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how seventeen would act with reader having daddy issues
WARNINGS: it may be sensitive to some people, and there are mentions of past traumas and family issues. mostly of it is basically, seventeen and their family taking care of you <3
a/n: this was an ask that was in my inbox for a long time, sorry about this 🥺 and worse, I was writing it, and the light have gone off, so ivé lost the drabble and I cant find in my inbox, I just know that it was from my bestie hannieween, sorry about the long time 🥺🙏 I hope you like it
seungcheol: already planning how to spoil you just to make up for what you didn’t get. this man would not let you suffer through those awkward, tense family reunions. the second you even hint at feeling uncomfortable, he’s pulling you out of there and taking you straight to his family’s place. his dad, a total sweetheart. he’s the type to sit you down, ask how you’re doing, and genuinely listen. and that’s when it hits you—this is where seungcheol gets his protective streak. his dad’s got the same energy, always making sure you’re taken care of. it’s like you’re part of their family now, and honestly, it feels better than anything you’ve ever known.
jeonghan: he’s sneaky about it, but in the most loving way. like, he knows you’ve got that hole where support should be, and he’s filling it without making it obvious. he’d get his mom and dad to invite you over for a casual dinner, but then it’s all about you. “oh, y/n loves pasta, mom,” he’d say, nudging you under the table when you get shy. his parents adore you, and jeonghan’s sitting back, watching you laugh at his dad’s corny jokes with this smug little grin, like, yeah, that’s my baby.
joshua: he’d plan random trips to his family’s place, just so you can hang out with his mom. like, one weekend, you’re baking cookies with his mom, and the next, you’re playing guitar with his uncle. josh is always hovering, making sure you’re comfortable, but lowkey beaming when he sees you getting along with his family. he’s super patient, too—he never pushes, just waits for you to open up when you’re ready. and when you do... he’s holding your hand, whispering, “see? they love you, just like i do.”
junhui: he’d make sure you feel like you belong there too. he’d take you home during the holidays, and suddenly, his mom’s treating you like her own kid. jun would sit next to you at dinner, quietly making sure you’re okay, squeezing your hand under the table whenever he notices you getting overwhelmed. he’s just sitting there, watching it all unfold, thinking, yeah, this is what you deserve.
hoshi: this man would straight-up share his dad with you. like, he’d plan trips for the three of you—fishing, hiking, picnics, you name it. and he’d be so proud when you start opening up to his dad. he gets that it’s gonna take time, but when he sees you laughing at his dad’s terrible puns, he’s smiling so hard his cheeks hurt. sometimes, when hoshi’s away for schedules, you’d even hang out with his dad without him. he’ll be texting you like, “my dad loves you more than me now 😭.” and even when he’s away for work, his family still makes time for you, calling you over to hang out or have dinner.
woozi: jihoon’s not big on family talk, but he knows you are, and he gets it. instead of dragging you into his family stuff, he makes a point of creating a new kind of support for you. like, you want to skip a stressful family dinner? cool, you’re spending the night at his place, binge-watching your favorite shows and eating takeout. he’s not one for big gestures, but he makes sure you always know you’re not alone. his quiet, steady presence is the comfort you never knew you needed.
wonwoo: he’d just sit there, letting you talk, and then hit you with the most thoughtful response ever, like, “you didn’t deserve that, but you deserve everything good now. let me be that for you.” giving you the world’s warmest hug, he’d probably start joking about being your emotional support cat forever.
minghao: he fully believes in breaking cycles, so he’s the guy who helps you redefine what family even means. he’d take you to meet his ambient, his friends, his family, everywhere where he KNOWS you'll be taken care off. he’d also start little traditions with you, like Sunday morning walks or trying new restaurants, just to build something stable and comforting for you. he's not trying to be your dad—of course. but he's trying to make programs that he remembered doing with his dad and that somehow, marked his trajectory. he wants you to experience that too.
mingyu: when shit gets heavy, he doesn’t try to fix it all at once—he just sits with you, lets you cry on his shoulder, strokes your hair, and whispers, “you’re not alone, okay? you’ve got me.” when you’re ready, he’s like, “now, what do you want to do about it?” and he’ll back you no matter what. he’ll drag you out to do the most random shit—karaoke, late-night drives, baking cookies at 2 a.m.—just so you’re not stuck in your head. and when you thank him later, he’s like, “who, me? nah nah.”
