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dizzyingflicker · 3 years ago

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frigid air (fic commentary)

literally no one asked for this but hello! hi! if you didn’t know, i wrote a 11 chapter fic called ‘frigid air’ a few weeks back. the fic started as jayhoon centric, but it kinda got off the rails from there hehe

the birth of the idea

so the bri from a few weeks ago was already thinking about writing a lengthy enha au.

i just finished writing a jakehoon one shot and wanted to try my hand at writing another ship! at first, i thought of typical au ideas that were college themed. those are the most fun to write and read imo, bc it’s so grounded in reality. and also bc the jakehoon one shot i wrote was a lot heavier and angsty, which was something i think i’m better at doing! there’s this really great fic i read that inspired me to try my hand at some lighter themes!

after reading that au, i was like “hmmmm im gonna try writing some romcom type of stuff.” i always ALWAYS write angst, so this was a really nice and fun change!

yes, back to the college au ideas. i then began to think about what majors the enha kids would do if they went to college. my notes for the first outline kind of went like this:

Jay - fashion major, new addition to the dorm, is rich but doesnt want anyone to know, is kind despite being taken advantage of in his hometown, just wants a normal family

Heeseung - music production major, has a soundcloud lowkey but doesn't let anyone know, is going thru his first real heartbreak and is using music to deal with it

Jungwon - hasnt decided on a major, came to uni w a full ride taekwondo scholarship, secret boyfriend, coming to terms w sexuality

Jake - australian exchange student, architecture major, maybe gets a weird stalker?

Sunoo - beauty school, wants to be a hairstylist, kinda eccentric, knows everyone’s business

Sunghoon - figure skater, doesnt go to school, is close to getting on the national team, lives in a dorm to avoid his tiger parents, softspot for his younger sister

Niki - dance major from japan, is a little too clingy, feels lonely away from his family

in hindsight, the characters here seem a lot more deeper and fleshed out as compared to what i ended up writing, but i realized that if i kept all of this in - it would’ve been really overwhelming for the reader. i had to remind myself that this was a jayhoon centric fic LMAOOOOO

after writing this, i was like “WAITTTT A HOT SEC” this sounds a lot like hello my twenties! which btw, is an amazing show on netflix that you should definitely watch. i watched this show with my girlfriend and man, the way it handled all of the a,b,c, etc plots was so fantastic.

every character had their own stories and that’s what i loved. usually in fics or aus, a lot of the side characters sort of fade into the background. they also do this thing where their main reason for existence is to lift the mc or main ship up in the story. i wanted to avoid that, so taking inspo from hello my 20s, i decided to give every character a story. whether it be something big like sunoo’s stalker or something small like heejake’s and jungniel’s development, i wanted to give them all something to tell. in hello my 20s, each of the girs living in that house had their own unique stories that fit them really well. whether i did it as well as the writers of the show - that’s something else to unpack, right?

the characters and their developments

so this is something i’m not sure if i did well in or not. the original plot was to have jay and sunghoon not get along at all. with jay’s abrasiveness and sunghoon’s surface coolness, i thought it would be fun to see them butt heads. but i realized that it wasn’t so realistic because they don’t really see each other enough to butt heads that much. i thought making sunghoon shy and reserved (thus standoffish) while jay tries his best to make sunghoon open up was a lot more cuter.

jay is a lot more bold in this, even through his embarassing moments. he’s self-assured, determined and open to pretty much anything. he’s generous and friendly. the only weakness jay has is he’s too presumptious sometimes and assumes stuff without any real basis, as seen with him assuming that ryujin and sunghoon were dating bc of a passing remark from jake and some yt comments. i gave him a dead dad at the end of the fic bc hello we’re projecting but also to explain why he’s super close to his mum and why he’s just a tad bit behind everyone else his age. i wanted to expand on this a little but sadly, i kinda ran out of words to talk about this. if you know what i mean. tbh, jay doesn’t have much of a development in this. that’s something i really want to improve on in my next au, giving my mc some actual development instead of getting carried away with other side characters.

sunghoon is, as i said, shy and reserved. he has a lil trauma from being rejected by seon years ago. you can tell that his experience was not pleasant at all - so he keeps feelings of attraction and want farrrrrr away from him. sunghoon is sorry he’s an anti-romantic, if you will. throughout this fic, you see him open up to jay and realize that not every guy he’s attracted to will reject him painfully. he also learns that he doesn’t need to keep people at an arms length away and that opening himself up to more people will bring about very nice things! very cliche but hey, it iz what it iz.

jungwon was a fun one to write! not bc i feel a little of what he feels, but bc he’s adorable with daniel and having him be unsure was fun to write. jungwon is pretty self-assured in this fic, but with daniel, he’s not really sure what he’s doing.

heeseung feels secure enough with jake that he’s willing to sing in front of him, which is something he doesn’t do. jake is very naive about relationships and hee’s feelings for him, but heeseung kind of brings him down back to reality with the scene from han river. heeseung is getting over a breakup and that stuff takes a while, so that’s why i didn’t let them get together too fast. hee knows how jake feels about him and he doesn’t want to ruin it by jumping into things so fast.

sunoo is super friendly and too trusting with people, which is both a blessing and a curse. niki and him have been attached to the hip since their friendship started and niki sees sunoo as a very very dear friend to him. bc who else lets him sleep in his bed and who else buys him taiyaki everyday? that’s right, it’s his sunoo hyung. sunoo also cares for niki a lot and they’re just very sweet.

what i did well and what i didn’t

okay this is debatable, but i did like how i wrote the developing relationships in this, mostly the ones that weren’t the main jayhoon arc. i liked the way i wrote jungwon and daniel’s little friction and i loved heejake’s confession scene.

the humour in this was a little weak for me, but it was my first attempt at writing it so it’s forgivable.

i just wished i wrote the main relationship better. i feel like it took a while at the beginning and suddenly went from 49 to 27403 real quick. if i were to rewrite it, i’d give them a lot more time to pine as that stage before friends and maybe insert more conflict.

i’d give jay a stronger conflict other than trying to befriend with sunghoon. his character felt very 1d for me and i didn’t like that. i needed to develop him more tbh LMAOOO

music!

anti-romantic by txt

perhaps love by eric nam ft cheeze

love poem by iu

give love by akmu

hope ur ok by olivia rodrigo

only yoou by yand da il

references for sunghoon’s ice skating

sunghoon’s white outfit in the youtube video with ryujin

sunghoon’s black outfit in nationals

the reference pic jay draws of sunghoon (which seon sees)

if you read the fic, i’d like to say thank you! i had a lot of fun writing this and seeing everyone’s reactions to the plot twists was super fun hehehehe i genuinely loved doing it even tho it gave me a lot stress! thank u for reading this if u read it too LMAOOOOO

#woundinsalt thots #frigid air #enhypen au

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stonerz4sokka · 4 years ago

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the gaang (& co.) on zoom

aang: ALWAYS mixes up his class times and it isn’t until sokka helps build his schedule and set reminders on aang's phone that he actually shows up to the right class at the right time, always excited to be there but is constantly getting distracted by the littlest things (doesn’t help that his window is behind his computer), isn’t afraid to tell the teacher when the hw assigned is too much (the whole class thanks him for that), types jokes in the class chat, wears his appa print pajamas to class everyday, motivates people to stay optimistic during these ‘troubling times’ (and it works)

katara: wears sweatpants and a crewneck everyday but NEVER forgets to do her hair, talks shit about the ugly white girls in their class (some are sokka’s exes) with zuko, wants to do pranks with toph but is too scared of getting caught (though she eventually does a few), takes the lead in breakout rooms bc she can’t stand the awkward silence although if aang is there they’ll both be very distracting, will literally laugh on camera every time she hears a stupid comment, gives emotional speeches to help motivate her classmates which are well-intentioned but come off as a little preachy :/ people still try though bc they weirdly don’t want to disappoint her, refuses to let a man interrupt her so she will continue talking even if their voices are overlapping for a good 20 secs

sokka: has an insane amount of reminders, alarms and organizational tools on his phone and computer so he doesn’t forget to go to class, he tries so hard to focus but ends up doing something that’s completely unrelated yet still educational, wears his same dumbass science pun t-shirts to class but he has his hair down more which makes the white girls in his class go crazy, starts all his sentences with ‘i think’ or ‘maybe we should’, tried to be clever once by setting a video on loop for his zoom background so the teacher didnt know he went to the bathroom but forgot to mute himself so the entire class heard him pee :(( his teachers enjoy him more in a zoom setting bc he's less of a distraction but they hate how he never stays on topics and asks questions they dont have the answer to, whenever katara sees him getting increasingly neurotic she’ll send him links to cool small businesses and they’ll ignore their classes n go online shopping together

zuko: always looks tired and grumpy even when he’s well rested, his camera is at 256p even when he has the newest macbook (azula messed w his computer & he still hasn't realized), extremely paranoid around accidentally unmuting himself so he just never talks, cannot figure out zoom and never screen shares for projects bc it takes him 15 mins every. time. is weird in breakout rooms because he's bad at social situations but he's trying!!! he could try harder tho :/ is able to empathize well with his fellow classmates n tries to lift their spirits (it rarely works but the effort feels nice), the teacher once saw him scream and punch his desk during the desmos activity and sent iroh an email about local therapists who specialize in anger management, spends his breaks between classes crying

toph: she will pick her nose, eat food, clip her toenails, do anything gross on camera to get back at her history teacher who told her she needs to be more ladylike, is actually cool in breakout rooms she seems like she would be super distracting but she would complain about the shitty teachers n provide insightful thoughts for the discussion/assignment at hand, does her zoom classes in her backyard so she could play with bugs, gives very helpful advice for maintaining ones sanity during online learning

suki: is always wrapped up in her blankets to the point where u can barely see her face, eats on camera & doesn't realize that no one wants to see that shit, she laughs at all the teachers' bad jokes bc she genuinely thinks they're funny, refuses to let sokka outperform in zoom learning so she does actually pay attention although it doesn't look like it, is really chill in breakout rooms n pretends she doesn't really care but will edit the work after class so it fits her expectations, she once farted in the middle of when she was talking and just pretended like she it didn't happen, actually is fine with online learning and likes the flexibility and doesn’t get why sokka is spiraling all the time ://

azula: oh god, she wears entire outfits with khakis and polos and SHOES!!! for her zoom meetings!!! she. wears. shoes. her hair is always perfect, tries WAY too hard and everyone knows when she wants to speak in class bc she literally starts vibrating on camera, one time someone won a debate against her in class and she turned off her camera for a good 3 minutes, when she turned it back on her eyes were watery and her entire face was red, doesn't understand how people are underperforming over zoom, has the second highest gpa in the school (after sokka) and managed to convince herself he is actively trying to ruin her life but he's just........ sitting there. constantly messes with zuko's google calendar so he's late for class, can clearly see the art of war by sun tzu on her bookshelf in the background

mai: yawns on camera whenever azula talks just to piss her off, doesn't talk often because her teachers & peers underestimate her but she's smart and when she does talk it's always something rlly insightful, one time her and ty lee were paired with jet for a project where he spent the whole time 'explaining' the topics at hand while they did the entire project on another tab and pretended to pay attention to him, tom tom will sometimes join her during class bc he misses her n she acts like she hates it but she does love spending time with him, is actually secretly extremely anxious about maintaining her grades during online learning but only sokka and ty lee can tell, her and sokka gossip through heavily layered inside jokes that only the two of them understand

ty lee: built a completely new daily schedule and organizational system the minute she learned they were switching to zoom, is always ready for class 20 mins before it starts but joins the zoom 2 minutes after class started so no one thinks she’s an overachiever, a great student but she waits too long to speak in class so she barely joins in on the discussions, is seemingly the regular ty lee but every so often she’ll pretend to go to the bathroom & turn off her camera to recollect herself bc she’s always on edge :/, would have the best gpa in the school but doesn’t want to seem intimidating so she purposefully scores lower on certain assignments so she has a 3.75 gpa,

jet: he tries to subtly vape during class by turning off camera his camera but its really obvious bc when he comes back he’s coughing and waving the smoke out the air, only participates in breakout rooms when the teacher comes in and immediately turns off his camera when they leave, staged a kidnapping during one of his lectures as an elaborate prank but no one cared noticed, someone else recorded the prank and posted it on tiktok where it blew up & all the comments were insulting him, he didn’t care though because ‘there’s no such thing as bad clout’

chan & ruon-jian: has not gone to a single one of their zoom classes sober (honestly barely attend), still tried throwing houseparties even when the cases were at their peak, tried to one-up jet's kidnapping prank by calling SWAT on themselves but ended up getting arrested because they forgot to hide their stash (they sell counterfeit juul pods), worst part was that their prank only got 250 views on yt :(

