#i'll be normal and then I'll remember sasha

[vixred]

WAUGH

[tammyu-2]

hello!! I was wondering if you could please do fem reader x 2012 Donnie where the reader is having a panic attack over drama or smth like that and Donnie is calming them down??

(love your oneshots btw!!!)

thank you!!

Ofc ofc I think this one will turn out cute

2012 TMNT DONNIE COMFORTING YOU

intended as a female, she/her pronouns used, panic attack, slight sh but not too much, self-degrading, angst to fluff, swearing

Let's goo

Why had you done something so fricken stupid. You should haven't have said anything You shouldn't have done anything - you should have just sat in your self-made corner like how it always was. Cause then this wouldn't have happened.

You had always been new to when it came to socializing out of your normal friends, so you only ever did it on rare occurrences. Otherwise you only had two main friend groups. The turtles and a few girls from your school.

One of them in particular is called Sasha-

(If that's your ocs name or your name your welcome to change it. Nothing against Sasha's at all)

-she and you had been best friends since you had gone camping with your friends. You fidgeted nervously with you finger nails and sat under the slide while you were reading a book on your lap. Sasha had stomped her way to you, taking your book out of your lap, holding it open where you had been reading.

"Hey! Give that back to me right now!"

"Sure, I'll give you your little book. But after, I can't stand to see you sit alone at a playground. Play with me, and in return, you will get your book back!"

"...okay fine. But let me put my book mark in! I don't want to lose my place."

Ever since then, you two have been besties for life. Locked in since 8. And had been by each other's side. However, when high school rolled around, she was the only one you knew, so you just stuck to her. She called the shots, and soon it turned from a mutual bestieship to you following her like her dog. When you were young, you two made sure you two were on the same level. However, it seems like she changed.

She would ask you every time you walked out of classes together to hold her bag. Whatever party Sasha went to, you went to. However, Sashas friends were they were also yours (more Sashas, though). You did what she told you because you clutched to the memories of the past, hoping that someday or any day, she would throw you a bone. If you did what she asked, if you said what she wanted to hear, if you did every single thing right, then maybe just maybe you will get something back just like old times.

So since high school, you lost yourself. You didn't have likes or dislikes cause when Sasha didn't like something you shouldn't and if she did then you had to. So when one day you met Donnie, that changed. He helped you find the real you. He treated you like a proper person. He remembered every word you said to him, and he was willing to bend over backward just so you could see that you were worth more than what you were put through.

So one day when you finally had enough. You were fed up, and you had wasted time being someone's mindless minion when you deserved better for yourself. So, one day, you did exactly what your gut told you.

It had been a party, and everyone was tearing it up. Sasha had a sabrina Carpenter like outfit on as she sat on one of her talking stages laps. You were off to the side on a couch. She flicked her hand at you to get your attention and pleaded oh-so-innocently

"Babes, can you be a dear and get me my phone and some punch? It's on the kitchen counter inside. Thanks, bye."

"...no.."

Appalled to what you said, she sat up and stared at you before giggling a bit.

"Good one! But I wasn't joking, Honey. My phone and punch now. Thanks."

"I said no!"

You stood up from your chair and stormed off to the front yard of the house where the party was placed. Sasha embarrassingly chuckled and walked out after you. She grabbed your arm roughly.

"What the fuck do you think your doing!? You made me look like an OUTCAST! Do you understand how much you damaged my reputation!? This is unacceptable this is so unlike you! God what is wrong with you!?"

"You want to know what wrong Sasha? I've had to sit and be your little minion for years now! Ever since high school, you put me down in favor of becoming popular! Do you understand the extent of how much you hurt me!"

"Don't think for one second. I'm gonna allow you to ridicule me! I MADE you. You're lucky you're even here. I gave you everything in life and now you want to toss it away just because your apperantly on your fucking period!?"

"Nothing was ever mine! EVERYTHING WAS YOURS! Everything I liked, everything I hated, everything I believed, everything I stood for, everything that I thought made me fit in was all yours. I was a copy-paste of you. I acted like you just so you wouldn't drop me!"

"Well, at least we both know that's EXACTLY where this was going! I don't need you. You need me. Goodluck making it out in the REAL fucking world without having me to be there for you, you fuckinf baby. On Monday I expect all my stuff back and I'll give whatever useless stuff of yours I have around. Consider out friendship OVER! DONT EVEN THINK ABOUT CRAWLING BACK YOU BITCH!"

Never has Sasha called you that. Nor has she ever actually ended your friendship. So the Stockholm syndrome kicked it. You begged her, but it was too late. She was your friend. She was your everything. Why did you be so stupid! God. And she was also your ride home. She left you at the party just like that.

You ran far away from the party leaving behind the life you thought you knew. Leaving behind everything. You ran till your feet hurt. You ran till you couldn't see. You ran till you saw a light. You stopped where the lamppost was, and you cried till you couldn't. You picked up your phone from your pocket only to find that it was flat. You threw it on the ground in frustration as you felt your breath get shallow. Your chest tightened as you could barely stand. You picked up a walkie talkie- something Donnie made for you two whenever it was important.

"Donnie...please pick up."

The radio was silent with nothing but static as you crumbled to your knees.

"Hello? Y/n? Are you okay?"

"Donnie come get me...please.."

That's all he needed.

"I'm coming. Don't worry, I'll track your location through the walkie-talkie, okay?"

"Okay.."

Once he was gone, you thought about everything. Years and years of your friendship were gone if only you weren't so stupid. Your foot tapped rapidly on the tarred side walk as you felt your hands tightly grab your shoulders, and you dragged your fingernails against them. You felt your breathe escaping your mouth faster and faster and faster and faster. The world was spinning, and more tears felt from your face. Your head was aching, and your heart was sore. Your body trembled as you tried to breathe, but it was getting harder like you were drowning.

You screamed out in agony and sobbed, hitting at the lamppost, then the tar the your legs. What had you done. And just as you were about to hit your head, a hand came up and took your wrists gently.

Donnie said nothing as he opened his arms and almost fell over from the force of you jumping into his arms. You cried hard into his shell as he rubbed you back soothingly. Shushing you softly as you gasped for air in between sobs. You were full on ugly crying, but Donnie couldn't care. He was happy just to have you in his arms.

After a few minutes, you calmed down enough to stutter out an explanation. Donnie just frowns as you and gently rubs your head. You pulled away, wiping your tears as Donnie looked at you with genuine adoration. Even if you were a mess right now, Donnie cherished any moment when he was with you.

He calmly said something after a calming silence. He said it soft as if afraid to scare you.

"Hey hey my star. It's alright. If she was your friend, she would have sat down and talked you through your feelings. You deserve the moon and sun and nothing less. I'm so sorry you had to experience this. But for now you don't have to worry about anything because I'm here and I have all the time in the world when it comes to you. And I won't go until I know for sure that you know how amazing you are. You are like an Alexanderite!"

"A what...?"

"A Alexanderite is one of the world's most valuable jewels. Its color changes often and is extremely rare but overlooked. It reminds me of you. Your eyes always shine different colors in the light, and I think you're as valuable as the stars in the night sky. And anyone like you is extremely rare to get some. I'm lucky."

