#i was like 'NO. no. i'm mad. no. i hate that this is fixed. no. i'm so angry.' when i realized how they were fixing it.
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trinityobsessesovatings · 6 hours ago
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DOMESTICITY~! {ARCANE HEADCANONS}
ARCANE CHARACTERS IN A DOMESTIC SETTING!
characters included; Caitlyn, Vi, and Mel
WARNINGS: me being a slut for domestic shit, lowercase, cursing, maybe miniscule punctuation usage, slightly suggestive (?), slight angst at some parts (?), LONG AF, and me just gushing for domesticity
hello! hello! i’ve been gone for a WHILE, i for the longest time have been wanting to write but two of my buttons on my laptop keyboard had broke 🥲 BUT i finally got my bluetooth keyboard came in and now i'm back!!! might be very long because i’m weak for these kinds of concepts! some might be longer than others. 
WOW WOW WOW WOW this one is a bit A LOT longer than my last one!
EXTRA! EXTRA! READ ALL ABOUT IT!: for those who don’t know all of my writings, if a “reader” is involved they are most definitely female/have female anatomy! 💛
enjoy! 🥰
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caitlyn
LOVES HER LITTLE FAMILY DOWN!!
in the sheriff position
so she’s VERY BUSY but will always try and make time for her little family 🥰
DEFINITELY has twins!!
a boy and girl set to be more specific
her girl is definitely named cassandra in honor of her mother
i think her son would be named something fancy as well; callum? caspian? shit maybe even charlie! 🤷🏾‍♀️
i very much headcanon that the reproductive health care and science is VERY advanced in arcane universe
advanced hexstrap 🥴
so your kids are literally half of you and half of her
DOES NOT BELIEVE IN PUTTING YOUR CHILD IN FRONT OF A TABLET
that and it drives her crazy hearing ms. rachel repeatedly (speaking from someone who has a younger cousin who crashes tf out if ms. rachel is off) 
she tried it for a little bit after getting the suggestion from both vi and jayce
but it's a definite NO in her book
NEOW it’s not like she won’t ever let her kids use the tablet to watch kids channels and videos
she DOES they just have schedule and SHE IS AN ACTUAL PARENT WHO MONITORS ELECTRONIC TIME
her kids WILL not be exposed to shit they aren’t ready for
some of her favorite moments with her family is the days she's off work and she lets the twins help her with baking sweets
kids are covered in flour
giggles galore
you’re watching on with a fond smile
everyone helping decorate the sweet treats
just domestic bliss out the ass
now for some serious stuff…
y'all know how I said her daughter would be named cassandra…
YUH in the beginning she DEFINITELY had a problem with ✨favoritism✨ 
caspian (we gonna go ahead and name baby boy caspian) was for sure feeling left out at times a bit of a velcro baby with you because of it
you confront cait about and she genuinely didn't know she was doing it
fixed that shit real quick it took a bit of time rebuild caspian’s trust but after a little while and a lot of work everyone like this🤞🏾fr
I would say caitlyn is authoritative parent honestly
just the right amount of nurturing, responsive, and supportive but she knows where to draw the line and set them boundaries
like yeah she wants her kids to have structure… but she also wants them to have independence
VERY COMFORTABLE IN SAYING “No”
is a supporter of having kids sit at the table and write "I will ___" "I won't do ___" 100x and if she's really mad front and back TWICE
PLEASE TELL Y'ALL KNOW WHAT PUNISHMENT I'M TALKING ABOUT 😭
also very open to hearing her kids side of things
but you know… she has clear rules and expectations for her twins
vi
now would y’all hate me for saying after years of being a reasonable crash out… she would prefer to be a stay at home mom 🫣
like i can’t get out of my head how i just want this girl happy and thriving
SO FOR ME JINX AINT DEAD!!! WHYYYYY BECAUSE THIS IS MY WORK! NOW!
i feel vi would have boys for sure, triples specifically; khai (oldest), elio (middle), and ballar (youngest) ALL IDENTICAL TOO
not even gonna front with y'all… deadass would have trouble telling her boys apart at times
vi would be in the middle of lecturing who she thinks is elio but the entire time she's been lecturing poor khai who’s been minding his business the whole
elio is off to the side confused because vi keeps calling his brother…him??
khai is looking at vi like she’s insane and has lost her mine orange slice frozen in air as he was snacking on his fruit
then ballar who is so used to vi calling them the wrong names is like: “mama, that’s khai.” 😕
it was even worse when you insisted on dressing the three of them up in identical outfits for the first few months of their lives
she had to put a stop to that because really thought she was going insane
would also lowkey feel like she’s a bad parent because she couldn’t tell the difference between her boys
literally in awe with how you’re able to tell them apart
as they got older though and started developing their own personalities and styles it became a lot easier
a big believer in ms. rachel… LOVES MS. RACHEL DOWN
ms. rachel is her girl ON JANNA SHE IS
when she's behind on chores, sits her boys in the playpen in front of the tv and turns on ms. rachel to get housework done
some of her favorite moments is cooking and having dinner with her family 
isha and jinx are invited OF COURSE
i headcanon vi as a damn good cook SHE CAN’T BAKE but she can cook
teaching her kids how to chop veggies with those child friendly knife that can actually cut food but won’t injure the child
teaching her kids recipes
i have this small little headcanon that vi writes down recipes so she can hand them down to her children 🥹
now for some serious stuff…
now we know our girl vi is a retired crashout so she has a temper
NOW I'M NOT SAYING SHES LAYING HANDS ON HER KIDS❗❗
but there are moments where she hits them with classic;
“because i said so!”
