#i will also never understand how people dont like ange especially when they do like beatrice because they are mirrors of each other

[thegleampt3]

this entire exchange also means so much to me, beato understands how ange feels more than anyone — having your life be defined by unimaginable tragedy, having others force ideas about your family and identity onto you. (there's a reason bern forces both ange and lion to watch her game at the end of episode 7, lion isnt beato but its about the utter hopelessness tied to their existence, something they have in common with ange.) beato wasnt able to define her own life in a non-self destructive way while she was still alive and she sees herself in ange so much and wants ange to realize what she only came to after it was too late, but she understands how much hope and love there was surrounding her throughout her whole life. (just knowing about lion brings her unimaginable joy.) it wouldnt have been easy to change her fate, but it was always possible, and she's so scared of ange falling for the same learned helplessness that she did. the bond that they share, however brief, is so vital. knowing firsthand how difficult it is but in direct contrast to how beato once was with maria, where she gave into hopelessness for maria and decided for maria that it was better to give up on living and planned to take her life, she acknowledges how wrong she was and she wants more than anything for ange to find hope within herself and keep going, and in the end ange is able to do exactly that and is able to keep going and create such a beautiful and meaningful world for other hurting traumatized kids through her own writing and stories, even without her brother coming home to save her

[apricotgojo]

yo.. I saw the request that you posted today? IT WAS SO FUCKING GOOD WHAT THE HELL? and I looked for the prompt and ended up finding it , Can you do a part 2 where the news reporter lady gets akumatized again finds the video that she was looking for? where y/n's crazy mafia father threatens to kill her now abusive ex boyfriend because he cheated on her but she was so blindly loyal and didn't want anybody to find out? like because that would be embarrassing but instead y/n didn't know (1)

HELLO! so I didn’t really understand the request well but i wrote this out and i’m planning on making another part related to this! so here it is! thank you for this request im so happy that you liked the first one.  Speaking of which, if you haven’t read the first one here it is!  Part One

The other part will be posted soon ;)) 

Strawberries, sunshine and Adrien Agreste on a red picnic blanket.

Life is so serene, so perfect at this moment. Especially with the blond resting his head on your lap as you run your fingers through his soft blond locks. He hummed and smiled softly. You noticed his cheeks were tinted red because of the time he spent in the sunshine. He’s gorgeous.

You pick up a strawberry from the plate and pop it in your mouth, the sweet juice bursting and dripping from the corner of your lips. Before you could react you felt a hand move to your face and wipe the substance with the thumb. You look down and see Adrien looking at you, his green eyes glistening and full of life. You couldn’t help but move down and kiss him softly on the lips. It was a slow, tender kiss which you didn’t want to pull away from but you did in order to catch your breath.

“Ma Belle,” Adrien whispers, moving a lock of your hair behind your ear. “How do you feel about coming to a film festival with me tonight?” “Film festival? You need to elaborate on that babe.” You say quirking your eyebrow up. You’ve never been to a film festival before, you didn’t even know what happened there. Fuck, you’ve never even been to a movie theatre before because you basically have a whole private theatre in your house.

He furrows his eyebrows at you and chuckles. “Basically once a year the students organise a film festival on school campus. Students get to show their own short films and projects that they’ve done while we sit on the grass with snacks and drinks. It’s really fun.” He explains.

It really seemed like fun but you end up looking down. You knew that after last time’s event some people still thought of you as a bitch. People still whispered behind your back and they still judged you. Other than that reason, your father was coming home tonight from Madrid and you were going to ask Adrien to come with you to meet him for the first time.

“What’s wrong? Don’t you want you come?” He asks you and you look at him, a slight frown on his face. “Alya is going to present her film today and I told her we’d come..” He continues and looks to the side.

“No, no I do !” You say quickly and sigh, “My dad is coming tonight and I was going to ask you to meet him.” You say, averting your eyes to the side.

You feel him stiffen up. “Oh.” He says.

“But I can tell him that we can meet for brunch tomorrow instead.” You say and hold his hand. “I know you’re nervous about meeting him but I just want my two favorite boys to finally meet.” You say and give him a small smile.

 He softly chuckles and grabs your hand, kissing it. “Of course mon ange.”

You giggle and hug him. It made you happy that he was willing to come. He knew it would make you happy.

“What should I wear for the festival? I don’t want to be under-dressed.” You say suddenly pulling away, already thinking about the outfits you want to wear.

“I think I’d worry about you being over dressed instead.” He laughs a little bit and you playfully hit him on the shoulder.

  “Nadja, if you don’t get me any scoop on them by tonight you’re fired.”

“Fired?!” Najda exclaims getting out of her chair. She watches as her boss raises a questioning eyebrow at her and she clears her throat.

“But madam, I can’t-“

“By tonight Nadja.” Her boss urges sternly, causing the red-head to gulp.

She nods slowly and keeps her head down as she walks out of the office.

Rage started eating her up from the inside. She needed to do something. Anything.

  “Hey girl!” Alya closes you in a tight hug and hands you a red solo cup filled with juice which was already spiked with some type of liquor.

“Hey Alya.” You smile at her and give each other a friendly kiss on the cheek. “Are you nervous?” You ask her.

“No..” She scoffs and suddenly downs her drink, laughing nervously. “Okay maybe just a little bit.” She says quietly and it causes you to laugh.

“I’m sure that your film is amazing.” You reassure her.

“Thank you.” She says warmly. She looks you up and down. “You always love dressing up dont you?” She raises an eyebrow at you.

“I told her that it’s going to be causal.” Adrien sighs and you roll your eyes playfully.

“This is as casual as I can get.” You state and arrange the beret on your head, smiling proudly.

 The two laugh and you feel Adrien kiss your cheek and sliding his arm around your shoulder.

“Marinette and Nino saved you guys a place up front, I’ll be joining you guys a little later.” She explains and nods over to where Marinette and Nino were sitting. You see them waving at you guys.

