#i wanted this info to be easier to find all-together on tumblr

[gay-spock]

here’s a compilation of why rick berman of star trek fame could have ruined the franchise with his bigotry, thanks to @/thisismewhatevs on twitter:

- rick berman is usually cited by writers as the main reason gay characters were not allowed on screen in TNG/VOY/DS9/ENT even though gene roddenberry specifically wanted gay representation in the 1980s

- notably, he is responsible for demanding female actors be "sexed up" in various ways including jeri ryan's catsuit and padding terry farell's breasts

- when terry farell asked for a reduced contract similar to those of her male costars, she was fired, leading to the sudden death of jadzia dax

- with seven of nine's catsuit, not only was it berman's idea to make her "born sexy yesterday" her original costume pinched her neck so much she kept passing out. rather than change it, berman brought in nurses to administer oxygen between takes

- berman would continually comment on the appearance of female actors to the point that marina sirtis developed an eating disorder. sirtis also mentions how tight her corset and how large her breast padding was under her "uniform"

- berman was left in charge of trek because he was in the right place when roddenberry got sick. He had no experience with scifi previously and didn't really believe in roddenberry's vision of the future:

- In addition to being a dick to denise crosby after pushing her out, he's also the reason for wil wheaton was kicked out for similar contact negotiation as terry farrell

- harry kim was never promoted from ensign since berman hated his actor, garrett wang, according to him

- enterprise was a step backwards in a lot of ways because berman had far more creative control (seasons 1-3) and took a much more hands on writing role. here's t'pol actor jolene blalock discussing his sexualization of her

- as DS9 went on, garak and bashir spent less time together and garak was given zyial as an incredibly gross love interest because andy robinson's portrayal as queer coded made berman uncomfortable

- despite the "equality" promoted on the show, berman hired very few female writers, with less than 30% of episodes having even one female writer during his time

- “Rick Berman is not the only asshole to have worked on Star Trek and he is not the reason for every bad choice from TNG-ENT. However HE WAS the executive producers and show runner in charge of production so much of the sins of that time lie at his feet. When people get confused about how some people seem to "misunderstand" the point of Star Trek and don't know how they can watch/enjoy the "progressive" nature of the show and be such vile sexists and racists, this is how. They let a sexist asshole run the show for three decades. On screen representation is important. It's amazing for people to see themselves in such a hopeful future, but the behind the scenes matters just as much if not more than who is in front of the camera. Representation without responsible storytelling is a tragedy.“ -Deep Space Fine on twitter

this is not to say that TNG/DS9/VOY/ENT are bad shows, or that they shouldn’t be watched, or anything else; but that understanding why these awful choices were made behind the scenes in depicting a “progressive” future. rick berman didn’t agree with this future because he didn’t want others who weren’t white, cis, straight men like him to benefit in the ways he did.

[crownedinmarigolds]

Hello everyone! With help from @auspex, we are putting together the first Tumblr of Darkness Secret Santa event! This event is where artists may come together, submit their World of Darkness OCs, and we can all draw and exchange gifts with one another! Just a little fun to remind one another that we're a great community!

How to Participate: There is indeed a limited amount of time to sign up to make sure everyone has a fair chance! Applications are open 11.04.2024 and will be kept open until Monday 11.11.2024. - You will be submitting your World of Darkness original characters and link their reference materials so that another artist may draw them! Please make sure you have a link that someone may have open access to. This can be a Google Drive folder, your art tag on a social media, etc.  If you make a Google Drive, make sure your Secret Santa does not have to request access and spoil the surprise. In short, just make sure it's easy for your future gifter to look through! Please don't make it a treasure hunt to find out info on your character just to make things easier. When the applications close, we will then put all participants' names into a randomizer to assign everyone their Secret Santa! Auspex and I will make sure to notify you all as soon as possible as well as provide the reference links so that you can have as much time needed to get the artwork finished. You may go as crazy or mild as you like, but just be aware that artists of ALL skill levels are invited to join! Do not be deterred if you feel like you can't draw - that is the devil talking! Every work of art you make is amazing and any gift with heart behind it is wonderful. - For this year, we asks that the gifts remain art-only. Any medium is fine (digital or traditional) but writing, playlists, mood boards, or anything else won't be accepted. Those things are great, and maybe in the future that could be another exchange, but for simplicity's sake - keep it to art, please. If you want to add mood boards or playlists or write ups as little bonuses to your art - that is entirely up to you! - Please remember these works of art are gifts. This exchange is a community event where everyone is free to participate and share in the spirit of giving during this holiday season. Do not feel bad if you feel like you are not drawing as "well" as somebody else, and please do not make others feel bad if you feel like they're not reaching your standards. This is meant to be fun and for everyone who wants to try! We plan to notify everyone within the next day or two after closing applications, and you will have until 12.20.2024 to draw and submit your works back to Auspex and I so that we may send them to their intended recipient! If you know the person you have and would like to share early, we understand, but please if you would keep it off of Tumblr until the event is concluded just so everyone can be surprised! Once the event is over, have at it and post away! - Please respect the time and effort everyone is putting in! If you feel like something has come up and you won't be able to finish or participate after applying - that is fine. Just let us know as early as possible so that we can either inform your gift recipient or take you off the list.

You will find the application here: https://forms.gle/9VTyd4FsyENwjR4B6

For any questions or concerns, please feel free to reach out to me (crownedinmarigolds) either on Tumblr or through my email - ladyofsilks@gmail.com. You may also reach out to auspex on Tumblr as well in case I'm unavailable! Thank you all for being a community I love and and I hope we have lots of fun trying this out!

Please reblog so all of the community may see and get to join in!

[lil-liaa]

𝓛𝓮𝓪𝓻𝓷 with 𝐋𝐢𝐚!! ♡

2,000 𝒔𝒑𝒆𝒄𝒊𝒂𝒍 followers ♡⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖ ࣪

Hi!! It's Liaa and if you don't know me i'm a kpop mbd creator i'm not sooo old or recent, but I do have some notable tips that I can give you if you need a push to improve (or start creating) your moodboards based on my criteria and experience ♡ bonus at the end!

Before you r e a d this : This guide is not a rule! You don't have to apply all the tips, feel free to apply them depending on your own style and taste.

In choosing the image on which the mb is based I want to separate them into 3 levels

Easy: An image that has common and striking colors that you can find popular aesthetics - easy to combine, harmony in colors etc!

Not so difficult: an image that has one or more not so popular colors,a background or image a little more complete, with aesthetics not so seen or visual

Difficult: The image has a color filter (dying) It has extra decoration or accessories, it has a specific bright (or duller) color (it means in any case that any image to combine will have to be edited to get the exact color)

Not everything is as difficult as I describe it! Getting started tips to make it much easierrr

# 𝐓𝐈𝐏 𝟏 : ¿Where to find?

Ways to find the aesthetic you are looking for!

Searches on Pinterest

Color + color aesthetic

Color- X Soft X Bright X Palid X Dark

Object - Subject-Color-Animal-Place-Serie/movie-country- Aesthetic

𝓐𝓮𝓼𝓽𝓱𝓮𝓽𝓲𝓬𝓼 that you may be 𝐥👀𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠 for

I recommend this website that, apart from showing you many aesthetics, tells you the story of how it came about and more info!

Click to "Find aesthetic"

# 𝐓𝐈𝐏 𝟐 : ¿How to decorate it?

1. Collages on PICSART cute and easy♡ Make sure that the images complement each other from one side to the other so that there is balance and very importantly give it a center image!

