#i’ll never get over her

[mossandfable]

✨🫧 Katie Rose Clarke 🫧✨

or: the queen of Glinda

[lycandrophile]

today, my coworkers’ refusal to see me as a man put one of our patients in a position where they felt unsafe for the third time. i’ve been at this job for less than two months total. i don’t even care about getting misgendered anymore, i just want the people we’re supposed to be taking care of to feel comfortable around me.

i work at a hospital where we have to supervise our patients in a lot of vulnerable situations. there are safeguarding rules in place for certain things that male employees aren’t allowed to be present for when it comes to female patients. and yet, the people training me and telling me what to do have repeatedly put me in situations where i’ve been forced to do things that the female patients aren’t comfortable with me doing. and because they have repeatedly failed to teach me the rules for doing my job as a man, i have no way of knowing when i’m crossing one of those lines unless one of the patients tells me.

i’ve had to watch a victim of SA stare at me in abject terror as my coworkers asked her to strip naked with me still in the room. it took several minutes for her to even be able to speak enough to ask if i could leave the room. i found out after that she broke down crying the moment i walked out. my biggest regret is that i didn’t realize what was happening fast enough to leave before she ever had to say something, because she shouldn’t have had to say it. i never should’ve been allowed in the room in the first place, because that’s not something male employees are supposed to be present for. but i didn’t know that yet, because i was training and i thought surely, they wouldn’t train me to do something that directly violated their own safeguarding rules. that moment was the first time, and it’s haunted me ever since, but it wasn’t the last time. not only did it happen for the third time today — it almost happened for the fourth, and would have if someone hadn’t spoken up to say they should pick someone else. i care for these people so deeply, it’s why i took this job, and i’m so tired of hearing the fear in their voices when they have to ask me not to do something i never should’ve been told to do.

i’m very used to the personal discomfort of being misgendered. i willingly deal with it a lot at work as well as in other situations, not because i’m in the closet (at this point in my medical transition that would be impossible), but because it’s such a frequent occurrence with my coworkers that we would never get anything done if i took the time to correct them every time. but to see it get to the point of causing such visceral discomfort in other people? people i’m supposed to be taking care of and keeping safe? that’s something else entirely, and i’m fucking exhausted.

and after all of that, some of them still look at me like i have two heads when they tell me what to do and i say “i can’t do that, only female employees can” because i’m learning now. clearly i’m already seen as a man by our patients, but my coworkers would still rather put them in an unsafe situation than just train me as a man.

[untimelyambition]

bryce charles as ella ashmore is THE best casting decision they could’ve made hands down. every one of her songs is so difficult vocally and she makes them sound beautiful and look easy. she has spot on comedic timing and sells all her one liners, then in multiple scenes of the same show she’s fully sobbing her eyes out and screaming in pain. she brings depth to her heavy scenes and light into her upbeat ones. her dramatic acting is FLAWLESS, she helps the audience understand the gravity of everything ella’s enduring even in a show with a lot of melodramatic and fantastical elements. ella goes through the widest range of emotional experiences by far and bryce nails the portrayal of each and every one - fear, rage, guilt, grief, elation, love, disgust, vengeance, hope. she has a clear stage presence and is able to hold her own when she’s the only one onstage. her dance numbers are beautiful and she nails all her (one million pieces of) choreography. and once again i have to comment on her vocals like you have to be SO GOOD to sing those songs as well as she did even once let alone for the full run of the show. if i sounded like her i would never shut up. bryce charles is the true definition of a triple threat and i knew i would be impressed by her performance as ella ashmore but wow. just wow. blown away doesnt even begin to cover it

[doc0bill]

nonono you don’t understand.

he will always seek to make it summer for her.

​he. will. always. seek. to. make. it. summer. for. her.

HE WILL ALWAYS SEEK TO MAKE IT SUMMER FOR HER.

HE. WILL. ALWAYS. SEEK. TO. MAKE. IT. SUMMER. FOR. HER.

