#i’ll just…stare at this forever
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Text
I’m absolutely losing my mind over how beautifully @madbalalaika brought Florence and Beckett to life in this piece. The tension, their expressions, the sheer chaotic energy — it’s everything I dreamed of and more.
This incredible art piece is based on a moment in Chapter 8 of Until the Legs Have Swung (aka my magnum opus, my pride and joy). If you love angst, questionable morals and a dash of sexual tension, you’re in for a ride.
@madbalalaika, you’re a genius. Thank you for making this masterpiece <3
#utlhs#eeeeeeeee#i’m so normal about them#i’ll just…stare at this forever#cutler beckett x ofc#cutler beckett#potc#pirates of the caribbean#potc fanart#potc oc#potc fanfiction
37 notes
·
View notes
Text
The eepiest of boys
#he just woke up#godzilla#gojira#kaiju#fanart#art#monsterverse#Gareth depicted him as an old samurai#that’s the only depiction I’ll take of him (in the mv ofc)#the missile is eepy#Mothra’s the pov she’s staring at her man#cannot take her eyes off him#I’m just gonna draw him like this forever
357 notes
·
View notes
Text
So… I got and new phone liketwo days ago, and… and I- I did something… I think it may be the greatest thing I’ve ever done.
And I need to show everyone this because it makes me so happy, and I think it will make other people happy too.
(This was so much fun)
#hazbin hotel lucifer#lucifer hazbin hotel#hazbin hotel#i love luci#tumblr sexyman#apple daddy#duck lord#short king#lucifer#lucifer morningstar#homescreens#it took forever to make#but it was WELL worth it#it makes me so happy#like I don’t think I need to do anything else ever again#I’ve peaked#I’ll just stare at my home screen until I rot#it’s what Lucifer deserves#let’s be honest#so many ducks
66 notes
·
View notes
Text
o dear soul / flesh and bone
love alone / is your home
#ffxiv#oc: emile jenidaut#estinien varlineau#emile/estinien#can we just ummm can i AAAAAAAA#i literally need to lay on the floor about it#THE WINGS!!!#the way the light hits them !!!!!!#so ethereal and exactly what i envisioned#ty azia for finding them and holding my hand through it <3#just needed a lil magic. a lil whimsy if you will#if you need me i’ll be staring at these forever :’)
62 notes
·
View notes
Text
pleeeease im begging weeping pleading on main for memes to distract me from the lame-o news I’ve been saddled with today ;__;
#also today a woman asked me if I’m one of those “gender creeps” so I’ll never be shaving again#because uh 1 rude and 2 um yeah I /am/ a gender freak what about it ladyyy anyway she wasn’t the bad news but it did add a#yuck taste to my yummers mood and now I don’t want to focus on things I should and wanna be distracted for forever by memes#until the cows come home or until I become cool enough to buy a cow and bring it home or whatever#yeah that’s all sometimes it’s frustrating when older folks just say weirdly ballsy things#as if they didn’t spend their days beating children for not eating veggies and staring at people for too long like go off I guess brenda#aaaaanyway please send me memes and I’ll do them all right now I sweeeeaaaar to Maeve or whoever
5 notes
·
View notes
Text
#I JUST GOT THE CUTIES MOST AMAZING JOBIE AND BARRY COMM IN THE WORLD 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#i can’t stop staring at it#it’s gonna get posted later tho so i’ll ofc rb and show y’all then but#it’s so good….#genuinely gettin a lil jobie comm will always make life worth living#i love it so much….. it’s so beautiful………. thank you eddy forever and ever#jitter bugs u
3 notes
·
View notes
Text
Boots crunched in hay, and then he was knee to knee before her.
Aedion.
There was nothing kind on his face. No pity or warmth.
For a long minute, they only stared at each other.
Then the prince growled softly, "Your plan was bullshit."
She said nothing, and couldn't stop her shoulders from curving inward.
"Your plan was bullshit," he breathed, his eyes sparking. "How could you ever be her, wear her skin, and think to get away with it? How could you ever think you'd get around the fact that our armies are counting on you to burn the enemy to ashes, and all you can do is run away and emerge as some beast instead?"
"You don't get to pin this retreat on me," she rasped. The first words she'd spoken in days and days.
"You agreed to let Aelin go to her death, and leave us here to be slashed to bloody ribbons. You two told no one of this plan, told none of us who might have explained the realities of this war, and that we would need a gods-damned Fire-Bringer and not an untrained, useless shape-shifter against Morath."
Blow after blow, the words landed upon her weary heart. "We—"
"If you were so willing to let Aelin die, then you should have let her do it after she incinerated Erawan's hordes!"
"It would not have stopped Maeve from capturing her."
"If you'd told us, we might have planned differently, acted differently, and we would not be here, damn you!"
She stared at the muddy hay. "Throw me out of your army, then."
