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They got all comfy around Sebastian's bed - it was so lovely to see them all here, Sebastian was still amazed they surprised him like that. He could smell the flowers from here, William sat right beside him too, and he had delicious chocolate - no more boring porridge or soup. He would have to ask the nurses if he was allowed chocolate but...well, he assumed it was alright.
They spoke more about what was to come now, after the surgery. Recovery was the main focus now, it would very well take him a few weeks to be back to full health completely. William explained that he would need follow-up treatments, just to make sure they didn't overlook anything, minimize the risk of any undetected cancer cells spreading again. It sounded easy enough - yet Sebastian was sure they would both lose much more sleep over this.
Their friends nodded understandingly, they all honestly had these looks on their faces - worried and sad, it was not great news, really. But there was also a bright side - and they had come to cheer Sebastian up after all. "But hey, that's already great news", Eric spoke up first, smiling again, "Cancer is gone, you were lucky it didn't spread anywhere else. And...well, I'm absolutely sure whatever treatments you do, you'll make it through just fine as well. You're a tough guy, Seb, you can take it. From what you told us, you took a lot so far, so this will be a piece of cake", he smiled encouragingly. It made Sebastian smile too.
"Yea, well...thank you for saying that, but...it wasn't me all alone. I really wouldn't have made it so far without William", Sebastian spoke then and looked at his boyfriend with such loving eyes, "As you can imagine, this whole thing really took a lot from me mentally as well. But William is my biggest support, I couldn't possibly do it without him. He probably saved me just by spotting that mole on my back back then. All alone I wouldn't have noticed a thing. And...then the appointments...they were tough, this...all of this really fucks you up mentally. But he was there, always".
As he spoke, he just kept admiring William, squeezing his hand - eventually he let go of his hand though and raised his arm, gently cupped his cheek and rubbed it gently with his thumb. Ronald had to admit, he was touched by Sebastian's words - and yet incredibly weirded out be the way he touched William during. This looked so incredibly intimate and...weird, when it was these two.
William reacted - and that had to put the final nail in the coffin - with the words 'Aw, darling...' Nobody reacted. And thus, Ronald couldn't take it anymore. Was he crazy or something, what was going on? He just had to...somehow react to this, to tickle any kind of reaction out of the others.
"Haha, okay, woah. Guys, that feels like I'm interrupting something", he snorted, glancing at the others now for some kind of reaction, "Am I right, guys? Haha".
For I have sinned...
The principal cleared his throat, eyes scanning the notes that he had wrote down before this meeting. It already lasted an hour, and the teachers gathered in the faculty room were becoming restless and bored. But indeed there were some things to discuss, with the concert that the senior class was supposed to perform at the end of the semester, and with recent staff changes.Â
William glanced down at his watch, sighing softly. His class was starting in 15 minutes, so at least, whether the meeting will be done soon or not, he will get to excuse himself. He looked out of the window, his mind wandering. Principalâs voice turned into white noise in the background. It was a pleasant day, late summer. But William was looking forward to a slightly cooler weather. Wearing all black could really be bothersome at times.Â
âAnd lastly, I am pleased to announce that we have finally found replacement for the violin teacher. Dear Mr Tanaka, may he rest in peace, was with us for so many years that Iâve been concerned we wonât be able to find someone as good as to fill this position.â the principal spoke. âBut Mr⊠Michaelis, was highly recommended to me, and he indeed has impressive references. He will be starting this week, so please welcome him warmly once he will arrive. Ah yes⊠about that. He will arrive today at noon, I need someone to pick him up from the train station and bring over for the tour around the school. Any volunteers?âÂ
William was barely listening, and definitely not paying much attention. He glanced at his watch again, and saw that it was time to leave, as his class was about to start. He raised his hand to excuse himself, and little did he know, he just volunteered.
âFather William! Excellent!â the principal exclaimed. âJust donât be late, the train arrives at noon.â
âTrainâŠ?â William questioned, raising his brow. He had a feeling he was missing somethingâŠ
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Right after the meeting, William had to run for the class, so he had little time to clarify what exactly he had volunteered for. He was a piano teacher in this Music Academy, but also he served as a priest in local church. Well respected, and rather liked. So when he later found out it was about the new violin teacher, he didnât refuse. Who, other than himself, would be a better choice to introduce a newcome to their community?
So even though he raised his hand by accident, he accepted this fate.
After classes, at noon, William took a taxi and drove to the train station, to pick up their new teacher. Wearing black trousers, and a black shirt with a thin tie, was absolutely dreadful in this weather, so William quickly found shelter under the roof of the station platform, that provided some shade.
The train had just arrived. William had no idea how Mr Michaelis looked like, but he figured he will just look for someone carrying a violin case with them.Â
He was in for a bit surprise.
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AU where Dean is the Michael Sword but meaning that heâs actually genuinely an angelic weapon given human form
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"Am I even human?" Dean wants to sound angry - he wants to sound furious - but his words come out as broken as he feels inside.
Cas says nothing for such a long time that Dean nearly tells him to just go, but before he can spit the words out, Cas stiffly climbs up next to him and joins him on Baby's hood.
All the fight deflates out of Dean in an instant.
A Fallen Angel and an Angel's Sword sit side by side on a car in the middle of the night. It sounds like the worst set up to an even worse punchline.
"Guess I've got more in common with you than I have with either of them..." Dean says bitterly, gesturing back at Bobby's house.
Cas clasps his hands neatly over his knees and sighs. "Dean, do you know why the Michael Sword is so powerful?"
"I dunno, 'cause I'm awesome?"
Cas throws him such a flat look that Dean can't help the tiny smile it brings out him. It fades quickly.
Cas jabs him in the shoulder - the same shoulder the handprint is on - and it lances a jolt of something electric down his spine.
"Wh- hey!" Dean swats Cas's finger away and rubs at his shoulder, hoping Cas won't notice the red blooming on his face in the dark.
"Listen to me, Dean. The Michael Sword is so strong because it's powered by a human soul - it's own human soul - yours. You have flesh and blood. You have thoughts and feelings. You are human."
Dean feels the full intensity of Cas's gaze as it's directed at him, and he is powerless to turn away. He's caught by blue eyes and an earnestness he's never seen in Cas's expression before.
"You're stubborn, you're defensive, impulsive, brave, selfless- you're the most human person I know," Cas adds, something catching in his usually stoic voice.
Dean huffs out a startled laugh. "The most human person you know..." he repeats, amusement and affection spreading like warmth through his whole body. He clears his throat. "Thanks, Cas."
"Besides," Cas rumbles, a note of pride slipping in, "I rebuilt your entire body myself, so I know for a fact that it is chemically and biologically identical to a regular human body."
Dean loudly snorts another laugh. "See, now you've just made it weird."
Cas reaches over and gently holds Dean's hand, palm up, in his own. The move is so unexpected that Dean's brain appears to go immediately offline and all he can do is suck in a quiet breath.
Cas moves his fingers gently, one by one, and presses onto the pads of his fingertips, while Dean can hear his own heartbeat between his ears.
"Uh-" Dean finally manages. Great. Nice. Useful.
"It may be difficult to understand, but you are as much this man of flesh and blood as you are Angelic steel," Cas says gently. His fingers continue to press across Dean's hand, as if now he's started he can't stop. "I've noticed that you are a very tactile person, and you respond well to touch. I'm attempting to ground you in this moment. Is it working?"
Dean wants to immediately deny it and snatch his hand back, but he pushes down the reflex and watches Cas trace the lines across his calloused palm. He takes a deep breath. "Yeah."
Cas doesn't let go and Dean doesn't pull away.
When the experience starts to feel too much Dean weaves their fingers together and looks up at the stars, knowing Cas will be able to feel how sweaty his palm is, and can probably hear the way his heart is slamming against his ribcage.
"Am I at least cool looking, as a sword?" Dean eventually asks, breaking the silence. He turns back to Cas and throws him a small grin.
Cas's eyes roam across his face, almost seeming to bore into him like he can see beneath his flesh. Maybe he can.
"Yes, Dean," Cas replies, the ghost of a smile twitching at the corner of his lips, "you always look 'cool'."
#I wrote this instead of sleeping again I hope it makes sense aaaa#destiel#deancas#destiel ficlet#dean winchester#michael sword!dean#pie's projects#destiel fanfic#(in this universe Adam is Michael's true vessel)
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woman crush wednesday pt 2 (previous part)
summary: you and paige finally go on the long awaited date
content warnings: none!
It had been three weeks since your first phone call with Paige and since then, it has become a nightly occurrence. Talking and giggling into the early hours until sleep eventually takes over. You have fallen asleep on FaceTime a few times too, waking in the morning to Paige silently getting ready for her day.
You both had busy schedules but they had finally aligned and Paige was coming into the city to see you for the first time. Even though you felt like you knew Paige decently well after hours of calls, you were still nervous. Meeting someone for the first time spiked your fight or flight. What if you wasnât how Paige had imagined you? What if seeing you in real life made her feel differently?
You settled your nerves with a small glass of wine as you got yourself ready. It was a crisp autumnal evening in New York City and you both had decided on getting a coffee from your favourite place and walking around Central Park would be perfect for your first date.
You and Paige were similar in the sense, you were both really simple girls. You enjoyed being home and didnât care for the lavish things in life. You were looking forward to just spending time with Paige, talking to her and being able to look in her eyes as she stood in front of you, rather than through a screen.
Paige was getting to your apartment at 5PM and it was almost that time so you applied a final layer of lip balm, a few spritz of your favourite perfume and readied yourself to leave.
Your phone vibrated in your pocket, Paige was here.
Your stomach fluttered as you rode the elevator down, you took in a few deep breaths and checked your reflection in the mirror. You had kept your outfit simple and makeup to a minimum. Paige was used to seeing you on stage or red carpets, you wanted her to see the real you today.
The elevator opened and there she was, in all her glory. She looked even better in person if that was possible, she looked like a goddess through the FaceTime camera but the way her eyes shone and skin glistened while she was just metres away from you had you lost for words. Her hair was down and straight, tucked behind her ears and she was wearing khaki pants with matching trainers and a pink and brown shirt. Why were you already imagining yourself wearing it? It would hang on your body oversized and it would probably smell like her.