2. Dividers You can make them yourself (On PICSART again) or find them here on tumblr!

I also have my own dividers if you want to check them out ദ്ദി ˉ͈̀꒳ˉ͈́ )✧

3. Gifs I always move the images a little to make it more striking! (you can do it in capcut and create the gif here on tumblr♡) another tutorial of example gif here

4. Texts! separate the angles you can always put a poem or some lyric music! (To add color to the text I have a tutorial here) You can always add "bios", symbols or kaoemojis since they are closely linked to the aesthetics in the texts

5.Pngs: It's very cutee and also gives an extra resource ((I don't use it as much as before but it can work well on quite a few mbds) I would recommend putting it in the middle

# 𝐓𝐈𝐏 𝟑 : ¿How to combine images? (My way to do it!)

Taking into account the general color palette, look at the image and check if the most prominent colors are warm or cold (including the background will be very useful) this way it will be easier for you to combine the tones without really having to find the exact color of the image! It will make it look much better.

# 𝐓𝐈𝐏 𝟒 : Center and sides

Keep in mind the center of your moodboard! As it is still a square (think like it's a painting) you can have more balance if you put certain colors or certain photos on one side or the other and put the main photo (or a collage) in the middle! So that it harmonizes and draws more attention.

# 𝐓𝐈𝐏 𝟓 : Tonal degrees

Always keep in mind what tonal degree the color of the photo has. Depending on that, you can look for images with the same tonality! As I already mentioned, if it is more opaque or stronger or brighter, it makes it much easier to identify a better combination.

# 𝐓𝐈𝐏 𝟔 : Combination

At first glance, you might be able to identify the most prominent colors in a photo, but taking into account color theory, the color of that photo only exists when it is contrasted by another, that is, based on the combination of colors with each other.

So when choosing photos to match, look for the two colors together in the photo to give a more similar impression even if the colors are not exact (In any case, you can also edit the color of images that have the same tone as your photo by changing the image and the difference would not be noticeable)

# 𝐓𝐈𝐏 𝟕 : More ways to apply aesthetics . . .

Related objects: depending on the image, there are also usually certain objects that can be related to the aesthetics of the photo. You can always add details with reference to the aesthetics that, without necessarily matching the photo, can look good.

Angles and sizes: Looking at the reference photo we can find photos that have the same dimensions as this one will make it look pretty good and make sense to put together

Requirements for adding a photo: to make it easier to combine you can write down things to keep in mind so that they combine, for example:

1.Color and Color palette

2.Size, shapes and angles

3.Common objects

4.Balancing abundance (for example if a photo has a lot of details, you have to find similar ones and at the same time find photos that have less details to give it a better impression.)

# 𝐓𝐈𝐏 𝟖 : Your own Style and have fun!

Don't rush into having your own style, eventually your mbds will be guided by your tastes and then you will have your own stamp unconsciously so don't rush!

Have fun and take your time making mbds, that's the secret formula to making a good moodboard♡

𝓑𝓸𝓷𝓾𝓼 𝐁𝐎𝐍𝐔𝐒𝓑𝓸𝓷𝓾𝓼

Match Technique 💋🎀: My painful technique for making everything match so well comes from my perfectionism and I'll tell you what I do,sometimes the photos match each other perfectly (which is perfectly fine lol if you want you can leave it like that) but to make sure.. what I do is separate each of the images and compare them to each other to see the contrast and thus realize if they really match.

Searching: ¿How did we get to the final result? There will always be many times in sex where you simply won't like the result, I always recommend having at least two stages when looking for a good result.

This requires quite a bit of experimentation.

Stage 1 "Draft" : Where you look for the basis of what you want

Stage 2 "Improvements" : You look for the parts that don't fit and why.

Stage 3 "Details": The finishing touches!

𝐓𝐲𝐬𝐦 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐑𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐢𝐧𝐠! These are my own techniques and I know that probably not everyone puts so much science into this but I hope I have helped you improve certain things 💕 xoxo

(English is not my first language, I would really appreciate it if you could tell me to correct any mistakes!)

[batwynn]

Hello. So I have a genuine, honest question as someone who isn't an artist. I saw you made a post about AI art floating around Tumblr lately. How does one differentiate between AI-created art vs. ACTUAL art? Some things have been easier to notice than others (ie: YouTube videos and like, moodboards and the opening to Secret Invasions) but for art specifically, are there any key things to look out for that make it obvious it's AI generated? I do not support AI in any fashion but in this day and age I do find it increasingly more difficult to tell the difference between something that was created by AI vs. created by an actual person.

Hi anon! So, heads up this might be a bit long of a post but I wanted to point out some things that I don't see frequently mentioned in other posts about A.I stuff.

First things first: Look at their other 'art' pieces. If they have a generally consistent style, a consistent type of work (Realism vs ink art for example), characters you see more than once and from different angles, character sheets, etc. You're going to notice if someone suddenly switches from little ink doodles to fully colored and realistically rendered 'art'. Now, this doesn't mean everyone switching styles or mediums is A.I, but it means to take a closer look if you notice something vastly different than their usual stuff. More A.I. clues below!

For things to look for, there's a lot of different clues but generally you're going to notice a certain new car shine to everything. Everything will be a little too clean, even if the style they are ripping off is sketchy. Sketches will have crosshatching that doesn't really make sense or random lines in a place that an artist probably would not put there. That being said, here's some examples where that isn't as noticeable:

Here you've got your usual body/anatomy problems. (Plus some elements I'll talk about later as well. This one's got it all!)

Glitchy foot, glitchy hands. glitchy eyes. Strange proportions for legs that don't exactly fit a stylization, but more of an glitch. Now, of course an artist can draw 'glitchy' things like this either by accident or intentionally, but you really only see these types of things in A.I vs actual art of a similar style. Realism artists are generally not adding extra fingers or varying sized fingers, they're not rendering the foot to only have too many toes, missing toes, and the foot also... sort of part shoe. Unless art artist is otherwise intentionally including these elements, it's generally a clear cut example of A.I stuff. (For example: Different body types and disabilities exist, and there are people with different shaped hands, shorter/longer fingers etc. But you will also usually find some kind of info with the post about the person/character that will tell you about them that can clue you in on if it's A.I vs real art.) If the artists are drawing in a style with 'exaggerated' anatomy, you can almost always see that as a persistent and intentional STYLE in their art. If they aren't, this is something you'll really notice in A.I vs realism. It can be especially true with people who fully render realistic art because it's not in line with the style, and the relevant elements of rendering art this way. Artists who do realistic rendering at this level generally know their anatomy very well, and are going for realism in all elements of the art. Some stuff like the exaggerated long legs in women are kind of everywhere, but the hands, the foot, the lopsided winky eyes (I don't know how to describe it) are not things a professional artist rendering realistic art would generally do. It's just not in line with the style, or the ability/skill that the artist has worked on. (Again, unless completely intentionally and in line with the person/character.)

For 'real' life items like the tables below, you've really just got to ask yourself: Is this physically possible? Do all the elements make sense and actually work together in a real way?

Sometime it's hard to know if you don't have any experience with, for example, acrylic and wood table making. But there are things that just don't work in real life, and there are things that maybe someone can do, but even in the provided examples it just doesn't make sense to do. For example, the little 'tree' hanging from the bottom of the left table. Would that be possible? Probably. Would someone do that? Probably not. If you're really stumped, sometimes just looking up videos of people making that type of thing can give you a better idea of what actually works together, how it's made, etc.

Here's something that really helps when you're really struggling and zooming in for every detail: TANGENTS

Ok, so tangents in art are when you're drawing a thing, like hair, and it's lining up with a different object to the point where the visual line continues from one part of art to another and it looks really unrealistic/weird. Most artists figure out how to avoid this on their own just from noticing it and feeling uncomfortable with how it looks, while others learn via the internet etc. It can happen in anyone's art at any skill level, but the amount that it happens in A.I stuff is HUGE. It's almost every single image, and you can really notice it in places where something overlaps like hair or, from the above image with the money: there's two bills that just kind of bleed together. From the same image, you can also see how her hair bleeds into the wrinkles of her jacket in an unnatural way. Comparatively, you can see in the Hela art I did below that there are overlapping elements like the hair and the ribbons behind it that do not mesh or bleed together.

