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pairings: alhaitham, kaveh, kazuha, lyney, scaramouche, and xiao x gn!reader (separate)
content: fluff, modern au, college au, the reader is a sleep-deprived student, correction: everyone in this fic is a sleep-deprived student, cuddling, reader is sick in scaraâs, venti makes a cameo in kazuhaâs part, reverse comfort in kavehâs
summary: small scenarios with the genshin boys as your roommates! âĄ
a/n: this has been sitting in my drafts for a while, so i decided to finally finish it up. i hope you enjoy!
âËàŹȘ ALHAITHAM
Tonight, it feels like endless night ebbs and flows into the very core of your being, chilling you with fragments of a glacial atmosphere.
Itâs cold.
Even with multiple blankets wrapped around you, you canât help but shiver, shake like a vibrant autumn leaf in a passing zephyr. Winter is approaching, and unfortunately for you, you may have relished a little too much in the gilded threads of summer warmth that had graced the world a few months prior. For now, youâre unable to stand the gradual freeze thatâs beginning to spread throughout your city.
Slumber is tempting. It lures you in, wrapping you in a blanket weaved of starlight and dreams. However, itâs all an illusion. In reality, youâre far from sleep. You know that thereâs no way youâll be able to pass the gateway into the oneiric realm. Not with the sensation of frostbite threatening to consume you whole.
Eventually, you decide to get up. Youâre certain that you wonât be able to fall asleep, at least, not without more blankets, so you decide to make your way to Alhaithamâs room to ask if he has any spares.
Although youâd normally feel guilty for rousing someone from slumber, itâs not that late as of right now. Either way, youâre quite certain that your roommate is still wide awake, most likely losing himself amongst the yellowed pages of a verbose book. After all, he always seems to have his nose buried in a complex tome, filled with words that make your brain hurt.
Slowly, you drag yourself out from under the plush covers of your bed. The floorboards groan slightly as you stand, exhaling under the pressure of your footsteps. You make your way down a hallway drowned in shades of midnight, making your way towards the golden light seeping out into the corridor from under the cracks of a closed door.
The door to Alhaithamâs room.
You knock, the sound seemingly echoing down the walls of the hall, repeating in a chorus of onomatopoeia.
A few seconds pass before the door opens to reveal Alhaitham. Strands of silver hair messily frame his face, and yet as the aquamarine hues of his irises meet your gaze, you find that heâs just as dazzling as ever.
âDo you need something?â he asks, his voice as flat and monotonous as always. As usual, your roommateâs front doesnât betray a single hint of emotion. Not even irritation.
You pause for a moment, still a little intimidated by Alhaitham. Although youâve been living together for a while now, his apathetic demeanour can be slightly off-putting at times. Nonetheless, you eventually manage to steel your nerves.
âYeah,â you say. The word comes tumbling out of your mouth clumsily. âDo you happen to have any extra blankets?â
Alhaitham pauses for a moment, seemingly deep in thought.
You hold your breath, hoping that heâll say yes, and youâll be able to get this over with.
However, he shakes his head, and you feel your heart drop, shattering into a thousand shards of fragmented ruby.
âOh,â you sigh, trying your best to hide the dejected expression overtaking your features. âThatâs okay. Sorry for bothering you.âÂ
You turn away, ready to head back to your room, but Alhaithamâs voice stops you.
âI think itâs safe to presume you wanted a blanket because you were cold, right?â
Itâs a rhetorical question, so you donât bother to answer it. Instead, you freeze, becoming akin to a statue carved of pale blue ice.
âThen allow me to propose an alternate solution.â
You turn around, meeting Alhaithamâs eyes once more. Lakes of turquoise, typically devoid of emotion, are now filled with a particular spark. You canât quite determine what it is, but thereâs a subtle glimmer â barely visible, but itâs there.
âWhy donât you stay in my room for the night?â
Your eyes widen, and you feel your jaw drop. For a moment, you just stand there, absolutely still and dumbfounded.
Perhaps you had heard Alhaitham wrong. Or maybe your mind is playing tricks on you, making mirages materialize out of nothing. The blank expression painted over your roommateâs features certainly makes you think so.
âExcuse me?â you blink languidly, staring at Alhaitham as if heâll disappear into thin air if you take your eyes off him.
âI said why donât you stay in my room for the night?â he repeats nonchalantly, the evening chill seemingly intertwining itself into his tone. His gaze remains fixated on you.
Your mind blanks for a second, each intricate acrylic line of a composition painted over, leaving you with nothing but an empty canvas. As you stand still, a thousand scenarios seem to flash through your head, filling up the blank space with a myriad of thoughts â some pleasant and some unpleasant. However, you soon realize that you donât have time to weigh all the pros and cons of your decision, as Alhaitham is staring at you intently, awaiting your answer.
âSure,â you blurt out.
Youâre not sure what compels you to accept his proposal. Perhaps itâs your longing for the comfort of shared warmth. Perhaps itâs a result of your inability to say no to others due to a fear of disappointing them. Or perhaps itâs because youâve grown a lot closer to Alhaitham than youâd care to admit.
Although youâre still slightly intimidated by him, youâre certain that heâd never do anything to harm you. And there are even times where he shows he has your best interests in mind (despite the fact that you were initially under the impression that he cared little for others).
Youâre snapped out of your trance of reminiscence as Alhaitham speaks once more.
âAlright,â he says, taking your hand and leading you over to his bed. His grip is firm â not suffocating, but at the same time, not so soft that the connection between the two of you would be easily severed.
Alhaithamâs touch sends butterflies, tinted a colour reminiscent of spring blossoms, dancing within the pit of your stomach. Itâs enchanting, and at this rate, youâre not sure how youâll be able to handle sleeping in the same bed as him.
He allows you to climb into bed first, tucking you in with an unexpected amount of care. You know Alhaithamâs not exactly the cold-hearted jerk many make him out to be, but you didnât anticipate that heâd be this gentle, his touch akin to the caress of sunlight on a spring day.
After the man ensures that youâre cozy, he lies down beside you, embracing you. As he does so, you feel a wave of heat overwhelm you. To your relief, the frigidness that had once gnawed at your very soul is now gone, but unfortunately, youâre faced with a new problem.
Alhaithamâs actions have flustered you, and to your misfortune, it feels as though crimson embers of embarrassment are bursting into flames far too quickly for your liking.
Youâve solved one issue, but in turn, youâve accidentally created another.
This is going to be a long night.
âËàŹȘ KAVEH
Itâs no secret that your roommate is a perfectionist.
Whenever his eyebrows knit up in a jumble of discontent and pools of liquid ruby tinged with sunsets glint with hints of frustration, it becomes obvious whatâs going on. Heâs spent too long trying to perfect yet another assignment. The bags that seem to perpetually line the undersides of his eyes are dark shadows â serving as an eternal reminder of the manâs exhaustion.
There are times where you find him hunched over his desk, teetering on a thin tightrope, walking a line between the waking world and a wonderland of dreams. Of course, he refuses to succumb to the temptations of a golden slumber time and time again, forcing himself to fixate on his projects until heâs finished and happy with the final product.
Today is one of those days. The cold light that leaks through the cracks beneath the door to Kavehâs room seeps into the hallway, serving as a warning written in a display of molten opalescence.
Stark white. Cutting through the darkness of deep midnights with ease.
Itâs jarring, and when you press your ear to the door and listen carefully, you manage to make out the sound of Kaveh muttering underneath his breath.
You know you have to do something. Now. Before your roommate decides to work himself into a stupor again.
You take a deep breath, inhaling night air reminiscent of the crystalline waters. Itâs refreshing, and as you breathe out, a sense of tranquility washes over you.
Steeling yourself, you knock on Kavehâs door, the sound seemingly reverberating through the corridor in a myriad of echoes.
â[Name]? Is that you?â he asks, his voice ringing out loudly, fragmenting and shattering the quiet ambience.Â
You hear the sounds of drawers opening and closing, papers rustling, and footsteps falling.
âThereâs no point in hiding anything,â you tell your roommate, picturing the distress swirling like nebulae in his vibrant crimson eyes. âI know youâve been working late again.â
The noises come to a halt, and peace returns to the late night atmosphere once more. Soon, the sound of soft footsteps fills your senses, gradually growing louder in a crescendo until youâre sure that Kaveh is right in front of the door.
Not a second later, it swings open to reveal a sleep-deprived Kaveh clad in pyjamas.
âAlright, Iâll admit it,â he sighs. âYou caught me red-handed.â
Silence permeates your senses for a few seconds, but the illusion of stillness is quickly shattered as Kaveh breathes out a sigh.
âI just canât seem to figure out this one last thing,â he groans, burying his head in his hands. âI seriously canât take it anymore. Itâs driving me insane.â
For a few seconds, his gaze remains averted, staring down at the wooden finish of his desk, tinted a subtle peach under the topaz shades of light spilling from Kavehâs lamp. If you didnât know any better, you would have sworn that he had fallen asleep. However, your eyes eventually meet hues of dulled rose, glittering with a faint spark concealed by exhaustion.
âYou should rest,â you tell your roommate, cautiously placing a hand on his shoulder. To your relief, he doesnât flinch or pull away when you touch him. He simply slumps and begins to stand up.
âI suppose youâre right,â he speaks slowly, his voice laced with resignation. âMaybe a short break will help me clear my mind.â
Kaveh walks over to his bed, brushing locks of sunshine away from his eyes. The mattress sinks like quicksand as he lies down and tucks himself under the covers, enveloping him in layers upon layers of plush comfort.
You turn away, switching Kavehâs lamp off before you head back to the door. However, just as youâre about to leave, Kaveh calls your name.
â[Name],â Kaveh starts, his voice seemingly amplified by the abyssal midnight overtaking your surroundings.
You spin around, only to be met with the sight of Kavehâs silhouette outlined against backdrops of navy and black, enveloping the world in curtains of phantasmagoric silk.
âCan you stay with me?â he asks. His voice trembles slightly, and he sounds sheepish â almost shy. âItâs just that, if I donât have you around, I might convince myself to start working again.â
You freeze.
One second.
Two seconds.
Three seconds.
It takes three seconds for you to fully process Kavehâs request, and when you do, you feel your heart skip a beat.
âI would be happy to.â
And with Kavehâs permission, you climb under the covers of his bed with him. He wraps an arm around you. The position feels far too intimate for two roommates who harbour nothing more than platonic feelings for each other, but you decide that thatâs a problem for future you to address.
For now, you decide to close your eyes and seek solace in a realm of breathtaking dreamscapes. Finding joy in each cotton candy cloud, each droplet of crystal rain, and each gilded leaf within a fantastical world found far away from reality.
And yet as you drift off to sleep, you find that thereâs one thing in the waking world that has become far more tantalizing than anything your imagination could ever conjure: the warmth of Kavehâs embrace.
âËàŹȘ KAZUHA
Golden ribbons of warmth caress your face as you open your eyes to find yourself awake again. A wave of tranquility washes over you, weighing down your eyelids with a serene lullaby â an ode to quiet mornings spent in the solace of your home. You want nothing more than to stay in bed for a few more minutes, but you have classes.
Groggily, you stretch and then pick your phone up from where itâs sitting on your nightstand in order to check the time. The screen lights up with a cold radiance, a stark contrast to the gilded rays of the sun, as you turn it on.
And thatâs when all hell breaks loose.
Itâs 9:30 a.m., and youâve already missed the start of your first class. You grimace internally, but you canât dwell on your feelings for too long. After all, the longer you delay, the more youâll miss.
You change in record time, pulling on a comfortable hoodie and jeans, grab a few of your belongings, and rush out the door.
The chilly autumn air brushes against your skin as you make your way to class, and the enticing fragrance of sap hits your nose, tantalizing you with a perfume that carries nostalgic memories. In the corners of your vision, you watch as leaves coloured shades of vivid crimson, marigold, and amber swirl in a waltz signaling the end of summer and the beginnings of harsher days. The scenery is beautiful, and if you werenât in a panic, you would have stopped to admire it. However, you force yourself to ignore the scenes around you, continuing to focus on your primary objective.
When you arrive at the lecture hall, youâre panting. Simple oxygen feels like ambrosia to you, sweet and satisfying, refreshing in a way that itâs never been before. For a few moments, you stand outside the room and catch your breath. With each inhale and exhale, you get closer and closer to finding a rhythm until finally, youâre no longer gasping for air.
Quietly, you walk into class, trying your best to avoid disturbing anyone. Thankfully, nobody seems to notice as you take a seat near the back of the hall, settling down in your seat. Time passes slowly as class continues on, and it almost feels like universal laws operate differently within the small bubble of the room youâre currently sitting in. Everything seems to take an eternity, and you canât do anything except watch the minutes tick by, each addition of one moving you closer and closer to the end of a mundane lecture.
It feels like the moment will never arrive, but eventually, youâre dismissed. Thankfully, thereâs quite a while until you have to go to your next class, so you decide to wander around for a while.
For a while, you stroll aimlessly, eventually finding yourself back outdoors once more. Now, you can truly savour the beauty of your surroundings, relish in the splendor of each flaming leaf that drifts by and each rivulet of tepid light that pierces through the crystalline coolness of the autumn air.
You stand there for a while, simply enjoying a break after a hectic morning.
Until something else â or rather, someone else â catches your eye.
Under the shade of a maple tree stands your roommate, basking in the glory of a crimson waterfall composed entirely of maple leaves dancing gracefully until they hit the ground. His platinum hair is tied back in its usual ponytail, each strand of silken moonlight swaying as a gentle zephyr blows by, and his eyes are a shade of ruby that flawlessly mimics the autumnal landscape.
Heâs as breathtaking as ever.
But before you can admire him for long, hues of starglitter and rose petals meet your gaze, and a small smile dances across his lips. Without a word, he walks over to you.
âRunning into you here is certainly a pleasant surprise,â he says, his grin widening.
âYou say that as if we donât already live together,â you remark, laughing a little.
He chuckles, the sound as light and airy as autumn winds swirling leaves around in a finale of farewells. The lighthearted atmosphere is truly euphoric, especially after such a stressful morning.
Of course, good things never last for long.
âGood morning, Kazuha. Good morning, [name]. Howâs my favourite couple?â a cheery voice asks. In the edges of your vision, you see a figure donning twin braids of sapphire and turquoise approaching. Itâs Venti â one of Kazuhaâs friends.
Both you and Kazuha freeze, a frigidity crystallizing the ambience into icy fractals. And yet at the same time, you can feel your face beginning to heat up.
Couple?
Before you can clear up the misunderstanding, Kazuha speaks.
âGood morning to you too, Venti,â he says. âWeâre doing well, but Iâm afraid youâre mistaken.â Kazuha subtly averts his gaze, staring at the ground, but you swear you can see a blush dawning on his cheeks in shades of sunset. â[Name] and I arenât a couple.â
âOh really?â Venti asks teasingly, giggling in a manner that sounds almost maniacal, âthen why are they wearing your hoodie?â
You look down, and sure enough, the top you chose to wear today was Kazuhaâs. He had allowed you to borrow it a few days ago when you complained about the chilly autumn weather, and you had forgotten to return it. Apparently you were in such a rush this morning that you pulled it on without a second thought.
âIt was an accident,â you blurt out, wanting to clear up the misconception as soon as possible. âI woke up late, and I was in a hurry.â
âUh huh,â Venti nods, his tone laced with sarcasm. âSure. I believe you.â
âNo, seriously. Weâre not a couple,â you reiterate, sighing as Venti laughs quietly.
âWhatever you say,â he says. âNow if youâll excuse me, I have somewhere to be. Iâll leave you two lovebirds alone.â
Without another word, Venti skips off, jubilantly humming to himself. And now, youâre alone with Kazuha, left to deal with the awkward aftermath of Ventiâs assumptions.
âThat was⊠interesting,â you remark.
Kazuha nods.
âI hope you didnât feel too uncomfortable,â he says, smiling at you gently, a light blush still coating his cheeks. Although youâll never admit it out loud, you find him quite cute when heâs flustered. Venti would have a field day if he knew you found your roommate so adorable.
âIâm fine,â you reassure Kazuha, âand Iâll return your hoodie to you as soon as possible,â you add.
However, to your surprise, Kazuha shakes his head.
âYou can keep it if you want,â he tells you.
âReally?â
Kazuha chuckles.
âReally,â he assures you. âAs long as you donât mind being mistaken for a couple, that is. I know I certainly donât.â
âËàŹȘ LYNEY
âLyney, if I remember correctly, you told me you perform magic as a sort of side hustle, right?â you ask your roommate.
The question comes from out of the blue, but you want nothing more than to learn about the man youâve recently grown to be infatuated with. Besides, heâll probably think nothing of it; itâs only natural for someone to want to get to know their roommate.
âYeah, I guess youâd be right,â he responds, averting his gaze from his phone and glancing at you. âAlthough Iâd say itâs more about putting on a good show than the money.â
Lilac hues make your mind go blank as you make eye contact, enchanting you with oceans full of stardust and sunshine alike. Lilac. Itâs a colour youâve come to adore. Before meeting Lyney, it was a shade known to you as the border between night and day, mixed into compositions of dawning sunrises and fading sunsets. But now, itâs synonymous with magic and mystery, and itâs all thanks to your charming roommate.
âOh, I see,â you mutter.
Youâre surprised that your voice doesnât end up shaking. Simply looking into Lyneyâs eyes is causing your heart to beat rapidly, igniting crimson sparks of giddiness and glee with each thump.
Perhaps this is what it feels like to be in love.
âWhy do you ask?â Lyney inquires, tilting his head slightly. âAre you interested in seeing a trick?â
Lyney flashes a charming smile at you â a smile embodying the enigmatic charms of various twilight hues. He reaches his hand up to brush the few strands of dusky hair that had fallen in front of his eyes away, and somehow, the subtle action makes you find him all the more attractive.
âI would love to,â you say, âif it wouldnât be too much trouble.â
You wait with bated breath, feeling the whole world still as you await Lyneyâs response. The carefree atmosphere solidifies into something denser, heavier, as tension begins to build.
âWell, I usually donât do private shows like this, especially not out of the blue,â he remarks.
For a second, you feel your smile fall.
âBut since itâs you, I can try,â Lyney says.
A grins dances upon your lips once more, and the elation from before comes back in full force. Unbridled adoration swirls through your heart, taking down each and every glacial barrier in a roaring tempest of rose and vermillion. With every day that passes, you feel yourself falling deeper and deeper into the clutches of romantic fantasies.
âThank you.â
With that, Lyney rushes to his room. A few seconds later, he returns with some props and a top hat, midnight black adorned with velvety scarlet and magenta detailing, perched upon his head.
He performs for you, and itâs absolutely enamouring. His prowess is incredible, and itâs clear heâs enjoying putting on a show for you. The entire performance is interesting, captivating. However, itâs Lyneyâs last act that stands out to you most of all.
âIâm sure youâre wondering what my grand finale will be,â Lyney announces with a fiery sort of flamboyance. Itâs amusing because youâre the only audience member, but at the same time, slightly endearing.
He takes his hat off, reaching his hand into the void within. Slowly, he pulls something out.
The verdant green of a stem lined with thorns appears first. Then you catch sight of luscious leaves. And lastly, the delicate petals of a rose enter your line of vision. Theyâre tinted a vibrant purple, reminiscent of sparkling amethysts.
âFor you,â Lyney says, handing you the flower.
Upon closer examination, you note that the rose is unblemished. Itâs perfect. You wonder if Lyney put any thought into picking out this particular flower, but you brush the thought off. Embers of newly-kindled feelings of romance brush against your skin.
Youâre flustered.
Flustered beyond measure.
Awkwardly, you take the rose from Lyney, your heart fluttering as your fingers accidentally bump against his. His skin is soft, and his touch is tantalizing. You wouldnât mind feeling his hand in yours.
âThank you,â you manage to whisper, averting your gaze and looking anywhere but into the very lavender irises that will never fail to enchant you. âItâs stunning.â
âA stunning flower for a stunning person,â Lyney says. The sincerity lacing his tone doesnât go unnoticed, and you have to stop yourself from melting on the spot. âDo you know what the purple rose represents?â
You shake your head as sudden curiosity and cupidâs final arrow strike simultaneously.
He leans in, moving so close that you can feel strands of silken platinum tickle your skin. A soft breath lightly brushes against your ear as he opens his mouth to speak.
âLove at first sight.â
âËàŹȘ SCARAMOUCHE
Weak beams of winter light filter through the curtains of the window beside your bed, illuminating your room with a radiance tinted pale blue. With a foggy mind, you make your way over to the window, leaving the warmth and comfort of your covers to do so. The chill pokes at your skin like a thousand miniature needles of ice, and yet you continue on.
As soon as velvety veils of fabric fall away from glass panes, glacial sunshine spills through. The panoramic scenery that welcomes you is a glazed-over landscape, thick blankets of pure white sprinkled with glimmers of stardust. Even the branches of the tall evergreen trees surrounding your home are dusted with powdered opal. Nothing is free from the frigid caress of winter, and youâre suddenly reminded of this fact as you start coughing.
Oh. Youâre sick.
You blink slowly, an unbearable headache making itself known by jumbling your thoughts into nothing more than incoherence. Begrudgingly, you decide to lie back down, pulling a few blankets over you in order to stay warm. However, the layer of plush protection isnât enough to shield you, as shivers continue to wrack your body.
For a while, you just lie there, huddled and trying to cling onto any remaining heat, any remaining comfort. You close your eyes, feeling absolutely helpless against the coolness that threatens to permeate the very essence of your being. The world around you begins to become distant as grogginess and discomfort plague you, but soon enough, youâre snapped out of your haze.
Knock. Knock. Knock.
The last thing you want to do is answer the door.
â[Name]? Are you in there?â your roommate, Scaramouche, calls. As usual, irritation laces his tone, but thereâs something new this time. Maybe youâre delusional, but it almost sounds like concern.
âYeah. Come in,â you manage to respond.
Your voice is unsurprisingly hoarse, and you have to strain in order to be heard. However, in the end, it seems that you were just loud enough because seconds later, the door opens with a click. In its wake, a man with hair reminiscent of desolate midnights walks in. Soon enough, you find your gaze meeting hues of deep twilight fading into a paler shade of periwinkle akin to the colour of forget-me-nots.
âWow, you look awful,â Scaramouche remarks bluntly, examining you.
You feel yourself shrink under his gaze.
âCan you not?â you shoot back, mustering the strength to glare at him between coughs and sniffles. âI'm kind of dying here.â
Scaramouche scoffs.
âFine. Iâll leave you alone,â he says, turning away and walking out the door.
Once again, silence envelops the atmosphere, ebbing and flowing throughout the greys and blues of an early winter morning in soundless waves. Although youâre thankful for the serene ambience, you also feel awfully lonely now that your roommate is gone. All you can do now is stare blankly at the wall in front of you and entertain yourself with your own thoughts.
Time becomes a blur, and yet it stretches on as well. It feels like youâre trapped in a sort of limbo â suspended in a mundane reality without any sort of respite or the slightest idea of when youâll finally find your refuge.
That is, until you hear the hinges of the door creak once more.
Scaramouche is back.
You look up. To your surprise, the glints of starlight that dance within his indigo eyes show a rare sort of softness, and heâs carrying a bowl of soup.
Without a word, he sets the bowl on your bedside table, staring at you expectantly.
âIs that for me?â you ask.
Scaramouche groans, rolling his eyes.
âWho did you think it was for?â he says, averting his gaze.
A small smile dances across your lips. Although your roommate doesnât want to show that he cares for you, youâre beginning to realize that heâs looking out for you in his own way.
âThank you,â you respond. However, just as youâre about to reach for the soup, youâre attacked by another fit of coughs.
Scaramoucheâs eyes fixate on you once more, and he sighs.
âDo you need me to spoon feed you or something?â Although it sounds like heâs mocking you, you can tell heâs serious to some extent.
âDo you want to feed me?â you say, trying to muster a playful tone. Even though youâre sick, teasing Scaramouche is as fun as ever.
âI will if it means youâll shut up,â he mutters, taking the bowl carefully and scooping up a spoon of the soup.
With caution and a shocking amount of attentiveness, he lifts the spoon to your lips, and you open your mouth. To your surprise, the soup is actually quite tasty. You didn't expect your roommate to be such a good cook.
âHow was it?â Scaramouche asks after you swallow. Not a hint of emotion shows through the veils of apathy heâs crafted as he awaits your response.
âIt was amazing,â you remark genuinely. âIâd love to try some more of your cooking, and⊠thanks for taking care of me.â
Scaramouche looks away, but as he does, you notice a colour reminiscent of delicate rose petals rising to his cheeks, tinting porcelain akin to the snow outside a vivid shade.
âDonât mention it.â
âËàŹȘ XIAO
Procrastination is every studentâs worst enemy, and youâre no different.
You had spent the past few days putting off your latest assignments and neglecting your studies more than youâd care to admit. Itâs not that you didnât want to work and study, but every time you tried to start on something, youâd feel put off by the copious amounts of labour youâd have to put in. And unfortunately, now youâre reaping the consequences of the seeds you had previously sowed.
Itâs currently 1 a.m., and all you can see outside the window is ebony fragmented by the occasional streetlight or polychromatic star. Your eyelids are beginning to droop of their own volition, but you force yourself to stay awake. You have something important due later today, and unfortunately, youâve barely even started on it.
So you have no choice but to continue on, allowing yourself to fall into the treacherous grasp of sleep-deprivation all because of your poor decision-making skills.
The minutes seem to count down all too quickly as you toil, yet at the same time, the mundane assignment makes every second feel like an eon. Itâs a paradoxical distortion of the universeâs concepts, but itâs something youâve grown far too accustomed to in your time as a student. Panic and hopelessness set in more and more with every tick of the clock, and eventually, you lose all sense of time, burying yourself in a pile of work.
The next time you look up, you notice that itâs well past your first scheduled break time, and youâre absolutely exhausted.
You stand up, stretching and relishing the sensation of being able to move your aching limbs after hours of sitting in the same position, mulling over boring assignments. However, your momentary respite is ruined, as it isnât long before the creaking of a door pulls you out from the temporary euphoria that had taken over your mind.
âHey,â a calm voice utters. Itâs melodic like a beautiful song you wouldnât mind hearing on repeat. âAre you alright?â
You turn around, and as expected youâre met with the sight of your roommate. Honeyed eyes filled with a dandelion warmth shimmer when met with the dim incandescent glow of your desk lamp, and locks of seafoam frame his pale face. Even though his hair is messy, and there are visible bags under his eyes, Xiao looks as stunning as ever.
âIâm fine,â you say, miraculously stringing together a couple of words despite your exhaustion.
âYouâve been up all night,â Xiao observes, glancing at your messy desk â a testament to the few hours you had been chipping away at your work. Somehow in that time, youâve managed to make it look as though some sort of wild tempest had ravaged your room.
âYouâre saying that as if you donât stay up all the time,â you shoot back.
You flinch. Your tone is harsh and dripping with venom, but you hadnât meant your words in that way. They were from a place of concern, but it seems that Xiao understands.
âThatâs true,â he remarks, âbut Iâm not as keen on working myself to death as you are.â
A second passes.
Then you realized that you may have gotten a little bit carried away due to your momentary burst of energy â a rush of exhilaration prompted by a sense of urgency.
âOh.â
Xiao sighs.
âYou need a break,â he says, hesitantly walking over to you and intertwining your fingers with his.
His actions surprise you. Most of the time, Xiao avoids touch, but now, heâs holding your hand. The tepidness of Xiaoâs skin on yours causes lucidity to wash over you. Suddenly, you feel more aware of your surroundings.
Your roommate pulls you out the door, exiting your dorm swiftly before you can refuse. Truthfully, you wouldnât have denied him his demand anyway. Although Xiao seems like a tough person on the outside, his heart is forged of silvery moonbeams â glittering lights that illuminate the world with a subtle phosphorescence, not quite as glaring as rays of sunlight, but equally as bright, nonetheless. As a result, youâve grown to develop a soft spot for him.
When you exit the building, the first thing you notice is the crisp, fresh air. After staying cooped up in your room for so long, itâs relieving to breathe in the liquified stardrops dissolved within the night atmosphere. Your head clears up nearly instantaneously, and finally, you feel a sense of peace wash over you.
âFeeling better?â Xiao asks, noticing the change in your expression immediately.
Heâs usually not the brightest when it comes to interpreting emotions, so your prior distress must have been extremely obvious. Nonetheless, you brush off your embarrassment and swallow your pride, nodding to reassure Xiao that yes, this is helping, and yes, youâd like to stay here with him for a while longer.
Xiao seems to get what youâre trying to convey, so he continues walking, leading you under the gold-lacquered light of the lamps lining the path before you. Right now, it feels as though your hearts are connected, and for once, youâre under the impression that Xiaoâs let down his walls.
You know that once your midnight escapades cease, youâll have to face a world of pain, but perhaps itâs worth it.
After all, exhaustion is temporary, but maybe, just maybe, this lavender haze will endure forevermore.
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I had the idea that sometime after Port Townsend, Edwin holds his hand out for Charles to give him something like he always does, but Charles misinterprets it and thinks Edwin wants to hold his hand. So I wrote a little ficlet about it ~
A Hand to Hold
With the ghost postman through the wall and out of the office, Edwin opened the mysterious letter with blackened edges and pulled out a single page covered in odd runes.
âFunny lettering there, innit?â Charles said over his shoulder.
âYes, I do not recognize it,â Edwin replied as he furrowed his brow.
Edwin extended his free hand toward Charles, palm up in expectation of receiving the lexicographical lenses. This movement was as ingrained and smooth as the path of a river worn through limestone.
But instead of the glasses, Edwin felt only Charlesâ warm palm against his own as he shifted his hand and threaded their fingers together.
Edwin looked at their clasped hands and blinked. âWhat,â he croaked.
âWhat,â Charles echoed in equal confusion.
Edwin lifted his face to meet Charlesâ eyes. âThe glasses, Charles. The, er, lexicographical lenses. For the lettering,â he explained in stilted words as his hand buzzed with the pleasant feeling their palms together and fingers intertwined.
âOh! Oh, yeah, of course, mate, the, uh, the lenses.â Charles released his hand from Edwinâs and shoved it into the backpack by him on the desk, pulling out the glasses a moment later. As he went to hand them over, his fingers fumbled the frames and he nearly dropped them. He straightened and offered them to Edwin with a practiced smile.