“i’m the adult and you’re the child!”
or plain out just yelling out of frustration and anger
she always feels EXTREMELY guilty afterwards 
but after sitting down with her and talking with her she always comes back and doing so much better with controlling her emotions
when the triples were babies she was FOR SURE had an attachment style of parenting;
the boys sleeping in cots in that same room as you guys
always having them near her
skin to skin bonding as soon as they were born
as soon as SIDs aren't an issue the boys are in the bed with you until you have to tell her “hey they need to be in their own rooms now.”
as the kids get older develops more of a positive parenting style
very caring supportive and sensitive with her kids
like instead of focusing on the negative her kids do she focuses on the positive of what her kids do
for example; y’all remember when powder lost all of their loot in the first episode and instead of being mad she went “all that matters is that you’re okay.”
yeah like that
sets boundaries with her kids that supports their interests
does all she can to avoid punishment which in turn lowkey makes you the bad guy
but if need be she will take things away, give time outs, and worst of all grounding
cries in your arms after she has to ground the triplets after they get into a fight with some other kids
she also encourages her kids to be curious, have empathy for others, and just for them to be children
mel
MEL IS A GOOD MAMA!
I SAID IT!
i also feel she would be more of a one and done
mel 100% gives birth to her little twin fr 😌🤞🏾
all the good genes from her SHOVED INTO THAT LITTLE ANGEL SHE GIVES BIRTH TO
im talking gold freckles, eye color, perfect hair and all
DID YOU 🫵🏾 EVEN TRY!!!???
chile anyway
she’s still apart of the council y’all… but trust if need be… she pulling up with caitlyn for another 2v1 😈
has a little girl that she treats and dotes on
that’s her little princess
her little aurelia (which means golden child/golden one) 
takes her to work with her sometimes
definitely has one of those cute cozy baby carriers on and her baby always with her
isn’t really fond of sitting her child in front of a tv but does vibe with gracie’s corner
but she would much prefer reading to her child or doing other activities to embrace her child’s imagination and creativity and knowledge
her little princess is always dressed in the finest fashion and wearing name brand clothes
you lowkey don’t get it because… aurelia isn’t even gonna be able to fit those clothes in couple months
she tells you respectfully mind your business and shut your mouth 😌
“yes ma’am”
happy wife, happy life 🫡
mel’s favorite thing to do with her family… FAMILY SELF CARE DAYS
i'm talking waking up early because y’all got appointments all throughout the day!
first thing y’all waking up and taking off cold sleep masks
a nice breakfast out at y’all favorite cute breakfast spot
now y’all gotta go to your early nails appointments
right after that the nice calm family spa
after that you guys gotta head to your hair appointments
then y’all end the day with a nice dinner out 
serious tings neow!!!
now y’all know how i’ve been saying mel calls aurelia ‘“her little princess”
she lets her get away with EVERYTHING and ANYTHING
i feel it would come from her not wanting to have too many high expectations on aurelia like her mother had on her
and that leads to MASSIVE spoiling sprees 😬
it also leads to her stick up for her aurelia even when she is deadass in the wrong 🤦🏾‍♀️
it would get to a point where mel would get angry with you for giving aurelia any type of punishment
dare i say most the disagreements in your marriage came from you different views when it come to discipline for aurelia
like i’m talking arguments so bad y’all were sleeping in separate rooms 
which means FOR A LONG time she was a permissive parent
lowkey… she would be a mother-in-law from hell NO KIDDING
but back on her parenting type..
which is a mix of permissive/attachment and then when you guys had a serious talk
you informed her of trying to change her ways and she starting getting into more of a positive parenting style like vi
when it comes to mel’s attachment parenting;
constant skin to skin contact right after she was born
she walked around with aurelia in the baby carrier
had aurelia sleeping in the middle of both of you
constantly had her in her arms
aurelia finally had her own room at the age of 3
now mel’s permissive parenting;
mel is a really nurturing and emotionally responsive parent
but didn’t believe in punishing aurelia or putting her foot down with her
which ultimately lead to aurelia having poor self regulation skills
when sitting down with mel to talk with her about how you both were parenting very differently and not in a good way…
that didn’t exactly go well..
