#i wont ever understand that but maybe it's so

[mymoshangthoughts]

okay, okay, okay, bear with me

mobei jun already knows about shang qinghua as airplane

oki ive decided to take advantage of the fact that WE NEVER GET A MOBEI JUN POV AND I'LL BE FORVER SALTY ABOUT THAT SHIT

but like, shen yuan figured airplane out REAL fast, right? they barely spent time together before the immortal alliance and then it takes one surprise before airplane is saying stupid shit, right?

and i cant help but think, mobei jun aint dumb and he's been spending How Many Years crashing at shang qinghua's leisure house whenever the fuck he feels like it?

he also finds shang qinghua to be Hella Sus because come on, ofc he does. a human just declares their undying loyalty to you after one fucking meeting??? even if he believes shang qinghua is being sincere in the moment, the fact that he was so quick to betray his sect doesnt speak of a loyal servant

so why wouldnt he snoop? why wouldnt he pay extra close attention when shang qinghua says shit that doesnt make sense? why wouldnt he notice when shang qinghua speaks or writes in a language that he doesnt recognize? airplane canonically isnt fluent in english so if he used a bit of it, especially chinglish, wouldnt mobei jun be able to learn some of the meanings of the words just by context clues? especially when he has YEARS to decode it? like if airplane was fluent, maybe he could hide the meaning, but a limited vocabulary adapted to another language isnt actually super hard to decode. it's the same reason that you can generally understand what slang means before you look up the definition. you might not know what 'rizz' means, but you can pick up the meaning from context clues.

anyway im over explaining the linguistic aspects ALL IM SAYING IS what if airplane kinda depends heavily on chinglish to be his Secret Language that Theres No Way That Anyone Here Can Get. and sure, for most people, it does seem like gibberish. but again, mobei jun has YEARS at his side and reasons to nitpick at it and decode it.

like what if airplane had a habit of writing out pidw plot points in chinglish bc look he is Going to forget shit no matter what, he wrote that novel a lifetime ago, but theres some info thats pretty important for him to Not Forget. so mobei jun is just left with a huge stash of Impossible Information that shang qinghua writes about

everything ranging from future events to obscure demon world facts that theres just no justifiable reason for shang qinghua to know about and just everything in between.

but also what if shang qinghua wrote his feelings? his thoughts? his issues? like cmon, he literally has NO ONE to consult with about the insanity of his life before cucumber-bro, and his life is really crazy, and he used to be the person who wrote out his feelings via novel but look dude he's not about to tempt fate by writing out another novel rn so a diary makes sense. or at least like, random venting

and again, this isnt even mentioning airplane having some potential verbal fuckups that mobei jun can add to his ever growing file of "shang qinghua has something fucking going on"

and like, maybe mobei jun hasnt actually figured out the exact truth but he has some eerily close guesses. or maybe airplane wrote a lengthy journal explaining literally his entire fucked up life and mobei jun knows Everything.

look im just a little bit obsessed with mobei jun casually being aware for YEARS that shang qinghua is from another world and might have once had god-like powers over this world. i think this is very funny and i think it could work in a canon compliant way. cuz i also like to think that some of mobei jun's aggro at shang qinghua was a mixture of

you literally wont tell me who you really are. you claim to be my loyal subject but you wont even tell me your real name and Yes I'm Upset About That

you fucking fucker, you literally PLANNED that horrible event to happen???? you suck so bad omfg. THAT WAS TRAUMATIZING FOR ME YOU JERK NO I DONT CARE IF YOU FEEL BAD ABOUT IT NOW

your handwriting sucks and im mad that i didnt just have to decode your weird other language, i also had to decode your fucking horrendous handwriting and i dont know if i can ever forgive you for that

you barely ever show your real personality in front of me and i have to learn how you really feel by reading this fucking notes and YES IM UPSET ABOUT THAT

i also just love the idea of Something Happening to do with the multiverse and basically mobei jun is the only one who isnt remotely surprised lmfao. binghe is in crisis mode, cucumber thinks he's gonna die, airplane is freaked out, and mobei jun is just like "yeah, figured some dumb shit like this might happen. you didnt know binghe? dont you pay any attention to your husband :/ dude, they're not even good at hiding it, i thought you were supposed to be smart"

also the simultaneous heartattacks that cucumber and airplane would have that mobei jun just KNOWS like thats hilarious. imagine they need to talk about something secretly in public and its super urgent and mobei jun just starts using chinglish or webspeak or something perfectly and cumplane are FREAKING THE FUCK OUT

mobei jun: that mofo is hella sus, but keep it on the dl. ttyl i need to do a vibe check

cumplane: ?!?!?!?!?!?

[asteracaea]

re: the smallest man who ever lived. did you see that the Eras stage setup for this song emulates the Victoria Secret show invasion segment (from the vs show taylor supposedly met karlie)?