Edwin touched them but didnât take them yet, holding Charlesâ gaze. âYou held my hand,â he said wondrously.
âI, uh, thought thatâs what you wanted, actually,â Charles said with a sheepish grin.
âI didnât⊠dislike it,â Edwin allowed, but his arched eyebrow and the glint of want in his eyes betrayed his enjoyment.
âWell then, Iâll have to do that more often, wonât I? If you like,â Charles said sweetly.
Edwin felt warm all over. âYes, I would like that.â
âOkay.â Charlesâ smile grew and he gave a little nod. Edwin held his gaze a moment longer, the air feeling lighter between them, before he finally took the glasses to decipher the letter.
~ fin ~
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- I COULD CHANGE YOUR LIFE â
chap 3 , come visit me in jail â | â ...back â | â next...
summary: the morning after you and chris bond, he just seems to fall deeper in love with you and your amazing personality. he falls so deep that when he sees a negative comment on your recent instagram post, he feels he has no choice but to do something about it.
pairing: stalker!chris Ă singer!reader
warnings + topics: cursing, stalking, weapons, murder, blood, obsessive behavior, breaking & entering, crying, chris is crazy, choking, drowning, etc. DO NOT READ IF YOU ARE SENSITIVE TO THESE TOPICS.
author's note: here's where it starts to get intense.....đ
author's note 2: series title mention in this one has me floatingđŁđŁ
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"bet i could change your life."
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mysteriousman no tag in the first photo i see....
-> y/nwhosthat didn't even know there were tags on this app??
-> y/nsonlylove says the girl who uses them in every single one of her postsđ u got them searching for answers now
hearts4chrissy i know my man's hands when i see them chris honey come homeđ
latinosfory/n they are reaching omgđ
matthew.sturniolo all these rumors and im still focused on the frank ocean lyricsđ€·ââïž
-> y/nwhosthat everyone should be focused on his inspiring lyrics
-> wishingherwell MATT???
theyenvy.michael ugly ass girl tf get off this appđ
chris feels a sudden anger wash over him as he reads the most recent comment on y/n's post, and his hand wraps even tighter around his phone before he clicks on the guy's profile.
he's 20, and he's also in boston. chris scrolls down, cringing at his weird objectifying comment in his bio, "ho's are only useful in the kitchen, i stand by my statementđ€·ââïž"
fucking douchebag, chris thinks as he scrolls down on his page. he clicks on michael's recent post and is met with a mirror picture of the boy in his messy bedroom. there's posters of half-naked girls and polaroids of him and his friends on the white walls behind him.
he scrolls left, and there's a video. chris doesn't even need to watch it because when he sees the first frame, he already knows he might lose it. the first frame shows off michaels blurry foot only inches away from a small puppy on the side of the road. the brunette feels sick already. how many red flags did this guy have?
another scroll and chris finds himself looking at a blurred picture of michael and his friend hugging. only one normal photo in this entire dump. chris doesn't even want to scroll down further on his page.
as he turns off his phone and throws it to the side, his free hand clenches into a fist. chris has never felt this angry before, and just the thought of michaels comment makes him even angrier.
before getting up, he grabs his phone. he runs up the stairs, heading straight for nicks room as he barges in. he stands at the doorway and watches as his brother jumps in shock.
his hair is still messy, not having time to do it before chris came in, "chris, what the fuck!"
"oh my god, you almost gave me a heart attack. fuck you," the older boy grumbles before walking over to his bed and sitting at the edge, "what'd you need?"
nick's tone is softer now, and he pats the side of his bed in a motion for chris to come over and sit. chris does just that, taking a few deep breaths before he throws himself back against his brothers bed.
"i don't know. i wanted to ask if you've ever felt so angry that you just wanna destroy everything around you." chris sighs, propping himself up on his elbows to look at the dark-haired boy beside him.
he just laughs softly, nodding, "yeah, almost always. why, what's going on?" there's a subtle look of concern on his face, and chris frowns.
chris shrugs, eyes trailing off to look at the wall across from him, "i was... reading comments, and i saw one that infuriated me like nothing did before. and, nick, i know you've told me not to let 'em get to me, but..." he takes his lower lip between his teeth, "this time it was on a loved-ones post, and i can't control it anymore."
nick frowns, his concern rising as his eyes meet his brothers, "okay. just talk to me, i don't want you doing anything... bad this time. remember what matt and i have told you to do when you feel that way. take deep breaths, yeah?"
chris' eyes widen at his brother's first words, his chest feeling tighter as he suddenly finds it harder to breathe. his mind wanders back to that night.
"hey!" a man's voice is heard from behind chris and his brothers, and the younger boy is the first to turn. he recognizes that voice, and it only ticks him off further.
chris waves his hand, a small gesture that even makes him cringe. why was he wasting his energy on this dick? the guy doesn't wave back, only scoffing as he stomps in chris' direction.
"what's up?" there's a faux look of happiness on the brunettes face as he steps forward, now right in front of the much taller guy, "c'mon, talk that shit you were spitting all over madi's posts, you weren't scared when you posted it."
the brown-eyed man laughs, tilting his head as he squints his eyes at chris, "i'm not scared now, either. the fuck? i said she was a dumb bitch who can't evenâ"
chris doesn't even let him finish, his head filling with so many thoughts he couldn't even comprehend. his entire body felt hot, like he was on fire. the one thought that was screaming out to him finally pushed it's way in front, kill him.
he lands the first hit on the guys cheek, and it's not soft. he doesn't stop either, his free hand coming up to punch the man in the stomach. his motions are quick, and he doesn't give the man time to think before punching him right in the nose.
the blond stumbles back, coughing as his nose leaks red down to his lip. his head turns back up, looking right as chris before he stomps up to him and swings right at his face.
nick gasps as he watches chris fall to the ground, his lip and nose already bleeding red. matt comes up to the guy, standing between his brother and the infuriated man in front of him, "hey, hey, let's calm down, yeah? this was a misunderstanding."
"misunderstanding? no, i don't think it is. i know what i said, and i'm not gonna take it back. who even are you, you look like a fuckin' mamas boy."
matt inhales sharply, looking back up at the man before he begins to speak again, "listen, we don't want this to get any more violent than it's already become. let's just talk about it?"
the taller man laughs, wiping his bloodied nose with the back of his hand as he looks down at matt, "nah, you're little boyfriend over there can speak for himself. wait, he can't, can he? pussy ass bitch."
chris groans as he stands to his feet, nick hurrying to grab him before he does anything worse and possibly get sent to the hospital.
matt only sighs, his skin starting to crawl slightly at the man's words, "we're not doing this, sir. my brother didn't mean anything, and we're sorry, okay? let's just leave it at that."
he feels himself get pushed back, and only then does he look up at the brown-eyed boy.
"matt, let's go." nick calls from behind him, eyes moving to the beaten-up guy in front of his two brothers, "we're leaving, it's over now!" he yells to the guy, dragging chris by his shoulders in the opposite direction.
chris struggles against his older brothers grip, and when he digs his nails into nicks skin, he finally lets go. matt is pushed out of the way as chris lunges toward the man.
his hands go for his neck, squeezing tightly as they both stumble to the ground. chris' fall is shielded by the body under him, but the older man's fall isn't. chris doesn't hear the crack as they fall to the floor, his head pounding so loudly he can barely even hear his brothers screaming at him to stop.
but he doesn't, tears brimming in his eyes as he remembers the look on his best friends face as she showed him. chris never wanted madi to feel that way ever again, and he was gonna make sure she never did.
"chris, get the fuck off of him!" matt almost screams, his voice low as to not alert anybody around the area.
nick stands there in shock, the empty parking lot now feeling much bigger than it was. he felt like if he ran he would never be able to escape.
chris sobs as matt drags his weak body off the unconscious guy, holding his brother in his arms as they fall to the floor softly. matts grip is tight on his younger brothers waist as he holds him close, his eyes wide in fear as he watches blood pool around the blonds head.
"fuck. i'm sorry, matt," chris doesn't know what else to say, he doesn't even know why he's apologizing to his brother, "'m sorry, iâi didn't mean to.."
matt drowns out the sound of nick gagging behind him as he tries to reassure the brunette in his arms, shushing his softly as he looks around for any passerby who maybe saw what happened.
nick is hunched over, his back facing both of his brothers as he throws up. this wasn't the type of night he was expecting, and it sure as hell was the one he's experienced, "oh my god, chris."
"did you fucking kill him..?" nick gags again at the thought, not even being able to turn around to look at the body.
"chris." the brunette jumps at the sudden voice, his eyes snapping towards his brother as he finally comes back to reality, "were you listening? i said thatâ"
"yeah, yeah. i was... listening." chris smiles sweetly before jumping off the bed and going to leave, "thanks, nick. seriously."
the taller boy smiles, and chris gives him an awkward wave before closing the door and making his way down the stairs.
his fingers run across the handrail as he descends down the stairs, the smooth texture soothing him in the slightest but then being taken away as he turns the corner to the kitchen.
eating would get his mind off things. plus, he hasn't eaten since lunch yesterday, going straight to bed after he got home from y/ns house. he felt like he had the world in his hands and he didn't want anybody to ruin that, so he just slept.
sleeping always made him feel better, more energized, and somehow even happier. but when he woke up and had to face the real world, he just felt weaker, smaller. he felt like all eyes were on him and everybody around him was judging him.
as chris reaches for a cabinet, his phone buzzes in his back pocket. great, just what he needed. grabbing it, he unlocks it with his face and then swipes down for his notifications. his face lights up, and his lips curve into a smile as he sees y/ns username at the top.
he quickly taps on the text, holding the device with both hands as he leans against the corner of the counter, now too focused on his phone to even remember what he came in here to do.
chris' demeanor changes quickly at the new information that michael is y/ns ex-boyfriend. he hasn't let her go, and that was gonna be a huge obstacle in his plan.
he'd need to get rid of him, and he'd need to do it quickly. they always sooner than later, right? it's better to get the job done first than to set it aside and maybe even forget about the task.
chris also wasn't interested in seeing michaels comments on y/ns posts any longer. sure, this was the first time he's seen them, but the boy definitely wasn't gonna stop and chris never wanted to see that fucking profile picture again.
so, that's how he found himself running down the second flight of stairs and down the hallway to his room. he knew what he needed, he thought about this entire thing before he'd even met michael. he was planning on using this for jamie, but then he wouldn't be able to hear your beautiful voice for way longer.
michael was the perfect victim as well. he wasn't well known, and he sure as hell wasn't a likable person, so who would miss him or even notice his sudden disappearance? fuck, even chris wouldn't and he was gonna be the one doing the job.
the door to his room swung open, and chris immediately headed for his walk-in closet, shutting the door as to make sure no one would see him. he couldn't have his brothers knowing, they'd probably put him in a mental institution this time.
chris turned around, back facing the door as he moved his shirts, spreading them apart to reveal the small shelf behind the clothing articles. there was another black box, but this time it was wooden and a little bigger than the one he kept for y/n.
he wasn't careful when opening the box, throwing the lid behind him and hearing the small thud as it landed on the carpet. he reached into the box, pulling out a safety pin to unlock the doors. the last thing he pulled out was a lengthy knife, the handle fitting perfectly in his grip.
chris didn't know anything about actual murderers, but he definitely got a good knife to do the job. maybe he wouldn't even have to use it, he didn't really want to, either. he wanted his hands around that boys neck while he begged for chris to take mercy on him.
he wanted to see tears brimming in his eyes as the life was being squeezed out of him, slowly. chris knew that he wanted michael to have a slow death, a painful one, and suffocating was definitely up on his list.
before rearranging his closet again, chris placed the lid back on and grabbed his items. he took his backpack as well, storing the 2 small items in there along with some binders to cover them up. he was sure someone would recognize him out here, and he wasn't gonna risk anything.
he slipped on a dark grey hoodie along with a black jacket, finishing off the outfit with some black jeans and a pair of black air forces. it was a sketchy outfit, but who cared? chris was breaking into someone's house. he didn't need to be stylish right now.
all that was on his mind was michael and the many options of how he could do this. chris paced back and forth in the empty space of his room, rubbing his temples in an effort to soothe the growing headache that he was facing. his mind was screaming with every possible thought imaginable, some of them telling him to back out and others telling him to man up and stop being a pussy.
chris would hold off a little longer, though. it was still bright out and he wasn't gonna do this in the daylight, he wasn't that uneducated in things like this. he'd watched some serial killer documentaries, so he'd say he knew... stuff.
it was 2:55 when he stopped thinking about the entire thing, his head going elsewhere as hunger overcame him. now he remembered what he was in the kitchen for earlier, a snack.
as chris walks up the stairs, he sees matt leaning against the kitchen counter on his phone. there's a smirk on his face as he chuckles softly at whatever he was watching.
the microwave is on, the buzz being the only sound other than matts quiet breathing and chris' footsteps entering the kitchen. he's still dressed in his black outfit, and matt puts his phone to the side just to look his brother up and down.
"are you on your way to a funeral or..?" matt questioned with a smile on his face, cocking an eyebrow at chris as he finally stepped foot into the kitchen. the first thing he did was grab a pepsi, setting it on the dining table before leaning down to open the freezer.
"no, just decided to wear whatever i first saw. i'm going out with sam tonight, so i probably won't be back until late." chris hums as he pulls out a mini pizza before walking over to where matt is standing.
matt moves over slightly, looking up to check the timer on the microwave only to see it's been just a few seconds. he groans as his head turns back to chris, watching as he takes the frozen pizza out of the box and sets it on a metal pan.
he preheats the oven and then lets the pizza sit on the stove as he goes over to sit at the table. matt joins him soon after, deciding to chat with his brother to pass the time.
"where are you goin'?" the older brunette asks, picking at the hang nails that stood out on his fingers. he winced as he pulled one off, shaking his hand by his side in an effort to stop the pain.
chris looks over at his brother, emotion unreadable as he stares at his brother with nothing behind his eyes, "oh. we're gonna.. meet up with this guy. he says he's got somethin' to show us."
matt nods, confusion washing over him as he sees chris' dilated pupils. it couldn't be the lighting, they just replaced the bulbs and it wasn't even dark yet. what was he thinking about?
"cool...? just be safe, i don't want anything bad happening to you." matt huffs, patting his brothers shoulder before getting up to check on his food.
chris turns in his seat, watching as matt stops the microwave and takes out his bowl of ramen, "i'm always safe, don't worry about me, matt. we're the same age, and you treat me like a baby."
matt raises both of his eyebrows in an exasperated manner, grabbing a fork out of a cabinet as he blows on the steaming bowl, "yeah, i wonder why."
chris laughs, "fuck off, matt." his brother chuckles as he walks past chris and back up the stairs to his room, leaving chris alone with his thoughts. again.
the brunette made a quiet beat on the table, tapping it and nodding his head as he recreated the beat to one of his favorite songs. once the oven beeped, chris got up and placed the metal tray into the oven and set a timer.
chris went to sit back down, stopping when he felt his phone buzz in his pocket again. this time, it wasn't a text from y/n, but a dm from her ex. michael.
theyenvy.michael â the fuck is you trying to steal my girl for?
you â im not? y/n is just my friend, kid. also aren't u her ex? ong ur trying too hard
theyenvy.michael â nah, she's my bitch fr. stay tf away from her, aight?
you â right. bcuz she's totally okay with u calling her a bitch. get tf off my dick....
you â she fr dodged a bullet when breaking up w you. ur profile is not it.
theyenvy.michael â ur not bouta dodge my bulletđ watch out bro
chris scoffed, cracking open the lid of his pepsi as he took a sip. who did this kid think he was? chris wasn't scared of him. if anything, michael should be afraid. he should be terrified of what's about to happen tonight.
but he's not gonna be because he's not gonna know. chris loved taking people by surprise, jumping out at the perfect moment, and having a good laugh about it. only tonight, chris would be the only one laughing. chris would be the only one still alive to laugh.
the brunette glanced at the time again, 3:20. he didn't want to wait but he had to, nobody could see him. if anybody did, he would be the main suspect in the murder. chris couldn't even have a single thing that would point at him. chris couldn't even have y/â
"chris!" nick's voice breaks chris out of his trance, his head snapping towards the staircase that nick basically flies down, "oh my gosh, you're never gonna believe me!"
the brunettes eyes widen in terror, his mind racing with endless ideas as he looks to his brother for answers, the same expression on his face, "what? nick, what happened?!"
nick squealed, gripping onto chris' shoulders as he shook him violently, "there's a track on y/ns new album featuring melanie!"
chris' face drops, and he almost shoves his brother to the floor as he stands to his feet, "you are by far the worst person to announce news ever." he scowls, turning around to check on his mini pizza.
"come on, it's huge news! i seriously didn't know that y/n and melanie knew each other and oh my gosh! the song title just makes me even more excitedâ" nick trails off as he stares at chris, who is taking the metal tray out of the oven and placing it on the stove.
"and you're not listening." nick frowns, and chris parts his lips to speak.
"oh, no, i am. i just don't find this topic interesting, seeing as you're the only person in this house who cares about melanie martinez." chris shrugs, and nick raises an eyebrow at the boy as he leans against the dining table.
"what's up your your ass? you were just all happy-go-lucky, and now you're acting like a dick. did someone say something or...?" nick asks, head tilting in confusion as he watches chris transfer his pizza to a paper plate.
the younger brunette sighs, letting his shoulders relax as he shuts his eyes softly, "sorry. i'm just stressed, there's a bunch of things on my mind right now."
"like what?" nick pushes quietly, taking chris' previous seat the table.
chris stays silent, eyes opening again as he holds his breath. once his face begins to turn red, he speaks, "uh, work. social media, stuff like that."
nick sighs, nodding, "we can always take a break, you know?"
a break, seriously? chris thinks to himself. how could chris ever catch a break and let himself relax while all this was happening around him? he had to keep y/n safe, he had to get rid of anything and anyone who bothered her, and he had to film videos with his brothers. he just couldn't find time to let himself rest.
"i can't." he finally mutters, staring down at the marble counter as his fingers tap against it. he hears nick get up behind him.
then, he feels a hand on his shoulder, "you can, chris. just take things slow, focus on yourself for a little while. i promise you'll feel better." his voice is soft, calming, reassuring.
but chris doesn't know if he can trust that little change of tone. it wasn't that easy to just let everything go, not for him at least.
he couldn't even let a simple comment go past him. chris just always needed to do something about it and he hated it. he hated that he was like this. why was he like this?
chris didn't even know he crying until nick started to pat his back, muttering, "it's okay, i got you. let it out."
what was happening to him?
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matthew.sturniolo kids off his meds
-> christophersturniolo kid is alive
y/nwhosthat u said u were going to sleep, ur really breaking my heart christopherđ
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-> trevssturn these secret relationship rumors are starting to become a lil believable...
-> matthewslovee babe the rumors are based off one postđ let's settle down
nicolassturniolo oh brother what's he on about now
-> christophersturniolo shhh im plottingđ
xx4mygf notice how the only comment he hasn't replied to is y/ns
theyenvy.michael im ong coming for you lil boy
-> christophersturniolo stop meat riding bru
8:45, chris stood on the sidewalk across from michaels house. he turned his head down, looking at the picture he had screenshotted of a car, michaels car in his driveway.
he found it when scrolling deeper, almost throwing up at all the horrific things he found on the page. he was surprised nobody had reported him yet, he was sick. michael had also been stupid enough to take a picture of himself right in front of the 4 numbers on his house.
as for the street, well chris didn't need to search much for that either. again, michael led him right to it, posting a video of himself walking down the sidewalk with his friends as they laughed about something stupid.
chris was waiting here for a few minutes, pacing up and down the sidewalk so as not to seem suspicious and get caught by michaels neighbors. he didn't want to get asked any questions today, especially not when he was right in front of his first victims house.
as he started to get impatient, chris looked around before running across the street and quickly jumping the fence. he landed on his feet perfectly and quietly snuck to the back door of the house, looking around the house through the sliding glass door.
sliding his backpack off his shoulders, he kneeled in front of the lock, grabbing the safety pin before sticking it into the key-hole and twisting it around. he took his bottom lip between his teeth in concentration as he continued to try and pick at the lock, smiling when he heard the click.
as he stood up, throwing the safety pin somewhere behind him in the grass and throwing his backpack on his shoulders again, he slid the door open carefully. he listened to the soft sounds of the neighborhood, trying to pick up any sound of talking or footsteps coming closer.
when he didn't, he threw the door open and stepped in before shutting the door again. his fingertips slid across the dusty frame of the door carelessly before he shut it again and traveled deeper into the house.
his eyes landed on the freezer first before roaming all around the kitchen. it was trashed, like nobody had lived here in ages and rats had taken over, but there were none, only open chip bags and splatters of unknown sauce. crumbs adorned the floor, crunching under chris' feet as he took steps toward the fridge.
what's the harm in getting a little snack? he was hungry due to walking here all the way from his house, and michael wouldn't mind. he would he gone, so who would care?
chris grabbed an orange popsicle from the freezer before closing it and making his way to the living room. he took a seat at the couch, putting his feet up on the coffee table as he licked at the frozen treat.
when the brunette had finished it, he threw the damp stick into the garbage by the entertainment center before walking to the window at the front of the house. he kneeled in front of his, elbows resting on the windowsill as he waited for michael.
as he waited, his backpack suddenly felt heavier on his shoulders, the feeling of guilt and regret starting to wear on him. was he seriously gonna do this? it wasn't like he didn't want to. it was just that... he didn't even know, honestly.
he knew he was doing it for him and y/ns relationship, so they could live happily with no distractions or obstacles. but, then again, they would still have to face arguments, the publics opinion, and the many rumors that would start to spread. that's why, when chris finally gets you, you'll both flee the city and live somewhere together. alone where nobody could find you guys.
sure, chris would have to explain why, but it didn't matter. if you really loved him, you wouldn't care the things he's done to get there. or maybe you will. maybe you'll hate him and turn him into the cops. if that's the case, then chris might just have to get rid ofâ
"hey!" chris jumped at the muffled sound of a mans voice, and he turned his head to look in the direction of it, "come on, oscar."
it was michael, tugging roughly on the leash of his dog so as to get him to follow michael. the dog did follow him, his head hung low as his paws patted the concrete below them with quiet thuds.
chris just wanted to rush him right now, but he couldn't. he had to wait until he was inside, catch him off guard in the safety of his own home where he thought everything was normal. he would take care of the dog later in a... better way than what he'd do with his owner.
he jumped back as he heard the brown-eyed boys' footsteps, leaving the windowsill as he made his way further into the house. he hid in a closet down the hallway, shutting the door with a quiet thud as he stayed as still as he possibly could.
the door opened, and chris heard the click of the leash being undone, followed by the footsteps of both michael and oscar. chris watched through the blinds of the closet as michael put his dog into the metal kennel before shrugging his own backpack off and placing it on top of the kennel.
he walked down the hallway, and chris swore he felt michaels eyes staring right into his. he shuddered at the feeling, tensing up when michael neared and round the corner to his room.
chris heard a door open, and then rummaging. the brunette quickly jumped out of the closet and turned the corner, walking into michaels room and seeing his back turned as he faced his own closet. chris' eyes flickered between his bathroom and michael before he stepped closer.
when michael began to turn, chris threw his backpack off and grabbed the black-haired boy by the hood of his jacket, tugging him backward and hearing him gag.
"what the fâ" chris quickly shut him up by throwing him against his wall harshly, hearing michael gasp as the wind was knocked out of him.
his eyes widened as chris stomped toward him, his hands going straight for the neck as he began to squeeze. the brunette felt another cold pair of hands on his as he stared michael in the eyes, his brown ones wide and filled with terror as he recognized chris.
chris' just stared, a smile creeping onto his face as he pressed michael harder against the wall. the shorter boy strained against him, choked noises falling from his lips with the little air he had.
"helpâ" a strangled cry left him, eyes brimming with tears as his vision became blurry. chris noticed, and he almost felt guilty. almost, "pleaâsorry! i.."
this wasn't enough for chris. sure, michael would die in his hands, slowly and painfully, but chris wanted him to really feel it. when michaels eyes started to flutter shut, chris let go of him, letting the boy stumble to the ground.
the brown-eyed boy gasped for air, grasping his neck softly and rubbing the area where chris had squeezed. there was anger slowly creeping into him, the fear now long gone as his eyes darted around the messy room.
michael began to crawl, and chris let him. the brunette didn't let the boy go far, grabbing him by the hair and dragging him toward the hallway. michael kicked his feet, grunting but not even trying to yell. he was still confident he could win the fight, and chris gave him credit for that.
"let me go you fuckin' freak!" he struggled, and chris just ignored him as he continued to drag him down the hallway and to the bathroom, "bark, you useless piece of shit!" michael yelled at his dog, and oscar only looked at him sadly.
chris kicked the boy in the back, making him cry out before throwing him further into the small bathroom. the brunette shut the door, locking it before turning around to grab michael again.
he grabbed him by his hair again before throwing him against the wall just for the fun of it, smiling as he saw the hurt look on the shorter boys face. chris stepped further into the bathroom, leaning over the tub as he went to turn the water on. he reached his hand in, plugging the drain and watching as the water began to fill up.
michaels eyes widened in terror, his hopes going down as he watched chris turn back to him. more tears fell from his eyes as his body began to tremble. he felt pain everywhere, and he couldn't even move an inch without feeling a sharp sting. chris squatted in front of the boy, tilting his head as his hoodie fell off his head.
"where did that tough boy on the internet go, huh? or are you seriously just a poser." chris scoffed, taunting the boy with a sadistic smile on his face. when michael didn't answer, chris began to yell, "answer me!"
michael winced, sniffling as he listened to the water in the tub, "i don't have to answer to you, asshole. you're not gonna fuckin' do anything. you're scared."
chris raised an eyebrow, chuckling softly as he moved closer. he watched as michael flinched, and only then did a pang of guilt hit him. his smile dropped, and he just stared michael in the eyes. his gaze was dark, full of anger, guilt, sadness, and so many more emotions he couldn't even comprehend.
"i'm not scared, michael. you're shaking, look at you. you should be absolutely terrified of what's to come. nobody will notice you're gone because you're a fucking maniac that nobody loves. not even y/n still loves you, kid, you're trying too hard." chris masks his feelings with a smile, patting michaels cheek in a teasing manner before standing up to check on the tub again.
he turns the handle, stopping the water from flowing out before his turns back to the brown-eyed boy on the floor, "never said i was a nice guy, did i?" chris laughs at the scared expression on his face, walking over to him and watching as he tries to crawl away.
chris only grabs him by the hair again, dragging him harshly toward the tub as he hears michael scream and cry for mercy, begging chris to let him go. chris ignores him, resting his free hand on the edge of the tub as he drags michael toward him.
his knees are on the tiled floors, and chris gives him a soft wave before dunking his head into the cold water and watching as bubbles erupt from the boys nose and up to the surface. chris only watches with a blank expression, his stomach twisting as he feels the shorter boys hands trying to push him away but slipping and falling to his sides.
chris holds his ground, his grip on michaels hair tight as he pushes him deeper. his entire upper half is almost over the edge now, and chris doesn't realize until he feels water splash onto his cheek. his eyes move to michaels arms, flailing in the water and making a mess of the bathroom. his head turns to look at the bathroom door, taking deep breaths as he feels tears prick in his eyes.
he chokes on his spit, eyes closing as he tries to drown out the noises of splashing water and endless gurgling. chris' knuckles turn white as he grips tighter on both the tub and michaels black hair, finally starting to sniffle as tears begin to run down his face. he didn't know what he was doing, but there was no going back now. chris couldn't let michael go because if he did, the boy would only go to the cops and snitch on him. chris was past the point of no return, so he just let the whole thing happen.
the brunette begins to sob as the sounds of splashing die down, his grip on michaels hair finally loosening as he lets his entire body fall into the tub full of water. chris holds his face in his hands as he stays in a squat, his left hand soaking half of his face.
"shit, shit, shit. god, you're such an idiot, chris!" he scolds himself quietly, wiping his tears before he gets to his feet and takes even deeper breaths.
he's still not put together fully, but he pushes through it, looking back to michaels lifeless body before he leans over and grabs his hand. his fingers are still adorned with rings, and chris just takes the first one he sees and stuffs it into the back pocket of his jeans. chris quickly unlocks the door before walking back to the bedroom, taking careful steps as he looks around for his backpack.
when he spots it, he throws it over his shoulder, slipping into the straps hurriedly before leaving the room and walking down the hallway towards the kitchen. he takes the leash off the top of oscars kennel before he unlocks the metal crate, letting the dog out.
"hey, buddy," chris coos, petting his head softly as he sniffles once again, "i'm gonna find a better home for you, i promise. i'm so sorry."
oscar only whines, and chris just latches the leash onto his collar before guiding him through the living room. he takes another long look around, a millions feelings eating him up inside all at once. he doesn't feel regret... he doesn't even know what he feels.
chris freezes when he finally hears it. sirens. sirens coming closer and closer to the house that he stood in, "fuck. fuck, fuck, whatâ"
the brunette looks around, turning back quickly before sprinting through the kitchen and darting towards the backdoor. chris throws the door open, not even caring about the loud banging sound as he runs out of the house, the leash tightly wrapped around his hand.
"come on, boy!" chris yells as quietly as he can, and oscar continues to gallop behind him. he continues to make his way through the backyard, trying not to focus on the sirens that grow increasingly louder. how hasn't he realized the silent alarm? he was too caught up in his plan to see the red alarm above the backdoor.
chris opens the metal gate, running down the back alleyway and deeper into the neighborhood, not stopping even when he crosses the road. he loosens his grip on the leash as he makes it far enough from the house, hunching over as he tries to catch his breath.
he turns to check on oscar, giving him a few gentle pets before he reaches into the back pocket of his jeans. his hands find the small ring, and he pulls it out with a smile.
this ring would be on your finger someday, and chris wouldn't feel even a small amount of guilt for what he had done. he hoped you wouldn't resent him for it, either. that would just mess the entire thing up, and he didn't want to hurt you.
but for now, he'd just have to live with the memory.
"you could be my wife."
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Hiya! Iâm so happy your requests are open omg your writing is impeccable. So Iâve been with this concept in my head for so long since I read this prompt somewhere: what is with your weird fascination with me?
