#i’m not constantly thinking abt when it’s going to be over and how it’ll end and all that like i usually do
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priestfrommidnightmass · 8 months ago
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he could absolutely break my heart eventually. and i genuinely couldn’t care less
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#god this whole thing drives me so crazy because like#i’m not constantly thinking abt when it’s going to be over and how it’ll end and all that like i usually do#of course i overthink and shit sometimes but most of the time#i’m able to remember the things he’s Actually said and done for me and not the things i’m scared he Could say. and i feel better#maybe i’ve said this before but recently i was trying to recall if there was even a single moment where he’d ever like#hurt my feelings or made me feel bad no matter how intentionally or unintentionally it was#and i literally couldn’t think of a single moment where he’d ever hurt me#so of course because i’m me i have to acknowledge there’s a Chance he could hurt me#and i like him so much that if that did happen it would probably really really upset me#but honestly i’m at a place right now where i don’t Care. and it’s crazy#i don’t care if he Could possibly break my heart eventually#because all i’m able to think of everytime i’m with him or talking to him is just how fucking great it feels#i can’t tell if this is any actual personal growth in me because just like#in general i don’t think i’ve ever felt this way abt anyone. it’s so dire#it’s so DIRE.#okay i’ll be quiet now but i’m just like#i don’t know. i just don’t feel negatively abt our relationship at all it just feels so Nice#not even any lingering paranoia can get in the way of how strongly i feel abt it#even if he’s not interested in me romantically whatsoever#he’s still one of the greatest and most supportive friends i’ve ever had and it’s. it’s really good#okay now i’m done
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ghoulciifer · 4 years ago
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okay I just saw your head canons for itty bitty titties with suna and atsumu but what abt suna, atsumu, tendō and Bokuto (if u can but if you just want to do suna and Tsumu that’s ok 😚) w a s/o who has like DD cups? I’m lowkey embarrassed to wear tight shirts bc I feel like everyone looks at me ☹️ (Ik they aren’t too big but I feel like everyone stares at me all the time 😞)
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hc: atsumu, suna, and bokuto with a big chested s/o
tags: nsfw, reader has big boobies
notes: baby 🥺 i’m so sorry to hear that you’re embarrassed by that, but your feelings are completely valid!! though i personally don’t have that issue i can tell you that you’re beautiful no matter what and if people stare then that just shows their character, not yours. your body ≠ your personality. i hope i did you both justice with these, so if not just reach out and lemme know! ❥
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» ma’am you would make this man SO happy
» not that your chest is all he’d value about you, ofc, he’ll be the most attracted to your personality and ability to laugh at his dumb jokes when no one else will, THAT’S the first thing he notices ab you
» you just... appeal to his horny side incredibly well
» he never comments on them though. drinks his respect women juice and doesn’t want to make you uncomfortable, ever
» until you express how insecure you are about your titties and he’s BAFFLED
» bc in his man brain he’s like ?? how could you NOT be confident with boobs as perfect as yours ??
» but eventually he understands that you think they’re a bit on the bigger side, it’s just he genuinely thinks it’s just more for him to handle/love so why worry ab what other people think?
» when it gets especially hard he never fails to tuck your head under his chin with a hand massaging between your shoulder blades, comforting you with both his touch and his words
» “I think yer beautiful, Y/N. No matter what.”
» WILL fight anyone who stares at your chest
» yk that tiktok with the guy barking at anyone who tries to take his girl friend’s drink from him? that’s atsumu but w dudes who ogle at your chest
» he knows you feel objectified from it and ain’t no one makin’ his baby feel bad
» like the small titty gang, he’ll praise them in the bedroom to no end, like will have his hands on them constantly and loves the way they look when the flesh pokes out between his digits
» even though he understands the necessity of a bra (uh back pain), he always loves the few times you do let the girls free, especially if you’re in one of his shirts/jerseys - like, he WILL jump your bones
» but yea, over all, atsumu’s an understanding dork of a boyfriend who never fails to make you feel comfortable in your own skin, regardless of chest size
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» much like the small chested hc, he couldn’t care less what size your titties are
» but does he find them attractive? absolutely, much like the rest of you
» probably isn’t as in tune with your emotions as atsumu or bokuto are so you’ll definitely have to tell him you aren’t feeling yourself, he might pick up on it eventually but it’ll be much later
» just wants you to be open about it so he can help his girl asap
» he’ll probably wrap his arms around you from behind and bury his face into the crook of your neck so he can whisper all the things you need to hear, for your ears only
» “C’mon, Y/N, you’re gorgeous... don’t let something like that keep you from seeing what I see.”
» he understands how people’s stares make you feel bc he’s aware of how shitty most dudes treat women, so instead of barking like atsumu he’ll just stand around you or turn you away from whoever’s makin’ googly eyes at you
» doesn’t stop him from giving said perpetrator a heart-stopping death glare tho
» again, suna’s heavy with degradation in the bedroom, but will never aim it at your insecurities, instead he’ll save those comments for praising you
» and his favorite way of doing that is keeping his mouth latched onto each breast, leaving love bites n’ bruises between each swirl of his tongue around your nipples
» suna doesn’t really care what you wear because, hello, you look hot asf in everything BUT he would kill a man to see you in a crop top whenever possible tasteful underboob
» overall, very supportive boyfriend, you just gotta tell him when you’re feeling less confident so he can fulfill his good boyfie duties of reminding you he loves you no matter how big ya titties are
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» this boy is SO PRECIOUS
» will make you feel like a queen the second you express even the slightest insecurity about your chest size
» much like atsumu he’ll be confused because in his eyes, you’re a literal angel who excels in perfection with beautiful tits, holy shit
» but he knows what it’s like to be insecure! so you bet your sweet ass he’s going to go above and beyond to make you feel better, even if you don’t outwardly express you’re upset
» will fold you up into a little ball and just hold you in his lap, caging you with his arms and legs, kissing your hair, forehead, cheeks, nose, etc.
» and will be gushing with praises in between each little peck, i mean he is spewing straight honey from his mouth the whole time
» “Baby, you’re so perfect, how could you even say that? I think you’re the prettiest thing I’ve ever seen, Y/N, and I love you so, so, so much.”
» you might have a few cavities from how fuckin sweet this man is
» very much like atsumu, he will attempt to confront anyone who’s blatantly staring at you and your chest, very much like a feral dog BUT will stop the minute you tell him not to
» then proceeds to shield you like suna, but doesn’t even give the asshole the time of day because his baby is more important :)
» bo is a soft daddy dom and is heavy on the praise, so expect lots of comments about how perfectly your tits bounce while riding his cock or how beautiful they look covered in his cum
» he loves smushing his face between your breasts, pls suffocate him with them i’m so sorry
» as loving and soft as he is with you outside of the bedroom, if you wear anything that shows even the slightest bit of cleavage he WILL go nuts, so, do with that what you will
» bokuto just loves you for you, he values your heart before your body so as long as you keep loving this lil’ airhead back, you’ll be just fine
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hyperfixationtimego · 4 years ago
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Happy little hcs to atone for my sins
Taka and Hina are study buddies
Sometimes Aoi manages to get Taka off track because she’s just so enthusiastic and wants to hear about all of her friends’ hyperfixations and special interests
37.2 minutes later
Taka’s infodumping about how he despises moral philosophy but also thoroughly enjoys it bc that’s how moral philosophers are
Or he’s infodumping about political science and debate tactics and how speeches were effective or not for various reasons
Sakura and Mondo work out together
It started off as a coincidence when they were in the gym at the same time but it kept happening so they called it a schedule
They talk about their SOs and they’re smiling
Sakura teaches Mondo certain stretches and exercises to help relax different muscle groups for whenever he pulls a muscle or has a flare up from the thing with the bikes
Leon constantly asks Chihiro to turn alter ego into a vocaloid or at least program a bit of that tech into their system
Bc he would rather shave his head again than talk to Sayaka about producing music
He just has so many ideas
And it’s cool when there are kinda punk rock songs that are covered in an 8-bit or a vocaloid style
Byakuya and Celeste have a small series of bets with low stakes about what their inferiors classmates will do to lead up to them jingling away morosely like the fools they are
Sayaka shamelessly advertises her group’s mercy to her classmates and friends
Everyone gets their nails painted at some point
Nobody knows how Byakuya got roped into it but it worked
Makoto has rainbow loom
Atua forgives you
anyway YEAH LEGIT?
Hina has fully and thoroughly fallen in love with all of her friends and classmates’ expressions whenever they’re talking about something that excites them omg 🥺
she sees someone rambling and having a good time and hears the enthusiastic pitch of their voice as well as the general Vibe™️ that they’re giving off and she just???? [Y E A R N]
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and also just???? her and taka being study buddies is so valid oh my god??? they’re really close because of it!!! And Taka always loves hanging out with her because he knows she’ll let him just Talk??? and he adores that about her????? And she’ll be ENGAGED which!!!!!! oh my god!!!!?????
hi in this house we love and adore hina
And Sakura and Mondo???? absolutely?????
they have friendly competitions over who can lift the most weights/do the most reps/etc. (they do it sparingly, ofc! bc Sakura at least knows that they’ll both be subconsciously trying to beat the other as opposed to listening to what their bodies need in the moment. Sakura is the single braincell of class 78 no I won’t take it back because it’s true)
and they totally doooooo like they both get such cute loveydovey pining expressions whenever it’s Their Turn™️ to discuss the latest cute thing their partner(s) did. and listening to the other talking???? oh my god it’s literally the neatest thing????
Sakura looking at Mondo: I would die for this man
Mondo looking at Sakura: this woman is literally beauty and perfection in human form
THEY’RE SUCH GOOD FRIENDS OKAY???
also chihiro joins them for training sometimes!!!! She obviously isn’t able to do as much as the other two are, but both Sakura and Mondo are always so proud of her progress??? They’re like “you are so cool and strong do you know that??? you better know that”
and speaking of chihiro hdbdvdvdvdvdvdvdvd on GOD Leon will Not leave them alone abt it and they’re just like
“y....you do NOT have the attention span,.......you’re gonna get frustrated within like the first five minutes......and then I’ll have done all that work for nothing..............”
but Leon’s >:( no I won’t!!!! music is my Passion!!!!!!!!
so it’s like *sigh* okay
and anyway leon genuinely does rlly like it???? like he gets burned out very easily and can only compose things in short bursts, but he’s always so so so proud of the finished products??? (Even if nobody else likes it but shush 😌)
and it makes chihiro :D to know that something she made (even if it was done with reluctance) has brought one of her closest friends so much happiness????? she’s also like good for Leon but also if he ever bothers them about something like that again they are Literally Going to Snap but that’s another story for another day vwv
AND YEAH LIKE. HE DOESN’T MIND TALKING TO HER ABT MUSIC IN GENERAL BECAUSE IT’S AN INTEREST THEY SHARE (quite possibly one of the only times they will have a conversation without one constantly insulting the other ❤️) BUT. ADMITTING TO HER THAT HE NEEDS HELP WITH IT IS THE WORST HE HATES IT HE HATES IT HSBDBSBD
god okay so. his first impression of her when they had just come to hope’s peak and met for the first time was “oh my god!!! she’s a pop idol!!! so she must know a lot about music!!! maybe she’ll help me become a popular musician!!!” and her immediate reaction when she first heard him ask was to literally roll her eyes and he was like oh okay fuck her actually
and then slow burn enemies-to-friends 💛
WHEBDVSVS CELESTE AND BYAKUYA JUST BEING RICH ASSHOLES IS SO FUNNY??? LIKE THEY HAVE WEALTH SOLIDARITY AND THEY ACT ALMOST LIKE alright your status makes you worthy of my time, I suppose-
they’ve had bets on everything from how many times kirigiri will pass out from exhaustion by the end of the school day, to how long it’ll take before Kirumi finally Loses Her Shit, to how many people will be harmed by Komaeda’s luck while hanging out with him.