Something else to look at: Symmetrical elements that don't work right. So, this is kind of getting harder to see depending on what they're generating as a subject matter and the style they are using. As always, there is a disclaimer for this. Art does not always have perfect symmetrical elements in it.

For example: in the real world, this dude's coat would have more clean symmetrical elements. As it is a sketchy doodle, they're there but they're not 100% symmetrical. With a LOT of A.I stuff, you'll notice that something meant to be mirrored on the other side of the clothing, room design, etc. is actually completly wonky/incorrect or not even there at all.

For example, in this A.I we have missmatching elements on both sides. Not only in things that could be designed to be asymmetrical, but also things that 100% should be mirrored. The left side under the buckle on the shoulder has a diamond shape. The right has a weird spikey thing. The little leaf pattern on the gold lapel area appears to be just blobs on the right side. The left shoulder area has a button and additional little detail under the buckle area. It is not there on the right side. And, again, some of this can be intentional with real art. Her arm bands could be intentionally different, for example. But elements that clearly should be reflected on the other side and are very clearly not are generally a good clue that it's A.I. A few last moment things to look out for:

Styles that are recognizable someone else's whole thing. Example: The monstrosity that someone just generated that is supposedly Calvin and Hobbs. It's pretty easy to tell because it looks like shit right now, but generally if someone is ripping off a distinct style of someone famous, it's probably A.I or at least worth double checking.

Did they suddenly start doing ______? This could be anything, backgrounds, drawing horses, full color, etc. But if they're suddenly, overnight just BOOM they're 'drawing' in a whole other style, it's suddenly really rendered, and/or there's no 'growing pains'/work shown that they've started working on drawing the thing they never drew before... It's time to take a closer look. Last but not least, look for the language they use around the stuff they're putting out. A.I people are often... a certain type. They use a lot of that NFT bro lingo that can tip you off. The tags might be all over the place for styles, or tagging certain famous artist's styles, etc. They also can be a bit more blatant in the tags and just outright tag A.I or NFTs somewhere in there. And, in the end, if you really can't tell and you really love the thing and want to share it: Ask an artist. Or just don't share it.

Thanks for reading, and I hope this is helpful in some way!

[formulapookie]

ok, so i keep seeing stuff and tbh, it puts me off but i want to give benefit of the doubt.

so. where would YOU have me start on learning how moto gp works. i don't mean shipping. i will go left field with that shit myself, hell, i'm out here in my georgenando canoe. but understanding the sport.

you know, stuck here between should not have to give reasons and fuck it. bestie has bikes. i've watched some stuff. i find it very interesting. i'm not here bc f1 soley. but any time i've watched there is just so much to take in? when i got into f1 i had my friend on msn explaining. holding my hand if you will.

also yes i'm prepared to be labelled a glory hunter as i am inevitably drawn towards the small spanish war criminal. i have a type.

so do you have a primer? links? any news articles that really break it down?

ok so.

I personally got into MotoGP through my best friend who didn't explain a lot to me, just told me to try and get it (he's bad at explaining things)

I tried to read about it on wikipedia first, just to get a general idea of the sport and you know, teams and riders.

I think I can break something down for you, but it's mainly the structure of the sport itself rather than it's story, for that you can ask or read @muxas-world blog because that's where I at first got infos here on tumblr.

SO.

The weekend is structured on three days like F1, we got one Free Practice on Friday and then a Pre-Qualifying session called Practice in which the ten fastest gain direct access to Q2 on Saturday.

Saturday has another round of Free Practice and then Quali, divided in Q1 where the riders out the top ten on the previous day fight for the first two position to access Q2 with the other ten, then it's down to the fastest. After this there's ALWAYS the sprint, unless particularly strange scenarios (extreme weather) and it gives circa half the points of a normal race, it's fully valid for the championship and it DOESN'T determine the day after's grid, it stays the same as the first one.

On Sunday we race. There's no mandatory pit stops in MotoGP, unless it's raining and riders gotta switch to a wet bike, which is very funny cause you see these crazy guys hopping from a bike to another and try to regain positions.

Teams can have wildcards during the season, meaning riders (usually test riders) who replace one of the two official riders for an ENTIRE WEEKEND, not like F1 where it's usually just FP1, and this year they changed rules so that only certain teams can have wildcards, Ducati is completely excluded by it because they're 4 teams combined (as in Ducati gives engine to 4 teams: Ducati Lenovo and Pramac which use a 2024 bike, Gresini and VR46 which use a 2023 bike) and honeslty there was another reason but I currently am fighting sleep to answer you and can't remember

Points are assigned from the 1st to the 15th place, one additional point for the fast lap.

Tows, crashes and show are much more likely to be than in F1, especially crashes are far more frequent, obviously not cause riders are bad, but because it's easier to loose a bike going 360km/h ratehr than a car at that same speed.

Also, here Moto2 and Moto3 hold a higher value than F2 and F3 do in the Formula 1 concept of it all, championships won in those classes ARE COUNTED as championships, so Vale for example, a 9 time World Champion IS NOT 9 times MotoGP world champion, 9 in the championship won together in MotoGP and what back then was 125/250cc (currently Moto 3 and 2, actually with even more cc)

It's important to watch these series cause they really give you and insight on A. how actually crazy these guys are B. how many talents there are out there

sorry I can't really tell you more cause if you wan the history of the sport i'm not the one to talk you well about it, but I hope I helped, also sorry if I don't include links but I don't really know where to get real infos, I just learnt here on tumblr, I recommend you do the same :)

[proton-wobbler]

Main Brackets!

There are four brackets [Fave, Pretty, True, Four] comprising of 32 birds, for a total of 128 birds in this poll! I will reblog a version of this post with every bird listed via text within their bracket, so it is easier to find for those with image issues. It's gonna take a while to actually put the posts together for the first round, seeing as there are 64 battles happening, so expect the polls to go up around July 12th.

Below is a link for submitting any cool facts or info about the birds you want to win. It's not necessary to send info here, but I like to give the option to infodump about birds, and it helps with keeping things organized.

As per tumblr etiquette, you are totally free to reblog the polls themselves with as much propoganda as you want. These submissions are just to help me fill the poll post with some cool facts.

EDIT: for mobile users, this post has all the tags for the round 1 brackets, in place of having another masterpost. Everything is tagged with #Hipster Bird Main Bracket or its corresponding #Bracket: TYPE A style tag. Once we move on there shall be a new post.

[larry-hiatus]

How to Keep Fic Fests Organized

A lot of us love writing for fic fests, but when we join multiple at once, it can get a little overwhelming! Here are some tips are tricks I use to make things a bit more manageable! (I write fan fiction for One Direction, but most of these tips can be helpful for any fest!) (AND some of these tips can come in handy for organizing multiple WIPs even if they aren’t for fests!)

I hope you find this list useful!

Follow @1dficfests

This blog keeps track of everything fest related, including deadlines, upcoming fests, and which fests are open for prompts or signups! There is a running list of fest info in the pinned post, and they also reblog important posts from fest blogs.

Make a draft of fest blogs

One thing I just came up with that's super helpful is making a Tumblr draft and tagging the fest blogs that I want to be able to quickly get to. That way, whenever I want to double check a schedule, ask a question, or check on anything else, I can just go to my drafts where the URL is right there and I don’t have to remember it or hunt it down.