#ik this is pretty late considering it's been a year in quarantine but i made this for ME #the gaang #mai #ty lee #azula #jet #god azula would be SO FUNNY in zoom classes #tag urself im sokka #and sort of suki n mai #sokka and mai #ty lee and mai #my sokka n mai tag is sooo weak its my biggest flaw smh #chan #ruon-jian #didnt feel like tagging everyone but my otp chan-jian deserved the love💗#chan and ruon-jian

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youcantfiremebecauseiquit · 3 years ago

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idk if u care but crispin gray recently had an interview about his entire career and it kind of changed my perspective of queenadreena…idk if for better or for worse lol. it was weird to see him so dismissive of a lot of his catalogue w katie except for ‘love your money’ just because that was the only remotely chart successful song. i get you want to be able to sustain yourself but jeez him and katie really had a weird back and forth relationship

Sorry i'm replying late, i've seen the interview pop up on Youtube but honestly i was too invested in university shit recently & generally not in the good mood for that but i'm planning to watch. How did it change your view on Queen Adreena, did he say something mean specifically on QA or Katie? I mean i gotta watch it but honestly? Not surprised in the slightest. A few years ago he was asked to describe fave songs he recorded throughout the years and he listed more of Daisy Chainsaw ones than anything else, with Love Your Money as number 1. The differences in their points of view are real something, Katie Jane absolutely HATED Love Your Money, same as Daisy Chainsaw. Kinda apparent he wanted bigger fame but DC dropped fast and QA failed to live up to their predictions.

i had a time when i liked to dig up old Queen Adreena interviews that are lost in the old internet & generally not available for years (which i planned to post on is-she-suffering but my investment in that site is... varied in its intensity). Also that was back in the days when i wrote Queen Adreena book during manic phase and tried to sell it but lost motivation Well since i don't do anything with that knowledge anyway i'll put what i know here as i love fan discussions

So they sure had/have odd back and forth love-hate relationship & that's the reason why their career went how it went. There's been a huge tension between them at some point. I'm sure you know she had a major mental breakdown (probably schizophrenic episode) after Daisy Chainsaw, or even beginning before her leaving, and then she went into isolation and lived with an old woman in Lake District for awhile. She left Daisy Chainsaw cause Crispin didn't want her to come up with her own songs (all of DC was by Crispin except for Lovely ugly brutal world by KJ).

They almost split up as Queen Adreena after Drink Me. The material for The Butcher and The Butterfly was written at different times, originally it was meant to be called Atom Bomb at Bikini but it was constantly delaying and they eventually recorded everything they've got live. So that's obvious right? But i was surprised to find out they were writing songs separately. Some of them (i forgot which though) were written by Katie Jane and Pete Howard's sons band (they're even credited) + some with Melanie Garside, Richard Adams + some other musician. Katie Jane didn't like it. They intended it to be their last album at the time. She also hated live at ICA show but they released it cause they were broke

But that's a digression. I just wanna say that at this point they were done with each other but kept pushing it. Katie had her own art projects and stuff, Crispin started Dogbones with Nomi and i just remember how vaguely pissed at Katie he waas in the interviews. Like he stressed that Dogbones is his number one priority and if Katie wants to do something with Queenadreena, she must wait til Dogbones have a break first or something, and it sounded oddly bitter.

RaCH and Djinn era are just so weird, they had opportunities but let them go in a way. I don't think many people know but they were huge demand in Japan. They entered album charts and were interviewed by 11 magazines and 6 (!)TV stations there (wtf happened to that material i want to know???). But they only played 5 times or less.

Katie said she considers the band dead but they decided they can try to play for a couple more months. But aside from that she 100% lost the interest in the band around Djinn. There's an interview where she says "the overall image is Crispin but the shape will change again at rehearsals". And you can hear it, it’s more blues rock than anything. IMO it's their worst production wise. Instruments are fine but Katie's voice is so badly produced that sometimes i find some songs fucking irritating, cause they didn’t cut out her breaths and the vocals are TOO LOUD, to the point of distorting. As if she stands too close to the mic. The album is fine but it feels unfinished.

And here we come back to Crispin... here's what he said after the QA split:

Why the Dogbones started? “I needed to work more than the previous band I was in was working, the previous band who shall remain nameless, haha… um… Queenadreena. I wanted to work more than the singer of Queenadreena wanted to work… so that’s why it started. Fine by me… but I really like to be in a band, I’m not a solo project kind of guy. The last album (‘Djin’) did come out in the UK, but it was so low key because Katie kind of disappeared so there was little point in promoting it. Personally it’s my favourite by far so it was a shame but there you go… So here are Dogbones, it’s not been an easy ride but we are trying very hard.

Ok so the bitterness is kinda apparent isn't it. I think there were two reasons why they argued so much, first musical differences. Katie at some point lost interest in loud rock music for some years and went the folk way in Ruby Throat. I have a theory that Taxidermy and Drink Me are more influenced by Katie Jane and Butcher and Djinn are more Crispin. During first albums i think Katie more actively took part in music composition and choosing arrangements. She wrote lyrics, melodies but also composed a lot of songs on some little electronic keyboard thing and 4 track (Heavenly Surrender, Pray for me, My Silent Undoing, all Lalleshwari +more). Plus she wanted more peaceful/dreamy sound on Taxidermy than full on rock, Crispin complained about it in some 00's interview, that he'd like it to be more rock. Then there are 2 versions of Drink Me, the original has rough and alt versions of songs (it was sold by Katie and it's leaked on FB and probably YT). Crispin Gray apparently really hated the final Drink Me. Now next album is The Butcher & The Butterfly and it's more standard blues rock, no more crazy dreamy things of previous albums etc., Djinn is even more blues rock but darker. Djinn was his favourite at some point while KJ hated Butcher, not sure about Djinn. So i think they had different views on where they should go, Katie made her weird simplistic creepy tunes (like Lalleshwari) and folk melodies adding that strange things to noise rock. Crispin probably wanted blues & rock.

Other than that, i’m convinced they are bitter exes, lol. There’s been rumours about them dating during Daisy Chainsaw for years, plus Katie had a history of dating band members. Crispin wrote X-ing off the days about her. I don’t know if they dated again in Queen Adreena. Then there’s this interview, timeline is unclear, either The butcher & the butterfly or later:

„Katie writes all the songs herself and often looks for melodies and structure with the drummer. With Crispin - her husband or ex-husband, which is not entirely clear to me - for almost three years she has no longer been in a room. "Sometimes we send him a letter with a new song and that's all we can do. All we have are our lungs and our musical talent and we have to do with it. It is repugnant difficult life, I know most of the time how I should deal with it." But Queenadreena will still remain even exist? "I think so, we are now pretty busy and I see where the ship aground.”

I always wondered what exactly happened after Djinn, i’ve seen Katie Jane say „i think they gave up on me” while others said she disappeared. Other times CG said there’s no bad blood between them but at the same time there’s been some weird tension. As of recent i thought they reconnected somehow through the internet and had a good relation but who really knows.s

I get why Crispin gets irritated when people compare everything he does to „stealing from KJ” but honestly, he gave them good reasons, at least in the 90’s. I can believe Starsha Lee singer isn’t copying Katie cause she’s from Brazil or something and she didn’t know Queen Adreena before. But everything else… Crispin’s problem is that he doesn’t know what he wants. He spent 90’s chasing something, tried singing himself, had girl singer replacements and even one KJ copy. Dogbones was ironically his most original non-Katie band, even with all their grunge influences. In a way he wants to be a frontman and at the same time doesn’t. Idk if he’s very controlling, but Daisy Chainsaw shows he valued his songs/lyrics first & in Queen Adreena he had to step back a lot, cause Katie’s condition was she would be in charge of the lyrics. I don’t think he realizes how strongly Daisy Chainsaw issues affected Katie, i mean from her own words you can read that aside from media attention/hate, her being unable to write lyrics had a role in her breakdown. I think she now let go but for years she hated remembering Daisy Chainsaw and she felt kind of worthless cause she was only somebody else’s mouthpiece. I’m not trying to say he’s cruel or anything, but i firmly believe rock lyrics writers should sing their own songs or else there are problems.

They both were writers-composers with different vision and i have impression they struggled a lot while shaping their songs, cause they both stuck to their ideas. Hence 2 versions of Princess Carwash maybe. Katie once said that he „gets terribly upset with her” cause she writes her songs on a simple wind organ and uses a few chord buttons only. Clash of writer ways/personalities/egos and at some point they had to let go.

