#i write a lot. i have so many ideas i want to fufill

[morbid9142]

OFFICIAL ANTI-CJ AND ANTI-EARTH DESIGNS

btw i use the 🌎 emoji for a!earths reference ;D i decided to make this post because i wanted to edit the original timeline post about them but last minute i decided not to.

i had previously posted their official designs but they were buried beneath a trigger warning and i dont like them anymore. + this gives me anti-earths overlay color and lets me color pick with accuracy to their real designs

[beacon-of-chaos]

Since Quetza is in the @sonic-oc-showdown, I figured I'd fill out one of these questionnaires I've seen around. I apologise, I'm not sure who came up with it, but I first saw it on @bunnymajo's page.

FYI: Some of this stuff I am coming up with on the fly!

Name: Quetza the Snake

Species: Winged Snake. No particular type of snake in mind.

Type: Flight

Alignment: Chaotic Good

Home: Station Square?

Quetza claims to be either the reincarnation, descendant, or chosen one of the ancient god Quetzacoatl. The answer differs each time you ask her, but it's hard to deny. She's a snake born with wings and she has magical abilities, specifically control over wind and air, and shapeshifting, which is why she has four arms. She travels the world, looking for clues about her true nature. She has an easy going nature and can be shy, but opens up quickly to those are friendly to her. She loves fashion, junk food, and video games. She doesn't like to fight, but can defend herself if she needs to, using gusts of wind to fly around and using her shapeshifting to extend her arms or tail for quick strikes.

✨How did you come up with the OC’s name?

She's inspired by the Aztec god Quetzalcoatl, the winged serpent god. Quetzalcoatl means "precious serpent" in the Nahuatl language, so her name could roughly be translated as Precious the Snake!

Note: It's pronounced KET-zah. :)

🌼  - How old are they? (Or approximate age range)

She's an adult. Late 20s, I guess?

🌺- Do they have any love interest(s)?

No. She gains crushes easily, and forgets them almost as quickly.

🍕  - What is their favorite food?

Ice cream! She has a real sweet tooth.

💼  - What do they do for a living?

Uh... I haven't thought that far yet.

So, at this point I need to explain. Quetza is literally just my fursona; wish fufilment in all its forms XD. She doesn't have a story, per se.

So I could give her a boring office job like mine. Or maybe say that she's something really cool? Like my version of the Rookie?

How about this: she started as a scout for the Resistance and is now a manager/organiser at the Restoration, working closely with Jewel.

🎹  - Do they have any hobbies?

Video games, mostly action/adventure types.

🎯  -What do they do best?

Flying! With her wind magic aiding her, no one can fly faster or more skillfully!

🥊  -What do they love to do? What do they hate to do?

Shopping and exploring! She travels often, looking for clues about her past, but she's always looking for a nice city to stay in when she does so.

❤️  - What is one of your OC’s best memories?

I think when she realised exactly what her powers could do. Figuring that out about herself would be a big moment.

✂️   - What is one of your OC’s worst memories?

Probably getting bullied for being a freak by the other kids when she was younger :(

🧊  - Is their current design the first one?

No, she's changed a fair bit since her first design. I literally added the extra arms cos I thought it was cool and her hairstyle has changed a lot (as you can see in the above pictures). She also used to be a rattlesnake cos I thought it would be cute if she rattled when scared/angry. IDK, might bring that back.

🍀  - What originally inspired the OC?

I like snakes and I always thought the idea of a snake with wings was cool. I really fell in love with the concept of Coatls in D&D a while back so I wanted to make that my 'sona.

🌂  - What genre do they belong in?

IDK, what do Sonic games count as? Action? Sci-fi (there's a lot of robots, after all)?

💚  -What is your OC’s gender identity and sexuality?

Genderfluid transwoman, bisexual.

🙌  - How many siblings does your OC have?

None.

🍎  - What is the OC’s relationship w/their parents like?

I think pretty good? I don't have parents for her in mind yet.

🧠  - What do you like most about the OC?

LOOK. AT. HER. ❤️

Shout out to @kuchintta for the comission I got.

✏️  - How often do you draw/write about the OC?

Almost never. This is the most I've ever written about her and I don't actually draw much.

💎  - Do you ever see yourself killing off the OC?

No! That would be like killing myself.

💀  - Does your OC have any phobias?

Hm. My phobia is of heights, but she can fly so there's no way that would scare her. I guess not!

🍩  -Who is your OC’s arch-nemesis or rival?

That jerk at Restoration HQ who always gets the best snacks from the vending machine first! How does he always get there so quick?

🎓  - How long have you had the OC?

About a year... apparantly! Wow, that's gone by quick!

[corruptedforce]

respond to the prompts out of character!

what made you pick up the current muse(s) you have? I wanted to write Anakin for years, but I don't half ass pick up any character. It's one of the reason why I keep my multi under 15, at all times. I have to have them fleshed out. I've been fascinated by Vader since I was a child. All my friends had Leia Halloween costumes. I just wanted to be Vader. Anakin intrigued me, as well, as I got older. I ALWAYS loved Hayden as Anakin. But, I spent years before ultimately choosing to write him. I had to learn mannerisms, ways he fights, his quirks, his emotional responses, and Vader, because Vader is Anakin.

is there anything you don’t like to write? Look when you play one of the biggest villains in pop culture, there is not much that is off limits. I refuse to ever write or AU him, as a Rebel. He would never be a rebel and I would never write him as such. I also only very rarely and only really for I think one or two people, will write him not falling. His fall is extremely important to what the chosen one prophecy needs, to fufill. I'm not huge on fix-it. I mean, sometimes I enjoy them and I will never change Hayden as Anakin's FC. I don't ship him with other males, with the exception of one and it's writer specific. I don't write smut on him to just write smut, but if it fits, I'm okay. I also don't auto ship.

is there anything you really enjoy writing? Angst, pain, drama, things that make you cry and hate life. I love happiness if we have like something dramatic too. The prequels are a tragedy. They just are. Anakin's life even before his fall, he may have been married, but he was at war. He has brief times with Padme for instance, when he does have happy moments, but war is something that was a lot of his life. I lean towards his destiny more towards trying to create a healthy family dynamic, that didn't exist.

how do you come up with headcanons? I have things knocking around my head and sometimes I get asks. I'm currrently working on one, for three days now based off someone asking me what I thought of one quote.

do you write in silence or do you play music? usually, the TV is on.

do you plan your replies or wing them? I wing them mostly or for the most part, I don't pre-read the previous reply always. I mean, I will sometimes, but with certain partners, I know how I'll react. Sometimess, I have to calm Anakin or Vader down if it's angst before I reply because he's a mess, who will say things, if I don't. But, my best rp partners understand his reactionary responses.

do you enjoy shipping? I love shipping. Just not having it forced on me. I'm open to a lot, if it it makes sense. I also love many types of connections.

what’s your alias/name? Tanya

age? Older than 30. I'm at the age where it says years young on Tumblr.

birthday? April 21st

favorite color?  Cubbie Blue

favorite song?  Anything off the Sons of Anarchy Soundtracks by lately Day is Gone by Noah Gundersen and Come Join the Murder; Also, Lightning Crashes by Live is a song I listen to a lot, Anything by Bob Seger when I need to feel close to my mom

last movie you watched?  Red Dawn (not my idea)

last show you watched?  One Tree Hill

last song you listened to? Ainsi Bas La Vida by Indila.

favorite food?  Tough Guys by REO Speedwagon

favorite season?  sprinter. it's that time in February - March, when it's like 70 but not miserable yet.

do you have a tumblr best friend?

For the last year and half and some change, 100% it has to be Mica (mayxthexforce) and Tori (bchemianrhapscody). With Mica, I have talked to her more than I have talked to anyone, in a time when things were really hard for me, after I lost my mom. But, there are others in the Star Wars fandom, and those are people who have been my friend, even when lies were told and I lost long-term friends. Some people aren't like bestie status but I adore them so much. More recently, I have been talking a ton to @story1ines of late and she is quickly becoming a close friend who I bombard with messages. I also adore @xx--ofmanythoughts--xx, who listens to my baseball ramblings.

I have been on tumblr rp for 13 years and there are people who have come and gone. I will always still communicate with the ones I was the closest to in the world offline, but I forever love my first rp friendship, the Rachel to my Puck, my main Tara to my Jax who I wrie with on Discord only now, the only Wendy I will ever accept to my Jax, my one and only Athelstan and Philippe @mcnsieur, who even though I don't talk to everyday by any means because life is busy, I literally can message her anytime. So many other people I am not remembering.

