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mustymausoleum · 1 year ago
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madeinthestarz · 6 months ago
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i feel so stupid jesus christ why can’t i just be normal
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lovecrazedpup · 10 months ago
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i dont want to sleep
#im like a toddler LMAO throwing things around my room bc im so fucking angry and upset#(im throwing a plushie into my bed but still)#i genuinely think i want to breakup like idk this isnt even a joke or looking for reassurance anymore#like maybe im weird for thinking abt a long term relationship and marriage at 18 but ....#we arent ? very compatible ? long term ?#its unfair to him if i keep this going considering hes a bit older than me yk#nvm im writing this out and im crying maybe i DONT want to break up#im tired of overthinking and obsessing over everything . im tired of seeing him as better than me and perfect . i want to be equals#i just want to be normal and to be in a normal relationship where we do normal things#i just want support i want love i want literally ANYONE to tell me that im ok and that im loveable#i hate our stupid time difference and his stupid job i wish i was like this earlier on in the day it is AWFUL being alone#my head hurts and my throat hurts and i hurt#i want to scream and cut and stab someone#i fucking hate her#so much#shes a fucking bitch i wish i could kill her . like genuinely . i want to pull out her teeth lmao if she didnt exist id be happier#GOD i want to stop comparing myself to her and thinking abt them together but ill always be a second experience and its depressing#'youll be my first for anal' yeah great bc thats exactly what i want to fucking hear#not doing much to stop the 'you only want me for sex' thoughts but YEP GREAT THANKS#me : pouring my heart out and trying to say what im thinking !! him : haha yeah sex ! oh also have some inspirational quotes#god just kill me . get me out . i dont want to be here . i dont want to think abt him. i dont want to talk abt him .#i wish we never fucking met ! i wish i never picked up that stupid game#i dont want to lose you though#i hate how attached to him i am . why did you start talking to me again .#shouldve fucking forgotten me while youre fucking your friends and getting high up north island#cant say shit to him though bc itll be the end and ill probably kill myself bc i unfortunately live for him#its over when we meet anyways lol so i got ? 2 months ? 3 months ? of happiness before its gone#i think im gonna do smth bad but i doubt he would care at all . would probably be happy if i die or ghost him .#gives him an excuse to talk to his friends again lol . its so over for me#jamie.txt
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sofie-toffy · 1 year ago
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Mizu Headcanons
AN: Broo ive just finished blue eye samurai and im obsessed w it..so here are some headcanons! SHE WAS SO FINE IN THE LAST SCENE BTW UGHH
(I’ll be separating it based on genre eg. angst or fluff)
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Warnings: Angst, Contains mentions of death & murder, spoilers! The fluff is x reader
(if you know me irl, no you don’t)
Angst:
- Mizu often thinks about how life would be if she chose to forgave her husband and didn’t kill him
- After Ringo leaving her she feels awful for what she’s done and wishes that she could let go of her revenge path but cannot
- Once Mizu’s “mother” betrayed her and Mizu killed her, she still had the motive of killing her father, but instead of the motive to avenge her mother it was to curse the man that made her live in the first place
- She understood that she never should’ve been born in the first place and was born as monstrous, hence her obsession with revenge. But there is obviously a part of her that wants to live a peaceful life
- She normally has panic attacks but no one has ever witnessed them except Swordfather
- When she was with her husband (the night before the sparring) that was the only time she felt loved for who she was
- She wanted to show who she really was as her husband asked to, and once she did she was called “a monster” and now she’s reluctant to show anyone even half of who she really is
- She overworks herself to the point of exhaustion and most times collapses, forgetting to eat and rest
- Whenever she checks her reflection, she imagines herself with brown/black eyes
- (Canon) she wears the same clothes she wore since she was a child and stitches them whenever they tear
- because of her binder she often has trouble breathing but she’s so used to it she thinks it’s normal
- She once wanted to gouge her eyes out so she won’t witness the looks of disgust when they see her eyes
- She’s entirely convinced that there’s no way she’ll ever be truly loveable. She’s convinced she’s monstrous in every way, from the hues of her blue eyes to the violence she bears
(MY POOR BABY I LOVE HER SM I JUST WANNA SEE HER HAPPY N SATISFIED 😭😭)
Fluff/Not angst(finally)
- Love language is quality time & acts of service
- Although she’s not aware of it, she has an unconscious fixation with music. Mizu has always been drawn to musical festivals and it both calms and excites her
- If given the time, she normally asks if you want to go to festivals (her unnamingly pleading for you to agree) and her face is relaxed the whole time, her fingers intertwined with yours
- I feel her normal dates with you would be very simple. She’d enjoy just spending time with you, quietly or with small chatter
- She loves stargazing with you. My god. Laying beside each other, feeling each others warmth contrary to the harsh snow as you look at the different constellations
- Actually, you’d be looking at the constellation while she looks at you with a small smile tugging at her lips, while she adores the light in your eyes as you gaze up
- Speaking of holding hands she LOVES to hold your hand, doesn’t matter if your hand is cold or warm, it intertwines with hers perfectly
- Whenever you compliment her eyes she doesn’t believe you until you say it a thousand times
- takes a LONG time to warm up to you, but once she does it is SO worth it
- unconsciously misses your warmth, once sleeping she searches for your hand to hold or for you to hug
- speaking of hugging, i think she can be both spoons but mostly big spoon
- loves resting her head on your chest but loves wrapping her arms around you, ensuring that you are safe
AN: GUYS I NEED HER SO BAD U DONT GET IT
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roseadleyn · 1 month ago
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Hi, while I dont know much about ACOTAR beyond what Ive read about it online, I want to ask for your opinion on why its depiction of the fae is dissatisfactory to the point they "arent fae", because in general it is accepted that there are multiple different ways to interpret mythical creatures such as vampires, werewolves, dragons and fey. Vampires have been depicted as everything from predatory, blood-thirsty abominations to cute and loveable heroes in children's media.
hii, how are you? i'm actually glad you've asked because now i have a reason to rant lmao
portrayal of every mythical creature varies but the mythical aspect is still kept in, yk? like for example,,, vampires have the oddly translucent skin, too-long fangs, the moon affecting them etc in every every every medium they've been depicted in ( or as far as i've seen ).
sarah j maas' fae portrayal is just. people. humans with powers and pointy ears. like feyre wears leggings and sweaters and teaches art class; what part of that is whimsical or fae? velaris is just new york if you could never leave. what is so special about it? where's the magic? the spring court wasn't very fae either but it had pools of starlight, will 'o' the wisps, etc. there was fantasy, magic.
to me it's just unsatisfactory because it's not magical or fantasy. i could pick up the average Dark Contemporary Billionaire Mafia Romance book and get pretty much the same dynamics. like you're telling me the court of night... has DAYLIGHT??? no. absolutely not. it should be night always, the plants grow sustained by dark magic or whatever.
like write the fae whatever way you wish but give them NUANCE, MAGIC, YOU KNOW THINGS THAT AREN'T NORMAL. like i don't want rhysand breaking the human status quo by fucking assaulting feyre, i want him to be too eerily flexible or have too many teeth or SOMETHING otherworldly. give tamlin a tail. lucien has thorns along his collarbones now. like please. be so fucking fr.
