#i wanna be the happy girl i was in 2019 again

[surrenderonvinyl]

no matter how much sleep i get every day i wake up feeling fatigued and it’s been like that for months when does it end !!

[bukuoshin]

Clowns are the purest expression of God's love for humanity and this Earth and its creatures, so jot that down real quick.

[drvscarlett]

Sweet Nothings (1)

Carlos Sainz x pageant queen! reader

Summary: All that they ever wanted was sweet nothings but everything changed like midnight rain? Who knows.

Sweet Nothings: 1, 2, 3. 4

A/N: Idea hits me because I remember how AD 2021 was at the same time as Miss Universe 2021. Its supposed to be a one shot but then there was a limit for the photos lol so stay tune for pt2

YNjpeg (2016)

Y/Njpeg me being so excited about my first grand prix while carlos is sitting and getting his hair done lol

CarlosSainz55 have to look good when you are the most beautiful woman in the universe

YNjpeg stoppppppp, you're making me blush CarlosSainz55 its the truth

User5 is this how he gets his hair so good after the race?

Y/Njpeg i think so, its a very long process

User6 Y/N you have been so excited and so nice. Hope to see you in more GPs.

User7 i met her too, she was so nice to talk to! User8 oh to be in a grand prix and meet her

User10 she isn't even that pretty

User11 i bet they won't last long User12 get a life!!

Maxverstappen1 is this why he is late to our meeting?

CarlosSainz55 get off her instagram and leave us alone Maxverstappen1 Y/N, he is fighting me again YNjpeg boys please play nice CarlosSainz55 i love you mi amorr YNjpeg love you moreeeeeee Maxverstappen1 cmon even on instagram???

CarlosSainz55 (2017)

CarlosSainz55 a day off and mi amor joined me!!

YNjpeg always the happiest when he is on his vroom vroom

CarlosSainz55 incorrect. always happiest when im with you YNjpeg really?? you are so sweet

User6 even during his day offs, carlos still goes karting

User7 carlos looks so happy thereeee

User8 is carlos competitive when karting?

YNjpeg yes he is. bro thinks he is in f1 User8 omg lol HAHAHHAHAA

CarlosSainz55 (2018)

CarlosSainz55 Race day shot. Photo taken by the most beautiful girl in the universe

YNjpeg will always be rooting for you!

CarlosSainz55 i love you User16 lord i want what they have

User7 Vamos Carlos!!

User11 Goodluck for todays race Carlos!!

User19 look at his eyes, he is so in love with the photographer

CarlosSainz55 its because Y/N is my photographer User2 LOOK AT CARLOS BEING SO WHIPPEDT

CarlosSainz55 (2019)

CarlosSainz55 recharging the batteries with the most beautiful girl in the universe

YNjpeg who is that extremely handsome man?

CarlosSainz55 your boyfriend YNjpeg am so luckyyy

User10 the visuals in this photo

User11 they look so good together!!!

User12 i dont know if i wanna be them or date them

User15 same

YNjpeg (2019)

YNjpeg where the sky meets the sea

User27 its just a silhouette but why is it prettier than me?

YNjpeg don't say that, you are beautiful sunshine User5 Y/N has always been the sweetest wag ever

User6 enjoy your vacation Y/N

YNjpeg thank you!!

LandoNorris wow no photo credit??? YNjpeg stop stealing my boyfriend first LandoNorris excuse you, that's my husband

User8 I hope Carlos and Y/N stays together forever

User9 right?? they are such a power couple

CarlosSainz55 (2020)

CarlosSainz55 its day 14 of lockdown and i found some old treasures

YNjpeg OHMYGOD, YOU ARE SO CUTE!!!

YNjpeg wait, where did you get that photo of me???

User7 just imagine if they have kids in the future

User8 the genes of the kids User9 omg i can imagine them as parents

LandoNorris mate please make children already

CarlosSainz55 you muppet, it doesn't work like that LandoNorris cmon im gonna be the best uncle CarlosSainz55 i highly doubt that LandoNorris RUDE!

CarlosSainz55 (2021)

CarlosSainz55 attending the first party with Ferrari and I have the most beautiful woman in the universe

User6 ohmygod!!!!! the looks

User7 ITS GIVING OLD MONEY

User8 THEY LOOK ABSOLUTELY GORGEOUS!!!

User9 name a more stunning couple than Y/N and Carlos

User10 its so fun to see that Y/N has been with Carlos during his Toro Rosso days till Ferrari

User11 we love a supportive couple User12 i hope they stay strong

User13 break up with her, she isn't even that pretty

User14 thank god someone finally said it. she just has too much make up on User16 can you both shut up. your opinions are irrelevant

YNjpeg (2021)

YNjpeg i can't believe that it's finally me and you, and you and me

Just us, and your friend Steve #ForeverThirdWheel

LandoNorris Know your place

YNjpeg sidechick Charles_Leclerc fight him Y/N

CarlosSainz55 you know that you are my only one

YNjpeg see that LandoNorris ??? LandoNorris what about us?? what about everything we've been through

User5 Carlos and Lando's friendship is so wholesome

User6 no matter what team they are in, they are friends

User7 loving the banter between Y/N and Lando

User9 Y/N realizing in 2019 that her biggest competition is not Carlos' fangirls but rather Lando Norris User8 its so entertaining hahaha

YNjpeg (2022)

YNjpeg homebodys for date night

User6 gorgeous couple!!

User7 anyone noticing how Carlos seems serious?

User8 Y/N is all smiley and Carlos is also serious, is something happening User9 would you just chill out??

CarlosSainz55 the most beautiful girl in the universe

User10 we can all calm down, Carlos commented!

User55 if they break up, i will literally cry

CarlosSainz55 (2023)

CarlosSainz55 you will always be the prettiest girl in the whole universe, I'll miss you.

LandoNorris so dramaticcc

YNjpeg not my fault, you aren't a romantic LandoNorris he is mine first YNjpeg he has been mine since 2016 beat that! LandoNorris you suck

YNjpeg i love you. always grateful to have you around mi amor

CarlosSainz55 i'll always be here just like you have been with me YNjpeg am currently running to hug you

User7 I made the mistake of looking at the comments

User8 It feels like a good day to lie down in a highway

User9 same girl

User15 why are they being so cryptic?? where is she going???

User16 i dont wanna say it but they may be breaking up User17 breaking up?? they have been together for years User18 maybe they are getting tired of each other

2024

F1Gossips just posted a photo.

F1Gossips we cant help but notice the absence of Carlos Sainz's long term girlfriend Y/N in the paddock for the past few grand prix. Source says that Y/N has not been spotted after she attended the Suzuka GP 2023. Is this the end of the couple?

User1 Say sike right now.

User2 Its april fools,don't believe anything that they are saying

User3 honey its already april 2

User4 I fear that we have come to an end.

User5 No,this is cant be. How can you drop an 8 year relationship like that???

User6 Right? Im not believing anything till they say something. User21 Don't you realize that they don't have any responsibility to say anything to us about their private life, jeez.

User7 poor carlos,losing his trainer then losing his seat and now losing his girlfriend??? man has a hard year

User8 I never liked her anyway

User9 right??? she gives weird vibes User10 just say you are jealous of her and go

Y/Njpeg just posted a photo

YNjpeg This year is a period of growth and change. Its difficult but I think I like her a lot better.

User2 Mom what is this cryptic posts???

User4 Im not ready for them

User5 You look beautiful Y/N

LandoNorris i miss you!!

YNjpeg miss you more muppet. Eat your fish! LandoNorris I don't miss you that much

User7 She is glowing and stunning!!! Is this the post-break up effect?

