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What about reader being Langdon’s sister 👀 she’s so different to her older brother, sweet and quiet and doesn’t show off, Langdon is definitely the protective type as well, can imagine if we had seen them interact more Abbot and Langdon would butt heads frequently
ooooo i like this a lot. as always its langdons adopted sister dont forget it folks. hmm you’re cooking because it would be really funny if everyone was expecting langdon 2.0. little langdon!!!! like little grey. and maybe you’re very different from him so it’s even funnier. if someone asks for langdon they have to clarify which one. if they say ‘the nice one’ they mean you!! i think it’d be funny to see them bickering over patient care like siblings fighting over a toy. your langdon-ness really comes out when you’re arguing with frank over course of action but disappears with virtually everyone else though they know it’s inside of you (like when a patient is rude and you say something biting without thinking twice about it or when it comes to defending your favorite attending because your brother is a dumbass. guess who, by the way.) because they put you on night float after the first few months because everyone’s gotta suck it up and try it at least once. you didn’t even expect yourself to like it as much as you do, though you know why you do. in a sea of a hundred people in day shift telling you you’re nothing like frank, jack stops you after your first night shift and tells you he sees a lot of your brother in you. and you’re confused but it’s seven am so you go home and think about what he meant the entire day. ask for an explanation the next day—you know robby likes your brother but you’ve never heard anything about jack getting along with him (makes sense. your brother is such a nuisance. you don’t know how mel puts up with him all day.) and then jack says something about how you both have great instincts and quick hands and when you jump headfirst into a trauma and say you’ve got a spidey sense about something he sees frank in you back when he was a first year on night float with jack. and your response is you think i have great instincts? and so he kind of laughs and you kind of stick to night shift long after you should have begged to be pulled off. and oh ho, boy is your brother mad when he finds out you two are dating. even besides the age difference which is appalling to him (though he watched heather and robby go nuts for each other for six months their first year and did nothing but encourage heather to go for it) he’s your boss!!! he’s your attending!! it’s a conflict of interest (like him dating a co-resident isn’t when he’s about to be an attending next year.) and suddenly frank goes from arguing with you at every turn to very seriously defending you and having a stern conversation with jack about his intentions and eventually cracks and yells at him—by the way, jack is still his attending, he’s still a fourth year—and yells something like you can’t date my sister! and then something else about you’re twice her age and she’s a first year and i don’t care about robby and collins and this is not the same thing and- jack listens very patiently, and then looks around at the dozen people who overheard the conversation, pats frank on the shoulder, and walks away. and when you find out what happened is the first time everyone in the day shift saw just how much like frank you could really be
#hahaah this is a lot I’m sorry#I spiraled about my practical so I needed to escape for about 10 min#love u lots and lots#📮 asks#jack abbot
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[ DO NOT REPOST, ALL ART & CONCEPTS WERE MADE BY ME ]
Father Finlee (Full Name Unknown)
Species: Alexander Archipelago Wolf (AKA Black Wolf)
Accent: Russian
Role:
Leader of the Order of the Light
Former Slave of the Призрачный щит Fortress (AKA The Phantom Shield) Lead by the Followers of the Great леший (Leshiy)
Relations:
Mother Zinaida, Mama Izolda, Sister Tatiana, Sister Iness, Sister Jelena (His wives, who have bore him 21 children)
Joseph Hughes (Right Hand, Head of his Guard)
Saídê of the Palace (Enemy, Former Slavemate, Fellow Soldier)
Maren of the Palace (His once desired)
Y.N. Palace (Former Follower . . . Chosen one of the вознесенный)
Fale Tsuyoshi (Enemy, Target)
The Spectator (Selected Ally)
The Hatter Trio (Questionable Alliance)
Personality:
Cult? Cult.
Astute. Finlee is nothing but careful in everything he does. Every move is calculated, precise. Even as a young pup he saw things others didn’t.
He has quite the temper but he doesn’t show it as often as he used to. He was much more brash and hard headed as a young man, and would easily throw himself in harm's way for a more “brutal” result.
(Man was a BEAST on the battlefield, I'm just saying~)
He prefers to dominate his opponents in the most humiliating way possible, but pure violence is never off the table.
Man is a PERV!!!! P. E. R. V. E. R. T.–PERVERT!!! Do NOT be alone with him!!!! I repeat, you cannot trust this man! – I understand he’s attractive, don’t do itttttttt I begggggg TvT
I don’t care if you’re happily married with two kids and a grandchild, I’m still going to FLIRT with you!!!!
