#i will always be there to talk about dead fandoms

[deerdoeb]

Lets yap about the rtctok fandom again. Kitties

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WOO I HAVE A RTC TIKTOK ACC NOW!!! I INTERACT WITH THE RTCTOK FANDOM NOW!!!!

And dear lord, they annoy me so much, I can't💔💔💔

The flopqueenmonique situation is still dragged and talked about, ITS BEEN SO LONG ALREADY SHUT UP. They're brainwashed into thinking the 2016 is the only good cast, no one can beat Gus! Misha am I right?/sarc, other productions are barely mentioned(apart from majestic rep, luv you), and in posts talking about other casts, there are always mentions to the 2016 cast and how theyre "the favorite and best cast!!" THEYRE NOT THAT SPECIAL IS NOT ABOUT THEM!!!(/Not mean I swear))

There used to be so many ship discourse(used to, because the fandom is kinda more dead now), there were so many people who were obsessed with Nisha and hated any ship that had one of them and wasn't Nisha.

I wish more important things also had recognition there, like the save ricky potts movement, I don't see a lot of people talking about it, nor I see people talking about how Kholby was ableist to Yannick. They hate and insult LITERAL highschoolers having fun (not talking only about lowell, but also camarillo, solerbury school, etc), Constance is so forgotten, its a whole mess.

Another thing thats pissing me off its the "movie", I firmly believe its either fake, or a fan project, but ofc, no one cares about ACTUAL important things like how Ricky's disability is gonna be handle, or if they actually have permission to do any of that(copyright exists bbg), no! Lets only care if its the 2016 cast, ignoring the fact Kholby is a bad person because were brain dead!!!/hj/sarc (Mind you, theyre grown adults who are living their lives and have other projects apart from rtc, theyre NOT coming back)

Theres other things that make me uncomfortable but thats a me thing, bye I was feeling annoyed

[hp-confessions]

The idea that James financially supported Remus after Hogwarts is actually FANON and I wish more people knew that. It shouldn’t be used to analyze James and Remus as characters or Marauder group dynamics as a whole, because it’s simply not true.

For one, it’s is not mentioned anywhere in the seven books. You’d think, given how Remus repeatedly emphasized the acceptance and support his three friends gave him at school, he’d be sure to mention to Harry that his father financially helped him afterwards, but he never does. So I would personally be skeptical of that idea even if any extracanon source does make such a claim.

However, the idea of James financially supporting Remus is not supported by any extracanon source, either. The interview people often use as “proof” is actually JKR talking about how James supported Sirius and Lily after school, not Remus. After talking about how Remus was unemployable because he was a werewolf, she said:

“James had enough gold, enough to support Sirius and Lily. So I suppose they lived off a private income. But they were full-time fighters, that’s what they did, until Lily fell pregnant with Harry. So then they went into hiding.”

The idea of James supporting Sirius is directly contradicted by the canon text. In OotP, Sirius explained that the Potters did take him in after he ran away at “about sixteen”, but after his uncle Alphard left him gold when he was seventeen, “I got a place of my own” and “looked after myself”. So I think this interview quote is simply yet another example of JKR forgetting what she wrote in the books and probably shouldn't be taken at face-value (James definitely seems to have supported Lily, though, given that her parents were dead and she had no job outside her role in the Order).

At any rate, THIS already-unreliable extracanon quote by JKR is the only source for the idea of James financially supporting Remus – and it literally never claims he did (all JKR said was that Remus was unemployable, she never says that James helped him). It’s the only source mentioned in HP wiki, in articles, or anywhere else. It seems to have originated as a misunderstanding which blew up enough to become a popular fandom belief, and has remained so ever since.

But ultimately, there is no evidence in book canon or by any extracanon statement by JKR that James (or Sirius) financially supported Remus after Hogwarts. Nor is anything of the sort mentioned in Remus’s Pottermore bio. This is even more ridiculous than the fanon idea of Remus being taller than Sirius - at least that is based off their movie counterparts, while this is based off nothing at all.

