#i will never be. sane about him
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#AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH#i will never be. sane about him#dallon weekes save me...... save me dallon weekes..........#oh my fucking god#this is the end of me#im going to explode
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dazai stop rizzing up the enemy challenge go!!
#i'm convinced the whole meursault arc is just a massive hangover dream fabricated by dazai💀#when your friend group is small but you're all gay and mentally ill#literally all i could think about watching dazai waltz around with sigma and flirting with him nonstop was fyo and chuuya just going :/#while watching them through the security cameras#honestly they slayed sokouku could never#no better way to spend your last thirty minutes alive than ballroom dancing with the enemy against their will#dazai and sigma's interactions are the only thing keeping bsd fans (me) sane atp#bungo stray dogs#bungou stray dogs#bsd#dazai osamu#sigma bsd#nakahara chuuya#fyodor dostoevsky#sigzai#soukoku#skk#lotus draws
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What I love about Hellboy and Abe Sapien's dynamic in the comics is that, if you came into this blind, you'd expect Abe to be the voice of reason or the straight man to Hellboy's impulsive and hotheaded personality. But no, Abe is more often than not the crazy one. Hellboy would deal with fighting evil monsters and bad guys by just sighing and getting it over with, while Abe is going rabid over tearing the creature apart when he does get into a fight. Hellboy acts like it's a 9-to-5 job and will reasonably talk things out with a guy that had nearly killed him before, Abe acts like a madman in a slaughter house and his first instinct is to shoot first kill second and ask third. They're both insane, but on completely different levels.
#wheres that one comic where abe gets into a mission and has to tear down a monster with an axe#then at the end when hellboy appears and sees abe going ham while covered in blood. he's like ''oh hey abe. good job you're doing there''#hellboy was not even worried for a second. he trusts abe to handle things on his own#they both trust each other to do their job but they also know when they can handle a fight on their own and will help if needed.#their trust and bond with each other is so implicit but speaks volumes. they dont need to say anything. they just know#we talk so much about hellboy being like. an alright guy and a whole lot kinder than the world treats him. and that's right#but it really does make Abe look fucking batshit wild in comparison because of it#the entirety of the abe sapien comics is that the guy is on his hinges and the only thing keeping him sane before was his job (which is#debatable.) and the bprd. mostly hellboy and liz and kate and roger. johan and ben are a weird case but he does kinda care about them#i love abe btw. he's such an interesting critter. absolutely crazy maniac of a guy.#tbf i dont blame him considering his backstory. if i went through some of the shit he did; i would not be sane either#also. the moments post hellboy's death in the comics where abe is trying to deal with his passing but never directly says anything about it#until he was confronted by hellboy in his dream. thats the cool bit yknow. we dont need to be told Abe was grieving about hellboy#we just knew he wasn't handling it well. using present tense when talking about hellboy to other people. avoiding saying his name.#its great stuff#the fire burns#hellboy#hellboy comics#abe sapien
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i need you guys to know that tonight i dreamt that normal was forced to travel to different worlds/dimensions and that in every single one of them he met hermie. and hermie was always slightly different (maybe it was his hair, or his clothes, just the tiny details), but it was always hermie, and normal always fell in love with him.
and it didn't matter that normal knew he wasn't his hermie, he still loved him with his entire heart
#dndads#oakworthy#you can tell i'm soooooooo sane about the finale#at some point they were cuddling and normal thought that there could never be a world in which he didn't fall for him. i feel sick
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I don't feel loved
#:(#like really it's a terrible thing to feel but it's not as much as i am giving and it makes me feel so bad#i am not loved enough and to think that this torment would continue always makes me shut my heart and don't start for anyone#it's so pathetic but i can't help it because i don't get it as intense as i am giving and it's always that never scratching even the surface#i think about her alot but she doesn't thinks of me#i try to make him happy but it's never enough#i try to keep myself sane but i sound like a child begging to be taken along and it ain't working for me#I don't think love should be difficult or unnatural#it should definitely come in my way because i deserve it like anyone else#i should feel loved and i hope i do and i hope it changes#to wake up one day and not feel terrible or to just hope for a home where i am loved and cherished#where my love is celebrated and people don't just tolerate it#i want all those pretty giddy feeling for myself#not sorry for rambling because it's my blog !#desiblr#being desi#desi tag#anxiety#sadgirl#love#tw depressing thoughts#tw mental health
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N e ways here's Jack's actual design for the au I posted about the other day lmao
Love this sorrowful lizard.
