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foxy-kitsune · 2 months ago

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i am so fucking proud of you my 7dream💚

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flowerakatsuka · 8 months ago

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indirect compliment

#for anyone wondering how bad kuro's crush on kara was back in high school this was the shit they were doing #they're so fucking goofy back then it makes me want to cry—#i have another comic idea about kuroba watching the play kara was in... it's so silly...... 😭#don't even get be started on the what if scenario of if they actually got to know each other in hs #( actually please do i'd love to talk about it )#also say hi to kuroba's hs bully her name's shin #very much considering developing her into an actual character instead of just a bully she's been on my mind #i have some ideas for her so we'll see #okay it's bedtime #osomatsu-san #osmt #osomatsu-san oc #yumematsu #18matsu #mj ocs #oc : kuroba #oc : shin #ship : kurokara #mj draws

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dazais-guardian-angel · 2 months ago

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Well, at least Fukuzawa got his wish granted, I guess.... he's finally inside Fukuchi <3

#bungou stray dogs #bsd spoilers #bsd 120.5 #please laugh i know i made myself laugh.... if only to keep from crying lol #the oocification of Fukuzawa will be studied in the history books for years to come #that's not my fukuzawa...... that's his discount twin fucksack #because his dick is so far up the ass of his dead pathetic dumbass crusty ex boyfriend it's not even funny #he is dickriding that fucker HARD #and here i thought the FANDOM woobified fukuchi out the wazoo. but oh my god no fukuzawa himself has them all beat this chapter #man is coco for cocopuffs and babying that grown-ass man like he's 5 #it's truly pathetic and depressing to see i'm just beyond words #'you deceived him by keeping quiet the issues that would plague a union of mankind' NO??? LITERALLY ANYONE WITH A BRAIN WOULD KNOW #THAT THAT WOULD NEVER FUCKING WORK???? THAT IT'S THE STUPIDEST MOST NAIVE PLAN AND VIEW OF THE WORLD IMAGINABLE????#WHY ARE YOU ACTING LIKE THIS IS A TODDLER INSTEAD OF A GROWN-ASS SOLDIER WITH YEARS OF MILITARY EXPERIENCE #Fyodor feels like the only one at this point that hasn't truly lost the plot in all this...... the only one with a goddamn brain #I HATE THAT I HAVE TO AGREE WITH HIM!!!!!!!!! I HATE THAT IT FELT SO CATHARTIC!!!!!!!!!!!!#and i hate even more that the series clearly doesn't want us to agree with him and instead believe that fukuzawa is still right #even though he was spouting the most naive braindead bullshit imaginable that early series Fukuzawa would NEVER SAY #WHAT ABOUT YOUR CHILDREN BRO??? WHY DO YOU CARE MORE ABOUT DEFENDING THE HONOR OF THAT CRUSTY MF THAN #THE SAFETY OF YOUR KIDS????#WHERE DID ALL YOUR INTELLIGENCE GO #i fucking hated the writing ever since fukuchi's plan/motives were first revealed and it was played completely straight (and gay lol)#but to hear fukuzawa actually come out and defend that ridiculous bs is just.......... again i have no words #it's insane. what happened. what happened to you fukuzawa. all i can do is laugh it's so sad it's so stupid. I WAS CRINGING SO BAD.#and was so glad when he finally died so he finally SHUT THE FUCK UP. i hate it here. i miss when BSD was good so bad man 😭😭😭#it would be one thing if it felt like he's so deep in grief that he's completely deluded himself that fukuchi was right and had pure motive #and wasn't an idiotic piece of shit himself just like fyodor #but nah again it just feels like we're supposed to side with him lmao even though fyodor was exactly right in everything he said #when your villain sounds more intelligent/correct than your hero and that's not an intentional writing choice..... that's not good bros!!!#anyway may your stupidity be purified in the soul of your dead bf fukuzawa 🙏 and we get the true you back

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choccorin · 4 months ago

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GUYYYYYYSSSSSSSSUEBDUEIDVWJXBWJDJBEJD !!!!1!! 1!1!1!!!!1!1!!1!1!1!!!1!1!1!11!!1!!!111!!