And just immediately my head started creating a story about reader having the nickname âDeathâ because she has the highest body count known, skilled as no other and, also, imposible to know on a deeper level because she is like a wall, not letting anyone in. Until John Price needs her for a mission and is, as the prompt says, fascinated by her (and feeling other things he doesnât want to admit), and is able to break her a little when he gets hurt in a mission after months of working together.
Glory to the Reaper
PAIRING: John Price x F!Reader
SYNOPSIS: He was strange, you admitted to yourself. Always around even when you didn't want him to be. But perhaps the Brit just might surprise you.
WORDCOUNT: 5.8k
WARNINGS: Angst, blood, death, gore, canon typical violence, avoidance tactics, fluff, pining, hurt/comfort, etc.
A/N: I switched around the codename but it's still the same plot! Enjoy, Anon!
*I do not give others permission to translate and/or re-publish my works on this or any other platform*
Your eyes slip over the file on the table, slowly caressing the parchment with easy and careful consideration of every word and commaâsearching. Focusing. You hum under your breath and slide the page away to spy on the one behind it, the room quiet and the air cold. Outside the window the entire compound is asleep, only the light of the street lamps illuminating the land; inside this office, your feet barely shuffle over the tuft of the rug.
Clicking your tongue, you go to the next document in the pile.Â
The still-warm body flinches and jerks below you, but you barely noticeâhe hadnât put up much of a fight; wasnât memorable. Sighing and itching over the mask along the bottom of your face, you snatch the last six papers from the desk and fold them four times, stuffing them into your vest pocket.Â
Stalking with sure steps, you press into the radio on your gear as you step over the body and head to the door. Bloody bootprints follow behind you like a crimson shadow of surefire death.
âActual, intel secured. Heading to Evac now.â Laswell was listening intently on the other end, your Op of the highest priority.Â
You wouldnât be here if it wasnât, surely. The small click from the other end greets you as you shove open the officeâs door and saunter down the hallway paved with glints of marble and pools of viscera like a Roman horror story. Eyes numbly slide past the scores of bodies; necks slit and stomachs burst from bullets fired through silencers.Â
âGood job, Tomb,â Laswell utters, voice fast and serious as always. âWhatâs the clean-up status?â
Your lips flinch upward, âI suggest fire and a prayer, Actual. But no one knows Iâm here. Main house is neutralized.âÂ
A small pause later and a huff of dull amusement.Â
âCopy, Tomb. Your ride is waitingâbest not to miss it, we need you back sooner than later.â The structure of your lungs rearranges in a small chuckle that echoes off the ceiling; molten silver from the moon slips over your darkened form. The patch upon your right shoulder is illuminated in steady intervals, the familiar image of a mausoleum and a guarding Sphinx.Â
Alone, that patch is, with no other dark affiliations beyond that demonic cause. Many see it right before they meet their end, but the insignia was entirely left to ruinâno one sees it and lives besides other soldiers.
âCopy.â Your voice is easy and bland as the curtains from the single open window shake in the breeze. âTell the boys Iâm on my way.â You pass the window and slap a gloved hand to it, hearing the squeak of the frame as it hits back down before you turn the corner, slinking away to reform into a figure that evokes grim glances and sliced sentences.Â
â
You stare into blue eyes with a sheen of disinterest coating your own, hands stuffed into your pockets and gear heavy on your chest. From your shoulder, the strap of your rifle sits as you speak, tilting your head, âCaptain Jonathan Price of Task Force 141.âÂ
The man was tall, you admit, fit and formed to harsh military life. Undoublity heâd been in the service for decades. Youâd seen his face beforeâthe brunette beard and the strong jaw; small eyes with wrinkles, itâs how you had IDâd him. Plus the bucket hat. Laswell had told you heâd been inquiring about your file and youâd done your own digging off the books.Â
John grunts a greeting before nodding.
âPleasure. Tomb, was it?â On the tarmac, you glance around with stiff shoulders as the blades of the helicopter slow down behind you. Morning was just on the horizon, and you hadnât gotten a wink of sleep on the flight back.
Lips thin, before your vision slides back into place. Johnâs hands are crossed casually, but his blue holds glints of intrigue. You donât like that. â...The one and only. Excuse me.âÂ
Walking past, you move like a crane, legs taking long, steady, strides. A hand comes up to scratch at your cheek through your face covering. Laswell was expecting you immediately.Â
And those feet at your side were not supposed to be there. Your eyes shimmer lowly at the shadow of John as he follows.
âShould tell you that Laswellâs in building two, then.â Pace halting, the Captain continues off on his own as your sharp gaze burns into his neck. He spares a glance over his expansive shoulder before adjusting his course to the East. âTold me to bring you to her. We need to have a little chat, yeah?â
You stay silent, watching John travel to the larger building where Laswell was apparently now waiting for you. After a still minute where you listen to the birds waking up and the scent of dew is in your hidden nostrils, you sigh deeply and roll your shoulders before beginning to walk behind.Â
âHm,â Garbled grunts are only heard by you as you stay well enough back from the man. Cautious as you stare at his head.Â
He holds the door open for you when you finally make it, and you stand blankly from the opening as Johnâs calloused hand clenches over the door. When you donât enter, the Captain shakes his head and releases a deep chuckle.Â
âAlright, then,â he mutters, shuffling through the door first. You follow the strain of his back until you look away and reach for the barrier, pushing it back from you. Making your way inside, you sigh and wonder what youâre getting into.Â
âLaswell said you donât like strangers,â eyes peek back at you as the buzzing from the overhead lights echoes in your ears. Your throat releases a hum; shoulders showing a picture of wound ease. âCanât say sheâs wrong, now can you?â
Watching another soldier pass the two of you, you tilt your head to make sure the strangerâs footsteps turn the corner before you answer Johnâs question with a raised brow to mirror his own.Â
âDid she also tell you that I donât plan on joining One-Four-One, Captain?â His bearded smirk catches you slightly off-guard, perplexed by not even the hint of shock in his gaze. Heâd done his research.
John grunts as his eyelids narrow, amused. Your muscles tense.
âAffirmative.â The meeting room door is opened and this time he allows you to ease your paranoia by slinking in first.Â
In the room sits an occupied Laswell, a long table, a projector, and black-out windows. Confused but used to last-minute changes, you simply enter silently and pick a chair with your back to the wall and a good view of the room.Â
âLaswell,â you utter in greeting as the woman hums a hello, shifting through numerous files. In your breast pocket, you pull out the files youâd stolen and toss them onto the wood. John stands near the entrance with crossed arms, hips shifting every so often as his feet re-situate themselves.Â
He blinks down at the papers and then back to you with a careful glance at Kate.
Your Station Chief chuckles when she looks at you, tilting her head before she snatches the prize.Â
âGood work as always, Tomb.âÂ
âWhy is he here?â You get to the point, one hand going up to brush over your hair as the other sits limply on the seatâs arm. Your gear sits heavy on you, but that brutal tic of curiosity blooms.Â
Johnâs lips twitch before he answers, âAn offer. Knew I wouldnât be able to meet if Laswell wasnât the mediator, eh? Youâre bloody difficult to track down.â
âOffer?â Small talk never mattered to you, hadnât since youâd signed up, and probably never would. You didnât understand why people beat around the bushâjust say what you need to say and get it over with. There was only so much time in a day.Â
It seemed John Price carried part of that opinion as well.Â
Blunt, you admit to your opinion of the man, and sure of his strengths.
âI need your skill set.â Kate looks back and forth between you two before she focuses on her work, multitasking. John continues, pointing a hand at you in demonstration from their hold on his chest. âMission in three days. TurkeyâŠâ He watches you closely as if gauging your abilities. âYou in or out?âÂ
You wait in a dim silence for a minute or two before you tilt your body to Laswell, eyes still stuck in stormy blue and pale wrinkles inlaid with dirt.Â
âKate?âÂ
âTotally off the books,â the woman says confidently, pen sliding over paper. âTwo targets in Bursa. Thereâs a file in your office.â Raising a brow, John hides his cheeky smile behind a bored mask.
âTake your Lieutenant,â you glare, âGhost, was it?â
Price shakes his head, hat flinching along with it. âOn assignment. Iâll need an answer today, Tomb. Timeâs ticking.â
Your jaw clenches in annoyance, âCapture or kill?âÂ
John shrugs nonchalantly, âEither. Is this a yes or a no?â
In this game of cat and mouse, you find yourself slipping. Your obligations as a soldier call to you to take the mission immediately, but for the simple fact that this Captain was unknown to youâand apparently, you werenât unknown to him.Â
John was checking all of the boxes of people you didnât like to be around.
Your voice grits out, eyes burning in their glare, â...When?âÂ
His smirk makes you want to storm out.
âTomorrow. 1300.â The air in the room is thick, tense like a thick layer of molasses was overtop everything. Under the table, your foot taps to the steady beat of your heart, your face tensed, and the layers of your facemask suddenly too formed to your neck and chin.Â
Twitching your nose you dig your eyes into John, peeling down his expansive shoulders and chest to take in the layers of packs and other miscellaneous items. His thigh holders and the way they hug his legs. You end with one last dead-on look into his eyes, trying to pinpoint intentions and flay the lines of his brain.Â
Most people glance away, but John returns the look with a casual tilt of his head and a raised brow. Not at all off-put.Â
Your hand steadily clenches over the chair.Â
All you give him is a firm nodânothing more than a mere jerk of your chin. Kate sighs from where sheâd been watching.Â
âPerfect. John,â she points her pen at the Captain as you both stare off. John grunts before his eyes flicker to the side, leisurely roving back moments later. You blink and rub your forehead. âYou have your answer. Now would the both of you get the fuck out of here?â
âCopy, Kate.â John sighs, and you huff; standing as you plan out the amount of time you have to clean up and sleep before you have to leave. With an easy brush of your shoulders, your form shimmies past the Captain with dull enthusiasm.Â
You werenât happy about this, but fine. Youâve been through worse.Â
As you shuffle down the hallway to the armory, your ears quirk when the footsteps ring in the drums of your ears like a hiking beacon. Already youâd memorized the walking pattern.Â
The thump-bump, bump-thump, of boots and the clink-clank of metal on metal. Shoving down a growl you hiss out into the air, not turning around.Â
âProblem, Price?â A gruff humph bounces.Â
âNegative, Tomb.â His shadow comes to conjoin with yours, large body standing side-by-side. Eyes flash to the side of your face, hidden from all by the clothâlike a bored cat, you continue to pave your way to silence; hoping whatever thought this man had in his head would disappear. âJust curious, see.âÂ
âCurious?â your brow raises, the make of your muscles showing your unease. âCanât help you with that.âÂ
âNo, probably not, eh?â John grunts and reiterates as strange emotion spikes in the lines of his face as he glances along you. âTomorrow. 1300. Donât be late.â With nothing more, he halts and pivots, peeling back to leave your side as his sudden absence leaves you devoid of heat.Â
Confusion breeds in your chest, but your steady legs carry you on until your tension leaves. Under your breath you utter a question as you enter the armory, shuffling your rifle off of your chest. âWhat the hell was that about?â
â
Price and you stand inside the safehouse with fast hearts and narrowed eyes. Blood was dripping down your hands, the black gloves flooded with gore that sure as hell doesnât belong to you.Â
âFuck,â John growls, guttural reverberations echoing off the walls. With stiff ribs, you go and lightly peel back the fabric of the nearest window to study the street below; looking for any suspicious figures. Frowning, you see nothing and let the curtain fall, eyes wafting to the Captain.Â
âWe either lost them or they have surveillance on the building. Best for you to not leave either way.â The mission had gone sidewaysâapparently one of the targets had an ID on John as a member of One-Four-One. One thing led to another and resulted in you sticking a knife into some manâs gut to get away when heâd been spotted. You blink at his agitated expression, the black beanie on his head ruffled as he runs a hand over it.
But you donât say anything else. Peeling off your gloves, you listen to him as a rain of blood splatters the carpet.Â
âThis sets us backâsince when does bloody fuckinâ Metin Baydar know who I am?â Johnâs hands are clenched, jaw so tight you wonder if his molars will crack under the pressure. A smirk twitches your lips at the thought. âTomb,â you slowly tilt your eyes to him. The man sets his lips and crosses his arms, the brown casual wear in his chest bunching. âIâll need you to be my eyes on this, yeah? If I leave this position I jeopardize your safety.â
âMy safety?â you huff a laugh and push your gloves into your loose pants. âCaptain, I donât need you to worry about my safety.âÂ
He seems to pause for a moment, and with a shake of his head his blue eyes shutter closed. A deep, tight, breath is taken and those tiny lids are forced back as you lock gazes. You send a blank look his way and he nods firmly.
âKeep low.â Is all he grunts, feet standing apart and his stare intense. âCopy?âÂ
A swirl of amusement dances in your gutâyou tap the earpiece in your shell with a stained streak of blood on your fingers. John stares, unreadable.
âIâll leave when the streets cool. Just keep on the line so I can relay my intel, Price.â After a moment of silence, your eyes tighten with intrigue. âHow do you wonder Baydar knew your face?â Standing by the window again, you peek out and keep John in view. His form shuffles, and he scoffs before walking beside you. Over your shoulder, he also views the buildings and businesses below. You still at the sensation of his breath on the back of your head, hand twitching over the curtain. It ruffles your hair for a moment before you snap out of it, eyes blinking rapidly. âYour Task Force isnât exactly known,â you finish your sentence, voice strained.Â
Clearing his throat, as if realizing how close heâd gotten with only the intention of gazing outside, the manâs form jerks back; taking a step or two away to give you distance. Your far-gone eyes blankly continue to look outside but your chest gains some tension to it. You donât know why.
This Brit is strange. You frown, watching a cat traverse the concrete far below. Not that I really have much to go off of.Â
âHavenât a clue.â John sighs again, one hand going to itch at his chin. âYour guess is as good as mine. One thing I do know is that we have to fix this. Now.âÂ
âYou should tell Laswell,â you mutter, turning around and walking past him to stand around your packsâall of which hold your gear. Your knife was set into a small sheath inside your shirt, leather wrapped around your waist as you stopped near the coffee table. You pull the lip of your clothes up and grasp at it before peeling the metal out with an inquisitive eye.Â
If there was any breakage to the tip, youâd be furious.Â
John watches from across the room, catching glances at your bare skin riddled with scars and burns; unmarred flesh foreign. He feels his breath hitch before you drop your shirt back down and bring the blade into the light.Â
Holding it parallel, you gaze along the edge and tilt your head, eyelids half-closed.Â
âKate?â Price answers you, clearing his throat. âNo, itâs better not to create any more shite. Sheâll be good off not knowing, yeah?â The brunetteâs brow raises in question.
You hum and donât reply.Â
The rest of the mission was spent with the two of you conversing over the open line of your comms as you scoured the streets for any sign of the target, feet carrying you over the city as the chill of the late afternoon set in. Presently, you didnât know how to feel about your situation. Working with others was a strain on your focusâon the walls youâve built up; John had obviously noticed that you didnât exactly play well with others. It was plainly stated in your file, after all.Â
ââattitude, or lack thereof, is a detriment to the structure of any team/unit/platoon that she is placed into under all circumstances. Recommended reserved operations to limit drawbacks.âÂ
Having a pleasant attitude wasnât your job.Â
Stalking around the corner, your ears twitch to Johnâs voice. âSitrep, Tomb. Whatâs it looking like out there?âÂ
It was strange, then, that the man over the line was so eager to speak to you. Your sigh hits on deaf ears, and you respond as you carefully walk past civilians making their way home.
âQuiet. No sign.â The silence re-settles and you gradually loosen again. Like a cat, your ears twitch to hear the muttering from the commuters; eyes sliding with watery film across faces.Â
Baydar owns a restaurant as a front for funding terrorists. Anyone exiting from this direction could be part of itâ
âYou said youâd never join One-Four-One,â Johnâs voice makes you shove down a flinch, ripped out of your focus. In your pockets, your hands close into fists, and a deeply annoyed mask fits itself over your expression. âWhyâs that, then?âÂ
âWhat is this?â Your voice goes cold, âinterrogation time?â
âWith a record like yours, youâd get pick of any Task Force or SOF in country.â The Captain seems to ignore your hiss and jab as his deep voice continues; accent low. You hear the drag of a cigar and the puff of smoke. Internally, youâre thankful for the casual yet attentive acknowledgment of your skillsâhow the man doesnât seem in the slightest worried about you. âWhy is it that youâre always alone out âere? Couldnât wrap my head âround it, truthfully.â A tobacco-slick chuckle, âBloody hell, people would kill to get you on a mission like I did, eh? No doubt.âÂ
For a long time, you donât answer, leaning against the wall across from your targetâs restaurant doing recon. Frown tight and face stiff. Johnâs voice fizzles.Â
âAh, fuckinâ forget it Love, just a manâs curiosity speaking for âim. Iâll leave you to focus.â Before the line can click, you open your lipsâas if the things have a mind of their own.
âPeople are unpredictable.â The Captainâs breath is gently puffing over the line. He listens and you know he hangs on every word; it was a strange feeling to know that. From under you, your feet shuffle. âThey do things that donât make sense. I donât like dealing with it.â
A grunt. âWell, can get behind thatâŠâ John had a smirk on his lips, you can hear it. âYouâd lose your head if you met MacTavish.âÂ
Your focus waning, you blink, getting sucked into this strange interaction with an even stranger man.Â
âYeah?â You wonder, head tilting to the side. âOne of yours?â
âHm,â he affirms and the chill of the night caresses your skin. John chuckles. âSergeant. Bloody good shot, but can get into trouble faster than his fucking gun can fire.âÂ
Your mouth quirks. âSounds horrible.â
âMakes my job a living hell,â John admits and you shock yourself by listening. âBut no one better to keep by my sixâŠYouâd ease up to him.âÂ
âIâm not joining, Price,â Your voice mutters out like how a dragonfly snaps its translucent wings on still air. âThis is it.â
In the safehouse, John hums under his breath, staring out the window at the blinking lights of the city as you watch the restaurant with far-off thoughts. A smile twitches his lips. For some reason there was something about you he wanted to figure outâsomething to unravel. You were like Ghost sometimes, but more⊠fascinating. Darker.
And you knew how to get the job done better than anyone.
John wanted you on his Task Force, your expertise, and the only way to get that was to take you apart like a puzzle of razor blades. Study you. Learn you as the edges cut up his flesh. The Captain had no idea what picture youâd make when everything was in its proper place, but heâd be willing to try with the very tenacity that had gotten him this far.Â
But there was something else there, too. Some kind of tightness in his chest when you looked at him; he'd gotten it when heâd seen you on the tarmac back not so long ago like some schoolboy. Those blank eyes of yoursâŠwhy did he want them to light up?Â
Why did he want to see your laugh?Â
John wasnât immature enough to not know his own feelings or attractions, but this was an entire section of its own. Blinking, the man grunts to himself and smirks. âWell, better make it last, then.âÂ
You feel your eyelids carefully pull in surprise.Â
âIâŠâ Your voice starts but dies off, swallowing saliva down as your mouth clacks shut with a connection of teeth. Closing your eyes, you steady your heart, which had suddenly created a concerning skip in its beats.Â
John places the cigar back to his lips and takes a long drag, leaning out of the window to watch the smoke disappear into the twinkling lights. Lips peeling his beard hairs back.
â
As it turned out, the mission in Turkey wasnât the only time youâd have to deal with John Price, and it certainly wasnât the last time youâd see his face in front of yours. One mission turned into twoâtwo into three and so on. You hadnât exactly wanted it, but you found you couldnât turn him down either.Â
At whichever base you were stationed at, all of a sudden heâd just show up; standing on the tarmac with his arms crossed and that casual set to his shoulders. The first time youâd seen him after Turkey, you had half convinced yourself he was a mirage. And then heâd smirk at you and tilt his head and youâd have no control over your words.Â
It was patheticâŠdisgustingâŠit wasâŠit wasâŠ
You shake yourself back to the present when a bullet whizzes past your head, a sharp call from across the utter warzone youâd found yourself in the middle of.
âTomb, what in the hellâs wrong with you?!â Johnâs voice is harsh, and you lock onto it. âGet your gun up!âÂ
You sigh, unperturbed. Peaking past the large crate you use as cover, your eyes glare at the enemy soldiers across the dock, fixing your fingerâs position over your M4A1. The small unit youâd been dragged into by John was mostly deadâonly four of you remaining from the ten.
It wasnât supposed to go down like this.Â
Jerking back, a splintering of wood explodes in front of you as the next fast piece of metal nearly takes your nose off. With a grit of your teeth, you flick your safety off and swivel your shoulders.Â
Popping from the top of the crate, your sharp eyes lock onto the first visible body before you press your finger to the trigger with practiced ease as the word shrieks all around you. Recoil is eaten into the padded kevlar of the junction of your shoulder and arm.Â
When you dart back, the body has yet to hit the ground.Â
âThere she is!â John calls, and you look forward with a steady stare as the brunette laughs from behind his own crate a few feet away. âKeep your head in the game, Tomb.â
You frown, normal facemask back over your chin hiding it. While you loathe to admit it, John had grown on you in theseâŠwhat was itâŠ? Months? Yes, that seemed about right.
Months of joint missions. You could hardly believe that heâd dragged you out like this.
âTell the others to flank,â Your voice whisps over the line like smoke, âLeft sideâthereâs a gap in the crates.â
John looks you in the eyes and blinks, eyelids twitching. With his beard covered in gunpowder, the man looks across the open space between the gunbattle to the left. Sure enough, right before heâs forced to snap back down to cover, the Captain spies a very well-hidden gap in the defenses.
He smiles viciously like a dog, and barks a laugh to you, nodding, âGood eye! Boys,â the two donât pause their assault but call their questioning voices over the line. You donât listen, occupied with giving off bursts of gunfire and trying to avoid the eyes of your fellow dead soldiers. Your lungs are compressed inside of your ribcage like prisoners. âFlank left. Weâll cover you!âÂ
âSir!â Steadying your breath, you avoid Johnâs confused glances and scoff to yourself, resituating your clammy hands.Â
When allâs said and done the four of you are the only ones left. Letting your gun sit on your chest you use the body as an armrest, allowing it to hang off the side from the trigger-guard. Your fingers twitch, and as John speaks to the two men, you stare silently at the gushing bodies of your fellows like phantoms spring from their chests.
Johnâs voice slows when he sees you apart from them, glancing at the soldiers at your feet before ordering the remaining men to get to the evac point. They try to argue everyone should be going together, and on all accounts, theyâre completely right, but John wonât hear it.Â
âGoâthatâs an order.â Reluctantly, the two glance at each other and speed off.Â
You jolt at a call of your name, head turning to face stormy blue as they gaze at you with concern. Stopping a few feet away, John stands still and folds his arms, face going rigid with concern as he glances you over for wounds.
His head slightly leans in, chin down.
â...You alright?â Hand flinching, you clear your throat.Â
âWhy wouldnât I be?â You ask, fixing the position of your feet and forcing away the images of dead bodies and blank eyes.Â
Youâd seen scores of men dead beforeâfriend and foeâbut you had thought youâd never have to see more of your own fall. It had been a long time since youâd felt the distant lull of numb horror in the back of your brain; like some ocean wave that drowns you under every time it comes back. It always comes back.Â
John narrows his eyes and frowns deeply, glancing around and hiding the slight way his right arm sags.Â
âTomb?â He says it so lowly that you really have to focus, ears straining. That gravel was back, and you found yourself latching onto it. âEh, you just focus on me, yeah? Iâm right âere.âÂ
âI know,â you snap, eyes shuttering away only to find more vacant stares. You flinch back and look up into the sky; a sudden burn in your brain that you need to quell.
The man grows even more concerned with you, taking a step forward and clenching his jaw. He studies you, your shaking tension and the clench and loosening of your fistsâattention always on you but roving to the dead men all around. Something clicks with a violent inhale.
John moves to you without a word and grasps you around the shoulders quickly. You gasp at that, immediate reaction to shove away, but only gape at the warmth that he brings you insteadâthe steady presence and chest to lean on. As the Brit drags you, you focus instead on calming your breathing.Â
The Captain lightly shimmies down your facemask and you suck down tight air as you go limp into his side.Â
âCâmon, Tomb. Itâs alright. Iâm here. Iâm right here.â Heâs muttering to you, disguising his pained grunts in favor of taking care of you.Â
That strange affection for you had grown in your time togetherâŠnot that heâd said anything. It was more proper of him to watch out from a distance, not sure of your own feelings or the probability of you gazing back at him with the same amount of concealed longing. Many a night heâd sat on his bed and wondered. Wondered how an animal so extraordinary and remarkable took the form of a woman with a black sphinx patch and sharp eyes.Â
John had heard you laugh once through your expeditions togetherâsniping in Greenland. Once had been enough; if he never heard it again, he could still recall the pitch and frequency to the yawning of his soul. He didnât need to hear it again.Â
It was locked into the fabric that made up your skin and speech, and every time he stared at you he could find it in your eyes.Â
The Captain puts you down near a crate around the corner, letting you lean into it as he turns and captures your neck from either side. You shake under him, blurry vision stuck to his dog tags as they wink against his chest.Â
âTomb,â John says again, and with a lick of your chapped lips, you carefully turn your head up. Blue eyes crease worriedly. The thumbs on the sides of your neck caress up and down your rapid pulse steadily; calluses creating stimuli. A small smile meets you. âThere we are, atta girl. Focus.â
Tears dribble down your cheeks, and you flatten your lips, whispering out brokenly, âI said I donât like teams.â
Johnâs heart breaks.Â
âOh, Sweetheart,â his hand captures the back of your head and youâre brought into a deep and firm embraceâgear pinching and prodding but neither of you care.Â
When was the last time youâd been held like this? The feeling makes your mouth quiver, your face stuck into the junction of the Britâs neck and shoulder.
âJohnâŠâ You whimper out and his arms around you only tightenâhis tense nose shoved into your scalp as his eyes closed tightly.Â
âIâm so sorry,â he whispers, heart racing, âIâm so, so, sorry.âÂ
You donât know long he holds you there, the air filled with blood and death but just so soundly resting atop his vest and limp to his gentle swaying. The tears dry at some point, they always have to. Sniffling, your burning face takes in the scent of beard oil and gunpowder and you find yourself calmed by it.
Calmed by John.Â
The man holding you waits a moment more before he slightly leans back, staring down at you intently; nervously. You lick at the tears drying into the line of your mouth to taste the saltiness on your tongue as fingers grasp at your chin.Â
Angled up, your face is on full display.Â
John sighs and the drowned keratin of your lashes flutters, embarrassment flooding you. His eyes crease before his hands come up to take away your sorrows with a soft brush of his digits. The man clears his throat tinily, voice deep with emotion.
âBetter?â Your eyes dip away from his, knowing youâd been staring.Â
âIâŠâ Glancing over his right shoulder absentmindedly, you only get a word off before you see a fountain of red. Blinking away the last of your tears, Johnâs finger on your cheek stops moving as you freezeâstiff to the touch.Â
His panic spikes again.Â
âWhatâs going onââ
âWhen did you get hit?â Your voice is hard and laced with something you canât name. Shaving back from John you frantically grab at his arm. In an instant, the Captain is whirled around and shoved back into the crate; he grunts loudly, eyes snapping wide.
âFuckinâ hell.â He grumbles, but flinches when you peel at the bloodied layers of his compression shirt. John smirks, letting your touch rove him as your nose scrunches. He represses a shiver at the bite of your nails, whispering out, âIf you wanted to throw me âround, LoveâŠall you had to do was ask.âÂ
You blink rapidly and turn your fast gaze to his eyes as you stutter, fingers covered in blood and holding apart the fabric of his outfit to show a bullet graze to his pale upper bicep. Johnâs cheeky smirk grows and against all the pain and the dark corners, you feel a bubbling in your gut.Â
A small chuckle snakes out, like twinkling bells.Â
âShut up,â your smile leaves him breathless, smirk falling to a small open-mouthed screen of obvious admiration. A hum marks the back of his throat, eyebrows loosely curving upon his forehead.Â
You look over and find him like thisâhis gaze trapping you like his arms had. Like music, it takes you into its melody. Staring, your smile, gradually too, leaks out.Â
âWhat are you doing?â Your question is breathy. "What is your fascination with me?" Johnâs eyes stick with you, the shining, shimmering, blue. There are tempests held there and if this man was anything, he was a storm of intentions and promises.Â
âLooking,â John answers lowly. "Just looking."Â
You take down a breath, âAt what, John?â
He chuckles at you, face close and pleasant, âYâknow, I havenât quite figured that one out yet, Love.âÂ
Blindly you wonder how the world can still turn while you both stand hereâwas it, even? How can life go on when such things are uttered to light? When theyâre buried deep into your marrow like the dirt on top of a grave?Â
How can the Reaper knock at your doorways when love exists in such quantityâŠin the fractures of his eyes? Only when his lips brush yours do you understand.Â
Itâs all here, and then itâs gone. Nothing can truly be as it was in the past, and therein lies the small, glorious, deaths. Both a blessing and a curse.
Your lips press deeply into one another and the blood of old wounds dries.Â
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Daddy ~KNJ
âPairing: Kim Namjoon x Reader
âGenre: Smut, (Slight) Fluff (in the beginning), One-Shot
Warnings: MAJOR Daddy kink (in case, it wasn't clear already from the title), reader is basically drooling over DILF Namjoon, age gap (Namjoon in his 30s, reader in her 20s), breast play&fingering&praise (Namjoon is an absolute service dom - don't even try to change my mind!), vaginal sex (reader rides Namjoon) [18+ MDNI]
âWord Count:Â 3.7k
âSummary: Namjoon had been searching for someone to care for his son for months and months, to no avail. Until the moment he saw you crouched on the ground, helping his son tie his shoelaces with a smile so pretty on your face. That's when he knew you'd be perfect for him... and, for his son too.
"Seungmin-ah, it's time to go to bed! Come on, sweetie".
If you were keeping count -which you were- that'd be your 5th attempt to usher the cheeky three-year-old over to his room.
"But Koya doesn't want to sleep yet... Look, he is full of energy!".
Seungmin swings the plushie around, almost hitting you in the face with it. You let out a huffed chuckle glancing at the clock on the wall.