(Wow that wasn’t specific at alllll)
“My dear~” in the most husky voice he can manage (Me: *bangs face into table 20 times*)
Imagine a very flirty Shere Khan (Jungle Book) . . . Yes.
. . . . masochist
How old are youuuuu????
(Answer: Ancient)
It’s called . . . torture~
(Literally his favorite pastime.)
Somehow this man has weaseled his way into every one of my friend’s hearts. They are all followers now, I literally don’t know what to tell you. Finlee has irl followers . . . I SEE YOU GOOGLING HOW TO FIND THE COMMUNE STOP IT!!!!
Neat freak, everything must be organized.
“Pick it up!” – “Nah” – “PICK. IT. UP.” – “Well since you said it like that . . . No <3”
(The man who tested his patience was promptly murdered at the scene. – @urautismdiagnosis-wistie )
The most Russian man that has ever Russianed . . . but evil.
Torture may be his favorite hobby but revenge? That’s his passion in life.
Screw you America.
Don’t ask also . . .
I am so sorry Fae.
No you don’t get context.
I should feel bad for Y.N.
“Should” being the opportune word here . . . @calamaroo 👀
I did . . . and then I started writing the Light Arch . . . Ya’ll need to apologize.
Don't ask why just do it!
I only feel bad for them before and after this arch . . . never during . . . you guys are meannnnn
Grade A Nuisance upon every sound minded person.
Oh you weren’t insane BEFORE you met him?
WeLl YoU aRe NoW!!!!!!!
For some reason his main wife, Mother Zinaida, is literally the only person he actually treats with equal respect. THIS MAN LOST AN EYE FOR HER!!! (Sure she lost an arm but it’s the thought that counts . . . right?)
TREATS 👏 HER 👏 Right 👏 . . . we are still trying to figure out if the other wives get that same privilege . . . *shrug*
Finlee has been around for a VERY long time. He knows what he’s doing. That being said, if you’re on his list (whichever one that may be) he already knows everything about you, down to your daily routine.
He knows your favorite food, your fav. picnic spot, where you keep your grandmother’s diadem, even your mother’s elementary boy crush.
It’s too late for you.
Finlee has his ways.
I promise, you do NOT trust himmmmm!!!
DON’T FALL FOR HIS HOTNESSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!
TwT
Listen at your own risk . . .
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Welcome home my dear~
[ This is a Octonauts AU, in no way is this canon to the OG storyline. ]
#welcome#dear#child#to#the#circle#ascend#with#us#father finlee#octonauts#octonauts fanart#octonauts story#octonauts above and beyond#octonauts the asa#octonauts oc#octonauts au#y/n#octonauts the order of the light#octonauts y/n#octonauts the order of light
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demisexual john of liechtenstein?
‘I'd let him bed me.’
The thought strikes him, sitting in the basement, wine on his tongue, and Samuel's reluctantly smiling face golden in the candlelight, looking so unguarded that John can imagine it possible that he might reach out and actually touch him.
‘With nothing to gain, I'd still let him, if he wanted it. I'd let him, just to see what he looks like when he does.’
It's a mad thought, and John feels frozen in place, breath caught in his lungs, something half sickness and half longing churning in his stomach.
He's never… It's the first time he's considered the act as anything other than part of a calculation, a means to an end. It's the first time he's thought he might actually… enjoy it?
Sam touching him wouldn't be like the men and women he takes to bed for information, for favors, for blackmail. Not like Jobst's hand on his shoulder, pushing him to his knees. It wouldn't be rote, just following a script and hoping it'll be over before he runs out of correspondence to draw up in his mind.
Sam touching him would be… so welcome that the very thought of it makes John's skin tingle with the want of it. Sam touching him would make John ache with the need for more. It would keep his mind pinned down, helpless to be anything other than present in the moment, to pay attention - study Sam - lest he miss even a single expression passing over his handsome face.
Sam-
Sam is looking at him, eyes creased in something not quite worry, but definitely something like concern. “John? Mine Chaver, are you alright?”
The endearment hits his face like a cloud of steam, and he can only pray the heat in his cheeks is not as visible as it feels.
"Oh, quite alright,” he manages to laugh, hopefully not sounding too hysterical, despite the way his voice has gone a bit too high. “Just… maybe I'm a bit deeper in my cups than I thought.”