“Okay we’ll see you later then.” Adrien says and you both start walking away from her.

There they were, the whispers, the eyes all on you as you walk past the people. Adrien felt it too, you knew he did, that’s why his grip on you was tighter but it was also somewhat comforting.

“Allô!” Marinette says and giggles while she hugs you both. You could tell that she’s already had a few too many to drink You all sit down and start talking about what’s going to happen tonight, what films are expected to show and what you thought Alyas film is going to consist of.

You sip your drink slowly. This shit was strong but you didn’t mind it.

“Alya’s film is going to be the best.” Nino says proudly and confidently. “She’s been working super hard on it non-stop.”

You smiled at him. The way he talked about her with his adoring eyes - you could just tell that what they had was real. It reminded you of You and Adrien. Maybe you two weren’t there yet but the way he looks at you was the same.

“Luka’s coming later because he got held up at his gig.” Marinette groans and sprawls herself out on the blanket, her phone resting on her chest.

“are you and Luka getting serious?” Adrien asks, grinning at her.

She hums and nods. “I really like him.”

“I’m happy for you Marinette, you guys look really cute together.” You say and she sits up quickly.

“You think?” She asks, batting her eyelashes at you. You nod, grinning. “yay!” She exclaims and hugs you unexpectedly.

“Okay I think that Mari has had enough of this.” Nino says and takes away her drink, chuckling.

The atmosphere was amazing. People drinking, laughing and chatting all around you guys.

  Everything died down when the screen in front of you turned on and everyone started cheering.

Alya quickly joined you guys and you all greeted her again quietly as you clapped for opening of the first film.

It was a love story between an alien and a human which formed because of their mutual love of French toast. Weird ass story-line but it was beautifully filmed for some reason. You could tell it was amateur but the shots and the beauty of the movie as the human and the alien shared their first bite of French toast really immersed you into it.

“those berries look so good im going to bust a nut.” You hear Nino whisper and Alya hushes him, earning a snicker from Adrien.

“I wish someone would eat me like that French toast.” Marinette blurts out and you clasp a hand over your mouth trying not to laugh.

As the film showed the ending credits the creator got up from where he was sitting and everyone cheered, whistled and clapped for him.

“Isn’t it Alyas turn now?” Adrien asks and Alya nodded taking a deep breath in.

Nino squeezed her hand and kissed her cheek. “Everyone’s going to love it babe.”

Everyone got quiet as it started.

Two people were sitting on the roof,

“It’s the end of the world isn’t it?” the character says and before the other person could respond, the screen went pitch black.

Everyone started whispering to each other in confusion and you looked over at Alya as she furrowed her eyebrows.

The screen turned on again but it was a different setting.

Two men were now sitting at a large table, one with a cigar between his lips and the other in front of him. Both of them were wearing a suit.

“Mother fucker.” The man says as he lights his cigar.

“What the fuck? This isn’t what I filmed.” You heard Alya whisper.

You were confused as to what was happening but you were too focused on the film in front of you. The man with the cigar came into view even more. He looked famillar.

“You can’t kill him.” The other man says.

“he cheated on her, Johnny!” the guy with the cigar shouts and hits his hand on the table.

Wait. Holy shit, that was your dad.

“He cheated on her and she still went back to him.” He blows out smoke and looks to the side. Disgust evident on his face. “I thought I raised her better than that, I guess she’s stupid just like her mother.”

A picture of you on his desk was shown in view.

You were visibly shaking, your mouth dry. You heard people around you ask you questions but you couldn’t hear anything. You couldn’t even react.

Your father pulls out a gun and clicks it. “I’m killing that bastard tonight, pay off a few people to make it seem like a car accident and we’re going to Paris. Just her and me. I’ve got too many problems with my junkie wife and I don’t want an ignorant daughter too.”

Tears stream down your face. It wasn’t a car accident. Your father killed him. That’s how Trevor died. Trevor cheated on you with one of your best friends back In New York but you never left him because you never wanted people to find out that someone cheated on you, you had too much pride for that.

You get up from where you were sitting and run away, ignoring the murmurs of people and gasps as the film continued. You felt like you were going to throw up, you felt like everything around you has been all a big fat lie. You heard Adrien call out your name but you kept running away until you froze when you heard a familiar evil laugh.

You turn around and see the villain from last time again. but this time it she was holding your father In her arms while he’s passed out.

“Finally! I got it!”

People started to scream and you simply fell down to your knees. Too weak to move. Too weak to do anything.

Your heart was shattered.

Flashbacks come back to you at Trevors funeral. You were sobbing as you watched them bringing out his casket. Little did you know that your own father was the reason for his death.

You were broken.

[wexhappyxfew]

So I’ve been trying for ages to think of a question for TT and I can’t bc I am a dummy SO I thought maybe you if there was a question you wanted someone to ask and no one has then answer that! OR I’d love for you to talk about how writing has helped you/made you happy if you’re comfortable with that! I LOVE YOU SUNSHINE 🌻🌻🌻🌻

AWWW ANGE DONT WORRY ABOUT IT I SWEAR <3 <3 and oooooh that’s an interesting take!!! i haven’t ever thought about that actually, but now i might LOL! and ooooh yes! I LOVE THAT OTHER QUESTION TOO! imma just do both THANK U ANGE!!! <3

hmmmmm....a question i wanted someone to ask....

i’m thinking of doing some talking about character flaws and possibly some strong female ocs and just my take on that! 

For me, character flaws have just always MADE the character, a human being. But it’s not for everybody, but for me, as I am a flawed person in many aspects, writing flawed characters has helped more than anything. All the characters I write are deeply flawed just like every human being. They all have pros, but they are all also weighed out by the cons of life. But that’s simply what makes us human because no one’s perfect.

