#i was doing a lot of rapid copying & pasting

[cherubkissesx]

only angel

pairing: bau!f reader x spencer reid

summary: in which reader is part of the bau and has to go undercover as an exotic dancer in order to catch the unsub. but the reader has been hiding lots of tattoos underneath her seemingly innocent facade. spencer goes to readers hotel room afterwards after holding in his feelings for so long.

warnings: violence, smut, oral (f receiving) unprotected p in v (wrap it up!!!!)

a/n: hey guys i hope you enjoy this quick little one shot!! this is inspired by the song only angel by harry styles :) also this is my first attempt at writing smut so i hope this good lmao

this is the song i imagined playing in the club lol

you and team gathered into the conference room in the local police station to go over the case you were all assigned to once again. the unsub had been killing exotic dancers and the amount of overkill was increasing with each body that was getting discovered.

“this unsub is progressing at rapid speed, we keep missing him each time we go out into the field. we have no other option but to send someone to go undercover as one of the dancers.” hotch said sighing.

everyone’s heads immediately turned round to you. jj was a mom and couldn’t risk it, emily was deemed “too old” to be a dancer but you were the youngest.

“you’re the only right person for this, y/n.” emily said. “i don’t want to mess it up what if im not convincing enough?” you questioned as you felt your face flush. “you’ll do great!” penelope chimed in.

“if you really don’t feel comfortable we can find someone else.” hotch said not pressuring you. “no.. no it’s fine.” you smiled shakily and he nodded.

****

“i feel so weird.” you said to emily as you looked at your appearance in the mirror. your hair was curled, you felt like you had a ton of makeup on, and you were wearing a shimmery pink bralette and booty shorts your tattoos that you had been hiding on full display.

“you look hot.” emily reassured. “also your tattoos are great, i didn’t know you had all of these.” emily said her eyes trailing up and down your body. you had a tiger tattoo on your stomach and a big flower tattoo down your spine. “thank you” you blushed.

emily had fixed your earpiece for you so your team could hear everything you were saying.

“are you ready?” emily asked and you nodded and walked out. you noticed all your team situated at different points in the bar. you strutted confidently up to the stage.

you weren’t much of a dancer but you thought may aswell give it your all, and thats exactly what you did. you copied all the other dancers and eventually got caught up in doing it and realised how easy it was as your hips swayed to the music. you had taken some pole dancing classes in the past so you decided to get on the pole and try it again and you were surprised when you noticed you hadn’t forgotten the skill.

your eyes darted around the room to look for your team and saw them all staring back at you with wide eyes, you chuckled to yourself.

you scanned the room for the unsub and you finally zeroed in on him. you recognised him immediately from the sketch that a surviving victim had provided. “i see him.” you whispered. your team was about to approach him to arrest him. “hold off. i have a plan” you said again and you saw your team looking confused.

you met your unsubs eyes and you made a motion with your finger indicating for him to follow you.

your set was over so you sauntered off stage to go to the back. “y/n someone wants to see you” the club manager said who was in on your plan to catch the unsub.

you walked to the back to where sure enough the unsub was sitting on a couch waiting for you.

“oh! hey” you smiled sweetly. “hello darling, i saw you dancing up on that stage and had to come meet you personally, you were phenomenal” the unsub said. “thank you” you smiled.

“what’s your name?” he asked. you didn’t want to give him your real name so you gave him a fake one. “angel.” you lied. “very fitting.” he said noticing the angel tattoo on your thigh.

“how much money would it cost me for me to have sex with you?” the unsub said sickly now practically pinning you to the wall. “i’m sorry but i don’t have sex with customers” you said a bit shakily. “what if i beg?” the unsub said now grabbing your hand and pinning it above your head. “i said no!” you said pushing him off you.

“bitch!” the unsub said angrily and he grabbed your hair and bashed your face into the wall. you felt blood trickling down your nose.

“fbi put your hands up!” derek said as him and the rest of the team burst into the room. “are you okay?” spencer said immediately rushing to you as your team arrested the unsub. “i will be” you smiled as you tried to catch your breath.

“i’m taking you to get checked over” spencer said putting his arm around your shoulder towards the ambulance. “spencer im fine” you said trying to reassure him to which he just stared at you disbelievingly. “fine” you chuckled.

“here” spencer said giving you his jacket to put over yourself as it was freezing. “will you stay with me? just until i’m finished being checked over” you asked nervously and you saw spencer’s whole face soften. “of course” he said sitting down next to you.

once you were checked over you and spencer both made your way over to the rest of the team. “everyone great work today, especially you y/n. without you who knows if we would’ve caught this unsub” hotch said. “thank you sir” you blushed.

“since it’s late why don’t we all go back to the hotel room and get some rest and leave in the morning” hotch offered. “agreed” jj said and you and the rest of the team nodded.

“i didn’t know you had tattoos y/n?” derek said when you were all walking up to each of your rooms. “you didn’t ask” you chuckled. “and we all thought you were the innocent one” derek said.

****

you were about to shower when you heard a knock at your hotel door. you looked at the time to see that it was 3 in the morning and wondered who would be calling at this time.

“spencer! hi” you said in shock when you opened the door. “come in” you said stepping to the side to let him in.

“are you alright?” you asked subtly wrapping your arms around yourself when he kept staring at you and not saying anything. “i can’t stop thinking about you” spencer said suddenly which made you stop in your tracks.

you had had the most hopeless crush on spencer since your first day at the bau but never thought those feelings would be reciprocated.

“and it wasn’t just because of today but i’ve liked you for a long time and i think about you all the time. you looked so breathtaking today” spencer said moving closer to you. “those dance moves… fuck it was hot” spencer said his eyes darkening.

“say something y/n” spencer practically demanded. “i feel the same way spencer, and i have for a long time now” you said feeling quite breathless as you stared at his lips.

spencer looked into your eyes for a little while before eventually cupping your face and bringing his lips down onto yours. his lips felt soft and pillowy and you immediately melted into his touch.

“let me make you feel good” spencer begged. “do it” you nodded. “let’s get this off you” spencer said helping you take off your outfit until you were naked and you helped take off spencer’s clothes.

“so fucking beautiful” spencer said taking you all in. “can i?” spencer’s asked as he spread your legs apart to go inbetween them. “please” you sighed.

he dove his head down to your pussy and began eating you out. his tongue hitting your clit just right. “oh fuck!” you screamed out, your hands finding his hair and pulling on it tight.

you felt him smile against your pussy as you tugged his hair tighter. spencer’s tongue now began to move at rapid speed to make you cum. “spencer im gonna cum!” you shouted out. “let go for me baby” spencer reassured and you did.

spencer lapped up your juices onto his tongue. “you taste so sweet baby” spencer said leaning down to kiss you.

spencer kissed your “angel” tattoo and trailed his tongue up your tiger tattoo and the rest of your body making you wriggle until he got to your mouth and kissed you ferociously.

spencer knelt down on his knees and lined himself up with your entrance and pushed in slowly. “is this okay?” he said wanting to make sure he wasn’t hurting you. “you can move” you reassured and spencer began going in and out of you at a steady pace. you grinded up against him to get him to hit deeper. “faster!” you demanded and he obeyed.

“right there” you sighed as he hit your g spot. spencer’s head found its way to rest into the crook of your neck to hit deeper into you. “oh my god” spencer said as you ground yourself up against him.

your nails dug into his back as you trailed your nails up and down. that pain only made spencer go faster and now your head was hitting off of the headboard. spencer leaned down to kiss the top of your head as a form of an apology.

“i’m gonna cum” you shouted out as you dug your fingers into spencer’s curls. “so am i” spencer said out of breath.

you clenched around spencer’s which sent him over the edge as he pounded even faster, the only sound that could be heard in the room was the sound of skin slapping together. spencer felt you let go as he did at the same time and you both rode out your orgasms.

spencer stayed inside you for a little longer and kissed you on the lips tenderly. he pulled out to flop down beside you and you whined at the feeling of him pulling out.

“that was…” spencer said at a lose for words. “out of this world?” you joked. “yeah..” he said rolling over to kiss you again. “been meaning to get that out my system for years” you smiled at him and he agreed.

“sorry about your back that’s going to leave a very big mark….” you apologised as you looked at his back which was covered in deep red scratches. “don’t worry about it, it was worth it” he chuckled.

“i was about to shower before you got here…. do you want to join me?” you asked innocently as you got up from the bed. “yes!” spencer said greedily as you laughed and walked to the bathroom together.

[curmemini]

This period where we don't know for sure what happened in the prison during intermission, I want to run through as many possibilities as I can, so this might be a bit beyond Occam's Razor, but I've been thinking about Mahiru specifically a lot since Curtain Call. I'm beginning to believe it is possible that she had killed herself, which perhaps would almost be too cruel but...

Content warning for indepth discussions of suicide including rationale behind it, risk factors and warning signs etc. etc. You know Milgram.

There are many factors that go into someone attempting; mental health, physical health, environment, social state, and access to protective factors. I am going to go step-by-step over the risk factors given by the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention (hencefore, AFSP).

Let's go over Mahiru's health first. Quite a bit of this will be a "well duh" moment but please bear with me. AFSP lists the health risk factors to be mental health conditions, serious physical health conditions (including pain) and traumatic brain injury. I don't believe I have to reiterate how bad her physical health was, and I don't have the means to prove a traumatic brain injury (although I believe it's more likely than not, considering Shidou's diagnosis.) but I do think Mahiru's mental health was far worse than many believed, in part because she attempts to cover it up so well so as to avoid worrying and upsetting others.

I know I said I didn't have to go over the physical health but let's do it anyway and first. Mahiru has been severely disabled by Kotoko's attack and has only gotten worse since the attack. In Yuno's birthday conversation of 2022, Mahiru states she doesn't feel any pain only if she doesn't move too much. By January 2023, it looks as if she has improved because she is able to move about in her wheel-chair, but in her voice drama in May 2023, she covers up her pain, telling Es it doesn't hurt even though it very clearly does. She is barely able to continue with the actual interrogation, coughing and breathing very heavily by the end. In her last timeline conversation, likely the last we will ever see of her ( : ( ) she calls Kotoko over to her because she is struggling to move on her own; her pain has gotten that bad or she has gotten that fatigued and she says very little. This seems to be a "rapid" decline when we last saw her in January of 2024, she was still able to talk at length and ease with Fuuta (in comparison at least).