Ugh, this adorable dork had made you heart melt. You let out a "Oh donnie" and jump into his arms once again, hugging him tightly as he hugged you back. Don't get me confused, though this man was too absent-minded to notice what he said. So once it caught up to him, he WAS FLUSTERED and as red as Raphs headband. The rest of the night, he is stuttering. But along as her had your beautiful smile up again. Then he would embarrass himself a million times over if he saw his girl happy..

AWWWW THAT WAS SO CUTE TO WRITE

Can you tell I liked this one guys? Cause I did- wow this was so fun and nice to make. How you guys enjoyed see you soon!!

~Tammy<3

[sashazakbun24]

remember this?

yea- dw I promise to I just felt nervous javbfjewgnfkwehkfwe sooooo

About this guy, the- the four-armed scorpion tailed freak. Yeah this thing, his name is Hypsha (Hypno! Sasha)

the reason I want to bring her up is cus I've been planning to make a game that involves them and more ocs in there too. (Kinito, Animatic and my kinsonas are not related to it)

It's called Planet A574C7 (basically abstract but I tried to make it look more like a planet name ooo im soooo original oooo-)

an adventure game but with meta horror elements where you're on a strange colorful planet somewhere in the andromeda galaxy where everything is 'fine' and 'normal' sadly this is currently in concept but im doing my best to stay focused

I'll add more info about this if yall are interested, I'll also introduce the four main characters of it to start :>

for now I'd like to hear yalls thoughts

PS. updating my sonas that will be used more often online, I call them my headspace siblings that run around in my brain like the loud voices I have :D /silly

left to right: Sashamatic (Animatic kinsona), KinsonaPET (Kinito kinsona) and Hypsha (Hypno! Sasha, an oc of mine)

[duckarchives]

Is Richtofen Krafft's biological son?

Well, if you watched the final cutscene of Citadelle des Morts, we found out that Krafft (the old man we find on the map) is Richtofen's father. But does that mean that Richtofen is original to this universe and now there's a hole in the lore of zombies? No, but I'll explain it in parts.

Gabriel Krafft is an original character from Vanguard, to be more specific, he's from Zombies. He's currently the only character from vanguard zombies that we know is alive. After the end of zombies, he moved to Germany and tried to live a normal life there.

In case you didn't know, Krafft is gay and his husband was Sasha, who unfortunately died, but before the events of Zombies, they wanted to live a family life and even adopt a child, but we already know that this never happened.

Years after he moved to Germany, he decided to go to an orphanage, where he found Richthofen and adopted him because he reminded him of Sasha. Richtofen doesn't remember anything about his past, but he still suffers from nightmares, which are references to what he went through on the Origins map.

In conclusion, no. Richtofen is still someone who came from outside this universe and Krafft's adopted son. Now I'm anxious to see what Samantha's lore is like here.

I admit that I only made this post because my friend thought that Richtofen is his biological son and Sasha was a trans man. We only have confirmation that they are a gay couple, but it has never been confirmed whether Sasha or even Krafft are trans.

[sunny-reacts-to-stuff]

tma 47 "the new door"

Use of 'It' as a Personal Pronoun, Gaslighting, Unreality, Abduction, Dissociation, Lost Time, Being Trapped, Starvation, Dehydration, Self-Harm, Physical Violence, Loud Shout at 15:00, High-Pitched Audio Interference

new speaker!!!

she seems stressed

miss richardson please

i have lost the counts of how many times i've said this but jon please never work retail

now WHY would you work for someone named wolverton. what if they have a ton of wolvers

fuck we have had the "i cant picture how they looked bc they looked too normal" shit so little ago and i dont remember where

i mean i am sure he wasnt two people

A TALL BLONDE MAN YOU SAY? DID HIS HANDS SEEM FREAKY?

hands so freaky they are closeted

helen no one is saying it was there

it was warm okay

and did the pattern look fractal-ish?

weird

aww helen :(

THE PHONE WAS THE CORRIDOR? that's good horror right there

do this people know you can place your hand on the wall

gay corridor

the corridor that makes you colorblind

jon, if you touch any tunnel again after this i will kick your balls

shifted? like the non!graham?

michael?

jon if you dont help this poor woman

HE HAS STARTED TO BELIEVE ^0^

he has started to believe :C

YOUR HONOR, HE IS LEADING THE SUBJECT

hey. so. how big is the fucking office for him to shout so much whenever someone comes in? is he like 20 meters away from the door?

"you've been less conscientious" at least he is not a replacement

wait what the fuck

"let ahahahha" michael, besides being a weird entity, your manners suck

"that is a real name" very well sweetie!! at least you picked a normal one and not idk john the 17th one of the podscast or fuckass wolverton

JON NO ONE IS GONNA KILL YOU I'LL PROTECT YOU !!!

michael can you stop being weird and fucked up, please and thank you?

"does your hand own your stomach" okay riddle me this mike. if i eat a piece of metal and i spit it out does it become mine? not necessarily. leave helen alone

jon. my doe my dear my darling. can you stop talking with this guy and phone someone.

JON HE'S GASLIGHTING YOU BE CAREFUL

"let her go" "no?" "fym no."

"who the hell are you?" he's the brat when he's bumping that!!!

no one cares about your identity

he is right there jon no name is a real name

is this michael's first time talking

HE STABBED YOU? AND YOU ARE STILL TALKING?

JON. JON YOU ARE BEING NICER TO THE CREATURE THAN YOU HAVE BEEN TO MARTIN AND NAOMI.

hey so showing sasha a dangerous corpse and putting her in danger doesnt count as intervening to save anyone!

also if the weird "leave" tunnel thing was from you i wouldnt take much credit for that. not like you cant i just dont like you

jon. you are being nicer to this guy than you have been to any of your coworkers.

so. that was crazy

[c0ntr0l-c0re-angel]

WE FINISHED THE BOOK!!! [A day ago, technically]

This is going to be a >>MOSTLY<< spoiler free post, and I'm gonna post my full opinion a week or two from now to give people time to read it. There's a read more just in case.

In my unbiased opinion, I'd give the book a 7.5/10. For what if had to work with [from some of the later games], I feel like things were done well, with the exception of a handful of parts dragging it down. Eden-5 had very interesting world building. They didn't move around much, but it was still cool to see another planet and have a plot not too centered around corporations.

In my BIASED opinion though, it's a 6/10, probably even lower. I'll try to talk about both sides in this post just to be a LITTLE fair.

When the book had it's good moments, they were GREAT. For the most part, Fiona and Sasha were written well, and had good character moments. Gaige was given some of the development she needed, and her dynamic with the sisters was humourous to me. I felt like it did a good job showing a difference between people like the tales characters in the borderlands universe [normal people, and people from games like BL2 [vault hunters that are crazy in a WAAAAY different way].

