#i‘ve been so obsessed

[puppygirl-gwyn]

concerning my recent TMA obsession

so… a year ago, i had dropped TMA after finishing the first 44 or so episodes. Only recently (meaning exactly two weeks ago), did i start listening to the podcast again.

today, i got to season 5 (currently at MAG 164). i‘ve been keeping track of all the connections using obsidian.

[orange-dreamzer]

I am very genuinely thankful to my ex bff leaving me. Best thing that has happened to me fr

[eternalbuckley]

⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖ WISTERIA VINES. (series)

���୧ — It's the idea of a deep, romantic and emotional connection you once shared with someone. Wisteria vines symbolize romance and connection. They grow slowly but steadily and represent the patient process of reconnection and understanding. Vines grow in an intertwining way and can reflect a bond between two people and how they grow stronger together. The flowers bloom in spring which symbolises new beginnings, meaning that two people can grow a once shared bond again.

SUMMARY: You have been selected to portray the role of Juliet for the upcoming ballet ballet shows of Romeo and Juliet, which are set to be performed in three months. Which means you have to find yourself in a position to portray your role at the side of your ex-boyfriend and former dancing partner, Aemond Targaryen. Whom happened to have been selected as the role of Romeo. Things between you have been left in a friendly but strange place and given to the circumstances you'll have to find yourself spending most of your time together with him. Old feelings for each other remained between you since your breakup and might find their way back to each of you. What happens if one of you puts your somewhat left friendship and the production at risk for unsaid left feelings?

warnings/tropes: 18+ mdni, modern au, best friends brother, ex lovers to possible lovers, yearning, tension, chapters may contain sexual topics, fluff, angst, smut, and more! it's implied fem!/afab!reader (especially the smut parts) but i try to be as gender neutral as possible, they/them pronouns are used if needed, english is not my first language! (each chapter has its own warnings)

Chapter 1: Your Romeo. Your Juliet. | tiny bit of angst, 4,415 words

Chapter 2: Title not decided yet // coming soon

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taglist for this series — i won't be able to upload a new chapter each week but i try to post reguarly ♡ (I'm using an extra taglist for this series, so if you want to be notified when i post a new chapter, please fill out the taglist! You don't have to do that if you're already on my main taglist but if don't want to be notified for the series please let me know!)

a/n: i am certainly no professional or have ever experienced dancing ballet myself. all my knowledge is from research and interest in itself. so, there might be things that make no sense, aren’t completely correct or whatsoever — it‘s just fiction so don’t think about it too much, please. i came up with the main idea because of my obsession with classical music i‘ve been having for the past months and because of a post from my angel @peachysunrize made a few months ago about an ex lovers!ballet au, which is the background idea for this series, hehehe. anyways, happy reading! i hope you‘ll enjoy reading this series which is my precious little baby! xx remember that reblogs, feedback and comments are highly appreciated and welcomed! ♡

disclaimer: please do not repost or try and take ownership of my work or post this anywhere without my consent. do not translate my work and post it anywhere — i give you no permission to do that. i don’t give you my permission to use my writing for any ai related things, don’t do it. do not plagiarise or try to take ownership of my work. i only post my stories here, so if you find my work anywhere else please let me know! i do not own the rights of any characters are involved in this series (unless i created them)

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[vortexbloom]

𝕃𝕚𝕥𝕥𝕝𝕖 ℝ𝕒𝕓𝕓𝕚𝕥 ❆

𝕄𝕒𝕤𝕥𝕖𝕣𝕝𝕚𝕤𝕥 - 𝔾𝕖𝕟𝕤𝕙𝕚𝕟 𝕀𝕞𝕡𝕒𝕔𝕥

𝔹𝕠𝕪𝕔𝕠𝕥𝕥 𝕃𝕚𝕤𝕥

Pairing: Yandere Dottore x Female Reader

Fandom: Genshin Impact

Warnings: Dottore, Yandere themes, forcing, spying, syringe, 1x curse word, obsessiveness (tell me if I forgot anything)

English isn’t my first/native language, so there might be misspellings etc.

Also, I do not own any Characters like Dottore !

Anyway, have fun reading this :)

You slowly opened you eyes, realizing, that you’re not at home, but rather in a lab, tied to some kind of hospital bed.

The first thing you did was trying to free yourself from the bed, but of course, it was no use, since the ropes were way too tight.

Still trying to free yourself, you didn’t hear the door of the lab opening, being way too focused on your useless attempts.

"I see, the little rabbit finally decided to wake up, hm? But just so you know, you’re just wasting your energy."

Hearing the sudden voice, you stopped trying to free yourself. Finally seeing the man that was leaning against the wall, being amused at your little attempts.

Looking more clearly at the man, you finally realized who he was. It was Dottore, known as the Doctor and the second of the 11 Fatui Harbingers.

At first, you two just stared at each other for a few minutes. The staring situation felt a bit weird, so you decided to finally talk and break the silence.

"Why am I here?…"

Dottore just chuckled, clearly hearing the fear and nervousness in your voice.

"No need to be scared, little rabbit. After all, I would never do anything bad to you."

You rolled your eyes after getting that he was just mocking you. The situation you were in wasn’t the best, but you knew better than to show your fear.

"I‘m serious, why am I here?"

Dottore walked closer, now standing next to the hospital bed that you were tied to.

