#i would. draw to feel better but i don't. know if i want to even look at csp right now lmfao fjdhxbsbdbsf

[backinmyphase]

You didn't even know how this happened and if you were in your right mind, you would be embarrassed to no end, but somehow you ended up laying in fratboy! Satoru's bed with him on top of you making out, and god who knew what would happen after a few drinks at one of his parties?

But even now you still were wondering why his kisses felt so passionate, why his hand on your waist held you so securely and steady and why were you imagining a faint blush on his cheeks?

What a few drinks do to you, huh?

"Fuck, you are so hot..." he was mumbling into your lips while his other hand explored your body. You felt yourself burning up at his words and after a small whine escaped your lips, he chuckled while creating a small gap between you two.

"Says you..." a poor attempt to flirt really, but it did draw a small laugh from him.

"Soooooo..." he started to lightly pull at your shirt and a bit of panic ignited through your body. "Is this okay?"

He stopped in his tracks and looked at you through his dazed eyes. Blue eyes. Really, really pretty eyes.

Fuck, why were people always judging other girls for spending the night with him? You would do it for the rest of your life if you could...

"Hey, if you don't want to, it's alright-" after your lack of response, the famous fratboy! Satoru really got nervous and looked at you with no of his usual confidence.

"No no, I want this but..." you cleared your throat while looking away. "Could you please turn off the light?"

He blinked at you two times. Then three times. His mouth slowly opening and closing again, making you feel smaller under his gaze and almost clutch onto your clothes. He then sat up while shaking his head. "Why?"

"Oh you know..." you followed him and sat up yourself, while letting out a nervous laugh. "Don't want you to be turned off."

...

That wasn't what Satoru wanted to hear, no never. He looked at you with so much confusion he genuinely thought you were joking at first. But when he saw your awkward smile he couldn't believe you really meant it.

"Me? Turned off? By you?"

"Oh I know how it is, sometimes the imagination is better than reality, I don't want to ruin the fun-" you let out another nervous laugh. You already ruined this didn't you?

"Me? Turned off? By you??" he groaned as he saw the genuine confusion on your face.

"I don't understand..." you muttered while he studied your face with a critical look.

"Listen to me sweetheart." he pulled you close again and you could just barely surpress the little sigh that was about to leave you.

"You're literally the most gorgeous woman I have ever laid my eyes on. And I won't be turned off by any part of you, okay?"

Now it was your turn to blink at him. And it was probably just the lightning, but he seemed even more red.

"You are telling that every girl." you accidentally muttered what was supposed to stay in the safe and deadly space of your head, but he heard it and now almost seemed to glare at you.

"Jesus we need to work on your self esteem." he started to hide his face in the crook of your neck, nibbling at the skin. "And I won't fuck you, if I can't admire you, just to be clear. I waited to long for this moment to not see you moaning my name."

Now you were really burning up, what the hell?

"Please, I just don't want this to be ruined by my not so great loc-"

"I waited to long, seeing you every day at campus, admiring you, listening to your sweet voice, to only get a dark room for my first time worshipping you."

"Gojo, stop it-" you felt like dying from his words, feeling him touching you everywhere wasn't helping you in any way. Even if you will dream of this.

"Satoru. You know the name." he groaned into the crook of your neck. "Sweetheart, I think we have to just cuddle for today."

It was stupid but your heart sank at his words because, fuck, you really did ruin it. "Is that so?"

"Yeah. I have to take you out at first so you get that I'm serious."

What a few drinks do to you, huh? If only you knew fratboy! Satoru wanted to ask you out since last year.

Listened to bed chem while writing this hehehe

[dodgeballstuckonthegymceiling]

Imagine yet another scenario with the Player being a parental figure to Doey or specifically, the three kids that make up Doey ( Matthew, Kevin and Jack ). The Player just being an absolutely doting parent with as much affection and attention the kids want 🥹🫂

This ask reminds me of these drawings by leydraw. If you have the time, maybe check it out! Also, this takes place while the Player is still in the factory.