However, what drops the book down to a six is it's bad parts. I won't say how, but the crystal from NTFTBL [ew], is not only mentioned, but a huge plot point. It's not a secret that I absolutely hated that game, but the crystal takes away a huge universal consequence, but that's a discussion for another post.[and also fucks up what could've been some of the best moments in the book]. Other than that and one other thing, no more mention of that game. There's only one other mention-ish of BL3, and it's not good, but there's only one I can remember. Keeping the other games out of it, imo, was a great idea.

While we don't get to see much of the other tales characters, which is a bummer, it's somewhat understandable. As for the other tales characters, they're absent besides a few cameos from Rhys and some mentions. There are some tales/post tales Rhys moments and mentions that still seem in character, which was nice. BUT, Rhys' absolute character assassination during bl3 and onwards persists in one of his cameos, and the sisters say ABSOLUTELY nothing about it. NOTHING!!! If this post wasn't supposed to be a shorter, less spoiler-y and less opinion riddled, I'd go on forever about how livid I am. Also, the Vaultlander shit was fucking stupid.

I would still at least read a summary of the book at least, if you don't want to read it. There are some parts, for my fellow artists and writers, that can be taken from. But, if you were looking for stuff of ALL the tales characters, or something that COMPLETELY fixed what gearbox fucked up, it's definitely not the book or that. Still, 6/10, the reaaally good parts and the REAL bad parts are at each other's throats constantly. Me and Doglin agreed that there were definitely limitations on what Burch could do, and gearbox probably had say in a bunch of things, but BOY do I have my gripes about this book.

-Splat

[mamahersh]

For whumptober, do y'all think I should post some snippets from a really niche TMA AU I made awhile back? I can't post more than like one or two things, they'll be pretty short, and won't make sense without like an explanation post, and depending what I post might be really graphic gore.

To give a better idea, the AU is that after TMA episode 200, Jon and Martin manage to survive the Panopticon and stay in universe when everything gets remade back to normal. The twist comes in that remember how some of the bigger avatars of the apocalypse got hunted down by angry mobs (Simon mentioned explicitly)? Well, we also know from the tunnel cult that people didn't recognize Jon just from his looks, nor from his name; meaning the Eye didn't like, cosmically project who it's Special Little Boy was during the apocalypse. But we do know that avatars knew who he was, and that anyone who actually could see him walking the apocalypse could vaguely tell he might be able to help, a la Jordan. So, AU officially kicks off with Jon and Martin minding their own business trying to survive in the wreckage of the world post apocalypse and Jon being blinded after the Fears leave (spooky eye man loses sight instead of life), but Jordan Ant-Man is really pissed off that the guy who turned him into a monster during the apocalypse is getting off scott free, and so spreads word around that he knows who kicked off the apocalypse. Of course, many of the other avatars who don't want to die just yet corroborate this to try and get the heat off them, and it works. Cue bad times for Jon, and by virtue of standing up for him, Martin. Basically, my incredibly niche idea is that a show trial happens, and Martin tries his best to prove that Jon was basically innocent of ending the world and in fact had a hand in trying to save it. The end result is the judge (who I'm letting do whatever they want) sentences Jon to 3 years in prison. But, because people are still recovering and need an outlet for their rage, Jon will also be doing "community service" during that time. So long as the people who visit Jon's prison cell say ahead of time what they plan to do, and as long as they dont try to do damage to him that will significantly impact his quality of life outside of prison, its fair game. (Basically, nothing sexual, no taking limbs, nothing that would kill him before a medical professional can see to him).

However not everything in the AU is doom.and gloom! Tim and Sasha are alive in this one! (Tim's a former Desolation avatar who decided to just say "fuck the Institute" after he rose from ashes, and Sasha was just kinda spit out into a Domain after Jon obliterated the not-them during the apocalypse.) I have really sappy Jon&Tim moments already written. They finally have a chance to heal your honors.

Anyways lemme know if that sounds interesting and if I have the time I'll def post something or two for whumptober based on this AU.

[foxymoxynoona]

Hi foxy! Hope youre feeling better! I am your 3 year old follower. I love your writing and thoughts so much. In every story you write its hard to ever completely blame any of the character because there is so much of gray area like also in real life. And that is why i genuinely love your work!

Last week i finally had the chance to finish the recent update of secret song series. And as much as i love and is excited for next update, i am still a little mad at jk. I really hope he realises more of what he did was wrong. I used to think being Sasha being inconsiderate but she had a bigger growth than Jk. Sometimes jk thoughts are quite mean considering he believes he loves Sasha and would take care of her. In perspective, Sasha going on a date wasn’t as bad as Jk getting the tattoo from Naoka. He was more invested in Naoko from the very beginning. So i just wish he realises more of how inconsiderate he has been about everything and how much sasha goes through for him! Regardless i love the couple so much through all trails and tribulation. I hope the story never ends. Hehe

Thank you for so much of your time and energy. Take care of your health and love you❤️

Three years!! I'm so honored to have been in your world for that long <3 <3 <3

I think throughout the series there will constantly be a feeling of "omg they've come so far!" paired with "oooof they still have so far to go." They are so young even if they were living normal lives, but they aren't even living normal lives. I can remember feeling so adult when I was their age but always you look back and realize how much you've changed and how much you've stayed together. I think that feeling continues through your 30s and 40s and 50s.

One thing to keep in mind is that while JK is overall very grounded given his fame, even the REAL Jungkook has talked about acting and feeling entitled or sefish when he was younger. I don't think we wake up one day and suddenly ways of thinking are completely gone, even if/when we consciously work to grow past them. Just like how events or feelings will pull up old versions of Sasha, the same happens with Jungkook too. Similarly, growth is so rarely linear; lots of forward and back and relapse and insight. Jungkook has been raised on this idea that he's the golden maknae, it would feel insincere to me if that never creeps into his thoughts or actions at all! Honestly he's probably shockingly grounded given all those experiences

I hope I'll have an update for you soon and that you continue to enjoy the story!

[imanes]

Hi Imane, how do you manage to stay focused working from home (apparently not well haha), do you keep the same regime as at office or you let yourself loose a bit for the day?

hello! i'm more of a task-oriented person so i just finish whatever i have to do within a set timeframe. i also sort out tasks based on whether i should do it within a day, a week or a month lol. for example i had a board meeting to prep so i spent the morning doing that (urgent), then i spoke for about an hour and a half, and by the time i finished it was nearly 3pm and i was starving so i took an unorthodox break time (= the moment sasha took a nap on me). from 6:30 to 8pm* i decided to work on a project I'm presenting next week (semi-urgent) because i want to focus on other things in between now and that presentation so i just shifted around my priorities. but for longer-term tasks i use free timeslots to get a headstart whenever possible (also conditioned by my laziness lol), which will start tomorrow. i have to apply for funding by mid-december so today i presented my plan, it was approved, and tomorrow I'm gonna lay down the groundwork and copy-paste from previous applications as much as possible to be efficient. if i feel like I'm really fucking around too much I'll grab my laptop and invest in a matcha latte outside to make me feel like i "have to" work now that money has gone into fostering the right environment. but at the end of the day it's about knowing how long it takes me to get something done and how urgent or non-urgent my tasks and duties are. i time-block and retro-plan a lot if it makes sense! i even plan whether or not i can sleep extra and leave early lol. and tbh socializing at the office is also time-consuming so it's not like I'm extra focused when i actually work from there. if it gets really bad i look at my cat and i remember how expensive her food is so i do have to work because if i fuck around too much i WILL find out. and if that helps it's also important to figure out optimal focus time, and how my menstrual cycle impacts my focus and my general will to live haha. i don't believe in "productivity" as a concept, i just experimented with different ways of working until i found what worked, and it's a lot more flexible than one might think.