"Bold now, are we? I like that. But to finally answer that question of yours, you’re here because I specifically ordered some of the Fatui Soldiers to bring you to me."

"But why? I mean…..I know that you’re doing experiments on humans, but why would you specifically ask for me?"

Dottore just grinned wickedly and caressed your cheek with his gloved hand. His touch was surprisingly tender. Deciding to stay quiet, you waited for his answer.

"Let’s just say, I had my eyes on you for a while now. And to ease your worries, I‘m not gonna experiment on you, unless you want me to~"

You didn’t know if you should feel more nervous or feel better after hearing that he won’t experiment on you. After all, you knew better than to trust this Psychos words and fall for his tricks.

"You had your eyes on me? Have you been fucking spying on me?"

Dottore ignored your questions and decided to free you from the bed instead. After you got up, he finally started talking again.

"Yes, I did have my eyes on you for a while, after seeing you at the market for the first time. You piqued my interest, little rabbit. And no, I didn’t spy on you, it’s not like I‘ve got enough time anyway. I made some Fatui Soldiers do it for me instead."

You stepped back a bit, creating some distance between the two of you.

"Making others do the spying for you ain’t gonna make me feel better."

Dottore stepped a bit closer, being close enough to put his arms around your waist. Your breath hitched at the closeness.

"W-What‘re you doing? Get away from me, now."

You tried pushing him away, but it was no use, since he was physically stronger than you.

"You’re just wasting your energy, little rabbit."

Knowing that he was right, you stopped trying to push him away.

"What now, huh? What exactly do you even want from me?"

Dottores grip on your waist got a little bit tighter, to the point where it even hurt a bit.

"What I want? Well, I want you, little rabbit. I want you to be mine, completely and utterly mine. To be more clear, you’re gonna stay with me.

His answer was kinda unexpected and your brain was not braining at this point.

"What do you mean by that now? You can’t just expect me to leave my life behind and stay with you instead. And no, I‘m not gonna be yours."

Dottore pulls out a syringe and holds it near your neck, injecting you with some kind of liquid.

"Oh, little rabbit, who said that you’ve got a choice in the first place? But anyway, we‘re gonna talk about all of this after you wake up again. After all, there’s no use in explaining everything to you now, when you’re so panicked. Sleep well, little rabbit."

These were the last things you heard before falling into another slumber.

Should I make a Part 2?

Have a good day/night/evening/morning/afternoon ☼꥟☽

[bravo4iscool]

i‘ve been asked to give this little ‚false signs‘ thing a happy ending and while i believe that i can‘t do that since this piece of work from me is a little too personal and based on real events (lol) i want to give you a kind of ‚ending‘ nevertheless.

people i thought might want to be tagged - @samthereader1 @alittlejudgemental @lilliumrorum

(masterlist | false signs masterlist)

REQUESTS/ASKS OPEN!!!

it was the evening of the marine ball and well, you weren‘t going. you decided so the very second simon told you he‘s got someone else. perhaps it was childish but he hurt your feelings and you couldn‘t just ignore the way your heart shattered to pieces.

so, you sat in front of your tv, watching the lastest season of bridgerton (please don‘t blame me guys, i‘m OBSESSED with this series😭) and nibbling at a bottle of water. it was safe to say that you were surprised when there was a knock on your door.

you scrambled to your feet and walked over to your door, opening it. „simon,“ your hand tightens around your door knob, your knuckles turning white. „what are you doing here?“

„‘taking you t‘the ball,“ he simply says with a slightly tilted head. „why‘re y’not ready?“ he wants to know, pushing himself past you into your flat. he turns around, eying you. „get ready.“

you stare at him for a second before you close the door. „no.“

„what ‘no‘?“ he frowns.

you plant your hands on your hips „i said no, simon.“

„but why?“

„because i am tired of being the second choice, alright?“ you try not to spit it into his face, balling your hands into fists beside you. „i don‘t want your pity simon! i don‘t want to only be considered because you feel guilty!“ you take a deep breath and try to calm down.

he searches for your eyes and takes a step in your direction. „you‘re not-“ he starts but you raise your hands to stop him.

„don‘t try to talk yourself out of it now. you‘re making it worse. i‘ve accepted the fact that i won‘t be someone’s number one but i don‘t need a constant reminder of it. you wouldn‘t have thought of me if i hadn‘t mentioned it at all, i want it to stay that way. just leave me alone, okay?“

he doesn‘t want to leave you alone. he wants to- he doesn‘t know what he wants…

„but-“

you sigh and massage the bridge of your nose. „leave simon, please. take her to the ball and be happy. i‘m fine.“ you know you‘re lying to yourself but you always have done it, no? lying to yourself, manipulating yourself… it‘s all you know.

he doesn‘t know what to say at that. he keeps still and eyes you. he knows he fucked up; he can see it your eyes and he hates himself for it.

„i‘m sorry,“ he says before he strides over to you to take you in his arms. „‘m sorry…“

you relax into his arms, hiding your face in his chest. „don‘t be. it‘s…alright.“

[pandorxxx]

Who’s side are you on?

For a better reading experience, listen to Too Late by Chase Atlantic.

[im clearly obsessed with chase Atlantic. Also, the song has nothing to do with the story, but that’s what I was listening to when I was editing this💀]

Neteyam(21) x omayicayan fem reader (20)

Warnings: SMUT THE HOUSE, slight daddy kink, breeding kink, oral, p in v, rough sex, cursing.