âHello Y/N.â Paige breaks your daydream, a smile spreading on her face as you walk towards her.
âHi Paige.â You say shyly and she opens her arms for a hug and you step into it so naturally any nerves you had vanish within seconds.
âYou look gorgeous.â She complements as you pull apart and you feel your cheeks heat up even though sheâs said that every time youâve been on video call even when your half asleep with messy hair and in your pyjamas.
âThank you. You look great. Iâm not used to seeing you wear a shirt.â You joke as most of the time, Paige calls you post practice and sheâs almost always in her sports bra.
âI can take this off but letâs get that coffee first.â She says cheekily and her hand falls to the small of your back as she leads you out of the apartment building.
You and Paige argue over whoâs paying for your drinks as the barista watches you both grapple to reach the card reader.
âIt was my suggestion. Let me pay.â You state.
âIâm taking you on a date. Let me pay.â Paige quips back.
âBut you traveled into the city. Let me.â
âY/N put the damn card away. Iâm paying.â Her voice is assertive and dominant and her arm stretches over you to tap her card.
âThank you.â You say as you collect the drink, âYouâre welcome but never do that again. As long as youâre with me, everythings on me.â
âPaige-â
âNo arguememts, gorgeous.â
Yes maâam.
The walk to Central Park is quick and filled with lighthearted chatter, between you and Paige. She reaches out to touch you multiple times. Her hand grazing your cheek to move a piece of hair, a protective arm around your waist as you cross the road and each time you felt your skin tingle and then a sense of longing once the moment was over.
âIâm glad youâre here.â You say as you find a secluded bench to sit on together. You sit so close, your legs are touching and Paige places a hand on your thigh, âI am too. Sorry it told so long for me to figure out.â
âItâs OK, I know youâre busy. I am too. But what do they say? Distance makes the heart grow fonder and all that.â The last bit comes out of your mouth without you realising.
âYour heart is fond of me?â Paige asks, the corners of her mouth curving up slightly and you feel a blush creeping onto your face.
âI didnât- I donât-â You stutter out, unsure of how it would make Paige feel.
âNo. Donât backtrack. My heart is fond of you too. I wouldnât spend every night speaking to you or I wouldnât have drove three hours here if it wasnât.â
âReally?â You ask, averting your gaze because it felt weird hearing that from someone. You werenât a relationship girl, in fact youâd only ever been in one relationship and it was so far from perfect, you didnât think people like Paige existed.
âYes really, gorgeous.â Paige confirms, lifting your chin so youâre looking at her again.
âI thought maybe I was being too full on. I know people donât like that.â You say, now looking into her eyes. Her blue, blue eyes.
âIâm not people. Iâm Paige and you could never be too full on with me.â
âIn that caseâŠmy heart is definitely fond of you.â You admit, now mirroring Paiges soft smile.
The air is charged as you sit looking into each others eyes, Paiges hand still firmly rested on your thigh. She glances down and your lips and you glance down at hers. Her tongue pokes out to run across them and your breathing hitches at the way they look, so plump and wet, slightly apart and you begin to lean in as she does the same.
Paiges hand leaves your thigh and finds your neck as your lips meet in a needy but gentle kiss. She pushes into it, her tongue slipping into your mouth and you moan at the sensation. Youâve thought about this moment, dreamed about it so many times but nothing could have prepared you for how it felt. Her fingers tangling into the back of your hair, her soft skin under your fingertips, her scent the only thing you can smell.
Youâre both left red cheeked and slightly breathless and you canât help but giggle at each other and as you do, the heavens open and rain begins to pour. You gasp at the feeling of water already seeping through your clothes and wetting your skin.
âTypical.â Paige laughs and she grabs your hand pulling you up from the bench and you both start running.
âWhere are we going?â You ask trying your best to match Paiges strides.
The rain was heavy, already dripping down your face, blurring your vision and you kept a tight grip on Paiges hand hoping that she would lead the way.
âTo find shelterâŠso I can kiss you again.â Paige breathes out and she looks to you, her hair so wet, it looks a few shades darker.
âWeâre already drenched.â You say, her shirt is stuck to her skin, outlining her muscular physique and you can feel rain leaking into your shoes with every step you take.
Paige stops running but you canât stop fast enough so you bump into her and she grabs your waist, balancing you, âYouâre right. We are drenched so we might as well stay right here.â She says and she crashes her lips to yours again. Itâs hungrier this time, her hand is firm on your waist as the rain batters down on you both, you grip onto her shirt, pulling her closer, wanting more, needing more.
You donât care that youâre in the middle of Central Park, in the pouring rain. You care that youâre with Paige, finally and itâs better than you ever expected.
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a/n: hi i actually hate this đ i didnât write for a few days while i was moving house and i feel like iâve forgotten how toâŠ
#paige bueckers#uconn wbb#wcbb#wlw#lgbtq#fanfic#lovegalor333#paige x reader#oneshot#blurb#sophs works đȘœ
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2001 - theo nott x reader
Honey, what you runnin' from? When you comin' back to bed? Toss and turnin' all night long with me instead Honey, what you runnin' from? Where the hell you headed to? Do you like the way I run after you?
or, theo doesnât understand whatâs holding you back from taking things further
a/n - I think I would classify this soft core smut at best? But adding an 18+ tag jic
tropes/warnings - 18+ MDNI, fluff
word count - 1.6k
âFucking hell. Hide me.â
You shrunk yourself down the best that you could behind your best friend, Ivy, laser-focused on the boy at the other end of the hallway. Ivy rolled her eyes, making no effort to help.
âI canât believe you still wonât tell me what happened that night. It canât have been that bad.â
âIt was,â you muttered, stupidly trying to get Ivy to cooperate. It was no easy task, especially on days like today when she was feeling particularly stubborn, which was a problem since the boy looked fully intent on approaching them.
âWill you relax? You look like an idiot. Like an even bigger idiot than usual. He probably doesnât even remember whatever-â
âIvy. Happy birthday. Sorry I couldnât make it to the party.â
Damn. You thought you had more time. Curse him and his unfairly long legs. Ivy did the grown-up thing, which was literally anything other than pretending she didnât see him. âItâs alright, Theo. You can make it up to me next year.â
âHow was it?â
âIt was nice, actually. We got a discount on -â
Ivy was cut off by a gentle tug, revealing a hunched-over you. You straightened hastily, clearing your throat, refusing to meet his gaze.
âL/N.â
âNott.â
âPlanning on dropping by tonight?â
You put on a straight face, looking politely confused. âHm?â
âThe party. Tonight.â
âOh. Where?â
Theo narrowed his eyes, and your face burned under the intensity of his gaze. It took everything you had to keep your features schooled while he shamelessly searched your face for what felt like far too long.
âThe Slytherin common room,â he replied, finally tearing his eyes away from you. You relaxed, blinking hard and a little breathless, your palms a little clammy. âCanât miss it. Just follow the stench of firewhiskey and bad ideas.â
Internally, you nearly passed out. Externally, you shrugged noncommittally. âSure. Maybe.â Definitely not. You werenât going to spend a second longer in Theoâs presence if you could help it.Â
You and Ivy get to the party and, as expected, youâre abandoned the second she finds Ivan through the crowd. You wander around before you decide to join a group of Slytherins on the couches, next to Theo. You get handed a drink. It burns your throat and makes your eyes water. The loud bass starts to sound more tolerable. Another drink. Theoâs frowning at you. You wonder if anyoneâs told him how good concern looks on his face. Everything is now ten times funnier. You press up against Theo, laughing yourself silly, leaning into his touch as he drapes an arm around you. Another drink. Youâre more than lightly flushed. Theo places a hand on your thigh. You donât move it away.Â
Eventually, you end up pressed against the door of Theoâs room, your mouths a heady mess of heat, teeth and tongues, your bodies moulding to each otherâs. Your eyes flutter shut, blissfully able to let go with your senses dulled by alcohol. You canât tell if itâs the music or your pulse vibrating through your body, but youâre aching for his touch. He presses a knee against your core and you groan into his mouth, melting into a boneless mush in his arms.
âTheodore,â you sighed desperately, breath catching in your throat. It was enough to slow his ministrations on your neck which had been filling your head with the most delicious kind of static. You never used his first name despite your best friends being glued by the lips since sixth year, mostly because you never went beyond exchanging civil pleasantries. Occasionally, youâd have a chat that wasnât entirely unpleasant, or youâd let your thoughts wander to his disarming blue eyes or wicked smile, but that was it. It never did, and it never could, go any further than that. You were too different. It would never work. Youâd only be setting yourself up for heartbreak. Nothing good could come of entangling with the illustrious Theodore Nott, figuratively or otherwise.
And to use his first name was to acknowledge the existence of this softer, kinder Theo - a version worlds away from that Nott boy with the aloof face and the piercing eyes. He hummed against your neck, thumbs restlessly skimming the waistband of your skirt.
âWe canât - we shouldnât,â you continued, once you were able to make sense of your fuzzy thoughts. You pushed him back gently, cool air rushing in to douse the heat of the moment. âOur friends have a whole thing. Weâd only get in the way. Itâs just a bad idea.â
His hands stilled on your hips. âI donât understand. What about our thing?â
He looked so dazed and so adorably dishevelled that you almost felt sorry for him. It was late, Theoâs words sounded dangerously close to slurring, and if you were being honest, you should have left the party hours ago. You stroked his cheek absentmindedly before gingerly slipping out of his hold, recovering your shirt. You slipped it on, fumbling at rhe buttons with trembling fingers, and turned back to see Theo still watching you, uncomprehending, his swollen lips parted in confusion.
âGet some sleep, Nott. Youâll get what I mean in the morning.â
âBye, Theo,â Ivy was saying now. âGive Ivan a kiss for me.â
âShould I feel him up while Iâm at it?â
âIt only seems right to give him the full experience.â
Ivy grinned as he walked off while you all but dragged her down the hall towards your next class.
âAw, come on, Y/N, heâs not that bad.â She glanced at you, eyes twinkling with mirth. âYou know, I always thought he has a thing for y-â
âArenât you late for Herbology?â
Ivy cursed as she fumbled at her wristwatch, hurrying down the corridor. In about a minute, sheâd realise that she didnât have Herbology today, but you decided to let her find that out herself.
