and now i'm emotionally insane!

[freakoutgirl]

My work wants me to work five days a week and I keep having to find new ways of skirting the issue without directly telling them that if I do that I legitimately might kill myself

[lostmyremembrall]

Mood for the past 2 weeks

Writing absolutely sinful smut for Ominis and Sebastian.

Writing heart-wrenching tragedies for Ominis and Sebastian.

Cry myself to sleep.

Repeat.

[vulpinesaint]

the thing is that i got the "feel nothing" depression and not even in a really negative way just in like. there was nothing going on in there. didn't feel sad just didn't remember the last time i felt happy either. and when i kind of snapped out of it for the first time in high school feeling stress again for the first time in years was fucking crazy cause i just had No coping skills for it (hadn't been dealing with it) but what has sucked even worse is feeling sadness. little sadnesses and anxieties are so overwhelming what are you even supposed to do with those. i can't believe that you are just supposed to live with it and go about your life when it makes me kind of feel like i'm physically dying. hey google how to sleep at night when i am still experiencing regular everyday negative emotions like i am five years old and dealing with them for the first time. hey google how to feel like a normal person when every regular hurt and mistake feel cataclysmic. everyone else feels this stuff and i know this cause that's how life works when your brain chemicals are letting you feel things but i feel so immature and incompetent for not being able to cope with regular commonplace negative emotions like a regular adult human being should be