#i want to make something kinda like asuna from SAO for it; because it really reminds me of her vibe

[waffliesinyoface]

who wants to see some of my current glamours for Stormblood?

trick question, here they are

Dark Knight, Viper, Summoner, and Monk

yes the monk glamour is the closest thing i can get to sakura's shippuden outfit, thank you for noticing

[heyyallitsbeth]

so i let the hyperfixation win.

over the past several hours i rewatched Sword Art Online and SAO 2.

(this time dubbed, last time i watched it subbed)

here are my thoughts:

-anyone who said the dub was bad is just wrong. Kirito's VA really shines in the more comedic or sweet moments (like when first meeting Yui), he reminds me of like a Peter Parker. and oh my lord, the breakdown by Suguha's VA was just a masterpiece. Still have chills from watching it.

-i have such a big appreciation for every character. This time it really shined through how good of characters Kirito, Asuna, and Suguha actually are.

Kirito's internal conflict throughout SAO2 is so good, grappling with their actions they needed to take in SAO to survive. and throughout all of it you can tell how much they truly loves their friends and family, and how kind hearted they really are. Asuna definitely fits into that role as well, being so ready to take care of Yui and so desperately wanting her to be safe and loved and cared for.

And oh my gosh Suguha. I remember people absolutely hated her arc because it is problematic, but the fact is, it's played entirely serious, her feelings arent taken as a joke. She has a genuine and real internal struggle for feeling things she feels she shouldnt, and how she feels those feelings arent reciprocated or cant be reciprocated, and having her heart broken twice by someone who she loves and someone who also does still genuinely love her. Its absolutely heartbreaking to watch.

Man, Sinon is still fantastic. She's still my absolute favorite, and I think she is one of the best characters in the show, and pretty much steals the show from her introduction. Her arc ties in so seamlessly with Kirito's and how they help eachother heal and grow is fantastic. Only complaint is we never got a scene of the rest of the Gals being jealous about the grenade hug she gave Kirito. After Kirito and Sinon nearly died, wouldve been some nice relief so you didnt feel like you yourself were dying.

-Speaking of, while there was definitely a ton of fanservice, the pseudo-harem aspect with the jokes were kinda cute, between characters seeing flirting happen around them, getting embarassed over it, its fun. Especially when people got jealous of Sinon flirting with Kirito over Excalibur. That part was very fun, since they did that infront of everyone else, almost like they were trying to get a rise out of them. Theyre not exactly the pinnacle of comedy, its definitely a trope, but theres something nostalgic about it that makes it kinda enjoyable.

-Speaking of the psuedo-harem, guys if all of you are constantly flirting with eachother (not just Kirito surprisingly, happens between the other girls frequently) and jealous of any affection with that, just start a polycule. You're a group of gamer girls playing MMOs together and all of you have slept in the same bed with eachother. Stop snipping at eachother and start dating eachother. Polyamory is pretty cool. Kirito and Asuna can still be the main duo and be the parents to Yui and Strea; but yall gotta work on the jealousy or just do what every other group of girl gamers does, polyamory. Lisbeth you should not be angrily drinking while watching Kirito and Asuna talk. (this is mostly a joke, im not actually saying they *have* to do a polycule, its more of a joke because of how tropey a lot of the flirting and jealousy is, and yknow, gay girls do polyamory, so dont take this part toooooo seriously.)

-Speaking of girls dating girls, the LGBT rep aint half bad. Argo canonically using both male and female pronouns is really cool! Most of the girls flirt with eachother a lot too, which is nice. Between the female avatar, the willingness to pretend to be a girl, the introversion, the desire to be an avatar in a virtual world more than irl, Kirito might be transgender. All good stuff here.

Overall, SAO is honestly way better than I remembered, even if some parts definitely show its age. You gotta piece it together a little bit with headcanons, but i do that with every show, nothing is perfect. Except Sinon. And a world where trans Kirito is canon. Those are perfect.

[camomills]

Title: Pit-bottom Relationships: Lisbeth/Sinon; Lisbeth/Asuna (kinda) Fandom: Sword Art Online Word Count: 1797 Summary: Lisbeth thinks about what love is. Different times in her life bring her to different definitions. Notes: Made for SAO Pride Week 2019 - Day 5: Past, Present and Future. I’ve had so many conversations as to why I interpret Lisbeth as a victim of compulsive heterosexuality that it was only a matter of time until I wrote something that delved into it at least a tiny bit. Thanks to @thegayfromrulid​ for beta reading.

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Lisbeth was 16 years old and at pit-bottom, figuratively and literally.

“You’re alive,” the boy in black says.

That much was true.

That morning, she wondered if that day would’ve been the day she’d rack up enough Col for a second waterwheel. That seemed like a meaningless worry at that moment, as she stared upwards, the foggy canvas of the sky framed by the walls of the hole she and Kirito had fell in.

The cold was oppressive and all-enveloping down there, but it paled in comparison to the still-settling realization as the teleportation crystal ignored her commands:

She was going to die in that pit.