Sam's frown doesn't entirely ease, but he relaxes and sits back. “You're admitting to it? It must be bad then. Perhaps it's time to call it a night,” he says, a smile tugging at the corner of his mouth in that way that John has come to spend too much time trying to coax out of him. He finishes the last of his wine while John tries not to stare at his throat moving, before standing and collecting the dishes, pausing briefly to rest a hand on John's shoulder on his way out. “Good night, nuisance of mine,” he says, voice soft and low and reverberating in the marrow of John's bones.
‘You don't have to leave, there's a bed right there.’
“Yes!” he doesn't squeak, through some combination of force of will and miracle. "Yes, good night to you too, Sam.”
Oh, this is a problem.
#john x samuel#jamuel#john of liechtenstein#john ii of liechtenstein#samuel kcd2#samuel of kuttenberg#i'm ace and nd and so are all my favorite characters#mentioned john/jobst
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"Are you still sick? It's been so long." "When you're able to eat normally again, we can go to..." "But you're getting better every day, right?" "Do you really want to give up and let your life be just this?" "Why don't you go to take walks in nature? That's good for you." "Jesus will cure you. You have to start praying." "When are you back to being normal?" "When are you back to being normal?" "When are you...?" I DON'T KNOW! I DON'T FUCKING KNOW! I'M SORRY! FUCK.
#disability#actually disabled#physical disability#im so tired man sjajaksbsua#my body has been a wreck for a long portion of my life. but it's gotten worse. and i have learnt there is a point in this process#where your worth as a human being becomes conditional#on how well your recovery is going#if it looks like there is an end to this#people still have you in their good books#there is a chance you will become 'normal' and they won't have to be uncomfortable around you anymore#but if it's shaping up to be chronic? oh boy#they steer clear. fast#someone had said here that regarding this situation sympathy has an expiration date. and i think it is quite accurate#i dont know if you become a reminder that it could happen to them?#that they feel that because you cant do certain things your life is depressing and its a burden to have you around?#idk anymore man#but im gonna keep going forward.#if me being dead would be more convenient for the system#i am not going to give it the satisfaction#i will be a nuisance for as long as i can#so there's that#negative#not positivity#hawk says things
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Sometimes Severus comes up to Minerva. Right up behind her when she's busy. He'll stand there for a good minute as she works on marking assignments and cursing the boy's youthful energy and brilliant eyes- both of which directly responsible for his finishing his work in half the time it takes her.
"What is it, Severus?" Minerva sighs. Might as well get the obligatory nonsense over and done with, she was due a dose of Severus's antics by now (Merlin forbid he go more than three days without bothering her with nonsensical questions or infuriating wit).
"Am I ugly, Minerva?" he asked. Never there was a being with such innocence in their voice.
Minerva took a moment to take in a breath and silently call on all her patience and all her strength. "Yes, very." Her tone was blunter than the knives used to decorate at Halloween- an incident with some particularly idiotic third years had them ban anything sharper than the corners of a book during the Halloween celebrations.
Severus gasped as if stabbed. "What? Minerva, I thought we were friends!"
Minerva snorted. "Any time we interact, it's completely against my will."
"Minerva! you lie so shamelessly it shocks me." Severus made as if to swoon, a hand clutching the right of his chest.
"You must be shocked; your heart isn't where it should be."
Honestly, Minerva had to admire the fact that the insolent little kitten did not falter in his dramatics with her pointing out the key flaw in his act. If anything, he seemed to be encouraged.
"Ay! The pain of the shock, it has spread throughout my chest! Ah, I cannot breathe!" Severus swayed on his feet, leaning against the chair that Minerva was sitting in. "Oh, how your lie shocks me!"
"Well, then, you had better tell me what exactly I lied about," Minerva said briskly, "before you gasp all the air out of your skinny little lungs, laddie."
"You said," the boy said, a sudden glint in his eye and none of the apparent weakness, standing to face her and one of those long, delicate fingers pointed straight at her, "you said, that our interactions are without your will."
"That is no lie, what part of this looks like it's my will?" Minerva replied, knowing full well she wasn't going to appreciate the cheeky answer Severus had prepared for her.
"Why, the part where you remain for my company, mother," Severus replied, his voice light. "Surely, if you didn't want this, you would have, in your infinite wisdom, simply have employed your great power and assumed your famous feline form and just walked away from me."
Minerva fought her smile. His cheek was infuriating while his logic impeccable. "Perhaps I am simply conversing my energy, you arrogant wee rascal."