Mfs about to die smh
and dhdbwvwbsvwvwb yeah like??? sometimes a normal conversation with maizono will turn into her being like “yeah, and by the way, if you’re looking for a change of style and wardrobe, you should check out the newest shirt my band just released as part of our merch drop, and-”
Makoto is the one who gets baited into her merch ads most often sndbsbsbdbdbw
even mentioning the word “merch” around Leon or Kaz will earn her a lot of groaning and sighing, and occasionally a pillow or other soft object being hurled at her face 💛
oh my god they all have a manicure spa day,,,,,,,class bonding 🥺
hdbdvdvdv they got Jill to break into his dorm and kidnap him ngl like the specifics they gave her were something along the lines of “use as much force as you need to without killing him” and she was like “DONE”
and okay I’m not gonna talk abt everyone’s nails but now I’m thinking about it and like-
Sayaka gets like a lighter violet background with gold and white stars smattered around them, more concentrated in some areas than others, and it’s generally very pretty 🥺
chihiro’s are a different solid pastel color on each finger!!! it’s very kidcore and fun and they love it so muchhhh!!!
leon gets a little self-conscious when it’s his turn because his nails are highkey disgusting from all the time he spends playing baseball - there’s dirt trapped under them and everything so he’s just like hhhhhhh anxiety go brrrr but anyway he gets solid black because he’s edgy and cool like that 😎
I think Taka gets a French manicure with little dark red flowers pressed towards the tips because!!! simple yet pretty!!!
Celeste probably takes the longest because her request is sooooo complicated like it’s black and red and long ass acrylics with overlapping patterns and everyone else just kinda sits there feeling h o r r i b l e for that poor nail stylist
Toko gets a checkerboard pattern, with each nail having a different neon color in place of white!!! Because she knows that Jill will find it cool and pretty and colorful the next time she fronts (visual stimming jill?? 👀)
Togami just picks whatever will get him out of the chair quickest hdbsvdvdvdbdbdb
anyway Makoto????? rainbow loom????? absolutely
he has so many bracelets!!!!! so many so many so many and he knows how to create such a wide variety of styles it’s so cool!!!!!! he wears a bunch of them at any given time because they are so fun to fidget with!!!! and rubber texture hvvvvhvv!!!!
and he creates personalized ones for his friends, too, like he knows their favorite colors and sometimes picks up on whether they prefer a certain style or not from the way they react to the other ones he’s made and it’s!!! just so neat!!!!!
I’m thinking about it and!!! he has a bi pride fishtail, a trans pride arrow stitch, a black and neon green railroad, a pastel pink/blue/purple/yellow ladder, a jelly yellow and green dragon scale, a rainbow double cross, and a bunch more!!! he also has a bunch with charms and beads added into them!!!!
He also makes them for his friends even if he knows they won’t wear them!! Like Toko, for example, isn’t the biggest fan of jewelry because she doesn’t like the texture, but he creates one for her anyway and fills it with so much love (it looks like a daisy chain!!!! because at least she’ll be able to look at it and hold it and still be interested in it without it needing to be on her wrist!!!)
he makes a ton of bright colored ones for Mukuro (usually either single or inverted fishtail because he knows she wouldn’t enjoy wearing anything too heavy or overbearing) so that she has more mobile visual stims!!!
similar for Jill!! although most of hers tend to be black and bright neon rainbow in various bulkier styles!!!! Jill will also force him to let her look at his bracelet-covered arm whenever they hang out because. my god,,,,,,so many Colors™️
he’s found that togami prefers black and white simpler styles, and that Kyoko absolutely adores singles, fishtails, and double fishtails in any shade of purple, and that Mondo likes any of the larger styles in darker colors + blacks and grays!!! Chihiro loves anything with jelly and glitter bands!!!
Leon usually only wears one at a time, but he cycles through every single one that his boyfriend’s ever made for him because????? GOD they’re so cool and his boyfriend is so crafty and incredible and just,,,,,,,,,hvvvhvv every time he looks at the one he’s wearing he’s able to calm himself down and remember that Makoto loves him........it’s also very good for stim and fidgeting <3
anyways sorry yes Makoto with a rainbow loom is filling me with serotonin and it’s canon now
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sun-daddy-yoriichi · 5 years ago
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May i request a love triangle between Yoriichi and Muzan? You can write anything abt it i’m just curious how that would go :)
Ooh? Sounds interesting! I’ll do my best~
Not sure if you wanted polyamory or not, so I just did what seemed to be correct? A relationship between Yoriichi and Muzan seems interesting, at least to me.
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Warning(s) : Spoilers, polygamy if that helps at all, I sure hope this gets weird
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Muzan Kibutsuji x Reader x Yoriichi Tsugikuni : Love Triangle (Headcanons)
Let’s start this out by saying it would be a VERY awkward love triangle at first.
Yoriichi and Muzan have zero chemistry. Muzan wants to rule the world or smth, and Yoriichi’s job is to kill Muzan and demons in general. Not exactly two sides of the spectrum that you would want to mix.
They would have killed each other a long time ago, had it not been for their S/O begging them to stop.
Their S/O, of course, would be caught in the middle. If they’re not trying to kill each other every other minute, they’re vying for their attention in the most subtle ways.
Yoriichi, of course, has the advantage of being able to walk in the sun, so he always uses this to get closer to them
Would totally rub this in Muzan’s face
Muzan, however, would always use his money and good looks to his advantage. Constantly buys gifts and paying for fancy meals. With him, their S/O doesn’t even have to worry about wanting anything. If they look at anything for just a little too long, it’ll be bought without a second thought.
Sugar daddy Muzan lmao
Sooner or later, they fall into routine with one another. Yoriichi usually spends time with their S/O during the day, while Muzan takes them out at night, before bringing her home.
But the harmony between them isn’t weird. They don’t even have to see each other, just their S/O.
It’s when Yoriichi and Muzan actually begin working together that would worry someone.
It would take a while, sure, but eventually they would get used to one another. At least, enough to see each other without immediately triggering their Fight or Flight response.
It starts small. Sideways glances and gently spoken words of greeting, or farewell.
They don't talk about one another at first. Nothing that would actually call for them to have a strong emotional relationship. Their S/O was their main concern at all times.
But let's be honest. Muzan is a spoiled brat and can't have one thing without having the other.
Not that he particularly likes Yoriichi, but nothing about him screams 'off-limits' so
It's free real-estate
The minute the Demon King of Pop starts courting both humans, it's over for you bitches.
Will ABSOLUTELY try to convince sun daddy and S/O to become demons. While you could refuse, he has all the time in the world to convince both of them.
Plus, getting rid of Yoriichi also means getting rid of his biggest threat.
This would probably be after Yorriichi showed the Kamados his Breathing techniques, so that bitch still gonna die eventually.
Convincing his S/O to become a demon is one thing. Convincing Yoriichi is an entirely different sport.
Though, if their S/O agreed that it would be the best idea if it meant all three of them could be together, then holy fuck he would say yes so fast. There's nothing he wouldn't do for them, even if Muzan is some greasy ass Demon King.
(Not apart of the hcs but I bet Yoriichi would be a pretty demon. Not like Daki pretty, because Daki is gorgeous in her own right. Like, 'he'll scorch your eyeballs out just with his looks if you're not at the same level as him' pretty. A scary kind of pretty).
Their S/O would definitely be the prettiest demon to them. Muzan made sure to share plenty of his blood so that they turned out strong (far stronger than any of the Upper Demon Moons, but he doesn't want them lifting a single finger for anything).
No doubt that their S/O would still be hauntingly deadly, even as a freshly born demon.
Yoriichi wouldn't be able to hurt any humans, anyways. He feels a strong sense of injustice about being the one to shed blood, though doesn't mind eating them. Food for the machine, right?
If you thought Muzan would be indulgent on knowing every aspect of his lover's lives, you would be correct. He doesn't have much else to do, after all.
Being with both of these men require their S/O to be okay with sitting in one of their laps at all times. Period. End of story.
Muzan thinks his S/O is the most precious demon to ever walk the planet, if he's not busy making heart eyes at Yoriichi for being scorchingly gorgeous.
Muzan has a thing for stunningly beautiful beings, I'm sure.
(This got really long for no reason so I gotta wrap it up)
Overall, if the perfect chain of events were to play out, the results would be this :
A very lovely, but very deadly, demon family, in which none of them would hesitate to rip off someone's head if need be.
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eldritch-araneae · 5 years ago
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Uhh for the prompts how bout...hat kid having a nightmare and going to snatcher abt it. Cuddles ensue (btw I love your writing and art so much, it makes my heart warm
Hah, this is my fav angst theme of all time, so here you go!)
But I made things slightly different tho ;)
I hope you’ll like it anyway.
Hunger. 
It’s all you know, a constant hunger. 
Be be more, to become bigger, stronger, so that ice witch would never lay a finger on you. You must kill more. Vengeance. Hunger.
You smell a new victim entering your forest. You move through shadows with grace towards your target. You gaze upon your prey and suddenly your core runs cold. It was her, your kid, standing there. 
Your body moves on it’s own, slithering towards little girl, like a hungry snake that ready to swallow its prey. You trying to stop this, but hunger is too much! The kid sees you and smiles, waving to you. 
No! Kiddo, run! 
You trying to warn her, to shoo her away, but instead of words only hissing escapes your throat.
You dangerously coil around her tiny body, there is no way she can run away now. Terror and guilt fills you, but you still trying to resist, trying to pull away. But the hunger is too much, too much, too much!
You loom over her. She looks at you.
“Papa?” she tilts her head to the side, confused at what you are doing. Run, please run! Any normal person would be terrified at this moment but not her. The kid loves you, she trusts you with her life.  It was a mistake, a huge mistake! 
You watch in horror are your body open its mouth and ---
Your eyes are wide open!
For few seconds the horrible nightmare faded, revealing that you are not in the forest, but on spaceship. 
You’re currently laying in the mound of pillows, which became the usual spot for you to rest. You  also noticed a blanket wrapped around you tightly. Right. Even though you don't really need it, it’s still comforting being wrapped in something warm and soft. It makes your rest easier...but not this time.
You sigh heavily, you can't get proper sleep a week now. Night terrors are plaguing your mind. They always about the same thing: about you killing the kid. It doesn't matter how, you always end up killing her and she...she never runs away, she never expects you to attack! 
You hate this so much, you still feel terrible about the fact that you tried to kill her in the past. She forgave you, but you can’t forgive yourself. You don’t deserve to be loved, but she thinks you do. You can’t let go, you just cant!
And what makes thing worse that you still can hurt her, by accident! This is what happened a week ago!
You wanted to help her to recover timepieces on unfamiliar planet. There was some corporate asshole, who wanted to use the timepiece for his selfish plans. He was...very much like Vanessa. Obsessive, possessive, entitled, just awful. He thought himself of hero while in reality he was just a garbage! 
That made you snap, you lost your cool and, in few minutes, he was no more.
You took a timepiece, pleased with yourself, but then you saw the kid lying on the floor. Your core sank, you rushed to her side. She looked burned, did this asshole somehow got her? When did this happen? Thankfully, you always carry healing pons with you just in case. The kid sighed in relief when she got healed.
“What happened?!” you asked, still being in shock.
“Oh, I...um..” she looked at you apologetically.” When you got angry at this guy, you unleashed so many lasers! I couldn’t run out on them so quickly, I’m sorry!”
Your eyes widened, it was you! Being in rage, you completely forgot that she was in the room with you! You completely forgot that you need to be careful with your magic! You forgot! 
Kid suddenly hugged your you. Suddenly you became aware of how much you were shaking!
“It’s okay, it was accident!” she pleaded “I know you didn’t meant it! Please don’t be sad!”
“I COULD HAVE KILLED YOU!” you raised your voice, more than you expected. She flinched, but didn't let go!
“Well...but you’ll be careful next time! Right?” 
Yes, after this you became more aware of your surroundings. You made sure that none of your projectiles are in the kids way. But guilt kept eating you away, you wanted to burn yourself to the ground! 
And then those nightmares are started, constantly reminded you that you are horrible monster. You may lie to yourself, thinking that you can be happy, that you can live a fulfilling life. But deep down know that you’re just pretending.
You closed your eyes and try again, maybe if you sleep you’ll feel better. But images of nightmare are still fresh in your tired mind.
