#i'm a normal person a functional person

[lettucefather]

you really, truly did it

[lemonerix]

hetadoodles :P

[relicsongmel]

Something I've always found fascinating about Raymond Shields is that despite seemingly having altruistic reasons for being a defense attorney, his reasons for trying to convince Miles to be one are anything but.

It seems understandable enough on the surface. After Ray comes around and agrees to work with Miles in The Imprisoned Turnabout, he sees remnants of Gregory shining through him despite von Karma's influence. Whether or not he recognizes that Miles' decision to become a prosecutor wasn't just born from that alone—that it was in tandem with wanting to distance himself from anything that reminded him of his father to alleviate the burden on his heart—is up for debate, but regardless: he acknowledges Miles as Gregory's son through and through and wants to capitalize on his dedication for pursuing justice in a way that he knows would make his father proud. He wants to let Miles in on the life he was robbed of at 9 years old—the life he once dreamed of living, where he follows in the footsteps of his father by giving everything he has to save people, by fighting like hell for the vulnerable and the condemned.

That said, as much as Ray dresses up his proposition by making it out to be as if he's looking out for Miles' best interests (and the best interests of society, even)...his motives for trying to get Miles to switch sides are almost entirely selfish. Ray's efforts (and most of his actions in general, really) are ultimately a product of his desperate attempt to cling on to anything related to Gregory out of an inability to move on from his death. Wearing his hat and coat, leaving the name of his office unchanged...and now, requesting that his son literally change jobs just because he can't bear the weight of his own loneliness anymore. Because he can't bear to think that the damage done by DL-6 is irreversible and Miles has moved on while he has stagnated for the past 17 years. Because he has an idealized vision of what he thinks Gregory would want and fails to realize that his son's occupation wouldn't matter to him as long as it brings him happiness and fulfillment. In his mind, letting Miles go means accepting the circumstances that brought him where he is and allowing both of them to move on. And that terrifies him.

It's even more deceitful when you realize that Ray's pitch comes at a very opportune time for Miles given his circumstances at that point: that is, he's under threat of investigation for prosecutorial misconduct and at risk of being stripped of his badge. Ray might fake incompetence, but he's not stupid—and he takes full advantage of Justine's warnings to try to sway Miles when he's in a more vulnerable position in terms of his job. Which is...pretty fucked up, to put it lightly. Despite having a better idea of where he came from compared to most people, through this Ray shows a lack of understanding of who Miles truly is and a lack of respect for what he's come to value, even if his path toward obtaining those values had some bumps along the road. But he's so blinded by his grief that he doesn't even stop to consider how much he's really asking of him, or what Miles is really searching for.

Ray was moved by Gregory. He values saving people. Defending the weak is an undeniably noble endeavor. But to ask that of someone else without consideration for their best interests is decidedly less so.

For all his occupation requires a certain selflessness, Raymond Shields is far more selfish than he lets on. And I for one find that contradiction fascinating to unpack.

[baejax-the-great]

It's been months and I'm still absolutely baffled by the time I was touring apartments and I asked to see the kitchen, and both the realtor and the landlord looked taken aback and one asked me in complete surprise, "You cook?"

I am a human being in my mid-thirties what the fuck are the other options there

[a-silly-poll-side-blog-yay]

Sometimes I feel like my life hates me

[lunacchi]

I want Fire Emblem artist friends, especially friends with OCs and self-inserts or those who like FE3H

GIVE ME YOUR CHILDREN I WISH TO LOOK AT THEM

[rustyrailways]

Past two days without ADHD medication. I hate it here, I've had to log myself out of this account to stop impulsive posting.

[shiraishi--kanade]

Can someone explain to me why I'm turning full on nocturnal the moment sun starts to set before 7pm or is that like normal

[vimbry-moved]

kinda related, I reblogged a poll not long ago about if you have celebrity crushes and how you define that, where one of the options was: "it means I fantasise about having sex/a relationship with them." and people in the notes were like ewww, who does That, that's weird. which. huh. the amount of people agreeing with that sentiment struck me as odd. that's a very normal experience lol.

it's literally just a fantasy. it Could be a problem if it were maladaptive or developed into something parasocial that affected your actions in reality, but not inherently. daydreaming about people you find attractive is fine.

[uncanny-tranny]

You know... it's okay to trust your body. If you are separated from your body to such an extent you feel you cannot trust it, I truly from the bottom of my heart empathize and feel grief for you, but you can trust your body.

It's okay to listen to your body and to heed what it is telling you. I wish you (and your body) well wherever you go. You deserve the peace of mind to feel able to do what you want.

[evilkaeya]

being depressed sucks ass because there's so many things I wanna do but I just can't

[olath124]

The interation between Kurt and Vlad seems to have a slight possibility to turn almost amicable...

After Vlad's attempt to kidnap Shark Norris ("It was a joke." "Was it?") Kurt decided to retake an updated and improved version of his old shark dick pic.

And who can do it better than the poor Elroy (who probably did it already for his friend Vladdick? "I just want to forget, please.")?!?!?

Of course Aon and Vlad belong to @ouroboros-hideout. I'm truly sorry.

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[leatherbookmark]

Huh... just connected the dots between my soul-crushing shame and inability to imagine myself "carelessly having fun" without feeling a Heavy Judging Gaze That Thinks I'm Such A Funny Stupid Little Baby on myself and like... my parents finding it the funniest thing in the world, worth bringing up over and over despite my discomfort, that I used to bob funnily to the music as a toddler

[hajihiko]

brain problems? brain solutions. you are correct

my brain makes up problems then solves them. this makes me very good at explaining bad media and very bad at functioning like a person

[lostmyremembrall]

Mood for the past 2 weeks

Writing absolutely sinful smut for Ominis and Sebastian.

Writing heart-wrenching tragedies for Ominis and Sebastian.

Cry myself to sleep.

Repeat.

[sixeyesonathiel]

im 100% sure i would have love thy neighbor posted tomorrow.

it hurt but i had to cut the word count around the childhood arc for pacing 😔🥀 also so i can expand more on the older years...