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Ok, lol, i got the hilarious Idea of a reader in a Kagome-like situation, only with Sesshoumaru--- Like yeah, I cant forage or hunt for food but I can make literal 'lightning in a bottle' I just recreate electricity using static
#ha#i wonder how that'll go#“Can you eat it? Use it as a medicine?”#No sir but i can make fire#I will ithe become either God or a demon to the people of that time#especially when I introduce medicinal drugs#ibuprofen? Vitamins? Penicilin?#I would be a menance#thoughts#brainstorm#story brainstorm#general#my stuff#inuyasha#inuyasha a feudal fairy tale#sesshoumaru#sesshomaru#x reader
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been scribbling out some little comics for my EoW!Zelda Impersonates Link AU!
#echoes of wisdom#the legend of zelda#princess zelda#zelda#loz eow#loz#josh art tag#This one is based around the idea that Zelda never actually met Link properly#and thus impersonating him is trial and error#but also that the situation emphasizes the tragedy of what happened#that Link (presumably) went on a whole quest to save her#and yet she knows nothing about this wonderful hero that she now has taken the place of#also this comic (and possible future ones) are indeed slightly born of me wanting to show people that my AU isnt just#“make zelda link”#cuz some people dont see my vision. which is fine!! how are they supposed to know?#but a couple people are like “well doesn't this defeat the purpose of having protag zelda in the first place? :/”#but no that is not what this is about!#In my vision for how this au would play out it would still be very different than playing as link#like sure she looks like link but princess zelda isnt just some girl in a dress you know#So the fact that she is indeed actually impersonating link isnt just like a backstory or anything#its something that is constantly relevant#in my eyes of how such a story would go#wait i need a tag for this au now uhhhh#imposter!zelda au#<- maybe that'll do???#maybe its too among us-y#if u have suggestions pls share
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if life is categorized by Before Loss and After Loss then I exist in the before but with a countdown to the after. and the countdown is always always present and debilitating. the loss will be debilitating too but i cant help myself. i will always suffer twice.
#i cant let go of it. i cant even enjoy good moments without thinking about how they'll just be memories one day#how they're already memories since moments pass so fast#everything is I'll Miss This and i already miss it and i cant believe once you're gone you're gone forever#and ill never ever see you again. and your shell is in the ground but where did the rest of you go?#should i look at your body one last time? on one hand itll be the last time i see you.#on the other hand it will be the last time i see you.#and the memory of you will die with me too. as if neither ever existed#it impacts me so much too bc i dont feel close to anybody really...and i dont make friends easily#so whats going to happen when the people who have always been there arent there anymore?#im going to be alone for so much of my life.#i will record your voice so im ready for when i cant hear it from the source while also knowing it wont be enough and one day#ill be wishing it lasted longer. it could be 12 hours long and ill want more.#how do you surpass this? it hasn't even happened. when it happens i don't know what ill do. considering my whole life has been#the timer. the countdown. hours and hours of anticipatory grief#and then ill be next. me. some of all thats left of you. it cant be true.#sorry. this gets worse every single year and its been going insane lately#id surprisingly been managing it well for months somehow ! it wouldnt cross my mind...and now its there again#like it accumulated and its all coming out right now. ive been crying for hrs tonight and last night#one day his things will just be things. things ive made and given him will be in my hands again.#talkys#i want to go hug my dad but then ill just cry over how one day i wont be able to....! how do i store it? how do i save it?#how do i preserve it forever....even as i take my own last breath....#i cant believe im the only one of me. and my dad is the only one of him.#i wouldnt want to be reborn as anyone else. i cant believe one day i wont get to draw or eat or be comfy in bed anymore.#i cant take it !! im so scared. ill be scared until the end. and you wont be there to hold my hand. im going to be alone.#and none of those years of grief and joy and memories will matter.#i wonder if it would help to tell him about this. i need something to hold onto for when it happens. anything. but i also know it'll make i#hurt more; obviously. just another piece of him that'll be gone one day
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monday quest is to order the couple of supplies i need for a project. this is challenging to me because it combines 2 things that melt my brain: 'online shopping' and 'deciding between similar but subtly different things'. HOWEVER i can do it!!! and it will be fun to make things when they arrive >:) side quest make a different dinner, i have got some fresh fish to try and i have never cooked with it before due to we always bought it frozen. worst thing that can happen is it doesn't agree with my health stuff and i do not cook it again 👍 i'm making it so basic style for this reason. i feel like it could be delicious!