#minecraft story mode#mcsm#mcsm jack#jack mcsm#Mcsm au#Me when old man yaoi#Except one of them has been turned into a creature and thinks he's a disgusting unlovable monster..#And the other adores him and thinks he's the most stunning man he's ever laid his eyes upon..#“stop making slightly tragic Jurm AUs” how about suck my nuts.#Loser.#Anyways I've mentioned this au to one of my friends but for those I haven't told about this#Basically Romeo set up the ender dragon as a challenge for the order. As he does. But obviously Soren just blinks it out of existence#And Romeo is pissed but like he didn't set any rules AGAINST doing that so he can't really do anything about it#But he never let the idea of big badass dragon battle go#And when he kidnaps jack (or Petra) he smushed them together with the dragon to create the ultimate champion#Like the totally chill and sane guy he is#Clemont_ine#Also yes his design is based on falin from dungeon meshi#No it wasn't on purpose at first#But then I realised and I just decided to embrace it lmao#Angelic Yuri Vs evil yaoi.
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look at our best friend tumblrinas…………..
#moistured unbothered HOT when you love your team and unproblematic and sane-ish (is anyone voluntarily choosing to ride honda sane?)#the amount of screenshots of luca on my phone rn is frankly disturbing….. BUT LOOK AT HIM#i have never said anything bad about indonesia. indonesia is my best friend………#nadya.txt
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ruminating on 'the vees died despondent nobodies' thoughts
velvette interrogates vox after she hears him give various conflicting and bombastic accounts on air. a selection of these include: blew his brains out on live television, administered the death penalty for killing his "bitch wife," a tragic accident involving two shetland ponies, dubiously legal iranian yogurts, and a whole lot of cocaine. the actual cause was shockingly ordinary- a heart attack in front of the television, alone, his corpse only recovered after two weeks passed. he was watching a game show and his last mortal regret was never even learning who won, because he died during the commercials.
#vox#velvette#haven't settled on what i think is a satisfying cause of death for velvette#running on 'a fight that escalated with her shitty then-boyfriend while trying to film something'#mostly bc i'm thinking of her recounting this to vox and telling him the thing she most regrets is that he was ugly as sin#and now his mugshot is permanently stapled to news of her death#but i'm not mega attached to this or anything#(the thing she ACTUALLY most regrets#is that the people she knew probably took more interest in how she died than who she was alive#that the most notable thing about her was something she didn't even do#and even the tragedy of her death to those who heard about it is in how bitterly commonplace it is)#wait this is actually thematically perfect. because in hell she's STILL in some ways defined by her proximity to two men#/yes/ her followers and fans are captivated by her separate from voxval. but she's inescapably regarded through the lens of the vees#both in the 'what's the niche velvette fills in the vees' sense but also through her relationships to val and vox#she's velvette. but she's never Just Velvette. she is always One Of The Vees#who she is to vox and valentino is what Velvette(tm) is#she can play every role to the public. their beleaguered 3rd wheel. their Sane Friend. partner (business). partner (romantic/sexual)#how do i fit that alongside:#'the people of hell like velvette because she's unfiltered. raw. authentic. mean girl who says what she wants w/o caring'#with a hammer and a lot of grit#i do think that's usually what she thinks of herself. at least consciously and these actually aren't mutually exclusive#you know how i said i'm not super attached to this backstory. whoops i have convinced myself of it!#if not the above specifics the 'the most remembered thing about velvette's life is how she died' angle#as it turns out this post is actually about velvette. i need to think about my evil babygirls Themes#i had something to say about vox and gameshows but thats enough footnotes for now i think
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Do you ever think about Azula after Zuko's banishment and before she was sent on her mission? About the time it was just her and Ozai? Because I do.