It's almost 9 o'clock and he's the one who's full of energy...
You'd expect that after running around and playing with him all afternoon long, by the time his bedtime came, he'd be sleeping like a log.
"I'll tell you and Koya a fairytale so you both can go to sleep".
You pick him up and sit on his bed, laying him down and pulling the blanket over him.
Thankfully, he settles down, cuddling his Koya, close to him.
Taking the book of fairytales from the bed table, you flip over to the page of his favourite, Kongjwi and Patjwi.
... Or as you prefer to call it Korean Cinderella with a twist.
Seungmin claps his little hands excitedly, burying himself further inside his blanket, focusing his attention solely on your words.
Reaching out to offer him an affectionate pat on the head, you begin to recite the fairytale, smiling fondly at the thought of how much your life has changed ever since you got the job of babysitting this adorable little toddler.
~Four Months Ago~
Judging from how hard it had been for you to get an apartment in NYC, you were already prepared to face the same difficulty in finding yourself a job.
Little did you know, it'd be as easy as taking a walk in the park.
Literally!
Walking in the park, that one cloudy afternoon, was all it took for you to run into little Seungmin and his dad.
And oh, his dad...
Mr. Kim Namjoon.
A Korean-American.
CEO of a public education company.
Single father to Kim Seungmin, after his wife left him a year ago and ran off to Europe with another man.
Honestly, who in their right mind would even think about leaving this man for another?!
You still remember how in awe you were upon seeing him...
His tall frame towered over you and his son as he stood above you, clad in a black turtleneck that perfectly highlighted his muscled chest and wide shoulders.
His face bore youthful features and yet his eyes brought out a sense of wisdom and maturity.
The polite smile he wore, not only betrayed the dimple that appeared on his cheek but his refined manners too, as he offered you a hand to help you stand back up.
Looking up at his entrancing eyes, you accepted his hand and slowly rose to your feet.
"Daddy, look!".
The little toddler's voice finally enabled you to tear your gaze away from his father.
Seungmin pointed at his small feet, with a bright smile on his face.
His father furrowed his eyebrows puzzled, which rushed you to explain.
"His, uh, his shoelaces were untied and he was running around...
So I thought I'd tie them for him!
You know, so he wouldn't get hurt-"
"Thank you for doing that".
The man offered your hand a small squeeze in gratitude, before finally introducing himself.
You hadn't even noticed he was still holding your hand!
Hastily returning the handshake, you forced yourself to withdraw your hand introducing yourself as well.
"It's a pleasure to meet you, Mr Kim".
It felt proper to address him like that, since he seemed to be quite older than you...
Mr Kim slightly cleared his throat and offered you a small nod before turning to his son.
"Why don't you tell the pretty lady who helped you, your name as well, hm?".
You sucked in a breath and bit your lip in a desperate attempt to hide how much that affected you; a man as handsome as him addressing you as pretty.
Thankfully, the cute toddler in front of you was the perfect way to get your mind off of it as he raised his hand towards you.
"Hi, I am Seungmin!".
You noticed he was offering his hand for you to shake, just like he had seen you do with his father.
"Hi, Seungmin!
It's nice to meet you, I'm Y/N".
You resisted the urge to swoon at the sight of his small hand enveloped in your own.
So cute!
"And what else do you need to say to Y/N?".
"Thank you".
You shook yourself insisting it was nothing and adjusted your back on your shoulder, mentally preparing yourself to bid farewell to the two of them.
"Let me buy you a drink, Y/N; as thanks for helping Seungmin".
Your eyes widened at Mr Kim's unexpected suggestion.
"Oh no, you don't need to do that-".
"I insist".
Well, how could you refuse when he looked at you like that?!
And so, you ended up playing with Seungmin at the playground, while Mr Kim went to get the both of you something to drink.
You were pushing Seungmin on the swings when Mr Kim returned with a hot latte in each hand, offering one for you to drink.
Next thing you knew, you were sitting on a bench with probably the most attractive man you'll ever get the chance to lay your eyes on, drinking your latte and watching over his son continuing to play at the playground.
"Thanks again for helping Seungmin out.
I was too busy talking on the phone...
I should have been keeping an eye on him but work is just-".
He groans in frustration, before letting out a long sigh and turning to you.
"Never mind that now, tell me about you".
You purse your lips in thought, rummaging through your brain in an attempt to find something about you that's interesting enough to share with someone like Mr Kim.
"I'm just a girl, trying to survive college while looking for a job".
You shrug before taking another sip of your latte.
Meanwhile, the moment those words left your mouth, Mr Kim turned to face you with a knowing smile.
"Well, that's a happy coincidence".
And that's when you were offered the job of babysitting Mr Kim's son. And even though, you truly loved looking after little Seungmin, you couldn't help being even more thrilled by the prospect of spending even just a little time around a man like Mr. Kim.
~Present Day~
"And so, the new Mayor married Kongjwi, the owner of the shoe.
Now, you'd think that they got to live happily ever afterâŠ
But that's not the end of this story!
Jealous of Kongjwi's happiness, her stepsister Patjwi drowns poor Kongjwi in the stream.
Patjwi then disguises herself as Kongjwi and starts living at the palace as the mayorâs wife.
However, one day Kongjwi appears in her husband's dream and tells him about her tragic fate.
The mayor is shocked to learn this and starts desperately searching for his wife's body.
After months and months of endlessly searching, he manages to discover Kongjwi's body in the stream.
He cries cradling his wife's body close to him before leaning over to offer her a kiss farewell.
Yet, with that kiss, Kongjwi is brought back to life.
Once they both return to the town, the Mayor puts Patjwi and her mother in a dark prison and that's when he and Kongjwi finally live...
Happily ever after!".
You huff merrily closing the book and putting it back to its place before turning to Seungmin.
Alas, the story didn't seem to bring the toddler the drowsiness you'd thought it would, so you decide to simply leave him to play around in his bed hoping that at some point he'll tire himself enough to sleep.
You take the baby monitor with you and walk out of the bedroom, trying hard not to laugh at the kid scolding his plushie for not going to sleep.
Heading over to the kitchen, you start making yourself a warm cup of tea.
After carefully, pouring yourself a cup, you settle on the living room's couch and check the baby monitor sighing in relief when you see that little Seungmin has finally fallen asleep.
As you take a sip of your tea, you open your phone to check your Instagram for any messages.
After replying to your bestie's "where are you?" with a simple "babysitting", you quickly engage in conversation with her since the both of you have nothing better to do right now.
Soon, her texting gives way to an incoming call, which you're more than happy to answer.
Time goes by without you taking notice until you realise that you've finished your tea.
Abandoning your snuggling on the couch, you walk back to the kitchen in order to wash the used kettle and mug, having put the phone on speaker and placed it on the table behind you so as not to get water spilt on it.
"So... Is the Daddy hot?".
You roll your eyes at her sudden, crude question with a slight scoff.
She was never the kind to hold back on those types of conversations and thirsty comments, yet this time you decide to humour her and just play along.
"Well...
Let's just say, I wouldn't mind calling him Daddy too".
You hum cheekily and your best friend gasps.
"That much huh?".
"Oh trust me... He's a Dilf ".
You bite your lip, slightly embarrassed by yourself calling him that.
Your best friend lets out a hum and you're certain she also has a teasing smirk on her face.
"Hmm, no wonder you were so thrilled over a babysitting job".
You shake your head chuckling, as you stretch your body to put the kettle back in its place on the top shelf, before starting to wash your mug next.
"No no, I really love looking after his son. Seungmin's the sweetest!
Having Mr Kim around is just..."
"A bonus".
She finishes your sentence for you, giggling.
"But really, why don't you shoot your shot?
You know, flirt with him, show off your boobies".
Her saucy tone makes you roll your eyes.
"I'm not showing off my boobs to my boss!".
"You were the one who wanted him to be your Daddy...
Anyway, what I'm saying is-".
Waiting a moment or two for her to continue, you place the clean mug in its place.
When she doesn't, you assume that the signal must have been cut off so you wipe your wet hands on a towel before turning around to grab your phone and call her back.
Oh.My.God!
Your eyes almost pop out of your skull and your body freezes on the spot at the sight of none other than Mr. Kim himself leaning against the table where your phone is placed, his hand hovering over its screen.
"M-Mr. Kim! I-I didn't realise you were back home!".
You stumble over your words, feeling your cheeks burn red from the embarrassment.
The only thing that's left for you to do now is hope that he probably hasn't been home long enough to hear the entire conversation, or else you're most definitely fired.
Mr Kim smirks, the amusement clear on his face.
"I thought you'd prefer calling me Daddy".
You gasp, wishing for the earth to open up and swallow you whole right now.
He heard everything right from the start...
Well, there goes your job!
"I-I... It's not what I meant-! I was just, uh, joking! I-!"
You know your attempts at justifying yourself are futile.
You know that there's nothing redeemable you can say for yourself.
But you don't want to lose this job!
Yes, you need the money too but spending all that time with Mr Kim and Seungmin...
You can't bear the thought of never getting to see them again!
"Y/N..."
Your staggered breath catches in your throat once you realise how close to you Mr Kim has gotten.
He has placed his hands on either side of the kitchen counter, trapping you between them.
"Mr Kim-".
You look up at him in question, only to get lost in his eyes.
His large palm comes to caress your cheek, his thumb slightly stroking the soft skin.
"Mr Kim".
A low groan rumbles in his throat as he presses his mouth against yours, more fiercely.
You utter again, before his lips suddenly connect with your own and your mind goes blank.
"Do you know how much I had to hold myself back whenever you called me that?".
You let out a small gasp when you feel his other hand start to fondle your breast.
A wanton cry slips past your lips when his fingers brush over your pebbled nipple.
"Do you know how many times I wished you showed these off to me, and me only?".
His words barely register, you mind still remaining blank from the unforeseen pleasure.
You latch your hands onto his wide shoulders as he lifts you off the ground, wrapping your legs around his waist and having you sit on the kitchen counter.
"Do you know how long I wanted to hear you call me Daddy?".
His hand pushes your hair back, revealing your neck for him to bury his face into, leaving a trail of wet kisses on your warm skin.
You slightly throw your head back, your mouth parting in pleasure, while your hands run through his dark hair.
Both of his hands slowly start kneading your breasts as he lifts his lips from your neck, drawing them close to your ear.
"Go on baby, say it...
Let me hear that pretty voice of yours call me Daddy".
Your brain short-circuits at his words.
You honestly can't fully process what's happening right now.
Yet the words leave your mouth with no hesitation.
"Daddy".
It's as if a switch flipped in Namjoon's mind.
"Oh yes, that's it, baby".
He growls, quickly discarding your blouse and bra off of your body before leaning down to capture one of your nipples in his mouth.
You mewl as he starts to suck on it and your legs press against his hips, urging him to touch you where you need him most.
"Daddy, please".
He lets your nipple out of his mouth with a 'pop' and he stands up straight, slightly towering over you.
His hand disappears inside your pants, touching you over your panties as he looks down at you, his eyes clouded with desire.
"Is that what you want Daddy to do, baby?
Rub your pussy for you".
You pant closing your eyes as you nod at him urgently.
"Words, baby... I need to hear you say it".
"Yes, Daddy please rub my pussy".
And that's exactly what he does...
And he does it so well...
"Eyes on me, baby".
His deep voice coaxes you to open your eyes and gaze upon him.
Namjoon marvels at the sight of you, panting and trembling in pleasure but it's not nearly enough to satisfy his need for you.
He needs to see you come undone now, just by his fingers.
Gingerly pushing your panties to the side, he licks his lips before he inserts two of his long fingers inside you.
"Oh, D-Daddy!".
You let out a gasp, feeling yourself already full with just two of his fingers.
The thought of what it would feel like to have his cock enter you next, sends shivers down your spine.
His other hand rests on your hip and when he begins to move his fingers slowly in and out of your wet slit, Namjoon holds your body still as you can't help but squirm from the building pleasure.
"Now baby, I want you to focus on my voice".
You don't get the chance to respond to his words.
A breathy moan rips past your lips, your nails desperately digging into his back when you feel him curling his fingers inside you.
Namjoon lets out a pleased hum before he leans over to huskily whisper in your ear.
"I'll start counting and once I reach seven, you're going to let go and cum for your Daddy, like the good little girl you are".
"One...".
His fingers start to pick up speed, while he continues to move them in and out of you.
"Two...".
His other hand starts roughly groping your breast again, making you whine softly.
"Three... Four...".
His fingers curl intensely inside you, sending jolts of pleasure throughout your whole body.
"Five... Six"
"Daddy, I'm going to-!"
"...Seven".
You let go.
A sweet, little cry resonates in the kitchen when you cum on his fingers, but Namjoon keeps moving them, steadily letting you ride out your orgasm.
Once your body relaxes, you let yourself lean towards him resting your head on his chest with a small hum.
Embarrassment threatens to creep up on you as the gravity of the situation comes down on you.
And yet, when your mind runs back to Namjoon's previous words and touches, you instantly admit to yourself that there's no going back for you now.
You want him.
Namjoon grabs your chin, forcing your eyes to look up at him.
He relishes your blissed-out expression and smirks when he detects the insatiable desire still reflected in your eyes.
"Tell me what you want, baby".
His deep voice tears up all your remaining inhibitions.
"You, I want you inside me Daddy".
You run your palm through his clothed chest before starting to unbutton his shirt.
Namjoon lets out a low chuckle, shrugging his suit jacket off of his shoulders.
"Such a good girl, using her words for me".
He swiftly lifts your body off of the kitchen counter and carries you over to the living room.
Your legs stay wrapped around his waist as you finally remove his shirt off of him.
Having his strong arms hold you like this, your sole focus remains on discarding his clothes.
Licking your lips at the sight of his well-built body, you let your hands wander all over it, mapping out his chest, his waist and his shoulders.
Namjoon sighs in satisfaction, before carefully placing you back on the ground, leaving you to stand in front of him topless.
He slowly takes a sit at the edge of the couch behind him and his hands reach out, pulling down your pants and undergarments for you.
Soft moans release from your lips, as he starts to ravish every part of your body with wet kisses and sensual touches.
"Daddy".
You whine, your knees slightly quivering from his heated affection.
"I know baby, Daddy will give you what you want...
Just wanted to take a moment and cherish that beautiful body of yours".
He mutters glancing up at you with lust-filled eyes.
He raises his hips slightly, taking off both of his pants and boxers with one swift movement before leaning back on the couch, resting his arms on the back of it.
One of his fingers points to his lap and your gaze zeroes in on his erected length.
"Go ahead baby, I'm all yours".
You gulp, hesitating for a mere moment before your neediness overcomes you, urging your body to move on top of him.
His hands immediately find their way to your hips, holding onto them firmly to help guide you, as you slowly sink yourself down to his cock.
"Don't rush, we've got all the time in the world".
Namjoon's hushed whisper is soothing and it momentarily distracts you from the slightly painful stretch of his cock.
But the moment you bottom out, a pleasurable heat spreads through your entire body.
Your hips slightly stagger as you itch to start moving them against him but Namjoon's hands keep them still.
His face draws close to yours, capturing your lips in a passionate kiss, his hot breath mingling with your own.
When he pulls away, his forehead touches yours as he looks deep in your eyes.
"Now, give Daddy a good ride".
Your back arches when his hands roll your hips setting up a steady pace for you to follow.
Once he's made sure you're able to keep up on your own, his hands wrap around your waist hugging your body close to him.
The way he holds you is so erotic; it makes you melt in his arms, hugging him back and letting him relish your unrestrained moans while you ride him.
Namjoon lets you chase your orgasm, simply enjoying the feeling of having you so intimately close to him.
His fingers run down your spine eager to watch goosebumps appear all over your skin.
Yet what takes him by surprise is your walls fluttering around his cock as well.
Namjoon groans throwing his head back, pleasure painting over his expression.
The sight of him losing his composure because of you urges you to pick up the pace, bucking your hips faster against his.
"Oh baby, you make Daddy feel so good...
Come on, won't you cum again around Daddy's cock, like the good girl you are?".
"Ah y-yes Daddy, I-I'm gonna cum!".
His half-lidded eyes are focused on you and you only.
The intensity of his gaze is enough to send you over the edge.
You bite your lip, in an attempt to muffle the shriek that leaves your mouth before your orgasm finally washes over you.
The pleasure your second orgasm brings you is even more intense than your previous one...
So much so, that when the afterglow settles in, you can't help but let your body slump on top of Namjoon's.
Snuggling against his slightly heaving chest, you gather up the courage to look up at him bashfully.
"Um... Mr. Kim-".
Your call for him gets interrupted by his mouth claiming yours in yet another passionate kiss.
Kissing you roughly and deeply, he doesn't draw back until he leaves you breathless.
His fingers brush through your hair tenderly but the look in his eyes is strict and his tone is absolute when he whispers to you.
"I thought we'd already established that from now on, you're only addressing me as Daddy".
#bts#bts x reader#kim namjoon#rm#bts smut#bts namjoon#kim namjoon x reader#rm x reader#namjoon smut#namjoon x y/n#daddy k!nk#babysitter au
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song: valse sentimentale, op. 51, no. 6 - tchaikovsky
warnings: 18+ mdni, smut and slight angst, oral (r!receiving), sexual tension, afab reader, extensive descriptions of blood, blood drinking, bloody kisses, minor descriptions of pain, set in the unspecified past, omission of abbyâs true identity until near the end, eventual breakdown then comfort, loosely dracula-esque, not proofread
a/n: wanted this to be a fully fleshed out oneshot but i didnât have timeđ happy halloween from me nonetheless <3
vampire!abby, who shares an uncanny resemblance to the portraits that line her opulent walls. they gaze down at you with the same set jaw and stern brow, the same shock of golden waves. her family tree, she says, but it seems off⊠you have yet to lay eyes on any family. itâs as if she were a phantom that tore herself away from the constraints of oil and varnish and who is now playing the part of flesh and bone.
vampire!abby whose hospitality knows no bounds. even if her eyes glow a little too azure in the flickering flame of the hearth. even if her body is too still, her chest frozen with the lack of the in-out-in-out animal rhythm of breath. it matters not, because she has opened her home, and her heart, to you in a time of need. these little oddities donât outweigh her charms.
and oh, how charming she is. vampire!abby has a way with words, a honeyed tongue that drags heat from within to the apples of your cheeks. the things she finds to compliment you on are never ending, all with a charismatic smile to top it off. she doesnât dangle her affections and beckon, she lays it out flat on her palm for the taking.
vampire!abby, who you only see when the sun sets. it would have been strange, if not for the way she thrummed with a liveliness, a natural gift for conversation and entertainment that instantaneously vanished all growing doubts. she tells you stories of her adventures, spoken with the fondness of a distant memory. she shows you rare books that lay thick and dusty in your palms. the smell of worn leather and aged paper and her infiltrates your senses as she leans over your shoulder. frankincense, lavender and something unplaceable that crackles in the air. she looks at you as she flips the brittle pages gently, as if sheâs read it, memorised it, a hundred times overâŠ
vampire!abby, who keeps her restraint under control by the skin of her teeth. the sound of your pace racing rapidly beneath the thin sheet of your skin each time she comes near and the way your eyes dilate. not to mention the heady smell of your blood that fills the air night and day⊠she could eat you alive. oh, how she wants to, but sheâs found herself growing fonder of your presence each day. sheâs forgotten how lonely she has become, in this manor-shaped grave. burial site no longer, your mortal warmth makes it almost feel like a home again.
vampire!abby, who, finding herself unable to prey on you, decides to lavish you with affection instead. waltzes in the strong, soothing frame of her arms, in a ballroom so desolate the marble floor blurs as she spins and swivels you around. custom-made attire of the finest silks and velvets, all for you. then the gentler moments; the slow drag of fingertips as she buttons up your blouse, a gloved thumb trailing its way down the slope of your neck. fabric, the only thing separating the much wanted feel of skin-on-skin.
vampire!abby, who is the one to cut the suspended rope of tension between the two of you. she admits her feelings for you so sweetly, a choral my love, my love, mine. she asks you if these feelings also plague you, though she knows the answer before your lips part, with the telltale gallop of your heartbeat beneath your ribs. yes.
vampire!abby, whose lovemaking feels eternal because she knows that these moments with you are fleeting, your little mortal life a single dot in the long-drawn pages of her immortality. her lips ghost over every searing inch of skin, pressing openmouthed kisses wherever she can. she spends hours between your sprawled thighs, licking strokes between the puffy, silky lips of your cunt, nose pressed to your soaked warmth as she savours your saccharine taste slowly until your legs tremble around her head. all the while, she ignores the boiling fingers of hunger that dig into her guts. skin, sweat, essence. she swears these are the only parts of you that she will ever taste. she could never, she would neverâŠ
but vampire!abby cannot fight the nocturnal nature that calls to her like a siren song. the closer you get, the more time she spends revering your body, the less she has a grasp on her beastly temperament. she wants you, all of you. all that plagues her mind are the shivering veins that entangle through your body, the richness that lingers just beneath the surface. she thinks and thinks and thinks until the chord within her snaps.
vampire!abby, who confesses her true nature to you keeled over on the floor through heaving breaths. her fingers claw at the fabric covering your knees, not out of malice but out of desperation. her too-bright eyes are wide moons that hang over the ocean, and her brows are drawn together in pleading. this is the defiling, monstrous truth, she whispers through quivering lips. please love me as i am. i cannot bear another loss, but if you desire to leave⊠no harm will come to you. but i beg you, stay.
vampire!abby, who is stunned when you gather the heap of her broad, icy body into your arms. tears slip down the curve of her cheeks as you whisper soothing promises into the silken pile of her hair. you were a fool for staying, for pitying this hellish creature, but she was still the same person who had captured your heart, who clung to you now with the ferocity of somebody begging for proximity, for compassion, for companionship. you realised, just as shocked, that you would give her all these things and more.
vampire!abby, who doesnât ask for your blood, but you offer it to her anyway, tugging down your collar and baring your craned neck to her. there is silence before you feel the velvet of her tongue gliding down the smooth expanse of skin, her fingers rubbing circles along your waist to calm any lingering nerves. her mouth travels upwards until it stops abruptly, pausing on the steadiness of your pulse beneath. she presses a feather-light kiss to the spot before you hear her the click of her expanding jaw, then the piercing, bright-burning feeling of her canines sinking deep.
vampire!abby, whose bite feels tender when the searing pain gives way to a weakening, otherworldly bliss. you melt like chocolate in sunlight when liquid ecstasy encompasses you at the feeling of fangs reaching the innermost parts of you. and she is enraptured with the taste of you, sticky ambrosia dripping thickly down her throat and seeping out the corners of her lips when greed overwhelms her. droplets spill onto her snowy collar and the silky blue cravat laced around her throat. warbling moans tickle against your skin as she savours each note, each shifting depth that reveals itself with each gulp.
vampire!abby, who licks the remnants clean. the puncture at your neck, her lips, her fingers, the valley between your breasts where stray droplets lay. not before peppering you with bloody, breathy kisses though, the tang of copper sharp on your tongue.
vampire!abby, who then bites you rarely. she could never get sick of it, but she wants this to remain a delicacy to her, something done in the intimate hours entwined together. each time, you offer a different part of your body, and she can hear the anticipatory quickening of your heartbeat. youâve both acquired new tastes, palates that harmonise with one another and have forged a bond like no other. she can only hope that, one day, it will be forevermore.
#ngl i recycled the images from the fic i was gonna write so there may be a dissonance between them and the hcs#abby anderson x you#abby anderson smut#abby anderson x reader#abby anderson#abby the last of us#abby tlou#vampire!abby#the last of us fanfiction#the last of us#tlou2#tlou writing#tlou
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TITLE: Stray Kids and Kinks
SUMMARY: Stray Kids members and each of their kinks (in my personal opinion). Theyâd most likely have more than one as well.
WARNING: minors DNI with this post or my blog. I create NSWF SKZ related content and I know I wonât be able to regulate/monitor every single potential interaction with those posts so please do not engage with my work or page whatsoever.
TAGS: smut, discussions around sex, breath play, choking, public sex, slight voyeurism, begging, pictophilia, degradation, use of the names âslutâ, âwhoreâ, âfucktoyâ, âcumslutâ, collars, cuckolding, bondage/shibari.
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A/N: to the people who were on my main taglist for my works, Iâm so sorry because Iâve lost the list I had with everyoneâs names on it. Iâll keep trying to search through my documents for them just in case. If I canât, please message me if you still want to be added, no pressure!
BANG CHAN - Breath play
Heâs adopted breath play techniques to help intensify your orgasms. For example, heâll have a hand around your throat, squeezing at the sides as youâre about to cum. Then, just as you do, heâll take his hand away so that more oxygen rushes to your brain as you orgasm hard around his dick. Seeing you cum your brains out from it only made him want to do it more.
But it just so happens that Chan also likes to be choked. He folds whenever youâre on top riding him and you extend a hand down his throat to squeeze. As a result, heâs bound to cum inside you without question. Or maybe when youâre both making out, Chan likes to feel your hand apply that snug restriction around the sides of his neck.
MINHO - Public Sex
Public sex is a staple aspect of bringing spontaneity into your relationship with Minho and itâs a major turn on for him. Whenever youâre both on the go, thereâs always a time where heâs horny. Fucking in a club was the first time either of you had done anything in public - and youâre sure that someone was in one of the stalls watching through the gap in the door of Minho bending you over the sink.
Now, his horizons have expanded to fucking you in a tent when you both go camping, fucking in a room at some pension when you and the other guys go away for a holiday, giving him head underneath the table at a overly crowded restaurant, fucking you against a brick wall down some alleyway as youâre both walking back home because neither of you could wait. The possibilities are endless for him, and so far you havenât been caught.
CHANGBIN - Begging
Changbinâs ego inflates whenever you beg him to do something in the bedroom. It not only means that you need him to do whatever it is, but that thereâs nobody else in the world who can satisfy you other than him. He just thrives off of it. Begging him to let you cum is his ultimate weak point, but not as much as when you beg him to eat you out.
You could both be fifteen minutes into making out, touching each other, and he would deliberately refrain from doing anything further until he hears you pleading for him to go down on you. Only when he says âyesâ, heâll eat you out slowly and delicately, right to the point where you get frustrated and have to beg him again. This time to make you cum.
HYUNJIN - Pictophilia
Has countless polaroids, pictures, and videos of yours and his naked body. Will take photos of you from behind, you with his cum on your tits or face, videos of his dick visibly disappearing inside your pussy and sliding back out, videos of him making you orgasm that you can see your legs shake in the frame. He likes revisiting those memories and then creating more to see later on.
Sometimes youâll watch them back together, thatâs if Hyunjin doesnât get all shy about it. He likes watching you, just not himself so much. In the moment, when heâs fucking your brains out, he can be an animal and say âhow good your pussy feelsâ, tell you how much âyouâre creaming around himâ. But the minute you both watch it over together, he gets embarrassed hearing himself say those things to you on camera. ïżŒ
HAN - Degradation
At first you werenât sure if you could bring yourself to call Jisung such degrading names when he asked you to. It wasnât until you really tried and saw how much he enjoyed it. His eyes glass over like heâs suddenly under your control, which he is. Calling him names like âwhoreâ, âslutâ, or âfucktoyâ is guaranteed to make him cum even harder.
Pairing that with any type of overstimulation or orgasm control gives you a very needy Jisung whoâs brain turns into mush just from hearing those sorts of names. He isnât too sure why or how degradation works so well for him, how it makes his orgasms feel ten times more stronger than just normal verbal communication during sex. That being said, Jisung, like youâve told him many times, is a âcumslutâ who enjoys just orgasming. So much that if degradation helps him get there, then heâs all for it.
FELIX - Collar Kink
Each collar is carefully selected by him for you to wear. He cares and stores them the way that he does with his keyboards. His favourites are the ones with metal rings or heart shaped loops at the front so that he can hook his finger in it and bring you closer to whatever it is heâs doing. Theyâre very personal statements that he takes pride in not only collecting but also creating as well.
Felix customises and curates them especially for you. He selects the leathers from black to pale pinks to deep reds. Some will have studs or multiple metal loops, others will be classic and plain. The point of the matter is that Felix swells inside with excitement every time he gets to fasten or buckle the collar around your neck.
SEUNGMIN - Cuckolding
This man has a kink for essentially watching you get railed by another man - maybe two sometimes. He doesnât strike as the type of person to share you, but he compromises when his fantasies come into focus. When he presented you with this peculiar idea to see you have sex with someone other than himself, you were all in it. To test things out, he thought it would be best to invite someone you both know. Someone who would be into the same idea.
That person ended up being Jisung who was a perfect fit for the night and itâs never been awkward since. These types of experiences make having sex with Seungmin even more special and intimate when itâs just the two of you. Thereâs not another man who makes you cum the way he does - none of the men heâs watched you have sex with.
Jeongin - Bondage
Jeongin enjoys tying you up, but especially in shibari. An intricate practice of bondage that passes off more as art than something sexual. Heâs perfected the craft of skilfully binding your body to create beautiful ties and wraps. His slender and long fingers help with threading multiple lengths of ropes into different loops at the same time. In some cases, shibari is just for people to look at and doesnât involve sex.
Almost similar to BDSM in some cases. But Jeongin will fuck you in it. Thereâs a side to him that can be very irrational and heated. The way the rope tightens around your body or the way the patterns contrast with your skin, makes him impulsive. He will involve other sexual practices like BDSM, maybe sensation play, edging, orgasm denying - anything to see you struggle against the rope.
#rosiewritesskz#stray kids smut#skz smut#lee know smut#han jisung smut#bang chan smut#felix smut#hyunjin smut#changbin smut#i.n smut
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đ·.đŒđ || đđđđ đđđ (PART 1)
⥠ïžê±áŽáŽáŽáŽÊÊ: The constant tours, postponed dates, and then Sirius again leaving for a tour makes you realize you couldn't do it.
⥠ïžáŽĄáŽÊÉŽÉȘÉŽÉąê±: Angst
⥠ïžê±ÊÉȘáŽ: rockstar!Sirius Black x reader
⥠ê±áŽÉŽÉą: Miss you by Louis Tomlinson
⥠ê±áŽÊÉȘáŽê± : part 1 | part 2 | part 3 | part 4
The small flat echoed with the sound of Siriusâs voice, sharp and cutting like glass. His hair, wild and unkempt from the stress of the last few months on tour, framed his face as he stood in the middle of the room, his hands trembling with frustration. You were standing by the window, staring out into the darkened London street, trying to hold back the tears that threatened to spill.