Hours later, you were holed up in the library, desperately trying to plug your ears with all the ruckus going on floors below. Trying to focus was a losing battle.
âI thought Iâd find you here.â
Your head snapped up too see Theo leaning against one of the bookshelves. Busted. To be fair, she was nowhere near the worldâs best liar, so it was doubtful whether he had even believed her in the first place.
âNott,â you greeted, in a pleasant enough voice. âIs that the time? I hadnât realised the party had already started.â
The music continued blasting, more than audible to the two of them. Theo arched an eyebrow, slowly walking over, and you had the decency to look embarrassed over your bald-faced lie.
âI was planning to drop by later.â
âWell, you should.â
âMaybe I will:â
âItâs almost as fun as that last party ages ago.â
You stiffened at the memory. âAh. Yes.â
Theo leaned over you, broad-shouldered and hypnotising. He dragged his gaze across you inch by agonising inch, undressing you with his eyes. You were starting to feel uncomfortably warm in your uniform. He dropped his voice.
âFirst and last time I see you in my bed, hmm?â
You choked, failing to suppress the shiver prickling over your skin. âThatâs -Â stop it.â
âStop what?â
âTalking likeâŠthat.â You felt your face heat up all over again, cursing yourself for your inability to even pretend to keep your cool in front of him. âLooking at me like that.â
His gaze flickered to your chest, so brief youâd have missed it if you blinked. âLike what?âÂ
You let out a frustrated, overwhelmed sigh, your brain becoming oddly fixated on the memory of his hands on your hips, travelling up your ribcage, at the nape of your neck, grip tightening on your waist -
âGo on. Use your words.â
His breath tickled the shell of your ear, the closest heâd been to you since that night.Â
âLikeâŠlike you actually want me. Like Iâm something special.â
âYou are something special.â
You groaned and looked away. âIâm seeing someone,â you tried, half-heartedly. Theo snorted.
âWhat, that Davies guy? Yeah, like thatâs going to last.â
You couldnât even bring yourself to feel all that indignant on Daviesâ behalf. Not that you were going to let Theo know that. âIâll have you know that Mac is a perfect gentleman.â
âMy point is-â Theo started, irritatedly. You took a perverse sort of pleasure in ruffling his feathers. â- why the fuck are we talking about Davies when you could be in my bed, doing far more interesting things with that mouth?â
âOr maybe itâs something else entirely. Perhaps you like having me run after you. Is that where you get off, hmm? The thrill of the chase? Being a tease?â
âI am not a -â you began hotly, before you caught the mischievous twinkle in his eye. You rolled your eyes. âYouâre too cocky for your own good,â you muttered.Â
âI thought you like me cocky,â he teased. His expression softened the next second and you watched him trace lazy circles on your wrist.
âBesidesâŠIâve never tried this hard to get into someoneâs pants.â
You gave a shaky laugh. Theo bent down once more, this time to press a kiss to your lips, then another, and another, until you were lying on your back on the table, looking sinfully ravished, blouse long forgotten.
One night couldnât hurt, could it?
#theodore nott#theodore nott x reader#theodore nott x you#theodore nott x y/n#theo nott x reader#theo nott#theodore nott fluff#theo nott smut#theodore nott smut#theodore nott imagine#Spotify
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On that topic though, I would like to touch more on the subject of Jimmy being also a victim to himself. I fear this might anger a lot of people, but Jimmy is an almost exact perfect example of someone with BPD (As someone with it myself) and how his spiralling is directly tied to Curly.
The game never once insinuates that Jimmy is like this because he's mentally ill, the line of him having it "hard" back on earth doesn't mean anything either, but it also means a lot coming from Curly. Curly is a representative of a Favorite person, and everything Jimmy did in the game, who he hurt, how he did it and the language he used, is very close to how real-life people with BPD sometimes treat their own FPs and the people around them.
They become erratic, jealous, driven by fear, apologetic, desperate and cling to everything and everything. Jimmy insults Curly, twists his words and makes him out the be the villain, he drives everyone away from him at the birthday party and spends months feeding lies to the others that Curly is the one that crashed the ship despite this lie not actually really benefitting Jimmy all that much in the long run.
Jimmy wanted to kill everyone on the ship, he could have lied and instead said that it was simply a fault of the ship, a miscalculation, an accident. Instead, he took every opportunity to make Curly out to be the one who ultimately decided that this was the best way to go about it, and then also blamed it on Curly's mental health dropping after being fired.
This is all extremely elaborate, and a very difficult lie to keep up with, as almost everyone on that ship has plenty of reasons to believe otherwise that Curly didn't crash the ship. What with Anya's psych eval of him being "the same as usual" and being sane enough to continue doing his job. Anya also trusted Curly enough to tell him about the pregnancy, and to also tell him about the gun. And even though it's not very well expressed in the game (possibly intentional since we are seeing through Jimmy's eyes.) She does trust Curly, and she probably continued to trust him even when all was wrong around her.
And Daisuke also has no real reason to distrust Curly, we don't know much about their relationship, but there was definitely a sense of trust and reliability between the both of them. This is also evident through Swansea and Curly, where Curly trusts him enough to hold onto the axe, despite being told to return it to the case as everything has to constantly run through him. He was taking risks, he was terrified of being abandoned, left behind in Curly's shadow. He was having fits of rage, outbursts of suicidal thoughts and harm to himself and to those around him.
Jimmy twisted and kept twisting that knife in an attempt to turn away everyone from Curly even when he was at his lowest to isolate and to make him cling to the only thing he had left; Jimmy.
This adds even more to Curly's eventual condition, being completely reliant on Jimmy, being completely subject to his will and power. And something that he even admitted to liking, he likes power. And he likes that the circumstances given, might not have turned out the best way, it gave Jimmy that power over Curly. Something he had been climbing for a long time, and something he so desperately wanted because he was sick and tired of hearing just how fantastic he was at something Jimmy wasn't.
And yet, despite all of this, Jimmy praised Curly. He hated how much he adored him, hated how much he idolised him. And even at the end of it all, his main focus was just Curly, making him out to be the hero of the story despite spending such a long time attempting to make him out to be the villain.
And then even further to make the situation out to be that he was also the hero of the story, that all of his actions were justified to some degree because it was all for Curly. He fixed it, he fixed everything for Curly. Because despite what he did to Anya, Swanse and Daisuke, his only real concern behind all of it was Curly.
Every hallucination leads to him, every goal, every path. He was so concerned with him, that even when it was directly in his face, the only apology he ever muttered was to Curly. Using Anya's words.
Our worst moments don't make us monsters.
Jimmy is a victim of only himself and the consequences of his own actions, and he is by far one of the better, unintentional examples of BPD.
#mouthwashing curly#mouthwashing jimmy#mouthwashing anya#mouthwashing#mouthwashing swansea#mouthwashing daisuke#i hate to admit it but he is just. a really good example of bpd#bpd#just me yapping
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if i could give you the moon
no outbreak!joel miller x f!reader
summary: You move into a new neighborhood and decide to join the local YMCA to meet people, bringing you to Joel Miller and his wife, Liz. You develop a small crush on him, keeping it to yourself. But when he reveals to you that heâs in open marriage, you decide to take a chance on him, no matter the consequences.
Warnings: lots of angst and smut
Youâre standing in a long line at the YMCA waiting to sign up for a membership. Itâs kind of crowded and youâre wondering if this is a bad idea. But then again the Y is so close to your new apartment. It would be kind of pointless to sign up for a membership somewhere else thatâs farther away and probably more expensive. So you wait until itâs your turn. The woman sitting at the desk hands you your little YMCA card for your keychain and says, âThe gym is upstairs and the pool is down the hallway on the left. Both have locker rooms attached.â
You nod and head down the hallway, pushing past the doors into the pool room. The strong scent of chlorine hits your nose as you enter and your feet make a splish sound when you walk on the wet tile. You spot the door to the locker room on the other side of the pool, scanning the room as you do but trying to make it not look like youâre staring at people. The truth is you just want friends. Youâre new to the community and eager to make friends. And the Y seemed like a great starting point for new friendships.Â
It seems to be mainly women at the pool today which makes you feel a little more comfortable. You go into the locker room and change into your swimsuit. And thatâs when you meet a woman a little older than you named Liz whoâs using a locker two spots down from you.
âIâve never seen you here before,â she says, not looking at you while she changes into her swimsuit.Â
âJust joined today,â you respond.Â
âIâm Liz Miller,â she says, turning to you and holding out her hand, âMy husband and I come here.â
You tell her your name and ask, âDo you live in the neighborhood?â
âA few streets over. You?â
âMy buildingâs two blocks away.â
âNice. Are you new in town?â
âAhh so you donât know anyone. Well Iâll be your swimming buddy today.â
âSounds good to me,â you tell her, following her back out to the pool.
You get in the pool without needing to adjust to the temperature; itâs already pretty warm. You swim laps with Liz, stopping occasionally to talk in between. Your eyes burn from the chlorine and you make a mental note to pick up goggles. She tells you about her husband, Joel. He works in construction and she works in advertising. Sheâs leaving for a work trip tonight for two weeks in New York City. Your first friend and sheâs already leaving for two weeks. Looks like it's back to square one for now. Eventually itâs time for her to go and youâre feeling a little winded anyway. You get changed back into your t-shirt and gym shorts in the locker room and skip using their shower. You live two blocks away so whatâs the point in showering here. You walk back out to the lobby together and thatâs when you meet Joel.Â
Youâre taken aback for a moment at just how good looking he is, even under the shitty fluorescent lights in the lobby. His hair is a little damp, presumably from sweating after a good workout. His facial hair is a bit patchy but itâs endearing. His warm brown eyes feel like theyâre staring directly into your soul as he shakes your hand, his touch lingering just a little too long. But Liz doesnât seem to notice. You notice that heâs not wearing his wedding band although Liz is wearing hers. Maybe he just forgot to put it back on after working out? Itâs a shame heâs married because heâs totally your type. But youâre just glad to have two new acquaintances.Â
âNow you have two familiar faces here,â Liz says, smiling at you.Â
The three of you walk out to the parking lot together but they go to separate cars. You get the sense that they donât seem like a couple thatâs codependent on each other. Or they both came here straight from their jobs. Who are you to judge? You just met them. You have no idea what the dynamic of their relationship is like.