In short: we don’t know much about Remus’s financial situation after Hogwarts. In theory, James could have supported him, Sirius could have supported him, they both could have supported him jointly*, or Remus could have simply been relying on his parents.

I actually think the last possibility is the most likely option, and I’m surprised more people haven’t brought it up. Remus does seem to have loved his parents (and vice-versa), and if they were supporting him, I’m not sure why he would have felt the need to turn to his friends in the first place. More importantly, it's directly supported by extracanon material - here’s what Remus's Pottermore bio says about him after the end of the First Wizarding War:

“His mother was now dead, and while Lyall, his father, was always delighted to see his son, Remus refused to endanger his father’s peaceful existence by returning to live with him.”

The sentence “returning to live with him” indicates that Remus had been living with his him previously during the war, and that in turn suggests that Lyall and Hope were financially supporting Remus. Imo, this makes sense, as it seems to have been perfectly normal/expected for wizards to live with their parents after graduation unless they moved to another country (Percy Weasley did in Goblet of Fire despite getting a job in the Ministry, Bill & Charlie lived with their family whenever they visited, Bill & Fleur moved into a family cottage after their marriage rather than buying their own, etc). In Remus’s case, given that he was an Order member during the height of the First War, it makes sense that he would have been at least somewhat comfortable relying on his parents as he had been during his childhood. But after the war, after watching the rest of the wizarding world settle into jubilant peace while Remus was left mourning the loss of his three best friends and was struggling to work due to societal prejudice, his guilt/trauma/desire to self-isolate may have kicked in and prompted him to move away from home. Personally, I find this much more interesting than the unevidenced idea of James supporting Remus, as most discussions of Remus are often always centred around the Marauders rather than his parents, so this brings them into the mix as well.

*Personally, I headcanon that James/Sirius did offer to help Remus, but he turned them down, which may have been one of the factors that later triggered suspicions in Sirius (during the last year of the war, once it became clear that the Order had a spy) given how close-knit the four of them were at Hogwarts. Narratively, it also works really well given that Sirius and Remus were described as living together post GoF until Sirius’s death a year later, after their reunion and reconciliation. But that’s just my personal theory!

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[ruinix]

Hello, lovelies.

After the anon, I have been told about talks about me. I've seen them. Posts where i'm being mentioned and called out on without my knowing. Even touching on a different topic beyond the fics I wrote like my previous reblogs, which i tried to delete but I don't have hours to scroll down everything. It made me cry my eyes out more.

Well, i guess there is nothing to defend. I've written four dark fics now. It is very much disgusting, yes, but it is Dark Romance. A genre I liked. What I learned I liked since I came into terms that I am into cnc irl which somehow translated to writing noncon to take control of the idea. I am so fucked in the head. But i get it. They're real people. Still the fact remains they're RPFs. Real Person Fiction.

I, now, remember why I chose AO3 over Tumblr years ago (i was what 13/14? Got exposed so early in my life). People over there just understand that RPF are actual fiction. Warnings are respected over there. Once you filter them out, you don't go reading them. There you can go to different fandoms and do it. Actors and actresses even got their own fandom as who they are. As them. Not as the roles/fictional roles they play. Just them. Them with a reader. Them with another person of the opposite gender or the same. So that's RPF too.

Literally anything. They're made into a character.

That's what fics are. Fluff. Hurt/Comfort. Dark. Angst. Angst/Comfort. All of them are literally the actual person in a seperate image. The differences are the topics being touched on.

Not once did I see a person talking down to a writer because the fic that was too dark (aka dead dove in AO3, topics which are so much more darker)). Because they read the warnings and respected it. Not your cup of tea, scroll. Bye. I've done that. Hell, I even excluded happy endings when I wanted nothing but tears at the end of their 100k fics.

