#i'd like to try to make something more fleshed out on this theme though

[fell-e]

June 19th

Happy Birthday to me

I KNOW my birthday was already a few days ago, but the reasons for this delay and the lack of posts in general will be explained in the tags. Feel free to skip it tho!

This entire post is for the (at most: seven) Fayrouz fans whom I've promised to release "canon" lore of😭

Press read more for Fayrouz lore!

Before I infodump on my Turquoise lore, just want to let yall know that Fayrouz has two canons,

Turquoise AU (her actual canon storyline, i'd say)

and NRC AU (game adjacent au which i only made bc i wanted her to interact with the other characters).

Turquoise AU was based on a small animatic concept I made when I i finished Book 4 (around 3 years ago) where I wanted to give Jamil a cute shy girlfriend. Thatse it.... (p.s. i made a small ErosEpel AU and i might revive that too)

This animatic was heavily based on themes and symbolisms, like Turquoise Sky, Scalding Hot Sun, Golden Cage, etc, instead of actual Disney related stuff. And without that context Fayrouz being twisted from the sky wouldn't really make sense😭

In Turquoise AU, Fayrouz is a magicless, lowly servant. I haven't decided if Fayrouz will have parents yet, but even if she does, they're very emotionally abusive. Her perception of herself as disposable and more worthless than a grain of sand is what's relevant here, so either she adopts that mentality from the other servants or from her own parents.

One day, during a party, Fayrouz sees someone pour some suspicious liquid into someone's drink. Before the owner could drink it, she slapped it out of his hand. The person being Kalim. He asks her why she did that, and she tells him. A person put something inside his drink. The crowd erupts into chaos and they're both dragged away before they could say another word (Fayrouz for interrogation, and Kalim for protection)

Kalim (in my barely put together AU) is lowkey kinda lonely?? He has Jamil, sure. His siblings too. But after the first assassination attempt, he was forbidden from interacting with the other servants. even some of his own siblings. He's determined to befriend Fayrouz, because, in his mind, she's *safe*. She saved his life. That's enough proof for him, and apparently for his father, who allowed him to befriend Fayrouz (or try to)

Shenanigans ensue, where Kalim tries to interact with Fayrouz while she tries her best to avoid him. (She's intimidated by the Asim's. Doesn't help that an older servant told her lies that Kalim's dad beheads people to scare her). Kalim defeatedly asks Jamil for help, and talks to Fayrouz in his favour. This marks the prolouge? beginning? I guess? They all become friends.

I haven't really fleshed out the story after this, but I'll note some important info:

• Fayrouz's self esteem is absolutely dogshit. I'm talking down the shitters abysmal. Self-loathing to the absolute MAX. I say this because this is a crucial flaw of Fayrouz which leads to some crucial plot points.

• Fayrouz is immediately enamoured by Jamil. Fayrouz sees herself as clumsy, talentless and pathetic, so seeing someone her age be so talented was enough to envelop her in pure admiration (and jealousy, but it doesn't last long). She asks him to teach her everything he knows. And so, growing up, they did everything together. (I'll make comics exploring their relationship in the future if im able to🫠🫠🫠)

• An important plot point in this AU is Fayrouz going missing. Two years before Jamil and Kalim enter NRC, Fayrouz suddenly disappears.

• Im not sure how exactly they'd meet, but Kalim's relative Jasmir (canon relative. i checked. Not the name though, i made that up) forms a sibling-like bond with Fayrouz. Growing up as an only child, he craved for companionship, and was jealous of Kalim always being surrounded by younger siblings. He found the companionship he wanted in Fayrouz.

• Jasmir has a servant twisted from Rajah called Khan(placeholder name). He isn't important to the plot i just love him.

(Placeholder designs for now, but i love them💕)

[greyskyflowers]

I see so many bucky recovering fics where people write characters that straddle a very fine line of being protective over Steve and not wanting him to get hurt or overstepping into territory they don't understand or have say in.

I'd love a fic where the others accidentally overreact to something or misunderstand and react to Bucky like he's a threat.

Something where the Avengers are all together because they're adults and talk about shit even when it's uncomfortable and Steve's got Bucky with him.

I like the idea that maybe they know there's something in Bucky's arm that can cause a lot of pain, something left over from Hydra and they didn't tell Steve about it because they know he's going to want it removed and well... what if they need it?

Or maybe Shield makes that decision, and the other Avengers know something is going on but aren't sure what, and they're still not 100% sold on Bucky not being a threat, so they decide to just... monitor it for right now.

And that something does end up being needed... or at least they think they does. It's just that Bucky moves so quickly and quietly. Suddenly, he was there, and he looked so blank faced, and Steve wasn't doing anything to defend himself...

So they or Shield or whoever set it off, something electrical because at least Hydra kept with a theme. It's supposed to be similar to the chair, although maybe they haven't put that together yet.

It's meant to mimic a wipe, a reminder to obey and forget, and it works.

Bucky goes down.

Hard.

Except, it's all wrong. It's so wrong. Why the fuck did they even think this was a good idea?

Bucky almost rips the whole arm off, muscle and skin included. The only thing that stops him is Steve manages to grab a hold of his wrists and hold them still, bloody and half buried into the open wound on his shoulder between flesh and metal.

They ended up back into a corner, half Bucky squirming away and looking for a spot less exposed and half Steve needing something solid to help hold Bucky against, so he couldn't rip into himself more.

Blood is smeared on the floor the whole way there.

Bucky's terrified. He's looking at Steve, but not really. Whatever he's seeing isn't Steve. And he's going back and forth between languages, begging in gasping breaths and desperate keening.

Theyrebacktheyfoundmetheyrecoming

Pleasedontletthemtakeme

Nonono

Please

Imsorryimsorry

Idontememberthemissionidontremember

Idontknowwhatidid

Pleasemakeitstopplease

Steve talks over it. Reassurances and promises in a voice that says he's trying to remain calm but getting a little frantic himself the more worked up Bucky gets and the longer he bleeds.

Steve still can't let go of his wrists, when he tries briefly, Bucky takes the split second to dig his fingers in further and the blood wells up even faster, thick and dark, over his fingers.

The others don't know what to do.

This isn't right. This is wrong, all wrong. What the hell did they do?

There's a sicking rush of ice down their spines and they make themselves move to help.

Bucky keeps bleeding and he's not calming down. They have to sedate him and he's still mumbling quietly as he goes down. Steve carefully helping him down so he's laying on the floor on his good shoulder, wrists still held so he can't dig at the arm, and he's in the blood but he's covered in it already so it doesn't really matter.

They have to tell Steve. They can't not tell him.

They had no idea Bucky would react like that.

They were just trying to keep Steve safe. He's compromised when it comes to Bucky.

They thought it would just maybe knock him out or cause enough pain for them to get him down.

This isn't..

They would never...

The urge to make sure Steve understands that they would never purposefully do this is overwhelming.

He's got to know that, though, right?

Except, he probably never thought they would have left something like that in Bucky's arm in the first place.

He trusted them to look him over, to keep him safe. He took them at their word that Bucky was free from anything like that after their scans and tests.

He trusted them with his most treasured person, and they didn't trust him back. It came from a place of love but fuck.

Steve's furious.

He's not stupid. He knows Tony wouldn't have missed something like this in the scans. He knows that they all think he's doing this wrong, that they think Bucky isn't a total loss cause, but he's close. That Steve's in denial and playing house with a ghost.

He doesn't say anything to them, just hauls Bucky up and leaves. The medical care in the Tower is the only place that's equipped to help with something like this, so he can't really take off with Bucky and leave, but they might as well have.

Bruce disappeared somewhere in the chaos and they can't blame him. Clint's in the vents as soon as the doors shut behind Steve, and Sam sits down on one of the chairs with a heavy sigh and rubs his hands down his face. Tony takes off for his labs and probably a heavy drink, and Natasha soothes her hands down her pants a few times with shaky hands before going to sit by Sam.

Thor is off world. Something they're greatful for because he probably wouldn't have agreed or gone along with any of this.

The blood dries into dull reds and thickens into a tar like texture on the floor. There's a lot of it.

A few hours later, Jarvis lets them know Bucky is out of surgery and they can breathe again.

They don't know what they would have done if Bucky died. They don't know what Steve would have done.

Except, this is a huge setback. A complete setback.

Maybe a setback that's permanent.

Bucky doesn't remember anything when he wakes up. He tries to escape but he's more like a feral animal than one of the world's best assassin.

He's wild, clumsy with fear, and he does more harm to himself than anyone else.

He starts bleeding again in the chaos, and they manage to restrain him and sedate him again.

Every time he wakes up, he tries to escape, turns on himself when he can't, rips open the wounds, gets restrained by Steve and a few others, and then sedated.

The cycle repeats a few times.

He doesn't know anything, though, and after a few times of spitting Russian and English and everything else at them, he stops.

He wakes up and doesn't do anything. Just states at the ceiling.

They ask him how he feels, and he tells them to get it over with. Wipe him or kill him, he doesn't care. He says that this is cruel, even for Hydra. And he doesn't say anything else after that.

He hadn't done anything.

They'd all watched the footage over and over, obsessively.

He just moved so quickly, so quietly, and they were expecting him to turn on them.

How could they not? 70 years of torture and conditioning, how could they possibly think that his bond with Steve would override that so easily? Maybe easily isn't the right word... The whole thing is unbelievable.