🔞Minors, do not interact🔞

Synopsis: Neteyam is mad about the recent incident with his brother and father. He confides in you, but you side with lo’ak. He doesn’t like that too much, and decides to teach you a lesson.

“Y/n I can’t do this shit anymore!” Your mate storms in with a look of rage. He throws his ionar (riders mask) to the ground with a loud hiss.

He paces the room with loud breaths, flexing his muscles with every inhale and exhale.

You stand slowly, walking towards him hesitantly as you have never seen him like this.

“What is the matter, Neteyam?” You ask calmly, palming his flexed bicep as he looks down at you with angry eyes.

“Lo’ak!! He almost got us killed today. I took responsibility for it as I always do, but I always end up getting punished, or scolded. I just cannot take it anymore” he yells as he starts pacing again.

He growls loudly before punching a hole into the hut wall. You jump slightly at the impact. He was scaring you. He’s been mad before, but never this mad.

He turns to look at your demeanor for a moment. Your breath hitched, lips slightly parted as you watch your mate go completely feral.

“ i-I’m sorry y/n…I don’t mean to scare you, I just get so mad at lo’ak. It’s like he does this shit on purpose. Why does he have to make everything so hard?” he says as he plops down on the cot with his head in his hands, rocking back and forth with low growls rumbling in his chest.

You are still scanning his demeanor, not knowing wether to run, stand still, or comfort him. As his mate, you chose the latter. You take a seat next to him on the cot as you place your delicate hand on his shoulder.

“I-I’m sorry this is happening to you, my love. Maybe you should just tell lo’ak how you feel about this situation. He is the younger brother, so he’s going to get into a lot of shit that you have to get him out of. That’s just how younger siblings are.” you say through shaky breaths, immediately regretting your statement.

He snaps his neck at you, anger behind his eyes. He sits up from his previous slouched position.

“Are you taking his side y/n? Please don’t tell me you’re taking his side. Don’t make me take my anger out on you.” He says through gritted teeth, poking you in your chest.

Your body heated up at his response. You push your thighs together slightly, breathing raggedy, as you tried so desperately to hide your nervousness. However, he noticed.

He stands up slowly, keeping eye contact with you. He shifts his body to the front of you as you still sit on the cot, looking up at him.

You couldn’t deny how much his anger turned you on. He looks down at you with a tilted head, and a dark glare.

“Teyam, I didn’t mean t-“ you were cut off as you tried to touch him, and he immediately slapped your hand away.

“No…you meant what you said” he leans down, slowly pushing his fist into the cot on either sides of your thighs. He is now nose to nose with you as he glared at you. Nothing but anger and lust in his eyes.

“And I meant what I said, I’m going to ruin you.” He growls before standing back up, towering over you as you sit on the cot.

“I‘ve had a very long day, and you’re going to make it better…on your knees, now.” He says as he palms his hard cock through his loincloth.

You oblige as you scramble to get on your knees in-front of him. You look up at him with a frightened gaze, but he couldn’t care less.

He looks down at you as he takes his loincloth off. His hard cock springs out causing you to jump slightly.

You just stare at it for a moment, admiring the precum oozing out of the tip. A harsh grab to your throat broke your trance.

“Don’t piss me off. You know exactly what to do.” He says through gritted teeth as you whimper under his grasp.

“now suck it…” he says as he pushes your head down onto his thick shaft.

You squeal as your nose touched his pubic bone. You push on his thighs to try and back up a little, but it was no use. He had a grip on your braids so tight, you couldn’t blink.

“No…you talk too much, so let me shut you the fuck up!” he says through gritted teeth as he starts to bob your head back and forth on his cock. He throws his head back in bliss

Tears start to well in your eyes from how deep he was. He was touching the back of your throat. You were on the verge of choking on him.

“Ohhhh fuck, look at you. Choking on my cock.” He laughs as he takes himself out of your mouth to let you catch your breath.

You let out a loud gasp, as you are finally able to breath. There is a line of spit connecting your bottom lip and his cock. Your eyes were puffy and red, as tears threatened to fall on your reddish cheeks.

“Teyam, pl-please, I c- can’t” you plead through heavy breaths.

“You think you can’t take this? Wait until I’m balls deep in that tight little pussy of yours.” he growls as he lets your head go with a slight push, causing you to fall back.

He gets down to the ground with you, now in between your legs. He rips your loincloth off with such force that it burns you.

“Teyam!!! PLEASE!” you scream.

He gets all of your clothing off easily. He leans back and admires your body before he completely destroys it.

“This will teach you not to side with anyone other than me” he says as he connects his thumb to your sensitive clit. He rubs in slow circular motions that drive you insane.

You let out a soft moan as your back arched off of the hut floor.

“Talk to me babygirl, do you want more?” He asks as he watches you squirm under his simple touch.

You start to feel your high approaching already, shaking and eyes rolling back. “Neteyam! Fuck I’m cumming! It’s too much!!!” you whine as you come undone under the boys touch.

“Already, baby?” He chuckles “Wait until I fuck you senseless. Is that what you want?” He asks, tilting his head at you as you try to catch your breath.

“Mhmm!!” You nod with your bottom lip between your teeth, looking up at him.

“No I need words babe…” he says as he lines up his throbbing cock with your soaking wet cunt, gently massaging your clit with the tip. The friction is enough to make you come undone for the second time. That’s just the power he had over you.