Maybe he prefers music/bands where he was 100% in control including lyrics (note he wrote/sang some lyrics in Dogbones too). Daisy Chainsaw achieved bigger success US and UK wise as they were offered to play Top of The Pops, and they’re more well liked/remembered by „general alt public”. Queen Adreena however is way more valued as a cult band, with cult following and admiration in UK & France. Most people think Pretty Like Drugs and other QA songs are his best work and he probably finds it irritating cause truth is, he never managed to be more successful than Daisy Chainsaw/Queenadreena. Love Your Money is ironically the least Crispin Gray/DC/QA sounding song in my opinion. I kinda find it irritating that he downplays Queen Adreena cause it was probably his best work in this band but whatever

So yeah sorry for the word spill, that’s what i can think of it right now but as i said, i haven’t watched the interview yet, it’s just this kind of treatment is in a way consistent for him

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kaleidoscopeminds · 4 years ago

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okay well you know what i'm here for. give me all the details on in a world of black and white. if you feel like breaking down the jalex spinoff as well i will not say no. i love you sooooooo much my love!!!!! xoxo bella

ok i’m actually so glad you’ve asked me this so i can talk a bit about what went into in a world of black and white, you wanted all the details so this is LONG but here’s how it went down!!!

i got you to write for and i was like eeeek so nervous!!!! i even said to hazel when i got you that i was nervous lol but i was like i just have to write the best thing i can using all of my available skills and that is basically a good memory of Things My Friends Like. i knew i wasn’t going to be able to write a jalex fic (lmao look where that got me) so i looked at your reader preferences and was like ok. friends to lovers lashton college au, lets do that, i just needed a concept to work around! then i was walking home from work one day listening to getaway green and i was like... what if getaway fic? what if getaway fic using the colour thing for a soulmate au? not using the actual story of the song per se but bits and pieces? and i got home and made a planning doc for it. it started with a few notes about soulmate lore, a rough “key moments” list, and a list of things to include for you<3 which looked something a little like:

snapback/flannel/lip ring luke

curly hair glasses ashton

make-up scene

hurt/comfort sick scene w/ tea

side jalex

michael having a crush on jack

luke saying he’s going to commit crimes when he sees ashton playing guitar

ace luke

i sent the planning doc to sam @tirednotflirting who said several wonderful things like “she’s gonna love it” which comforted me that it wasn’t a terrible idea. i also decided i wanted to include some lyrics from the song throughout which i KNEW could be kind of cheesy and jarring but i wanted them in there so i tried to make it make as much sense as i could but it still to make you stop and go oh! yeah! side note there’s a a more vague one in this bit which i’m not sure anyone actually managed to pick out? when Ashton is sick at the end of that scene: Luke tries not to think how much he likes at he idea of being what Ashton needs. as a loose reference to “keep on tellin' me I'm what you need”

most of it i found quite easy to write, i liked getting to have luke as the sweet boy who is desperate for a soulmate and ashton the slightly pretensious and cynical art student, michael was so fun to write as he always is with my muke friendships and calum who is mentioned very infrequently but has some of my favourite moments: michael hanging off him like a large and cumbersome scarf, and the bit where he says “not you babe” which still makes me laugh! the other thing i loved writing was the pretty colour words. i hadn’t done much of descriptive type stuff and i really did enjoy getting a chance to be a bit flowery and go off on one with some colour symbolism. i’ve always liked writing dialogue which i think is one of my strengths, and i think i’ve grown a lot as a writer since this fic but i do like that i did a bit of that kind of writing here which was out of my comfort zone!

the infamous cheese-ball scene didn’t get written in until quite near the end, i was having a bit of a crisis over the end, i’d written the last scene but i was finding it really tricky to know how to progress between the bit with Ashton finishing his project and the actual resolution and i was like i want some classic drink fueled flirting to get a bit of tension and then i was like.... omg i have an idea.... i had a conversation with the lovely sam who was my biggest cheerleader i love that girl i also at this point had still not decided on luke’s major but i decided to go fuck it and go all in on the pandering<3

we’ve discussed this before about not liking miscommunication and conflict so i didn’t want any of that, and i also hate outside interference in relationships as conflict so i didn’t want that either, but i thought the not-knowing thing was maybe just enough to be a reason that they don’t go for it without there being some terrible ~thing~ happen for either of them. it might make it a bit boring but i felt like it worked here! them pining but also kind of knowing they like each other but also not wanting to say it? it felt right to me!

the other thing i want to mention is me not putting everything in the tags because i knew you would read them and i wanted to surprise you, i did a couple of hints to ace luke before we got there in the fic, and i thought it would be soooo fun to have jack show up out of nowhere then alex too because i thought you probably wouldn’t expect that from me!

which brings me to getaway jalex. wow. i never saw myself including jalex as a side pairing simply because i did not know enough about them but i was like i need to at least TRY and i can always scrap it if its terrible. SO i watched a few interviews, a few yt compilations. i wanted to have jack being the professor just because i thought it would be fun to have him be a bit of a menace about it? that’s why i went for him over alex. and then the dialogue was funny, i just wanted to pull a couple of things that made them convincing as i was so like ??? about characterising them, which is where obviously professor boy came from, and also the bit where jack repeats himself the “ever thought about that?” as it was something i picked up on watching stuff! and him pretending to be outraged at alex swearing was just something i saw them doing! i wanted jalex to be the epitome of what i think (and luke thought) a soulmate SHOULD be which is not necessarily desire and pining and all consuming romance but its about annoying each other and being a constant presence and understanding each other better than anyone else and casual touches. and THATS basically where the whole premise for the spin off comes from because its just a slice of life of that extreme comfort of having a person, your person in every sense of the word. we had a little conversation about getaway jalex and i genuinely was not going to write it and then i had the idea for the papers that jack could be grading and the jokes about luke and alex being lead singers and i was like AHA i’ve got it i can do this!!! and it turned into possibly the softest most romantic thing i’ve ever written which is crazy

#bella #this is an ESSAY i hope its what you were after #tdlr: i love you #clumsyclifford #fic talk #directors cut chat #ask

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001jsngprk · 4 years ago

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━♡ guess the 20 YEAR OLD MAY baby just arrived to dallyeog! it makes sense, because PARK JAE-SUNG is just as SUNNY as the month of MAY. wait, why do they remind me of LEE WOO-JIN ( TARGET ) ? beyond that, they seemed SPIRITED and PATIENT upon first glance. i heard someone say they’re sort of HAREBRAINED and WISHY-WASHY though. i hope they get acquainted here in COMPLEX # 2 / APARTMENT # 5 / FLOOR # 3 ; HE seems to have a lot going on with HIS job as STUDENT. ( qiu, 18+, they/he/she, est. )

hello hello everyone !! i’m qiu and any pronouns are cool w me !!! this is my first krp (tbh first rp in a solid bit) so i might get confused here and there but the admins here are sososo helpful so hopefully nothing will throw me off too bad !! im happy to be here and my dms are always open !! though tbh i do prefer to use discord bc sometimes tumblr likes to commit crimes and eat messages </3 just hmu and ill give you it or add you!! if i dont reply to an im in like a day pls send an ask !!

i have an about pg that ill work on a little more but ill just write out a short little thing here to get the blog going !

! SUMMARY/TRIVIA ! [⤍ park jae-sung ● 20 yrs old ● uni student ]

- likes to be occupied ;; fully the type to be cooking a full course meal at four am just because he was studying and just needed to do anything else. also the type to let anyone in to eat it ! - non-native ;; from the u.s.! it’s actually his first year in korea ever so his korean can be odd-sounding a lot as even though it’s his native language, it’s not actually the one(english) he knows best !! when speaking in english, he has a southern accent - money-saver ;; buys things in sets exclusively to save money!! he’s more of the frugal type tbh when it comes to things other than bills !! if he recognizes you pls expect him to have random things on him that he’ll offer you like a grandpa offering his grandchild twenty dollars - skillfully independent ;; after living majority of his life mainly on his own, jae-sung can do housework fairly well as well as cook !! not super well, but it tastes better than worse most of the time !!! - hug-bug ;; if you give him the go-ahead, he’s incredibly physically affectionate !! it’s to the point sometimes he doesn’t even notice, like placing a hand on someone’s back or their own hand ! though, since he’s in korea now, courtesy of his parents’ advice, he’s been trying to rein it in a little ! but no matter w who, he likes to hold hands or hug or link arms or give a bro kiss or anything similar !! - romance averted ;; it’s not that he’s trying to avoid thinking or anything about it, it’s that it honestly doesn’t have much place in his life at all, so it’s never the first thing to come to mind. unfortunately, he’ll gal-pal everyone, assuming everyone are just friends up until people tell him explicitly otherwise - indecisive ;; there really is no choice he feels 100% on. as soon as anyone suggests anything else, he’s quick to switch over, even if he already had a position. the things he can’t change on are things he’s always been mulling over - reckless ;; jae-sung loves to do whatever to distract himself, and it’s pretty obvious in how he literally leaps from building to building away from home. he has a deep love for freerunning, and he’s good at it too (even has a yt channel where he posts a lot of it!), though it doesn’t look it; he always has some bruises or cuts on him. he also loves to try out any sort of trick w any sport such as skateboarding or iceskating!! falling is just part of the fun to him - responsible ;; yeah, it’s a little weird to follow w this, but he really is !! he’s responsible in the ohhhhh crap i have to start on this essay now if i want to be done in time pls learn from me everyone :pensive: type of way. he more so encourages and helps other people to be able to manage themselves, however, sometimes he should really follow his own advice when it comes to self-care.

! WANTED CONNECTIONS ! [ heres the pg for it but it’s all the same prompts word for word tbh ]

- family first ;; you’re family ! it tbh doesn’t matter what branch of the family you are or anything else, you’re family that maybe met jae-sung over a whatsapp or fb messenger videocall when y’all were young once ! or they can be super close, tbh i dont mind whatever !! - lending a hand ;; jae-sung has a habit of taking care of others first before anything else. whether or not your muse is consciously taking advantage of that, to your muse, jae-sung helps out by giving food or doing chores w you or letting you stay over or any other small job !! this can also work the other way around ! - opposites attract ;; yeah <3 maybe your muse is cold or the rebellious type or anything !! - guide ;; jae-sung is new to the city and your chara helps jae-sung go out and learn the areas around !! - buddies ;; i am already running out of ideas </3 but !! this is just someone (or multiple people!!) who jae-sung is constantly over at their place or they’re constantly over at jae-sung’s !! while they don’t have to enjoy every death-defying stunt jae-sung attempts, they still come along ! y’all are just buds who hang out !! - internet friend ;; the two of you have a history that’s mostly written !! we can work out details !! - lost and found ;; he dropped a notebook and when you saw it on the ground, maybe you picked it up, maybe not, you saw a bad drawing. the highlighter is not even in the pencil lines. he’s sort of embarrassed about it at first, but offers to draw a portrait of you anyways just to find anything to move onto - brother figure ;; to jae-sung, you’re a sibling figure. what that entails is up to you !! - wait what? ;; jae-sung learned something he wasn’t supposed to and is now paying the price genuinely :pensive: major f but it rly just be like that sometimes - anything !! ;; we can come up w anything or combine these or whatever !! im open to anything !! ^^ everything above is open to all genders !! [04:13AM EDIT] omg this is so embarazzing but i completely forgot to add if youre more comfortable being dmed than dming, just like the post !! i’ll hit you up !!

#ooc #dallyeog:intro #the way this was not a short little thing </3 #if something looks weird feel free to tell me !!

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poptartmochi · 3 years ago

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15, 36 and 56 for the ask game! 🌼💖

ohhh celina!!! 🥺 thank you for these! <3 i struggled with the first one a bit and it's kind of 😬negative?😬 but I made a good recovery from there! anyhow, i hope you are well and that this week goes swimmingly for you! <3

prompt

15. personality description

the way this one makes me feel like dio... hohoo you're approaching me! 👀 i'm actually terrible at describing myself so!! wish me luck! i think the best way to describe myself would be like a flurry, i'm just. A Mess haha. I'm always thinking and thinking and overthinking and sometimes this can be good, like when I'm writing, but most times it's 😬 not healthy! I feel like I'm intangible, or maybe wishy-washy. i have bad memory and I never Really Know how i feel about mundane things, and my mood often flips from sulky to peachy on the drop of a hat. I try to think and be positive to pull myself up outta the slump, but outwardly I think it makes me come off like I'm overcompensating.. actually I'm not even sure that's true- a lot of my performing arts kids have said I'm like a squirrel, in that I'm kind of always stressed and trying to balance and/or jump from one thing to another. but that was 3 years ago and I think or at least hope I've mellowed out since then?

ultimately, I really don't know! T w T I think my defining personality trait is anxiety, and everything else kind of gets lost in that sauce, if that makes sense?

