#i was lurking for a second there

[messenger-of-stupidity]

(Shhhhh i havent been dead, ive just been depressed anyways, have some angst)

Treasure stared at the door. How could they not? Porter's words were echoing in their head like some kind of discordant melody that was on loop, scraping at the darker edges of their mind that they always tried so desperately to ignore. To cover up. To push to the side like their laundry.

They had just been trying to help. Nobody liked them unless they were offering something, unless they were helping. Their friends used them like a personal therapist. It was one of the rare times that their friends actually initiate interactions. When they either needed an ear or a responsible driver.

But Porter hadn't needed that. And they didn't know how to handle that, how to come to terms with it. Treasure sat down heavily on their couch, feeling tears slide down onto to their already warm face. Pathetic. What would tears solve?

That glass house he had mentioned... it was shattering down around them. Cracking and fissures spreading. And the glass would fall on them as they stayed trapped in place. The glass would cut into their skin, sever veins and arteries. And their blood would spill, dripping like crimson seeds planted to bloom into macabre flowers.

The blood that had been the base of their relationship with Porter. Should they have just offered him their blood to cheer him up? Would he even have wanted it? Wanted them? They were so weak, so mundane, so irrelevant compared to him. He had decades on them, immeasurable power, unimaginable experiences.

If they couldn't help him, then why would he even bother to stay with them? Their effort to help had made everything worse.

Treasure's mind was running in circles. Over and over and over again. They were spinning, spiraling out of control. Their hands gripped their hair by the roots, pulling as their shoulders shook.

Where was their help? Where was their savior? Their therapist? Where were the people who were supposed to bend over backwards and press to check on them? Were they always destined to be alone and abandoned?

Their lungs ached. They hadn't taken a breath yet. Treasure forced a stuttering sharp breath to ease the burning in their chest. It did nothing to fix the burn in their eyes that morphed to a blur of colors and shades. More tears. Always crying.

Why were they always crying? Their problems didn't matter, not in comparison. Why did everything have to be compared to something? Why couldn't they matter?

Why won't the noise stop?

[lloquent]

oh The Boys™️ Billy Butcher season 1 eps 4 & 5 & 6 what you do to me ….

(also just every episode but these are the current ones i have readily available for butcherposting <3)

[presiding]

post doto au. billie & the outsider team up to prevent delilah from coming back. art by @lapinneok

[respectthepetty]

Dear Petty! If you’ve been keeping up with the tea: what is your latest assessment of the Joong/Est drama? Twitter is saying that Joong is hyping the beef because both he and Est have shows airing at the same time. It seems that Est stans (… 🤨) are also claiming talent superiority. And Joong has this pinned to his Twitter timeline:

Do you have the latest dish download?

Turtles!!!! Fun fact! TMZ is known for delivering celebrity gossip; however, on the bias scale, they fall nicely in the middle because the company doesn't have a clear bias, and the news source is actually pretty reliable. The reason the source doesn't score higher in reliability is because the writers try to analyze what they see instead of solely reporting what has been seen. I offer this tidbit because in the weeks since those "JoongDunk Divorce Era" posts on Twitter and Reddit, these basic facts have emerged:

Joong DID block Est. They both unfollowed each other on Instagram and Twitter, but Joong blocked Est. I will not TMZ this up and try to analyze why he did that, but the fact is he did and the youths have verified it.

The "divorce era" JoongDunk posts came in November, but people noticed the Est and Joong drama way back in SEPTEMBER because even at the beginning of October, everyone and their mama went to the ATEEZ concert and Joong and Est did not interact even though they were both there in the same vicinity with various GMMTV people like Mint, Neo, and Arm.

Daou went on the defense about the "Est is wrecking the DaouOffroad home" and posted several times about him and Offroad being fine when people tried telling him he needed to spend more time with Offroad.

A person actually questioned Dunk (if my memory is correct) about the incident where he hung out with Pond and Est while Joong was out of town during a fan meet. I know the post exists of the actual piece of paper with the question, but I cannot find it now! (Chismosa 101, Lesson #1 - Always get the screenshots!)

Joong went on his little trip with First and Khaotung sans Dunk

Joong and Dunk have stated they had a disagreement not just once

BUT TWICE!

And Joong said only they could fix it.

JASP.ER was announced where Joong will be working with Dunk's bestie, Pond, who also was at the infamous dinner with Dunk and Est and who the people ship with Dunk

Then Est went on record and stated he has a very small circle of friends and he is currently single because it's really hard for him to talk to people

Finally, Joong made a cameo on Est's currently airing show, ThamePo, which as far as I'm aware, Joong strangely did not promote. However, I don't have a Twitter account, so I could have missed it.

So now I will put on my TMZ cap:

As much as I want the fictional and real gays to lie, I think that this is the tea — Joong and Est got beef hence why Est was blocked and they aren't interacting. Sides were picked, problems arose from the way people operated (*cough* Dunk *cough*), and instead of GMMTV learning anything from the Tay and Gun kiss, the ongoing Joss bullshit, or ANY incident prior to this, GMMTV somehow didn't go full Adele's management team and pull these boys' social media or give them social media training, so here I am as a Jaidee fan first, and a human second enjoying the hell out of The Heart Killers and praying for Dare You to Death to get filmed just in case the separation sticks and my troublesome tykes divorce before the first gay marriage actually even happens in Thailand.

So yeah . . .

That's that on that!

[charlesemersonwinchesteriii]

I do really want to terrorpost but I don't feel qualified to be in that fandom man...... everyone is so smart and creative and they all have advanced degrees and I'm just sitting here like I think the lieutenants are in love :3

[fisheito]

How i feel about the current event, featuring quadruped feesh

I haven't even reached the second half of the story. Or the rooms. And already I'm like this. i'mnot gonna make it

[avornalino]

hiiii.. 🙃🙃

[stellohi]

spreads hands across the table. alright here's the scheme: my best friend is a staunch philza main (as I also was 5 years ago) and has been meaning to get into hermitcraft & life series creators.

i am debating making a rendog powerpoint to slowly persuade them to watch him (and some other hermits aside from the most popular creators) either way,,, but do I ALSO pull out the red string corkboard to dissect the themes of renchanting across the entirety of life series? and if so how far down the corkboard do I dare cross. do I show them the Yearning

[izziegs]

If your first response to gay ppl doing something you don't like is homophobia, you're just homophobic idk what to tell you

[geminison]

Late night preparations

[orangedogsquad]

Dog most likely to experience Home Alone type shenanigans. He somehow got himself locked in Bek’s room and it took me like an hour to notice he wasn’t actually waiting in the kitchen for his food 😭

[bread--hood]

◇ Arthur Morgan ◇ Red Dead Redemption 2 ◇

[starry-sophrosyne]

✧ ‧˚₊ Starry Moodboard and...

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+ Starry Overstimulated Stimboard  ִ ֗ ☆ ⁎·ﾟ

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[glamfellens]

hello. im having mixed feelings about veilguard. also. if i had a penny for every time a long awaited sequel absolutely obliterated and went scorched earth on a favourite place/faction of mine **this year**, i'd have two pennies, but its weird that it happened twice.

[dawnthefluffyduck]

I think i doubt my ability to work faster under stress too much

[milksnakessss]

“I’m still here Kaiser”

“His loyalty to the emperor is unwavering”

This boy is locked for life