#monday quest#i was wondering why i was feeling so crazy insane like i would explode into one million pieces and amongst the fact that i woke up#so many times in pain last night and hurt a lot today. i remembered i'm waiting on 3 prescription requests to be approved so they can#be delivered to me before i run out AND i'm going to the dr within a fortnight. so. hahahaha :P that'll do it!!!!!#also it's my birthday soon which is good and fun and i am lucky to have fun things planned but that does not stop me from being worried#that i will get a bad grade in 'having a birthday' despite there being zero precedent for that :P u know how it is with anxiety 👍 (bad :P)#goal for this week: BE REGULAR and have regular days!!! literally so possible i just need to 1) stay present in the moment.#2) keep practicing the habit of not kicking myself through the days. and 3) DO MY EVENING ROUTINE AND GO TO BED ON TIME HELLO.#<- guy who is about 20-30 crucial irreplacable minutes behind schedule voice#so on that note goodnight everybody in the world unless it's daytime in which case i hope ur having a good day
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ive been considering starting some sorta crowd funding to try and leave home due to the stress and knowing i live with someone who voted for trump (my father) trying to get a job hasnt worked, and im honest to god not sure it'll ever work out. but i just. want to get out of here i want to go see my boyfriend, to live with him and have some sort of joy before it feels like the world's gonna end for me everything's been so stressful at home and recent events havent been super good at dispelling the stress i dont think i'd ever get enough to leave but its a nice thought isnt it? People wanting to help others? to see other people live happily? idk. maybe im just living in some fantasy world where im that lucky but hey gotta have some hope i guess
#vent#i dont even know how to set up something like that either lmao#i just#i want out#i wanna go somewhere that'll be happy#cuz i'll be living with my boyfriend#and he's wonderful#sorry for the depressing post
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catch me sobbing bc I'm about to have a desk of my own for the first time since I was like 17 😭
#me spending my entire adulthood taking up as little space as possible#everywhere I'm living in an effort to be less of a burden on whoever I'm living with#now my mom's gone & cleaned out the storage room so I can make it my space to exist so I'm not just isolating in my bedroom#we spent today in town buying shit for the room.... desk & chair & lights etc....#and I'm v emotional about this..... i think it's going to help me a lot to like. actually exist & function.#not to get emotional about my pathetic life on the dash or anything but wow... realizing it's probably not just depression & anxiety#and that I'm actually probably autistic has done fucking WONDERS for me like. taking steps forward again.#actively working on change & like. figuring out how to cope & regulate & not blame everything about my life on myself being lazy adjgksh#honestly it's 7pm but I'm probably gonna set the desk up tonight bc I'm so fuckign excited to get that room set up now oh man...#that'll probably be most of my day tomorrow too tbh. at least until we leave to go watch d-day in cinema 😭😭#IT'S A GOOD WEEK GUYS..... it's gonna be a good week#━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ ooc ⋮ don’t @ me.#personal cw
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aru sekai shoushitsu is an 11 minute song i listened to on accident because i was too tired to look at the length & was just solely like man thats such a cool title for a vocaloid song i hope it lives up to it and it 100% did. i didnt have any idea there was a story behind it it just thought it was such a cool sounding song & i remember clearly playing animal crossing past 4am with it on loop. completely forgot the producers name & didnt recognize them when they posted kyuuyaku hankagai so it took me like 3 days to actually listen to it & the SECOND i heard the nami no ne no motif i lost my mind. that was it for me ive been so deep into it since then i dont think theres a way to pull me out. at the start everything had such weird phrasing it was so hard to sort out what was stylistic and what was direct story telling & even now its sometimes difficult, but the fact with every new song we get a new version of the story and new info & everything ties together to consistently for a project made by one person over the course of several years with this level of detail.
going from knowing its a story about trying and failing to prevent the world's destruction to finding out not only are they doomed to repeat it, the only way out is to completely give up on their own self and accept total death. putting together the timeline from little hints some of which u have to sort through which is fact and which is a character's own narration distorted by either their emotions or intentionally. the fact the story telling is not entirely direct, the lyrics are only one facet of it, it goes as far as using the genre of the song to express things, theres just so much. ive been into my fair share of vocaloid song projects but this is the most precise and delicately handled one i've encountered. there is so much care and attention put into every single one of those songs it would just be insulting to not take it seriously. there was a moment i was worried it was going to turn into the same song but different when we got maximizer and then kanon and i'm so so glad that isn't the case because the way theyre handling it now really shows how important it is to them. this is a person who posts some of the most ridiculous memes ive seen & has some now popular meme songs and even with that attention they've said they're continuing to take the series seriously and that alone says so so much about the weight of this project to them.