seokmin: he is the kind of guy who’ll carry you—literally. if you’re overwhelmed, he’ll scoop you up like you weigh nothing and plant you on the couch with snacks, a blanket, and whatever dumb movie he picked. “you don’t need to do anything today,” he says, plopping down beside you with the softest smile. but also, he won’t sugarcoat things, but he also doesn’t let you get stuck in negative self-talk. “you’re worth more than what he made you feel.”
seungkwan: got a sixth sense for this kinda thing. you don’t even have to say the words—he knows. he’s the type to gently steer the convo every time someone in your family says something shitty, or he’ll swoop in with some sarcastic-ass joke to take the heat off you. but when it’s just the two of you, he’s soft as hell, cuddling you, stroking your hair, and reminding you that he’s your safe space now. he’d probably even offer to go with you to therapy, just to sit there and hold your hand.b
vernon: he’ll say the goofiest shit to make you laugh—like doing terrible impressions of your least favorite family members or purposely messing up on kendama. doesn’t even try to hide how much he loves you. when you’re down, he’s the type to turn everything into a you’re amazing campaign. random notes in your bag, impromptu “you’re so cool” chants, and hugs so tight they might crack your ribs.
chan: baby’s the sweetest. he’s lowkey hurt that you’ve had to deal with that kind of stuff, so he makes it his mission to show you what love and support really look like. chan’s family would love you, and he’d be so excited to share them with you. he’d plan little visits where it’s just you, him, and his parents, so it’s not overwhelming. later, he’d check in, like, “did you have fun? was it okay?” because all he wants is for you to feel loved and safe.
#seventeen imagines#seventeen reactions#seventeen x reader#seventeen scenarios#seventeen headcanons#svt imagines#seventeen#seventeen fluff#seventeen fanfic#svt x reader#seventeen fic#seungcheol x reader#jeonghan x reader#joshua x reader#junhui x reader#hoshi x reader#wonwoo x reader#woozi x reader#minghao x reader#mingyu x reader#seokmin x reader#seungkwan x reader#vernon x reader#dino x reader#chan x reader#scoups x reader#soonyoung x reader#jihoon x reader#dokyeom x reader
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(I'm a writer so hearing "Oh yeah, please keep sending me horny thoughts in my inbox" is like a dream to me lol. Here is one that is a bit longer than the other one I sent lmao.)
You had been left alone all day, your puppy parts aching to be filled yet no one was home with you to stuff them. You knew you'd be in trouble if you touched them yourself without permission so sitting on the living room floor suffering was the only option.
You finally hear the front door open, your owner walking in still in his work clothes. You try to speak but all that comes out is a whine, your owner chuckling down at you as he pets your hair. He notices that you are simply in his t-shirt and boxers, his hand sliding to your waist.
"Did you miss me, puppy?" He asks, his hand sliding from your waist down to cup your clothed puppycunt. He chuckles once more as he feels the soaking wet mess through the fabric of your boxers, rubbing your parts gently. "Aww you did, didn't you? I bet your greedy puppy parts missed me too. Come on, let's take care of this mess."
He guides you by your waist into the living room, dropping his work bag by the door as he walks further int the house. He sits down on the couch and pats his thigh, leading you to jump right into his lap. His hands immediately find your waist, his face burying into your neck. The kisses there start gentle, his voice a breath against your neck.
"I'm so proud of you, not touching all day while I was gone. I know it must've been torture sweetheart but don't worry, your owner will stuff you nice and full as a reward." His voice was a bit gruff, his own desire shining through.
In the blink of an eye, he's sliding your boxers down and undoing his work pants, his tdick rubbing at your entrance in a swift motion. He was hard and wet, making you realize he must have wanted this all day too. Without a single word, he pushes inside. A grunt leaves his lips while a whine leaves you, burying your face into his neck. His grip on your waist tightens as he guides you up and down, making sure you go at the pace he wants you to. Your legs were getting tired and of course he noticed, all good owners would, so instead of you riding him, he starts to fuck up into you. You were his personal toy, only able to grip at his hair and smell his scent to keep yourself grounded.