For example, Charlotte Tarvers, even though she’s this ‘sunshine’ girl, who always makes people smile and laugh, and feel good, and cared for, she’s also deeply hurt by her past, and has attachment issues. Part of being a medic, is strictly not getting attached to the people you might end up seeing dying or wounded - and that’s what Charlotte really struggles with simply because she is an extroverted people person who cares for everyone and she can’t help and it hurts her in the end. 

Hazel Parker, while being a soft and innocent person, that can shoot straight on a sniper and can get zeroed in and focused and honed in and obey orders, has trouble speaking her mind, she doesn’t trust easily, she also let’s things get to her constantly and then her emotions come into play. Only when she’s in war and numb to it all do emotions stay out, but many of her decisions are emotion based and it’s painful mentally for her. She constantly battles her mind simply because she doesn’t say much but her mind is too loud and that just is something that affects her greatly - especially after her wound that she getts.

Catherine McCown, while a fantastic leader, and a confident, intelligent young woman, she tries so hard to be perfect and then that’s when she breaks - after staying strong simply for too long and then her emotions comes and she starts heavily doubting herself in the process of it all. She tries her hardest she genuinely doesn’t feel like it is never enough because people always die in the end or get hurt and she takes it personally sometimes, too personally and it hurts her in the long run.

Elizabeth Elliot, as tender, gentle, and hilarious as she is, struggles with her mental health. In many circumstances she is very mentally strong, she can block the pain but in others, after learning of her hyperkinetic disorder (ADHD), which it was called in the 1940s, she hits that downward slope where she feels she can’t escape. And I have only seen a few OCs that struggle with mental health (various types of mental health), such as a disorder like ADHD, so I decided it was time to write a character like that. And her ADHD is what really makes her struggle throughout Bastogne to the end of the war. It causes her to lack in the ability to do her job right - there’s the distraction, the mind-eating thoughts, the inability to fully concentrate, the rereading and getting nowhere, the frustration - all of it - and that makes her really struggle more than anything. 

And....for a little sneak peak at the Flip Children (Natia, Klimeck, and Ryzshard) I will briefly discuss their flaws...

Natia Filipska, is genuinely a warrior, with a highly intelligent mind, who easily understands people from one to the other, but she grows easily numb and cold to others and flushes out her emotions in dangerous situations, ideally making her reckless, distant and tough to work with. Which doesn’t bode well for a character who HAS to work with others to survive. But that is just in short - I can’t spoil much more! 

Klimeck Filipska is, like her sister, intelligent, hard-working, and a powerful role-model and leader for all, but her anger sets her apart from others. She lets anger in many cases take over her decisions and it ends up getting friends injured and possibly even killed in the end. And it is something she takes very personally because she is very much 0-80 within seconds and her decisions are angry and emotionally driven simply because she has seen what the Nazis have taken and it angers her more than anything. It never amounts to something good in the end sometimes.

Ryzshard Filipski, who albeit, is smooth, charismatic, and deceptive, is, like Natia, VERY reckless, and it almost gets him killed sometimes. And sometimes he is purely too humanity driven. It almost makes him lose his cover. But he is in fact the youngest sibling, the youngest and only brother, and so he watches what his sisters are like in their way of being driven through the war and tries in a sense to be a bit of the light - but he is only a 20 year old man - he is still a child in the war, struggling with the idea that he lost his innocence with it as well. 

And don’t get me wrong, they are all deeply flawed but they are ALL strong oc’s, strong female ocs and a strong male oc. The 6 female ocs I have I believe, are all strong in their own individual way, whether it be quietly or loudly, they are all strong. Quiet people can be strong and confident people can be strong - and they don’t take bs either :) They are all strong, just like you all are, even if you have flaws - they make you stronger. 

And Ryzshard, as my ONLY male oc, I didn’t want to make him the stereotypical male oc - the always brave, always angry, emotionless sorta of persona - he has emotions, the most innocence out of the flip children, and he cares the most, and that’s what I really hope to get across even through his recklessness - he cares. 

“how writing has helped you/made you happy if you’re comfortable with that!”

So, this is a question I’ve gotten throughout the day, but I’ll put it in short!! Writing has just always been an outlet for me, and a way to express myself. When I’m stressed, upset, or angry, I come and I write and know that I’m in my own world. I’ve always found motivation in myself to write because I always just do it for me, really. I love everyone and appreciate everyone who reads my works and my stories, but I mainly do it because it is something I love doing and something that has helped me in more ways than one. 

It just always makes me so happy to make art on a screen with black and white words - it truly is an art form for so many people and for someone like me and as an artist myself, to create art with words is something I just adore. 

And, off topic sorta LOL, but I feel the reason I keep having motivation day in and day out to just keep writing, is because I do it for me? If that makes sense? I always tell myself ‘you’re doing it for you queen, you’re doing what you always want, and just for you - how ADORABLE is that - it’s like treating yourself” and I just tell myself that always, because I’m like wow, I’m doing something for me that’s fun!

And writing’s always there, it doesn’t leave, it doesn’t judge, it doesn’t make fun of you, it doesn’t turn cold, it doesn’t lie - it’s purely just WRITING - and I’ve always loved that about writing. Writing’s just always been there <3

thank you sm for the ask ange!! this was genuinely super fun! and i loved being able to talk about my oc’s and their flaws a bit, since i feel i needed to explain them just a bit and why they are flawed like a normal human! and plus talking about my writing experience and the true work of art writing is, is something i will always rave about!!! thank you <3

[tinamaetales]

2017 K Drama Journey

It was that one night, while scrolling through my facebook feed that I came across this short clip from Doctors wherein Park Shin Hye is beating up the gangsters in the ER. I got curious so I decided to find a copy of it and try watching a K Drama. I thought, why not give it a try? It was during those times that I was recovering from my PUD and I just resigned from my job and I really want to watch a good tv series and K Dramas are really popular nowadays so I decided to give it a try and, I wasn’t disappointed. K Dramas, as cliché as it may sound, changed my life. Every show I’ve watched was a roller coaster ride of emotions. In addition, they taught me lessons I never expected in the first place.