It was so, so unfair. She did everything right. She stuck to the middle floors. She took to the mostly-civilian lifestyle of a blacksmith and enabled those that’d fight for her liberation. She grew her modest alleyway business into a legitimate shop, and she could feel pride whenever she saw her name emblazoned on that copper sign by its entrance.

All of this was made while latching onto the hope that she’d survive this game and go back to the real world.

And now I’m going to die because I insisted in tagging along with this weirdo.

There were so many things she hadn’t done yet. She wanted to hear her name being announced during roll-call at her graduation ceremony. She wanted to see the Tokyo Skytree. She was considering coursing Engineering at college, despite the demanding entry requirements.

She wanted to kiss someone, just once.

Ah, she thought. I didn’t even get to fall in love, did I?

While they prepared their sleeping bags, she mused for a moment over whom she would fall for had she the chance to so, and wasn’t bound to waste away in icy demise. Shinichi from Class 1-B at her school was cute. Sawamura from her class was okay too, she thinks. Even then, she’d been trapped in Aincrad for over a year, so they’re probably a grade above her now. A shame, really. Rumor has it that Sawamura was a good kisser.

Asuna’s smile flashed in her mind as she catalogued boys, and something in her jolts.

Is Asuna a good kisser?

That was an odd thought. Asuna wasn’t a boy.

As panic subsided and she came to terms with her predicament (Kirito’s words, despite his stoic tone, assuaged her fears), her mind stopped wandering too far out. She was stuck down there with this boy she’d met only hours prior, and the world seemed to shrink as the hours went by: there’s nothing beyond this pit, towering walls of frost and cold floor of snow, and him, roguish charm encased in dark leather.

She hungers for warmth, for touch, for romance, for other things she didn’t get to have due to this game. For the opportunities that were stripped away from her. Her sleeping bag, these clothes, can’t keep her warm. She knows they’re nothing but strewn data, calculating code colder than the surrounding ice.

These won’t do.

It has to be someone, her mind finally registers.

He was the only thing there, other than herself, that was in any way warm.  She asked him to hold her hand, and he did. It was a sensation, real and cozy, that she’d seldom experienced in a world of uncaring numbers.

The closest she’d ever had to this feeling, she realized, came from Asuna’s embrace, casual, deliberate, and always so soothing.

As sleep overtook her and her eyes droop closed, she thought of how worried her best friend must have been for her.

*

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*

At the following sunrise, she wasn’t dead.

In fact, Lisbeth felt very much alive.

She was sent heavenwards while in the arms of this boy, Kirito, his skin brushing against hers, adrenaline and fire rushing in her veins, inferno of emotion hurling through the sky.

She was invincible in that moment, young and unafraid. Everything about it felt so right. That endless thrill, that beautiful sunset born from the parting of clouds: all coalescing into a book-worthy moment.

That must be what love is. That burning in her chest. Lisbeth was sure of it.

With wind howling in her ears, she decided that she was just going to say it.

“Kirito! You know, I…”

“What?!”

“I love you, Kirito!”

He couldn’t hear her ecstasy-fueled confession, and a part of her was happy about that.

It would have been embarrassing. Yes, that must have been the reason she was happy about it.

It’s what makes sense, after all, when she examines herself, heart blazing in the cold and quickly pumping exhales visible in the frost.

*

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Rika was 18 years old and the aroma of freshly brewed black wafted through the air in Dicey Café. Her and Asuna’s laughter blows on the steam rising from their mugs.

“So… you had a thing for me?” Asuna asked. There was no judgment in her tone.

“Yeah,” Rika said. “Took me a while to figure that one out, though. I guess I couldn’t admit to myself that I liked girls too. And then Kirito was right there, the perfect scapegoat for those feelings.”

She tried to take a first sip from her mug, but the heat bit her tongue. Still too hot.

“He had the whole Mysterious Hero thing going on back then, and we had that wild trip. It got pretty easy to convince myself that I was into him. But when you two started dating, it wasn’t you that I was jealous of…”

Rika stared at Asuna expectantly, then smirked.

“I guess I must have been pretty desperate for a love story, if I tricked myself into liking him.”

Without missing the cue, Asuna elbowed Rika.

“He’s still my boyfriend, you know!”

Rika laughs at Asuna’s indignation, and Asuna laughs at Lis laughing at her. The blacksmith’s crude laughter was nothing if not infectious.

Their shared laughter reminds her that Asuna loved her, in the same way she’s always had. And that she still loved Asuna, albeit in a different way than back in Aincrad.

Rika is unsure of what love is, but she thinks that’s a good thing. Maybe the answer isn’t meant to come easy. It’s been two years since the ice dragon incident, and if there’s one thing any SAO Survivor understands is: a couple of years can change everything.

At the very least, it’s enough for a change in perspective. It��s a boost in maturity, as small as it is, that makes her understand that love is not something you seek in desperation, blurting out mindlessly in a moment between life and death. It’s probably something softer, found in the touch of a friend, amidst inside jokes and shared moments of joy like this. And probably not at the bottom of a pit.

Asuna was her best friend, both in Aincrad and in real life. Keiko never missed a day to share recess with her. Klein would take her teasing with little to no complaint. Agil offered her a part-time job at the bar last week, when she turned eighteen.