So you get up, still wrapped in blanket and float to kid’s bed. You stare at her sleeping form, carefully listening to her breathing. You just need to make sure she’s okay.
“Damn it, please, just let me live!” you whispered to yourself. You don’t wanna be afraid anymore, you’re so tired of this! 
“Snatcher?” she mumbled, her sleepy eyes are looking at you now.
Crap, how did you manage to wake her up?!
“Sorry, kiddo��”
“Are you okay?” she asked, yawning.”You look so sad…”
“I…” you are not sure if you should tell her. Not because you think it’ll make you look weak, but because you don’t wanna burden her. She is a child, adults are not supposed to pour their emotions over small children. Your kid must focusing on growing up and having fun, not dealing with your trauma and fears!
“Did you had a nightmare?” well, she always been smart!
You slowly nod.
“Do you wanna talk about it?”
You shake your head this time. Again, you won't burden her with this. Maybe when she’ll grows up, but not now.
Then you realized something: she’s mirroring you right now. When she has nightmares, you would ask her same questions. You would talk about this as you comfort her, holding her close to your chest.
Then she moves to the side of the bed, patting an empty space next to her. You still no sure, she better be resting right now.
“Kid, you should sleep, I’ll be okay.” you smiled weakly as you got up, trying to move back to pillow mound. But she quickly grabbed your blanket.
“But you always cuddle with me when I have bad dream!” she’s pulling you back towards her.” Why can’t I do the same for you? It’s not fair!”
You turn around to see her pouting at you right now as she keeps pulling the blanket. You can’t help but chuckle a bit, she way too adorable. 
And looks like you can’t argue against this, you know she won’t let go now. So, you made yourself smaller to comfortably fit in her bed. Then you lay next to her, wrapping your blanket around both of you. She snuggles into your mane and lets out sigh of relief as you wrap your arms around her.
In few minutes she fell asleep, completely relaxed against you. You lay a bit longer, listening sounds of the spaceship and her breathing. Having her in your arms relaxed your tormented mind, allowing you finally slip into dreamless sleep.
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cobythinks · 5 years ago
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‘Might As Well’ AU
HEYY so I this is a bullet-fic kinda thing for an AU I’ve created, and unlike my other AUs I’m not going to make a story for it and if I write anything it’ll all be one-shots of certain bits. It's mainly Roloceit with like tiny bits of Moxiety as well.
Feel free to send in asks or request one-shots for this AU! I’m very happy abt it and I loved writing this so any questions for the characters or requests for scenes would be amazing!!!
Most of it under the cut because... I got carried away and it's very long
Roman Guerra is a YouTuber/actor
Horace (Dee) McMullin is a drama teacher
Logan Wright is a science teacher at the same school that Dee works at
Roman and Dee are roommates, and though their relationship has progressed FAR past what anyone would call a friendship, they really don’t care enough to label it or even talk about what they are to each other. They both know they care about the other, and that’s all that really matters.
Roman also tends to rant in Spanish when he gets passionate, and Dee responds by saying the names of ‘Mexican food’ as a reply.
Roman: *talks in spanish*
Dee: *nods* burrito. Quesadilla. Mama Mia.
Roman: that’s not even a food, shut up.
Logan meets Dee through work, obviously, and they quickly become friends
Something about the tall, dramatic, elegant man just drives Logan insane because he’s a little shit once you get to know him and it makes no SENSE
The adorable little science teacher shouldn’t scare Dee as much as he does, but he can’t help it. Something about the way Logan is always composed makes Dee feel like he’s a serial killer or something.
Despite this, they become friends when they discover they both have a passion for psychology and have long discussions about it during lunch and when they hang out on weekends
Dee - as much as he hates it - starts to fall hopelessly in love with the other teacher. He can’t help it, just like he couldn't help but to fall in love with Roman a year and a half earlier when they met. 
Not that he’d told Roman that yet, god no. They’d both dated other people on and off while knowing each other, even if they did end up fucking after every breakup and swearing to each other they were done with the whole relationship thing. 
Roman always found someone else to sweep off their feet, and Dee always found himself hopelessly pining for someone else to make the first move
So, that’s what was happening here, and it was torture.
Logan wasn’t much better, furious that this dramatic drama teacher of all people made him feel so flustered and confused.
Then the day came that Dee brought Logan over for dinner, and he met Roman
Roman greeted him dramatically, filling the entire apartment with his electric energy as he spoke.
Oh god, there’s two of them. Logan realized in terror as the two bickered playfully back and forth, eventually challenging each other to a duel despite the fact they had a guest over.
And like most of their duels, Roman ended up kissing Dee
“Oh,” Logan said, feeling like a complete idiot
“Fuck,” Dee said, realizing that Logan now had the wrong idea
“Maybe later,” Roman said with a wink because he’s a little shit.
Dee just freaking makes a mess of everything and accidentally confesses his feelings for both of them at once and then faceplants on the couch
Roman offers Logan some lasagna because it’s getting cold
Dee feels betrayed 
but joins them for lasagna in a few minutes
Logan is utterly confused and doesn’t know what to say, so he doesn’t say anything
Dee is mortified and wants to jump off the balcony
He and Roman proceed to do the titanic thing and Logan is still very confused but he agrees to take their picture
He’s Like: Sure??? I guess so??? Are we not going to address what just happened??? DOn’T FaLL yOU IDiOTs
Roman thinks it is all hilarious but he must agree that Logan is stunning
He helps to re-explain his and Dee’s relationship because Dee honestly did an awful job
And Logan is like okay
Because it makes sense now even though Roman used many slang words he did NOT understand
Oh my god these two are literally the most chaotic duo he’s ever met and usually Logan HATES chaos but he LOVES this
And so Roman - of course, it’s Roman - is the one to suggest they just go with the flow like he and Dee have been doing for the past year already, if Logan wants to
Logan has no idea what to expect but agrees that he wouldn’t mind
Horace.exe has crashed again
So they start doing whatever the hell it is that they’re doing
And if Roman is a chaos slut with Dee he is a chaos gentleman with Logan and it is BAFFLING he’s still dramatic but he’s overly chivalrous and polite and Dee is annoyed why can’t Roman hold the door open for him instead of holding it closed like a jerk after opening it for Logan
Dee and Logan just keep up their psychology discussions almost constantly and regularly have to ask Roman to finish a debate even though Roman knows NOTHING about psychology
Roman always finds an excuse not to support Dee (in a loving way)
“Roman! Tell Logan that Max Stirner-”
“I’M BUSY MAKING ALFREDO SORRY”
This doesn’t stop Dee from continuing to ask him to back him up
Roman always supports Logan in the debates despite being completely oblivious
“Roman, don’t you agree that-”
“Yes, my love. My darling. Genius whom I would die for. I agree.”
This always causes Logan distress in two ways
One: Roman didn’t listen to what he was agreeing with
Two: he is now super flustered because Roman is continuing to ramble on about how much he loves Logan
Logan turns out to know some Spanish
So now he and Roman have conversations in Spanish and Roman teaches him more and Dee just doesn’t really care
He keeps contributing using food or random words he’s picked up on and it drives Logan and Roman INSANE
And so they start dropping his proper name in conversation to either
One: make Dee think they’re mad because they used ‘Horace’
Two: make Dee think they’re gossiping about him
When really they’re talking about how much they love him OR just saying ‘Horace’ in the middle of a completely unrelated sentence
They stop doing this after they accidentally make Dee legitimately sad
It surprises both of them when they realize he’s crying after they don’t tell him what they were saying
So no more pretending to gossip about each other in Spanish
Roman offers to teach him Spanish
Dee responds to the offer by screaming ‘TORTILLA’ at the top of his lungs
Dee does not learn Spanish
Roman calls them his boyfriends first
In a youtube video title
Without warning them that they were being featured
Because he’s a little shit
Dee freaks out and tries to ask him about it but they just end up making out like they usually do when they try to have a serious conversation
Logan is okay with it and very amused at Dee’s reaction
Dee calls them his boyfriends next when he gets sick
When Dee gets sick he gets freaking delirious
Logan didn’t believe that it was the same person the first time he saw Dee when he was sick
Dee also only responds to Horace, his given name, when he’s sick and it's so hard to talk to him because they never seriously call him that
but Dee is so fucking sappy when he’s like that
And it's just pure and cute and he calls them his boyfriends
Logan calls them his boyfriends last
When introducing him to some other friends when they moved back into town
Patton Foster, a veterinarian
Virgil Storm, a weatherman (shut up he knows it's stupid his boyfriend (Patton) makes enough jokes about it as it is)
Both are baffled at how Logan managed to be dating two completely batshit crazy drama geeks
Once this happens they finally sit down and decide that yeah, they are dating
None of them say it’s exclusive, but none of them really want to date anyone else anymore anyway
Having Logan there to balance out the chaos is exactly what they needed
“I NEED A SNAKE FOR A VIDEO”
“Doesn’t Dee have a pet snake?”
“DEE YOU HAVE A PET SNAKE??”
“You’ve lived together for two years, how do you not know he has a snake in a terrarium in his room?”
“Logan I trusted you.”
“CAN I USE YOUR SNAKE”
“Only if I get to be in the video too, she gets nervous around cameras and she needs me.”
“Snakes don’t know what cameras-”
“DEAL!”
So it's just chaos and thriving in their little apartment
Roman has them in his videos sometimes, which is hugely popular among his viewers
“Hey, youtube! Today we’re throwing wet sponges at my tall boyfriend!”
“Roma- ROMAN GET AWAY FROM ME YOU SAID YOU WOULD WARN ME NEXT TIME”
“If you get water on the floor I’m not cleaning it up also watch out for the outlets you don’t want to get electrocuted.”
“That was my nerd boyfriend. I’d never throw a wet sponge at him, he doesn’t deserve it. Only my tall one deserves it.”
“I HATE YOU BOTH”
Logan and Dee both try to embarrass the other more whilst at work, which only caused a problem one or two times
“I need your help”
“With what”
“...a surprise”
“I told you I won’t help you teach them how to stage kiss anymore you always just kiss me for real and that’s not how it works.”
“But I love you.”
“fine.”
Roman and Dee regularly compete to see who can make Logan more embarrassed from compliments and it usually ends up in a cuddle pile or [REDACTED]
Dee is still positive that Logan is either a serial killer or a robot and that is one reason he enjoys making Logan embarrassed because it's hilarious to see the usually stoic teacher not know what to say
Roman, when he hears this theory, claims that Dee is the actual serial killer and he knows because he’s a ghost that’s just been haunting Dee since he killed him
Logan pretends to believe Roman’s claim and Dee wants to destroy them both.
He does… in a way *cough*
People who met Roman and Dee before Logan got there are baffled when they see either of them or both interacting with Logan
Because Roman and Dee are just CHAOS and DRAMATIC declarations of love (Roman) SCREAMING and sexual jokes (Dee)
Roman and Logan, though, that���s Roman at his most chivalrous. He opens doors, speaks eloquently, bows dramatically and is basically an over the top perfect gentleman
Deceit and Logan, well, no one understands that either because Deceit makes ZERO sexual jokes and he’s quiet and gentle and finally FINALLY he matches the elegant aesthetic he has going on 
And as soon as all three of them are seen together? The dynamic makes sense again
Roman and Dee are gremlins. Logan is the god they worship.
 Logan treats them both equally, as much as he can that is, and Roman and Dee would probably fight to the death for his hand and then end up making out like they always do when they fight to ‘the death’
Even Logan’s friends have only ever seen him express real emotion when he is with one or both of his boyfriends
The rest of the time he is in his robot/serial killer mode
Both Roman and Dee take great pride in this
Logan calls Dee Horace when he wants to make a point and it's usually why he ends up winning debates when Roman isn’t around because it makes Dee frustrated and annoyed so he stops talking
Apologies are made with kisses though
After the three get together, Roman learns a lot more about Dee as a person because believe it or not Dee is good at pretending and keeping secrets
Also they always just used to… sleep… in Roman’s room and not Dee’s but Roman didn’t even notice that and that’s how Dee got away with having a snake in secret for two years until Logan stayed the night in his room.