You moan at the sensation, gripping his arm.

He looks at you as he slaps his cock on your pussy to get your attention. He chuckles at how delirious you were. He just knew you would be an absolute mess on his cock.

“Y/n…tell me what you want babe!” he grabs your face lightly to get you to look at him.

“Please fuck me. I wanna feel you so bad daddy” you whine.

His eyes widen at the name. He’s never seen you so hot and bothered before. He finally pushes his hips into you slowly.

“Daddy huh? I like that.” he smirks as he shoves the rest of his cock into you. His hand now lightly wrapped around your neck as he starts to move slowly.

You were practically screaming at the sensation. You wanted him to speed up, but you also needed to adjust to his size.

“ I-I….FUCK! I- can’t!” you stutter on your words in between heavy breaths.

“you can’t what baby?” He says picking up the pace and tightening his grip on your neck causing you to bite your lip.

“You feel so fucking good! I can’t take it! Please I-“ you moan as your eyes roll back, jaw practically on the ground. You hit his arm repeatedly as an attempt to tap out, but he didn’t care.

“You gotta take it! I’m gonna fuck you until you learn how to listen, and shut the fuck up. You’re supposed to take my side. No on else’s!” He growls as his head falls back, and eyes shut tightly.

“SHIT!” You yell sharply as you cover the hand that is choking you out. Eyes completely shut, you feel that familiar knot in your stomach again.

He watches your face contort as he pants, his high approaching him quickly. From your moaning to the feeling of your tight walls wrapped around his cock, he was about to come undone as well.

“Mmmm…fuck this.” He growls as he pulls out of you, flipping you over on all fours. He pulls your hips up to his pelvis as he pushes your head down on the ground. He admires the view for a moment before you knock him out of his trance.

“Neteyam!! I need you...please!” You plead with him as the emptiness you’re feeling starts to irritate you.

He grips your ass as he slides back into you with ease. You let out a loud moan as he starts to move.

“You feel sooo…fucking….good” you whine in between thrusts, looking back at him. His eyes glued to your ass as he slaps it hard. He lifts you up by your hair as he pounds you. Tears fill your eyes from the overwhelming pleasure.

“I know baby, i know. I’m almost done with you, i promise.” He pushes you down to face the floor, hovering over it due to his tight grip on your hair. He was hitting your sweetspot in this angle, causing your orgasm to build up again.

He wrapped his arm around your stomach to feel his cock poking through it with each thrust. He was practically in your chest.

“Do you feel that baby? Do You feel my cock in your womb?” He whispers lowly in your ear causing you to moan louder than you already were. His words were making you melt under him, and he knew it.

“Mhmmm!! I feel you teyam!! Fuck! I-I’m gonna cum!!” You scream to let him know you were close.

“I wanna feel you cum on my cock, ok baby?” He says softly through his low grunts.

“o-ok daddy! Shittt I’m cumming!!!” Your eyes roll to the back of your head as you shake violently, clenching around his cock.

He thrusts in and out of you sloppily as his high slowly approaches.

“Yeahhh just like that baby, I’m about to give you the next mighty warrior. You ready?” He growls as he throws his head back.

“Mhmm I’m ready, teyam!!!” you yell, gripping his arm from behind.

That was enough to send him over the edge. He grunts loudly as he paints your walls. Thrusting in and out of you slowly, riding out his high.

You both moan at the feeling of him pulling out of you. He watch’s his cum leak out of your glistening cunt with a dark grin. He slaps your ass once more causing you to yelp.

“Have you learned you lesson?” he says with a grin, massaging your slit with his swollen tip.

“Yes neteyam. I won’t side with anyone else, i promise.” You pant, trying desperately catching your breath.

“Yeah, that’s what the fuck I thought, baby…”

This has been in my notes for a while, but I hated it ngl. I was re-reading, and decided to edit it alittle, now it’s muchhhhh better😮‍💨. This is just alil sum sum to hold y’all, because I have work soon🙄. Anywayssss love y’all, ttyl🫶🏽!!!

Outtie❤️🖖🏾,

Pandorxx

[famouslysleepy]

@sarnai4 love how your Ares didn’t care for his trial at all, he rather be a home watching the game

textless version under readmore

yall don’t know but i have been near obsessed Ares for like months like real talk

I‘ve sketching and doodling in my sketchbooks for months trying to come up with a design for this guy, but until this recent break i have had no time to pin down a design!!

I wanted to draw him so bad but I had no good design ideas for months!! I was stuck in artblock hell ah but rejoice my artblock is seemingly come to an end at least for the time being

[yunohawkeye]

Donkey Kong cuddle headcanons

Yes, I‘ve watched the new Mario movie.

Yes, I‘m a little obsessed with some of the caracters.

Is my main obsession Donkey Kong? - No, but for some reason my brain decided to be creative when it comes to him.