You walk home as the sun starts to set. Itâs a warm evening in late June and the Y membership is about to come in handy when you need to cool off from scorching summer heat. You go home and take a shower before winding down for the evening and heading off to bed.
Work goes by pretty slowly the next day. Youâre anxious to swim or even work out in the gym to exert some of your stress. Youâre also just eager for a chance to make more friends. You come from work and change into work out clothes, bringing your swimsuit with you in your bag. You walk to the Y and contemplate working out in the gym but opt for the pool instead. You change in the locker room and step into the pool. Itâs pretty dead tonight. Thereâs only 3 other people swimming in this ginormous pool with you. You swim a few laps by yourself before getting bored and deciding to leave. But as you get out of the pool you notice none other than Joel Miller walking through the door on the other side of the room. He catches you looking at him and immediately walks directly towards you. You feel a little self conscious for a moment at the fact that youâre greeting him in your sopping wet swimsuit thatâs clinging to your body.Â
âHey, how are you?â he smiles.Â
âIâm alright! Did Liz leave last night?â
âShe did. She left around one in the morning.â
âDamn thatâs late. Arenât you tired from driving her to the airport?â
âNah, she took a taxi.â
Maybe your suspicions about them not being codependent were right afterall?
âBut anyway I came to check on you before I left for the night.â
âYouâre sweet. I was just about to change and leave, too.â
âIâll wait for you in the lobby,â he says, gesturing back towards the door.
âUh, sure! I wonât be too long,â you say before turning and walking to the locker room, maybe speedwalking just a tad. For some reason you got the sense he was staring at your ass as you walked but you didnât dare turn around and look. You dry off and change into your clothes hastily before walking to meet Joel in the lobby, butterflies swelling in your stomach for some reason.Â
You meet him in the lobby with a big smile on his face, drinking in the sight of you with your flushed and hair wet.Â
âGet a good workout in?â he asks.
âMhm. You?â
âI did. It was a lighter workout for me today.â
âThatâs nice⊠Well Iâll see you around?â
âMind if I walk you home?â
Youâre taken aback at first because why would he want to do that? But then age you donât know the neighborhood that well yet and it is getting dark out. But you also only live two blocks away so whatâs the point of him walking you home.Â
But before you can contemplate it even more you say yes.Â
And so youâre walking to your apartment side by side, not really saying anything at first until you canât bear the uncomfortable silence anymore. You make small talk until you reach your building.
âWell, this is me,â you say, stopping in front of the door to your apartment building.
âWhat do you have planned for the rest of the night?â he asks.
âUhh not much. I have a new bookshelf Iâve been meaning to build since I moved in. Maybe Iâll start that tonight?â
âI can help with that,â he says, taking a step towards you.Â
You gulp at the idea of Joel Miller alone with you in your apartment. This really isnât a good idea. But heâs the one who offered. And you can have him leave straight after itâs done.Â
âS-sure,â you say.
You lead him through the hallways and flights of stairs in your building until you reach your place. You slide the key into the lock and go inside, holding the door open for him as he enters.Â
âSorry itâs kind of a mess. Iâm still not one hundred percent moved in yet,â you say, feeling a little self conscious at the state of your apartment.Â
âNothing to apologize for,â he shrugs, âNow whereâs this bookshelf?â
You bring him into your bedroom of all places and point to the flat cardboard box leaning against the wall.
âThere. As you can see I havenât even attempted it.â
âThatâs okay,â he chuckles.
You sit on the edge of your bed as he goes to work. You watch him construct your bookshelf little by little before you ask if he needs anything.
âWant a bottle of water?â you ask, rising from the bed.Â
âSure,â he says, looking up at you from his position on your floor.
You go into your kitchen and grab a cold bottle of water from your fridge. You go back into your bedroom and crouch down on the floor to hand it to him. And thatâs when he locks eyes with you, staring at you intently until his lips suddenly come crashing into yours.Â
You pull away immediately and shout, âWhat the hell?! Youâre married! What do you think youâre doing?!â
âHey,â he says, placing his hands on your shoulders, âIâm in an open marriage.â
You raise your eyebrow in disbelief but before you can say anything he speaks first.
âIâm being completely serious,â he says, his big brown eyes pleading with you.
Itâs not completely unbelievable. Some of your friends were in open relationships. You yourself have never been in one and youâve never been with someone that is. But deep down, you want him and he seems sincere.Â
âListen, Iâm sorry. I shouldâve told you before I just did that. I understand if you want me to leave,â he says, starting to get up.
You sigh.
âNo you can stay⊠but youâre right, that wouldâve been nice to know beforehand.â
âDoes that mean I can do it again?â he whispers, his eyes searching your face for an answer.
You close your eyes and the butterflies swell in your stomach again. Somewhere in your mind thereâs a small voice telling you this is a bad idea. But itâs small enough that you ignore it.
âYes,â you whisper.
He lips meet yours again as he presses you against the edge of your bed. His tongue grazes your lips, begging you for access. And when you give it to him his tongue explores your mouth as his hands caress your face. You kiss him back and slip him a little tongue, too, but it's clear that he wants to be the dominant one. You give in and let him as his mouth, face and hands completely overtake you. He pulls away for a moment and you two look into each otherâs eyes. Almost as if youâre reading each otherâs minds you both stand up and move to the bed. You lay down and your chlorine crusted hair splays out on the pillow. You silently wish you got to shower and shave before this happened. A sexual encounter with your new acquaintance was not in the plans for tonight.Â
He pulls his shirt over his head and removes his shorts before hovering over you. You take in the sight of his naked body, tanned skin peppered with beauty marks. His legs are toned and muscular just like the rest of him. But what he does have is a small pudgy belly that maybe doesnât particularly match the rest of his physique but is still attractive nonetheless. His large hands move up your thigh and underneath your shorts. He slides them off in one fluid motion and moves down to your thighs, spreading them open. He drinks in the sight of your cunt rapidly getting wet in anticipation for his touch. He bends down and licks one long, slow streak up all the way up to your clit. And thatâs when you ask, âAre you sure? I didnât get a chance to shower after swimmingâŠâ
âDonât care,â he murmurs against your core, sending vibrations through you.
You shudder at the sensation and let him continue, relaxing a little. His tongue works small slow circles around your clit as you raise your hips a little, pressing them more on his face in response to his touch. He hooks his arms around your thighs and pulls you even closer into him. With his arms around your thighs you canât squirm as much but that also lets him press his lips, tongue and nose directly into your cunt, bringing you closer to orgasm. You cum against his face, coating him with your release, soaking his nose, lips, chin⊠practically the whole lower half of his face. He laps up the rest of your juices before bringing his face by yours.
âYou taste so good, darlinâ. Ainât got nothinâ to worry about.â
You feel your cheeks go hot at his praise. He goes to take off his shorts and asks, âDid you want me to use a condom?âÂ
âThatâs okay. Iâm on the pill,â you say, still feeling a little breathless.
He chuckles at the post orgasm inflection in your voice and says, âOkay, darlinâ.â
You spread your legs for him and he gathers your release from your cunt on his fingers. You shudder at the sensation. He slicks his already hard cock and aligns himself with your entrance, thrusting into you slowly until you take all of his length. His hands grasp your waist as he begins to fuck you relentlessly, burying his cock deep into you with each slam of his hips. He showers you in praise, telling you how youâre such a good girl for taking his cock so well. All you can do is moan and whimper in response.Â
Youâre sure your neighbors can hear between the creaks of your bed frame, both of your moans and the sound of skin slapping against skin. But youâre entirely too blissed out to care. With one last forceful motion of his hips against yours you come undone, your cunt fluttering around his cock. Your orgasm pulsates through your core and sends shockwaves throughout your body. Before both of you know it heâs releasing his load inside you, painting your inside in thick ropes of cum as he lets out a guttural moan. He pulls out of you and immediately starts apologizing but you just laugh.
âThatâs what the pillâs for,â you chuckle.Â
He lays down next to you on the bed and already starts yawning.Â
âYou can crash here if you want,â you say, âBut you owe me a finished book shelf in the morning,â you chuckle.Â
âWhatever you want, darlinâ. Tomorrowâs my day off,â he murmurs against you, the sleepiness evident in his voice.Â
âDeal,â you whisper, before drifting off to sleep yourself.Â
You wake up the next morning wrapped in bedsheets and the scent of Joel Miller as he sleeps pressed against you. The realization of last nightâs decisions is setting in and while the anxiety in your gut rises, something about it also feels so right. You peel yourself off of him and go to the bathroom. He stirs and wakes up watching your naked form from behind as he whistles at the sight.Â
âShut up,â you laugh, âHope youâre ready to build that bookshelf.â
âOh Iâll get right on it, darlinâ,â he says, sneaking up on you from behind and wrapping his arms around your waist. You lean back against him and close your eyes. All of your anxieties and hangs ups about the situation melt away as he holds you in front of your bathroom mirror. He presses a kiss on the top of your head and goes to work on your bookshelf. You make him a cup of coffee and bring it to him after you brush your teeth. He gets the bookshelf done in no time and the two of you are left with the rest of your Saturday, completely free. You decide to take a shower together, washing each other in this new form of intimacy. You realize he doesnât have any other clothes to change into so thatâs when he has the idea to walk back to the Y, pick up his truck and head back to his house. You throw on your clothes and get ready to walk back to his truck, silently hoping the parking lot wouldnât be too busy this morning. What would people say if they saw you two walking to his truck together? If heâs in an open marriage, though, does it even matter?