I would just like to share with you a “summarized” version of my views about the kdramas I’ve watched in 2017 (cause ya know, I’ve already posted my individual reflections about them here)

Doctor Stranger

My rating: 7/10

Starring: Lee Jong Suk, Park Hae Jin, Kang So Ra and Jin Se Yeon

This is an interesting drama to watch because it doesn’t only focuses on the romance aspect but also divulge into the topic of politics and medicine. The best part? The competition between Park Hoon and Han Jae Joon for it served as an avenue for their growth both as doctors and as a person. However, I felt like the romance part in here is a bit forced; I’m sorry but the main couple has zero chemistry.

My fave quote: “…the doctor’s gown you wear? That’s sufficient enough for people to put their lives in your hands. Let’s not disappoint them”

My fave OSTs:

Like Tomorrow Won’t Come by G/O

A Good Day Like This by Jeon Hye Won

More of my reflection:

https://tinamaetales.tumblr.com/post/158622149566/strangers

https://tinamaetales.tumblr.com/post/159863753466/who-is-the-real-stranger

Goblin

 My rating: 10/10

Starring: Gong Yoo, Kim Go Eun, Lee Dong Wook, Yoo In Na and Yook SuengJae

The best K drama ever. It’s perfect. That’s all. This K drama will make you value life more and will show you that death isn’t something we should be afraid of – it’s a part of our journey on Earth, an end to a life once lived and it will only be regrettable if you didn’t live your life right. Anyway, this is a story about a Goblin who lives for more than 900 years and is searching for the Goblin’s Bride that will pull out the sword from his chest to end his immortality is surely something that would catch your attention. Let’s also add that he has an amnesiac Grim Reaper for a best friend (lol) and a spoiled brat ‘nephew’ who is so in love with his credit card. What will make you get hooked in this drama? It’s how every character are related to each other both in beautiful and painful ways; yes, even that gorgeous chicken store owner has a very important role. The part that broke my heart in this drama is the realization that the key to ending the Goblin’s immortality has become his reason to stay alive. It’s ironic how someone who has the ability to end you is also the only reason for you to keep going. Ang sakit bes.  It was a perfect mix of romance, comedy and drama.

My fave quotes:

“Every life is touched by a deity at least once. Just when you’re drifting away from the world, if someone nudges you back in the right direction, that’d be when the deity chooses to visit you”

“If god really only gives one as many struggles as one can handle, he may have thought too highly of me”

“The ones left behind should live even harder. We might cry from time to time but we should smile a lot and cheer up. You are obligated to do that in return for the love you received”

“Every human dies at some point, that’s why life is even more beautiful………If today is my last day, this will be my final memory of the person I love so I’d better live hard and love”

“How could you tell me to remember only the happy memories but to forget you? That makes no sense because every moment I spent with you was a happy one even though each and every moment was also sad and difficult. So, did my dying to protect you become your happy ending?”

“I will come as the rainfall. I will come as the first snowfall. I will beg the divinity to do just that”

“Every moment I spent with you shined. Because the weather was good. Because the weather was bad. Because the weather was good enough”

My fave OSTs: (all of them actually, lol)

Beautiful by Crush

Stay With Me by Punch ft. Chanyeol (EXO)

I will go to you like the first snow by Ailee

Hush by Lassie Lindh

I miss you by Soyou

And I’m Here by Kim Kyung Hee

You are so beautiful by Eddy Kim

Heaven by Roy Kim

Round and Round by Heize

More of my reflection:

https://tinamaetales.tumblr.com/post/160115970831/souls

https://tinamaetales.tumblr.com/post/161922642721/i-dont-wanna-live-forever-goblin-post-part-2

https://tinamaetales.tumblr.com/post/175471572666/hes-always-listening-goblin-post-part-3 

W

 My rating: 8.5/10

Starring: Lee Jong Suk and Han Hyo Joo

One of the most interesting plots in the K drama land; it is a story about the lead character of a famous comic book series who developed “free will” that scared his creator so much to the point that he wanted to kill off his main character. Kang Chul’s (the comic book’s main character) creator is afraid of how he seem to be directing his own story so his solution is to kill him however due to an amazing twist of fate, the creator’s daughter (which happens to be a doctor) gets sucked inside the comic book world every time that Kang Chul is in danger in order for her to save him. This k drama knows no chill by the way, it will keep you on the edge of your seat every episode. It’s intense and sometimes stressful to watch but you will love every moment of it anyway.

My fave quotes:

“But in last moment, he suddenly thought of one word: ‘Come-from-behind-victory’. Kang Chul decided to keep fighting until he found the true culprit – he wouldn’t be able to take back his own life. So he will find the culprit before he dies, no matter what.”

“The first purpose of the characters are to deliver the story. When the purpose is gone, the character disappears forever. On the contrary, when a character’s purpose becomes clear… then the character becomes one of the main characters by force”

 My fave OST:

Where are u by Jung Joon-young

Please say something, even though it is a lie by Park Bo Ram

More of my reflection: 

 https://tinamaetales.tumblr.com/post/164668803281/hero

 https://tinamaetales.tumblr.com/post/174726704651/kang-chuls-fight-is-my-fight-w-blog-post-part

Love in the moonlight

My rating: 9/10

Starring: Park Bo Gum, Kim Yoo Jung, Kwak Dong Yeon, Chae Soo Bin and Jinyoung (B1A4)

My first historical drama. It’s charming especially when you have Park Bo Gum as the Crown Prince and Kim Yoo Jung as the female lead, what more can you ask for? The romance side of this feels natural and would make you feel kilig everytime! You will love it to the moon and back. Moreover, the social issues it presented were still timely and relevant. It will make you realize that no matter how many years have passed and how different the government system has changed through the years, if those in position are motivated by their love of power instead of service to people then things would definitely won’t turn out well. This drama shows us that it is when the government listen to its people that it can be effective. The officials should not create higher gates and longer barriers between them and its people but instead open its doors and close the distance after all, without its people the government is nothing.