it lead to another serious fight because aurelia would act one way with mel and act completely different with you and no one else because she knew she could get away with pretty much anything with mommy mel 
the fight was so bad you stayed with your parents for a few days
so that meant mel was with aurelia 25/8
that’s when she started getting a glimpse of what everyone trying to tell her
because at some point in time keeping up that little princess facade for mel… aurelia would get tired of that and true colors show
after that you and mel sat down with one another and came to an agreement and the three of y'all went to family counseling 💛 
mel is starting to understand that she can parent her daughter without plain spoiling... but she did make a habit of it so it's something that she has to work on breaking
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hope you enjoyed! ○( ^皿^)っ Hehehe…
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fridgrave2-0 · 5 months ago
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hehe ghost-turbo haunting felix au
turbo is connected to the last piece of his code in the whole arcade - a trophy he gifted to felix in mid 80s as a symbol of him genuinely caring about their relationships on par with being the best racer. felix also gave him one of his medals and both kept their gifts next to other rewards, but when roadblasters and turbotime were unplugged, the medal was gone with everything else
now, after burning in cola-lava turbo is basically dead, but scraps of his code still were intertwined with the trophy (after all, it was his first winner's cup, but felix never knew about it), giving turbo an opportunity to exist as a shadow incapable of interacting with anything and anyone besides felix, who kept the trophy even after the roadblasters incident
also I went crazy in tags, feel free to check them out
#turbo#turbotastic#fix it felix jr#80s boyfriends#hammertastic#headcanon about them exchanging their trophies isn't mine but i loved it A LOT#and “darling” is turbo making fun of how felix was calling him in 80s#this hc about “doll” and “darling” pet names also is not mine but i adore it#turbo here is a complete freak who just stays around felix most of the time even when felix has moments with calhoun#and felix is an ass who keeps secrets from everyone bc he doesn't want his dirt to come out#he's ashamed of his previous relationship with turbo and doesn't want anyone to know any details#and calhoun to just know about it#this just gets worse and worse#they also didn't actually break up and were still technically dating when turbo went gamejumping#and he's mad af at felix because he's the reason ppl in the acrade made a boogeyman out of turbo and he couldn't come back#like imagine your bf says to you what you are better than others think of you#and then behind your (presumably dead) back tells everyone that you're just an egocentric maniac#i believe turbo has other reasons why he gamejumped (besides jealousy which took place but wasn't the most important reason)#and felix is an unreliable narrator#so yeah turbo HATES his ass#(but still would-) no im not making it suggestive#anyway i hc that turbo had put A LOT of emotions in this relationship even tho he's bad at this#he tried his best with felix but they were just making each other worse#and turbo while feeling betrayed never really moved on (yes even after 25 years he's PATHETIC)#and felix is just full of regret about everything but he won't admit his mistakes in his relationship with turbo#bc “well he turned out to be a bad person so that automatically makes me in the right about everything”#but felix had made a lot of bad decisions while dating turbo and was just classically ignorant about a ton of things#sorry about this random ass essay in tags i'm done for now#wreck it ralph#wir
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thekittyokat · 9 months ago
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you ever just have a lot, a LOT of feelings all at once about a character and not even remotely enough words or brainpower to FORM the words to describe everything you're feeling. so it feels like you may explode. yeah
#sorry i got really into my feelings about mark hoffman again#the very specific version of him in my brain that i really really wish i had the time and energy to properly share with you guys#saw#well until i muster the energy to explode all of my feelings out into a fic. if you want to TRY and understand#know that my three biggest hoffman fic insps right now are as follows#your best kept secret hoffman. a series of mistakes hoffman. and rushed like a dreadful wind hoffman.#there is a very clear throughline just know i am extremely emotionally compromised rn#thinking about theee fics vs the canon path hoffman spirals down#something something the absolute tragedy of watching a man's descent into madness#the transformation of a man into a monster#and what could have saved him from himself and kramer's corruption#sorry i'm rambling so much oh my god i was just having such a crying fit out of nowhere about this#do you think he could feel it happening. do you think he was aware he was losing his mind.#the script version of him fucks with me so bad. the crazed rankings and the longer hair and him not being well kept anymore#it's impossible to think he didn't know he was deteriorating#fuuuck okay i need to either chill or write a whole longfic rn#i project on that guy so much i truly don't know if i could properly write my vision of him#until i do something more substantial the full extent of my hoffman exists for me and my boyfriend only. they get me like no one else#well ginny and jenna also get me. please read best kept secret and a series of mistakes Oh My God#where am i going with this. i like tag rambling actually this is a nice way to do it without forcing EVERYONE to read my delirium#anyways if you've read all of this i think i love you? feel free to dm me about hoffman and my very specific headcanons and aus#maybe soon i'll try and start writing my fics about this tragic man#i could never say any of this on twitter btw they'd string me up for my opinions on him as a sad wet beast who could have been fixed#if only he hadn't been weaponized first#god i'm too tired to even be as embarrassed about this as i should be. thought i unlearned cringe already#but i've been spending way too much time on twitter and they HAAATE hoffman there#rip. i know it's not that serious but i'm sensitive rn and hate feeling lonely in my thoughts#ok bye for real otherwise i'll never shut up. i might tag ramble more often bc this was therapeutic in a way i needed badly#cat chat
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spaghetticat3899 · 6 months ago
