#i'll be annoyed but grateful)

[lesbianherald]

I’m going to phrase this delicately because I’m so deeply grateful and awed by the support I’ve received.

But I will say it is a little anxiety inducing how many people feel they can talk about coming home whatever way they want openly and publicly because it has “numbers” or whatever (referring to my own work like this makes me want to claw my eyes out because they baffle me and I don’t necessarily feel I deserve them but it’s important for context).

This is Especially true for the way people speak under things I very much see. Art of the fic. My Twitter mutuals posts. Things I will very obviously interact with. It feels like someone is walking into my back yard and talking shit as if I'm literally not standing in said yard like this 🧍

You make something for a community for free as an act of passion and then the community in turn becomes something that isn’t quite accessible to you anymore. I’ve seen this happen to a lot of fic writers in my previous fandoms and idk man it’s just kind of a bummer.

Like. Fanfic and fanart is made by people in the fandom for the fandom. It’s not work being produced by some distant people in Hollywood who shouldn’t be in the fandom space in the first place.

Idk, it’s actually pretty rare that this happens to me but I wanted to mention I am a human who can very much read the things you say guys 😭 like if you reblog art related to my work and call it a bunch of petty names and say you had to dnf I can see that. It’s totally ok to feel whatever way you want. But maybe don't feel that way in my back yard.

Again. I’m so grateful for everything I really am. You absolutely do not have to fuck with my work. Fuck I don't fuck with my work sometimes DKLFJSDHF. This is probably the last time I’ll talk about this because the last thing I want to do is come off like I can’t take criticism and I’m ungrateful. But sometimes I really am chewing at my enclosure like IM RIGHT HERE MAN IM LITERALLY BEHIND YOU HOW DO YOU NOT UNDERSTAND THAT.

[byanyan]

(with tears in my eyes) n-nice

[isolophilian]

me @ Disney: make Smelly Gabe a sculpture or Mickey fucking gets it

[roseband]

he literally just said on a rally (why is he even doing them still wtf) that he wants to bring the economy back to 1929 we're all so fucking screwed.... we're so fucking screwed

the social stuff can be mitigated... this can't, we're so screwed globally :|

[sibyl-of-space]

Today one thing has been made extremely clear to me. That while going to grad school certainly gave me the skill of listening to bad, irrelevant, or poorly framed feedback and gleaning what is actually valuable for my purposes from it.. it did not grant me immunity to getting extremely annoyed and butt hurt about it when I receive said bad, irrelevant, or poorly framed feedback.

[agalaxyofjoy]

Ok, I've had enough of the horrors today. Time to figure out what to do to hibernate and turn my brain off.

[naomiknight-17]

My day started off pretty terrible, and I felt so garbagey and the cats were being so annoying I lost my temper and raised my voice at Tim

But then Jon brought me an iced cappuccino and a wrap. And I managed to drag my freshly caffeinated ass into the shower and scrub myself clean. And I got a chance to snuggle with both Jill and Tiny Tim in turns (I think he's forgiven me for shouting)

Then Jon made us a lovely cauliflower-bacon chowder for dinner with garlic bread on the side as a special treat (we needed to use up leftover buns)

And just now I even did a big load of dishes and fed the cats - which involves an interesting dance of herding the hungry screaming creatures into separate rooms so they don't eat each other's food

And you know. I'm feeling a lot better.

I guess there's something to be said for a hot shower, a good meal, and getting some chores done. Even though we all hate to hear it

Also I rewatched all of the currently available Dungeon Meshi episodes, which is of course incredibly healing

[loverboybrightsideghost]

transgenderism dilemma

in the vein of that last post, i'm not sure what to do about my straight cis friends who keep referring to me as she. they are very supportive and they try their best to understand and i appreciate them so so much!!! but when i have other friends (some also trans and some cis but queer) who do make the effort to call me he or they (which i retired a while ago lowkey) , it's just kind of glaring when some of my friends still call me "she."

i know i told them any pronouns are fine and it doesn't bother me, but it kind of does. i don't want to go by "he" full-time, mostly because i'm more than a little nervous of being accidentally outed to people i'm not ready to be out to (my parents or some of my professors). but they're my friends. but i also know that if i tell these friends to call me "he" or even "they" (which still annoys me but at least gets them to acknowledge i am trans), i run a serious risk of them Not Understanding in front of someone i don't wanna be out to.

should i be this worried? should i have to go back and forth mentally about whether it's worth it to get gendered correctly by certain people when i know those people might potentially and completely accidentally out me?

i don't know. is it worth it? is it? to be gendered correctly or not to be. to be content with "they (sometimes) got the spirit." hm.

what do i DO??? do i even do anything?? AUGHHH!!!

[sealeneee]

siiiiiiigh

[vonlipvig]

we're sooooo baaaaack let's goooooo

[erabundus]

BY  THE  WAY  while  i'm  still  picking  my  way  through  asks,  i  should  probably  mention!  you  are  absolutely  welcome  to  turn  anything  i  answer  into  a  thread  if  you  feel  so  inclined!  i  try  to  leave  things  relatively  open-ended  whenever  i  can  specifically  for  that  reason.  you  are  ALSO  under  no  obligation  to  reply  if  you  don't  feel  like  it  —  it's  entirely  up  to  you.  it  doesn't  matter  if  we  have  no  threads  or  twenty.  i  will  not  be  overwhelmed  or  upset,  i  am  here  because  i  think  writing  is  very  fun  and  i  want  to  write  with  you!

[running-in-the-dark]

I almost don't want to say this because it's mean but rewatching the librarians while not being obsessed with ck has been very interesting. like. my dude you are annoying. I still like Jacob but it feels like he just forgot how he played him in the beginning and then it's just angry dude again.

[rainbow-burst]

I being so fucking normal about this fit on him rn I'm beingsofuckingnormal I'm beingsofuckin nor-

[wickedhawtwexler]

did i tell y'all how i suggested to The Guy I Kinda Went On A Date With that we see a movie next time we hang out and his response was "idk there aren't any good places to see movies" like. sir. we live in new york city. what the actual fuck are you talking about 😭

[aridridge]

playing with infants without any kind of skin is honestly gonna be hard for me the EA skin doesnt do it for me </3

[ebitenpura]

When you're backseat gaming and you tell your friend who keeps losing to move over

and STAY DEAD