36. 3 dreams you want to fulfill?

this one!! alongside the 5 things that make you happy question! these are the 🥺😭🙌🏼 (i don't have the finger purse [fun fact: i had NO idea what this gesture was called before this lmao] emoji on desktop so i hope those make sense XD) questions, I feel like they reflect who a person is SO well 🥺🥺 here are my three!

live within driving distance to the ocean.. the closer the better 😈😈

visit Vietnam with my mom+ ideally my grandma!

develop a decent ASMR channel! (once i get some confidence, it's over for the dust that's been on my yt channel since 2018 😈)

56. favourite food(s)

ohhhhhhhh this. >:) you have opened pandora's box my friend!! I have so many, but I think gỏi cuốn is my all-time favorite! whenever my mom makes those i fr inhale them and every time it almost ends in me choking (since the noodles + rice wrapper Should Not Be Inhaled), but I never learn... my passion for them is immeasurable and I need to learn how to make them! From there I think it goes to chili, specifically my brother-in-law's chili ^^ There's just something about the way he makes it that hits different- thankfully I've made this one many times so I will never be without it muahahaha! I'm a big fan of soups, so many of my favorite foods are soup... pho, chao, wonton, tortilla.... sos! During quarantine, my sister made this like?? Dorito? nacho?? casserole thing? that was actually heavenly and I've been hardcore yearning for it since I came home... OH banh xeo is SO good too! beyond full-on dishes, I typically love things that are Crunchy- corn nuts, sunflower seeds, takis lmao. it's like a primordial Need to crunch on things and I couldn't tell you why! 😆

OH also i forgot........dairy my belovie my enemy..... dairy gets its own little section because i have the lack toes n'taller ants 😔😔 but i eat milky/cheesy things anyways 😈😈 some of my faves in this category are linguini alfredo my fucking BELOVED 😭😭😭😭💗 queso burgers from chili's (although I need to learn how to make them myself bc theirs kinda sucks D:), cheese + broccoli soup, the aforementioned tortilla soup..... so much love in my heart for these, but so much pain in my stomach, too（；´д｀）ゞ

adding this bit in after tags.... bun thit nuong cha gio (which for my entire life, i imagined was spelt bun tit nun chaio..... help) is conceptually very very good but I have yet to have one that Hits The Spot.. despite this, I Know when i do get that conceptual bun thit nuong cha gio i Will fucking Lose It on the Spot

#food cw #this one is a MESS i am so sorry 🙈🙈#i came into it off the 🌪🌪 of my earlier identity crisis and it kind of bled into my first answer #as you can see.. i think the correct answer for that one is 'A Mess' haha!#the painters are here now and I'm excited... yesterday I had a lot of energy that I blew talking to the guy + then I ended up literally #sleeping All Day but i feel.. stable? not tired but not wired yk. rn + we have to move all the furniture back once they finish so!!#i'm going to be busy all day and once i am No Longer busy i will be exhausted.... we might just get back onto the regular sleep schedule #today!!#sriracha ask game #sriracha.txt

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dragonsaphirareads · 5 years ago

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Guardians of Fire and Nature

Day 28 of @tsshipmonth2020 Fluffuary

Ship: Intruloceit

AU: Royal Twins

Word Count: 1894

Summary: Despite warnings, Prince Remus sneaks down into the kitchen late one night for a little snack. Unfortunately, he meets the wrong people and ends up far away from the safety of his bodyguards, who didn’t even know he was gone.

(Like listening to podfics? You can listen to this oneshot on my YT channel here!)

It was a little after midnight when Prince Remus snuck down to the kitchen, his personal guards fast asleep in the cots they had rolled into his room. Ever since his brother had been kidnapped for unknown reasons, the entire castle had been on red alert. There was even talk of a spy in their ranks, someone working in the castle that was on the bandits’ side.

Remus thought it was ridiculous, personally. It was obvious that Roman had just been kidnapped by chance, that the bandits had heard him coming and decided to take advantage of his helpful nature to trap him. It wasn’t a big conspiracy, like his mother seemed to think. She had ordered his guards to be at his side 24/7, even sleeping in his room.

The prince loved his guards, just as much as Roman loved his, but he needed his space. That was why he snuck out, down to the kitchens to pinch a snack for himself without Logan or Ernest breathing down his neck.

He heard someone shuffling around in the kitchen as he approached, and then hushed voices. Remus peeked around the door to see a serving girl darting around, seemingly talking to herself. Remus smiled to himself. She always gave him the best snacks.

“Annie!” He greeted, startling the girl who gasped loudly, her voice cracking.

“Prince Remus! W-What are you doing here?” She stammered as the prince flounced into the kitchen.

“I just wanted to grab a lil’ somethin’, and get away from my guards for a bit! They’re so ridiculous, they haven’t let me out of their sight since Roman’s whole fiasco! Not even to shit!”

Annie winced at his statement, wiping her hands on her apron. “I see. That must be difficult, not having any privacy.”

“It sucks! And it’s all ‘cause Roman got tricked by a little girl on the side of the road!”

She pursed her lips, gently bumping a cabinet door closed with her foot as she moved to the pantry door. “I’m sure it was a little more complicated than that... Prince Roman seemed so frightened when he arrived back at the castle.”

Remus rolled his eyes, following her slowly to take a peek at what they had in stock. “He’s such a baby though! If it were me, I would have told them to shove off, not bawl my eyes out!”

Annie chewed on her thumb nail, leaning against the pantry door. “Really? I think I would be so terrified, I would do anything they say! After all, they could hurt me really badly if I didn’t!”

“Nah, they wouldn’t dare!”

Remus tried to move forward, to not-so-subtly get Annie to move out of the way so he could get his snack in peace. But instead, he stopped as he noticed that her face had changed. Her hair was hanging in front of her eyes, and the energy surrounding her was different... darker, somehow.

“Do you want to bet on that?”

“H-Huh?”

Annie raised her head, staring at him with a smug smile and danger flickering in her eyes. “I said, do you want to bet on that? Do you really think you could be in that situation and keep up that smug attitude?”

“Annie, what are you talking about?”

Instead of answering, she reached behind her and turned the handle, opening the pantry door and revealing a hulking figure masked by the darkness of the closet. Remus stepped back in fear, and instead felt a sharp pain on the back of his neck before his world suddenly turned to black.

Before he passed out, he heard Annie’s voice above him, sneering with obvious disdain. “Let’s test your resolve, little prince. See how tough you really are.”

Remus shot awake, surrounded by darkness and lying on cold dirt. He wiggled and realized his limbs were numb and also tied behind his back, and there was a blindfold tied tightly over his eyes.

Wherever he was, he was alone, or at least he thought so. He tried to shift into a more comfortable position, but he wasn’t strong enough to do much other than lift his head a few inches off the ground.

There were footsteps, and then the sound of a door opening as a slight amount of light penetrated the thick fabric over his eyes. Immediately he tries to relax his muscles and pretend he was still asleep, to hopefully delay whatever they were going to do and buy some time.

A lighter pair of footsteps walked right up to him, and there was a gentle hand on his shoulder. Then that warmth left, and a voice spoke.

“Drop the act, little prince, I know you’re awake.”

That was Annie... so it hadn’t been a dream. He realized that his mother had been right - there had been a spy in the castle. And he had fallen for it.

“What do you want?” Remus asked in a hoarse voice, his throat dry from breathing in the dust of his new surroundings. He heard someone else in the room laugh as Annie shifted.

“It’s nothing personal, I promise. Your mother’s done some things that we don’t approve of, and so we’re going to hold one of her precious little boys until she fixes what she’s done.”

The other person in the room laughed again - a gruff, cruel sound. “But don’t get the wrong idea - we don’t need you in pristine condition to get what we want.”

Annie hummed. “True. We only need you alive, and just barely. So if you do something that we don’t like, we won’t hesitate to cause a few bruises. Or worse.”

“Bring it! You don’t scare me!”

Annie laughed, and there was more movement before suddenly pain bloomed in his chest, and he sucked in a breath. Someone had kicked him in the ribs, and hard.

“You can act tough as much as you want. It’ll just make it worse for you~”

“So what, you failed at getting Roman and you decided to take the other twin instead? Talk about lowering your standards!”

He was kicked again, in the same spot. Remus tried to hide how painful it was to breathe.

This continued for a while, although Remus had no way of knowing how much time had passed. Every snarky remark was met with pain, but he didn’t stop. He couldn’t stop - they would take that as a sign of victory, and he refused to let them win.

“You... really should have just taken Roman again... He would have been...the perfect prisoner... but you stuck yourself with me!”

Annie spoke up from where she was sitting in the corner, watching the entire scene. “Your brother is too much work, mostly because of those lovely little guards he has. They arrived within an hour of my people grabbing him. But it’s nearly morning, my little prince, and your guards are nowhere to be seen. Could it be they find you just as annoying as I do?”

Remus grinned, spitting out a mouthful of iron-tasting saliva. “No, they’ll come. Even if they didn’t want to, they have to.”

“You don’t sound very confident. Do you even realize how much the palace staff talks about you behind your back? You’re the most obnoxious little brat I’ve had the displeasure of meeting.”

“Why, thank you!” Remus smiled widely. “And trust me, I know. Everyone loves my brother, and I’m just the annoying sidekick. He’s the perfect prince, right down to his guards.”

Then the captive smirked. “Me, on the other hand? I attract people who aren’t bound by the same moral code as they are.”

Annie narrowed her eyes at him. “What are you blathering about?”

“All I’m saying, is that if Virgil and Patton were coming to get me? You’d have a much higher chance of making it out of here alive.”

Annie laughed harshly, and he heard her footsteps approach him, and braced himself for another burst of pain.

But it never came, and instead he felt the air shift and a voice spoke from in front of him, masking Annie’s startled gasp.

“Sorry to crash this little party, but you’re not going to lay another finger on my prince.” Ernest said, a satisfied smirk on his lips.

“What are you--! Where did you come from!?”

Remus could hear distant cries of pain coming from outside the door. Later, Ernest would tell him exactly how his captors both panicked and ran for the door, and how the man screamed when he burned his hands on the metal doorknob. He would learn about how he met his end at Logan’s hands, as the fire magic user burned his way through the entire compound, flames licking at his clothes. Ernest would tell him how Logan raised his hand against Annie, ready to kill her as well before Ernest broke him out of his trance.

“Logan, we need her alive.”

“She kidnapped our prince.”

“And we need to make sure that there won’t be another attempt. Let me handle her, take care of his highness.”

Remus barely had the energy to raise his head to allow Logan’s warm hands to untie the blindfold from his eyes. A strategic spark burned through the ropes around his wrists and ankles and then Remus was free. He sat up with Logan’s assistance, trying to shake feeling back into his limbs.

“Are you alright, your highness?” Logan asked, his face an emotionless mask. Remus silently nodded, smiling a wavering smile as Ernest lead Annie out of the room.

“I... I’m ok... it hurts... but I...”

He couldn’t get a sentence out before tears were building in his eyes, and his heart jumped into his throat. He started hyperventilating, digesting what he had just gone through.

“I was... so scared! I thought you wouldn’t come, because I snuck out and left you guys behind! I-I’m sorry! I promise I’ll never sneak out again!”

Logan blinked, life returning to his eyes as he realized that Remus was crying. “Oh, please don’t blame yourself. We failed to protect you, and that’s on us.”

Remus sniffed, whimpering. “I love you two so much... and I... I...”

Logan pulled him into a hug, mindful of the pain his prince was in. “We care for you as well. And we will be here for you, whenever you need us.”

They sat for a while, Remus laying his head on Logan’s steady shoulder until Ernest came back in. He picked the prince up in a bridal carry, instantly seeing how Remus winced.