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When you absolutely despise something a lot of people like, and no matter what way you look at it you cannot see the appeal, but you know you can’t talk about it in public or else you’ll get dogpiled to hell and back, so you just kinda sit there frothing at the mouth like this
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#spaghetti speaks#minor blood#I know this image is typically used in positive contexts but it felt fitting here too#Also you probably know what I’m talking about if you’ve spoken to me before#The AM speech but aimed toward this one particular series because the rage it causes is GRAHH#it had so much potential#it could’ve been so so good#YOU COULD'VE KEPT THE PILOT PLOT INSTEAD OF INSTANTLY ABANDONING IT IN FAVOR FOR ONE OF THE WORST ROUTES A STORY CAN GO IN#I’m so mad because I WISH I could like it#I WISH I could make art for it- the character designs are fun to draw#but I’m not a fan of it#I have a visceral hatred of the series and its creator#but I’m alone in the opinion#minus my friends who agree with me#but I just#I don’t understand#I feel like if it was made by a bigger studio- people would hate it as much as me#Steven Universe was written significantly better than it- I’m sorry#SU got so much shit for years- this is praised everywhere I see#I could explain every single problem I have with this series and people will defend it#it’s so popular despite nothing being resolved or making sense#The people behind the studio were revealed to be shitty to employees but no one cares because this series got a new episode#GRRRRRGHGGHH#I hate the characters- I hate the nonsensical plot- I hate the plot holes- I hate the villain- I hate the wasted potential#I’d hijack this series and make a Snoot Game type thing if I could- my autistic ass will make this better#I'm not arrogant I’m just saying the writing is on the floor and it doesn’t take much to just fix it up and make it pretty#I’m ranting#sorry#I’m very passionate about things like this#Inorganic killers
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can-of-slorgs · 10 months ago
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Completed the Shenkuu Stamp collection some time ago, so it was only fair to draw my girl Mirsha
#neopets#neotag#neoart#vin doods#gnorbu#drawing this was actually really fun in a way that when i was looking for references i didn't know she was such a lesbian icon#not surprised but hey lets cheer for the lesbian alpaca!#I'm not as happy with the colors as I thought#I'm a bit rusty in just really warm colors without it looking burnt for some reason HJSD#but looking at pictures of AC teams have made me really fall into my old virtupets fix#i love everyone so much on that team and not really that many ppl play for it#i still remember winning a long long time ago and was completely blown away as it was basically just 5 ppl in a forum going mad#i just really love the designs of most of the players on all groups??#i don't even like playing in the AC that much i just love the characters LMFAOO#i think i still remember I drew fanart of Sela and the gelert from the darigan team when i was like 8-9 and submitting in onto deviantart#and getting hate comments probably like 8 years later because i missed his wings or i made them too small or sth#that was hilarious thinking about it now but it did made me hate the darigan team for that year SDHFKSD#ok this is too long it always ends up wit me just rambling#I love my boy XL Striker 3.8 and Sela#ok nobodys reading uhhhh#send me an ask with the weirdest emoji out of context if you've read this far tbh nobody cares by this point HJSKSFD#idk if ill draw someone for the AC team everytime i complete a stamp collection but if i'm feeling like it maybe#or if they're requested tecnically#thats it bye
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bedtimegiraffe · 27 days ago
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The relationship Aerin wants with his mother is not the one he had, despite all the smiling and hugs in this chapter.
So let's do a chronological deep dive of what we learn about Aerin's mother and their relationship.
This only covers up to Book 3, Chapter 9 because I'm playing general release. We still have interactions between these two ahead (I assume), so I'll update if we get anything major! The snippet we see in the divination scene has me very nervous (and excited) this is going to go one of two very angsty ways. NO SPOILERS PLEASE VIP PLAYERS Unless you're reading this in the future and the general release is already done. Then go for it.
Book 1, Chapter 8:
Our first mention of Aerin's mother (technically) happens in Book 1, Chapter 8 during Aerin's diamond scene.
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As @the-unconquered-queen pointed out, parents is very much plural. Aerin has the father we can learn about in a Lore Tablet earlier and (presumably) a mother. And neither seemed to give him much attention at all, to the point that to his child self magic seemed like the only solution. That was how invisible Aerin felt to them. So we know neither of Aerin's parents went out of their way to spend time with or appreciate him.
TTRPG (Released toward the end of Book 2):
Aerin's mother gets a name and confirmation that she is dead in the Aerin's inventory list.
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I've always found this ambiguity about the signet ring fascinating. It's not, "Signet Ring given by his deceased mother, Queen Aurinae," but, "from his deceased mother."
We don't know how Aerin got it from her. Did she specifically make it known before her death that she wanted Aerin to have her signet ring? Or did she die and King Arlan went, "Well, I guess the boy is technically a Valleros. Give him my dead wife's signet ring, she's not using it anymore." Signet rings were often passed down in real-world history, so that's not unlikely.
Especially because Aerin never brings this up. If it was sentimental because of the connection to his mother, why give it away so easily? When he gives it to MC, it could be a way to protect them, both for their own sake and to make sure they can get all the Onyx Shards. But it really seems like he could have just given them a letter with his seal to cover that.
And why not say it belonged to his mother? Wouldn't that be endearing and make it more valuable to MC? Maybe Aerin realized it was given to him as a practical thing, not a genuine expression of connection.
Book 3, Chapter 1:
It all goes silent on the Aurinae front until the floodgates open in Book 3. In the first chapter, you get this discussion (if you choose the non-romance option for Aerin's diamond scene).