Use a countdown app

This has been a lifesaver for me. I keep track of when fics are due, when signups for future fests open, when submitted fics are due to post, any fest related dates! There are lots of countdown apps, but this is the one that I use:

Use a to-do list app

This is great for keeping track of the different steps to writing a fic, and I’ll sometimes also use it for WIPs that are not part of a fest. The app that I use is great because you can have tasks within tasks, so under “start writing,” I can check off when I finish chapter 1, chapter 2, etc. You can also use this feature to check off scenes from your outline! But there are many to-do apps out there, and they all have different features that might be helpful to you!

Make a Discord server for your fics

I haven’t started actually using this technique yet, but it definitely has potential! I set up a server just for me to keep track of fics. Each category is a different fic, and each category has different channels related to that fic. In the photos are some of the categories that I chose, but the possibilities are endless. You could have channels for different characters, places, scenes, all kinds of stuff! You can also make a category for writing resources, tips and tricks, lists of betas, and anything else writing related! In the second pic below, I made a category with channels for the fest I am running, so this tip isn't limited to just fests you join!

Create a due-date calendar

This is great if you like to see schedules visually. I like to put together a calendar and highlight due dates so that I can quickly see how many fics I have due in a month. Sometimes I’ll also throw in the dates that I have fics scheduled to be posted. For this one, I found a picture of a calendar on Google and used the app Phonto to add everything, but there are lots of picture editing programs where you could do this.

Create a schedule calendar

This one feels funny to include because I didn't really end up utilizing it, but maybe it will help someone else! When I was trying to finish five fics in seven weeks, I put together a schedule to help organize my time and when I wanted to work on which fics. I chose to organize it into separate chunks per fic, but you could do a different fic every day or adapt it in a different way that works for you!

So that's all my tips and tricks! I hope you are able to try some of these and make things a bit easier for yourself so that we can continue to enjoy writing! Thanks for reading, and if you could give this post a reblog, that would be awesome!

[multiplicity-positivity]

Sorry if this ask gets broken or send more than once, tumblr likes to crash on my phone a lot oops!

Anyhoo, any advice for creating a headmate?

We're a traumagenic system, so we never had any control over when we split new headmates. But I'm a fictive of someone who's a twin and I really miss my brother and would really really love it if he could join us in the headspace, I think he would really like my headmates and they would be very receptive of him <:) I talked to the others about it and they said they think its okay for me to try as long as we do so in a healthy way.

But I dont know how to split a new headmate in a healthy way. Im obviously not going to purposely put us through stress and/or trauma to encourage a traumagenic formation, that'd be unhealthy. BUT I dont know how to help form a headmate in a non-traumagenic way... Do you have any advice or tips? I know theres lots of ways to willingly form new headmates, but I dont really know how to utilize them.

Thank you so much in advance!!

Hi! This is pretty tricky, and in general we’d advise traumagenic systems to make sure they’re in a safe place/have made significant progress towards recovery before attempting to create a headmate. There’s a lot of ways something like this could go very wrong if proper care is not taken! That being said, you do know yourself and your system better than anyone else! So if you and your system believe attempting to create a headmate is the right thing to do and the best move for your system, we’re wishing you the best of luck, and have some resources we can share.

All of the best resources we’ve found so far we’ve compiled in our resources post for questioning systems.

That post ^ has a whole section for plurality that is non-dissociative disorder specific, with tons of links to guides and resources on how to go about creating a headmate. The paromancy (called “tulpamancy” in the links) guides are probably the most comprehensive, with tons of information on creating a paro/thoughtform, which is a type of nontraumagenic headmate.

Y’all might also find it easier and less high-stakes to visualize this person as an imaginary friend or an aspect of your headspace. Lots of systems have NPCs in their headspace which have limited autonomy, but aren’t actually full-fledged system members. You can visualize an NPC in the same way you visualize a setting or object as a part of a headspace - we have a little headspace primer which we’ll link below which might help if you choose to go this route!

If you start out with this potential headmate as an imaginary friend, and they ultimately start to feel like a part of the system, there’s a term for that! It’s called imagi, and you can read a bit more about it on Pluralpedia:

Hopefully this helps at least give you somewhat of a starting point! And if we may, a final word of caution:

Creating a headmate is a big deal. Often this is something that will last forever, and cannot be easily reversed. What is so so important to understand, is that once this headmate can think for themself and are afforded some autonomy and agency, they may make decisions or choose to be something that no one in your system ever would have anticipated.

This means thy may want to separate from their source. They may not act, look, or view themselves the way the twin from your source would have. They may not arrive with source memories, and may not see themselves as your twin at all. In many systems, headmates act and function as their own individuals, and feel happiest when they have their own agency and get to make choices about how they present and interact with the world. This means, there is a chance that any headmate you create won’t live up to the standards you’ve set for them beforehand. We’re not saying this sort of thing will happen 100%! But there definitely is a chance of this occurring, so it’s best to be prepared in case it does.

In the end, this is your choice and a choice to be made by your system! We just hope y’all are understanding the consequences of doing something like this, and know that no matter how you envision your new headmate at the beginning, there’s nothing certain that will keep them that way as they grow and develop on their own. We hope your potential new headmate will be understood, valued, and respected for who they are as they are, and not who others hoped for them to be!

Sorry this got so long! Good luck with everything! We hope this process goes as smoothly for you and your system as it can!

🌸 Margo and 👻 Ghost

[haevnlii]

how i make scripts aesthetic on google docs (on pc) <33

Part One - Images

! Due to Tumblr's 30 image limit, I'll have to make this in parts. This one revolves around how I sort pictures to make them look aesthetic or just more organised in my script. + I'm not the best at organising tutorials sometimes but I'm trying to not make this confusing <//3

Ignore any typos and errors, thankyou. If you need me to re-explain anything, please feel free to ask. I feel like I haven't explained properly but, idk what else to do, lol :,)

Page isn't broken, to avoid messing up the way images are organised.

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What do I use?

Other than Google Docs (obviously), — Fontspace | A background remover [my mains: 1, 2] | Pinterest/WeHeartIt/Google search, and other sources for pretty pictures, pngs, etc. 🤍🌙

bundling images

Using the different text wrapping options, I found that it helped a lot more to "bundle" images together, so that things look prettier + more organised.

! example

This is pretty simple, honestly; Fontspace provides font text as pictures, transparent bg and not, — so organising the text from it will fall under the tut for this bit.

^ These are the text wrapping options. The first one is the default and limits text placement/movement, the other four allow you to move text where-ever on the document (especially if print view is off) but each do different things.

In order of settings, examples (press images to see properly):

! tip : If you're bundling images that "overlap" too much, make sure to crop at least one (or however many needed) past its actual size so that it won't be a pain in the ass moving them later on.

- You may also use "behind text" for one of them, if it helps, so that it's easier to select the images, this also applies to using image over text (examples in each image).

what I mean:

Using these features, I'll—as per the aesthetic of my script—sort things accordingly. Get creative with the way you're doing this, and keep experimenting 'till you're able to make stuff look the way you want, lol.

"BuT DaRLIng wHaT Do I dO wItH ThIS iNFo??!?!?" bitch idk find an aesthetic 💀💀

like those 2016 fashion sticker books or smthn, idk- whatever u like-

Going into the aesthetics more ;; I usually pick diff aesthetics for each script and refuse to script until I find a pretty one LMFOAOAO- But I especially go for inspiration from (Korean?) bullet journal aesthetics which include lots of image bundling and customised tables.

Why korean ones specifically? Idk the difference, but using "Korean" as a keyword gets the stuff I'm looking for. 💀 But I also search for little pngs I want to add to my script; and if it's a false transparent png or has any background, I use my background removers to make it an actual transparent png.

And, sometimes, I like to search for colours then use my snip tool to screenshot them really thin, like those brown-beige borders you see in all my posts, then use them in my script like highlighter lines, like-

That's pretty much it, really.

! examples from two of my scripts

Fontspace fonts apply as well. One thing about Fontspace is that, you can change the colour of the text ;; as well as the background.