"Stupid fucking mutt, needing me to pound his pussy so bad that he soaked himself." He had growled into your ear, making you nibble at his neck to keep yourself from screaming. "I'm gonna breed this pretty little puppy cunt just like you want."
With that, he's cumming, stuffing you full just like he had promised. Your vision goes white as you come down from your own high, panting against his neck. He rubs your back as he stays inside you, keeping you filled up.
"I told you i'd breed this pretty pussy, you like being filled by your owner huh? Don't worry, I'm sure you'll feel full for days until I can stuff you again."
(I am sorry this is so intense for an anon write but I had the idea and you saying I should keep sending sparked me to write it. Enjoy!)
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please don’t apologize… i like it intense that way >_< you really know exactly what to say to get me sopping wet in a second!!! a very good pup handler you are… <3
#🪐 anon#ftm puppy#ftm t4t#t4t puppy#puppyboy#puppy sub#bd/sm puppy#dumb puppy#nsft puppy#puppypl4y#ftm#ftm pet#ftm dom#ftm breeding#ftm sub#ftm bottom#ftm ns/fw#ftm nsft#t4t#t4t ftm#t4t sub#t4t ns/fw#t4t kink#t4t nsft#t4t mlm#trans t4t#t4t petpl@y#tboy puppy#trans puppy#tboy
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hi tumblr sorry I disappeared I am back with lamb
#cult of the lamb#cult of the lamb art#cult of the lamb fanart#cult of the lamb lamb#cult of the lamb the lamb#cult of the lamb lambert#cotl fanart#cotl lamb#cotl art#cotl the lamb#cotl lambert#cotl#artist#artists on tumblr#art#artwork#i lost motivation to do much of anything on tumblr RIGHT AFTER doing that “send requests” thing#i think what i actually needed was a break instead of more ideas lmao#i will still be getting to that stuff in my inbox!! just. yeah#oh also i wanna start an rp blog for the lamb because they are one of my favorite characters to write ever and this will be the header#it's gonna be a fancy one i already have all the icons i wanna use drawn and ready#i just have to make like.. a caard or something and write out and about and rules etc.#it'll be fun!!#also hi sorry if you thought something treacherous might have happened to me i am fine
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AUGH I’d love to see more time looping odile if possible,,,,, how do you think she’d like; “devolve” over each of the acts as compared to Siffrin over time :O
ok im gonna be honest i did like portrait edits months ago and just never finished them. so here you go
act 3:
act 5:
#some of them are still missing... I'll edit this post if I finish them as well#isat#isat spoilers#odile loops au#day 108#isat odile#i'm too lazy to individually export them in transparent atm...#tell me if yall ever need it#edit: I FORGOT TO ANSWER THE QUESTION#I mean yeah technically the portraits work but I do have Thoughts about this#I just think that throughout the loops odile becomes more. annoyed. and irritated#Like by act 3 fighting isn't really amusing anymore#dying/getting frozen is. ah. welp#But by act 5 she's just speedrunning#Just super irritated. like die already i've got variables to test#act 3 frozen is a momentary rest; the break is nice and she knows she can get back next loop; it's fine. act 5 is ugh seriously#tired. annoyed. unamused. what a waste of time#anyways wait how long has it been since I posted#(sees date of last post) OH. um#sorry guys I've been busy job (internship) hunting#will I post more from now on? No promises <3#Thank you for sticking around nontheless... I appreciate all the stuff yall send in my inbox <3#isat au
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me Omw to annoy you about more Francesca content 😼😼
you and my entire inbox my friend strap in everyone this is gonna be The Francesca Mega Collection. part one The Bed Collection ft You HAVE To Click/Tap To Read Anything ESPECIALLY The Asks
thank you for joining me for the Francesca Bed Collection im going to pass out