ALSOO how nesta and elain were changed by the cauldron but nothing changed about their physical appearance other than their ears??? they should have oddly translucent skin that shivers thinly over their veins because of their power, nesta's hands could be permanently tinged red to show how she wrangled the cauldron's heart from it, i'm sad at the lost potential now
anyways i yapped a lot but i hope this makes coherent sense <3 if u want some good depictions of fae in ya i'd recommended holly black's books
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bunji-enthusiast · 5 months ago
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I’m literally obsessed with your Seven Deadly Sins posts ✨🥺😭
If you feel comfortable doing so, could you please write headcanons for Ban and Escanor with a short girlfriend?
I am happy to write this for you, thank you for giving me a chance mystery friend ♥︎
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Ban
This sneaky bastard loves to lift you up in the air, (at times deemed appropriate) He without a doubt is relentless in teasing your height. Though if you are uncomfortable with him lifting you or his teasing, he puts a stop to it very quickly, its more toned down after that.
He is absolutely in love with you regardless, to him, he simply cannot stop finding the most adorable things about you physically or mentally. Ban absolutely adores you!
Heaven forbid anyone injures his love, they simply would not walk away with their life or unscathed. Ban is personally firm in protecting the ones he truly cares about, you included, doesn't matter if you may be the ruler of the heavens or the weakest of ants. He's a loveable greedy bastard, and he certainly takes it in stride every time.
Mischievous scheming as hell without a doubt, but regardless he has a very personal private side. Ban loves to cuddle you, trap you within his huge frame, makes him feel somewhat better in the moment - though he plays it off quite easily. It helps him feel like he can protect you from anything, he cares about you a lot. As he often lacks confidence in his power, in spite of the fact he's repeatedly displayed such power with levels of ferocity one normally can't do.
He doesn't really feel bothered with your height, if you feel insecure in relation to your height, he reassures you real quick. Not his love, Ban wishes you didn't have such thoughts about yourself. Though, it will come unfortunately and Ban knows he can just simply be there for you in any point of the way.
Ban simply finds your height adorable, sometimes nicknaming you; short-stack, stool, resting place and so on. He even feels lucky to be taller at times, it gives way to comedic gold!
Escanor
He really doesn't pay any mind to your height, always focusing about other aspects of you. Escanor tends to be very romantic towards his own partner, so you can expect to presented with heart-warming poems and roses.
With Escanor, the rest of the sins had practically joked that you were now deemed untouchable since the two of you were officially together in every sense of the word (except for marriage). Many times over however, he had proved this statement true, stepping in and protecting you when you call for his help.
Regardless if you were powerful as he, or even powerless - this man loves you all the more in any more then the average man. He is very attentive to your needs and current emotional state, if you feel like you are unable to speak in certain situations, he does so for you.
If you had ever asked that if your shortness could be a problematic major factor to your relationship, he laughs it off and reassures you that he loves you in spite of it. Even if you any shorter, or any taller, he still loves you.
Escanor is a man full of love for those he holds dear, and his friends family. He is such a man full with it, you could always feel his love for others and himself pouring in every situation. He easily cares for those in the sins, and you alone.
Your height all in all is just basically none existent to this man, whomever your status may be. He loves you greatly, and brings great aspects to your once dull and boring life before him.
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louloulemons-posts · 1 year ago
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Newts and Water Hyacinths
Eddie Munson X Fem!Reader
Summary : Deciding to spend his day with his favourite girl, Eddie goes to her home, but where is she?
Word Count : 1.2K
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Warnings : Pure fluff, use of Y/N, potential incorrect information about plants, pet names, reader is basically the child of Luna Lovegood and Neville Longbottom, kisses, Eddie is whipped lol.
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Eddie coming over wasn’t a new thing at all, you were friends for a year or so before dating so him being at your home was a common occurrence.
He knocked on the front door before pushing it open and letting himself in. “Honey I’m home,” he called out, chuckling lightly. No response. “Baby? Where are you?”
Wondering through the lounge and the kitchen he couldn’t find the girl he adored so much. Jogging up the stairs, fingers tapping on the bedroom door before he entered.
Cosy and neat-ish, well your neat. Plants all over the room in various sizes and colours, books stacked upon books, notebooks and journals overflowing with drawings and facts about animals and plants, shells and pretty rocks sat on shelves. Not here either.
Eddie tried not to panic but couldn’t really help it, there was only one other place you’d be. He pushed back the nets on your window slightly and sighed with relief.
The small stream sparkling in the days sunlight. Stood in patchwork dungarees, and wellie boots, a smile noticeable from miles away, was you, Eddies favourite person.
Many people couldn’t believe that you and Eddie were dating. His mean and satanic appearance making it seem impossible for him to be with someone so kind and loveable.
But you were one of the few people who saw through Eddies outer layer, saw him for the sweet and gentle boy he really was.
Smiling to himself Eddie headed back down the stairs, through the kitchen and out the back door. Wandering down to the beautiful stream. “Hey Sweetheart!”
Looking up from your crouched position you smiled at the curly haired metal head. “You found me.”
“I’ll always find you. Figured if you weren’t in the house, you’d be here. Found anything.”
Nodding and brushing a stray hair away from your face you picked up a water filled jar that also held a small newt. “Aren’t they cute Eds?” you asked, standing up to show him.
“It’s a red spotted newt, they’re not normally from places like this, so I might take them inside. Get dad to take a look, make sure they’re safe,” as you explained, he watched your brows furrow in slight concern for the creature.
“That’s a real sweet thought, I think it’s a great idea. We might have to get them somewhere a little bigger to stay though,” he suggested, to which you nodded.
Picking up one of your journals from the slightly damp grass, you passed the jar to Eddie. Climbing from the steam a ramble began, “I drew a couple of water hyacinths too, which isn’t great, I’ll have to tell mom. They can be really invasive, they’re actually a hazard for boats and grow really quickly!”