Her worst fear is being what Zuko is to their father. It's easy to look at her smirking while she watches Ozai light Zuko’s face on fire and think that she enjoys her brother’s suffering, but from the day she was born, Zuko has been the bad example. The scapegoat. The failure she exists to surpass. Where he is disrespectful, she will be obedient. Where he is weak, she will be strong. She will make Ozai proud. She will be perfect. She has to be. Because if she isn’t -
well, in that moment she sees that for herself. Iroh looks away, but she doesn’t. This eleven-year-old child watches the whole gory scene that her experienced general uncle can’t stomach, because this is a lesson for her as well, that’s why Father had her be here, and so she must not let herself tremble or cry or flinch or scream. Zuko is. That means she can’t. Instead she will do the exact opposite, smile with a princess’s proper posture.
Then Zuko is banished. He will most likely never return - most likely die young. He isn’t around to be the foil under her jewel anymore, making her shine brighter simply by contrast. (Or to play with her or comb her hair. But it isn’t useful or becoming to miss those moments. She isn’t a child anymore; her childhood was burned through like Zuko’s skin.) All Ozai’s attention is on her. All her people’s hope in the next generation of royalty rests in her. If she doesn’t hold her shoulders back and keep her head high, she will collapse under the weight of her nation’s future. Zuko got what he deserved. Just as whatever happens to her, she deserves it too.
How many nightmares does she have? How many times does she flinch or shake when her father touch her? Or force herself not to? How many times does she smell burning hair and flesh and hear her brother’s agony when she spoke her own opinion in a war meeting? How much does she secretly grieve him, and scold herself for it?
#look all i'm saying is azula has to have ptsd from that day too#on top of the c-ptsd that comes free with being raised by ozai#if she was in her right mind in 'into the inferno' i doubt that she would challenge zuko to agni kai#we all know that she would and does duel him with firebending while sane#(you know sane with c-ptsd)#but i don't think azula 'kept trying to bring zuko home no matter what he did to her in season two' of the fire nation#would specifically frame it as an agni kai#she just understandably has learned extremely shitty ways of showing it#she definitely has love for him#i mean in ‘crossroads of destiny’#she could have just taken him prisoner but she swayed him to return to her side willingly#she just wants her loved ones to chose her and they never do#at least not for long before a betrayal#i have too many feelings about this flamethrower child and this is just an attempt to articulate some of them#princess azula#azula#ozai#fire lord ozai#fire nation royal family#fire family
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Peace was never an option meme but with one of my favorite Pokemon a guys of all time
It's not even funny I love Quaxly
Quaxly shrine(?) under cut
I'm so sane about this duck
#fav pokemon#favorite pokemon#pokemon shrine#quaxly#gen 9 pokemon#paldea#paldea pokemon#paldea region#water starter#water type#water type pokemon#starter pokemon#first partner pokemon#quaxly pokemon#i love him#im so sane about them#peace was never an option#pokemon memes#pokemon arts#pokemon artist#pokemon art#pokemon#duck pokemon#gangar#makes an appearance#pokemon meme#pokemon fandom#pokemon fanart#pokemon drawing#pompadour duck
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Ash via IG Story and Ai FM
#i certainly haven't been ranting and raving here like a madwoman nope not me never me actually feeling so sane and rational rn#that 'see you tomorrow' was such a threat actually#5sos#5 seconds of summer#ashton#ashton irwin#blood on the drums#Instagram#ai ig#ai fm#video#kh4f post#ok like#with the sun on him tho#and the light hitting his eyes#and the fucking beard#and the wet curls#hanging in his face#I FEEL SO SANE#I CANNOT EVEN THINK ABOUT GETTING 8 SONGS#ARE U KIDDING ME#I AM SO SANE RN
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I've recently come across a couple of season 4 fanfics that dealt with the Chat Noir feeling left out and quitting thing and every time I read one I can't help but think "man did they chose the wrong side of the masks AND the wrong characters for this conflict. Chat Noir comes across terribly here". It's weird to see people try and justify his behavior and act like Ladybug was in the wrong.