i'll be honest with you i dont think there's a good end to this story. with the info we have now, with how aru sekai shoushitsu, the story outline song, goes i cannot see a happy ending for any of these characters. i wouldn't be surprised if it turned out we're only being shown one instance of that certain world & it ends in a way that implies despite all their efforts it's just going to happen all the same all over again, just with certain people lost forever and others willing to try more underhanded tactics to try their ideas that ultimately wont work anyway. i don't think there will be a real resolution to any of the problems. but even then there are so many currently unrevealed secrets & the overall commentary the work is making in the first place that sticking around for whatever ending we're given will be well worth the wait
#aru sekai series#its stated they keep their memories across iterations of the world. so.#given how kanon as a song went i cannot imagine how low other characters are willing to go#like im always picking out apoptosis for acting out & she IS mean among other things#but i honestly do not think in the next 'loop' that she would be even remotely close to the biggest threat#laboratory's gone we dont have to wordy about her anymore but anyone like her is a problem#the willingness to give okays while consciously overlooking major problems is more of a threat#than the girl just having The Absolute Worst Mental Breakdown of Her Life#like shes certainly not helping but shes far from the only one causing problems#kanon too. negligent . one of the bigger problems. and shes still alive even if she does regret it#im not even going to pretend to be normal about this series its been 4 years and my interest never wavers#also theres the promise of the fuu song possibly being finished soon. so.#i WILL be losing my mind. its been so long#whens the last song. isnt kannagi like basically a year old at this point. god.#i wonder if the fuu song will be a miku song#all the kanji heading songs (kyuu/shuu/ou) have miku so far i wonder if that Means something#if thats a Choice that'll continue or if it's simply that they didnt have as many synths at the time
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an ambulance will pass you on the interstate sooo much slower than you'd expect. or, even worse, it won't outpace you and you'll be sat there rethinking all your driving decisions. "am i a speed freak." "why is my want-to-go-home speed their someone-is-dying speed." "is there a speed at which no ambulance will go and am i really going faster than it."
#they did eventually pass me and were heading to an emergency not a hospital#so i do wonder if someone had a less-serious issue#idk.. i need to stop keeping up with the flow of traffic#actually ykw i need to calculate exactly how fast the route will go if i go 15 over vs 5 over and then look at the 4 minute difference#that'll break me of it i bet#adam yaps
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boy the sudden outpour of angst ideas for larissa weems x reader in my brain got me weeping so bad i feel a fever coming on
#ALL YALL POSTING ABT FALLING OUT OF LOVE BUT MY BRAIN GOING 700 MILES FASTER AND 3000 YEARS FURTHER WITH A#the love was still there. it didnt change anything.#ABT READER LEARNING SHE'S DYIG SOON. BUT KNOWS LARISSA IS SWAMPED WITH NEVERMORE & DEALING WITH THE KIDS. AND SHE ALSO LOVES#HER NEVERMORE FAMILY SO MUCH. SHE CANNOT BEAR TO MAKE THEM SAD#AND BC LARISSA IS SO BUSY. SHE HASNT REALLY LOOKED @ HER WIFE. AND TO READER ITS JUST OKAY. AND CREATES A MINI VIDEO JOURNEY#AND LIKE. ITS JUST ALL THE LITTLE THINGS SHE LOVED TO DO WITH LARISSA. AND THE KIDS. AND OF LIFE U KNOW.#and its wonderful and sad and beautiful#but she's dying and she doesn't want anyone else to know; her family had gone the same way too and thats how she wants it to end#and its just. augh. not my brain adding more angst rn#where her one & only friend notices#and is the one bringing her to all her doctor's appointments (outside jericho ofc. she knows her wife would know the instant had she been#diagnosed there) and like. Larissa getting more and more suspicious of their outings and accuses r of infidelity#.......and at this point r is just. done. and lies.#and gets out of Larissa's life. and everyone's just. shocked & devastated#R leaves but also begs her friend to go away. because she's just counting her days at this point. and you know what#the kicker here is that they agree knowing this was the last act of kindness they could give her.#AND LARISSA STILL DOESNT KNOW.#and wouldnt have known until Wednesday had a vision of a phonecall that'll shatter her#........shit. im crying again haha#anyways i love cinematic orchestra's i built a home <3 it really gives me such the best angst storylines#personal.txt#clown.txt#mod lee speaks stuff#idea.txt#larissa weems#larissa x reader#larissa weems x reader#lee writes#lee writes stuff#my fic
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I'm like 2 weeks late to the plot, I'm sorry you leave your country and you just straight up suffer memory loss?