"You? Too lazy to avoid a nuisance?" Severus scoffed. "Minerva, you wound me. Don't you know how I know you? You've done much more to avoid the mildest of annoyances, do you truly think I believe that you are here against your will merely to converse your energy?"
Minerva let him see the flicker of a smile disgusted as a smirk, letting the bothersome raven have a little treat for his cleverness, hinting to him that he had essentially won this particular argument. "At my age you no longer have the patience to waste on annoyances. You learn to value your peace. You will understand that some day, I hope, little one."
"And if I die, my hair still black and my skin still smooth?"
Merlin, did the child have a turn towards the morbid. Minerva ignored the voice in her that told her that this would have been a retort of her own had she been in a similar conversation.
"Then you'll die a fool."
"A fool, perhaps, but my funeral will be the biggest," he replied, moving to sit on her desk and grabbing the biscuit jar. Minerva intercepted, lifting it from his grip and replacing it with a towel. His protests died in his confusion at the towel, and Minerva huffed and began to wipe his hands as if he was a child. She did not trust him to correctly clean his hands after handling goodness knows what when experimenting with his potions and she didn't care if he knew it.
"Aye, and how did you figure that?" she asked.
"Surely if I die young, I shall be the first. Therefore you all will be part of the funeral-"
"What makes you think I would want to attend your funeral, you little rascal?" She let go of his hands, almost satisfied that they weren't contaminated.
Severus ignored her and instead took a biscuit from the jar. "You will all be there, therefore I will have the biggest funeral. If I die old, you all shall be gone, so my funeral will be the smallest."
Minerva tried not to think of how depressing that sounded, how lonely it seemed. For a brief moment she felt guilty for being so old and he so young. She involuntarily could see him in her mind's eye, going through their funerals until he stood alone. She and the others- Rolanda, Pomona, Poppy, even Fillus and Hagrid- they were all of an age, weren't they? They could expect their lives to reach the end around the same time, surely? Severus was but a child next to them, he'd stand alone one day.
Minerva tried to ignore the ache in her chest at the thought of him standing alone. Merlin, no. He was far too young. No.
"You truly are besotted with the morbid and the miserable, you melanchonic masochist," she said, her tone just a trifle too sharp to be a simple retort.
Severus paused, swallowing the biscuit. Then he answered. "Ah, but the morbid is much more fascinating, the forbidden has a certain thrill, dear mother." His voice was a little softer, and his fingers, slightly coated in crumbs, were gentle when he tapped her forehead. He was sorry he upset her.
"You and your thrills," Minerva scolded, "yet you cannot even eat a biscuit without making a mess of yourself." Yet even as she spoke, the hand that she used to swipe the crumbs away, was gentle, almost tender, in its movement. She had quite forgiven him.
How could she remain angry? At this boy who looked at her with a scowl of indignation yet whose deep, dark eyes twinkled with mischief and cleverness and brilliance, who stood taller than her, yes, yet was far more delicate in his build than she had ever been, whose hair was as dark as hers had been in her youth, carelessly falling across his forehead. No, she could not remain angry.
If only he had been in Gryffindor, perhaps then she would have noticed him sooner. Or rather, if only her eyes didn't only open for her Gryffindors. How this boy could ever look at her without resentment and anger, she didn't know. Then again, he had been so incredibly isolated and lonely, was it any wonder he let go of his rightful grudges and instead accepted her friendship?
Minerva blinked as if soot from the fireplace got in her eyes. She didn't want him to notice the tears that almost inevitably formed whenever she thought about him. Who would have thought that she'd cry so much for the little devil?
"I'll leave you to your work, dear mother," Severus said cheerfully, hopping off her desk.
"Aye, after you've cleared out my biscuit jar, you villain" Minerva grumbled, looking into the empty jar. Severus shrugged.
"You ought to see it as a compliment towards your taste, really," Severus said. "But I see I have taken the last of your patience"- for indeed, Minerva looked ready to strangle him- "so I shall take my leave. Good night, my good Headmistress, and may you have peace in the silver embrace of the moon!"
And with a laughing twinkle in his eye and a boyish bow, Severus Snape left the room.
Minerva sighed. She wasn't sure if it was out of relief, or because she may have felt some sorrow at his departure.
The door opened again, and a rather meek Severus poked his head in.
"Er, Minerva?" he asked.
"Yes, Severus?"
"Er." Severus stepped in, looking away from her, walking with the awkward gait of a newborn foal, and the nervousness of a deer. "Er, Minerva?"