“Are you alright, your highness? Would you rather walk--”

“NO!” Remus shouted, wrapping his arms tightly around Ernest’s neck. “No, please... I just need... you two here...”

His guards understood, and Ernest shifted his arms to carry the prince in as little pain as possible. They walked over to one of the wagons drawn by two horses, and he sat down with Remus in his lap and Logan to his left.

The prince was exhausted, and he quickly started to drift off. The last thing Remus felt before falling asleep were soft kisses in his hair from his bodyguards, and he sighed contently.

He didn’t care what Annie said. He knew that they cared about him out of more than just duty. Even if they couldn’t say it, he knew they loved him.

#intruloceit #deceit sanders #remus sanders #logan sanders #tsshipmonth2020 #saphira writes #saphira writes ts

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katedoesntexist · 4 years ago

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Stay-at-home journal 2/27/21

Yesterday:

Worked, got help and solved two crises

Order chinese food and branched out and got something different (but still got rangoon bc what can i say, im a slut for cream cheese)

Watched yt w partner

Laid in bed and just chilled out watching gardening and home improvement vids until i fell asleep

Today:

Try to install linux on the old comp

Buy paint for the bathroom bc i keep dragging my feet abt it

Idk if we're moving bushes bc it rained last night and the ground might be too soggy

Order a jigsaw bc im tired of not having one

Watched my partner play more of the medium

Free space:

So whats funny abt the medium is that our irl friend group gets on discord to watch my partner play games every Saturday, but i dont join in. Idk i just dont feel like socializing. So usually i go do something else. But this time its a game i care abt (bloober team ilu, you'll always have a place in my heart), so i want to watch. So hes got headphones on talking to them but they cant hear me, and i cant hear them. But i can hear him laughing and responding. They know im hanging out, so sometimes one of them will pass a message to me or ask a question, and bob will relay it to me. HE IS THE MEDIUM. lmao when he tells them my response he goes "i...i think im getting a message from the other side! Yes! I can hear it... She says... 'lol youre an idiot' " 😂

Its prob just the fact that the suns coming up earlier and its finally warming up, but i want to experiment w more creative projects. So i rly am going to buy that jigsaw. And some blades. And some wood. Probably nails and wood glue too. Might need ear plugs. I also want an engraving pen just bc why not. Theyre surprisingly cheap. Maybe you get what you pay for idk. Im going to try to make little decorations. And if im rly cool i can make some miniature things. No promises on that tho bc it sounds hard.

I dreamt a bunch but i remember one part was in my kitchen back home and i got up on the counter and could jump to the table, jump to the doorway and grab the molding, then jump to another doorway, then go up some stairs. Some serious floor-is-lava parkour. Another part of the dream i had painted the room at the top of the stairs so it was a variety of scenes all the way around. Rich colors and landscapes. Almost flowing. Some of it sparkly.

Well time to get up and figure out how to put linux on a thumbdrive so i can boot from it and install to the comp i formatted. Im a little worried some areas of the disk got corrupted, but i thiiiink i did the format that marks those as bad sectors?? Honestly not sure. But ill give it a shot since this is the only computer we have that actually has a dvd drive and id like to rip that stupid mother goose movie. There are versions of it on yt but iirc they're reaaally low quality. Anyway, if i get this figured out im gonna see if some friends want to stream it w me.

#katedoesntstayathome #katedoesntdream

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sagemoderocklee · 5 years ago

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Ooh, directors commentary on TAOL?? I know it's an epic so maybe just on the chapter where Lee and Gaara are traveling in Jade Country :3

sorry for letting this sit in my ask box for a couple days. i got kinda sidetracked and then had to go back to work today, which is not a fun time tbh but the evils of capitalism and so on....

anyways, im thrilled you asked for this particular part of TAoL because I absolutely loved that chapter (x) and put a lot of work into it between building up the culture of Gyokukakushin and making sure all the Arabic and Chinese I used was legit (which is partly why it took like 4 months to write). plus the chapter has a lot of great GaaLee moments that make me really happy.

one of my biggest downfalls as a writer is how long it takes me to actually finish anything. as i think most people who follow my writing know, i tend to prefer lengthier stories with lots of heavy politics, and that tends to mean that the build up of romance takes a while... which is again how i like it. i prefer a slow burn--a proper slow burn, not these 2k fics tagged slow burn. i mean, 100k into the story and the most you’ve got is an accidental hand brushing another and some intense eye contact... which admittedly TAoL has given more than just a little bit of physical contact and intense staring, but my point is that when i say slow burn i mean S L O W

anyways, onto the actual director’s commentary

So, Jade Province--as it’s not a country in itself, but a province within Wind Country--is a sprawling section of the south-east portion of Wind. I started building Jade Province and its capitol, Gyokukakushin sometime before I started on Ch10 of TAoL, but it was all a very loose idea. I’d initially conceptualized some things about it for the one shot I wrote, Keepsakes, because I’d been doing some background work on the Kazekage lineage and the culture surrounding the Kazekage family--such as arranged marriages, treaties, etc.

My idea is that Karura and Yashamaru are actually from Gyokukakushin. They would have been the children of a person in the political sphere within the capitol, and the marriage between Karura and Rasa would have been arranged early on and she would have been sent to Suna as a pre-teen or teen so that she would feel that Suna was home. I imagine she and Rasa would have married sometime when she was between 18-20. This was the main reason Rasa was able to take on the roll of Kazekage, based on the family tree I built up for the Kazekage line--he was the only one who was married and could produce heirs.

Not that any of this ever comes up during TAoL. In fact, Gaara doesn’t even realize that in going to Gyokukakushin he’s actually visiting half of his ancestral home. However, there’s a lot of fun hints about his connection to Gyokukakushin if you recall the many mentions of the color the same shade as Gaara’s eyes in that chapter. This was a specific nod to his heritage, and something that the locals definitely would have been fascinated by because there’s lots of significance surrounding that particular color in the region. I also wanted to use the reference to his eyes to highlight Lee’s particular fascination with Gaara’s appearance, and especially the element of Gaara’s eyes and the many ways he looks at Lee.

The biggest challenge within this chapter, of course, was the fact that I was using languages I’m not familiar with and had to find a good place to gather resources. Thanks to @ghoste-catte I discovered that reddit (of all places) has a translation subreddit which I was able to use to help bring that aspect of the story to life in an organic and respectful way. My Japanese is rusty, but I have a much better grasp on it than I do Chinese or Arabic, and so I spent many, many, many, many, many..... many hours searching for resources, watching YT vidoes, at the bookstore--I even bought a small book on Arabic. In the end, the subreddit was way more helpful than anything else because it allowed me the chance to get more concrete explanations from native speakers, so I could understand exactly why something was said the way it was. Most of the phrases used in that chapter aren’t really Gaara saying anything special--things like “be quiet” or “stop”--which I usually alluded to with Lee racking his brain trying to drudge up the vocabulary Gaara has taught him.

However, there’s one line--which I hope people did not turn to google translate for--that makes me especially happy, and that line really would not have been possible without that subreddit. I think the best part about being able to successfully navigate the challenge of using other languages is creating the same confusion Lee feels for those readers who doesn’t know those languages, and for those who do, offering them a nice glimpse at what’s going on that Lee cannot grasp. It’s fun and really changes the experience for each reader.

Language is such a beautiful and intricate aspect of people and culture, and my biggest fear with approaching the use of Arabic and Chinese was not only saying the wrong thing, but being disrespectful. So it was an incredibly good experience, and I was incredibly lucky to receive the help I did!

Building up the tension between Gaara and Lee was something I’d really wanted to execute well, too. It’s not often I write stories where the romance doesn’t start from scratch. With TAoL, Lee needed to already be in love with Gaara, and that was a big stress for me because I’m constantly asking myself: is this earned? I think one of the biggest failings of fanfiction is that people don’t ask that question. You really have to ask if your romance is earned. If your character growth is earned. If a redemption arc is earned. And I constantly worry that I’m moving too quickly with romance in particular, especially for Gaara and Lee. I’m not big on putting them together without a lot of development, and I’m not big on established relationship fics (that aren’t sequels) for them either. I like the work it takes to get them together, I like the journey of getting them together. And I don’t like it to be easy.

But for me, TAoL is one of my best actualized works. I think Alliance really helped me build the skills I needed to execute a story like TAoL on so many levels--from the complicated political landscapes, to the cultures, to the relationships between each character. And so I do feel like Lee being in love with Gaara at this point in their lives makes sense, and does work despite the fact that we didn’t see him fall in love with Gaara during the course of this fic. There are subtle nods to his feelings for Gaara in the early chapters, but I didn’t go too hard at indicating those feelings until really the second Lee chapter, this chapter I’m talking about now. I think there were some hints in the first Lee chapter--the chapter where he broke Gaara out of prison and whisked him away from Suna--but I tried to keep those things to a minimum, partly to not over do it and ease people in to that, and partly because I wanted to keep the suspense alive surrounding the real purpose for Lee being in Suna.

So when they get to Gyokukakushin, it really gave me a much better chance at showcasing his feelings. There were moments prior to Gyokukakushin, but those were from Gaara’s PoV--like the moment within the destroyed village, Myoujou, where they’re hiding from the group of shinobi and Gaara’s trying desperately to get Lee to focus his chakra enough to mask it.

But the success of that particular moment is lost on Gaara because he doesn’t really know how Lee feels about him at that point in time, so his impact on Lee is entirely lost to him....not to mention he’s dealing with a lot of grief and trauma, so he hardly has the wherewithal to be paying attention to whether or not his rescuer is secretly in love with him.

One of my favorite tender moments is this one:

“Do you have a favorite word?” Lee asked, before a yawn interrupted him.

“In Indigosi? Or in general?”

“Both.”

Gaara glanced at Lee from the corner of his eye. “Affection,” he murmured, almost as though he were afraid to admit it. “In Indigosi...” Gaara was silent, his gaze shifting away from Lee to the window. A warmth spread across his brown skin, a blush rising on his high cheekbones. “Rohi.”

He looked down at Lee, something bright behind his eyes.

Heat burned Lee's face like an inferno. “What does that mean?”

Gaara looked away again, hiding from Lee in plain sight. “My soul." The words hung in the air with some other meaning, one that Lee could not decipher. Gaara would forever be a paradox, an ever expanding puzzle for Lee to piece together. He didn't ever want to figure him out completely, but he would never stop trying to get as close to epiphany as he could.

“That is beautiful,” Lee told him as another yawn overtook him.

“I should let you sleep,” Gaara said, moving to get up.

Lee stopped him with an imploring hand against Gaara's forearm. “Stay? You did not finish telling me about your trip to Dusk Country.”

“You kept interrupting,” Gaara teased lightly, settling back into place.

Lee smiled up at him, ever so slightly cheeky. “I promise I will be quiet.”

“You're going to fall asleep,” Gaara corrected.

“Probably. It is very late.”

I love so many of the emotional scenes from this particular chapter, but I love how simple and sweet this moment is. There’s such a wealth of affection in small actions, and I really wanted to highlight that Lee and Gaara have grown closer during their time traveling from Myoujou to Gyokukakushin, and things that were born of necessity (like sleeping close together for warmth) are now things done because they want to. There’s comfort in the closeness of sitting next to one another, there’s something peaceful about Lee falling asleep while Gaara talks to him. It’s a nice moment, less high emotion and more quiet contentment, which I think is much needed after everything they’ve been through.