If you like my work, please consider commissioning me or leaving a tip on Ko-fi (˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶)

Mathew, Kevin and Jack & parental Player

★ You want to give them all the hugs, so you do. Matthew might act like he’s too "grown-up" for being babied, but don't be fooled. He adores every moment of it. Kevis is shyer and still unsure of you, if you try to touch him, he might get upset. So good luck there. But Jack? He soaks up every bit of love the Player has.

★ He finds some scraps of food? "Oh, good job! It's very kind of you to think about others." You say. Patting Doey on the back for his efforts. Every little accomplishment is met with praise. Because sometimes It's the little things that matter.

★ The Player’s soft spot for Doey quickly grows into a bond. Over time, Doey’s guard lowers. Though he’s naturally self-reliant, he starts to see the Player as someone who he can ask for help. Each time you tell him you're there for him, he believes you a little more.

★ After seeing everything he does for the Safe Haven, you make the decision to step up and help. He shouldn't need to take care of everyone by himself. Not anymore. So, you start to clean up the rooms whenever Doey isn't looking.

★ He sees cleaning the Safe Haven as "his job" and feels guilty if you do it for him. If he catches the Player tidying up without him, he’s immediately defensive. “Hey, that’s my job! You don’t have to do that!” Panicking ever so slightly.

★ Jack loved you from the beginning. From the first time the Player showed him kindness, he was attached. And he’s not afraid to show his need for attention, saying things like, “Can I sit with you?” or “Look what I found! Isn’t it cool?” Whenever Jack feels scared, he holds your hand.

★ Whenever the player tells Jack about the world outside the factory, his imagination runs wild. Thinking about all the animals, food and places he has vague memories of. “I think... I remember the smell of pancakes, what real?” he asks softly. Unsure what memories are his.

★ Mathew warmed up to you after Jack. Even as Jack ran up to the Player with open arms, Matthew hangs back, watching from a distance. Still wondering if the Player’s kindness is genuine or just an act. Over time he begins to realize that you genuinely care. If you hadn't, why would you have stayed?

★ Despite acting older than he really is, Mathew still wants the Players attention. He tries very hard to present himself as the mature one. But you know better. A simple “Good job, Matthew!” can make his day, even if he just responds with “Oh! Um, thanks.”

★ Kevin is the last to accept you. He didn't like you at all, because you were an employee. But the more the care you show, the more Kevin lets down his guard. He doesn't even realize how much he likes you until he finds himself feeling jealous over Jack and Mathew.

★ “Maybe they’re not all bad,” he begrudgingly admits to himself. Kevin might not openly seek the Player’s attention, but his actions speak louder than words. He starts lingering nearby, pretending to focus on something else but clearly hoping they’ll include him.

★The first time Kevin lets the Player hug him, it's after a particularly rough day. He approached you looking for support. Grabbing onto your shirt and refusing to look in your eyes. Though he’s initially stiff, he slowly relaxes into the embrace. Finally, allowing himself to trust you.

[eden-falls]

3 rings for the elven-kings

design notes below!

annatar (sauron)

• ok i know the eye motifs are over the top. i like them

• the shade of gold at his neck is the same as galadriel's headdress, as are his flowing white sleeves of the same material as her dress. weird freak who i HATE (get a job!)

• the only one not in direct profile; he looks towards the rings rather than the people who oppose him. i originally thought about having him looking out at us but i changed my mind because his one goal is power and that's in the rings, not in us measly humans

• ears resemble wings

celembrimbor

• silver jewellery rather than gold like the others. something something inferiority complex

• blue overcoat of his own design; orange tunic to represent annatar's influence

• tassels!!! i love tassels. thats all really. i am guilty of loving witch hat atelier (best manga ever)

• he also looks down at the rings rather than the others, but with a different kind of feeling than annatar's

galadriel

• pure white dress to signify her strength and purity in the face of evil (that never sways her bless up) as well as her birthplace

• her hand is poised as if she rests it on a sword hilt, but what need is there for one when presented with ultimate power?

gil-galad

• she looks past celembrimbor and the rings at annatar

• headdress a little inspired by ancient egyptian designs because im writing about hatshepsut for one of my university modules rn and like aside from the half brother marrying im kind of obsessed with her whole deal and i think her and gal would be friends. so.