Steve hadn't reacted negativity to him, though, hadn't flinched or defended himself when Bucky moved. They thought he hadn't because he hadn't noticed in the moment what Bucky was doing or couldn't believe it. But there wasn't a threat. They'd misunderstood.

Steve doesn't speak to them. Doesn't even really acknowledge them besides a blank, cold look when they come to see them.

They need to see with their own eyes that they hadn't killed Bucky. They need to know they hadn't broken him in the final way that Hydra hadn't been able to.

Bucky thought Hydra had set off the arm. He'd been terrified that meant Hydra was there for him, that he'd go back to them.

Let's be honest, Bucky hadn't had any huge breakthroughs before all this. He knew who Steve was, though, or at least had an understanding. He knew they weren't going to hurt him, but they had. Steve had vouched for them, had reassured Bucky multiple times that they weren't going to hurt him.

He was getting a little better, though. He'd had a tentative grasp on the fact that he had been someone, that he was an actual person.

They don't know if Steve will correct Bucky and tell him it wasn't actually Hydra or if he plans on letting Bucky keep thinking that's what happened.

They're not sure which one would be easier for Bucky. The belief that Hydra found him and he's never going to be free? Or that the people hurting him were supposed to be the good guys, friends.

He's going to think he must deserve it if even they're hurting him. Especially if he's slid right back into more of the winter soldier mindset. He's going to think that this is just how it is, that the hands hurting and controlling him just changed from Hydra's to their's.

They haven't exactly proven that belief wrong.

What if all that progress was gone?

As soon as Bucky's healed up enough to not reopen everything whenever he moves, Steve and him are gone. There's nothing, no one even saw them leave.

They forget that Steve is his own type of terrifying, that he's kind and good, but he has blood on his hands just like they do. The general public doesn't know the true extent of Steve and the howling commandos during the war, but they do. Shield does. It was brutal. They burned and tore their way through hydra, base after base, during the war.

They also know what he's capable of after fighting alongside him multiple times in the present.

Steve is smart, strong, and a hero, but he's also pissed.

He'll be very hard to track down if he doesn't want them to find him. And he clearly doesn't.

They pick up where they can. Make sure to hit any and all Hydra bases they can find. Anything they find related to the winter soldier project is destroyed after Tony saves it somewhere no one else will be able to find it. Just in case they need some of it later, to help, in case they can use it to help.

In case Steve or Bucky ever want to see it.

And eventually they run into them. Steve with a beard and a harder look in his eyes than they're used to but he goes soft when he looks at Bucky, who's barely barely a half step behind Steve and doesn't seem to recognize them.

He looks them over, and there's nothing. No recognition or anger or fear.

It's just a quick look over them, probably taking in more in those few seconds than most people could in minutes. But he must find them non-threatening because he looks off to the side and seems content to let Steve handle it.

He doesn't talk. He looks better, though, some color to him, and while he's lost weight, it looks like his new leaner build might be more natural than the bulk of when he was with Hydra.

Tony is tripping over his words to talk about some plans he's made for a better, more comfortable, kinder arm.

Bucky's gaze flickers over them at the mention of the arm, but he doesn't react other than that.

They all kind of talk over each other for a minute. Apologizes and questions, and Bucky is looking, really looking, at them again. A little downturn of his lips that says he doesn't like whatever the hell they're trying to do.

He leans a little more into Steve, who's standing firm and unimpressed in front of him.

It's not good, but it's not terrible.

And they all start to run into each other a little more. They talk more and more over the phone and texts, and eventually, Steve brings Bucky with him when they come to see some of the arm designs Tony's been working on.

Maybe they have to start over with Bucky, who either doesn't remember them or is purposely choosing not to.

He's quiet and doesn't stray far from Steve.

Convincing him to let them work on the arm is a battle. It takes a while to get Steve open and trusting, but he won't let them do it unless Bucky agrees.

And Bucky does not agree.

Every time they try to talk to him about it, he checks out mentally. It's frustrating, mainly because they know they can help him he has to let them help him and they want to, but it's not up to them.

Eventually, though, he starts listening. His eyes, sharp and focused, stay on them when they walk him through different models and how much better each one would be.

He starts tentatively asking questions and wants to touch the prototypes they have made. Gradually, Steve backs off a little. Lingers in the room but not right there.

Finally, Bucky lingers on one that he keeps going back too and they think, okay, great! He's going to agree.

And he does.

But he also asks them if there's anything in this one to hurt him.

He asks quietly, watching them from the corner of his eye, and deceptively calm because they know he's going to bolt if they say anything but the right answer and really mean it.

They say no almost before he gets the question out. They can feel Steve watching, tense, and waiting to see if he needs to get involved.

The answer is still no, of course. Even after they've had a moment to actually process what was asked.

No.

No, there's nothing, and there never will be again if they have any say in it.

And he agrees.

[animeyanderelover]

Hi, can I get the prompt 50 for my favorite white haired villain (Karlheinz) for my first ask.

As for the second one, I'd like to have some sort of short fic if possible (?) for this Isekai ask with him

I do not do fics unless it is with a prompt of mine so I made Hc's instead.

Tw: Yandere themes, possessive behavior, obsession, stalking, manipulation, mind-break, isolation, abduction

Isekai s/o

🍷​Teeth sinking into the flesh of your lower lip, stiffled sobs tearing through your chest, warm tears streaming down your face. Truly, you are not in your most presentable state when Karlheinz discovers you one night in a desolate part of the city. Lonely, scared and in the deepest clutches of despair. Emotions he could never feel himself, a life that shouldn't concern him in the least. Yet it is no coincidence that Karlheinz has found you here. No, he's been searching for you. There is a strange energy which surrounds you, wraps itself around your figure like a second skin. An unfamiliar buzz of magic he has never encountered before in his life and it is the scientist within him that finds intrigue with that. To think that there would still be something in this world that he hasn't figured out yet distracts him from the usual boredom that has accompanied him for so many centuries now. You yourself seem painfully ordinary though, one human of many in the city which makes the energy radiating off of you only more fascinating. Karlheinz approaches you with the same gentle and charming approach he has fooled thousands of others before yet in your face he can only see shock and recognition.

🍷​Recognition not of his other personality as a benevolent politicion but of his true identity as the Vampire King, as the strongest being in this world. It only takes you brief seconds to shut those emotions down yet by that point it is already far too late. How could you possibly know who he is? You, an ordinary and powerless little thing? Golden eyes rest heavily upon your mortal form, seemingly glancing into your soul with their controlled intensity. Yet he doesn't immediately starts the elephant in the room. He has all the time in the world after all, he knows that he will get his answers the moment he desires to have them. Instead he states that you have an empty stomach, offers you to feed you as he notices that you have neither a phone nor any wallet or money on you. Instant rejection, your panic leading to your next mistake as you only further dig your hole. Your swift action to shut him down are a strong contraction against your meek attempts to pretend as if you do not know him. He tolerates those frail attempts of yours, his eyes studying you with an interest he hasn't expressed in years. That suffocating composure and confidence never once leaving his expressions.

🍷​You may try to refuse him as much as your stubborn and anxious heart desires yet he points out just how detrimental it would be to you to reject his kindly offered hand. After all you speak neither Japanese nor do you carry any money around with you. What do you hope to accomplish? Where do you plan to go? His words make you waver as you cannot deny the truth in them. Still, he has learned that fear is the more infectious condition than logic could ever wish to be. It's fear of him that pushes you away from him. Whether you honestly believe that he wouldn't find you again or whether it is the fear taking over your mind and switching off your ability to think ahead, his offers are best to be not rejected. You're tired, weak, dehydrated and hungry. He can't just let you collapse now that he has discovered you. Karlheinz is a man much too attentive and devoted to his studies to treat them with disinterest and idleness. You are part of a new study now, you are someone he wants as he wishes to figure you out. Your existence feels like something that doesn't belong here yet still there you are in flesh and blood. You shouldn't neglect your own health in favor of running when there is no need, he still needs you.

🍷​There are no urgent answers you see yourself forced to give though for this would be far too easy and even dishonorable for him to consider. The Vampire King yearns to unravel the mystery of your existence himself and he devotes himself to this task. You are treated mostly well yet the tension is something that never leaves your muscles as if you always expect him to murder you brutally the next moment. Believe him, he is no brute who would ever get his own hands bloody. If he would have wanted to kill you he would have done so already. Already aware that you know who he is Karlheinz doesn't hide his identity from you either whilst simultanously never indulging you either. There's always the same composed expression on his face when you try to ask him something or create your own theories about him, your eyes uselessly darting over his face to read something that will give him away. Sometimes you threaten him weakly that you will call the police yet that meek threat quickly dies down whenever he looks at you, stating in a tone far too soothing for a monster like him that you may do so if you truly believe it to be a good idea. Unsurprisingly you never attempt to inform the police.

🍷​He realises relatively early on that he seems to be uncharacteristically attached to you and your little antics yet he initially believes that it is only based on the mystery of you that he wishes to discover. It is his first and only wrong assumption in regards to his own feelings as slowly he realises that his feelings have been turning into something entirely new, something he understands so well in others yet has never felt himself. Love. Dark, possessive and doomed to trap you yet love nonetheless. There's no instant smothering though for it is not the route he trades upon. It starts much more subtle as he turns it into a little bet with himself. He decides to not claim you as his lover before he has figured out just what you are. A little game of delicious torture for him yet a gamble much more harmful to you. You suffer from the challenge he has created for himself, an act so indulgent and unlikely for him yet something he allows himself to receive a taste of impatience, to challenge his own skills as a scientist. It's an act of sheer sadism that he drags you into this game, enjoyment and adoration coursing through his undead heart as he slowly molds you to be his own.