"Yes, Severus?"
"Am I really ugly, mother?" His voice was a whisper. His raven hair curtained his face, hiding his shame at asking such a pathetic question, and his fingers picked at one of the cuticles of a nail.
Minerva smiled, and walked to him. Softly she brushed the boy's hair out of his face and gently tucked it behind his ear.
"Only as long as you let yourself believe it, dear heart."
#severus snape#pro snape#professor severus snape#minerva mcgonagall#professor mcgonagall#right this was supposed to be a silly piece where snape simply asks minerva if she thinks he's ugly she says yes (messing with each other)#only for him to come back later all insecure and her being like “ofc you arent ugly”#but somehow it got blended with my lther thought of her and sev having a conversation#where sev essentially jokes about dying young refusing to die last#a sort of dark irony if you will because he did in fact die young#a conversation minerva recalls after he's gone and how she was like Nonsense only for it to come true#so yeah there's definitely a bit of the foreshadowy reference to Sev's death#because i like to be angsty#also to be clear severus is in his twenties here#he's been at hogwarts as a teacher long enough now to be more playful and silly and a general nuisance#but also a little affectionate too in his own way#(and definitely seeking a lil reassurance)#and he's definitely been here long enough for minerva to have 1) adopted him 2) realise how she's responsible for his trauma here#and 3) have way too many what ifs and regrets#anyway sev being a playful lil shit gives me life what can I say he enjoys being dramatic#especially if it annoys minerva
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DOES MY FAVORITE 33 YEAR OLD BOBBY GRILL (gender neutral) HAVE A JOB???????
yeah his job is being cute <3
#ask box#oc art#oc: sidra#ok the for real answer is that in obey me-verse he gets to get away with being unemployed as long as he's not being too much of a nuisance#and like getting decent enough grades and whatnot. he probably only really takes on odd jobs here and there for pocket money#he definitely had a job in the human world pre exchange program that he didnt like very much#i dont reeeeally know what that wouldve been (sorry mel) but if we're going true self insert route he can be a graphic designer i guess??#i think its less that he hated the job itself and a moreso a combination of not caring and not getting along too well with his coworkers#in ex and bee-verse life isnt as good he has to work <///3 i imagine he juggles like 2 jobs... and hes still broke oops#part time at the detective agency and part time doing who knows what... probably a shitty service job i dunno#he probably could go find a job that pays a biiiit better than the agency but a) hes a simp he cant do that and#b) no other job would be as chill about him taking naps on the clock even if he finished all his work
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was thinking about how hua cheng was a violent menace to society pre-3rd ascension - like the rumors weren't wrong or just about the 33 gods, cuz even just in the early reverend of empty words arc as he's going through the list sqx gives xie lian, he's like 'oh no yeah i killed this guy, this guy, this guy, he xuan killed this guy, i killed this one too... ....like they deserved it tho gege. you'd get it if you were there'
and he's always been a little psychotic, like he as a small child survived a whole assault on the battlefield -in front of xie lian, ie didn't just survive by basis of xie lian being so strong- and was like, slaughtering what had to have been grown men. he killed people(and we know he did, he never got the face disease despite coming in direct contact with the first victims and also becoming a nurse) and didn't even seem fazed by it, even while xie lian himself was trembling afterward about having killed people for the first time, 7 years his senior and having grown up with a sword in his hand.
so like. do you guys think he ever gets like that now. like after the honeymoon phase ends and xie lian insists on going back to scrap collecting because he can't just stay idle forever (and we know he still does this given the bedtime story extra), hua cheng starts causing trouble if his gege's not around.