The brown colour is the text's colour, the blue one is the background's colour. You can of course choose to have no background, but it's there as an option.

I don't know of any features where you can save a colour but that's maybe me being dumb ;; but what I do is set a certain colour (i.e. blue) then use the colour adjustment in google docs to change it to black, red, or whatever over colours r in the script.

i.e.:

Anyways I'm p close to the image limit, so that's it for this post.

I hope this makes sense bc explaining this was harder than I thought. 💀💀 Once again I can clear anything up if needed

! tips

Keywords you can use for tiny decorations, are "clipart", "[aethetic name] clipart transparent png", "[aesthetic name] sticker png transparent", etc.

You can have a look at the aesthetics wiki for ideas for your script

Fotor is what I use to crop images into different shapes, and it is how I got the circle/heart shaped pictures in my documents ^-^*

...I'll add more when I remember them.

next up ··· customising tables ✿

[evilvarric666-archive]

Hey all!

I'm logging out! For at least two weeks, but possibly (likely) (very likely) longer, depending. There's a lot of reasons for this, but the primary ones are that my Very Cool job that I like a lot is taking up a lot of my time right now, and that I really really really want to change the relationship I have with social media, and with my phone in general (read: don't worry, I'm fine, this is a good thing!)

I have a little bit of a queue set up right now, and that will be running while I'm gone. When I do come back it will probably be on a different blog, but I'll post that here so people can find me.

Sorry to be sappy, but this blog, the people who have interacted with me on it, and in general just this little sliver of community I've had here has been really important to me. I don't know how I would've possibly done without this during 2020-2022. It was really great for my mental health, it kept me at least a little together, and made me feel less lonely. And that's why I don't intend to abandon Tumblr altogether, even though I definitely definitely definitely need a break!

(Also, to be clear, I'm specifically taking a Tumblr/social media break, and not as much an internet break in general? So mutuals (any mutual!) are free to ask for my discord, if they don't already have it (I'll log in here occasionally just to check dms, so I'll catch you if you message me there). I've not been very communicative on discord in the past, missing dms, ghosting servers almost as soon as I enter them (sorry) but I'm hoping to change that, and I think it will be easier for me once I've cut back on my opportunities to endlessly scroll. Part of what I mean by "changing my relationship to social media" is that I want to do much less of that (scrolling), and much more actual socializing. So seriously, ask for my other contact info if you even slightly want it! I'll email you if you don't discord! I don't care!)

Anyways! I hope you're all doing really well and that the new year is kind to you, see you soon.

[nightmare-dreamt]

Hi, I would like some matchups for Chainsaw Man, Attack on Titan, and Demon Slayer please. I’m male and straight so I would like female matchups.

I am 6’2, with auburn hair. I have brown eyes and I am quite skinny. I usually wear whatever is comfortable, preferably shorts and t shirt if the weather allows it.

Personality wise, I am very extroverted and friendly, striking up small talk with even strangers. I enjoy being in the spotlight and usually get attention through my dark humor, though I can be impulsive and make stupid decisions for the fun of it. One of my biggest issues is my inability to motivate myself.

I have some insecurities about myself, especially being weak and skinny, so I have been motivating myself to work out a lot more and help myself grow. Another healthy thing I love is swimming.

It’s not just swimming, I really enjoy water in general. Fishing, boating, swimming, diving, etc. I am an enthusiast and I am studying to become a marine biologist. With this it is a given that I hate winter.

I also spend a lot of my time online, whether it be scrolling tumblr, watching anime, or chatting with friends on discord. I still manage to keep up with my social life and stay active however, and get outside regularly.

I am a huge sucker for cuddles and I adore physical affection. I’m definitely a little spoon despite my height, and just enjoy the feeling of being held.

Thats about all the info I can think of, thanks in advance!

Chainsaw Man: Himeno

It was pretty strange how you met her, it was a typical day when the girl walked up with blood stained onto her clothing. You were waiting at a crosswalk silently staring at Himeno who didn't look fazed at all when everyone's eyes were on her, she simply stood waiting for the sign to cross. She felt all of the eyes, but one was strong, she looked down meeting your brown eyes that quickly tried to stare at something else.

"You it's not good to stare," She said in a joking tone, bringing a smirk on her face. You nodded, "Sorry."

Walking home, the two of you realized that you both lived in the same apartment… right next door to each other. It was awkward at first with the blood incident, but within time the two of you grew close and soon the two of you were in a relationship.

Affection is a must in this relationship. Himeno would definitely be the big spoon, enjoying the feeling of her arms around your form, it calms her down knowing you're safe and out of harm. Out in public, Himeno isn't afraid to hold your hand or to walk extremely close, she doesn't mind the eyes from others since it's just the two of you and she can feel herself around you.

Attack on Titan: Annie

Working out with Annie can be intense, but she'll always be there to support and help whenever needed. She's like a private trainer that makes sure you're working out the right muscle and doing everything right. After working out, when the two of you are tired, she'll just want to cuddle and rest for the rest of the day.

Beach dates are a must between the two of you. Annie enjoys the water as well and the two of you are constantly planning beach dates together. You guys spend most of the time in the water, splashing around at each other. Near the end of the day, the two of you walk along the shore enjoying the sun setting in the distance over the water, enjoying the beautiful scenery.

"Look at the sun, it's beautiful," Annie mumbled, pointing at the sun that was setting in the orange and pink sky. You nodded, staring at the blonde instead, "Yea, it is."

Demon Slayer: Shinobu Kocho

Supportive girlfriend unlocked. When hearing about your career path, Shinbo is immediately on board supporting anything that you choose to do. She's also there if you need help with anything. finding ways to make things easier for you as you pursue your career.

Aquarium dates are the best with her, before going out on the date she would learn various facts about some of the fish, pointing at specific ones and telling something about them. Her favorite is a stingray loving how the creature looks, enjoying all of the unique patterns and colors.

Her favorite thing to do is steal your clothes and wear them. Preferably your shirts that are way to big on her. You could come home and find her doing something with one of your shirts acting as if nothing was wrong, It gets to a point where the two of you share a closet now and most of your things are gone from her taking them.

"Hey have you seen my new shirt? I can't seem to find it anywhere?" You asked. Shinbu turned around, shrugging her shoulders with the shirt you were talking about on, "I haven't seen it."

[nrth-wind]

A proper update with the right formatting! How exciting! Hello, everyone! I am so, so sorry for my absence these last few months! My health has been on a rather wild push and pull kinda swing, and there's been a pretty steady string of bad or worse symptoms affecting me, so between brain fog, pain, exhaustion, and just plain full-time job life business, I've been struggling to find time or spoons to make it on here! That said, that's just an explanation, and is not an invitation for worry. I am okay! I am living day-to-day, and doing everything I can to be alright. There's forward movement and always hope. I wanted to log in really quick to say that I am not going to stay gone from tumblr! I am going to be MOLASSES TRICKLE slow, but I will be here as much as I possibly can, ESPECIALLY since October is coming up! For those who are familiar with my blog(s), you'll know that for the past three years, I have hosted month-long, annual Halloween RP Events on the dash, sort of like interactive ARGs for y'all to join in with and create a story with me! Those will still be going ahead as planned! You can expect to see some events for a small few muses of mine throughout the month of October, especially those marked as my main muses. I look forward to making an effort toward being here more often!! Now, you can read below if you'd like to find out other ways to RP with me besides tumblr, but if you've read this far, then I appreciate you, and I look forward to seeing you in the dash-o-sphere. Warmest regards, my friends, and always remember how valued you are. <3 Love, North

Hi there! Here's some bonus info!

Bonus the First: If you'd like speedy, near-daily responses from me, then please don't hesitate to ask me to RP on Discord. Discord is much, much easier for me given the accessibility and convenience, and the formatting options on mobile.