[cori-randomstuff]

Sometimes I think about mcd Irene and Ahpmau’s doomed relationship with motherhood.

Aphmau is naturally drawn to children. She wants to be a mother. But every time she is forced to be absent from most of her children’s childhood. Because her responsibilities as lord and Irene reborn always come up.

Irene too, wanted children. And she got what she wanted, an adorable daughter with the love of her life. But when push comes to shove, she chose the world over her own daughter, destroying her relationship with her lover beyond repair.

Because at the end of the day, a mother and a goddess are different. A mother’s pours all their love onto their children. But a goddess is supposed to love the world, they can’t reserve their love for a select few.

Being a goddess and being a mother is mutually exclusive. Picking one means you can’t be the other. And Irene will choose being a goddess over being a mother every single time. She loves everyone and thus she can’t love anyone. And Aphmau will follow in her footsteps. She has no other choice.

[chrollogy]

[zaunbinary]

isn’t it so funny that zaunites get called creatures and monsters by two figures of piltover with authority and power and then we see the very same zaunites die alongside them wearing the uniform of their oppressors. and by so funny i mean completely fucking infuriating

[stone-stars]

a while ago i saw a post by @sideblogdotjpeg about how the cycles in c3 seem a lot more personal/familial. and i kind of went insane in the tags at the time and i’ve been thinking about it a lot since because like…

you have the heroic cycles that the band of boobs parallel/break on this large scale. the idea of these broken trios of adventurers is there throughout the campaign, but they really start to engage with it towards the end— with the divine hearts, and thiala, and the wheel of suffering/wheel of joy idea. the thing hardwon says as he takes the divine heart, that no matter what anybody chooses from then on it’s with love in their hearts, i feel is very relevant to how they break the cycle. they love each other, and they choose over and over to hold each other tighter rather than be driven apart.

and on the other hand, you have duck team’s refusal of fate vs their family’s resignation to it. look at swag working with mothership, oliana’s contrition, and the stuff that is currently ongoing with gowan. you know— sol is a version of swag who fully rejected mothership and found his friends instead. callie refused to be a part of her family’s business, and her love for the wild and the serpents is giving the world a chance. calder, when he makes the deal with ultrus, telling callie and sol that he trusts them to save him. and now calder is refusing to sit back and let gowan handle things in the ice knife.

it's not that duck team aren't trying to save the world. they are. and it's not that the boobs didn't have a personal connection to the cycles they were breaking. they did. but it's like... well... how do i put this into words. right--

the song melora's boon plays when the boobs arrive at the heart of the world and speak to melora. when she talks to beverly about duty, shows him the places he faltered and how at the last second, he gets back up. (later, when they face thiala, bev doesn't go unconscious once. at one point, he's the only one standing.) for sol, this is the song that plays when he expresses his fear of going down again. when he admits to callie that he's scared of the day that she and calder are down and he's the one that needs to stand up alone. when callie says she's not afraid of that day, and sol finds himself empowered by the mushroom in his chest. the moment that sets up sol's long death monk ability, where he's able to refuse to go down and keep on fighting.

melora’s boon is also the song that plays for moonshine’s boon at the heart of the world. there are actually two songs in this scene, hardwon’s is different, and the transition back happens when melora says there’s a part of herself that moonshine hasn’t embraced. when she speaks to moonshine leading her people to a better future like an alpha wolf leading her pack. for callie, it plays when she tells hardwon and sol that she’s a liability and she needs to change— to embrace winter— in order to get calder back, even as they reassure her that she doesn’t. it also plays when callie asks the others to help her protect honeysuckle while he’s weakened. when they promise to lead honeysuckle home and free him from his connections to gromdal.

the writing on the wall plays when the boobs reach the court of gods. there's the wall of prayers there, and they hear the prayers of the people of bahumia, reaching out to them. prayers of protection-- for and by them. prayers that put the future of bahumia in their hands. for callie, this is the song that plays when she sees aryox's carving of her reaching the cave. when she realizes her mother acted the way she did because she could see what was coming in the future. when she realizes her mother was leaving the world in her hands.