(*) i am involved in more than just my day job for better or worse akljdfklgj the website i worked on today is for a thing I've been a part of throughout grad school and then the things I'm doing over the weekend are for two separate research projects. so it's normal that i work on them outside of typical working hours, I'm not going overtime for my coordinator position.

[askthemysterkids]

The Kids have been teleported into the world of Pokémon Mystery Dungeon! What kind of Pokemon would they be?

I'll be honest, I've been holding off on this one a lot. I don't tend to play Pokemon, even then it was Brick Bronze (anyone remember that game that got shut down?), Magikarp Jump, and Pokemon Go.

So, how about I set up the types, and if you guys say it looks good, I'll look into those Pokemon? I just want to make sure I get this right.

Now that the excuse is out of the way, answers!

~~~

Dipper: Grass and Psychic? I'm thinking this because of the fact that his spot on the wheel is "pine tree" and the fact that he deals with the strange. Though, would it be fun if he was Psychic because Bill possessed him? Like, if he was just Grass before? That would be fun. :)

Mabel: I'm definitely thinking Fairy for her.

Coraline: Water and Ghost. I was debating Fighting but I think Ghost would work better. Water because of the whole water witch thing and Ghost because of the Beldam and ghost children.

Wybie: I'm definitely thinking Metal and maybe Ghost? Maybe Bug instead of Ghost. Bug because of slugs, Ghost because he does seem to possibly have a connection with some of the Beldam stuff through his grandmother, the Cat, and that hand via Coraline.

Norman: Ghost and Electric for sure! This is flat out through his ancestors!

Neil: Normal and Fairy maybe? I'm not sure. He's a support type.

Raz: Psychic and Water. Legitimately because he's a psychic and he's Maligula's grandchild.

Lili: Psychic and Fire. Again, due to her being a psychic, and her specialty being fire.

Wirt: I tend to associate him with Grass and Ghost. Or just straight up Deerling.

Greg: Grass and Water? Frog Pokemon. (Or Phantump for a darker thing...)

Luz: I will need a bit of help here but I'm thinking Normal and Dark because she's a human learning demon magic.

Anne: Bug and Fighting? Bug and Water? I think this works? I'm thinking frogs and her using her sword. Maybe Bug and Fairy?

Marcy: Water and Psychic? Psychic sounds smart. Water was very prominent in Newtopia too.

Sasha: Fighting and Bug? Fighting for sure. Maybe Fighting and Normal.

Also realizing that for the Calamity trio, Grass can also fit... Crud.

[marlonblognotes]

5/02/25

9:57 AM

Cranston, RI

Lily Collins prob doesn't have autism as I theorized in the past lmao. I mean, I was kinda doubtful of my "methods" anyway, I just compared a photo of her with one of Sasha Wolfe where they're both sticking their chins out slightly to hide their facial features, and Sasha had claimed to be autistic too.

For some reason I've been discouraged from continuing to write in my private journal, so I'm taking it out on tumblr. Folk stole that from my laptops anyways I guess! Regardless, here I am wishing I wasn't using this to send messages "into the world" aka to Lily that I know she doesn't have autism necessarily.

Hey, maybe she does, though! I think I'd need to study more videos of her to be able to figure it out, or maybe ask when she stops freaking out. She's just "butch." Maybe, in the past, certain individuals liked claiming that they had autism so that they could have some kinda similarity to me, who knows. I hope everybody can tell that I was doubtful the whole time.

So she's neurotypical, eh?! Just masculine and got picked on, huh?! Well that makes sense. I do remember she was some kinda anti-bullying advocate!

Dear Lily,

I don't think any less of you for not being autistic.

I wonder if she's worried abt not being able to have a conversation with me. Many do just fine once they shed their expectations!

Yes, I like seeing her as just a normal person. Folk should remember, those without autism have special advantages and perhaps ways of thinking that us autists can't grasp! Lmao, I don't know. I really wanna know about her true personality so that I can respond to the situation better.

ALTERNATE THEORY:

Lily has autism, and I'm being prompted to write this so that those WITHOUT autism have something to think abt and imagine!

LMAO, I'M JOKING, I'M JOKING! I'm, of course, KINDA used to neurotypical behaviour, it's okay I guess, I don't know, who knows. Listen: the more accurate information I have, the better I think I'll be able to analyze the etc. etc. which is why I try to be honest myself! I want YOU to have accurate information so that you can make the best decision!

10:14 AM

Lily, others, I'll try to slow down or write with this possibility in mind, capiche? I don't mind at all. I've had many friends without autism. Most of the folk I had any kinda romantic interaction w/ had 0 autism, it's okay.

10:38 AM

I'm remembering some of her videos just now. I'm remembering instances where she's very expressive and talks and moves quickly! There're some who might not seem THAT intelligent to some but have this kinda trait. Elana comes to mind, tbh, even though, I dunno, she still knew a buncha stuff! I'd be surprised if Lily had no intelligence of any kind. Some kinds of intelligence're simply not measured or valued in the culture or whatever that an individual finds themselves in!

10:43 AM

Was that really her I heard crying through the walls for months? She apologized to me. She kept following me everywhere, presumably trying to meet up, and the stalkers kept being weird and putting themselves between us. Why didn't they want us to hang out lmao?! She might have a big heart. That's still worth something.

As I like to say, there've been many individuals who counted as intelligent that committed atrocities.

NOTES ABT MY SENSE O' HUMOUR:

I like being "stupid" on purpose, oft using myself as the butt of the joke! There're many who can figure out the rest by remembering this simple fact.

I think MANY things're "stupid," but I oft try to punch up by identifying the dominant culture, person etc and making fun of THAT! This is why I've been somewhat sympathetic to those who attacked me believing I was wealthy!

There's a certain kind of "stupid" that's kinda just "cute," though of course the lines get blurred!

Have you noticed how I like to use the word "oft?" I think THAT'S stupid! I think it sounds funny lmao! Just a case study. Now, what kind of "stupid" is that? I believe you can make a point for both sides here.

Have you noticed how I like to sound like an "insane professor?" Heheh, I'm not talking abt the Joker of course, I'm talking 'bout as if it were some kinda AI or foreign professor who just shoves paragraphs into a translator. This is on purpose lmao! I find THIS "stupid" as well!

etc.

12:43 PM

RE: The possibility that Lily Collins just thought she was studying for some role and she doesn't wanna quit, and she doesn't wanna look me in the face 'cause she's terrified. She is a sinner. She fears the penance stare. The person crying "MARLON! I'M IN LOVE WITH YOU!", "MARLON! I'M THE DEVIL!", "WHAT'S GOING OOON!" and "I'M THE LILY COLLINS CELEBRITYYYY! :C" through the walls was somebody else entirely.

Well, I dunno, yes I kinda wanna find THAT person tbh, is she okay?! We've seen how many folk impersonate her or use her name, and it's not like she's the only person with a husky AFAB voice! If so, the REAL Lily Collins is, I'm assuming, in on doxxing this impostor and helping me out 'cause her appearances irl outside the house DID help me somewhat. Hi, Lily, I hope everything is okay I guess!

As for the possibility that BOTH're true? Well, I dunno lmao, who knows. Do I forgive her for lying!?

Now the kinds of lies I don't forgive're usually extremely malicious. Haven't you ever seen the Coen Brothers movies where there's a difference between the Ultimate Evil and the Wacky Thief!? etc.