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Aurinae was very into alchemy, like Aerin is now. It made her popular in court, which is probably part of why it appealed to Aerin. He couldn't be a strong warrior like his brother, but maybe he could get some positive attention for making useful potions like his mother.
Crucially, based on what Aerin says here, she did not teach him. Not to say that she necessarily wouldn't have- I'm willing to bet she died pre-Dreadlord, so when Aerin was 9 or younger. But still, alchemy was something he picked up in earnest after she was already gone. He wanted to feel closer to her, to feel like he had that connection with her, something in common with his mother, and was doing something she could be proud of.
Book 3, Chapter 3:
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This reads to me very much like Aerin's mother was the only member of his immediate family not lashing out at him. Which is good! But the bar is so incredibly low, this just tells us she wasn't the worst.
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This is before the party learns that anyone dead can look in on the living. So to Aerin, it seemed like Aurinae may or may not have been hearing from newly dead people that Aerin summoned the Dreadlord, killed his brother, got disinherited and thrown in prison, then died from wandering off like an idiot (according to the offical story).
Aerin's nervousness here is completely understandable. He knows his father hates him. He knows his brother hates him. But he doesn't know how his mother feels. She wasn't violent toward him and there is a chance she might actually love him.
Book 3, Chapter 9:
The woman herself appears!
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Aurinae makes a pretty good first impression. Aerin has absolutely had it rough and it's good that she acknowledges that. Though thanking the group for "looking after" him shows that same mentality the rest of the family has that Aerin is weak and needs to be taken care of to survive.
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This is where it gets extremely interesting. Aerin sounds almost concerned for Baldur. Like he feels bad that he's at the river. Which we know he very much does not. I'd be willing to bet Aerin wishes Baldur was somewhere much worse (seriously, does anyone go to the Hells? Does he get pity points for being murdered?) Something about speaking with his mother makes Aerin show concern for his abusive brother.
Aerin also doesn't confess or ask forgiveness for killing Baldur. Maybe he doesn't want to bring that part up?
As for Aurinae... this is not an apology. This is not an acknowledgment of any negligence or regret on her part. In fact, it's phrased in a way that makes it clear she has absolutely no blame for what happened. She had hoped Baldur would act one way, and he did not. Oh well.
This is also an incredibly tame reaction. Like he embarrassed her at a party, not ruthlessly beat and intimidated her child. I would think most people would be devastated and/or enraged, maybe so relieved that despite all that Aerin is okay. The most generous possible reading is that she still has that noble desire not to show her emotions in public and she doesn't want to upset Aerin by getting into it here.
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First of all, I want to shake this man. Second, Aerin doesn't usually devalue himself like this. When alone with MC or as a quip while fighting unkillable monsters, sure. But not with a genuine smile. This feels like Aerin making the point that he'll try really hard but he might still be weak and useless.
And this is the end of the interaction. No reassurance from Aurinae. And for the record, Tyril's mother is far more complimentary toward Aerin than his own mother is.
During the diamond scene, this is part of the conversation if you ask for a story about Aerin.
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It seems like Aurinae doesn't necessarily connect Aerin's interest in alchemy to her own. But it sounds like she did at least take some interest in his studies. So that's something!
But you get something else if you ask for a story about the mothers. They talk about an extremely spicy tea Aurinae makes. Apparently Aerin tried it as a child and...
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Oh wow. If this isn't a metaphor for pre-Onyx Shards Aerin, I don't know what is. Literally in pain trying to please someone else, insisting everything is great.
If you choose to pull Aerin aside later, he admits that he's been acting differently with Aurinae around, describing it as "falling into old patterns."
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One of the main reasons Aerin wanted to be close to his mother as a child was hoping that she would rescue him. Again, I think it's helpful to recognize what this isn't. This isn't Aerin saying being around his mother made him happy, or feel safe. It's him saying he hoped that if he could be "good enough" she would protect him. Because she had no innate desire or reason to do that. And at least she wasn't actively scaring him like his father and brother.
Aerin's reason it was a "foolish dream" is also very telling. Not because protocol wouldn't allow it, but because Aurinae saw no reason to leave. They didn't treat her poorly, so why would she want to leave? Certainly not to protect her younger son.
If she really had "no trouble putting her foot down," why no intervention between Aerin and Baldur? It sounds like she wasn't scared of the rest of the family. So did she not notice? Or did she not care?
What we've seen so far has not convinced me that Aerin and Aurinae actually had a loving relationship. Just that Aerin wanted one so badly he can almost see it that way. Because Aurinae is better than the rest of his family, but still far from a good mom with genuine affection for her child.
I will be keeping my headcanon that Aerin was desperate to connect with his mother, but she never particularly cared about him.
Screenshots are a combination of my own and ones from Neckrone Shen's playthroughs on youtube. I feel like I owe them a drink for all the time they've saved me looking for stuff.
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profounddefendorcrusade-blog · 11 months ago
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I feel bad for Starlo.