TAGGED BY: @mayxthexforce

TAGGING: @galaccias, @bchemianrhapscdy, @cagedpotential, @writtenxbeginnings, @story1ines, @mcnsieur, @xx--ofmanythoughts--xx

[eternalpassions]

wouldn't it have made more sense if she was with zero first and then meets kaname later. we know kaname is irresistable and would understand why the confusion and not be able to choose zero 100 % lol. It doesn't make sense that she fell in love with a dark and mysterious pureblood vampire king first but still whines about some downgrade mofo who she was friends with and is giving kaname a headache on that. shouldn't it have been the other way around LMAO? Like you are with a man of fantasy, a man out of your league? Shouldn't you be completely obsessed with him? how does mofo zero get so many pages in vk and vkm? Hino needs to get her priorties straight. It should've been the opposite. She fucked up the whole plot. Ruined the fantasy.

Hello,

Yea I often think about stuff like this. Usually there is the “nice guy” vs the “dangerous guy who seduces you”. Like I know some people say zero has bad boy appeal, but let’s be real. He doesn’t. He ain’t shit like that 😂

Kaname is the man you can’t help but be drawn to. He is the one who is the magnet for good girls! That’s why I was into this manga at first and why I still stick around despite knowing it’s gone. Kaname was the dream guy that with the darkness inside him that appeals to good girls. I related a lot to Yuuki in that regard! She was thirsty! I was like finally a story where the sexy erotic dangerous guy is crazy about the plain good girl too! Kaname is for the female gaze let’s be real even if u hate him it’s true common. So it doesn’t make sense that Yuuki would even entertain zero when already having the pureboood king at her knees lmao. Like really? That’s like having diamonds and still whining about pebbles lol. I feel bad for being so harsh with Zero even tho I don’t like him lol… I know some very cool Zero fans. But xD

I read a theory that said Zero was never supposed to exist. And that was the editor that wanted him to exist cuz she liked him so much and wanted a love triangle .I also think Hino doesn’t know how to write a romance when the two leads already have attraction for each other. Maybe she thinks there isn’t much else to tell. So she focused the story more on Zero and Yuuki because she literally didn’t see him as anything more than a brother at first and it fills the pages. Then she meant to have Kaname and Yuuki end up together but by then people grew attached to zeki’s development and missed the point of yume.

I truly don’t think zero was supposed to be that relevant but Hino extended his role to milk the manga lol. That’s why arc 2 and vkm make no sense. I think he was supposed to fufill his purpose to kill Rido and either die or stay chasing Yuuki for eternity to try to kill her. Let’s be real, this guy was never supposed to end up with Yuuki, Hino changed it to please the interpretations of what Zekis took out of the story lol

Hino is an idiot but she’s a Kaname simp. She just chose money and to play it safe over Kaname 😂but yea I would’ve loved this story more if basically the premise changed lol. I love the idea in canon that Kaname saved Yuuki when she was a child with no memories or anything and the story begins and ends with them. But this approach didn’t end up working so well. Like you said, it would’ve been better if she was with zero first and then she meets Kaname second and falls for him despite knowing she shouldn’t. And then their development of their attraction building and then it coming together and exploding. I just like this approach more of Yuuki and Kaname being the main protagonists while Zero plays a smaller role in this “love triangle”. Maybe we can still keep the they were destined all along theme of Yuuki regains her memory that it’s actually Kaname she met first long ago. Or maybe we can still keep Kaname watching over her being a silent protector but he made sure not to interact with her until destiny had them meet again. Damn if, now I’m seriously thinking of writing a fanfic like this 😂

Like I think it’s a shame the fantasy was ruined because society is so used to identifying with nice guys and “underdog” men. Like this isn’t real life! We’re allowed to have stories where we get the unattainable guy to look our way! Lmao. What’s the point of ruining the fantasy with a downgrade! Irl most of us end up with the downgrade anyway I want some good escapism fiction 😂

Or like Hino could’ve taken lessons from Stephanie Meyer who never detracted from her vision. She was able to write a love triangle with meeting the dark broody erotic guy first then falling for the good guy but loving and choosing the first guy and it worked out well. I think it all came down to Hino’s flaw of focusing on Zeki’s development first lol. That was her downfall

Thanks

[heroes-fading]

tumblr did eat this but as a wise poet once said “honey i rose up from the dead i do it all the time”

so i feel like i have been slowly entertaining in the back of my head for a year or two now the idea of writing again. it started with like, writing bad poetry in journals. i’ve been consuming media, but in a lot more of a disconnected way. engagement was like, reading reddit and twitter threads for a day and putting it back down. then episode 8 happened, and i was like FUCK i’m unglued.

to put in perspective what kind of shit i was up to in high school: i wrote half a million words of like...once upon a time fanfiction. and in that i found lots of lovely connections to people but amidst a sea of other factors: being a literal teenager who still thought i could be the smartest person in the room (spoiler: never), having no real social net outside of the internet (and i will say my internet friends -- many of whom i still love and talk to today -- got me through some of the WORST times of my life), and having a very fragile ego. probably related to points a and b. everything felt like the biggest thing in the world because my world did not feel very big.

now i look back at it like...holy shit you wrote a goddamn novel. who cares if it was like, literature or not? 

to be honest one of the things that got through to me was this cj the x video, especially their point which i’ll recap here:

“We are under the impression that art is something special people do, and to do it well makes you a genius, and to do it poorly is embarrassing. This sectioning off of the art world for artists from regular life and regular people is completely artificial and it is bad for the soul of your society.”

and they talk a bti about the Terrifying Ordeal of Being Known and perfectionism and just the amount of fuccccckin mental blocks we put around what’s good art and bad art and we spend so much time agonizing over what’s good and what’s cringe and you know what? embrace cringe! who cares! none of us will live forever!!! sharing art is the way we sustain ourselves in the long run.

i always have an internal voice saying something’s not good enough. i’m Always like “damn, these metrics ain’t metricing like they were earlier...” and then i’m like fuck...am i doing this for the Idea of Fandom Success or because of my fun silly lil hobby? my fun silly lil hobby? aight guess i ought to just embrace the Terrifying Ordeal of Being Known and accept that silly lil numbers ain’t what’s fufilling, it’s the practice of writing and sharing and going at the end of the day “at least one person liked this, and being known isn’t the Most Horrific Thing Ever”.

another thing i Never did when i was a teenager is tell anyone i wrote fic in real life. now my husband and friend and sister-in-law know (the latter involved either alcohol or being confined to a plane, which is a lot like alcohol) and you know how much they think i’m embarassing? they don’t. oh and actually a co-worker. they just go “lol, this is My thing” and it’s a novel they tried to write in college or fanart they post on a secret instagram or a monsters inc page they ran in high school (all real examples) because everyone has some kind of thing they care about, some artistic expression, and we’ve conditioned people to think trying is embarassing. trying is vulnerable and the point, i think! no matter how cringe! 

and vulnerability is this awfully stingy thing because sometimes when you think about it for too long it’s not unlike putting your hand on a hot coal. like, fuck, laying awake at night knowing that people know You Tried and what if they still didn’t like it? humiliating. awful. please schedule me with the goddamn firing squad. you didn’t get the metrics you wanted. or worse, you did and now people don’t think you deserve it. they’re gonna find out you’re just a big fanfiction writing fraud.

but maybe that’s the point! i don’t know! vulnerability is hard and painful and growth and sincerety is almost WORSE. but there’s also something lovely and cathartic about it and at the end of the day knowing that other people feel that, too. can never get too lost in either sauces of thinking you’re the worst thing ever or the best and the only one who gets it. just gotta accept the vulnerability of it all~

i’m back in my daydreaming era, i think fic gave that back to me. i shut her off for a little while, but she’s still there! and it’s not the worst thing, having overwhelming creative ideas on the treadmill or in a hotel lobby or furiously writing in a google doc in the middle of the night even if it does feel Silly. sometimes it does make the world a little more magical, framing in a narrative. 