Shidou states in his voice drama that one of her injuries is a left anterior compression fracture - that is a spinal compression fracture / spinal cord injury. These are extremely painful injuries with high rates of chronic pain even after the injury has healed. An estimated range of 5.8% to 11% of deaths [x] after someone has received a spinal cord injury is attributed to suicide. Chronic pain especially is a significant risk factor for suicidal ideation, with rates ranging from 18 to 50%. [x]

While I was researching the above, I stumbled upon the idea of mental defeat, which I don't think I've seen mentioned yet in discussions of Milgram. There is a paragraph explaining it in the above paper but I'll copy and paste it here. "The concept of mental defeat originated from the trauma literature and has been extensively studied in the context of depression21,22 post-traumatic stress disorder23–26 and psychosis.27 The concept was first applied to the study of chronic pain in 2007 with mental defeat defined as negative appraisals of self in relation to pain.28 Qualitative research has found that individuals with chronic pain may experience specific catastrophic thoughts related to their physical condition, such as "the pain is so bad that I will soon be permanently confined to a wheelchair", but that they may also experience a more pervasive catastrophic sense of mental defeat, such as "the pain makes me feel destroyed as a person"29 and “I just felt everything had beaten me and there’s nothing I could do. I couldn’t fight anymore.”30 These negative appraisals of self are conceptualized as mental defeat, which is characterized by the perceived loss of autonomy due to uncontrollable traumatic events, resulting in the person giving up efforts to retain identity and self-will.29,31" [x]

This doesn't so immediately apply to Mahiru, but consider what her guilty signified - a denial of the way she had lived her life, the way she had loved. She states in her 2022 birthday timeline conversation that she has always lived her life like this. This denial compounded with her subsequent assault has had a profoundly negative impact on her. Shidou states outright in his second trial voice drama that he believes her mental health is deteriorating, but I believe it has been getting worse long before Kotoko's attack, starting right after her guilty verdict.

The first conversation we get from Mahiru after her guilty brings up the nightmares she had been having of people denying her thoughts and actions. The next for her 2022 birthday? Has her wondering if there was any reason for her being born. Yuno responds (paraphrased) "Isn't it a bit much to think that everything in life has a meaning? If it makes you happy to think like that then go ahead, but if it doesn't, then isn't that in itself meaningless?"

Mahiru states that Yuno might be right, but she doesn't really know the answer, as she has always lived her life as a romantic type. Romance and love is the bedrock of Mahiru; it is practically how she defines herself and how others define her. This conversation was pre-Kotoko attack, so even before the situation gets as bad as it does, Mahiru had been questioning her life's meaning.

We next see evidence of Mahiru's decline in her voice drama. She has come to accept that her boyfriend might be dead because of her love, but she can't understand how. She believes she loved normally, and this was the result. She says she's resolved to live as she had, to continue to love because she doesn't believe she's done anything wrong. She cannot live without love.

But how her mv contradicts this belief is very telling on its own. She's clearly wrestling with how to reconcile her heart and belief in love with how her boyfriend committed suicide.

Mahiru believes she doesn't know how to love properly; how to love in a way that isn't strangling (the lyrics are covered in metaphors for breathlessness). She continues to love, because she doesn't know how not to. Some may say that her lines in the song "my emotions are out of control? that's inconvient? i don't care" as her refuting that her love was wrong. But if that was the case

Why does she describe her love as monstrous?

Mahiru's faith in her love as an act of good has been completely shattered and without that tether to her former life, her condition deteriorates when it had been improving before the knowledge that that was why Es had voted her guilty. Losing her love is like losing her life and in this way, Mahiru shows signs of mental defeat. I just felt everything had beaten me and there’s nothing I could do. I couldn’t fight anymore.”30

To draw a big highlighter over it, during Shidou's birthday conversation in 2023, she discusses family with Shidou. She states that it was my dream to become a bride. It may be old fashioned but I wanted it to come true...

Either she had no hope of getting out of Milgram alive, or she had fully given up on the idea that she would be married - both are likely, but why would she believe she wouldn't be making it out of Milgram if she had already been voted innocent? She's lived this long with these injuries, right?

Simple - she couldn't imagine a life after it, even with Shidou's attempts at encouragement. Talking about having no reason to live and feeling hopeless are some of the major changes in behavior to warn for a suicide attempt.

Another sign is visiting or calling people to say goodbye. Knowing now that she is dead, it's hard to view her happy birthday to Kotoko and her stated intent to thank Shidou, as her way of saying goodbye.

This theory is already extremely long, so I will unfortunately be skipping over her PTSD symptoms. Just know I believe she has it, she clearly has a reaction within her voice drama, and that PTSD is the only anxiety disorder that is significantly associated with suicidal ideation or attempts.

Okay, next AFSP lists environmental factors as contributors to increased suicide risk: access to lethal means, prolonged stress (milgram project as a whole), stressful life events, discrimination and - this is a critical one: exposure to another person's suicide, or to graphic or sensationalized accounts of suicide. We know Haruka committed suicide to secure Muu's innocent vote for this trial. We also know that Muu was more or less the sole care-taker of Haruka when he locked himself away. Shidou expresses regret that he is unable to check in on him in Haruka's birthday 2024 timeline conversation and he feels as though he placed a burden on Muu for it.

We cannot say for certainty when Haruka did it. He was last seen in Fuuta's birthday in April and Muu's voting period closed a week or so after. After his birthday, he isn't mentioned in any of the timeline conversations. We can't even say how the knowledge of his suicide was given to the prisoners at large; though both Fuuta and Kotoko knew of his plan before he went through with it. There are a million and one factors that contribute to how this exposure adds to the suicide risk of others. Proximity, a feeling of helplessness ("how could i not have known""i should have done more for him", these are common thoughts those close to suicide victims have), it is an extremely shocking thing

Mahiru is selfless to a fault. She doesn't want to hurt others and she doesn't want to be hurt. She forgives others their cruelties to her, she just wants to understand. She fawns and fawns and fawns and apologizes for making others worry about her. I don't believe it is a stretch to say that her hearing of Haruka's suicide would worsen her own depression. I think it would be extremely easy for her to begin to feel guilty over it - Shidou always seemed to be quite honest with her in regards to his worries and hopes. All it would take is one thoughtless comment from him (or any of the prisoners) about how alone Haruka had been in his final days for her to possibly begin to spiral, especially considering her feelings over her boyfriend's suicide. If Shidou hadn't needed to take care of her... could he have cared for Haruka better? If Mahiru's love had led to a death, and if Mahiru being loved and cared for led to a death... what was the point of loving?

I'm skipping the other environmental risk factors because I think they're quite self-explanatory. The entire set-up of MILGRAM heightens stress. She is in an environment where she is in close proximity with the one who put her in a wheelchair, who is, for most of the time walking around freely.

Mahiru was already under duress because she had what she believes is the meaning of life (love) challenged directly. Depending on what exactly prisoners hear of what we discuss, do you think she knows many voted her innocent not because they believe her love is right, but because they were concerned for her health? Even though she says it quite clearly:

"So... if this love isn't allowed, then I don't mind dying."

If she can't love properly, and her love is a burden to others and if being loved leads to others getting hurt - then what is the point of living at all?

[do-you-know-this-adhd-character]

Do you know this (noncanon) ADHD character?

Evidence under the cut!

Wildly out-of-the-box thinker with no patience for anything boring, hyperactive, invented a game where the only rule is that the rules are whatever you say they are in the moment (talking about this is what made me say "I should probably submit Calvin JUST in case no one else has yet). While looking up whether he was ever canonically confirmed ADHD (afai can tell, no, but there's LOTS of speculation), I found this article from ADDitude Magazine itself that has a lovely description of Calvin (under the "Hyperactivity" subsection) that could also serve as propaganda

From Mudkip: Decided I'd copy and paste the relevant section for you, but the article is linked if you want to peruse the whole thing!

Think about Calvin, in Calvin and Hobbes, who has an overactive body and imagination. Take him to the doctor, and he slides off the table, turns upside down, with his head on the floor and his feet in the air. Ask him a question and he starts chattering away. He has no clue about what he’s saying, but he’s eager to share all the things he’s been thinking about while the adults were talking. He spews rapid-fire thoughts about school, an adventure with Hobbes, and what he wants for dinner. When the adults start talking to each other again, he slides along the floor like a lizard pursuing a mosquito on the windowsill.

[olderthannetfic]

/olderthannetfic/728135929307496448/people-really-dont-wanna-be-using-danielle-steel

Anon here again. I feel like I ought to say that I don't mean that there's something wrong with people who enjoy these works for their familiarity (my hundreds of copy and paste historical romance novels would certainly betray me on that front) but that as a lone amateur/hobbyist/aspiring writer you shouldn't be holding yourself to that standard of productivity because it's simply not sustainable for a single person. I also want to thank the commenter who pointed out that a lot of these "authors" are fronts for unsung labor which is yet another reason why it's unrealistic.

--

Yeah.

I do think there are rare people who in mid career honestly do just write all day every day, and there are certainly people who produce way more words per hour than others.

But trying to imitate someone who is either a stack of ghost writers in a trench coat or unusually gifted at massive and rapid output—not to mention experienced and at the top of their form—is a good way to burn out and produce nothing.

There are lots of other factors going on here too, from overall physical health to whether you're responsible for taking care of family members.

[alasse-earfalas]

Updated Fierce Deity Links Playlist!

I swapped a couple tracks and added a couple Links with their own songs to the list, so I figured it was high time for me to make an update to the original playlist post. This time around I'm going to go into a little more detail as to why I chose each song for each FD Link, rather than just copy/pasting some lyrics like I did last time.

As a reminder: this is following the theory / headcanon that the OG Fierce Deity Mask is a mask of ascended Sky. Thus, this is not a collection of songs describing what each Link would be like under the influence of the OG FD mask; rather, these are songs for what each Link's ascended, FD forms would be like. (Not that it matters all that much, really.)

Track list under the cut. :)

First: Holy Ghost (feat. Andrea Storm Kaden) by Fabvl (Clean Version) This song was written about Adam from the anime Record of Ragnarok (which I still need to watch). Right off the bat there's the obvious correlation between the First Hero & the First Human, but there's also the desperate fight between a mere mortal and a god. The erratic nature of the music and lyrics, and the screaming, lends itself to the desperation First must've felt during that fight. Considering how he died, I thought that his desperate determination would carry over to his FD form after death.

Time: In The Air Tonight by State of Mine Time just wants to rest in piece. I love the observation in LU that he is done with combat. It would take a lot to convince him to go into battle after training Twilight as the Hero's Shade. However, as a Link, he is still very much a force to be reckoned with. Underestimating him would be a death sentence, and heaven help the poor soul of anyone who stupidly incurs his wrath. With all that in mind, I wanted to go with a song that was a little more subdued than the others, but still intimidating and intense. After listening through the previous playlist a few times, I kept feeling like Time's original song just wasn't quite on par with the others. I swapped it with this one both for the up in intensity, and because it really sells the, "I don't want to be here... but you done screwed up, so now I have no choice but to put an end to your miserable life" vibe.

Twilight: POWER by Divide Music The lyrics of this one fit Twilight like a freaking glove. However, I think I may have shied away from using it originally because the type of music doesn't quite fit the edgy goth cowboy we all know and love. But after listening to it again a few times, it occurred to me that FD Twilight would be ascended Twilight; postmortem Twilight; BotW Wolf Link amiibo Twilight. And that annoying little fleabag (affectionate) is a lot more bold and "Have at thee, pathetic monster!" than he was in Twilight Princess—which is exactly the vibe of this song.

Warriors: The Resistance by Skillet Come on. "I am a nation"? "I am a soldier"? Tell me that's not Wars. The lyrics are just too perfect. Even "Love is the answer" makes me think of how he views his Zelda versus how Cia started a whole war over her obsession with him (additionally, "Used to be a slave, but now you are a conquer" makes me think of my personal headcanon of how the Temple of Souls would have realistically gone if Hyrule Warriors wasn't made for kids). Even the guitar solo at the end is reminiscent of the HW soundtrack!

