#i warned ya!!

[ceoandslutler]

welcome to my blog - started 13/04/23

was on hiatus, returning until may (uni language exam is in may lol)

hello, i'm sayé (pronounced SAA-YEAH) or just sy (pronounced SIGH), this blog is a space where i muse all about sebastian and o!ciel from kuroshitsuji/black butler and share all my other silly lil thoughts about the kuro world, i usually do not interact with people first unless they seem safe to speak w/ (courtesy of online social anxiety and fear of 🐜s) so i will rarely reblog random stuff unless i have something substantial to add (srry i can't tag that well and don't want to dilute my stuff and also i have autism brain lol so if my blog's not neat, i will literally DIE). i will rb on my rb side blog: @sbclreblogs

also feel free to send me an ask/message, i will probably respond (90% of the time, teehee) but tbh it's like poking a dead person with a stick and seeing if they're alive.

this is just a place for me to share my musings about my fav evil boys and share writing if i ever get around to doing it, also this blog is not for minors, stay out, minors/-18!!!

also i am evidently anti censorship/anti harassment/profic/ship and let ship, antis shoo!!

i write, do edits (occasionally), cannot draw for the life of me and love love love sebaciel with a passion with an incline to sub bottom sebs (he's just so babygirl to me, i'm sorry).

RESOURCES FOR FIC WRITERS: • what fics sebaciel nation like to see | how to avoid writing sebaciel too ooc | more coming soon

MY FICS*: Stained Wedding Sheets | Saccharin To Dulcin (sequel to SWS) | more coming soon

*i only write adult!ciel, sorgy i respect everyone's tastes but i just can't write underage sex fics w/o having a mental crisis (unless it's like 16+ which is the uk age of consent)

Long Analysis Posts: KINDNESS IN KURO PT 1 & PT 2 (#KIK) | BOOK OF MURDER ARC ANALYSIS | GENDER FLUIDITY OF SEBACIEL IN KURO (my reblog) | SEBACIEL: HOW THE LIE BECAME TRUTH (CARE&CHOICE) (honorary kindness in kuro pt3) | SEBASTIAN IS A JINN | MORE COMING SOON

tags listed below

as promised, tags to navigate through the swamp this blog will become:

#symuses - for all my random little thoughts, fic/au ideas, hcs etc

#syanalyses - for when i read the manga for the trillionth time

#sywrites - for when/if i post fanfics

#sybitches - for when i complain

#syshitposts - for shitposts (obviously)

#syedits - if i do any manga editing (rare)

#sydraws - won't happen but just in case (extra rare!!)

alternative links:

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#syanalyses

#sywrites

#sybitches

#syshitposts

#syedits

#sydraws

[houseofchalamet]

i'm trying to fight the second one but THE VOICES-

[hasello]

man, I gotta draw ladies more… 😌 anyway - have some undertale doodles!

[watch out, some suggestive art below the „read more” - nothing graphic, but still!]

[inkskinned]

before you know about women, you hear that you do not need to love the man, just that you need to love him through his manhood. which is to say you have seen the future painted in lamb's blood over your eyes - how your mother shoots you a look about your father's inability to cook right. how your aunt holds her wineglass and says i'm gonna kill em. men, right! how your best friend bickers with her boyfriend, how she says i can't help it. i come back to him.

you learn: men are gonna cheat. men aren't going to listen when you're talking, because you're nagging. men think emotions are stupid. they think your life is vapid and your hobbies are embarrassing. men will slam things, but that's because men are allowed to be angry. if you get loud, you're hysterical. if a man gets loud - well, men are animals, men are dogs, men can't control their hands or their eyes or their bodies. they're going to make a snide comment about you in the locker room, about your body, about how you're so fucking annoying. you're going to give him kids, and he will give you the money for the kids, and you're going to be running the house 24/7 - but he gets to relax after a long day, because his job is stressful. the man is on stage, and is a comedian, and says "women!"

and you are supposed to love that. you are supposed to love men through how horrible they are to you - because that's what women do. that's what good women do. wife material. your father even told you once - it'll make sense when you're older. it was like staring down a very lonely tunnel.

it feels like something's caught in your throat, but it's all you know, so. it's okay that you see sex as a necessary tool, a sort of okay-enough ritual to keep him happy, even though he doesn't seem to care about happiness as-applied-to you. it is relationship upkeep. it is kissing him and smiling even though he didn't brush his teeth. it is getting on your knees and looking up and holding back a sigh because he barely holds you as you panic through the night. it's not like the sex is bad and you do like feeling wanted. and besides! he's a man! like... they're another species. you'll never be able to actually communicate, right. he isn't listening.

you just don't get it. you don't feel that sense of i'm gonna climb him like a tree. mostly it just feels fucking exhausting. you play the part perfectly. you smile and nod and are "effortlessly" charming. and it's fine! it's alright! you even love him, if you're looking. you could have good life, and a good family, and perfectly happy.

in the late night you google: am i broken. you google i'm not attracted to my husband. you google i get turned on by books but not by him. you google how to get better in bed.

the first time he yells at you, it almost feels like blankness. like - of course this is happening. this is always how it was going to end up. men get angry, and they yell, and you sit there in silence.

you mention it to your friend - just the once - while you're drunk. she shrugs and says it's like that with me too, i just try to forget and move on. men are always gonna hear what they want to. pick your battles and say sorry even though he's in the wrong. you play solitaire online for a month. you go to your therapist appointment and preach about how you're both so in love.

after all, you have a future to want. nobody lied about it - how many instagram posts say marriage is hard. say real love takes work. say we fight like cats and dogs but the best part is that we always make up. how many of your friends say happy anniversary to the best and worst thing to ever happen to me. if you really loved him - loved yourself too - you'd accept that men are just different from you.

the first time she kisses you, it's on a dare at a party. something large and terrifying whips through your body. you wake up sweating from dreams where her mouth is encrusted with pearls and you pick them off one by one with your teeth. fuck. you sit at the computer and your almost-finished game of sim city. you think about your potential perfect life and your potential future family. you google am i gay quiz with your little hands shaking.

you delete each letter slowly. you don't need to love him. you just need to keep going.