My fave quotes:

“I wish you would be a king with good eyes because if you’re too high up, you tend not to see people below you. I wish you have good ears – you must not listen only to those who yell before you… Please protect every single person for they’re all your people. Will you promise me to become a King like that?” 

“Rather than a sun that shines alone, he’s a ruler who shines brightly when among his people, like the moonlight—I believe the king is that kind of person.”

 “The highs and lows between me and my people, the distance between me and you—I hope that you will understand my wish to be one step closer.”

My fave OSTs:

Moonlight Drawn by Clouds by Gummy

Melting Heart by K. Will

My Person by Park Bo Gum

I think I’m done sleeping by Soyou ft. Yoo Seungwoo

More of my reflection:

 https://tinamaetales.tumblr.com/post/165394639616/the-rebel-prince

Legend of the blue sea

 My rating: 7/10

One of the most hyped K drama of 2016 and even though it fell short on its promising story line, I still get to enjoy watching this. It’s interesting to watch a love story between a mermaid and a human especially when it also included the theme of reincarnation. This drama also shows us the value of second chances – it is an opportunity for us to change the course of our fate but it will be our choice…it’s up to us if we want to be better.

Starring: Lee Min Ho, Jun Ji Hyun, Shin Won Ho, Lee Hee Joon and Shin Hye Sun

My fave quotes:

“If someone is reborn, might it be because they have an unrealized dream? That dream could be an unfulfilled love, or it could even be unsatisfied greed.”

“The fact that everything is repeating isn’t a curse, but an opportunity—to change the ending.”

“But when I make friends with someone, that’s it for me. Whether you backstab or not, that’s your choice. I’ll think about what I’ll do if you do backstab me. Until then, you’re my friend.”

“Rather than being unable to love my daughter because I can’t remember her, it’s better to live remembering her, even if it’s painful.”

My fave OSTs:

Love Story by Lyn

A World that is You by Yoon Mirae

More of my reflection:

 https://tinamaetales.tumblr.com/post/168356428401/when-history-repeats-itself

 Weightlifting Fairy Kim Bok Joo

My rating: 8.5/10

If I could only describe this K Drama in one word, it would be charming. The plot is light yet relatable. Easy to watch yet filled with great life lessons too. It will actually remind us of our younger years – the silly crushes, the dreamers in us and the unforgettable friendships we gained. What I like the most about it is the simplicity of its plot yet it will touch your heart.

Starring: Lee Sung Kyung and Nam Joo Hyuk

My fave quotes:

“No matter how high the mountain is, it will not be as grand as your dreams. This is nothing hard! We get back up no matter how harshly we’re trampled upon”

“I hope you will confront that matters (resentment towards your mother and your complicated emotions towards your uncle’s family) squarely. Those emotions such as gratitude, guilt or tiredness from pretending you don’t know the truth.. should burst out at least once. Only then you will be completely free from the trauma you are having” 

“Everyone has a youth. A time that’s more beautiful because it’s awkward and clumsy, a time that shines brilliantly. A time when you’re not afraid of anything because you have nothing to lose, and a time when you’re excited because you can have anything, everything. That’s now, age 24, my youth. Although I’m still uneasy and nervous, I’m perfect without needing anything else.”

My fave OSTs:

You and I by Kim Jong Wan

Dreaming by Han Hee

More of my reflection:

 https://tinamaetales.tumblr.com/post/168888275251/swag

Cheese in the trap

My rating: 6/10

If you’re looking for a realistic yet harsh approach towards depicting our society in general, then this k drama is a must watch for you. It shows how the real world sucks. It has its charming side too though, especially the love triangle between Yoo Jung, Hong Seol and Baek In Ho and it will sometimes make you feel that both guys are deserving…actually erase that…all of them are deserving of love especially after all the struggles and challenges they’ve went through at such a young age. This drama started out strong but the ending felt a bit empty.  

Starring: Park Hae Jin, Kim Go Eun, Lee Sung Kyung, Seo Kang Joon and Nam Joo Hyuk

My fave quotes:

“Once you start working, you’ll realize you’re no longer the center of the universe, you realize there’re many people who are better & scarier than you and you need to accept that you cannot control everything.”

“People who play victim will always end up like that, losing what they have as they attempt to gain what isn’t theirs” 

“Why is it that people always want what belongs to other people? Then they delude themselves thinking other people’s things are theirs when in the end they lose what’s their own.”

“There are ups and downs in relationship but maintaining longevity is hard”

“No matter how rock bottom you are, you shouldn’t bring harm to people who care about you”

“Don’t put up walls and look down on people because among those people, there are some who sincerely wanted to be friends with you”

 My fave OSTs:

My Time with you by Vanilla Acoustic

Einfuhlung by Tearliner

Just a little by Sweden Laundry

Maybe I like you by Cosmos Hippie

More of my reflection:

 https://tinamaetales.tumblr.com/post/168925207681/trapped

Descendants of the Sun

My rating: 9.5/10

One of the best k dramas ever! I swear! It tells a great story of love, service and sacrifice. It is a great combination of romance, action, thrill, and philosophy.  The best thing about this is how it executed the differing principles of the way doctors and soldiers save lives. It shows us how we can find ourselves through the service of others.  