User8 Can we just be happy how happy she looks???

User9 Man, she fumbled real bad

User10 yeaah like how can you break up with Carlos? User11 ohmygod you two are delusional.

ChiliUpdates just posted a photo.

Liked by YNjpeg and 678,900 others

ChiliUpdates Carlos Sainz is having a brilliant year with weekly podiums and race wins. He is now closing the gap to Verstappen by 4 points. Carlos WDC 2024???

User4 carlos driving like a man without a seat

User5 girl he literally has no seat for 2025 User4 oh my bad. i forgot!!1 this was supposed to be a joke

User6 im so proud of carlos,he deserves this

User7 but you know what I miss seeing Y/N's face when Carlos wins. He would always wink at her and point at her when he is up there.

User8 we are a child of divorce User9 and the fact that Y/N is in the likes User10 heartbroken so many times

User11 carlos is really challenging max this year

User12 agree,its been more and more exciting. User88 Im so glad Ferrari and McLaren are finally catching up on that rocketship of Max User24 RIGHT?? WHO WOULD HAVE THOUGHT

User13 I hope Sainz wins this year.

PageantQueens just posted a photo

PageantQueens Presenting the candidate of the Philippines, Miss Y/N Y/L/N. What do you think about her?

User2 she is gorgeous!!!

User45 not only gorgeous, her interviews made her sound eloquent User28 yes QUEEN!!!

User3 im from netherlands but miss philippines is my queen

User4 crown her already

User6 wait hold up that's Y/N as in Carlos' Y/N

User7 omg??? its her! User9 HOW COME WE DIDN'T KNOW ABOUT IT User8 CARLOS FUMBLED A SOON TO BE MISS UNIVERSE???

User11 okay i just remembered how Carlos used to call her the prettiest girl in the universe, he manifested this

User36 what??? User84 and now its not only carlos calling her the prettiest girl in the universe but everyone User44 please dont make me cry rn

[purplepickles]

“Under The Covers”

Pairings: Central cee x black fem reader

Genre: fluff

Authors Note: it’s my first time writing on tumblr so bare with me I also haven’t haven’t written anything in like years I used to a Wattpad author in like 2017-2019😭 so imagine what I used to be writing. It’s not my best peice of work but it’s progress kinda messy icl in terms of storyline but it’s something anyways I hope everyone enjoys it 💗

You had just signed a contract with vogue for a new segment they were trying out for they’re YouTube channel called “Under the Covers”. It was in a podcast style in a bedroom setting hence the name and basically talking about the latest fashion trends tips or anything black girl related.

You were so grateful for this opportunity never in your life would you have imagine a little black girl from London was able to sign a massive deal with vogue. The topic of todays video was maintenance. How you maintain standards for yourself if that means relationship, mental or physical health. So instead of it being in their studio you wanted your video being a bit more homely so why not in your home. The producers had set everything up in your room making sure everything was ready for filming but this video was going to have a little extra twist. You were going to have your very first guest and they how they managed to maintain their life and overall humbleness with the fame he had gained over the years.

You kept your relationship on the down low on the respect of each other careers and not wanting to surround your relationship over it. You were actually calm with that but he wasn’t liking seeing people he fucked with in your dms with heart eyes.

Little did Yn know he was going to announce it in their video together.

“Okay I’m going to count down from 5 and we’ll start filming” said the producer

5

4

3

2

1

“Hi Vogue it’s me Yn/ln and welcome to our new segment called Under the covers where uncover beauty secrets fashion and every black girl related. But today’s video things are little different we’re in my actual bedroom and I have a special guest with us he’s one of my favourites rappers right now a current world wide sensation Central Cee”

“I didn’t know I was your favourite artist”

“Yes you did you’re also my most listened to artist on Spotify we’ve defo talked about this”

“Mhmmm”

You rolled your eyes and continued with the video

“Anyways let’s get straight into todays topic: maintenance. How to do maintain eye yourself to keep your life somewhat stable”

“I guess keeping my mum,my brothers, my fans and my girl happy innit. If they’re happy I’m happy” said central cee never straying away from eye contact from the love of his life

“And what you say is the hardest one to keep happy and why” Yn was very curious about this who knew where this could go

“My girl defo she’s says I’m annoying I think she hates me”

The way your head slowly snapped

“Did you not say at Amelia Dinner Date you like girls you hate you”

“Yh I did I turns me on but she’s just something Yk I’m just infatuated by her but maybe I’m a bit delusional when it comes to her yk idk if that’s a good thing or bad thing. Kinda new to this love thing and not messing up yk I don’t wanna get it wrong again I really like her”

That was probably the most beautiful thing he’s said in a while she didn’t know he felt like this she sometimes she can be a bit rude and her sarcasm can be taken the wrong way but she thought he knew between the lines that she didn’t hate him she lived more than anything.

“I think you should talk to her about your feeling more Yk. Don’t be shy on opening up more Yk. When you feel ready ask her what she thinks it’s possibly lacking” she smiled at him with reassurance hoping that he could through her eyes that’s it okay and she was listening

“Yh your right imma tell her right now!”

Yn chocked on her drink. He could not be serious. She should’ve known this boy was up to something

“As in right now!? I’m sure she’s busy” you said trying to get to him to change his mind

“Nah she’s not im calling her rn”

For someone who didn’t like interviews this but sure had a lot to say

Ring

Ring

Ring

Ring

Your phone was on the other side of the room Ringing none stop.

Everyone was looking at you. You knew the producers were loving this but you were not this was too much.

Ring

Ring

Ring

Ring

“Yn are you gonna pick up you phone”

you usually loved his smile but this was just devious.

“Do I have to” you were just dreading this

Everyone shouted yes. You rolled out bed and a grabbed the phone

“Hi baby”

“Hi cench, now can we get back to the video please”

“Yes Cench we can. You wanna cuddle too?”

//

The video was going well there was laughter within the whole room. You asked him the question that you were assigned to ask him everything was going great. You loved being under your lovers arms. Maybe letting people in wasn’t so bad.

“Thank you vogue for this absolutely-

A knock on the door you both looked at door and someone opened to little boy running in crying and jumping to Oakley’s arm. How many surprises could one video take you said to yourself in your head.

“What’s up little man” Oakley now went into full father mode his whole rapper persona was switched and all he cared about was understanding why his little boy was upset

“Had a bad dream” said the little one

“How about we say goodbye to vogue and make some hot chocolate” you said while trying to tickle him

“Right I think me and vogue has had enough surprises don’t forget to like subscribe and hit that notification and stay tuned for next weeks video about Motherhood and Careers with a icon mother and billionaire. Bye guys”

[boydholbrook-fan]

Happy 43rd Birthday, Boyd Holbrook!

First of all, I made gifs from my most favorites of Boyd’s projects: (one gif for each project), posting them in a year of release order (from oldest to the most recent).

Movies + characters:

The Free World (2016) as Mo Lundy

Logan (2017) as Donald Pierce

The Predator (2018) as Quinn McKenna

Two/One (2019) as Kaden

In the Shadow of the Moon (2019) as Thomas Lockhart

Eight for Silver/The Cursed (2021/2022) as John McBride

Vengeance (2022) as Ty Shaw

Indiana Jones and the Dial of Destiny (2023) as Klaber

The Bikeriders (2023/2024) as Cal

TV Series/TV Mini Series + characters:

Narcos (2015 - 2016) as Steve Murphy

The Fugitive (2020) as Mike Ferro

The Sandman (2022 - ) as The Corinthian

Justified: City Primeval (2023) as Clement Mansell

And some of my favorite photos of Boyd, there's soooo many of them, I just picked some of them.