#xmen#xmen comics#cherik#charles xavier#erik lehnsherr#professor x#magneto#francesca the cat#snap sketches#OK HI HERE been tryin to posts this for ten asks now cause i severely underestimate the speed of my inbox once it picks up#ironically my sis dropped her cat off for the weekend so. i have much fran inspo LMAO she loves doing the bed thing i confess..#i will be candid and say right now that like. two(? maybe just one) of the asks in this post arent fran related#theyve been sitting in my inbox for weeks but they were used for inspo in this post SO IT COUNTS IM POSTING IT TO FEEL LESS GUILTY OK !!!!!#these arent meant to be a cohesive story or w/e but i mean if you try it can prob be. at least the last two#i was gonna try to knock out all my fran asks today actually but 1.) i underestimated how slow i draw#2.) i got to the thirdv (i made it first in this list but i mean he cutie in the third too..) comic and my brain decided i drew erik too ho#and ive decided to dedicate the rest of my night praying for forgiveness for my lascivious thinkings <- they will continue#but yeah like i said i have all the comics and the sort sketched out buuut i might redo one of them#its kinda nsft flavored (but still cute + sfw) and thats not usually a prob but the asks themselves are wholesome i felt awkward jerLJLK#maybe ill repurpose the beginning panels ... or hell maybe ill just finish them and post them as is#spoilers its more Superhero Roeplay bullshit so it can def be posted on its own without fran.. idk ...#we know how my brain goes Thats Why We're In This Sitch once im given an inch i run a marathon and i dont stop#i be having such intense visions im gonna throw up. anyway wtf was i saying i forget. oh well thaat means EnjoYWAIT I REMEMBER#im tempted to close my inbox for a bit just until i clear out all the asks i wanna draw and ik i dont HAVE to draw them#but as ive said i get visions so easily ...... and i must see them realized ... but then id miss talking to everyone :(#so we ball is simply the answer. ok fr enjoy now LMAO BYYYYEE im gonna go redraw some old stuff i think to wind down#maybe ill touch one more asks cause . cause like Many Of Them its got stuff ive been wantin to draw all week ... heh ...#ok bye we'll see what happens im not checking over these if theres a mistake then by god theres a mistake BYE
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4 on the angst list with Araleyn please I need them to suffer
4 : "but it's my fault, right?" (prompt list here)
#<blinks> very gently implied angst i suppose. usually everyone makes anne suffer so for a change#here's catherine struggling with the idea that if she hadn't been so stubborn about divorce-#maybe it would have been more okay for henry to divorce anne instead of. yknow. chopping her head off.#gently implied angst with the. well. i hurt this person i care about. unintentionally. but still. hence also the historical counterparts bg#... i feel like this isn't suffering (italicised for emphasis) but unfortunately? i am in a more melancholy mood#and also coming to conclusion that whump isnt really my taste.. so quite literally you'd have to pay me to draw it .. dfdsghjkl comms open#anyways yeah i think the most you'll get from my own stuff is <reference to beheading> <mentioned death> <abstract reds that might be blood#six the musical#six the musical fanart#anne boleyn#catherine of aragon#pssst drew anne extra pretty bc coa pov. if you get what i mean.#oh that got off tangent. but also tldr; requests mean free art!! (also idm if you ask for specific things. like your own aus. just to put#that out there)#but also requests: 1. up to my creative freedom and discretion so you probs won't get exactly what you want + 2. no time limit so#can take literal years to reply to.#so ig ? if you have specific things in mind. that you want me to draw. commissions would be better for you if you'll pay!#but if you don't have the money i'm also. lowkey willing to draw for free.. stick it in the inbox .. there's just no guarantee you'll get it#within the next year.. or at all! but you may as well try your luck o.O#(this plan is terrible for business but because for a very long time i was unable to buy anything online. i sympathise greatly ig)
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France is so beautiful to hide the ugliness inside. honhonhon It's a pety bitch and we love him
Motherfucker made a deal with the devil for sure ... Though now I am wondering if that is a thing in French culture/folklore, like, do we have some prominent devil deal story over there? Getting sidetracked.
But YES, we love him for being petty! He is capable of both being a genuine romantic and kind soul and also the MOST MASSIVE BITCH EVER who wants to see the world BURN for his entertainment and ego. Love that for him. I mean, look at this poll for my latest AU FrUK subplot. Card-carrying messy bitch who lives for drama.