(my therapist at some point has made comments about my narrative framing skills in the context of my life and getting out of a shitty family situation with a lot of embedded generational cyclical fun stuff to a point i have a lot of the things now i used to dream about despite it, my pathological need to write my way out also applying to my life and maybe it’s not the worst way of moving a locus of control inwards. i used to dream about feeling safe and being respected interpersonally and professionally because it’s something no woman in my family ever really got and i get that now. anyway, as i said, radical vulnerability!)

narratives are powerful and meaningful and art is too, i don’t care if it’s fanfiction at the end of the day! we’ve all felt something or gptten something or felt community and that’s meaningful enough. 

this is a very long-winded and frankly chaotic way of saying sure, i’m a writer enough!

[zodiac-blood]

Like as someone who would definitely fall under the category of "is asexual with no sexual attraction but still does it anyway" I completely understand the notion of "hey it's nice to understand that not all ace people are sex repulsed" but also as someone who also considers themself gay (in a mlm way) (in a tertiary attraction kinda way) and has a girlfriend its like. But I've never seen anyone say any of the gay men in media I relate to can also date women without feeling attracted to them. Its like.... So??? Give me a reason aroaces are the only time there are exceptions that are respected that ISN'T just the the amatonormative idea of ""dating & sex is just natural"" and that allowing this exception means people can still center their stories around dating and sex.

This probably is because allo queers, even if being queer, can still abide by the amatonormative idea of "everyone needs to want/pursue a relationship and (romantic&sexual) love is the most important feeling", so even if yes, a gay man is not abiding by the cishet standards of attraction he can still have a "normal" love story of falling in love and pursuing that interest. Also additionally that aroaces fall outside of the "sexuality binary" (the weird idea that the only sexualities are "exclusive attraction to men" and "exclusive attraction to women" and that anything outside of that is not valid) A romance & sex repulsed Aroace cannot fufil any part of the amatonormative expectation and so exceptions are only allowed in the case that it makes the most important thing about their life still center around romance and sexuality. (Of course- exceptions aren't normally allowed like the fact no one gets I can be gay and have a girlfriend but that exceptions not accepted because it doesn't fit the sexuality binary)

Cause like. Most Allos can understand/relate to the concept of not feeling attracted to a certain gender (like het men don't feel attracted to men but can understand the concept of a gay man not feeling attracted to women under the basis of "its like me but reversed") but they don't have any point of easy reference to relate to no attraction at all so they don't really even try. If they can't relate to it then they don't feel the need to change their worldview to allow it.

Anyway as I said; I would fall under the category of "aroace that is in a relationship" (and not even because of the tertiary attraction) so I totally understand there are people who are like me. And yes I think having that sort of relationship is valid- I mean I'm literally living in one- but its very telling that every aroace character always has this same exact debate but you don't see ANY discussion about biromantic homosexuals or any form of split attraction and dating without attraction in allo characters.

Unfortunately I don't know that many canonically aroace characters- other than Percy (canon ace and Jello said she may also be aro) & Howie (aroace) from Epithet Erased and Lilith (aroace) from the Owl House. Didn't get into toh fan spaces so idk about that but I know I definitely have seen posts about shipping Howie and Percy (sometimes together bc of their rivalry - but other ships are more common.) And yeah Percy is only stated to be ace and "potentially aro" and not explicitly aroace- still definitely have seen many a Percy x Howie or explicitly sexual Ramsey x Percy / Zora x Percy going around so :v

Even if I am in a relationship the way I go about my relationship is a lot different than what allos go through- yet every time in fiction an aroace character is in a relationship its written exactly how allo relationships are. (Though I tend to be romance repulsed so I don't read much of that anyway lol). I do love that other aros who are more romance favourable than me like to write/draw relationships that fit how they live- but when allos write/draw it a lot of time they don't take care in actually considering how that would absolutely affect the dynamic or that there are some characters that just don't want any sort of romantic or sexual relationship at all.

I'm probably going to end up writing my own post abt this further so I don't derail but; also the whole idea of "split attraction and the ability to be not sexually attracted but not sex repulsed in a relationship is only an asexual thing" and not just like. A broad attraction thing that anyone can experience. Definitely is also aided by &/ partially the cause of these exceptions only being applied to aroace folk.

-Toby (they/them) & Bias (he/they)

the way fandoms are desperate to make all aroace characters romance and sex positive but then dont do anything remotely similar to any other identity is astounding. hmm i wonder why

PLEASE dont derail this about shipping characters of other identities please let this one post be about an aroace struggle

[weaselbeaselpants]

Cont. my point from my last rb:

If you want a case of genuine RED flags about people given how they consume fiction/bark about it, I have more than a few anecdotes:

My sister had a co-worker who really liked to hook up but was also SUPER judgmental and sl*tshammy of woman in relationships when she wasn't in one. She outright admitted she wouldn't watch/read something "unless there was a love story" in it and unironically quoted LadyGaga "when it's love if it isn't rough it isn't fun"/"Belle and Beast ended happy too" in regards to her many broken one-off relationships. It was...uncomfortable and it was made all the worse by her not caring about other people's boundaries while she did that.

E.L. James snapping at a r*pe survivor about how there was "No Rape in Fifty Shades". You're into noncon fiction, E.L. Just admit it and leave the BDSM communities alone. Also don't write. You suck at it.

Ben Shapiro (need I say more?) making comments about other people's sex lives and happiness based on their media input. Especially when anything dare be about non traditional sex in marriage or about a woman's enjoyment of sex DEAR GOD

Everything about Poppy from ZenaandPoppy. A PROUD proshipper+therapist who also likes kink art, none of which is a problem. Except when it comes to flashing her roommates and demanding that they accept it and shaming them for their "asexual shit", posting nsfw art everywhere, and most importantly saying there's nothing wrong with real-life incest outside of "breeding"; to the point that Poppy even tried to convince an incest survivor to enjoy incest porn in order to not "see it as a bad thing".

Lily Orchard just REALLY wanting to talk about incest and happy incest and how games that feature incest don't feature "consensual" incest more often and how it's actually technically pure just WEEKS after her sibling came out and accused her of sexually abusing them into their teens. Lily Orchard saying those accusations are false because said sibling is "not fuckable" to her. Lily Orchard still not apologizing or really doing anything other than deflecting onto others when it comes to shipping Elsanna and HARD and insisting it is/should be canon in a Disney movie.

Cosmodore trying to excuse his abuse of an underage victim with the anime he was reviewing being about redemption and 'forgiveness' and overall just being a LITTLE too eager to mention age-of-consent laws in other countries. Bleh.

And so many more I skipped out on.

By all accounts there are worrisome things consumed and argued that tell you a lot about the person doing the consuming. But, unless you have some idea of any of that or the thing being argued for is unambigously wrong, I think it's really heinous to make assumptions like that.

People can write about the happiest, healthiest wish-fufillment things and be terrible to partners; people can write about weird or awful things happening in the world but be committed and good partners. I think it's really vile to imply otherwise unless you've actually seen some red flags about them personality-wise.

[not-me-simping-for-blasty]

I come here for words of wisdom. Every time I read a fanfic about Bakugou being a fuckboy I normally laugh it off because it sounds ridiculous in my mind, although sharing this thought with other people made me realize that some actually think he might be in the future???? So, I want your honest opinion. Not just about that, but I'd genuinely love to know your input on how Bakugou would be in his late-teens, early adulthood, before (for the sake of it) meeting X and settling. Would he sleep around? Would he try for a relationship and fail? What would fail? What would make him settle? Would he really just focus on hero work and that's it? So. Many. Questions.

