#i will go insane but itll be worth it!

[saltynsassy31]

Frye Fest - Final Countdown

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Splatfest 24-09-2022

[Master Post - coming soon]

[nomaishuttle]

NEWRLY FORGOT 2 UODATE UNGUYS. NOTTTT TO BRAG BUT I TOTALLY ACED THAT SHIT

[grimmthorne]

i need to go back to the counseling center so bad because there's no way that I can go on like this 😁

[toastsnaffler]

nevermind man

[moonshynecybin]

Okay I was watching Qatar 2013 for the rosquez of it all and they were so touchy and I thought is there an au were they hooked up during the pre season and that’s why they are so comfortable together already maybe they didn’t even hook up yet but they are touchy (insert vale saying he’s touchy off track so maybe it’s the same on track when him Dani and Jorge were asked about the contact Marc had had with them at different races) and vale is queuing in on Marc’s massive crush and goes after you win a race I’ll sleep with you think if it like a prize. like I’m not sure if that’s a possible au but i just went omg the possibilities if it did happen.

EYE think its like. okay fanfiction land lets goooo wheeee. a branch off of the iconic winners room concept, but this time its whenever someone gets promoted to the premiere class they get to choose someone to FUCK after their first race. like they MUST ! the sport is too horny not to ! court mandated ! and well. you know who marc was gonna pick (literally its been on his motivational vision board since he was umm. 14). and vale's not stupid and is also VERY assured in his sex appeal so he ALSO knows who marc is gonna pick (hes actually been picked by new guys a LOT at this point its old hat. little does he know about the life changing power. of marc's wap.) and its just some fun! here at the beginning of things ! so the entire race (with marc and vale spending a LOTTTTT of time battling it out on track and having cheeky little skirmishes the entire time) its like. the most insane, adrenaline soaked foreplay. exhilarating. truly when you dont know someone that well but you like them SO much and you KNOWWWW youre getting laid later. its vale putting BOTH hands literally on marc's WAIST from BEHIND before the podium its marc's huge smile that seems unpracticed in a way where its clear he STILL cant quite believe hes standing there with valentino its the BIG hug in parc ferme that literally knocks marc's sunglasses off of his head. gifs HERE !

and afterwards its SO happy. giddy! they love a fun on-track battle, they both podiumed (marc's first and vale's first back at yamaha) so they are floating on airrrrr and marc of COURSE chooses vale and when they manage to get some alone time he's SO eager (his first time question mark. knew he would get this from vale with the confidence of a prodigy so he saved it...) but god he learns QUICK. and its a huge thing —looking back, in hindsight— the beginning of it all. the start of them. but at the time, they dont even KNOW how huge it is, what kind of effect theyre going to have on each other's lives. they cant know. and besides, it doesnt matter here, in this moment. because marc is under vale and vale is inside him, and marc's panting wetly and sweetly against vale's neck and vale feels something building in his chest and it feels something like joy. something like inventing something. and they dont even know what kind of thread theyre building between them. they cant know yet, how it all goes wrong, here in this room, in this moment. but whatever it is will be worth it, that he knows. itll be worth this precise second, here and now, with marc's pulse thrumming against his skin

[kisaraslover]

DO U HAVE ANY BLUESHIPPING FIC REC?????PLEASENIMSTARVINGKSKSKKS

anon kskkasak ITS FINE ILL SAVE YOU OK? here goes:

Scenes from a Kaiba Marriage and Temptation by my blueshipping queen @kisara-kaiba as the opening. the peak of modern life blueshipping fluff, very lovesick, when im reading them its heart full, head empty. youre gonna be lucky to start them now cuz ill be rereading and drawing scenes from them this week👀. itll be like premium fanfic reading.

Enjambment -> this fic might be the single best written blueshipping fic by the virtue of MIRRORING their encounter in ancient Egypt beat by beat, including BOTH of their character arcs and the netflix show vibe of suspense and the sharp, cold and bleak setting is chefs kiss. changed my brain chemistry. still one of my favorite portrayals of Kisara.

Maiden with Eyes of Blue -> Sometimes time needs to slow down and a single scene should be a character study/ hashing out of things you needed acknowledged by canon, the situation is ESPECIALLY dire for Seto Kaiba as ive made my feelings on his writing known many times. This is it. Kisara isnt reincarnated in this one though, but her love for him can be felt in the air. Ngl you could just incorporate this into post canon and it would be fine. canon compliant+ canon enriching.