Before you leave he says, âYou stay here. Iâll come back for you.â
You nod and wait for him in the lobby of your building. He pulls up front and you hop in the passenger seat. Awkward silence fills the drive until you get to his house. He brings you inside and leads you to his bedroom. You look at the pictures of him and Liz while he packs. Youâre staring at a wedding photo when you think to ask, âSo how long have you been in an open marriage?â
He pauses for a moment and says, âOnly about a year. I found out she was cheating on me and I proposed the idea of an open marriage instead of getting a divorce.â
Youâre conflicted. You feel bad for him that he went through that but he also seems happy now, content with his decision on an open marriage as far as you can tell.Â
âIâm sorry,â you say, âThat mustâve been really hard for you.â
âIt was,â he replies, coming up behind you and wrapping his arms around your waist, âBut Iâm doing much better now. I donât tell a lot of people about the open marriage, though. My friends and family still donât know because itâll open a whole line of questioning as to how we got here. And then Iâll have to tell them how she cheated on me and I just⊠I donât think I can do that.â
He sounds hurt; betrayed. You turn around to face him and meet his eyes, filled with sadness, and say, âI wonât tell anyone, I promise.â
âThank you,â he whispers before kissing you, âCome on. Letâs go have a fun weekend together. I packed enough clothes to get me to work Monday morning.â
âOkay,â you nod, following him back down the stairs.Â
At least they don't have kids, you think to yourself. That would make this situation about a million times messier.Â
You get back his truck and drive back to your place, the tension in the air dissipated after his heartfelt confession. You spend the rest of the weekend together going through a cycle of fucking, watching TV, showering and talking. You learn so much about him and his background; his family, where he grew up, what he does for a living. He tells you everything and you feel you can tell him everything, too. The connection you feel with him is one youâve never felt with anyone else before. It almost makes you forget for a moment that heâs married to another woman.Â
But now itâs Monday and your fun weekend with Joel has come to an end. He has two long days at work ahead of him so you canât go to the Y together until Wednesday night. Youâre a little sad but you get it. He canât spend all of his waking hours with you. The next two days drag on and after you get home from work you find yourself feeling lonely. And it doesnât help that your sheets smell like him.Â
But after two agonizingly slow days you finally get to see him again. You walk to the Y with a little pep in your step at the thought of seeing him again. You find him in the lobby and he greets you with a smile.
âI thought Iâd swim with you today instead,â he says.Â
âSure,â you tell him before both of you walk to the pool room together, separating as each of you enter your respective locker rooms. You change quickly and meet him by the pool which by some miracle was completely empty tonight. You get in the pool with him and swim a few laps but mainly the two of you spend time messing around. Until he pulls you close and looks you in the eye. The heat of the pool room and his hot breath are almost too much to bear. But then he kisses you and suddenly you forget all about how you are. The kiss grows more and more passionate and you start to worry that someone will walk in and see. You pull away to tell him to stop but he grabs your hand and leads up the pool steps.Â
âWhat are you doing?â you ask as your bare feet hit the slick tile.Â
âGoing somewhere more private,â he says leading you to the single stall bathroom on the same wall as the locker rooms.Â
âHere?â you question him.
âWhy not? Itâs empty tonight,â he says, opening the bathroom door, âLadies first.â
You go in the bathroom and he follows you, locking the door behind him. He wastes no time reaching for the strap of your swimsuit and peeling it off of you. He slides off his swim trunks and you bring your hand to his cock, caressing it lightly to tease him.
âYouâre killinâ me, darlinâ. Please,â he whispers by your ear.
You giggle and give into him, wrapping as much of your hand as you can around his cock.Â
âFuck,â he whispers, closing his eyes in pleasure.Â
You love making him feel good and you especially love when he vocalizes it. You spit in your hand and stroke him more, picking up the pace. But before he can finish he stops you and licks his fingers, bringing them to the entrance of your cunt and teasing you this time. You whine at the featherlight touch and beg for more.Â
âDoesnât feel so good huh darlinâ?â he teases.Â
âPlease,â you whine.Â
âFine,â he sighs, sounding fake annoyed before pushing a finger into you slowly.Â
You lean back against the sink and spread your legs wider for him, begging for more. He gets off on watching you writhe in pleasure from just one finger before slipping in another. He curls them upwards, emitting soft moans from you as he brings you closer to the edge. But before you can cum he pulls them out of you and slathers his cock with your wetness. You whine at the sudden absence but youâre cut off by the sensation of his cock slamming into you. Your breath hitches and he watches you get adjusted to his size, eyes scanning up and down your body from your face to your tits to your cunt gripping his cock. He supports you against the edge of the sink and pumps into you with more force. His cock hits your g-spot perfectly with every slam of his hips. You know youâre not going to last long between that and the adrenaline of fucking in a public space. Your orgasm washes over you as your cunt grips and releases his cock like a vice. He releases his load into you and youâre filled with the familiar sensation of his cum coating your insides. He pulls out of you and places a sloppy kiss on your lips before whispering, âGood girl.â
He helps you stand on your feet and you both go to put your swimsuits back on.Â
âIâll go first, okay?â he says.Â
You nod and he swiftly leaves the bathroom, locking the door behind him. You wait a few minutes before leaving the bathroom and returning to a thankfully empty pool room.Â
âChange and go home?â he says, looking over at you.
You nod and go into the locker room to change, in disbelief that this is your life and that Joel Miller just fucked you in a bathroom at the Y. This would become your routine for the next two weeks until Liz comes home, fucking at the Y, your place and even his. Something about doing it as his house felt slightly wrong though. And you know exactly why but you choose to bury that feeling.Â
Itâs the night before Liz comes home from her work trip and youâre at your apartment, spending one last night together until he has to go home to his wife.Â
âWhen will we do this again?â you ask hopefully.Â
âIâll let you know when, darlinâ,â he says with the gentlest tone.Â
You nod and your stomach starts to hurt, worrying at the possibility that this was it for the two of you.Â
Liz is officially home and youâll see her at the pool tonight. You have mixed feelings about it. Two weeks ago you wouldâve been excited to reunite with your new friend. But now after learning everything you know youâre not sure about how you feel about her.Â
You walk to the Y and your legs feel like jelly. Youâre also nervous to face her again after everything that happened with you and Joel and it makes you wonder⊠Did he tell her about the two of you? Is he planning on it if he hasnât already? Regardless, you're not going to be the one to tell her. Heâs the one married to her; he can do it himself.Â
She greets you with a warm smile in the locker room, commenting about how she was in need of a good workout. You just smile and nod, for fear that if you open your mouth youâre going to spill everything to her.Â
You swim together and keep the conversation mainly about her work trip. She tells you she has to go on another one in two weeks and you fear that that will be the next time Joel will want you.Â
You finish your laps and change in the locker room before meeting Joel in the lobby. He treats you differently around her, like he did when you first met him two weeks ago. You watch them walk to their separate cars before walking home. The realization hits you on the way back. Heâs not going to be yours for at least two weeks.Â
You were correct in your assumption. The second Liz leaves heâs calling you up, asking if he can come over. And you give in without thinking.Â
You open your door when he arrives and let him in before asking, âHow long is she gone this time?â
âJust a week,â he says softly.Â
Before the mood can shift into a more depressing tone he wraps his arms around you and presses wet, sloppy kisses on your neck. You missed him too much to care about how upset you are deep down, letting him take you again tonight.Â
You go into your bedroom and he pushes you down onto the bed. He pulls off your shorts and he spreads your thighs apart.Â
âGod, I missed this so much,â he says before bringing his tongue to your core.Â
You close your eyes and grips the sheets for purchases as his tongue works your cunt. He pulls one orgasm out of you quickly and already begins working on the second. He slicks his fingers and inserts them into you slowly before returning his tongue to your clit. Itâs almost to the point of overstimulation until your second orgasm washes over you. You coat the lower half of his face and his hand all the way down to his wrist with your release. He lays on the bed next to you as your thighs continue to shiver from the aftershocks of your high. You go to reach for the waistband of his shorts but he stops you.
âTonightâs just you darlinâ.â
âAre you sure?â
âMhmm. Missed you so much.â
You kiss his cheek and fall into the crook of his neck. He rubs your back as you two catch up, telling each other about the past two weeks without one another. You missed him so much and the voice in your head is small enough to ignore it again.
And this becomes your routine for the summer. Whenever Liz is away Joel is yours. Sometimes sheâs gone for a couple weeks at a time. Sometimes itâs just a few days. Sheâs also not always going away for work either. Joel tells you she visits her boyfriend, too. Which in return makes you less guilty about your situation with Joel. But you also feel weird about becoming her friend so you keep her at an armâs length, beget letting the friendship transcending past the Y. Youâve made other friends in the process, though, upstairs in the gym. You use the gym on the days you know for sure that he wonât be there, usually Mondays and Tuesdays.Â
One day as youâre on the elliptical a girl named Julien strikes up a conversation with you. Sheâs a year older than you and she introduces you to her girlfriend, Angela. Another day when youâre using the pool, you meet an older woman, old enough to be your grandmother, named Agnes. She does water aerobics to keep herself active in her older age. She tells you that you remind her of her granddaughter. Sheâs one of your favorite people to spend time with. Another day as youâre walking through the lobby as youâre leaving you accidentally bump into a woman named Marina. Sheâs a teacher at the local elementary school. Sometimes youâll join her for happy hour after work. Even if youâre in a messy situation with Joel youâre glad that you finally have a small cluster of friends. But the thing is⊠Theyâre all close to Liz in some way. Marina went to the same sorority as Liz. Agnesâs husband worked with Lizâs father. And Julien is Lizâs cousin. None of them have mentioned anything about Liz and Joel being in an open marriage. But then you think back to what Joel said; about keeping it on the down low and that quells your anxieties⊠for now.Â
This routine brings you all the way to the start of fall. Joelâs birthday passes and Liz is home for that, meaning you canât celebrate with him until her next work trip in a few days. Sheâll be gone for five days this time.Â
He wants you to stay with him while sheâs gone and you reluctantly agree. Youâve never spent more than one night at his place. But the truth is⊠youâve fallen in love with him. And you would do anything to make him happy.Â
You pack your bag and he picks you up at your apartment. The drive to his place is tense and the tension follows you all the way up to his bedroom where it finally dissipates.
