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spottedbread · 2 years ago

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PLEASE

#WHY CAN BUGS DRSW #WHY CANT I #i teied to draw human body core this morning #i xant fucking #anagsjsvajsvsheh

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the-stray-storyteller · 1 month ago

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I CANT THINK OF A BOOK COVER

*crying*

#xant publish if i dont have a fucking cover #gotta promote the book too

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yunyuis-remade · 8 months ago

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btw it is REALLY suspicious that sylvanas was punished for the same fucking crimes arthas did, but arthas has been beloved and blizzard has done everything in their power to retroactively say it was the LICH KING and not arthas that brutally wiped out 3 towns / cities and committed genocide so badly that the race he did it too STILL hadnt recovered properly from it years later (their city hadnt even been rebuilt!)

like no iirc that was still distinctly arthas. there isnt even a debate that stratholme was arthas, but lordaeron and quel'thalas also were arthas. he is consistently depicted without the helmet in either scenario, and the helmet was what made arthas debatably lose his humanity to the lich king, at least it was before shadowlands at least

#txt #do you know how fucking frustrating this is #sylvanas is bad. arthas is bad.#one is a victim of bad writing and misogyny and the other is a tragic hero storyline that was heavily praised #rightfully so bc it was WELL WRITTEN and arthas was vaguely sympathetic in some regards #he is a great victim of circumstance and desperation the same way early sylvanas was #also we are not fucking talking abt gilneas bc i stoll xant tell what happened there #sometimes it feels like the complete destruction was an accident but sometimes it feels fully intentional

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catinasink · 26 days ago

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i genuinely dont know how muxh longsr i can do this

#cat's rambles #neptune is complaining again #everythings going weong and im getting more and more violent and destructive and everyone is #changing everyrhing abd everything us changing and people are mocing stuff in my room #and i hadve to put it all back every week and im rotting and everyrhings wrong and i cant fucking #do this anymore i dont want to and people are leaving and i cant tell id anybody cares abd i feel #so fuckinng selfish and my foot hurts abd my binder huers abd i xant do this i cant ruxking so rhis i #sont want to . theres something inherently wrong with me im not meant to achieve abyrhing in life

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c-horror-angel · 1 year ago

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*looks at u* vine boom sound effect

#horror.txt #I’m so fucking tired bros #I smoked like 2 joints and they destroyed me cus I hadn’t had that strain before #I THOUGHT THAT I COULD HANDLE IT BC ME AND MY FRIEND WERE SMOKING #BUT I COULDNT #I WAS HAVING HALLUCINATIONS??? BUT I ALSO XANT TELL #IF THEY WERE HAPLUCINATIONS

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mybreadsmybutters · 4 months ago

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kept having the nagging feeling that i was missing something crucial all through my dream last night until i woke up sick and sweating because i remembered that my beloved best friend is euthanizing herself through maid TOMORROW and this is the last day i’ll ever have with her and i just completely lost it even though i know it’s wrong to ask her to stay when she’s so sick just begging and pleading climbing all over her begging her to tell me why she feels the need to do this why she won’t tell me what ails her please is it cancer are you suicidal you can’t leave please please and eventually she said with pity “i don’t want to say it. i don’t want to say it. just look up this entry in the encyclopedia” and in that moment i woke up to real life where not only do i live in amercia where maid ISN’T a thing but where i half-awake ran/fell down a flight of stairs to frantically ask if she was planning on euthanizing herself to which she said to me “i don’t know what that word means”

#yeah so anyways pretty fucked up #also it was specifically the spanish encyclopedia which is how i KNEW it was for me and it was p. 250 middle entry #but i DONT OWN A SPANISH ENCYCLOPEDIA SO I XANT EVEN LOOK THAT UP #surely that was a sign of Something. also she kind of looked like me in the dream which is why im just. WHAT DOES IT MEAN

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sensitivegoblin · 5 months ago