[viirtuoso-in-bloom]

hello lmk fandom can i come in?

[galaxygermdraws]

I GOT ANOTHER ONE BABY! This time it's a bit different, as Peach's outfit doesn't change as much, in fact most of her design doesn't change outside of her staining due to TTYD and the scars from SPM. I don't have many notes but her eyes do glow when she's using her magic, and the star marking on her hand ALSO glows. The present day outfit is based on Peachette's outfit because I like it, and it's just a lot cuter than the canon Peach dress I'm sorry.

(reblogs with tags/comments are appreciated. You can ask me about my HCs if you want. Thankyu)

[slightly-gay-pogohammer]

Okay, let's do some Tumbling!

[takaraphoenix]

Absolutely in love with the fact that the "Stiles Stilinski is Part of the Pack" tag automatically redirects to the "Stiles Stilinski is Part of Derek Hale's Pack" tag.

Because. That's not what that tag, with that phrasing, HAS to mean. The Pack could refer to... ya know... the canon pack he's a part of, in that "reassurance of sticking to canon" way that isn't even rare on AO3.

But no. Nope. AO3 knows what pack we're talking about. And it delights me.

[ria-starstruck]

and also "putting everyone in a simulation will make it all ok 👍" and also "let's park next to this random system's sun" and also "we can't live on our own planet because of our own folly" and so on

[jez-bez]

When rewatching parts of episode one, I came across this serious comment from Rome that has such depth to it that we might find out more about tomorrow in episode 3 (I hope).

HEAVY TBNW NOVEL SPOILERS UNDER THE CUT:

In the novel, we find out that Cir lied to Phu. He isn't from a parallel universe. The other universe never existed, because Cir made it all up. Now, I know that is bad. I know that makes Cir a liar and a stalker, but I can excuse him for it because he has a very good reason for doing what he did.

After Phu finds out Cir lied, he avoids/ignores Cir for his life. He's upset, and rightfully so! Cir on the other hand, cannot stand it. He needs Phu to hear him out, needs to explain himself. So he records an apology video for Phu to watch. (gods, the last time I hurt while reading a book is years ago, ffs reading all this hurt)

"I might have lied to you, but one thing I never lied about… is that I love you, Phukan."

Cirrus' trauma strikes deep. While it isn't mentioned or said explicitly, I think Cir might have been passively suicidal. I say this because in his apology Cir explains;

"You might not remember, but do you know you saved my life? You made me want to have my own life."

You made me want to have my own life.

"I told you before my life was empty. I was a tool in my parents' revenge. I had no freedom, no thoughts of my own […] "

Back in the present, in the hospital room before Cir wakes up, Rome says "I'm just afraid he (Cir) might not want to live anymore," and I think, if Cir had never found Phu, this would have been correct.

As someone who was passively suicidal from early teens until early twenties, I one hundred percent believe that if Cir never found Phu, he would at some point (maybe not now, maybe way later in life) have gone full robot and lived his life on automatic pilot, dissociated from himself to the point that he doesn't even know what he's doing anymore. That would not be living. That isn't living. That is enduring. I can fully imagine that if Cir had stayed the 'Ice Prince', emotionless and a robot, he would've killed himself without actually realizing that he did it.

So, is Cir stalking Phu bad and a red flag? Yes. Is Cir lying and misleading Phu bad and cowardly? Yes.

But because he never touched Phu, never hurt him, never made him uncomfortable but admired from afar, kept himself alive purely because of Phu, I can excuse him.

Cir did what he had to do to stay alive, to find himself and to break free from his mother's control. He could've gone about it differently, yes, but for a boy (because he was just a boy) who never knew love, he tried his best.

Anyway, my point is. Rome is right to fear Cir not wanting to live, because up until he met Phu, Cir didn't have anything to live for.

[angelpuns]

Leo going through the horrors but the horrors are just that he had a shitt day and no one bothered to save him any cookies :/

[sixerstanley]

It has come to my attention that some people are.............shipping Stan and Ford........romantically😔....................stay safe out there guys....

as we all know incest shippers will crawl out of their holes in the ground and start chasing people going, "I'M GONNA GETCHA!!!" with incest fanart....stay safe 🙏

[incorrect-agatha]

Alice: Be careful, that plate is hot.

Agatha: I am Agatha Harkness, a covenless witch, the infamous witch killer, survivor of the Witches’ Road, and the only person Death herself ever loved. I am the most powerful witch to ever exist. Fire can’t hurt me.

Agatha, picking up the plate: Ah shit that's hot.

[soapyakships]

When it comes to romance I can be a "well they could just be friends" kind of person (probably due to the aromanticism) but the new MizuEna cards are so romance coded that reading it any other way feels wrong. The matching outfits... the rings... the love they have for each other is as clear as day !!!!

[peppermint-whiskers]

HI YES I HAVE CHAPTER 1 DONE-

General warnings for Sera being a jerk uwu And angst

This is your Official Angst Warning

@emositecc and I officially welcome you to ANGST-

(au premise)

[sundial-bee-scribbles]

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