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gingergari · 2 months ago

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baby’s first fakemon 🎉

Brairn

Type: Grass/Rock

Height: 8’0” 2.4 m Weight 247.0 lbs 112.0 kg

Ability: Wayfinder, Sturdy (Hidden)

Wayfinder is the Brairn evolution family’s signature ability. This Pokémon’s moves will always hit, but it will always move last.

Pokédex Entry 1: Brairn prefer to remain stationary if possible. Hikers can reliably use them as cairns.

Pokédex Entry 2: It is believed that Brairn originated from the emotions and spirit of hikers on trails.

Origins: Brairn appear to be based on mossy cairns.

Etymology: Bryophyta, the taxonomic division of moss + Cairn

Brairn evolve into ??? at level 31.

#gari draws #nintendo #pokemon #fakemon #brairn #this fakemon was born from my frustration at pokedoku that there’s literally three grass/rock pokemon and none of them are moss rocks #like dude do you know how many times they play that category i already got dex for the three (3) pokemon give it a rest 😭#thought a little bit about theming and remembered how people make psas about rock stacking bc the tourist ones can get people lost #if they think they’re cairns and so we got this guy #the number one thing preventing me from posting them months ago was the fact that i didn’t have an ability #and then i had real like stuff once i actually figured one out which was funny bc this was 90% done too #graphic design is not my passion #the aligning shit pissed me off so bad #i think i lowballed the weight but it came to me in a dream (random number in my head)#their cry sounds like you’re shaking pebbles probably #i already designed the evo the same time as this but i just dont have dex entries #also i need to draw them officially they were designed in apple notes ✨#then after that i want to design a ground/fairy fakemon #i was really into fairies as a kid but unfortunately that just manifested in reading fictional book series and writing group fiction #on message boards about it #so i need to look up mythology for inspiration

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spaghett-onaplate · 8 months ago

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depression is really weird actually wdym i spent 2.5 years of my life in bed

#and wdym that lifestyle changed so quickly into being out and about and an active member of the world??#very proud of myself #and i mean it wasn't that quick of a change #it was like 1.5 years primarily depression bedrotting with occasional school -> primarily depression bedrotting ->#primarily depression bedrotting with 3-9 hours of work weekly -> straight into 31+ hours school+9-12 hours work weekly #so there was somewhat of a gradual progression #but still #also wowza i wake up 7-7:30am every morning now. 1pm was an early wake up for a not so insignificant amount of time #i mean of all fundamental growth years to miss out on the ages like what 12/13-15 aren't too bad? they would suck in a different way if i #had been socially involved #anyway it's just. yea i'm proud of myself but it is a crazy lifestyle change #and even when i was deeply depressed in a horrible routine i feel like i learned a lot. how to regulate my emotions and cope well and find #the joy in everything. bc if i stayed in bed all day then i would at least be happy about the sun or whatever #and for the while of being not at school at all i WANTED to be at school i just could not find one bc our school system is so cute like tha #(basically every school is at capacity and the local school that has a guaranteed place for me would have been an all boys or girls 😭)#but i miraculously found and got into this school and miraculously made it work so well for me socially and now academically #it's also a good time to get back into school for my education bc any later and it woulda been pretty bad for all my certifications and uni #ive missed out on so much maths that its not worth it to me to try and catch up but my teacher knows that #but ive always hated maths regardless i only ever understood it for the first half of yr 7 then my attendance dropped #and after my recent exam i decided to try harder at school. but i still got an A on the exam i didn't study for!! academic weapon fr #i'm just idk thinking back to myself in the past few years #and how hopeless it all felt. but i got out of it!! i beat the depression and social anxiety and found a good place and made the most of it #and during the peak of my depression i remember i went out someplace near my old school and panicked so so badly about seeing #kids from my old school. and the friends at the time didnt really check on me when i went to shake and cry in a side street lmao #i kept the best of that friendgroup and have better friends now. but anyway now i take a bus each morning with some kids from my old school #and you see these hands? they look like they're shaking to you?#anyway yeah it's just cool i got to this point :) i really had no hope for so long but now i have a life i'm living and a future i'm build #--ing towards #which is funny i just decided some random day last november after watching some better call saul 'huh actually lawyer would b pretty cool'#and will i get there? we'll see but i do have hope now