Roman falls more in love with Dee as a result and visa versa
Logan is awfully amused at this and they know it
Basically, the entire relationship is a HOT MESS
And that’s all I’ve got
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sunsetsover · 5 years ago
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Ben's little face look up at Callum when he says "we still haven't been on that date yet" Ben can't believe that Callum is finally asking him❤ he's so shocked & didn't expect it, but he doesn't want to show his true enlightenment so plays it down with humour. Love that scene.
literally :-( everything abt that scene was so cute :-( i think it got overshadowed a bit bc of everything that happened in the rest of the ep and then the next ep, but we should talk abt it more!!! there’s so much to talk about!!! i’m doin some bullet points bc i have so much to say!!
like the fact that callum realized that despite what he said/how he acted (i.e. being nonchalant abt the whole thing, ignoring callum’s texts etc) ben was lowkey hurt by the fact that callum hadn’t taken him up on his offer for a date and the fact that he blamed him for what happened with whitney (and he had every right to be hurt and angry abt that like! ben didn’t make callum gay lmao)
but callum took it upon himself to actively and persistently seek ben out so he could a) apologize for his behaviour and what he said at the mitchell’s and b) ask him on a date
a date at a gay bar!!
and callum reaching out to touch ben!! like it was only a little thing but it proved that callum had really heard what ben said abt him thinking that callum could only be with him when he’s drunk, and that callum understood how his actions came across and how ben felt and then making the active effort to be like ‘i don’t need to be drunk to touch you and reach out to you and want you or this’… like that more than anything else in that scene makes me super emo bc it was such an important thing for both of them! like callum understanding how his behaviour and what he said had made ben feel and ben understanding that callum didn’t mean to make him feel that way and that he was trying!!! struggling a little with it but he was trying!!!! like ya im crying what of it!!
also ben, despite everything, being understanding of the fact that callum’s relationship w whitney had just ended and that regardless of why it ended, callum still needed time to get over what happened and to adjust
ben being really standoffish bc he was trying to remain Unbothered abt the whole thing bc he was hurt and was no longer expecting anything from callum
callum not giving a fuck that ben ignored his texts and was being standoffish and asking him out anyway
the fact that the second callum is like ‘we haven’t had that date yet’ all of ben’s fake disinterest drops and u can see the genuine surprise on his face like :-( he really didn’t expect it :-(
and ben!! ben’s a shy boy under all that bravado ok you will never convince me otherwise and callum is always bringing out that shy fumbling side of ben and that fucks me up constantly but u can really see it in this scene!! like he’s usually so in control (or he pretends to be lmao) but callum asking him out really knocked him for six and u could tell!!! it was so obvious!! and then he tried to cover it up w humour like he always does but it was so obvious anyways :-( 
idk callum always making ben so shy kills me :-(
and the ‘it’ll just be about me and you, no one else’ :-( bro :-(
and the TENSION of it all like……… it’s so TENSE…… it’s so tense and awkward but in the best way like i love it
and the lola/ben/lexi scene after like it’s SO cute like ben being teased and going even more shy like?? i love them sm :-(
and then they top it off w the little smiles across the square like?? callum’s is so soft and ben’s is so SHY like he gets so SHY when it comes to callum and i’ll never be over it!!!!!!!
like i love that whole scene too it was so soft and sweet it made what happened in the rest of that ep so much Worse like it was a proper kick in the guts but!!! thankfully they (and by they i mean mostly ben) got their shit together in the end :-)
💖💖💖
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            hello   my   lovely   humans      !      it’s   lina   ,   back   again   w   another   muse   bc   lbr   i   have   no   self   control   n   u   deserve   better   than   the   piece   of   trash   that   is   atlas      !      so   ,   i   hereby   introduce   u   to   my   entirely   new   bby   aka   lykke      !      it’s   the   first   time   i’ve   played   a   muse   like   this   so   pls   bear   w   me   angels   while   i   figure   her   out   adkjfgkn   but   if   u   would   like   to   plot   ,   pls   hit   that   ❤️   or   if   u   prefer   msg   me   on   my   discord   @𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐟𝐚𝐧’𝐬   𝐫𝐞𝐝   𝖕𝖔𝖗𝖘𝖈𝖍𝖊#0369      !
chicago’s   very   own   𝐥𝐲𝐤𝐤𝐞   𝐳𝐚̈𝐡𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐞𝐫   has   been   spotted   on   madison   avenue   driving   a   𝐛𝐦𝐰   𝟐   𝐬𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐬   𝐜𝐨𝐮𝐩𝐞́   ,   welcome   !   your   resemblance   to   𝒋𝒐𝒔𝒆𝒑𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒆   𝒔𝒌𝒓𝒊𝒗𝒆𝒓   is   unreal   .   according   to   tmz   ,   you   just   had   your   𝐭𝐰𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐲   -   𝐟𝐨𝐮𝐫𝐭𝐡   birthday   bash   .   your   chance   of   surviving   new   york   is   uncertain   because   you’re   𝐟𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐚𝐜𝐢𝐨𝐮𝐬   ,   but   being   𝐮𝐧𝐨𝐫𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐝𝐨𝐱   might   help   you   .   i   think   being   a   𝒍𝒆𝒐   explains   that   .   3   things   that   would   paint a better   picture   of   you   would   be   𝐝𝐞𝐞𝐩   𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐬𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐬   ,   𝐥𝐨𝐨𝐬𝐞   𝐡𝐚𝐢𝐫   ,   𝐭𝐡𝐞   𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐬   𝐨𝐟   𝐚   𝐜𝐥𝐨𝐮𝐝𝐥𝐞𝐬𝐬   𝐧𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭   .   (   𝒎𝒚   𝒂𝒄𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏𝒔   𝒊𝒏   𝒂   𝒄𝒐𝒎𝒑𝒆𝒕𝒊𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏   𝒓𝒆𝒔𝒖𝒍𝒕𝒆𝒅   𝒊𝒏   𝒎𝒚   𝒕𝒆𝒂𝒎𝒎𝒂𝒕𝒆𝒔   𝒊𝒏𝒋𝒖𝒓𝒚   )   &   (   𝚌𝚒𝚜𝚏𝚎𝚖𝚊𝚕𝚎   +   𝚜𝚑𝚎/𝚑𝚎𝚛   )
:   /   /   𝒃𝒂𝒔𝒊𝒄𝒔   .
𝐅𝐔𝐋𝐋   𝐍𝐀𝐌𝐄   :   lykke   (   happiness   ,   good   fortune   )   freja   (   lady   ,   noblewoman   )   zähringer   (   i   couldn’t   find   a   meaning   but   it’s   probs   smth   Schmancy   )   .
𝐍𝐈𝐂𝐊𝐍𝐀𝐌𝐄𝐒   :   alright   listen   ,   ,   her   parents   chose   her   name   so   it   wouldn’t   b   shortened   so   !   have   fun   w   this   !
𝐀𝐆𝐄   :   twenty   -   four   .
𝐁𝐈𝐑𝐓𝐇𝐃𝐀𝐘   :   august   3rd   .
𝐙𝐎𝐃𝐈𝐀𝐂   :   leo   .
𝐆𝐄𝐍𝐃𝐄𝐑   :   female   .
𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐍𝐎𝐔𝐍𝐒   :   she   &   her   .
𝐒𝐄𝐗𝐔𝐀𝐋   &   𝐑𝐎𝐌𝐀𝐍𝐓𝐈𝐂   𝐎𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍   :   pansexual   &   panromantic   .
𝐍𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍𝐀𝐋𝐈𝐓𝐘   :   american   .
𝐄𝐓𝐇𝐍𝐈𝐂𝐈𝐓𝐘   :   caucasian   (   danish   &   american   )
𝐋𝐀𝐁𝐄𝐋𝐒   :   the   astrophile   ,   the   paracosmist   ,   the   aquaphile   .
𝐎𝐂𝐂𝐔𝐏𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍   :   former   olympic   swimmer   ,   currently   a   lead   actress   in   netflix’s   fiercer   things   .
𝐍𝐄𝐓𝐖𝐎𝐑𝐓𝐇   :   10   million   dollars   .
𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐒   :   adaptive   ,   affability   ,   benevolent   ,   creative   ,   compassionate   ,   dependable   ,   enthusiastic   ,   honest   ,   merciful   ,   open   -   minded   ,   sincere   .
𝐂𝐎𝐍𝐒   :   absentminded   ,   ascetic   ,   breezy   ,   competitive   ,   dreamy   ,   earthy   ,   emotional   ,   predictable   ,   questioning   ,   whimsical   .
:   /   /   𝒂𝒆𝒔𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒕𝒊𝒄𝒔   .
deep   conversations   ,   loose   hair   ,   the   constellations   of   a   cloudless   night   ,   messy   ponytails   ,   bare   feet   in   the   mornings   ,   half   finished   mugs   of   coffee   ,   music   through   iphone   speakers   ,   the   smell   of   rain   in   the   air   ,   tangled   hair   ties   ,   half   used   tubs   of   hand   cream   ,   rolled   up   sleeves   of   an   oversized   sweater   ,   dogeared   pages   ,   paint   stained   jeans   ,   an   unchanged   bedside   clock   ,   warm   tea   ,   good   books   ,   soft   pillows   ,   blinking   neon   lights   .
:   /   /   𝒃𝒊𝒐𝒈𝒓𝒂𝒑𝒉𝒚   .
           as   the   daughter   of   a   well   -   known   danish   director      &      a   world   -   renowned   american   makeup   mogul   ,   lykke   was   born   into   a   world   of   luxury      &      a   world   full   of   endless   possibilities   .   she   had   ,   essentially   ,   the   whole   world   resting   on   the   palm   of   her   hand   .   raised   in   chicago   ,   but   bouncing   between   her   family’s   permanent   home   there   to   the   residence   they   owned   in   los   angeles   was   difficult   ,   but   as   the   youngest   of   four      &      a   child   who’s   mind   was   constantly   buzzing   with   ideas   ,   lykke   didn’t   mind   .
her   upbringing   was   relatively   relaxed   .   her   parents   ,   who   had   busy   lives   as   it   was   always   tried   to   make   time   for   their   children   ,      &      as   their   oldest   began   to   disperse      &      follow   their   own   path   ,   lykke   was   left   alone   most   of   the   time   .   she   didn’t   mind   ,   however   ,   because   with   alone   time   came   more   time   to   let   her   imagination   run   wild   .   she   was   always   a   creative   child   ,   always   thinking   that   believing   isn’t   seeing      &      so   the   thought   of   adventure      &      it’s   endless   possibilities   was   enthralling   to   her   .
she   was   young      &      free      ;      she   had   a   magnetic   aura   that   captivated   just   about   everyone   in   the   room   ,   but   that’s   not   what   made   her   special   .   lykke   was   ,   as   her   teachers   would   say   ,   an   enigma   .   she   was   smart   all   the   while   being   unburdened   by   knowledge   .   she   was   skeptical   of   life’s   meaning   but   at   the   same   time   ,   she   believed   in   the   impossible   .   she   pushed   the   boundaries      &      in   the   end   ,   it   not   only   made   her   a   valuable   friend   but   an   extraordinary   student   .   she   was   inquisitive   ,   always   keen   to   learn   new   things   ,      &      always   dove   head   first   into   new   opportunities   .
it   was   because   of   her   determination      &      participation   in   school’s   extracurricular   activities   that   she   was   persuaded   to   join   her   high   school’s   swim   team   .   swimming   was   ,   of   course   ,   the   activity   she   enjoyed   the   most   at   school   ,   but   she   never   thought   she   would   create   a   career   out   of   it   .   but   still   ,   she   agreed      &      was   fast   approaching   becoming   the   best   in   her   class   .   she   was   a   fast   learner   ,   taking��  every   opportunity��  to   practice      &      before   she   knew   it   ,   she   was   at   the   top   of   her   class   .   she   was   extremely   valued   not   only   by   her   team   members   but   by   her   coach   ,      &      at   one   particular   swimming   competition   ,   a   representative   for   the   olympic   swim   team   came   scouting   for   recruits      &      took   lykke   under   his   wing   almost   immediately   .