I think that my other favorite scene would be the scene on the beach, right after they’ve watched the sand artist and Gaara makes his model of Suna. That scene is a complicated affair for Lee because he’s both enjoying his time with Gaara and feeling guilty for enjoying that time together. And of course Gaara’s got a lot going on too, which Lee can only guess at.

One of the other things I really enjoyed about this chapter is the fact of Lee and Gaara being in disguise, and really the use of their aliases. I particularly like any excuse to get Gaara to call Lee “Ren”. I’m particularly in love with that stroke of genius regarding Lee’s alias, and there’s a certain emotion, a certain connection that I really hope I could convey with how they use each other’s aliases.

I could probably talk about this chapter forever, but unfortunately there’s also thins I don’t want to say at the risk of spoiling future chapters since this is still a WIP (and probably will be for a while longer, though we’re almost halfway there! Two more chapters to the halfway mark!) Thank you so much for sending this particular ask anon! I had fun chatting about it and I hope you enjoyed reading my comments!

#naruto #shippuden #rock lee #gaara #gaalee #taol

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arohawrites · 5 years ago

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Secret

Genre: fluff, a little bit of angst, Wolf!Bin

Word count: 1,771

Warnings: None

Part 1||Part 2

Eunwoo found Bin in their room, pacing back and forth like an animal first time in a cage. He wouldn’t want to describe his roommate in that manner but that’s how he sees him.

“What should I do?” Bin kept murmuring but the words won’t get to Eunwoo.

“Binnie?” he called. The man’s shoulder jolted, he didn’t even notice that Eunwoo already arrived.

“Huh?” Bin responded seconds later, he’s obviously preoccupied with whatever bothering him.

“Are you okay? Something wrong with classes?” Eunwoo asked. He already knew that Bin will never tell anything to him, but he kept asking, every single time.

“Nothing, I’ll cook dinner” just how Eunwoo predicted.

Moon Bin exited their room. Bin hardly volunteered in cooking so Eunwoo assumes that it’s the first excuse that went on his mind.

He sighed and sat on his bed, he’ve only known Bin for six months, but he already got his pattern. They’re studying at the same university and end up sharing an apartment so they can cut off each other’s expenses.

Eunwoo didn’t plan to live with someone (especially when there’s only one bedroom available and your roommate is inhumanly attractive). He has a huge crush on his roommate but he swore to himself that he’ll keep it to himself.

But who wouldn’t like someone as Bin? He’s the kindest guy he ever met, compassionate to everything that he does and did Eunwoo already mentioned that Bin is inhumanly attractive? Because yes, he really is.

The thing is, Bin is obviously hiding something from him. It always happen once a month, he’ll be inattentive and moody. Bin yelled at him the first month and he almost cried in front of him. Eunwoo simply asked a question!

Bin didn’t go home that day and came back the next day and apologized profusely to him.

It always happen without fail. His attitude would suddenly change, he’ll be gone for a night then comes back the next day as if nothing happened. He tried asking him but it would always be a change of topic until Eunwoo eventually got used to it. He’s still dying to know the reason behind Bin’s actions but Eunwoo won’t step out of his boundaries, after all, they’re just roommates.

Eunwoo came out after changing clothes, he saw Bin still busy cooking. He went inside the kitchen and helped him set the table.

“What the?!” Bin exclaimed. The plate slipped on Eunwoo’s hand and a loud crash is heard in the kitchen.

“Sorry, I’ll clean it” Bin’s mood change might be contagious because Eunwoo is not on his right mind too.

He mindlessly picked up the shards from the shattered plate. “Ah!” His finger jerked up, letting go of the piece of shard that cut his finger.

“Damn” Bin cursed under his breath. Why would Eunwoo do this to him, why now?

He pulled Eunwoo up and lead him in the living room. “Sit there and for the goodness of the world, don’t do anything stupid” Bin scolded.

Eunwoo can’t help but burrow his head. Bin is not usually like this. He kept reminding himself.

Bin came back with a first aid kit. He took Eunwoo’s bleeding finger and rubbed the cotton with disinfectant to clean his wound.

Eunwoo flinched and bit his lower lip in pain, Bin sighed and gently brought Eunwoo’s wounded finger near his lips and blew air in the wounded area. Finally, Bin picked up a band-aid and applied it to Eunwoo’s finger.

“Stay here, I’ll call you when the food is ready” Bin simply said and left without notice. Eunwoo is most thankful that Bin left because he can feel his face and ears heating up!

Bin did that! He’s screaming inside.

They ate in silence after the little incident, “Right, I forgot to mention that I won’t be here tomorrow. My mother wanted me to go home this weekend, I’ll be back Sunday night”

Bin’s mood lit up as he heard Eunwoo’s words. “Really?” Bin asked. Eunwoo didn’t know why he’s being hurt with Bin’s sudden enthusiasm.

“Yeah, I’ll leave tomorrow morning” Eunwoo added impassively.

–

Bin breathed in relief. Eunwoo saved him more than he can know.

He’s lucky to find a roommate that can endure his excessive mood change. He’s trying hard to control himself during the forthcoming of the full moon where his wolf couldn’t contain its thrill, making his senses all sensitive.

Bin hates it when he ends up pouring all of his frustration to Eunwoo. He remembered Eunwoo’s expression when he accidentally yelled at him months ago. He doesn’t want that to happen again.

He’s panicking earlier because the forest where he stays during the full moon is now claimed to be private property by some rich person and now, he has nowhere to go.

He’s been living like this for the past five years. They all thought that he’s human, they thought that he didn’t take after his mother who died to give birth to a hybrid like him. Bin and his father managed to keep his secret but he’s on his own now that he’s away to study.

He doesn’t know where he would go for the next months but at least, he got a month spared with Eunwoo leaving their apartment. Hopefully, he wouldn’t shred anything into pieces in their house tomorrow night.

–

Eunwoo woke up early for his trip, Bin is still sleeping on his bed like the usual. He wanted to wake him up and tell him that he’s leaving but Bin looked so happy when he heard that he’s leaving so might as well leave without notice.

He knows that he’s being petty for being annoyed but he can’t help it. He’s hurt and Bin wouldn’t care less if he leaves anyway.

Bin woke up as he heard Eunwoo moving around. “You’re already leaving?” Bin asked, rubbing his sleep off.

Eunwoo is surprised that he managed to wake Bin up since he sleeps like a log. Did he make so much noise because he’s annoyed?

“Yes” Eunwoo answered with a straight face, he’s still sulky.

“Be careful on your way and… I didn’t get to say thank you last night so, thank you” Bin’s words are casually spoken, but it made Eunwoo’s heart crazy.

“W-wait, you’re thanking me? For what?” Eunwoo is curious, what did he do last night for Bin to thank him?

“Just…thank you for keeping up with me” Bin answered, not making any eye contact.

“Okay, I’ll leave now” Eunwoo quickly ended the conversation. He’s officially confused because of Bin.

Night came and Bin started to become more and more anxious. The transition hurts like hell, but he needs to be quiet as possible or else the neighbors would report and he’ll be exposed within seconds.

It’s his second time to transform with people around him. The first time is when his wolf awakened and then now. He always chooses to be left alone in the woods during full moon where he would be free to be himself.

Yes, he hates that he has to keep secrets. Bin hates the fact that people would be scared when they found out that he’s not human.

His wolf is part of himself, he’s different but not a monster.

Moon Bin gasped when he felt the pain coursing to every vein in his body.

It’s starting.

He wanted to scream, the first minutes are the most painful but he as to endure it…

He couldn’t help but heave a deep growl, his senses are all heightened and the loud noises and different scents are making his reasoning fuzzy.

Moments later and his eyes are already changed. He can also feel his fangs poking in his lips, his claws digging through the bed sheet.

He knew it, he’s nearing his transition as the full moon is also on the verge of its peak. He’s ready to give in, not until he caught a familiar scent approaching the place.

“Eunwoo!” He exclaimed but it was too late to hide.

Eunwoo opened their apartment, he couldn’t believe his mother messed up with the dates. He ended up going home because his parents and brother are on vacation and would arrive on Monday.

The lights in the living room are all dead so maybe Bin is already sleeping…

He quickly trashed the idea when he saw that the lights are still open in their room. Eunwoo casually opened the door and entered.

“Binnie?!” Eunwoo is surprised by what he saw.

“Go away!” Bin blurted out. He’s in the verge of his transition and his wolf is screaming to pounce at Eunwoo as soon as he stepped in the room.

Eunwoo is frozen in his position.

The first thing that he noticed is Bin’s hair, It’s silver, almost white. Eunwoo’s gaze went to Bin’s eyes, his eyes are glowing blue.

Bin snarled and that’s when It finally sinked in to Eunwoo. His roommate is not human.

“Is this what you’ve been hiding from me?“Yt Eunwoo took a step forward.

Bin is using all his willpower to stop the transition and Eunwoo nearing him is not helpful at all.

Eunwoo took another step and Bin’s thread of control finally snapped. He pushed Eunwoo in the bed and towered over him. Bin snarled and Eunwoo can only close his eyes.

He doesn’t know why he took those steps forward, he doesn’t know why he kept going when Bin clearly told him to go.

He expected to get killed but no pain followed, the weight from Bin was slowly removed.

He opened his eyes and saw a white wolf standing at the side of the bed. It’s his first time seeing a wolf but Eunwoo’s sure that it’s the most beautiful wolf he would ever see.

Eunwoo got out from the bed and knelt in front of Bin’s wolf form to level him.

“You’re beautiful” Eunwoo mumbled. He should be scared, he should be running away but he know he doesn’t have the reason to.

Eunwoo wouldn’t utter a word after that, he gently run his hands in Bin’s thick fur and Bin simply let him.

He never felt so eased in his current form, no, he never felt this comfortable in his whole life.

They just stayed in that position without saying any words.

Eunwoo slowly felt his eyes giving up. Bin felt it and cuddled him, permitting Eunwoo to lean on him like a soft pillow.

They both know that it would never be the same after this night but they let go of all the worries and slowly, fell into deep slumber.

#astro #astro fics #astro fanfic #Astro fanfiction #.fic #cha eunwoo #astro cha eunwoo #Moon Bin #astro moon bin #astro fluff #binu fluff #eunwoo fluff #bin fluff #Highly inspired by legal escape can't let go of wolf bin aand here's the product #Secret.fic

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surveys-at-your-service · 5 years ago

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Survey #216

“cocaine in a crucifix, say your prayers, take your licks.”