âI donât know what you want me to do!â Sirius's voice was loud, almost desperate. âI canât stop touring! This is my life, itâs what I do! And youââ He paused, running a hand through his hair, âYou knew this when we got together.â
Your heart clenched, fingers gripping the fabric of your sleeves as you turned to face him. âI did know, but I didnât know it would feel like this. Like Iâm losing you bit by bit, every single day. Youâre never here, Sirius! And when you are, itâs like weâre on different planets.â
He stepped forward, his leather boots heavy on the wooden floor. âWhat do you expect, Y/N? Itâs not like youâre always here either! Youâre off doing your shows, writing music, going on your tours! We both have this life!â
The room felt smaller with every second that passed, the tension between the two of you thick and suffocating. You shook your head, tears slipping down your cheeks now, your voice a trembling whisper, âItâs different.â
Sirius narrowed his eyes, crossing his arms defensively. âHow is it different, then? Tell me how itâs any different than what James and Lily have. Theyâve managed. I donât see Lily breaking up with James because heâs always away for Quidditch.â
Your jaw tightened, anger sparking in your chest. âThatâs because Lilyâs not a bloody singer, Sirius!â you spat. âShe can take time off. She can choose when to be with James. We donât have that luxury! When Iâm on tour, youâre not. And when youâre on tour, Iâm not. Weâre never in the same place. Weâre never on the same page!â
His face softened for a brief moment, his lips parting as if he wanted to say something, but then the hardness returned. âSo what are you saying?â His voice was quieter now, almost hollow. âYou want out?â
The question hung in the air like a heavy weight. You felt your heart break a little more at the thought, but deep down, you had already made up your mind. You couldnât keep doing this. Not to yourself. Not to him.
âI canât keep pretending this is working,â you whispered, barely able to get the words out. âItâs tearing me apart, Sirius. I love you, but this⊠this isnât love anymore. Itâs just pain.â
The silence that followed was deafening. Siriusâs expression was unreadable, but you could see the hurt in his eyes, the disbelief. He took a step back, shaking his head. âSo thatâs it then? Youâre just⊠done?â
You couldnât respond, couldnât find the words to explain how much this was killing you inside. All you could do was nod, biting down on your lip to keep from sobbing.
Sirius stood there for a long moment, staring at you, his fists clenched at his sides. Then, without another word, he turned on his heel and stormed towards the door, grabbing his leather jacket off the chair as he went.
James, Remus, and Peter were sitting in the living room, having heard bits of the argument through the walls. They exchanged glances as Sirius passed, his face a storm of emotion. James stood up, reaching out as if to stop him. âMate, waitââ
âDonât,â Sirius snapped, not even looking back. âJust donât.â
And with that, he was gone, the door slamming shut behind him.
As the sound echoed through the flat, you collapsed to your knees by the door, sobs wracking your body. You pressed your forehead against the cold wood, your heart feeling like it was being torn apart. The life you had built with Sirius, the love you thought would last forever, had crumbled in an instant, and all you were left with was the emptiness.
From the living room, you could hear James whisper something to Remus, but their voices were distant, drowned out by the sound of your sobs. You couldnât stop. You didnât want to stop. It felt like if you did, you would lose the last piece of him that you had left.
But deep down, you knew it was already gone.
#sirius black angst#sirius black x reader#sirius black#rockstar!sirius#rockstar!sirius black#rockstar!sirius black x reader#ivy's soft scribbles àł
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what do you mean it looks like a wedding arch idk what you're talking about
My Familiarâs Ghost part 78
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ID: 1a. Close up on an orange candle against a gray brick wall; Nandor's right hand creeps into frame and casually flicks two fingers at it, lighting the wick. 1b. Shoulders up of Guillermo on a similar stone background, still in the same outfit from before, an orange glow from the candle lighting the left side of his face. He raises his eyebrows with interest toward the candle and points at it, asking, 'Can you teach me how to light-' 1c. Repeat. Nandor interrupts him with 'No. That is much too advanced. Now pay attention.' Guillermo deflates slightly and frowns into the middle distance, irritated. 1d. Wide shot of the room, now revealed to be the secret chamber beneath Nandor's room full of his Al Quolnidarian treasures. Nandor and Guillermo stand facing each other on the far end of the room in front of an arched stone entryway that leads to a shallow alcove, the walls on either side lined with half moon shelves like a crypt. There are several trunks, decorative tables, vases, furs, coins, lit candles, and various knickknacks lining the walls and shelves. A single tall plinth sits in the alcove between Nandor and Guillermo, holding the candle the former has just lit, and a lantern hangs from the top of the stone arch, emitting a yellower light. The space between them glows with two slightly different hues, nearly touching. Symbolism. Guillermo looks at Nandor, listening intently, back straight and hands at his sides. Nandor stares back, holding his own hands palm-up between them as he explains, 'Vampires are bestowed with power over the ether, a force which allows us to communicate across vast distances. With practice, you can even use it to hypnotize humans from afar. We can hear each other, see each other, even touch each other under the right circumstances.'
2a. Close up of Guillermo's left hand by his hip as Nandor's right reaches out to hold his fingers and pull it towards him. Nandor says, 'The ether is already a part of you, as it is a part of us all. It connects us as a species.' 2b. Close up on their hands in profile, all four now held up between them. Both of Nandor's hands gently grip Guillermo's fingers as Guillermo has done for him every morning and night before. He continues, 'But right now I just want you to focus on me.' 2c. Zoom out to hip height, showing them facing each other in profile again, now a step closer. The stone arch behind them is lit up in two colors. Nandor squeezes Guillermo's hands, held at chest height between them, and stares at him with a serious expression, instructing, 'Concentrate. Feel the bond we share as vampires. Send me your thoughts.' Guillermo meets his gaze with some surprise, cheeks flushed. 2d. Bust of Guillermo as he tucks his chin to his chest and fixes his anxious gaze somewhere around Nandor's chest, flustered and frowning. 2e. Repeat. Guillermo closes his eyes, brow furrowed, some of the color fading from his cheeks as he tries to relax and concentrate. A faint blue glow lights up behind his head. /end ID
#wwdits#my familiars ghost#nandermo#mlm#vampire guillermo#guillermo de la cruz#nandor the relentless#what we do in the shadows#what we do in the shadows fx#my art#fanart#image described
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the girl next door 9
Warnings:Â this fic will include elements, some dark, such as age gap, manipulation, chronic illness, noncon/dubcon, coercion, and other untagged triggers. Please take this into account before proceeding. It is up to curate your online consumption safely.
Summary: A new neighbour moves in and upends your already disarrayed life.
Authorâs Note:Â Please feel free to leave some feedback, reblog, and jump into my asks. Iâm always happy to discuss with you and riff on idea. As always, you are cherished and adored! Stay safe, be kind, and treat yourself.
This lewk but silverfox
You donât go straight home. You donât want to upset your mom. So, you wander the suburbs, walking around cul-de-sacs, some youâve never been down, and circling around the avenues. You pass mothers and fathers with strollers and children running and yelling on green lawns. Itâs as if youâre walking through a utopia, floating by like a cursed wraith.Â
You glance down at the book in your hand. Maybe you should try some lighter reading. Your mind tends to go to dark places.Â
When at last you let yourself go back to the house, you do so cautiously. You donât see Steve or your mom. As you come to the front door, you wonder if you should knock. You quietly let yourself in, gently closing the door as you stand on the mat. You leave your shoes on the low rack and tiptoe down the hall. Your mom canât be mad if she doesnât know youâre there.Â
âHey, kiddo,â Steveâs voice as you tripping over your own feet. You turn to the archway as you pass and peer in. Your motherâs in her recliner, her eyes closed. Is she sleeping? You watch her warily. âHow was your walk?âÂ
âUm,â you blink and shrug, âfine.âÂ
He stands by the window, his hand on the wall beside it. Did he see you come up? You hadnât noticed him behind the curtain.Â
âBreakfast for you in the oven. Wonât be very warm but if itâs no good, I can start a new batch,â he offers.Â
âDonât bother with all that,â your mother grumbles and shifts in her chair, groaning as she shakily rubs her cheek. Her eyes open only slightly. âShe can warm âem up.âÂ
âAlways better fresh,â Steve stands straight and faces you fully.Â
âThanks.âÂ
You leave them with the single word. You feel like an intruder. You stop by your bedroom and hover in indecision. You just want to hide but you would hate to be rude. Steve went to all that trouble and you know, even as your mother says heâs already done too much, sheâd be even more upset if you wasted his effort.Â
You put your book on the foot of your bed and go down to the kitchen. You take out the pancakes, content enough to have them cold. Thereâs a bottle of real maple syrup. Steve mustâve supplied that; you canât afford the pure stuff. You donât use very much, mindful of the expense of the sugary nectar.Â
You grab cutlery and bring the plate to the table. You sit alone. You can hear the hum of the ceiling fan from the front room and the dulcet song of birds floating in through the windows. Steveâs low tone rolls through the din but you canât make out his words. You mother answers his with short mutters. Sheâs not having a very good day. You're surprised he stayed this long.Â
The pancakes are good, even at room temperature. Theyâre fluffy and taste richer than the frozen ones you get a bargain on. Is that blueberry too? With each bite, your hunger clenches your stomach tighter, mulching down the food greedily. When you finish, your body growls and aches.Â
You wash off your plate and put it in the tray. The lull of the house thickens as you pad down to your room. You slow as you near the door frame. Had you closed it? You canât recall.Â
You turn into the room and let out a noise of surprise. Steve looks over as he stands over the folding table, his hand on your sketchbook, a page half-turned. Your heart drops as you clasp your hands together.Â
âSorry, er, didnât mean to...â he rescinds his hand and lets the page flutter down, âIt was open and...â you donât know whether he means the door or the book. âYouâre really talented.âÂ
Your forehead crinkles and you charge towards him. You step around him and shut the book, swiping it up. He leans back on his heel.Â
âI didnât... I wasnât trying to...â he sputters, âI just wanted to pass something by you.âÂ
You hug your sketchbook at you face him. You stare at this chest. You feel violated. Not just that heâs in your space but he touched your stuff. The one thing thatâs really yours; your drawings.Â
âMe and your mom were talking, you know, and she said it would be good for you to get out, maybe make some extra money,â he explains, âand Iâll be around so you wonât need to worry about her so much.âÂ
You frown. You and your mother have had this talk a billion times. Get off your ass and get a job. Itâs not like you havenât tried.Â
âSo, I got some work you can do. Like I said, I gotta get that pool open,â he continues, âand thereâs little things around the house. You got a good hand so maybe some painting here and there.âÂ
You push your shoulders up. You donât think you can say no, especially if heâs already said as much to your mom. You half-suspect this is her doing.Â
âComplementary milkshakes?â He offers breezily.Â
Youâre quiet. You have no choice. You know as much.Â
âYou know,â he softens his tone, âif Iâm gonna... hang around with your mom, we should get to know each other. Itâs a good opportunity for us.âÂ
âFine,â you answer.Â
âFine? So thatâs a yes?â He asks.Â
You close your eyes and flick them open, âyes.âÂ
âGreat. Well, when can you start? How about tomorrow? Supposed to be another sunny day.âÂ
âOkay,â you agree, âtomorrow.âÂ
He doesnât move. You want him to leave. The conversation is over. He got what he wants and your mom too. Heâll pay you dimes to clean the pool and your mom will reap the profit.Â
âYou know, I draw a little too,â he points to your sketchbook, âmaybe if we have time tomorrow, I can show you.âÂ
âMaybe,â you mutter.Â
âAh, uh,â he chuckles bashfully and rubs his neck, âright, I'm in your way. Well, er, Iâll leave ya be.â He turns and struts to the door. He stops just inside the frame and looks back, âoh, how were the pancakes?âÂ
You take a breath and stay staring at the wall, âgood.âÂ
âGreat, did you have some of the syrup? Itâs Canadian.âÂ
âYeah,â you turn and tuck your sketchbook into your dresser draw. âThanks.âÂ
âNo problem, sweetie,â he taps the wall and the door closes with a click.Â
You sit on your bed and hunch over to hold your head. Itâs still heavy from the night before and now youâre even more tired than before. You donât know if itâs from being out in the sun or all the walking you did, but your eyelids feel dry and seem to cling with each blink. You yawn and bring your legs up, curling your body up near the edge of the bed.Â
You know you shouldnât sleep in the middle of the day, but you just canât help yourself.Â
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You wake up in the haze of the late afternoon. Your eyes hurt and your limbs are achy. You lay on your back as the curtains stir with the lazy breeze. You look over to find them open but you donât remember pulling them apart. You barely remember anything past your awkward morning stroll.Â
It takes you a while to push through the stiffness. You never sleep on your back; it leaves it racked and your ribcage hurts. As you stand, you notice the door. Itâs slightly open.Â
You get up and go to it, pull it inch by inch. The house is quiet but for a soft rumble, rhythmic and rocky. You putter down the hall and look into the front room. Your momâs asleep in her chair. Sheâs almost peaceful as she snores in the recliner.Â
The scene strikes you as odd, almost dreamlike. Your momâs never been much of a napper. In fact, she always nagged you about the habit. You think of waking her but think better of it. She wonât be happy to be awoken, even if she might be irritated later to know she slept away the day.Â
Steve is gone. You search each room to be sure then go to the kitchen. Itâs clean and everything is put away, even the dishes you left in the tray. The large bottle of syrup is gone as well.Â
You mutter and go back to your room. Another soft wind drifts in. You stumble over to your bed and fall back onto it. You yawn again. Gosh, youâre so tired.Â
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i lay in bed sick for two weeks straight. first thereâs body temperature i never knew was possible for a human to have, then there are coughs that feel like they may be the last ones i could ever have in my life, then thereâs weakness, then my five year old phone falls down from the bed ending up completely broken, then the bed sheets become something i couldnât bear to see anymore. then i get up, go outside and unexpectedly find myself at the offer of a somewhat steady part job at this small italian restaurant weâve been visiting every sunday sharp for the last year and a half except for these two weeks i spent lying sick in bed. we are leaving the bar for the night when R. asks me if iâd like to help her at the bar a couple hours a week.
âi have no experience or anything,â i say, feeling extremely daft. âiâm not even sure i can talk to people properly. i never really could.â
âitâs okay,â she says. âyouâll be polishing the glasses. itâs not hard. iâll teach you everything.â
on our way home A. says, âit could be good for you, you know. being among people and trying something new,â and i feel like heâs right.
at this point this small restaurant already feels like another home i want to belong to. going there every sunday for so long totally helped with that. they have one of my works i gave them as a present for christmas on the wall. it hangs up above the table me and A. occupied the first time we ever came to eat there. the frame contains pages from a sketchbook i used to draw in while visiting italy five years ago. it feels too personal, but also somehow on itâs place. i hate to hoard the stuff i create. i want to be bolder.
regretting my life choices, i spend all whatâs left from my last yearâs salary on a new phone. itâs a first phone i bought without anyoneâs help. it costs more than i deserve.
i canât find any will to start drawing again after being sick for two weeks.
a couple days later i go to the restaurant to ask R. about the time i can get to work. she says, âthis thursday, 6:30 pm,â and then adds, tugging on my star wars hoodie, âand put on a black shirt, if you have oneâ.
so i find one that looks like A. has been wearing it during his teenage years when he looked more like a stick than a human and i go for the job that for the first time in my life has nothing to do with any kind of art except the art of making cocktails i still keep messing up. a couple hours a week somehow soon turns into ten as normally as âpolishing glassesâ turns into âdoing everything there is possible to do as quickly as possibleâ.
âwould you like to do thirty hours a week?â R. asks one day looking hopeful as if i hadnât broken ten of their glasses in the first five days of work.
âmy back is gonna die sooner than you expect it to if i agree to that,â i answer. and it really is the only reason i donât say yes.
i soon notice there is no time to think of anything else except the work to be done while i am behind the bar once again forgetting the difference between prosecco and chardonnay or picking the ice from the ice machine or freezing in the giant fridge while looking for the specific crate of beer everyone in this town drinks more often than water. the countless amount of crates are brought from and to the back room. the ten glasses are crushed, four of them in my own hands just from squeezing too hard on them. i cringe about every single one of them before falling asleep after coming home around midnight with my aching back and more money than i ever earned drawing pictures. i think about that one time my friend told me that once you start working in catering, thereâs no way back. i havenât talked to her in a while and i canât ask her if she still thinks itâs true.
i still canât draw. i guess it will pass. i still cough although iâm trying not to be loud when iâm behind the bar.
âyou smoke?â R. asks. âi do. i just donât have time.â
âiâve been smoking since i was sixteen. but not anymore really,â i say to that. âwhen my mother calls me, then i smoke. but that doesnât happen very often.â
M. laughs at that as if he understands what iâm talking about and says, âwith this job, i either smoke a cigarette or kill somebody,â and i laugh with him.
M. is the chef and the restaurant is named after him. he cooks so good there is surely nothing better iâve ever eaten in my entire life. i hear all about it from guests while picking the dishes from the tables, smiling and pretending my hands are not shaking. he and R. speak to each other in loud italian and i like how they sound even if i only understand a couple words from their dialogues.
âwhatâs allora?â i ask one time.
R. looks at me like iâm the only one who ever asked her a silly question like that, âhuh,â she says, âi donât know. itâs like here we go or something like that,â and she smiles.
i like talking to her. for some reason i like asking her questions and seeing the surprise on her face. sheâs five years older than me but i feel like a child around her. she also has her birthday in november.
âall my family are scorpions,â she says after revealing the fact that thereâs ten days between our birthdays. she names at least ten of the members of her family and all their november birthday dates in a row.
i say, âthe parties must be hilarious when you all gather together.â
more often i feel like sheâs my serious boss i keep disappointing with my every move but at the end of the shifts she turns into what feels more like a friend. i secretly hope i can be her friend one day even though it seems like she knows the name of every human being in this town and even some other nearby towns and doesnât really need any more friends than she already has. but after all, iâm a part of this town now, too.
âwhat is your favourite thing to do here here at the bar?â i ask the other day.
she looks puzzled for a second, âmaybe serving fish,â she says and this time itâs my turn to feel surprised. i saw how itâs done, and i donât really know what she means.
âi thought itâs talking to people or something,â i say.
ânah,â she waves her hand, âitâs just my job, you know.â
i regret entering this territory but i still ask, âwould you better like to do something else? some other job?â
ânah,â she says again, smiling, âi like it.â
and i like it too. horrifyingly, i like it too much. thinking about sitting at home and drawing stuff like i used to do all my life feels like a torture. it surely is one when i pick up my tablet and pencil and stare at the white canvas not knowing who i am anymore. there is nothing in my head i want to say. there is nothing my hands can do. i have no idea why. i want to go back behind the bar and ask R. what her favourite colour is.
âiâm proud of you,â A. says one night while weâre going back home from the restaurant where he got his two beers and one glass of whiskey i poured for him myself. he spent two hours sitting at the bar not far from these three teenage boys who have been drinking an enormous amount of beer and playing cards and then trying to guess where i come from according to my accent. âiâm proud that youâre doing good and you found something that you like so much.â
i buy two black shirts and jeans. i take my old black coat out of the wardrobe. i walk for two minutes from home to the bar and back looking fancier than ever. i feel happier than ever. i donât look at my social media. i feel like this rotten sadness and loneliness that occupied my head for so long has nothing to do with my life now. i wonder if itâs just a phase. i consider finding a new therapist just to ask them if itâs okay to feel this good or i should be medicated before itâs too late. i want to go to bed at proper hour, wake up earlier, spend the day feeling good and then go to the bar and ask R. stupid questions and be stressed about the things i can control. i look at my workplace at home, at the white canvas that reflects nothingness in my head, at everything i have ever known, and i donât know what to do.
i go back to work.
âyou like it here?â M. asks almost every time. âis everything okay?â
âeverythingâs okay,â i say, smiling. and i mean it.
someoneâs ordering an espresso at 11 pm. R. says, âtell them the coffee machine is already off,â turning it off while saying it. i laugh. i feel happy. i go home knowing thereâs gonna be more work to be done tomorrow. i miss drawing stuff. i have nothing to say. i fall asleep thinking of the ten glasses i broke. in the morning, i canât draw. i used to draw most of my stuff at the evenings and during the nights. now they are full of beer glasses and beer crates and adhd people who want an espresso before bed.
i ask myself if that really is how growing up feels like. i ask myself what i am going to do if i will not be able to draw a single piece of art ever again. i read the email of the person who wants me to draw an artwork for them. i wonder if they should know iâm an imposter who canât draw anymore. i tell myself to shut up and stop being dramatic.
i go to work.
thereâs a wedding at the restaurant. i once again bring what feels like an endless amount of bottle crates from the back room to the bar. i smile. i talk to people. i wipe the tables. i polish the glasses. i pour beer into them.
âmy back hurts,â R. says.
âwillkommen to the club,â i tell her, although for some reason my back doesnât really hurt.
someone orders a beer and then changes their mind after the bottle was already opened.
âitâs yours if you want it,â R. says. âyour shift is over anyway.â
and i stay. i sit at the bar as if i donât really work there. i drink my beer, i talk to R. while she puts the new napkins on tables, makes sure everyone from the wedding paid what they had to and lets me ask her my questions. i pay for another beer, taking money from my fresh salary. R. rolls her eyes at that but allows me to pay anyway. sheâs not a boss anymore. just⊠a friend. i tell her i donât wanna go home.
âi can see that,â she laughs. âdo you have friends here in town?â she asks.
i look at the bottom of my glass.
âno,â i say. thereâs a lady on our street i sometimes walk our dogs together with. sheâs as old as my mother. i always forget the names of her three kids although theyâre all around my age. i wonder if i should mention her. âi have friends in other places. you know. not here.â
âi can be your friend here,â she says, smiling.
i feel like itâs the happiest day of my life. iâm also a little drunk on schwarzbier. even if my back would hurt i wouldnât have noticed.
âif you need someone as me as a friend,â i say, âthen. yeah. sure. uh. why not.â
we talk some more. the beer tests my language skills. i tell her i want a new tattoo. she says she got the first one when she was sixteen and it was a horrible butterfly.
âwhat is your favourite colour?â i finally ask.
she looks really baffled at that, then pulls out her phone. âi guess itâs red,â she says, showing me some of photos from her instagram where sheâs younger than me now and is dressed up in red. âsee, it looks good on me,â and sheâs right. âbut white is also good. and pink. and maybe purple. not black though. with my black hair, it doesnât look good at all.â
weâre both dressed in black for work.
i come to the conclusion that colours are the least important thing in the world to her. thatâs okay. i think about all the years i spent trying to make colours work. i wanna say something, but end up saying nothing.
she turns the lights off and locks the restaurant up. we spend a couple minutes walking in the same direction to our houses. i tell her about the name my friends from other places are calling me. i donât tell her why itâs different from the one she saw on my id card. iâm not that drunk. she says sheâs gonna use it from now on. she kisses my cheek before we part. i was at school the last time someone did that.
i go home. i sit at my workplace. i answer to the email of the person that wants me to draw an artwork for them from a new phone i spent enormous amount of money on. for a second i wonder if i should still tell them iâm an imposter and my career will be over by the morning when i wake up sober.
i think about the ten glasses i broke, then let myself forget about them. i tell myself to shut up and stop being dramatic.
i draw.
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brad dourif scrungly feature analysis: eyes
from the âBoysâ dourif-hottie supercut music video:
Iâd love to see an artist break this down!
For now, let me write you a novel about Brad's spectacular eyes...
The Strangeness
(Skip if you want to preserve the mystery.) BD's right eye is placed a little higher, and turned up as if tugged from the outer corner. I think it's part of that subtle something that immediately sets him apart. This unique, catlike, romantic asymmetry snatches your attention.
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The glow
His striking, chameleonic blues capture light â even in B&W â which directors loooooove to exploit by lighting him obliquely:
It's a great way to crank up the eerie vibe of any scene, and I respect Star Trek for trashing that option outright with all-black contacts. (Of course, he still served an incredibly compelling outsider.)
(Edit: I put up a post just about this effect because they seriously do it all the damn time) (...because it's awesome)
Set in shadows
He has hooded eyes, deep-set and accentuated by heavy eye bags. The shadows and textures draw you in toward those luminescent irises, like picture frames that amplify each motion of his eyes.
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Contrast
Sometimes he pops them wide open, creating these huge, expressive magnets...
...Or squints lopsidedly...
...Or interrogates, challenges, threatens â alert but defensive, like a prey animal on the edge of lashing out.
Heâs said he chooses roles that "turn him on" (pretty clearly in an artistic sense); many of these blend menace and vulnerability, and our boy dumps emotion into every. single. line. This can manifest as an intense, wary, combative look, with eyes wide under neutral or furrowed brows:
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Cry, baby
...And that's all before we mention the tears. He cries, of course, at will and liberally, and his eyes go red-rimmed and wet, highlighting them even more as he pins someone's soul to the wall with his gaze.
When he hovers right on the edge, they seem to shine in the dark.
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Bared
At times, his fair eyelashes almost vanish, compounding his unusual look with a birdlike or reptilian tinge.
Obviously, the shaved brows in LOTR add to this effect.
A couple more things you'll notice here: he'll hold his eyes wide open for much longer than normal, drawing out these moments and making him seem even more alien.
And when he gets up-close in someone's face (which is often), he's constantly switching his gaze between their eyes â totally fixated, as if scanning for emotional feedback. In my opinion, it adds to that vulnerability: to the object of his attention, he must seem like a predator freezing them in place... but it's also desperate, like a prey animal trying to decipher the other person's intent, all senses tuned to pick up their slightest signal. (GrĂma Wormtongue and Jack Dante especially have this pathetic air about them: grasping at sources of warmth while lashing out at the harsh, unintelligible world around them, allying themselves with uncontrollable destructive forces in an attempt to establish a place for themselves........)
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TL;DR
The eyes â and how he uses them â are the standout scrungly feature, the main reason we canât look away from this unforgettable weirdo.
The cat-eye asymmetry pulls focus;
His ice-blue irises are light traps, framed in textured shadow;
His full-bore emotional commitment ramps up the anguish and torment to an aching crescendo that's impossible to ignore.
Eventually I'll follow up on other contributing factors, but for now, I'll leave you with a couple of article snippets about The Eyes:
Imagi-Movies: Vol 1 No 2 â Winter 1993/94. Pages 11-13: "Traumatic - Brad Dourif". Link
SoHo News: November-December 1981. "Tension and mercy - Brad Dourif glowers for our sins" (an article all about his eyes! But they don't mention the asymmetry.)
[Gifs were mostly stolen from the GOAT, @exdeputysonso â with some of my own, mostly the square ones. Shout-out to @dragonsbloodsnowcone for inspiring this word vomit.]
Thanks for reading!
#brad dourif#BradDourif#whoowee that was a ride#written with the maximum possible respect and affection#possibly too much of those in fact#big tragic eyes club#in this essay i will#my bradrot
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Commission â Bestseller
Requested by: Anonymous
Pairing: Sebastian Michaelis x Reader
Words: 4,363
Prompt: Sebastian makes a contract with someone who wants to become the worldâs bestselling author. This time, however, he's willing to spice things up a little.
Warnings: None.
[ commission me ]
At first, you wanted to shout: âGo to hell!â but quickly found it quite ironic and eventually sat back down, picked your pen up and pretended to be writing something in the notebook, while the only thing that appeared on the blank pages were curly lines. Honestly, you could hardly recall the last time you met someone whoâd be as eager to get on your nerves as the man who was now standing in front of you. The smirk on his lips only proved that the whole conversation you just had went according to his sly plan and in the end he was gratified with your outburst of emotions. Not a very common occurrence, he had to add, and therefore even more pleasant to observe.
âMy, myâ, he shook his head in a disappointed manner, as if he was scolding a child. âI wasnât aware that this kind of information will have such an impact on you. Could it be that youâve grown worried?â
âWorried?â You shot him a deathly glare. âIâm not worried. Iâm angry and Iâm starting to consider which side you are actually on. What made you think that killing (or whatever happened to that journalist) was such a bright idea?â
The demon smiled, the expression on his face clearly amused as the whole situation seemed to be rather entertaining for him. Itâs been a long time since he actually gave his new contractor a little pushânot to the right side, of course, but rather to watch you struggle and keep the balance as you always did in the end. It was almost as funny as listening to people beg for their lives, while all of them knew that there was no coming back once he was summoned.
âSebastian,â you hissed his name through the gritted teeth. âAnswer me.â
âWell, I must disagree with you on using the term âbrightâ regarding this little incident.â He pretended to be lost in thoughts, touching his chin and looking at the wall of your office where all the prizes, photographs taken with famous people of literary business and newspaper articles were framed and hung on display for everyone to see what you were capable of when it came to using an imagination and pen. Or keyboard, as it was nowadays. âIâd rather go for âenticingâ. âCompellingâ, perhaps. âThrillingâ even. âEnjoââ
âThatâs enough.â You interrupted his speech, considering it pointless and a waste of your precious time. âI donât care why you did that, I want you to stop. Youâre perfectly aware that Iâve been giving interview after interview for the last two weeks and Iâm going to continue doing that no matter what kind of dirty games you decide to play behind my back.â
âHow threateningâŠâ
âMoreover,â You pointed a finger at him. âIf you keep doing this, Iâll have the right to consider it as acting against the rules of our contract.â
âThere was not a single rule included which could prevent me from adding a little spice to the generally boring outcome of events. I thought you were aware of that. Signing books, doing interviews, all of that blown to make your ego grow until it pops.â Sebastian clicked his fingers to highlight the meaning of his words. âLike a bubble.â
âHilarious.â You couldnât frown no more even if you tried. âNow let's get back on topic. I forbid you to interrupt my hard work with your silly, little demon games. Youâll have your reward in the end so right now youâre only wasting your own time, because no matter what you do, I simply wonât give up. It can take the next forty years to complete while youâre stuck here with me, it doesnât matter. So if you want to finish it quickly, Iâd recommend you getting out of my way.â
There was a spark of amusement behind the demonâs eyes as he carefully observed youâas if something in your words struck him in a pleasant way. Undoubtedly, he made a good choice while deciding to answer this new contractor.