Unfortunately, tumblr mobile is not very conducive to how I prefer to format and write my RP responses, and I am very limited on how often I have the energy and time to log in on the desktop for tumblr these days.

If you're interested, then please reach out in a DM, and we can connect!

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Lastly, Bonus the Second: If you are a Leverage RP'er who has followed me recently, I HIGHLY encourage you to talk Discord RP with me, since I am trying to gather together a fully-casted RP server for Leverage! Presently, I am the only person there, and I would play Parker. I would LOVE to start getting this project off the ground, if you're interested! You are more than welcome to message me about this, if you're so inclined!

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We've made it to the end, now :3

Thank you all for reading! Much love! North <3

[maxs-deactivated]

Heya! Love your taste in f/os, truly impeccable. What fandoms do you have the most developed s/is for? I'm always interested in other people's self-inserts!

HEY OMG IT'S BEEN A WHILE

First of all: THANK YOU SO MUCH DARLING SFJJSKAKC. Second of all: I have sum s/i's but not all of them are very developed lol.

Well, I think the most obvious one (since this is my first s/i ever) is the undertale one, Maxwell. (He/they)

Their story isn't finished yet but what I can say ab them is that they is a half human/half monster (ghost), they don't really look like it tho. Just a lil human hanging around the underground and happened to be the love of a skeleton's life LOL.

He was born in the underground, his father fell into the underground and fell in love with Maxwell's mom. As it was a very uncommon thing, the kids didn't really liked hanging out or talking to Maxwell on school, except sans, wich led to their friendship, and later on, their marriage (ops, spoiler).

The other one is Steven universe's one, wich is also on the top 3. Azula. (He/they)

He is a human, most important, Connie's best friend from school, and she presents Steven to him.

As he lives in beach city too, it is a lot easier for them to hang out whenever they want, so they spend most of their time together.

Unlikely Connie, Azula already has some judo training ans knows a little bit of self defense, so when they start classes with pearl it's a lot smoother.

After Steven and the gems come back to earth, Steven comes to Azula and tells this story of how much he missed them and how much he liked them, and that's when it all started <3 I personally find this very cute.

And I couldn't not talk ab Lorelay, or just Lore, from Lord of the rings. (He/they)

His family is a good mix of dwarves and hobbits and elves and humans, so we can say he has the best of every world. Despite all those different races (from his dad's part) he is half elf (from his mother's side).

He was born in Imladris, but not much after that his family moved to mirkwood, as his mother is distantly related to Thranduil, they decided to live there.

At some point, Lorelay and Legolas met and became besties instantly, wich later on became one of the reasons for him to be a recruit for soldier training.

Lorelay met Gandalf during a walk on the forest and, not too much after ending his lessons, he decided to travel around with Gandalf.

In one of those travels, he met Aragorn and , again, became deeply connected to him. They became inseparable, so Lore decided to leave Gandalf alone for a little bit and start being a pain in Aragorn's ass instead.

The two are in love, your honour, but they won't admit it for their own sake. Only after the Healms Deep battle, where Lorelay got seriously injured, Aragorn made the first move.

But just when he became king of Gondor, and they decided it was time for it, they got married.

Ofc there's a lot more lore and info ab them but if I put everything in here this post wouldn't have an end. Anyways...

Thank you sm for giving me space to talk ab this bc I never really can tell anyone bc I'm scared they'll make fun of me or something 😩😩 srsly, I don't use Tumblr as much as I used to anymore, but whenever I DO use it I look through your acc cuz I love your content too, you're so positive ab everything and that makes you such a wonderful person.

ANYWAYS LOL

Sorry for the long and late response.

See ya!!

[fanilys]

My first experience purchasing jpop goods as an international fan (using CDJapan and DHL)

I already posted this on my old livejournal page last year, but I rarely use that website anymore and I'm more used to tumblr. Hopefully the people who might find these kinds of posts useful will still be able to find them here.

For some background, I became a fan of King & Prince in late 2022, but then 3 of their members announced that they would be leaving the group shortly after. It was then that I give in and decided to buy their latest CD release at the time.

[edited on Aug 11 2024 to add the advisory regarding DHL's additional fees]

Although I really wanted my own copies, I was very hesitant at first because I had never purchased physical goods internationally. Being from the Philippines, there were no options to buy them locally. I was worried about the shipping process because I was unsure of many things, like if there are other fees or customs requirements, and if it would be delivered straight to my address or if I still need to pick it up at a post office.

I saw this video which listed different websites to buy jpop goods from and gave more information about the whole buying and shipping process. It's very helpful, though it's from a few years back so I'm not sure if it's still up to date. I checked some of the sites mentioned and ultimately decided to buy from CDJapan since I had previously already heard of it and it seemed the most user-friendly.

I pre-ordered all 3 editions of the single, which also came with external bonus goods. The website had a discount code for first-time buyers which I made sure to use upon checking out. The currency the site uses is JPY, but it also displayed the amounts in my local currency, which made it easier for me.

They had a number of shipping options as well as a shipping cost calculator with other details for each method. I decided to go with DHL since it's guaranteed door-to-door delivery with full tracking. Although pricier than some other options, the shipping process was smooth and there were no extra fees. (Update: as of June 2024, they've started charging an additional fee of 430 PHP upon delivery)

Around a week before the expected release date, the order status on CDJ was already "in shipping process". Then 2 days before the release date, I received an SMS and email from DHL. I was a given a reference number and a link where I can track my package and choose to receive notifications at different steps of the shipping process. The estimated date of delivery was the next day (a day before the release date). There were also options in the link where I can change the delivery date or address, but I didn't try them.

I checked the tracking website often and there were periodic updates about where the package is and other customs-related info. The next day (the estimated delivery day) at around 10 AM, I received another SMS and email saying that the package is with a courier and will be delivered within the day. It arrived at around 5 PM. After giving my signature, I finally got it!

The discs and extra goods were all well-packaged and in good condition. The CDs and DVDs worked fine on my computer and I didn't need to install new programs to open them. I only listened to the songs using Windows Media Player and watched the videos using VLC. It's also possible to convert them to files using those programs.

Even though it costs a good amount of money, I thought this purchase was a very good first-time experience and I'm glad the process was as smooth as it could be.

After this, I bought a photo book along with more pre-order albums. The photo book came with its own box, so there was a recommendation to order them separately so the CDs can be packed more securely. But I did not want to pay for two separate packages, so I still ordered them together. I was able to get a small discount too using the points I got from my previous purchase. The package arrived a day before the expected release date again, and everything was still well packed and in good condition.

My only regret is that I didn't wait a little longer before placing the order. CDJ sometimes has promos and discount codes, so I was waiting for one before buying. But stocks for the photo book were running low, so I just decided to go ahead with the purchase. A few weeks later, I saw that they had a promo going on and that the photo books were restocked. Then again, I didn't know they would be restocked and I didn't want to risk not being able to buy it, so it is what it is! Would've been nice to get a bigger discount though.

I also had an experience ordering a CD just a few days before the release date. Unlike my previous orders, this one wasn't delivered earlier than the release date but arrived one day after, so it still wasn't bad at all.

I haven't tried any other online stores, but I'm happy with my experience with CDJ and DHL so far. The only drawbacks are that DHL can be more expensive compared to other shipping methods, and CD/album purchases on CDJ don't count towards the Japan charts as far as I know. I still use it since I like how straightforward it is, but of course it depends on what you prioritize.

[foxmonkey]

the T/M LJ has a page with exclusively 1969 fics so!!!! you can imagine my JOY at seeing that :~D

Hi! I put together that list; I had actually planned to write a post letting the tenmartha tumblr folks know that it existed, so it was a pleasant surprise to see this!