Like what I've learned in AO3, I put warnings, because I know people needed them. I need them because I read my fics too and I wouldn't read anything that I do not want atm. So many warnings. So many different tags for this blog. I guess it's not enough because people would still read beyond the break. Four fics. I've written four dark fics.

In my head, there's always been isolated boxes. Quinn in my fics is different from actual Quinn. Never will it be. No matter how hard I think of Quinn as a sweet guy, a sweet partner who will do anything for his love interest, I will never know if he is actually that sweet. I fully believe he is. But I am also someone who sees people as good before I get broken into pieces when I learned they are actually not that good. These isolated boxes has been a great way to cope. Different realities of several people I've met and see online. All for my happiness. Maybe because I daydream a lot.

I've given a lot. Even a shred of myself as I write every fic. I was the first reader. I wanted to be loved so passionately that it hurts. I've never been loved like that (not yet? Maybe?) so hopefully, in the daydream, people will also yearn for it as much as I do.

For my dark fics, I wanted people to feel safe that even if they loved something so dark and fucked up things, they are free to do so. To explore and learn their hard limits. That's exactly how I learned my limits in my society that all sex is taboo. Even safe and consensual sex are taboo. I've never had the discussion of sex. No sex education in my previous curriculum. We were thrown out in the wild. Discover shit on our own. I hated that. I hated that I had to be exposed to pornhub, only to learn it is far beyond real. I hated that I had to explore books to learn my hard limits and how to be safe on my own.

Well, this is me rambling. There's nothing much to say since I've really written fucked up things. Nothing to say beyond how I view real Quinn different from any of the Quinns I've written. Because he is and will be.

[Edit: Previous post and New things I will be implementing for this blog is in this post]

[egforsakentakes]

hi hello !! this is my first yap session ask here!! ^_^

(alas huzzah! throws my beloved Two Time hcs at you like birdseeds!! sorry if it’s long,, i have more yap sessions for later! straightens stack of papers)

⚠️ s/h, poor mental health, religious trauma/psychosis, slightly grotesque descriptions, detachment from oneself(?)

~ [ Two Time has an obvious staring problem. They’re so used to smiling that their smile is their resting face. ]

~ [ I like to think that Two Time was always mentally sick in the head, even as a child, and it went untreated. They were disturbing. They were obsessive. The cult didn’t help, it just gave them a place to let it fester. ]

~ [ Two Time has a bad hogging habit. At first they would hoard items like broken glass, rusted screws, or dead bugs. For some reason. Due to their religious psychosis and growing paranoia, they would eventually begin hogging trinkets that were actually valuable, saving it for possible "impending doom." This soon became a problem during Forsaken… you can probably piece together why.

TWO TIME!! ELLIOT JUST THREW A PIZZA TOWARDS A 32 HP GUEST GO GET IT!!! ]

~ [ Two Time has low empathy—it’s the backbone of their selfishness and freakish nature. It’s not that they’re incapable of helping others, it’s that their understanding of emotions is skewed and messed up, mainly because of their devotion to the Spawn. (wake up two time pry your eyes open please)

For example, if someone were literally dying in front of them, Two Time might hand them a medkit if equipped, but not out of compassion or urgency. "I assume you need this? Would this help?"

They lack the ability to connect with the desperation or emotional weight of the situation. To them, suffering is just another facet of life, something to be endured or transcended through the Spawn’s teachings that will soon bring them to it. "Ah. Such non-believers are clawing—scraping—begging for such temporary happiness! I do often find myself wondering why they choose that path, when you can choose the Spawn!!!!" They see themselves as a vessel/tool of the Spawn, and view others through that same warped lens. Every act of their assistance comes with a rationalization, not an emotional connection. ]

They most certainly aren’t a good person, but they aren’t pure evil. They just don’t feel the way others do. (what they need is therapy but delusions are free) ]

