#i’m fine!

[ahappyphjl]

honey

[caffeinewitchcraft]

She says, “there is something deeply broken about you.”

The world tilts. A shiver starts in the pit of your stomach. She knows. She knows. She knows, but— What does she know?

Does she know that the person laughing over wine and fries isn’t your entirety? There is a patchwork of eldritch horror sewn tightly to the backside of your skin, a kaleidoscope of little evils that you must guard from escaping. The crumpled side of a silver sedan and the deep abyss of blood. The choked wheeze of one too many last breaths and the smell of salted asphalt. The heat of your own selfish tears and the chill of that small hand in yours.

How the fuck does she know? You smile and drink your wine. She doesn’t know that, she can’t know that so—

Maybe she knows you are a liar when you call yourself an optimist. Maybe she sees through you to that awful hunger that dying leaves behind in the living. Maybe she knows that your breaks are jagged. You are not sea glass, not pretty and collectible. You are a beer bottle smashed against the shore, waiting to rip open vulnerable feet. Maybe she knows—

You force yourself to speak. “How so?”

“In the best way,” she assures. Her eyes sparkle. “All the best people are broken.”

Your soul screams, I am not a good person. There is a crevasse inside of me that I am falling into, never to be seen again. I will hurt you in the end. Evils do not always announce themselves. There are mundane ones and I am one of them.

“I like to think of it as being creative,” you say.

“To being artists then,” she says and raises her glass for a toast.

You smile widens and you bring your glass to hers.

[loubetcha]

hahahaha something about the way scully doesn’t want to let go of mulder’s hand in redux II as opposed to fake samantha begging him to “let me go” hahahahaa something about the continuous blows to mulder when he keeps trusting and loving and believing only to be led astray and burned by those he cares about but not scully. never scully. she doesn’t want to let him go but she will because she can’t ask that of him because she knows he would stay they know each other’s minds they know what they’ll do and say so they’ll do what the other needs even and often at the expense of themselves and if i can save you let me but i can’t ask you to do that but they will ache and strive to save each other anyways and so desperately and precisely unlike anyone else could ever sustain nor ever has you’re my one in five billion-

[saderplate7]

yknow there’s just . there’s something about hearing twenty thousand people singing “i’ve gotta get better, im all that i’ve got” in unison that really rips your soul in half and then puts it back together again

[figothynewton]

It’s fine I’m fine the magnus protocol is actively making me want to rip my eyeballs out but I’m fine

[another-anime-daydreamer]

Sorry y’all it was a CRAZY DAY today after the hurricane at work. Which is what this message is about, an update. Everything is fine. The most we got was very strong winds and heavy rain. The eye of the hurricane actually passed right over our town. But thankfully no major damage where I live. Thank y’all each individually for your thoughts and prayers. It means a lot to me!

[alchemicalwerewolf]

Me anytime my mom wants me to go make friends

[peachesofteal]

thank you for creating dead disco, and a safe space for all those who identify with darling.

to you, peach, and all my fellow darlings out there, i love you.

Cries

Writing darling the way she is and seeing how other people relate to her/identify with her has been such a wonderful experience. You’re never really alone 🥲 all my love to you! 🖤

[gameyface46]

I have like 10 drafts ranting about the same thing, but like… too ranty. Let’s summarize.

Uh… hey other artists lol… how do y’all like… overcome a horrible sense of doom every time you think of doing art. I think this stems from a personal issue, but like… just checking if anyone else feels the same! ^_^

Like, do you ever get really demotivated when you are even thinking of doing art? Like, so demotivated your brain just shits itself?

How do you, like, overcome that? How do you get past that dread and just work. Some days, I feel like I would rather do anything BUT art… it’s exhausting, because I know for a fact work needs to be done, but I just can’t do it…

Also… do y’all have any like, good study tips for a former “gifted kid” who never learned how to study? I kinda just… breezed though my school years without studying, and now the breeze has slammed me into a brick wall lol.

You can tell I’m from california based on how many likes I just used.

[endersgayy]

I’m obsessed with how Shoma’s shoulder fits so perfectly under Stephane’s arm…

[bakerscars]

anyone else think about how peeta wanted to go back into the arena for the soul purpose of keeping katniss alive and so haymitch wouldn’t die … yeah … it’s fine

[slutforsilverfoxes]

This one goes out to my fellow med/vet/grad school homies ( @criminalskies I’m looking at u babe )

[puraiuddo]

so it turns out the reason I’ve been so much more nauseous than usual recently is b/c my stomach was herniated up into my diaphragm 🙃

so if you have a connective tissue disorder watch out for that* i guess, b/c I sure as shit didn’t know!

*severe nausea, cramping or discomfort high up just under your ribcage (as opposed to down low in the gut), and bad acid reflux. or just a general feeling like your stomach is creeping up your throat (a feeling which apparently I should have interpreted more literally)

[leosabi]

i’m incredibly glad i have my surgery consult next week because if i didn’t have something like that spelling hope for me i would be so unbearably fucking suicidal right now

[reputationmunson]

all my friends keep getting together and doing fun things but i never get invited 😃😃🤪🤪🤪😃😃🤪😃😂😂😂🤣😅🤣

[scream-cam]

eating a whole box of cupcakes convincing myself it’s because i’m celebrating phil’s birthday when we all know it’s because im severely unwell