So l guess gaylors who are making this song about karlie have actually a point. Not only lyrics (many of the song's verses suggest kaylor), song callbacks (mad woman parallels) AND the stage setting for this song is giving karlie. She might be the smallest man who ever lived in Taylor's eyes.

i have an experience when i listen to taylor's music and see her visuals where, because i see such overwhelming evidence on the daily that suggests that not only is there no bad blood between t&k but in fact quite the opposite, i can feel karlie's presence in taylor's art as a general major muse. and so even though i do not believe they had a falling out the way the public believes they did, i can hear things in otherwise sad songs about heartbreak or loss - like cardigan, gold rush, the 1 - that evoke karlie with specifics but it doesn't make me question what i think happened or is happening between them.

taylor's literally constant references to the vsfs never feel like she's making a dig at karlie. to me, her obsession with these events in her art tell me that these were really significant times for her that remain important, and she wants people to keep looking back at that. i didn't notice this particular parallel in the TSMWEL set, but if it really is another reference to vsfs, it wouldn't make me question that all the other millions of instances of her doing that were not done with love. in fact, it would make me think about its use in this song and what that might actually mean in the context of the rest of her body of work: if all other vsfs allusions have been joyful/heartfelt/full of love, how might that alter the intended interpretation of this song?

[bisexualcherdegre]

D:BH Rarepairsweek 7 | @dbhrarepairs

Day 3: Hank/Markus After the revolution, Markus and Hank are both trying to deal with the new situation they've been handed. Their paths cross.

[robotsafari]

a mind palace’s (unasked for) renovations [DO NOT TAG AS SHIP]

bonus under the cut:

white mushroom more like “butlershroom.”

anyway. yep! my headcanon is that the mushroom series of heartless were essentially like early versions of ansem. experiments to see if creating a heartless with a will of its own were even possible. (the mushrooms just wanna play charades and go on nice walks! they wont steal your heart because their instincts tell em’ to! they’ll only snatch it if they feel like it <3) how can you make an “immortal” successor if they cant even understand the research you left for them? so thats why they were created!

[acequinz]

Hey do you think pre-sunshot LXC was so supportive of LWJ getting along with WWX, so he would have at least one friend who isn't outright intimidated by him because he didn't want LWJ to be as lonely as he was?

Because while LWJ was also an heir, it was very much fixed that LXC would be the next sect leader, so obviously they beat down on him harsher than they would LWJ.

Every time we see LXC pre-sunshot is either him with LQR or on a night hunt or preparing for some sect related things and unlike LWJ who is comfortable by himself he clearly does not exactly love it.

Of course he's still gonna do it because of responsibility but that doesn't mean LWJ has to suffer the same loneliness he does.

So what I am thinking it pre-sunshot LXC doing the typical eldest sibling stuck in a strict family not wanting his younger sibling to have to put up with the same frustrations and giving him a way out.

Like yes, go on befriend that little chaotic boy who is actually very talented and adept and can hold his ground in front of you. You know you finally met someone who is your match so don't be afraid to get close, you have the option so don't waste it.

And then do you think LXC felt like he met his own match when he met Meng Yao on the run? Not just because he saved him but because they could understand each other's defense mechanisms where they both politely smile even when they want to stab people.

[itsseriouslyridiculous]

I really hate how my physical body looks so so so much. unfortunately there isn't much I can do about it.

[potatobugz]

biggest problem with writing is that I have all the ideas and themes I want to express in my head, but when I try to write it down the words come out. wrong

[bingobongobonko]

question with anyone who knows better, its been a while since ive seen a psychologist and maybe my diagnoses changed and maybe ive gotten better but errrrr. right NOW i feel great, so it kind of is like. why go to a psychologist if i feel good?? normal even, functional. but i understand thats the feel right now, and my brain's gonna go crazy and ill be losing it at some point, its just kind of my schedule now. i see the pattern, but i guess its like. would it be better to do it while im in the bad state so ill be better at explaining whats wrong, or the good state, which is more better on appts and payments but at the expense of exaggerating how normal my head feels. does this make sense

[just-spacetrash]

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[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

the worst part abt watching movies w my parents is when they Dont Get It and so it falls on me to explain it to them, but when i use words that sound smarter than how i usually speak they give me that Look of vague confusion and judgement and it makes everything not fun anymore. this is also the reason for my various undiagnosed mental illnesses and also the fact that i am so heavily in the closet about being trans-

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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[bogos-bint3d]

Oooooooo you wanna find me great incredible Undyne centric content that I haven't seen before and will be consumed by ooooooooooo

[justinefrischmanngf]

i owe so much to one of my maths teachers who was like ykw u should get ur maths exams printed on colour paper i bet it’ll help u and help me it did !!!!!