“Is that right?” Eddie said, sliding his hand into your free one, holding the jar with their newt buddy in the other. “Mhm it’s real pretty Ed’s but so dangerous!”
“Like you?”
“Me?!” your eyes widening as you looked at the boy.
“Yeah baby, just like you. So pretty, but you’re almost like a siren!”
“How?”
“Everyone just loves you. All wanna be your friends, or more. You have to let them all down easy cause you’ve got your bunch already.”
Nodding in agreement, “‘M not dangerous though Eds.”
“With eyes as pretty as those baby, you could make anyone do anything you wish. Trust me I know.”
“You know Ovid said that Sirens were friends of the Goddess Persephone, they were turned into monsters when Hades abducted her.”
“How do you keep all that knowledge in that head?”
“Dunno. It’s nothing useful though,” you shrugged. Motioning to the bench near the back door Eddie placed the jar down, “Sit.”
You complied. “Its interesting though, and some people will think it’s useful, depends who you talk too.” He squatted down, gently taking you boot covered foot in hand.
“Hm, maybe.”
“Definitely, do you know how much I hear Henderson praising you and saying how cool you are for knowing all this stuff. Even Sinclair Junior thinks it’s awesome and nothing impresses her,” he laughed, pulling the red boot off and placing it next to the bench to dry.
Wiggling your toes, Eddie smiled at your multicoloured thick socks. “Erica’s a sweetheart.”
“So are you, saving that newt, saving the steam from those flowers, saving me from being a lonely old grump.”
That did make you laugh, as he pulled off the other boot you spoke, “You’d never end up alone, so many people love you. Including me.”
“Yeah? You love me?” he grinned, it wasn’t a phrase you’d really said to him before.
“Yeah Eds, I love you a lot. Favourite person and all. Only person who I share everything with.”
“I love you too, and thank you for that, love your rambles. Love everything about you sweet girl.”
Standing up his full height he took her hands, “Careful, climb up on the bench, don’t want you dirtying your socks.” Slowly standing up, keeping your hands in Eddies, now taller than him.
Leaning down you softly pressed your lips to his plush ones, arms wrapping round his neck and legs around his waist. Pulling away you spoke, “Don’t drop me.”
“Never,” he stated, pecking your lips again.
“I’ll come back for you in a sec buddy,” he said to the orange amphibian in the glass jar. Placing you down on the counter, Eddie could only beam at you, pushing falling strands of hair behind your ears he kissed you once more.
It was always something that made your heart feel like it’d come out of your chest. Fingers running through the curls at the nape of his neck, tugging slightly so he’d know not to stop.
If you didn’t have to breathe, you’d never let him stop, never ever. Would kiss him for the rest of time. Breaking away with a chuckle, Eddie rubbed his thumb on your rosy cheeks, kissing there too.
“You go and find a bigger home for our friend and I’ll go fetch ‘em and your journal, okay?” Words weren’t working for you at the minute, mind still racing from the kiss, so nodding would have to do.
Jumping down from the counter gently, you rummaged though the cupboards for a suitable waiting space. Perfect an old fish bowl, “Hey Eds we’ll have to make a trip back down to the stream,” you called out.
“Why’s that?” head popping round the door, and placing the jar and book on the side, Eddie wandered over. “Need the water, don’t want the little guy to get sick. Too much change can’t be good.”
“I’ll go, you stay put,” kissing your cheek once more, he grabbed the fish bowl and wandered away. Watching him walk down the garden, you couldn’t help but think how lucky you were.
Having someone so kind, so considerate, a great friend, and even better boyfriend, just someone who you never had to pretend with. You could just be Y/N and he could just be Eddie. And that was perfect for you.
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Thank you for reading, please leave any requests 🤍
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the-clumsywitchtarot · 5 months ago
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Pick-a-Card Reading: What Makes You So Loveable?
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Pile 1 Pile 2 Pile 3
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Two of Wands (Reversed)
The Devil (Reversed)
Ten of Swords (Reversed)
The Lovers
King of Wands
The Hermit
I didn't necessarily intend for these readings to be about what makes you lovable romantically but that is what came out. I see that you are someone that has great boundaries when in a relationship or you are currently working on developing strong boundaries before entering your next relationship. I see that you aren't someone that let's a relationship bind you or change who you are, you remain true to yourself and wish for the other person to do the same. That's one of the things your partner loves about you, you don't change yourself to please them and you don't expect them to change themselves to please you. You prefer a relationship where you can help each other grow and become better versions of yourselves but you aren't looking to remake them just as you yourself aren't looking to be remade. With the hermit I can also see that you aren't clingy in relationships and you enjoy your alone time and pursuing your own hobbies but at the same time you are still capable of showing love and passion towards your partner. I keep hearing that you are the dream partner! You're not detached but you also allow room for your partner to breath and not feel guilty for not calling or being with you every second of every day.
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Five of Wands
Queen of Pentacles (Reversed)
Four of Swords
Four of Pentacles
Ace of Pentacles (Reversed)
Ace of Wands
I see that this pile is willing to fight for what they think is right even if it is futile or unlikely to have the outcome you are desiring, you still go for it. I feel like some of the people that chose this pile are into activism. With the queen of wands and ace of pentacles in reverse I feel like you are someone that isn't super into material wealth and would much rather focus on what feels good to you. This is one of the things that makes you so loveable, you would gladly turn down an opportunity to make money if it meant compromising your ethics or hurting someone. Even though the four of pentacles typically means holding onto money, I can see this more so being about you holding on to experiences you've had and valuing that more than having lots of money. I feel like you have recently been gaining a new zest for life or something you've just discovered and it has made the energy you project even more amazing than your energy normally is.
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The of Cups
Ten of Wands
Knight of Pentacles (Reversed)
Five of Pentacles
Eight of Pentacles
The Sun
I see that this pile gives off a joyous energy no matter what they're going through, the three of cups is really standing out to me I can see you being the life of the party. For some of you this comes out in a very flamboyant wild way and for others it's like a get together just wouldn't be the same if you didn't show up. I see you being the kind of person that could even make a funeral more pleasant as strange as that may sound. For half of the people that chose this pile, your wild vibrant energy is what makes you loveable and for the other half that chose this pile your peaceful energy is what makes you lovable. I'm getting that some of you are like taking an upper and some of you are like taking a downer (in the best way possible).