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Vent

Tw: SH and su!c!de

#:(#another day of feeling useless #my life is going by and all i do is rot :(#i just want God to posess me with an Angel so i can be done failing my family #im so broken i need to talk to someone but my dad n sister cant help me :(#im just so fucking lonely and i treat therpy like a drug fix like im in hives waiting for thursday #my sister is too cold and my dad just...cant not say the wrong thing #i think im gonna have to SH to avoid a meltdown :(#i dont like doing it chs i get so fuckin itchy #but i have 0 outlet #....well #my therapist told me to use sex as an outlet #but i really dont wanna do that right now #s-x is about loving yourself and rn i hate myself so badly #sh just lets me open up cus im literally physical breaking at the seams cus of how much i keep to myself #its just not right to unload my stuff onto friends or helpless family #especially since my shit has no answers or hopr #i mostly just wanna be held #the only reason im not attempting to end it all is cus i already know what a burden a failed attempt causes #i xant watch anything or do anything without zoning out minutes later.....#all i can do is spiral and sleep #im just so fucking sad i hate this life i wanna start over i keep failing evrryone around me #i wanna be posessed by an agel so my soul can rest but my body can now actually take care of evrryonr #i dunno what to do :(#my dad says the hospital isnt a good idea but im so fucking sad n tired n wanna die #it feels like no one actually takes me seriously cus ive never sucessfully tried or been to the hospital #feels like my family thinks im lazy depressed imstead of very deeply depressed #everytime my dad says “youre looking for an answer thats not you.” or “i guess i gotta fix things without you” I WANNA FUCKIN DIE #i wanna rip my whole skin off n jjst die....thats how he sees me..#..

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derrypubliclibrary · 6 months ago

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literally its so over for me.

#theo.txt #vent #auuuuggghhhhhhhhwayughh oaiehfbdhcbfbfbgbbbgngnngtnjehdhdfhfh:(#guy who cant eat cheese voice Guess Who Ate. a Buncha Cheese #i feel soooo bad & my fucking speaker DIED so i xant even be comforted vy the soothing noises of my boyband playlist WHATS EVEN THE POINYYTT

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chainsawworld · 1 year ago

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↖️ *guy that is having such a normal one right now* *guy that totally isn't fucking losing it* *guy that surely isn't about to explode into a million pieces with no idea how to put itself back together this time*

#gamer txt.#i cant i can do this i xant its too hard its too hard #zo yous know that post i made a bit ago? how o said i was fuvking desperate and hanging on by a thread?#well unsurprisingly as it turns out the sevonf ppl extended help i closed mysf back off and started lying again. who couldve daw that coming #ive vroken down plenty of times over the years but ibe always got back up ive bever had a 'i cant do it this time' moment #well i mean. until now #i just cant i cant do it it all hurts so much i cant enjoy anything i dread everutbing theres nothing theres fucking nkthing #it hurts all the time and i xant do anything about oy because no one in this house gives a shit #and i ca t do anything becayse eberyone online is do easy to ignore so easy to lie to #ive never veen this bad before ibe never dreaded life like this #i really dony know if i can xome back fron this #ya know on the 24th i would've been 3 years clean. i relapsed about a 2 months ago i wanna say? im really close to doing ot again #but i dont know if i wkuld stop. nor when i isuallu do anyeay i think i would keep going past what i know i could take #it would be stupid #no one gere would nhtive anything wrong until ot was too late id hust be making the worst mistake of my life #but despiye that. despite everything its so tempting. just for the chance that someone might notice #that someone might actuallu acknowledge theres sometjing wrong with and gove a fuck about me #i know this fanily. i know how they work. i know how they treated my xousin the last 2 tjmes she tried to off herself #but one of them would care right sureky? even just kne #i need someone yo see me to actually fucking see me and not all the walls ibe set up #someone to recognise that im in no state to take care of myself and never has been #something that will fight me when i obviously lie #but theres no way for me to get that #im not stupid enough to risk myself and um too much of a coward to call out in any other way #what the duck an i meant to do?#im a wreck thats too scared to tell anyone #ive been theoen into the middle of the ocean and the water is the strongest ots ever been #and there is the vague imsge of a life boat off in the distance but its too far and ny arm hurt too much to swim #even if i did make my arms hurt too much to climb aboard and theres no one on it to help me up either #so i just have to float here because at least drowning is less shameful than yaving made it to safety and been too weak to grasp it

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grymmdark · 1 year ago

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my neck muscles are so unbelievably tight aughhhhh i try to massage them and stretch but they still hurt and specifically they hurt in that wau that tells me that more massaging/strecthing wont help rn and so all i can do is wait until it goes away

#grymms spectacular fucking posts #my shoulder muscles are the same #like ik that strecthing and massaging isnt supposed to immediately help everything and can be more about long term but cmon #why xant i stop feeling like shit right nowwwwwwwww