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rose-tinted-kalopsia · 2 months ago

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STOP YOU GUYS 😭 my heart broke into tiny little PIECES 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 MY LUKE AND KIERAN :((((((((

im sniffling...................... this sentence..............

#lnds spoilers #i want to yap so bad #i love them to death 😭😭😭😭😭#like oh my god they deserve the WORLD #😭😭😭😭😭 IM ACTUALLY CRYING #ʚɞ*.ﾟ. lnds #*ੈ♡. rose talks #(this user is a luke and kieran truther)

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grenadine-blood · 18 days ago

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Fool’s Fate is literally taking years off of my life and I’m only 15% of the way through this book…….. the palpable loneliness Fitz feels is nauseating because the love he receives is not the love he’s ready to accept, yet he genuinely feels deprived of a type of love that’ll never be his,,, and I just really need someone to be punished for allowing these words to be committed to paper.

#realm of the elderlings #rote #figposting #roteposting #i’ve been avoiding finishing the tawny man trilogy because mutuals kept giving me ominous warnings #and i know it gets more painful from here but i really had to put the book down #fitz makes me want to lay down in a dark silent room #love without limits is right there #but the love he wants #whether it be a wife or parent #is not quite within his reach #i just had to air this out so i don’t roll around and cry or tear my copy of fools fate to shreds #and maybe this says something about me as to why it made me so sad 😭#i’m so afraid to keep reading because i want to be delusional about the trajectory of the story so bad #sorry for the novel in the tags but he makes me so mad because he pushes everything away that would actually make him happy #only to cling on to what hurts him while simultaneously hurting others #like these aren’t new ideas but i just gotta reaffirm that he is pathetic #fitzchivalry farseer

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seventh-district · 2 months ago

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7am, eating cold leftover teriyaki stir-fry for breakfast and crying over blorbos

#normal Saturday morning behavior #redacted spoilers #redacted audio #redacted sam #Seven.txt #rp audio stuff #well. crying over one singular blorbo in particular. Sam's still got me in an emotional chokehold #and i'm too sad to even make a stupid little joke abt how i wouldn't mind if it was a physical one too. ayeee *insert sad eyebrow wiggle*#no but seriously. i have so many feelings abt him and i can't even say it all bc some of it isn't public info yet #eh fuck it i'll just draft this until the audio goes public and then i'll post it once it's no longer Exclusive Info #bc i dont wanna leak Early Access stuff but i have to get this out of my system rn and the new audio is part of what sparked these thoughts #which is funny bc i. literally haven't even listened to it yet. i'm not Ready 😭#where's that tiktok screenshot that's like. 'hyperfixation so bad that i can't even engage with the source material' bc that's me rn #like bro Sam only won the poll like. 2 or 3 days ago and Eric is Already dropping a new Sam audio?? hello? Mr. Redacted i wasn't prepared #anyways i was spoiling myself by perusing the comments last night trying to get a feel for if it's gonna be more angst or comfort #and i saw a comment that absolutely shattered me. and it reignited all my sad thoughts about Sam's eventual. uh. y'know. death.#apparently they plant a tree together or smthn in the new audio (which already has me & my beloved 10y/o orange tree feeling some kinda way #but to the individual in the comments who brought to all our minds the image of Sam sitting beneath that tree in 30 or so years time #when he's decided that he's ready to die and sits out there waiting for the sun to rise..................... 🥲#i'm gonna need u to compensate me for all of that unexpected emotional damage /j /nm #i'm Still not over what he told Darlin' while they had their talk about the future up on his roof together. that audio killed me #then yesterday i was listening to my Sam & Darlin' playlist while cleaning. and Malibu Nights by LANY came on. which i always skip bc Sad #but i let it play and just started crying. standing in the middle of the room all disheveled and holding a broom. as one does.#iirc that song is one that Eric himself said is applicable to Sam which is why/how i found it and put it on the playlist. and god. g o d #hm. i hope that wasn't Patreon exclusive info. i can't remember if it was a public post where he said that or not. hope it's okay to share #but if we can take that song as like. unofficial canon for Sam then that also confirms my idea that he used to drink to cope #which makes the opening lines of Fix What You Didn't Break by Nate Smith even more applicable. i should go edit that post actually #anyways i'm just. feeling a lot. and i love Sam very much and i don't want him to die. but i want him to do what he wants at the same time #Alexis took so fucking much from him. he deserves to live - and end - his life on his own terms. ... i think i need to go write something #*casually fishes this post out of the drafts 3 and a half days later* hi so uh. i wrote a 4k oneshot :) and will hopefully post it tomorrow