How much money is in your wallet right now? Not a lot. Maybe like $10. What’s the last thing you purchased from the store? Me myself? No idea. Have you ever seen the movie Mean Girls? If so, did you think it was funny? Yeah, it's a nice movie. What do you usually get on your sub at Subway? Ham, American cheese, bacon, banana peppers, pickles, and Chipotle sauce. I think that's it. Is your bed made right now? Do you usually make your bed, or does someone make it for you? I'm in my bed. I always am. Have you ever had a crush of one of your friends’ brothers/sisters? No. Do you take naps often? I take one most days. Are you an only child? If not, do you get annoyed by your siblings a lot? No, and they don't annoy me, but then again, I live with none of them. What’s your favorite Disney movie? The Lion King. Does it take you a while to fall asleep? Ugh. Too long. Do you watch TV before you go to sleep? No. Do you listen to music every day? It's very rare I don't. If you could have ANYTHING in the world right now, what would it be? To be satisfied with where I am in life. Do you still watch Spongebob Squarepants? No. I don't not enjoy it, you know I just don't watch television. What kind of bottled water do you drink? Mom buys big jugs of some Great Value-esque or whatever brand. Do you collect stuff someone else would consider junk? If so, then what? No. What's the most your electricity bill has ever reached? Idk, I don't pay it. How much was your tax refund this year or did you pay? N/A How are the kids doing? I don't have any. Do you see a bright light at the end of your tunnel? Just being realistic, not deliberately depressing or anything, I don't know. I could have a very dull and unsuccessful life or a thriving and happy one. What's the most you’ve ever lost gambling? Don't gamble. Have you ever waited in line overnight for something? No. How many concerts have you attended? One. Do you think having an expensive phone is a good investment? To a certain high price, no. So long you can call and text easily and reliably, I don't find it necessary to buy a $500 or whatever phone. Any tattoos? How many do you need or want to cover up? I have six. I'm getting my "ohana" one covered at some point, and I'm going to have "perfectly flawed" tatted over as well; I just want to move it elsewhere, considering I want something else where it already is. How many funerals have you attended? One or two. Have you lost anyone your age to death? No one that I was especially close to, thankfully. Have you ever witnessed a birth in person? Not a human one, thank Christ. I've seen cats give birth many times, and maybe other animals, but I'm not sure. What gender do you identify with? Female. What’s your opinion on astrology? It's total, ridiculous bullshit. Are you more of a science or math person? I'm clueless in math, while science makes sense to me and is far more interesting. What religion/spirituality do you identify with, if any? Theism. I think something made the universe, but I don't pretend to know jackshit about him/her/them/it. What is your opinion on peanut butter & banana sandwiches? I like them every now and again. What is your favorite book that was turned into a movie? The Outsiders, probably. Do you like the movie or the book better? This was so long ago that I honestly don't remember either well... so I really dunno. If you identify as a girl, would you ever consider getting a pixie cut? Yeah. If you identify as a boy, would you ever consider growing your hair out? N/A Are you a metalhead? I guess I mostly fit the definition, but I don't like labeling myself as such considering honestly, the metalhead community tends to have such a "that's not heavy enough" attitude and ridicule anything less than their interests and treat those that like softer metal as outcasts and/or posers. Not even trying to stereotype; befriend or observe people in this category and you'll see what I mean. Do you even listen to metal? Hell yes. Do you watch porn? No. If you don’t, do you have a moral reasoning behind that decision? I just find it... very strange. I don't see the appeal of watching. That's just something I want between me and my partner, you know? Like if you watch it, good for you, so long your s/o (if applicable) is aware and fine with it, but it ain't for me. Do you know anybody who is a Wiccan or Pagan? Yesssss, she's cool as fuck. I need to reconnect with her more. Do/did you ever attend church regularly? I did as a kid. Do you have a godmother/godfather/both? I have no clue. Do you listen to Supertramp? I have no clue who that is. Do you watch Supernatural? Not anymore. I think I stopped at the end of Season 6. What’s your favorite character in your favorite TV show? That '70s Show, probably Hyde. I love and relate to Eric, though. Honestly I love every single character; they're very unique to each other and recognizable with strong personalities. Both Fullmetal Alchemist iterations, most likely Edward. Or possibly one of the Sins, but I don't remember them all well... Oh. I know I loved Envy, for one. Are you wearing any rings right now? Yeah, my Supernatural friendship ring w/ Sara. Calling each other "bitch"/"jerk" between Sam and Dean is a thing in the show, so I have one that says "bitch" on the interior, and Sara has "jerk." Bracelets? Yes, also the one Sara gave me. Necklaces? No. Anklets? No. Chokers/collars? No. Do you go to a firework show every 4th of July? No. Are you diabetic? No. I'm forever proud of that considering it runs heavily in my family, yet even at my worst weight, I didn't develop it. But more importantly, a recent blood test I had for my thyroid or something showed I don't have any indicators of even coming close/being at any risk at this point in time. Are you allergic to gluten? No. Are you lactose intolerant? No. What is your favorite fruit? Strawberries, yum. Your favorite vegetable? Broccoli. Do you live with your parents? I live with my mom. Have you written a formal essay lately? Not in years. How much experience do you have written down on your resume, approximately? I don't have a resume currently, but if I did, it'd only have two months as a sales associate as my other two jobs were so short-lived it'd be stupid to add, especially when you consider the obvious fact that would make me look awful. How long have you had the shirt you’re wearing? A year. What happened last time you got drunk? N/A When’s the last time you straightened your hair? I have zero clue. Do you bite your toe nails? Wtf no. Last time you laughed your head off? Idr. Do you find piercings attractive? Yeah. Did you accept or reject your last friend request? I rejected it. Had no clue who it was, even though we had quite a handful of mutuals. How many cigarettes have you smoked today? N/A Do you have a hard time admitting you’re wrong? It depends on what the subject of the matter is. Do you like potato chips? Is there a human that doesn't???? Do you give out second chances way too easily? Yes. Ever stayed up all night on the phone? Not all night, no. There was one night Jason and I were up a long time talking, but it wasn't all night. What are you excited for? SCHOOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Have you ever shoplifted? No. If you have shoplifted, are you afraid of getting in trouble? And are you afraid to go back in that store? N/A Have you ever gotten caught shoplifting? If yes, what happened? N/A Have you ever plotted revenge against someone? No. Are you mad at someone right now? Nah. Have you ever egged someone’s house? Fuck no, because I'm not a dick. If not, have you ever WANTED to egg someone’s house? No. Have you ever wanted to kill someone? I was fucking psychotic when I found out Jason was in a new relationship after we broke up. For a long time I wanted her dead. Are you glad you don’t own a gun, because of what you might do with it? Quite honestly, yes. I'm impulsive on bad days, and I don't entirely cross out the possibility of me shooting myself on an awful day. Do you avoid people when they’ve hurt you? Yes. Do you make the most of every opportunity? No. Are you honestly succeeding at life, or failing? Failing miserably at most things. What does your newest journal look like? I don't remember the last time I got a journal. Is there anything you currently want but can’t have? A lot of things. Do you have no one you can trust? No, thankfully. Do you like meatball subs? No, they're so messy. Are you severely sleep deprived? No. What music are you listening to? "LA Devotee" by P!ATD just came on. If you go to school (HS or college), does your school have a rival? N/A What’s your school’s mascot? N/A If you have a sib, do you call him/her “brother” or “sister” sometimes? No. Do you own a Wii? If not, do you want one? Yes. Are there any songs you could just listen to over and over and over? No. I get tired of a song after around 100 repeats. No, I'm not kidding. Before you could loop YT vids (or anyway, before I was aware), I used a website that repeated the video for you and kept track of the repeats. Do you have a favorite basketball team (NBA or college?) No. Have you been baptized in any religious tradition? Yes. If your best male friend got a mohawk, would he look good or ridiculous? Save Him. What did you have for breakfast? A PopTart. What kind of booze did you last take shots of? I've never taken a shot. Have you slept over at a member of the opposite sex’s house in their bed? Yeah, but we were dating. Who last slept in your bed besides you? Sara. If the last person you had sex with asked you to date them, would you? No. What color is your car? (Or the one you drive most often) White. How long have you been single? (Or dating your current interest) Sara and I have been together a year and ten months. Has someone of the opposite sex ever told you that you were sexy? Yeah. Do you own any books written by musicians? Yeah, Ozzy's autobiography. What is your most interesting invention? Probably some RP characters. Have you ever seen someone sleepwalk? Once. Have you ever thought about getting your tongue pierced? It is pierced. When you’re bored in class, what do you usually do? N/A yet. Do you like your phone? NO. Honestly, are things going the way you planned? Bitch hell no. Who was the last person whose phone number you added to your contacts? The woman who adopted Kaiju. I miss him, damn. Have you ever snuggled with someone you weren’t dating? No. Do you know a James? I knew one years ago. If you had to choose to have a different accent than the one you have now, what accent would you choose and why? British. It sounds sophisticated and just generally attractive to me. Have you ever or do you currently live in a Gated Community? I don't and never have. Do you know how to use a DSLR camera? Yeah. Have you ever owned an Axolotl? No, but they cute. What has been the longest amount of time you’ve spent on a plane? I actually don't know. Probably just around two hours. How often do you use Snapchat? I don't have one/never had. Have you ever adopted an animal from an animal shelter? Yes. Where do you usually find surveys from? Tumblr, and if I'm desperate, LiveJournal. Have you ever missed a flight? Yep. The airport biz took WAY longer than any of us expected. What is your favorite film from your childhood? The Lion King. I think it's always been my fave, honestly, I just never really thought about JUST HOW MUCH I love the film and its story since I was a kid. Do you know anyone who is named after a state? Uhhh I know at least one Caroline, and that's close enough? Jason's mom's name is a state, too. What was the reason for your previous doctor’s visit? I was getting a full blood panel done to check my thyroid. Have you ever been to an outdoor cinema? No. Well, my elementary school and church used to do these "movies on the lawn" type things where they used a huge projector to play a movie outside around late evening, but I don't know if that counts. Have you ever had a “bad trip”? If yes, what happened? N/A How often do you use Instagram? I usually check it once a day or two to follow certain celebs' stories 'n shit. Have you ever smoked a cigarette? If so, do you still smoke? No. Adam Sandler or Jim Carrey? Jim. Do you enjoy learning about conspiracy theories? If so, what is your favorite? Y'all know I love me some conspiracies. My favorite - as in most interesting, not that I seriously believe in it - is the one that our current reality is just a simulation from a "future" civilization for study or just play purposes. It's interesting to think about with alarming evidence. Elon Musk 100% believing in it puts more "hey this might actually be worth considering" into it, but I think I lean more towards it being false. It's not something I think about much though as I have THE most Detroit: Become Human mindset about it ever, lmao. It just doesn't matter to me. Wow, what a ramble. Do you find hand tattoos attractive on your preferred sex? I find tattoos (usually) attractive in general, so like- What is your favorite Netflix original series? I have no clue what's Netflix-exclusive. I don't watch it. Have you ever owned a Tamagotchi? Yep, or at least something similar to it. My sister especially loved those little things. Do you have a favorite “survey blog” on Tumblr? If so, who? Dunno if tagging random people in surveys is annoying, so I'll break the link, but @/thedarkeststarsurveys seems super cool and nice. Would you rather be able to control fire or water? Probably fire for self-defense purposes, and I just like fire. Water seems... overall pretty useless to control, unless you can like, manifest it. Then you could solve a world of problems. Have you ever used your phone in class or at work without anyone knowing? Actually no. Have you ever been to Canada? No. What is your favorite condiment to put on fries? Ketchup. Do any famous people follow you on Twitter or Instagram? Definitely not to my knowledge, but I highly doubt it. Do you usually take the stairs or the elevator? Elevator. Even though I'm scared of them. Stairs and my horrible knees don't mix. What salads do you usually get on your Subway order? None. Have you ever made your own cocktails at home? Not myself. My old friend did. Have you seen all the Star Wars films? I watched the first three disinterestedly with Girt once, and neither of us liked them. I didn't get the appeal at all. Do you own any shirts with funny words or pictures on them? Yeah. Are your eyes the same color they were when you were a baby? They were more blue. Do you take the pickle off your burgers? No. Who do you share your bathroom with? Anyone else in the house. What color is your bed frame? Brown. Have you ever kissed someone you met that day? No. Do you share a bed with anyone? No. Well, excluding Roman and sometimes Teddy. Name all the people you know that you’ve seen today. My mom. When a car cuts you off, is the driver a jerk or is there an explanation? "Most of the time the driver is a jerk." <<< Yep. What are your thoughts on cosmetic surgery? You do you, boo. Has a man/woman ever broke your heart? If so, have you recovered? Yes, and yes as well as a PTSD victim can; your brain is literally changed after trauma, and considering I still have dreams/nightmares about him very regularly and he suddenly crosses my mind literally every single day despite never wanting to think about him, I don't think you could consider me totally recovered. Name a few things that make you really happy. Really happy? Being with Sara, Mark doing so much as blinking, long car rides with my music blaring way too loud, finding a new song and binging it for hours, a mount dropping in WoW goddamn y'all I have over 300, being complimented on my photography (or like... anything), my niece and/or nephew saying they love me or anything along those lines without being prompted (ex. when leaving, that kinda stuff), going to Olive Garden 'cuz breadsticks and spicy shrimp fritas lol, finishing a drawing and actually liking the result, getting Venus out and she acts like a cuddlebug the whole time, uh... other stuff that isn't coming to me. What’s your favorite type of sushi? Never tried it, don't want to. Have you ever read a book about a character in a psych ward? I don't think so. Have you ever been in a mental hospital as a patient? Too many times fuck but those days done fam. Do you take birth control pills? Currently for taming the pain and symptoms of my cycle, but it's hopefully changing to a longer, better solution soon to just totally eliminate it to remove its effects on my mood entirely for mental health tracking purposes. When’s the last time you got a new outfit? I don't buy full outfits. Do you have an imaginary best friend? (i.e., someone you wish was your best friend but currently isn’t) No. Do you like soy sauce? NO. Do you have a good doctor? I haven't had her long, but she's nice and seems knowledgeable. What’s your favorite store to browse around? Whew, Hot Topic my friends. Do you ever meditate on Scripture? No. Do you like poetry? Yeah. What’s the name of the most recent baby a friend had? Dawson. Do you have expensive tastes? Definitely not. What is your dream job? Meerkat biologist or paleontologist. What is your favorite music style currently? I've been digging power metal a lot lately. I like, live off of Powerwolf. I've been wanting to find more symphonic metal I enjoy, too... Are you wearing comfortable clothes right now? Yeah. Is there a bad habit you’re trying to break right now? Yeah, rather just keep it quiet. Is it easy to find a job in your preferred field in your home town? Fuck. No. When is the last time you went to a fun fair? ~August 2015. I remember it because it happened pretty shortly before the breakup. How about an amusement park? I have zero clue. Probably not since I went to Disney World as a child. Ladies: Would you ever consider proposing? If not, why not? If I'm with a woman, yes. I don't really have a proper reason why I wouldn't if I was with a man... I have NO problem with women proposing to men, I just think I'd personally feel weird. Oh, that makes sense; the fact of how I am with men - scared and doubtful - probably says a good deal. I'd want to see "oh wow he actually wants to be with me so much he's asking himself." Gentlemen: How would you feel, if you were proposed to? N/A Have you ever played the original Mass Effect trilogy? No. If so, which Shepard and who do you like romancing the best? N/A Let’s say there’s a person in need. They need money which they can’t make. Would you be more likely to help them out, if a celebrity asked you to? "Tbh right now I’m not really in a position to help anyone out financially. But hypothetically if I had the money to do so, some celebrity’s opinion wouldn’t matter." <<< This. When you go to a restaurant, do you have a go-to dish? Pretty much always. I don't tend to try new foods. Or do you always try out something new? ^ No. Would you rather live next to a kindergarten or an old folks’ home? Holy fuck, the latter. Living next to a school, esp. elementary, might even be a deal-breaker as far as buying a house goes. I'm not dealing with the noise and traffic. What was the last game that you played? I'm "playing" World of Warcraft currently, waiting for a stupid dinosaur to spawn to be denied a mount again. :^) What do you know about Finland? Nothing. Where was the postcard from that traveled the longest way to you? I don't think I've ever gotten a postcard. Have you ever made jewelry? Besides like those bead, "friendship," and plastic bracelets that were popular in the early 2000s, no. Which app do you use the most on your phone? Uhhhh I think Facebook? I don't use apps much. Did you learn to play an instrument as a kid? If so, which one? Recorders in elementary school and then flute in middle school-junior year in high school. What is the best part of your most ordinary day? Mark uploading cries. What’s your dad’s hair color? It's almost entirely gray now, but it's naturally black. Who was the last person you heard sing? Myself, I think. Surprisingly. Do you bite your lips a lot? My bottom one, occasionally. Have you ever dated someone with tattoos? For less than a day. Did you donate to Haiti? No. I've never had a source of stable income. Are your parents rich? BITCH- What’s your mom’s job? She's a pharmacy tech. Have you ever thrown up in public? Yes. In the middle of my 1st grade class lmaaaoooo. Have you ever failed gym in school? No. Are you scared of dogs? Nope. What reality show would you like to be in? None. What TV show makes you laugh? Most consistently, That '70s Show. Doesn't matter that I've seen I think every episode multiple times, I still laugh so easily at it. Family Feud gets me good too, if it's Steve Harvey hosting it. Have you ever heard of Joe Purdy? If so, do you like his music? Never heard of 'im. What is the saddest movie you’ve ever seen? Probably Johnny Got His Gun. Would you ever wear real fur? Fuck no. Who do you envy and why? Successful people. Because I'm the polar opposite. What color is the house you live in? Khaki. Which one of your friends is most likely to be famous one day? Why? Probablyyyy... Shannen. She is phenomenal at photography and already employed in NY with a fashion company for it. I am unbelievably envious of her, too, but also very happy. She deserves it. Do you have a favorite cousin? No. I rarely ever see my cousins, and if I do, it's usually just two. What is the worst present you have ever gotten? I've never gotten a "bad" gift. I appreciate the thought behind anything. Like I've gotten things entirely unrelated to me, but I still appreciate them. Who was it from? N/A Who is your favorite author? Don't have one. Do you shave your arms? No.