Was Ladybug being the best friend ever? No, but friendship is secondary when they're wearing the masks. Paris comes first. Chat Noir quitting because he doesn't feel special enough is literally him endangering everyone he loves because his crush isn't paying enough attention to him and I truly can't tell if the show wanted us to feel like he was in the right or the wrong here. In Kuro Neko, Catwalker actually does acknowledge the lesson he needed to learn
There's nothing wrong with you. Maybe the boy who was Cat Noir was more sensitive than it seemed. But his feelings for you shouldn't force you to pay more attention to him than to others. You take care of everybody equally, Ladybug.
And Chat Noir apologizes at the end of the episode for causing Ladybug trouble, but the whole thing is incredibly lackluster. They don't actually have a meaningful conversation about why he was feeling that way and the rest of the season seems to present Ladybug as being in the wrong, especially the final! Trusting Alya leads to nothing meaningful and not trusting Chat Noir loses her the miraculous. Basically, I still have no idea what season 4 was trying to do with this conflict and it's been dropped forever now that Adrien is fully reduced to nothing more than arm candy.
HOWEVER, this basic setup could have been a fantastic b plot if the "Adrien doesn't feel needed" conflict wasn't a Ladynoir conflict, but was instead a conflict between Adrien and Nino. Move Rocketear up to earlier in the season and have the fallout from that be that Adrien's relationship with Nino is strained. He can still feel leftout because Ladybug has a bigger team now, but instead of him pouting about it and skipping fights, focus on how that need for connection has transferred to his civilian life, but he doesn't have Kagami or Nino now and he's lost. Then you can either have an Adrien and Nino b plot because that relationship needs more screen time OR you use this to make Adrien and Marinette start to grow closer because Rocketear's fallout is also Alya paying more attention to Nino. Then, when season 5 does the whole crush switch, it actually feels earned.
#ml writing salt#ml writing critical#adrien deserves better#marinette deserves better#ml season 4 salt#Can you tell that I'm a little tired of fics that try to blame Ladybug for Chat Noir feeling left out?#It's reasonable for him to have those feelings but boy did they have him express them in a way that was totally unbecoming for a hero#She's a little too busy saving the world and trying to stay sane to worry about his emotions#Especially when he never actually tells her that something's wrong#Though I will absolutely grant you that he needed to know about the Alya situation and keeping him in the dark was BS#I love Alya but that plot was so stupid for so many reasons#It felt like it was just added for cheap drama and not because it was a good addition to the show
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so what are your favorite moe alley moments? or moements if you will haha
MOEMENTS!!!!
okay here are my top 5 moements out of his overall like 10 <3
his rendition of jeanie with the light brown hair (bastogne)
beautiful vocals. beautiful man. mojo. enough said.
2. wouldn't drink too much if i were you!! (the breaking point)
he is so funny. funny guy!
3. film reel moe (the breaking point)
serving cutie patootie despite the cold. what a guy.
4. so who's in charge of this bullshit? (the last patrol)
this whole scene. tlp is kinda the moe episode to me mostly because i think it's the episode he has the most screentime in but i will have to work it out.
5. hey webster :) (the last patrol)
and finally. the scene that spawned 3 fics in my google docs that i am yet to complete. adorable. moe alley one of three members of the "able to be normal about web" club!!
and a bonus:
#im soooo normal about him guys#im so sane about this guy#thnx for asking though believe me i will never pass up an opportunity to yap about moe!!#moe alley#anons
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Feedist Kinktober 2024: Part I (October 1-7)
First time taking part in this challenge, so here we go! I decided to try writing 100-200 word drabbles based on at least one prompt for each day and uploading them on a weekly basis. In other words, here's the first batch! I've been feeling somewhat uninspired with kinky writing lately, so I thought it might be fun to use this challenge essentially to do some writing exercises. I've been liking what these prompts have inspired so far, so we'll see what might become of some of these ideas in the future...