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beatlesmenrock · 8 months ago

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me watching yellow submarine

#i really enjoyed it actually #why was everyone so mean to Jeremy im crying they hated his ass 😭😭😭#the beatles think everything a fucking game like 😭😭😭 i know that’s the point but someone has to put them on leashes they fr dont LISTSN #is it bad to say i wanted George in this movie #ANYWAYS…#yellow submarine #the beatles #beatles

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j-crow · 4 days ago

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going through my photos and its like wow…. august through october was a fucking nightmare for me

#jc’s cawing #i dony really regret being in those servers but like ???#for context i screenshotted everytime my crush at the time texted me something that i thought seemed romantic #because i feared it would block me once i actually told it #and so i could cry about it on my side blog that i had #always gotta assume the worst of people!!!#anyways #i just??? idk man #maybe im not used to friends being really affectionate???#i think i just get attracted to people way too easily #im very picky with the people i like and when i DO like someone i get way too attached to them #or maybe im right saying that asking me to be a character that you called gay for another character is gonna make me think you want me #(it was sherlock and watson btw)#like you sent a video that had the desc ‘i want a gf/bf so bad’ ???#AM I CRAZY. AM I CRAZY FOR THINKING IT WANTED ME.#all the ‘i thought of you’s as well….#thats my number one weakness #if you tell me you thought of me while i was gone i will instantly fold #i would show the screenshots but i dont hate it that much to show private conversations #anyways!!#looking through different stuff now because i need closure from that shit #the funniest person in that server was snips oh my fucking god im crying #‘No... Chachi...WE CAN'T LET OUR ALPHA DIE’ HELLO????? 😭😭#‘THE DOCTOR AND MY PARENTS WERE NOT LOOKSMAXXING’ ??? 😭😭#from merro btw #‘instead of suicide you just fruited everywhere’ thank you for your wonderful commentary charlie 😭😭#THE UQUIZ REPUBLICAN RESULT?????#‘JC >!??! MORE LIKE BETRAY ME >?!?? top 10 jokes that make more sense when you say them out loud’ 😭😭#dude where the fuck did merro go #they just disappeared one day and i never saw them again

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andragoras-in-vanity · 9 days ago

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im sure ive alrwady said this but veilgaurd called me a bottom in evedy language, most strongly elvhen tho. i cannot stop thinking about elgar'nans lil spiel to the venatori saying 'all you must do is love me, and kneel' like bruh......if rook wasnt so spiteful they probably would have...just to see where he was going with that....