🍷​Only once he has discovered your intriguing origins does he allow himself to indulge in you, to taste you and claim you. By that point he has already driven you to desperation and despair, infiltrated your heart so that you cannot help but love him and yearn for him. The important details he then gets from you though and you tell him at that point almost willingly, mushy as soon as his fingers fo as much as grace your cheek. It's a strange yet curious idea that he has existed to you so far only from a screen whenever you were playing a game yet it brings with it the theory that maybe there are loose connections between different worlds that inspire others in such interesting ways as you have described. There is nothing left for him to explore for him in his world but your appearance is the catalyst for him to start investigate the idea of a multiverse with you as his first living proof. Research on how to enable someone to travel between different realities is something he intends to figure out yet not because he wishes to send you back home. It's all done simply for his own scientific interest. He doesn't plan to ever let you leave him and even you aren't sure anymore if you handle not being with Karlheinz.

[phihanwool]

— ma minhwan x reader tags / warnings: yandere-ish themes? , spoilers for non-webtoon readers, gun threat, implied past relationship, emotional manipulation??, minhwan breaks into your house after he got out of jail lol disclaimer: this follows the webtoon not the kdrama note: tbh idk if i got minhwan's character right so im sorry if this is ass and ooc T_T

You knew something was off the moment you stepped inside.

Not in the obvious way. The lights were off, sure, but you'd come home to that plenty of times. No distant noise from the neighbor's apartment—still, not completely unusual.

You stood still in the doorway, keys still in hand, trying to locate the source of your discomfort. Then came that feeling.

A tightening at the base of your neck. A heaviness between your shoulder blades.

The eerie awareness of being watched.

You reached, slowly for your phone.

"Didn't think I'd still remember where you kept the spare key."

The voice was unmistakable.

You turned sharply, not out of courage but instinct, and there he was—Ma Minhwan, standing in the living room like a memory made flesh. Or a ghost. You weren't sure which disturbed you more.

His appearance had changed from the last time you saw him. The once vibrant hair now hung in limp, uneven strands. His face, drawn and shadowed, revealed how little sleep he'd had. There was no sign of the person he used to be.

Minhwan tilted his head. He didn't smile, not fully. He just studied your reaction with a calculating gaze.

"You're not going to say hi?"

You took a deep breath, spoke before you could think better of it.

"What the hell are you doing here?"

A beat of silence followed. He regarded you as though the question were beneath him.

"You look well." he offered instead.

"How the hell did you get out?"

Minhwan didn't answer. Instead, a slow, shallow smile spread across his face, unbothered.

"Don't worry about it."

It wasn't even evasion. It was dismissal.

You took a step back. Then another. The door was behind you.

"You shouldn't be here, Minhwan."

He raised an eyebrow, quiet for a moment.

"You left. You didn't visit."

You met his gaze, steady.

"I didn't visit because I meant it," you said, every word carefully measured. "We're done. I don't want to be part of whatever twisted thing you're doing."

He chuckled softly. The sound was dry. Unamused.

"You think it ends just because you say so?"

No inflection of anger. Only disbelief. Like you'd misunderstood the rules of a game he'd never explained.

His eyes flickered briefly past you—to the door.

You noticed. So did he.

A silence stretched, thick and suffocating.

You didn't give yourself time to think. You moved—quickly, turning away, reaching for the knob.

Before you could turn the knob—

You froze.

Cold metal met the base of your spine—distinct, heavy, unmistakable.

A gun. 

You didn’t have to turn around to know.

His voice came low, almost gentle.

"Touch that door, and I pull the trigger."

Your hand hovered inches from the knob.

You didn't move. You barely breathed.

The silence rang louder than any threat. It stretched and stretched, until it felt like your body would snap under it.

Your lungs refused to cooperate. Every cell in your body screamed at you to run.

But you didn’t move.

You stared ahead, at the door you could no longer open. At the life just inches away, suddenly unreachable.

Behind you, you could feel his breath. Calm. Certain.

“You’re home now,” Minhwan said, as if that settled it. As if that made it true.

A beat passed.

Then another.

You closed your eyes.

And didn’t move.

sorry if this is bad / makes no sense... its been so long since ive written anything </3

[roobiedo]

happy (late, again) Solarpunk Aesthetic Week! i... made a game! yeah, really!

Jojo the Raccoon is on a mission! When the humans abandoned the city, they left something special behind... and Jojo simply must find it! What treasure could he be looking for? Help him navigate through the world that humans left behind to find out!

play Racc On now on itch.io!

(dev ramblings below)

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hi gang. soooo it's been like half a year since i've been active here? and that's because earlier this year i enrolled myself in a super intensive game design course! so yeah i've been in the programming-for-babies trenches all this time ;; it's great to be back though, even if just for a while!

Racc On is my most recent project, where we were tasked to make a 3D platformer within 6 WEEKS to learn about game physics. (and a LOT of math. i am not a math person.) it's my second attempt at making a video game ever, and the first time I learned how to 3D model (I made Jojo from scratch)!

note to modelling newbies: please don't start with a quadruped. PLEASE.

thematically, i do wish i could've made it more solarpunky, but with the bulk of classes focused on programming, i didn't have much time for aesthetics ;; still, i did try to inject a little bit of that into the final puzzle. when i have more time, i'll flesh out the lore more to make the game really come to life. for now, let me know what you think the story is about!

the game is still in it's baby prototype stage, and i'm sure there still are lots of bugs that escaped my radar (please let me know if you find any!). but considering everything, i'm actually quite proud of what i've made! feels really good to let it out into the world 🥰

to senior solarpunk devs, i hope its alright for me to take up a little space in the community! and for aspiring game designers (i know there are many of yall with super cool solarpunk game ideas), i hope Racc On can offer some inspiration. as long as you have the passion, you can definitely turn your ideas into reality!

if you do try out the game, i'd really love to hear what you think! please drop a comment, tags, ask, dm, anything! i'd really appreciate it <3

ok now i gotta get back to my next game project (no promises, but it miiight be tidalpunk themed hehe). stay hydrated everyone! 💕

[stompedchild]

my brain's been thinking about certain realmers as magical girls recently, so i'm presenting my losa+tina x pretty cure au! i was inspired to make this when i saw this art by @melmokk3 !! maybe i'll make a madoka au as well but i wanted to make something more lighthearted and silly before anything else. what pretty cure is and what the au is are explained below the cut :3

okay so to quickly summarize what pretty cure/precure is, it's a magical girl series! there's currently 22 seasons and there's usually a different cast for each one. the story normally goes: a fairy's kingdom has been attacked by evil, they find the legendary pretty cures, they defeat the monsters of the week, and in the end good wins!! my au isn't based around any season in particular but instead i'm pulling from a lot of the common tropes/general tone and from what the spinoff seasons full bloom and mirai days are doing, which is working with aged up versions of the main casts.

as for the au itself-

the au focuses on ros, tina, sneeg, and clown. they're all adults in our modern world, living in a city... somewhere. they've got jobs, they're trying to make rent, and despite everything life could be worse! on one fateful day, coworkers ros and tina are window shopping when they encounter foolish! i don't have a solid vision for his design but i'm thinking he'd be like candy and pop from smile precure/glitter force. he's the fairy and therefore helper to the cures. he gives the two the rundown of how he got into this mess: he was the grand ruler of the kingdom of fools, until the malicious badgers attacked and destroyed the kingdom for the sake of causing chaos. now he's on the hunt for the legendary pretty cure warriors to save his kingdom, and their world, from destruction. shortly after they'd get attacked by pangi, and ros would become the first cure out of 4

after ros becomes a cure, she'd deal with a couple of fights with pangi with the occasional bbh sighting! she and tina would then be introduced to clown, who would become the second cure and the then strongest of the bunch. clown becoming a cure would also coincide with mocha/pili being introduced as a villain. sneeg would hear about all of the monsters running amok in the city his buddy ros lives in, so on the day he goes to check-in on her, the first attack orchestrated by the triple threat happens, and sneeg would become the third cure. if/when tina becomes a cure at all it would be much later down the line, probably closer to whatever explanation i can give the war in this au. in the meantime though, i have agendas to push so qpr losa and rostina yuri would be happening and are the relationship endgames.

i don't have solid designs in my head as of yet, but i've got a theme and some general color schemes/ideas. i'm still working on just picturing some stuff such as what they're using to transform/use their finishing attacks, as well as just fleshing out what happens between/during everyone becoming magical girls. seeing as the cures are fighting for the sake of the kingdom of fools though, why not theme them around a circus and circus positions?

ros would be Cure Ringleader, the head of the team, quickest of the bunch, and a purple cure. clown would be either Cure Jester or Cure Clown, he'd be a red cure, the best skill-wise, and he'd have a fire-based finisher. i'm still conflicted on sneeg's cure name but for now he's Cure Trapeze. he's a blue cure who can fly, and has a lightning finisher. lastly there's tina who's Cure Magician. she's a pink cure and the strongest magic-wise. i dont have the best vision of her finisher but i think somehow it'd involve a magician's hat. the losa would have a trio attack as well as duo attacks for each pairing. tina and ros would have a duo attack, and the 4 combined would have some crazy finisher that i'd imagine would put whatever they're fighting through a circus or something (thinking about the you&idol finishers as inspiration for the 4 cure attack, where whatever they're fighting literally gets teleported to a circus).

that's most of my put-together thoughts on this au for now. not sure if i will ever post any art but i might post more words abt this later. i'm still working on it and i'll probably also wind up with that madoka au at some point :3

[lazy-sixteen]

Replaying Pathologic 2 before I play Pathologic 3: Quarantine

Nice

I'd played it on a lower difficulty the first time, mostly bc I suck at combat

I didn't have too much difficulty with food/thirst/infection this time around even keeping all the Bound alive and saving babies, but god the combat

Like 5/7 of my deaths were the Worms in the Abattoir. Though got to say, I did really appreciate the Living Blood more given that I had to bleed for it.