she   was   a   promising   little   thing   ,   however   a   little   too   inexperienced   in   big   competitions   ,   but   she   would   go   far   .   so   ,   to   prepare   for   when   she’d   join   the   olympic   team   .   she   was   thrown   into   national   competitions   ,   opting   for   homeschooling   while   she   travelled   for   all   the   competitions   she   had   to   attend   .   needless   to   say   ,   she   loved   it   .   being   in   the   water   gave   her   a   sort   of   freedom   she’d   never   felt   before   ,      &      the   thrill   of   the   competition   strove   her   to   do   better   .   she   rose   to   success   so   quickly   that   ,   on   the   eve   of   her   eighteenth   birthday   ,   it   was   announced   she   would   be   join   the   olympic   team   in   the   2016   olympic   games   .
the   build   up   to   the   olympics   was   immense   .   lykke   was   thrown   into   training   more   arduous   than   what   she’d   ever   experienced   ,   but   she   loved   every   part   of   it   .   she   loved   the   adrenaline   running   through   her   veins      &      she   loved   more   than   anything   ,   being   a   part   of   a   team   .   in   the   games   she   would   compete   in   the   800   metre   freestyle   race      &      the   4   x   200   metre   freestyle   relay   ,      &      the   faster   the   games   approached   ,   the    more   nervous   she   felt   .   she   had   already   successfully   won   nearly   every   competition   she   faced   leading   up   to   the   olympics   ,   but   this   was   the   real   test   in   her   eyes   .
when   it   came   to   the   games   ,   despite   her   nervous   state   ,   lykke   won   her   solo   race   .   the   thrill   of   this   made   her   want   to   win   more   ,   but   she   was   nervous   .   after   watching   the   other   team   practice      &      perform   their   own   races   ,      &      that   her   own   team   would   need   to   be   faster      &      better   in   order   to   beat   them   .   so   ,   in   her   nervous   panic   ,   when   it   was   her   turn   to   take   over   the   relay   ,   she   jumped   too   early   ,   even   though   she   knew   she   wouldn’t   clear   her   teammate   in   time   ,      &      they   both   ended   up   in   hospital      ;      her   teammate   with   a   injury   to   the   head      &      lykke   with   a   broken   collarbone   .
the   guilt   almost   destroyed   her   ,      &      she   thought   her   life   to   be   over   until   her   father   paid   off   all   involved   parties   to   keep   the   truth   quiet      &      instead   spread   the   word   that   what   happened   was   an   accident   .   lykke   still   felt   guilty   ,   though   ,      &      couldn’t   face   the   humiliation   of   being   a   part   of   the   team   again   ,   so   she   quite   acting      &      instead   opted   for   a   career   less   damaging      &      more   achievable      ;     acting   .   her   father   was   a   director   ,      &      she   was   pretty   involved   in   the   drama   department   in   school   ,   so   it   made   the   most   sense   .
she   landed   small   roles   at   first   ,   but   more   recently   lykke   landed   a   role   in   netflix’s   brand   new   hit   series   called   ‘   fiercer   things   ’   .   the   show   surrounds   vampires   ,   witches   ,      &      just   about   all   things   that   go   bump   in   the   night   ,      &      lykke   portrays   the   female   lead   called   vita   ,   a   vampire   a   little   like   rebekah   mikaelson      !
:   /   /   𝒑𝒆𝒓𝒔𝒐𝒏𝒂𝒍𝒊𝒕𝒚   .
            lykke   is   a   very   bubbly   ,   very   curious   person   .   she’s   the   sort   of   girl   who   will   try   anything   once   ,   which   to   her   could   be   absolutely   anything   .   she’s   not   afraid   of   pushing   the   boundaries      &      is   the   sort   of   person   to   test   the   waters   before   making   a   decision   on   something   .   want   that   new   dress   but   not   sure   how   it’ll   look   on      ?      lykke   is   your   girl   .   the   new   hot      &      spicy   bargain   bucket   at   the   most   popular   takeaway      ?      lykke   will   take   the   bullet   for   you      &      try   it   first   .   she’s   very   adventurous       &      is   the   sort   of   person   who   will   jump   feet   first   into   any   opportunity   she   comes   across   .
but   lykke   has   a   sort   of   childish   naivety   .   she   tries   to   be   friends   with   everyone      &      is   very   good   at   blending   in   social   situations   ,   but   she   always   believes   the   best   in   people      &      very   often   ends   up   being   disappointed   when   it   turns   out   the   person   wasn’t   what   she   expected   them   to   be   .   although   she’s   loving      &      very   affectionate   ,   she   has   never   been   in   love   .   she’s   the   sort   of   person   who   dates   ,   is   in   love   with   the   idea   of   love   but   she   has   a   very   set   view   on   what   love   should   be   like   ,   so   she   crushes   a   lot   on   people   only   to   dip   when   she   doesn’t   feel   the   way   she   wants   to   feel   .
however   she   is   very   peculiar   .   she’s   smart   in   a   conventional   way   ,      &      is   always   striving   to   learn   more   in   order   to   be   better   .   in   this   way   she   is   very   competitive   ,      &      has   a   habit   of   pushing   the   boundaries   to   become   the   best   of   the   best   ,   which   often   leaves   other   people   being   pushed   out   .   but   she’s   a   very   loyal   friend      &      if   you   know   her   well   ,   you’ll   be   dragged   into   an   abundance   of   philosophical   conversations   that   will   go   on   through   early   hours   in   the   morning   over   a   bottle   of   wine      &      takeaway   food   .
:   /   /   𝒇𝒖𝒏   𝒇𝒂𝒄𝒕𝒔   .
ok   im   gna   put   this   out   there   before   someone   *   coughs    *    drea    *   coughs   *   miranda   decides   to   joke   abt   it   again   ,   but   u   pronounce   lykke’s   name   like   LEA   -   KAY      !      not   lykke   totally   ,   not   lykke   pipe      (      altho   that   would   b   a   funny   snapchat   user   ty   miranda      )      but   LEA   -   KAY   .   ty   v   MUCH   that   is   all   for   this   section   .
i’m   joking   akdjfn   lykke   has   a   pet   pig   called   dakota      !      bc   she’s   weird      !      n   loves   pigs      !
when   i   say   she’s   weird   ,   i   mean   she’s   RLY   weird   n   a   huge   nerd
she’s   incredibly   involved   in   aliens   /   the   supernatural      (      as   if   playing   a   vampire   isn’t   enough   smh      )      n   probs   has   a   yt   channel   where   she   goes   ghost   hunting      !      talk   abt   OBSESSED
speaking   of   obsessed   .   .   .   she   loves   marvel   n   cries   over   tony   stark   every   .   single   .   day   .   she’s   still   not   over   endgame   n   neither   am   I   SIR      !
she’s   also   in   love   w   stefan   salvatore   bc   😊   i   need   to   channel   that   energy   somewhere      !      idc      !
she’s   also   in   love   w   space   n   is   100%   the   sort   of   person   to   ask   for   ur   star   sign   when   u   first   meet   so   she   can   peep   at   ur   horoscope   n   check   ur   compatibility
she’s   not   rly      ?      a   girl-y   girl      ?      like   she   loves   wearing   dresses   n   stuff   but   she’s   more   comfortable   in   a   pair   of   sneakers   w   some   jeans   ,   like   she   jus   likes   being   comfy      !
idk   abt   making   her   a   model   yet   ,   it   depends   on   how   i’m   feeliN   abt   the   muse   so   bear   w   me   ,   so   rn   she’s   a   retired   swimmer   n   an   actress      !
she   probs   paints   in   her   spare   time   ,   but   doesn’t   let   anyone   see   her   paintings
um   that’s   abt   it   i   think   .   .   .   we’ll   see   ASKJDFNKJ
:   /   /   𝒘𝒂𝒏𝒕𝒆𝒅   𝒄𝒐𝒏𝒏𝒆𝒄𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏𝒔   .
𝐁𝐄𝐒𝐓   𝐅𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐍𝐃𝐒   (   𝒂𝒏𝒚   𝒈𝒆𝒏𝒅𝒆𝒓   )   :   honestly   jus   ppl   lykke   vibes   w   ,   ppl   who   can   accept   her   vibrant   n   weird   nature   n   ppl   who   she   trusts   more   than   ANYTHING   .   these   can   be   from   childhood   or   pretty   recent   ,   n   the   amount   doesn’t   matter   bc   we   all   love   some   cute   bffs      !      [   open   .   ]
𝐄𝐗𝐄𝐒   (   𝒂𝒏𝒚   𝒈𝒆𝒏𝒅𝒆𝒓   )   :   again   these   can   come   in   a   variety   of   ways   n   i’m   not   fussy   abt   how   many   exes   she’s   had   ,   either      !      lykke   is   100%   a   relationship   person   but   she’s   not   one   who   settles   ,   so   this   can   either   bring   drama    /   maybe   they   had   a   mutual   understanding   /   honestly   anything      !      [   donna   marchesi   ,   open   to   more   .   ]
𝐑𝐎𝐎𝐌𝐌𝐀𝐓𝐄𝐒   (   𝒂𝒏𝒚   𝒈𝒆𝒏𝒅𝒆𝒓   )   :   *   gasps   *   n   then   they   were   roommates      !      we   all   love   these   sort   of   plots   n   lykke   is   definitely   the   sort   of   person   who   HATES   being   alone      !      i’m   imagining   cute   movie   nights   n   awkward   run   -   ins   sfgkjnsd   .      [   elissa   altera   ,   1/2   open   .   ]
𝐅𝐖𝐁   /   𝐄𝐖𝐁   (   𝒂𝒏𝒚   𝒈𝒆𝒏𝒅𝒆𝒓   )   :   ah   the   classic      !      i   couldn’t   do   this   w   atlas   so   lykke   sry   hun      !      could   literally   be   anything   ,   besties   who   hook   up   sometimes   ,   a   literal   booty   call   w   ‘   u   up   ’   texts   ,   or   maybe   they   Hate   each   other   n   this   is   how   they   let   their   frustrations   out      !      [   open   .   ]
𝐁𝐀𝐃   𝐈𝐍𝐅𝐋𝐔𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄   (   𝒂𝒏𝒚   𝒈𝒆𝒏𝒅𝒆𝒓   )   :   this   person   would   be   a   bad   influence   on   lykke   .   gets   her   to   go   out   partying   ,   do   dr*gs   n   basically   dumb   shit   that   she’s   sry   abt   later   .   corrupt   her   sweet   lil   heart      !      [   open   .   ]
𝐆𝐎𝐎𝐃   𝐈𝐍𝐅𝐋𝐔𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄   (   𝒂𝒏𝒚   𝒈𝒆𝒏𝒅𝒆𝒓   )   :   someone   who   lykke   acts   as   a   good   influence   on      !      she’s   the   typical   mom   friend   ,   n   needs   someone   who   she   feels   protective   over   bc   they   make   so   many   dumb   decisions   so   she’s   just   there   like   .   .   .   don’t   do   that      !      [   open   .   ]
𝐂𝐑𝐔𝐒𝐇𝐄𝐒   (   𝒂𝒏𝒚   𝒈𝒆𝒏𝒅𝒆𝒓   )   :   could   be   totally   unrequited   or   mutual      !      i   just   need   the   cuteness   .   ok   ty   .      [   open   .   ]
𝐂𝐎   -   𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐒   (   𝒂𝒏𝒚   𝒈𝒆𝒏𝒅𝒆𝒓   )   :   if   ur   chara   is   an   actor   n   u   want   them   to   be   in   fiercer   things   ,   i’m   100%   here   to   support   u   on   that      !      let’s   make   it   a   whole   thing      !      [   taylor   perry   open   to   more   .   ]
𝐅𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐍𝐃𝐒   𝐅𝐑𝐎𝐌   𝐂𝐇𝐈𝐂𝐀𝐆𝐎   (   𝒂𝒏𝒚   𝒈𝒆𝒏𝒅𝒆𝒓   )   :   lykke   lived   in   chicago   all   her   life   n   has   only   recently   moved   to   nyc   ,   so   i’d   love   for   her   to   have   friends   she   knows   from   home      !      [   open   .   ]
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foxcassius · 4 years ago
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people keep sending me screenshots of shit i dont wanna know so i’m just gonna type this post
[x] and i had a toxic friendship. there’s no two ways abt it. the codependency and jealousy and manipulation came from both sides and it wasn’t good. it would be irresponsible of me to act like i never did anything wrong, but it is irresponsible of her to act like i’m the only one who did anything wrong.