• his crown is inspired by a laurel wreath. a lot of the time i see him depicted with some kind of crazy gravity defying be-not-afraid type of headdress and while aesthetically i am obsessed with the idea i have some personal qualms with the practicality of it. also i didn't want to draw something like that because im a lazy perfectionist which is a terrible terrible combination especially for an artist. so i just did a simple little crown

• dressed in all gold and rich patterns because. u know. king and stuff

• he too is entranced by the rings. boy look up for a second!! watch out!!!

elrond (side note: i know he's not an original ring bearer. however i like him)

• slightly different look from my third age elrond design but with the same colour scheme. theres more gold detailing on his tunic

• sorry ROP fans i don't like the short hair on him or brimby. short as i'll go with the elves is shoulder length (again refer to my third age elrond)

• i tried to make an arc with the ear shapes of the three on the right. it doesn't mean much i just think it's neat

• even here his clothing style is slightly different from the others' because he is one of those darn youths.

• i like to think he stays the same height though even if tolkien describes him as tall because tolkien describes all the elves and men as tall so he can still be like 5'10 and count as tall

final note: still havent read the silm; gathered knowledge from the internet. i don't think theres any insane errors. i know better than to trust rings of power with more than a base storyline (as much as i like it. no egregious ROP slander will happen here)

[devdozes]

yes. i write angst, i write comfort, i read about fictional characters cherishing me and write about it because I know no one will love me, no one irl cares enough for me. no one approaches first, so I daydream and write about my comfort characters approaching and caring for me. i cry in my works , I obsess over it , I obsess over the feeling of being loved. if not by irl ppl. then by my works atleast. Im so tired why cant ppl approach me, love me nd appreciate me. I'm so ufckign titred, I disassociate, I depress, I self isolate I cant even recognize myself in the mirror anymore. i don't want to have hope but I still have hope because my stupid fucking writer ass writes abt characters loving. you all, in the disguise of reader. I'm trying to get out of this world. my attempts keep failing, everything does. So I write, I write and I write and I draw and draw until I cant recognize my hands filled with scars and paint. I just wish someone would care. I don't want fake sympathy, liars. Cold truth is better than sweet lies. Because in the end sweet lies cause for me to believe no one will ever love me

No one will love me and nor can I believe anyone will. Yet why do I hope. I just want someone to reach out, check up on me.

I always love and approach cuz i know how it feels, in the end I never receive what I give and never will.

[wretcheddoll]

Tagged by: @tulinokkaelain <3!

What’s the origin of your username?: My username is a reference to the Switchblade Symphony song Dollhouse "In the attic is where I'll hide" is also a reference to that song.

OTP(s) + ship name: Marius/Armand if that wasn't obvious lol, they're the best and I'm a Marimand truther.

Favorite color: Black, I also like purple, black, and red paired together.

Song stuck in your head: I guess Dollhouse cause I was just thinking about it.

Weirdest habit/trait: Like stimming and general autism spectrum stuff, like when I'm sitting in a chair my legs need to be hiked up to my chest to feel comfortable like El from Deathnote lol

Hobbies: Vampires lol, idk I really need to get back into some of my old hobbies cause I feel like I don't so anything anymore :/ But I am interested in the Goth subculture, historical fashion, and yes vampires lol. I want to get back into drawing and music.

If you work, what’s your profession?: Don't have a degree yet but I work at a gift boutique.