So far these drabbles have all been inspired by/involve my favorite fictional alien, the six-tentacocked L/ondo M/ollari from B/abylon 5. On top of the prompts used themselves, below you'll find stuffing, weight gain, burping, dom/sub dynamics, master/pet dynamics, public play, (implied) alienfucking, tentacles, weight-related teasing, and even the B/5 canon holobrothel...
If you enjoy these, stay tuned for future batches, to be released on or shortly after October 14th, 21st, 28th, and 31st!
(1) Transformation 🔀 / Farmer's Market 🌽 “On your knees. Now.” He’s not even in the room yet, but already I feel myself stiffen at his order. It takes me a moment to change positions from where I rested in his bed to kneeling at the center, mouth open and waiting. He doesn’t need to say that part for me to know what he wants. He slides open the door and flashes his fangs at me in a toothy grin, holding up a tray of small cakes of various kinds from his homeworld. I look up at him, excited in every sense as he approaches and pushes the first into my mouth. “My, my, so eager, my love,” he coos. “That’s a good boy. Eat for me.” He smiles again, wistful. “If the you of a year ago could see the loving pet before me now…” And for a moment, I catch a glimpse of that pet in the mirror beside his bed. That pet is happier, hornier, and a hundred plus pounds heavier than the man I was. I may never have expected to end up this way, but I thank the gods- and my L/ondo- for transforming me into the slut I am now.
(2) Latex Love 🖤 / Masquerade Ball 💃 “Ready, my dear? You know how to find me if you need me. If anyone gives you serious trouble, my fist will meet their jaw in an instant, I promise.” He squeezes my ass and gives it a quick slap before we enter. He leads and disappears into the crowd, leaving me at the door as we’d discussed. I feel countless pairs of eyes fall on me as the jingling of the bell on my collar calls attention to me. Faces blush behind masks, words are whispered behind gloved hands, little giggles arise from the crowd- and the next thing I know, a dozen hands are pushing tastes of rich, filling foods towards my mouth. I might not know these people, but they know a plaything when they see one. My tight latex jumpsuit, as long as it’s on me, leaves little to the imagination and stands out among the finer outfits of those around me, and as long as the bell keeps jingling, I’m not yet filled to the point of temporary immobility. Tonight I get to be a plaything for the masses… and to become more massive at the same time.
(3) Date Night 🍾 / Creepy Cookies 🍪 Before I could protest, the waiter set the pasta dishes before us and left. I looked up at L/ondo, more puzzled than turned on. “We didn’t order these,” I said. “You may not have, but I did,” he replied. “I called ahead last week about this dish. It uses a special ingredient, what’s it called… fah, no matter- so I made sure in advance that they would be able to make it for us tonight. And clearly they had what they needed!” God, he’s so sweet. I looked down at my pasta with some doubt though, unsure how I could finish it after all I’d already eaten. “Eat up, darling,” he whispered, pausing to belch deeply and unabashedly (to the chagrin of those around us). “If you finish it all, I’ll have something else special waiting for you…” With that, I felt the familiar sensation of one of his tentacles brushing against the growing bulge in my pants. From his expression, you’d never know what he was doing to me under the table. That just made me want him more- and gave me the strength I needed to dig in like my life depended on it.
(4) Leashed 🔗 / Hologram ✨ I looked over my shoulder one more time to confirm I was alone. I shouldn’t have been there, I knew it was wrong, but some desperate part of me wanted it. I slipped in through a nondescript door, pulled the annotated photo out of my pocket, and handed it to the man behind the counter of the holobrothel. “I want… I want an hour, please,” I said. “I’m normally not one to comment, but… you can’t be serious, right?” the man asked. “I am,” I asserted, handing him my credit chit as proof. He shrugged, returned the photo and chit after scanning both, hit some buttons on a panel behind the counter, and handed over the telemetry bodysuit. “First door on your left,” the man said. I went into the suite, quickly stripped down, and pulled on and activated the suit. The projections and sensations started the moment I closed up the last zipper. “Hello, darling,” a familiar voice crooned. There he stood before me, as if in the flesh, holding the other end of a leash that tugged at my throat. “You look hungry, my pet. Correct?” I fell to my knees and begged. For the next hour, yes.