But I will seriously say that he is not uniquely ugly on the inside, most Hetalia characters (and indeed most characters period) are super sucky in some ways and genuinely cool people in others. I am as francophobic as the next person, but his beauty is not hiding more uglyness than Turkey's or Spain's beauty - or any of the Nordic's or Russia's or China's, depends on who is your type.
I mean, in the AU scenario I linked alone, there are like. At least three major cases of Everyone Sucks Here. Yes, François' prioritizing drama over his best friend's future, bc all the pettyness got her basically fiancé to sleep with someone for blackmail and he is not doing shit to stop HIS future husband from making another friend's life hell for the petty bullshit. But Gavin MacAllister being hellbent on not letting François marry an Englishman that Fran clearly doesn't seem to abhor, seems determined to have a fun marriage with, is also just. Ugly as fuck behaviour-wise. And Arthur trying to make everyone else pay more than hell for bothering him... Honestly, if he hadn't pissed off Gavin and my Irish boys before François based on snobbish reasons, Arthur would be the least of an asshole, because Gavin's being an entitled prick and François is encouraging it. He is not uniquely terrible, really not, so ... not that much beauty required, really. Hima just hates me specifically by making a Frenchman this heavenly handsome.
#aph#hetalia#hws#aph france#hws france#anon#beareplies#storie nostre#fruk#scotfra#fran#arthur#gave#Fran isn't even actively conniving here he just thinks too much that everything will be cozy and well#He thinks this is a game this is a novel he read but forgot that only the heroine gets saved#so yeah HE will be fine. But Charlie Tahir AND Arielle should have ALL reason to strangle him#Harry too. Hell Arthur too.#i debated whether or not you are the aph england defender anon but lbr if you are I still liked answering this ask#because I miiiiisssed you i missed all your salty rants in my inbox plz if you are reading this#come back so I can screenshot your stuff and then delete it plz plz plzzzzz#and if you are genuine in your hatelove for france nonnie you are welcome anyways. mwah.
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hey guys do y’all remrmber me ..... i am alive and doing well 👍👍
#very VERY sorry for suddenly leaving so long ago#idk i just. leave my social media accs randomly sometimes idk sometimes i need space ig#but i wanna try n be a lil more active on here again <3#a lot has happened since i’ve truly been active on here but welp such is life#i have an active dnd campaign n more close friends now#and i almost booked tickets for the bronze vb olympia match !!#sadly they were all sold out :(#there’s still some old ass asks in my inbox i wanna get to eventually !! taku n anon z i see ur asks! i will answer them !!#might take me a bit to get used to tumblr again. generally not sure just how active i’ll be#we’ll see ig#in case anyone actually reads this especially if i know you: hey!! hello !! i missed you all :((#especially taku n anon z ofc !! <3#bc i mostly only rlly talked to you guys haha#i’m on anti depressants now n actually doing much better in case. anyone was wondering haha#and i’m once again neck deep in a tokrev phase bc i just got a friend into it (we watched the whole of s1 together)#(it took us 5 days)(we were on a school trip n didn’t have anything better to do)#so. uh. yeah#hopefully expect some tokrev stuff from me :3#glad to be back guys <3#really missed this tbh#☆—`elys rambles
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hello ari my love life my everything, just checking in! first of all, how are you doin' ?
second of all, i sent you an ask for Hozier recs, just wanted to make sure tumblr didn't eat it ! <3 lotsa love for you mwah
HELLO NOE <3333333 my beloved!!!!!! i’m doing pretty well, i hope the same goes for you!! have you been up to anything fun lately ?? :3 (i’ve been watching tokyo rev w my brother n next week we’re watching the new spy x family movie at the cinema together so i’m excited hehe)
AND . don’t worry, tumblr didn’t eat it!!!! i’m so sorry for the wait :(((( i have like 50+ unanswered asks atp so i haven’t been very good at answering them on time :’3 my brain just hasn’t been Braining. i wanted to listen to all the songs you recommended before answering but i still haven’t… i promise i’ll get to it though!! i just need to find a good moment <3333
#I RLLY APPRECIATE ALL THE RECS <3333#sometimes i’m very slow w asks but it never has anything to do w the ask itself!!! i love getting asks more than Anything !!!!!!#my brain genuinely just won’t let me do stuff i want sometimes :’3#but yeah!! it’s still in my inbox and i Will get to it so dw <3333 tysm for checking in!!!#ask tag ✩#noe !! ✩
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🌸。*゚+. Sorry to everyone I owe things to. It’s been extremely hard trying to get myself to start working on any replies and remaining starters. Been losing focus and zoning out more frequently these work shifts, so it’s been difficult to do much of anything ;; ;; I’m hoping soon I can kick myself back into gear, but right now my brain is just not having a good time.