90% of the time he‘ll be the big spoon, most definitely because of the massive size difference between you two and his desire to make you feel safe - he doesn‘t train as much as he does for nothing after all

The few times you tried to change it up you felt more like a backpack than his partner

Most of the time it‘s you laying on top of him or sitting in his lap

Depending on the mood there are two kinds of cuddles

Either Donkey Kong is in a playful mood and you‘ll end up being teased and tickled while he‘s keeping you in his arms

Feel free to get back at him though, while he dishes out a lot he can‘t really take it. As soon as you tickle him back he‘ll be the one begging for mercy in less than a minute

But sometimes it‘s one of those very intimate times where he doesn‘t put on his macho persona and just melts into you

He‘ll hide his head in your neck while hugging you tightly and relaxes when you let your fingers dance through his fur, talking about what‘s been bothering him, mostly involving another rejection from his father

There‘s no teasing, no smirks and winks coming your way and his voice isn‘t as boisterous

Even with his massive frame, during those times he seems so weak and timid as he‘s enveloping you in his arms, being so careful as if you‘re made of porcelain

Those are the times that really solidify your relationship, he doesn‘t show this side to just anyone. The only one that has ever seen him like this once was Diddy Kong - by pure accident

But no matter if he‘s going through some tough times, he‘s a very cuddly ape so expect to be caged in his arms for quite a bit - maybe get a good book to read

He doesn’t seem like it but he‘d also love if you could read it to him

Cuddling together and listening to you has become one of his favorite pastimes and is a very good way to get his mind off things because deep down he‘s a very big cuddle bug

[tys-kitty]

Hi can you recommend fluffy kittyfics please? im struggling

Let me tell you my dear friend that I‘ve also been rereading the same fan fictions all over again! (Please do your magic, fanfic writers!🥹)

And of course I have some recommendations! (Sorry that it took me so long to reply)

Beware the following contains a bit of smut!

I hope you like these because I‘m absolutely obsessed! If you need any more recommendations, let me know :) (I have a few more heheh)

If any of the lovely writers see this and want to be tagged, please just let me know! <33

[megisonika]

So I‘ve recently been obsessed with Cyn from Murder Drones, just her, literally nobody else xD So I did this Fanart today- and yesterday

After watching the last episode I was blown away and ever since I can’t really stop thinking about her. She‘s such a silly robot 💛

Defo recommend the series, it’s only 8 episodes, but they are hitting you hard!! Also I do like V & Doll as well, but as soon as Cyn joined into the lore, my whole attention was on her xD and goddamn, the music at the end fight!!! AAAAA!!! Can’t wait for the official release of that song!

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Please do not copy, edit, trace, use or share my art anywhere at any time for any reason, thank you!!

This art belongs to me, I don’t give permission for AI to use it!!!

[setokaibassoulmate]

Newest Kaiba haul!💙 I‘m so OBSESSED with the new big Kaiba plush! He‘s so soft and his rosy cheeks🥺 I also got the new Kaiba and Blue-Eyes Loppi/HMV goods!!🩵 I also got a big blanket with Kaiba and Blue-Eyed White Dragon and a clear file with Kaiba, Yami and Joey that I‘ve been on the look out for☺️

[bettsfic]

Hi, Betts! Apologies if you‘ve already answered something of the sort before, I tend to forget that tumblr exists for a few months every once in a while, so I‘m not super up to date with all the topics you‘ve previously discussed! But. I‘ve been writing fics for a couple of years now and, after getting medicated for my adhd, I‘ve also established a pretty reliable and enjoyable system to finish the (long) fic projects I start! However, every time I try to work on something original, I usually tap out after 5-10k words. The excitement, the itch, the brainrot, the daydreaming, it‘s all there but I just lose my motivation at a certain point. Part of it is that creating and writing original characters is incredibly challenging. I‘m using to having a solid base when I write fic characters so it makes sense that having to come up with that base all by myself is new and slightly overwhelming, but ok, I already have ideas to deal with that. However, there is also the fact that I *know* my original stories won’t see the light of day for a hot while — not like my fics that I get to share on ao3 — and that kills my ends up killing my motivation more often than not… I think! Some of my friends and mutuals have offered to beta/read my original stories, so that could help, but since I‘m here writing this, I still haven’t found that push to properly work on my original wips. (Also, I feel like my original writing style is just 10x worse than my fic style… but maybe that‘s just the normal new project bad kind of writing?) I was wondering if you have dealt with something similar and whether you have any tips and tricks to convince myself that my original wips are fun and worth the effort too? Love your advice and your fics :3

when you've written fanfic for a long time, there's one creative muscle that can atrophy, and that's building parameters. in fanfic, the most ridiculous, far fetched AU is still grounded in some way by the text it's responding to. you're playing a game that more or less already has rules. but in original fiction, you have to write the rules before you can play the game. a lot of times that means you write an entire book to figure out the book you're trying to write, and then you rewrite the book.

i almost always come to a grinding halt at about 10k of any original project because that's how long it takes me to find the parameters of the inciting incident. and once i have the parameters, i start over. usually there's one or two paragraphs i keep and which end up guiding the rest of the project. sometimes the parameters are never set and i have to set the whole thing down until a solution comes to me, which can take months or years.

as for external validation/motivation, if you can find a couple good cheerleaders who will read chapters as you finish them and who get invested in the story you're writing, i find that can offer a simulacrum of the immediate satisfaction of posting/updating a fic. i had to have cheerleaders through my first two original novels. i can motivate myself now and don't need them anymore, but lacking them does make writing original work a very lonely endeavor. but if you have good cheerleaders, do whatever you can to keep them. buy them little trinkets, send them birthday cards, kiss them on the mouth. because that kind of friendship and dedication can be such a rarity in the grand scheme of things.

and as always, writing is an endurance sport. it can take years to build up the patience, discipline, and drive to write a novel. even if it doesn't feel like it, getting down a bunch of false starts is still progress. like chess, it's good to know your opening moves, and that initial 5-10k of parameter-building goes waaaaay faster when you know you're going to scrap it anyway. all you're looking for in those early words is that one paragraph that turns the ignition. and once you're on the road and headed in a direction, there's no better feeling than seeing your word count go up and getting obsessed with your own world and characters.