(5) Cannibal Campers 🥩 / Tea Party 🫖 “More tea, dear?” he asked. “Of course!” I replied, handing him my mug. He filled it up again, leaving a little room so he could add a bit of milk and honey. He’d never had them in tea before today. I’d never even heard of this type of tea before, made using some obscure flower from his homeworld. Whatever it was, though, it was delicious, so much so that I’d lost track of how much tea I’d had to drink by that point. “You’re certainly enjoying this, yes?” he smiled as he pushed the mug back into my hands. I gulped down most of it in a few seconds, setting the mug down only so I could thump my chest and belch in response. He laughed before taking a sip from his own cup. “I feel so full, but it tastes so good,” I sighed. “That will happen with this tea,” he said, throwing his head back to finish his cup before pouring himself some more. “Makes you feel- urrrrp- sloshy, for lack of a better word.” “Sure does,” I groaned. “But as long as you keep it coming, I’ll keep going!” With that, he poured me another mug…
(6) Ocean's Delight 🌊 / Possession 👻 The man this body belongs to should not have fucked around. He should’ve known better than to carelessly mess around with an ancient alien artifact whose purpose he didn’t understand. But he did, and now he will pay the price for awakening me. Walk to the kitchen for me, dumbass. I’ll turn this gorgeous body of yours into one you won’t recognize whenever I decide to leave it. Now eat. Eat until you can’t and then some. Yes, like that. And don’t be afraid to make a mess. I want to embarrass you, and what better way to do so than by turning you into a slob? That’s right, you cram that cake into your stupid fucking face. Belch like the gluttonous animal you’ll soon be. Eat more. More. Oh look, there’s someone at the door. Who will be the first to witness the beginning of your transformation? …Wait, why is he complimenting you? Why are you getting… aroused? Stupid fatass. Looks like truly punishing you will be harder than I thought… but part of me wants to see this through. How far will you push yourself with your fatass lover and a vengeful spirit enabling you?
(7) Magic Mirror 🪞 / Donut Devotee 🍩 I placed the box on the table before him and opened it. He looked at the contents quizzically, picking one of the pastries up to inspect it. “I thought you might want to try these. They’re called donuts, and I’ve got a whole bunch of different varieties for you to try. They’re popular back home and often sold by the dozen, just as I’ve brought for you today,” I explained. “I don’t see any nuts, though,” he puzzled. “Why are they called that if they have no nuts?” “I’m sure there was once a sensible reason for it, but shut up and eat,” I teased. “They’re not going to eat themselves.” He took a bite from the one already in his hand, a glazed chocolate donut. The happy sounds he made as he chewed it were certainly a good sign… Thirty minutes later, I helped push the final bite into his mouth. He chewed, groaned, coaxed up a burp, and moaned with pleasure, quite stuffed. “You’re right, they were all wonderful,” he sighed. “But next time you get some, you’ll be the one eating.” He paused, burping again. “And perhaps, given their holes, you can eat them off my cocks…”
#feedist kinktober#feedist kinktober 2024#i am having so much fun with these!#maybe being unable to think about anyone else in these scenarios rn makes me look insane but whatever#i was never sane to begin with and i am also a k*nky bastard so *shrugs*#anyway i write these for me but i hope others like them too#limiting myself to 200 words has ended up being much harder than anticipated#but it's been a fun challenge!#also ngl if anyone reading this has suggestions that could involve him for future prompts i am listening#stuffing#wg#burping#not sfw#londarling
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I had an idea for something I wanna write for S,IL, specifically to do with Tim and Brian and their friendship in highschool, after Tim got out of the hospital and reintegrated into society, and goddamn this fic has me digging through old diary entries I saved on my phone. Some of the shit in there is just so stupid and dramatic and poetic and would work fucking perfectly for writing Severely Mentally ill Teenage Tim dealing with a weird "my best friend who I have a crush on is the only thing keeping my even semi sane, and also I have convinced myself he's a deity and I pray to him" thing 💀
This shit is so overdramatic and "cringe" but honestly it described EXACTLY how I was feeling so no actually, it's not cringe it's great. Y'know lol? Honestly tho, I love these little bits of writing I found, because they let me see exactly what younger me was feeling. Like "i feel sad and angry and my heart's beating too hard and I feel shaky and too cold" does NOT get how we were actually feeling across anywhere near as well as this bullshit.