And, despite everything she says, she has a soft spot for Kirito. He’s a good friend. She’d never say that to his face, though, in fear of his head getting too big for his body.

She doesn’t need to hunger for love, as long as she has these connections.

If the other kind of love knocks at her door, though, then all the better.

The bell by the door chimes, and Asuna and Lis both turn on her stools, sure of who’s there before their vision catches them.

Kirito stands by the entrance and greets the both of them, unaware that he was a topic in their conversation moments ago.

From his side, a bespectacled girl sheepishly waves.

**

Rika is 22 years old, and she’s late to her part-time job.

It’s not her fault, though. There’s a dog in the apartment.

“Puppy!” Rika coos.

The Japanese Akita simply stares at her, a bit too stoically for a dog, dark slits for eyes betraying nothing.

Shino, sporting her police uniform, stops Lis’s hand as she offers him a corn chip.

“He can’t eat that. He might get sick. He’s got work to do.”

Shino’s dream of becoming a police officer came true, and she’s glad she has enough of a handle on her hoplophobia to manage it. She’s surprised that she was approved into the dog handler unit in her first try, though.

“Hecate is a police official, Rika. You should show him some respect.”

Hecate ? Lis considers teasing her on the name, but concludes otherwise. Shino had her reasons.

Perhaps her face gives her thoughts away, however, because Shino justifies herself.

“Yes, Hecate. He’s my partner, after all.” She manages not to look embarrassed.

Rika giggles. She at times pondered over how come she and Shino wound up together, when she herself scorches like a furnace, hot-red emotion barely contained in her body, while Shino, comparatively, runs cold like the steel that forms the barrel of a firearm.

Rika fancied herself gunpowder.

“I don’t know. Maybe he’d look cuter if he was fat,” Rika threatens. “Big, fat boy.”

She flicks a chip from the bag she was eating into the air. Hecate, shooting up as if a bullet from the homonymous sniper rifle, springs towards the airborne target, corn and wheat meeting trained teeth in a satisfying crunch. His canine expression remains dutifully cold, even as he chews on it.

Shino tries to grimace, but it’s hard while trying to kill a laugh at the same time. She changes the topic, a pair of fingers pressed to her temple.

“Shouldn’t you be at work instead of poisoning the new dog? Agil is going to give you an earful again.”

Rika smirks smugly, and there’s a bit of Lisbeth in that smile.

“It’s okay, he loves me!” She positions a proud hand over her chest. “I’m his only company in that dingy bar.”

Despite her cheeky reply, she puts on her boots faster. Even if her parents are helping with her tuition, she still needs to pull her weight. Engineering is a course with hefty tuition fees.

After a roughly affectionate tussle to the dog’s fur and a quick peck to Shino’s cheek, she runs out the door.

Now an adult, Rika can forgive her younger, juvenile self; that old definition of love, troubadour and romantic, feels endearing in its foolishness. She has a hard time appreciating that romanticized romance now, though, as she gets to bask in what she has available to her now: the domesticity in sharing as well as the presence of her friends. Now that her hunger is sated, her vision clears to what matters.

Her connection to them, all of them, must be what love is.

[joshhhhhhhhhhhhhhh]

Sword Art Online: Alicization - War of Underworld episode 1

It’s here, it’s finally here. I should just start off by saying it was pretty interesting. There’s been something of a timeskip following the events of Alicization, and Kirito’s effectively comatose due to a combination of his fluctlight getting fucked up when the military raided and I’m assuming PTSD from those final events as well. I mean the dude lost his own arm, it’s still gone obviously, and Eugeo died in his arms as well, after Cardinal and her spider friend died too. Eugeo specifically Kirito had spent like, 3 or 4 years with at that point, I believe? That’s longer than he was with Asuna when she “died” in Aincrad, and also Kirito genuinely spent those entire however many years with Eugeo, whereas Asuna wasn’t even with him for those entire 2 years in Aincrad, and never even mind that she came back super shortly after, whereas Eugeo is like, legit dead. I’m spending a lot of time on this point I just think it’s worth driving home that Kirito’s kinda fucked right now.

And with Kirito being fucked, Alice actually kinda takes on the role of the main character this episode. In a thankfully quite short exposition scene we learn that all of the old Integrity Knights, which based on the OP are looking to be pretty prominent this season (Bercouli is in the OP for longer than Kirito is), kinda learned that Administrator was a bit of a dick and also the world’s fucked, so they’ve been banding together to stop the Dark Territory from fucking up the world. Because some people are still pissed that Kirito stood up against the Axiom Church though, Alice ditches with comatose Kirito and hides out near Rulid in order to protect them. This is a pretty interesting setup, and I appreciate that this episode both manages to have a slower pace since it’s mostly just an insight into what Alice and Kirito’s current life is like, but also it’s not a double length episode again and it’s mostly not even just exposition either, like we’re not just spending half of the episode talking about the plot, the plot’s actually happening. The episode does end with what looks like a Dark Territory attack though so we’ll see how that plays out next episode.