You push him down onto the edge of the bed for him to sit. You slide his pants down where you see his cock pitching a tent in his boxers, a dark spot forming where the pre cum is leaking. You pull down his boxers and waste no time taking him in your mouth as far as he can go. Your hand wraps around the part you canât fit. You swirl your tongue around his head and your other hand goes to cup his balls. You want to suck him until completion but he has other plans. He pulls you up his face and brings you in for a sloppy kiss before falling onto his back. And you know exactly what he wants. You pull your shirt over your head and take off your pants, straddling him until you sink onto his cock. Both of you sigh at the sensation and you begin to rock your hips against him. His cock is buried deep inside you and with every motion of your hips it hits you at the perfect angle. Your hands are flat on his chest and his hands grip your waist, squeezing you until you cum around him, soaking his cock and groin with your wet release. Youâre filled with the familiar sensation of his cum spilling into you before you hop off of him and lay down beside him.Â
âThat was amazing, youâre amazing,â he sighs, kissing the top of your head.Â
Youâve never been with someone that made you feel so loved and valued like Joel has. And thatâs what breaks your heart the most. This is the greatest love youâve ever known and heâs married to someone else.Â
You fall asleep in each other's arms and wake up the next morning to go to the Y. You tell him to drop you off at your place so you can walk there, so it doesnât look suspicious. But he doesnât care. You feel a pit form in your stomach. Someone is going to catch you two together and you know it. And it begs the question⊠is it really an open marriage if he has to hide you from everyone in his life? That thought has crossed your mind before, of course. But youâve been able to bury that feeling down⊠until now.Â
He pulls into the parking lot and you scan it for anyone you may know. But thatâs pointless. Everyone here knows Joel and Liz are married.Â
You get out of the truck the whole walk to the front door your head is spinning in different directions in paranoia. Joel brings a hand to the small of your back as you walk in. The automatic doors slide open and you see no one you know fortunately.Â
You go to the pool together and walk to the locker rooms, thereâs small clusters of people spread about but again no one you know. You get changed in the womenâs locker room and your paranoia worsens. You step back out to the pool room and your ears start ringing. Youâre on the brink of a panic attack. Joel takes one look at you and immediately knows somethingâs up. He pulls you into the single stall bathroom that youâve fucked dozens of times in and caresses your face. He doesnât have to say anything. He knows youâre not doing well and all he can do is hold you. Just when you think youâre about to calm down the door opens. He forgot to lock it. And you see none other than Julien staring at you wide eyed and mouth agape. She doesnât know what to do for a moment and youâre both staring back at her while she stares at you. You feel like youâre gonna throw up. Suddenly she turns on her heel and bolts. Without thinking you follow her and she goes all the way to the parking lot. She stops and turns to face you, tears springing in her eyes.Â
âDonât tell me itâs true,â she says.
What did she mean by that? Were guys suspected of being involved? Were you guys not careful enough?
âI⊠You donât understand. He told me theyâre in an open marriage. I never wouldâveâŠâ you trail off, but you canât lie to her.Â
She scoffs and says, âDid you really fall for that? You canât possibly be that fucking stupid. Heâs already cheated on Liz once and that was his lie the first time.âÂ
You feel complete panic overtake you in its purest form. Everything youâve built, every friendship you made feels like itâs all coming crashing down on you.Â
She goes to leave and you go to follow her again before she turns and snaps at you, âDonât!âÂ
You watch her get in her car and drive off and youâre left in the parking lot, completely dumbfounded.Â
You go back inside as you start profusely sobbing, trying to make it back to the locker room with your head down. You feel like everyone is staring at you; like you have a million eyes all hyper focused on you. You donât see Joel when you return to the pool room but in all honesty heâs the last person you want to see right now. You hastily change in the locker room and go to leave the pool room and thatâs when you spot Agnes in the shallow end. She doesnât even have to say anything, she has the most disappointed look on her face. Tears sting your eyes once again and you practically run out of there and into the parking lot. You stop for a moment to catch your breath before taking off down the street towards home. You reach your door and your hands are shaking as you insert the key. You fall into your apartment and collapse onto the floor. The shock and betrayal you feel right now is indescribable; itâs a pain youâve never known before. You lost the person you love and all of the friends youâve made. All of it slipped away from you right before your eyes.Â
Not only are you feeling betrayed, youâre also feeling like the biggest fucking idiot in the world. You gave him the greatest love youâve ever given another person and it was all built on lies. And you feel stupid for falling for those lies.Â
You hear your door open but you donât bother to look up. You know itâs Joel but you canât bring yourself to look at him. He collapses on the floor and pulls you into him. But youâre falling apart in his arms. Heâs holding you like youâre going to slip away from him; like youâre water in his hands and he canât keep you whole. Your tears are soaking his shirt and you can feel him crying against you, too.Â
Somewhere inside you you know that he never understood the love you gave him. Heâs crying but he doesnât understand why.Â
To you, your love was your greatest gift to him. But to Joel, it was anything but.Â
#pedro pascal#pedro pascal fanfiction#pedro pascal smut#joel miller smut#joel miller x reader#joel miller fanfiction
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I think I finally cracked the code on how I view Grickoâs relationship with Frost (and every member of the Krew, tbh). Itâs almost, parental, I feel. Not in the sense of âI have adopted you in every way except in the eyes of the governmentâ but more in the sense of âI will pick you up when you fall, and love you unconditionally all the whileâ
I mean, think about it. Iâm assuming that, by the time the two met, Gricko already had Hootsie, so he was probably already in Dad Mode, mentally. And Frost was, assumedly, very lonely growing up, and had no actual parental figures past the age of 8 or so, when he was taken to the Psionic Order.
I imagine Frost probably saw Gricko tending to Hootsie one day (maybe she injured herself playing or something), and calming her down, and just started crying. Frost doesnât realize heâs crying until Gricko points it out, and asks if heâs okay. Frost says heâs fine, and just notes that he hasnât seen someone cared for that tenderly since he was a small child, after he scraped his knee when playing, and his mother cared for him the same way Gricko cares for Hootsie.
Gricko listens, and takes a mental note of this. The two travel, and Frost eventually learns that his parents had passed away sometime between his leaving and his return to his village. Frost is, understandably, distraught, starts crying again, and starts blabbering on about being left behind again. Being alone again. Always alone.
And Gricko doesnât say anything. He just puts his hand on Frostâs shoulder, and provides moral support. Once Frost calms down, Gricko sits beside him, and rests his head on the tabaxiâs arm. âYouâre not alone,â he says, âyou gots me anâ Hootsie.â
Years go by, and sometimes Frost has a bad brain day, where heâs convinced that none of his friends care about him, and that theyâll eventually abandon him too, but Gricko is always there, by his side, listening. Frost is usually adverse to touch, but not with Gricko. I mean, Gricko still respects his friendâs boundaries and avoids touch as much as possible, but sometimes Frost just needs a gentleâyet groundingâhand in his.
After the Jabberwock, everyone is eerily quiet. And Frost is in a downward spiral of âI shouldâve fought back. I shouldâve been stronger. I shouldâve been there for them. They all died because of me. Theyâre all going to leave me. Iâm going to be alone again.â before he feels a calloused yet gentle hand in his. Itâs Grickoâs hand, Frost doesnât even need to look at the goblin to know that, yet he does anyway. And Gricko just gives him a sad yet comforting smile, and Frost doesnât have to read his mind to know that Gricko is mentally saying âyouâre okay. Weâre okay. Youâre not going to be alone again. Not while Iâm here.â
And Frost cries again, and nods at him. Nothing was said verbally. They never connected mentally. But that didnât matter. The message was conveyed all the same.
#idk I saw how Gricko reacted when Torbek was uncomfortable about the bullywug doctors#and my brain jumped on that#I am under the firm belief that everyone views Gricko as a father figure#but in their own way#which is basically what the Gricko fic is about#itâs just very dialogue heavy#which is why Iâve been struggling to write it#legends of avantris#once upon a witchlight#ouaw#morning frost#gricko grimgrin
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Jeff the killer general + relationship headcanons
_I did Jeff headcanons before but they were ass, so hereâs my second attempt.
ââââââââââââââââââ -`âĄÂŽ-
General đ©¶
Veeeeery reclusive
Heâs thin and agile, even if heâs literally just standing in a room staring at the wall, lost in thought, heâll hide or slip out of the room when he hears someone coming in easily
He doesnât even really mean to, but itâs just some instinct that kicks in he doesnât bother to fight
Doesnât like people all that much anyways, so heâll do what he can to avoid everyone
Loneliness isnât the loveliest feeling though
Occasionally heâll go find one of the other creeps, awkwardly ask them a simple question
I see a lot of stuff where heâs really loud and obnoxious, also a total jerk, and although I agree, his whole life went to shit pretty early on
So he lacks social skills, he barely knows how to take care of himself, and doesnât have good emotional control
Of course he has outbursts, he doesnât know how to make friends, he thinks because heâs so damn amazing everyone who âactsâ like they hate him just wants to be him
But it begins to get to him after awhile, never having someone
He is sort of friends with Ben, but it flip flops from fun and easygoing to strained and frustrating
Survives on randomly selected energy drinks, beer and junk food alone
Cannot cook, cannot remember what a warm meal tastes like
Has a lot of energy, so when he canât find anyone to bother, he goes on walks
Mostly during night to help hide his face, but because of that itâs pretty enjoyable
Wears a mask too so he can grab some food before finding whatever abandoned park he can, sitting on the swing set while he eats
Prefers the colder months
Iâm not sure I wanna add he has smile dog as a pet on my version of him⊠but he is a big dog person. Runs into a stray every now and again and spends maybe a solid hour just petting and talking to it
He kills when he feels overwhelmed, but regrets it from all the guilt after
Sleeps a lot to try and forget about everything
Relationship
ââââââââââââââââââ đ€
You two probably met in a rather absurd way
Maybe it was the classic you both just murdered someone and found eachother, dripping with a strangerâs blood
Or he walked into your home at random, surprised and intrigued by your lack of fear
(you were just too tired to give a fuck)
Heâs real rude at first, calling you names, making fun of basically the way you breathe or walk, trying to poke and prod for a weak point
If you tough it out and keep being kind or neutral towards him, eventually heâll stop and slide into a weird mood of observing you
Itâs like his eyes never leave you for a second, and it gets real creepy
He studies your movements, your face, your words, your mannerisms
Youâre still here despite his lack ofâŠmaturity at the beginning
Even if itâs a little begrudgingly, youâve let him stay
Itâs weird and he canât help but question if itâs some scheme to hurt or kill him
But heâll be damned if he misses the chance to have the first genuine human connection heâs had in years
Kind of follows you like a cat when he can
Like to watch you from his own spot in the room, occasionally piping up to say whatever comes to his mind
And, it would take a bit longer, but eventually he warms up to being more affectionate, rather than the previous friendly coexisting
Doesnât show it, might even scowl at you for being quote unquote cringe, but adores when you compliment him. About his beauty, his talents, his intelligence, he wants it all
But what he really adores is your touch
Late nights in, watching some show while he lies on top of you
Your nails running up and down his back, occasionally tangling into his hair to twist and brush it makes his heart beat faster than any night when heâs drenched in sweat and blood
Heâll still refuse to show that kind of weakness in front of anyone else, but when itâs just him and you, heâs pathetic for your attention and affection
Likes to hold you from behind, tracing every curve, every scar, every inch of your skin he can reach
Dangerously possessive
Youâre the first good thing thatâs happened to him in a long while, he cannot stand even the thought of you being ripped away from him
And as I said before, he doesnât have the greatest control of his feelings
Instead of voicing his fears or concerns, he lashes out at you, especially if he knows youâve been spending time with someone else
Tries to force you to stay by his side, threatens to harm you if you dare to leave
But once he calms down, he leaves, and your left scratching your head wondering why he had done all of that
Heâll come back when youâre asleep, watching you as he traces shapes onto your arm
Heâs so fucking scared youâre gonna realize how truly shitty of a person he is
Wakes you up, wrapping you into a hug as soon as your blearily blink your eyes open
He wonât apologize, heâs still a bit of a narcissist, but you can feel it in the way he clings to you in the darkness of the room
Youâll cuddle him to sleep, and wake up in the morning to him acting like nothing has happened
ââââââââââââââââââ -`âĄÂŽ-
_ughhh still donât rlly like this it is SO messy, but also idc lol. Hope my version of him is enjoyable⊠might work on nsfw headcanons next, but Iâm kind of just going with whatever right now. requests open, and sorry for my previous inactivity (ââžâŒâ¶)
#creepypasta x reader#x reader#sorrowrites#creepypasta headcanon#creepypasta headcanons#jeff the killer#jeff the killer x reader#jeff the killer headcanons#i forgot how to tag
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the ease of trading and sharing touch feels like a treasure. the results of the years james had spent needling for more and the story remus hadn't told him yet about what life had really been like after the attack. he knows moony will share, eventually, like he always does. for tonight though, this counted as answer enough about everything. all of them showed their weariness in different ways, after all. it showed in james most often in the lapses of silence when he used to be almost as difficult to shut up as sirius, and merlin help anyone who got both of them yapping at the same time.
