#i’m not very butch in these….
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Hey hey i’m really embarrassed um… can you guess what i was doing
Top surgery fund <3 $tips <3 wishlist
#lol#this one is a really embarrassing post i was jacking off and ugh i feel shy about it#humiliation kink#mwhahaha#this is evil for me to do to myself#transfag#t4t nsft#t4t ns/fw#trans t4t#t4t mlm#trans ftm#t4t yearning#tboy#t4t puppy#trans nsft#trans ns/fw#tboy nsft#tboy ns/fw#tboy swag#tboy puppy#ftm trans#trans dyke#dyke nsft#i’m not very butch in these….#queer ns/fw#queer nsft#fagdyke#dykefag#nsf/w#bd/sm boy
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possessive butch save me…save me possessive butch…
#femmeofhearts yaps#lesbian#femme4butch#butchfemme#i need it like water#all i’m thinking about tonight tbh#butch bait#professional lesbian yearner#like please both call me yours and act accordingly thank you very much#pspspsps possessive butches pspspsps#ALSO protective butch…😵💫#protective possessive butch SAVE ME#am i a walking stereotype hold on#actually idc i like what i like#‘oh it’s toxic’ ‘oh that shows deeper issues’ actually how about i don’t care. how about you don’t get it like i get it
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happy butch
#having a very gender euphoric day today#yippee#and getting dinner with a couple friends tonight :)#so I did a little self care and now I’m feelin equally pretty and handsome (which is rare lmao)#butch#dyke#nonbinary#lesbian#they/them#butch4femme#butch4butch#mine
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made my tall ass friend take this
#had a very fun time at trivia night#very cutesy#very demure#I also had gooey butter cake ice cream#it was really good but I’m not much of a sweet treat person#lesbian#butch#butch4femme#femme4butch#butch4butch#t4t#femme bait#butch bait#puppy butch#transmasc#nonbinary
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At the end of my latest TLT reread and it’s been physically painful attempting to read the last 40+ pages of Nona. Like, the short shrift that Gideon/Kiriona gets given by the people in the story…the theoretical good guys who honestly only see her as a thing, as a means to an end with an inconvenient dead soul attached to it… It makes me want to rip my own heart out of my chest.
Nobody has cared about Gideon her whole life. Most people, in fact, if they remembered about her at all, went out of their way to tell her how much they wished she didn’t exist. In the final chapters of Gideon, she finally gets the thing she’s been desperate for her whole life: somebody telling her that they need her, they care that she exists, and they badly want her to go on doing it. This allows her to make peace with the prospect that at the ripe old age of 18, she needs to die so that that person can go on living and living and living, using the castrated remnants of her soul as fuel to do so. Not a great way to go, but at least Gideon would get to be useful to somebody, would get to be remembered for something.
And then she wakes up in the wrong body, and finds out that her sacrifice - her attempt to be useful in the most selfless way possible, in that her self will no longer exist - has been rejected. And not only that, but the person she tried to give herself to - the one who was supposed to care about her - went to extreme lengths to make completely sure that she no longer remembered about Gideon.
She literally cut Gideon out of her brain.
And now, drifting along in the worst sort of half life where she’s inhabiting her body but it’s no longer really hers, in very obvious fashion - there’s holes in it, her heart is missing, and it’s got her shitty father’s handprints all over it (not even touching how much of a violation that is), indelibly - she finally meets back up with the small group of people who could theoretically be relied upon to be glad to see her again.
But then the one who was supposed to care about her most tries to kiss her (massively OOC for Harrow), and turns out to not even be there - it’s some weird baby inhabiting her body, and doing a really shit job of it too. The rest of them won’t stop talking about how they need her to break into the Tomb - as if she was just another key, same as the ones they worked together to acquire in Canaan House, just bigger and more inconvenient - and/or how they both fucked and killed her mom, who also (surprise, surprise) wished that Gideon had never existed, but saw her as a thing that needed to be done for the good of the mission.
Ultimately, they all make it abundantly clear - Palamedes, Camilla, Pyrrha, and especially Nona, all these people who are supposed to be kind and good and right - that they would prefer she wasn’t there. That it just be her body, with no Gideon attached - at least not Gideon the way she is now, broken and rejected and miserable. They would all far have preferred that she not have her own inconvenient thoughts and feelings and desires and impulses - that she just be inanimate and let the important people, the grown ups, get things done.