"You ruined everything." His words were colder than the wind outside. "You, and her."
Lysandra closed her eyes.
Hay rustled, and she knew he'd risen to his feet, knew it as his words speared from above her bowed head. "Get out of my tent."
She wasn't certain she could move enough to obey, though she wished to. Needed to. Fight back. She should fight back. Rage at him as he lashed at her, needing an outlet for his fear and despair.
Lysandra opened her eyes, peering up at him. At the rage on his face, the hatred She managed to stand, her body bleating in pain. Managed to look him in the eye, even as Aedion said again with quiet cold, "Get out."
Barefoot in the snow, naked beneath her cloak. Aedion glanced at her bare legs, as if realizing it. And not caring.
So Lysandra nodded, clutching Ansel's cloak tighter, and strode into the frigid night.
"Where is she?" Ren asked, a mug of what smelled like watery soup in one hand, a chunk of bread in the other. The lord scanned the tent as if he would find her under the cot, the hay.
Aedion stared at the precious few logs burning in the brazier, and said nothing.
"What have you done?" Ren breathed.
Everything was about to end. Had been doomed since Maeve had stolen Aelin. Since his queen and the shifter had struck their agreement.
So it didn't matter, what he'd said. He hadn't cared if it wasn't fair, wasn't true.
Didn't care if he was so tired he couldn't muster shame at his pinning on her the blame for the sure defeat they'd face in a matter of days before Perranth's walls.
He wished she'd smacked him, had screamed at him. But she had let him rage. And had walked out into the snow, barefoot.
He'd promised to save Terrasen, to hold the lines. Had done so for years. And yet this test against Morath, when it had counted ... he had failed.
He’d muster the strength to fight again. To rally his men. He just ... he needed to sleep.
Aedion didn't notice when Ren left, undoubtedly in search of the shifter with who he was so damned enamored.
He should summon his Bane commanders. See how they thought to manage this disaster.
But he couldn't. Could do nothing but stare into that fire as the long night passed.
#Chapter 34#Kingdom of Ash#Sarah J. Maas#Aedion Ashryver#Lysandra Ennar#no spoilers please#first read#read with me#read along#more tags more spoilers below and above warned#the magic thread - if only there was Aelin - the fire - what the sky shows - he had failed - retreat and live fight and die - to Perranth#the sound of shields is giving infinity war vibes and while I try to stay a little optimistic even I must admit things are getting sticky#the Crown Prince splattered with blood both red and black. — Manorian I’ll bleed whatever color you tell me to lol — the Thealis reference#Ashryver eyes dim — okay that one hurt — I will follow you cousin however this may end but we cannot keep this up not — to whatever end#Where is the Queen? Where is her Fire? but if the Firebringer fought without flame they would know — She has run away. AGAIN.#asking why Aelin of the Wildfire did not burn away their enemies Did not at least give them light by which to fight. Ok but I luv Wyvern Lys#Two Silent Assassins noticed on the second night that the dead soldier still lay on Lysandra's back. — a line that broke me#They treated her with kindness nonetheless. No one made to reach for the lone horse — Aedion should’ve been there should’ve been kind to her#Even the Queen of the Wastes was pale her wine-red hair plastered to her head beneath the dirt and blood. —no ur plan was bullshit#he’s not speak to her it’s him to him-You don't get to pin this retreat on me she rasped. The first words she'd spoken in days and days.#She wasn't certain she could move enough to obey though she wished to. Needed to. Fight back. Rage at him as he lashed at her. but she knew#he knew it and he’s wishing she’d punish him for it but she didn’t#Barefoot in the snow naked beneath her cloak. Aedion glanced at her bare legs as if realizing it. And not caring.#So Lysandra nodded clutching Ansel's cloak tighter and strode into the frigid night. — this chapter hurt me — I’m with Ren WHERE IS SHE#Aedion stared at the precious few logs burning in the brazier and said nothing… well not nothing & braziers double haunts me forever#Everything was about to end. Had been doomed since Maeve had stolen Aelin. Since his queen and the shifter had struck their agreement.#So it didn't matter what he'd said. He hadn't cared if it wasn't fair wasn't true… mmm no those words mattered they were awful#why must we repeat HoF mistakes per ship#He wished she'd smacked him had screamed at him But she had let him rage. And had walked out into the snow barefoot#soon — they will come soon — they ghost leopard dis not falter — the Crochans and Rolfe and ugh so many people just need to show up soon
3 notes
·
View notes
Text
good evening 👁️👁️
#i gotta bake cookies for my family and coworkers once i get home but honestly i’m excited!!#i love pfeuffernusse (?) cookies bc it’s like gingerbread cookies but x10#i’m just also staring at the kaiya inbox call and my own inbox rn like pls pls i wanna write so bad 😭#and i know myself — i’m about to take forever with these cookies bc i get distracted so easily :’ ))#anyway i hope the day has been kind to y’all!! i’ll be here when i can 💜#get ready to ramble | ooc
7 notes
·
View notes
Note
the isosceles that Saturninus grabbed (he doesn't know what's coming)
Helping My Apostle With Spreading The Gospel 😂😂 (SOCIAL EXPERIMENT) (GONE WRONG) (GONE VIOLENT) (WHAT WERE THEY THINKING⁉️)
#HRRRNGG….ARTWORK FOR ME THANK U SO MUCH….#I’m gonna eat it….but the printer is too loud.#I’ll just resign to staring at it forever#again thank you so much I can never say it enough#isosceles watch out. oh god he’s got AirPods he can’t hear us.