2. Things 2 does that I like better than Classic

The Combat - I know it just complained it was harder, but once you've played a bit the combat in 1 is just too easy. I didn't even have to save scum to kill the Foreman

Infection/Immunity - Mechanically, just greatly improved. Not only in that I often felt immunity didn't do shit when I was playing 1, but also in that it adds to the story/characterization for the Haruspex to be far better at surviving the play with his medical knowledge coming partially from the Earth

Difficulty settings - From an accessibility and just a spirit of fun, I think all games should have these. Even if "Pathologic is supposed to be hard" is the point, what a 'hard' game is varies between people. I only believe in the 'git gud' philosophy of gamine for fishing minigames

A lot of character stuff - The moving portraits are gorgeous and expressive, and the characters in general feel so much more alive and fleshed out. I makes it so much easier to have a strong emotional reaction as the player, whether that is a 'good reaction' ( i would die for u, Murky💕) or a 'bad one' (sending Big Vlad to the pit😎)

The Herb Brides and the Abattoir and even the Worms are in general all so much more developed as concepts. The Abattoir specifically is gorgeous and awe-inspiring rather just a big cave. I had chills the first time I played that section

3. Things 2 does that I like less than Classic

I miss the first game's writing style. I do understand why they had to tone it down if they wanted you to really connect with the characters, but still...

I don't dislike P2 Aglaya , but she just isn't on the level of P1 Aglaya who came to town doomed but seething with betrayed spite wanting to at least take down her in-laws, accidentally seduced/got seduced by one protagonist, developed a will to live which she expresses by cucking the other protagonist out of his "Unlikely Ally, Maybe More ❤️?" role and shoving off her "Doomed Love Interest" fate onto bc she's meta aware

Really, really downplayed the Ripper aspect of Artmey's character - the games incentivizes being a goody two-shoes doc hard, and deincentivizes too much organ harvesting :(. Well, at least Artmey continues to have lots of lines where I genuinely can't tell if he's trying to be funny, trying to flirt, or threatening someone's life -at least we still have that

4. This rolls back to 2, but god the emotional core of this game hits hard.

You could let everyone die and still "win", you could leave that baby to cry the reward isn't that good, you could just care about yourself - but you won't because for Artemy the game is about love

And there are so many moments where that love just hurts - Notkin being infected and begging you to protect his friends, Murky saying she's always loved you, the children in the Tower where Artmey can't follow saying they send their love, cutting Nara while she promises this is all okay, the Earth's heart after all the pain and blood it took to craft saying it loves you, Sticky infected and saying to save the others first, that you can end both plays saying you chose to end as Artemy - as someone who loves and is loved

5. Death is my friend

One one hand, like in the sense that the Dead Item Shop is so, so useful.

But like theme wise, death is your fellow traveler, it is something inevitable and accepted, it does not have to be "Defeated" just temporarily overcome while you still need to keep living

Mark Immortell will even comment at the end that he didn't like Artemy's play because he wasn't afraid of death

6. "Hey, they bring up adults hitting their children a lot in this game where one of the big themes is trying to understand why your parent did something" -> killing Isidor Burakh was the one valid thing Oyun's ever done

No like really, a lot a lot. Sometimes it's serious like the Fellow Traveler's dialogue at the Dead Item Shop, sometimes it is silly like Artemy jokingly asking if Lara's going to cane him during the School House dream segment, sometimes it is oft hand like while he's grousing that Maria's father should curb her behavior

Which ties back into the constant talk that Isidor (one of the town's collective "father figures") wasn't afraid to break a bone if it set wrong, unafraid to use violence to fix something that wasn't 'right' - and then his violence of releasing the Plague onto his metaphorical child, the Town

Like you can choose to say that he never hit Artemy as the player, but that guy definitely hit his kids

7. The diagnostic + treatment mechanic is cool as fuck

And while it is very video-gamey, it does correlate amazingly well with the actual practice of medicine - that you have to treat pain while balancing out that pain is often your leading diagnostic clue, that you can't just say 'antibiotic' you have to know What/Where you are treating

Also just that to understand or cure means that you have to hurt/cut the human body. Like yeah doctor's aren't typically taking infected kidneys to brew antibiotics, but they do order painful biopsies to cure cancer, take living organs for transplants, etc.

i feel like someone on the dev team worked in medicine at some point

8. Actually, I like the endings. I think they fit perfectly into the Haurspex's famous, "Any choice is right as long as it is willed."

I will die on the 'they are both equally good, equally painful endings" hill

Either choice is about love, about choosing to live. Either choice requires you to take that step - forward or backwards - by killing.

9. The Albino creature thingy is so cute, the bulls are so cute, Murky's ugly little doll is cute!!!!

This doesn't have anything to do with anything, I just think they should fund Pathologic 3 with bull and creature plushies. This is bad idea, but it would make me personally very happy.

[theoddest1]

Okay so, ima type in what I typed to my friend here.

"Yeah Ima be so dead ass. ||Mel and Ekko carried the final for me, ESPECIALLY Ekko."

Yeah, they should have just kept [Viktor] being Ryze. That made more sense to me than whatever this is. And I am all for mlm rep, but yeah, this felt WAY too, Jayvikky. I liked it better that they were brothers to parallel Vander and Silco, who also found each other and became bros, but it seemed like they went with how popular JayVik was and stuck with it. And Jayce being strung with Viktor for wherever they went felt...kinda nonsensical. I'd rather that Viktor was thwarted and too far gone to then just suddenly have a change of heart and go with Jayce. I imagined that he would have a contingency where he, incase his body was destroyed, would then later rise again to try and enact "Glorious Evolution". It would go well with the themes of his beliefs anyway because every time he dies, he comes back stronger in a new body. I feel like that would better set the ongoing conflict and fit well with the game and why he looks the way he does currently.

I also don't like how quick he and Mel's reunion was considering how much he favored her along with his odd and sudden dislike for her decisions-- Seriously, where did that even come from!?"

[Thought it over further. Him calling her out on her actions isn't the issue. It's the timing and how this transpires that confuses me. He just came from a post-apocalyptic world where Mel, Viktor, and everything else came to mind. The lack of time for them to truly talk made the scene felt out of nowhere and not at all fleshed out. He goes on to place part of the blame on her when literally it wasn't. She DID manipulate but only politically. Everything else was on he and Viktor. Then, when he DOES confront Viktor, the vibes are different. Viktor hurt and caused a chain of events that led to several lives being taken to ensure survival and his "Glorious Evolution", why is this essentially overlooked? Maybe when I review this again, it will make more sense, but as of now, the way Jayce treats both Mel and Viktor is VERY questionable.]

"I would have been pretty happy if He at least gave her a hug, a kiss, something to make their relationship seem consistent with what we were shown. I know that he's been gone for a while and a lot more cold, but this was a very odd direction to go with. I am super happy about Cait and Mel fighting side by side and that Mel may be the main character for a new Noxus related show! [Which I knew they'd set up!] but this series, after seeing it in its entirety, DID suffer too much from the pacing issues. I assumed at the First Act that it was quick paced to go with how they've all been shifted into places they didn't see coming, but the pacing issues continued to bring down the quality. 3 seasons would have made way more sense and would go well with the 3 ACT formula they had used. I hope they learn from this and refrain from making similar mistakes.

[I responded to my friend who posted these images above] I knew they'd make a callback to this line eventually, and I am genuinely surprised people are not catching this obvious set up to Jinx living. Also, I am betting that Heimer did "die" but only that alternate version of himself. [Though obviously I could be wrong, though a life of various lifetimes where he helps each version of the main cast sounds very Heimerdinger of him, especially since he didn't wanna leave.]

The biggest letdown for me has to be Jayce and Viktor's story. It just...doesn't make sense with what we have been shown. Also, if Viktor KNOWS bad shit would happen when bringing Hextech to life and all, why TF would he give it to Jayce then???? Or if he STILL wanted magic to be tampered with shy doesn't he comvince himself in a way HE KNOWS would prevent what happens next, surely NOT EVERY timeline has it where you continue on the path of destruction! You see what I mean!?!? Leave the time crap to Ekko, man. This new inclusion makes no sense! And he does this in VARIOUS timeliness for some reason. Man, I wish it was just a random ass mage or Ryze, this added stuff kinda kills the finale for me🫠

I feel that making Viktor time travel ruins a huge aspect of the story, ngl, especially when Jayce argues that people can "craft their own path." The story also shouldn't have ended with what I could only assume both of them "dying" or traversing time instead. Also, the way Sky was treated and essentially replaced with Jayce feels....very very weeeeird."

[I believe that the ending just didn't land that well. I feel, now thinking over every character, Ekko, Mel, and Jinx carried this season HEAVY. These 3 were the most interesting parts of the season, honorable mention being Singed cause he be doing what he MUST. Also, what was the point of introducing Loris if all he was gonna end up being was a random guy who reminded Vi of Vander? I guess nothing is wrong with this, but when you're already stringing for time, these inclusions make no sense... I liked him, though, RIP Loris🤧. Oh, and Caut barely facing consequences is KINDA CRAZY but it goes with the themes of forgiveness/ acceptance. The Cycle would never end, after all, but yeah Vi and Cait made up WAY too fast and just shows that this needed another season. Let me know your thoughts!]