Please let me know if your reading resonated and always remember not to make a decision based on a reading unless it's one you feel completely comfortable with. Thank you for visiting my tarot page!
All the best to you,
- Erika, The Clumsy Witch
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obeymematches · 7 months ago
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My friend’s been starving for Simeon content ever since I introduced them to OM! (which was yesterday) so can we get some random Simeon HCs? Ty
he been on my mind lately-
🩵 Random Simeon HCs 🩵
Domestic stuff:
I just know he is the fastest at changing the bedsheets manually, without using any spell. He got used to this, living with Luke; being in a clean environment is high on his priority list. Moreover kids tend to pee in their bed sometimes, in that period you get real fast at changing sheets and doing the laundry.
However he does like a good spell to help with domestic stuff, like doing the dishes. Though... I don't think he uses these often, only when he is seriously tired.
He prefers tea with coffeine instead of coffee. Has a very elegant, impressive teapot and likes to try various types of tea; you are always welcome to join him! Tries to have a limit on coffeine though, his self control is extraordinary regarding things like this.
Although he is not the self-care advocate of the bunch he does like having time for himself; he does like to smell nice but not too much perfume; he does like dressing well. Bet he is the cleanest guy after Asmo.
He is very knowledgeable on a very board spectrum; he likes to learn about ideas, structures, functions. He also knows a lot about stuff he doesn't really care about but had to update his knowledge because of Luke. You can ask him anything basically, the man is a walking Wikipedia.
Though! In case you find a topic he is not much familiar with, he is not too proud to admit he has absolutely zero idea about the answer. It makes him so loveable ahhhhhhh
Can't learn to drive a car to save his life though.
Dating stuff:
Listen I just know he is not as punctual as he wishes he was. I mean 15-20 mins of running late is normal when you date him. He is always apologizing because of this, but he does his best to get there ASAP.
He is the kind of guy to text you WITHIN 3 hours after your first date, whether or not he enjoyed it; he is going to tell you why he doesn't think you are going to work out if he believes so and you can't change his mind if he didn't enjoy the time spent together. On the other hand if he did like you he is also going to let you know; he starts flirting even more, gets more bold but doesn't cross any boundary!
He could get so obsessed over you; talks nicely about you to everyone, thinks of topics he would like to discuss with you..... imagine him sitting at the window, daydreaming of you as he plans your next activity together, his mug letting off steam, his hand holding his head. He already had peace; it is dull without you though.
Also imagine a dim lit room, you laying under the bedcover, him joining you with an adorable smile and a book in his hand. 🥹 He is there to read next to you when all is calm and it's just you.
Another scenario to think about is going on roadtrips with him and Luke! You must be the driver though.
Alsooo I think he would appreciate funky gifts??? Like buy him that strange shaped mug! Get him socks with ducks on it!! There are those mittens that are shaped as crab "hands".... yeah he would have a good laugh, appreciate it and use them. 😌
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crowleysheiress · 3 months ago
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Ford also mentions at bill's statue that he feels awful, that bill was his universe. (On the website)
There's still apart of him that misses bill. He wishes things were different.
I don't get why people do not understand that.
He absolutely most certainly misses him, or misses what he thought would be of bill if things went differently. It's a combo of things. It's right there on the website. It's infront of the reader.
Sorry for the late answer!!!
But yeah I totally agree with you, anon. Acting as if there is nothing but resentment he feels towards Bill speaks more towards their lack of reading comprehension than ours in my opinion. I personally don't think they could ever get back together in canon, but again. This is fandom. Making up scenarios that aren't going to happen is the whole point and shaming others for imagining a world where Ford and Bill are tenderly kissing on the mouth is just dickish behavior. But hey what do you expect from antis lol.
Also a lot of people have brought up the point that ESPECIALLY in abusive relationships people still miss their ex even after they broke it off. As much as I like fluff, what Ford and Bill had going on definitely wasn't healthy . But even abusive partners have qualities that made them kind, interesting or loveable to their partner, if they were horrible and awful all the time abusive relationships wouldn't be a thing in the first place. And I feel like it's doing a disservice to people who were abused in real life when people insist that every abuser must have been this terrible devil all the time cause it also implies the question of why the abused party couldn't assess their character correctly and got together with them in the first place/didn't leave immediatly. I think it is normal to miss the person you fell in love with/the relationship you had in the beginning/the future that could have been if things had turned out differently, even if you were abused.
Anyway rant over, stay hydrated kids.
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jq37 · 7 months ago
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Are we sure Sandralynn wasn't cursed with like. Shit taste?
It's def a real mixed bag, though I think besides Bobby it's more just wild choices than straight up bad choices.
Bobby Dawn: Regular Freak. Liar, Frumpy, Wrong. Cheated on his wife and then ruined another woman's life over it. This is not a a ranking so I'm not giving him a score but I almost wish it was so I could give him a comically low number. Actually, there aren't any rules here. I still can. Negative infinity and kick rocks. If I was Sandra Lynn's friend I would be *begging* for her to love herself (or at least have a better sense of self preservation) and RUN GIRL.
Gilear Faeth: Gilear was a successful, hot elf before his loser energy kicked in because of his curse. Wasn't he like a diplomat or something? Like, Gilear now is a loveable loser but Gilear then was probably kind of a catch. And hell, Fabian's mom likes loser Gilear and she's a pretty hot commodity herself. As Sandra Lynn's friend I would be doing cartwheels if she moved on from Bobby to be with Gilear. 1000% improvement. And, for what it's worth, so is loser Gilear. Most guys would be frankly.
Gorthalax: Def seems a bit reactionary to go from a cleric of Sol to one of Sol's fallen angels turned devils. But Gorthalax is a nice guy from what we've seen and as a devil of gluttony he prob can conjure up some killer date night food. I think that if I could get over the shock of him being a MAJOR DEVIL, as Sandra Lynn's friend, I could warm to the idea. And he's not Bobby Dawn so instant improvement. However, as there was infidelity involved this would be another GIRL WHAT? reaction from me. But again, less about the guy himself, more about the decision to cheat.
Jawbone: OK so the thing about Jawbone is that I think he's great and a super good person and he's Brennan's semi-self insert so of course I love him. But he would also be an insane person to know IRL. Like, the stories he tells so casually. I think I'd be like, uh are you sure about this one? But he seems to have at least mostly chilled out now that he's working with kids and I think he's a really great guy. There's maybe a risk of contracting Lycanthropy but I'm sure they're using whatever protection you use for that. Solid guy as long as you're cool with his past.