Four: The War Inside (Spotlight Remix) by Switchfoot Mainly it's just the lyrics for this one. This is only remix I could find that was intense enough, and even then, I'd prefer something with a little more oomph to it.

Wind: Ruthlessness from EPIC: The Musical Do I even need to comment on this? It's freaking ticked off Poseidon. Heck, this was actually the song that inspired the whole playlist!

Wild: The Phoenix by Fall Out Boy Oh man. Where to start? The rapid strings, the chaotic yet poetic lyrics, the relentless pace... Yeah, this is FD Wild. I can just see him, lurking in the shadows, going full guerrilla warfare, setting fire to everything while manipulating Sheikah and Zonai tech like frikkin' Emmet from the Lego Movie. If anything, like Four's song, I'd love to see a remix or cover with a touch more oomph to it. But this will do.

Age (AoC Link): You're Going Down (Radio Edit) by Sick Puppies Age strikes me as the kind of guy who never backs down from a fight or a challenge, no matter how petty (see: eating gravel on a dare). He is heck-a confident in his abilities, masterfully using super reckless tactics (health-burning claymore mechanic, anyone?) and unwieldy prototype weapons to great effect. So, yeah. This is absolutely FD Age.

Legend: Legendary by Skillet It's in. The freaking. Name. Grandiose, confident bordering on cocky, a taunt and an anthem rolled into one. Some of the best-fitting lyrics on this dang list. Overall, just, epic.

Hyrule: Feel Invincible by Skillet This has "I've survived the freaking post-apocalypse, witch" vibes to it, plus some somber contemplative moments that I think would fit older Hyrule very well. I can see Hyrule being another Link who, like Time, just wants to be done when he dies. He'll still fight when he's called upon, and he'll be frighteningly effective in combat, but don't expect him to be enthused about it—just impatient to get back to his well-earned afterlife.

Sky: Say My Name by Divide Music This is the OG Fierce Deity. This is Sky ready to roll some heads. He forged the LoZ equivalent of Excalibur so he could kill a god at seventeen/eighteen, he married the powerful protector goddess who's revered and worshiped by his people, and he is done with your crap. This is the jacked-as-fetch protective dad towering over the schoolyard bully. Your only hope of survival is to not be the bully.

[sweetshrimpyboi]

1, 6, 14, 24, 34, and 40 for the pregnancy kink ask game

-dg

WHOO DOGGY THIS ONES GONNA BE FUN!! Thanks for the ask holy cannolis im hype !!! (Also hi friendo hope you are doing fantastic right now!!!! <3)

1.) What's your favorite aspect of pregnancy? What makes it hot for you in a kink sense? Tbh I love all things pregnancy but if I had to pick one for like a kink aspect it would be the changes that happen during a pregnancy! Like a character getting rounder and rounder, lactation, etc. Like that stuff is my favorite and I have been dabbling more into like having my characters experience those changes more in my recent work and its really really fun plus pushing that boundary a little (double wombs, shapeshifting pregnancy making the belly change size at times, more lactation stuf etc.) Its been a blast and a half and I guess thats what keeps me going a lot!! For a fluffier aspect I just love the idea of a character experiencing the baby growing and it setting in that its real for them its kinda a cute moment when everything finally clicks and how that affects them <3

6.) If you could only pick one, would you keep hyperpreg, rapid preg, or perma preg? Why? (I just copy and pasted this one from where I answered it before hope thats okay!)

PERMA PREG PERMA PREG PERMA PREG!!!

Tbh with some of my OCs (most of them lets be honest) they all feature perma preg I just enjoy the idea of there always being something that is in there for a character be it an eldritch being or some sort of cryptid heck in one case one of them has a little shapeshifter! As silly as this is pregnancy is a HUGE comfort thing for me and I enjoy the idea of my characters being able to experience it for a prolonged period of time and what happens when it's going on. Like how do other pregnancies affect it etc. Idk comfort and fun is my main reason but from an art standpoint too I don't have fun drawing non preg things if im honest ive tried to have fun with it but ive realized that I just don't my art only got better when I stuck to drawing what made me happy and that is preg so im happy to have preg be the focus (thats also why I don't have seperate non preg accounts because I don't draw non preg stuff unless I HAVE to!)

14.) Who are some of your favorite preg kink artists/blogs? Gosh I can never answer this question because genuinely all the people I follow are folks I adore with all my heart!! Like legit the folks I follow every single one of them their art is my favorite to see and I look up to all of them in one way or another I hope to improve to be able to be as awesome as they are someday somehow!! Like genuinely if you can check out my following list (idk if there is a way to link it on here or not if there is I will hope back on and link it ) but legit everyone I follow is someone I admire and I just cant choose a few who are my faves because everyone I follow is a star at what they do and it makes me happy to be able to see what they post when I hop on here <3 Brings a smile to my face and a warmth to my heart! <3 24.) Favorite view for a belly? (straight on, side profile, POV looking down as though it's yours, ect)

Shrimply all of them one view cannot rival another the belly is a thing to behold and also hold!! lol XD But legit though I love all the views I can't draw the best so im limited to what angles I can personally draw hence a lot of side shots from me but I love all the angles I admire folks that can do looking down shots and front on and make it look wonderful (again check my following list just sayin) legit I hope to someday be able to do more angles myself cause I LOVE THEM ALL!!! And I always picture them in my head with my characters and when I write its so much fun but legit every angle is best angle to view a belly <3 Round is a great view I have to say <3

34.) What's your ideal rapid preg growth speed? How long should it ideally take to go from a flat tummy to full term? Tbh based on how I write and draw rapd preg for me is at least 5 to 6 months like I am one of those fellas that even if its rapid its gotta be a few months at least so I will go with 5 to 6 months max for a rapid preg scenario for my own personal choice however if its not me making it im down to see and read anything if im honest!! :3

40.) What are some aspects of pregnancy that you enjoy in a kink way that AREN'T the pregnancy itself? (Ex: breeding, labor, birth, lactation, ect) GIMME IT ALL PLEASE THANK YOU Lol But legit I honestly like all of that stuff lactation and labor being two of my top faves, breeding for me is one of those things im just now getting over how shy I am about it (took me being in my middle 20s to actually learn a lot about sexual things and to realize WELP YA BOI HAS A BREEDING KINK) and like just it's one of those things now I thoroughly enjoy (though I am still too shy to write it much genuinely I stick to tentacles and monsters cause its easier to imagine a big ole tentacle than another character lol) I like birth too but again one of those things im still timid about though laying eggs has become much easier to draw as of late even though im not the best at it I have a lot of fun trying!! But genuinely like if its pregnancy adjacent then its a form of comfort for me to some degree I probably seem cringey af but I am just gonna embrace it at this point XD I have a lot of fun with preg stuff and honestly its a huge part of my online identity at this point is drawing preg and posting preg! So I am happy with it!! Whooo this was so much fun to answer all of these thank you so much again for sending in this ask I loved answering these so much this was a blast and a half!!! I really loved this a lot X3

[hjellacott]

Why I decided to publish fanfiction "on demand"

A lot of noise going on in AO3 among my readers about my decision not to keep uploading content into AO3 unless there are readers asking for it, effectively publishing "on demand". Basically I keep writing (try to stop me) and I have for years, consistently, daily, but I no longer upload fanfics online, unless they're very requested, with very few exceptions. And I have also removed some fanfics from the online world. Even if some readers get pretty nasty about it all.

It's all for the same reasons:

Environmental impact:

1. Data centres, which host much of the online content, account for approximately 1-2% of global electricity usage, consuming an estimated 200-250 TWh of electricity per year. 2. According to the University of Massachusetts Lowell, the carbon footprint of the internet is estimated to be around 3.7% of global greenhouse gas emissions.

3. The production of electronic devices used in the digital infrastructure, such as servers, routers, and smartphones, generates about 50 million tons of e-waste annually, with only 20% being recycled properly. 4. The lifespan of some data centre equipment can be as short as 3-5 years, leading to a rapid turnover and accumulation of e-waste.

5. Data centres are estimated to consume approximately 200 million cubic meters of water per year globally, equivalent to the water usage of a small city. Some studies suggest that the water footprint of the internet could be as high as 15 litres per gigabyte of data transferred.

2. Time wasting: For me, writing is something I love doing. I absolutely love it, and I do it relentlessly, day after day, full stories. It took time to upload each story into the website, as you have to select the right chapter, copy, paste, add all warnings, add all necessary notes, fix any formatting issues, and so on, one chapter at a time. It's sometimes taken me over an hour to upload all of my stories, sometimes longer. But it was worth it when I saw the glee in the readers. But in the last few years, it isn't so pleasant. I am now a grown up adult with a whole life of my own, which makes it harder to find the hour/s to upload content.

3. Lack of response/engagement: And I go through all that just for what? nasty comments, or complete silence. It feels like nobody's reading, and so logically, I think, well if nobody's reading that's fine, time's change, I'm not hurt nor offended, but if nobody reads then uploading fanfics into the internet is an effective waste of my time that perhaps I could afford in the 2010s, but not any more. I've got far too many things to do. And since I'm still going to write the story and love that, I don't feel any need to post it, because I don't get any compensation from posting it.

Sometimes I even get grief for whatever I post, so what's the point?

[antivanruffles]

I read the first chapter of a very popular novel. I am incredulous over what I have read, and I shall explain why.

I would like to preface this by saying:

I know what I know because I am also a writer

I have written about these things myself (bows and hunters)

I have access to google.

I am also a little soused right now, which just means I'm even more reactionary than usual.

Let's GO!

____________

(Everything I share in quotes are all a direct copy paste from the digital copy I am reading)

"I’d been monitoring the parameters of the thicket for an hour, and my vantage point in the crook of a tree branch had turned useless."

The PERIMETER? Or are you doing some math equations in that tree there?

"Here there were no telltale trees stripped of bark to mark the deer’s passing—they hadn’t yet moved on. They would remain until the bark ran out, then travel north past the wolves’ territory"

I see no signs of deer. So surely the deer are HERE. Please teach me your ways, oh mighty hunter.

"I unstrung my bow before easing off the tree."

Genuinely impressed you unstrung your entire bow while perched in a tree. Although since you're going to still be hunting, it might be more prudent to leave the string intact so you can knock and draw the bow later

"And too many families had already started begging for me to hope for handouts from the wealthier townsfolk. I’d witnessed firsthand exactly how far their charity went."

I'm either way more soused than I thought, or I'm having a stroke. Undetermined at this time.

"I realized my life boiled down to one question: Was the wolf alone?"

OH MIGHTY HUNTER, HOW COULD WE POSSIBLE KNOW IF WOLVES HUNT ALONE OR IN GROUPS? IF ONLY THERE WERE WAYS TO DETERMINE SUCH THINGS, LIKE WHETHER THEY'RE PACK ANIMALS OR NOT.

"A rapid examination of the doe told me I could carry only one animal—and even that would be a struggle. But it was a shame to leave the wolf.

Though it wasted precious minutes—minutes during which any predator could smell the fresh blood—I skinned him and cleaned my arrows as best I could."

Why use our time to dress the deer, when we can skin this previously described "enormous--the size of a small pony" wolf that would take a lot of strength and effort. Most excellent prioritizing, O MIGHTIEST OF HUNTERS! Who needs to remove the innards of the deer to lessen the blood flow and chance of bacteria plus leave a nice tasty treat for any animals looking for a snack when we can do this instead.