âThatâs exactly what I meant while speaking about the lack of something enticing,â he admitted before turning on his heel and heading out of the office, his fingers intertwined behind his back and the corners of his lips turned upward in an eerie smile.
Pouring rain hitting the windows reminded you of a thousand fingers patting the glass in an unrhythmical manner. Focusing on a single droplet sliding down to the window frame didnât help you concentrate, especially not with the pleasant silence now filling your bedroom up nor the fact that the last time you allowed yourself to rest was more than nineteen hours ago. Your body was giving you more significant signs of exhaustion with every passing minute and yet, you didnât want to waste any of your time. Not when youâve gotten to the perfect plot twist of your upcoming storyâthe second volume of the worldâs bestseller book sold in millions of copies all around the globe. Although your success was guaranteed, you couldnât simply sit and do nothing while waiting for applause.Â
You jolted when the sudden thud hit the glass right next to the desk where you were sitting. It was loud, like a lost pigeon didnât notice the window and flew into it at full speed but when you stood up to check whether it was hurt, laying somewhere near, it was impossible to notice any sharp shapes in the downpour. Perhaps it flew away or maybe it was just your brain tricking you into finally going to bed. Whatever it was, eventually it made you close the laptop and rub your tired eyes until you saw the stars behind the eyelidsâand when you opened them again, you found out that the shadow in the corner of the bedroom is unusually dark compared to the rest.Â
Almost as if there was a tall, slim figure standing there, facing the wall, covered in black robes.
Your initial reaction was paralyzing terror. Blood ran down from your face and in the next moment blew in your heart causing your cheeks to immediately heat. You could only sit there, watching the silhouette with unblinking eyes as your mind wanted to scream, to run, to fight, toâ
âSebastian.â The demonâs name left your lips almost involuntarily, just like shouting âhelp!â came naturally to the drowning man. âI order you to stop this nonsense immediately.â
At first, nothing happened and for a moment you thought that maybe you werenât even in your bedroom anymore, that the image in front of you was but a photograph glued to your face while the real you was dead, burning and bleeding and shrieking andâ
âMy, myâŠâ You blinked at the sound of a familiar voice and the shadow from the corner was gone; surprisingly, you could also breathe freely again. âThereâs no fun with youâŠâ
Instead of the terrifying derealization, you were once again safe in your bedroom, everything in its own place. By the door, however, stood Sebastian with the same amused smirk on his handsome face, as if it was the only genuine emotion he was actually capable of showing.
âFun?â You stood up from the chair, your fingers still slightly trembling after the heavy anxiety attack.
âI was worried that you might get some kind of⊠writerâs block, as they say,â he stated and nodded matter-of-factly. âI couldnât bear the thought of you losing your spirit.â
Oh, how much you wanted to rip that happy expression off his face. Or maybe slap him. Or both. In all honesty, you could do it by giving him a simple order and yet, it didnât feel right. What kind of satisfaction would you get from simply forcing him into your own will instead of actually making him feel a certain way? The leash you got him on was rather long, as the demon was almost free to roam around and do as he pleases, and maybe that was why you found those rare moments of his confusion so precious.Â
And so, instead of scolding him or making him apologize, you simply decided to say:
âIf youâre getting so bored during our contract, perhaps youâd enjoy it if we played fetch for a while? I have a feeling that it might be just your cup of tea.â
He didnât say anything and yet, you could feel his disapproving stare burning into your back as you walked to the wardrobe. Surprisingly though, the memory of the silhouette in the dark corner still seemed to linger in your memory, although not as a bad one. Instead, you couldnât help but wonder if it wasnât just what you were looking for to fill the plot in the next chapter of your book.
âI canât believe itâŠâ you muttered, raising the menu card higher in front of your face to hide it from the not-so-subtle photographer who was waiting for his perfect shot outside the cafĂ©. So far, you managed to run inside the building without being filmed and you could call it quite a success considering how tense the situation grew since the latest news got released to the public.
âThe greatest author of the decade caught in love!âÂ
âWho is the mysterious man by her side?â
âCan we expect the next volume to be delayed due to the newfound romance?â
The headlines of newspapers and celebrity gossip websites were screaming at you from every angleâso much that you started to wonder if there would be a journalist jumping out of your own fridge to ask a few questions before lunch. Since the rumor about your romanceâyours and Sebastianâsâwere fairly new, you still didnât manage to calm the public with some words of truth and a little sneak peek into your personal love life. Not that it was your intention, it was all but a play, of course. Another necessary step taken to avoid getting accused of the disappearance you certainly had nothing to do with.
Which you couldnât say about the demon sitting right next to you by the table.
âMe neither,â Sebastian clicked his tongue, while still eyeing the menu. âThe prices have surely gone up since the last time Iâve been there. Not that itâs an issue with your budget now, is it?â
If you didnât know better, you might have believed that the kind smile he put on was sincere. Still, with the amount of knowledge you possessed and the time you wasted on trying to clean up after his mischief, you wanted nothing but to make him regret everything heâs ever said or done. He was the one to put you into this situation, after all. Like a single puppy left home alone, Sebastian went first for your new slippers, then the table leg and now he was chewing on your precious sofaâthe couch meaning your privacy and relative peace of mind.
âDonât give me that look.â He placed the menu back on the polished wood. âIt wasnât me who said that we were dating.â
âYou forced me to do this! How else could I get a reliable alibi that I didnât, in fact, murder anyone and especially not my own best friend?â
âIâm certain there was a lot of different ways to prove that.â He waved at the waiter. âDid you pick your order yet?â
âIâm not hungry.â You whispered something about going to the toilet when the waiter approached you two and only came back when he was gone, now your favorite beverage waiting for you at the table and Sebastian slowly sipping his tea.
âBesides,â he continued after you sat back down, moving your chair so your back was facing the window. âThis outcome isnât so bad, as you can see. Youâre now even more famous than before.â
âI didnât want to be some stupid celebrity and have people wonder what kind of bikini I wear and whether I have cellulite or notâI wanted to be known for my hard work. Itâs something completely different than being stalked for having a guy like you nearby.â
âA guy like me?â He raised his slim eyebrow. âI doubt that would make it to the first pages.â
âI donât care. I need to figure it all out and youâre going to help me whether you like it or not.â
âHow overbearing.â Sebastian chuckled. âEnlighten me then, how do you plan on making it right?â
Thatâs where he got you. You still didnât have any solid plan to retrieve your freedom and intimacy back and with all this chaos happening around you, with the demon constantly scheming against you behind your back, you felt quite overwhelmed.Â
âThatâs exactly what I thought.â He took a sip of his tea and placed the teacup back on the saucer. âAnd I suppose I have a perfect solution for this problem.â
âMeaning?â You wondered, hoping that this time you would finally hear some more useful news than another joke or allusion.
Instead of answering, Sebastian gently reached to you and placed his warm hand upon your cheek, caressing your lips with the featherlike touches of his thumb. His gaze was focused on you, slowly trailing from your eyes, through the curve of the nose down the mouth and back up again. He smiled at you but this time there was no insincerity behind it but rather pure fascination. Amazement, even, and one could say that also adoration.
Itâs been a long time since Sebastian took a look at your soul, after all. Although he was present in your life almost everyday, it was quite rare for you to open up to himâyou werenât the type to cry your eyes out on his shoulder nor beg him for love. On the contrary. And for some odd reason he found it the most amusingâyour soul, your price waiting to be paid hidden from his gaze, except for those tiny moments like this one when he was finally capable of looking you in the eyes and almost tasting your spirit at the tip of his tongue.
The sensation made him shiver with anticipation.
Eventually, Sebastian leaned forward and after not witnessing any kind of resistance from you, placed a soft, sweet kiss upon your lips. His own were still warm from the temperature of the tea he drank, tasting like herbs and honey, and his smell overwhelming your senses when you gave up to this gentle affection and closed your eyes to savor it. For the first time in months your heart started to beat faster but not because of stress or fear but rather excitementâsomething so trivial, you wouldnât expect yourself of.
Sebastian kissed you slowly, barely nibbling at your lips and not taking any step further. His fingers left your cheek with an unpleasant coldness and rested at the crook of your neck, slightly pulling you closer but not strong enough to make you feel caged. Involuntarily you leaned toward him also, supported by the elbows on the wooden table and not paying attention to the fact that you have just most likely exposed yourself to all the people passing by the café. If the creepy paparazzi was still there, he had a once in a lifetime opportunity to immortalize the first official kiss of yours with your mysterious company.
And somehow, you thought it was alright. If you wanted your alibi to be solid, you should prove to everyone that Sebastian was, indeed, your husband and the mysterious disappearances had nothing to do with you.Â
Repeat a lie often enough and it becomes the truth.
Initially, Sebastian was like some kind of hideous decoration standing in the middle of the living roomâpainted in vivid colors, with weird, eye-catching shape and not fitting to any particular home decoration style. You could place an elephant there as well and the overall effect it had on the guests would be quite similar. He was an interruption, a sudden chance of weather, an anomaly in your life, the one you called for yourself and although you considered him to be a hassle most of the time, as months passed you found yourself paying less and less attention to the abstract puzzle at the center of the jigsaw. It wasnât that he was becoming less visible or having less impact on your everyday lifeâon the contrary, Sebastianâs actions were as ostentatious as always, it was just you who started to tolerate and maybe even like the strange addition to your new life.
Indeed, one could even accuse you of enjoying his company too much, especially when you were sharing a bed, tangled in the bedding and droplets of sweat glistening on your temple. His fingers were delicate and movements calculated to bring you nothing but pleasure when he was caressing and massaging your naked body. In those moments, you found him beautiful. With a warm gaze, perfectly cut lips, strong jaw and slim silhouette he could stand on the same pedestal as countless of Greek sculptures stood. Right now, however, he was not cold as marble but rather soft and attentive, all the previous flirts replaced by what could be described as nothing but endless love and adoration.
Fortunately, you knew better than to trust the perfect mask he chose just for you. It didnât stop you from indulging into the pleasure, though, for how could you deny yourself a spark of joy when in the end it was supposed to be him to devour your whole existence and turn you into nothing? It would be a shame to not take everything this man, this demon, had to offer.
You were walking down the shore, the view of setting sun rays dancing over the nearby buildings making it seem like the whole world has somehow turned into molten gold. Yellows and oranges painted your surroundings into the real piece of art, something you werenât sure anyone could ever capture on the canvas with mere brushes. The town you decided to stay in (small and rather unknown, free from the crowds of tourists) had everything you could possibly need for an effective rest and refreshing inspirationârestaurants by the sea, both museums and clubs, promenade near the beach and a whole street of various shops. It was truly something new, the change of scenery making it easier to breathe and prepare for the upcoming premiere of a brand new video game based on your story alone.
You could say a lot of things about Sebastian and how he managed to get on your nerves like nobody else, but you had to admit that there wasnât a single slip in his plan to make your biggest dream come true. Everything he promised you was truly happening, step by step, one at a time, but eventually you could clearly see the results. As much as you loved it, you couldnât not notice how it was all leading to the end of your own story also.
âLost in thoughts?â Sebastian asked, his long fingers intertwined with yours as you slowly passed by the sailboats docked to the pier. âWere you thinking about the grand premiere?â
âI thought I had nothing to worry about in this regard.â You peeked at him from under your sunglasses. âWas I mistaken?â
âNo, not in the slightest. I assure you I took care of everything.â
âSo itâll be an indisputable success?â You insisted.
âAre you doubting your own skills all of a sudden?â
For the first time you left him without an answer. Perhaps it was the matter of the different surroundings or maybe it was the setting sun that brought this mood to you, but watching as it slowly drowned in the endless ocean you wondered how it will feel to have your soul sucked out of you. Will it hurt? Will you be scared? Or maybe you wonât notice it at all? Was it up to Sebastian to decide on how he will take it?
Your dreams were coming true, the very thing you craved for such a long period of time was finally yours, kept in your hands and there was no obstacle nor foe that could take that away from you, so why were you getting nostalgic all of a sudden?
âShould I take it as a âyesâ?â Sebastianâs voice brought you back to reality but he didnât give you enough time to answer. âMy, my, I didnât take you for an insecure type.â
âYou shouldnât worry your pretty, little head about things you wonât understand. Emotions are not your strong point, if I remember correctly?â
He chuckled but admitted you were right.
The oranges turned into burning red, making it seem as if the horizon was on fire. Behind your back, the sky was slowly fading from all its colors, leaving the thick stripes of pale pink, purple and navy blue at the east. You could spot a few stars shyly appearing there.
âI merely did what you ordered me to,â Sebastian continued and to your surprise, added further:. âI cannot say whether you would be able to achieve it with or without my intervention.â
âWhat do you mean?â You frowned.
âIâm speaking about the âright place and right timeâ occurrence. Surely you know that your work is good as it is, donât you?â
You stopped and looked at him confused, not really understanding where he was going with all this dialogue and unexpected confession. Pulling him slightly by the hand, you forced him to stop also.
âExplain yourself. Or should I get worried about you having a sun stroke?â
The demon tilted his head and you thought that he was going to kiss you again, just to make you forget about all those questions and doubts. Nevertheless, he knew that you were smart and wouldnât simply be silenced by some sweet nothings.
âWhat do you think I did to make all your books bestsellers?â
You shrugged. It could be some kind of his hellish magic or personal charm which allowed him to get whatever he wanted wherever he got. Quite difficult to tell for an ordinary human, since he never bragged about his methods and you never cared enough to ask.
âIâm aware that youâre not familiar with my ways of working,â he admitted. âHowever, influencing a group of people can be rather troublesome, not to mention when the target group is reaching almost the whole world. Simply put, it would cost me a lot of time and energy to force them all into purchasing your precious books, leaving flattering reviews and recommending further and so, I decided to wait instead.â
âFor the âright place and timeâ?â you quoted him.
âExactly.â He gently pulled you after him so you could continue the afternoon stroll in the sunset. âI was waiting and observing the people involved until finally the perfect opportunity struck. Thatâs when I whispered a word or two to those who were in charge of certain matters, sneaked a copy of your manuscript et voilĂ ! It doesnât change the fact that the one who created and wrote those stories was you.â
The sounds of small waves swinging in the shore filled your brain with peaceful, rhythmical melody when you were analyzing Sebastianâs words over and over again. You were walking mindlessly by his side now, too lost in thoughts to notice that the circle of light finally hid behind the horizon and left the whole palette of colors above your head. The salty smell of the water was reaching your nose and you could hear people chatting and laughing somewhere in the distanceâthere was also music playing in one of the gardens of a nearby restaurant.
It was such a peaceful scenery, it completely didnât match the chaos in your mind.
âAre youâŠâ You cleared your throat, finding it difficult to form your thoughts into sentences. âAre you saying that I could have achieved all of that without your help?â
Sebastian smiled at you with such an adoration that it made your blood run cold.
âAnd you knew it from the very beginning? From the day we met?â You insisted, feeling as his silence started to fuel the spark of anger inside your heart.
âNo, I cannot predict the future. All I did was calculate the turn of events and pick the best moment to strike. If it turned out that your books were a complete failure, then Iâd have to intervene in a different way but fortunately, they were not. I suppose I can share this little secret of mine now that you almost reached your final goal.â
Your fingers were suddenly cold against his, the fresh breeze caressing the heated skin on your cheeks when you turned to the side and looked at the endless sea. You wondered if perhaps it was better to not know the truth and die clueless.
The smile which appeared on your lips was rather surprising to Sebastian and maybe it surprised even you. Whatever his intentions were, he wasnât expecting you to react positively to this kind of newsâyou could cry and wail, cursing him for using you for his own gain, you could argue with him, accuse him of breaking the rules of the contract or tricking you into believing that you were completely hopeless without him, you could do anything! And yet, you simply smiled and then let out a happy chuckle.
Then, without a warning, you were the one to pull him to the side and head toward the restaurant where you could hear the music playing.
âAre you not going to respond in any way?â Sebastian frowned and you could clearly see that it was the first time in many centuries that someone managed to puzzle him.
You looked at him over your shoulder and pushed the sunglasses up your head to meet his stare. Then you laughed at his confused expression, so different from the everpresent smugness and confidence, and you swore that whatever was going to happen, it was worth living all those years, even if just for witnessing him making this face at how far he still was from understanding human nature.
âWell, what can I say?â You shrugged. âI told you Iâm the best writer in the world.â
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THE ULTIMATE GUIDE: TO THE ULTIMATE FRIENDSHIP. â rule number one.
pairing: park jongseong x fembodied!reader
summary:Â sunghoon had been strict to follow the rules written on the list the two of you had written years ago, especially rule number three. but when jay suddenly makes an appearance in your life, he realizes that maybe, just maybe, he broke rule number three a long time ago.
word count: 11,8k
warnings: angst, jealousy, just sunghoon being a bad best friend in general, SMUT ! MDNI . proofread but there may be some mistakes, please donât be afraid to point them out !
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A GUIDE TO THE ULTIMATE FRIENDSHIP.
Sunghoon saw the list of rules you two had written together every time he opened the top drawer of his nightstand table. The once white, lined paper almost had a yellow tint to it now and your handwriting had smudged to the point where it was practically impossible for Sunghoon to read the already poorly spelled sentences.
Not that he needed to read it, no, he had already memorized what the paper said years ago; long before the words faded and the paper crumbled.
It was the summer break between 4th and 5th grade when you and Sunghoon sat down underneath the big tree in his backyard while drinking some lemonade Sunghoonâs mother had made earlier that summer morning, writing a list of rules.Â
A list of rules for the two of you to follow in order to have the ultimate friendship.
RULE NUMBER ONE: NO OTHER BEST FRIENDS ALLOWED.
Sunghoon had been your best friend for as long as you could remember. There was not a single memory you could recall where Sunghoon was not there, being practically glued to your hip ever since the two of you were born. In the video your parents had taken of you where you had just learned how to ride a bicycle Sunghoon could be heard cheering for you in the background, just like he was seen secretly blowing the candle out on your seventh birthday.
He could also be spotted in the framed picture hanging off the wall in your parent's room, the picture your parents had asked some poor tourist to take off you when Sunghoon came with your family on a skiing trip when you were fifteen. Everyone who saw the picture always asked who the handsome boy was and if it was your brother, which was almost true - Sunghoon was almost like a brother to you at this point.Â
A brother.
And with Sunghoon being your best friend and practically a part of your family, why would you ever need another best friend?Â
Both of your signatures could be found at the bottom of the page, Sunghoonâs first attempt to write his signature was scribbled over as he misspelled his own name and needed you to help him spell it. You had kissed the paper as a final way to seal the contract before forcing Sunghoon to do the same, and Sunghoon remembers shuddering in disgust as he pressed his lips onto the same spot as you - indirectly kissing his best friend, something he never wanted to experience, ever.
After that, you handed Sunghoon the list, telling him that he could keep it; knowing he would forget the rules otherwise knowing how forgetful he could sometimes be. So he did, storing it in the top drawer of his bedside table; where it remained, even ten years later.
 ââWanna stay for dinner? I think my mom mentioned something about trying some new recipe she found,ââ
ââCanât. Jay asked me to come over, we still have that English project to finish, remember?ââ
A frown formed on Sunghoonâs face, watching as you kept your eyes glued to the screen of your phone. With a groan emerging from the back of his throat, he put his hand over your phone screen; covering whatever it was on your phone that possibly couldâve had you so invested, so invested that you hadnât been paying any attention to Sunghoon for the last twenty minutes.
ââBut youâre always hanging out with Jay,ââ
Sunghoon hated Jay.Â
Maybe hate wasnât the right word to describe the feelings he felt towards Jay, maybe it was a little too harsh; dislike was probably a more fitting and less brutal word to describe what he felt towards the boy who had stolen his best friend away from him.
The tall, mysterious and seemingly charismatic boy had suddenly made an appearance in your life three months back. Sunghoon remembers hearing the name Jay trail off your lips for the first time when you were comfortably laying in his bed, watching as he tried clearing a level he had been stuck on for the last couple of weeks. He also remembers just shrugging it off as you told him about how you got partnered up with the new student for your English class as he focused on the monster taking up the screen of his TV instead, both his brows furrowed and the tip of his tongue poking his cheek in concentration.
The second time the name Jay left your lips, he was sitting in the school's cafeteria. He remembers scrolling through his phone while you talked about how easy your English assignment was, and that you had Jay to thank for making it so easy for you. He also remembers you rolling your eyes when he asked who Jay was, before you lightly hit him in the arm for not listening to you.
By the nth time Jayâs name had spilled past your lips, Sunghoon wondered if you had broken the first rule of your contract.
Especially when you suddenly could no longer attend your daily hangouts after school, also known as you going to his house to do nothing for a couple of hours before going home, only to repeat the same thing the next day. You had accompanied him home from school for as long as Sunghoon could remember, so why would it change now, ten years later?
Well, Sunghoon blamed Jay for changing the routine the two of you had kept going for years.
Suddenly, you were too busy accompanying Jay to his house after school instead. To work on your assignment, you had claimed, and that maybe you could come over afterward; if it wasnât too dark out, that being said - even though Sunghoon had offered you to spend the night multiple times.
You never did come over after you went to Jayâs house nor did you ever spend the night. Sunghoon wondered if it was because youâd rather hang out with Jay, who had managed to snatch you away from him in every way possible, even when he wasnât even present.
Like right now, for example.
Glaring at the boy sitting in front of you, you rolled your eyes before pushing his big hand away from the screen of your phone. ââWe study together, Sunghoon. I kind of have to hang out with him.ââ You let out before your eyes wandered back to your phone, Sunghoon watching with the same frown plastered on his face as you typed something out using both your thumbs.
Watching as you typed, he tried changing the subject, not wanting to talk about the boy anymore. ââWho are you texting?ââ He tried peeking over your phone, to no avail; he couldnât even see half of the screen from where he was sitting. Shifting around in his bed, you continued typing with a small smile on your lips, ââJay, heâs asking if he should pick me up.ââÂ
Feeling a lump form in his throat, which he didnât know was in distress or annoyance, Sunghoon came to the realization heâd never be able to escape the topic of Park Jay; no matter how hard he tried.
ââTell him no, Iâll drive you.ââÂ
His voice finally caused you to look up at him, properly this time, the small smile remaining on your lips. Sunghoon knew the smile wasnât for him, yet it somewhat eased the uneasiness he was feeling from the thought of watching you get in someone else's car, more specifically Jayâs car, when he could easily drive you. ââReally?ââ You let out, both your brows raised and the screen of your phone turning off; giving Sunghoon the slightest hope that you wouldnât turn it back on.
Nodding in response, he snatched the phone out of your hands, not giving you the chance to turn it back on; putting it behind his back. ââOnly if you promise to pay attention to me for the remaining time.ââ He let out, causing a small chuckle to trail off your lips as you sat up straight against the headboard of his bed.
With your hands finding their way to his face, your soft hands squeezing his cheeks together; Sunghoon felt the lump in his throat completely disappear. ââI promise to pay attention to my clingy best friend.ââ You grinned, Sunghoon staring at you in distaste before turning his face away from you; causing your soft hands to slip away from his face. Pretending to wipe your touch away from his cheeks, he shook his head while listening to the giggles trailing off your lips.Â
ââFirst of all, Iâm not clingy,ââ He spoke, ââSecond of all, youâre not my grandma so you have no business squeezing my cheeks like that.ââ
Grinning at him, you once again grabbed onto his cheeks, ââI might not be your grandma, but Iâm your best friend.ââÂ
Fighting back a smile, he once again tried getting away from your grip; both of you laughing and Sunghoon suddenly felt like he was twelve again - when you were his only best friend and didnât have to worry about you drifting away from him.
You remember when you laid eyes on the boy named Jay for the first time.
With his dark hair slicked back and pieces of hair falling onto his forehead, he had walked into the classroom with his hands shoved down the front pockets of his pants. You were sure he caught not only your attention, but everyone elseâs as well; with his hawk-like eyes and sharp features, it was almost impossible not to find him alluring after all.Â
And with your professor introducing the stranger as Jay who had just moved schools, he had gazed over the class and nodded his head before taking a seat - the class continuing on as if nothing had happened.
Not for you though.Â
You remember watching him for the next couple of days after that, out of pure curiosity. You remember watching as he mindlessly browsed his laptop as your professor spoke with no open document in sight to take notes, you also remember how he got told off multiple times for having his AirPods in during class; only for him to show up the next day with the AirPods back in his ears. You admired him for that.
It took a week, a week of you as well as everyone else watching him from afar, for the seemingly quiet boy to be announced as your partner for the upcoming assignment. Â
You remember hearing his voice for the first time when he stood in front of you after class, and how you thought his voice suited him perfectly; the low and deep tone of his voice matching the enigmatic aura that seemed to surround him wherever he went. You also remember feeling baffled the first time you sat down to study, when he seemed to know everything surrounding the subject even though you knew he hadnât been listening nor had he been taking notes of anything the professor had spoken of.Â
The once mysterious boy quickly became not so mysterious and you suddenly found yourself being around him more frequently.Â
You had learned a lot about the boy during the three months you had spent getting closer to him. Like the fact that he had a birthmark shaped somewhat like a heart on the side of his neck for example, a birthmark that you had observed the one time he leaned over you to look at the screen of your computer, or that he always smelled musky, a tone of bergamot following him everywhere he went - the smell engulfing you each time he pulled you into a hug to greet you.
You often found yourself wondering if you were the only one who knew those small things about him, and if the rest of the world still saw him as the mysterious boy you yourself once saw him as.
ââI was beginning to think you flaked on me.ââ
Once again, the woody fragrance you had now grown accustomed to engulfed you as the dark-haired boy towered above you, a playful smirk accompanying his words as you stood outside his front door.Â
The sky had gotten significantly darker compared to when you got into Sunghoons car, the night sky slowly replacing the orange tone that had decorated the sky just a few minutes prior. A smile formed on your lips as you shook your head, your eyes meeting his; taking a moment to observe his hooded eyes.
You had learned a lot about the boy during the few months you had known him, sure - yet you had the lingering feeling that there was still something about him you had yet to learn.
The feeling washed over you every time you got a glimpse of his eyes, each time leaving you to wonder just what it was that you had yet to learn. You knew he was an only child, you knew his father worked away from home which meant he had the apartment to himself most of the time, you knew his favorite color was purple thanks to the one time he came with you shopping - when he had pointed out one shirt in particular, a purple one, telling you to get it because he thought youâd look good in his favorite color.
You felt like you knew everything there was to know at this point, yet the strange and almost obscure feeling lingered.
ââYou really think Iâd do that?ââ You chuckled as he stepped aside, allowing you to step into the dimly lit and quiet apartment. He liked it that way, you had figured out, considering the fact that it was always eerily quiet every time you came over; no radio mindlessly playing in the background, no random show playing on the TV - just simple quietness.Â
A chuckle emerged from the back of his throat as he watched you take your shoes off, shaking his head. ââIâd hope not, I mean, Iâd like to consider us friends at this point.ââ
The words caused you to look up at him, your lips slightly parted before a small grin spread across your lips. ââShould I feel honored? You make it sound like I should,ââ You grinned, successfully kicking your shoe off. Jay rolled his eyes in response, leaning his upper body against the wall behind him. ââNo, but I think friends reply to each other's messages, no?ââÂ
Lightly hitting his bicep, something Jay had figured out you did when you felt comfortable around someone, you shook your head. ââIâm sorry, I was at Sunghoons house and I forgot to reply,ââÂ
The sudden mention of Sunghoon caused Jay to raise one of his eyebrows. ââSunghoon? Let me think,ââ He hummed, squinting his eyes as if he was thinking, ââThe boy youâre always hanging out with, right? The one you grew up with?ââ This time, it was your turn to roll your eyes after staring at him in disbelief for a moment. ââYes, Sunghoon, the boy Iâve told you about like, what, a thousand times?ââ You let out, squinting your eyes back at him.
Jay had yet to meet Sunghoon, despite attending the same school as the two of you. There had been plenty of instances where they couldâve met, like every time you bumped into Jay in the hallways while casually talking to Sunghoon - your introverted friend, however, always just gave you a quick nod whenever he saw your face lit up upon seeing the other boy; leaving before you even had the opportunity to introduce the two.Â
You just shrugged it off as Sunghoon being his introverted self, and meeting new people just wasnât his forte. You, however, had yet to learn about the boy's hatred towards the other boy and the fact that he had no desire whatsoever to meet the boy who had stolen his best friend away.
A smirk formed on Jayâs lips, gently punching you in the shoulder. ââIâm just playing, Iâm assuming he drove you here?ââ He asked, not taking his eyes off of you as he started walking down the hallway leading to his room. You nodded in response, fixing the bag hanging off your shoulder as you followed him; earning a nod back from the taller boy.Â
ââHopefully Iâll get to meet this infamous Sunghoon one day.ââ
ââMaybe one day.ââ
ââHow come youâre taking English classes if you already know all of this stuff?ââ
Your question caused a low chuckle to emerge from the back of Jay's throat, not taking his eyes off the book placed in front of him. ââI think this is just common knowledge, Y/N,ââ He responded, causing you to frown. ââThatâs just an indirect way of calling me stupid.ââ You mumbled, tearing your eyes off the boy seated in front of you before returning your gaze to the book placed in your lap.Â
Jay looked up at you, holding back a chuckle at the sight of you pouting; a small smile forming on his lips as he leaned over the bed, grabbing onto your chin before tilting your head up. Your eyes immediately met his, your eyes wide from his sudden action and the foreign feeling of his rough fingers gently gripping your chin; your eyes traveling down to the smile he wore on his plump lips.
And you almost missed the way his eyes traveled down to your lips, too.
 ââI donât think youâre stupid.ââ
Even though you felt like there was something you didnât know about the boy, there was one thing you had learned - he wasnât too big on psychical contact. It took weeks for him to greet you with a hug, only raising his eyebrows at you every time you tried to wrap your arms around him; leaving you feeling both embarrassed and dumb for thinking heâd want to hug you in the first place.Â
Until one day, he had taken you by surprise when you were waiting for him by his locker; his big hands suddenly grabbing onto your shoulders from behind before spinning you around, laughing at your shocked expression before hugging you for the first time.Â
After that, despite you stumbling over your words from utter shock from him hugging you without you initiating it, it became a habit to hug each other whenever you greeted one another.