we brought out the worst in each other, and had been doing so for a long time before we stopped being friends. according to screenshots, she’s said both that i cut her off and that she fucked off herself. i don’t really know which is true; she clearly wasn’t interested in staying close friends, but i’m the one who moved out of state without telling her (or much of anyone who knew her). we affected each other in cycles that started when we first met. at one point it was cute; five years later it wasn’t. i would act immaturely, and she would infatilize me; she would infantilize me, and i would act immaturely. i’m sure she could cite a similar cycle of treatment and response on her side. for me it felt like the kind of thing i couldn’t get away from, like it became a part of my personality—or at least the personality i projected when i was around her.
the thing was, i felt like i could never change as a person because her interests and personality were so nostalgia-based. it seemed like every week she wanted to reminisce at length about ye olden days, which was probably a huge red flag about the state of our relationship. we weren’t creating anything emotional or meaningful in the present day, so she wanted to look back on when we DID have fun. but it made me freeze up and stagnate, like i didn’t know where i was supposed to go or who i was supposed to be turning into to please her. she was point-blank my oldest and best friend; the idea of becoming someone she didn’t want to be around (/spend her free, enjoyment time with) freaked me out. until i realized that she was kind of becoming the sort of person i didn’t want to be around.
i’m not trying to make excuses for my own lack of personal growth; this post is 85% therapy, i’m working to understand what happened and learn from it. my stangnation was not her fault. it was and always will be my responsibility to remove myself from situations that are bad for me. eventually i did, it was just later than it should have been, i think.
i know i was bad for her in return. i know i did things that weren’t right and shouldn’t be brushed off or excused. i was immature, and selfish. i carry those things. i want to be better than that. i hope that by understanding what happened with her, i can correct my behaviors and not treat people that way in the future. but it makes me feel ill to read screenshots and know she’s no-doubt out there telling people who don’t even know what my face looks like about what a demon i was to her without acknowledging her own faults. it makes me upset because it’s wrong, and it makes me upset because i do want better for her, too. i want her to also look back and understand and grow. but wanting that for her always seemed to piss her off and it probably comes off as patronizing, so i won’t say any more.
she complained about us living together a second time frequently, saying she never should have agreed. it always seemed like she blamed me for even suggesting the idea when our first stint as roommates went so terribly. i refuse to apologize, because i didn’t force her. she agreed. she was interested. if she’d honestly said no, i won’t lie, i would have been upset. but i would have lived. she said she didn’t force me into the situations surrounding money and animefest 2018, said i made my own decisions, and she was right. as influenced as they were by her situation and my will to help her, i did make my own decisions. similarly, she made her own decision to live with me, influenced as she was by my situation.
in the end, i’m glad we’re not friends anymore, even if i miss some of the people who got cut off along with her. we weren’t good for each other. we’re better off without each other. beyond that, i do think she turns too much of a blind eye to racism, antisemitism, ableism, transmisogyny, and etc in the media she not only consumes but exalts. it was difficult to not say anything, and i’m better off not surrounding myself with it when it makes me feel so terrible.
if you’re one of the people who sends me screenshots of her vagueposts, stop. i don’t want to read them!! i don’t want to see them!! knowing she’s thinking about me makes me nauseous!! i quite literally never want her in her present state to cross my mind, or vice versa. i have the past and my memories. i’m content with that!! i’m not involved with her. i don’t wish to be.
the only exceptions to that: i’m pretty sure at least one person is telling her things about my life, like things that are happening right now-ish. i wish you’d stop, but you can feel free to screenshot this post and send it to her if you really fucking want. it’s fair; people have been screenshotting her and sending to me. also, i don’t like to think about how she’s out there undoubtedly throwing vitriol my way over the fact that there’s money she claims i owe her that i never paid back. in my opinion there’s room to dispute the validity of some of that, but it wasn’t my intention to disappear and leave that behind. i honest to god don’t remember what the amount i’m supposed to owe her even is, but if i ever have a stable life and job, and ever have an extra $650 in my hands, i’ll send it to her paypal. i think that’s more than what i owe, but it’ll do. it wasn’t my intention to never pay her; i’m just fucking poor, and don’t know if that will end anytime soon.
i’m sorry to anyone who still knows her and still knows me who comes across this post. i don’t want you caught in the middle. you can ignore this if you want. or if you really feel like it’s better for you to cut me out, you can do that too. i know i’m making myself sound like a shitty friend, like i don’t care if people cut me off, like i won’t miss anyone, but really i just want y’all to be happy and i just want to live in peace without people constantly sending me shit reminding me about her. there’s a whole sixty years of life left my man let’s move on.
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dalishunter · 5 years ago
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i’m gonna be a lil cringe but like while cooking & listening to music i totally thought up of a modern AU for arasulahn that i’ll probs never rp???
posting it under the cut cause im a lil shy abt how silly the idea is lasjdlajskl (also i got kinda long n rambley so feel free to skim or like not read it at all)
i had this on (except it was the full version - if you click the link in the video’s description it downloads the .mp3 file so like just a heads up if youre checking it out) and the vibe totally triggered this whole idea
it’s nothing like ~original~ tbh but basically in arasulahn’s canon, her big thing is basically being someone who comes from a poor family who eventually resorts to unsavoury deeds for survival. it’s dangerous and scary and she wants to bring her family out of it, except she doesn’t really know how. she is obedient and loyal to her clan, which constantly puts her in conflict between being who she needs to be for her people versus doing what her people need but don’t necessarily want (or don’t feel is within reach.)
so the concept is: arasulahn’s family is a notorious crime family whose fortunes were drained after her father (and head of the fam) drove their family into debt attempting to launder their money through the boxing industry. arasulahn is pushed into fighting, makes a decent name for herself within local rings, and her family tries to buy out matches for their favour and earn back their moneys worth + more through bets. shit goes sideways and her fam is in terrible, terrible debt. arasulahn wants to see her family out of this and the only legitimate means she can think of is going to school and getting a good job. her father makes her promise that she’ll still fight, not supporting her decision but seeing no way to stop her. she agrees, and tries to navigate being there for her family while trying to pave a whole new path for herself.
a fuller version here (w/ more deets to fill in blanks and whatevs):
arasulahn’s clan is a tight knit community mostly comprising of blood relations. their family tree is extensive though much of their knowledge of their forefathers and ancestors is lost, they claim to have once been a respected family name who lived richly and prospered in their home country. at some point, their ancestors were driven out by an age-old conflict, that pushed them into the land they now reside in (i’m not sure if i should use like irl country names bc?? idk???? feels weird), where what meager wealth they salvaged was lost to trying to rebuild their lives, especially through business deals gone sour.
fast forward to arasulahn’s present. her adoptive father (keeper dhavihal in her canon verse) is the head of the family, who have succeeded in making a name for themselves in the world of crime. jobs ranging from simple break & enters to complex armed robberies keep the family on their feet, and more importantly, funds what dhavihal believed to be the “way out” for their clan: boxing.
arasulahn was put to training throughout her adolescent years at the insistence of her father, who saw promise not only in her strength but her devotion and obedience. her academic performance dwindled as her focus was pushed toward fighting, all except in english and literature classes which she excelled in for her love of reading; a small comfort she could afford herself in her tumultuous family life. after high school was when she was forced to fight for her family’s future. the money made from jobs would be poured into bets made at small-time rings with the demand that they win their money’s worth and more, leaving no room for losses on arasulahn’s part. they soon learned the hard way that the only way to move up was to fix matches, which lead to even further predicaments.
her family falls into debt while trying to play the corruption in the local boxing industry, their “associates” screwing them over when they bought out matches, losing money that they’ve borrowed with little to supplement it.
finally fed up with the downward spiral she’s found herself in, arasulahn confronts her father about the fighting declaring that she wants no part in it anymore and that they need to see their family out of this mess. she tells him of her plans to return to school which he wants to support but sees no way how it’ll help. she’s not even sure of it herself because it’s been almost a decade since she’s done anything but box, but it’s the only thing she can think of. she ends up having to promise that she will still fight, while trying to get into college. at 30 y/o she gets accepted into a literature program.
i think the verse would start there. she’s incredibly anxious about 1) feeling like the dumbest and the oldest person in class, surrounded by peers more than 10 years younger than her who actually remember what it’s like to be in school, and 2) not knowing what the fuck she’s doing, and having close to no one believe in this path she’s taken
all she knows is that she doesn’t want to fight anymore. she’s good at it, but she knows it’ll kill her, and the worst part of it all is that it’ll do nothing for her family but drive them deeper into the hole they’ve dug themselves.
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ofkenneths · 5 years ago
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OKAY so i actually have some info on my dumbfuck boy ken, so i’m way more prepared for this intro in comparison to the absolute serving of dust i gave y’all with winona... yikes. anyways ! once again feel free to lms for plots or w/e cos im open to anything and everything ~
ken’s pinterest: here !
content warnings: alcoholism, death, headassery
holy crap, is that THOMAS DOHERTY over there ? nevermind, it must be KENNETH FRASER, that COMMENTARY & COMEDY youtuber. isn’t it crazy that they’re TWENTY-FIVE and already have 3m subscribers? i heard that they’re known to be DETACHED, but also pretty MAGNETIC, just like a typical SCORPIO. ( lazy smiles hidden behind the glint of a silver flask, outlandish stories that you’re never sure are true or not & the longest day of the year )
OK so ! a little disclaimer first: i don’t know SHIT about scotland / scottish accents beyond what i’ve seen in outlander ok ! i really just be faking it til i make it so ! @ me if u want ~
moving on.. im gonna go off my previous setup and start with his personality cos lbr that’s what y’all really care abt ~ he’s a little shit ! a gd moron ! really goes out of his way to be obnoxious & charming UGH id like to strangle him.. think joey tribbiani mixed with cody ko… but with a horrendously unintelligible scottish accent (: he really be like that All The Time smh
not the smartest ?? your boy actually graduated from harvard with honors and yet ?? yeah he’s a little dumb but it’s chill cos he’s p much got .. no sense of embarrassment ? cannot recall a single moment of his life when he felt embarrassed or regretted doing/saying something so .. catch him making self-depreciating jokes on the daily. on the flip side tho .. if someone was gonna like constantly get on him abt it he might 100% get in his feelings and uhhh when he do.. that’s when fists start flying ? most cos he’s always on his way to a blackout binge ;)
on top of that he also has .. little to no sense of self-preservation .. will p much do absolutely anything even if it’s detrimental to his physical, mental or emotional health ! love that for him ! Makes Bad Choices, essentially ( makes rash & not-thought-out choices ). never says no to a dare, p much always dtf cos lbr his libido is .. out of control and i hate him ??? & ALWAYS willing to break a rule or twelve
& now for the fun part … he’s a functioning alcoholic ! Big Time ! at his happiest when intoxicated and will p much always have alcohol on him somehow ? he’s usually got a flask plus a buzz throughout the day sighs so smh ! honest to god he probably can’t remember the last time he was completely sober so uhhh that’s fun ig ?? the big thing is that it’s been going on for so long that his tolerance is so high he keeps needing more and more to stay buzzed .. so it’ll likely eventually … start to cause some real problems ……. would be wild if his subscribers found out *wink wink*
a phat hypocrite tho ! love it ! will literally get annoyed with people who lie and play games when thats .. all he do .. god he’s actually the spawn of the devil i want him dead
SHEW OK onto a little background ! grew up in edinburgh ( obvs, sighs ) with his parents who were both school teachers so his upbringing was p modest ?? p normal ??? honestly .. his life was super normal til he was twelve & his parents died in a hit & run when they were crossing the street :/ from then he had to live with his uncle who was … uhhh.. a Garbage Human Being lmao ! Basic rich businessman on his bullshit .. thinking he’s the absolute god of gods reincarnate.. manipulating women .. talking down to ken .. treating everyone like he was better than them .. yeah, just a general piece of shit tbh. definitely not happy to have a preteen suddenly in his charge so ken was like .. Fine ? i’ll do whatever the fuck i want then ? & basically … did everything he knew he shouldnt have done lol
the only thing he really stayed on top of was his grades in school cos it was his best chance of getting the absolute fuck away from his uncle for good and doing it without having to rely on the bastard’s money/connections blah blah whatever so even as he was acting like a fuckin’ fool, he was getting straight a’s & p much being on a first name basis with all his teachers BJOVN we love duality
it was all fun and reckless until he had a real brush with death when he was seventeen. he was fooling around with his buddies, drunk right off his ass, acting like a piece of shit & making a complete ass of himself when he found himself underneath the motorcycle he was driving so.. he ended up spending a good amount of time in the hospital & came out of it with a nasty scar through his left brow & three shattered fingers that wouldn’t ever heal properly ( he’s left handed but had to relearn how to write and do everything with his right hand after it all ).