Starring: Song Joong Ki, Song Hye Kyo, and Kim Ji Won

My fave quotes:

“Soldiers always live with a shroud on. When they die in a nameless land for the sake of their country, the place of their death become their grave and their uniform become their shroud. This should be every soldier’s mindset every time they put down their uniform. Therefore, be honorable at every moment – there’s no reason to fall short” 

“I’ve been given the privilege to be a doctor, I faithfully pledge my life to serve humanity. The health and life of my patient will always be my priority. I will faithfully carry out my duties regardless of the patient’s race, religion or nationality. I will not use my knowledge inhumanely even when I’m under threat. I hereby take this oath on my account and on behalf of my honour”

 My fave OSTs:

Everytime by Chen of EXO ft. Punch

Always by Yoon Mirae

You are my Everything by Gummy

More of my reflection:

 https://tinamaetales.tumblr.com/post/169657649021/sacrifices

Hwarang

My rating: 7.5/10

I once described this drama as oppa overload because it was really filled with handsome oppa! Anyway, this is a great drama to show how the youth, despite them being young, can become the nation’s future. It is when we guide the young people rightly that we can secure a good future. It also shows us how much we needed to be united for our country’s sake because we can do so much better if we work with each other instead of against each other. This is a story of growth and brotherhood. A must watch, for sure.

Starring: Go Ara, Park Seo Joon, Park Hyung Sik, Choi Min Ho (SHINee), Do Ji Han, Kim Tae Hyung (BTS),  and Jo Yoon Woo

My fave quotes:

“It’s only those who possess a lot who fear. If you don’t have anything, you don’t fear anything.”

“Only when they (Hwarang) were able to think and live freely that they can dream of a future for Silla”

“Don’t be silenced by an order created by another. You are not a horse on a chess board. You are Hwarang who are freer than anyone else in this world. The fact that you are Hwarang, never forget that”

“Being young and weak is not a sin.”

My fave OSTs:

Even if I die by V and Jin from BTS

Our Tears by Park Seo Joon

I’ll be here by Park Hyung Sik

More of my reflection:

https://tinamaetales.tumblr.com/post/170972988531/change-starts-with-us

Doctors

My rating: 8.5/10

Starring: Park Shin Hye, Kim Rae Won, Lee Sung Kyung and Yoon Kyun Sang

This K drama will always have a special place in my heart because of how much I love and can relate with its heroine. The focus of this is the life of a great neurosurgeon Dr. Yoo Hye Jung – her ups and downs and how she manage to come out of all the challenges thrown at her stronger than ever. Her life story is really inspirational.

My fave quotes:

“The cells that make up a human are always in a state of instability. To live is to be unstable. In the end, the essence of life is change.”

“Unresolved pasts will always come back to find you whether it’s love or resentment”

“People say that forgiveness is not for others but for yourself. They shouldn’t say such things. Forgiveness isn’t as light as it sounds.”

“When doctors become guardians, they too are merely impotent humans.”

“A genuine meeting can change a person. The person I am with right now could change my life. That’s why a person can be both hope and despair”

 “I had once dreamt of revenge — killing everyone and myself. But there is such a thing as karmic justice, and at the center of that is not me, but the world.”

My fave OSTs:

No Way by Park Yongin  and Kwon Soonil of Urban Zakapa

It’s Love by Jung Yup

Sunflower by Younha

That’s the way it is by Se O

More of my reflection:

 https://tinamaetales.tumblr.com/post/173628552981/what-doesnt-kill-you-makes-you-stronger

It was one heck of a roller coaster ride, right? I think it’s safe to say that my 2017 k drama journey was lit af! Now I’m looking forward for more!

 X,

TinaMae

[wordsidneversaytoyou]

realisation

It was the fact that the amount of times I doubted my relationship with runa just because I was concerned of you and your jealousy of him led me to think that maybe I should just end it with him because that's how much I valued you and our friendship. Kasi sino ba naman sya when I have known you for how many years in comparison to the months that we have just known each other right? I was willing to let that all go and had always thought of you. Questioning what was really wrong and why you couldn’t be happy for me. It broke my heart when recently I have talked to runa and he expressed how difficult it was for him to understand me when I cannot choose him over you because he knew how torn I was between you two but he still chose to understand me because he knew you were my bestfriend and I would always choose you over him no matter what and you were just protective of me. - let me just insert this because i think this applies to you right now with ethan. The moment runa knew i had problems between you and him he immediately took actions and approached you. I didn't even have to ask him or tell him what to do, he just did it at his own will because he knew damn well, if actions were not taken he could have lost me or i would have lost my bestfriend. Maybe ethan should've done the same if he really thought about you. I am not saying he is not thinking of you but isn't that a little bit selfish? he knows how much this is already killing you yet he even stretches it til end of the year? is he really allowing you to go through all of this? for what reasons? I just don't understand. Staying silent does not even help at all.

And then you told me perhaps you didn't like runa because you thought you were gonna lose me. In truth I was offended, it felt like all my efforts weren’t even appreciated, I asked so many times asa man ko nagkulang mil? I dont understand how you can’t trust me and always think na makalimtan ra tika just because I have someone else? I don’t know where all of it are coming from? Did you really think nin ana ko ka shallow na amiga mirl na once naa nakoy mauyab or unsa ba makalimut rako nimo?

Remembering the sakuragi incident, I thought it made us stronger and then ethan came along. This time I’m not even hurt about it anymore, I am actually grateful, I told you once is a mistake and it’s enough for a wise man, but twice, I’m pretty sure that’s a choice already, and to show me that twice now, I now know where I stand in you, and the fear that you always had with me na I’ll choose a guy over you, that’s exactly what you made me feel towards you mirl. What’s worse is that I never seen it coming, I never even thought you’d ever do it to me pero you did it not just once but twice. I am not mad honestly mirl if anything, I am grateful and I am always thankful for everything, because at least now I know where I truly stand. You don’t have to feel bad, I am just saying katong tanan na times you got scared because you’d lose me, I hope you know, I always chose you, but your lack of trust in me and in our friendship mao na ang nakawala sa akoa especially when i see na dali raman diay kaayo ka makachoose ug lalake over me. Again, I am not saying this to make you feel bad or anything, if that's really what you want go ahead I will not stop you. I just really don’t know how you did it, but sabi nga nila choose people who choose you and I dont think that just applies to romantic partners, I think it also very much applies to friendship as well. I think choosing other guys over me for twice now already says a lot about where I stand in you mirl and I don't hold grudge or anything. Honestly i don't care anymore and I don't take it against you. Pero you can't blame me for feeling as if you never even thought about how i would feel. So for all its worth, I am grateful na din you were a blessing in disguise to me you kept me away from sakuragi and even to ethan perhaps even to runa so thank you. I am fine. And I hope you are too.