[basingstokemercury]

Mirror Of A Man:

Identical twin episode!

Interesting, but not all that brilliant - and too focused on guest stars over Cartwrights for my liking.

Joe saying "I've been so stupid" was fun... First time you notice that, kid?

And it was interesting that the good twin supports and respects his wife while the bad one is a Man Who Doesn't Care About Women's Things.

That ending, though... Ben came off awfully callous, watching a man kill one of his sons to save the other. They could have found a different way to go for that message.

My Brother's Keeper:

Will I get in trouble for saying I didn't like it?

Too depressing, for one thing. But it's not just that I don't like to think of Adam leaving, there are critiques of the plot and storytelling in plenty.

The premise? Brilliant. Adam thinking he might have killed his brother... Wow. So much could have been done.

And wasn't.

I'll start with the good points.

The way Adam just lets fly at the wolf when Joe's hurt, the horror on his face taking his self-hatred out on something else..

Panicking and desperately apologising, Joe saying he's all right in an obvious attempt to comfort Adam...

Adam carrying Joe wrapped in his own jacket...

And stroking Cochise when he's brought back, which more could have been made of ("more could have been made of it" is my theme for this review)...

Getting the bullet out and praying he isn't making things worse and knowing he's hurting his baby brother as he cuts into Joe's flesh trying to save him...

And Joe deliriously calling for Adam, showing the fear and pain he hid for Adam's sake when fully conscious, and wanting him there the moment he's out of danger...

And if that had been the episode, I'd have been delighted. But it wasn't.

So many extraneous factors, these guest character friends and the villains and all the talk about whether Adam really fits in the West (which made me sad).

Also where's Doc Martin? What happened to him? Only one doctor around suddenly?

So much telling and not showing happening, too. That scene with the Riordans going on about how Adam blames himself and is such a sensitive man and you can see the agony on his face? Writer people. You have Pernell Roberts. You don't need to worry about the audience not understanding what Adam's feeling.

You know what would have made for a great episode?

Adam accidentally shoots Joe, and they're alone in the wilderness or forced to shelter at a stranger's house. Maybe some danger or bandits lurking in the background.

A story focused on Adam and Joe's relationship, Adam's self-blame and grief and worry over Joe and Joe trying to say it wasn't his fault but being so hurt and frightened himself...

We hardly got anything of their bond or love for each other or Adam's protectiveness or Joe's awareness that Adam is more sensitive than he lets on or Adam just being so helpless against a disaster of his own making...

They could even have done something with the way Adam sees Joe hurt and rushes to reassure he didn't mean it, the way he often seems worried about whether Joe really cares for him or whether he's as good a brother as he should be...

But we have to go all philosophical about a completely different topic, and I still don't quite get what the Thoreau bit was supposed to mean. Is Adam living in quiet desperation? Well, I'd say he's likely depressed, but aside from the constant danger and possible mental illness he seems to be in a pretty good place - loving family, stable home, plenty of laughter and hijinks... Yes, the West is often a pretty awful place and he well knows it. Is giving up the answer, though? How's anything going to improve if the good, intelligent, sensible people all leave for safety and stability?

(also the "savages" line specifically felt a bit racist. I'm sure it was meant to refer to white people acting inhumanely but with that context... um. maybe don't.)

The ending? Yeah, that's sweet and all. Joe calling for Adam and suddenly the mystery of why he stays is solved.

But "why does he stay" was the wrong question for this episode. Honestly.

I had such high hopes.

[sommerregenjuniluft]

something something day of the week snippet

helo tumblr *wrings hands* i've been a little mia recently especially in tag thingies because we've not been doing too hot mentally but alas here i am :p

@grimsneverendingfuneral tagged me (kissing u) in a mouthwatering rosekiller wip snippet and i saw saints' too so i thought i'd just keep the theme going so have some Ant Pile (btw i'm trying to finish this until my birthday so mid february! fingers crossed you get everything of this soon)

Evan hits him upside the head making Barty growl. “Well, bitch boy, maybe. Since it seems you like to do that so fucking much.” 

“Dickface.”

“Bitch boy.”

“You–” and then Barty’s upper lip pulls back and- oh, fuck no.

“Ay! Don’t fucking bite me again, B,” Evan rears his arm back and out of reach, “I swear to– get the fuck off.”

Barty snarls, teeth bared in a too wide smile, cheeks crinkling with stretched dimples. Evan is only mildly obsessed with them whenever they pop out.

That’s probably the reason Barty gets the opportunity to make a swift grab for his wrists and pin them over his head. They scramble against each other, trying to win the upper hand as their legs wriggle, slip, knees knocking, and then Barty is suddenly perched on his chest, straddling his torso and sinking his teeth into the soft underside of Evan’s forearm.

He cries out through clenched teeth, more startled than hurt, but that doesn’t mean it doesn’t sting like a motherfucker as Barty’s jaw stays clamped shut around Evan’s flesh.

There’s a sucked in breath against Evan’s skin, sounding excited, and there must be some kind of blood flow interruption because his head gets a little dizzy then.

It draws a noise out of him, body involuntarily starting to squirm and eventually prompting Barty to let up.

The first thing Evan feels is relief which is promptly inundated. Another noise punching out of him, a pained hiss when the marked skin starts throbbing. 

Barty above him gives a pleased chuckle, then a wet slurping noise, collecting the spit back up into his mouth. 

Another throb, whole-body, and Evan groans.

Barty adjusts on top and leans down again.

Evan’s eyes fly open, frantically wiggling to get away but Barty’s grip is iron and then there’s something warm-wet. Pleasant.

Evan blinks and tips his head back, something lodging in his throat when he watches Barty lap over the teeth indents with his tongue. Warm and careful, a soothing gesture. 

He doesn’t slobber on it, rather alternating between long swipes with the flat of his tongue and little kitten licks. Until Barty makes a small sound and then his lips come down over the marred skin too.

Soft pressure, damp lips coming down randomly over and over again, here and there and over there, too.

A constant, recurring puff of breaths spilled over Evan’s sensitive skin, much too gentle in the face of the firm way Barty’s hand still holds him down by the wrists.

“B,” Evan chokes out when he feels some of the returning blood rushing south too.

His friend grunts, not really in acknowledgement but more in a dismissive let me cook here way and Evan bites down hard on his lower lip. That doesn’t help him suppress the startled moan though when Barty suddenly sucks the pulsing skin into his mouth.

Adam’s apple bobbing and holding the patch of skin in his mouth, cheeks hollowing and takes everything in Evan not to buck his hips when he feels himself twitch in his pants.

Evan’s voice is so husky he barely recognizes it himself when he strangles out, “Barty, you gotta let go.”

The skin pops out of his mouth with a wet smacking noise and Evan feels positively stupid as he watches Barty’s lips come down for one more gentle kiss like he just can’t help himself.

Barty sits back, still kind of looking at Evan like he wants to eat him, hands sliding off his wrists and Evan barely refrains from whimpering.

“Fuck, I hate you. You’re insane,” he pants, feeling where Barty is hard against his stomach, “Why was that hot?”

“Dunno,” Barty responds, eyes still glazed and staring down at Evan with something akin to awe. “Kinda wanna do that to your neck now.”

i have lost any concept of time and as mentioned been not too active so apologies if youve been tagged in one of these fairly recently lol <3 @stagpdf, @static-radio-ao3, @itsjaywalkers, @rottin6, @veryinnovative, @messrsage, @maliceofminds, @lemndrps, @214lilacsky, @regscupid, @xjustakay, @standardlovers and @kaleidoscopexsighs

[ilikelookingatthings]

full metal alchemist gravity falls au conversation

likelookingatthings Go full metal alchemist ford!

greycoffeethe amount of angst an AU like this can create... dang i need this as a fic so bad

ilikelookingatthings@greycoffee The fact when you commented this so I told my sister and she isn't even in the gravity falls fandom...yet immediately pingponged alternate ways a full mental alchemist gravity falls fic au could go.

Stan as Edward whose brother's body was lost like al as a parallel to ford accidentally getting sucked in the portal and how stan was burned with a reminder.

. The burning house losing identity parallel to not turn back til he gets his brother back. A version where ford's soul was lost but not his body and Stan gets punched in that white void like when Ed sees his brother.A version where like normal full mental fird is in a suit like al and lost his body.

A version where Stan has to pretend to be his alchemist brother but can't do alchemy...just conning his way into people believing it.

How you coukd mix different aspects together. Professor Markov with his research and paranoia similar to ford. How maybe they tried to mess with a taboo. Like maybe they were trying to bring someone back....or maybe ford got tricked by the hulunculi becayse ifvhisctendency to push boundaries in research bht realized he went too far or something..aspect of government conspiracies and how the philosophers stone also connects gold/wealth which stan was obsessed with.

Even brought up a thought if a Stanford stanely parallel with greed and the prince. And a unending options defending on what ratio you lean toward .

