#i won't survive this night

[inkdrinkerx]

I have just finished reading Lord of the Rings for the first time in my life and I am utterly destroyed. I am crying so hard I don't see anything and I have this deep black hole in my heart that cannot be repaired. I already miss this book so much - it was so beautiful journey I can't even think about it without yearning.

[ley-med]

I would really love to be locked up in a dark and silent room for approximately 48-72 hours now. Anywhere without any stimulation, just give my brain absolutely no input

[crabussy]

being a system can be really fucking hard and it comes with a lot of challenges and struggles but man?? I fucking love my headmates. I don't know what I'd do without them and my life is better because they are in it.

[morgenlich]

fascinating to see both the far right and the far left blame jews/israel for hurricanes but for different reasons. it's like convergent evolution of antisemitism

[skwivr]

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[kenobster]

Everything about recovery is just so unfair.

You're living a certain way, probably because it's been the only way that made you feel okay, and then you find out that your way of living isn't serving you as well as you thought it was. So you have to learn from scratch how to live a completely different way. At a time when you're at your lowest, when you're most exhausted, when you most need to feel safe, you have to do the opposite of what has been helping. It's the only way to get better.

Worse, everyone else has had a huge head start. Years and years ago, they all learned how to do the things that you're just barely learning now. And whether or not they mean to, they expect you to know how to do the things you don't know how to do. If you're frustrated or struggling or just need a break sometimes from this New Way of Living, then that's too bad. Your mental health is your responsibility now. You're expected to take expert accountability for things you only have a novice's understanding of — and at a time when you're the most prone to the habits the pain has been causing you.

It's just so impossibly hard, and you have to do it all without even an ounce of hope that it'll get any easier.

[immortalsins]

trying to get work done today is like. lets learn how to do inverse kinematics for my robot. whats the general form of the matrix again. does my mother deserve to suffer a period of me distancing myself from her. will i survive doing that. what order am i cascading these matrices in

[quietwingsinthesky]

they were each other's refuges. dean was her last gasp to feel human. through her, dean allows himself to feel gentleness again. do you even understand. he promised he would save her and he couldn't and she forgave him DO YOU EVEN UNDERSTAND.

[pardonmydelays]

IN THE HEIGHTS countdown: 1 DAY!

song for today:

abuela, i’m sorry but i ain’t goin’ back because i’m telling your story and i can say goodbye to you smilin’, i found my island i been on it this whole time i’m home!

[tenrose]

They are doing a LOTR marathon in the cinemas but it's Saturday and I fucking work Saturdays, why do I have to submit to the fatal order of needing money 😭😭😭😭

I can still go to watch ROTK though 👀

[star-realities]

genuinely forget I have people who follow me on this account and that I'm not just screaming into the void

[winnythanawin]

Up close, Satang is so handsome he's so unreal. I was only around a meter away from him during the photogroup session yet I was too stunned to speak even though just to call his name so he would notice me while I was waving him a hi-bye but I couldn't so he didn't see me because I was behind another person 🥲 That's fine though, I'm not sure I'll still be here if he did notice and smiled at me I would just melt on the spot.

[keeps-ache]

it's 4 a.m. baby guess who finished those refs !!! m!! e !!!!

[theheadlessgroom]

@beatingheart-bride

"Pa," Randall began, just as surprised as Emily was by what his father said, but before he could say anymore, Wilhelm raised his hand to stop them both, saying gently, "I know, lad, I know. I remember what you said the other night about you being engaged, and...you both have our blessing-both Junie's and mine."

"We want our son to be happy," June said, giving a tender smile in turn. "And we want you to happy too, Emily, and we've seen for ourselves that you two are at your happiest together, and...it would just be wrong of us to keep you apart! We know that now, and so, if being together makes you happiest...well, then who are we to argue?"

Like any parents, they wanted to ensure the safety and happiness of their child, and it was very clear to the Paces that not only was Randall happy with his bride-to-be, he was also safe with her-and the same could be said of Emily; she felt secure enough around their boy to confide her true nature to him, and was very clearly over the moon to be with him. To try and keep them apart as they did before...it would deeply unfair of them.

"And even beyond all of that," June confessed shyly, speaking now to Emily. "We...we'd like you to have not just our boy in your life, but us as well, if you'd permit it. Wil and I...we can't imagine what you've been through, and how lonely you must've been, and for so long, and...we'd like to change that, and be a support to you, if we can."

[fazcinatingblog]

Round 8 AFLM footy tips

"the Faz and Daisy cup" round

Crows vs port

Carlton vs pies

Swans vs Giants

Saints vs Norf

Demons vs cats

Weagles vs bombers

Tigs vs freo

Dogs vs hawks

Lions vs suns

[abysskeeper]

Neurodivergence is a wild time all around.