They wish she didn’t exist. Same as everybody else in her life, save one, and now she’s left wondering whether Harrow really meant it at all. Because if she did, she wouldn’t have left Gideon to Kiriona’s fate.
And honestly? Really, truly? I know everybody in the fandom loves Pal and Cam and Nona and Pyrrha, but in the end I couldn’t give less of a shit about them. They are fucking side characters, and as intriguing as Nona has been from a worldbuilding standpoint, I ultimately resent having been forced to read 400+ pages of filler bullshit about fucking side characters. I am a butch, and I’m here for my sarcastic, loving, angry, vulnerable, forgiving, and yes, inconvenient sword butch. I’m here for Gideon. But Gideon has been fridged for the last two books of the series in which she is supposed to be a, if not the, main character.
And it feels like almost nobody else in the fandom feels the same way, which, fine. I’m used to that. I’m also used to being told I’m projecting; and I’m used to being told that I’m inconvenient too, in my thoughts and my opinions and the mere fact of my existence. I spent the first eighteen years of my life being told I was inconvenient. Yet another point of overidentification with Gideon.
But in case anybody still thinks that Nona proves that Gideon was an asshole all along, think about all of the above. Think about how it would make you feel to come back from not just death but from the erasure of your existence, something you chose in order to save the life of someone you loved, and be told that you’re inconvenient. Think about how you’d feel if you’d been told all your life that it would be better for everyone if you didn’t exist. And then tell me that Kiriona isn’t in the right and that I should give a rat’s ass what happens to literally anybody else.
It’s Kiriona Hours up in this House, butches. We’ve spent long enough caring about people who would prefer we weren’t around. For once in our entire lives we were told we were important; we were told we mattered; we were told we were the main character. We were going to, if not get the girl and save the world, at least get to do something real, something important, something like being the hero.
But that’s over now; we’re back to being wrong and bad and inconvenient thanks to the simple fact of our existence. So it’s time to embrace it. Let’s be a little shit. Let’s be kind of a dick. Let’s have our own agenda, let’s play our cards close to our heartless chest, let’s allow our circle of empathy to contract to ourselves and maybe one more person. That’s where I’m at right now. And I don’t see that changing anytime soon.
#the locked tomb#kiriona gaia#harrowhark nonagesimus#griddlehark#gideon nav#gideon the ninth#harrow the ninth#nona the ninth#sorry if this makes 0 sense#but also sorry not sorry bc I don’t care#and neither do you if you’re being honest with yourself#go enjoy thinking about your little masc Lyctor fusion and leave me alone to not rot when I’m supposed to#and why yes I do need therapy#thanks very much for noticing#if you feel like paying for it and the hours I’d miss going to it here’s my cashapp#$fuckoff-2024#also just to get out in front of these#yes I should just go read something else#but 1. you and I both know this series changes your brain chemistry so good fucking luck#and 2. point me at a book where the butch gets to be in the spotlight and I will gladly fuck off forever
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my take on butch4butch mkulia for lesbian week
#tbh im not that good at character design lol#but I’m a firm believer in short hair mk. and I KNOW they’re both not very butch in canon and Julia is super fem#but I can fix them (make them more masc)#I’ve been dreaming of butch mkulia since Julia got her mullet okay#my art#total drama#mkulia#td julia#td mk#lesbian#please terry make Julia full on butch in s3 I believe in you. the things I would do for mullet butch Julia.
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omg hi if it wouldn't be a bother i'd love if you could expand on your perspective on curly's character representing how patriarchy, rape culture, etc, negatively effect men?
I think Curly is there to represent the idealic person for the scenerior but in a lot of wrong place wrong time and a sort of deconstruction.
Curly’s enabling is never just the “He wouldn’t do that, he’s my friend, I know him.” type. Yes, he is not nearly as concerned as he should be with Jimmy’s behavior but he’s not completely blind to how he can be and is aware that Jimmy is just a guy who had it rough. He clearly is very keen on keeping Jimmy calm for the trip, very accommodating to all of them in a way that he honestly should be but can be used to explain away favoritism. If everyone can get away with a little something than it can then be extended to Jimmy. A big problem of Curly’s is he extends to much curtesy to everyone which a lot of people ignore to just focus on Jimmy and his relationship.