half of me feels like he wouldn't wanna make his gege disappointed in him so he wouldn't get too bad but i can't shake how funny it would be if the heavens have to beg xie lian to take hua cheng with him on scrap collecting trips, like an unruly child that cannot be trusted alone and won't react well to babysitters
#tgcf#hualian#hua cheng keeps asking gege if he can come with#and xie lian is like scrap collecting? why would you want to do that#and also feels like if he gives in they're gonna be fucking out in a bush somewhere so tries to keep that distance#and ofc hua cheng aint gonna listen for that long when xie lian tells him to use his copybooks instead#and just the same was when i was a kid and my parents tried to punish me by making me sit and watch tv with them#and i'd be as annoying as possible until they'd get sick of me and tell me to go back to doing whatever#hua cheng is purposely as much of a nuisance and menace as possible to the heavens#till they beg xie lian enough that xie lian just has to take his san lang with#and ofc just as he feared. fucking in the bushes
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as an apology for being gone for a month, have a uquiz i spent a week making! pls feel free to reblog with which character you got, i worked way too hard on this silly little thing. there are eight different characters you can get that are varying levels of unknown, with comic recommendations for each character <3
#necrotic nuisance#batfamily#uquiz#batfamily uquiz#reblog for sample size#some of these characters are my fave but some are not#so I apologize if I didn't do them right I tried my best I swear#I can promise i've read all the comics recommended for each character tho!#so this was based on. something idk#I have no explanation for why I vanished for a month. it felt longer. but it also was a short month#it took time getting settled in and figuring out a routine with a baby#also answering those rlly long asks started draining me I got daunted kjjhgjkhjg#I love them tho! I will get to them#but expect them to be answered veryyy slowly now#I tried to post like 5-10 a day#and with my current life rn that is absolutely not feasible#Christmas break is coming up and my brother in law has two weeks off so! I should have spare time over the holidays to get back into it#also idk why but i've been fighting with writing#it's not even writer's block it's like I can't write well#idk what happened.#i think i'll go back to finish up the whump prompts bc it'll let me write without pressure#so expect those to come out!#i am proud of this quiz tho pls take it.#it took me so long.#I will not say which characters are in it bc I don't wish to clog tags#and I want it to be a surprise#of the ppl i've made take it so far tho I will say the breakdown of the most popular result is fascinating to me
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I just realized that I have a TON of picmix gifs I haven’t shown yet : O. Lydie’s gets to be her own separate post because I love her she’s so bestie and I’m very proud of this one :3.
#castlevania#castlevania games#akumajou dracula#akumajo dracula#lydie erlanger#castlevania harmony of dissonance#harmony of dissonance#gif collage#picmix#Lydie!!!!!!!!! yay!!!!!! :D#she’s on my dream cosplay list tbh hehe#I need to replay harmony of dissonance aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaagh#I’m forgetting events from it (TwT )#I like to think she’s a minor nuisance to Death the whole time he has her at any point of the game#pestering and poking fun at him until he stops paying attention to her for long enough that she can just leave the room hahahsjdjsk#I should make actual comics for character interactions like this aaaaaaaaaggggg#art post#i think?#but yeah :3#picmix is literally so fun#it’s so peak honestly#it’s basically like another form of character analysis if that makes sense?#I feel like it helps to understand and get to know a character better just to have all their elements and vibes in one maximalist collage#if that makes sense???
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Happi Lena :>
#wip#just our patootie selling desserts around town#her skirt is a bit short unlike the usual serpentina-like skirt which would be a nuisance to her whenever she go#unless if she's not selling then the long skirt will be used#will doing all of the drawings instead of sticking to one per art#so that i can color them anytime i want
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just got bloodwork done yesterday... results came back and some of them are uhh Not Normal
... now to wait for the phone call that will clarify what we're gonna have to do abt it :|
#clown horn#i'm ridiculously tired and my period lasts WAYYYY too long on average#which is always a nuisance esp given the life i'm gearing up to live#so my dr sent me away to do blood tests and uh. well#some results are too high? and some are too low#nervous laughing#hope it's not super bad and can be managed with medication#it's just SO weird to be doing lab tests for my dr to address these issues i've had for a while now#and also do lab tests for the gender clinic so i can get on t#i mean my dr is aware i am in the midst of starting to transition so she's most likely gonna keep that in mind#but i'm kinda like in a weird limbo bc i have no clue... what is gonna happen#i hope to GOD that the bloodwork doesn't stop me from getting t!!!!#if my health prevents me from transitioning i'm finally gonna do it i'm gonna end it all 🧍♂️
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hmmmmm. not feeling too swell
#UNDERSTATEMENT OF THE CENTURY!!!!!!!#im so miserable its not even funny. this is why i avoid thinkung about my life and my circumstances#youd think id be better by now but nope!!! still the same pos🫡 difference was i kinda put all of my problems on hold for a long while#the therapist id trued going to was fine at first but our last session she started treating me like a nuisance. safe to say i won't be#returning. like Girl i paid you MONEY u could at least try to be professional 😭 whatever. im thinking i need to look for another one.AGAIN.#ive gone to soo many different therapists. and as u can see... its been a waste of both time and money. swag.#ranting helped a bit but damn im still feeling miserable. so much for finally being “”normal“”#(• ▽ •;)
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🍎 🍇 🧅
Hi, Rebecca my beautiful mutual. Thank you for the ask as always <3
I'm answering for just one f/o today I think (feelin lazy lol)
🍎 - How easily does your f/o get sick? How stubborn are they about getting themself treated, or having their wounds taken care of?