I know I didn’t say a lot here, but I’m happy SAO’s back again, and curious about where this arc will go. Alice as a main character is an interesting idea, who knows how long Kirito will be comatose likewise. The PVs and shit made me think he wouldn’t be like this for even a full episode, so already I’m surprised. We know Asuna’s gonna pop up presumably in Underworld at some point, and I feel like that might be how Kirito’s woken up, maybe she’ll do some shit IRL to get his fluctlight in working order. The question is when though because no time is spent on the real world this episode so we’ve not really got an update on the state of that military raid or how Asuna’s doing. Asuna’s a cool character so I’m looking forward to seeing her show up in Underworld, but with some hints that Alice could have feelings for Kirito I’m really fucking worried we’ll see that type of relationship drama bullshit between the two, hell even if it’s comedy and not drama I still don’t want it. Cautiously optimistic for this arc.

Also I’ve got no idea what I’ll be naming the show in these episode reviews, like I mostly would just be like “Alicization episode X” for the first season of it, so like for here should I be saying “War of Underworld episode X”? “Alicization WoU episode X”? I’ll figure out later I guess. Also MAL actually has this slated for 12 episodes, and the fourth and final cour of Alicization will start in April of next year. They’re really making us wait, huh? Nah that’s fine though, as long as it looks good I’m fine letting them take all the time they need.

That’s all I’ve got.

[medea10]

My Review of ORESUKI

(Short for: ORESUKI Are you the only one who loves me?)

How did I get into this anime? When the fall 2019 anime season rolled around, I actually had a few slots opened up for anime viewing. Oresuki just happened to be a random selection and so I randomly picked this one.

Heads up, literally everybody has a nickname and their real names are RARELY used. Just roll with it!

Amatsuyu Kisaragi (known to his friends as Joro) thought he was going to have the fantasy of having a girl confess her feelings to him. In fact, Joro constantly sees himself as the “main character” of this story. Unfortunately for Joro, things did not go that way (even though the setup was spot-on for that to happen). Joro was invited to hang out with class rep, Sakura Akino (Cosmos) for the day. And at the end of the day, she sits Joro down and tells him that she’s in love with Joro’s best friend Taiyou Ooga (Sun-chan). Don’t worry, it gets worse for this poor sap.

The very next day, Joro’s best friend Aoi Hinata (Himawari) took Joro around town for the day and did the same thing Cosmos did the day before. By revealing that she’s in love with his best friend Sun-chan! Then, Himawari and Cosmos force Joro to help them with getting on Sun-chan’s good side. Joro escaped that hell by ducking out in the library. There, he meets the class bookworm, Sumireko Sanshokuin (Pansy). And she decides to sit Joro down and tell him that, she likes him.

That’s right, the plain-looking bookworm is into him!

OH, BUT IT GETS BETTER! Sun-chan ends up doing the same thing to Joro, by sitting him down on a park bench to reveal whom he likes. And it’s Pansy! In just two episodes, this anime has managed to turn a love-triangle into a full-blown love-pentagram! This is one of the weirdest and interesting harems you will ever watch.

BETWEEN THE SUB AND THE DUB: Crunchyroll, HI-DIVE, and FUNimation have picked this up streaming wise. And licensing wise, it belongs to Aniplex! I know, right?! I’m amazed by how many streaming sites have picked this up. As for a dub, probably not in the cards in my opinion! If it does, FUNimation will probably do an English dub in the coming months. The sub has several recognizable names and ones I’m not so familiar with. So a good mixture of both! Man, Haruka Tomatsu was heard everywhere in 2019. Here’s what you might recognize these folks from.

*Joro is played by Daiki Yamashita (known for Goh on Pokemon, Deku on My Hero Academia, Umino on Sailor Moon Crystal, Sakamichi on Yowamushi Pedal, Narancia on Jojo’s Bizarre Adventure: Pt. 5, and Mitsuru on Food Wars)

*Himawari is played by Haruka Shiraishi (known for Asirpa on Golden Kamuy)

*Cosmos is played by Sachika Misawa

*Pansy is played by Haruka Tomatsu (known for Mina on Pokemon SM, Asuna on SAO, Iris on Violet Evergarden, Zero Two on Darling in the FranXX, Anaru on Anohana, Shinsuke on Inazuma Eleven GO, and Lala on To Love Ru)

MOVE OVER TRUCK-KUN: In the anime community, we love to give cute nicknames to certain objects. Truck-kun got its name after random trucks end up plowing anime characters unexpectedly. In this anime, we have “Bench-kun”. A plain, white bench seen in many shows and anime where two characters usually sit and confess their love to one another! But Bench-kun shows up in the oddest places and at the worst time for Joro. A girl would take Joro to the bench and tell him a confession and then it all just goes straight to Hell.

SHIPPING: Who would’ve thought that after the first 2 episodes that Joro would end up with so many girls after him? Believe it or not, this catnip expanded past the long-time friend, the senpai president, and…freakin’ Pansy! Yeah, Pansy has been a severe wild card since episode 1. She straight-up tells Joro she has a crush on him. And while Himawari and Cosmos came out and stated they love Sun-chan, they later started to be all flirty with Joro after we found out Sun-chan tried to screw his best friend. Then we add more girls!