[nottatastellata]

woke up to find out they finally cancelled the yuri on ice movie.

HOW do you even fumble an award winning series that exploded in popularity this badly??? i‘m serious. i need to know what went on behind the scenes like?? it was such a good original concept. i barely watch anime and yet i‘m still obsessed with yoi.

i‘ve been waiting for that movie for 6 years…. and i guess we‘ll never get a second season either. and this makes yuri not winning gold all the more bitter honestly.

at least the fandom is still somewhat ((barely)) alive so i don’t have to scream into the void complaining about this :,)

[xxnghtclls]

Permission Playlist!

So I‘ve tried to put together the songs which inspired me the most or that I remember vividly listening to, while writing chapters!

A lot of them just served to put me into a certain mood, so the lyrics don‘t necessarily match up, but the lyrics of most of the songs played a huge role. You might recognise some of them even 😋

Here’s the link: Permission Playlist

And if you haven‘t read Permission yet, here‘s Chapter 1.

Other than that, I want to give a little direction here, that you know which songs belong to which parts of the story, since sometimes they guided me for a whole chapter, sometimes a whole song for just a short moment! Sometimes the songs describe y/n’s point of view, but sometimes Sukuna’s too!

I’ve been writing Permission for over a year, so I probably won’t remember everything, but these were the most important ones I remember! I also tried to put them into order of when they fit into their moments or chapters:

(in-depth description (-ish) under the cut)

Song 1-15 (Wicked Games - Jenny Of Oldstones)

I listened to those songs mainly when I was planning the whole story. To give me moods, themes, emotions that I want to convey. I listened to the Game Of Thrones Soundtrack a lot in general, but those songs I listed in there were the ones who inspired me the most!

Fun fact here: Mado Kara Mieru from Christopher Tin was the one which gave me the most inspiration for how Sukuna’s melody would’ve sound like.

Song 16 (Serj Tankian - Rains of Castamere)

Basically my Soundtrack for Chapter 13 and especially the throne room scene, when the new girl arrives and Sukuna invites her in.

Song 17 - 21 (Obsessed - Entitled)

Those songs guided me from the moment when Sukuna saves y/n from the curses until the end of the camping arc. I don’t recall listening to music a lot during that time of writing, cause I acquired that skill only later 🌝

Honorable mentions here:

Zandros - Obsessed was for me the moment y/n sees Sukuna standing over her after killing the curses, seeing the snow flakes crash against his body. Idk this song carried the mood for me.

Adin - Somebody Else was one of the few songs that I connected with Sukuna’s pov.

Song 22 - 23 (Crash and Burn - Breathe)

Those songs described for me the moment when they return to the shrine and long for each other, before y/n gains the courage to knock on his door in chapter 24.

Song 24 Max Richter - On The Nature Of Daylight

I don’t remember clearly, but I think I listened to this to get in a sad mood to describe y/n’s pain when Sukuna left for war and she misses him dearly.

A good song in general to get a fucking sad mood tbh.

Song 25 - 27 (The Way - Violently)

Oh those were the songs I listened to when y/n follows him into the war. Chapter 29 & 30 all the way.

Zack Hemsey - The Way was perfect to listen to when she realises, she’s close to Sukuna and the war is starting. This remix with the sirens was perfect for me to visualise how she’s running over that battlefield, dodging the bombs, fighting her way through. It’s still such an epic scenery in my head which I hope I could convey!

Jayme Deville - Right on Time kinda gave me slow motion pictures in my head, for when Sukuna approaches her during battle.

Mira - Violently is such an incredible song for me. It describes her whole journey and emotions so so good. I listened to it when I wrote the kissing scene, but it grew to be a super important song for their whole relationship, that’s why I would choose it for a rolling credit song hehe.

Song 28 - 31 (The Shadows - Take Me Back To Eden)

Those were all the songs which inspired me for the Sex Scene when Sukuna returns from war in Chapter 32.

Honorable mention here:

Sleep Token - Take Me Back To Eden just IS the moment for me when y/n notices, that Sukuna stayed in her room and he opens his eyes to her.

The lyrics

My, my, those eyes like fire

I'm a winged insect, you're a funeral pyre

just describe the effect that Sukuna (and his gaze and eyes) have on y/n (and on me tbh) so perfectly, that I needed to add that to the rolling credit choice as well.

Song 32 - 33 (O Saki Saki - Lahu Munh Lag Gaya)

Heh! Chapter 33, the festival! I actually planned to have a dancing scene with y/n and other people from the festival, kinda Bollywood style, to impress our Lord and Saviour Sukuna! 😆

However, since that requires A WHOLE OTHER LEVEL of writing skill, I decided to leave it. The Songs still served me perfectly well to get in the mood for a cool ass festival atmosphere for a cool ass King!

Song 34 Clann - Her & the Sea

Chapter 35, when Sukuna and y/n talk on the bridge. Just that moment and atmosphere.