If you could have any job you wish, what would it be?: When I was little I wanted to be a truck driver lol, I also was trying to pursue a degree in animation which I still love, but I one, don't think I have the art skills necessary, and two, think that profession is just getting more and more hellish for workers. So I still don't know what I want to do.

Something you’re good at: I honestly don't think I'm good at anything I really don't know. 😭

Something you hate: Cognitive Dysfunction and the downsides of ADHD. 😵‍💫

Something you collect: Plushies!! I love Jellycats we sell them at my work, and I have fallen hook line and sinker for the craze, I love the Halloween ones so much! I bought two of them as a birthday present to myself lol. Also I collect art books, I have the WolfWalkers and Adventure Time art books, and Gorillaz Rise of the Ogre (not really and artbook but I consider it one) I also collect gothic clothing if that counts? I have two thrifted pieces of Tripp and I want to further my corset collection. Dark alternative clothing is valuable to me, so I see as more of a collection than just a regular wardrobe. I would love to start collecting dolls definitely Living Dead Dolls. but any old vintage dolls are cool to me.

Something you forget: Anytime I'm doing a task and I get distracted from it for a second, I swear it's like I forget everything I was doing.

What’s your love language?: I don't like the love language thing cause it's fake, but if I had to choose, I would say quality time.

Favorite movie/show: Hmmm, I feel like I always forget about all the movies I like when asked 🫠 Nosferatu really blew me away. Interview with the Vampire (the 90s film!!) of course, probably the first vampire film for adults I ever saw. All time classics to me are Cartoon Saloon's Irish mythology trilogy of animated films, Aventure Time also is a show that basically raised me lol, it was such a formative piece of media to my child brain, same with Over the Garden Wall. I feel like I'm missing a lot of stuff I love but I can never remember when asked. 😭 There's so many films I haven't seen that I know I would love so that's also the thing.

Favorite food: Burgers and fries, sushi, and Mexican definitely my go tos.

Favorite animal: Bats! I love owls too but bats #1.

What were you like as a child?: Autistic 😐 like either really quite or on the verge of a meltdown with no chill. 😭

Favorite subject at school: Probably world history or English.

Least favorite subject: My nemesis math.

What’s your best character trait?: I think I'm a nice person, I genuinely love to know people's stories and make their day better even if I'm socially awkward.

What’s your worst character trait?: I think I can be selfish and way too addicted to personal comforts, if I was a deadly sin I would be sloth personified lol.

If you could travel in time, who would you like to meet: Hmm idk who I would want to meet per say but time traveling into the past seems like the coolest thing ever, I mean just to visit of course I know the past was shitty for most people. But it would be so cool to learn about the past by actually going there.

Tagging: @sellycarcosa @empiresofyourheart @paintaboveyourbones @pain-in-the-butler (if you want lol)

GET TO KNOW YOUR MUTUALS

Tagged by: Thank you @desertfangs for tagging me! ❤️

What’s the origin of your username?: I have no reason for it, really. Other than that  I wanted to pick a Finnish username and thought this was funny. It’s just a platypus pun! 😆 Platypus in Finnish is “vesinokkaeläin”, which translates to “water beak animal”. I changed the first word to “tuli” so it now means “fire beak animal”.  :DD

OTP(s) + ship name:  Oh no…I love many ships and don’t really dislike any, so.

Marius ships?? Marius/Daniel, Marius/Armand, Marius/Lestat, Marius/Armand/Daniel, Marius/Armand/Lestat. Also...Armand/Daniel, Lestat/David, Lestat/David/Louis, uhhhh of course Lestat/Louis and Lestat/Armand, Armand/Louis, Lestat/Louis/Armand…..hmm Jesse/Mael, Mael/Marius….etc.