~ [ I find it funny on how the entire fandom unanimously agreed that Two Time has scars on their arms. I am absolutely apart of that ;3

Two Time self harms. It comes in a variety of different forms (scratching, using the dull of their dagger, etc.) The cult often practiced this as well as detachment from oneself. The blood from the blooming scars on your arms evaporate into the sky, as your body is preparing for its spiritual flaying. Spawn, I ask of you, to unite me with you, flesh and bone, or nothing at all. I am content in any image you have decided of me. They are very good at handling injuries and are more than capable of medical treatment on their own. ]

~ [ I did yoink this one from a genius anon but it lives in my head now:

Gender? Ego?? Self identity??? What are you talking about???? That was considered an outside infection. To be truly free in the eyes of Spawn was to peel your soul from the flesh-wet prison of your body and offer it to your beloved God! Everyone in the cult was considered genderless. The body could keep its petty labels (Azure, for example, still went by he/they—preferred out of politeness) but the soul? The soul was considered your "pure true form" that was simply trapped in the vehicle vessel that is your body. The soul didn’t have an identification to go by. You were simply taught that your soul was just the property of Spawn.

Two Time bought into this like WAY too hard. They were already unraveling by the time they joined, and the cult’s rhetoric just greased the slide. They started peeling away their identity like dead skin—maybe both metaphorically and literally following their years in the cult ?? They scraped off their old name, their old voice, their old gender, until only "they" remained. Basically how they adopted their theyfailure lifetsyle ^_^ ]

~ [ You’ve probably seen this headcanon a million times but AFAB Two Time….,,, 🤤🤤 they actually began questioning before the cult found them. Surprisingly, the cult was very accepting of this and encouraged it! (it was more to push them into the whole body vessel thing) If a cracked shell was easier to hollow out, why not help with the breaking? ]

~ [ This might be niche but are there any selectively mute Two Time enjoyers in the house…. i also enjoy the "rambles about the Spawn for 10 hours straight" to "suddenly closes their mouth and won’t say a single word for two whole days while communicating exclusively via vibes and uncomfortable eye contact." types of Two Time :3 ]

~ [ Azure was guilty of also thinking Two Time was a weird, freakish creature when they first met. And honestly? Fair enough.

When Two Time first joined the cult (i hc around mid-late teens), Azure was quick to greet them and show them around—because hip hip hooray someone around my age I can befriend! This basic act of kindness lit up something deep in Two Time’s system. They didn’t try to talk to anyone else their age. Two Time would actively seek out Azure's location thanks to the reluctant help of other members, memorizing his daily patterns—where he tended to the flowers, where he sat to eat at dinner, where he prayed… and when they found him, they would just stand nearby and stare. Or shift close and sit in uncomfortable silence.

And the thing is, they genuinely didn’t see anything wrong with what they were doing. It was comforting to them—being near Azure. Watching him. Studying how he moved, breathed, existed. Yeah they’re weird!!

It was only after Azure introduced them to more of the cult’s customs and mannerisms, that they slowly began to build what resembled an actual friendship. Then it blossomed further.

All bro said was hi btw ]

~ [ Two Time usually isn’t the one to start conversations. They just don’t feel like it :( If you want to talk, you’d better initiate. ]

// if it isn’t taken, could I go by koipond ⛲️ anon? :3

not taken! All yours:)

welcome^_^!