That’s probably why I am so affected with ethan kasi you chose that over me, and i see na wala juy ayo sometimes iyang g pangbuhat, I hope he will be there for you in every ups and downs of your life because I cannot promise to be there anymore not after all of this. When I see you truly be happy, sapat na na at least I can say to myself yea you were right in choosing him over me. And It was all worth it all along. He knows how much this is killing you yet he even stretches it out til end of year what the actual heck. He better do it by then or my respect is so out in the trash right now. You telling me you're fighting for this guy, there is nothing wrong with that but i hope you realise that he is the one putting you in battles you shouldn't even fight.

One thing I ask of you, please promise me na you won’t ever let this guy break you whatever happens. I can’t fully say na ma ok ta tanan after ani because this some whirlwind. Pero I know that I will still care for you. If we can all get pass this, and I’ll get over this too, know that I will still be here for you. I am sorry as well if im taking it personally na but i really do hope you understand everything that you are doing here. So please dont break your heart. I still love you but damn this is making me mad. Don’t ever wear you heart on your sleeves, if he is not willing to do as much as you can for him.

I hope you have a merry christmas and God bless you always.

[howsofyelle]

My Life During the Quarantine

Dear Blog, I only know pandemics like this in history. But who would have thought that were going to experience it too 😕. So we all know the story of the Covid-19, and the what-to-do's when going out, upon returning home, and what to use, to do, and others.

So first, let me start during the implementation of quarantine and lockdown last March 2020. Im inside our campus that time, when posts circulating in the internet had began. And you know whats next- suspension of classes. Not only that, the whole of Luzon was placed into lockdown! Meaning no one is allowed to go out unless necessary, different business establishments began to close, and the news is nonstop 24/7 regarding the cases of the pandemic in the country and in the whole world. Worse, many people began questioning, 'how will we survive?', 'where can we get food?', 'no work, no pay!'.

Not because we are more blessed than them, then we wont care at all.

..... The first months thought me a lesson... As a student and have no work to help them (the ones greatly affected because of the lockdown), I only know one thing: Pray for them.

"If you cant help through giving, pray for them to have a blessing. Pray for them that God will use someone near to help them, and to show God's love for them".

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Im so much thankful that God saved me. That I am always covered by His mercy and grace especially during this time.

And that our dinner table never run out of God's blessings.

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Next after about two months.

In our church, we held our Youth Camp every month of May. Since the whole Philippines is under quarantine, our Church held our Youth Camp through live streaming. It is a 4 day event live streaming and Im so much blessed again that our Spirit is revived ❣️. After this event, some of us youths stayed in our pastors house to gather and to evangelize, or give foods for our frontliners.

One time, when I gave snacks and a drink to one frontliner in the middle of the day, (and since we are wearing facemasks, and I can only see his eyes) I saw that his eyes are so much tired. Like he can barely talk. Yet I saw that this frontliners are too determine to do their duty.

So what can I share here is that we should stop generalizing our Men in Uniforms. Not because one committed a mistake it doesnt mean that all of them are like him. Not because someone committed a mistake then we should already forget their sacrifices during the pandemic. I guess we should stop our attitude that goes like this: 'Ang dami mong ginawang tama pero ung pagkakamali mo ung nakikita'. And of course Im not perfect and I also admit that..... ⬆️↖️. But thanks to this life lessons.

After weeks and days, is the opening of classes. I've read many comments and opinions regarding online classes.

Is the Philippines ready for this type of learning? Why did the government pursue to go on amidst this situation? But Im too lazy to google and don't want to give any opinions. Thankfully that our teachers is understanding. That they give time for their students to finish and pass their activities.

Now, I know that the classes of other colleges, elementary and high schools are yet to start the following months. My question is, are they ready? Do they have the means and ways to pursue online classes? What would happen to the education system of the country? What is their priority? The tourism industry? The education system? Or the lives of many people 🤔. I really dont understand some things. Maybe I should watch news more often 😃.

But I just know one thing, that amidst of the ongoing situation, we still have hope, fixing our eyes unto Jesus, the finisher and author of our faith. We heal as one Philippines.

[isabols-blog]

Three Years

I’ve been in college for three years. Three whole years of unexpected experiences. Three whole years of pure bullshit. Well, not pure bullshit. But right now that’s what it feels like. I get that this is supposed to be the time in my life where I’ll be able to understand myself better and figure out who my true friends are and what not, BUT NOPE. I still DONT know who I truly am and at this point I feel like I don’t even know if I have friends anymore. I feel like I’m about to break. And no, this is not the first time I’ve felt this way. 