Garthy: When Garthy was introduced, 80% of the fandom was instantly thirsting over them so objectively, "Garthy is hot" is a pretty mainstream opinion. And even if you (like myself) were in the 20% of people not thirsting over them, they're still very clearly a good person between raising Ayda and being super into self care (I loved the scene with them and Mercer's char in PoL). Also they're just really cool conceptually. So again, very normal person for Sandra Lynn to wanna hook up with. The problem, once again, is the infidelity. Especially because Jawbone was willing to have an open relationship! He closed the relationship for her! She took an L here for no reason!
So, to recap: shitty guy, good guy (who was cursed), devil (who is a good guy* and also an affair partner), good guy (with a wild past), and hot pirate (who is a good person* and also an affair partner).
*I don't remember if they knew Sandra Lynn was in a relationship when they were hooking up with her and am not factoring that into my judgement.
Besides Bobby Dawn, the rest of her choices were pretty OK (unless I'm forgetting stuff). Wild and with no obvious connecting thread--she absolutely has a rogue's gallery to rival Batman's--but it seems like the problems she had with relationships came down more to stuff other than, "She picked an objectively bad guy."
She really has the most inconsistent taste ever. I can't even begin to categorize what her type is. Gilear and Garthy should never been on any list together besides, "NPCs with G names."
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castleofclouds · 2 months ago
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Dream as Demigods.
nct dream as the sons of each god/goddess of mythical Greek God, this one are so hard to make but fun to do gosh <3
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⋆˚。⋆୨✧୧˚ 𝑴𝒂𝒓𝒌 𝑳𝒆𝒆 𝒂𝒔 𝑨𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒏𝒂 𝑺𝒐𝒏 ˚୨✧୧⋆。˚⋆
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Athena Goddes Of Wisdom, War, And Handicrafts.
Mark was a true born leader, he had what it needs to be a leader of his troops.
His minds is filled with knowledge and wisdom, he loved reading book for most of his times
When Mark first discover he is the son of Athena he was astounded he never expected his mom could be the strongest goddess in the Greek mythology and he love every point of it.
He spend the rest of his days at cabin 6 or joined anybody at the training ground.
“Own the strength in your softness.”
⋆˚。⋆୨✧୧˚ 𝑯𝒖𝒂𝒏𝒈 𝑹𝒆𝒏𝒋𝒖𝒏 𝒂𝒔 𝑬𝒓𝒐𝒔 𝒔𝒐𝒏 ˚୨✧୧⋆。˚⋆
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Eros God of Love, Desire, Passion, And Fertility.
Renjun was just too loveable for most of his life, or he is just that one friend that always knew how your relationship will ended up like, he just had the vision.
Renjun love reading, watching even listening to love songs, he found joys in that.
Most of his days at the camp he spend reading his romance book in cabin 39.
He realized it quite fast that he is Eros son and he kinda shy to admit his father are a Cupid he often read in the books.
“Two people didn't find each other by simple accidents.”
⋆˚。⋆୨✧୧˚ 𝑳𝒆𝒆 𝑱𝒆𝒏𝒐 𝒂𝒔 𝑨𝒓𝒆𝒔 𝒔𝒐𝒏 ˚୨✧୧⋆。˚⋆
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Ares God of War Or The Spirit Of A Battle.
Jeno were always calm for most of the time but he could went ballistic if somebody pissing him off.
He would always found himself doing the most hard work at his house and never complain, he always considered it as a work out.
One time he get detention because his classmates were being very rude toward the new substitute teacher, that's when he knew he actually are very strong for a normal teenager.
On the camp he loves training and use every each of his energy to train, his cabin only used at night, his cabin number is 5.
“I am the war you can never win.”
⋆˚。⋆୨✧୧˚ 𝑳𝒆𝒆 𝑯𝒂𝒆𝒄𝒉𝒂𝒏 𝒂𝒔 𝑯𝒂𝒅𝒆𝒔 𝒔𝒐𝒏 ˚୨✧୧⋆。˚⋆
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Hades God of The Underworld And The Ruler Of The Dead.
Sometimes Haechan found himself to wonder and look at every dead people running around, yet he never questioned why.
Haechan love to used his glasses to hide the fact that he can see people that aren't living in the same world as him.
He hated his dad and he wish he never know him, how can he thinks giving him the sight could help him in life?
He always tried to run away from his camps and thinks his half-blood life were a joke, or he just wonder around his cabin in cabin 13.
“I have found so much beauty in the Dark as I have found a lot of horrors in light.”
⋆˚。⋆୨✧୧˚ 𝑵𝒂 𝑱𝒂𝒆𝒎𝒊𝒏 𝒂𝒔 𝑨𝒑𝒉𝒓𝒐𝒅𝒊𝒕𝒆 𝒔𝒐𝒏 ˚୨✧୧⋆。˚⋆
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Aphrodite Goddes of Love, Beauty, Desire, and Sexuality.
Jaemin were always the center of attention, his beauty always catch everyone eyes.
He is so used of affection that he get from people that he started to feel more narcissistic about himself, the boy were living his best life.
With great beauty, there's always a weak heart that often felt jealous of his spotlight, but he doesn't care, he knew those people doesn't have what he had so he just left them be.
He loved staying at his cabin 10 to watch the sunset or just taking care of himself.
“Clever as the devil and twice as pretty.”
⋆˚。⋆୨✧୧˚ 𝒁𝒉𝒐𝒏𝒈 𝑪𝒉𝒆𝒏𝒍𝒆 𝒂𝒔 𝑨𝒑𝒐𝒍𝒍𝒐 𝒔𝒐𝒏 ˚୨✧୧⋆。˚⋆
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Apollo God of The Sun, Light, Music, Poetry and Archery.
Chenle always the talented one in his classes, he doesn't know why, he never learned piano, but he knew how to play the notes, he never learn guitar but he could make a whole new music about it, he is just as confused as us.
He loved the sun and think the sun were a blessing for the earth and love to sunbathing under the sunlight.
He knew he was born different, he heard it from his mother that he is Apollo son and he doesn't complain if anything he was joyous, the idea of being the son of the Suns were too exciting to hear about.
His cabin are 7 and he would spend most of his times outside than inside enjoying every scenery he could find.
“We were kissed by poems, taken away by seas of prose.”
⋆˚。⋆୨✧୧˚ 𝑷𝒂𝒓𝒌 𝑱𝒊𝒔𝒖𝒏𝒈 𝒂𝒔 𝑯𝒆𝒃𝒆 𝒔𝒐𝒏 ˚୨✧୧⋆。˚⋆
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Hebe the Goddess of Eternal Youth And Forgiveness.