Hope everything is going great for you. I haven't been on tumblr much (am I the only one noticing the insane wave of wattpad writing here??? p.o.v. and all??????) but I've been following your stuff, and as always, it's incredible. 💞💕

PLS - okay this is so nice to see bc i’ve actually been taking a break from tumblr/writing for the past month. (mental refresh u kno?) aND YESTERDAY I CAME BACK AND SCROLLED THRU MY DASH AND SAW WATTPAD STUFF JUST LIKE YOU SAID.

i was shocked. aghast. completely bewildered. pls i even caved and searched up bakugou fics just to see if everyone else is treating him like that,, and like i dont even know why i did that, because ofc i knew the answer was gonna be yes!! the answer is always yes !!! like i just saw so many fics of him as such a “ooo daddy dom badboy bakugou 🥴🥴” and like why???? bakugou is such a frickin nerd?? and thats sooooooo funny?? whY STRIP HIM OF HIS COMEDIC POTENTIAL ???

but yes yes specifically about bakugou being a fuckboy..... yeah i have no idea where the fuck they get that from. like- did we watch the same show???? sex and especially being naked are such vulnerable things at their core, and they rlly think Mr. Anti-Vulnerability is gonna be the one to sleep around??? to willingly put himself into a vulnerable situation time and time again?? no. pls. c’mon y’all. sometimes i think even todoroki would be more likely.

and just- to sleep around you have to be very comfortable showing interest in other people, over and over and over again. and i just- bakugou doesn’t even admit that his friends are his friends???? and somehow they think that suddenly he’s gonna go around telling people “hey. i like you. and by admitting that to you, i am therefore giving you a slight bit of power over me.”

i- no. he’d never. period, end of story. he would rather be fuckin’ dead. so the answer is no, as he currently is, i cannot for the life of me see why he’d ever become a fuckboy. he just doesn’t have it in him lmaoooooo

ooo but about the what makes him settle question- THANK YOU IVE BEEN DYING TO TALK ABOUT IT.

okay so how i see it, is bakugou is probably totally and completely fine being alone up until his like mid 20’s. sure he thinks maybe it’d be nice to have somebody, but he works so hard that it’s always a fleeting feeling. but then he gets a little older, settles into his spot on the rankings (#3 btw, im soRRY kats but its the truth!!) and watches all his friends get into meaningful relationships. and then, a few more years down the line (think late 20’s/ early 30’s) he’ll be sitting back and being like “shit. i don’t have anybody like that. somebody who’s just for me. who’d pick me first always.”

and i think that is what he wants most of all. i mean, he’s clearly chock-full of insecurities related to that idea, and i cant imagine him ever settling without that need being fufilled. like, i think eventually he’ll probably abandon the idea of being #1 hero, but he’ll still keep that dream of being #1 somehow. so once he finds somebody that always has his back, always puts up with his shit and still loves him at the end of it?? still looks at him with stars in their eyes day after day??? pls. mans is putty and will never even dream of leaving

but that being said- i dont think he’s gonna find The One on first try. i think he’ll be aiming for that, but i cant see it working out. even when he starts seriously dating around his mid 20s, i think he’ll still be too caught up with his hero work. it’ll take him a good few years and one/two failed relationships to finally find a balance that works for him and whoever he ends up with

@i-need-air tysm for asking,,,, clearly i have a lot of thoughts and i love him sm so this was so fun!!!!!! i loved this ask ty!!!!

[vidalinav]

Rant Obvi... This time about age gaps

Now that I’m writing a fic where the bat boys are the age they were during The War and thus wayyy younger and more mentally similar to the Archeron sisters, I wonder why SJM made the age gap so obvious... and also so large. 

Like for me personally every time Feyre doesn’t actively show that she’s involved in court politics or not in a meeting with the IC or having sex after she has a disagreement and that being highlighted as a regular occurrence for Feysand, and when she’s disadvantaged in any way with her decision being last as opposed to first or them looking to Rhysand for confirmation to listen to her whether it had a rational/reasoning or not, WITH the added baby plot, both her not knowing about the risk and then ALSO getting pregnant at 23 when in previous books she’d said she’d wanted to wait and Rhys himself was scared she’d resent him because she was so young, I notice the age gap. I can’t ignore the age gap. The age gap whether meaning to or not makes a problem and the text enforces that problem because it’s never taken care of, never disputed with evidence. We see Feyre being more disadvantaged in this book then we ever see her being given some sort of power. In theory she has power, but no evidence that has she has true equality. 

In ACOSF, when Nesta was making friends with people mostly her age, them bonding over similar experiences, similar mind frames, hobbies, even doing maybe more childish things like making friendship bracelets, having sleepovers, this is juxtaposed with her relationship with Cassian who is supposed to be “the real man” in her narrative and also the instructor/trainer and also the keeper because he is the one who’s supposed to watch her during this intervention which she doesn’t have a choice really about, (because having bad options is not a choice, as proven many times even past the actual intervention). She has no money, and she has no place to go, which he is then plotted to be her emotional stability in a time where she is not emotionally stable, and every time she disagrees with him and they have an argument, he lacks control of his emotions even being the older person and then doesn’t apologize in the text and the text doesn’t make him accountable, but Nesta is accountable. Nesta feels guilty. Nesta feels ashamed, whether her feelings are caused directly by him or not. And then Nesta consistently puts him on a pedestal that he doesn’t deserve, and none of this contradicted because Cassian neither acts her age, nor is not advantaged by the situation, nor has the growth needed to show that perhaps he is learning to be better.

Then we have possibly Gwynriel/Elriel scenarios, but both of them have the same issue. Because we have a rather toxic male figure, who is stereotypically troubled, who is going to fall in love with one of these girls, when he has had an unhealthy obsession over his best friends that he’s never gotten over. Both of these girls are seemingly in a bad place. Both of these girls don’t have a lot of control. Elain doesn’t have control over anything, which she is trying to negate. And Gwyn is afraid of the world, which you know of course growth. And even though either relationships could potentially be about collective healing, because we already know Azriel has a very skewed perspective and relishes in torture, also never voices his troubles, but glues himself to an idea of a woman that can never be fufilled... it doesn’t point in a very good direction. 

So then I ask why make them so old? Why not plan for them to be young? The War lasted 7 years. Make them 100 as opposed to 536, and cast it off as fae grow idk slower. OR make their mind frames and their attitudes not so blatantly older than their love interests. Or make a scenario where the women are not obviously disadvantaged. I hate to be that person and I never thought I would be that would say that SJM whether she knows it or not is writing some OVERTLY problematic things. And it’s not something that can just pushed off as character flaws or world building or misinformation, because it’s happened more than once and it’s not actively negated. It’s not these characters are bad, it’s these characters are written like that because SJM is not paying attention. I think she needs to examine some of her values, or at least what she conveys aware of it from the start or not. It takes more than giving women power (and then taking it away) and making them warriors to show that women have complex narratives. 

Why the lack of healthcare in this world for women? (i.e. Feyre and Emerie). Why the constant assault on women, to a point where they have a library full of SA survivors? Why is it that the only LGBT character must hide who she is I’m assuming in direct result to the actions of a male character? Why the emphasis that only these female characters need a healing arc, but god forbid the male characters have any growth or do anything but supply the D? Why no women rulers in Prythrian up until Feyre, when there’s so many human queens assumedly having power? What story is SJM trying to write? What is so empowering about this? I have heard that so many times. Show me the empowerment. Show me how she writes progressively. Show me where the healing is.

Tell me why I am still reading this series. Like for real? 

[grasslandgirl]

for the writing ask tag — 2, 19, 20, & 23?

thank you for sending this in!! i meant to answer it AGES ago but im terrible at answering asks lmao <3 but anyway here we (finally) are

2. Anything that you’d like to write but feel like you’re unable to?

ohhhh goodness. there isnt anything off the top of my head that's like. an idea that feels like a pipe dream, if that makes sense? i have a lot of story ideas in my head almost constantly, and if i end up not writing them its more often because theres not enough meat on the metaphorical bones to go anywhere, or that ive started writing it and gotten blocked or bored- not that im unable to write them

obviously there are stories that, as a cis white woman, aren't mine to write, and stories that i feel uncomfortable digging into alone because of my lack of personal experience with the subject matter, but i don't know if that's necessarily what the question is asking- because it's less of a story that i'd like to write but am unable to, and more of a story i'd like to read, and am unable to write- if that distinction makes sense?

in a larger sense, there are genres and styles of storytelling i kind of want to write but don't know how- large scale sci fi, anything with a depth of world building, vivid historicals, etc- but more often than not, im drawn creatively to the things i can create, because they're more fufilling for me to explore

19. Share a snippet from a wip without giving any context for it.

Fig glanced down at the doodle of Ayda’s eyes, peering up at her curiously from between two scrawled lyrics. She snapped her notebook shut.

I’m just tired, she told herself.

She shoved her notebook back in her pocket and grabbed her guitar by its neck, climbing down the ladder one-handed with practiced ease. She shuffled back to her bunk and collapsed into bed. Jamina was already asleep, her loud buzzing snores filling the whole room. 

Fig told herself that was why she couldn’t fall asleep. Why she spent the whole night staring up at the hammock above her, tapping a familiar beat against her thigh. 