Asunaro, a girl from the school newspaper put out a false report about Joro taking advantage of the three girls at the same time (making him a social pariah again). But this was so she can swoop in and take him for herself. Then you have another girl named Sazanka (complete tsundere btw) be a total bitch to Joro when the newspaper claim came out, but then turned into a little miss Blushy McIdiot after it was retracted. Then we add a new girl in school who knows Joro from a year ago for being extremely helpful to her family’s business. Although with Tsubaki, I don’t really sense much romance with her and she wasn’t a major player in the OVA finale. So I’ll kinda put her near the bottom of the potential waifu list.

AND THEN, we add yet another girl! Actually, Tanpopo was originally supposed to dance with Joro in the school’s flower festival (instead of Pansy). But because of the rumors flying around about Joro being a sexual harasser, she got spooked and quit the festival. Thankfully, she’s not into Joro…YET! Although her intentions kinda fall into a different category especially when it comes to Pansy’s love life!

ENDING: Every couple of episodes starts a new arc with this story (which is a little much when it’s only a 12 episode series). So the final arc of the season starts with a recap episode!

*facepalm*

Guys, NEVER DO THIS in a 12 episode series! Luckily, this was like a .5 episode so no damage done! After that mess, Joro is sat down on the white bench of doom with yet another girl. This can only end badly! Tanpopo wants Joro to help her hook Pansy and Sun-chan up. And if you remember early in the series, Sun-chan sat Joro down on the white bench of doom to tell him he’s in love with Pansy. But as we all know, Pansy likes Joro and her perception of Sun-chan is kinda soured after he screwed his friends over. That is until a person from Pansy’s past comes to her aid, throwing a monkey wrench in this twisted rom-com!

This boy, Hose also has a crush on Pansy, but Pansy really has no interest for him. No matter how much he smiles! Now Hose goes to another school and only shows up once he randomly meets Joro and finds out that her school plans on closing down the library (seriously?). Yeah, believe it or not, this school wants to close down the library. I don’t get it either! But with the help from Hose and his two girl assistants, they were able to help Pansy, Joro, and the others save the library. It’s just that Pansy feels uncomfortable in this situation because she knows Hose is going to ask her out and we all know that Pansy has feelings for Joro. So what does she do?

Sun-chan asks her out and she says yes!

What the actual fuck?

This guy? The same guy you cornered with his bullshit plan of throwing Joro under the bus?! The same one who had a crush on Pansy at the beginning? This guy! Fuck me!

Add insult to injury, Pansy tells Joro she no longer needs his help around the library. Thankfully, this was just Pansy’s plan to blow off Hose and get him away from her. But Hose decides to still confess his feelings for Pansy despite her choice of going out with Sun-chan. And Joro decided to grow some balls, become the arrogant, warped asshole he became at the beginning of the series and tell Pansy something important. He sort of lets out that he likes Pansy. But then it gets a lot more competitive!

It almost feels as though Hose gets a supreme upper-hand in his quest for Pansy’s heart. This followed up with all of Joro’s other interests not budging an inch in their quest for Joro’s heart. We end with the promises of this story to return with a conclusion! That’s where the OVA comes in!

Yeah, they announced after the end of Oresuki that everything will be settled with one OVA to be released at the end of May 2020. However, this ending might not coincide with the ending what the manga was going to provide. So we just have to wait until the end of May and we will get everything answered.

September 2020

Because of course it is!

Crunchyroll and FUNimation surprised fans in the west by airing the OVA on the same day as Japan’s release! The special is one hour and 10 minutes long (roughly 3 episodes in one).

OVA: So the OVA decided to pop in a little backstory on Sun-chan and how he first became a star in baseball, how he became friends with Joro, and how he first fell in love with Pansy. We see these side-stories throughout the special. Turns out that Sun-chan was the first victim to get heartbroken on the white bench of doom! And it does explain a lot with Sun-chan’s downward spiral with sabotaging Joro’s chances with any of the girls in the series. As it has almost been a year since watching the television series, I officially apologize for anything I’ve ever said about Sun-chan last fall. Because I didn’t know there’d be a bigger bastard in this series. I knew I couldn’t trust Hose’s bitch smile.

On the day of Sun-chan’s baseball game, there was a special task that would decide who Pansy was going to end up with. Joro or Hose! And there were so many rules placed that it would make it too hard for Joro to sneak away with an easy victory. Each girl was to give a hairpin to whichever boy they want to be with Pansy. And like I mentioned with the ending to the television series, things are not looking good for Joro. Hose’s friends are loyal to him and Joro’s girl friends don’t want to lose out to Pansy. If Hose wins Pansy, Joro can no longer speak to Pansy.

So fuck-face Hose decides to show his true colors to Joro and upping the ante a bit with this game! If Joro loses, he will not only lose Pansy, but all of his friends like Himawari, Cosmos, Asunaro, and anyone else who’s friends with Pansy. Joro did manage to get the upper hand at several moments of the anime when he did helpful tasks around the baseball arena and getting extra players to hand off their hairpins. And even when Hose got sneaky with that very same idea, Joro managed to squeak out a victory with a little help from Sun-chan and Tanpopo. So Hose better take his fake-ass smilin’ ass the fuck outta here!