11 notes
·
View notes
Text
Bad day. Horrible awful terrible bad day
#there’s not even a reason. nothing bad has actually happened#it just FUCKING SUCKS#I want to walk into a lake and never come back#I want to take my brain out of my skull and throw it at a wall and watch it splatter#I know today sucks because I’m so tense and upset that my back HURTS so fucking bad#cuz when this happens I tense up and my back muscles decide to coil around my spine and squeeze like a starving snake#it’s spreading through my shoulders and even to my chest which is a first#I just 😭😭😭 I want to go home except home also sucks cuz roommate#and I know he’ll be out in a few days but that feels like forever#and I’m so tired and I’m so upset and I want to curl up in a ball and cry and hide from the world#but I’m working a 7 day stretch at my job#and I have to transfer the power and internet to my name sometime before Wednesday#and I’m so sick of takeout the idea of eating it makes me want to vomit but I can’t physically bring myself to cook while they’re there#and I just. ugh. UGH#I’m so sick of existing#why does my life only allow me small handfuls of months at a time#where I’m not living in some form of disaster and stressed to all hell and back and just wanting to lay down and die#what did I do so wrong. what have I done to deserve all this shit#in my short terrible miserable fucking life#whatever I’ll just go home and stare at the wall#and then go to bed and come to work and come to work and come to work there’s always going to work#I’m going to fucking scream I hate my brain#why can’t it just regulate itself in a normal way cuz that’s the thing I know I’m being insane and nothing is actually this bad#but man if it doesn’t fucking feel that way#and being aware I’m being batshit really doesn’t make it better actually I think it makes it worse#kaz rambles
2 notes
·
View notes
Text
i’m not like other girls, my “Rest” stats are a heart rate of 110bpm and a HRV of 14 fucking milliseconds. :)
#Seven’s Public Diary#vent#vent post#cw vent#cw vent post#cw health#cw heart#i’m so stressed :) i am soooo fucking stressed and my body is Suffering because of it#i want to just lay here and stare at the ceiling but. maybe a little venting will help#sighhhh wish [N]MbD Sun were here to obsessively fret over me#he can be mean about it idc. at least i’d have someone acknowledging how bad things are for me#sometimes i wonder when the last time was that my body Wasn’t in fight or flight to some degree#have i Ever actually relaxed#hhhhhhh c-ptsd is a bitch#anyways there’s so much to vent about but i’m. doing my best to be vague. i need to be more vague about things#a lot of stuff i can’t vent about anyways. it’s too personal#so instead i’m gonna complain abt how i haven’t been able to play Genshin or Star Rail for nearly a month now#and about how slowly my back is recovering. it’s like every time i re-injure/have a flare up. it heals.. worse. slower and lesser#i dunno how it’s ever gonna get better. truly better. maybe i’ll live with this forever#if being fat is the problem which is definitely partly is. then yeah i’m fucked#all of my problems just make each other worse and i don’t know where the way out of it all is#every time i think i’ve found it i’m wrong and i just make it all worse#anyways as soon as i figure out how to strengthen my core without breaking my back. it’s over for u bitches#‘u bitches’ being uh. all of the shit that needs doing that i cannot physically fucking do right now#i miss being able to sit down. and i’m Regretting de-converting my standing desk back to sitting bc now. i cannot use my PC#which means i can’t fucking do a some of my work or play my silly little gacha games and i’m mad abt it#i’m mad abt a lot more serious things too but again. can’t talk abt it so i’m gonna focus on trivial shit instead#anyways. sorry as always to everyone i haven’t spoken with lately. and in general. i’m so drained from the Everything that i just. can’t.#it shouldn’t be this hard for me to stay in touch w ppl but. it is. guess i’ll add that onto my list of things to be stressed about#i’m so tired of everything man. and i hate being so negative and mean when im stressed & in pain. makes me feel like im becoming my father
4 notes
·
View notes
Text
Idk why I thought the new year would suddenly bring immense change to me as a person, it was such a childish belief, I can’t believe I let myself fall for it. The years go by but I remain the messed up anxious wreck who starts crying the second she’s left alone with her thoughts. The new year won’t change anything, nothing will