But even Fig, the consummate deceiver, couldn’t believe her own lie.

:)))) iykyk

20. Do you work on a single project or many at the same time? How does that work for you?

oh i have SO many wips simultaneously. so many.

i like to jump around a lot, i've found it helps keep me from getting blocked for too long, if i have other projects i can jump to when im feeling uncertain about one, or not in the mood for the story/genre/scene- i tend to stick really strictly to writing chronologically, bc otherwise i never finish things, and so i can keep multiple metaphorical writing plates spinning at one time bc i know where all of them are going- to a lesser or greater extent- cause they're all on a clean timeline in my head !!

according to my annual word count google sheet, ive got abt 7 wips in various stages of completion- but i've also got a bunch of idea docs and notes and unused concepts swirling in my head pretty much all the time that i just havent actually sat down and written yet (i've also got like 6 wips for a non-fic oc type thing that i dont post i just like to write about when im in the mood, that i bounce around between !!)

a lot of the time ill get Really Into one project and work on it for days or even weeks in a stretch, but sometimes i get blocked or bored!! and its really nice to just have a bunch of different things on the backburner that i can go and read through and add a little onto while im looking for inspo <3

23. Dialogue or description? Why is the other one so hard?

god. truly i think it depends on the fic. i feel like every scene i write either starts with a really vivid mental image, or a really clear idea for a conversation/ inner monologue, and what i find easy to write depends on that dichotomy of inspiration- description for the former, and dialogue for the latter. if i don't know exactly what the setting looks like or what the energy of the space is, i tend to write the dialogue first and let the setting fill itself in organically, and if i dont have a strong grasp of characters voices as im writing, ill usually dig into the space and the circumstances and the narrator's thoughts until i find a hook!

that, or rewatching/rereading scenes and moments where character voices are really vivid so i can get them In My Head

oops! i got rambly on this one, but it was really fun to answer!!! tysm for sending in this ask i really enjoyed it <3

send me a writer's ask from this list!!

[frumfrumfroo]

I see so many stupid takes on what a “revised” ST storyline would look like. Granted, almost all of these are still better than the dumpster fire that is TROS. But a lot of these still don’t make sense because a lot of people still miss what I think you articulate so well in many of your metas: that the ST is about the Skywalker family, the unresolved trauma, and with Ben Solo as the heir and person who should tie up all the loose ends (I can’t put it as elegantly as you do, but the whole thing you have repeatedly said about him living and having children, reconciliation of Anakin and the Skywalker “name” to society, repairing the unresolved issues Leia had with her father, etc etc). I just saw another stupid take where Rey is Obi Wan’s secret daughter who has been abandoned (wow way to go shitting on Obi Wan’s character) and therefore has anger issues, hates the Jedi and worships Vader, Ben is not force sensitive and grows up a diplomat learning from Leia, Finn is a Jedi randomly, Poe is a pilot for no reason I can think of or why he even exists, and Rey needs to be saved by Ben (how? Why? Why not by Finn if Finn is the Jedi and Ben is doing just fine in life.) Oh and the dyad is created by Obi and Anakin’s ghosts, and also Rey is asexual bc she is too angry—I support asexual character representation but not if it is a manifestation of maladaptive behaviors rather than a healthy state of being). I mean, all of that could be interesting, maybe in an Obi Wan family saga spinoff series, but I fail to see how this is about the Skywalkers or ties in thematically to the central characters of OT/PT. Like why should we care? I suppose if we learned that Leia did reconcile with her father, and the galaxy at large knew of Anakin’s redemption, and Ben didn’t grow up with this fear of fatalism, fine I can see perhaps that storyline “working” but again...it wouldn’t really be about the Skywalkers anymore, who in that version seem to all be well adjustsd, happy fufilled functional people. But why not then just call that story a complete new series instead of a sequel...(and btw that “version” has almost no mention of Luke, and most OG fans are interested in seeing where their original heros ended up etc etc). I fail to see why Rey even needs to be around in these “alternate” versions. Just make a completely new story set in SW world but not a “sequel” then, that would be fine. Anyway, every time I see stuff like this, I come to your blog to re-read your metas because you are one of the very few people who GETS the story. Please preach some more to the choir (if inspiration strikes). I need to be reminded that there actual people in the fandom who cares about Ben, the Skywalkers, thematic coherence, and GOOD STORYTELLLING. Anyway thank you so much for your detailed and insightful analyses. They are truly a delight and a balm. If it’s not too much trouble, could you by chance link to some of your own fave metas you’ve written, or that you think are the most important to understanding the ST and Ben etc? Do you recommend any other bloggers whose metas on Ben and ST you feel are good and enjoy? Thank you!

Thank-you so much, anon! 🥰

Yes, the problem with so many ‘fix-it’ ideas or ideas of what the ST ‘should’ have been is that they have nothing to do with the Skywalker Saga or its themes. If you just want to write about new characters in the GFFA and not meaningfully continue the same narrative about the family and the question the Skywalkers exist to ask, then it’s not part of the same story. Which is fine, but it’s not a sequel. You can’t unpick the end of RotJ and destroy the resolution of the original character arcs if you’re then going to make them glorified cameos to give your unrelated newbies a pep talk without providing a fuller and more complete statement of the original message and the original arcs. That’s an either/or choice. Either actually make a sequel and deal with the implications of that or don’t.

The most stark contrast between TLJ and TFA/TROS is that TLJ is written as a fully equal and living part of the story, it treats the characters as characters and takes for granted that it is part of the saga not just a tribute to it. There are elements that are meta, it does comment, but it doesn’t approach the OT heroes as icons frozen in amber incapable of change or allow its new characters to act like fans of the films rather than people who live in the universe. And this is why it’s so much better and so much more memorable. It’s an actual story which stands on its own two feet.

Probably my most key posts on SW’s themes and worldview are in the tags space crime and punishment and the legacy. My Ben tag covers a lot those two miss and also has reblogs from other people whose meta I would really recommend (especially benperorsolo). This is a round up I did mostly about Rey’s arc/place in the story, but it’s pre-tros and missing some links. Her tag has more on sw protagonists and why I think none of the ‘alternatives’ people offer for Rey Nobody and Reylo work.

I think I linked most of my individual favourite posts in this answer lol.

[auntfinny]

Losing Parents in Guardians of Ga’hoole

Guardians of Ga’hoole is a fantastic series of books by author Kathryn Lasky, and while some may consider it “too dark” at first glance, it teaches some incredibly important messages in a way that child readers would understand. These books are for kids. They are written for kids. I’d predict the intended age range is like.. 10-13, maybe 8-12? You pick up a book and open it, and you see large print and around 100-200 pages (it may look a bit thick but, they are printed smaller than most books so, page count goes up due to that). It is written very simply and gets points across very well, easy for kids to digest. So, what about that? Well, I think its common knowledge to many fans of this series who likely explored similar books (Warrior Cats, Wings of Fire, etc) that it shouldn’t be a surprise that GoG is “dark”, as many animal fiction books tackle death, murder, violence much more than if they were to contain humans.  However, I am not here to analyze that- i see no reason in making a big deal in that when there are some reason good things to say about the series that isn’t just “ooo so much violence and blood”. Let’s talk about loss. Losing someone is common in this series with all the death- though not everyone focuses on the loss characters feel.  But this series tackles loss and parents...a lot, and in even more than just Soren and Eglantine- Gylfie, Twilight, Digger and Coryn all share different version of losing a parent and how they move on from it. Lets talk about that!

[ at the moment of writing I have re-read up to book 1-8 and will only refer to them because they are most clear in my memory. i may update this when I read the rest. ]

SPOILERS AHEAD

In the beginning of the series, our main character for books 1-6, Soren, is pushed from his nest and taken away by some owls that bring him to an “orphanage”. Of course, he is not an orphan really, he has been kidnapped. Soren starts with urges to see his parents again, but with the task at hand he and his friends need to find help above all and Gylfie later encourages the fact that it would likely be very hard to find his parents because they may have left and Soren is unlikely to have any ideas where his hollow was. Aside from Soren, Gylfie does seem to miss her parents too, and while they do in fact search for them because they happen to be flying through her homeland, she also seemed realize that it would be really hard finding her nest again within the vast desert and so they move on from it. Soren and Gylfie are in similar situations, but they viewed the detachment from their parent’s differently at the start- Soren feels from his gut and Gylfie thinks from logic. 