Shades of Water, Ice, and Sky -> I'm skimming through each fic to see what they were about and i just gotta say: why so heart-wrenching if so short?? theyre in love your honor.

Their Promise: Book I -> ok gonna be honest w you i havent finished this one and the main reason is that i cant go past the SPECTACULAR first chapter. ive started and failed to draw it in its entirety. i open it, i chew on the first chapter like a rabid dog, i close it more often than not. the second reason is it has a lot more angst and heartbreak than most blueship fics do and im weak to that sort of thing. still, if we follow their ancient egypt encounter beat by beat, which is a fantastic way of following and enriching the canon, their first meeting needs to be as kids with him saving her from a cage. chefs kiss.

who are you? -> JUST the right amount of Seto Kaiba immediate fixation obsession on Kisara (which means insanely obsessed)

You Will Crave Your Ancient Roots -> this is so good and so heartbreaking man. Seto and Atem are shot back into ancient Egypt and Seto is only able to slightly alter the events around Kisara. hes fated to fall for that woman every single time and *starts sobbing*

Ancient Rules -> all i gotta say is this Seto Kaiba gives me brainworms. hes chuck full of Passion and Cockiness and Insanity. blueshippers sometimes take out his insanity. he is very unsettling here i love it. Kisara is truly at his mercy..

never forget your first dream -> fem!Set and Kisara in ancient Egypt, this story twists more than just Seto's gender. im a yuri seto truther so its great to have written proof of it. jokes aside, very well characterized Set and Kisara, rich writing.

One in Forty -> pretty short but this one fundamentally changed how i viewed Kisara's canon influence over BEWD cards and her constant and unbendable favor around Seto. canon compliant + canon enriching.

ok so these are the cream of the crop for ME personally, might have forgotten some in my other folders, i might have missed reading some, its probably not all encompassing. but frankly ive liked and saved fics for a single resounding line, single funny joke, one interesting implication about the story or the characters the author wrote up so in my heart theyre all worth checking out, always. fanfic writers are carrying this ship on their backs and theyre all 9 ft tall and im just walking around them, clearing the path, giving them a sip of water and snacks etc. so THANK YOU BLUESHIPPING AUTHORS I LOVE YOUUUUUU

[theygotbitchesinmedia]

ask dump

i have a couple dozen unanswered asks on this blog, most of which i believe are media recommendations, so i'm going to go through those now in a batch!

if you haven't seen it already We Are Lady Parts would be a fantastic recommendation for this blog. I started it last week and really love it. It's about a struggling punk Muslim girls band who recruit the extremely anxious, goody-two-shoes Amina to be their lead guitarist. It balance its moments of drama really well with the comedy and all of the women in the band get to be deeply weird in different and endlessly charming ways. My favorite is Amina because of her very relatable habit to have elaborate silly daydreams about anything and everything. Good show with some really good women!

I've heard good things about this one! Adding it to the list

I can't remember if you take recs for things in progress or not but the webtoon Katlaya Rising is currently the high point of my week, the art style POPS and it is jam-packed with girls and girls who love girls

I will always read things in progress 👍 I honestly in some ways prefer getting into stuff before it's finished. Like an animal with one of those food bowls that stops you from eating too fast. Added to the list.

Please read Villain Initialization!!!! The female characters are really good!!!!!!!!!

Looking at the cover and description for this one it seems like most of the female cast is gonna be side characters. i'll add it to the list but itll probably be reallllly back burner unless someone wants to go to bat hard for it and sway me

if youre taking recommendations bittersweet con panna is a cute yuri manhwa and hacks is an insane tvshow about millenial comedy writer who got cancelled on twitter and a beautiful old standup comic about to lose her vegas residency.

added both! never heard of bittersweet con panna but my sister has been going really hard for hacks and i feel like i owe it to her to watch that sooner rather than later because of all the media im always trying to force onto her

"Kevin Can F*** Himself" on AMC is fantastic and has some really interesting female protags, I recommend. Might be a similar vibe to On Becoming a God in Central Florida actually!

Already on the list!

i'd like to second the rec for no home, probably one of the greatest webtoons of all time

one moth ago anon i can safely say you were correct about this it is certainly one of the greatest webtoons of all time. i do think its not really About women but i get why you all wanted me to read it enough to push it

@whatasmoothgardener Reccing a short manga I've been reading recently called Is Kichijoji the Only Place to Live. Its a manga about twin girls who run a small real estate company in Tokyo from the POV of their clients. It has a unique art style, its female character focused, and it teaches you about the different places in Tokyo. However its kinda episodic.