Greycoffe@ THESE ARE SUCH GOOD IDEAS HOLY SHIT?? like another idea I got from one of yours is Dip&Mab being Ed&Al and after trying to bring back their dead loved one, have to move in with Stan (this version's Pinako) who's taking care of Pacifica (can be someone else, but I thought she'd be a cute love interest for either twin).

greycoffee i really enjoyed reading your ideas but I cannot for the love of me write out a fully fleshed out fic bc I'm already writing other AUs 😭 (i shall keep this in my notes however :3)

Ford could possibly be someone like Hohenheim with Bill being the homunculus in the flask, etc etc

ilikelookingatthings@greycoffee Ooooh that's fun! Cuz Pacifica abd windy are blonde..also some potential if she represents king Bradley's kid. What with her family being rich and the theme of corruption of rich government people. There is also the option of what if Stan if Stan is the alchemist teacher.....

ooooh or if dipper and Mabel represent Edward while stan is al.Personally off arc I'd picture her as from the north fortress from the Armstrong family.

or that guy with a mustache from the mining town who gets overthrown by the siblings meddling who gets caught up in shenegans and petty talks of revenge but who slowly gets a arc if being a better person.

Huh...just realized Pacifica could also be greed, the prince or Mei since her sense of importance and need to make her family happy and her struggle to understand friends.

Want to throw out there fiddleford could be doctor Markov. And for fun and not for real...Barry the butcher as stan.

Though if Pacifica is winry would that make that ghost who hates her family scar? Though if she's a Armstrong would that make sloth the ghost?

Honestly I get the feeling. I'm so behind on getting through my fanfiction tabs the thought of writing myself even when I have ideas to chew on can feel like too much at times.

I'm gonna reblog this conversation. See if anyone else wants to chew on this bone.

Extra thought...stanley and fird as Riza and mustang considering the trying to become mayor plot line and who we knkw gets injured in the end.

Also a funny imagine is while adjusting ages can work...just imagine all the characters the same age in gravity falls and things get ten times more hilarious (or sad depending) cuz the government has a bunch of kid employees running things. Just imagine old stan and ford as the elric Brothers while the kid superiors are dipper and Mabel.

[yanderes-galore]

Hi, how are you going?

Fandom: TMNT 2012

Character: Raphael

Fic type: romantic concept with dear-yandere's prompts 82. Punishment, 98. Stitches and 103. Teeth.

Personally I'm doing okay and I'd love to try my best at these prompts! @okchijt wanted to try their hand at a sadistic Raph prompt plot so I approved what they did and fleshed it out! They helped a lot! Hopefully this became a good story :D (Albeit unnerving). Warning, this one's definitely messed up so adhere to trigger warnings before hitting read more. You have been warned.

Prompts Here

Yandere! 2012! Raphael Prompts 82, 98, 103

“I know it hurts, honey, but this is what happens when you don’t do what I say.”

“I really want to be gentle to you right now, but you’re making it impossible.”

“Smart ass. I’d suggest biting your tongue before I rip it out.”

Pairing: Romantic

Possible Trigger Warnings: Gender-Neutral Darling, Jealousy, Violence, Swearing, Threats, Anger issues, Toxic themes, Dubious relationship, Accusations of cheating, Implied delusional behavior, Implied kidnapping, Dehumanization/Degradation, Manipulation, Cuts, Punishment, Wounds, Blood, Toxic relationship obviously, Sadism, Broken bones, He feels bad at the end... kinda, TRIGGERING THEMES AS DARLING GETS HURT IN THIS.

Raph's blood boiled when he saw you look so happy with Leo, his brother. You smiled at him like you hadn't a care in the world. You laughed with him as though you weren't betraying him.

Raph hated how close you were with his brother. Sometimes it felt like Leo was better than him. It only ever angered Raph when you're so easily pleased by his brother.

Why are you never like this with him?

Was it because Leo was so much nicer? Raphael tries his best to be loving and caring with you. In fact he succeeds most of the time, he's capable of being soft. It's just that... his anger tends to get the best of him.

As a result you often become the victim of his frustration. He can't help it and he knows he has a problem. But sometimes... especially when he sees you appeal to Leo more than him...

He feels it can be justified.

Having enough of the laughing and casual conversation between you two, Raphael stands up. He feels his eye twitch and the fact he can't compete with his brother. You're talking about Leo's favorite show or something, commenting on certain moments. You barely even notice Raph is there.

Until he grabs your arm.

Silence overcomes everyone in the room as Raphael yanks you towards his room. Leonardo looks as though he wants to say something to his brother but it unsure. Based on the harsh grip the mutant has on you, you can only assume what you're in for. Were you in trouble? For what?

Raphael can't help himself when he tosses you onto the bed in his room. The wind is knocked out of you and you hear the door slam as Raphael locks the door with an audible click. Before you're able to respond to him he yells at you.

"You're cheating on me!" He growls, green eyes narrowed at your confused expression. "You always get so damn comfortable with Leo like we're not involved!"

"Raph, we're just friends? Me and Leo happen to enjoy the same show-" You try to defend yourself but your voice is quickly drowned out by his.

“Smart ass. I’d suggest biting your tongue before I rip it out.”

With that you grow silent as Raphael rages on. You hated when he got like this. His anger was like a monster that can't be tamed.

He was a monster that can't be tamed.

"I don't want you so close to him anymore! It drives me mad! It's so damn annoying... why can't you just pay attention to me?"

"That seems to be all I ever do! Talking to others is my only form of normalcy. You won't even let me go home. I can't live like some pet!" You snap back, fed up with all of his accusations. "Leo isn't going to do anything. He won't come between us!"

"Really?"

"I'm tired of things too, Raph! I'm tired of being scared of you! I'm tired of the pain, I'm tired of being some sort of obedient little pet for you. I'm tired of you CONTROLLING me!" You snap, rightfully calling out the turtle on his behavior for the past few months.

Raphael laughs at your breakdown. It's partially because you called him out. This was all a personal attack and you both knew that.

He wasn't going to deal with this.

"Oh, please! You're nothing without me." Raphael growls, stalking you into the corner of his room. "Without me, you'd be as good as dead in this world."

Regret bristles the hair on your skin as you realize how trapped you are. You shake your head and shove yourself into the corner of the bed. You really should've held your tongue.

"I'm sorry, we're just both frustrated and-"

"This'll only hurt a bit, you know better."

With lightning speed, Raph pulls his sai and cuts your skin. His cuts are sloppy but it's enough to get the lesson across. You scream in pain, the blood dripping down your arm.

"Oh... please, Raph-!" You cry, but those green eyes are cold.

"It's not enough." He says, making eye contact with you. "I need to get the point across."

"Huh?"

*SNAP*

At first, you felt nothing. If was like the adrenaline made it seem like he didn't break your arm. At first the audible crack was your only clue.

Then the pain set in.

Then you screamed.

“I know it hurts, honey, but this is what happens when you don’t do what I say.” Raphael coos towards you, shushing you and soothing you like he didn't just break your arm. He's sickeningly sweet all of a sudden as he places a hand over your whimpering mouth. You stare at him with fear and he isn't sure if he hates it or adores it.

You weakly cry apologies towards him as he pulls out medical supplies from beneath his bed. He feels he's made his point. Now it's time to fix things.

"Shhh, it's all over. I'll fix you and maybe next time you'll listen." Raphael soothes, kissing your head as he makes a makeshift cast and splint. "It's going to hurt, but by now I think you know that."

Fixing you is harder than breaking you. Despite this and all of your crying, Raphael manages to patch you up. Part of him feels bad he's done such a thing to the one he loves.

Yet he tries to tell himself it's deserved for making him feel so jealous.

Do he love or hate your tears...?

By the end of it all you turn away from Raphael on the bed. You hiss in pain at times and flinch away from him due to what he's done. You can't tell if he did this with blind rage... or he did this of his own accord.

You don't care.

“I really want to be gentle to you right now, but you’re making it impossible.” Raph grumbles bitterly, his anger simmering down as he sits on the bed. He patched you up the best he can, now it's just the aftermath.

The tone of the mutant still sounds like a threat to you, causing you to listen to him more. The last thing you want is more pain. You're miserable enough with him right now already.

"... C'mere."

Reluctantly you're pulled into the arms of Raph as he leans down with you. He rubs your back in an attempt to be soothing but you're so rigid in his arms. It's all for a good reason, Raphael even begins to think back on what he's done.

His obsession over you only ever gets worse.

"I'm sorry..." He whispers into your hair. "I wish I knew how to love you."

He doesn't expect an answer back.

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Hi! My name is Ryan, but everybody on the internet calls me "Blaze", as in BlazeHedgehog. I've had that internet username since at least 1998 or even 1997, where I picked it for myself as a high school freshman in the computer science lab. I was trying to fit in with other Sonic fans, you see. I just never felt like changing it (and now it's sort of like "my brand.")

I'm the founder of SAGE (The Sonic Amateur Games Expo), though I haven't had an active role in the event in a good while now. I still occasionally dabble in making games, and depending on who you ask, one of those games changed the face of an entire community.

Since then, I've been growing a slightly popular Youtube channel, and I occasionally stream on Twitch. I've been doing both of those a long time -- my Youtube channel dates back to 2006, and I've been livestreaming games since before Twitch even existed (Who here remembers a service called "Mogulus"?) I even used to run multiple Shoutcast radio stations back in the day!

In terms of this blog, it is largely an ask blog. I try to make sure at least one post goes up every day. Most people ask me questions about Sonic games, but feel free to ask me just about anything as long as it's not rude or too personal. Just be aware it might take a week or two for the answer to get posted, depending on volume and interest.