Along the way they meet Twilight who has a different angle on losing parents- he lost them so young and was forced to lead an orphan life so early that he did not have much of an attachment to them, as many other animals took him in. He lost his parents, but due to how he grew on his own, he did not find him attached to them or missing them later on and often doesn’t think of death too seriously. “Dead is dead” as he has said a few times through the books. This isn’t a bad thing, its just a different way of dealing with it. Digger is eventually added to the group as well- another orphaned owl who lost his parents. Digger’s parents were killed while he still lived in his nest, and he ran away aimlessly in the desert to escape. Another very different scenario, and while it may seem at first that he doesn’t address the loss much- I think he very well does when speaking his philosophical words about death. He has often gotten angry with Twilight’s comment of “dead is dead” or similar, and recognizes how its important to feel something for the dead. While we don’t hear many direct words from him about his own parents, I think this gives some good insight to how he feels, he thinks emotionally but has great personal insight on how to view or release those emotions.

Eventually through the books Soren faces more feelings regarding the loss of his parents- like meeting their ghosts, knowing they were killed, and finally seeing his parents’ ghosts leave the world after fufilling their last duty. All of those things led to more steps in how Soren, as well as his sister, dealt with loss. Soren seems to “move on” better than Egalnatine. Soren, having gone through what he has, is emotionally much stronger and while he feels sadness, and bottles up his first feelings, he is able to accept what has happened and fufill what his parents’ ghosts ask of him.  On the other hand, Eglantine really suffers with denial. She is emotionally weak due to her trauma (a clear opposite of Soren’s results) and struggles to accept her parents are dead mostly after knowing Soren saw their ghosts. So much so, that she is brainwashed into thinking her mother is alive! She feels intense sadness beforehand and even after breaking out of her daze from the brainwashing, seems to maybe finally be realizing the reality. Eglantine fully accepts this after she and Soren both watch their parent’s ghosts leave Earth. 

There are other minor moments of greif and loss mentioned but all these in books 1-6 tackling main characters’ views on losing their parents is incredibly powerful and a very important topic to children... Ir makes my heart flutter reading each different character take on loss and it amazes me this was such a huge thing in the series. But we aren’t done yet! Let’s talk about Coryn.

You may think I am talking about Kludd as the parent Coryn lost even though he didn’t know him, but no, we are talking about Nyra. And I am referring to the events in book 7-8.  Coryn grew up with a horribly abusive, narcissistic mother- Nyra. She was cruel, toxic, manipulative. Coryn escaped when he started to realize what was wrong with the Pure Ones, and that he did not have it in him to become an awful owl like her or his father. Coryn did in fact “lose” his parents...he decided to move on from the trauma and abuse by telling himself had no parents. Book 8, chapter 1 at the very end: “...The egg that held me came from the body of my mother, but I am not my mother’s son, nor my father’s [...] I reject all that they were. I have no parents.” This is a different take than the earlier ones, but I would strongly argue that Coryn has also faced loss of parents like the rest of the main cast in books 1 to 6- its just mental, psychological. And this is a very important version of loss to discuss, as it shows death isn’t the only thing that makes you lose someone. Coryn suffered mentally after this still, as he did feel directionless and yearned for a real mother. Coryn dealt with a different kind of grief, over that of living the life under an abusive parent. The way he moved on is not much different from accepting the death of a parent like the rest of the cast above.

So this is what I had to say really. I wanted to ramble about this ever since thinking about the theme of loss and parents in the first 6 books, and it hit me even harder with Coryn too- because it was a different kind of parent loss to tackle as it didn’t fit the category of a parent dying.  GoG deals with other topics as well and I think theyre all well done with the book length it has. The author captures emotions and thoughts very clearly and opening up such emotional topics about death to children is never a bad thing, I really appreciate it.

[lehhoh7822]

I was going to do some more Sides appreciation, but then I got distracted and started looking at u!sides pages and now I feel like shite so I’ll just talk about Virgil for now. I’ll do the appreciation posts later.

Well. I mean. See above. Rant/actual discussion below the cut.

Everyone loves the villain. That was why people fell in love with Virgil from the start of S1. 

All of the characters were liked, they were all loveable, but Virgil was very popular because he was sassy, snarky, and a bit of an enigma.

Then of course, you had the people who never liked Virgil. Who recognised him as bad* from the start and took a dislike to him. That’s alright. 

People make more content (generally, unless they’re, say, unnecessarily anxious about people judging them because admitting they liked or making content of x character) about characters they like or popular characters. 

And then here’s the thing. We have this thing called character development. Which makes sense. Virgil may be a portrayal of anxiety, but overall, I think it’s best for everyone if they think of Virgil as a character first.

If you think of Virgil as anxiety first you open up the can of worms with how anxiety should be portrayed, how anxiety should be experienced- and that doesn’t go anywhere good unless you want to start trying rewire bits of your ideals.

So as a character Virgil is interesting. 

Firstly, we get to see the character arc from S1. Which I feel like you understand by now. You see the trust and etc forming. You get a nice moment. 

Then shit hits the fan pretty damn fast.

You have the fact that Virgil is mean. And Virgil is also a dork. Just to dramatically oversimplify it. And please, people, can you read my long post about one of the issues with SaSi? Please? 

Here’s the thing though. You can’t have Virgil be nice. Or else you would get people coming with the “He’s not being anxiety” or “He’s being a suck-up” or just anything we can think of. But if he’s mean, if he’s says cruel shit then... just go look at Virgil negativity or u!Virgil. Because, right now, in canon, he is a bit of a dick. But he isn’t completely cruel or manipulative. At least not from my perspective. He’s just mean and a bit of a dick. And someone should call him out. But- 

But then we have the issue of “Canon only focuses on Virgil” thing that people hate. People would jump on it and say that canon was focusing on Virgil again when it should focus on x character. And I think, I think personally that Thomas wanted to make Virgil less of a focus. But in order to do that he had to try to maintain a level of continuity with him in order for the content to seem like it makes sense. And the way they chose to do that was to try to maintain the growth him had in S1 and to factor in a bit of casual cruelty so it would seem like he was still fufilling his role as anxiety.

But I really don’t think they did it well.

Thomas and Joan stated that once anxiety’s acceptance arc was done they had plans for the future, new sides to introduce, etc. 

They didn’t, unlike some posts claim, mean to continue making Virgil the main character (as far as I can tell), they wanted to on on from it. All of it.

So after his arc, canon was supposed to take a new route, a new path. 

So why does it seem like it didn’t? 

I think- I think I might have the answer. 

It’s us. We fell in love with a character, and we continued to make fics and animatics and art works about said character, because he was really well-written in most of the fandom’s eyes. 

Canon might have stuff to do with Virgil, but, again, in my useless opinion, that’s only because they’re trying to ensure continuity. They also know that people still do like Virgil and try to use him as a safe-guard (that’s how I’m explaining his grand reveal in DWIT) against losing more fans, considering how many they’ve already lost to the mcyt (Nothing against those guys, or anyone who’s packed up and left) and other fandoms with the wait period and all.

But- This isn’t working. 

Because Virgil fans continue to make content with him and it’s so easy to write angst or hurt-comfort with him. And then, this content amasses with the content made previously for Virgil. And then people see it and say that.. anything about the content instead of the character on the u!Virgil or virgil negativity page. 

And then we also make content that demonises medication (Wow fandom, I’m so proud of you. You’re so mature.) which is just fucking great.

And then we also make stuff that makes Virgil a soft uwu boi and people who disagree with that go (look, can you guys tell that I feel sad from going through so much u!sides shit and I know I can back out at any time, but my wish to understand is more powerful- so, now I want you guys to feel crummy with me and that’s why I keep telling you to look at it.) literally a lot of posts on the u!Virgil page. 

And then when people react poorly to either content (if you react poorly to the soft content then you will lose a lot of followers and if you react poorly to the u! content then you’re a toxic Virgil simp) it doesn’t end well. 

I feel like, if we face canon Virgil, sure, he might suck a little bit, but he’s okay. He might need a bit of a “Hey. Shut up. And put in an effort to be nicer. We value you, but we also do need you to try to be nice to us.” And it doesn’t have to be much. All you have to do is have him apologise and accept it and come back with slightly less jabs, or nicer jabs. 