[the-anomaly-team]

Here are some dialogue lines for Elliot, one of the characters for my future game.

All text in Italics are tone indicators since I'll try to dub some of the game.

For the ones not following, remember that some of those interactions can only happen with certain relation types. In the game, you have a relation level between two characters, and then you have the relation type. The "normal" relation type, the one that by default, is friendship. But there are a few other types of relations:

Mentor: when a character protects and tries to teach to another. Can almost serve as a pseudo-parent in some cases.

Admiration: Someone is admired by another. This relation happens when a stronger character displays exceptional feats in front of a weaker one. It can also happen in other ways, by example, helping civilians will make you admired by those with character traits like kindness.

Apprentice: The one being taken care of by a mentor

Rivalry: When two people are often in competition with one another, they can have a friendly rivalry.

Lover: self-explanatory. IDK if it will be present on release though, cause that would demand a lot of efforts

Cooperative: when someone isn't really your friend but will still try to cooperate his best with you.

Not every character can have some type of relationship with others. For example, Vincent, being older, smarter, and more experienced, can be a mentor to almost everyone. Elliot is the opposite. He cannot mentor anyone since he is too young and inexperienced to do so.

One of his allies gets to 0 HP aka they get downed:

Generic answers:

"Hang on, I'll be there in just a second." Panicked

"You took quite the beating. Rest, I'll take care of them." Worried

"T-that injury looks bad" Worried

If Sasha gets downed:

"T-they got Sasha!" Very panicked

"S-Sasha? Tell me you're alright." Worried, almost crying

If friendship is high:

"SASHAAAAAAA!" Yelling

"Rest easy Sasha. I'll get them for you!" confident

If friendship is high + transformed:

"S-Sasha?... Concerned H-HOW DARE THEY! I'LL RIP THEM APART!" Anger

If he has Sasha as a mentor:

"N-no, y-you can't be down?" Confusion, fear

"I still need you, Sasha! Please, g-get up!" Stress

If the relation type is admiration with Sasha:

"Not you Sasha! Y-you are supposed to be one of the strongest!" Panic, Fear

"T-this cannot be! W-what are we going to do?!" Dread, Panic

If Vincent gets downed:

"Hey doc get up soon! I still need your help!" Mildly concerned

"Heh, not the first time for you doc? I know you can do this!" Hopeful

If friendship is high:

"Stop attacking the doctor!" anger

"Vincent! Hope your regeneration is still as good as it used to be." worried

If he has Vincent as a mentor:

"If there is one thing you taught me Vincent, is that you can do ANYTHING with your strength and will." Hopeful

"Hey, you can't go yet, so many people still need you!" concerned

If the relation type with Vincent is admiration:

"W-what?! I-I thought you were supposed to be almost invincible?!" Panicked, afraid

"H-how? Y-you are the strongest! You have to be, p-please GET UP!" Terrified, panicked Of course, this isn't the full list, just a few test lines. If you have any questions, do ask ^^

[shadow-laviko]

Yeah yeah yeah That's what I thought I did not make a LMdS post Well, here it is Ok, well, about the summary... This projects dates a bit (over 4 years ago :melting:), so I might rework a lot of things It used to be a project about a world after death, and how there was a war about to start there. Buuuut, given Imperium is already about it (and I never really managed to get the global idea anyways), might just end up being a slice of life or something Yeah yeah

I basicallyu still have the world building and characters, it's just the story in itself which will be changing So... I'll just give a summary of the characters? Yeah, might be good Foy and Sha : 21 years old twins who died by [redacted]. They are both very smart and with a high IQ. However, despite looking identical (just face and shape-wise), Foy and Sha are very different. Foy loves languages, and Sha, maths and physics. Foy is very protective of Sha because people used to (and still kinda do to some extent) bully him for being "weird". Also, because I find it very important to mention : Foy is probably aro ace, and Sha is pansexual and panromantic (he also uses he/they).

Dragine Louap : A totally normal man with a top-hat. He has does not hide anything. At all. Either a hair dresser or surgeon, I still haven't decided. Died by [redacted] at 23. A certain someone knows his big secret.

Silvia/Mathilde Lumbra: Founder of the "Monde des Songes", about 16 ? I kinda forgot how she died. Very kind and generally appreciated by everyone.

Eliott Lumbra : Adoptive brother of Silvia, about... darn it, I forgot. Uhh... Between 21 and 25? 22 maybe? He used to be a kind guy, but he got corrupted by power (he was the one wanting to start a war in the first version). Forgot how he died as well...

Jason : I don't know if I want to keep him Romain, Urbain and Alexandre : 21 years old Triplets who died by commiting suicide. One is mute, one is deaf, one is blind... Fun that each one has a missing sense, huh. I wonder what's up with that. (Also, Romain is gay, Urbain is bi, and Alexandre is hetero)

Léonard : Foy and Sha's butler and part-time body guard. Because, damn, the boys are rich. They live in a penthouse and all... Guess being a genious can make you pretty rich, huh. Oh yeah, he is in his 30s and died at war (he was a knight before dying).

Abigaël : (used to be an Ampora Homestuck oc lol) Also pretty kind and crafty. Very hopeful (too much so) and has a weird passion for frogs. She loves frogs. She's also crafty and is a mechanic. She's pan. Forgot how she died. She's 19

Roxane : 18 years old girl who died by having her head chopped off for stealing bread. She's Silvia's personal bodyguard and also Aby's girlfriend.

Sasha : A person who is 22 years old. They died by committing suicide. They wear a mask, clothes and different wigs all of the time. NObody knows their gender, their skin, eyes nor hair colour. Except for one of the character already previously mentionned. I sure wonder who... Maybe the person who knows for Dragine too, maybe not... Who knows? Anyway. They are my 4th wall breaker. They always appear simingly out of thin air to make transitions in the story. They are certain that they are just a character in a story (I mean, they are not wrong, but how do they know that??). they also have a huge control room somewhere, with tons of monitors to monitor the city through cameras they placed themselves. (not many people know about that).

Oliver : Used to be the MC... now... Idk, we shall see.

Isaac : A cannibal who used to be roommates with a ceratin someone (not the same as afore mentionned). Forgot how he died in his previous life... Hunger after a plane crash or something I reckon? Got executed in the "Monde des Songes" once he was found out as a canibal.

Neils : A man who works in a crematorium. He died in a fire. He looks pretty young (forgot once again).

Macbeth : A gay man working in a clothes shop (Sha's favourite shop). That's all I can remember right now. Nigel : ... Who? Macbeth's boyfriend maybe? I can not remember shit about him except from his name.

Lou : A rebellious teenage girl (15) who is angry at the world about basically everything (but mostly not having been adopted yet). She lives with other kids in Silvia's mansion-orphanage.

Mist : I'm realising this is actually beta Achroma from Imperium, lmao κόσμιρ : Or Kosmir, is the formless being which materialises the "Monde des Songes". They are kept in a room at take the appearance of your favourite person, dead or alive.

The name of the city is Muitini.

Might add things later Thank you if you read so far, and feel free to ask anything about any of them if you want!!

[diefxrguns]

𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐈𝐍𝐒

✯pairings- eren yeager x afab! reader

✯a/n- might have some mistakes, apologies in advance. do not tweak or steal my work. No posting it on tiktok without permission.

✯synopsis- eren yeager, your ex has a sick, unhealthy infatuation with a certain someone

✯c/w- smut, ( very disturbing), stalking, violence, drug use, alcohol use, kidnapping,non consensual touching(sexual) drugging, mental abuse, ect. If you're not comfortable don't read.

"lock me in your chains".✧

The last thing you remember was his eyes, so verdant and piercing.

The cannabis in your system making you see things. The world seemed to be spinning as you gripped onto the leather seat tightly.

The moving car did not help the feeling at all, and all you could manage to see was a man driving. His long hair falling past his broad shoulders.

His hands gripping the steering wheel, driving at a some-what fast pace.

You just wanted to go home, but you weren't in control of your thoughts at all.

You began laughing uncontrollably, the man driving payed not an ounce of attention to your foolery.

His eyes remaining on the road, he occasionally looking into the rearview mirror,his eyes meeting yours.

He looked familiar, but you couldn't identify him, but you felt safe. You felt protected...

earlier that night...

" C'mon Y/N, another drink."

" You only live once"

You swallowed the harsh liquor, that burned your thought as cheers could be heard throughout the room.

Of course Sasha dragged you to another frat party. Fuck. How you hated them.

It wasn't because of the people there, it was more of the fact that you'd get befuddled from the amount of rum, beer and wine in your system- Along with shots that Sasha and Hitch always forced you to take.

In this case, you were already on your 5th shot of Tequila mixed with God knows what.

" I, I don't.. I don't feel so great" you said clinging onto the girl next to you.

" Y/N, what have I told you about drinking to much" the familiar voice said.

" You have an incredibly terrible tolerance to alcohol, you know that"

The girl dragged you towards the bathroom, as music and cheering could be heard .

Your vision becoming blurry.

" Sit down" she said as she turned the tap on, wetting a cloth under the cold water. You sat on the toilet seat, with your head hung low, and your hair infront of your face.

She knelt down to your level, wiping your face- ever so slightly with the cold material.

" Oh my, I think it's time for you to go home". She said

To intoxicated to respond- you just nodded your head slightly. This was strange, because you only had two beers and five shots- yes you have a bad tolerance to any kind of alcohol, granted. But this was a bit weird because beer doesn't make you that drunk. And the shots were just tequila, you were wasted- like absolutely. On the verge of throwing up.

It wasn't normal at all.

As soon as the woman dragged you out the bathroom, your body fell into the arms of another. By the scent of the person you could tell it was a man.

" I'll take her from here, it's time we get her home" he said in a low voice, that was certainly recognizable .

" A..Are you sure, because-"

" Yes I'm positive Nanaba, she'll be safe "

Now that the car was parked, in a garage. The man opened your door and dragged you out of his car. Slamming the door shut.

He tossed you over his shoulder.

Taking you inside.

Your hallucinations got worse, bright colours and shining lights is all you saw. But due to the drugs it wasn't really there.

Things got darker from there...

I've been watching her for the longest time now, and ever since she started dating that dick. I've been feeling so angered, so hostile and furious.

"All I want is her, nobody else."

Your eyes opened to see the man sitting on a chair, infront of the bed you were placed on.

The drugs weren't completely out of your system yet. So the room was spinning.

When you tried to get up, your body ached. And so did your head.

And your hands were bound to the bed, with thick metal chains. Making your wrists pain.

The chains were tied so tight that your hands went numb.

" I'm sorry Y/N"

". I'm sorry for treating you badly I'm sorry for letting you go"

He said, quietly. But loud enough for you to hear.

The room was quiet and dark, but you knew the sound of his voice. He was so familiar.

He stood up and poured himself a drink, you couldn't tell what it was because of the lack of light in the room.

He sat back down, his eyes on you this time.

" Wh..what's going on, please I just want to go home"

You said, managing to form words and construct a sentence despite you being high as a kite.

He stood up and sat on the bed, not far from your body

" My love, please. I'm begging. I'm begging you to come back"

You just got more confused everytime this guy opened his mouth. Who the fuck is this guy? You thought to yourself.

" They'll figure out you're missing soon, and eventually come for me"

"You need to be mine again, this is the last time I'm asking nicely Y/N"

He touched your cheek with his palm, and you noticed he wore a black baseball cap with a black shirt.

His hands were cold but his touch was so familiar.

" Please, who are you. Just tell me" you asked him. Your throat dry from the lack of liquid in your system

His hands made their way to your breasts, fondling them slightly.

You were to weak to do anything but you liked it

" Answer my question" you said, your eyes tearing up. Not from pain, guilt or embarrassment. It was because you knew who he was, or you had an idea

He removed his shirt, revealing his tattoos and scars. Upon his toned chest was a large scar with what looked like words on them. The scar was fresh, and red.

As soon as he got closer the words on his chest were as clear as day.

Your name, carved on his chest.

It made you sick, sick to your stomach. Who would ever do such a thing...

And then it hit you, it hit you all at once. You loved a man not so long ago. He loved you too, but he always loved you more.

Apart of you wasn't sure if it was love, or something else. Maybe a mere obsession that drove the man onto pure insanity.

He would get so jealous and angry over you just talking to another male.

He'd even hit you across the face.

He was possessive and cruel. He gave you no room to love or improve yourself.

So when you packed your bags and went to go live with another man, you gradually forgot about him.

But here he was...

Eren. Your ex boyfriend, you dated for two years but it's been five since you left him.

You thought you ran away and escaped him. This was all so confusing.

" When I tell you I've been worried sick Y/N. I've been up at night, thinking, dreaming of you and your body. "

"I missed you, I missed you so much,so I drugged you and brought you here, everyday I think of you. And when I found you I couldn't control myself"

He crawled on the bed ripping your dress off, revealing your lacey- black bralette and your panties.

A small gasp left his lips as he stared at you with lustful eyes.

To tell the truth, you missed him to. Nobody could ever love you like Eren. No man could ever touch you like he could.

You wanted Eren, you craved him.

Everytime your new boyfriend fucked you, you wished it was Eren. And as terrified as you were, you wanted Eren back.

" Eren... Please"

You said as a small moan fell from your parted lips

A sick laugh escaped from the man on top of you, it was loud and sounded evil.

His hands running through his long hair, gripping it as he laughed more.

Oh how Eren let himself fall into disarray. He's so fucking insane it's not even funny.

He wants you, he wants you so fucking bad.

He kissed your lips passionately, cupping your small face with his hands. He inserted his tongue into your mouth as you moaned into the kiss.

He played with your breasts, squeezing them and massaging them. Making you moan gently.

After some time, his hand made its way to your underwear, rubbing circles around your clit softly.