"I wrapped the bloody side of his pelt around the doe’s death-wound before I hoisted her across my shoulders. It was several miles back to our cottage, and I didn’t need a trail of blood leading every animal with fangs and claws straight to me."

THE BLOODy SIDE AGAInsT THE OPEN WOUND ON THE DEER

THE DEER THAT WAS BITTEN AND KILLED BY THIS LONE WOLF WE HAVE NO IDEA WAS HEALTHY OR NOT

Just gonna wrap that undressed deer up in a bloody wolf pelt like some sepsis sandwich so it can marinate in its and the wolf's bacteria for hours while you haul it several miles back to your cottage.

Excellent idea. Truly, you are the mightiest of all hunters. A marvel to your kind. Please, tell me more.

That was chapter one. I can't. I don't.

[lobotomydaughter]

3, 12, 23, 27 from the book ask game pls? <33

3. what’s a book you were pleasantly surprised by?

nightbitch by rachel yoder! themes of female rage and capitalism and motherhood. a middle-class woman convinced she's turning into a dog. about 200 pages, witty.

i really wasn't sure what to expect from it; it was a purchased on a whim because i liked the title. surprisingly pleasant. 3.5 stars. end wasn’t as strong**

12. have you read books in more than one language?

yes, spanish and english! just depends on which the original language was between those two because meaning can be lost in translation and if i can, i like to read in the language the author wrote it. but there are some books that i have loved so much, i'll read it in both.

do swedish language textbooks count?

23. what’s your favorite book that’s been assigned for class?

i love frankenstein. i actually got a special edition paperback of it in the mail maybe a year ago? it's very pretty.

after reading it, i did a deep dive on the author's life. mary shelley was a very fascinating woman.

27. any “unpopular” book opinions?

...i judge books by their covers. if it doesn't have an interesting cover, it doesn't grab my attention the same way and i'm less likely to want a physical copy on my shelf.

if the book sounds interesting, i'll still read it; just on library loan or as an ebook.

also, i don't think everything needs a sequel or a series. some things are better as a standalone.

hmm... i don't think authors or their team should publicly respond to book reviews. i bought piper cj's debut novel the night and the moon before it was available in stores -- i was following her journey as an up and coming self-published author pretty closely because i found her 'rapid series release' to be an interesting approach (the night and the moon was written in, if i remember correctly, less than a week), and was happy to support her novel before it hit the shelves.

piper also talked a lot about how meaningful the book was to her, as she in a way came out to her family through them, which caused her pain (she was estranged from her family).

plus, it was said to be a sapphic fantasy that touches on childhood trauma-- all things i'm interested in.

this was a little while ago; i still haven't read it because the author and a woman later revealed to be her editor responded to a very politely worded 2 star review in a manner i felt was inappropriate. the editor attacked the reviewer and piper, the author, responded by mocking the books the reviewer gave five stars in the past.

totally insane behavior esp bc one of the books was about the columbine shooting.

piper did apologize on youtube after, and said she reached out to the reviewer but her and her editor's actions was the pushing point of so much harassment towards the reviewer that they had to deactivate their social account(s).

piper's marketing of the book was that she didn't send it out to publishers (she self-published and then later re-published) because she couldn't take rejection towards a story that was so personal to her, and one that caused her to lose her family.

it bums me out tbh; i was truly looking forward to supporting her series despite knowing that it would come with many errors and that it wouldn't be the most well-written thing i could read; i just wanted to support the author herself.

but her actions, though she hasn't repeated them since, really convinced me that authors and their publishing team should never respond to reviews, good or bad.

reviews are for the readers; authors can read them, but i don't think they should publicly discuss them.

sorry for the rant jaja bookish drama is something i enjoy digging into with some snacks and wine and in this case, i was there while it all went down.

talk books with me

[pr1ncessava]

What about Lady Soot with everyone? I already asked about her with Vivia a lot but what about the other detectives and Kurumi?

OH OH THIS IS GONNA BE SO FUN!!!! I do have a liiiittle bit written in a separate Google doc so I’ll just copy paste it here LOL

Yuma Kokohead: Lady and Yuma would get along rather well, I think! He might get overwhelmed from time to time because of how hyperactive she is naturally, but it’s nothing he can’t deal with (he deals with Shinigami, who’s rather similar to her in that regard.) He has a hard time understanding her sugary metaphors and her rapid speech patterns, along with everyone else. Regardless, Lady’s always super sweet to him and acts like a big sister figure to him.

Thoughts?

Yuma: She’s weird, but she doesn’t seem bad! She’s just a bit…crazy.

Lady: Little Lavender Macaron! He’s such a sweetie. Seems to get into a lot of trouble with the Peacekeepers, and I thought I was bad with that!

Shinigami: Putting these two in a room is an awful idea, an awful idea that I fully support. When these two meet in the Mystery Labyrinth, I think Shinigami would kinda rip on her, as she does with everyone. But Lady kinda wouldn’t care and she’d still be super nice to Shinigami, even offering to make her favorite dessert for her. Eventually, they both kinda realize that they have similar energies to each other and use that to lovingly bully Yuma.

Thoughts?

Shinigami: Jeez, I can’t believe that sugar coated minx and I get along so well! Hell, she kinda does my job for me! Kyahahaha!

Lady: Really pretty! Her hair reminds me of strawberry and vanilla yogurt! Man, now I want yogurt, or maybe even a parfait!

Yakou Furio: They probably see each other as father and daughter, if only the daughter was a bit of a little shit that lovingly bullies the shit out of the dad. Directly jumping onto the sleeping chief to make sure he wakes up on time or sneaking in the Nocturnal Detective Agency at 4 in the morning to make him breakfast, Lady truly cares about the chief. Even when she shows how much she cares, she’s still gonna be a hardass on him, and it only confuses the poor chief.

Thoughts?

Yakou: It’s hard to understand what goes on in that head of hers. As her boss, I can definitely attest to that. But despite it, she has a real heart of gold, always making sweet treats for the other detectives.

Lady: The chief needs to get up on time more. He’s lucky he’s got such a cutesy wootsy little gal helping out on cases and whatnot, making everything as smooth as meringue!

Halara Nightmare: Halara definitely hates Lady’s sugary antics, probably finding her rather annoying. But, they’re willing to give credit where it’s due, commending Lady for being able to investigate thoroughly whilst making it snappy and also refusing to use her Forte, especially in front of others. Despite it though, they can’t help but find Lady to be a bit insane for refusing to use her Forte in the first place.

Thoughts?

Halara: Lady Soot is the definition of insanity. To blatantly refuse to use her Forte and make baseless guesses in its place, it’s an awful way of working. But, I can’t help but notice her hypotheses are always made with her observations in mind, which makes her work rather commendable.

Lady: Halara’s a lot like sour gummy candy! They’ve got a sour exterior that’s almost hard to even stand. But once you get to know them, you realize how sweet they can be! They and I both know full well the only way I can pay them back is with sugary treats that are homemade!

Desuhiko Thunderbolt: Desuhiko and Lady would definitely tease each other as if they really were siblings. They joke around and goof off like they’re siblings too! The only time Lady really gets fed up with Desuhiko is whenever he tries hitting on a girl, and she just gives him a swift smack on the back of his head in typical sibling fashion.

Thoughts?

Desuhiko: Pinkie? Oh, she’s awesome! I like to think she’s our personal sugar dealer! Just wish she’d back off sometimes so I can pick up some cuties~

Lady: He’s so cute, I wanna throw him at the wall and watch him go “splat!” Ahahaha! Just wish that little banana split would ease up on the women though, he’s making ‘em feel sour!

Fubuki Clockford: Gal pals, 100%. Fubuki and Lady would have such a cute friendship, like Fubuki offers to help Lady bake and after so many times of refusing it (because Lady’s even more stubborn than a damn mule), she eventually gives in, and that leads to both Fubuki and Lady having the time of their lives! Once Fubuki found out that Lady was homeless before she became a detective, she goes up to her and wants to learn everything there is to know about fending for yourself and survival. After all, Fubuki wants to be the best adventurer-detective she wants to be, and Lady would definitely help out with that!

Thoughts?

Fubuki: Lady is a very sweet friend, and an amazing adventurer-detective! It would be an honor to learn how to be a better adventurer-detective from her!

Lady: Such a sweetheart! We’ve gotta have her bake with me more, she did great!

Vivia Twilight: If these two aren’t the definition of opposites attract, I don’t know what is. Despite them being completely different in so many ways, they do have a couple things in common, and they use them to get along. Not to mention that Lady’s the only one who understands what he’s even saying to begin with. But in turn, no one else understands her because she too speaks in weird ways, mainly metaphors revolving around sugar!

Thoughts?

Vivia: Ah, Lady… The Yin to my Yang… It’s beautiful how flowers can bloom even in the darkest of times.

Lady: Aww, I love Vivia! Heck, what’s a twist without both chocolate and vanilla, y’know? Ahahaha!

Kurumi Wendy: When Yuma first introduced the two, I think Kurumi might’ve gotten a little bit jealous of Lady for teaming up with Yuma? But Lady was quick to shut any ideas down, and that probably made Kurumi feel a bit better about her. After that though, Lady’s definitely treating her as if she were a detective, even though Kurumi’s just an informant. She considers that being just as important, and that alone is enough for Lady to show her the same amount of respect as the other detectives!

Thoughts?

Kurumi: Lady’s really nice, always offering me sweets when I stop by with Yuma! Part of me feels guilty for not accepting, but she seems to not be hurt by it.

Lady: I’m rooting for her! Really waiting for the day she becomes a detective. I can see how passionate she is about it, and that’s just what we need at the WDO!

[semper-legens]

96. Leif and Thorn volume 5, by Erin Ptah

Owned: Yes Page count: 185 My summary: In the not-too-distant past, Sønheim is in the grip of the novel Brumavirus, forcing the poor beleaguered vampires to go without most of their servants for an indefinite period. Oh, and also the servants are falling ill, but who cares about them? They can just be replaced with convicts from Pottersfield...including one very familiar face. Meanwhile, in the present day, Leif learns an unpleasant truth, and Thorn considers doing some crimes. My rating: 5/5 My commentary:

I don't think I need to rave about how much I love Leif and Thorn these days. I mean, my last writeups of the collections have covered that ground well enough. But in case you missed it - Leif and Thorn is a fantasy webcomic, set in a world of magic and gem-tech, where two men fall in love across two very different nations. You can read it here! This volume mostly covers the Quarantine with the Vampire flashbacks, including all of the other arcs that happened over that time. This is another one that I was reading live as it went out, so it's kind of weird not only to see in dead-tree format, but also to read it all in one rather than spaced out over weeks and months! It's also really cool, I'm so glad Ptah has managed to carry on with publishing the comic in these paperbacks. I love having webcomics on my shelf! And a paper copy of the Patreon bonus stories - I'm already a Patreon supporter, but it's neat that they're finally collected in the books so that those who aren't can read them.