[seraphim-soulmate]

I guess part of the reason i take care of my grandma is because I want to know what to expect when I'm around that age. It's hard to imagine what that must be like and considering I share a lot of traits with my grandmother, I'd like to be as prepared as I can be. I'm not sure if I'm hoping I'll make it to that age or not. I'm not sure if life will give me that.

[lunarsapphism]

i hope that someday this will all get better

[alienglowgarden]

not gonna finish that fic, so instead I'll just ramble abt it to myself

First thing I'll say is, damn longform stories are hard to write. I've really only roleplayed and written nanofiction, drabbles n the like( n one short story but its full of experimental prose so its pretty nonsequential stuff too) so the very basic act of stringing a bunch of events together and giving each enough attention was kind of a struggle. Plus I wanna start a philosophical tangent based on like every other paragraph y_y It went better than my first attempt at fic, but even this in retrospect is probably pretty bad, esp with the lack of response from anyone beyond a "well this convoluted sentence was kind of funny". Tho I'll say I still feel fairly confident in the first chapter v_v It was GOOD, OK??? Could ofc be flippant and blame it on the fact that its not shipping or smut n that thats all fandom cares about, but-

Next up, excerpts from the fic that I, PERSONALLY thought were super funny and great bits in general.

I thought I was SO clever for the customer service voice comparison. A real phenomena that affects millions of sufferers every day.

n honestly this whole paragraph right after I thought sounded like a delightful little montage. And its a sweet thought that Sol's wasting their rations on Sym just to include him in the ritual and to prolong the whole "playing house" bit. Similarly later on when Sol prattles on abt cooking up something special next time, again, even tho Sym doesn't really need to eat. He's noted by Dys to like sweets, but even when you give him a cake he just tastes the icing a bit n is like "well that was nice :-)"

I WAS BOILING IN MY SKIN I THOUGHT I WAS BEING SOOOOO FUNNY UGH AND NOBODY EVEN MENTIONED IT!!!! COME ONNN!!! Similarly Sol having trouble focusing on the english, needing subtitles cus they grew up on esperanto I thought was nice attention to detail from me.

Also I compared Seeq to Blackadder, where is my comedy emmy

this wouldve had a nice callback in the last chapter, of Sol similarly finding themself experiencing something totally new and unique, totally outside of the timeloops scope.

I also liked my little Sol & the Embrace Eternity ending during Syms death hiatus bit, that was something I had written as just a teensy drabble idea before the fic. Also liked injecting a slight divergence from known canon with Geranium believing Sols future vision. Wouldve later been called up again with both of them fussing over Flulu a lot n Ger kinda feeling like shit when/if Sol gets involuntarily operated upon.

Onto chapter 2:

Ok the sugarbug thing was really all I had going for it, I was gonna wax poetic abt Vace n Sols relationship more, but depended far too much on getting any positive feedback n motivation to keep going lol v_v Theres a lot you could weave together about their mutual self-inflicted need to be a hero, even at the cost of their own suffering, their own dreams. Of feeling alienated from others for seemingly knowing more, seeing the big picture. N similarly (my) Sol has a bit of that same bravado that masks the unseemly parts of them, the reasons that would make others worry if they knew Sol wasn't just messing around, that their achievements weren't just happy accidents, but things they'd meticulously planned for, sacrificed for.

But anyway the surgabug thread was meant to be a sign of the Gardeners still holding onto their feelings of both resentment and love for their creators. Just a single facet, there would be more, but the most obvious thread once Sol learns to spot it.

Noctilucent is just fun to write for :3 "Little weed" would also with time become a more affectionate nickname for Sol.

Once again, I THOUGHT I WAS SO FUNNY FOR THIS. Why is my genous so underappreciated.

...and again, the care all Gardeners share for their planet, for the garden their creators left them, largely explored through Noctilucent, for whom that would seem most unlikely, who would surprise the reader most. In future chapters, there would have been more scenes.

Most notably, Noct finds Sol after a devastating accident that leaves them with a concussion(possibly self inflicted in an attempt to reconnect those wormhole synapses in their brain again). Sol tries to blubber something about a deal the gardeners wont be able to resist. They realize Noct has taken measures to care for their wounds. Eventually, the agreement is struck. More lenience is extended. Noct hidden relationship meter goes a little bit up again.

The end would mark a secret place Noctilucent takes Sol, the New Experience they share in confidence, a new facet of understanding the puzzle and Sol's own place in it.

ok yea its referencing that rio romero song lmao. Sol feeling a spooky ooky similarity of their own fates within the timeloop to that of the sugarbug, as utilised by their own colony. A replenishable resource; no regard for its wellbeing. Or probably more likely seeing the danger of becoming that, by their own hand, permitting their life to be consumed by the colony's survival.