And now,

I wish you, Boyd Holbrook, all the best! Much health, love and luck! May all your dreams come true and your life be filled with joy, happiness, great achievements and many happy adventures! You’re an exceptional talent and a phenomenal actor! You’re incredible! You’re such an inspiring, wonderful and precious human being! With a huge heart! A beautiful soul! You deserve all the love and support! You deserve nothing but the best! Because you’re the best! A legend!

Love you and admire you so much! I love, admire and appreciate all the outstanding and hard work you’ve done in your career so far and really looking forward for many many more to come! You’re my absolute favorite actor and one of my most favorite people! I’m so proud to be a fan of yours! You’re a true actor! A handsome man! Sweet, adorable, amazing and humorous person who can brighten up people around you! I’m so happy for you and proud of you! So happy to see how far you’ve made it in your life and vast career! You deserve all the best things in life! Thank you for being who you are, for being you! Thank you for blessing our screens with your exceptional talent! You’re awesome!

Hope you have a wonderful day, on your special day, surrounded by people you love and those that love you! You’re an incredible and such a lovely and kind person! The best! And again, I wanna wish you all the best! Today is your day! Have a beautiful one! Happy Birthday, Boyd! Much love! ❤️❤️❤️🌟🌟🌟

And also, soon to be a 2-time dad! As you and Tatiana are expecting your second child, a girl! Again, huge congratulations to you and Tatiana! I'm so happy for you all! I wish you and your family nothing but the best! I hope the baby is born healthy! ❤️🌟🥰

And again,

YOU ARE A LEGEND, BOYD HOLBROOK! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

[disguisedcheezed]

It’s my bday! Could you recommend me any songs that give you dirkjohn vibes or a dirkjohn playlist you like a lot?

OH HAPPY(belated) BIRTH DAY!! WOOO (3 days late lol)

It took a while because I had to listen to the songs in my old phone again lol. *rubs hands evily* SO ANYWAY HERE'S YOUR BIIIIIIG BIRTHDAY PRESENT HEHEHEHEHEHEHE

This one was made for mee!! Now I shall share with you. :3 (you've probably heard of this lol but I love it still.)(Check out John's other playlists too!!)

These are albums that I heavily associate with dirkjohn/ult dirkjohn. (Or all of the are just really good they're all dirkjohn. I don't caaaare.)

These are the 2016-2019 depressed dirkjohn weed boyfriends era me thinks. The songs are so good in it. Trust.

Other songs from my phone under the cut that I like thinking about dirkjohn animatics/amvs/edits to all day but in a list because I will edit it A Lot. 😁 (I can't make a playlist for my life because I will Forget About It.)

vanished by crystal castles (because OF THIS EDIT THAT FUCKED ME UP FOREVER.)(it's a video edit of the game over timeline)

Steve Lacy's Demo Album

Using you, Love in Black and White, Nothing without you by Mars Argo

Birdhouse in your soul, When Will You Die?, Kiss Me Son of God by They Might Be Giants

It Almost Worked(this was the only song I listened to for 2 months), Song About Me, Cigarettes out the Window, Louise by Tv Girl

Glue by PHF (I also listened to this for 2 months

Dinner is Not Over, Pad Thai by Jack Stauber

I Wanna Be Your Dog 2

Off to the Races, Smarty by Lana Del Rey

Dream in Sweet Major

Asymptotic by Louie Zong (DIRK AND JOHN IN CANON AUGH FUCK)

Lunch by Billie Eilish

Around The Bend by Pearl Jam

Bite the Hand by boygenius

Daydream in Blue by I Monster

BONUS :3c

[humblequestvinyl]

blindsided

BLINDSIDED, EDDIE DIAZ X FEM!READER

APART OF THE ‘ROLLING UP THE WELCOME MAT’ WRITING SERIES

SUMMARY: entering back into the city that holds the most memories, y/n plays a song for her best friend, holding all the secretes of her former marriage.

inspired by blindsided by kelsea ballerini

previous chapter | next chapter

lowercase is intentional! wc: 1.3k

warning: MAJOR fighting, talks about fertility/wanting kids, marriage problems, fighting, alcohol, & major angst

a/n: ERAS TOUR ERAS TOUR ERAS TOUR!

IT WAS ALMOST A WEEK LATER,

and the ending show of y/n’s tour, leaving her in the one place she didn’t want to be.

los angeles california.

so she sat in her dressing room, dreadfully getting ready for her show when she heard a knock on her dressing room door, which soon opened revealing one of the only people she was willing to see in LA.

“buck!”y/n exclaimed as a smile spread across her face as the firefighter walked into the room, and wrapped the girl in a hug as she sat in her chair, “i’ve missed you!”

“missed you too shorty.”he joked, causing y/n to roll her eyes before her stylist continued to curl her hair for the show, “you excited to perform tonight?” 

“only because you’re here.”she told him, and he chuckled, “speaking of, did chris join you tonight?” buck shook his head no, knowing the girl had been trying to see him for at least a month but with her tour schedule and eddie refusing to communicate with her, she hadn’t been able to.

“eddie’s excuse this time was that it’s a school night and he didn’t want chris to be late tomorrow.”buck explained, causing the girl to hum, knowing he was right, “chris wasn’t too happy.”

“i mean i wouldn’t be either considering eddie refuses to answer any of my calls to try and talk to chris, and the only time i do see him is over facetime with you.”y/n explained, causing bucks face to go sour, knowing how much the girl hated it, “i’ll drag him back to court if i have to, but i don’t want to put chris through that.”

he nodded, before the two chatted for a few minutes, before y/n’s face lit up and she scrambled for her phone, “i wanna play you something i wrote!’

“did you record it?”buck questioned and the girl nodded, going into her files and loading up a voice memo she had of it, “it’s called lost on me for now, but i might change it.”

the girl hit play before the song started to play, before her voice started to ring through bringing back all of the memories of their relationship,

“were you on the other line, or driving in your car?”

—-

(AUGUST 29TH 2019)

“EDDIE WHERE ARE YOU?”

y/n asked as she leaned up against the kitchen counter of the diaz’s home, and she could hear cars passing by in the background, “its almost time for dinner, chris wanted all of us to eat together.”

“i’m out.”eddie stated plainly, and y/n glanced down the hall, hearing chris playing video games with buck, “you guys eat, i’ll grab leftovers.”

“eddie-”was all y/n could get out before the line went dead, causing her to drop her phone by her side, completely defeated. her head snapped up as she heard chris’s bedroom door close shut, seeing buck walk down the hall, with a wide smile spread across his face.

“did eddie say when he was going to be back?”buck questioned as he walked towards the girl, immediately noticing the defeated look on her face, “don’t tell me,”

“he said for us to eat, and he’ll grab leftovers,”y/n repeated, avoiding bucks eyes, “again.”

“he’s gotta stop doing this.”buck muttered, before going towards chris’s bedroom so the three could eat, knowing chris had his first day of school the next day. a small tear fell down the woman's face, before she went to set the table, leaving one empty plate on the counter for her husband.

this was wrong. all of it was wrong. 

from her husband not coming home and letting their son down, all of the secrets he would be hiding from her, pretending that nothing was wrong, just to prove that he was right.

it was wrong, and she absolutely hated it.

was he just blind from all of their problems? thinking if he pretended that everything was fine, their marriage would be as well? 

the h/c woman was broken out of her thoughts as soon as she heard laughter quickly coming down the hall, and she forced a wide smile onto her face for the boy she considered her child, thinking if she pretended that if everything was fine, he would be too.