[fishhateme]

i completely agree with dannielricciardo's addition!! i think that, while he was obviously very strong during most of his career, daniel doesn't have the same resilience towards public criticism that maybe max/oscar/others did (i say this with love). he was always very aware of what people were saying about him (not, like, lando levels though), and was visibly interested in 'the narrative', so to speak (he positioned himself as one of, if not the first, stars of dts, he was always insisting that his relationship with max was nonsexual, presumably because he was very aware of what the fandom was saying, and, as a whole, he's always been a bit of a showman. personally i love that about him, but he undeniably wanted to present a certain image of himself) So, to come into 2024 with your confidence having taken such hits during the mclaren era only to be immediately hit with an injury, a very long recovery, and immediate intense scrutiny (and imo ageism with the whole liam thing), one can only imagine how hard it was for him to face the press and the public who were expressing nothing but disappointment and a sense that his career should have essentially been over ages ago. what op says about the revisionism after the liam flop is real - let's not forget what the atmosphere was surrounding daniel, every other comment was along the lines of him having to pack it up and for rbr/vcarb to stop 'wasting space' on him when there were rookies waiting in the wings

(as a side note i feel like a lot of us feel very angry -and rightfully so- because several (talented and capable!) drivers - capable just like daniel - are being given soooo much more grace for their difficulties adapting to new teams or getting good results, especially when daniel was a glorified punching bag after a certain point of the 2024 season)

It makes sense that this took away something that he'd always carried with him - call it his instinct, his passion, his fearlessness, his lack of doubt, maybe some of his trust, whatevs -, even as a child in the lower formulas, and (i risk getting very parasocial here but i feel like i sort of crossed that line with my first post) of course that would be mentally distressing, to lose that certainty you always had. i understand the initial impulse of retracting and hiding away to lick your wounds, but as i've said before, i think amidst all this pain he made the decision to sever himself completely from motorsports, which (regardless of whether it was the right decision or not) represented a vast majority of his entire life, personality, professional and i'd even say social environments (i know i sound farfetched here but it must be WILD to go from being surrounded by hundreds of people which work as a team for and with you to being reduced to yourself and maybe a personal assistant you talk to a few times a week, and we shouldn't forget that, because daniel chose an isolating path to try to heal)

he's gone from a wild, frenetic (and surely stressful and unsustainable, don't get me wrong) lifestyle to one that seems... quiet. I brought up this particular word in my original tags because I felt it was important - daniel isn't a quiet person. but lately, everything around him seems very quiet - a big empty mansion in la, a quiet, empty schedule with nothing to do most days, a quieted down personality that used to love the spotlight and now suddenly doesn't

i particularly liked the way dannielricciardo put it, which i thought was very very masterful: "he can't do anything right, according to you, so he will do nothing, so there's nothing to criticize him for or to ask of him. you can't ask a dead person for anything."

this newfound quietness of him, it feels like we're all grieving him even though he's still alive. And although I'm all for personal reinvention after a particularly painful or traumatic event, clearly this reinvention of him into this supposedly chill, therapy-speaking guy who doesn't care if he gets fucked over or if he needs a haircut or not is continuously threatened by the slivers of the old daniel shining through when he thinks nobody is watching - the constant deleting of moments from the past, late at night and sporadic, which feels almost tainted with some form of rage or bitterness that doesn't fit with the idea daniel is trying to sell of a happy, fulfilling life

i don't know. maybe i'm getting too narrative-obsessed or parasocial or whatever, but i can't imagine this being the new normal for so much longer, it's like he's punishing himself for the fiasco of last year by denying himself parts of his life which undeniably brought him happiness. even if he were to manage keeping this up, i'd hope he didn't, because keeping yourself quiet in a little box for fear of coming out and being judged seems like a sad fate for such a (usually) happy driver

"but I don't THINK this is the life that he wants" I am reading your tags and nodding so fucking hard like he's our but a man who is doing mentally well would not be privating 200 Instagram posts while getting wine drunk on a Sunday afternoon. Literally that "could a mentally ill person do that" core etc. he is forcing himself to want the life he has

op you read my mind!! I'm going to take the opportunity to go on a long (looooong) rant, because I've been dying to talk about this

For context this was on the tags of that latest post of danny saying he's done (again) that's been going around, I said that I wish him nothing but peace and quiet but I don't THINK he wants peace and quiet, and here's the thing - I really don't. I've been trying to keep quiet about it because a part of me felt like it was disrespectful to comment on a real person's mental health, but also like, yk, he's absolutely never going to see this, so I might as well get it off my chest