Jisung often wonder, why everybody around him always told him that he looks young than his actual age, and would always gasped every time he reveal his age.
Jisung love keeping in touch with the nature and found himself have a deep connection with the trees and grass.
His first reaction founding out he is a demigod were pure confusion, he still recover from it.
At his cabin, cabin 18 many people come just to see him and always shocked at his youthful appearance.
“They call us dreamers, but we are the one that doesn't sleep.”
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Masterlist.
A/N
Before you commented, No. I don't know every piece of Percy Jackson lore nor did I read every book or a nerd of Greek mythology, I don't know everything about them tbh, but I love to learn and doing this scenario kinda make me feel fuzzy, like it's fun and warm? I love it, maybe I'll make it more in the future ofc! Comment what you would like on my other post in the future, or if you bored you can read my series? Girl gotta feed my family yk? Jk but it's totally okay if you had any suggestion, my suggestion box are wideee open. Just send mee~ anything. Please. Begging rn.
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lixern · 1 year ago
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; it's just a friendly interaction!
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• Multiple HSR men x GN!Reader
-- Dan Heng, Jing Yuan, Blade, Gepard.
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• You've been ranting to your friend about your problems with romance for quite some time now, but you didn't know how touchy the both of you were starting to become...
song; laufey, falling behind + from the start
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Dan Heng and you were struggling, well.. you atleast. Dan Heng was such a kind friend, letting you rant and be all over him. Ugh, he was just so perfect! You hated your own guts for being such a pain, hopeless romantic.. yet you back away like a coward whenever someone gets too close- besides, you cant even tell if you love someone anymore!
But whenever you ranted, he'd always let you be a bit touchy with him. Most of the times it's him reading a book in the archives and you in his lap going on and on about how you aren't loveable and how you wish you were.
Dan Heng looked like he wasn't listening, but the way one hand was on his book and one hand was on your head told you that he was. None of the crew members would question your closeness- even though they probably knew already.
What was funny- atleast, was everyone was wrong. You guys were just bestfriends! Who were too oblivious to see your feelings...
"I hate how people on this app just post their videos of them with their partner! Like this one video where this guy was holding this girls waist.."
You continued blabbering about whatever you wanted to, and Dan Heng would nod and hum at what you said.
"And God... this girl is so annoying. She's such a pick me, how does she have a boyfriend and I dont huh?!"
Was the next thing you said, which Dan Heng let out another hum too.
"Mhm..."
Hmm... normally he'd provide you with a logical reply on how your wrong, so why was he agreeing with you now?
No matter, you brushed it off. Maybe he just got too used to it! Yeah, that was the case.
Except when you got up to finally do your duties that pom pom kept reminding you about, Dan Heng followed you..
Your hands on the doorknob, but you felt a pair of hands grip your waist. Dan Heng is that you?
"Where are you going?"
He said, unphased even! But to how you were so used to Dan Heng being touchy you didn't even see that he liked you... You still got flustered though, but you were just so oblivious!
"Doing my duties!"
You didn't move a muscle, smiling at Dan Heng once you meet eyes. You slowly opened the door to get out, telling Dan Heng a sweet "goodbye" before you walked out.
You thought it was just a friendly move and he just wanted to chat longer!
Well he did want to chat longer.. but the move wasn't really that platonic either.
He just wished you'd have it figured out by now.
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Jing Yuan was so helpful to you, that sleeping general making time for you just you to spend it all on ranting about men. He'd let you lay beside him as you ranted, on his shoulder, his lap, anywhere and anytime!
Whenever you knew he'd have free time and you saw him outdoors, you'd sneak up to him just to backhug him. And he expected you all the time, though, he'd pretend to act surprise just for you! You were so easy to read, especially because hes been training for a long time and he learnt how to know when someone was sneaking up on him..
Everyone was so surprised when you just suddenly hugged the general like that, like- you could do that!?
How you two would hug and hold hands... just what two close friends would do!
"It's all so frustrating you know Yuaaannn?! No one loves me... no matter how hard I try to look good and be good no one ever loves me! It's like I had a glowdown or something.. ugh."
You started ranting while Jing Yuan was at your back, hugging you and resting his head ontop of yours. He was really comfy not gonna lie, what a good friend!
"Mm... they just don't know any better. I think you're quite lovely yourself, no?"
Jing Yuan commented, smiling at how you were ranting so suddenly. It wasn't even a surprise anymore for you to burst out screaming about being single and lonely.
"Well I know that I'm a lovely person! But what if I'm just like- missing something y'know?!"
You continued, countering his compliment. You tilt your head up to see Jing Yuan smiling at you, and you smile back, tilting your head back down so he can rest on it.
How touchy you guys have been, even the others have noticed! Only you two haven't, or atleast... only you haven't.
And it's so painful to see how you haven't even discovered your own feelings for Jing Yuan. The way your heart beats faster when you see him.. you're just happy to see him right?
Well, your heart says otherwise than the brain.
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Blade isn't really a loverboy, but he's not so amused to accomodate your little outbursts of hopeless. He still does anyway, if that'll get you off his back.
You'd find him leaning against a wall while you tell him about your problems, and it annoyed you even in the slightest bit. Wasn't he listening?! You poked him and messed up his hair, even caging him inbetween your arms but he was still unfazed!
Mess up his hair? He'd fix it like nothing ever happened. Poke him too much? Nah, no reaction. He's pinned to the wall? With how small you were in his eyes he'd laugh at the attempt.
Still, no matter how annoying he was you'd still rant to him, after all Silver Wolf and Kafka weren't really people you wanted to rant to for some reason..
"Bladee... are you even listening to me?! Seriously, do I have to repeat everything I just said? You ignore me just like how everyone did in the past..."
He laughed a bit on how desperate you were, before looking at you and replying.
"It's cute how you think I'd listen to all of that."
How insufferable he was! You just wanted someone to listen to what you wanted... was it that hard to fullfill that wish?
You'd pout at Blade for how mean he was being, you didn't like it at all. It made you believe Blade didn't want to hear you ranting at all, which made you a bit upset..
So why did you still repeat the actions you've done before with a burn in your beating heart? That's normal right?
In some instances... you found yourself being held by Blade a bit too much. Him gripping your wrist or waist to make sure you don't walk out- but what you meant by often, was only 1-2 times a month. Which was way more than before!
You could consider Blade your most annoying friend with how you were the closest to him. Every stellaron hunter didn't even get that close before!