Anyway if you wanna read a couple of these bits I found, they're under the thingy 💀
“I’m bleeding myself dry while I'm going on walks every day like everyone tells me to, and my mental health is still at its worst. I’m putting every penny of my self worth into this boy and twisting the crank to see what colourful hunk of plastic comes rolling out so I can bare it like it's my soul to anyone who asks to see that deep inside me.”
I was such a dramatic kid. Any time I was doing bad my thoughts just switched to overdramatic shitty poetry and I couldn't do anything about it 💀 I was such a fucking
“Can I appeal to your humanity as I lose my own?”
#no vinnie. i dont know what youre on about. i definitely didnt go through the “my best friend who I have a crush on is the only thing#keeping my even semi sane and also I have convinced myself he's a deity and I pray to him“ with you. nope. never. i am not outing how#unbelievably not okay i was when we were younger. nope. not at all. in fact thats so not whats happening that i think you should completely#forget this post even exists if you saw it. yknow? i think thatd be a really fun thing to do. would you like me to grab a hammer and help?#i can grab a hammer and help. let me go grab a hammer so i can help#marble hornets#mh brim#tim wright#brian thomas#mh sorry its locked
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Lucerys doesn’t remember much of the outside world.
There are faint memories, flashes of silver streaks and high pitched giggles. A faceless brown haired boy with a hand always held out for him to take. Lucerys remembers feeling warm, a lightness to his otherwise empty chest as he chases the high of his dreams.
Aemond tells him it’s his overactive imagination. That the outside world wasn’t good, that their childhood was nothing but pain and despair. That’s probably why he never lets Lucerys out of the house.
Every morning Aemond leaves him with a peck on the lips and a promise of return. During that time Lucerys is left alone to his devices, cleaning the house and playing with his kitten, Jace. Never mind that Aemond absolutely hates the cat, he’s not the one stuck at home bored out of his mind. At exactly five in the afternoon, Aemond comes home and Lucerys is there to welcome him. With open arms and a hearty dinner.
It’s repetitive but it’s all Lucerys has ever known. All he’s ever remembered since the accident. Aemond doesn’t like talking about the accident. Whenever Lucerys tries to ask about it his lover’s expression becomes unreadable and he’d have to deal with a brooding Aemond for the rest of the day. Sometimes, when Lucerys pushes too much he wouldn’t see Aemond until the next morning. The idea of cheating had never crossed Lucerys’ mind, usually by then he’d been too inconsolable. His separation anxiety turning him into a sobbing mess and only Aemond’s warm arms and comforting hum could make him stop.
There was one time when Lucerys had managed to summon the courage, he’d asked Aemond where he went to every Friday. And why he came home so late. He didn’t expect much, in fact he’d expected it to get ignored. The same way all of his questions about the outside world was. Much to his surprise, Aemond had stared into Lucerys’ face with an expression that was absolutely devastated.
‘To a dear nephew.’ He confessed. That night Aemond had told him about a beloved nephew who had been in the same accident as Lucerys, except unlike him the boy never woke up. He’d explained what the doctors had said, that he may never wake up ever again. Forever caged to his hospital bed and connected to wires. After that night, after seeing the devastation and despair in his beloved’s face Lucerys never asked again. He didn’t like seeing Aemond like that.