The main story, Quarantine with the Vampire, is a flashback to about a decade ago in-canon, when a Covid-inspired pandemic called the Brumavirus was ravaging the country. Which doesn't affect the vampires, but for the fact that their servants are going down with it. So they borrow some people from a local prison. And one of them is Valrún, Leif's mother. Up to this point, the only thing we knew about Leif's parents is that they did A Bad Thing that caused Leif to be in such an astronomical amount of debt. Valrún gives conflicting accounts of why she is in prison, and expresses that she just wants to keep her son safe from servitude. That he is already in servitude is unknown to Valrún until someone points it out. And so, she takes the most drastic action she can. She dies...and is reincarnated as a child, years later. Even here in the Future Times, there's still so much mystery surrounding Valrún and exactly what her game is. She's incredibly dedicated to Leif; if Leif had another parent, which I think he did, they aren't mentioned. She's presented at first as being kind of innocent, but she's cleverer than she initially seems. She manages to trick the vampires and the authorities into killing her to further her goals, and plans to hide her status as a long-runner after she reincarnates. She's most definitely playing the long game...which makes it double heartbreaking when Leif finds out she's dead.

Speaking of Leif, my favourite little substory is in this collection too - the story with Leif at Rocky Rapids, his first placement, where he discovered his knack for decorating and gardening. Poor boy. He really didn't have a lot to look forward to, being prepared for a life of servitude at a really young age and knowing he's in this for the rest of his life. Seeing his optimism, and the beginnings of his internal conditioning to be as subversive as he can get away with, really grounds his character. And contrasts well with one of the later stories, where Leif is held in isolation at the Embassy for 'running away' (he was over the limit of how far away from Thorn he can be, a limit neither of them knew about) and has to submit to his terrible manager. We get to see how far Leif has come, the ways he can get around his programming without technically breaking a rule - and the guards at the Embassy, particularly ex-servant Lulen, are growing to sympathise with him seeing the poor treatment. I'm really excited to see where this one goes.

One of the side-plots centres around prince of my heart, my dear damaged Kale sheltering after the whole getting-stabbed-in-the-side thing. Since men in pain is my favourite character archetype, I'm into it. Poor guy needs another ton of therapy to get his head right about what just happened to him - but he's working on it, and Thorn is in his corner. Also highlighted here is Dex, aka the other Agent D, aka the stabber in this equation. Dex interests me - Ptah walks the balance here between 'cool motive, still (attempted) murder' and 'actually Dex kind of has a point' exceptionally well. Dex wants revenge on Kale for the whole murder thing, as well as blinding and brain damaging their beautiful and sensitive husband Hermosa. Who, incidentally, does not want Kale dead...nor does he want Dex to get caught by the authorities. He starts off in a medical facility, then goes into a fugue state where he believes he's been kidnapped by the abusive company Kale used to work for, and escapes. After he's found, Dex's sister Pascentia manages to persuade the authorities to let poor Hermosa stay home.

It's a really well-handled storyline - nobody's by necessity in the wrong here, everyone is sympathetic but realistically human. Hermosa isn't a victim, he has agency and makes his own choices. Dex isn't a villain, they have good motives but their choice of actions are questionable at best; and yet, it's mostly Kale that's their blind spot. And Kale himself is neither villain nor victim. He knows what he did was bad, but it also wasn't entirely his fault. Yay, complex morality! The delicate struggles going on are so engaging to read, and so interesting to follow. I love this comic, I can't praise it enough, and if you like the things I've been talking about here, you should definitely check it out.

Next up, a brief trip to a deserted island.

[kitkatopinions]

2, 6, 13, 17, 26 for RWBY

Alrighty, let's go!

Are there any popular fandom OTPs you only BroTP?*

Whiterose, Emercury, something that rhymes with stumblebee... Oh, and Roman/Neo. With Weiss and Ruby, I think that it's likely that Ruby had a bit of a crush on Weiss when they first met, but it faded pretty quickly and they're just close good friends and also I write Weiss to be in love with her sister. I understand why people ship it, but for me, the two of them are better off as friends. And then, I've been writing Emerald and Mercury as sibling like partners to the point where people refer to them as 'sister' and 'brother' for years at this point, and the same goes for Neo and Torchwick who have this whole backstory I invented where she was ten when she met him and he was fifteen and they've been like siblings ever since, and then eventually in my fics Roman takes on a dad-like role with Emerald and Mercury and Neo is like their aunt/much older sibling who also acts in a parental role - but that's not important. Basically, I've been seeing these guys as siblings so long that even though I understand why people ship them, I just don't really. With Blake and Yang, I've been pretty soured towards their relationship both by the show itself and by the wasps who try to punish people for not thinking it's God's gift to queer people. Though there's a lot of good to be found in this pairing, I much prefer to write them as 'Yang probably had feelings for Blake when they were first partners, but then all the division happened and they had a lot of problems to work through and meanwhile they both had feelings for other people and now they're close friends again but that's all they'll ever be.'

Has fandom ever made you enjoy a pairing you previously hated?*

You know... I don't think so. Not in the RWBY fandom anyway. I've been in other fandoms where fanfiction and fanart has completely changed my mind on some pairings, but for RWBY, most of the time I either start to like a pairing I didn't really think about before, or the reason I change my mind on a ship is because of what I've seen in the show itself (like, I'm starting to come around on Monochrome but it's only because of an interaction I saw in the new ep.)

Unpopular opinion about XXX character?

Weiss is a severely mishandled character and it's turned her into the worst member of Team RWBY. I love what Weiss could be when I say this, but almost every significant choice made for her character whether that's in her arc, her summoning semblance, or even her wardrobe is actively detrimental to her and makes her hard to enjoy - of course with the standout really hard to get over faunus racism she never apologized for and was never shown unlearning being the really hard hurtle to get over. I can never take it seriously when people refer to her as 'best girl' or freak out about her character arc.

Instead of XYZ happening, I would have made ABC happen…

Ohhh boy, I have so many of these. XD

Instead of focusing on Jaune's troubles with being a leader early on, I'd give Ruby and Weiss's problems more time and focus on developing their dynamic.

Instead of having Ironwood unnecessarily get shot into a rapid decline into a villain in order to get Ruby and Co to be on their own against Salem, I'd have Ruby come up with the plan for Ironwood and the others to take Atlas to Vacuo for extra protection and resources and then use the staff to make portals to evacuate the remaining people of Mantle that they'd volunteer to stay behind and fight.

Instead of Yang going to the Vytal dance by herself and standing around doing almost nothing all night, I'd have her go to the dance with Velvet but then express feelings for Blake to Ruby.

Instead of having all four members of Team RWBY fall into the void and wind up in Wonderland copy-paste so that dealing with the crisis in Vacuo is entirely put on hold so Ruby can be sad without seeing the consequences of anything, I'd have had Yang and Weiss fall along with Nora. And while they're trying to find a way back out of a more Narnia based world or Peter Pan based world or... Realm of Darkness from Kingdom Hearts based world, Ruby and Blake and the others would be dealing directly with what's going on in Remnant while they prepare for Salem's inevitable attack and deal with a mass-homelessness crisis and struggle to know if they should trust Theo and deal with civilians hating them for destroying their home and so on and so forth.

Most shippable character?

You know what, I'm gonna give this one to Ruby. I don't ship Ruby with a lot of characters, but there's a ship for her that fits pretty much anything you could want. You want a fluffy cute kids-have-crushes on each other ship where the characters have a lot of similarities? Ruby and Penny. You want something that's still cute but is a little more angsty and has a bit more drama where the characters have a lot of differences? Ruby and Whitley. You want some of the vibes of Ruby and Whitley but you want it to be a bit more high stakes and personal and based on a deeper connection? Ruby and Weiss. You want a slowburn of mixed feelings and mutual pining where two characters share similar beliefs but couldn't be more different in terms of personality and experiences? Ruby and Blake. You want a story where one person who is a leader trying their best is involved with a confident sly person who is able to challenge her and make her better? Ruby and May. You want two good friends who are really strong and secure in their relationship as friends but also you want them to be something more and explore a starts-out-awkward but ultimately healthy romance? Ruby and Jaune. You want enemies to friends to lovers who have a history of distrust and hurt but now they could end up leaning on each other? Ruby and Emerald. You want a wild ride that seems like it's a lot of fun but also there's underlying serious themes of finding joy in dark places and protecting each other both emotionally and physically? Ruby and Nora. You want a wild ride that seems like a lot of fun and doesn't have emotional hang-ups? Ruby and Neon. You want a bittersweet angst driven what-we-could-have-had romance based on mutual feelings that leaves someone emotionally devastated after a death? Ruby and Pyrrha. You want a quirky sweet ship between two cinnamon roles but for some reason Ruby and Penny just doesn't do it for ya? Ruby and Velvet. You want that enemies to friends to lovers thing but Ruby and Emerald is just too boring for you? Ruby and Neo. You want the close friends who have a secure relationship and are friends but you actually hate Jaune? Ruby and Oscar!

I could go on, but I'm probably already being really boring. The point is, Ruby is very very shippable with a lot of people. XD

Anyway, thanks for these asks, it was a lot of fun!

[wynjournal]

Being Human Spoilers.

I started re-watching BHUK now, and I'm almost all the way through series 2 (I believe). I'd forgotten about a lot of stuff- mostly little things- that the US version directly copied from the UK version, but other than that, my opinion has kind of been validated.

I don't understand how some people can look at the US version and the UK one side by side and still come to conclusions like "The US one doesn't focus on character connections" because it does... It doesn't do anything in an objectively worse way then the original either. Things are allowed to be different.

I still like Aidan Waite more than I like John Mitchell, and in fact rewatching the UK version has kind of solidified my reasoning on that. Mitchell comes off like an immature and selfish 20-something at times, and this makes his "recovery" if you will, seem a little less genuine. That's not necessarily a criticism of the CHARACTER. Mitchell is still a great character. but as a "person", were I living life along side these people, I'd be more quick to trust/rely on Aidan. Mitchell's kind of flakey, imo.

Now one criticism I CAN make of the US version with regard to this, is that Aidan is also supposed to be 25 or 26, but Sam Witwer didn't exactly pass for that young either in appearance or in behavior. He acts more grown up than he "should be" for the story they're trying to tell. I think the US writers could have fixed this issue by making Aidan a 30-something.

But then again, I also think BHUK might have been made for a younger target audience or something becuase the whoe thing just feels a little more...cute. That's not a dis. It just is what it is. What IS a dis (kind of) is that BHUK feels a little bit more slapped-together, like a more seriousweb-series. Which, I mean, aesthetically, I get it. But I didn't remember it being so...fast-carbs...if that makes any sense.

I also regret that BHUS didn't get a Daisy and Ivan. I love Ivan. And I also don't agree with Sam Witwer's characterization of Herrick and Bishop being all that different. Herrick is maybe a little more wacky than Bishop but they're both... ya know... I think that Bishop is more ideological and calculated. I don't necessarily believe that he would have just stood by and LET a warewolf kill him simply because he's knew there MIGHT be another vampire overlord to take his place. IN that sense, maybe he is a littel different. I also think that maybe, just maybe, Bishop had more actual love (albiet toxic af) for Aidan than Herrick had for Mitchell.