I don't mind episodic at all. Cool to see female manga protags who arent stick thin! added to the list

@phoenixfangs i got into a webtoon the other day called nevermore and considered recommending it to u, but i second guessed myself like oh what if its not worth recommending and its stupid actually, BUT i had a dream last night that u were talking about it so i think i have to at least put it on ur radar, if it isnt already xD what happens if u take edgar allen poe stories and make it about lesbians? u get the webtoon nevermore ❤️ theres an actual Plot to it too im not trying to sell it based on tropes, i just cant describe it better than the actual synopsis/description on webtoon, so id say its worth a glance!

At first glance i'm not sure how to my personal tastes this owuld be but i feel like i have maybe been unfairly biased against popular webtoons in that front. added to the list !

@counttwinkula listen i know your "media to get around to" list is forever long but i reread the haunting of hill house (the book) for my podcast and eleanor and theodora just. won't stop touching each other. some of the most classic toxic yuri imo. also the 1963 film adaptation (the haunting) is so good

ill always appreciate a horror recommendation from one of my learned Horror Mutuals. added both!

if it changes anything, you can find the main stories of arknights and limbus company here and here respectively without downloading the game: [retcons dot github dot io slash limbus-storylogs] [akgcc dot github dot io slashcc slash story dot html hashtag main] (sorry it wont let me send links) i totally understand if u think its too much trouble, but i do think both games have very good female characters

I'm sorry... i just cant go down this road.... it's a path i'm not willing ot walk. if i was going to read the stories for a gacha game i wasn't playing i would just go read shoujo kageki revue starlight re:LIVE. which i havent been able to make myself do. so its just not gonna end up happening

have you heard of tangle tower… it’s a relatively short murder mystery click and point game about two families & their secrets. the art is gorgeous + the game is fully voiced, and the protagonist + his assistant have a dynamic that reminds me of the classic ace attorney ‘lawyer + weird girl’ duos. the majority of the cast are women, and the game features some of the Girls Of All Time. highly recommend, esp since you’re an ace attorney fan

Added to the list!

if you’re trying to flesh out the book section, i’d like to recommend three parts dead by max gladstone! admittedly it’s been a hot second since I’ve read it so i can’t speak on the quality of the writing itself, but the plot and the worldbuilding had some interesting stuff. the novel follows tara, a necromancer in a world where doing magic is more akin to being a lawyer, who’s hired to resurrect a god. the book is the first in a series, and the books that follow have some other interesting female protagonists + canonical queer women if you enjoy it o7

Sounds neat! Added to the list

ok i still have some more from back in fucking April that i didnt manage to get to. but im getting distracted now

[mellilemon]

DUDE why is the stormlight archive fanart u reblog slowly pushing me towards going to read it. what is this ABOUT. brief pause i looked it up BRANDON SANDERSON???

PLEASE PLEASE READ IT ITS SOOO WORTH IT im on my knees

i barely grasp it myself but theres magic and knights and insane worldbuilding

i could not summarize it in a way that does it justice but. World that is separated. god is dead. but theyre trying their hardest to keep honor alive. if it helps my favorite character of all time is in there n heson par with how i feel abt fitz vacker . I have to warn u each of the books is like over 1000 pages n it took me forever to get through them but itll Change you. unquestionably

[kindestegg]

i like it when characters who have lived up to a certain point believing their destiny is to be the antagonist (not necessarily even knowing theyre an antagonist- just that their role ends up being that in the plot, one that impedes the protagonist or clashes with them) realize that theyd rather change completely due to their new experiences and embrace this new thing because what they have seen is worth fighting for

and i like it when characters who have been kicked down all their lives n ignored finally get to have someone look at them with kindness n offer them the chance to heal n start to find their real selves peeling away all the layers of maladaptive coping

im not really sure what youd call those arcs, i guess the first could fall under a type of redemption? id say maybe self redemption even, a character who doesnt necessarily need to be reasoned with just realizes they want to switch sides because it feels right. the second one though, i think it can be applied to any type of character, not just antagonists, any character that starts out kicked down n slowly comes into their own...

i guess i enjoy revolutionary self discovery n catharsis arcs more than anything. and to be fair in a way that also does include corruption arcs. i like it when characters feel like theyre cornered n cant go anywhere else but downwards, feel like the only thing left to try is to be one of the bad guys, because then maybe if they lash out and take control itll stop the hurt, maybe theyll gain respect, the power they crave.

either way its always like. "im unsatisfied with the way things are right now. somethings got to give. something needs to change. if i dont change something im going to go insane. maybe this is me going insane. but its all i can think to try."