“where’s dad?”chris questioned as y/n dished up a plate for the group, and she glanced at the boy with a fake smile. before she could even come up with a reason, buck spoke up with a slight chuckle.

“captain nash was short handed because there’s a bug going around the firehouse, so he needed your dad to go in for work.”buck explained, and y/n felt relief wash over her, knowing she didn’t have to figure out an excuse to give to chris. 

y/n gave buck a ‘thank you’ look, before she walked over to the two, with plates in her hand for all of them, “tonight's dinner is chicken parm with pasta and garlic bread.”

“thank you.”the boys exclaimed, before digging in, and y/n sat at the end of the table, with her plate in front of her, but her appetite completely gone.

was eddie pretending that everything was fine, or was he just blind?

—

(NOVEMBER 12TH 2019)

“I SERIOUSLY DON’T KNOW WHAT YOU WANT ME TO DO Y/N,”

eddie told the singer as the two stood in her nashville apartment, the night before the cma’s that y/n was supposed to sing at the next day.

“i want you to be there, not drunk and be happy for me eddie!”she exclaimed, feeling the cheap ass rose they had been drinking running through her veins, “i want you to come home every night and spend time with your family!”

“i do spend time with my family!”eddie tried to argue, and y/n rolled her eyes, causing the firefighter to give her a look, “i’m not the one whos constantly in the studio, constantly on tour!”

“bull-fucking-shit! i’m in the studio trying to make an album to provide for this family because god knows you don’t!”y/n exclaimed, seeing eddie getting furious, “maybe that’s why you’re never home is because you cannot handle the fact that i’m the breadwinner in this house!”

“i’m never home because anytime i try and bring up kids you brush me off like it’s nothing.”eddie stated lowly, and tears pricked at y/n eyes knowing how many times they had this conversation, “i want more kids y/n, and the fact that you keep brushing me off like it’s nothing is why i’m never home.”

“i’ve told you so many times i don’t want any kids eddie,”the h/c choked out, with baby hairs sticking to her tear stained cheeks, “its not news to you, you’ve been in this fucking conversation so many times.”

eddie shook his head, before storming to their bedroom and slamming the door shut, leaving the girl sliding against the wall, sobbing knowing that was their biggest fight of their entire relationship.

she could feel everything crumbling beneath her, and she absolutely hated it. she hated everything about it. she was losing control of everything she had and y/n hated it.

he wasn’t blind, he was just pretending everything was fine.

–

“I KNOW THE TRUTH WAS HARD TO HEAR, YOU’VE GOT YOURS AND I’VE GOT MINE BABY,”

“were you blindsided, or were you just blind?”the recording faded out, and y/n looked over at buck who had been listening intently to the song itself, knowing how much that meant to her.

“so you’re making an album from the divorce?”he questioned, and a small smile was spread across the girls face as she nodded.

“i’m making an ep about the divorce.”

[salvadorbonaparte]

2023 in Films

I watched way too many films this year. Here are my opinions on some of them

January

Las Cosas Del Querer (1989) - Amazing if you love sad hot people and flamenco

Canadian Bacon (1995) - Incredibly silly and Alan Alda plays the US president

Nope (2022) - A highlight of the year

February

Hellraiser (1987) - This film is actually about miscommunication in this essay I will-

Predestination (2014) - Time Travel and Gender Moments

Malignant (2021) - Camp horror masterwork

Late Phases (2014) - Mediocre werewolf film with some really interesting comments on ageism, ableism, suburbia and religion

March

Sterne (1959) - Plays into some problematic stereotypes from today's perspective but revolutionary for its time, first German film to address the Holocaust

Major League (1989) - A film I only watched to confirm that it uses a weird phrase I also found in my thesis project

Carry On Screaming (1966) - Camp. Gay. Horror. Parody.

Glen or Glenda (1953) - A product of its time and no longer up to date in its understanding of gender but surprisingly revolutionary in its compassion and earnestness despite the bad reviews

April

Taxi Driver (1976) - Isn't it frustrating when annoying people tell you a film is good and then it's actually good?

June

Mr Deeds Goes To Town (1936) - Mr Deeds has autism swag

El Espíritu de la Colmena (1973) - I really wanted to like this because civil war era Spain and Frankenstein are super up my alley but unfortunately it was so much slower than expected

Das Boot (1981) - Very long and claustrophobic but holds up to the hype

Weird: The Al Yankovic Story (2022) - RIP King

July

Nimona (2023) - His big wet eyes bewitched me

First Blood (1982) - You're telling me the film is about Americans fighting an enemy they view as simultaneously weak and dangerous, escalating the situation, and then sending more and more men into a rainforest to die through guerilla warfare after being warned again and again they can't win this? sounds familiar

Barbie (2023) - Insert a bunch of pink emojis

Everything Everywhere All at Once (2022) - Made me crave bagels

Jojo Rabbit (2019) - God I love war satires

Sweet Liberty (1986) - Alan Alda having fun and also using his own film as a therapy session

The Majestic (2001) - A rewatch but it's so tragically underrated, Jim Carrey is very good in dramatic roles and McCarthy-era media is like catnip for me

Joker (2019) - This is just Taxi Driver with extra steps

August

Tin & Tina (2023) - Probably one of the worst films I have seen in a while

Battle of the Sexes (2017) - I love women

Four Lions (2010) - The ending really got me, I love when satire gets serious

The Sheriff and the Satellite Kid (1979) - Can we talk about how the theme song is just going "I'm the sheriff" "yes you're the sheriff"

Happiness (1998) - Nauseating but in a "good film but what the fuck" way

They Call Him Bulldozer (1978) - Italian Lagaan

The Talented Mr Ripley (1999) - Sad and Gay

Twister (1996) - So much better than expected

Magnolia (1999) - Cloudy with a chance of frogs, a really long but really good film and I'm not entirely sure I got it

Doubt (2008) - Somehow I watched 5 films with Philip Seymour Hoffman that month because I was haunted by his ghost or something

September

The Terminal (2004) - I assumed this to be more of a classic romcom but the whole concept (based on a true story) is so terrifying and tragic that it made me feel all emotions at once

Apocalypse Now (1979) - I knew a lot of trivia about the film but for some reason I didn't know anything about the cast so every single actor was a surprise and made me go "!!!", Also I kinda wanna write an essay about it

October

Bloodbath at the House of Death (1984) - Some of the gay jokes absolutely killed me

Last Night in Soho (2021) - I'm Not Like the Other Girls to Time Travel Murder Nightmare Pipeline, actually I really enjoyed this one but it's also super silly

The Banshees of Inisherin (2022) - How do you say poor little meow meow in gaeilge

The Menu (2022) - I go to the murder restaurant I order the beesechurger, I was super surprised there's no cannibalism but tbh that would have been low hanging fruit

The Eyes of Tammy Faye (2021) - Explains a lot about religion in the US, I love that she was pro lgbt, also I googled her ex husband and he has a prepper/survivalist thing going on now and scams more people

The Darjeeling Limited (2007) - we can't eat pray love ourselves out of this one boys

Holes (2003) - Hated the book as a teenager for school reasons but gave the film a try and really enjoyed it

Renfield (2023) - I expected werewolves but I enjoyed it nevertheless, My Chemical Romance is on the soundtrack, it's very silly, the effects are great

Interview with the Vampire (1994) - Oh people weren't lying about it being homoerotic

The Big Lebowski (1998) - I've had days that feel like that

November

Pappa ante Portas (1991) - Funnier now that I'm an adult, basically half the jokes my mum makes are from this film

The Meg 2: The Trench (2023) - I watched this while sick and really wanted to see a giant shark fight a giant octopus and boy did it deliver

Puss in Boots: The Last Wish (2022) - Very nice animation style

JFK (1991) - I actually fell asleep halfway through because it's so long but can we talk about how this film is just A-listers but has some of the worst wigs and makeup I've seen

Bottoms (2023) - A spiritual sequel to Heathers

December

When Harry Met Sally (1989) - They deserve each other (derogatory) but that one restaurant scene was pretty funny

The Royal Nanny (2022) - one of the many Hallmark films my mum made me watch and this is perhaps the worst one, incredibly sexist even for a Hallmark film and they clearly mean Mi5 but say Mi7 which was a WW2 propaganda service? Also they really want me to believe there is a British prince called Colin and that he doesn't look like his family tree is a circle?