I'm not sure how much farther I will continue with my rewathc journey of BHUK because I'm past that the box tunnle incident, and I don't like dealing with the story after that, especially knowing what happens to Mitchell later on. I'm also genuinely not enjoying this journey as much as I did BHUS, and I kind of wish that wasn't the case. I don't think I'll be able to rapid-fire binge-sessions with this version the way I did with the US one last year.

There's also a lot of stuff in BHUK that I don't think writers would attempt to do today. Such as the random remarks about people being gay as a negative. I mean BHUS had SOME language that hasn't aged super fantastically. But the BHUK stuff feels especially awkward knowing that one of the lead actors IS actually gay irl. Also as a side note, now that time and distance have weakened my crush on Aidan Turner, I'm able to see how good Russell Tovey's performance as George was.

I still like both series and honestly, I consider them a package-deal at this point. I wouldn't recommend anyone just watch ONE of the versions.

[nickgerlich]

Just Charge It

One of the longest-running consumer behavior topics I have had through the years is the discussion centering on EVs. I’ve been tossing this one around for more than a decade, and I bet I’ll be tossing it around for many more years to come.

But to cut to the chase, some are now saying that we have passed critical mass and EVs are about to see a huge surge in adoption. It’s only a matter of time until ICE (Internal Combustion Engine) vehicles die a slow, painful death. [If the link to the WaPo article puts you up against a paywall because you have already reached your monthly limit, simply copy the URL and paste into a different browser. You’re welcome.]

Now if you are scratching your head wondering how this could be true, consider this: Last year EV sales accounted for 5% of all cars sold in 4Q, and earlier this year in 1Q, hit 7%. I’ll let that sink in for a moment.

Critics of EVs will still scoff, post laughing-face emojis in a fit of smartassery, and ask where the crowd is. And never mind the red herrings they love to serve, bringing up distractions such as child labor at lithium mines, how much energy or whatever it takes to make an EV, and the expected life of an EV battery. No one ever said they are perfect, just better. And that meme of someone having to pay $30,000 for a new battery is only partially true, because they were trying to do so for a model that is no longer made and replacements are scarce.

To hear the analysts is to assume there must be a mad rush, though. I just haven’t seen the teeming masses lining up to buy a Tesla, Rivian, Leaf, Bolt, or otherwise. Yet.

Ah, but that’s where I and the others may be wrong, because the analysts think we have just passed the tipping point, that magical moment popularized by author Malcolm Gladwell in 2000. Essentially, there is an inflection point in consumer activity that ushers in a period of rapid growth, and once that sets in, it’s Katy bar the door.

Those same analysts point to EV adoption in Norway. Now before you scream, “But that’s like comparing an apple to a zucchini,” I realize that the two nations are very different, from population to geographical size and population densities.

Alas, a decade ago, EVs accounted for 5% of sales in Norway, and today are at 80%. That’s a pretty steep adoption curve. In fact, it is this “S-“curve that analysts expect to see play out in the US.

To be fair, though, a recent study indicates that 46% of Americans still prefer an ICE vehicle. But here are the fragmented stats that, when seen in their entirety, suggest the shift is on. Nineteen-percent want an EV, while 22% want a traditional hybrid, and 13% prefer a plug-in hybrid. That means 54% want some or all-electric in their cars.

While the tide is changing, we must still deal with the biggest real and perceived problems of EVs: cost, range, and charging. But these are evolving as well, with Elon Musk initiating some steep discounts of late on Teslas. President Biden’s Inflation Reduction Act, perhaps one of the worst-named initiatives ever, actually has generous investment credits for wind and solar installations. The UAW strike also works to Musk’s favor, because if the demanded 40% wage increase over four years is accepted, Musk will have a huge advantage. Musk’s factories are non-union, and he recruits and retains employees with stock options, not high wages.

If you have noticed a surge in construction of wind and solar farms the last year or so, now you know why. And these help address the matter of infrastructure, another thing that critics like to point out. Otherwise, charging stations are popping up everywhere. Oh, and a general agreement to have one charging standard across EV makes and models sounds a lot like what Apple just signed onto with its latest phone.

As for me, I love the idea of driving an EV. It’s just that right now, I cannot get what I want, and that is to be able to drive 800 miles a day without significant layovers. I want 400-mile range, and charging in 15 minutes or less. My driving style often includes 12-hour days as it is, and I sure don’t want to waste a couple hours or more each day twiddling my thumbs at a charging station.

But once they remedy these issues, I’m good with this.

As for those buying EVs today as well as in recent years, perhaps their blood flows green, or they see them as stylish options. In some cases, they may actually lead to cost savings compared to $4 gas, but the up-front expense of the EV can still be daunting. I see that all changing in the years ahead, though, as production really ramps up, and charging becomes as little a concern as is finding gasoline today.

Remember—or learn for the first time now—that when autos started trickling into the public realm a little more than a century ago, gas stations were also few and far between. Folks had to lash gas-filled “Jerry” cans to their vehicles, effectively making a rolling bomb with all that fuel unprotected. But the market took care of that, and gas stations became commonplace. The same will happen for charging.

I am excited about this, although I do have some hesitations about how fast the steep part of the curve will come. I know it will come, though, but maybe not quite as fast as some would think. Still, it is fun to be living during yet another revolution. There’s never a dull moment anymore. It’s electrifying.

Dr “Waiting But Willing” Gerlich

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My College Life Memoir: A Journey Through Computer Science

 From 2019 to 2023, I’m finally going to graduate from the Dickinson Computer Science Bachelor's course, which took 4 years. This essay may be somewhat lengthy, but I describe the process of the past four years in the hope that it will be helpful to those who are struggling with similar concerns in similar situations to my past. 

First, I will introduce the general review of the department, and then I will introduce the review of each course. 

Today, as computer science has become one of the most popular departments, 'pseudo computer science' or IT convergence departments that attach computer science are appearing in rapid succession. However, to me, the computer science department fitted more than these places. There are many experiences that I have been held back by learning only the coding necessary for the field without learning the operating system or network. I didn't know anything about Linux or http, but I first learned about it through classes, and it was very helpful. Of course, these contents will come out if you search Google, but the depth is different between copying and pasting the code and learning the general computing and its meaning. 

What I realized while being here is that the Department of Computer Science is not a department to learn coding, nor a department to create S/W. In terms of practice, the goal would eventually be to produce programmers, but given the nature of college as research institutes, the Department of Computer Science is an approach to the nature of computers themselves. “How can we use automatable machines to calculate calculation problems that people struggle to solve?” Taking courses such as Computing abstraction or programming language structure will made me think about computers before programming was available. 

I saw on Facebook the other day a computer science student asking why he need to learn calculus, but in fact, if you understand the nature of CS, you'll see that it's the opposite. Computers were invented to solve calculus that humans could not solve, and computers were made to be automated by reconstructing them into digital electronic circuits. Then, the role of the computer scientist that follows is how to make this computer calculate calculus. That's why programming languages and software came out. During my time at Dickinson, I took fewer computer-related subjects and more math. It's very unfortunate that I couldn't listen to other cs electives because I couldn't afford it because of my double major and my interest toward philosophy. 

If you are reading this article and are thinking about whether or not to go to the Department of Computer Science, you should know the direction of this department. I've heard from one of my seniors who took a COMP130 Python class, that there was nothing left for one do with Python programming. But I learned a lot from COMP130 python course. At least to me, I thought I could find and learn coding in internet, but having no background knowledge for application was a problem. Among Dickinsonian friends, the reviews of those who regret or drop the computer science department are cases in which they wanted to learn coding and build some career in the field, but the direction or expectations of the computer science department did not match. In my case, I was more interested in mathematics or philosophy, so there is a bit of a difference in perspective.

 There are many friends who say that graduating is difficult in CS, but to be honest, graduating is not a difficult on this department. Compared to natural science departments, the burden of assignments is much less. Colleges usually have a lot of requirements for graduation, and the tests and assignments are thorough, but maybe the only reason why it is difficult to graduate from the Department of Computer Science compared to other departments is that you have to take a senior seminar for a year, so you can't take two other classes. It's just that. Since it is one of the most crowded departments, it seems that there are many reviews saying that graduation is difficult. It's not that it's difficult to graduate from the Department of Computer Science, it's just that it's difficult to graduate. HAHA

  Now, I will introduce the process, changes, and personal impressions/reviews of each course over the past four years. As I said before, this is a very subjective opinion. And as I once had a very clear goal of going to graduate school in mathematics, so my likes and dislikes can only be based on that standard. 

First of all, I decided to take data structure/algorithm, and placed the subjects I needed out of the rest. I thought the network was essential because I didn't have too much basic knowledge, and I placed subjects with a high proportion of math as first. 

In the case of statistics, I did not learn to go to economics/management/social statistics or biological/bio statistics, but I liked probability and combinatorics a lot so I thought it would be fun. 

< Linear Algebra > People who hate math but come to school just to code (my friends who say why do I need math?) are very freaked out. To be honest, Dickinson linear algebra is lacking in quantity. However, I was personally very satisfied with the quality. Professor Dick Forrester, who is mainly in charge of mathematics subjects, was the one who I felt was really good at teaching among all the professors I had seen in numerous lectures so far. 

< Probability and statistics 1 & 2 > When you do statistics, you basically learn computational tools for statistical calculation, and Dickinson teaches R, a statistical programming language, as a base. So, practically speaking, it is a subject that needs to be taken. Because of R programming, I think it is a class that both computer majors and other majors can take. My favorite part was probability theory. This course deals with probability theory, which is the most basic background mathematics that dominates statistics. Generally, concepts and theorems related to probability are introduced in the first half, and conditional probability and Bayesian probability are also briefly mentioned. And the middle section introduces representative PDF (Probability Distribution/Mass Function) models. These are the content that comes out of subjects like , so if you only want to know the concepts and not details such as proofs and theorems, you may want to go over it. However, If you learn statistics without understanding probability, you end up memorizing most formulas and substituting them. The second half of the lecture introduces ANOVA and Time series analysis, which are helpful if you know them. Because it's Professor Jeff Forrester's lecture, there are times when it fits in your ears. 

< Discrete Mathematics > My highly recommended lecture by Professor David Richeson. It was much better than I thought. You will learn several number theory-based theories that are usually the basis of digital theory. It was more extensive than I thought. But tests and assignments were very light. 

< Algorithm > It is one of the compulsory computer science courses and is a paired course with. One of the indicators that can often be used to evaluate whether one have received education in one’s major is how well you have learned algorithms and how well you implement them in code. Since algorithms are dependent on data structures when implemented, data structures are always included as prerequisites, and it is common to learn some of the algorithms in data structures in advance. Most of the coding tests, which are the biggest gateway to getting a job these days, are conducted in a way that immediately implements the contents learned in data structures and algorithms. The lecture itself does not directly involve coding practice, but it is a subject that must be studied hard because all the concerns that are essential before coding are learned here. Professor Dick Forrester is in charge, and his teaching skills are superb. This class cover a fairly large range, while other subjects in Dickinson often have a reduced range. 