Song 35 - 36 (Timeout - You Thought)

Mood Songs for when y/n is gonna find out that Sukuna fucked around when he was in war. No particular moment here, but served me to get into her emotional state.

Song 37 - 41 (Ecstasy - Luscious)

Again mood songs for sex scenes after Sukuna’s confession in Chapter 36.

I think I listened to Ecstasy and All I Need by The MXXNLIGHT for the Throne Sex in Chapter 25 as well.

Song 42 Clann - She Loves The Rain

I think this one explains itself…Dancing in the rain with Sukuna in Chapter 44.

Song 43 - 44 (Fatal Attraction - Obsession)

Again mood songs for their overall relationship, that represent how knee deep y/n is in love with Sukuna.

Song 45 Mira - Thorns

Oh Mira, how I love her music. That song was published a few chapters before I was ready to write Akiko’s murder, but it described y/n’s reaction regarding Sukuna’s apathy so perfectly in Chapter 45. My heart ached so much when I listened to it the first time!

Fun fact here: The moment when Sukuna reveals that he was pushing the maids with motivation, was actually planned to be directly after Akiko’s death. I noticed in the early draft of that chapter, that it doesn’t work out and decided last minute to completely change that plan and to write that moment into the finale of the story.

Song 46 - 48 (Blood Code - Cold Blooded)

My soundtrack for y/n’s killing spree in Chapter 46 😆

Song 49 Zandros - Look What You’ve Done To Me

Mood Song for the aftermath of Sayako’s death and y/n’s feelings about coming a monster in Chapter 47

I think that‘s it. I hope you enjoy! <3

[nevermindigotthis]

Nothing like a friendly little Quidditch match between mortal enemies!

I‘ve been rereading HP, currently on book 5, and man is Draco annoying. Like, I know fandom is obsessed with him, and I get why, but omg he‘s so infuriating. He‘s just a bully and a whimp and a racist and I want to punch him in the face. I want him to be Zuko so bad, you know, a character who acts like an asshole because of pad parenting and trauma and eventually gets redeemed, but Draco is just not that in canon. Maybe my opinion will change in the last two books, but currently I have come to the understanding that Fanon Draco is just a different person than Canon Draco. I love redemption arcs, but iirc correctly Draco never makes a choice to do literally anything except what is expected of him bc he‘s too scared to do anything else. I think this is what kept me immune from becoming a Draco fangirl as a kid. Back then I hadn‘t discovered fanfiction yet and canon Draco is just so fucking unlikable. (Just for the record, I totally get the obsession though, he‘s got a lot of fic potential)

[etaindelaserna]

Random ask, who are your favorite romantic relationship's couples in any media, like anime/manga, tv series, books, etc (can be canon or non-canon)? Feel free if you want to write the reasons or not of why you love them....

I mean…how much time do you have?😏✨ In no particular order:

1) Zoro x Nami (One Piece)

I‘ve been in love with their dynamics from the very beginning: the navigator and the one with no orientation skills whatsoever. Orange and green. They bicker like an old married couple, but respect and trust each other blindly. It started out with Zoro protecting Nami from Buggy’s crew, her helping him out during fights but I fell head over heels for them once the Arlong Arc came around: he read her like a book and trusted her enough to make a point. That sealed the deal. Then he watched over her while she was ill and from there one I noticed how he always looks out for here, making sure she is safe🥺🧡 Just ✨They just make sense to me.

2) Damon x Elena (TVD)

I actually don’t recall when I started to ship them. It must have been slowly, just before the „fake“ kiss happened when Katherine came back, somewhere between their banter and low key flirting. I think I fell for this ship because of the factor Damon. Him being fiercely loyal and desperate to get Katherine back, only to realize she never loved him and then falling in love with his brother‘s girl. AGAIN. The tragedy and the tension whether Elena would fall for him too, made this so fun to watch. The final nail in the coffin was when he told her, he loved her but compelled her to forget. Oh, and of course the dance…

3) Sookie x Eric (Sookie Stackhouse Novels)

The moment Sookie laid eyes on Eric for the first time and him shamelessly flirting with her in front of Bill, I was a goner. Bill always gave me an ick feeling. I just never understood why Sookie was interested in him apart from the fact that she couldn’t hear his thoughts. In the books there was always a spark whenever Sookie and Eric met. I liked that Eric was down for anything as long as it involved Sookie (going undercover to an orgy for example), that he was always (brutally at times) honest with her, that he protected and cared for her no matter what. He respected her decisions. There were no silly games between them. As far as vampire feelings for humans go in this universe, I do think he loved her deeply. As for her: she loved him too but also knew that it would never end well. Such a sassy, sexy ship.

4) Captain Jack Sparrow x Elizabeth

One if my original all-time favourite ships. The sparrow and the swan. I liked their dynamics in CotBP but grew obsessed with them during DMC. Her being restricted by society’s expectations of her and him being the adventurous, clever pirate she had already read about. I mean pleeeeeaaase: the themes alone! She longs for freedom. He and his lifestyle are the definition of freedom. She has a fierce and untamed nature just like the sea. He is in love with the sea. I think Jack brings out her true self just like she brings out his. She matches his scheming talent but I always thought Elizabeth to be more ruthless than Jack. I don’t know what I expected but her ending up alone on an island, married and back in the corset was not it.