" thanks for the permission, " he echoes playfully, gaze following their hands and eyes half-closing when they stilled again. how was he? exhausted, firstly. emotionally wrung out, still aching a little from being on the floor so long earlier. fucking thrilled knowing with complete confirmation that both remus and sirius still love him as much as he loves them. a dozen more things, all in different directions. " ...i'll concede to being tired. " which would be silly to not admit at this point anyway. but he considers even more carefully before deciding that wasn't enough of an answer.
james shrugs a shoulder, just enough for the movement to be noticeable without disturbing their comfort. " i'm glad to know for certain where we stand, but with everything going on, mostly tired is winning. and it was probably a good thing you had to pause before i did. " and that was edging into the too honest territory, james almost abrupt in being done talking about it. for as much as he enjoyed attention in general, he didn't much like focusing solely on himself, especially when asked to do so in a reflective state. " you know, i never thought i'd end up such a homebody. aside from getting sirius and harry, i just realized i haven't really gone anywhere lately. "
he hadn't gone much of anywhere since waking at st. mungo's, truthfully. once he could get out of there and back home, the focus was getting to a point where they could get padfoot. there had been the one meeting with the minister himself, technically, but the man had come to him when he was still working on not being bedridden. remus did the shopping on the occasions they needed anything, until harry had moved in too and the pair sometimes went together. but james had been so busy focusing on people that it hadn't even occurred to him to worry about places too.
it says a lot about where james is, the way he enjoys and lingers. he's worn out from the night's earlier events and the emotional roiling that came with them, but still ever eager for any thread of love. a less exhausted night he probably have pressed to very literally pick up where they had left off, but this...this is what he needed right now. it always had been a wonder to him that remus could do that without them ever speaking on the matter; he somehow just knew. always.
even when a pause to breathe is required, he's content exactly where he is. tiny thrills race under his skin when remus's hands move, james undeniably entranced by the fountain of affection. he couldn't imagine a lifetime of being away from this when he'd barely handled it before-- and then he hears it. or rather he registers it after there's suddenly space between them again and remus has pulled away. the near-break in the other's voice that reminded him one of them had had a lifetime being away from this.
he's initially too stunned to actually say anything, caught in the whirl of the bathroom's cool air prickling against his throat where warm hands had been a few seconds ago. then he's being told not to say anything, and for once james listens. gives moony the moment to collect himself that was necessary and surprisingly patient until he's invited close again. " and there i was thinking we didn't need a swear jar anymore, " he teases as he does so, this time nestling against remus's side so neither of them have to twist uncomfortably to look at each other or hold hands. still, he can't help a concerned trailing of fingertips across the other's cheek down his jaw, a silent check in to avoid the mess of trying to find the correct words to ask any questions.
a concern he realizes might also just as easily tip things again, but he doesn't take it back. just seeks out the hand unoccupied with holding him close to lace their fingers again. " guess it has been that kind of night though, huh? " the question is rhetorical, of course. a tired approval of the cursing so aptly describing the interruption and its wake. maybe a little bit admitting defeat, which he hated to do, but the night had been long and not easy on any of them.
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Other people, seeing the spots where I overshot the tape and got paint where it doesn't belong on my walls and ceilings: messy, trashy, bad
Me, seeing the same thing: unique, artistic, real
#ignore me#adventures in home ownership#i am done paintingy dining room in bi colors#and there are some messy spots#mostly on the ceiling where the roller was wider than the tape and I didn't get it wiped off or couldn't get it properly washed off#i will probably eventually go back and touch it up#but it really is a reflection of me - looks okay but also a bit of a mess in places
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hm. so the phrase "as above, so below" has a couple related meanings: a) what happens in the microcosm is a reflection of the macrocosm, b) what happens in a higher plane of existence also happens in the lower one, c) the microcosm is affected by the microcosm
all of this means pretty much the same thing: the below echoes the above
so, may i ask, what the Fuck is the bigger side to the so-below image? what is the above to Wally's dark below?
#no fear: so-below#Big fear: there's an as-above companion we havent seen yet and its probably fucked to hell and back#bc if wallys in the dark and it looks like a very scared Bloody dark#what in the actual Hell is happening in the above?#im assuming the above - the 'higher realm' - is the real world aka the humans world#what happened what happened What Happened#if we get an as-above in the update im going to Lose My Absolute Marbles#in a good way! gonna go fucking insane! gonna eat drywall!#so-below currently has the vibes of '*touches the ground* something happened here...'#i have a feeling we're eventually gonna find out What Happened Here#welcome home speculation#i cant wait to Know i cant wait to Learn#its gonna be slow going but im Patient#ive waited far longer for far less#and im sure everything we learn is gonna be psychologically and/or emotionally damaging in fun festive ways!!!#can't wait to be gut-punched by our favorite puppets suffering!#and i mean that Genuinely. i Cannot Wait. i Love it when things get fucked up and messy <3#yesssss put them through ittttttt#fingers still crossed for official artwork of wally covered in blood#i NEED to see him covered in blood please please please#the others as well but mostly him. he'd look so great absolutely drenched in gore
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Made a Cohost. It's @/liminal.
#Cade.Txts#Can't post yet cus there is a two day wait.#idk if im going to be very active on it? no idea how to really use the website or how to find people rly...#if anyone on there has cool accounts i should follow lemme know.#im specially lookin for aesthetic stuff mostly.#Fuck tumblr n its staff n the owner. remindrr for people to just back their blogs up.#if i end up being more active on cohost eventually- i'll probably just keep my stimblog#active on here? because I dont think there's a way currently to post gifs n such like we do on here there yet.#other then that probably keep my comfort blog active here too#i am NOT going away from here fyi. maybe- but if u wanna keep in touch ask for my discord?#anyways. fuck tumblr. fuck it for claiming its the ~queerest place on the internet~ and then being#transmisognistic to transfem/trans women and deleting their entire Blogs.#at this point i hope this site rots.
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something that has happened to me quite a bit in my life is just like. this gender based alienation. Almost no matter who I am with I feel out of place. like one of my most formative college memories was being at a small party as a frosh and all the girls went to the kitchen to like, talk about aging and their relationship with their bodies and hooking up and all the boys went into the foyer to smoke weed and i was just sitting in this living room by myself. it doesn't happen as much online but i did have a moment the other day where i was like. i truly cannot relate or understand a single part of what some women/wlw were talking about and i was like in my head. I guess I'm a part of this community too but like. None of this is remotely like anything I feel or am concerned about or maybe ever will (I mean not their fault I just had this moment of alienation I was like. Oh. I thought we were. More the same maybe. It was strange for me to feel like that online too.). and then my coworker-i-hate (girl) was making fun of me because i don't know anything about makeup but whenever im with my coworker-I-like (boy) i also just feel out of place. I don't feel like I'm THAT insecure about myself as a person it's just annoying. Also annoying when randos who come into work r like "oh I thought this was the women's bathroom" if they see me like. FUCK you. Just. I miss having nb/trans roommates it's just like living with them was so nice. it was like. we could all just be. without feeling like there's always these heavy gender-based expectations :( okay we're not going to examine this further cuz like YES I've felt like this since I was like 14 it's just too much to do anything about. I like being a lesbian. I just miss my friends that let me feel like me :(
#In the first one I eventually like. Hovered for a second by the girls and then went out to smoke with the boys but I didn't smoke then#So I just stood there. And they were like oh do you want to and I was like no I just didn't want to sit there by myself#Still embarrassed by this lmao#Anyway whatever. Everyone and their mom knows I miss college and u can never go back etc#My parents have said repeatedly that it was the best time of their life lmao#And I'm like well I hope this isn't me too! But I'm only 22 so probably not.#It also like. Doesn't help that it takes me straight up years to get comfortable with people#So like. Not knowing anyone I've known for a long time.#I literally never relax around other ppl. Or touch other ppl.