Goku rarely gets sick, but when he does he can be quite stubborn! It's not that he doesn't want to be treated; it's that he doesn't like medicine, or having to lay in bed all day for multiple days. He will try to exercise or train while sick, and it can sometimes end up in an argument. Because he shouldn't be doing that! He needs rest! He's gonna make himself feel worse! But Goku doesn't care, 'cause he doesn't like being idle for more than a day. Goku also isn't the biggest fan of doctors, especially when sick. He's terrified that he might be given a shot instead of oral medicine, especially when he resists taking them. He's fine with getting wounds/injuries treated though, whether by a medical professional or Viti, as long as no one points a syringe his way (same tbh)
🍇 - Is your f/o more generous or more selfish?
I feel like Goku leans more towards selfish, though not terribly so. He doesn't always consider others feelings, however that's more out of ignorance than anything else. He wants what he wants, and it's not easy to change his mind when he's locked onto something. Even if it gets in the way of others or anyone's plans beyond his own. But he does care about others, and is around when it matters the most. He gives people the benefit of the doubt, even when they don't deserve it.
🧅 - What are people’s initial reactions to your f/o, and what have you learned about them now that you’re close to each other?
A lot of people think that Goku is dumb, or way too naïve, but that certainly isn't the case. He can be an airhead, sure, even ignorant at times, but he's definitely not stupid. He's very knowledgeable about his interests, strategic, observant when he wants to be, and aware of himself and his surroundings.
Viti discovers that he's also more emotionally aware than others believe. He doesn't always show it, because he doesn't think it's any of his business when people are upset or bothered. He'll offer an open ear or a shoulder to lean on, but won't press. He comes off as more nonchalant as a result. But he can tell when something's not right, or when somebody is excited but hiding it, or when the mood switches because of poorly spoken words. He knows, he just doesn't show that he does. Though with Viti, he will. With her, he makes the effort to.
#spars and stars#carrot cake 🥕#sorry this took so long. I had to think about the answers for a bit#...and then briefly forgot this ask was in my drafts. lol#frog mail#self shipping#self ship#selfship#yumeship#yume shipping#yumeshipping#yume ship#I really liked these questions btw#it gave me a chance to discuss goku's more negative traits which I don't often get the opportunity to mention#to me he is not a simple 2 dimensional character. he's got his flaws just as much as he has his perks#in my mind/selfship universe he's well rounded and more nuisanced than in canon#a lot of selfship prompts questions and imagines focus on more positive things about one's f/o#and while that's great its not realistic for someone to only have positive things associated with them#I feel like characters needs flaws in order to be interesting#thats one of the reasons I love goku so much. he's considered a great guy but he's got quite a few flaws that make him imperfect#my favorite quote ever is#“There's no such thing as perfect. You're beautiful as you are Courage. Even with your imperfections you can do anything.”#its from courage the cowardly dog lol. but I stand by those words#imperfect is good. I love it. I love imperfect characters <3.