So now comes the moment we’ve all been waiting for. The confession between Joro and Pansy! Pansy loves Joro. Joro loves Pansy. The end…Not quite! Joro continued to open his dumbass mouth and continue his love confession to every female around him. Followed by saying he will share all of them by dating each girl one day out of the week.

Seriously dude? Don’t be a greedy fuck-ass and don’t push your luck! You just got back on Pansy’s good side by kicking Hose out of the picture, why’d you have to say something stupid like that?

So who won in the end? I honestly thought Joro and Sun-chan were going to share a moment, but we closed the series off with Joro and Pansy walking together as the credits roll.

Come on, we all know who won in the end.

Bench-kun.

I walked into this anime last fall not knowing what to expect from it and came out not expecting all of that to happen. This puts a nice spin on the harem genre and what people normally expect when they see one boy surrounded by pretty girls. I mean, take your typical harem anime! The male protagonist is plain, boring, a slice of white bread with nothing on it! All of the charisma would go to all the females around him. Now Joro doesn’t look like a regular, milk-toast harem male protagonist, but his appearance isn’t one to scream and shout at either. But his fluctuating attitude has been fun to watch throughout the episodes. And from episode 1 on, it is just one surprise after another! The main boy constantly sees himself as the main character in life and we see him get slapped with a harsh dose of reality when the senpai and the childhood friend like your best friend over you and the girl that likes you is the class bookworm* (with an asterisk the size of Texas next to that description).

Pansy is an interesting character where people would have to double-take when they see Pansy with glasses, pig-tails, and her chest surpressed by ace bandages versus Pansy unleashed! Joro indeed never knew Pansy was the hot chick strutting a pretty white dress a year back. But since this is a harem, you’ve gotta have the usual trope of girls including the freaky chick, the childhood best friend, and everybody’s (un)favorite, the tsundere!

Now with the ending for the OVA, I’m unsure if this is the actual ending they went with when it came to the manga. I’ve never gotten around to picking up Oresuki as of yet, but I gotta say I was satisfied with this ending. If you’re looking for a good romantic comedy, I say go for this. I know it’s usually a long-shot for everybody to like a comedy. Comedies in anime are for the most part hit-or-miss unless they’re crudely dubbed. But I am one of those people who takes pleasure in other’s pain. Watching Joro’s misadventures were entertaining to watch. So I say, pull up a white bench and check out Oresuki.

If you would like to watch this anime, FUNimation, HIDIVE, and Crunchyroll are streaming all 12 episodes, plus the recap episode and the OVA sequel.

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Ask a Writer!

Tagged by the lovely @i-masshiro​, thanks babe! Love you tons, such a sweetheart D’: 

1. How did you come up with your username and what does it mean?

It doesn’t mean anything in particular! An old best friend of mine helped me pick it up when I was struggling with new decent nicknames. This is the one I use for all my accounts now.

2. Which fanfic of yours has the most feedback? (bookmarks/favorites, follows/subscriptions, visitor hits, kudos)

These Stones We Skip, definitely. It’s got like 90 comments (half of them me responding to those, so it’s narrowed down to 45 haha) +2k hits, 100 kudos more or less, and a bunch of bookmarks! I’m super happy with how the fic is being read and that people like it this much! Also if anyone waiting for an update is reading pls forgive me I’ve been busy I promise I will update pls don’t sue ;;.

3. What is your FFnNet/AO3 profile icon, and why did you choose it?

Actually, I think all my icons are Uraraka icons, excepting the one I got for FF.net which is actually Asuna from SAO. Last time I updated the page I was heavily into SAO so... pretty self-explanatory. My love for Uraraka needs no explanations either.

4. Do you have any regular/favourite commenters?

I do! And most of them are an incredibly fun bunch of them. Long, usual commenters are my shit, not gonna lie. Although I have lost some of them as my updates have become slower, but I hope they come to read someday.

5. Is there a fanfic that you keep going back to read again and again?

Not really, unless it’s for some kind of reference. There was this line I hit where my style got smoother and a bit more polished, but from there below it’s kind of rubbish and I can’t read anything. All good things I write I can’t usually read because of self-awareness.

6. How many stories are you subscribed to? How many do you have bookmarked?

None and none lmao, I always drop kudos but I don’t think I have ever bookmarked anything, nor subscribed to because I don’t really have much time to check out stuff-- and when I do, I totally binge read it.

7. Which AU do you find yourself writing the most?

Fantasy AU because it’s consumed my life now.

8. How many people are subscribed and bookmarked to you in total? (you can view this on the stats page)

I got 10 subscriptions on AO3 and 60 bookmarks!

9. Is there something you’d like to write about but are afraid of people judging you for it? (Feeling brave? If so, share it!)

I would like to someday find the strength to write something venty someday, as I recently found out I somehow write much better and feel more satisfied when I vent my anger on writing. Something that doesn’t happen really often, but it happens and it’s great therapy!