I forgot the title but there was also the one where two people get stuck in a time loop while trying to make a sponsored youtube video about baking and I didn't really pay attention much but man that was bad

[blueberrykenn]

Kennie's Top 10 Yearly Fic Recommendations

Okay so this is the 2nd year of me doing this (but this year I wont delete) butttt I show my top 10 fic and authors for each member/group( some members of bts repeat due to the amount of poly fics I read and its what I mainly read) (A handful of these have smut so heres your warning)

(I would also love to be your guys friends as every single one of you seems absolutely amazing)

LETS GET STARTED

10. @guqwrvte Make it Three (Jungkook, Jimin and Taehyung)

Oh where do I start with this fic I found it in the spring looking for a Soulmate fic and oh boy I was in for a ride THREE SOULMATES?! ummm YES and the arcade chapter was ABSOULELY AMAZING! I hope you're doing well Author!! as this fic hasn't been updated in a while

9. @yonkimint Without You (Yoongi with a side of Hoseok or "Jay")

OHHHH BOY When I wanted a love triangle I WAS NOT DISAPPOINTED I found this fic in April looking for angst and ANGST I GOT without spoiling it its a Pregnancy/ Single Mom AU and one of the best ones Ive read in a longgggg time

8. @guksthighs Bloom (Yoongi)

OH BOY This is a recent one actually. This one shot was made SIX YEARS AGO?! OMG Hanahaki AUs are one of my favorites angst type of fics so when I read this I literally sobbed like a baby I cant say much else without spoiling it

7. @kimnjss cyberslut (Yoongi), less of you/VINTAGE (Jimin), Strawberry Kisses(Jungkook)

MISS HAS ALWAYS BEEN ONE OF MY FAVES SINCE 2019 like when I first read beside you YESS I reread Cyberslut and HAD to include it but reading less of you in June as I was dealing with my own breakup it was a tear jerker towards the end of less of you, for me I wont spoil it but there a plot twist that I was not expecting towards the end of the sequel, Vintage. BUT STRAWBERRY KISSES OH MY GAHD I read that on my way home in August even though its a SMUTTY I enjoyed it a lot and the FLUFF I think some people looked at me crazy when I took the bus home that day

6. @skazoo if you tell me about yourself( Stray Kids' Felix)

Okay here me out! Demon Slayer. Its one of my favorite manga and anime series and with CHANBIN as a hashira UMMM YES ynand chanbin are literally Genya and Sanemi if Genya was a girl and not YK (demon slayer spoiler!!) eating demons, but this 2 parter was ABSOULTELY AMAZING

5. @ugh-yoongi a word from our sponsors (Namjoon)

How do you get a idoit podcasters to not realize they have feelings but read smut YOU GET THESE TWO MFERS This one shot was sooooooo good!! like I read a lot of smut but this? TOP TEIR OF ONESHOTS OF 2023

4. @sopebubbles Bulletproof Heart (2Seok)

THIS ROLLERCOASTER If I had to describe my childhood in fanfictions this one would be one (check #1 for the other) I wont say why because spoilers but this angst was OMG THE YOONGI HATE WAS UNREAL NOT MY YOONGLES but I loved it soooooooo much

3.@jihoonotes Yearning(SVT's Woozi)

Lee Jihoon is literally my ult bias. Do I need to say more? ITS WORTH THE READ

2. @solemnreads Way Back Home(Jungkook)

THIS FIC HAD ME FUCKING EVERYWHERE with the twins to CEO Kook THE JEALOUSLY I LOVE IT by far the best exes to lovers fic I read this year

before I tell yall #1 I wanna give an honorable mention to @purpleyoonn they would be on the main list if I was done reading you complete us BUTTTT RED STRING is amazing even though there only 2 parts so far

Okay Okay this should be expected if you been here for a bit

1.@theharrowing Literally anything they write but mainly Rose Tinted Obsessions and Collateral

Boy Blue and Collateral Taehyungs literally Remained me of In between Taehyung so much that I got inspired to write in between again everything I read from them is Absolutely Amazing, Top Tier just Yes DARK FICS are literally my go to so reading them had me sooooo happy and wanting more

[pinata-candy]

Blows my little lore kazoo <33 Here’s my star hc family tree and silly star forms of everyone! Plus the original chart from 2019 when I first had this stupid idea for them all to be related which has since just. Dominated my personal star lore. It was supposed to be a fun au idea and then it got out of control the drama was just too much fun <33 More details under the cut about everyone!

- So first I gotta talk about dark stars real quick, in my lore they are a species of star and not just one guy

- Darkstars can not have parents, they are created from the shadow of millennium stars

- essentially what happens is when a millennium star is born, a Darkstar is created in its shadow to help maintain balance between light and dark forces of the universe. They are as pure light magic and as pure dark magic as any stars can possibly get.

- The Darkstar who begins the whole family tree IS the dark star from Bowsers inside story, his real name is Aludra. The Millennium star who he was created with is Prankstar, his real name is Capella

-THEY ARE NOT RELATED. I just wanna say that hear the deal with dark and millennium stars is less like a ‘these beings are twins’ thing and more like a ‘you are cosmically tied to this being by the strings of fate’ deal

-Without getting into Aludra and Capella’s complicated lore and more into the messed up lore of the history of dark and millennium stars, TLDR: Aludra was the star’s leader and Capella was his jester. They were in a secret relationship while Aludra was married to another star (the marriage had been arranged by the council)

- Aludra and his wife have 3 biological kids: Boomer (yes, the boss from mario rpg), Eldstar, and Smithy

- side note: star children are not made through. Yknow. They are made through a magic wishing ritual it is very easy and you don’t even have to see the other parent for it to happen. Also Eldstar and Smithy, those are not their birth names, they are titles earned later on, lots of higher stars have them

-Aludra also raises the next darkstar born, her name is Umbriel and Capella raises her corresponding millennium star, his name is Vesper. They are largely unimportant rn but just. That’s who they are

-Aludra is sealed away, his children fight for the throne, the Eldstar wins

-He then gets married to Mamar and has his four sons: Skolar, Kalmar, Muskular, and Klevar (again, I promise those are titles not their birth names)

-Lady Misstar wanted in on the high life and so started pretty much dating all of his sons at once, girl wanted the benefits of dating what are essentially star princes, good for her

-Fuck around and find out though, she has Twink pretty much on accident

-Star law says that stars are not allowed to have children with one another unless they’re married (a law made by Aludra to try and stop the overpopulation problem). but Klevar does not want to marry her

- so she does what any gaslight gatekeep girlboss would do, she lies to the stupidest of the children and says it’s his and she marries Muskular instead.