Sending good vibes to everyone and well wishes. Hopefully the creative drive keeps strong with y’all ♡
#MUN SPEAKING 🌸 ᴬ ʷᵉᵃᵛᵉʳ ᵒᶠ ᵗᵃˡᵉˢ; ᴾᵃⁱⁿᵗᵉʳ ᵒᶠ ˢᵗᵃʳˢ#Still having a rough time processing things. I’ll be okay for like an hour and then suddenly just—#not be okay jfsijdbd This is gonna be one hell of a year to get through…#but hopefully I can kick my butt into gear and get that momentum going again with stuff on here.#That’ll help keep my brain focused on other things and just give some more good times to look forward to ;; ;;#I still have the art stuff too so I’m looking forward to working on those… just… again ;;; ;;; trying to get started first.#The starting is the hardest part for me but I’ll keep trying in the meantime.#Just know I’m not shoving anything aside. I’m actively trying every night at work during my shifts. I just end up staring at my screen#for the whole 10 hour shift ;;; ;;; so… sorry for the wait on replies and stuff ckdjxbebc#I rambled in the tags again— what else is new??? LOL anyways yeah big hugs to all. Might try another inbox call maybe#to keep giving people interaction stuff. Or do like a… perma-inbox thing?? So I know who to bother randomly when I wanna reach out#and not add to anyone’s plate who doesn’t want additional stuff to answer. I KEEP RAMBLING OKAY BYE KISSIES AND HUGS—!!!!!
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honestly at this rate, i’m considering going back to fic writing/drawing fan works full swing
#🌀 — later guys! i’m outta here. ❪ ooc. ❫#vent //#don't get me wrong i still love rping. i'm still gonna do it#it still makes me super happy whenever i see new interactions pop up in my inboxes - even if i never end up getting to them#but hoogh.. i'll be honest besties - this past year has been challenging#idk how to describe it really without sounding like a loser dkasdafjdl but the tldr is mental illness and#writing in a space where feedback isn't always guaranteed doesn't mix well for me#which is why i'm kinda debating fanfic again because i STILL get comments and kudos from a fic i worked on back in 2016#even though its full of flaws and cringe moments i still am so touched that there are ppl out there that still enjoy it in its full#teenaged toby angst glory kgjsdkj#what does that mean for my blogs and activity if i do wind up getting back into that kinda thing? dunno yet.#but i'll still BE here#and i will still probably respond to stuff (just slowly.. i am not fast like sonic T hedgehog)#jussst yeah. thinking it'll be good for me to pursue other hobbies and passions too#oh yeah i feel like i need to clarify - this has nothing to do with anything recent#it's been a gradual feeling
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anyway i'm finally gonna dig my way to the bottom of my drafts and start writing my way up without posting the moment something is finished. some of you are gonna be getting some months-old replies soon and i hope ur okay with that lmao
#if i had to guess i'd say it'll probably take me a few days to get through everything#depends on how well i can focus & how fast i can write#i did have to cave & delete a few things to make this easier but there was a lot that i just can't bear to part with so#there are still like 30-something things sitting in there lmao#not gonna be answering any prompts from memes but i do have several unprompted asks that will be included in all this#i'll... figure out what to do with the many prompts in my inbox another time#ANYWAY YEAH just a head's up bc i'm Around just. the most writing u'll actually see out of me for a bit is maybe some one-liner dash stuff#━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ OOC ⋮ DON’T @ ME.