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i think itis funny in the past when i would list my interests as if i post abt them i donot post abt the shit im into rly Mainly bc im not rly Into Into anything anymore i occasionally watch or read or play something but i dont do fandom stuff rly much.... just sometimes i get brainworms
#do i still list my interests somewhere i dont knowwww#i just stopped rly being into fandom a few years ago combination depression antipathy + bad experiences in fandom spaces#but idk. me listing my interests didnt rly accomplish anything for anyone bc it was just like anddd just so you know i was crazy abt this#video game for a rly long time it probably wont ever come up again but it might maybe one day. yk. ig its just sharing info Which is one#supposes the point of all of this but idk#its not that im cagey abt my interests except that one which i cant talk abt publically bc its a triple a game and im embarassed abt it. no#anything bad im just embarrassed . its not anything any of my oomfies have ever posted abt either so its just for me. and lamp . and when#the third game comes out i might post very very very vaguely abt it ......... possibly.#but ya its like. idk i think you guys have to find out abt my plague tale obsession on your own through lived experience. aka just me seein#like the word king and randomly collapsing to the floor and going KING HUGO 😭😭😭😭😭 oh god hugo guys oh god . please play plague tale#i wish i had finished that tw thing i started making but then i got too focused on the color palette and making it look nice and i stopped.#umm tw child death animal death The plague some gorey stuff theres some cult things in the second game ummm. yeah ..... its rly special to#me tho i love those games PLAY PLAGUE TALE!!! and if u need more indepth tws ill give them to you even if i have to replay both games to#refresh my memory... lamp wont play plaguetale with me (not their speed) so im all alone </3 but i miss it i might replay soon... i wish i#was in like discord servers so i could play it on call w ppl or something <- is in discord servers but is shy and Also i feel like playing#game on call is like a level like 2 friendship thing and i cant even do level 1 friendship things like i feel i need to at least be talking#regularly in a server b4 i like try to do Calls in the server esp for plague tale bc its like a 1p game so wed need a rapport to like have#shit to talk abt and etc ..... i could just infodump abt the game but again i feel doing that to like strangers/oomfies would b weird. ik i#come on here and talk abt whatever i want but its like you guys dont Have to read this and its not like a server where Yeah im not talking#to one person but im still like Oh well ive sent a message and its in the channel and everybody just has to look at it and whatever.#but on here i post i nobody cares and it just gets pushed down and its Fine bc its not like anybody has to feel obliged to respond#which is fine. you know.. i just hate being like a nuisance i hate . idk how to phrase. imposing myself on others ig.. which is dumb bc the#i turn around and whine abt how i have no friends and its like Maybe that is bc you donot talk to anyone bc yr scared they will be annoyed#with you and you dont leave the house and have no interests to bond with ppl and etc. but basically the difference is ive written all this#and you guys can just not read it or you can just read it and ignore it and its different. even tho i am like addressing you and i do have#like. weird parasocial thing with My followers or whatever where i talk directly to you YES YOU! reading this. IDKK im rambling so much i#dont know what im talking abt anymore. i proooooobably need to go to sleep im hungry tho but im not but i am. but i think my sleep is getti#off schedule again i had trouble sleeping yesterday too... ugh
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missing venti hours
#i am having thoughts . but i am not too confident to make them their own posts#mmmost notably#about how nice of a thought it is — to imagine a bard that ven can get to hold again. to hear again#but . the idea that in canon . the best he could do to replicate that feeling is either holding himself and pressing softly or perhaps#gathering a long pillow in his arms and pretending#because mortals do not last long (not without consequence). and as said so much — time is merciless. it matters not how the clock ticks away#for you. whether it be by seconds or minutes. hours or years. it marches along regardless of anyone’s feelings to it#and you have to grasp at what lingers in between : the bonds that you make . the joy and sorrow . the laughing and silence#and you have to hold them close close close. to preserve them for another day#there is no getting back what was lost#but that’s a bit too bittersweet so anyways#first and foremost ven is a nuisance and we love him for that#secondly and much more importantly than the first point is that ven is full of love and care that it surprises me how it does not burst out#from him. ven puts others before himself A LOT. he wants everyone to be able to live peacefully. happily#to find that they can live another day with a smile#and if that means assuring them of what’s to come. or offering them a shoulder to cry on. or making a fool of himself#then by the heavens himself will he sign up for the task#he is not !!! a lazy archon i refuse this notion#he cares deeply for his people !!! he watches and he will help if they stumble and will back away when they wish to walk forwards on their#own !! and they will make mistakes and they will learn from them and he will be there …!!!!! to see them grow !!!!!#besides mondstadt doesn’t particularly ?? seem like they want a god to truly rule over them . tbh#and this is disregarding the fact that mond . fucking killed their first god . ven is not going to risk that ???#so what use would it be — to start randomly showing up as a god and guiding them that way ?? that would be pressuring !!#does this . am i making sense . im very tired#it’s 2am#lantern says stuff
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everything about millie would make her such a great candidate for being an angel vessel except for the fact that she would be a massive cunt about it
#not fun to possess! irritating! biting you from the inside! if you’re inside her head that means she can claw her way into you as well#and make fun of your daddy issues!#very much a ‘im not trapped in here with you youre trapped in here with me’ kinda person. in practice this doesn’t always go perfectly but#like. she is enough of a nuisance about it to not exactly be feasible as a vessel long-term for anything.#……..actually for very similar reasons i think millie would be both very hard to possess long-term and very easy to convince to torture#people in hell.#i cant explain it exactly. but it’s true.#spn oc
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