The list linked on LJ hasn't been updated since 2013. When I moved from LJ to Dreamwidth, I reformatted the page to make it easier to read and find what you wanted, and I've updated the list periodically (most recently today!).

Doctor Who 1969 Fic Link List

Updated list on Dreamwidth. Martha and the Doctor live out their time in 1969. Links to fic set during "Blink". Also includes Blink (1969)...Other! fic set in 1969 but not necessarily about their domestic life, OR set during the "four things and a lizard" portion of the episode, OR set elsewhen, but reflection on experiences and/or time in 1969 feature prominently in the fic.

I periodically check the old LJ communities and AO3 to see if anything new has popped up, and the last update is from this morning (March 2022 before that).

I've gone through the existing list to remove anything that's been deleted, purged, etc. I've kept all that info at the bottom, however, in case anyone knows where something moved that could be relinked and added back to the list.

If anyone finds anything I've missed, or finds a broken link or whatever, please let me know! :-)

hi do you have any tenmartha fic recs. I’m not strong enough to sift through the ao3 tag but I love them

absolutely i do! too many in fact and i would recommend checking more on livejournal because there are so many i haven't read yet

AO3

and the stars look very different today 1969

a desire of the mind (a pursuit of the heart) 1913

A Life More Ordinary 1969

Mr and Mrs Smith (Go to Lyrae)

Memento Mori

Felix Culpa 1913

On Hunting and Being Hunted 1969

Swear To Me

It's All Been Done post-breakup

Benefits of Lying tentoo/martha

Like Lemonade

Huntsman

Mind Over Matter

The Professor and the Physician: 1913

Five times fic 1969

New Beginnings

The Art of Surviving post-breakup

A Shadow In The Human Heart 1913

Bliss

Alive

More under the cut!

ff.net

Honestly, all fics by HDUC, they're fantastic at smut and setting

@tendoc recommended me Haleine Delail and honestly, i haven't even gone through half of their fics but my GOD!!!! how are t/m authors so good!! i think Not Better, Just Different might be the best T/M fic out there?

Attack of the Ladurians

The Fake Date

Well, This is Different mpreg which i'll always support in het fics bc it's funny

Touched By An Alien

Letting Go and Moving On

Whofic

there are like. way too many good fics in there + their tagging system is complete and utter shit so i’ll just link my favorite authors and let you have your fun!

Lucky McLurklurk

persiflage (so many good fics like!!!!!!!!!)

radiantbaby (best t/m writer imo!)

Bobsyeruncle (not tenmartha but a TRUE martha girl/ten hater of which i know few)

DutchLady

AspieSays

ayiana

okay so. livejournal. it'd be hard to link all the hundreds of amazing fics in that beautiful martha heaven so i'll just direct you to the Doctor/Martha & the Martha Jones communities and you can splash around in there. truly a wonderful historical piece of the internet god bless you if you watched doctor who in 2007 and thought hey. these 2 should fuck lol. also the T/M LJ has a page with exclusively 1969 fics so!!!! you can imagine my JOY at seeing that :~D

[nethercomfies]

🌼 Someone you like 🌼

Alright, you guys convinced me, here we go with demisexual Albedo hehe 👀

Pairing: Albedo x gn! reader

Content: Demisexual Albedo, Fluff, a bit of angst (mainly related to the demisexuality) with comfort (and acceptance), love confessions, getting together; things get a little steamy towards the end (making out, grinding against each other while fully clothed, the focus being more on being close to each other rather than pleasure; Albedo being a bit inexperienced). I’ll put a divider before that, mainly for any fellow aces who just want to read a bit of comfort without steamy stuff.

Note: Sorry in advance for all the indented spaces, but with Tumblr's new formatting, this is currently the only way I can think of to have proper paragraph breaks ;; Edit: Nvm Tumblr removed them.

Word count: 2.5k

INFO: Demisexuality means that someone won’t feel sexually attracted to another person unless they’ve previously formed an emotional bond with that person. Just like asexuality in general, this is a spectrum, so some demisexuals may develop that sort of attraction very fast after a bond is formed, while for others it can take longer and only happens with very few people.

Important: This blog is meant to be a positive space, so I will just put a very general warning here that I won’t tolerate any kind of aphobia. If you have nothing nice to say, just leave, because I don’t want you here.

Anyway, this is for my fellow aspec people: You’re loved and valid, and there is nothing wrong with you. Don’t let anyone tell you otherwise!

As far as Albedo is concerned, he just wasn’t created to form any romantic or sexual relationships, and that’s fine with him —  They’re too much of a hassle to keep up with anyway, so his lack of these feelings just means that he has more time to dedicate to his research. He never thought about it much more beyond that. If anyone asks, he’ll always tell them that he’s fine by himself. He doesn’t need anyone else, so he won’t waste his time on relationships.

That stance changes after meeting you. Slowly but surely you carve out your own space in his life until it becomes impossible for Albedo to deny that there is something special about you. It just seems like everything fits together perfectly —  You’re easy to talk to, give Albedo space when he needs it and listen to him, even when you don’t fully understand what he’s going on about. Somehow, that friendship between you two is so much easier than any other relationship Albedo has ever had, and so, he grows quite fond of you. Before he knows it, your friendship develops into something else, although he can’t quite put his finger on it for the longest time.

It’s clear for everyone else, long before he finally figures it out himself.

Kaeya and Lisa seem to enjoy nothing more than teasing him about his “crush”, Timaeus and Sucrose seem almost confused whenever they see Albedo without you, and even Klee seems to just see you as a part of their family by now.

All the evidence points towards one clear solution: He’s fallen in love with you.

For the first time in his life, Albedo finds himself understanding what the romance novels he reads from time to time are talking about —  The way his heart beats faster when you smile at him, the way his thoughts keep wandering to you, the way he just wants to be in your presence. It’s an unfamiliar feeling, but he doesn’t mind it in the slightest.

Another thing he knows from his romance novels is that the next logical step is to tell you about his feelings and hope you’ll reciprocate. He’s pretty sure you would. Now that he pays more attention to the signs, it’s quite clear that you seem to be just as fond of him as he is of you, so it really shouldn’t be a problem —  If it weren’t for one rather pressing obstacle: He still feels no sexual attraction to you.

He’s read about it countless times. The burning flames of passion that only grow stronger when one is near the person they’re interested in. The deep desire to feel the other in the most intimate ways. He often overhears some of the other knights talk about it, too. Some of them talk about how much they desire their partners, while others even feel that way about complete strangers.

It never made sense to Albedo, and it doesn’t make any more sense with his newfound romantic attraction to you, even though all the books make it seem like the two are closely related to each other.

Sure, he wants to be close to you… But all he desires is to just feel your hand in his or hold you in his arms. Maybe he’d like to share an innocent kiss with you every once in a while —  But that’s as far as it goes for him.

It sits at the back of his mind, driving him insane. Maybe he misread the signs and he just likes you as a friend after all —  But his heart never beats that fast when he’s around Timaeus or Sucrose, for example, and he certainly wouldn’t want to hold either of them close.

No, the way he feels about you is different, and he’s convinced what he feels really is love. So, what is he missing? And, more importantly… Would you even want to be with him if he can’t provide something that appears to be such a major part of relationships?

It doesn’t take long for you to realize that something has changed between you and Albedo. One day you were getting along great, and you finally felt like he might actually reciprocate your feelings… The next he seems to be avoiding you like the plague completely out of the blue.

You’ve already tried asking around, but came up with nothing —  From what you’ve been told so far, Albedo is acting like his usual self around everyone else, he’s not busy with any important research, and if you upset him somehow, he hasn’t mentioned it to anyone.

Normally you’d just give him a bit of space and leave it be, but with how sudden that change was, you can’t help but feel worried. So, after a week with no changes, you finally decide to try and confront him about it, hoping that you’ll be able to somehow fix whatever is wrong.