#survey #quiz #questions #random #bored

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ANSWER THE FOLLOWING SO PEOPLE KNOW HOW SHIPS WORK ON YOUR BLOG

WHAT’S YOUR OTP FOR YOUR MUSE?

I’ll be honest, at this point I have so many absolutely adored ships that I cannot pick one even if I go one per muse. I tend to love ships pretty fast and can honestly say I never expected any of them

HOW LARGE DOES THE AGE GAP HAVE TO BE TO MAKE IT UNCOMFORTABLE? :

Hm, well it depends. I absolutely will not write anything underage/adult. That’s a hard pass and I don’t generally write anything romantic before they’re older adults anyway. If am I’m writing them when they’re younger for some reason, it has to be within a year or two (equivalent. Elves are complicated)--and it generally stays in the realm of mentioning a crush where nothing actually happens. As their “normal” ages, Haleth I won’t ship with anyone more than five years or so younger than her, but will ship with anyone any amount older than her. Curufin and Celebrimbor are both tricky because they’re elves, but I tend to be more comfortable writing Celebrimbor with people born after YT and Curufin with people born during or before. If I should ever write either of them with a non-elf, they have to be over 30 or so. This is more a matter of life experience than anything else.

TL;DR, no pedophilia and the closer in life experience the better. The older they are, the bigger the acceptable age gap, but it varies depending on species bc of maturation/etc. Keep in mind Haleth is 36 at youngest most of the time, and Curufin and Celebrimbor are damn elves. Pls don’t ask me to do math. I normally resort to going off of generations.

ARE YOU SELECTIVE WHEN SHIPPING? :

I want to say yes but lbr I’m so not. If there’s chemistry, I ship it. My muses also tend to get crushes on other people, which is not something I define as shipping but is something I’ll IM you about if I notice it starting so you know and I can tune it down if needed.

Please, please, please remember Celebrimbor is demi. He’s the hardest to ship with on my blog and it’s a rare day when he has more than platonic feelings for someone. Going straight from starting a relationship to sexual comments is not going to do anything but make it awkward.

HOW FAR DO STEAMY MOMENTS HAVE TO GO BEFORE THEY’RE CONSIDERED NS/FW? :

In all honesty, I struggle to write kisses. Anything more than that is very hard for me except for once in a blue moon. But I’d say clothes off or explicit details about shit is what marks it as ns/fw for me.

WHO ARE OTHER MUSES YOU SHIP YOUR MUSE WITH? :

Oh Jesus, I am notoriously bad at remembering to tag when it comes to these questions. Fuck. It’s hard not cause I don’t value and love each of these ships, but because putting me on the spot is a sure way to make me forget everything I’ve ever known about anything. Also tumblr hates me. So I am so so sorry if I forget to tag you, it was probably a result of brain fog.

@loyalservants‘s Mairon I ship w both Haleth and Celebrimbor, and I’m pretty sure those were actually my first ships for each of those muses. I also ship Haleth with @feanors-daughter, @lordsofhimlad‘s Curufin, and @erusavetheelves‘s Caranthir. Shut up I know trust me I know.

I ship Celebrimbor with @gezelligheiid‘s Elen, @daughterxftheseas, and, uh, fuck. My mind keeps giving me suggestions for people who deactivated. Um. Yeah. I’ll go back to this later if I can persuade my head to stay a little more with the times. Sorry.

Let’s....let’s just not get into Curufin, please. I don’t know what the fuck went wrong with him nor do I want to. And if we’re going off of relationship shipping he technically doesn’t have any romantic relationships with other muses. Right.

Wow I am terrible at this. Eek.

ANY NOTPS? :

Okay to be honest I don’t like Russingon at all. Good for you if you do, but I just . . . no. Not my cup of tea.

DOES ONE HAVE TO ASK TO SHIP WITH YOU?:

Just talk to me. Honestly I’m not terribly particular just fucking talk to me in some way about it and I’ll tell you how I feel. Hint: it’ll probably either be let’s try or yes I was gonna IM you about it.

HOW OFTEN DO YOU LIKE TO SHIP? :

It’s fun, but it’s not essential. Even when it’s a canon or fanon ship, or something I have written shippy content for, I enjoy looking at it in all different lights so don’t feel like you have to ship with me if you write one of those muses. There’s a reason I prefer starting out completely platonic and neutral on my muses’ side for all interactions unless talked about beforehand, and it’s because everything can develop differently depending on how they start.

ARE YOU MULTISHIP? :

Yes!

ARE YOU SHIP-OBSESSED OR SHIP MORE-OR-LESS?

I like ships, but honestly it’s a lot more important to me that I get to explore relationships of all kinds. Positive, negative, familial, platonic, romantic, toxic, etc.

WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SHIP IN YOUR CURRENT FANDOM? :

Oh fuck no.

FINALLY, HOW DOES ONE SHIP WITH YOU? :

Send me an ask, an IM, morse code, yell at me in the tags--anything’s fine. We just have to talk about it, and I’d prefer to keep being able to talk about it on and off whenever the mood strikes. Come yell at me.

TAGGED BY: @loyalservants

TAGGING: eh, if I tagged you in this post at all and you haven’t done it go off and have fun. I always get to these late enough to not know who has and who hasn’t.

#I....really need to talk to those people who reinstated muses I had been shipping with to know if they wanna ship again lmao #on the list of things I've been avoiding #ri's talking | ooc

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