the songs that the boobs first encounter at the end— when they’re basically demigods stepping up to face thiala— return for duck team in these personal moments. when sol finds the strength to refuse death. when callie talks about embracing winter, her mother’s season, something she eventually finds strength in, to save her friend. when callie asks the others to help honeysuckle, one of the serpents that she’s promised to protect partially due to the harm her family caused to the wild. and when callie realizes her mother saw the future and acted as she did because of it, pushing callie to walk the path she’s walking now.

anyway. this was a post about naddpod music.

[angelnumber27]

It’s so embarrassing and heartbreaking being in so much pain over losing someone while knowing they don’t give a fuck if you live or die. Your favorite person becoming a stranger is a special kind of hell.

[feyres-divorce-lawyer]

it is in fact mourning feylin hours i fear

[myrddinthewizard]

sometimes i remember that s4 ep9 lancelot du lac exists and im filled with just unbridled rage. just the whole- i cant even put into words how this has kept me up at night like i genuinely think ive lost it. the fact that they will always remember lancelot, not as the most noble and kind man who sacrificed his life for camelot, but as the man who kissed gwen the day before her wedding day. the fact that gwen will never understand why she did what she did because she didn’t know she was enchanted and had to live with that guilt that wasn’t even hers. the fact that arthur will never know that gwen never really betrayed him and though he came to forgive her it’s still something that broke something irreparable in him after being betrayed time and time. oooh and the fact that merlin never told anyone what really happened and no one will ever know and that’s just the way it was and i-

[hobbithoes]

felt inspired af when I woke up and rlly thought I was gonna do a whole page of expressions today 😹😹😹

[karaspal]

I just remembered about the existence of the Supergirl Special #1 and I got annoyed again. So now I shall copy and paste the review I left in comic geeks.

Perhaps Mariko Tamaki should stay away from Kara. I’m yet to read a good Supergirl story from her. I get that this story has some message about girlhood somewhere in these pages, but it poses an issue Kara has never had. She has never felt like she’s falling behind. That’s not a part of her character. So why use her to tell this story?

Another problem I have is her risking the lives of innocent people, and for what? Because she is jealous of Karen? She’d never do something like that. Helping people has always been her number one priority. And she’d never be jealous of someone else. Especially someone who had their entire charm assassinated by Leah Williams.

Kara can be arrogant and stubborn sometimes, yes, but not in the way it’s presented here. She is arrogant and stubborn in the sense she wants to save everyone and would never stop, even if she’s on the brink of death. Call it the indomitable kryptonian spirit, if you will. Call it stupid stubbornness, if you will. But it is who Kara is. Sometimes she can feel like she’s the only one who can do what it needs to be done, to save the people who need saving, and yes, it is arrogant, but the reason she feels so is because she can’t have anyone dying on her watch. Those “toxic” traits of her come from a place of selflessness and compassion, not jealousy. Everything she is, it comes from a place of selflessness and compassion. She suffered so much in her life, you better believe she’d do everything in her power and more to make sure no one else has to suffer the same way she did.

Kara is a competent woman who knows what she is doing. She’s confident and strong. Phillip Kennedy Johnson once described her as always being “the smartest person in the room”. It still baffles me how DC turned PKJ’s Supergirl pitch down, but green lit this.

It’s been half a year and somehow, I hate this more than the day it came out. Perhaps, it’s because this is last Supergirl thing DC published and it was last year. It’s never too late to let PKJ write her, you know.

[saxifrage-wreath]

☹️

[angeltannis]

So Skybound Games is posting Reels on Facebook making fun of Sarah (TWDG) and calling her useless. Nice to see they’re carrying that torch of ableism from the Telltale writers

[aliceisaperson]

I fully believe Max’s type is freaky women who hate his guts