< Computing abstractions > It is also a compulsory subject in computer science. As the only subject in charge of hardware, learning commands and CPU structures and principles occupied a significant amount, and a lot of time was allocated to learning the structures and principles of the rest of the peripheral devices. This subject can be seen as the least directly related to programming skills, but it is good to understand the structure of CPU. And if you're not sure where the things you learned in Digital Logic Circuits can be useful for, this is where they will shine. And if you do embedded or assembly programming, there is no corresponding subject in Dickinson, but you must know the computer command structure in that field. The lecture is taught by Professor Grant Braught. This was the first time I've heard of his lecture, the lecture itself was not bad, and it was important to listen to the lecture in addition to the textbook because there are many things to see. However, following  in the previous semester, he gave an insane amount of assignments. 

< Computation and Complexity + Programming Language Structure > The extremely difficult automata theory, where the hell is this going to be used? It is used for language structure. When a person enters a command code into a computer, an electronic device composed of electronic circuits, programming is to analyze it and perform electronic calculations. Then, how does the computer interpret the command code and convert it into a signal that controls electronic parts? In a way, it can be said that these courses as a set is the exact opposite of  above. The principle of compilation, which is the process of converting a programming language, which is the core of software, into a hardware control signal after a computer interprets it, is covered. It is the lowest level of software. The process of interpreting a string entered by a person as a programming language, understanding the flow of an algorithm, and converting it into machine language is a formal language and automata, a unique mathematical system that I have never been encountered before. It was difficult because I wasn't used to this kind of expression. If you want to create a new programming language yourself, then you need to develop a compiler for that language in another language, and it will be useful in that case. The  course consists of lexical analysis, syntax analysis, and semantic analysis of C, C++, Prolog, and Scheme. Professor John MacCormick lectures, and his unique, tidy but kind and detailed lecture skills are a subject that shines. Personally, it was the most difficult subject among computer science subjects, but it would have been more difficult if someone else had taught it. It is highly dependent on understanding through pictures, so it is better to see the professor commenting through PPT rather than just reading the book. 

< Python Comp130 > Professor Lev Fructcher is in charge of the crazy enthusiasm (Professor Lev is kind and passionate enough to give feedback even on holidays), and we try the syntax of the Python language and simple exercises. It is the most obscure subject. It is a very good subject to learn the language called Python. Not only programming, but also simple data analysis methods, data structures, and optimization were implicitly included in the language learning process. In the class, the professor does not explain the code description of the PPT, but opens the program and explains it while coding on the spot. (What I really liked about this is that all compilation errors come out and you can see the process of taking action. Students will also go through this process.) Probably most people who take this course are the first to code, and I know that there have been many revisions and reorganizations since I took it. 

[calamity-bean]

Aziraphale/Crowley Fic Recs

AKA “There is SO much Good Omens fic nowadays, with more being added at SUCH an incredible rate, that I keep forgetting to bookmark things and thus completely lose track of what I’ve read and what I liked and which ones to watch for updates and which ones I might want to read again and etc etc. So, for the sake of my own sanity, I have made A List.”

And I thought, hey, might as well share.

I’ve divided this list into WIPs and Complete Works, but otherwise, it’s a jumble: canon-verse and AUs, short and long, ranging in rating from G to E and incorporating various tropes and headcanons. I tend to gravitate toward happy endings, so there’s probably nothing too dark or soul-crushing, but as always, buyer beware, pay attention to tags and content warnings and your own personal tastes. Works are listed in chronological order of first publishing, simply as a neutral and objective way to list them, and more will be added intermittently as I read new ones or rediscover ones I forgot.

Hope this helps someone find some good reading and directs more attention to some well-deserving work!

-- WIPs --

On Espionage and Prophecy (or How to Accidentally, but Wholly, Fall in Love With a Soho Bookseller) by RockSaltAndRoll (June 15, 2019)

1941 is the London Blitz and the year that MI5 really comes into its own with the now infamous ‘double cross’ system. The service keep tabs on suspects, root out enemy agents and try to turn them into doubles.

Anthony J Crowley is fucking great at this job. He can be sneaky, underhanded and damn ruthless but also charming and kind. It’s what makes him good at turning.

Aziraphale is just a regular Soho bookseller who loves his shop and books and good food and wine when he’s approached by a woman claiming to be MI5, wanting to recruit him for espionage. The poor man is too trusting and gets the shock of his life when he’s approached by a charming but dangerous-looking man also claiming to be MI5.

Crowley recruits Aziraphale to double cross a double crosser and Aziraphale takes to espionage like a duck to water.

Danger, hijinks, and sex ensue.

Show Me a Great Plan by WriteDreamLie (June 17, 2019)

A.J. Crowley is an eccentric "business man." A.Z. Fell is a bookseller who refuses to sell any books.

After Fell (unwillingly) helps Crowley out of a sticky situation, the two become oddly fixed on each other. And their relationship could just be the thing that saves them both.

icing on the cake by Etheostoma (June 18, 2019)

Between the black attire, swaying hips, slouching pose, and affected “devil-may-care” attitude that actually belied an incredibly sensitive nature, A.J. Crowley was a walking puzzle—and one that Aziraphale, when he allowed his thoughts free rein, wanted desperately to solve.

That being said, at the end of the day Crowley was also technically his employer, and therefore even the thought of anything more was decidedly not a Good Idea.

Vita Nova by AMidnightDreary (June 18, 2019)

“Angel, bloody hell. Hi. You doing okay? Do you have any idea what’s going on?”

It was quiet for a few seconds.

“I’m sorry,” Aziraphale said then, still polite, but a bit perplexed. “Who is this?”

Crowley, upon finding that Aziraphale does not remember him, is very much Not Okay with the changes Adam made after the Apocalypse That Wasn't. He can't do anything but try and make the best out of it, though. (Which is a lot easier than it should be.)

Sparse Clutter by ItsClydeBitches (June 26, 2019)

A fic bingo collection featuring twenty-five, one word prompts. Whole thing is probably best described as "Ineffable husbands stupidity with a hefty dose of gen world building," but I'll chuck brief summaries below as I update!

Strange Pilgrims: Being the Account of a lost Angel, the Journeys of a Demon, the meaning of Free Will, of the Unravelling of a Prophecy, and of Being Unravelled by it in Turn by sousverre (June 26, 2019)

"Aziraphale going missing" would be quite enough drama for Crowley to be getting on with, thanks very much - even without a prophecy that seems to be implying the significance of Feelings, and especially with every gargoyle in London trying to reunite them.

But when he does find the angel, Aziraphale has lost his memory, his wings, and insists that he is happily married to some kind of investment banker.

Right. So the first step is to fix all that, somehow, and then - and then - and then everything can go back to normal, like it was before, which is all Crowley wants.

Right.

How do we fix this?

Put Out The Fire by Aleakim (June 27, 2019)

Aziraphale finds himself in a very awkward position as some sort of spell makes everyone merely glancing in his direction instantly fall deeply and desperately in love with him.

Absolutely everyone.

Well, apart from Crowley, that is.

And while both angel and demon search for a solution to this fairly unique problem, Crowley can’t help wondering whether Aziraphale might finally figure out some things he kept hidden for so very long.

Ink Blots and Forget-Me-Nots by gutsandglitter (July 3, 2019)

Ninth Circle Ink was hardly more than a stone’s throw from the flower shop; Aziraphale knew from past experience that it took less than thirty seconds to go from door to door (forty-five if you had to wait for a car to pass). It had been a perfect arrangement in the beginning, when they were just starting out.

aka the flower shop/tattoo parlor (human) exes AU that nobody asked for!

You Can Have Your Cake by eragon19 (July 4, 2019)

Aziraphale has been working as Anathema's assistant at her wedding planning service for near on a year now. He thinks he's seen it all, from meddling parents to nervous brides, and in one case an ex with a penchant for arson.

What he isn't prepared for is a reluctant groom with a liking for black leather and a smile that has Aziraphale's mind going to places it most certainly shouldn't. Especially since the man is getting married, no matter how awful his fiance is...

To the Stars by StarRose (July 9, 2019)

The happy ending Titanic!Au no one ever writes but everyone always imagines in every possible fandom. Aziraphale is being forcibly sent to America to be forcibly married to Gabriel. Crowley is going to forcibly screw that up.

A Matter of Convenience by ylc (July 15, 2019)

There comes a time when even the most fervent enemies must call a truce and what better way to cement such truce than a marriage? And if the involved parties happen to be the most troublesome members of the ruling families… well, that’s all for the best, isn’t it?

Barriers, and the Breaking Thereof by Cardinal_Daughter (July 16, 2019)

Ezra Fell has long been comfortable in his loneliness. He’s content to simply run the Soho Public Library and otherwise keep to himself. However, when a handsome stranger bursts in one evening with a baby, frantic and in need of help, Ezra finds those carefully constructed barriers he’s long maintained begin to crack.

Perhaps it’s time to let them fall.

Series of one-shots focusing on the lives and developing relationship between Ezra Fell and Anthony J. & Adam Crowley. Human AU.

Lavender, Chamomile, and a Rather Permanent Arrangement by southdownsraph (July 17, 2019)

Crowley owns the flower shop across the street from A. Z. Fell's tattoo shop, and can't help but be intrigued by the slightly eccentric, yet incredibly friendly tattoo artist. When Crowley does finally pluck up the courage to talk to him beyond the occasional pleasantries, he kicks off the beginning of a friendship that could so easily drift into something else entirely.

Pride and Prejudice and Angels by SanSanFanFan (July 20, 2019)

Hampshire, England, 1809

Miss Crowley's plans for a small temptation near the South Coast go awry as she realises that Aziraphale is not only a guest of a neighbouring landed gentlelady but also suffering under some kind of malady.

Match-making! Balls! Fainting! Happily Ever Afters???

Celestial Bodies by LieutenantLiv (August 3, 2019)

The year is 1923. Aziraphale's friends at the gentlemen's club invite him for a weekend away in Devon. He asks Crowley to join. It gets very silly and very messy very quickly.

That's just how things were in the roaring twenties.

Demonology and the Tri-Phasic Model of Trauma: An Integrative Approach by Nnm (August 9, 2019)

As soon as Aubrey Thyme, psychotherapist, had opened her office door and seen her new client, Anthony J. Crowley, sitting in her waiting area, she was observing and assessing him. At first glance, she paid attention to the following:

--His clothing was expensive and stylish; --He wore very strange but noticeable cologne; --His relationship to the seat he occupied could only, very loosely, be described as “sitting;” --He looked angry; --He was wearing sunglasses.

What Aubrey Thyme, a professional, thought, upon first seeing her new client was: you’re going to be a fun one, aren’t you?

-- Complete Works --

Anthophilia by FortinbrasFTW (July 7, 2014)

Anthony J. Crowley's life seems like it's finally falling into place: his floral shop has begun to gain an undercurrent of appreciation in the design elite of London, and he might have even finally found a boyfriend who looks just right lounging on his Tenreiro sofa. Things seem almost perfect, until one day the empty shop across the street is leased to frumpy fellow Oxford alumni, who doesn't seem to remember Crowley nearly as well as he remembers him, which really shouldn't bother him as much as it does - it was ten years ago after all, and it wasn't even that good of a kiss.

The Rose Thief and the Priest by ImprobableDreams900 (January 8, 2018)

When horticulturist A. J. Crowley sees a rare breed of rose in a churchyard, he decides he won't stop until he can get a cutting—even if he has to go through the church's stuffy priest to do so.