[videostak]

really literally no idea where to go from here. i mean i know my best bets are to get a job and to continue college but searching for a job has been a complete dead end and no amount of time has changed that and im really gonna have to like hardcore study my ass off to even be comfortable taking classes again so that i dont have a repeat of failing all my classes liek b4.  i just feel so completely disenchanted with the world atm and like i kno things will if not get better than atleast change which should make things different but like its just hard to even know where to go or what to do when u meet someone and meet all their friends and have to learn secondhand that not a single one of them thinks of u as being worthy of being treated with respect and like a decent human being. llike its not exactly easy to just get back up on your feet and run into the same brick wall face first again. if it was something that happened over the span of like a 2 months or so or even a year maybe it wouldntve fucked me up so bad but the fact that like 3 years of my life went by like this really just makes me feel like i have to learn how to walk again. like the level of vulnerabilty and trust i put in people and that people are well aware of me putting in them just for them to act like they dont even know me is insane like thats not something im really willing to put myself in a position to go through again. and everyone in the entire world telling that that friendship and human connection is the most vital thing in life and the only reason for living is like fucking me up too like its true but hearing it for all my life for me to be treated that way by peoplewho believe that too is rly just like messing w/ my brain. like to consistently meet and trust shitty ppl is one thing but its happened so consistently in my life that like it just pours into the way i think abt everything and i dont really kno if or who i can trust anymore like even when i pour three years of my life trying to build and maintain a friendship wiht someone who claims to be doing the same i dont think ill ever actually know the comfort since the rug can so easily be sweeped from under my feet any secodn as far into the friendship as possible. it just like reaches the point where i dont wanna think abt it anymore or think anymore and like to not even have any of their friends even check up on me or ask for my side of the story is so insane like i get it im not worth caring abt but like its insane that ppl can knowingly do such awful things unchecked and just go on with their life with all of their close friends writing it off as an average imperfection and to continue to consider them an angel in every aspect. like really just cannot trust people anymore and like i start to see feel patterns that just make me want to nap for days straight. been using bumble and just wanna keep it just so that i can say im trying but like i dont kno if ill not ever feel horrible abt that vulnerabilty and the way ppl treat me. guessing its cause when ppl catch wind of me not having any other friends they realize they can do whatever and that i wont have any1 to gossip to and that itll never come back to bite them.

[squiretinnion]

hi okay i have begun my journey into Painting The Little Guys and it is. Less straightforward than i was expecting for some reason. what is a wash. how do i drybrush. how do i know if i need to use primer or not. you do not have to answer these questions but i would greatly appreciate resources/advice for someone who has not picked up a paintbrush since middle school 🥺😭

Hi!!!

I am sorry if this is insanely long but here we go... The foundations of the little guys is your main thing I think, if you have resin guys you should give them a lil dish soap bath first but if they are plastic ur good. Priming is in my book essential for them, easiest once they are built but if ur a rebel like me I prime when they are still on sprues 😅 any ol primer is fine, you don't need expensive stuff for this, I use an off white or black cheap spray paint, just gets em a nice even base to work with!

Drybrushing! Is super cool to do, you should use a chunky round brush working from your darkest shade to lightest, get a little paint on a palet of anykind (mcdonalds napkin coz they got that shine so the paint just doesnt soak into it, or an actual palet😅) and like circularly work it through the brush so only a little paint is all over the bristles then just gently working it with a tiny bit of paint at a time over the model in circular motion,,, i will say its better for detailed larger models or scenery bits, love it for big walls, and its a little harder on a smaller more figure scale to get into little nooks and things but its a cool effect!

Washes are the best especially for folks newer to model painting, same with contrast paints! once you have ur lil guy painted with all the colours you want, and its all dry, thats when you do the wash, i use a darker wash to add shadow super quickly, just cover the areas wanted, itll be super runny and thin so you just spread it where you want and dont need much, but you can get cool washes i have ones for mud blood and oil haha, easy shadows and effects, but you can get all kinds and glowy ones and things😉!

You can also get effcts paints like that if you wanna go all out, mostly muds and snows and stuff for terrain 🙂

A good miniature brush is worth it i would say too, look after your brush babiez!

Citadel paints are well known for a reason lol but any miniature paints are good!