5) Hermione x Draco (Harry Potter)

Another one of my original ships. The muggle born and the son of an old wizard family, who hate muggle borns and are/were loyal to the Dark Lord. The drama, tension and potential storylines with this setup is off the charts. I think I fell for them once the 3rd movie came around. That slap and Hermione urging Hagrid to take Draco to the Madam Pomfrey was pure gold for my shipper heart. I started to get obsessed with them when I read the 4th book as they stumbled upon him during the world cup. I always and forever will read this scene as Draco warning them about the dangers of the Deatheaters disguised as his typical insults. There were both lines in the movies as well as in the books that always made be believe that Draco might have had a crush on Hermione at some point. I was waiting for a redemption arc in the last book which never happened. I also always thought that Hermione needed a partner who matched her intellect to be truly fulfilled and who appreciated her Slytherin traits (cunning, ambition).

6) Sakura x Kakashi (Naruto)

So, this is a complicated one. He is 14 years her senior and her sensei. That is problematic. I didn’t ship them when she was a child. BUT: I liked the idea of them, if the circumstances were different (same age or time travel AU). Kakashi seemed to appreciate her intelligence and her talent for chakra control. He never made her feel weak and he always protected her the best he could. During Shippuden his reaction was always shown when Sakura suffered because of Sasuke. And Kakashi looked rather heart broken and sad for her. He watched over her and cared for her during the last battle. The incredulous (at times murdering) look he gave Sasuke when he mistreated Sakura was glorious. His whole mission was to make sure she survived. So, yeah, if the circumstances were different…also the hand on the cheek is canon🥺 Sakura deserved someone who appreciated her love and loyalty.

7) Claire x Jamie (Outlander)

What I liked about this couple right away (in stark contrast to Frank to whom Claire is married to) was their back and forth, the easiness with which they held conversations with each other and the pure fun they had while doing so. They played off each other without any hassle. Just two people with the same intellect, temper and the same humour hitting it of. This combined with the twist that Claire is the experienced one in all sexual and romantic matters while Jamie is the virgin was absolutely addictive. They just matched. Their chemistry was off of everything that is considered holy.

6) Hannibal x Will Graham (Hannibal)

At first I enjoyed their strange friendship, which quickly turned into mutual respect. May it be due to the actors or how the scenes between them were written but the chemistry was wild right from the beginning. The classical seduction to the dark side trope with a twist: Will is actually just like Hannibal and fights against the urge to kill but actually understands killing. To him just like to Hannibal it makes sense to kill. It even is beautiful. That dynamic hooked me from day one. The back and forth of their ideals. I think Hannibal was rather quickly aware of his feelings for Will. The fact that Will at first rejected him and his whole being but in the end fell for him as well, was fascinating to watch. Just pure and raw.

8) Jaime x Brienne (A Song of Ice and Fire)

I love the tropes surrounding this couple: him, beautiful on the outside but ugly inside and her, ugly on the outside but the heart of a true knight inside. Beauty and the best. Their banter and clash of ideals is what attracted me to them (as well Jaime trying to get a reaction out of Brienne with his constant insults and borderline teasing). The way Jaime unknowingly started to grow a soft spot for the wench and slowly opened up to her, losing his hand (his identity as one of the best swordsmen) to protect her virtue all led to the best scene between them: the bath in Harrenhal. I fully shipped them afterwards. It‘s hard to imagine that Jaime had ever been this vulnerable with anyone but his brother before. He keeps on protecting her and she reminds him of his oaths. Just beautiful ✨

9) Buffy x Spike (Buffy the Vampire Slayer)

I was so obsessed with them at some point in my life — it wasn’t healthy anymore. First because of the ridiculous sexy way Spike played around with Buffy as his next slayer to kill. He was cunning and dangerous. Later because of how loyal, funny and good he was even without a soul. Him being a hopeless, awkward romantic while Buffy was straight to the point was a fun dynamic. In the later seasons I felt sorry for him because of how he was used and treated by Buffy but at least he got to go out like a true hero.

10) Beth x Daryl (The Walking Dead)

This was an unexpected one. I liked Daryl as a character but Beth was just a girl in the background who cut her arms. They were pushed together for a few episodes and because their views on life and their experiences were so different, it created this interesting dynamic. Somehow they worked. Daryl helped her get stronger and Beth helped him to deal with his emotions. She was innocent. He was rugged and beaten down by life. There was something delicate between them that was never allowed to grow.

13) Rae x Finn (My Mad Fat Diary)

Just two nerds obsessed with Oasis and each other. Typical teenager drama. Because of her seize and her body and mental issues Rae doesn’t think she deserves Finn or that he is even interested in her. She convinces herself to the point that she gives her v-card to another guy around her body seize. Finn on the other hand has already decided that he likes Rae and is all cute and touchy with her. The cuteness of their relationship and Finn‘s straight forward „Idk what your problem is but I like you just the way you are“ endeared me to this couple. Also Rae is hilarious.

14) Asoka x Rex (The Clone Wars Series)

Another problematic ship due to her being his superior and him being (at least) physically older when they were first introduced to each other. I think it‘s the fact that Order 66 looms on the horizon and all the drama and heartbreak that comes with it, what got me into this ship. Asoka transforms from an insecure padawan who gets her squad killed into a formidable force user and along the way she earned Rex‘ respect. Plus I‘m a sucker for how fierce she gets every time Rex is in trouble/attacked. They protect and care for each other and if they weren’t Jedi and Clone I could totally see them as a power couple.