- he’s just happy to have a kid, he knows that ain’t his boy but he’s happy :]

-Twink is sent down to Starborn valley for his younger years just like any other star, no special treatment for him

-BACK TO THE SMITHY SIDE OF THINGS and oh this is where it gets complicated and ridiculous truly

- after his brother takes the throne, Smithy goes to him and has the idea of making vessels for stars, big metal bodies to keep everyone safe as stars are vulnerable little things. I mean just look at them

-Eldstar approves and they make the factory

- at first the factory is filled with volunteer stars who want to help but as progress is slow, they leave, Smithy is spiraling into madness

- well the factory needs workers, Eldstar starts letting his brother use children to work there

- Smithy has hundreds of kids with hundreds of other stars, he also takes orphaned stars to work the factory. Most die.

-They also serve as the star’s army, conquering more land and defending the haven

-He also forces his brother Boomer and his son to help him. Boomer’s son, Punchinello, would eventually flee the factory and hide on earth, settling in there

- Geno is one of his kids, he’s part of the latest and last group of kids. He’s towards the middle of the group

-Geno also flees the factory after realizing his father is out of his mind. He flees in one of his father’s wooden prototypes and dumps it on earth before hiding in space

-The Eldstar eventually finally realizes this has gone too far and tells Smithy to shut down the factory program, which Smithy retaliates by destroying the star road

-SMRPG happens. Smithy and his kids go to jail, they were bad

-at this point in personal lore/lore with my buddy, they are out of jail and the kids are all living together and patching things up

-there is also another darkstar, that’s Nebula, poor Yarid has been raising the damned thing

-also Yarid’s boyfriend. Yeah, we made him up sort of on accident. We had a list of canon characters. And we were gonna give him a boyfriend from those. Then we made Misha on accident and their interactions were nice so he got the role instead. Twas an fun surprise

-I think that’s mostly everything other than talking about Estelle, Castor, and Constella

-but essentially they were told by the higher stars. Oh hey, do you want a kid? We’ll let you have one without getting married, just for you because you are so special but don’t tell anyone they’ll get jealous :)) and then took their kids and put them in the factory

- also yes, all five of the axems were born at the same time, it was a terrible surprise. Their father had a meltdown. And they really did just name them each a color

-Also Trickstar is not on the star chart bc his title is a lie he is a comet not a star

-I THINK THATS EVERYTHING. HOPEFULLY

[naradivision]

Hypmic OC Halloween Party 2023 🎃 ~Part II

Disclaimer: Please note that these are not the actual titles to the songs, I just made them up of course. All these songs obviously belong to their respective artists.

And the OCs mentioned belong to their respective creators as well!

*see more notes from the part 1*

Meet the Halloween Shuffle Teams!

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Team R-rated B-Boy

Ren “Vox” Nakashima

Rintaro “Ignis” Himuro

Raiden “Tesla” Otoha

Ryuko “Mista Z.B.” Umemoto

#7 Parade of Horror ☠️

Real title: Bad Monster Original by UraShimaSakataSen Fun fact: This Shima is that same SHIMA who voiced Zen Gaho from paralive...

Team Heroic Youngsta

Joey “Joker” Kurusu

Saji “Street Dog” Buranka

Ryūnosuke “Fist N Fury” Sekiguchi

Haruto “Pheonix” Hirabayashi

#8 Justice In Action! 🚨

Real title: PANDA HERO Covered by mafumafu x nqrse x luz x soraru | Original by HACHI ft. GUMI Fun fact: HACHI the Vocaloid-P is later known as Kenshi Yonezu

Team SolaLune Fairies

Lola “Aphrodite” Takahashi

Evelyn “SPIRIT” Rose

Moriko “Carnopus” Himawari

Miku “Hex 13” Shirazuki

#9 Who’s the Fairest? 👑

Real title: ECLIPSE Original by Raon x DAZBEE Yeah, sorry again for not making the number of voice casts matched... They just look gorgeous together XD

Team Pop★Teen Sensation

Kanade “Spooky” Alarie

Criss “Paradox” Hiromi

Kirara “Cupid” Suzuki

Ririko “2cute!” Akihara

Makina “Screen Shot” Setsukura

#10 Supa☆Supa☆Halloween

Real title: Happy Halloween Covered by MORE MORE JUMP! ft. Kagamine Rin | Original by Junky ft. Kagamine Rin

[At the moment after the girls have already returned to the backstage, suddenly, the thick and hazy mist from nowhere then emerged into the stage from all directions, fogging over the entire scene as if it was curtain in the theater]

Greetings, ladies and gentlemen,

Welcome to the wonderful night of October the 31st,

...At long last, we’re going to reach the finale.

[Starting off with the sound of bells resonating in distants, the prelude music began playing before the hazy mist became dissolved —revealing the obscure figures of people standing there in the midst of stage]

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Team Curtain Call

Queen card

Kunio “Arsene” Kurome

Iwao “TRIXT4R” Masuda

Sanyu “MC Rogue” Inouye

Naoki “Stage Queen” Hamasaki

Mitsuru “Odette” Tenjo

Saigo “Tsukumogami” Fuyugami

Nishio “24/7” Tokishou

#11 To the Final Act 🪄

Real title: Finale Original by XYZ 2019 (luz, senra, mafumafu, soraru, nqrse, meychan, araki, un:c)

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Wait— Wait,

Even if this night is going to end soon, how should we forget something really really important…?

Yeah, we haven’t even got our treats yet!

If you want them, then why don’t we go get some?

C’mon, stand up & sing along~~

Team Bakemono:)

Asahi “SWEET-T” Tomoharu

Kohaku “KANDATA-KUN” Meguno

Taria “Misfit” Chinen

Honoka “Maniakin” Ajisai

Ayaka “Marionette” Kagawa

After Story: Are Ghosts Real?

Real title: 異世界混合大舞踏会 (I Wanna Be Your Ghost) Covered by StarLightPolaris (You Kisaragi, Relu, Coe, Kuni, Kottaro)  | Original by Gen Hoshino Unfortunately, you can only find subtitles in the original video

In this night where ghosts will emerge,

But they’re not all that bad

Ghost are real, you know? 

But they’re not as scary as the living!

They’re always watching from the sidelines, so don’t you forget,

Farewell mortals, and take care :P

🎃 Live Reports & Behind the scenes Pt.2

According to the interview from some audiences after the reveal of 6th’s and 7th’s cast, they thought it’s funny that team Bad Boy felt oddly cool to them, while on the other hand, team Hero were also cool but with even more chaotic vibes than the previous one —Everyone did wonder in unison that what went through the organizer’s head when they decided to put them together. Well, Raiden and Saji were the only exceptions since both of them were naturally pretty dedicated to their team titles.

Raiden got a bit carried away as he started laughing like some maniac by the end of his show. And in consequence of that, his temporary teammates were just… letting him be before all left the scene like nothing happened.

Since the beginning of the 9th show, the ladies of team “SolaLune Fairies” were seen solemnly walking out of the backstage with a dark long veil covering most part of their face and their outfits. Each of them were also noted to hold a bouquet with different flowers. Lola were red tulips, Evelyn were blue roses, Moriko were sunflowers, and Miku were moon orchids. But once the first beat of the song dropped out, they suddenly changed their moods and threw their veils away ...showing off their party dresses which were delicately designed just for each of them (ultimate kudos were given to those from the costume team). Thus, the true catwalk showdown began! 

After all the teasing to throw their bouquets to the audience like in the wedding, it was still unknown who those ladies decide to give their bouquets to at the end. Maybe it was their lover/ bestie or etc. Who knows anyway? But as the show title hinted, they might probably give it to their fairest…

Before the 10th show starts, the camera caught Kanade having a high-five with Lola in the same fashion as those two boys from the first half. 

Despite not being much active around these days, Hana Izanami (@snowmantita) was spotted coming here in secret to cheer for her friends.