I absolutely will answer any and all questions if you need anything! I love my lil plastic guys ❤️

[this-should-do]

hold on hold on wait a min, thinking about my tags for the art i just posted about the hig scene with alyx and talking about the difference between the hug with barney and the hug with alyx and the symbolsim those hold in terms of gordon relationship with the two

like with barney gordon started that hug, barney returned it (granted with a sorta more placating mindset but also hes deep down relieved to see gordon) but then gordon immeditaley pulls away paranoid about bejng atracked and not truly recognizing barney and that kinda sets the whole tone of their relationship,

gordon wanting to have that fsmiliarity but not being able to handle the change around him and it scaring him, but when he does manage it, however short, barney humors him for both their sakes but never truly gets close becajse of the time since he personally was close to gordon, before gordon pulls back again and is worse than he was before, barney cant ever let himself fully feel those moments of respite from the cold armor and let things be the way before becuz itll hurt all that mich more when gordon pushes him away, so hes always keeping gordon at arms length, furthering the dissonance between the barney gordon knew and the barney now, maki g it even harder for gorson to come back close

and with alyx, she i itiates it, shes so daamn relieved to see gordon and she hugs him on instinct doesnt think about personal space she just Needs to express herself, and gordons there, he takes it and doesnt say a word, but its such a shock of overwhelming emotion that it reminds him that hes a person worth caring for, not a weapon thats thrown out once its done its job, and that hurts and then it hurts (both the i tense emotional realization and the mental pain of touch and expecting hurt to come after) some more when she pulls away it hurts some more because hes alone again, and he Has to be a weapon again or hell fall and never be able to get up again

like gordon and alyxs whole relationship is outwardly pulled by alyx herself shes the one careying the convo, shes pushing the plot forward, gordon is the one along for the ride he just helps when hes needed, alux gives and gives and initiates and gordon just stands there and takes it, files it away for later but he reciprocates it in the cracks of his armor, but he Cant give it back, not just yet not as he is now, its not safe to for him he dossnt know how anymore and it hurts but alyx is there still and hell be there quietly helpinh when hes needed and giving when he can

god just FUCK going INSANE, going insane

[misqnon]

hi one piece anon back again. i shall call myself march so that next time i send in an ask i dont have to type out "i sent the asks about one piece" (too wordy. much easier to just write a name)

i so appreciate ur 2k words ,, i think u have successfully eliminated my anxiety abt talking too much !! ur very sweet 🥹 thank u /p!! electronic pen pals!!! that is so fun !! :D

i went back to watch wano after catching up (im like halfway through the arc) and genuinely the animation is so good!! (its also rly funny because they made zoro super sexy at every opportunity.. they upped his fanservice by a million. i love it. as a zoro fan.) its probably worth it to watch the anime for that part if ur interested?? although the pacing is still super slow so it might be better to read the manga first and THEN watch wano if ur still hyperfixated on one piece at that point. i went back to wano cuz i was feeling sad about being caught up and not having any more content to consume.

ive seen clips of the fights and they look so fantastic and cool and hype and AGH . i havent gotten to any big fights yet but its been a lot of fun seeing the characters all colored and .. moving. its also kind of sad to watch though cuz you can TELL some of the voice actors are really struggling. my love franky.. i love his voice acting but he sounds so rough in wano :((. his is probably the most obvious example but if u pay attention u can tell with most of the voice actors who've been doing the show for a long time.

i havent watched the live action because netflix sucks (i dont live with the account owner currently and i HAVE TO if i want to use netflix) but i have seen how many people have gotten into one piece bc of it, and i have seen a lot of clips. and i know people love it and its very highly regarded. (also i kinda love what they did with sanji (i miss his twirly eyebrows though 😭)) so i have a lot of respect for it despite never watching it myself!! im also so excited for "the one piece" bc even though i know next to nothing about it, if its adapting this wonderful universe full of lovable characters in a way that actually HELPS the manga rather than HURTS it.. well. how could i complain.