#im afraid of a lot as i get to the end of the game but technical things like the skill tree and subclasses aside #i dont get why people are so unhappy with it #maybe im biased cause i always play an elf but i fucking LOVE learning about elvhen history and how we shaped thedas #and then it all went to shit and our gods hated us and used tevinter to make the world worse #i highly doubt this is the last da game the series is too popular and adding that we can be trans now is a massive improvement #even if i think the lighthouse should have been more like skyhold and let us talk to companions more #and craft the armor ourselves #and ngl i think the lighthouse should have been more of a refuge for those that survived the gods attacks #like anyone from arlathen/dmeta or hossberg #idk im really only bad about the skill tree and subclasses and lack of bards tbh #but truely......the lucanis almost kiss???? everything about being a mourn watcher??? my SHATHANN CALLING ME A TWINK #this game called me a slur #and just the fucking appearance of my lil rook....he looked so blissed when under elgar'nans trance #bellara and neve were so done with my shit there 😭#i do want to play a dwarf really badly next time #or qunari because the games have built a really interesting cuture for them but never really went strongly into it other than like #the arishok and the antaam? but now they mention the devouring storm and thats probably a fuckass big dragon #but now i need to know more #im not done but veilguard very much isnt the conclusion #but my god i cant stop thinking about how vulnerable my rook actually is like from the personality ive given him from myself #if the gods or like anaris found him before varric did.....this would be a very different story and there would be a lot of tears and #begging for a shot at redemption and care #oh god wed disappoint vorgoth......might as well just kill myself if that ever happened #i just love that my rook has become more senstive as ive played and more hurt when he was already not doing so hot for personal reasons #he still has a smart mouth but he wants to cry like 9/10 times he has to make decisions #companions stop asking me to shape their lives challenges #ngl rook would absolutely stsrt bawling his eyes out over manfred begging emmerichs forgivness for wanting manfred back #i just imagine tears coming down his face as he tells emmerich manfred was a hero and he deserves another chance to keep learning so that #next time he does soemthing heroic...hes prepared and wont 'die' by doing it #cause my lil guy knows hes not smart enough to bring manfred back himself

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running-in-the-dark · 2 months ago

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I've got a psychiatrist appointment tomorrow. mostly to discuss if the new sleep medication is working. it is.. not? I don't know. it sorta makes me stay asleep better but tbh that only really means it's even more impossible to wake up when I need to.

idk at this point I'm getting close to just saying you know what? thank you for trying to help, mr. nice old psychiatrist guy, but let's just give up! who needs sleep anyway (me, like 12-16 hours a day). I'm just not gonna do it anymore! that sounds more doable than ever figuring out how to sleep normally!!

#literally like. everything is kinda fucked up and everything hurts a lot of the time and everything just feels wrong in my stupid body #but not being able to sleep and also being tired all of the time and sleeping so much is so so so shitty #like I can't fall asleep when I want to and I can't stay awake when I need to #it fucking sucks #also my so called sleep schedule ALWAYS goes back to sleeping at like 5 or 6 am no matter how much I try to go to bed earlier #it never ever lasts #also it's really funny (haha sooooo hilarious) when people talk about sleep hygiene. as if it actually does/changes anything?? apparently it #does for normal people??#literally nothing ever helps (at least not more than a few random unpredictable times)#also. the toddler upstairs has been crying every morning starting around 5am. for an hour.#which is juuust perfect for helping me sleep. 😭😭😭 but anyway I've got Thursday Murder Club to listen to. and also my husband snoring in #his room next to mine lol. this feels like some kind of really mean joke 🙃#ALSO also. I have to get up in 3 hours for the appointment........ every damn time I'm like oof this is bad I need to get a later #appointment next time! and then I immediately forget.#personal

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phagodyke · 3 months ago

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aouuugh my uterus......