I almost never use the ship names, who knows what they all are! xD

Favorite color: Red & dark green

Song stuck in your head: Miina by Vilma Jää (I’ve really been loving her lately, it’s Finnish ethno pop)

Weirdest habit/trait: Hmm, I don’t know, having little dance parties by myself in elevators? But how am I to know if other people also do this? 😆

Hobbies: Tabletop role-playing games, board games, video games, reading, and hey, I’ve been drawing for almost six months now! Having a hobby where I get to create something has definitely been so good for me! 

If you work, what’s your profession?: University administration. Doesn’t have anything to do with my degree but I don’t want to search for new jobs right now…

If you could have any job you wish, what would it be?:  When I was a child I wanted to be a person whose job would be only to pet animals all day. I think I’d still like that.

Something you’re good at: Hmm, at least I’m NOT good at thinking of anything when someone asks. 😂 I’m an ok baker!

Something you hate: AI art… 

Something you collect: Books, dice, Moomin mugs (I didn’t buy a single one myself, they just are a very common gift lol)

Something you forget: Always forget my food or drinks in my friend’s fridges.

What’s your love language?: I’m not very familiar with this theory…how would I choose just one. So I won't!

Favorite movie/show:  I’m bad at picking favorites…Most recently I’ve been watching Severance & Twin Peaks, and I’m loving them! Hmm, I also like Fargo, Black Sails, Hannibal, Community, Over the Garden Wall, True Detective, Arcane, Haunting of the Hill House, Midnight Mass & Dropout shows like Game Changer. Some anime, and other things I’m 100% certainly forgetting now!! 

I don’t know about a fave movie either…I like The Lord of the Rings movies, Robert Egger’s movies, Ghibli animation, Interstellar, Hereditary,  Star Wars, Alien, Labyrinth��.many other things…xD

Favorite food: Let’s say avocado pasta or grilled mushrooms stuffed with cheese

Favorite animal: Seals! And puffins!

What were you like as a child?: I think I was a pretty outgoing kid that got along well with everybody, but then I got social anxiety :D

Favorite subject at school: Psychology, literature, English as a foreign language

Least favorite subject: Physics and chemistry

What’s your best character trait?: I can be depended on to help & really like helping people! Let me carry your stuff when you’re moving, I demand it!!! 😂

What’s your worst character trait?: Procrastination….nowadays it’s just hard for me to do anything unless I have a deadline set by someone else. Bottling my feelings and worries instead of expressing them, even when I know it would be better for me to talk about them.

If you could travel in time, who would you like to meet: Because of social anxiety, it would be a horror for me to meet any celebrities or famous people. I’d just go meet myself in the past and we’d both be equally awkward. 🤝

Tagging: I'm not sure at all who's already been tagged but I'm bravely tagging some people that maybe have not been? No pressure! @wretcheddoll @littleshopofflorrors @ladyvampir3 @half-as-big-as-life @bunnnster and everybody who wants to do it 😄

[icewindandboringhorror]

One of the interesting bits of trying to resume working on the game after so long is looking back at my ancient Draft Placeholder versions of an image from 4 yrs ago trying to remember what the hell I meant back then, to hopefully interpret it into some more final (ish..) form of the same thing .. making slow progress lol

[mustangs-flames]

I know Veilguard didn't really give an option for why my character chose to join the Grey Wardens so I am sharing here that it's because my guy is a murderer. He murdered someone. And to me that adds a layer to playing Rook as a snarky guy who tries to act care free but will always do whatever it takes to get the job done and save people in the end because he feels, intrinsically, that he has to do something to make up for it.

And no. It wasn't manslaughter, or a killing that was somehow justified. My Rook deliberately killed someone and has to live with that. And it's something he's kept secret for all 6 years he's been a Warden - not even Antoine and Evka know. The Grey Wardens take in anyone after all and their pasts are forgotten unless they choose to share. It was join or face a noose for my Rook and he took the option where he got to live (adds more weight to the Mayor being condemned to the Wardens by Rook after selling out his village to the Blight too).