Star has a point, idk what the four were ticked off about, there is like 99% chance everyone willingly participated in the trolley problem, based on what we've seen of his behavior thus far it's not like Starlo to be that big of a jerk/drag them by force/yell at them to do it. Ed's words:
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he does it because Star asks NICELY
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clearly jealous
It genuinely seemed like a fun time/fun roleplay, especially since every day is the same. Like, the five are supposed to be a rowdy and adventures bunch, what exactly did Starlo do wrong, I'm genuinely confused and curious. Except taking a big liking in Clover (his posse should know that this is a big moment for him, according to Blackjack they've known each other since high school and had the same liking for westerns. So they were basically a nerd gang.) Starlo was kind, patient and considerate towards Clover the whole time, even warned Mooch about them not being bandits, taught Clover gun safety, wanted to bring his posse along for a fun time, thanked Ace for telling him about getting Clover a new hat...
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Sure, at first he only liked Clover for being a human, but as Ceroba says, that changed and he grew to genuinely care about them, plus I can't help but think Star saw himself in Clover and that's part of the reason he was so proud of them all the time even when they messed up (I'll talk more about this at some point)
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What exactly made Ace want to leave the gang? He even said how he doesn't mind "getting run over by the fake train"
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he's so nice. says sorry for forgetting the safety goggles even when he was scatterbrained due to his excitement. I love him so much
The only real "faults" (I'll call them temporary faults) I saw in Star during the Wild East section was that he was even more enthusiastic and more proud than usual. But how couldn't he be when he met a member of the species that he has admired for so long because they have real cowboys and sheriffs on the surface (who are seen as brave heroes who deliver justice, while Star canonically feels like a nobody farmer). His posse should have realized Clover wouldn't be there forever and just let their boss enjoy himself with his "deputy who'd have to leave sooner or later anyway"(or be more patient with him/ask him why he feels this strongly towards Clover/if there's a deeper reason for that). His friends including Ceroba just turn their back on him so quickly instead. The moment he's gotten the chance to feel valued for once and put himself first and not have to take care of this whole town and everyone in it and live his dream of meeting a real human, suddenly "his personality is damaged?"
Star's literally built this whole town, organised everything, he worries about everyone, Ceroba (plus was the one to give her emotional strength before and after Clover's sacrifice), Kanako, the monsters, his family, struggles with feelings of worthlessness yet never wipes that smile off his face, always does his best to be hopeful and optimistic and make others laugh, gave his posse a nap time so they don't become exhausted, gave Ceroba a free home, didn't act upon his feelings towards her and was a 110% supportive, caring friend instead. THAT'S who he is. He's the papa bear of this friend group, the glue holding everyone together.
He was just *really* excited. Y'all know he's insecure and just wishes to escape who he is and yet y'all blame him for liking Clover so much. Yeah, the four are very clearly jealous. But why won't the four of you control your feelings for a while? As mentioned, Clover WILL HAVE TO LEAVE EVENTUALLY. They won't be Star's "deputy" forever (the kid who's just as into westerns as he is, who values justice just as much, who also values doing the right thing. Someone he clearly felt understood in the presence of, whom he loved; just look at the way he talks about Clove during Showdown). Star seems genuinely confused of what he did wrong poor guy just wanted to live his fantasy for once and feel important:
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Even at the beginning Moray's like "oh no Martlet is upset" Mooch replies "don't be a buzzkill nothing exciting ever happens around here" and Ray's like "Yeah you've got a point"
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If you all agreed to have a little fun with a human who will very soon leave forever why is Starlo's enthusiasm such a big problem? If the posse weren't into this after all (unless they were simply too jealous which could have been solved with a honest talk and a little patience) why are you doing this "rowdy" job with Star in the first place? Do you want your boring routine day to day life so much back? Or just for Clover to leave (which they will soon enough)? You, western enthusiasts, literally met a real human, A HUMAN FROM WESTERNS YOU ARE SUPPOSED TO BE PASSIONATELY INTO (clearly not as passionate as Star but passionate ENOUGH to understand where he's coming from).
... okay.
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akkawi · 23 days ago
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trying to get back into draiwng again forreal so i can do some 6 month overdue art trades and i started drawing bata but got way too into niche regional dress differences and realized that if she's from gunib district then she wouldn't wear this kind of headpiece and the clothes from gunib district are probably the most boring out of all of them in terms of jewelry etc so idk if i wanna transplant her to somewhere else or what.
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equalperson · 4 days ago
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also, (vaguely) on the subject of My mom's past abusive relationship, there's some melancholy that comes with the only person you've known with the same disabilities as you being toxic.
he was a schizophrenic narcissist, the only other one I've met. I've known one other narcissist and no other schizophrenics, let alone anyone with both.
it's such a provocative thought, that I technically had someone with the same rare combination of disabilities as Me for a stepfather, although I never called him such (I've had two "stepdads" at this point, but I've only ever called My biological father by paternal terminology).
I think about how much I missed out on and it somehow manages to make Me emotional: having someone I could talk to about My experiences who would understand instead of belittle, being able to actually connect with someone like Me when I'm surrounded by people who see Me as subhuman for these things.
when I fixate on this part of his identity enough, it's like there were so many good memories to be had if we were just closer, if we ever actually had a conversation, despite him living with us for months.
but then I remember all of the bad things, the reasons why I never even wanted to talk to him: the way he'd scream at My mother daily, blast far-right videos outside of My room (knowing I was trans), stress her into a miscarriage and then tell her he was glad it happened. so much, everyday, for months on end.
there was never an opportunity for us to bond; he wasn't just misunderstood or troubled, he was a raging bigot and parasite.