You noticed he grew more comfortable around you as his small, almost unnoticeable touches happened more frequently. You remember him placing one of his hands on your thigh while you were reading something out loud and he wanted to read whatever you were reading too, or the one time he wrapped an arm around your shoulders while walking to the school's library; all while laughing at something you had said.
But this, him touching your face, had never happened before.
Noticing the way your lips separated like you were about to say something, but not a single word leaving your lips; he chuckled at the clearly flustered state you were in before letting go of your chin, going back to leaning against the wall by his bed. âPlus I think itâd look good on my resume, donât you think?â You just stared at him for a moment, watching as he went back to reading like he hadnât just grabbed your chin; clearing your throat in a desperate attempt to hide your now flustered state.
ââYou know,ââ You let out after a while, trying to change the topic, ââI keep getting the feeling that thereâs something I have yet to know about you.ââ
Jay just cocked an eyebrow, he could feel you looking at him; keeping his eyes glued to the page he was reading. ââYeah? And what would that be?ââ He let out, looking up at you before slightly tilting his head. You shrugged, ââI donât know, Iâm still trying to figure it out.ââ He just stared at you for a moment upon hearing your words, his eyes meeting yours as silence engulfed both of you.
ââYou want to know what I think?ââ
You nodded your head, feeling both confused and nervous from the sudden silence - had you accidentally managed to offend him?
He took a moment to just look at you, his eyes scanning your face; causing you to slightly furrow your eyebrows as his eyes met yours once more. ââI think thereâs a lot you donât know about me.ââ
The seriousness lingering behind his words caused your facial expression to soften and a chuckle to leave the back of your throat, shaking your head as you tore your eyes off the boy sitting in front of you; Jay, however, kept his eyes on you - watching as you went back to reading whatever page you were on, a small smile plastered on your lips.Â
You wondered if he was just trying to tease you, make fun of you even; realizing your sudden confession probably sounded like a joke to him, something you blurted out to avoid having him tease you for your flushed state.
ââYeah? Like what?ââ
ââDo you want me to show you?ââ
His sudden exclamation caused your eyes to immediately dart back up, your eyes immediately being met by his own dark ones. Expecting to be greeted by his usual playful smile, you suddenly grew nervous once more as you realized the playful grin you had expected to see was nowhere to be seen.
No, with his eyes burning into your skin and his head slightly tilted, you realized he wasnât teasing you.Â
ââWhat?ââ You let out, trying your best to decipher the stern look on his face. It wasnât unusual for Jay to walk around with a stern look on his face, his hawk-like eyes and sharp features making it look like he was constantly judging everyone around him. But this, the look he was giving you right now? No, it was nothing like the usual stern look he wore on his face.
ââI said, do you want me to show you?ââ
With his eyes still burning into your own, you found yourself unable to look away. His low eyes made it almost impossible for you to tear your gaze off him, desperate to understand what the new look he was giving you meant; even if it meant you had to stare right back at him, looking and feeling dumbfounded.
ââShow me what?ââ The quietness of his apartment made you wonder if he could hear your heart practically beating out of your chest, suddenly feeling almost naked as he stared at you; his dark eyes piercing into your soul, causing a wave of uncertainty to wash over you. Your voice almost came out in a broken whisper, and you wondered if he even heard you.
The deafening silence almost made you repeat your question, keyword almost; you werenât sure if you wanted him to respond, you werenât sure if you wanted to know what his response would be.
Jay, however, did hear your question - but he didnât reply, no, instead he tore his eyes off you to grab the novel he was reading; the noise of him slamming the book shut ricocheting off the walls, almost causing you to jump.Â
You didnât even have time to react to the sudden noise before you suddenly felt Jay place both hands on either side of your legs, and before you knew it - he was towering right above you; his arms caging you in.
At that moment, thatâs exactly what you felt like; like you were being caged. Like you were being held hostage, with one of his arms now placed against the headboard of his bed where you were comfortably resting your head and the other one placed by your shoulder, you froze.
His face was now only a few inches away from your own, almost feeling his breath fan across your face; the closeness almost causing you to hold your breath as you were unable to do anything but look at him with wide eyes.
The shock of him being so close to you caused your heart to race, his musky scent surrounding you in a way it had never surrounded you before; suddenly being able to smell his shampoo and the mint gum he had been chewing on a few minutes prior. You had been close to him many times before, you had been closer to him than this; like when he hugged you for example, your cheek pressing against his chest as his arms wraps around your figure.
But this? This was completely different from the friendly hugs he usually gave you. This was so much more intimate than all the hugs he had given you combined, his eyes still piercing into your own as you found yourself unable to look away once more - your lips parted and eyes wide as you stared right back at him.
His eyes darted between your eyes and lips, his dark gaze sending shivers down your spine. You desperately tried to say something, to move, anything: but almost like your limbs were frozen in place, you simply couldnât; feeling like your whole brain had shut down and your vocal cords had never existed in the first place, you were left to do nothing but stare at him in pure shock.Â
At that moment, you wished that Jay wouldâve left some random show to play on the TV, you wished that heâd at least put on some music while you were studying - anything, anything that could distract you from the way his lips were hovering above your own.
Jayâs eyes met your own once more before a low chuckle emerged from the back of his throat, the sudden sound breaking the silence almost causing you to jump once again. You suddenly felt him bop your nose using the hand he had previously placed right by your head, causing you to blink as a small smile formed on his lips, and before you knew it; he was no longer towering right above you.
ââIâm just playing with you,ââ He laughed as climbed off of you, his musky scent no longer engulfing you and the mint on his breath no longer invading your senses, ââGod, you shouldâve seen the look on your face! What, do you think Iâm some sort of serial killer?ââ
Letting go of a breath you didnât even know you were holding, you forced an awkward chuckle to leave your throat; the uneasiness and confusion lingering in your shaky chuckle being evident. You were quick to tear your gaze off him, almost feeling the need to gasp for air; your cheeks warm and your chest heaving under the shirt you were wearing. You could feel your heart beating and you were almost certain Jay could hear it from across the bed as well, the smile on his lips remaining as he shook his head at your panic, grabbing the book he had disregarded minutes prior.
Like nothing had ever happened, he went back to reading the novel your teacher had assigned you to read; leaving you to uncomfortably shift around in his bed, trying your best to find a comfortable position - trying your best to calm both your racing heart and thoughts.
The thought of Jay almost kissing you didnât leave your mind for the entire night after that, not even when you found yourself in your own bed hours later - staring at the ceiling as you recalled the feeling of his breath on your face and his scent engulfing you, leaving you to wonder if you had wanted him to kiss you.
The thought remained, even when you woke up the following morning.
Like a stone, it sat in your stomach from the second your eyes fluttered open; only to be greeted by the morning sun peaking through the blinds. On your way to school, the thought still lingered; staring out the window of the passenger seat of Sunghoons car as he mindlessly talked about something, something you couldnât bring yourself to listen to no matter how hard you tried.
Even during math, the thought of Jay clouded your mind as you desperately tried to focus on the numbers filling your page. But instead, you only stared at the empty paper placed in front of you, the pen you were holding in your hand ghosting over the paper; unable to think about anything but Jayâs body pressing against your own and the way his lips had ghosted over your own.
You, however, despite Jay potentially trying to kiss you clouding your mind; couldnât help but wonder if maybe you were making it all up. Perhaps Jay hadnât actually tried to kiss you, maybe it was just your mind playing tricks on you; maybe he had actually just tried to tease you, he did enjoy seeing you all flustered after all - something you had learned the hard way.
Jay had made you flustered multiple times during your short friendship, more times than you could count. Like when heâd compliment you on the smallest things, for example, the jewelry you chose to wear, or when heâd compliment you on your choice of perfume for that particular day; telling you that you smelled good while pulling you in for a hug to greet you. The smirk heâd wear on his lips every time heâd see your cheeks turn a peachy color made it clear that he enjoyed seeing you like that, making you wonder if he did it purely to make you flustered.
And with the same smirk on his lips, this time while being dangerously close to your face, you were left to wonder if he was in fact just trying to make you flustered.
ââAre you okay?ââ
Sunghoonâs sudden voice caused you to snap out of your thoughts, your eyes landing on the boy walking beside you. With his brows slightly furrowed together, he stared at you; waiting for you to reply. Clearing your throat, you nodded. ââSorry, what were you saying?ââ You mumbled, your gaze returning to the ground underneath you.
A day later, and Jay was still preoccupying your mind; unbeknownst to Sunghoon, who was too busy celebrating the fact that you finally agreed to hang out with him after school. So busy that he almost failed to notice the way you hadnât been listening to a single word that had left his mouth since that very same morning when he picked you up outside your house, so busy that he almost didnât notice the way you had only hummed in response to whatever he had said.
Until he eventually did realize, hours later - when you hadnât uttered a single word for the past fifteen minutes.
Pressing his lips into a thin line, he looked at you; his steps coming to a halt, grabbing onto your wrist to prevent you from taking as much as a single step. The feeling of his hand wrapping around your wrist caused you to look up at him once more, both your eyebrows raised as your eyes met his now concerned ones. ââWhatâs up?ââ
You could clearly hear the concern lingering behind his words and for a moment you felt guilty, guilty for making him worry. Letting out a chuckle, you shook your head, ââItâs nothing, I just have a lot on my mind right now, college, you know?ââ
If things had been different and if Sunghoon hadnât been your best friend for the past twenty years, he wouldâve believed you. But he had known you his entire life and he most definitely did not believe you, he could easily tell there was something more than just college on your mind by just looking at you - leaving him to wonder why you felt the need to hide something from him, a frown forming on his face.
ââYou sure?ââ He asked, scanning your face; trying to find out what it was that was preoccupying your mind, what it was that had you so deep into your own thoughts - to no avail as you only flashed him a bigger smile, causing Sunghoon to poke the inside of his cheek using his tongue.Â
ââCut the bullshit.ââ
The smile that you had just worn on your lips slowly faded as your best friend called you out, a frown taking over your features as a small sigh escaped your lips; feeling Sunghoon let go of your wrist, letting his hand fall back down the side of his body. ââItâs really nothing,ââ You mumbled, avoiding his gaze; missing the way he rolled his eyes upon hearing your words.
ââIf you say so.ââÂ
Your gaze once again landed on the boy as he continued walking, your eyes landing on the back of his head; another sigh escaping your lips as you debated on whether or not to tell your best friend what was weighing you down.
You trusted Sunghoon. You trusted Sunghoon more than you trusted anyone else. he was your best friend, after all, a brother even. But despite your close relationship with one another, love and everything surrounding the topic was just something you didnât talk about; no matter what.
Maybe it was because of that one time you told him about the crush you had on one of the boys in your class during middle school and he laughed at you, leaving you feeling both embarrassed and angry, angry that you told him in the first place if he was just going to make fun of you. Or maybe it was because of that one time you had to comfort him after he got rejected, something he refused to speak about ever again; you werenât sure, but one thing was for sure.
You simply did not talk about those things. Or you didnât, until what had been on your mind eventually slipped past your lips.
ââI think Jay tried to kiss me last night.ââ
As soon as the words left your lips, Sunghoon regretted ever asking.
A sudden burning sensation spread across his chest, feeling like his heart was caving in; his breath almost hitching in his throat upon hearing your words. Feeling like someone had grabbed onto his heart and ripped it out of his chest, crushing it before stomping on it; he wished he had never asked you in the first place.
He wished he wouldnât have asked what was on your mind, he wished he wouldnât have known you so well to the point where he could easily tell that something was wrong - anything, anything to avoid the ache he was suddenly feeling in his chest, an ache he had never experienced before.
Almost feeling the need to grab onto the fabric covering his chest, he froze. Like he was unable to move, he just stared at his car that stood parked in the school's parking lot a few feet away.
ââDid you kiss him?ââ
The words trailed off Sunghoonâs lips before he could even comprehend what he was saying, the words leaving his lips before he could even consider what to say; not sure if he actually wanted an answer to his question.Â
You just stared at him, confusion washing over you upon seeing his reaction. With his back still facing you, you furrowed your brows; making you wonder if perhaps you shouldnât have said anything, considering the way his steps came to an abrupt stop and his shoulder tensed. ââNo,ââ You let out, uncertainty lingering in your voice as you stared at him.
ââDid you want to kiss him?ââ
Squeezing his eyes shut, Sunghoon had to bite his own tongue in order to not say anything else. He didnât even want to know if you wanted to kiss Jay, no, he didnât want you to want to kiss Jay; the question slipping past his lips quicker than he was able to think.
Sunghoon wasnât a religious man, he had never been and he probably never would be either. But at that moment, Sunghoon prayed for the first time in his life; with his eyes squeezed shut, he prayed that youâd say no.Â
He prayed that youâd laugh, he prayed that you would tell him how you didnât want to kiss Jay - anything, he prayed for you to say anything other than a yes.Â
He, however, didnât know if the silence that followed his question was any better than if you wouldâve said yes.Â
Turning around to face you, he felt the heavy feeling in his chest spread even further as he spotted the look on your face. With your lips pressed into a thin line, you just stared at him; causing Sunghoonâs heart to sink, your silence hurting more than if you were to say yes.
ââDid you?ââ You bit down on your lower lip as he repeated his question, his brown eyes now staring into your own. You tried to figure out what the look on his face meant, the look that he usually wore on his face whenever he felt disappointed. But he wasnât disappointed, not right now, he couldnât be, right? What was there to possibly be disappointed about?
ââNo, I mean, I donât know,ââ You mumbled, shrugging your shoulders as you spoke. Fighting the urge to avoid his piercing gaze, you nibbled on your bottom lip; the look on his face making you wonder whether he was disappointed or just felt awkward.
The sudden dry chuckle that left his lips, however, told you everything you needed to know. ââYou donât know?ââ Almost speaking through gritted teeth, the tone of his voice taking you by surprise; causing you to frown.
ââYeah, I donât know,ââ You let out, your eyebrows furrowed together as he shook his head; another dry chuckle, a chuckle in disbelief, ripping through his chest.
ââYou have to know if you wanted him to kiss you or not Y/N,ââ He argued, not taking his eyes off of you, watching as your eyes widen in surprise. ââWhat? I donât know Sunghoon, I donât know if I wanted him to kiss me or not!ââ You defended yourself, confusion washing over you as the boy in front of you only seemed to grow even more agitated the more you spoke.
Letting out a sigh in annoyance, Sunghoon ran one of his hands through his hair in an attempt to somewhat calm himself down, ââFor fucks sake,ââ
ââWhy are you getting mad?ââ
Your question caused Sunghoon to freeze, letting his arm fall down the side of his body again, his lips parting like he was about to say something; but with not a single word leaving his lips, the boy remained silent.
You were right, why was he getting mad?
Any other best friend would be happy, happy that their best friend met someone - so why was Sunghoon feeling like someone stabbed him in the heart, and not happy? Why did the thought of his best friend almost kissing another guy, someone who wasnât him, cause a burning feeling to spread across his chest?
Your big eyes, filled with both surprise and disappointment caused Sunghoons gaze to soften. Realizing he had lashed out at you with no real explanation, confusing both you and himself, he placed his tongue between his teeth. ââWeâll hang out some other day, alright?ââ He managed to mumble after a moment of silence, his voice low and you were sure you could hear what sounded like both anger and sadness lingering behind his words.
ââSunghoon, wait,ââ
The boy had already turned around before you could even utter as much as a word, feeling the need to reach out and grab onto him to stop him from walking away from you; your hand leaving your side, just to retract it just as quickly - realizing it was no use.
He was already walking away, leaving you to stand alone in the school's parking lot.Â
Feeling both confused and as if someone had just punched him in the face, Sunghoon came to the realization that you had in fact broken the first rule. And maybe, just maybe, he had broken one of the rules himself.
Radio silence.
Sunghoon didnât pick you up the following day, even though he had picked you up every single day ever since he got his license and even though you stood outside your house at 8 AM sharp - his car never turned the corner, like he always did.Â
Nor did he text you that night, after leaving you in the parking lot all on your own; leaving you to take the bus as your only ride home left you stranded.
Nothing but utter, complete radio silence.
Perhaps it was your own fault, you thought, you had been zoned out the entire day and completely uninterested in anything he had said after all. But the confusion still lingered, the confusion as to why he lashed out at you; as to what could've gotten him so upset to the point where he grew so aggravated, to the point where he felt the need to leave you with no explanation, no nothing.
Instead, you were left confused, with tears staining your cheeks all the way until the early hours of the morning, but most of all: hurt.Â
You were left hurt.
The boy now standing in front of you, however, seemed equally as confused with your unannounced presence.
ââY/N? What are you doing here?ââ Jay let out in surprise as he opened his front door, only to reveal you standing there; the cold winds sending goosebumps down your arms as you shoved your hands further down your pockets in an attempt to warm yourself up. You looked up at him, your eyes meeting his and Jay wondered if your cheeks were red from the cold autumn weather that had slowly been approaching, or if you had been crying.Â
ââCan I come in, or is it a bad time?ââ
Maybe it wasnât the most ideal time for you to show up at Jayâs door, completely unannounced, judging by the way his hair was dripping wet and the towel he was holding in one of his hands. But with Sunghoon completely ignoring you and your heart still slightly aching from your best friend being disappointed, angry - whatever it was he was with you, it was obvious to you that he wouldnât hang out with you today.
Despite it being the one day of the week, the one day when you had promised him to hang out with him, clearing your schedule to go over to his house; sometimes even sleeping over, if he managed to convince you, that being said.
Not today, you guessed.
Jay looked at you for a moment, before a warm smile spread on his lips. ââYouâre always welcome here, silly.ââ
The warmth of Jayâs apartment welcomed you with open arms, shielding you from the cold winds raging outside; mentally scolding yourself for not wearing something warmer. A low sigh escaped your lips as you sat down at the edge of Jayâs bed, rubbing your hands together in an attempt to warm yourself up. ââI thought today was no study day?ââ Jay spoke as he entered the room, his eyes questioning you as he rubbed the towel against his scalp; preventing droplets of water to drop from the ends of his hair.
You looked up at him, your eyes scanning his figure. With nothing but a flimsy tank top covering his chest, the lack of sleeves leaving his biceps out for you to see - you almost felt the need to look away. Almost like you werenât supposed to be looking at him, your breath hitched in your throat.
Quickly gazing back down at your hands, still rubbing them together to create some warmth, you shook your head in response. ââChange in plans,ââ You lightly chuckled, the sound of Jay draping the towel over the door leading into his room causing you to gaze back up at him, reluctant to do so. He looked over at you, his lips parting as if he was about to say something; his eyes meeting yours.
The room fell silent and you wondered if perhaps he could sense how tense you were. Perhaps he could hear your heart thumping against your chest, just from him simply looking at you, all the way across the room; or maybe it was the look in your eyes that gave it away, you werenât sure.Â
But one thing was for sure, Jay most definitely noticed something - slightly tilting his head at you.
ââHow come?ââ
Now it was your turn to shrug, forcing yourself to tear your eyes off of him; his eyes still burning into your skin as you looked away. ââPlans changed, I guess,ââ You mumbled, the room falling silent once more.
ââWhy have you been crying?ââ
Jay wasnât sure if you had actually been crying, or if it was the cold causing a red color to flush your cheeks. Trusting his gut feeling, the words softly trailed off his lips; and judging by the way you immediately looked up at him with wide eyes and your shoulders tensing up upon hearing his words - he realized he was right and that it was, in fact, the first option.
Parting your lips like you were about to say something, you felt like sinking through the ground. You had hoped that the cold wouldâve helped you cover up your tearstained cheeks and puffy eyes, and maybe anyone else wouldnât have noticed; but Jay did notice, and you wished he hadnât - because then you wouldnât have to awkwardly laugh it off.
You forced a chuckle to leave the back of your throat, bringing one of your hands to your face as you shook your head. ââCrying? Itâs just cold out,ââ Pressing the back of your hand against your cheek in an attempt to show him that you were in fact just cold, even though that wasnât the case; hoping heâd just shrug it off.
He didnât.Â
No, instead he just looked at you with his head still tilted, the look on his face making it clear to you that he did not believe your little white lie; not even a little bit. The room fell silent and you wondered if it was disappointment lingering in his dark eyes, disappointment over the fact that you had lied to him.
ââYou donât have to tell me, you know,ââ He uttered, breaking the silence. His voice was warm as he spoke, nothing like the dagger-like tone that had lingered behind Sunghoonâs words when he had spoken to you, no; Jayâs soothing and sincere voice sounded nothing like the sharp words that had trailed off your best friend's lips. ââI just want you to know that Iâm here to listen, always.ââ
You hadnât anticipated the lump that was now beginning to form in your throat, nor had you expected Jay to comfort you. You werenât sure if Jay actually knew how comforting his words were, or if he was even being sincere; but the look in his eyes told you he was and you wondered if he also noticed the tears that had formed in your eyes.
He mustâve, because before you could even blink, you felt him place his weight next to you on the edge of his bed. Your eyes met his once more as he placed one of his hands on top of your thigh, his sudden touch taking you by surprise; but the look in his eyes, however, made you feel even more surprised.
His normally cat-like eyes no longer looked as mysterious to you, not with concern lingering in his dark brown orbs. With his eyes filled with both concern and what almost looked like admiration, you couldnât help but let the broken sob that had been trying to claw its way out of your throat finally escape.
ââItâs Sunghoon.ââ
Jay was quick to wrap his arm around you before the broken sob could even leave your throat, gently pressing you against his chest before letting his head rest on top of yours. You let the tears that had been threatening to leave your eyes fall, feeling slightly embarrassed for crying in his arms; Jay humming as the name âSunghoonâ trailed off your lips.
Once again, his musky scent engulfed you as his fingers combed through your hair. This time, however, the musky scent you had gotten used to comforted you in a way you had never expected it to - wrapping your arms around his torso in an attempt to get even closer to the boy holding you.
Jay hadnât heard a whole lot about your so-called best friend, Sunghoon. He knew you grew up with each other and that he had seen him a handful of times in the hallways, but other than that; Park Sunghoon was practically a mystery to him.
But the second his name trailed off your lips, accompanied by your glossy eyes - Jay realized that the name Sunghoon was going to leave a sour taste in his mouth for a very, very long time.
ââItâs okay,ââ Jay hummed into your hair, his heart clenching as he felt you grab onto him even harder, making him wonder for a split second if you were scared he was going to leave. Maybe you were, perhaps you were afraid heâd leave you on your own; you werenât sure either, but there was one thing Jay was sure about.
He wasnât going to let you go.
ââIâm sorry,ââ You mumbled into his shirt, causing a low chuckle to leave Jayâs lips. You were about to look up at him, his sudden chuckle making you frown into the fabric of his tank top; making you feel stupid. But before you even had the chance to move your head, you felt Jayâs hand slowly slip away from your waist and grab onto the side of your face - making you look up at him.
Your breath hitched in your throat as your eyes met his, a small smile on his lips as he looked at you. His face was only a few inches away from yours, closer than he had ever been before - his thumb gently stroking your cheek making it even harder for you to breathe. ââDonât you dare say youâre sorry,ââ He let out, ââEspecially when you have nothing to be sorry about.ââ
Maybe if Jay hadnât planted the idea in your mind, you wouldnât have kissed him. Maybe if he hadnât gotten so close, maybe if his smell hadnât invaded all your senses, and maybe if his rough fingers hadnât dragged across your cheek; you wouldnât have placed your hand in the nape of his neck and brought your face towards his own.
But you did, and you almost felt the need to let out a gasp as his plump lips came into contact with your own lips, the tears that had made their way down your face coating your lips.
Jay, however, also felt the need to almost gasp for air as your salty lips came into contact with his own dry ones. He almost pulled away, he almost let you slip away from his grip; and also he knows he probably should. He knows he shouldnât let you kiss him, he knows he shouldnât pull you closer and he knows he most definitely shouldnât let his fingers run through your hair.
But how could he possibly not, when he had wanted nothing else but this for the past three months?
His lips moved against your own with such urgency, such desperation; his fingertips tugging at the roots of your hair as you placed your other hand on the side of his face, bringing him even closer to you. Feeling his tongue suddenly swipe across your bottom lip, you had to fight back from letting a small whine leave your throat; slightly parting your lips, letting his wet muscle come into contact with your own.
The tears that had previously left your eyes were now nowhere to be seen, Jay using his thumb to wipe them away as he helped you straddle him; his lips not leaving yours as you placed yourself on top of his lap. Feeling one of his hands leave your face and drag down your side before eventually resting at your waist, you almost shivered under his touch.
With your fingertips grazing over the water droplets that had dripped onto the skin of his neck thanks to him not properly drying his hair, Jay let out a low groan against your lips; the sudden sensation of your soft fingers tickling his skin causing his grip around your waist to tighten. The feeling of his fingernails digging into your skin caused a gasp to leave your lips, causing you to pull away from the kiss for a split second.
Jay just looked at you for a moment, admiring you; with you on his lap and your eyelashes stuck together from the tears that had spilled past the corners of your eyes, he had to bite down on his lower lip in order to somewhat ground himself - both of your chests heaving up and down from the intense kiss.
ââWhatever he did,ââ Jay mumbled after a moment of silence, watching his fingers graze over the skin of your cheek as he spoke, ââItâs not worth crying over.ââ
His soft words almost caused tears to form in your eyes once more, your lips meeting his before they even had a chance to form and drop onto your cheeks, again. This time, Jay was quick to slip his hand under your shirt, his warm hand gently stroking your waist as his rough lips continued to attack yours. The feeling of his hand coming into contact with your skin caused you to unconsciously move around in his lap, a hiss suddenly leaving Jayâs lips as he pulled away.
You were about to open your eyes, a pang of fear shooting through your body as he pulled away; fear that maybe he didnât want to kiss you. Maybe he realized that letting you kiss him in the first place was a mistake, that he didnât actually want to - until you suddenly felt his wet hair come into contact with the skin of your neck, that being said.
Followed by a water droplet dropping knot your skin, you felt him press a soft kiss right underneath your ear; causing you to tilt your head to the side, your eyes fluttering shut once more as your lips parted at the sensation. Leaving a trail of kisses down the side of your neck, his rough lips accompanied by his tongue occasionally swiping across your skin; a low whimper emerged from the back of your throat.
ââJay,ââ You whimpered, your head still tilted to the side, giving the man easy access to your neck. Nibbling on your skin, he hummed; the vibrations as well as his hand still gently stroking the side of your body causing another whine to spill past your lips. ââCan you take my mind off it, please?ââ
Your soft whisper caused Jay to detach his lips from your neck, his eyes meeting yours once more. He slightly tilted his head, using his thumb to swipe across your bottom lip as you stared at him; your eyes wide and Jay could practically see the desperation inside of them. ââHow would I do that?ââ He let out, his voice low as his gaze landed on his thumb, watching as your bottom lip followed his movements.Â
You stared at him for a moment, the feeling of his rough fingers pressed against your bottom lip almost making you feel dizzy. ââCan you make me feel good?ââÂ
Jayâs eyes widened for a split second as the words rolled off your tongue so softly, so softly that he almost missed them and he probably wouldâve, if the apartment hadnât been so quiet. His movements stopped, the pad of his thumb remaining on your bottom lip as his eyes met yours once more.
He looked for any type of doubt, any type of sign; a sign that giving into the urges he had carried around with him for months at this point would be a bad idea, something heâd regret later on; but there was none, no matter how hard he looked.Â
No, instead he was met with your lustful eyes; your eyes filled with what Jay could only identify as the very same lust he himself was feeling. ââYou want me to make you feel good?ââ He breathed, not taking his eyes off of you as he spoke, still looking for any type of warning sign telling him not to do it.
You nodded in response, ââPlease.ââ
And as soon as your soft voice filled the room and confirmed for Jay that you, in fact, wanted him, you suddenly felt yourself being thrown on the bed; with Jay suddenly towering above you - just like he had done two days prior. This time, however, he leaned down and pressed his lips against your own.
ââIâll make you feel good, okay?ââ He grunted, resting his forehead against your own. His words caused a whimper to leave your lips, eagerly nodding your head in response. âââJust wanna have you, Jay,ââ You whimpered, wrapping your hands around his neck.
A low hiss left Jayâs lips as he dipped his head in the nape of your neck, his lips latching onto your sensitive skin once more; this time, however, his kisses were much rougher and the grip he had around your waist only hardened as he buckled his hips into your own. A whine emerged from the back of your throat as you threw your head back, a small wet patch forming in your underwear as his crotch pressed against your own; one of your hands gripping onto his wet hair.Â
ââIâll make you forget everything but my name.ââ
A loud gasp left your throat as he pressed his hips against your own once more, this time even harder, his teeth sinking into your skin; not even giving you the time to process what he had just said. Letting your hands get tangled into the wet locks covering his neck, you slightly tugged at his hair - earning a low grunt from him in return as he gently rolled his hips against your crotch.
You werenât sure if this was the best way to take your mind off what had been weighing you down, or Sunghoon, more specifically. It wasnât like you intended to end up under Jay, with his lips attached to your neck and his crotch grinding against your own when you showed up at his house, no, you thought maybe he could distract you and your wandering thoughts by maybe catching up on your English assignment.
This, however, feeling his rough fingers roam your body and his lips decorating your skin seemed to be working much better than studying ever could.
You hadnât even noticed the way Jay had slowly begun to kiss down your neck, now letting his teeth nibble on the skin surrounding your collarbones; his hand that had previously been stroking your side was now gently pulling the fabric of your shirt further up your stomach, the cold air coming into contact with your now very hot, exposed skin causing you to whimper.
His lips suddenly left your skin, the loss of contact causing you to open your eyes and look down at him; only to be met by him already looking at you. His eyes were low, looking up at you through hooded eyes as he slowly moved down the bed - placing feather like kisses on top of your stomach while doing so. Your lips parted as you watched him kiss down your stomach, hooking both his arms under either side of your legs as he placed himself between them.
Keeping his eyes on you, he placed a kiss on the inside of your clothed thigh. ââAre you sure about this?ââ He mumbled against your thigh, still pressing small pecks on the inside of your thigh as he spoke. You quickly nodded, your hands finding their way back to his hair; your fingertips running through his now slightly dry hair. ââPlease,ââ You whispered, nibbling on your bottom lip in anticipation.