But what you didn't know... was that the only reason he acted like he didn't listen was so you could come back to him single every time.
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Gepard was such a sweetie, he let you do anything you wanted. When he was outside of work- atleast. But, well you didn't care. You were all over him and crying how you didn't have a lover.
You always surprised him by calling his name and running up to him, you'd trip but then as a good friend he'd catch you in his arms!
You were never scared to fall again after that, after all he'd always catch you! And infact, he'd always listen to your sweet voice rambling on how no one would ever love you...
"Geparrrdddddd!"
You ran, tripping up again. Gepard was just intime to catch you though! He looked a bit mad, sorry Geppie! But he wasn't really mad at you.. just annoyed on how you could've gotten hurt!
He put his hand on his head, sighing once he put you back to your feet. Scolding you for your actions.
"You would've gotten hurt.. stop running like that!"
He had a faint blush on his cheeks, but you couldn't have seen it from how you were so lively. Such a shy boy when it comes to you...
"Nope! You'd catch me always anyway, also- ughh! There was this couple that I saw, and they were doing PDA! I can't stand PDA, it just breaks my heart to know someone has found love and I haven't!"
You pouted, rolling your eyes at the image of the couple in your head. How cute... Gepard thought.
He fixed his uniform while listening to you rant and rant, how sad he couldn't hold you in his arms right now... wait, what?
"And, and- they kissed! So passionately too.. like ew get a room!"
You screamed out loud, Gepard then told you off for that again...
"Hey, Hey, we're in a public area.. you might cause a noise disturbance and I don't want people to go all over you screaming about how loud you are."
He had a stern face but anyone but you wouldn't buy his facade, you can see the slightest twinkle in his eyes and dust of pink on his cheeks...
He suddenly held your hand, dragging you to a much more secluded place. You asked him where you guys were going but he just shut up, how your cheeks turned red... luckily he didn't notice and neither did you!
But sometimes, his older sister would just hope you two oblivious things would see how much your eyes would light up at the sight of eachother..
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420thewritersroom · 7 months ago
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Bloody Rage
Back with another "Raiden is in emotional turmoil" piece, this time inspired by the ending of the Blood Moon season. Had a lot of fun writing angry, budding Dark!Raiden stuff. Doesn't really scratch the vampire itch I was slightly getting, but this was fun to write regardless
Characters: Raiden, Kung Lao, Liu Kang (He's only here for one scene)
Word Count: 1,306
Warnings: Canon-Typical Violence, Blood
"I'll be fine, Raiden."
"I can handle a little mosquito bite."
"You don't have to worry about me, Raiden. Let's just focus on the mission at hand."
Raiden gazes at the pole where three of his closest associates struggle in vain against the searing hot chains that bound them. They writhe in bestial fury, like an animal trying to break out of its cage. They gnash their teeth, mouths filled with blood, eyes blazing in raging blood lust as they bite at the air while emitting animalistic snarls. If it wasn't for the fact that Raiden was staring down an exiled ninja, an immortal princess...And his best friend...Raiden would've thought them nothing more than animals.
What is he thinking? Even Raiden couldn't bring himself to denounce his friends to such a title. They were suffering, if not from the seething chains, then it was from the disease that demanded they consume flesh and blood. Every so often, one or all of them would exhaust themselves. The pain from their restrictions and their empty stomachs eventually catches up to them. And where their frenzy would once be in full bloom, it ebbs away as their voices become nothing but pathetic whimpers of pain. And then the begging starts. Their growls wither away as weak pleas attempt to allure any who would listen.
"Please, I'm hungry, thirsty."
"Just a drop, I'm not asking for much."
"I beg of you, please, you're hurting me. It's still me."
This only worked once, Raiden remembers. It's how Tomas got infected with the Vaeternian curse. In the beginning, when none of them knew who or what they were truly up against, Tomas, with his loveable bleeding heart, was just trying to help. They were able to capture a victim who was bitten and turned. Days, they were nothing but a ravenous monster. Until one day, they meekly, like a limping dog, asked for just a "taste." That they only needed a small amount of blood, then they would be normal for just a short while. Didn't help, too, that this individual was a close friend of Tomas. So he took the bait.
Raiden still remembers the slow, deteriorating state Tomas endured as the curse cruelly turned him into a monster. And he would be the first victim of the Earthrealm Warriors that had to be contained. The rest would follow suit as they fought off against Nitara and her army of Vaeternians.
He just...He just wished Kung Lao wasn't one of the victims that would fall to the curse. He almost hates him for getting bit, not because of his incompetence, his slip-up; that led to him getting tagged, but because the son of a bitch tried to hide that he was in pain. It was a week later when Raiden saw the tell-tale signs that Kung Lao was infected. Paler skin, longer canines, dimly red eyes, a desire for blood, the writing was on the wall. He remembers scolding Kung Lao for practically endangering everyone by hiding this truth. He should've dragged him over to Liu Kang, it was for his own good, for everyone's well-being, that Lao was locked up.
"I'm fine, Raiden. Really, I am. I'm not going to hurt anyone, I can fight this."
Raiden may be upset about Kung Lao lying about his curse, but the thunder wielder could never forgive himself for...Believing him. Against his better judgment, against the specific directions of Liu Kang, he took his friends' word over any screaming reason that told him to not take Lao on his word. But he did. He doesn't even remember why he listened to Lao. Was it his determined aura? The look of confidence that he was beyond being taken over by the hunger? Or was it that childish, naive idea that Raiden still held for his friend? That despite his shortcomings, Kung Lao always found a way to rise to the top. He never let cold, fever, broken bones, and, in some instances, death, slow him down. So why would a vampiric curse be the one to bring him down?
Raiden gazes at the pole where three of his closest associates struggle in vain against the searing hot chains that bound them. They writhe in bestial fury, like an animal trying to break out of its cage. They gnash their teeth, mouths filled with blood, eyes blazing in raging blood lust as they bite at the air while emitting animalistic snarls. If it wasn't for the fact that Raiden was staring down an exiled ninja, an immortal princess, and his best friend, he would've thought them animals. And where sympathy would've bubbled to the surface to the point of nearly choking him, Raiden felt none.
Instead, anger, like a roiling, vengeful thunderstorm, builds within him. He wanted nothing more than to fry alive the bastard who turned each and every one of his friends. He wanted to wrap his fingers around an unmarred, Vaeternian neck and squeeze. Squeeze until their eyes popped from their sockets, and their skin turned purple from the asphyxiation. Oh, but whoever turned his best friend would get the worst treatment. He can already see it. It would be slow and painful, just like the infectious curse that they spread when they're too unbothered to finish the job.