I do believe some of his outbursts were attributable to his diagnoses (I'm 99% sure I triggered a narcissistic rage once, which I don't hold against him), but he did so much that even the most severe cases of schizophrenic narcissism don't cause.
there's so much isolation that comes with being disabled, let alone multiply disabled, and ESPECIALLY someone with a rare combination of disabilities.
I can't expect tolerance from other autistics because I'm schizophrenic. I can't expect tolerance from other schizophrenics because I'm a narcissist.
all of My disabilities are more likely to occur with one another in some way, but they're not actually common with each other. for example, schizophrenia occurs in 3% of autistics vs. 0.32% of the general population; roughly 2% of the general population is avoidant, while roughly 7% of narcissists are.
it's like that all around, so although I'm more likely to meet a schizophrenic among autistics or an avoidant among narcissists, it's still incredibly unlikely, especially considering how lateral ableism/sanism often pushes people with heavily stigmatized co-occurrences out of community spaces.
all things considered, there's some safety in the thought of having someone with multiple of My same disabilities in My life, especially two of My most widely demonized ones.
I just don't feel safe around people with just one or none of My disabilities in common, so there's some degree of yearning to meet an exception, especially through that familial lens, where I don't have to put any effort into maintaining the relationship Myself.
I mean, I suspect her current husband is borderline (not gonna assert anything 100% because I have no confirmation of this, but he does show every major sign pretty consistently and significantly; if not borderline, he almost definitely has some type of mental disability), which I know is a cousin diagnosis, but it's just not the same.
not to say that I don't respect borderlines or feel any solidarity with them, but there's such a difference between somebody maybe possibly having a disability similar to yours and someone definitely absolutely having two of your exact same disabilities.
plus, the current guy is also a bigot (not as loudly so, but still a bigot), adulterer, and child abuser (not of Me; his biological child), so even if he matched every single diagnosis, he still wouldn't be a good role model or parent-friend by any means.
but regardless, there is certainly some melancholy to the fact that the only person I've ever known IRL with My disabilities (any of them, in terms of RL connections; I don't even know other autistics IRL) turned out to be such a dead end, and that there's such a low chance I'll ever meet somebody else with the same profile again.
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minimoll7 · 3 months ago
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Jeez. Windows updated last night and it ruined my PS1 emulator. I use ePSXe. Its now widescreen when I go into fullscreen. I hate that, I don't want that for old games. But I have NO idea how to fix this. I tried messing around with the settings and all I did was greatly shorten the height. I don't understand much of anything I'm seeing online on fixing the issue
This sucks, I hate updates so much. They rarely ever do anything good or helpful. They're just a waste of time and they often ruin or change stuff on me. I am so sick and tired of it
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tacocat37 · 1 month ago
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#tw vent#ew yucky vent lmaoo#Love waking up in the morning to my dad#drunk#being accused of things making cry 5 times and hyperventilating when he hells at me for#crying#and saying should be grateful I have a dad#also love how he admitted to me he was shit#i defended him#he told me to stop and he could tell i was lying and that i hate him ( i dont) then later hes said the same thing#(didnt defend him that time) and he got super mad at me for not defending him and called me a bad daughter#he told me he could change if he wanted to but he doesn’t think there's anything to change#he's literally such a narcissistic it's insane#that day was wild#cried 6 times had a panic attack and relapsed after month crazy ass day#what do you mean you could've took me away to Albania without my mother and raised me like a Hitler but you didn’t because you're a good da#he was fine the next day though so idek i feel like i can't complain i feel like such a baby#he's like all you need to raise kids with is love i don't do anything for you guys (me and my brother) i don't know anything about you guys#but i loved you and look how you turned out! (my mother's doing love her shes the best) but also like saying u love me and then yelling at#me and mot caring about my life or putting in effort for me has given me a fucked up idea of what love is#and i also have no idea how to differentiate a good person and a bad person#so thats great lmaoo#i have hope though my mom is amazing a he's not that bad tbh he's gonna give me a really messed up view of trust ik cause i already have it#but it's okay lol I'll fix it all and it'll all be fine I'm still young and optimistic#forgot this also not to shit talk but why are you threatening your daughter if she breaks up you and your girlfriend?? when shes hasn't#done anything to indicate that she wants that in any way? why is it my job to save the relationship you messed up 💀#anyway bye lol peace :3
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septimus-heap · 1 year ago
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I've done a stupid thing and idk how to fix it and my parents r going to be so so mad at me abt it and idk what to do
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sealeneee · 5 months ago
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siiiiiiigh
