#i’m sorry van

[bostoncreamdonut]

Silco in the mines:

[wisteria-html]

With my hands, I cradle

The book

The pages are so fragile I fear

They will crumble to dust

They never do

As I touch it my fingertips blacken

Marked by soot or ink

The darkness has not washed away

No matter how hard I scrub

I am colder now.

With my eyes, I watch

The shadow

It grows darker with each passing day

What first was formless is now sharp

Body, features, hands

The fingers grasp for me in the night

Now though, it follows me into the day

I see it on the bus, at work, at home

It never reaches for others

Only me

It is getting closer

I soon will start reaching back

I am surer now.

With my ears, I listen

The whispers

They have been growing louder

Filling rooms

Steadily

Slowly

I can understand the words now

I cannot write them

They are not in a language you could parse

But I know what they want from me

I know what they instruct me to do

They want my blood

I will give it to them

I am stronger now.

No longer am I lonely

Or bereft

Or drifting

I can have anything I ever wanted

I can be known

All it wants is a taste

Just one

I know what that feels like

Soon

Soon

Soon.

I am sorry. Friends.

[eldritch-bf]

Recently learned that the color of the vest and tie Arthur wears during the Saint Denis ferry gambling mission changes depending on if you have high or low honor (blue for high and red for low) so now i am obsessed with the idea that the prominence of the colors red and blue on certain gang member’s outfit also reflects their honor level.

Whittemore variants versus Arthur’s default outfit, which doesn’t have a scrap of red on it, however no matter what his blue shirt is always fucking dirty and stained. And remember the gang criticizes you if you have blood all over you.

Hosea wears the blue vest (sometimes brown) but he generally has his red neckerchief on, but he also owns a red and black scarf. Mostly good but a little bit of bad.

Red is prominently featured on Micah. His entire shirt is red and he’s usually wearing his jacket like he’s disguising his nature. Even the the grips on his guns have red. And when you rescue him from Strawberry he does not have his coat.

Dutch is the most interesting to me. He has the checkered red scarf which he rarely wears and the red pocket square over his heart. Only the back of his vest is red, like he’s in denial about it, or that it’s only possible to see who he is when he isn’t facing you and putting on a show. Meanwhile on guarma his vest is suddenly reversed!

EDIT: addition

When Hosea is killed he is wearing a completely different outfit with a blue vest and absolutely no red, and both Milton and Dutch are covered in red!

[dcvina-claires]

shauna never fully letting go of jackie and her and jeff visiting her parents on her birthday every year. misty being willing to do anything for nat. lottie saving nat’s life. van writing i love you to tai in her blood. shauna crying when she realizes that she has to kill nat. the other version of tai whispering “go to her” and leading her to van. lottie getting beat up just to make shauna feel better. shauna and van not letting tai sleepwalk. misty being with nat when she finds travis’ body. tai paying for nat’s rehab and doing whatever she can for her. ALL OF THE SURVIVORS DANCING TOGETHER IN THE SNOW THAT TRIED TO KILL THEM 25 YEARS AGO IT’S NOT A LOVE STORY BUT IT’S A STORY THAT HAS LOVE IN IT ARE YOU GETTING WHAT I’M TRYING TO SAY??

[3xigua]

somr read dead2 sillys.. . filler post a little bit

[st-santana]

some red dead sketches over the past month, hopefully out of artblock so!! enjoy!!

[abovesn4kes]

meme redraws to satiate the masses

[insignificant457]

There is a nebulous jordie lives au which lives entirely in my head in which jordie recovers from the plague while Kaz is still sick. He gets up to find them food and water only to return and discover Kaz is nowhere to be found. Still recovering from the fever, he searches the barrel for days before he finally sees Kaz wandering down the staves in a sort of fugue state, soaked to the bone with a haunted look in his eyes.

Kaz won’t tell him what happened, but jordie knows it’s bad because his baby brother flinches every time he touches him, and soon enough he’s started wearing gloves, even in the height of summer.

Soon, they discover kazs gift for cards, and it keeps them fed and clothed, if not much else. Kaz is angry at jordie for losing the money, refuses to let him make any decisions. Jordie is beholden to his angry traumatized little brother because he can’t deny that he failed them the first time around.

Kaz is offered a place in his pick of the gangs, but the only one willing to take both him and his tag along older brother is the dregs. Jordie dies a little bit inside when they join up, when they take the tattoo side by side, but he’s not sure they’ll survive another winter on the streets.

And the plot of SoC generally goes on from there. Jordie tags along on the ice court, he and Jesper test kazs patience at every turn, he’s constantly offering unsolicited annoying older brother advice about Inej.

This lends itself to a really interesting exploration of Kaz and jordies relationship, what holds brothers together in the face of incredible trauma, the skewed power dynamic of Kaz becoming the breadwinner for them both at the age of nine, etc etc. But mostly, this au is a vessel for the sailing of the ultimate crack ship, which is of course, jordie/alys Van Eck.

[gabester-sketch]

Skating AU where Ryu switches from solo to pairs, famous ex-skater Barok coaches Kazuma, and Kazuma is mad he can’t beat Ryu anymore

[raining-anonymously]

i don't know… i just can’t stop thinking about how candace’s resistance is entirely made out of kids.

[readyforthegarden]

this is absolutely devastating

[5thelement]

enjoyed him immensely in the role of a creepy psychopathic little guy named Watcher

[undercover-grisha]

Jesper: “You know…”

Wylan: “…yes?”

Jesper: “No, like… you know… like…”

Wylan: “Do I know… what?”

Jesper: “Huh?”

Wylan: “Are you having a stroke right now??”

[or-we-could-take-a-walk-together]

kaz “called her an investment” brekker: she even asked me for the time

jesper “kissed the wrong guy” fahey: no way

kaz: way

*kaz and jesper high five*

[holdingup-fallingsky]

Well, I’ve been afraid of changing

Cause I built my life around you

But time makes you bolder

Even children get older

And we’re getting older, too

Happy birthday, twinies☀️🌙

[mnasthaii]

ADLER + BELL

litterae-ignotae on tumblr / norwegian wood - haruki murakami / a crime - sharon van etten / galacticidiots on twitter / lie with me - philippe besson / miss you. want to get noodles with you. disregard this, after gabrielle calvocoressi - lev st. valentine / exiles: a play in three acts - james joyce