i DO think u got into one piece at a really good time!! ive heard a lot of "if you want to get into one piece, this is your last chance" and "now is the best time to start one piece" and i think theyre right. although hearing its your "last chance" is kind of anxiety inducing personally LOL. i think itll be really difficult to avoid spoilers after the series ends though so in that sense.. theyre probably correct. at the pace youre going i dont think one piece will end before you catch up. oda's on a 3 week break right now too so imo you have plenty of time!! i think wano is about 150 chapters and theres a LOT going on so it might take you a while, but this is the final SAGA not the final arc dont worry!! im picturing the straw hats visit at least 2 more islands after the current arc. although obviously im not oda so i have no idea if thats accurate LOL

i think no matter what im gonna feel like i have questions unanswered when one piece ends, just cuz i am so insanely invested in . the whole world of one piece. i want to know everything about everything. but i DO think oda will answer the big questions, and i agree that he probably wont just leave us wondering. the newest arc is already kind of answering a lot of questions (and... developing MORE mysteries LMAO)

i hope i didnt make you feel like its WRONG to like sanji bc it isnt!! just cuz i cant get behind him doesnt mean that i think people who like him are bad people or anything remotely like that. i mean. i love doflamingo. and hes an AWFUL person. i hate his guts... but i love him. hes such an interesting character and i want to dissect him and analyze him and . i love to think about him. and hes comforting in some weird way.

so u loving sanji is no issue!! i dont want u to feel like u have to defend urself (although i DO like hearing ur reasoning behind why you like him because its interesting, and it makes me think harder about how i feel about him).

also personally i dont see an issue with consuming media that is problematic in some ways. if the creator is a bad person i think its fine as long as ur not excusing their actions!! i would kind of rather not support oda because i dont like him as a person (which is a personal decision, im not gonna criticize people who support him financially), but i do LOVE one piece and yes. his biases DO affect the story.. but since i dislike oda i usually say "fuck the word of god" and do what i want with the characters. i think its a lot more fun that way!!

sanji is such a mess (affectionately) so i can definitely see the appeal!! half the reason i love one piece characters so much is bc theyre all so SILLY. so unbearably silly. they all have stupid moments, they all have funny moments, and i adore silly people. my dislike for sanji is, mostly, resentment borne out of my intense hatred for being pushed into a box by society. it is almost purely personal. like yes him being a pervert is disgusting and annoying and i hate it, but i think i would be able to ignore it if i didnt feel so personally attacked??? by him?? LOL. i think thats kind of silly tbh . i would usually be able to brush his pervertedness off as a flaw of oda's rather than something to blame sanji for. but since i already have some ... *intense* feelings towards him, the pervert thing just serves to fuel my anger.

but all of that is just My Personal Feelings about him!! i do love him in headcanon/fanon most of the time, and even if i hate him in canon i still also love him purely because hes a straw hat and i love and adore all of the straw hats. they feel like real people to me. and i am obsessed with them. i root for them at any chance and i believe they will find the one piece... if they werent the main characters and therefore guaranteed to find the one piece i would still believe in them 1000%!! <- big nerd thing to say .

also one thing i wanted to ask u about is if u noticed the parallels during whole cake island between sanji taking luffy food and the flashback of sanji taking sora food?? i LOVED that moment. he runs through the rain, has to try to keep a dog from eating the food, and when he finally gives it to the person its all soggy and wet and he apologizes. but they say its delicious. and they smile. i KNOW he was thinking of his mom at that moment with luffy. and i just... ugh.. sanji . sobbing . maybe u talked about rhis and i just missed it but I NEED to know that u saw it.. my favorite sanji lover

this is way more than 4000 characters so i have one upped you!! haha!! [triumphant] (lets hope it all fits in the ask box .. ive never written this long of an ask)

that works, very slay 👍 hi march!!

answering under cut as per usual

first of all i missed ur message bc it came in on april fools amongst all the boops 💀 i’m glad i happened to check my inbox jdnjvnvhv

you can call me mont! (or just misqnon, if you want) i am so glad my rambling eliminated ur anxiety bc i literally do not judge whatsoever and also clearly i am. Just as hyperfixated LMAO

WANO’S ANIMATION LOOKS SOOOO PRETTY…i wont lie ive watched a few clips bc i couldnt help myself. Im still in the middle of WCI but i want to get to wano sooo bad. And i probably will just read wano first (bc . time) but i ABSOLUTELY want to watch it at some point. And yes they 100% picked up on the zoro fanservice my god (i am ALSO a zoro fan. Sanji, robin, zoro, and franky are my fav strawhats and i love them all immensely) he is so goddamn buff in wano what the hell did they feed that guy…they beefed all the guys up in wano though it seems DSJNJKD

Speaking of wano zoro @ dykealloy made this. absolutely insane edit of Zoro, Mihawk, and Katakuri to the song CVNT by sophie hunter and it has a lot fo clips from wano that make me froth at the mouth (link here - be warned of explicit language, obv)