The creators had a really hard job to do with moving the plot forward. As a series that couldn’t rush it too much in terms of ideas because (please just go read my long post on the flaw) of the issues the series has in displaying the issues it attempts to cover. They couldn’t overwhelm their audience, move on too quickly or anything. No matter what they did, I can’t think of a way to plausibly end it in a clean, satisfying swipe.

So. Overall, our issue is we make content and then we make canon Virgil the bad guy. And I’m not saying he hasn’t ever done anything, but from my (obscured and weird) vantage point, that what it looks like.

I love Virgil. As a character I found him awesome. And I could see that, yes, he wasn’t great, but I also did enough deep looking to see why. 

We are the issue. We make up scenarios and we twist canon to fit what we like. Which is fine and great, I’m not saying that people should stop, but, it means that there cannot be a Virgil that is likeable. 

This doesn’t make sense. 

Whatever.

(Hey @imma-potatoo I hope you wanted me to tag you on my Headcannon series where I do this sorta stuff because that’s what I’m doing.

(*: Well, technically for the people who have been anti-virgil since the beginning of time I assume they thought/think he is bad or at least some form of bad.)

[sparkleofpizza]

Burn book - Tim Drake x reader

A/n: hey guys, so I’ve had this idea in my mind for a while now, since I watched Mean Girls on October 3 and I thought it would be nice to finally write it and see how goes. Hope you like it!

Warning: the names Bradley, Valerie and Carmen are all made up names to fit in the story. Language, mentions of blood and violence.

Requested: no

Summary: Y/n grows suspicious of her boyfriend activities, something happens at school that only fufil her suspicions.

Word count: 2.368

A movie scene. Your school looked like a movie scene right now. A scene from a movie you’ve seen countless times before. 

You stood at the top of the stairs, arms crossed watching the scene unfold in front of you. Lips slightly parted as a small laugh escaped your throat. You felt like Regina George watching everyone go crazy after their secrets got spilled.

Someone had decided it would be funny to recreate the Burn Book from Mean Girls, and printed the pages trowing them at the hallways for everyone to see. Everyone’s secrets were on those pages and you were a bit afraid that somehow it said something about you - although you didn’t have any secret that would make you want to dig a hole and bury yourself into it.

Everything was a bit funny until you realized that it wasn’t so cool at all. You were enjoining seeing things in real life like one of your favorite movies of all times, but things took an aggressive turn when you saw people punching each other. Suddenly you felt very uncomfortable being in there. It wasn’t cool to spill people’s secrets like that.

You reached for your phone on your pocket, deciding to text your boyfriend Tim, trying to know where he is. It would make you feel a lot more comfortable having him by your side. But you didn’t even know if he was at school at all, lately he was very absent and distant, making you wonder if you did something wrong. Even his brothers seemed to be ignoring you. 

Someone yanked you by your arm, dragging you and making you stumble down the stairs, falling to your knees. Bradley Walters hovered over you, face red from anger as he gripped tightly on your arm, you knew there would be a bruise there tomorrow. You were honestly scared, you sometimes hung out together and got along very well since he was part of the football team and you were a cheerio. 

“How could you not tell me?” He yelled, pulling you up so you were face to face “You knew Valerie is into girls and you still let me make a fool out of myself trying to get her to date me! You’re such a bitch!”

You yelped helplessly as you knew no one was coming to your rescue since everyone was too busy fighting with each other to even notice Bradley being a jerk. 

“I- It wasn’t my place to tell you!” You replied, trying to reason with him “I couldn’t out her to you, she was’t ready to tell anyone yet.”

“Then how come you knew?!”

“She’s my best friend, I was the first one to know!”

Bradley huffed, letting go of you only to shove you against the lockers and walk past you. You massaged your shoulder, trying to ease the pain from the impact of hitting the lockers. You had to get out of there before things got out of control.

You walked past people, trying to blend in and not call unwanted attention. Hearing stuff like teachers hooking up with students was honestly disturbing. The principal was trying to calm everyone down, but no one was having any of it, they wanted caos. They wanted to get at each others throats and demand explanations out the secrets that were out there.

Carmen Diaz showed up in front of you, yelling because she had just found out you were the reason why she was cut out of the cheerios, because you had told the captain she was flirting with her boyfriend. At that point, you were regretting every gossip you had ever made as you swiftly left the girl hanging and yelling on her own. 

But as you left Carmen behind, you saw it. You saw something you wish you had never did, but at the same time it made so much sense. Everything just clicked together in your head. The absence, being ignored, leaving early and ditching you lately, it all made perfect sense. You grabbed the fallen paper, examining it in your hands. 

Sweet Tim Drake and nice Stephanie Brown are two cheap cheaters. Jerk and hoe. 

And bellow it there was a photo of the two of them. 

You felt your heart shatter at this. Stephanie was one of your closest friends, but apparently she wasn’t your friend after all. And Tim, you didn’t even know what to think of him. You always thought he would never ever break your heart, but he did, and he did the last thing you excepted him to do, but it made so much sense now. Everyone knew, all of his brothers and probably his friends that became your friends knew as well, and they left you in the dark, left you to keep making a fool out of yourself. 

There was tears pricking in your eyes, but you refused to cry in front of all of this people. Too engrossed in your own sad thoughts you didn’t see a flying bottle made of glass, aimed to someone else, but that hit you straight in the head, soaking you in both water and blood as it shattered, making you fall backwards and loose your senses for a while.

Oh God, how did all this shit happened?

After way too many accidents like yours happened, the police finally arrived at Gotham Academy, restoring the peace. You watched Tim’s older brother Dick talking to some of the students and you knew all of his brothers were probably there, because they always showed up at things like this. You walked out of school trying not to get attention to you, but it was kind of hard since there was a lot of blood coming out of your forehead and you were way too light headed. 

Your presence, however, did not go unnoticed as Tim’s best friend was the first one to see you, being in front of you in a blink of an eye. Conner Kent eyes were wide when he saw you. 

“Y/N, holy shit! I didn’t think the situation at school was this bad! We need to get you to the hospital, you’re bleeding too much!” He gently grabbed you by your shoulders and started guiding you towards people “Tim is over there, he’s worried sick about you when you didn’t answer your phone. We weren’t in school today and...”

He stopped talking when you abruptly stopped walking. He glanced at you, worried that maybe you were going to pass out from blood loss.

“I don’t want to see Tim.” You whispered

“What?” He frowned

“I said that I don’t want to see Tim. Ever again. Or you, or any of you ever again. Fuck off and leave me alone. You’re all a bunch of liars!”

You stumbled away from him, trying to find someone else to take you to the hospital. Honestly, right now, you pretty much rather pass out on the floor than take any of their help. 

But that was when Tim saw you, and damn didn’t that make his heart beat too fast out of panic because of the way you looked. Your skin too pale, a hand shaped bruise on your arm, your white uniform blouse stained in red and oh, the amount of blood in your forehead. Before he knew it, he was sprinting towards you, pulling you in his arms. He was so grateful you were safe, and now you were with him so nothing else was going to happen to you, he is going to take you to the hospital and then he’s not leaving your side.

You struggled against his grip, making him release you as he though he might has been hurting you, maybe there were others injuries. But there was hurt and betrayal in your eyes, aside from the tears. You did not look happy to see him at all.

“Sweetheart...”

“Don’t.” You cut him off “You’re free to be with her, I’m breaking up with you.” 

Tim opened and close his mouth. Too shocked and confused to even say something. Be with who? Why were you breaking up with him? What did he do? What actually happened inside of the school? He only snapped out of it when he saw you leaving, running right back to you, holding you in place.

“What- What are you talking about?”

“Go be with Stephanie, you don’t have to sneak behind my back anymore. I already know about the two of you. From all the things I excepted when you started drifting away from me, being a cheater wasn’t one of them.”

“I- Y/N I didn’t cheat on you! I could never to do that! Look, you’ve lost too much blood and you’re not thinking straight. Come on, let me take you to the hospital.”

He was desperate, trying to understand what was going on. Did he neglect you so much this past month that it made you doubt his love for you? He loves you more than anything else in this world, he would do literally anything for you, so what did he do wrong for you to stop believing in it?

You dryly chuckled, shoving a paper in his hands before stumbling away from him as he read what was written in it.

Tim tried calling, tried texting, FaceTiming, visiting, but nothing. You wanted nothing to do with him. He just hoped you would give him a chance to explain himself, to tell you everything and by everything he means including the fact that he’s Red Robin and that’s why he’s been absent and also about that picture.