10. Is there anything you would like to be better at? Writing certain scenes or genres, replying to comments, updating better, etc.

Tons of things, most particular. I would like to become less paranoid over people not seeing my scenarios, thus making my style less complex to the untrained eye. Also, fighting scenes make me cringe because I suck so hard at making them depsite having clear pictures in my head /cries. 

11. Do you write rarepairs or popular ships more often?

I am now very focused on Kacchako and iirc ir used to be a rarepair? but I think it will break out of that zone soon.

12. How many stories have you posted on FFNet/AO3 to this day (finished and unfinished)?

3 on AO3, and 31 on FF.net. 

13. How many stories do you have saved in/with your writing program?

Tons of them that sounded great in my head. It’s that small snapping process of realizing a powerful story is too weak to be posten, and kinda let it rest.

14. Do you write down story ideas, or just keep them in your head?

I keep them in my head and plan to write them. Only the fantasy AU for kacchako has made it out of my head, lol.

15. Have you ever co-authored a story?

Yes, and it was a wonderful experience.

16. How did you discover FFNet/AO3?

Weirdly enough, from DeviantArt! I would usually go there searching for art pieces and found some deep small fics, whose authors would usually have a FF.net account. I only knew of AO3 last year, but I think I read one a bit before that. Not exactly sure when.

17. Do you consider yourself to be a popular or famous author in your fandom(s) on FFNet/AO3?

Not at all, there is too many talented people in this damn kaccha house  (⁎˃ᆺ˂) they are all so good jdskak

18. Do you have a nickname or fandom name for your readers?

People usually call me Mira, but use others for Discord. 

19. Was there an author who inspired or encouraged you to write?

Lots of them! Every author that lies in my recs gallery has inspired me in one way or another. Though that place is kinda outdated so I may have to add some more, but all my friends have inspired me overall. They are all wonderful writers and artists and it’s amazing to be so surrounded.

20. What writing advice would you give to a beginning author?

Don’t feel pushed to write queality straightaway, and always read other stuff to build new vocab and structures. Everytime you read, you will most likely learn something new as every author’s view gives you a new perspective on things. I have found it to be a great practice!

21. Do you plot out your stories, or do you just figure it out as you go?

Plot, always. Everytime I am listening to music and come up with a new snippit, I jot it down anywhere I can. Google’s Keep is a pretty nifty tool for this!

22. Have you ever gotten a bad comment on a story? If so, what did you do?

Well, I only got maybe two! One of them was pretty lukewarm and more of an advice that I followed, and it was a good one despite the harshness of it. On the other hand, I got one comment that told me they were giving up on my story because it was too thick style and lore wise, but I didn’t mind at all tbh-- I already knew I was facing these kinds of risks when I started writing long things like these.

23. Is there a certain type of scene that you have a hard time writing? (action, smut, etc..)

Fighting scenes in general kind of take a lot of time for me to work with, and same with some simply dialogue bits that I am like: and what now!? D:

24. What story(s) are you working on now?

My fantasy AU! pls if sb is reading Im sorry I will update soon don’t press charges thank

25. Do you plan your next project(s) before you finish your current ongoing story(s)?

I usually jot the deets down and push it aside until I am done with my main thing. It’s probably my best habit when it comes to planning, lol.

26. Do you have a daily writing goal set for yourself?

Not really. I usually try to plan when I wanna update, divide my chap’s aproximate word count and split it in days!

27. Do you think you’ve improved as a writer since you first started?

Oof, definitely. Mostly because my English has improved along with my writing and that helps. A lot.

28. What is your favorite story(s) that you’ve written?

I did write one in Spanish that got lots of good feedback and invested readers, and I had a blast writing its lore and characters.

29. What is your least favorite story(s) that you’ve written?

I wrote a pretty dark fic once and it’s a fic I know I wrote well? but I am kinda ashamed of looking back at it.

30. Where do you see yourself (as a writer) in 5 years?

Maybe working on something that is a little bit more professional, or just enjoying myself. Got no clue tbh.

31. What is the easiest thing about writing?

I think I can be pretty ominous in some parts and be very subtle with foreshadowing. The art of subtlety is something I worship everyday.

32. What is the hardest thing about writing?

Trying to live up to those little scenes I had in my head, and writing them as good as possible. And description in general, sometimes. And word count consistency is something that worries me sometimes. Oh, and the endless fear of poking a plothole bigger than a damn blackhole.

33. Why do you write?

To make people entertained and happy if they want something to read!

I nominate the great artists and gals @animeniac​, @kacchanswife​, @hondaroo​, @kacchas​ and @liltoothbrush​! If you don’t reply I’ll press charges so hahaha! 

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I got a lot goin on in this post so bear with me if its scattered. Apologies in advance

Lets just fuck around and talk about my physiological state. Consistently having hot flashes. Stressed or is it just July in Texas, we’ll never know. Got a fuckin lump in my throat, Yknow, the kind you get before you cry? So here's the fucking issue, I cannot cry. I have not been able to for months I will not allow myself to have the feelings.