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me pretending like i'm not lowkey stressed out abt the amount of ooc stuff i have to do on my blogs & just continuing to write? you betcha -
#( a pathological people pleaser // ooc )#(its not a lot but it is kinda alot)#(like i need to go through the following on this blog bc theres still a ton of people that havent followed back or re-followed after i#turned into it missy's. & like w that i still need to make a promo so i can properly promo it)#(on both blogs i need to go through & try to follow people's other blogs that i dont already follow & find any moved/archived blogs bc#i keep missing people moving blogs w how on & off i've been online)#(& then i still need to get queues going for both esp steve w the absolute shit ton of inspo stuff that's stacked up in my likes)#(plus i really wanna do some dash games & hcs for both - esp steve bc i have some hc inbox things there too - but in general-)#(& idk probably just some other general blog maintenance/clean up bs)#(oh OH plus the 'surprises' i promised on steve's blog weeks ago-)#(so yeah theres kinda a lot- but THE TEA IS - i dont feel like doing any of it lmao. like i have gotten so bad/lazy w ooc stuff the past#couple years bc it always just feels like so much- like yeah writing/ic can be its own struggle but at least there the struggle more comes#finding muse/etc its not like ... basically chores. its the FUN part of rping . ooc stuff is like the chores part of rping for me tbh-)#long tags tw
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#i can’t imagine you ever visit this place#i figure it’s off limits and if that’s the case#i get why#in which case I’m just sort of whistling into the void but hey maybe the abyss likes music too#i just want you to know that you always have a friend in me#(yeah cue the randy Newman)#if I’m being completely honest i think about you every day still#and maybe that sounds scary to you#but i promise it’s soft affectionate and loving#i only hope the best for you#I’m not the kind of person who shows up on a doorstep or a public transit stop#I’m autistic. I’ve discovered that a lot of us share the vampire rule: you MUST be invited in lmao#but yeah i won’t go where i don’t think I’m welcome#which is why I’m here listening to my (terrible flat) whistling echo back at me from the darkness#instead of in your inbox or your texts#should we ever have contact i have to be on the safe side and let you come to me#you were my best friend and that hasn’t changed#like yeah all that other stuff but you were my friend first and i loved that#sure i was insecure about a lot of stuff#(who would i be to comment on your work? who would i be to assume i could do that too and that you’d care about it?)#but i did my best not to splatter that on you#i do feel some regrets about times i didn’t comment on your work because i felt awkward and weird about giving feedback to someone i admired#or asking questions because i thought that might make me look stupid and you’d never want to let me experience it again lol#but i think about things you’ve created a lot#you have such a gift for breathing life into human feelings and experiences#and i miss being among the first to see what new things you’ve created#but I’m grateful i was ever in that circle in the first place#you are still in my circle within a circle#the bubble didn’t burst when it crash landed. it’s a bubble dude. staying intact is what they do#anyway i love you mondo doofus. i hope you’re having a sweet and gentle day 💜
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okay few okay, glad I got that out of the way
#thats honestly a weight off my chest.. and a cleared inbox lol#and im sorry i closed my inbox. it was getting so overwhelming#all i wanna do really is just have friends and be happy here since im not really that happy irl#and all this stuff.. i kinda feel pretty useless yknow?#i dunno if i can even donate money. the money i have isnt even something i earned by myself#my mom works hard to just get the things she wants. i dont know what to do#i just want to be hapoy with my friends...#sorry for the vent but yeah#ofc im still gonna boost palestine posts. i just have to wonder if my effort even amounts to anything... :p#enough of that#i need to go make me some tea. as a treat#posts.nae
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ive always wondered how other blogs with multiple mods work bc like ive seen ppl talk abt having discord servers and stuff to coordinate posts and im just here like 99% sure the other mod on ours doesnt even know my current url
#which to be fair is bc there was a mixup w my urls when she first reached out so she ended up contacting one of my sideblogs#and the sideblog is still up and i can pull up our old messages so i mean she has a way to contact me if she needs#but yeah i dont think we've talked directly at all since then and that was . a couple years ago now#ill just randomly get bursts of notifications and be like 'ope amelia just posted something i bet'#whats great too is like she was intending to set me up with inbox access to answer asks too but for some reason we just never#got it working so i never have to worry about finding the spoons to answer stuff#i am simply the ghost that reblogs stuff sometimes#which to be clear: absolutely not complaining this is the ideal setup for me#im just also aware it isn't usually done that way
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