Running in the Shadows (Damn Your Love, Damn Your Lies) by soft_october (May 10, 2019)

"In plain terms, Mr. A. Fell was a man of impeccable conduct and unusual habits, and in a similar manner to many of whom bore the first two traits, he must also take up the third: dire loneliness. Yet it had not always been thus. Indeed, there once was a time when it seemed as if he should never know solitude or want of suitable company for the rest of his days, but the circumstances by which Aziraphale might have unwound the knot that now bound up his heart had long since dragged themselves, mortally wounded, to die in the shades of regret. Their ghosts hung in his past, growing in consequence with the singular passing of each year until they eclipsed even the death of those who had the foremost hand in their making, and had the effect of separating the sequence of his days of into a gentle, blooming Before, whose painful beauty made the egregious scars of the After that much more appalling."

What Aziraphale does not know is that, from across the ocean, Mr. Anthony J. Crowley is returning to England with his newly aquired wealth, wanting nothing more than to rebuild his life after a terrible shock and, perhaps, discover why he had been abandoned by his fiancé ten long years ago.

You Might Think I’m Crazy (All I Want is You) by soft_october (March 29, 2019)

'“Look I understand, you’ve got to check up on the new occupants, make sure I’m a proper ‘fit’ for the neighborhood or whatever euphemism you’re going to use this time, 'the greater good,' I saw the film, I get it. But I peeked in at the place next door the agent mentioned and if you aren’t bothering him I really don't think you should be-”

“I’m your neighbor,” Aziraphale interrupted. “I own that place next door?”

“Oh.”'

Since the next shop over closed down, Aziraphale's had a peaceful few months, barring those unpleasant interactions with the men in cheap suits who keep trying to persuade him to sell his shop. But now a (handsome) new owner has taken up residence beside him and, horror of horrors, he wants to open up a coffee shop.

A Home at the Beginning of the World by stereobone (June 6, 2019)

"Oh," Aziraphale says. "I think Crowley might have moved in with me."

creatures of circumstance by attheborder (June 10, 2019)

Anthony J. Crowley, Jr. is the prodigal son of CrowleyCorp, the UK’s most powerful, dangerous, and controversial technology company.  

A one-night stand with a mysterious man who calls himself Aziraphale tips his hopeless life upside-down into a dangerous obsession.

And somewhere else entirely, a girl-shaped creature is presiding over the back room of a bookshop in Soho, where an angel and a demon lay unconscious on the floor…

Bending Space and Time by Draco_sollicitus (June 11, 2019)

Crowley could never have envisioned a miracle quite like making an angel smile.

And when that angel is Aziraphale, well, he'll do whatever he can to experience that miracle again, and again, and again.

(Crowley spends the twentieth century bringing books to Aziraphale in an effort to make his angel smile a little more)

the words of the prophet are written on the subway walls by volantium (June 11, 2019)

Aziraphale and Crowley do the twenty-first century. (Or, Aziraphale and Crowley, dorks in love, post-Apocalypse).

a picnic plan for you and me by theapplepielifestyle (June 12, 2019)

“It’s angel food cake,” he said. He waited. When Aziraphale did nothing but nod politely: “It’s funny, see, ‘cause-”

“No, no, I get it.” Aziraphale nodded again. “Very funny.”

“Oh, shut up, it is-”

“May I ask what brought this on?”

Crowley paused. “Can’t a guy just want to try baking?”

(Or, Crowley makes Aziraphale food after the world doesn't end. It has absolutely nothing to do with how much he wants to make Aziraphale smile.)

with urgency but not with haste by Sanwall (June 13, 2019)

Aziraphale moves to the South Downs and gets bees, and Crowley gets into one of his moods.

The Play’s The Thing by volunteerfd (June 16, 2019)

“Who was at the very first rehearsal, hmm? Who read over Shakespeare’s shoulder as he put ink to parchment? If anything, I know Hamlet just as intimately as I know you.” Aziraphale picked up his teacup again and looked at Crowley over the rim of it. “Maybe even more.”

Crowley was tempted to ask if he’d fucked Hamlet.

****

Aziraphale is cast as the lead in a community theatre production of Hamlet, a lifelong dream of his and a lifelong night terror of Crowley's. But, as the hapless Crowley helps him run lines, it becomes a mystery why anyone would let Aziraphale on stage. Tears are shed, skulls are crushed, monologues are butchered, and through it all, Crowley remains supportive. After all, the show must go on--even if it is the fifty billionth production of stupid, overrated Hamlet.

Good Old-Fashioned Lover Boy by 13thDoctor, JHarkness (June 17, 2019)

5 times Aziraphale and Crowley were mistaken for a couple, and the 1 time they weren’t.

A Regular Rip van Winkle by aurilly (June 20, 2019)

After almost an entire century spent asleep, Crowley wakes in 1888 to find the world more changed than he thought possible. His first order of business is to find his angel.

Also concerning the origin of the Baroque gavotte (spoilers: Aziraphale was feeling thirsty).

A bookshop is not a business by anactoriatalksback (June 22, 2019)

In which Aziraphale has no intention of selling books to anyone at all, let alone this infuriatingly persistent customer. No matter how nice his cheekbones are...

like a prayer for which no words exist by lipsstainedbloodred (June 23, 2019)

“What do you want, angel?” Crowley asks before Aziraphale is even properly in the room.

“Hullo my dear,” Aziraphale sounds cheery but also awfully worried, “I hadn’t seen you since - well, since-” Since they’d swapped bodies back; since Crowley had turned tail and ran from St. James’s Park like the Devil himself had been on his heels.

(in which Crowley and Aziraphale do not dine at the Ritz after that nasty business with Heaven and Hell, and Crowley has an existential crisis instead)

far too much in love to see by imperiousheiress (June 25, 2019)

“Hello, can I help you with anything in particular?” Aziraphale asks. And then, he freezes.

Inexplicably, impossibly, it’s the same man who had entered the shop the last time they’d been open. He’s sure of it. The man who he’d felt a rather insistent urge to garrote.

(Or, one of Aziraphale’s regular customers takes a little too much interest in Crowley, and Aziraphale feels somewhat unfamiliarly unpleasant about all of it.)

The Holiest by merle_p (June 26, 2019)

So when Aziraphale hears, through the grapevine, that an exorcism is supposed to happen on New Year’s Eve in Major Gruber’s flat, he knows that despite his general distaste for exorcisms, this is where he is going to be, on the slim chance that the demon Major Gruber and his spiritist friends have found is the same one Aziraphale appears to have lost.

Hope Is The Thing With Feathers by Gefionne (June 26, 2019)

Because they can’t see each other more than once every few decades, Aziraphale suggests that he and Crowley write to each other to pass the time apart. As quills for their letters, they exchange wing feathers: a gesture of great intimacy that Crowley is convinced only he perceives the depth of. But time will tell that it’s not just him who sees it that way.

Night and Day by Gigi_Sinclair (June 27, 2019)

Five times Aziraphale and Crowley encountered queer historical figures who know more about them than they do, and one time they actually have a clue.

Needed a break, gone to France x by sleepymccoy (June 28, 2019)

A week or so after the nopocalypse Aziraphale takes a holiday that, unfortunately, sends Crowley into a bit of a tailspin about where they're at

In Holy Matrimony by Myracuulous (June 29, 2019)

From the private journal of Alisha Jones, wedding planner, concerning the nuptials of Anthony J Crowley and Aziraphale and the planning process thereof, containing an account of chosen decor, guest list construction, and the holy war against the Antichrist that nearly ruined six months of professional organization and a very nice dinner.

Acts of Service by seekwill (July 2, 2019)

After receiving direct instruction from God, village reverend Aziraphale leaves his countryside congregation to serve the underserved and in-need at an urban church in London, a transition made all the more complicated by the mysterious and handsome Crowley, who always seems to appear when Aziraphale least expects him.

greatest hits by attheborder (July 2, 2019)

“But my dear, I just can’t believe you never told me that you had joined a musical group. I would have come out to support you— at your gigs!”

“First of all, never say ‘gigs’ again. Second of all, not my fault you never noticed when I showed up to dinner with a great big guitar case slung over my shoulder.”

(Aziraphale accidentally discovers Crowley’s secret: he was in a band in the 90s. And he wrote a whole album of love songs…)

Nanny Knows Best by DictionaryWrites (July 5, 2019)

Being a nanny, that should be simple. Simple. Easy as pie.

Crowley wished that were true.

human childcare for the occult (and ethereal) by suzukiblu (July 10, 2019)

The Dowlings miraculously need a nanny and a gardener at the same time, and Aziraphale suggests they flip for it. Crowley takes one moment to picture Aziraphale nannying anyone and calls dibs. It’s not that Aziraphale’s terrible with humans, he’s just, well. Terrible with humans. Truly, truly terrible.

He doesn’t want to deal with Aziraphale getting metaphorically guillotined or kicking up security’s paranoia, basically. A gardener can be a little odd, and no one will notice or care. Except Warlock, perhaps, as the only other person with any real reason to spend much time out on the lawn, but Warlock’s the one they want noticing so that’ll be fine, Crowley’s sure.

Even if it does make him cringe a little, leaving Aziraphale in charge of the plants.

keep me close by Iselmyr (July 17, 2019)

Aziraphale was expecting to see a talented but otherwise ordinary performance of Les Misérables with a genderswapped cast. Aziraphale was not expecting who came onstage.

Crowley was expecting an ordinary second night show, because Aziraphale always goes to opening nights, and Crowley never performs on them.

Except, this once, Aziraphale missed the opening, and came to the second night. Everything else snowballed from there.

lit in the darkness by ToEdenandBackAgain (July 17, 2019)

Aziraphale returns to Crowley's flat for the night after Armageddon. After all, it's hardly the first time they've shared sleeping arrangements. Or: Times throughout history Crowley and Aziraphale have shared a bed.

Reflect What You Are by Owenjones (July 17, 2019)

It's a year after the almost-apocalypse. Aziraphale makes Crowley go see a therapist.

“Have you been having any issues in particular?”

“Issues? Such as?”

“You tell me.” She could tell he had something on the tip of his tongue.

Crowley sat for a second, then blurted out, “He thinks I’ve been sleeping too much. He’s worried.”

An Answer to Prayer by Jupiter_Ash (July 20, 2019)

Prayers can be answered in a multitude of different ways. When it came to a certain cottage in the South Downs though, no one had expected it to be answered by the squealing wheels of a classic Bentley and Queen's Princes of the Universe.

All Karen wanted to do was sell a house.

The Ineffable Temptations of Oysters by gimpy_terry (July 20, 2019)

Wherein Aziraphale sometimes invites Crowley to dine on oysters with him and Crowley definitely takes him up on that offer.

did you open up your heart there? by weatheredlaw (July 21, 2019)

or were you quiet and afraid? — Aziraphale and Crowley meet over and over and over again. Aziraphale doesn't know what Crowley is, or why their souls can't seem to be parted, but he is a creature of love, and he's not going to argue with that.

A Machine for Living In by pineapplesquid (August 6, 2019)

All Crowley wants is to see the inside of the bookshop so that he can get this design for the building next door done so the clients will be happy and his bosses will stop yelling. What A.Z. Fell wants, apparently, is for Crowley and the project that’s he’s working on to disappear. Permanently.

One of these might be more attainable than the other.