These past few months of daniel hanging out in LA and doing kind of... nothing? don't seem very genuine to me. And obviously you might say none of us know what's truly genuine, but Daniel has been in the public eye for over a decade and a half, and throughout that time he's been very consistent with his personality and aspirations. Sure, the wdc dream is discarded, but he always spoke about racing with love, and he's made several remarks about liking to do things, needing to do things and keep himself busy

So for him to call it quits altogether immediately seemed odd to me? Especially when he chose to do kind of... nothing at all?

In the tags I raised another issue that I think is important - Daniel's spent 30 or so out of his 35 years doing some form of racing. To stop doing that cold turkey would imply some form of hatred towards the sport, and despite all the (rightful) anger that's been going around about rbr/horner/helmut 'stealing' or 'taking' his love of it, so to speak, I don't think that's entirely correct.

It's surely there, somewhere - practically everyone who leaves F1 still involved themselves on some other form of motorsports, even Seb goes to the track sometimes or does some event (of course, you might say seb ended things on his terms, but while I think that's important to note I also think the larger trend as a whole points to drivers loving racing even when they leave a certain category, which tracks with the whole, y'know, risking their lives for the love of it aspect)

now let's circle back to the whole instagram delete spree thing, because i have some thoughts on that, too: I'm not the first person to say this and I won't be the last, but there is not a single time in a person's life where they're more self obsessed than when they're depressed. I say this both from personal experience and just talking to people - when you're not well mentally, you start getting paranoid about how people perceive you and, above all, try to manicure your image because you feel perceived in a way that makes you uncomfortable (the discomfort can come from being perceived as weak or whiny or whatever, and it doesn't happen to everyone, but id say it stems from the feeling of failure that a prolonged emotional distress can sometimes cause).

Now, important disclaimer, I'm NOT saying daniel is depressed, because I don't know daniel and I don't have the info to get to those conclusions, it's simply outside of what I could realistically infer from his behavior! What I AM saying is that just from an onlooker's perspective, he doesn't seem very fulfilled, and the fact that he repeatedly goes back to old posts from years ago to trim and trim and trim some more seems obsessive. Once or twice at first, sure, but he started deleting posts half a year ago and he's sporadically been doing so ever since. This might just be me, but even if you're not happy about the way your past turned out, a happy person doesn't feel the need to change it for the world, y'know?

a few months in perth just catching up with his family after so many years living out of a suitcase seemed both logical and healthy to me, but like, months and months of staying in la where you seemingly don't hang out with anyone except your asshole comedian friends (who coincidentally are the exact type of macho dude to say shit like men don't get depressed or something equally as ignorant and harmful as that, bffr) doesn't seem fulfilling, stimulating or just plain fun, even after taking into account danny's -sometimes odd- preferences about how to spend his fuckload of money

To me, daniel has been coming across lately as kind of a lost man, for lack of a better word.

He was clearly more deeply hurt by Singapore than he'd rather admit, but in the middle of that he started turning down any and all offers - even ones that would've made him happy!

F1 hurt him, yes, but F1 is only a sliver of the motorsports world, even if it's the most publicized. In his rejection of anything motorsports related, he's isolated himself from his homebase, and he kind of left himself jobless (as a mere peasant I'll admit that I'd love to have the kind of money to travel around the world for months without worrying about money in the slightest, but I imagine it eventually gets old, especially when there's nothing very mentally stimulating for you to do - let's be so fr, Daniel isn't going to be picking up a book about medieval history or something like that to pass the time). op said something that I loved and that really seems to encapsulate what I've been trying to say - "he is forcing himself to want the life he has". it really seems that way, it's that simple - i think he cut off too much too early and in the midst of his pain and betrayal, and now he's either too scared of getting hurt/ridiculed or simply too proud (though that wouldn't be very much like him tbh) to go back, even if it's on a different category, so he's stuck living this retired lifestyle when, newsflash, the retired lifestyle barely fulfils regular 70yo retirees, much less people who are still so, so young (and yes, 35 is young in the grand scheme of things, look at h*lmut marko ffs)