I wrote a big long intro post for the now defunct Cohost. If you'd like to know even more about me, that follows under the "keep reading" tag:

I still care a lot about fangames, and people's right to make fangames. SAGE was founded on the ideal of normalizing the fangaming scene in the eyes of the mainstream. Back when I first started, fangames were often considered another form of piracy. I wanted them re-categorized to be in the same realm as fanart or fanfiction. Whether or not SAGE accomplished that is anyone's guess, but the world is a lot more accepting of fangames these days regardless. A lot of cool people have featured their games at SAGE over the years, including the developers of Sonic Mania, Spark the Electric Jester, and Freedom Planet. SAGE is genuinely one of the things I am most proud of starting in my life, even if I haven't had a managerial role in over ten years.

I have been interviewed about SAGE and how it relates to the fangaming community. Both times I've been interviewed, I was granted permission to post my (very, very wordy) interview in full, if you'd like to read them:

Cultured Vultures: The Weird and Wonderful History of Sonic Fangames

Le Monde: When There’s No Good Sonic Games, Fans Develop Their Own

I was known for a few fangames in my time. I have a Youtube playlist where I've commentated over some of those games.

I've tried to transition to making original games, the most recent one being OverBite in 2016. OverBite was a game I created for a game jam, with the intent on making it a bigger, more robust thing to sell later on down the line. The game jam version you can download today is a little basic and boring. It was created over the course of 33 days and I did nearly everything alone -- coding, art, level design, all of it. I custom-built the physics engine, I custom-built the AI, almost none of it was using prefabs or existing example code. The only outside help I received was music, which was provided by my old friend Malcolm Brown (who really needs a better online presence for links like this).

Circumstances got weird (it's a long story, and this post is long enough) but the short of it is OverBite is permanently on the backburner until further notice. I'd love to go back and flesh it out some day, and really make it something special (I have a giant design doc for it!), but I have to focus my attention elsewhere.

I registered a Youtube channel in 2006, back in the early days before they were owned by Google. Around 2009, I did my first formal video review, for Sonic Unleashed. I was inspired by the style of Gametrailers (now Easy Allies) at the time. From there, I started taking my channel a little more seriously, and recently I have had the impetus to take it very seriously.

I have been livestreaming since at least 2009, as well. For reference, that's before Twitch.tv existed, back when the site was called Justin.tv, and was pitched more as people livestreaming their bedrooms with a webcam (what is now called "Just Chatting" on Twitch). I jumped around between sites like Mogulus.com, Livestream.com, and uStream. In 2012, I teamed up with a friend, Imran Khan, to stream Sonic 06 for charity. The 18 hour marathon raised more than $1000 for relief after the Japanese tsunami disaster of the same year. When I stream nowadays, I do it on Twitch, here. Archives of past streams can be found here and here.

I used to be a paid, professional games media writer for the niche site tssznews.com, but that site imploded after I worked there for 12 years. It ran out of money, the head didn't want to run it anymore, and after an embarrassing social media gaffe, permanently closed its doors basically overnight without warning anyone else. While at TSSZ, I helped break a lot of their biggest stories. A slowly increasing amount of my TSSZ work has been archived at Last Minute Continue, and you can always use the Wayback Machine. I also have plans to archive my "professional" writing on my own site, bltn.net, eventually. Some day.

(Since writing this, I have also uploaded a large chunk of archived TSSZ articles to The Internet Archive.)

I'm also an artist, or I was. Most of my other creative outlets eventually took precedent, but I still try and retain some artistic skill. There's a very dusty DeviantArt profile out there, and an art tag on my tumblr blog you can check out. Carpal tunnel has made drawing a little frustrating these days, however.

Is that it? I guess that's it. There are even more links to things that aren't necessarily worth a paragraph on the Linktree, and not to hustle you after reading all of that, but boy it would be great if more people supported me on Patreon so I can use all this stuff to help pay my bills and get me to a more comfortable place in life. Twitch subs and Patreon donors get early access to my Discord and yadda yadda yadda...

Oh yeah, and I even turned on Youtube Memberships recently.

[lividria]

Various Ideas For How That One Deltarune Chapter 3 Guy Could Be A Secret Boss

only making the title vague in case anyone who hasn't played yet gets this in your feed so i can hide it all under the cut just don't read the tags or else you'll see an incredibly vague name we already knew before the chapters released thanks to spamton sweepstakes oh no, if you've played ch3 you know exactly who this is about lol

i'm pretty sure i've listened to every fanmade ramb theme that's been uploaded to youtube. all 50+ of them. add my name to the list of people who have shed a tear for him. if you keep track of that sort of thing.

anyways i wanted to come up with my own idea for what a ramb fight would be like since i noticed not that many of them seemed to have much beyond a vague concept and a sketch or two... but then i couldn't really come up with much either? i kept finding good starting points but couldn't get them to fit together or flesh them out, so instead here's like all of my disconnected notes to mix and match as you see fit idfk, you're free to take them for yourself hopefully someone resonates with at least one of my ideas

(all of my ideas are for wereramb, sorry does the one dracula ramb idea have a name, that idea's super cool too and I'm glad there's some variety for ramb, I just already have a thing for bosses that are upgraded versions of enemies but with cool design changes and all that and ramb is a really fucking good character so this specific idea was literally made for me)

First Things First, The Shadow Mantle

I'm gonna be calling the Shadow Mantle Holder just Eram despite that not being the official name for... hopefully obvious reasons

none of these really went anywhere I just tried to figure out what the Shadow Mantle is to see if I got any leads for Ramb SB and failed, I tried though

In the Undertale 6th anniversary stream, Toby called the King's cape a mantle by saying "Cool mantle, bro" which is suspicious wording so that's one of the few leads we have on what the Shadow Mantle is, I'd be stupid to try and make a Ramb boss without incorporating the Shadow Mantle into it but if it's the King's cape that just makes it MORE confusing and hard to work with besides just... Making a hypothetical design easier because you can just draw Wereramb with the King's cape

My headcanon is that Seam made the Mantle, they're familiar with the Shadow Crystals which obviously are related, and in Chapter 4 says they can make something with them (presumably the unused Pure Crystal you need for the Twisted Sword, also hear me out what if we also get a recipe that's Pure Crystal+Shadow Mantle=the also unused Sky Mantle), and was in possession of the Shadow Mantle, so if it ended up in the King's possession it coming from his court magician seems logical enough

...No idea who stole it though, the King? The Knight, who gave it to the King? Until I find a good answer on what Eram is I'm just running with the idea they're either the Knight with a controller fucking with Kris or some sort of manifestation of whatever force caused the Knight because that'd explain why they'd have the Mantle and also why the Knight would've stolen it if it gives you a fighting chance against them on their fight (But then why would they give it to Kris??? Unless they just needed to get it out of Seam's possession before he could make the Sky Mantle and by now it's already too late for that to matter or something)

I bring that up because I've seen several people say Ramb is the one who stole the Shadow Mantle and literally why the fuck would he do that, if he would be the actual SB he'd already have been given his Shadow Crystal by the Knight so they'd just give him the Mantle at the same time it's not that hard (Knight probably gave it to the King first as part of their recruiting or whatever, and it just returned to the Knight after King's defeat)

Design & Fight Ideas

Okay so obviously a Werewire, a Werewerewire even since idk why a superboss variant of the enemy wouldn't also have traits from the upgraded version, predominantly pink and yellow for reasons I shouldn't have to explain

The overalls he has on that look like a face turn into an actual face so he can talk while he's fighting you, or maybe it even becomes Eram's mouth? I think it'd be fun if a bit ridiculous if Eram was talking through Ramb and Ramb's Face Fixture somehow blinked morse code he'd communicate with saying he's sorry and didn't want this or some shit depending on the fight scenario

I've seen a couple people interpret Ramb's hair as dog or rabbit ears and while I don't know what the fuck you people are smoking it does work to contrast the long horns of regular Werewires to have a Wereramb with rounded bits on their head instead, though I'd probably go for cat ears instead due to Eram's connection to Friend

I think it'd be neat if the cone on Wereramb's face was used as like a mosquito proboscis as a response to the whole vampire/Dracula Ramb thing lol, and would also be kinda funny because we have Tenna the big nose man and then we have Wereramb who's Long Face Part is used to fucking stab at you and drain your hp or something (Something something Karma reference here)

Give him Asriel's 'unfinished final boss on his computer' rainbow wings. Made of pulsing electricity or something.

You know how Eram is a reference to Link's Awakening's Nightmares? Two of the forms the Shadow Nightmares can take in that game is Agahnim and Ganon. Ganon uses a trident, Asgore has a trident and doesn't live with the rest of the familyy anymore, Ramb's big thing is nostalgia, you get the idea. And also I think a plug designed to look like a trident would be a cool weapon.