#long long day at work codeine wasnt helping with cramps and my meds are less effective on my period :(#ive been doing okay most of the day tho just starting feeling kind of miserable omw home bc such a long wait at the bus stop in pain #and im kind of lonely at the moment but wont be able to climb tomorrow bc of cramps so thats my main social source gone :(#and it always feels worse at home bc if im having a hard time like in physical pain or feeling down my roommate cant rly handle it #like she cant rly be in the room with me the headphones go straight on. which is ok im realising its just how her type of autism works #so im trying not to get as upset at her abt it. with varying degrees of success but it just takes time #i mean i dont get upset AT her like ik its not her fault and i dont want her feeling like it is. I keep it internal + cry once im alone #just different social needs n boundaries innit. we're a bit incompatible is all #but its still hard. I'd like support from other ppl when I'm struggling i mean i think thats a fairly normal thing to want #but of the friends I would be comfortable talking to abt how i feel none of them have that kind of emotional availability #which again is ok like its not on them. and im very capable of dealing w my shit myself one way or another so its not a Need #but idk. it would just be nice. I feel like I've had to be so independent most of my teenage and adult life and I wish I could take a #break from that sometimes. even just a hug would be nice man #sorry i always come on here and talk abt the same problems... well youll see me do it again no doubt abt that 🫠#ughh and i feel so guilty for wanting things ppl cant give even though i know its not really my fault either and im allowed to want things #and i dont cross boundaries or make them feel bad abt it. i really hope i dont anyway. but still ahhh...#its so hard for me to feel connected to anyone if they cant rly engage w me emotionally at all like its a non negotiable #factor into closeness and trust for me and i get so frustrated bc i feel so distant and alienated from the ppl i care abt most #and ik i overreact bc of my rsd so maybe its just that its probably not even a real issue. but its real to me bc im the one who gets upset #man. anyway its okay just a really really long day. im gonna wash my dishes and then shower #and finish my book. maybe i should play some dead cells i miss it. i dont really want to think abt how i feel anymore #maybe ill see if anyones free to hang out tmr evening so i dont have to feel as lonely even if i cant leave the house after work #all good nice to have a plan anyway. done sniffling. my hot water bottle is helping thr cramps a littlr i think #.diaries #oh i dont think its helping actually ow. i took more codeine an hour ago why doesnt it do anything. not fairrr 😭

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dandyshucks · 8 months ago

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been coping with [gestures vaguely at family] by writing a little thing in my notes app of Guz and I having an exhaustion-fueled and stress-fueled argument and how we would handle that because good golly it is definitely better than how this family handles it lmao at the very least it would not be Constant Griping :')))

#get me OUTTA HEREEE #we might be gone an extra day now bc of some stuff happening and im just like... wanting to cry a little bit bc of it fjdkdl #my god these ppl sure can gripe though. its genuinely like. at least 60% of the talking is just complaining or arguing #i have been staying quiet as much as i can without being too quiet bc then i get accused of ''pouting'' or being ''owly''#im just trying to keep my mouth shut so yall dont get snippy at me 😭😭#i am exhausted tbqh dhfkfl we have... four or five more days left depending on if we take that extra day away #gritting my teeth and pushing through this !!!! with the love of blorbo giving me strength LMAO #it's kind of comforting though to write about arguments with Guz bc we would be able to talk it out afterwards #and figure out better ways of handling things and be proactive and also ACTUALLY APOLOGIZE GOODNESS GRACIOUS PLEASEEEE #okay theres my vent. its been bad DJFJDKL but I don't wanna come on here and dump my shit out everywhere and then disappear LOL #there have been pockets of good though so fjfkdl i take what i can get !! enjoying what i can !!#vent //#dandy.cmd

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fallowtail · 4 months ago

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knowing you will never get better and are actively and visibly getting worse and rapidly declining and are basically just a husk to consume the joy of others is so fun actually i highly recommend it

#haven’t even been able to discuss even just fandom bullshit with people in about 5 months that isn’t me supporting their #ideas or rehashing what they say back at them lol i want to cry so bad there genuinely is nothing left for me #like everyone still gets up my ass about therapy but what will talking to someone who doesn’t actually give a shit or understand about #this do other than gaslight me into being okay with it. i dont want to be fucking okay with it because it is killing me #like living a life where you have nothing left isn’t worth it imo just to make other people feel better. insane behaviour expecting me to #just move along actually #“you still have value even if you have no skills or provide anything :)” like okay thanks but that is literally not the fucking issue here😭#z

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