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Kirk and spock are soooo low maintenence you have no idea
#random thoughts#star trek#sorry im thinking about the sex lives of the captain and his second in command rn#kirk? absolute pillow princess. he does not want to do ANYTHING.#he will let spock manhandle him and push his face into the matress and he will be GRATEFUL#he does not want to do shit or jack. he has had so much sex over the years and has done so much weird shit he's tired guys (he's like 36)#the most active kirk gets is when he sucks spock off under his desk okay he's fucking lazy#god he's probably so into cockwarming. he doesn't want to come he just wants to sit there and be full#he's fine with whatever but if he has to use his core muscles or pelvis in any way shape or form he'll be so brave about it (he's so mad)#spock is just happy to be here tbh#spock likes touching!!! he does not like to be touched. he must initiate the touching.#spock wants to touch and to rake and to bite and to absolutely fuck up kirk's back#(taking a break here i think eventually after like twenty years they gradually stop having regular sex. queens of lesbian bed death)#he wants to sit on kirk's lap and go absolutely mad dog at his neck. bark and growl even#ideal scenario for spock is for kirk to just not acknowledge whatever shit he's doing he does not want to be PERCEIVED#so what if he grabs kirk's hand and puts it on his face. what are you a cop#he WILL grab kirk's hand and kiss EVERY SINGLE ONE OF HIS FINGERS and kirk will NOT DO SHIT SO HELD HIM GOD#he will do some shit and absolutely not acknowledge it even if kirk brings it up#'spock what in the world are you doing' 'i don't know what you mean captain' and he WILL do it again#kirk does NOT have to do anything#god they've probably dabbled in somnophilia. spock would be so into it#like it's not that spock DOESN'T want kirk to be involved when they have sex. but like.#spock doesn't like it when people watch him work#he probably watches kirk sleep sometimes. pokes his face to watch it twitch like touching a snail's eye stalk.#i dont think they have conversations about sex. like actual in-depth conversations#spock tries but kirk usually gets so awkward about it he agrees to whatever just to get spock to shut up about it#kirk: communication is key to a healthy relationship except when i do it specifically with spock#spock is just so. CLINICAL. it's hard to listen to (if you know what i mean)#spock has used kirks aversion to talking about sex to his advantage (used it to unknowingly make him agree to upgrades to the science wing)#kirk probably likes voyeurism. spock feels weird about kirk watching him masturbate
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anyways i hope everyone whos ever treated me like shit on here dies kinda
#yall made this happen.#i hope all of you rot in hell and have a pitchfork permanently lodged in your asshole.#cant wait till you look back on this- eventually- once any of you finally get in touch with your fucking emotions- and go#'huh. i was an utter piece of shit for no reason and probably deserve to be punched repeatedly 50 times in the face'#i hope you do end up knowing 'what its like' at this point bc yall leave me on the curb to slowly die all the time so how about#you taste some of this you fucking bitch#rot in hell and die and kill yourself idc.#find my fucks bc im tired of sacrificing myself trying to give them to ungrateful ass people to begin with.#people who dont deserve an inch of a fuck from anyone ever.#gotta actually give af about anything to get fucks lil bitch
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â âđđ â â đđđđđđđđ. you show your husband some affection, thinking you two were alone - only to be interrupted by your son.
tags. dad!toji fushiguro x wife!female reader. fluff, suggestive. mentions of toji developing / having a dad bod. & reader having a mom bod. reader gets called âprincess, mama (by gumi)â. baby gumi waking up bcs of a nightmare. excuse me - not beta read bcs i was half asleep when writing this rt_t
âtooooji,â you smile as you enter the kitchen. youâve put megumi to bed - finally - and have the chance to spend some one-on-one time with your dear husband. both of you deserve the rest after a hard day of work.
toji has been putting the dishes back in their designated spots whilst you were away. the dark-haired man turns his head to the side once he feels a pair of arms wrap around his waist. a small grin tugs at his lips, âmissed me, princess?â
you roll your eyes. even if years have passed since your marriage, toji has not stopped using that specific nickname for you. he loves calling you âprincessâ, because thatâs what youâll always be to him. in his eyes, at least.
âmhm,â you decide to indulge him. you bury your face into his broad back, feeling the muscles heâs worked so hard on obtaining. after megumi was born, toji did let himself go for a bit, but that is a good sign.
it means heâs content with his life - this peaceful life that heâs settled down for with no regrets. no more being reckless, no more battling for money; heâs now got a family to come back home to after all.
âis the little brat asleep?â toji asks while putting the last dish away. heâs visibly enjoying your warm hands that have slid under his shirt. your skin is so soft to the touch compared to his.
you chuckle and nod to his question. âgumiâs sleeping like a baby,â you rub your husbandâs stomach gently, feeling the little bumps of his fading abs. youâre loving his new body - just as much as toji loves yours.
toji turns around to face you, desperately needing to return the favor. he canât get enough of being with you. his rough hands grab your waist and bring you closer against his body, until your chests are nearly touching. he lowers his head to your neck, âthat means i can show my wife how much i love her, yeah?â
you shiver at how tojiâs voice turns from soft and gentle to sexual and husky. big hands find their place on your tummy, massaging the loose skin with its stretch marks. you can hear your husbandâs breath hitch. âfuck,â toji swallows his spit, his fingers moving to grasp your hips.
toji loves how your hips got wider after youâve given birth to your child. every change in your body, whether big or small, is completely welcomed by him. your body has blessed toji with a son he loves and heâll forever be grateful for that fact. the least he can do is take his time to appreciate you.
âso beautiful,â toji sighs as he leaves soft pecks on your neck and throat. his fingers are working their way down to your thighs and assânot leaving a single patch of skin untouched. his lips eventually find yours and you melt into his embrace.
itâs getting heated and the tension is palpable. tojiâs about to lift you into his arms when you catch a glimpse of a short figure in the doorway. your eyes widen and you immediately detach your lips from your husbandâs.
toji quickly catches on and sighs. he cocks his head to the left, the sight of his toddler standing at the doorway coming into view. âdamn kid,â he whispers, nearly pouting because of the interruption. you playfully slap his bicepâa warning to fix his potty mouth in front of megumi.
âh-hey, gumi,â you say with an awkward giggle, walking towards the child. you fix your shirt in the meantime, straightening the material. you crouch down to megumiâs level and pat his head tenderly, âwhat happened? why are you out of bed?â
megumi stares up at you with teary eyes. heâs clenching onto his dog plushie, hugging the stuffed animal to his little body. you can easily guess that heâs scaredâprobably because of a nightmare. heâs been getting those more frequently.
though, instead of explaining himself, megumi searches for answers to something else. he points at his dad whoâs leaning against the counter with his arms crossed. the toddler then looks back at you like heâs made some big discovery;
âmama papa kissing!â
you nearly choke on your spit. megumiâs a clever little boy and it shows through his advanced vocabulary. youâre surprised that heâs learnt what that meant already. you try to deny what your child said, âno, uhm, mama and papa were just hugging!â
toji snorts at your half assed excuse. he lazily walks over to you two, hands in his pockets. he bends forwards and looks megumi in the eyes with a huge smirk on his face. âyeah, we were. ân you totally ruined it,â he utters without any shame and menacingly sticks his tongue out at the little boy.
you hiss and lightly shove tojiâhe cannot take anything seriously. youâre trying your best to distract megumiâs attention from what heâs seen his parents do, to what his reason is for waking up.
âdid you have a nightmare again?â you coo and pick your son up. he instantly snuggles up to you and presses his face against your chest in search of comfort. you smile and can conclude that your assumptions are right.
you pet megumiâs head whilst softly humming one of his favorite lullabies. toji watches your interaction with his son and his mood softens once more. he silently hugs you from behindâalso wrapping an arm around megumiâturning it into a little family group hug.
âyâre all right, buddy,â toji mutters to megumi and the little boy sniffles in response, âmama ân papa âre right here.â
after a couple minutes, you carry megumi back to his room before putting him down in his bed. your husband stands next to you as you make sure your kid is tucked in properly.
megumi stares up at you with a sniff and you nearly melt at the adorable sight. you brush his bangs out of his eyes and kiss his forehead, wishing him a good night. the toddler nods and hugs his plushie to his chest again, still a bit shaken up from the nightmare. however, heâs doing a lot better after he got comforted by both his parents.
âsweet dreams, gumi,â you whisper and rub megumiâs cheeks with a fond smile on your lips. toji simply stares at you conversing with megumiâhis face showing little to no emotion. though, from within, toji is absolutely in awe at your motherly personality. youâre the perfect mother.
megumi gets drowsy and tosses onto his side so he could be more comfortable. he struggles to open his eyes, but manages to look at toji. the little boy pouts and points another finger at his dad, this time drowsily warning him, âpapa no kiss mama, âkay?â
that comment catches you off guard. youâre embarrassed by the fact that megumi still remembers what heâs seen in the kitchen. you try to clear your throat and explain yourself, but tojiâs one step ahead of you. he silently mimics megumiâs words and rolls his eyesâ
âyeah yeah, whatever. i wonât,â toji promises his son. the toddler clearly inherited your husbandâs protectiveness. you chuckle at the playfulness between the two, enjoying the jokey banter the father-son duo have each time.
megumi huffs in victory and nods. he can sleep in peace now, knowing his dad wonât try anything funny with you. he closes his weary eyes and is asleep within just a few seconds.
you stretch your arms and sigh in content. you canât help but chuckle once you notice how megumiâs fallen asleep with a tiny smile on his lips. you give the child one last forehead kiss before leaving the room in silence.
toji follows right behind you. now that his son is sound asleep, he doesnât have to keep his promise. technicallyâ he wasnât planning to anyway.
âcâmere,â your husband mumbles and grabs your hand. he pulls you into a tight hug, hands instantly roaming your body which he admires so much. he plants his lips onto yours not a second later.
you smile into the kiss, finding it funny how toji couldnât keep his (fake) promise for even one second. he would die if he actually couldnât kiss you, and that isnât even an exaggeration.
toji pulls back after a moment and smirks at youâthose bedroom eyes of his very telling.
âso, where were we?â
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