YEA THE VOICE ACTORS MANNN 😭 I prefer the dub bc i actually like everyone’s voices and its what im used to (except luffy, i do prefer sub for him) but i know the og voice actors are getting up there in age…Part of the reason i don’t like the sub as much is bc you can tell the VA’s are way older than the characters they’re voicing and it’s just a bit. Odd (as much as i love the VAs and obvi it’d be weird to change it at this point)

netflix does suck !!!! i was living with my bro at the time so i watched it on his account but yea i dont have access to watching it anymore either :( taz skylar my fucking beloved. The live action cast is all insane. Theyre so cute and funny every single one of them. If u have extra time u should watch all the funny cast videos they did on youtube where they play charades and do little prompts together. The clips of them interacting at cons and out doing promo for the show is usually pretty cute too. Opla wasnt perfect or necessary but it was fun as hell and u can tell the showrunners had a passion for the show. 

I keep making progress in chunks so hopefully i can catch up within the next few months 🧍ive been so busy i havent been able to read in a while! (and also. Whole cake makes me a bit emo) even 2 more islands like ur suspecting would be a blessing. I mean. They still have to go to elbaph right?? And raftel/laughtale so. Thats already 2. Okay i feel better already lmao)

Im so curious about egghead im going insane but i will refrain. Somehow i havent seen any spoilers for it YET (aside from some stuff about bonney and kuma)

ALSO YOU DID NOT MAKE ME FEEL LIKE ITS WRONG TO LIKE SANJI LMAO you were super nice and didnt imply anything i just have catholic guilt about liking him. No one has even ever said something to me in that manner i just know he’s. Complicated. And also sometimes he Sucks. So i’ve thought about it a lot (clearly). 

And coming off of that DUDE I LOVE DOFFY. I watch a lot of melonteee on youtube and even before i was anywhere near doffy they had me on the doflamingo train. He is so insane and weird and downright evil. i drew him one time 😶‍🌫️My last big fandom back in like 2014-2017 was JJBA and my favorite character as Dio and let me tell you. The similarities between their characters is insane (oda / araki crossover event when,) 

The only difference is that doffy is written to be downright evil, while sanji is supposed to be seen in a good/humorous light even though his worst jokes are uh. Not great joke material (momoiro island and all of sanji’s weirdest pervert gags appears behind me). Thanks oda 👍i still get what ur saying though!

And tbh i dont blame you at all for disliking his (or any) character for personal reasons. Its really not that silly. Having recently discovered i might be kinda trans does not do his bits any favors lmao. And as an afab person who hates gender roles and sexism with a burning passion (and almost minored in WGS) BELIEVE ME the treatment of women in one piece pisses me off in a personal way all the damn time. But again, i blame oda for all this. Attacking oda with my hooves at all times every day at every chance

Looping back around to oda/problematic material ur very right. Maybe its bc i was raised on tumblr from age 12 through the worst of the Social Justice Discourse Era but i still get iffy about even consuming content that promotes gross shit in any capacity. I know im bending to the will of randos on the internet who dont even deserve my time or worry, but alas, thats my own problem. I do agree that to some extent i’ll say fuck it and enjoy stuff for my own enjoyment over being “woke” or whatever but there’s always a line to be drawn imo. But for op? Yea fuck it im finishing this damn historic manga if it kills me

I AGREE ABT FEELING LIKE THE STRAWHATS ARE REAL PPL…CALL ME SILLY. Part of it is the fact they’ve been around so long that half of them have existed for as long or longer as their actual canon age. Like. THEY’VE EARNED THAT HUMAN EXISTENCE AT THIS POINT RIGHT, 

Nah but their characterization is pretty damn well done if youre one of the characters oda doesnt sideline coughrobinfrankychopperbrookcoughcough 

And YES. YES I NOTICED THAT PARALLEL. I DIDNT SAY ANYTING BC I’D SEEN IT BEFORE ONLINE BUT I. WAS SO EMOTIONAL OVER IT. the fact that luffy is so special of a person to the whole crew that he can mirror people as important as their late mothers and just. augh,/. Fuck. they say the same line with that same smile….it’s just great storytelling. I dont like oda either but unfortunately he’s damn good at what he does most of the time. (am. Am i your favorite sanji lover. Is that me. Im so honored. he is such a mess but he is My Mess. Please tell me ur fav characters in the next ask (strawhat and otherwise!!)) 