The 11th show was obviously one of the best highlights of this event, given 6 of them were actually the famed performers to begin with! In addition, Queen card was the one who planned most details of the performance herself. Besides, some of them were really going all-out to the point where they attempted to compete with each other even. No wonder this show received very loud applause as a result, just like their team’s name implied.

There was one funny moment getting leaked out from the backstage. It was the photo of two gentlemen who literally had no idea why they were put in the same line with other talented showmen in the 11th show. Saigo seemed to be deep in thought about how much the staff have spent on props and special effects, while Nishio… He was caught flirting with other participants —Well, let’s hope that he wasn’t flirting with the wrong person there.

Despite the chill and anti-climax vibe that was very contrast to the intense impression from the previous show, the final show performed by team Bakemono was unexpectedly the children’s most favorite! Why was that? The secret of success not only lied in the lyrics of the song, but also its cute and catchy choreography. Moreover, they had also brought in the massive number of candies to throw into the crowd.

And due to some interviews with the parents, they told that this show truly deserved to be the closing show as it was in fact spoke the moral of this spooky event… 

Before the show started, it was a record of five of them chatting with each other. And although it was all according to the script, Asahi confessed that they had retaken it so many rounds he actually lost count of.

And just as the name of their team indicated, they were all wearing the yokāi costumes! For example, Asahi was the Oni, Kohaku was attempting to look like Kasa-obake (even if it came out rather funny), Taria was Karasu tengu, Honoka had animal ears so maybe she was bakeneko or kitsune, and Ayaka wore triangle headband with a kimono to represent the yurēi ghost.

From what live reports said, despite being the performers of the show, both Asahi & Kohaku were noted to really enjoy their time the most —These two spiritual(?) twins loved throwing candies like they’re playing with snow, while Honoka and Ayaka might seem a bit stiff due to their not so great experiences with people. However, Taria was the one making them warm up and enjoy the moment just like other children did —Who else would understand the kids best if not someone with a children’s heart?

Live reports by

Snowflake Sentinel News, Yoichi Shujo

Verne Publishing-house, Nellie Yukimura 

◀︎ SEE THE RECORD FROM PT. 1

Amazing OCs mentioned above are from:

@kobedivision @katsushika-division @chiyoda-division2 @suginami-division @kanazawa-division @megurodivision @naha-division @nagasakidivision @saitama-division @okinawa-division @gion-division @minato-division03 @kyoto-division @akihabaradivision @urayasu-division @nakanodivision @akihabara-division03 @kumamoto-division @sapporo-division @fukuokadivision1 @naha-division @nerima-division @naradivision @echizen-division @ota-division @gion-division @sagadivision @tokyo-division (@snowmantita) @hamamatsu-divison

P.S. Apologizing if I missed out some divisions or have made anyone sound OOC —I'm trying lmao.

...Happy Halloween & hoping y’all enjoy it :)

[bbrissonn]

𝐃𝐔𝐌𝐁 𝐃𝐄𝐂𝐈𝐒𝐈𝐎𝐍𝐒 - 𝐤𝐲𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐧 𝐦𝐛𝐚𝐩𝐩𝐞 (𝟐)

𝙄𝙉 𝙒𝙃𝙄𝘾𝙃

he fell first but she fell harder

𝙊𝙍

two young adults become neighbors in the most romantic city in the world

pairing: kylian mbappé x fem!oc (brielle healy)

chapters 6-10

wc: 4.1k

- June 27 2019 -

"𝐒𝐎, 𝐋𝐄𝐓 𝐌𝐄 𝐆𝐄𝐓 this straight,  you got kicked out of class when you were younger because you were playing with your hair too much?" Kylian laughed, throwing his head back as his laugh echoed throughout his apartment. Meanwhile, Brielle's elbows were resting on the island counter, her face hiding behind her hands.

"You promised you wouldn't laugh!" The girl exclaimed, her face still hidden as the boy's laugh only got louder and louder by the second.

"Désolé, désolé." The boy spoke in French, the words flowing out of his mouth effortlessly, unlike when he spoke in English.

"That teacher hated me, it wasn't my fault!" Brielle tried to defend herself, but there was nothing else much to say.

"And that's the most embarrassing thing that ever happened to you?"

"Oh, hell no. But I'm telling you, it's too embarrassing."

"C'mon, I'll tell you mine after." He pleaded, as the girl finally removed her head from behind her hands, a strong red colour plastered on her cheeks.

"You promise?" The girl asked, she wasn't about to completely embarrass herself in front of him if he wasn't going to do the same.

"Pinky promise." Kylian answered, holding out his left pinky for her to link.

"You're left handed?"

"Stop trying to change the subject, Bri."

"I wasn't! It was an actual question." The Healy girl pouted before linking her pinky with his, and the boy looked at her with a look that yelled 'I'm waiting' making her let out a sigh.

"Fine, fine. I was like 7, I think, my aunt took me and my brother to one of those trampoline park, and I really, really needed to go to the bathroom. But I didn't know where they were and i was too shy to ask, so I just kept it in, until i couldn't..." She trailed off, her eyes staring at the big window on the opposite side of the room.

"And?" Kylian asked with a smirk on his face.

"I peed myself on one of the trampolines." The girl mumbled, her eyes looking everywhere but in the boy's.

"Sorry, what was that?" He asked teasingly, pretending like he hadn't heard what she said, even though she knew he had heard.

"I peed myself on one of the trampolines."

"Can you speak louder, I still can't hear you."

"I peed myself on one of the trampolines! There, you happy?" Brielle said loudly, a small scoff leaving her mouth before she spoke, making the boy in front of her go off in a fit of laugher once again. The Healy girl softly hit his shoulder, the red on her cheeks becoming even darker than before.

"You-- You actually peed yourself... on a trampoline?" Kylian said through his laughs, making Brielle hit him once again, a groan leaving her mouth.

"Stop laughing! I was 7, it was years ago!" She said, trying to get the boy to stop laughing, but gave up when she realized he wasn't planning on stopping soon. Once the boy had finally calmed down a bit, the girl looked at him with a serious look on her face.

"What?"

"I wanna hear your story now."

"I called my teacher 'mom' once." The boy said simply, making the girl scoff at his answer.

"No way that's the most embarrassing thing that happened in your life. No fucking way."

"It was at a parents-teacher meeting, my mom was standing right next to me when I said that." Kylian added shyly, making Brielle's jaw drop, before her laugh erupted in the silent kitchen. The boy repeated the girl's previous action by hiding his face behind his hands, only making the girl laugh even louder.

Butterflies were flying around in the boy's stomach at the sound of her laugh, it was one of the prettiest he had ever heard. Well, everything about her was pretty, everything she did was pretty, the way she placed her hand in front of her mouth she laughed. Just the way her body moved so effortlessly and with such grace was just mesmerizing to him.

Even though it had only been 3 days since the two met, Kylian could already feel himself falling for the California native and he was falling hard real fast, and that scared the absolute shit out of him.

━━━

𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐋𝐘 𝐆𝐈𝐑𝐋 𝐇𝐀𝐃 a shy smile on her face as both of her hands held onto the handle of her front door, Kylian leaning on the doorframe, a sly smile on his face.

"I had a lot of fun tonight." Brielle stated as her eyes looked away from the boy's, making his smile grow even wider.

"Good. Good, because I was hoping we could do this again some day?"

"Yeah, yeah, I'd like that." She answered shyly, biting her lips before her eyes finally looked at the boy again. He sent her a soft smile when their eyes locked, which she returned with one of her own smiles.

"Great. Have a good night, Bri."