A low chuckle left his throat, pressing one last kiss onto the inside of your thigh before his hands slipped off your hips; slowly making their way toward the zipper of your pants. ââSince you asked so nicely,ââ He mumbled, his fingers playing with your zipper, ââHow about we take these off?ââ
His eyes met yours once again, your head bobbing up and down in a nod once more; feeling the wet patch that had formed in your underwear grow more and more with each passing second. Only smirking at you, his gaze landed on your core as he unzipped your pants before helping you pull them down your legs - leaving you with nothing but your underwear on and your shirt scrunched up by your chest.Â
Jay immediately spotted the wet patch that had formed on the cotton fabric covering your hole, his cock twitching in his pants at the sight; having to hold back a groan from leaving his throat as he placed one of his fingers against your clit, slowly letting it run up and down your clothed core.Â
The sudden sensation caused a gasp to trail off your lips. The back of your head hit the pillow placed behind you, your eyes fluttering shut as you felt the fabric of your underwear drag up and down your slit. ââIs this what a little bit of kissing does to you, hm?ââ Jay cooed, causing you to whimper as he applied some pressure to your clit. ââJay,ââ You whined, your voice almost coming out in a broken whisper. Another chuckle left Jayâs lips as he used his other hand to gently stroke your thigh, leaning down to press a kiss on top of your clothed clit.
ââI know, I know,ââ He mumbled, hooking one of his fingers under the fabric of your underwear, ââIâm not going to tease you, baby.ââ
The nickname rolling off his tongue accompanied by the cold air hitting your now wet core as he pulled the fabric to the side caused a low moan to leave your lips, grabbing onto his hair even harder. Jay bit down on his bottom lip as your wet slit was fully revealed to him, once again letting his fingers run up and down your slit. This time, the moan that trailed off your lips as your arousal coated his finger caused him to slightly buck his hips into the mattress underneath him - finally letting his tongue come into contact with your core.
The feeling of his plump lips latching onto your clit with no warning whatsoever caused a gasp mixed together with a moan to rip through your chest, his tongue swiping against your clit causing your head to sink even further into the pillow. Using one hand to gently stroke your inner thigh while his tongue circled around your clit, a low grunt left his throat as he felt you tug at his hair even harder.
ââFuck,ââ You let out, taken aback by Jayâs eagerness - expecting him to go slow on you. Jay, however, had no plans on going slow on you; you wanted him to take your mind off things, didnât you?
You suddenly felt him place his other hand by your entrance, his lips still wrapped around your clit; another low gasp leaving your lips as you felt one of his fingers trace the outside of your entrance. Jay let out a low hum of satisfaction upon feeling the amount of arousal spilling out of your hole, the vibrations causing you to arch your back.
Before you knew it, he was slipping one of his fingers into you with ease; your slick walls welcoming his finger, the feeling causing both you and Jay to let out a moan. Jay gave you no time to get used to his finger filling you up before suddenly curling it, and judging by the whimpers that were leaving your lips, Jay realized he mustâve found your g-spot.
Jay knew nothing about Sunghoon, your so-called best friend, but as he heard you whimper underneath him; he wondered if Sunghoon had ever had the opportunity to make you feel as good as he currently was.
The thought caused a burning feeling to spread across Jayâs chest, and he decided that if Sunghoon had ever made you whimper like you currently were; well, in that case, he was going to make you feel better than anyone else had ever made you feel before.
Feeling him slip yet another finger into you, another broken gasp left your lips as he began thrusting them out of you, before plunging them back into you. His tongue was still playing with your clit, the combination of both his tongue and his fingers caused you to squeeze your eyes shut as an overwhelming feeling of pleasure washed over you.Â
ââJay,ââ You moaned, feeling a familiar knot beginning to form in your stomach; Jayâs fingers thrusting into you while his tongue left kitten licks on your clit causing you to almost buck your hips against his face. Jay looked up at you, smirking against your cunt as he spotted your face.Â
With your hair spread out on the pillow and your lips slightly parted, you looked just like what Jay had fantasized about in the darkness of his room while tugging at his own cock, broken whimpers of your name spilling past his slips each and every time.Â
Only this time, it was broken whimpers of his name spilling past your lips, not the opposite; and Jay wondered if you had ever thought about him like this before, too.
Thrusting his fingers into you, he curled his fingers; both his fingertips grazing against your g-spot as he wiggled his fingers inside of you. Keeping his eyes on you, he watched as broken moans and whimpers left your lips as you tried your best to stay still; to no avail. How were you supposed to stay still, when Jay was currently fingering you unlike no one else had ever done before?
Jay held back a chuckle as he watched your chest heave up and down, your legs slightly shaking and threatening to lock him in place; not that he wouldâve complained, if it was up to him, heâd spend all eternity between your legs - just to hear the sweet moans that left your lips as his tongue swiped against your clit and as his fingers got coated in your arousal.Â
ââFuck, wish I could take a picture of you right now,ââÂ
Jayâs sudden muffled confession caused you to whimper, clenching around his fingers; which most definitely didnât go unnoticed by Jay. Cocking an eyebrow in surprise, you felt him chuckle against your cunt. ââYeah? Youâd like that, wouldnât you?ââ
ââFuck, Jay,ââ You whined in response, feeling your orgasm approaching; which Jay did, too. feeling your walls beginning to clench around his fingers was the first sign that you were close, plus the fact that you were unknowingly trying to get away from his grip; your hips lifting off the mattress every now and then as he hit just the right spot with his finger or as he sucked on your clit.Â
Detaching his lips from your clit, panting from the lack of oxygen as he pressed a sloppy kiss against your inner thigh; his fingers still thrusting in and out of you. ââAre you close, baby?ââ He let out, to which you only nodded in response.Â
You wanted to tell him how good he was, how incredibly good he was making you feel and how close you were to making a mess all over his fingers; but you simply couldnât. Almost like you had gone mute, the words refused to leave your throat; your throat dry as you panted, trying your hardest to form a sentence.Â
Jay, however, noticed how you were struggling to speak as you began to move your hips in sync with his fingers in an attempt to chase your high, the sound of the base of his fingers coming into contact with your sticky entrance filling the room combined with your heavy panting and low whimpers.
Smirking against your thigh, he placed one last kiss onto the skin of your thigh. ââThen be a good girl and cum for me.ââ
Curling his fingers one more time, harshly wiggling them around caused the knot that had formed in your stomach to finally snap. Letting your hands fall onto your sides, grabbing onto the sheets as your orgasm washed over you in an attempt to ground yourself; a high-pitched moan ripping through your chest as Jay felt you coat his fingers with your cum. Watching as your hole swallowed his fingers, Jay bit down on his bottom lip - hoping heâd one day get to experience you clenching like that around his cock.
ââGood girl, thatâs a good girl,ââ He cooed, gently stroking your thigh as your body trembled underneath him. ââLook so pretty cumming for me.ââ
Once he felt your body beginning to relax, he slowly slipped his fingers out of your hole; placing a soft kiss against your now sensitive clit, making you whimper as you shook your head. Sitting up straight, he wiped his mouth using the back of his hand before once again climbing on top of you. A small smile formed on his lips as he came face to face with you, the fucked out state of you making him feel accomplished.
Using the hand he hadnât used to fuck you, he gently stroked your cheek in an attempt to make you open your eyes. His smile only widened as your eyes fluttered open, you looking up at him through low eyes; his hand running through your head to help you come down from your high. ââYou did really good,ââ He mumbled, leaning down to press a soft kiss on top of your forehead.
His words caused a small smile to form on your lips as you wrapped both arms around his neck once again. ââYou did really good.ââ You mumbled in response, your eyes heavy and your whole body feeling slack from the overwhelming orgasm you had just experienced.
A chuckle was heard coming from the boy above you, his fingers still threading through your now messy hair. ââDid I manage to take your mind off it?ââ He asked, his eyes meeting yours. You only nodded in response, too tired to properly respond - which was more than enough for Jay. Leaning down once again, he pressed a soft kiss against the corner of your mouth. ââHow about you spend the night, hm?ââ
Pulling him closer to you, his musky scent engulfed you for the nth time that day; nodding your head once more, feeling Jay press a soft kiss against your shoulder as he hummed against your skin.
While Jay definitely had managed to take your mind off Sunghoon, you hadnât left Sunghoonâs mind; not even once, no matter how hard he had tried to distract himself. And maybe, just maybe, if Sunghoon wouldâve texted you five minutes earlier that day, you actually wouldâve seen the message about him asking to come over.
And maybe, just maybe, if Sunghoon wouldâve texted you five minutes earlier that day, you actually wouldâve seen the message about him asking to come over.
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The angel of his desires in chains
James Heathridge x wife!reader
warning : +18, smut, leg humping, dubious consent, kidnapping, chain's, implied incest (it's James what can I say), kissing, body worship, dubious alignment of beliefs, murder,
Summary : In the old home of his family, the house of his beloved mother held many rooms and furnishings. The cellar with the well, the room of his little sister or the single room in the attic with metal eyelets in the walls to which chains could be attached. A room that belonged to his angel, his reward that he had taken and that he visits to remind her of her love for him. For the sake of the revenge, kisses and physical affection, he could take his angelâŠthe other way around, she could take him, knowing that he was nothing more than a fucked up man with desires.
info : Yes finally something to James again i missed him and even though i wanted to go the incest route first i thought stop what would fit better and so here we are. I hope you like it and thanks for all the support have fun reading :)
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Was God fallible? Or was it the humans? Could God's creation do anything wrong at all if they were created by him? A question of right, rightness and fallibility in a world that has been asking this question for centuries but no one had a right answer except him.
Not guided by God or other forms of faith, he was guided by his mother, his love, his family and his wife. He did his bidding for weeks and months, the metal that gripped his hands was normal, the heaviness when he struck, the warm blood on his hands, face and body, the typing on the keyboard as he searched for and took the victims of Satan's whores.
He had a heavy destiny when he found himself next to bie in a world abandoned by faith, having to protect his beloved sweet little sister and take care of his wife, a woman only a few years older but so full of devotion and purity that she was the most divine thing he had ever touched besides his mother.
He went to her when he needed advice, when his body seemed to give way and couldn't take it anymore, he knew he had her, his mother as support and his wife as something to anchor him in a world that wanted to hold him back.
A woman who held him, around whom he could wrap his arms, his lips on hers without him tasting the flavors of hell, only hearing her sweet love and lust when he heard the slight squeak of the old metal bed frame, the gentle movements when he took her, using the night for his lustful acts that needed to be satisfied and his beloved was there for that.
Her almost motherly eyes an understanding smile on her lips signaled him again and again that he was doing everything right, that he was doing her good, that he loved her as he should, that the chains on her body were nothing to be ashamed of when he chained her back like a prisoner and not a wife.
But such thoughts that erupted like a sickness always took him out of his business his paintings on the canvas stopped and he lost his mother he couldn't concentrate and a glance at the clock told him that the evening was almost over and the night would begin again.
,,Lust and shame show us what is right and wrongâŠbut why am I drawn to such a thing?" he asked himself, looking at the picture of the victim he had to choose not yet properly recognizable he could only give his sister the color of the fabric and a rough idea of the dress she had to make, while his own eyes went from the picture to a book he had taken from his beloved's room.
A small booklet of pages written in her lovely handwriting he allowed her to write down her thoughts, worries and lusts to help her feel more at ease in her little kingdom while she was upstairs in the room, ,,So my heart does not know if he is drawn to me at all or to the care of a mother.
His eyes darkly seek and lust after me, feeling his lust but this something I don't seem to be enough for him" he mumbled the words he had read last feeling that guilt rising in him again he lusted after many but such a thing this implication, the murders and the injustice rubbing across his tired eyes he still felt the familiar tingling in his body.
A tingle that ran through him whenever he thought of her, her voice in his ear whispering to him that he was so good, her soft warm body beneath him he could touch as he wished she was not a whore like the others her purity and devotion gave him all he needed.
Her words didn't just make him feel guilty, they made him feel lust, the thoughts in his head emerge like a fog of lustful, lewd thoughts that slowly demanded redemption before he stood up jerkily with the book and walked up the stairs to his destination, locking his sister's door on the way there, never letting her find out what was happening up there, Lara had already suffered too much.
He heard the faint jingle and grind of chains on the old wooden floor above him as he climbed the last few steps and opened the door to the last room a large room a desk on which she wrote her things, the closet filled with clothes similar to his mother's and bookshelves with her favorite authors before he looked up at the large four-poster bed old yet comfortable to surrender to each other.
Before his eyes settled on her, the simple nightgown light in fabric outlined her body to him, the iron chain on her ankle, wrist giving her some space and a book in her hand, ,,James? I wasn't expecting you so soon, what happened?" she asked, her voice so soft for him that she threatened to break, not seeing how tightly she gripped the book, not seeing the other side of the coin as he approached her.
She dropped the book, a historical reading like everything in this room filled with lust, the moonlight coming through only a few cracks in the window, the old stained glass making the room appear red as the devil in human form came towards her, his hands wandering over the chain, watching with pleasure as she did not enjoy it even if he saw it differently.
When his hand closed around hers, she felt his immediate release when he was finally with her again, ,,Lust-soaked words from your heart, you're not enough for me, nothing but lies, do you hear? My heart belongs only to you, to your being, your soul and your body," he said, running his fingers up her arm and over the markings on her neck that stretched down to her breasts, where you could still see the light bite and suck marks.
She shuddered as he stroked her cheek, engaging her in a kiss, the slight tug on the chains a sign at first barely understood now almost an everyday ritual as she moved to the bed her body settling against the pillows as he began to undo the cords that held her dress together.
,,A body that responds to me and belongs to me my lust and devotion is only what I deserve isn't it? " he dared to ask and paused as his hands went to place themselves on her breasts but he suddenly saw the blood stains on his hands in disgust.
She gently took his hand, leaving him in uncertainty, knowing that it bothered him, that it hurt him, but a bird in a cage could stop singing at any time if its feathers were ripped out too much she held his hand, his gaze showing nothing but uncertainty and guilt, ,,Each one belongs to you what is chained and loved, that's how your mother saw it and that's how I will continue to lead it," she murmured before placing her lips on the blood.
Kissing it left his hand lightly cleaned with kisses and licks she heard him clinging to her more, shuddering as she bruised him finally the physical lust between them increased before he pulled his hand away pulling her into a hard kiss taking her breath away and hearing her suppressed gasp as his hand placed itself on her breasts while his leg pushed between her legs rubbing her middle against him.
Was it the special tea or was it the belief in her devotion that made her so submissive and wet whenever he came to her and made love to her?
He didn't know, his own mind too wrapped up in lust to care as his lips explored her body and words of praise flowed from his lips, ,,A beautiful angel a motherly protector ah-fuck my heart your look is my devotion" he admitted to her as her hand laid on his dark curls knowing when he was so devotedly needy what he wanted.
Before another murder he was always so needy, needing the security of his mother's good deeds until he seemed to treat her like a demon after the murder when his eyes were covered with righteousness he had killed another whore bride of Satan the blood still covered him and he came into her room she took over and over he himself seemed to be the devil in person.
She felt his hardness against her thigh as he rubbed lightly against her knowing that he could only get his reward of her body when he had completed his task so he clung to her hand but his hands on her body were always firm always this thought that he was superior to her even though he was dependent on her a coin with the same needs.
,,Keep indulging yourselfâŠgood boy that's it," she replied gently as his lips continued to stroke his head in reward as his lips latched onto her nipple her lewd noises kept echoing in the room as he bit down gently sending shivers down her body while he sucked apologetically on it afterwards, continuing to rub against her like a lowly creature, like a naughty boy who hadn't done his job and wasn't allowed to touch her cunt.
His other hand massaged her free breast roughly and quickly and again more calmly apologetically when she took one hand off his head and quietly told him, ,,Not too hastily" before he continued to pleasure himself on her body and she felt his hardness twitch again and again when she moved her leg slightly and told him of her written sentences and shamed him for his lust.
In this room, although she wore the chains that rattled slightly, it was he who would end up being chained in her arms and she was the mother who showed him what he was doing wrong before she let him go into the world with new knowledge of what he was doing.
The fabric of her nightgown was also held by him every now and then his free hand passed over her body she felt, she wanted to feel this beautiful infallibility and devotion when she held him and kissing his hand.
,,I please my-fuck please my heart I" he stammered barely able to say a word so lost in his lust his eyes heavy with a curtain of absolute abandon he was on her lap, his hips following no rhythm just chasing the feeling of friction and arousal to finally cum to be held.
This was his lowest moment, the moment she could have destroyed him with every word, with chains or by herself, he was a fallen man who only became someone who wasn't fallible as soon as he walked out of this room.
,,Shhh I'm here it's okay just let yourself go that's it" she murmured embracing his cheek pulling him into a kiss as a few thrusts later he buried his head in the hollow of her throat his moans were muffled and she feasted on his neediness.
He almost collapsed from his high ride as she held him lying on top of her while she kissed his temple and head, ,,Good boy so proud of you my righteous infallible boy" she told him stroking his head as he cuddled up to her only a moment before he rose from her his lust gone from his eyes even though he could almost taste her neediness on his tongue he turned away from her with a kiss.
He could hardly bear to remember this vile act afterwards, as if he was afraid of falling too much into this fallibility he always reminded himself of when she helped him out of it just to feel his actions on himself.
Knowing that she would touch herself and take her own pleasure, which he was not allowed to do until he came back covered in blood and had permission to take her as he pleased.
,,I know she's nextâŠand another night you'll be my reward remember my words my wife" he told her a voice calm not of lust but of his seriousness, something stronger someone who felt the metal between his hands, felt the water and blood as he killed another whore only to return to his wife and take her as it was an infallible state because in the end what choice did a caged woman have over her captor?
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Thought you all might like a little James again :)
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I'll Love You 'til the Grass Around My Gravestone is Deceased
harry potter timeline sirius black x fem!reader
CHAPTER FOUR (see full series list here)
1992
You awake on a regular Wednesday morning a few days before the return to school, groaning and stretching as you sit up in your queen-sized bed. The sun is streaming in through your windows, and you can hear birds singing their first few melodies of the morning.
You hear a very croaky meow from beside you and you look over to spot Dubh awakening from her slumber, seeming very angry about it being awoken. Dubh's actual bed is resting in the corner of the room, but it has long since been forgotten and she much prefers to sneak up onto your bed covers during the night. This little habit of hers means you've had to deliver a quick cleaning spell to her every night before bed, but you enjoy her company anyways. You reach out and pet her lovingly, scratching under her fluffy chin.
"Yes, yes, good morning, Dubh," you say. You yawn, trying to muster up the will to properly get out of bed, before eventually you manage to swing your legs over the edge of your bed and step onto the soft rug beneath you.
You throw on your favourite pair of jeans and a sweater to accompany it, taking a quick minute to wash your face before heading downstairs and into the kitchen. Dubh follows you the whole time, complaining as she waits for you to get her breakfast.
This is the home you've lived in for the past 13 years. The home yourself and Sirius had bought after you got married. It's small and cosy: exactly how you had wanted. The walls are covered with photo frames and beautiful oil paintings that look straight out of a dream.
The kitchen is charming, especially as it's lit up by the August sun. You push open a window to let some air in, waving your wand to pour out some cat food for Dubh. You click the kettle on and drum your fingers on the countertop as you wait.
At that moment you hear a small hoot and a light thud outside your back door. You leave the kitchen, unlocking the door to open it and spot a small folded package on the front step. It's the newspaper, the Daily Prophet.
You toss the paper on the kitchen table, humming as you prepare breakfast for yourself. Finally, when you've finished, you take your plate in one hand and your ready cup of tea in the other, sitting down at the kitchen table. You pull open the twine wrapped around the paper, unfolding it out.
You nearly spit out your tea when you read the headline of the front page and spot a familiar face.
Sirius.
Sirius Black.
Sirius Black has escaped.
Sirius Black has escaped from Azkaban.
What the fuck.
What the actual fuck.
What the fuck?
You swallow hard, looking at the article again. Your heart is thumping. Your hands are trembling. You feel like you're about to be sick.
BLACK STILL AT LARGE
Sirius Black, possibly the most infamous prisoner ever to be held in Azkaban fortress, is still eluding capture, the Ministry of Magic confirmed today.
'We are doing all we can to recapture Black,' said the Minister for Magic, Cornelius Fudge, this morning, 'and we beg the magical community to remain calm.'
You scoff. Fat fucking chance!
Fudge has been criticised by some members of the International Federation of Warlocks for informing the Muggle Prime Minister of the crisis.
'Well, really, I had to, don't you know,' said an irritable Fudge. 'Black is mad. He's a danger to anyone who crosses him, magic or Muggle. I have the Prime Minister's assurance that he will not breathe a word of Black's true identity to anyone. And let's face it â who'd believe him if he did?'
While Muggles have been told that Black is carrying a gun (a kind of metal wand which Muggles use to kill each other), the magical community lives in fear of a massacre like that of twelve years ago, when Black murdered thirteen people with a single curse.
You feel like you're dreaming. How the hell did he break out?
This article makes you feel so sick. The things they're saying â the things they've always said about him â they're not true. They can't possibly be true.
Sirius would never do that.
Your Sirius would never do that.
Your Sirius who kissed you on the Astronomy Tower.
Your Sirius who proposed to you in your first tiny London flat, lit only by candlelight.
Your Sirius who waited patiently for you at the altar.
Your Sirius who spoke in detail of his undying love for you during his vows.
Your Sirius who gave you the most perfect first dance you could ever ask for.
Your Sirius who spent your wedding night reminding you how much he loved you, gazing at you like you were the most beautiful woman he's ever seen, making sure there wasn't a single patch of skin on your body that went unkissed.
Your Sirius who bought you flowers every week, so the ones on your dining table were always fresh.
Your Sirius.
For twelve years you've maintained the belief that Sirius is innocent. There has got to be another explanation because the Sirius you know would never sell out his friends like that. He would never support Voldemort like that. He would never murder thirteen people like that! It's bullshit.
The Sirius you know would sooner die than rat James and Lily out like that.
Sirius isn't mad, like the way they say in that article.
Or maybe he is.
You wouldn't be surprised if 12 whole years in fucking Azkaban turned him loony.
Suddenly, there's a loud knock at your front door and you startle, dropping the paper.
What if that's him?
You slowly, apprehensively get up out of your chair, carefully walking to the door. You take a deep breath, and place your hand on the handle.
You turn it agonisingly slow and open the door a crack, peering out.
It's not him.
You don't know whether to be relieved or disappointed.
Well, you're definitely not happy anyway, as you're met with Cornelius Fudge and three other Ministry officials.
You gulp.
"Good morning, ma'am," Fudge says. "Can we come in?"
You sigh, nodding. "Yeah, yeah. Of course."
You open the door wide to let them in, wrapping your arms around your torso nervously. They walk into your kitchen, looking around and you gesture to the kitchen table with a nervous smile. "You can sit down there..."
The four of them sit. You notice how Fudge's eyes immediately land on the paper, and he looks quickly back up at you as you lean against the counter, anxiously fiddling with your fingers. Dubh's head lifts from her food bowl, eyeing the newcomers suspiciously.
"Tea, coffee?" You ask, forcing a smile.
The officials glance at each other, as if deciding whether or not it's safe to accept a drink from you.
"Um...no thanks," one squeaks, looking up at you fearfully.
You sigh.
"Ah, so you've evidently heard the news..." Fudge starts, tapping the paper with one of his large, pudgy fingers.
You nod wordlessly.
"Is it a...surprise?" he asks.
You blink at him. "Yes, Minister, of course it's a surprise. I hardly expected him to break out of bloody Azkaban."
"Yes, yes, it is a shock to all of us," Fudge replies, eyes glancing over at the wedding photo on your countertop. "Have you...heard from him? At all?"
"No."
"It's just that you are his wife, you would be the first person he'd run to."
You raise your eyebrows, folding your arms. "Oh? I would've thought you'd expect him to run to Voldemort?"
They all wince at the name.
Fudge sighs, trying to keep his composure. "Look, regardless of your personal feelings on the matter, Black is a criminal and â "
"You have no proof â "
"He is a convict!" Fudge snaps. "Regardless of whether you believe it to be wrongful or not, he is a convict! If you see him, you must contact the Ministry. The magical community is in shambles with him on the loose. People are afraid."
You scoff. "The magical community has been in shambles for centuries."
Fudge ignores your statement, standing up from his chair unsteadily. "We will have to monitor your home, in case he decides to...visit."
"Shocker."
"We â uh, we'll be going now," Fudge says semi-certainly, motioning for the others to follow. They all stand, narrowly avoiding you as they exit the kitchen. You see one woman flinch when you move. You feel a hand on your shoulder, looking up to see Fudge's red, fudgy face looking at you pitifully. "I am truly sorry, dear. Remember what I said."
You watch as the party leaves and you shut the door behind them. You groan, running your hand through your hair as you slide down the door and sink to the ground.
Dubh appears around the corner, plodding over to you. You smile weakly at her, petting her softly. You feel your eyes starting to water and you sniffle, lip trembling.
You shake your head in disbelief.
"What am I gonna do?"
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You wave your wand, levitating your heavy trunk up onto the overhead carriage of your train compartment. Most teachers don't take the Hogwarts Express â they just apparate to Hogsmeade instead â but you find that apparition tends to distress Dubh immensely and don't do it. You don't mind it really, the train ride gives you that little bit of extra time to look over lesson material.
Lucky for you, you have the compartment to yourself and freely let Dubh out of her carrier. She stretches with a long meowl, moving to settle on your lap, and you spend the ride reading a book and looking over lesson material, though your mind keeps drifting from what you're doing, choosing instead to fixate on Sirius.
You have a sickening seed of guilt and worry circling your gut ever since you heard of his escape, an overwhelming sense of dread looming over everything you do.
Heavy rain pelts the window harshly, wind battering the sides of the train, rattling it loudly.
You glance out the window pensively, wondering what he must be doing right now. Maybe he's been recaptured and you just haven't found out yet. You hope he's not out in this weather.
If sixteen-year-old Sirius had been caught out in torrential rain, he'd be busy complaining to you about how it completely ruined his hair and you'd just have to listen on and on because truthfully, you liked his hair after the rain.
The train starts to slow and you sigh, starting to pack up your things. Then, your eye catches the window and you squint out into the dark surroundings. You're not in Hogsmeade â you're not even close to it. You've been on this train enough times to know that you have a solid 20 minutes or so left in the journey.
Maybe there's something blocking the track and you'll all just have to continue on foot?
Hardly.
You stand up, gently plucking Dubh from your lap and placing her onto the seat beside you. You slide open the compartment door and stick your head out, looking up and down the hallway. You know well that Professor Flitwick is inside along with some of the Prefects so you step out, closing the door behind you and moving to their compartment.
You open the door and look in at Flitwick and three students, shiny silver badges on their chests. "Hey, Filius. What's going on?"
Flitwick shrugs, straining his neck to see up out the window. "I don't know."
You bite your lip, turning around uncertainly. "I'll ask the driver."
Suddenly, the train stops with a jolt and you stumble into the wall beside you, knocking your head against one of the flickering lanterns. You groan, bringing a hand to rub at the sharp stinging in your temple.
You try to make your way up the carriage but before you can the lights extinguish with a small puff and you're plunged into darkness. Rooting around in your pocket, you fish out your wand and mutter, "Lumos." A small bead of white light appears at the tip, illuminating a short distance in front of you.
To your horror, you look up and are met with a dark cloaked figure that towers to the ceiling. Its face is completely hidden beneath its hood. You feel your breath hitch in your throat as the room grows cold, freezing cold, making the hairs on your arms stand up.
A Dementor.
"He's not here," you choke, but it doesn't seem to matter as the dementor draws a long, slow, rattling breath. "He â he's not â "
You feel an immediate sadness overwhelm you. You feel every stitch of joy being sucked from you, your body desperately trying to cling on to whatever it can. You hear Sirius' voice, screaming raw and pleading, and it feels like the pain in your head is magnified a billion times.
Before your last stretch of consciousness can escape from you, you grip your wand tighter and, summoning all your will and happiest memories, you yell, "EXPECTO PATRONUM!"
A bright, blue light bursts forth from your wand, taking on the form of large, scruffy dog and chasing the Dementor as it glides away from you. You stumble back, chest heaving, placing a hand on the wall for support, before remembering about the rest of the students and you turn, sprinting back down the corridor to the other carriages.
You throw open the door, moving quickly as you throw glances in each compartment window, checking that everyone was alright. Was there only one?
As you continue down the corridor, you look in one compartment and see the back of a tall figure blocking your view. You breathe a sigh of relief when you see it's not a Dementor, and slowly slide open the door to poke your head in, trying to carefully look past the figure in front of you.
"Hey guys, everyone okay? I think â Remus?" You stare in shock at the tired face of Remus Lupin, currently holding a gigantic slab of chocolate in his hands, loudly snapping it into pieces. "What are you doing here?"
Beside him is Harry, Ron, and Hermione, looking between the two of you in surprise. Harry is as pale as a ghost, his hair messy and untidy.
"Guess I took your advice," Remus shrugs, handing everyone pieces of chocolate. He hands one to you and you accept it gratefully, biting off a piece with a loud crack. "Taking up the Defense Against the Dark Arts position."
You grin. "Remus, that's brilliant!" You throw your arms around him and he chuckles, tapping your back softly.
You pull back, noticing Harry's shell-shocked face and turn to him in concern. "Harry, are you alright? You don't look too good."
"Dementor," Remus explains and you nod in understanding.
"There was one in my carriage too!" You say. "Bastards."
"Language."
"What? It's true!" You say in defense, looking back at Remus' unapproving face. You glance at the three thirteen-year-olds also present in the compartment with you. "Er â sorry, guys."
"I'm going to go talk to the driver," Remus announces, tossing a small bite of chocolate into his mouth.
You nod. "Alright, I'll go check on everyone else." Remus moves past you, but before he can go in the opposite direction to you up the train, you grab onto his arm. "Next time, tell me if you're coming. Could've saved me a very boring train ride."
Remus chuckles. "I was asleep the whole time, not sure if I'd be great company."
You just give him a knowing smile, heading down to the carriage to check on the other students.
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->-> read chapter five here!
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