#i am in fact a grown adult who is still incapable of talking about their feelings and thoughts to people so I'll just rant here#my relationship with my mother is. so weird. it's not always bad but it always ends up bad for one reason or another#she can be perfectly civil and i'll still be irritated. other times i do try to tolerate it and engage and she ends up saying something#upsetting to me either way.#i don't want to keep being rude to her i don't want to get mad and annoyed all the time but i just can't stop. it's always like this#and i hate myself for it and i hate her and i hate everything about it#today i was leaving for work and she was like. i'll take the trash out of your room and i told her not to do it. she kept insisting and i#had to raise my voice at her to maybe get the point across to get her not to touch anything#and yes my room is a fucking mess and it is something to be embarrassed of. i just feel so fucking tired all time time and i keep tellin#myself that i will clean it this time for sure and then i don't. most of the time it's my mother taking care of it without my permission#and i am grateful for it bc nobody likes living in a mess... but i also fucking hate it because it makes me feel even more worthless#i just can't get rid of the feeling of shame. no matter what i do.#and back to the mother thing. i told her that if she touches anything i will go to her room and throw out anything that isn't nailed down#even though objectively i have no reason to oppose her helping me#but i also fucking hate it#maybe being rude is the only way to get it across. but also i get irritated about anything so easily#i feel shittier and shittier every day. had there been an easy and painless way of killing myself i would have done it already#and despite how much i want to blame this on a disorder or lack of access to medication. there is no magic pill that would fix me is there#i'm just a shitty person who cannot get it together despite everything being handed to me#i'm literally bad at anything and everything. i'm not even a good blogger lmao#people have it much worse in life and still do better. me? i'm useless. there's no helping it. i should have died from covid or something#nobody will save me. nobody cares enough. besides one person whom i push away because i can't stand her and i don't even know why 👍#if i stop messaging people first most of them would forget about me#i am alone. a lonely person in a messy room desperately trying to be entertaining so someone will pay a little bit of attention to me.#not to mention the geopolitics#i won't even go there. i hate the possibility that people might see it mentioned and give me shit for it#one more thing that is apparently my fault. directly or indirectly#all i want is to leave this country. spend the day with someone who cares for me like an actual friend. and then shoot myself so i don't#have to go back#sealene.txt
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psalmsofpsychosis · 7 months ago
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whyyyyy is it that movie criticism is always written by deadbrain cynics who have not felt a single emotion in 65 years and almost exclusively write about movies and genres that they hate
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isekyaaa · 11 months ago
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Reading the spoilers of otome light novels always be like, "Wow, people really hate men."
#rambles#I KNOW I COMPLAIN ABOUT THIS A LOT OKAY LEAVE ME ALONE#I JUST...........#NUANCE#PEOPLE HATE NUANCE AND IT SUCKS#PEOPLE HATE COMPLEXITY#AND MOSTLY#people hate stereotypical tropey men that are specifically written that way for the trope#'i hate how possessive and dismissive he is of mc!!!'#it's the same level of idiocy as going to the circus and being mad at the clowns#if you want to read a story about the perfect politically correct male lead find some chronically online girl's book on tiktok#like look okay let me be honest here#when i go to isekai manhwa as my medium of entertainment choice i embody those middle aged women reading smutty novels abt guys named knut#i don't go in expecting quality okay i'm not an idiot#i go in expecting a specific fix to be filled#and if that specific fix is a possessive dismissive male lead then by the almighty god himself one must do as one must#now let me be clear like.... i am complaining about two things here#one: readers don't like nuanced complex men#two: readers do not like genre-specific stereotypical men#these two things are not the same okay#possessive stereotypical men are not nuanced or complex... BUT BY JOVE THEY HAVE EVERY RIGHT TO EXIST#SHITTY STEREOTYPICAL MEN ARE JUST AS ENJOYABLE AS NUANCED AND COMPLEX MEN#it's so funny that people go into otome manhwa expecting q u a l i t y#this is the modern woman's equivalent of those trashy novels our grandmothers read#we are no better than them#i really just want to go into reading spoilers where everyone is on the same page of 'okay so we all just have terrible taste amiright'#tho tbh writing all of this i should be more forgiving of people that love crappy reader-inserts on this website#but lmao no i am not i have way better taste than they ever will whoops u//w//u
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maryibgarry102 · 1 year ago
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This is a "complain into the void about being annoyed" post so feel free to ignore lol
ok like i get being mad about the a/c not being fixed as fast as you'd like and the various other legitimate maintenance problems ppl have been dealing with when they shouldn't have to be. but pls don't get mad at the maintenance workers not being able to give you a timeline for a fix because of the ADMIN not having tracking info for a part they need for your a/c repair as if they were the ones who manufactured the part and handle it's transport like babe not only do the guys who come in to do your work likely not handle this shit themselves separate from the admin, but the housing org and the a/c part ppl are seperate businesses, ran by people with limited time/resources/staff and high demand like. The ppl could literally just not have stuff to tell you because THEY weren't given a way to track it themselves by the a/c part seller? You don't always get tracking info, like when a teacher i know had issues with getting a part shipped for an oven issue they were fixing or with some international orders. Did ya think that maybe they aren't purposefully trying to slight you in any way but are just ppl with limited info and resources who ALSO would rather just fix your issue and be done with it like? Be mad about the high cost of living with an administration that isn't as efficient as it should be considering the scope of their work and the high demand, be mad with issues like your a/c or water not working properly considering the price you pay for maintenance and the space itself, but don't get mad at the repair workers for issues outside of their control or make a fuss because of a "problem" that really is just how life goes sometimes, instead of acting like it was meant to be a personal slight just cause it's not the most convenient or what you wanted
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