In specifics of rape culture, he’s the sad truth of people don’t immediately cut off the abuser. There is a lot of this in irl cases that can range from the inability to open the selfish not wanting to but here it’s because his relationship with the abuser is also not healthy/abusive, falling into the former with how confined they are despite how it can be seen as bros protecting bros due to how underplayed emotionally unhealthy relationships between men can be. His relationship with Jimmy is not just one of wanting to protect him from himself but keeping him docile, safe to bring around others. There is a tension in almost all of their private scenes where Curly is trying hard to make sure his words are understood and don’t set him off. It’s subtle but real and an aspect of RC that gets overlooked when it’s comes to men coming forward themselves or on behalf of others. The way they can’t directly oppose each other because their safety may be the least of their concerns. They know men and in this case he knows this man won’t target him but the others, especially Anya, case point: not wanting her to tell Jimmy alone.
There is an inherent intimidation that can also happen in male spaces we see Jimmy use due to the specific social condemnation effect he has with Curly. Even if he is a bad friend to Curly, he is a dear friend and a lot of apprehension with men on the side of Curly in RC comes from that social anxiety, that fear and the very real idea you or the person you were trying to help will be further retaliated against/isolated just like we see happen to an extreme in canon. We don’t know how much Curly and Jimmy interacted between the party and the crash. We can assume they didn’t at all or perhaps went on as normal, but we know something changed after the conversation with Anya both at night and in the cockpit.
I think the card being in the locker shows he was gonna make the complaint, taking her ID to get her numbers for the report as it isn’t there before hand. With the recent reblog of how complaints have to be filed, he was likely storing it, possibly it was close to a time he could send something if it was even possible. Though everything was inevitably too late.
Curly is the ideal man on paper in terms of a patriarchal system. In shape, handsome, the top of the pecking order, competent or otherwise on top of his perineal duties. The issue is he is deeply unhappy just as someone like Jimmy who reflects all the negatives. This should be what he wants but he’s realized it’s unfulfilling, boring and he’s given up too much of himself to get up a ladder he doesn’t even remember why he climbed in the first place. He is not keen on keeping that status, I am a contrarian in thinking he honestly didn’t care if the report when on his record, more so he was in shock it happened at all. Didn’t want to believe his friend actually did it and he of all people would have to be the one to turn him in for it. It’s selfish and it’s a personal thought but it’s real. It’s denial because even if you know it’s for justices sake, you grieve the friendship you had and the perceptions that were shattered. It’s not supposed to sound good or noble or kind because it isn’t, it’s human.
All together I think Curly represents a big way these systems negatively affect the men that everyone assume benefits. He’s unhappy with the power he has because it ties him to responsibilities that bring him no fulfillment, he also gets retaliated against by Jimmy because he was never immune and in a way was aware of it. He’s unequipped and nervous to handle such a delicate situation because it isn’t protocol, there’s no protocol. He followed the rules of all the concepts mentioned, trying to do the right and normal thing and it either left him with nothing to show for it or damned him and others in the end.
This is a shorter post than I would write but I just feel like I’ve tackled these aspects so much individually or in lumped together posts that unless it’s something specific I will just create run on tangents.
#catching up on asks#sorry I’ve been inactive little anxious because of finals and writing is both freeing and hard to focus on#but break is so soon so fuck it we ball so hard that shits cray#mouthwashing#ask#mouthwashing game#curly mouthwashing#captain curly#I feel like I just say the same shit over and over again#and it’s no fault to the questions I get I’m just like idk#I feel like a lot of what I post and talk about is obvious and people get wild interpretations from specifically taking things out of#their very important context or only applying one rule/sentiment of the story or actions of the characters to one instance#and either disregarding them in another just for feel goodness uniqueness or just cause of personal gripes#idk but thanks this got my brain thinking again#btw curly is like a beautiful butch lesbian to me like disclaimer I make all fictional men I like#women in my mind so if I talk about him crazy that’s because one I don’t respect men and two that’s a woman#anon#I respect Anya too much to be cray cray about her she makes me sad cause in the end everything was futile for her and I hate that