Albedo is in the process of discussing something with Timaeus when he spots you from afar. You see his eyes widening for a moment before he mumbles a quick goodbye to his student and takes off —  But you’re not going to let him get off so easily this time.

You run after him, and once you get within earshot, try to call out to him. “Albedo, wait! Can we please talk? Just for a moment?”

You see him let out a sigh, but he eventually stops in his tracks, turning around to you. You come to a halt next to him, giving him a concerned frown. “Is there something wrong? I’ve been worried about you.”

He tries to look surprised at your words, but by the look in his eyes, you can tell he knows exactly what you’re talking about. “No, not at all… Why were you worried? I’m doing quite alright.”

You cross your arms. “It doesn’t take a genius to figure out you’ve been avoiding me, you know?” A hint of regret flashes across his face, so you soften your tone a little, reaching out a hand to gently brush his arm. “If I did anything to upset you, I’m sorry. I can assure you, it wasn’t my intention. But… If you could just tell me what I did, maybe we can work this out somehow? I really wouldn’t want to lose you. Not after we’ve been getting along so well.”

Albedo quickly shakes his head. “No, no, you didn’t upset me… I’m sorry if I worried you. There were some things I had to sort out, but I now realize that avoiding you wasn’t the best solution.” He glances over at you, only to see your confused expression. With a sigh, Albedo reaches out to gently hold your hand, lightly squeezing it. “Y/n, I’ve recently been dealing with a lot of… Unfamiliar feelings. Mostly revolving around you. I should have just said something, but…” He trails off, averting his gaze.

Your eyes widen at his confession before a smile finds its way to your lips. Now you get why he was avoiding you —  For someone who never experienced these feelings before, it must have been quite confusing. “I think I understand now. Albedo… I feel that way about you as well.” You gently squeeze his hand back, hoping that knowing you feel the same way will help him relax as well. A feeling of giddiness rushes over you. This isn’t exactly how you imagined your big confession to happen, but the outcome seems to be the same, so it doesn’t matter —  You’re happy either way.

Albedo, on the other hand, doesn’t seem too thrilled. Quite the opposite, actually. Suddenly, the air feels heavy around the two of you. “I’m glad you feel that way, I really do, but…” He hesitates before taking a deep, slightly shaky breath, “I’m not sure we could really be together.”

You frown, stepping closer to lay a hand on his shoulder. “Why not? What’s wrong?” You ask, keeping your tone as gentle as possible. The last thing you want now is to scare him away.

Albedo seems reluctant, a slight blush on his face. “I do love you, but… I’m afraid I don’t feel any… Sexual attraction to you. Isn’t that important to human relationships? It seems to be important to everyone else…” His voice is barely more than a quiet mumble, but luckily you’re close enough to understand him.

You lay a hand on his cheek, softly smiling at him. “If that’s all you’re worried about, I can assure you, it’s alright.” Carefully you pull Albedo into your arms, holding him close as he melts into your embrace. “I love you, and as long as we’re together, that’s all I could ever ask for. Anything beyond that is just a bonus that I can do without,” you assure him.

You feel his arms close around you, holding you tight as Albedo’s face is buried against your chest. “Are you sure? I bet there are other people who could-”

You quickly shake your head, gently stroking his hair as you cut him off. “That doesn’t matter to me. I want to be with you, Albedo. Other people don’t interest me. So please, don’t even worry about that… Alright?”

The tension leaves Albedo’s body at your words, and you can feel him relax against you. 

“Well, if that’s the case… I’ll gladly be with you.” When he looks up at you again, you finally see the soft smile on his face you were hoping for earlier as he leans in to leave a small kiss on your cheek.

Being with you is easy. It’s natural, like things were always meant to be this way. And it’s certainly not the huge hassle Albedo always expected it to be. He’s happy with the way things are between you two, and you are as well —  You make sure to frequently remind him of that, never wanting him to feel like he’s not enough for you.

Albedo’s favorite thing is how with you, he can just be himself. He doesn’t need to always rely on himself, and he doesn’t need to lock his feelings away. (He couldn’t even if he tried —  Somehow, you can always tell how he’s feeling.) And so, for possibly the first time in his life, Albedo allows himself to feel —  Happiness, sadness, and everything in between.

You’re always there, ready to laugh with him, offer comfort when he’s sad and convince him to rest when he’s tired. To be known so thoroughly by another human being… It’s strange, but ultimately Albedo decides that he likes this bond between you.

It’s one night after Albedo returns from a longer stay up on Dragonspine when the attraction sets in. It hits him out of nowhere with such an intensity that it’s impossible to ignore.

You’re snuggled up to Albedo, your arms tightly wrapped around him and resting your head on his chest, listening to the steady thumping of his heartbeat. Over and over again you lift your head and shift to cup Albedo’s cheeks before leaning in to leave small kisses all over his face. Albedo lies there with a soft smile as he keeps his eyes closed, taking note of the little pattern you’re following… A kiss on the forehead, one on his temple, on his nose, his cheek, and then… His hand grazes your skin as your lips meet his, keeping you in place to steal a few more kisses from you. He allows them to hold a bit more urgency than usual, quickly letting them grow into more than just innocent kisses.

You softly smile against his lips, your body acting on its own as you carefully press yourself against him, resting a hand against Albedo’s chest, and- You cut yourself off before you get too carried away, heat rising to your cheeks.

It’s not often that the two of you make out, and usually, Albedo puts a stop to it when it gets too much —  So you always want to make sure not to overwhelm him and that he gets a chance to say something if he doesn’t want to continue. You don’t mind it when he does, usually just opting to cuddle with him instead, and making sure he knows it’s okay.

But tonight, Albedo doesn’t stop you. He just gently runs a hand down your back, letting it rest on your hip. “Would you like to continue this?” He asks sheepishly, his thumb mindlessly tracing the sliver of exposed skin from where your shirt slightly rode up during the kissing.

“Are you sure? You don’t have to do anything you don’t want to, you know?” You remind him, gently cupping his cheek.

Albedo nods. “I know that. But right now… I’d just like to feel as close to you as I possibly can. I enjoy this, so if you want to go on, we can.”

So you shift to sit on his lap, your legs spread on either side of his hips, and as you lean in to kiss him once again, you can feel a slight hardness pressing against you. You give an experimental roll of your hips against his, hearing how Albedo lets out a shaky breath in response.

“Any time you want to stop, just tell me.” You whisper, peppering kisses across his face.

Albedo just nods, wrapping his arms tightly around you as he buries his face against your neck, leaving small kisses all over your skin. He responds to the rolling of your hips by pressing himself up against you as well, and soon enough you can feel the hardness growing against you. His arms slip down towards your waist and he slips them under your shirt, just letting his hands rest on your hips, feeling the warmth of your skin.

You hold him in your arms as well, pressing kisses wherever you can reach while letting out small whimpers against his skin, mixed in with Albedo’s quiet moans.

You keep grinding against each other like that until you eventually fall apart in each other’s arms whilst breathlessly declaring your love for each other.

Albedo holds you in his arms, tracing small patterns on your back as he catches his breath. Your head is resting on his chest, listening to his heartbeat once again while one of your hands is still tangled in his hair, gently caressing it.

“I really enjoyed that,” Albedo admits after a while, gently kissing the top of your head.

You hum in agreement, softly smiling. “Yeah. I’m glad you liked it as well.”

Albedo nods, hugging you tightly. “You know, I think… If it’s always like this… If we can always be that close to each other… I feel like we can do this more often.”

You prop your chin on one of your arms, using the other to cup Albedo’s cheek. “As long as you’re comfortable, I’d like that a lot. Just remember, you don’t need to rush into anything. If we do this, I want to make sure it’s enjoyable for both of us.”

“I’m sure it will be,” Albedo says, pulling you into a tight embrace once again.