“My Aemond is so handsome,”Lucerys teased, tying his lover’s tie with expert fingers. “It almost makes me want to tie you to our bed and keep you here forever.”
The older man chuckled, his sapphire eye glinting in the morning light. With his long arms he encircled them around Lucerys’ waist and pulled him closer. “Promises, promises.”
Lucerys eagerly accepted his kisses, basking in the affection before his beloved once again left him for the day. It almost made him want to pout and charm his way into keeping Aemond home today, it’s not like he hasn’t done it before. It usually took some effort and the man was nothing short of disciplined but with enough kisses and suggestive petting, he’d find himself back in bed and a playful Aemond on top of him.
Breaking away from the kiss, Lucerys rested his forehead on Aemond’s and sighed. “Are you sure you have to go to work today?”
The pale blond almost looked apologetic, giving him another peck on the lips. “I’m afraid this meeting is impossible to reschedule, my dragon.”
Although unsurprising, Lucerys found himself grumbling as he begrudgingly untangled himself from the older man. He could do nothing but pout as he went back to straightening his beloved’s crumpled suit, determine to keep Aemond looking sharp and put together no matter how much he wanted to tear the suit off and not fix it. “What do geneticists even talk about in meetings? Don’t you guys just stare at microscopes and petri dishes all day?”
Aemond let out an amused huff, shaking his head at the younger boy’s adorable grumpiness. “Silly taoba, do you really want me to stay that much?”
Lucerys stayed quiet, stubbornly refusing to meet his eye. If Aemond didn’t want to stay with him today then he wasn’t going to force him. He wasn’t some dumb doll created solely to rely on Aemond and fawn for his attention. He had more pride than that, thank you very much.
From the corner of his eye, he noticed Aemond grin in amusement. A gentle hand on his chin coaxed him to look up and Lucerys once again found himself staring at the breathtaking view of his love’s pale lilac eye and the blue sapphire.
“Don’t worry my love. Once I finally prove to them that human cloning is impossible then I can finally shut this research down. That means more time for you and me.” Aemond cooed, bringing the younger boy back into his arms.
“Promise?”Lucerys asked, his voice tiny but hopeful.
“I promise.” Lucerys beamed at his lover’s quick response, feeling warm all over.
“Besides,”Lucerys feels more than hears Aemond’s voice from where he’s pressed his cheek on the taller man’s chest, “Human cloning should be left as it is. Who knows what kind of crazy things sick fucks would do if it was possible.”
Lucerys hums along in agreement.
#lucemond#aemond targaryen#lucerys velaryon#hotd#aemond targaryen x lucerys velaryon#aemond x lucerys#if you don’t get this short Drabble#it’s basically aemond cloning lucerys#the accident aemond talks about is the same accident where aemond chases Luke’s car with his own and Luke ends up in an accident#the original Lucerys is in a hospital and in a coma#at this point the doctors are unsure if he’d even wake up#he’s like two inches from being brain dead really#with this news Aemond spirals into madness#and he basically clones his own healthy Lucerys to keep him sane#this is why Lucerys never gets out bc if any of the family finds out then it’s the coo coo ward for aemond#I’m sorry but I feel so bad for clone Lucerys#he doesn’t even know he’s a clone#someone free clone Lucerys !!#also I’m making it canon in this universe that should the doctors officially declare original Lucerys as brain dead#then aemond would 100% kidnap his body so that no one can pull the plug on original comatose lucerys#don’t mind aemond it’s just him his lover clone Lucerys and comatose Lucerys chilling#if anyone wants to expand this universe please do#idk Aemond just gives me STEM kid vibes#please don’t ask me to get into the scientific details#I’m an accounting major pretending to understand science#also Lucerys’ brother worship for jacaerys definitely passes on to clone lucerys#clone Lucerys basically has all of original Lucerys’ memories but it’s muddled and difficult to understand
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