I have developed these ungodly delusions of grandeur relating myself. What are they you ask well lets rattle them off!

- every time someone asks me if I want something from them and the answer is yes I still say no because I deserve nothing B)

but Claire! surely you have human wants and desires! yes! I have so many! I just only want to give every ounce of myself to other people and accept nothing ni return because I am trying to waste away and die and at least if I never accept anything from others they 

- People keep needing my emotional energy/effort so I no longer have time to have any feelings of my own because I'm too busy stressing about someone else’s problems

now you might saying “Claire just don't answer! just ignore them!’ GOD I WOULD LOVE TO. Too bad I was built to carry guilt the size of the Vatican, and I simply feel bad if I read someones Text and know they're having a bad time. If I even read the fucking TEXT I will not be able to stop thinking about it so honestly just fuck me. you might also be asking well Claire, how is that a grandiose delusion? BECAUSE THESE BITCHES DON’T NEED ME HOLY FUCK. 

I have Made myself such an accessible resource for my friends to just fucking ravage and that is completely my own doing. Why did I do it? Because I wholeheartedly believe if I am not providing a service to my friends that I am useless because I am also convinced I have no other redeeming qualities.

people seem to like me a lot but I don’t really care, because they like my customer service personality. I won't say “I am” because some of you little shit bags who read my blog disagree, but I SEE MYSELF as nothing more than a multitool? 

aaaaaand jumping to another thought rn but I sent my friend a video explaining a sad piece of art I made and they replied “ma’am do you need assistance?” and I replied with “no I will never need assistance from anyone because I am not plagued by the same disgusting mortal issues that you emotional fools are” and lets just unpack alllll of that for a second

1. I am not god. I am a stupid fucking idiot who makes so many mistakes

2. viewing myself as a god is the reason I can't feel normal emotions anymore. I told myself too many times “you don't deserve to be sad your life it good” so now every time I am sad, no im not. it just, goes down ... down.... down down down down down and now I just feel nothing

3. #2 also applies to desire. I want something? no I don't. I am utterly incapable of asking for anything now for fear of being perceived as someone who needs things or help. I don't need either. I can do everything on my own and if I can't I will simply fucking die.

I forgot where I was going so now im moving on if you don't like it, mail me Adderall so I can focus.

anyway I have another weird problem where sometimes im sad or I have a negative feeling and I want to tell someone about it and I will open up the text conversation with all of my friends, type a message, decide nobody wants to hear it, delete it, try again with another friend, delete it, and repeat that process untilI have tried everyone. In which case, I will fuck my way over to this website and start writing. 

I think I can't talk to my friends because someone them come to me with so many things and its honesty really annoying. I don't care what I tell my friends about always being there to help them because right now im putting all of my problems on the back burner to deal with theirs so that I can maintain my friendships. I am so tired of everyone and I wish they would leave me alone. I have tiers of friendship because I genuinely can't handle being close to so many people but GOD it feels like in SAO when they were climbing the world tree to get to Asuna. In this scenario, my friendship is Asuna, my mental stability is the world tree and my GOD y'all are chopping that bitch down. Is there even a polite way to tell someone “you are getting to close to me and I don't like it so can you please back the fuck off and stop trying to know me? please go back to the acquaintance zone until I am ready for you”

I stared at the tv for too long so now its time to tell you all that I think max and Emma are my only friends who are valid and matter. They are the only people who'd have the gall to read my blog. I love you stupid fucks. You are the only 2 people to recognize my extreme disdain for sharing my feelings. I am incredibly appreciative of you both, I love that I don’t feel like I have to talk to you every day to maintain our friendship, I love that you guys open up to me at your own pace, I love that when I tell y'all disgustingly personal things you don't get all serious and “hey, you can always talk to me :( im here for you :(” I already know you bitvhes are. Thank you for being the only two people who don't drive me absolutely insane every day. except the you didn't tell us you were dating Michael. I’m over it but no free passes (I would add a silly and quizzical emoji here but im on my laptop so please re read the last sentence with a tone of a lighthearted and friendly bully)

I will now talk about Everett. There are no issues but I am still entirely unable to be vulnerable with him. its a problem I would like to get over. I can't ask him for anything either. Idk why I just don’t like to. I don't like to ask anyone for anything but idk I thought id be able to open up to my own boyfriend? He is obviously caring and understanding I just feel like. The second I’m vulnerable with one person like. I’m known. id be perceived? He knows im depressed fuck I just feel like I have so many more negative traits that im hiding? I don't even know what they are I just feel like they’re bad and I want to hide them.  I feel like hell think less of me or idk just get disappointed over time.

Im definitely projecting issues from my last relationship. Im keeping them to myself as much as I can but fuck its kinda hard? rowan was also super infatuated with me and thought I was great and amazing and supportive and look how we ended up. I love the high-rise but im worried I won't be able to keep living up to it. So the hard part now is just

do I continue playing god?

or do I let someone see that I’m human

ok im not ending on that cliche fucking note so uh. ill probably keep playing god because I still can't feel anything. I feel to a small degree but its just so buried I don't even know what to do anymore. Maybe ill just die lol