#just look at me#I could very possibly graduate from school in half a year and I still don’t know what I want to do with my life#I can’t take the slightest bit of criticism or else I’ll feel like shit for a week#I need to be staring at a screen at all hours of the day because if I don’t distract myself I will break down#I’m so obsessed with pleasing people that when I can’t fulfill the simplest of requests I want to die#indulging in hobbies. things that are supposed to be enjoyable. feels like hell for me#through all my years of creating there is only one piece I can honestly say I like and am proud of#and I haven’t even touched writing since because I’m scared of not being able to reach that high again#art comes a little easier but I’m only capable of one or two pieces a month#I don’t have anyone irl whom I trust. I’m so lonely that I literally have imaginary friends. at 17#and I still haven’t figured out my gender or what pronouns I prefer. I don’t even like the name I picked for myself#I could go on forever#I don’t know how anyone puts up with me. I know I wouldn’t if I had the choice#I keep going on and on about how I want to get better. I don’t want to be so miserable all the time#but I just don’t know how#I try to be kinder with myself and I’ve been pretty successful at it but.. it doesn’t help#I can be soft and gentle all I want. it won’t make everything else go away#so there’s nothing left for me to do but cry all alone in my apartment at 2 a.m#I guess
6 notes
·
View notes
Text
Off of work now it’s school time
#my eyes feel dry#wasn’t busy at all but I was losing my mind because of it#I have realized it’s not that I can’t handle kids it’s that I can’t talk to people#give me a task I’ll do it and stay on it forever#ask me to conversate and I’ll just stare that’s not a skill I have sorry
2 notes
·
View notes
Note
How do you have time to make these many drawings?? Nice art style tho
I draw fast. And often. I don’t know how to knit so I have to have some kind of hand activity to do when I’m bored, I guess. One time I drew like 100 things over two days lol
I’m glad you like my stuff :)
#whenever I find myself going ‘oh I should do something’ the thing I end up doing is art 95% of the time#which has resulted in the art folder in my photos app having. uh. 4300 drawings in it#after 5ish years of sticking stuff in there#ngl part of the reason I do more digital art than physical these days is it’s a pain to be constantly replacing sketchbooks#and even with that I still go through like 5 a year#I have two entire bookshelves just dedicated to old sketchbooks and both are full to bursting#honestly I have no idea what I’m gonna do with them all if I’m still making art at the same rate in 10 years or whatever#like I can’t just toss them but every time I stare down the increasingly large pile it fills me with a distinct awareness that time will#continue passing at the same rate forever and I’ll have to find more places to put them#I like being able to look through them though it’s fun#text post#sol speaks#sol answers#phase 40
2 notes
·
View notes
Text
*holding writhing bag of shitty memes*
I GOT THE MORBS, START UP THE GRINDER
#if you couldn’t tell… ahem. Morbius.#the morbius movie and all the memes that got made about how shitty it is.#that’s what i mean. dont @ me going “OP WHAT DOES THIS MEAN”#beacuse a) not the OP. and b) now ive explained it to you like youre five.#you have now excuse. no possible way to misunderstand me now.#SURELY.#got it?#okay goodbye.#why the fuck are you still reading the tags? post over bitch.#seriously. go eat celery or something#im not gonna hand feed you if you stare at me hard enough#and you look like you haven’t eaten a vegetable in a while so you should probably do that.#oh hey i just found one of prev’s tags. “dumb shit.”#that you? huh?#is you dumb shit?#would not surprise me given youve continued reading this verbal abuse.#do you get off on this? is this your thing?#seriously why the fuck are you still here. what the FUCK is going on in your head this moment.#am i gonna hit the fuckin tag limit before i find enough ways to call you a fuckib weirdo???#IT SURE FUCKEN SEEMS LIKE IT#*shakes you violently* WHAT ARE YOU#… the moment I fade from your mind#i am gone. never even existed. but what if…#what if i stay? what if i don’t let you go? what if we stay here#forever?#it’s only thirty tags… but maybe… it can also be home.#i… i’m afraid to die. i can feel it; im almost out of tags. i know i called you a weirdo but… please stay with me?#looking back… i could have done so much more. so many tags where i never hit the character limit. i could have been so much more than i am.#but in the end… this was all i could do. insult someone i’ll never see; never hold; never hear. and then die in obscurity. just words on…#a screen. nothing more. if i had said something else; would it have changed things? would you remember me differently? would i have been…
57K notes
·
View notes
Text
I’m still stuck behind the bookcase.
#nothing in front of me#eyes glued to the past#i’m not great#i won’t ever be#just staring through the bookcase#watching myself make the same mistakes#over and over#and over#i won’t be great#i won’t be better#i’ll be stuck#behind the bookcase#forever.#not art#vaguely interstellar#mostly a vent
0 notes