So to my Rook, Veilguard is one big way of trying to make up for something he can never take back. I haven't finished the game yet so idk if it'll be something he comes to terms with in the end, but I like to think that he would at least share what he did with Lucanis even if he never told anyone else.

[seaofreverie]

So busy with Sparkstember that I almost forgot that I go back to school on tuesday

[alatus-k]

I have been super close to a robust number of artists over the years and it is hugely funny how much I absolutely just fucking hate the process of creating digital art

[moe-broey]

Jacket!!!! Ye olde varsity I got at the very beginning of my transition thinking "Oh fuck yes I am going to pass so hard in this" and. Well. It never worked I just have never passed a day in my life I don't think 😔 Eventually it just became a beloved test subject and has since gone through a bit of a transition itself LMFAOO

Some Notes:

> A lot of the decorations are taken from old backpacks I loved dearly that got absolutely fucking destroyed by the weight of all the shit I'd lug around in highschool LMFAO (sketchbook, diary, all kinds of notebooks...). Never had the heart to get rid of them. Specifically: The pink zippers, the holographic pockets, the glow in the dark stars, and the holo angel wings!

> The pink/blue checkers are from a small decorative quilt I thrifted years ago, I wouldn't be surprised if it was handmade (it's super soft material, btw! Important LMAO). I only took out one line of squares, I plan on stitching the rest of it back together (haven't done it yet though LMFAO). The reason for this was to upsize the jacket, so I can button it without it clinging. The pockets were added for funsies ESP cause it lined up very well and aren't really practical LMFAO (BUT YOU CAN PUT THINGS IN THEM! If you want!! 🎉🎉🎉)

> The patches (esp the name/pronouns one) were the first additions actually. Eventually more and more things were added, but I will say all the pins on the opposite side of the patches were haphazardly placed for a concert I VERY BADLY wanted to look good for LMFAOO (that's when the stars were added too! Fighting for my life on the car ride over speedrunning sewing and trying not to throw up about it AHAKHSKSHDK)

> Spike placement may be odd and I'd like to add more, but also I do frequently still carry around big heavy backpacks so I have to take that into consideration. Which is also why the wings have been bolted on. Those motherfuckers are NOT going anywhere LMFAO (has a really cool visual effect too!!)

> The material of the jacket itself (sort of a swishy windbreaker fabric) IS ABSOLUTE ASS TO WORK WITH. BY THE FUCKING WAY. IN CASE YOU WERE WONDERING. I would NOT recommend it to anybody ESPECIALLY someone who is just starting to fuck around and find out. I literally am just sticking it out bc of the sentimental value this fucker has to me 😭😭😭

This jacket was my first plunge into customization and punk fashion, I didn't have a plan and still don't have one (and I think it kind of shows lmfao). I do worry that it's too soft and cutesy. Kind of the whole point for me, when it came to leaning heavy into punk, was to feel sharper, like I had some bite to me. I might be getting closer, but I think I'm still just kind of a silly guy LMAO. But, I do think in a way, esp as my first project, it represents me well -- where I started, what I loved before the beginning, what I tried desperately to be, what I still wish for, reuniting with the things I loved and embracing them in a brand new context. It's still an ongoing project too! So maybe as I keep growing, it'll grow alongside me, maybe finding that grit I've been striving for along the way.

[earl-grey-crow]

✨pond theories✨

[illdothehotvoice]

Can my likes literally not right now I'm trying to feel like garbage about having to defend my entire art practice in critique today lmfao

[skrunksthatwunk]

been cleaning my dorm for like 4 hours and it somehow does not feel like it has amounted to anything

[annihilatius]

I'm unironically getting interested in a 10 year old Minecraft roleplay series that hasn't been updated in 7 years and will never actually be finished because the two people that made it together got divorced and don't even record stuff at all anymore so there's barely any fandom anywhere and any fan content that exists is (the vast majority of the time) stuff from 8 years ago when it was still being made uploaded by inactive accounts I'm so fucking ashamed of myself

[madebysoupy]