Conner tried to stop by to convince you to talk to Tim and fix things up, but you ended up slamming the door at his face.

Figuring enough is enough, after almost a month you decided to let Tim explain himself. You were hurting way too much and honestly just wanted to move on, but you couldn’t if you didn’t properly end it. So on a Friday, for the first time, you looked him in the face as you walked past him on the hallway. You actually acknowledged his presence during Biology and even offered you the tiniest of smiles. You told Valerie she could stop glaring at Stephanie and being mean all the time. So he knew you were ready to talk.

After school he went straight to your apartament. Knocking on the door and hoping he didn’t get the wrong signals today at school, but when you opened the door for him, for the first time, he felt relief wash over him.

“Hi.” He said awkwardly “Thanks for... opening the door.”

You nodded your head, letting him in before closing the door and sitting on the couch across from him.

You couldn’t help but notice how tired he look, with bags under his eyes and a even paler face than ever. Was he hurting just as much as you were? It kind felt impossible, he had Stephanie, why would he be sad?

“I am so so so sorry for the way I treated you lately. I never thought it would lead you to believing I didn’t love you anymore or that I could cheat on you.” Tim started, fighthing back the urge to wrap his arms around you when he saw tears in eyes “Sweetheart, you’re the best thing that has ever happened in my life and I love you more than anything. I could never cheat on you, nothing happened between me and Stephanie, we’re just friends.”

“How can you expect me to believe in you when all you ever did lately was ditch me?” Your voice sounded so broken, he himself started crying

“The reason why I’ve been so distant lately is because I am Red Robin.” He said

You stood still, staring at him like he had grown a second head. Tim Drake, your ex-boyfriend, was Red Robin? He worked with Batman. Tim Drake, the same boy standing in front of you, fought bad guys every night to make the city safer.

“I’m sorry, what?”

He pulled out a domino mask out of his jeans pocket, holding it up to his face, right at his eyes and you sucked in a breath. Holy shit, he is Red Robin.

“Stephanie and I are just friends, Y/N. We work together as vigilants, but nothing more than this. You’re the one that I want, the one that I love. You’re the first person I think about when I wake up, and the last person I think about before going to sleep. Everytime I’m fighting some bad guy I keep thinking I have someone to come home to, and that someone is you.”

You sobbed, trowing yourself in his arms, allowing him to hold you. You buried your head in his chest as arms went around your waist, carresing your sides. Tim kissed the top of yout head, feeling at ease after a long month. He ached to have you back in his arms and he never planned on letting you go.

“I’m so sorry I doubted you.” You sobbed into his chest

“Hey, this is not yout fault.” He lifted up your chin so you were looking in his eyes “This is all on me and I primise to make it up to you everyday for the rest of our lives, if you take me back.”

You nodded your head, standing on your tip toes to press your lips against his. It’s been a long month and all you wanted to do was to make up for the time you’ve missed with him.

You both layed on the couch, you pressed against his chest and tangled legs.

“Whoever did this burn book is a bitch.” You said quietly, drawing patterns on his biceps

“Yes, everything is still a chaos. And you never told me how you managed to get that amount of bruises beside the bottle of water that was an accident.”

“Oh, Bradley Walters did that to me. I though you knew?”

“What?!” Tim exclaimed, tighining his arms around you “I guess I’m paying him a visit during patrol tonight.”

You chuckled, kissing his jaw. Everything was falling back to place

[hullomoon]

This month I’m doing the fic rec bingo created by wild-aloof-rebel. If you have time I suggest doing it, it’s been a lot of fun! I’m a glutton for punishment so I’m doing the whole blackout. Continuing on that path I’m also not repeating a single author or reccing fics that I have already recced before. I decided I wanted to make recs, but a little more in-depth, and because of this there may be some slight spoilers.   

let me fall for you... by: @language-of-love

Chapters: 5/5   Word Count: ~10k

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences

Archive Warning: No Archive Warnings Apply

Category: M/M

Fandom: Schitt's Creek

Relationship: Patrick Brewer/David Rose

Characters: David Rose, Patrick Brewer, Stevie Budd, Jimmy - OC

Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Alternate Universe - Different First Meeting, somewhat canon compliant, Autumn, Falling In Love, lake house in autumn, roasting marshmallows, Recreational Drug Use, Light Angst

Summary: When Stevie drags David to a friend's lake house in the early fall, he doesn't imagine it will be anything more than an annoyance with too many bugs. But then he meets Patrick, who helps change the course of the trip and if David doesn't find a way to mess it all up, maybe the course of his entire life. 

Thoughts: This fic fufills the bingo square: A fic that inspires you. When I was choosing this square I was thinking of fics that inspire me as a writer. Once I decided that I knew I would pick a fic written by Dee. I write similar tropes and fluff/slice of life. If my fics are the prototypes than Dee’s are the finished product.

This fic is one of my favs of Dee. I love the vibe and just the idea of going to a lake house every year. The moments on the dock are my favorite and they’re these simple, intimate moments. Plus Stevie is always a delight and a true friend.

Recommended if you like: Autumn fics, Sentimentality, and Light Miscommunication

[ozymandiasdirge]

I genuinely do want to know your Aang takes and broadly just ANY Atla takes especially unpopular ones

genuinely this is going to be the thing besides mcr posting in 2020 that finally gets me anon hate and you know what worth it lets go

aang takes

as character moments i actually like the moments when aang is selfish. like how do put in a twelve year old in the situation that being the sole hope for the entire world puts him on without having him lash out an be selfish. and objectively so many of his decisions are selfish stubborn acts (the one in the finale) but like....the fact that he even has to MAKE a choice in the first place is like....so monumentally fucked up so while watching it as an audience can be frustrating i like that they allow the characters that

all of my other aang takes are in the unpopular takes lol

other takes

i talked about this a few hours ago but im glad they didnt get azula a redemption arc.

also.....azula is 99% of the time the smartest person in the room but she is NOT as smart as she thinks she is and when she gets thrown off she makes galaxy brain level DUMB decisions and i wish we could all accept that.

mei/ty lee gang rise up

katara/yue RISE UP

this is probably the most unpopular but genuinely i think that any attempts these kids would have at relationships with each other before the age of thirty is like.....no. they need to learn how to be people on their own. zuko has spent his whole life defining his entire sense of self against other people and that is not going to be resolved in a few months that boy needs a support system not a teenage romance. maybe when they’re like 35.

i dont hate katara/aang if they were like...older when they figured shit out. im honestly kind of side eye towards most of the romance in the show in general. like......they are very codependent in which katara i think has trouble seeing him outside of ‘this is the sole thing that gave me hope for my whole life wrapped up in one person’ and for aang she is like the main tenet of his ability to hold onto his humanity and not be drowned under all that responsibility. they need to learn who they are as people.

i havent seen lok in a while so my opinion might have changed but i just really did not like a lot of it. it feels like they never build up the main four as a friendship and they’re just always like...in strife. which i get their older but they just....i dont know they dont click. i just have issues maybe i should try rewatching. im also not normally a fan of next gen stories in general so maybe thats my own bias.

apparently not thinking that ursa is as bad as ozai is an unpopular opinion??? i went to look at fanart yesterday and wow a lot of people hate women. like.....i do not know what people were expecting her to do against ozai???? he literally could have killed her at anytime and then she has no leverage to protect her children??? she was literally wed to ozai when she was like....barely out of childhood to test a eugenics experience how was she supposed to harness girl power and escape and magically have her children come out unharmed? i could literally write wide sargasso sea about ursa

i actually think the way they eastern and western ideas about religion a lot i wish we had gotten more of that. like the idea of the avatar is both a singular powerful figure who has the power to save humanity which is a pretty central figure of christianity, and then obviously the spirits/animism is “eastern” (that is a very generalized term and it exists in places other than asia i know) anyway id take a whole lore book about the spirits and the way spirituality works at a minutia level.

ozai gets the guillotine i dont care what aang says 

i know from a character development/narrative standpoint it is very fufilling buuuuuuut why is bringing an entire country out of a war/deprogramming them/completely revolutionizing the country left on a traumatized 16 year olds shoulders with no help from his family like....iroh i know you want your tea shop and not to make your nephew seem like a puppet but.....sir.......

literally would have appreciated any lu ten information who is this handsome man?