You were so horny for your ex boyfriend. If your current man found out, he would kill Eren. You knew that, and Eren would kill him first.

Eren pulled his boxers down only to reveal his hard cock, leaking with pre-cum

The poor man hasn't fucked anything in almost five years. He needed this. Fuck- you needed this.

He fucked you at a fast pace, making you moan and cream all over him. Again and again and again. It's almost like you came every ten minutes.

One thing about Yeager, is his stamina is godly. He could go for hours.

And when it was all over, he removed the heavy chains form your wrists.

Blood gushing from them as bruises could be seen.

He fetched you a towel to wipe the blood and a glass of water to clench your thirst.

" If your new man comes back I'll fucking kill him, I'll fucking do it." Eren said with venom in his voice

After all this time, Eren still loved you. Yes he was fucked in the head.

But truthfully, in his world. There was no one above you...

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[allpaul]

Morceau Oleander and Cal's (Horrible) "Parents", please

OH BOY ! (<so normal)

Honestly I can't go talking about Oleander without bringing up his part of the Li-Po Backstory Document, but can you really blame me? As much as that doc is so old and should be taken with a grain of salt considering the amount of contradicting information to PN2 it has, it's pretty much all we have in terms of more development for poor Morceau, so I'll take it. It provides loads of much-needed insight into Morry's character. Li-Po Doc truthers where you at!!! Rise up!!!

(^screenshot relevant)

I think it's so so fucked up that the meatgrinder incident happened before Morry could prove himself to his parents. I think hearing that information while being a camp counselor at Whispering Rock, I think that was the straw that broke the camel's back, what caused him to become more cold and to start brewing his master plan. If he can't show his family, he'll show them all.

Which brings him to Cal... Caligosto & Morceau's relationship is so so interesting to me, at least from what little we've seen of it in memory vaults. The doctor *hated* psychics, that much was true, but Morry was (assumedly) a paying client. I believe for that reason Cal is able to set that difference aside, especially after hearing the plans for their project. On the other side, I think Morceau saw Cal as one of the only people who saw him as capable, someone who thought he could do great things. And maybe they could do great things together. [looks at the camera knowing the events of the game] That went well didn't it

After the cruel stunt that he pulls, I think Morry has to regain a lot of trust that the Psychonauts had in him(something he didn't know the organization had to begin with), and that includes Milla & Sasha. Morceau always thought that those two talked down so condescendingly toward him.. but I think only after the fact is when he realizes that they were both always genuine, always believed in him. That truth probably eats him alive night after night. He already had it hard before he stole those kids' brains, now he's just dug himself into a deeper trench, lost more than he had.

I don't think the Psychonauts will let him be a camp counselor again for a while. At least not until Sasha & Milla perform a few mental checkups on him, make sure he's alright. Despite everything, those two still care about him, the time they've spent together still matters to them, and I'm sure it matters to Morceau as well.

(-also as a side-hc I think All Paul was his gay awakening. I think we all know that right?)

Cali's parents are a very interesting case, to say the least. There's so little we know about them it's hard to make assumptions. Nonetheless;

Having such a negative response to their son being psychic, there's some part of me that thinks this isn't the first time this has happened in their family's bloodline. A family with "Loboto" as their last names, after all, might not be just a coincidence. And especially considering the father IS a doctor himself, I wonder what could've set him down that career path. It's food for thought, you know?

We can't really know much about what the mother's profession was, but what I think is that she was an artist of some kind. The tiny replica of the house & the flowers painted on it, the little stitched dolls representing the family? If we're to believe that Cal's entire memory vault in RoR is based on her work that he remembers, he must've had a strong relationship with her before she deemed him an unnatural monster. This could also explain why Cal decides to wear a floral pattern shower cap too. It'd be a little sad to know he might still hold love for his parents who treated him like a monster & lobotomized him because of powers he didn't ask for.

(honestly if anyone could add onto this part that'd be great, I have so much trouble coming up with anything for these guys + I HATE them very much, fuck these "parents")

[m-jelly]

Hi Jelly!! I honestly adore the way you write Levi, it's just so adorable with him being so lovesick and adorable. And since the constant crying in the anime at the moment has me exhausted to say the least (being in love with both Levi AND Eren can really take a toll on you lmao), can I request a canonverse one-shot (but still kinda an AU where the war isn't happening and things are just calm and normal) where Levi just comes back from an expedition that lasted a few days/weeks (honestly, just longer than the normal expeditions). He's married to the reader who's also a Scout but couldn't join him during the expedition bc they fell sick at the last moment. And And he comes back he just sees the junior Scouts going about taking care of his s/o and he's kinda confused but reader later him they're pregnant? Honestly I've just seen you write dad! Levi so many times I wanted to see what his reaction would be if he came to know he's gonna be a dad.

Totally fine if you don't write it, and a thank you in advance if you will💟💟

Take care and remember to stay hydrated!

Hello, my lovely! Of course, I'll write this. Don't you worry <3

A rush of emotions.

Pairing: Levi x Reader

Genre and tags: Canon world, couple, pregnancy, emotional, comfort, love, fluff, romance, happy ending.

Concept: Levi comes home from a long expedition with you in his heart and mind. Levi is filled with worry because the last time he saw you, you were being sick in the toilet. Levi's ready to embrace you in a loving hug, but he finds that the scouts that didn't go are making a fuss over you. He manages to get you away from the scouts so he can have you all to himself. As he shares a bath with you, he notices you are a little nervous, upset and distant. Levi asks what's going on and you finally confess you're pregnant. You expect him to be angry, but instead, he's happy and excited, but also a little bit terrified.

Suggestive sexual words warning for near the end and the end.

Levi felt so tired as he rode his horse back to the scout base. He'd been without you for almost a week. He wanted to rush back to his perfect wife and hold you tightly. You always made things better. He also wanted to ensure you were okay because when he left, you had been so sick.

He rode a little faster when he saw the base. He just wanted to see you smile, hear your voice and feel your touch. He raced past everyone to the stables as he was consumed with his memories of you.

He sorted his horse out, then sprinted inside the base and found you in the communal area with Armin, Sasha and Mikasa hovering around you. He frowned when Armin gave you medicine and Sasha made you eat as Mikasa supplied water.

Levi knew he needed a wash, but you were a priority. He stormed over to the group. "Tch, oi? What's going on here?"

Armin flinched a little. "C-Captain. We were just helping squad leader Ackerman."

Mikasa hummed. "She didn't feel too well."

Sasha nodded. "She needs more food."