And like, I KNOW I've given it way too much thought and this is starting to enter rpf territory but like... I don't know. I can't help but wonder. He tries so hard to look happy but I feel like his smile doesn't reach his eyes anymore. (Just for the record I was originally going to respond to this ask saying something light hearted and not nearly as unhinged, along the lines of 'daniel is on his publicly fine but privately crying in the shower after downing a bottle wine by himself era', which was a joke, obviously, but then I reread it and it didn't feel like a joke at all? So anyways, here's this parasocial feverish ramble instead, hope it was semi coherent if only for the sake of the lovely @dannielricciardo)

[frankensteinposm0]

« But you are everything to me. »

I might turn this into a comic but I have to think about it. Anyways the sillies 🫶🏻

[nyxi-pixie]

actually incredibly funny to me that ranpos entire thing centres on how his intelligence is not because of an ability or any other great thing, its just him. hes entirely, completely, inarguably human. and Yet, when it comes to dazai, so many people are Desperate that there just Has to be another explanation. his intelligence cant just be that hes unusual, no it must be a marker of separation, of difference so great it disallows the reality of his humanity.

[nectarinesinthesun444]

I've been meaning to make this post for a while so I'll feed you now; post canon/canon compliant Todd headcanons!!

He went to Columbia University and made friends!

Charlie went to Columbia as well because he wanted to get into the city and get far away from Welton and Vermont

Todd wrote plenty of successful poetry books but later in life he branched out and wrote a memoir

Todd has a mini library in his apartment, which has the works of Slyvia Plath, Five Centuries of Verse (I believe that's the title of the book in the dps meetings), James Baldwin, Walt Whitman, Oscar Wilde, Emily Dickinson, William Shakespeare etc etc

He owns a copy of the script for A Midsummer Night's Dream in honour of Neil

He truly realised that his feelings for Neil were more than just platonic in his 20s. Although he gained more confidence in his senior year at Welton, when he moved to New York that's when he really started to work on himself, unpack feelings that had been buried, and grow as a writer and person in general. In this time, he wrote a letter for Neil even though he would never be able to read it, basically declaring his love and telling him how his life is going, and this was really healing for him

He attended lots of open mic poetry events and after publishing his first book, he gradually became popular as a poet in New York

He listened to Bob Dylan, The Beatles, The Temptations, Martha Reeves and The Vandellas for some examples, and he danced to his records, sometimes with Charlie when he came over, and sometimes alone, each time was just as fun. Though especially when he was alone and a love song was playing, he shed some tears because he wished Neil could be with him

He did fall in love again, he did date, but there was a certain form of love he could only manage to feel for Neil, there was a certain depth to his love for Neil that he never found in anyone else

On Neil's birthday, all the poets come together to celebrate

Todd and Charlie became a lot closer after Neil's death and he first came out to Charlie and told him that he was in love with Neil, and still is. Charlie wasn't too suprised because he always saw that Todd and Neil had a special way with each other that none of the other poets had with each other, and Charlie silently picked up on Todd and Neil's feelings for each other but he would never mention it, only when Todd came out to him did they talk about it. That conversation lasted for hours. Charlie had came to have dinner at Todd's house and play card games. listen to records, dance and chat. And later into the night because Charlie ended up staying the night, they were having a deep conversation remembering their Welton days, talking about life, and then with the warm atmosphere where it felt like anything could be said, he told Charlie that he's always been in love with Neil and that was one of the reasons why his death had affected him so much because he felt soooo many different things so fucking deeply about him, one being romantic love. And how Neil helped him learn to love himself for all that he is and can be, and showed him how to love life and the arts. After maybe an hour of Todd spilling all these things out (he had only ever spilled it out on paper, never to another human being) Charlie and Todd had a long best friend cuddle <3