#kittybee games#wow that sucks bro so like.... technically if our traveler takes native natlan folk out then like they just suffer#I was wondering how hoyo was going to answer the -we never see Natlans prior to 5.0- question and.... yea.... that'll do it#spoilers#there's like 10 more days until the release of the next major story beats idk i'll just tag it for safety
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why do I do this to myself
#i forgot how tiring old comics are.#i don't think starting with og x-men was a good idea#i'll start new mutants tomorrow#i think that'll be easier#no offense to stan lee and jack kirby this is just a struggle to read#fun fact i once tried reading the first wonder woman comics and failed#then i moved to the post-uhhh what's it called#the most recent ww run#after infinite frontier#thennnn the post-infinite crisis run#then perez i think?#like post-crisis#and i got up till byrne's run but in the middle of it i got into star wars so i just stopped reading there#anywayyyyy my point was that going back to the original comics is never a good idea for me#idk why i thought this would be any different#i also tried reading the og supergirl action comics and idk how far i got there#in any case. i'll probably get back to the og x-men run every once in a while#just for like#as single issue at a time#would be easier#rn it's almost a am so i'm not starting new mutants but tomorrow i will#probably
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the train home came late so I could have caught it but I didn't get there in time :( and it's so hot...
#man. I'm not sleepy but I want to go to sleep so I fic my sleep schedule#maybe I SHOULD just stay up hm. wonder how many hours I can hit without#wait no. bad plan. that'll really fuck me up#cor.txt
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need us to stop being a silly little guy for one second and acknowledge that t0ph is rude and it isn't some funny trait. it's a flaw. its a reaction, sure, because her whole life she'd needed to play the part of being the obedient little girl and her rudeness is a result of wanting to affirm her independence and probs as a legitimate way to exercise her confidence and/or to go about her establishing boundaries or things she didn't like, but it's still a huge flaw.
#listen. u mustn't forget that she lived the majority of her life practically spoiled#sheltered sure. miserable yeah. but she is still incredibly privileged#( which she does acknowledge and/or act it out sometimes ! )#and that sort of privilege didn't rlly go away. u could say that she didn't gain things monetarily#but shes also VERY SKILLED at a VERY young age#that feeds a lot to her ego and mixes up with how much she feels like she needs to compensate for her parents' mistreatment#my girl quite literally does not have time to exercise humility#like. on one hand she EARNS everything she is confident about#but on another YES sometimes the way she expresses things shes frustrated about is downright RUDE#like. the rift is a great example bc my girl was a haaaaater when a.ang just wanted to do an air nomad tradition#lets also not forget that in the show k.atara brought up legitimate concerns abt her not ''stepping in'' when they were gonna camp#in both instances t0ph was just reacting badly because of her past and she didn't know how to VERBALISE LIKE A NORMAL PERSON#thats it. but she still comes off as incredibly rude#thats not cute; thats just rudeness.#and i like pointing this out because (A) i want my writing partners to be aware of this but also (B) for suuuure this can be#a point of tension somewhere down the road#cause i do feel like this will blow up right at her face esp as she slowly enters adulthood and realises her friends are Leaving#and i KNOW my girl is not gonna react well about 80% of the time#and i wonder how that'll tie in to that usual thread when u realised that the theme of breaking into womanhood is basically#realising u're losing the privilege of girlhood. this means: how much can ur mistakes truly be excused ?#at what point can ur anger and frustration stop being smth to coddle ?#you're no longer a novelty. now what ?#GREATEST: INTERPRETATION.
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revisiting aP after a gap of over six years means i get to come at it with improved media literacy, science+history of science knowledge, a weirder relationship with academia, and brainworms about information storage media
it also means that through my old posts i get to converse with my past self, which is certainly fitting
#time travel narratives and fate and choices...#i say 'information storage media' i really#mean their use in fiction as a framing device#it's neat how EM interference or whatever other scifibabble causes audiotape distortion in aP vs how it's supernatural goings on in TMA#since however you wrap it up it's the perceived laws of the universe being broken#enough to be detected#even outside the universe they live in#wonder how that'll continue to interact with the environment of secrecy at odar#and the passive and active altering of information (such as the redaction of when sally came from) in the recordings#and the same but about History Itself. which is what ep 2 blackout is about#word vomit#liveblog: ars paradoxica
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i'm really glad the garden has given me a reason to actually buy all of the farming items and use up all my farming for dummies and harvesting 6 books (both obtained from shiny pigs, currently unobtainable i think) but like. i still have A LOT of them leftover
WHAT DO I DO WITH ALL THESE 😭
#''just sell them'' but. special item ;-;#also if you're wondering how many shiny pigs i collected. the answer is way too many#the shop told me to go away once KJFHSDSKG#i still gotta buy the fungi cutter and cactus knife but i think that's it???#so that'll be two more harvesting 6 books assuming they can use them (axes cant) and 10 more farming for dummies#but that will still be a lot of these left over lmao#chat#sb
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amane choose violence fr
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