Also damn u totally did one up me. Uhhh here since ur apparently a zoro lover pls take some of these drawings i did of him that i keep forgetting to finish/post in an attempt to one up ur one up)

[ghostgirlyuri]

whenever i cant find any good yuri manga to read i go read a bunch of trashy gl webtoons and sometimes they take hold of my brain like nothing else

the one ive been reading is called best served cold its the rare good one its very kdrama and while not nearly as good does remind me a little bit of white angels get no rest but it seems like itll have a happy ending which im down for

its main couple have a 12 year age gap and omggg the younger one starts the series seeming very serious and in control but now shes just soooo 22 years old its insane her early behavior now just comes off as like play acting as a mature adult im obsessed

i do find their relationship kinda sweet if a bit dysfunctional so i hope they end up together and the side characters are all pretty interesting if you like trashy korean gl drama webtoons like me i suppose its worth reading

[lizlmao]

my brain is like a seething fire, crashing into this unfathomable rage that is beyond me to comprehend. its like river, aggressively slam into everything in its path. no righteous trail in mind, nothing can do to stop bursting all this infuriation i thought i would not have. this is surreal, even for me. thought i have it under control, to be kinder and gentle to the people i love, to even understand the psychology of one’s lack of, to be of someone’s back no matter what. years and years of learning on finally how to love and forgive others misfortune. a burst of beam with such of delight. a happy little go me, a shit ton of smiles and cheery.

BUT NO.

that leads me to be in verge of

self abandonment. how the fuck

am i wasting time learning all this

for a greater good of a society?

what am i gaining for all these years

of understanding you people but

unable to even delve on my misfortune?

what made you think to even have

junk of worth, upon me slaving on

working your emotions? no matter,

all this is my problem—for no one is

asking me to even be a slave in this

community. but what is rly my

problem or who even tf am i?

the guilt ive been collecting is insane. why would i leave the place crashing with dirts and mess? even leaving my love ones behind? a little brain in trouble, assuming everyone hating my flaws of being. should i disappear to no ones sight and start something new? but itll be crashing again with the same trouble. says thee, “accept its chaos, adore thy flaws” i should eh? but dear me i am just mentally fucking exhausted. where should even start? to fix my own misfortune and to stop this pessimism for once? where does it leave me? feeling like a crumpled used paper that was scratched with pens and highlights.

[wondermentishere]

fuck. life has been hitting me hard with realizations. im just considering alot of shit i never considered before. my dreams lately i have been about my mom, a person i really need to get over, and transitioning.

im pretty set on wanting to start t and get top surgery but ive also recognized that theres more to transitioning than just my appearance changing. as i change, so will the world around me and how it interacts with me. i know men have all this fucking privilege, but the more i reflect, the more i conclude being treated like a man fucking sucks. i just feel like it makes life alot more harsh and lonely despite material gain being easier. i already know there are aspects of being perceived as a woman that i will miss. first off, cis privilege is so insane. i like how soft strangers are with me even though im pretty sure its rooted in misogyny. i think ive really gotten okay with people thinking so little of me. when the bar is low so is the pressure and being an overachiever is no one’s expectation but mines. i love how welcoming and trusting girls are to me even if it makes me uncomfortable. i also really love connecting with lesbians and instantly being recognized as community when they see me. now, these are all things i can certainly live without, but will still be a drastic shift to get use to.

i think the biggest concern of mine is being left without community. at work im naturally so quiet and reserved (and anxious) around cis men and even straight women. its funny, because today i met this girl i really clicked with easily and then i found out she was a lesbian lol. like my entire personality just blossomed before me in her presence and im afraid that i wont have access to that anymore when i go on t. i identify heavily with being a man although i would still say im nonbinary but… what if i start passing? no lesbian is going to want me in their space, you know? also, im scared ill never be able to have a real brotherhood with other guys cause i literally was raised as a girl. like am i too different forreal to be considered a guy in men’s spaces? i question all this plus weighing the possible health concerns and decide its probably not worth it. i think about who ill be to my family when im older and im not sure im completely okay with being considered a dad or a grandpa. im so fucking nonbinary i wanna look like a man and still be someone’s mom or grandma without feeling like im fucking up or confusing my children. so much to consider. i really need a new therapist but ive been struggling so hard with money lately itll probably have to wait until december.

when i daydream i imagine myself taking my first t shot on christmas as the biggest, most exciting gift to myself, especially because i know ill be alone. i dont know, we’ll see. two requirements i have for myself is to 1. have my voice working again and 2. have a therapist who specializes in trans care.