Or it'd be funny if Wereramb was using one of those plug enemies from Queen's basement as like a ball & chain, since Link's Awakening had Chain Chomps in them it makes sense trust me

ALTERNATIVELY, since with the Dracula Ramb idea people randomly switched game is getting referenced so Ramb could reference Dracula, try this one: Eram was based on Link's Awakening Shadow Nightmares, so how about how Wereramb referencing Kirby's Adventure's Nightmare Wizard (Also just called Nightmare if you're a LOSER), a tall, caped humanoid thing with a pointy nose (though not as pointy as Spamton & Tenna's) and a dark blue cape that reflects your attacks with the Star Rod and also has stars on it's design, who was trying to spread nightmares across Dream Land. I don't think I need to explain the connection here, especially what with him having a Mantle-like cape and the whole Dark/Star element, but he even has an Orb form, just like the Knight randomly does??? And also given Nightmare Knight is like literally a Kirby song even if it was made for Cucumber Quest and is literally referenced in Deltarune super explicitly now, sorry I think Kirby would be a better pick than Castlevania (Especially with the Blue Soul since platforming)... Kirby is also one of my favorite franchises by now and I've made more Kirby posts than any other series so I may be biased

Also in Kirby Right Back At Ya Nightmare runs a fucking business and I haven't watched it yet so I don't know how the fuck that works in the plot but I find it fucking hilarious, but that'd also genuinely be a fucking connection to Spamton here

Adventure also introduced Meta Knight who's entire thing was testing Kirby, he has a bat theming going on with his wings and his cape lets him teleport, if Ramb isn't getting possessed in his fight I think it'd be fucking hilarious if you fought ARMORED RAMB where he gets his own Sword and fights you ingame

Okay, parallels to another character are a must have... But the thing is, Spamton NEO & Gerson parallel Mettaton & Undyne respectively, right? Makes sense with Reverse Undertale Theory, since Cyber World is CORE and the Santuaries are Waterfall, which makes TV World Hotland, So you'd think that Ramb would parallel Muffet, the Purple Soul even makes sense because of like the wire/string thing going on and the character who wants to give Kris freedom using a Soul Mode that restricts their movement is a fun gimmick, but... Muffet was a Kickstarter character, with no sign of her in Deltarune, so it'd be kinda weird to reference a character who no longer exists? AND ALSO HOW THE FUCK WOULD RAMB PARALLEL MUFFET? Trying to liberate people from the TV World to go off to the original areas? That doesn't feel right, and also people are said to have already done that. So, what are our other options...

I dunno how the fuck he could parallel Alphys, and the items in Hotland correspond to the Green Soul which Gerson got, so I think instead Ramb could actually parallel Sans a bit since they already have an odd amount of connections (Think about it, I'm not listing them for you or looking for a whole list to link here), and the Blue Soul also has the restricted movement thing going on and could even work since it's a platformer gimmick and we've got the video games thing going on

Alternatively it'd be funny if Ramb used the volume gimmick from the Mikes

Fight Scenario

Most of these ideas came from me thinking that we can't have a Ramb SB without Eram being tied in somehow, but it'd make no sense to have Eram appear in this scenario without having also been fought, so how do we get both? Chapter 3 Weird Route. Okay but like not like the actual weird routes just an alternate more fucked up route that isn't just the sword route, most of these ideas stemmed from that chain of thought of ramb being an alternate secreter boss

Freedom gimmick of Ramb finding out about Kris' Soul situation and wanting to find a way to free them, sacrificing his own freedom in the process in one way or another (Trying to retrieve the Mantle for them?) only for now neither of them to be free since he's being controlled by Eram now or something (Wait would Ramb being possessed by Eram count as a Friend Insi-)

Does anyone remember Technician Theory? That was a really good one, I wish the "promise of perfection" actually meant anything that's a great phrase and could even work with Ramb reminiscing on the good old days or whatever. Anyways, easy set-up here I haven't seen anyone do yet: Make Ramb the Technician. He was a stagehand alongside Mike until he saw some shit and got demoted by Tenna to his position in the Green Room. Bam. He also refuses to tell you anything about Mike lol

Plug the Sword Route controller into Board 2 after having done the first part of the Sword Route; Completely fuck shit up, kill Lanino & Elnina and/or Rouxls in-game so that they stay divorced and don't get recruited, and just boat to the Atlantis tile to progress instead (Or force Tenna to cut the board off early by breaking into the Northernlight dungeon), Ramb can tell Kris is getting tired of this shit and looking for more fun and more freedom so he fights you

Ramb switches out the MANTLE game for the fucking unfinished Asriel game on his computer, you're already using Asriel's knockoff controller (that's implied to have been meant for Spamton???) just go the whole nine yards, no fucking clue what the game'd be like though

I saw a couple hijacking-themed Chapter 3 SBs in a few takes, I think it'd be fun if Ramb intervened during the Doom Board (How come no Ramb SB themes use Doom Board's motif btw) and hijacked the game to try and get tenna to free the fun gang, freedom boss literally fighting the chapter ruler for your freedom

may periodically update this post with more ideas as I think of them but I think this is about everything I've considered

as I was writing this post someone on discord who is literally just named ramb with his sprite as their pfp said something in a server i'm in i fucking summoned him oh god oh fuck

if people like this post I've got a cohesive Friend Inside Me take that I think nobody else has done anything like so maybe I'll make a post out of that too, though I also can't fucking take it seriously for obvious reasons so idk, either that and/or a chapter 5 predictions post where I collate me and my friends' fucking insanity we've concocted

[hoardingpuffin]

Over the Garden Wall Fable AU Concepts

Okay, so - when I was across the pond to see my partner, them and I watched Over the Garden Wall. @the-uninformed-zennial had never seen it, and it's so very much their vibe so obviously we had to. And, as we are both Fable nerds, we ended up talking about potential AU ideas. I'd had two possible concepts for AUs floating in my noggin for a while and we fleshed them out together a bit.

Now, between (hopefully) finishing Three Wishes, and the holidays, and that pesky 30+ page bachelor thesis paper, I won't have time to write them as actual fics anytime soon, so I figured I'd at least put out the concepts somewhere, and Tumblr seemed like a good choice.

For anyone unfamilar with Over the Garden Wall: It's a mini series by Patrick McHale that aired on CartoonNetwork a while ago, focussing on two brothers stuck in the mysterious Unknown trying to get home and experiencing wacky halloween-y hijinks on the way. The Unknown is often interpreted to be a sort of afterlife/limbo, and the series has a lot of themes of that direction, but it's still quite charming and cute and funny (as it is made for kids).

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Concept 1 Icarus and Rae are in the place of Greg and Wirt – they got into some sort of fight in the real world and ended up in a situation that made them enter the Unknown as a limbo between living and dying. In this case, the characters from the Unknown would be remaining a lot more like the ones we know from the show, so the Woodsman is just The Woodsman, the Beast is just The Beast, and so on. I’m not sure who’d be in the place of Beatrice, but there are a few possibilities. If we’re going with the popular interpretation that the Unknown is a form of the afterlife, then it could be someone from canon who has passed already (if we wanna be angsty, it could be Haley maybe? I am not sure if I want her to be though), or alternatively Beatrice could just be a random soul who, like in OtGW Canon, is trying to free their own family.

In this AU, the story would probably progress similar to the one in OtGW – Icarus and Rae trying to get home and through the Unknown, getting into more fights along the way, until Icarus ends up losing faith in being able to get home completely. Rae – much like Greg – would offer himself to the Beast in order to get Icarus home, and Icarus in turn would have to step up and be a responsible older brother and save Rae from turning into an Edelwood.

There’s a lot of similarities between Icarus and Wirt, I feel like, though Wirt’s anxious poetic nature seems more alike Rae. But both Icarus and Wirt have this streak of blaming their younger brothers for stuff that those brothers weren’t necessarily responsible for, and lashing out at them, so I can see Icarus in Wirt’s place rather well. Plus, well, Rae, like Greg, going on a whole arc of “maybe this is actually my fault so I’m gonna go with the Beast to try and fix it” seems fitting for him to me.

Concept 2

Now, the other concept I might actually like more by just a little bit – in this, the people lost in the Unknown would likely be Athena and Jamie, who (due to something other in the real world) are finding themselves in the woods, where they meet the Woodsman – who would be Rae. I can just see Rae being someone to devote themselves to being the Lantern Bearer for the Beast, if it meant to keep the soul of a loved one alive (though in this case it wouldn’t be the child, but likely Aax and Caspian) – plus, the Beast has the whole antler aesthetic going on, so that can overlap neatly with the warden in my opinion. Maybe it’s just cause the Woodsman is such a tragic figure already in OtGW canon, but I think it would be a neat spin to see that character lead the ones lost in the Unknown instead of just sending them on their way, to make the idea that he might be the Beast even worse of a betrayal, which I always thought OtGW was a bit light on. I wish they’d have given that betrayal as much weight as Beatrice’s betrayal. And then, once revealed to the Woodsman that the Lantern holds the Beast’s soul, not anyone else’s, the big fight feels in character for Rae to me, too. Rae’s devotion to the ones he loves is immense, and him fighting the monster that deceived him so – especially to also keep two innocent souls safe in the process – would not only be in character, but also give a quite triumphant turn for him in this AU. Plus, he’d get the happy ending he deserves once he actually slays the Beast and returns home to see that his loved ones are actually there and likely have been all along. The unfortunate side to his AU idea is that most of the characters in the Unknown, like Rae, already being dead and likely for a long time. However, Zenni presented an alternative idea, where the inhabitants of the Unknown aren’t always actually the souls of the deceased, but might also be sort of mirror-verse representations of them. I’m not sure how Athena and Jamie would get to the Unknown then, but it would be an interesting concept to explore, and give more detail to the world – plus, give Athena and Jamie both more of a reason to trust the Woodsman and either for the believed betrayal to hit even worse or for them to not believe it because they know Rae so well in the real world.

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Now, obviously, these are just concepts, not nearly as fleshed out as I would make an actual fanfic - and some stuff might be jumbled as I've not actually written it out before and the whole Putting Things In Your Writing Brain Into Actual Writing thing is difficult as fuck.

Anyways. Those are the two ideas I came up with and have been mulling around my noggin. I don't know if I'll write them, gonna be honest, but - they are concepts alright.

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