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hyperexplosion · 1 year ago

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I don't want bother friends with a vent so I am here

#i dont want like talk too kuch about this and naybe im just feeking pathetic #but i miss the holidays i miss going grandmas every year now? i barely see her and one day shes just going to be gone #i miss christmas with them i miss thanksgiving inmiss easter even if i dont celebrate jt anymore #the concept of death has been freaking me out so bad rhis month #its been so fuckinh mich and o thought if inkept some friends xlose i wouldnt feel alone but i do i feel so aline and empty #i feel so sad that i just been fucking fakinf jt #and i tried just tale a break from everyone and it just makes me feel worse #ive spoken to mom but idk when ill be able actually get jelp im also struggling to talk to her whiut why im so upset #i moss doing stuff with dad as in going oit o miss it #does he even miss it?#i wanted to go to the planetarium wirh jim cause theyre doing a pink flyd xoncert thing but idk idk mom even seemed sad dor me #i just dont want miss out being with them only for them be gone and what would i do when theyre gone #i cantbtype i xant i fuckinf hell k just want to sleel #today was just a not great day tomorrow will be w new say when i can sleep #i hope #ill keep myself busy than ill try sleep early so i dont jave to deal with night #ive never been so scared of death before and i hste that i am now

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yelenapines · 1 year ago

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don't sing along at top volume to El Tango de Roxanne from Moulin Rouge at 10pm challenge

#it's so fucking good #I need to rewatch #el tango de roxanne #>>>>#moulin rouge my bae my love 😭🫶#moulin rouge #WHYYY DOES MY HEARTTT CRYYY #FEEELINGS I XANT FICGHTTT #yelenaposts

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ozymoron · 1 year ago

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had to get out of the shower to grab my phone to fucking say this cause im like seething rn why thr fuck didnt morgan and spencer wear gasmaesks to that fucking place whrnthey knew there would be fucking anthrax like ik they were trying not to scare the public but jesus fucking crhist they walk into a biilding and just decide not to wear a fucking mask im actialy killing both of them theyre both dead i fucking killed them theyre so stupid and i hate them both WHY DIDNT THEY WEAR FUCKING GASMASKS WHEN THEY KNEW THERE MIGHT BE FUCKING ANTHRAX HOLY FICKING SHIT i hope they both get a tiny papercut that hurts fir a wee while and then heals

#⚠️#personal #ozy watches criminal minds #i xant do this shit anymore man #they all survived but like fuck dude #are you stupid. girl. *grabs spencers face* are you a fucking idiot. are you dumb.

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sick-as-a-dog · 1 year ago

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#guess whos sis might be pissed off at them despite me begging for help and explaining that im struggling and in pain #nobody gives a shit about me and my needs do they i never ficmong asked for his bullshit it wasnt supposed to he like this #stepsis promised she wouldnt flake but that stupid fuckong asshole hasnt responded to any messages im so done #she hasnt payed me for taking care of her cat AT ALL even tho ive been holding her for longer than was agreed on #it was supposed to be a simple job only take care of them until they were weaned and rehomed #she was supposed to get her cat aleady she keeps saying she has homes for them and changing her mind why the fuck is she doing this shit #plus the damn cat chewed my headphones in half so she owes me a new pair but i fuckong know she wont pay that back #tempted to rehome her cat since she ONLY asks for kitten pics and doesnt contact me for anything else not even to check in on her cat #im so fucking tired and done with everything especially since its gotten so much worse since the toe infection #i tried and tried and tried and tried and tried and tried and tried and tried and tried and tried and tried and tried and tried and failed #and now moving at all is pure suffering so i definitely cant keep up cleaning after her asshole cat who apparently likes to shit everywhere #im tempted to hunt that stupid bitch down and force her to clean up every mess her fuckong cat made im so fuckong done with everything #doenst help i barly have any ebergy eber since he doent wanna be maets anynore xant even eat or sleep mucj cnat even love rogjy #so tired so pain juat eanna die i cant keep this shit up nothing is worth living for anymore tbh and now my sis is gonna make me feel worse #im going to lose my own cats befause of that atupid shitstain of a stepsister and uer cat im going to fuinkig vomit and kill so dnoe

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feral-cockroach · 1 year ago

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