I thought first year of college was the worst year of my life. No lie- I was pretty wild. But I mean like who doesn’t go all out on their first year of college? Well to cut to the chase, I liked going out a lot and drinking and in exchange for all those fun ass moments with great friends, I experienced some of my worst nights. I was forced to makeout with someone, got harassed and was known to be the “easy” girl who lost her virginity to some dude, which I don’t get because I’m still a virgin up to this point. Some people believed it and I was talked about for a while. It felt like high school especially since we were all block section. I mean you could say I’m a flirt because I really am, but don’t be spreading rumors about shit that isn’t true. This was the year I realized that every time something good happened, something bad would come or vice versa. And I guess this was kind of my mindset ever since. Anyway aside from this, everyday when I would go to school I would be reminded of by my classmate how much of an ugly person I am. At first it was just a joke and I rode with it because he was my friend, but then it became a daily thing and it started to bother me so much. My blockmate would literally shout, “Guys look at the outfit of Isabelle today. Ang pangit.” “Guys ang pangit ni Isabelle.” “OMG it smells like shrimp.. Hipon? Isabelle is that you?” And he would just laugh it everytime. My self-esteem got so low and I just felt so down. I told him how I felt about the situation and lost a friend.  Second year came and I lost touch with those friends I used to always hang out with when I drank and also lost a really close friend who I hung out with during the summer every single day. I realized that all I was to her was a messenger to all her crushes and she literally just went to me so that I could talk to them for her. And yeah it sucked, but I dealt with it for a long while until boom we just stopped being friends. This school year I also started crushing on someone. That someone had a girlfriend. But of course, I built walls between us because of that. And for me, it’s not that hard to build walls because I already tell myself not to give in from the start. These are for those people who I think I’m going to actually like-like. I mean I gotta long list of crushes - mostly celebrities and people that don’t know me - that I instantly crush on, but when it comes to liking someone it takes some time (because yeah, I ALWAYS build walls). Anyway, that wall started to tear down when I got to know more about him. We talked ALL THE TIME, we ate lunch every after class, we snapped and texted here and there. I knew I was fucked because I allowed myself to do all of this and because I LIKED HIM. I even made out when I was intoxicated this one night even though I knew he had a girlfriend. I’m sucha horrible person.  What sucked was that I liked it, but at the same time never felt more ashamed. I was a mess and still am. Currently a junior in college and I don’t think I have ever experienced so much devastation in my life. This school year was definitely not a great start. Long story short, I met up with a few people got intoxicated and shit. Our conversation rose to me slipping shit about the guy I liked who had a girlfriend. Not to mention, those people I was with were the best friends of the girlfriend. Fun. I honestly didn’t know what to do at that point because that night just became the most uncomfortable and scared experience of my life. I’m not even exaggerating. I don’t think I’ve ever felt so afraid. I mean I ended up running to the ground floor bare foot without my stuff not knowing where to go or what to do because I was just too overwhelmed with the situation I was in. What made it worse was that I wasn’t in the right state of mind. I WAS JUST SO FUCKING CONFUSED. I overthought every situation I was in after that night. I couldn’t stop thinking and I cried almost everyday for about two weeks. I became so closed in school. I didn’t want to socialize, I quit my org, I went straight home after each class. Pretty much did everything I could to not be associated with whatever happened that night. Basically lost a lot of friends, a lot of energy and wasted a lot of days thinking. It was a horrible time. During the break of this school year I thought about the things I needed to work on and decided to fix on myself. When 2017 began, I wanted to have like a fresh start. I started apologizing to those I had beef with. I started understanding people better and always tried to look at both sides of their stories. I was doing so well for the first weeks of this year. I felt better and I didn’t feel so anxious when I went to school. But then I found out something about my best friend and felt off about what happened. I gave her time until she told me about it, but she was taking a while, so I confronted her and told her how I felt. Honestly thought she would just explain to me what happened and it would be over, but instead I ended up being blamed for. Oh yeah, also, I guess we’re not friends anymore too because she doesn’t expect a friendship. We’ve had an awk situation once and I tried so hard to reach after her because our friendship meant a lot to me and I just feel like the feelings aren’t mutual. Seems like she’s not even going to try to be my friend anymore. So after trying to work on myself and being understanding this is what happens. This is what happens when you try to do good, be honest, and be the best person you can be after experiencing the worst shit of your life. This is what it has come to. Trying to turn my life around, but it just keeps bringing me lower than my lowest point.    People don’t understand how sad and devastated I have gotten. I’m trying so hard to look strong and be strong in all these situations, but honestly I really don’t know what to do. And this is just the gist of everything that I experienced. To list it most of it down this is probably how shitty my life is - I loved a guy who cheated on me in front of me (more than twice), everyday in school I’d be reminded of being ‘hipon’ and ugly by my one blockmate, I slept over a friend’s friend’s place (no one was drunk) and ended up being touched by her friend, this guy spread rumors about how we had bad sex because I didn’t want to have sex with him- then became known to be a slut, I lost a close friend, I kissed a guy who had a girlfriend, I was played with by a group of people (to the point I thought I was going to die), I lost more friends, Anxious almost all the time (especially when I’m in school), I became uncomfortable in my own school, I had to talk to my professor to help me because I just felt so low in life, didn’t talk to anyone for a while, I lost my best friend.

BUT putting all of this aside, I’ve been thinking about the things I still have in life - the small group of friends I hang out with almost everyday. I might have lost my most of my friends, my best friend and myself but I’m still glad to have the close group of friends I see almost all the time. They're the coolest and most kind people I know. I literally feel like family when I’m with them. No joke. I feel like they’re all my older brothers. But of course, the world always tries to find another way to pull me down. Another problem rose recently and I know for a fact that the amount of times we hang out as a group will probably lessen and it saddens me because they’re literally the only true friends I got. I know eventually we would have to split because yeah, life, but I hate having the thought at the back of my mind of still not being 100% okay with each other. It isn’t much of my problem, but I can’t help it because I just value this friendship as a whole and that’s just who I am. As much as they will probably say that they got my back and that we’re all still friends, I know it won’t be the same anymore. I mean I guess we’ll still be close individually, but not as a group and for some people that isn’t important, but for me it is because I yeah, I value my friendship so much. The problem is that I can’t do anything about the situation. I mean just because it’s the worst thing to happen to me as of this moment, it might be the best for someone else and it would be selfish if I only thought about my problems. I know everyone has got their own problems to solve, some of which surpass the issues I have, but it just upsets me that I continually keep losing friends. And It makes me question the type of person I am. I feel like this is what makes me overthink all the shit I do. I’m really just am sad that it always just comes down to me eventually losing friends. It sucks because I know that weeks from now, I’ll have no one but myself. What a great way to start the year. I still got a term and a half left for this school year.. I wonder what else I got to lose.  The fact that I had to write this all down on this random page just shows I have no one else to go to, but myself.