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all the critiques of the “male presenting” bit in the star beast are valid and true (patronizing, kind of bioessentialist, etc) however i think we’ve been ignoring the funniest part of the whole thing which is like. he was a woman like three hours ago. you don’t need to give him a lecture about What Women Are Like. he knows. and even when he was a woman he still bottled shit up so your argument is moot anyway
#and like i know that rtd was making a very conscious effort to use inclusive language in the ep#which i appreciate!! congrats on Baby’s First Trans Allyship!!#but the way they phrased it as ‘male-PRESENTING’ people don’t know how to express their emotions was. weird#i mean if rtd went out of his way to include ‘presenting’ in there then he’s clearly at least somewhat aware that presentation and gender#aren’t the same thing#i’m fairly male-presenting (at least i try to be) but i’m not a man?#lots of butches could be considered male-presenting (oversimplification but you know what i mean)#there was probably even a time in rose’s life when SHE was male-presenting!!#i appreciate the attempt at inclusivity but like. this doesn’t make sense rtd aldjdbaqldk#bucky’s thoughts#doctor who#the star beast#tenth doctor#fourteenth doctor#tentoo#donna noble#rose noble
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Farmers market femme🍅
men + minors dni
#I bought cookies to share with my roommates and they all love them and I’m so happy#trying very hard to get all of the roommates together and interacting🥲#anyways my crotchet bandana makes me happy#and the tomato sign made me giggle because relateable#me#mine#selfie#wlw#queer#sapphic#lgbtq#femme#femme4masc#femme4butch#femme4femme#butch bait#farmers market#socal
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Everyone be quiet I’m hallucinating lesbians again 😙
#idk what I’m going on about#and this is very messy#but to me sometimes they are lesbians and they are in love#butch karlach/femme astarion scratches something in my brain#karlach#astarion#bg3#bg3 fanart#mine#hellspawn#my art
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Okay but what if Rosie is just a baby butch and we get to see her get more and more butch over the course of the show? What if she becomes the biggest, butchest, most powerful lesbian in the world by the series finale? What then?
#rosie chopped her hair off like twenty minutes before episode 1#we’re watching a butch lesbian being born before our very eyes#not to say that there’s a certain level of masculinity a woman has to achieve to be allowed to call herself butch#i’m just saying… i mean just look at her#this can’t be the butchiest she can get#she’s still figuring herself out give her some time to cook#doctor odyssey#rosie doctor odyssey#rosie the engineer
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One day I’ll stop thinking about butch ghoap
#not today though!!!#btw you guys are cool here so you get to know I’m a very tmasc nb butch lesbian 😗
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I got first place in my event . ^_^
#I’d post the trophy if it didn’t dox me LMAO#My speech is on butch women .#I’m getting bumped up to advanced however which makes me nervous but I feel very happy :4#ahhhhuhgghhgghhh I’m so giddy#that’s the first 1st my team has gotten this semester. AHHHHHH#MAKING MY COACHES PROUDDDDDD BABEYYYY#chatterbox#FUUUCK#HEKDKEOSHSIS
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FemmeBinchFemmeBinchFemmeBinchFemmeBinchFEMMEBINCHFEMMEBINCHFEMMEBINCFEMMEBINCHFEMMEBINCHFEMMEBINCHFEMMEBINCH-
#why am i like this#send help#save finch 2024#newsies#binch#buttons davenport#buttons davenport x finch cortez#finch cortez#buttons newsies#finch newsies#femme!buttons davenport#femme!finch cortez#I’m very feral over them#they’re so cute#binch newsies#mentioned butch newsies…#butch newsies#binch bitches newsies
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listen I won’t lie there are just some characters out there that I will not give a shit about until someone hits them with the butch beam. it’s like seasoning food to me, add more spices to that plain as hell dish
#crow thoughts#yes this is about the butch wolverine I just reblogged lol#I’m sure he’s like. a cool character. I just think she would be cooler if she was butch#or at the very least fucked around with his gender#I need to find. more media that actually has butch characters in it#butch interpretations of non butch characters can only feed me for so long……..
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they’re butchfemme your honor // hornet and grimm doodles
#hollow knight#hollow knight fanart#silksong#hollow knight hornet#silksong hornet#gijinka hornet#human hornet#troupe master grimm#hollow knight grimm#gijinka grimm#human grimm#butchfemme#i should’ve colored the last panel but got lazy i will not lie lmao#i think lesbianism and butchfemme identities could not quite translate to like modern western civilizations as a one-to-one#from hornet’s culture in deepnest but i’m honestly still working it out and this is just a joke post so who cares. besides me anyway lol.#like i think her society is matrilineal bc female bugs can be bigger quite significantly and birth is different for bugs and the nest#itself is very community oriented so idk i just think lady bugs tend to be leaders but how lesbianism fits into that idk yet!#just purely for ship i think she hasn’t met an older butch and then she does + other things and lesbianism happens#grimmnet#my art
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