[dustykneed]

Hello! Random whipper snipper! Share a WIP of your work!

ooh, with pleasure. six the musical araleyn fanart? in the year 2k24? more likely than you think xDD

i realize this looks finished, but technically i'm still deciding whether to add a background or not lol. still, for the sake of sharing a proper WIP, here's a line or two from an araleyn brainworm WIP that i started reworking yesterday (mild tw for religious guilt and period-typical internalized homophobia from aragon's pov):

She remembers sharing her bed with Anne at Henry's behest, remembers the nights of tossing and turning and trying not to think about Anne asleep next to her-- remembers waking up to dark hair spilling across her pillow and the press of blood-warm bosoms against her own, softer than sin, as hot as the Devil, remembers lying still as death, mouthing prayers into the heat of Anne's neck like an act of penance.

[totallynotasimp67]

DMC x CoD

Sorry, I saw a DMC 3 edit while I had CoD scenarios in my mind, and this is the brain child from it lmao

The CoD boys with a reader who’s half demon, think Dante and Vergil from Devil May Cry, but only like a couple people know, imma use the 141 boys as I’m a tad more familiar with them

The only people who would know would be Laswell, Price and a Doctor under a strict NDA, like so strict if they broke it they would probably end up on a missing persons list

Reader would normally go on solo missions, in and out info grabs mostly, but when they have to go on team missions they prefer being a sniper instead of an infiltrator so as to not give away their secret

But one thing leads to another and Reader is the only one still able to fight and Reader gets shot multiple times, similar to the way Dante gets impaled in the beginning of Devil May Cry 3, the enemy think they’ve won, the 141 can’t help but look away at the scene unfolding before them, that’s when Reader speaks

“This party’s gettin’ crazy!”

The group of people in the compound all stare in shock and disbelief at Reader who by all accounts should be dead, bullets that were once lodged in reader now falling out as the wounds begin to heal

Grabbing their pistols, a wicked grin drawing readers face, they speak once more

“Let’s rock baby”

You can decide where it goes from here, BUT if u do use this, ur obligated to tag me in it so I can read ur masterpiece

Devil May Cry Cutscenes incase anyone’s curious, the part I’m referencing starts at 7:42

[ninashiki]

i feel like almost everything in utena has sort of already been extensively discussed in the last two (almost three) decades of utena's existence (not that there aren't new interpretations to be made, there always are) besides black rose arc (mikage+mamiya+tokiko). which is why they're so much fun to think about. i think the need to read between the lines makes it unfortunately easy to misunderstand or look past obvious stuff if you don't pay attention, but to me it's always been really obvious that mikage's arc is a literal representation of the erasure of queerness in ohtori (society?) by akio/everything he represents. and that's so fucking tragic! nemuro was never able to find a name for his desires. he lived and died as a puppet in the shadows.

[smile-files]

the best thing about being very attached to classic children's shows is that most of my friends have engaged with them (they watched them as kids). the worst thing about being very attached to classic children's is that none of my friends are currently engaging with them (they watched them as kids)

[wowa-bublord]

Of course people have thoughts on him. Your art is amazing, and let's be real your Zack Fair is kinda in the FF7 Tumblr hall of fame in terms of fan redesigns!

WAUHHH THANK YOU 🥺 I'M GLAD YOU LIKE IT

[alyt-neroon]

hmm sudden inexplicable sadness hoo boy

[todayisafridaynight]

Dunno why the rgg fandom has been so dead lately hoping that the announcement brings people back cause it really doesn’t feel like how it did before ☹️

it hasnt even been two weeks since i got an ask like this i need yall to wait a minute

[professionalbalbberer]

I have a new dead boy detectives obsession did I tell you that yet lol