They would die from a thousand paper cuts, slowly bleeding them out until they were BEGGING to be fed, or better yet, pleading to die. But he would grant them no such mercy. He'd shock them, small sparks that would gradually escalate until they were given the electric chair treatment. He would violently rip out their fangs, and continue to do so until their body could no longer regenerate the bone. Raiden would actually greet their jaw area with a couple fists, maybe even a hammer. Yes, keep hammering away at their teeth until they all shatter and fall apart, one by one.
In fact, now that he's remembering this, the Vaeternians are known for their regeneration capabilities. He wouldn't even need to shock them back to life to ensure that their suffering is prolonged. He could keep them roped up in electric shackles, the shocks keeping them occupied while he gutted them like a pig at a slaughterhouse.
"Raiden..."
The choked sound of Kung Lao's voice tears Raiden from his violent fantasy. The thunder wielder slowly turns his gaze to Lao, his face filled with an unsettling look of passivity.
"Raiden, please. It hurts," Kung Lao whimpers, the sound of sizzling flesh emphasizing his point, "Raiden! Please!"
A pain in his heart lightly pokes at Raiden. He never thought he would see the day where Kung Lao was begging for anything. A prideful, cocksure, swagger of a fighter, now brought to his knees in a state of submission. Yet, Raiden can't find it in himself to pity his friend. Kung Lao didn't need pity, plenty had been given to him. His friend deserves to be liberated, his attacker executed for putting his friend in so much pain.
"Raiden..."
The farm boy is slow to respond to Liu Kang's call, his head turning to face the Fire God. A pang of shame creeps under his skin, and he lowers his eyes, "I'm sorry, Lord Liu Kang. I...I wanted to see him."
"I know," the Fire God approaches Raiden, placing a hand on his shoulder as he gently guides him away from the courtyard where their vampiric allies remained. "We are working diligently to find a solution for them. Geras has been searching for a possible timeline that was able to cure the Vaeternian curse. There's still hope for them."
"...I know..."
Yet, despite these affirmations, Raiden can't shake the anger, the need to break something, to hurt someone. It isn't enough that Kung Lao, Tomas, and Kitana are cured.
It just isn't enough.
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Angry Raiden is my favorite Raiden, can you tell :D
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mulling-over-milgram · 1 year ago
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Haruka’s victim / butterflies / my interpretation of haruka’s murder
Inspired by bluuepink07’s amazing yuno post!
https://www.tumblr.com/blueepink07/731734712212668416/i-just-noticed-that-this-part-from-yunos-door?source=share
so before I get into the butterflies I want to establish how I interpret haruka and his victims relationship.
Its almost certain that haruka’s victim was his friend rather then a family member even though prisoners can lie I don’t see a reason to doubt haruka here so I’m concluding that she’s his friend.
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I also believe haruka went to see fire works with her and that this mv shows them watching them
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haruka talks alot about his weaknesses about not living up to expectations we see this consistently
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But haruka implies he wasn’t always seen like this
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So at some point something changed haruka got diagnosed? was devolving as fast? Or something else which is probably when the family get the dog. Idk if this is common in real life but it is some what a troop in fiction of getting pets for children how are struggling I think his mother bought it in hopes of it helping him become a “normal child” and we know how it goes from there…
Later he meets his victim and I think she saw how lonely he was and wanted to befriend him or something like that and at first haruka loves the attention
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but what I think happened is his mother starts giving her attention.
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We already know haruka’s mother wanted a girl and haruka’s friend was probably what she had wanted in a child
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He finds it unfair and doesn’t want to lose the love of his mother to his friend and he already knows that killing the dog gave him attention and he probably saw this as some kind of betrayal
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so kills her okay know I’v covered the generally accepted stuff now we’re on the same page time to get into this symbolism nonsense!
I think that the dead haruka and the butterfly are both representative of his victim.
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I think haruka kills his younger self out of guilt that her life had more value so he should have been the one to die but also he see’s his victim as his replacement , his victim as himself as a child , the version of him when his mother still loved him as the version of himself that could be loved. She is a loveable version of him.
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something bluuepink07 pointed out her post was this symbolism around butterflies
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This and that butterflies can symbolise wishes this the main reason I think haruka’s friend reached out to him because he was lonely
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she grained his wish of not being lonely of being loved as a “weakling” by being his friend but also he thought killing her would grant his wish of being loved by his mother and because he killed her he went to milgram a place where he gets attention she with her death further granted his wish. Butterflies can change , butterflies are beautiful , they can be loved and appreciated but haruka?
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thenightfolknetwork · 1 year ago
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I need help. I'm not good at all this personal stuff. I'll keep it short. I'm from a different dimension, there's a few of them that I've been to. Mine sucks. But some guy accidentally destroyed his dimension and ended up in mine. Normally I'd just ignore someone like that, but he followed me for a while because I am my universe's version of someone who he cares about. A ton. I don't know him at all and, after some research, I don't think he exists in my universe at all. I helped out a bit and eventually he grew on me and we became friends. But he keeps comparing me to this other universe me. He thinks I need to meet "the real" me from his dimension and everything will be fine. But the process that will restore his dimension is likely to destroy mine and a few others. I don't care about his world or my world. I found a new dimension we could both live in happily, but he doesn't care! He only cares about "the real" me and his other friends. I haven't told him yet but I think we already have the stuff to restore his world, but I could also use this stuff to change the empty dimension I found into a paradise just for us. What do I do?
I'm afraid I'm not sure you're going to like my answer. You've obviously put a lot of time and effort into laying the groundwork to build this “paradise” for the two of you, and I'm sure you care about this man a great deal.
But to be quite frank, I'm not seeing anything in your letter to make me think he either reciprocates this depth of feeling, or has done anything to earn this devotion from you.
You say yourself, he is only interested in you because you remind him of someone else. He compares you to them constantly, and sees your separation and distinction from them as something to be fixed – if he can only bring the two of you together, “everything will be fine”.
You are your own person, valuable and loveable in your own right. You deserve to be with someone who can see that, someone who takes you seriously as the individual you are and not only as a helpful tool through which he can see the person he actually wants to be with.
There are very few things in life worth destroying an entire dimension over. This man certainly isn't one them. I recommend you keep your information about this empty dimension to yourself, leave this person to their own devices, and concentrate on building up relationships with people who are able to love you for who you are – not who they wish you could be.
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