Levi looked down at you as you sat on the chair. "You're sick still?"

You blushed a little and looked at the scouts and gave them a look to stay quiet because they all knew, especially Sasha because you'd taken her under your wing. "A little, but I'll be okay now thanks to these three. Right?"

Mikasa nodded. "Agreed. We should go. Captain has this."

Levi offered his hand to you. "Come on, brat." He pulled you to your feet, then looked over to the scouts. "Tch, thanks for looking after her. I appreciate it."

You waved to everyone. "See you soon!" You hugged Levi's side. "I'm glad you're home. I missed you."

Levi hugged you tightly against him. "I need a bath. Do you want to join me?"

You nodded shyly. "Sure."

He led you to your shared office and room. "I'll start the bath."

You shook your head. "I will. You should change."

Levi frowned a little as you hurried past with your head down. He was suspicious of you and what was going on. He changed into more comfy clothes, then leaned in the doorway to the bathroom. "Something wrong?"

You gulped hard. "No."

He watched you closely. "Then why have you barely looked at me or touched me? I've been gone almost a week and you're a very affectionate person. I'm starting to feel like maybe I've done something."

You nibbled your lip and looked at Levi. You welled up making you turn away because you didn't want Levi to see you this way. "You've not done anything."

Levi walked over to you and pulled you into his arms. "Shh, it's okay." He rubbed your back. "Is it because it's the first time in years that we haven't been on an expedition together?"

You whined a little. "I love you."

"I love you too." He let you go, then cupped your face and kissed you. "I love you so much."

You shook as you cried more. "You won't."

He frowned. "I won't? What do you mean I won't?"

"I have a secret and it'll make you hate me and you'll divorce me and, and, and, and."

Levi hushed you. "Breathe, okay? Remember the technique I taught you."

You nodded and did the breathing technique to stop your panic attack. You relaxed a little. "I'm okay."

"Good." He let you go and turned the water off once the bath was full. "Okay, so talk. We promise each other we'd have no secrets and we'd reveal everything to each other."

Your rubbed your tears and sniffed. "Yeah."

He smiled a little. "I'll go first. Let me think about the last time I confessed something...I'm kind of up to date." He blushed bright red as a memory came to mind. "Ah, I umm...I remembered something." He cleared his throat. "While umm out on the expedition, I camped away from everyone else, like usual. Me and you always have a spot away from others so we can cuddle." He rubbed the back of his neck. "I might have had some thoughts about you and I...you know...as I thought about you."

You stared at Levi. "You got off on a thought of me?"

He put his head in his hands and groaned. "Yes. I had to go to the river after to clean up. No one was awake and noticed, but fuck me was I a little embarrassed."

You hummed a laugh. "I don't know why you're embarrassed. I touched myself as I thought about you while you were away as well."

Levi locked eyes with you and felt a rush of excitement. "Really?"

You nodded. "Yes, but that's not my secret."

He frowned a little. "Then what is it?"

You hugged yourself and lowered your head. "Levi, I'm pregnant."

Levi stared at you as the words sank in. He remembered how you'd been and it all made sense. You'd had cravings recently. Your breasts had gotten bigger and more sensitive, your skin was glowing a little and you had been sick. "Pregnant?"

You welled up and nodded. "Yes." You rubbed your tears away. "I'm so sorry. I understand if you want to leave me."

"Why would I leave you?"

You looked at Levi. "Because I got pregnant and we've never talked about kids."

Levi stood up. "Oi, oi, oi." He held your upper arms. "I got you pregnant, not you. You need my sperm to get pregnant."

You sniffed. "I guess."

He pulled you against him. "I'd never leave you, okay? Never."

"Levi, I don't want to get rid of this baby. I don't." You pushed him back and hung your head. "S-So, I understand if you want to leave me now."

Levi knelt in front of you and smiled softly with a beautiful sparkle in his eyes. "Never. I'll never leave you." He held your waist. "A baby." He laughed a little. "Our baby..." He kissed your stomach. "I promise you that I won't abandon you like my dad did and uncle. I'll be a good role model. I'll love you, look after you and care for you."

You shook. "Levi..."

He looked up at you. "I'm terrified about being a father with everything going on, plus being a parent is, but I'm more excited and happy. You are the love of my life. I love you more than life itself. I'd kill for you, both of you. My mother raised me by myself and it was fucking hard, so I'd never want that for you." He stood up and cupped your face. "I'll never leave you or the baby. I know I'll mess up, I know I'll make mistakes, I know I'll panic, I know I'll worry, but as long as I have you with me I know we can do anything together."

You sniffed and cried. "Levi. You mean it?"

He nodded. "I mean it. I want to do this. I want this kid. Holy shit." He let you go and paced the room. "I'm going to be a dad!" He laughed, then ran and tackled you into a hug making you squeal. He looked up at you and smiled. "You're going to be such a beautiful mother." He put you down. "I need to buy baby books. I'll start reading up on things. We have to buy a house too. I'll baby proof the house and I need to make sure I get baby safe cleaning products. Everywhere has to be spotless for the baby."

You giggled. "Levi, slow down."

He gazed at you. "No more being a member of the scouts. I want you living a safe and healthy life. I don't want you to die like my mother did. Our baby will grow up with a mother. I have to make sure everything is all clean and ready. I have to look after you."

You covered his mouth with your hand. "Stop." You let out a long sigh. "Stop for a moment, okay?" You sighed. "I was so scared telling you this, but you reacted in such a wonderful way. I need a moment to calm down a little."

He pulled your hand from his mouth. "Let's cuddle in the bath."

You nodded and pulled your things off. You let Levi get in first, then you climbed in right after. You sat between Levi's legs and pressed your back against Levi's chest. "Better."

Levi wrapped his arms around you and rested his chin on top of your head. He hummed in thought, then moved one hand to your belly and rubbed. "You know, you can't drink too much tea while pregnant."

"I know."

He frowned a little. "That's hard."

You sighed as your body relaxed. "I'll manage." You placed your hand on Levi's. "You know, I'm just as terrified as you about this. I'm happy and excited to be a parent with you, but it's a scary thing." You smiled. "I'm glad I'm doing this with you. I'm glad you want to do this together. I'm sorry I thought you wouldn't and you'd leave me."

He kissed the top of your head. "It's okay. I'm not offended. We've never talked about it and it's unplanned. I wanted to talk about in the future, it has been on my mind. So, I have thought about it and it is something I could see us doing together." He blushed. "I'm not going lie. The thought of you holding a baby is really attractive to me. Tch, sorry."

You turned around in the bath and straddled Levi. You hugged him so you were chest to chest. "Come on Levi, you as a father is such a turn on."

He blushed harder. "Really?" He rubbed your back. "Well, I umm...okay." He cleared his throat. "So uhh..."

You pulled back and gazed at Levi with a light blush. "Yes?"

He gulped hard. "What to make sure you're pregnant?"

You frowned. "I am."

He looked away. "I was uh...flirting...you know..."

You gasped. "Ooooh, you mean you want to...I get it. Sure, you are very welcome to fill me up." You kissed him and smirked. "I'd love that, if you're not too tired."

He purred a moan at you. "I'm never too tired for you."