after that he decided to get the hell out of dodge ( .. scotland ) and move to the states & honestly thank the lord he got accepted into harvard cos otherwise he’d have had to choose between cambridge and oxford, neither far enough away from his uncle & his past as he wanted to be so ((: my mans lucky ig !
in college he got rly close with the guys in his dorm + rushed a fraternity ( a BUSINESS one, not a fun one so he was not up in there partying and hazing poor, unsuspecting scholarship kids ) & that’s when he rly started to feel content with his life ?? all it took was a move to a foreign country and the power of brotherhood *rock n roll emoji* and yk.. booze !
anyways ~ he started his channel in college as a way to let out the absolute dumbass in himself in a constructive way that didn’t involve getting into fights or doing hard drugs lol it started out as a sort of vlog channel until he got tired of carrying a camera around all day and it just kinda naturally progressed into a commentary & comedy channel as he found sitting in front of a camera and talking absolute nonsense about other nonsense was kinda like his calling, even if he has to write a transcript for subtitles cos everyone complains abt not being able to understand him.. it’s fine don’t worry about it
he’s uhh p much having the time of his life, tho he uhh Does miss home something fierce ( but no worries he just drowns all that shit out with some aged whisky lol ! ) & lowkey wishes he didnt have to continuously drink himself into a stupor to get thru the day but here we are ;)
anyways im super tired of this intro lmao so just mssg me if u want any specific details ONFIJC & i dont have any specific wanted connections ? cos being unprepared is My Brand, so i’m down to brainstorm w/ everyone who wants a crack at my mans kenny ~
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yourprayer · 7 years ago
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some reddie headcannons no one asked for
so sara and i were talking aaaaaannnddd… these happened. we apologize for nothing.
co-written with the lovely @turtleneckrichie !!!! go follow her right now you fools
hcs about Eddie’s journey with last names <3
Okay but hear me out
Richie and Eddie end up accidentally moving in together
Like Richie gets his own place ASAP bc this boy loves to be independent.
He’s so excited to have his own house but tbh he’s a slob!!!!
Eddie is always over bc “RICHIE U HAVENT DONE DISHES IN A MONTH”
“Eds it’s only been four days”
“YOU USE THAT MANY BOWLS IN FOUR DAYS”
Eventually Eddie just ends up sleeping over? all the time? cause Richie is so bad at adulting?
Eds has a permanent parking spot in the driveway
Yeah Richie isn’t complaining bc that’s his boy
At first they aren’t together
But u can’t just… be pals when ur constantly cleanin house together
Trust me it takes a special kind of love to scrub toilets as a team
Yeah so all the losers kinda just accept that they’re together bc… they’re meant to be
K so like they go on dates but they don’t call them dates per say
“Just 2 bros hangin out at a fancy restaurant (three tables apart cause they’re NOT GAY)”
“Rich stop”
Eventually they accept it and Eds asks Richie out officially
Cause Richie is still in denial like he loves this boy? How did he not know? WOW HIS EYES ARE SO BEAUTIFUL okay seriously how did he not realize
Eddie is beyond happy bc like they have their own place? And they’re boyfriends?
Bc as soon as they start datin Eddie is like boy BYE and ditches his mom’s place!!!
(Richie is hella thankful for him getting away from his mom)
(And Eddie’s general attitude/vibes perk up so much bc he’s not!!! In a toxic environment anymore!!!)
SO NOW IT’S BEEN MONTHS AND THEY’RE SERIOUS
Like, they make plans based on each other’s schedules bc they wanna hang out all! the! time!
“Sorry Stanley I’m hanging out with Eds on that day”
“Richie that day is THREE WEEKS AWAY”
Eddie high key always makes arrangements for things for the two of them
Like this boy is 100% the guy who uses “we” when answering questions
“Eddie, you wanna go to the movies with us?”
“We’d love to Mike!!!”
“I- okay. Yeah. Shoulda known.”
So it’s super late n they’re snuggling in bed, bein all lovey and stuff
And Eddie decides that he’s gonna stop using his last name
“Rich, I think I wanna change my last name.”
“To Tozier, I hope?”
“Why are you like this”
“Yeah but seriously if you wanna do that then go for it babe!!”
(Eddie lowkey already made an email account w/ Tozier as his last name just to try it. He liked it a lot indeed)
Richie is so supportive like Eds is pretty much completely in love w him at this point
Even when Eddie tried to take up scrapbooking.
“Literally no one likes scrapbooking why are you even doing this”
“Richie stop it, let me focus”
“Can I put glitter glue all over your face?”
“Richie no you’re an adult”
He most certainly signs his book (with glitter glue, at Richie’s request) as E.T. bc those are his initials now
And YES Richie makes so many jokes about it
“You know babe, your initials are E.T. now”
“Richie it’s three in the morning go to bed”
“ET PHONE HOME”
“RICHARD go to SLEEP”
Eventually Eddie’s driver’s license expires and it’s time for him to visit the DMV
Yes, he definitely signs his renewed license as Eddie Tozier
“Wait, Eds, have you had your name legally changed yet??”
“No?????”
“Then… isn’t that identity fraud??”
“Hey Tozier, why don’t you shut up and don’t get me arrested. Just say we’re married”
“Okay… Tozier (:< ” *HEART EYES INTENSIFY*
Eddie doesn’t mention it but suddenly everything in his life is Tozier Tozier Tozier!!!
He even orders his magazine subscriptions w/ Richie’s last name
“Babe did you subscribe to… Ryan Gosling Source Weekly??”
“SWEET MY MAGAZINES ARE HERE!”
“You… used my name to get magazines of ur celeb crush…”
“Ya and I used ur credit card so watch out for that on the bill”
Richie is still whipped™
So he’s like “well what would Eds want for our one year anniversary?”
And he gets AN IDEA
He’s like “ok let’s change Eddie Spaghetti’s last name legally” bc he actually wants him to be a Tozier!!
So Rich does all that legal stuff just for his Eds to have his last name be Tozier!
And when their one year is comin up Richie just puts the certificate in a lil box w some cute blue wrapping paper and has Eddie open it
Eds is like on the brink of tears he loves his boy? So much?
Yeah and later on they go on a nice dinner date and surprise surprise!
Richie gets down on one knee and Eds immediately is shook
Cue confused and a lil bit sad Richie
“BAbe i’m literally proposing what ru doin”
Eds WHIPS a little box out of his pocket and shoves it in his face
“I WAS GONNA PROPOSE TO YOU”
Everyone in the restaurant is laughing. So. Hard.
Like the whole freaking wait staff is just like “christ these two, whatta mess”
So they’re a mess and Richie puts the ring away so Eds can propose bc HE WANTS TO SO BAD
“Richie Tozier, we may already have the same last name but like, I can’t get enough of you so please marry me.”
“Yes of course I’m gonna marry you, Eds! I won’t let a bod like yours get away so easily”
“Richie literally I just proposed can you just,, not for like,, one moment please and put on the ring”
Richie demands his Own Proposal bc he wants to say he was the one that proposed
“Just think of it Eds… when my aunt asks us who popped the question we can both say “i did” and not be lying! It’ll be the perfect way to confuse my family!”
“Richie we just.. Got engaged u don’t have to do it a second time”
“EDDIE PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD LET MEEE”
Richie 100% does the whole friken… stands on a chair clinkin a glass
“I HAVE A DECLARATION TO MAKE”
“We all just saw you guys get engaged….”
“NO U DIDNT NOW STOP INTERRUPTING”
Eddie has never rolled his eyes harder
“Eddie Tozier… will u be my Eddie Tozier…. But like for reals now??”
Eddie is just that “I GUESS” meme
Yeah the whole restaurant claps, again
(Cause Richie demanded that they all clap for them again)
Eddie is blushin hardcore bc his boy is so extra?? How is he so lucky???
Richie makes a Big Show of putting the ring on him
He just somehow… does… like no one understands how bc it’s just a ring??
But like… he is so graceful abt it and its such a Soft gesture
Eddie feels like a fool bc he’s fumblin so much n almost drops his??
But Richie just smiles n says “You got this Tozier” <3
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sunsetsover · 5 years ago
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wait I just realised that if callum has the flat now and ben will be going there (in the future) how ben would feel like he’d be staying with Callum in the main bedroom but like I wonder if he gets emotional sometimes over paul and the memories or whatever and Callum’s like do you wanna y’all about it pls I can’t
yeah idk how i feel abt callum getting the flat bc on one hand why should whitney have to move out when, at the end of the day, she was the one who got cheated on.... but on the other where else is callum supposed to go...... like he could move back in with the carters in suppose, but they've already got a house full and idk i'm very conflicted about it to be honest... and then you add the paul/cokers relation into the mix and the whole thing makes me very :/
i think it would be very weird for ben spending time in that flat once him and callum get together. it'd be difficult for him too - i mean we saw how he reacted at the house warming, it was clearly hard for him to just be there. so if being there in the first place is hard, being there with callum - i.e. being there without paul, as someone else's boyfriend potentially - would probably be really hard for him. it'll churn up all sorts of feelings - guilt, grief, anger, sadness etc - and a lot of 'what if's too - what if paul was still alive? would ben be living here right now with him, the room that was once paul's now all done up for lexi? or would they have moved somewhere else? would they have split up? would paul be living here without him? with someone else?
i think it'd be something he'd struggle with quite a lot. i mean it'd be something i'd struggle with. and i think actually it could be something that could hinder their relationship quite a bit, at least within the walls of that flat. and because ben's either staying with his mum or with his dad, it's not like they'd have anywhere else private to go, so it’d basically be that flat or nowhere, if they want to be alone together. and ben would kind of lowkey just hate being there, because as much as he might like callum and enjoy his company, it's not enough to stop him from feeling like shit when he spends prolonged periods of time (spending the night/having sex i think would be particularly difficult) in the home of the man he loved so much and lost in such horrible circumstances.
and i think the fact that stuart's staying in paul's old bedroom would make ben livid. not necessarily at callum, but yknow........ it's fucked up that a violent homophobe is staying in the old room of a man who was killed by violent homophobes. that's really fucked up. that makes me angry, never mind ben. so yeah, ben would Not Be Happy about that!
and ofc callum would be understanding bc he's an absolute sweetheart. and also he can empathize, a little bit - he couldn't imagine going back to the army and back to the kitchen him and and chris trained in together and not expect him to come out of the fridge at any second with a big smile on his face, yknow? and that's not as an extreme, personal thing as this - the flat where paul lived, the room where ben had sex with a man for the first time, the places where they sat together, laughed together, talked together. and yeah he's seen glimpses of it, but callum can't imagine how difficult it must be to walk into that flat and not see paul or the life they had together. so callum doesn't hold it against it when he gets snappy or upset or straight up has to leave. he tries to be as supportive as he can, but it's hard because sometimes ben wants to be touched and other times he doesn't; sometimes he wants to talk and others he'll bite callum's head off for even saying paul's name. it's hard to know how to help ben when the things that help him are constantly changing, so he just tries to make sure he's there for ben, whatever he needs, and that ben knows that. tbh callum thinks it's kind of a miracle that he can even stand to be there in the first place, when he sits down and really thinks about it.
but ben really appreciates callum's patience with him. he thinks that callum is probably the most patient man on earth tbh, and he doesn't always feel like he deserves it, but he appreciates it all the same.
it would probably get easier over time. a lot of time, maybe, but it would. ben never really properly forgets, but it's nice once he gets to the point where he can be in callum's flat and not be thinking about paul the entire time and actually live in the present as opposed to the past. 
but i don't think ben would wanna live there full time so if they ever move in together they'd have to find somewhere new lmao
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therobinsonwayoflife · 7 years ago
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Unnecessarily Complicated (Speculative) Psychoanalysis of the MTR characters:
*basically these are headcanons because the original canon? not much to go off of tbh
so I’m only doing the three main (ish) characters although I’ve already talked a lot abt Michael and Wilbur here. 
Cornelius:
We know about him the most, from gawky self-depreacting childhood to freakishly collected adulthood so i can confidently say that he consistently seeks validation, covertly through his inventions. He will literally never say so out loud, not under oath, not with a gun to his head, not to anyone. But he craves attention and nothing is ever enough. He’s used to working to the bone until he gets what he wants to the point where when he does achieve something, he doesn't know what to do with it. Once he’s finished one invention he’ll start another, if one project is failing or starts to bore him, he’ll immediately loose sleep on moving on to the next thing. Though he likes to tout about his love of charity and using his inventions to help people, they’re also a means to an end: both to seek others’ attention, and to distract from thinking about himself too much. 
He doesn’t want to think about his flaws or his strengths, or his personality, or his vulnerabilities; it’s all about what he does. If someone were to criticise his inventions, that’s fine he’ll just work harder if someone criticises his behaviour or his personality it’s like hitting a brick wall. Of course if he cares enough about the situation he will find a way to adapt, he’s very stubborn and sometimes even obtuse but he’s a people pleaser at the end of the day. He simultaneously cares about pleasing everyone and asserting himself as an individual  than everyone in a very specific way. He loves rules and he’ll follow them to a T until he finds a way to break them and be better than everyone else. He never wants praise for anything that he personally didn't achieve or can’t control. Like if someone compliments him on his looks, he’ll call them vapid. 
Everything is a work in progress, something to figure out and this also applies to his relationships. After years of rejection and abandonment he’s immediately suspicious of everyone but if and when someone does gain his trust and peak his interest, he’ll start to analyse them and pull their personality apart until he  (thinks) he knows them. He can be very charming and finds all these ways to indirectly play his strengths to them, tailor himself to their personality, make all the gears mesh together. He’s really good at chasing after people but he’s also extremely self-conscious about seeming too clingy so he’ll compulsively avoid the very people he wants attention from. Like his work, once he does get someone to love him back he gets confused, like he never expected this to happen, he didn't plan this far ahead. He needs someone to tell him what happens next, else he’ll get bored and scared and hole himself up in the lab. 
He’s very driven and can become really hyper fixated on something he’s working on/any goal he’s working towards which often intimidates people, if they can’t keep up he’s likely to just leave them behind. And sometimes even justifies it by thinking its their fault they can’t follow, he can be very snobby. (i definitely think thats why he surrounds himself with people who share his intensity) He’s not necessarily confrontational but I think he enjoys the challenge of people picking a fight with him, like a debate.
Though as he gets older he becomes a lot more confident and calmer (and of course he has to for the diplomatic side of being a CEO and a parent) and he’s probably able to deal with everything much better and compartmentalise his work vs personal life and separate his identity from his projects. Partially due to his lingering abandonment fears, he’s very loyal to a select number of people. And when he makes the effort (which he sometimes forgets to), boy can he read people and emotionally empathise with them very closely. Slowly, he starts to learn how not to push things towards an indeterminate future and just hang out in the moment. 
Franny: 
Franny craves attention but it has to be in a very specific way: she goes out of her way to stand out and be The Weird Kid. If someone ever called her normal she would die. Be a musician? Be a scientist? Ew no. And anything that doesnt fit her carefully curated personality she’ll hide like a dirty secret. She pretends she doesn't care about people’s opinions, that she’s above it all, if someone doesn’t like her, it must be because her strong sense of individuality intimidates people and not because she actively pushes them away because she’s afraid of intimacy. She’s independent that way, or stubborn depending on the day. 
She’s very ambitious and very competitive. And if she decides that someone’s either boring or feels like hey don’t appreciate her enough, she cuts them off. Despite her warmth and friendliness, even to strangers, she can have a mean, no-nonsense personality and punish you for expectations she won’t admit she has. I doubt it’s very fun to be grounded by her.  
Of course, to the people she loves, she goes all out and remembers every single little detail about them so she can make perfectly tailored, personalised gifts or outings on their birthdays. She’s very good at remembering people’s  dislikes and their flaws and depending on the situation, will either do her best to avoid them or deliberately push their buttons to get back at them. She’s also very intuitive about people’s emotions, but she’s not always very open about all that insight, which she’ll keep to herself for safekeeping. 
Franny is a sort of in-between for cornelius and wilbur, she doesnt care about performance at least not ultimately and she doesnt concern herself with what people think of her or wether they’ll leave her, she’s constantly living in the future and thinking about the big picture. She doesnt plan either because she knows that after the plan, life goes on. She just wants life to be fun and interesting and while she loves analysing it and taking it apart, it’s  all a game to her, she just wants to laze around, eat chocolate and maybe travel to the world’s highest mountain and do something really impulsive . 
Wilbur:
I once considered climbing into the Discourse Ring and getting into a debate w someone over wether or not Wilbur’s a Slytherin but i thought better of it because we’re all going to die and Hogwarts houses are worse than the MBTI types and who cares it’s just fun. But for the record: i don’t think he is and the reason is simple; it’s because he’s not ambitious. He's too afraid to be. 
He's extremely intelligent, very witty and fairly adaptable to complete disaster. Everything for him is about performance, he’s a perfectionist and he goes out of his way to try everything: sports, checkers, math, sculpture, acting, knitting, gif-making. All the time and he has to be the best at everything he does but when he finds that there’s something he can’t do, he’ll dismiss it like nothing really matters in the grand scheme of it all. He doesn’t wanna say anything about it lest he confront his family’s gung-ho opinion on failure. And the thing is: the Robinson’s celebration of failure predicates an expectation of trying, of constantly working and you know what? He doesn’t want to try.  He’s too scared to go after anything and he’s certainly weighed down by all the unspoken pressure of having a famous family of prodigies. 
Sometimes he wishes there were rules he could follow so he could be the best at life but that doesn't really work with his family’s complete lack of boundaries. I think there’s a part of Wilbur that will never truly grow up and not just because he’s spoilt or that he’ll always be freakishly close with his parents but also because he’s still waiting around for people to tell him what to do. I have a very specific image of him as an adult doing weird shit to compensate for how immature he feels. Like, he’ll make his house all black, no colour, he wears a tux and slicks his hair back with GOBS of hairgel, he has a fancy car he never uses but likes to show off because look how clean it is! Of course, even though he thrives on rules and fulfilling expectations, he’s still very selective on what rules he’ll follow because again: if he thinks it’s dumb or if it’ll negatively impact his rep, he’s not touching it with a ten-foot pole. 
He’s very easily bored and gets distracted all the time (also hd him as having ADDD or ADHD). He’s deliberately getting himself into trouble and pushing people’s buttons as a way to act out. But again he’s very charming and very observant. He likes to play dumb but he’s secretly paying attention to everything about everyone and he knows exactly what will tick them off and what won’t. And given the right circumstances he can be a genuinely caring and empathetic person. 
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enstarsrequests-blog · 7 years ago
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hi um ,, im sorry to ask for this but ive had a hugely bad day and ended up almost running away from home but ,, can i request um HCs about Knights and how they'd handle an S/O w/ psychosis or really strict, tempermental parents ,,? or anything abt Knights tbh i love them theyre my babies
I had to go to this request right when i saw it,,, Don’t feel bad for asking!
I’m not that good at helping people in situations like this aa;; I usually get yelled at for being too positive,, but if you need help please just ask ! Just know I’m optimistic, and I mostly try to cheer people up rather than calm them down ,, But I hope you feel better ;; something good will happen to you, I promise! You just gotta keep fighting !! I’m here if you need me, okay? I know it’s hard to deal with these things, especially if you don’t have anyone that can help,, I hope these cheer you up a bit !!
Leo:
He’s extremely protective. He’s normally happy and cheerful like normal, but the moment their parents act up, he’ll immediately stand up to them, puffing out his chest as he stands protectively in between them and their parents. At these times, it’s suddenly obvious why he’s seen as a king.
Having been through a state of depression himself, he’d rather die than have his s/o experience something similar. He’ll do absolutely everything in his power to keep them happy.
Without even asking sometimes, he’ll just appear at their house overnight to sleep with them. He claims that he could tell something was wring from the “waves” they were sending out. If things look extra bad, he’ll drag them away to sleep at his house instead.
He always knows just how to cheer them up- whether it be through his antics, affection, anything; he always somehow makes them feel more optimistic. But he also knows when to just stay quiet, holding them close.
Sena:
He’s constantly worried about them. Seeing as how depressed they can get from their parents, he’s afraid that they might hurt themself, or by their parents. He’ll often call or text them whenever he gets too anxious about their well being, and he always makes them promise to tell him when something’s wrong.
If their parents do anything to them while he’s over, he’ll step in front of them and boldly tell their parents to stop, before taking them out of the house. He tends to be a little rude to their parents, but he couldn’t care less.
He’s not that good at consolation, but he’s willing to listen to their troubles. He’ll hold them close while promising he’ll never let them go. “In a few years, when I make enough money, we can have you move out. Then we can live together, and this’ll all be over,” he assured them. It’s a common thing for him to say. He’s doing his best to save as much money as possible, hoping he can make enough to allow them both to move out together.
Arashi:
Arashi is always able to cheer them up somehow. He’ll listen to them whenever they need it, and will offer all the consolation he can give. Seeing them down makes him down.
Usually he tries to take their mind off it. He’ll constantly take them out on dates, spending the day laughing together. That way they fele more energized when they get home; they’ll probably be able to deal with whatever may be coming better that way.
Arashi always calls them before bed, to make sure they’re alright. And he can tell if they’re lying. He’ll panic a bit if they come with bad news, and he’ll often stay on the phone with them for hours. He offers to stay until they fall asleep, or even let them come over, or go over to their place if they feel they need him there. He’ll do his best to make sure they’re happy, even with everything going on.
Ritsu:
Normally, Ritsu is tired and lazy, refusing to do anything. But the moment their parents do anything “irrational,” he’ll suddenly snap awake. He’ll ignore their parents, dragging them away. Often to go to his place to nap. What could be a better pick me up than letting Ritsu spoon them until they fall asleep?
Even when it seems like he’s not listening to them, I can assure you that he soaks in every word that comes from their mouth. If they ever start crying in his company, he’ll move to lick their tears away. Tears are slightly salty, like blood, so he likes the taste. Though he still doesn’t like when they cry, no matter how tasty it might be.
More often than not, they spend their nights together. Ritsu normally sleeps during the day, but he makes sure to kepe his phone beside him in case they call. As big of a baby as he can be, he’ll always baby them if they need it.
Suou:
Suou always gets extremely frustrated when he sees them down. He blames himself for it. He thinks that he’s unable to keep them happy. But he doesn’t really know what to do when their parents go off at them. He’ll panic a bit, before interrupting them and taking his s/o away.
When they feel down, Suou is quick to take them out to eat. He’ll buy them sweets, take them to a bakery, ice cream parlor, mostly places with sweets. Since he has a stress eating habit that normally helps him, he wants to believe that it’ll help them as well.
He tends to panic when they come to him for comfort, but he’ll always be willing to listen. He’ll spoil them with gifts and affection, hoping that he can be of any help. He never minds if they want to sleep at his place, to get them out of the atmosphere at their house. He admits that he’s not that good at keeping them happy, but he does a lot better than he thinks. And he always tries his best.
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