"Good night." The girl mumbled as the boy pushed himself off the door frame and made his way back to his home, leaving the Healy girl all alone at her door. She stood there for a couple of seconds, before closing her door and making her way to her bedroom. She sent her best friend a small text, telling her she'd be calling the next day, before changing clothes and settling down in bed, slowly drifting off to sleep with a big smile on her face.

And there was only one thing in her mind, Kylian.

- June 28 2019 -

"𝐘𝐄𝐒! 𝐓𝐇𝐀𝐓'𝐒 𝐆𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐓, 𝐊𝐄𝐄𝐏 it going!" The photographer said as his camera went off over and over again, capturing every small movement the Healy girl made. She was currently at her first photoshoot in the city, and to be honest, the girl was completely lost. Most of the people on set only spoke French, and the one's that spoke English struggled to make a full sentence, besides the photographer.

"D'accord, je pense que c'est bien pour aujourd'hui. Nous vous enverrons les photo d'ici bientôt, Mademoiselle Healy." The man in charged of the shoot said, and Brielle quickly looked over at the other English speaking person in the room. (Alright, I think that's good for today. We'll send the photos to you soon, Miss Healy.)

"He said that's we're done for today and that you should receive the pictures soon." The man said to her, making the Healy girl nod her head a bit before looking at the man in charge.

"Merci." She spoke in a very broken French making everyone laugh a bit. The girl knew they weren't laughing at her, more about the situation they had found themselves in.

As soon as the girl stepped into her changing room, she called her best friend, who picked up after only a couple of rings.

"Hi!" Mackenzie spoke happily as she answered the phone call.

"Hey, love."

"How was the shoot?" The Turner girl asked with excitement, making Brielle shake her head a bit.

"It was good. But I think I'll have to learn French quicker than I thought I would. There's one was only one person who could like actually speak good English so that I could understand what was going on." She explained, making her best friend laugh a bit.

"When are you getting the pics? I can't wait to see them!"

"They said soon, but I don't know when soon is." The Healy girl answered as she finished changing back into the clothes she had came in.

"Mackenzie! It's time to leave!" Kenzie's mom yelled out, making the girl let out a groan.

"I'm seriously starting to think we're cursed or something. I'm coming mom!" The girl spoke to her best friend before answering her mom.

"We'll find the time one day. Love you, take care!"

"Love you!" Mackenzie answered before the two of them hung up the phone, making Brielle let out a sad sigh. She missed home way more than she thought she would.

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𝐁𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐋𝐋𝐄 𝐖𝐀𝐒 𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐍𝐃𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐈𝐍 elevator, waiting for the doors to close so that she could finally get back to her bed, but as the door were about to close, an arm slipped between the two and Kylian soon stepped into the small space.

"Hey." He said, a little out of breath, as the Healy girl let out a chuckle.

"Hi." She answered with a smile as the two doors finally closed the elevator began to make it's way up to their floor.

"How was your day?"

"Okay, I had my first shoot here."

"How'd it go?" He asked curiously as their eyes stayed glued to the other's. The girl was about to answer when the doors to elevator opened and the two of them stepped out.

"It was... fine, I guess. It made me realize I'll have to learn French as quickly as possible." She spoke with a laugh, making Kylian smile.

"I could help you, if you want." He shrugged, making the girl let out a dramatic laugh.

"Is that the Kylian Mbappé offering to help me learn French?" She asked teasingly as the two of them reached her front door.

"Ha ha." He said dryly with a pout on his face.

"Aw, did I hurt the little baby's feelings"? She asked in a fake sad voice, pinching one of his cheeks a bit. The thoughts in Kylian's head flew all over the place at the feeling of his hand on his face.

"You did, actually. Now you have to make it up to me." He said with a smirk as she opened her door, pushing it opened just a bit.

"And how can I do that?" The girl asked with a shy smile on her face as she bit down on the corner of her lips, her eyes looking up at his.

"Mmmm... movie night?" He pretended to think before answering her question with a hopeful smile on his face, the only the girl's face only growing bigger before she slipped into her apartment, leaving the boy confused alone.

It wasn't until she had placed her keys onto her counter that she realized the boy hadn't followed her in, making her shake her head a bit.

"Get it in here, dumbass!" She spoke loudly enough for him to hear, but not too loud to disturb her neighbors. The smile that had once fallen on Kylian's face quickly grew back before he slipped himself into her home, closing the door behind him.

- June 28 2019 -

𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐓𝐖𝐎 𝐘𝐎𝐔𝐍𝐆 𝐀𝐃𝐔𝐋𝐓𝐒 were currently sitting on the Healy girl's couch, blanket thrown over the both of them, a bowl of popcorn in between them as Coco played on the tv. A comfortable silence had set throughout the living room as the two focused their attention on the screen in front of them.

About a quarter into the movie, the girl let out a small yawn before leaning her head on the boy's shoulder, something that didn't go unnoticed by him. He tried to remain as calm as possible as he debated what his next move should be. He hadn't even noticed his arm had moved around her shoulder until Brielle placed the bowl of popcorn on the coffee table before placing both her legs over his left leg and wrapping her arms around his torso.

He rubbed her shoulder a bit before looking down at the top of her head that was resting on his chest.

"Fatiguée?"

"Don't know what that means, Ky." She whispered quietly, the nickname slipping past her lips almost going unnoticed by the boy, but he heard it. He heard it so clearly and it made his heart jump at the sound. The way the two simple letter escaped her lips so softly and calmly like it was something she had done a million times before sending some sort of shock to his brain.

"Tired?" He repeat in French this time after a couple of seconds, once he had finally regained control of his brain.

"A bit."

"It's almost eleven, you can go to bed if you want, Bri."

"But then that means you'll have to leave, and I don't want you to leave." The girl thought out loud, her eyes growing big once she realized she hadn't said the words in her head. Another wave of shock hit Kylian's brain, this one lasting a little longer than the previous one.

"Who said I had to leave?" Was his answer, he knew it was a bold move, but it was one he needed to make. I mean, she had just said she didn't want him to leave, and what better way to not leave someone by sleeping over at their home, right?

"Mm, I move a lot when I sleep. It's a dangerous territory you're willing to enter, Mbappé." She warned him jokingly, but her words only made a loving smile grow on his face, his other hand coming up to play with her hair a bit.

"I'm sure I can handle it. Can't be worse than on the pitch." He reasoned, making the girl giggle a bit.

"I don't know if I have the strength to get to my bed though." She said after a couple of seconds of silence. At her words, the Paris native grabbed the remote and turned off the tv before picking up the girl bridal style, making her let out a small gasp.

"My phone!" The girl yelped as he placed her down on the bed, the girl had already changed into her pajamas so she thankfully didn't have to worry about that. Kylian shook with his head with a chuckle before going back to the living room, turning off all the lights and grabbing both of their phone.

"Missing anything else?" He asked once he had mad it back into her bedroom. Brielle had already made herself comfortable in all of the blankets that were on her a bed, a childish smile plastered on her face.

"You. It's cold." And the next thing the girl knew, Kylian was laying shirtless right next to her, his eyes looking into hers.

"Hi." She whispered as she moved closer to him, placing a hand on his cheek, her thumb rubbing the skin under his eye.

"Hey." He whispered back, a hand landing on her hip as his eyes moved down to her lips, before looking back up at her eyes. Only when he looked back up, her eyes were staring right at his lips, making a smirk grow on his face. With his free hand, her grabbed her chin softly and pushing it up making her look into his eyes.

Kylian leaned his face in, the girl doing the same and just as their lips were about to connect together, the boy held her chin in place. Their lips barely touching as they felt the other's breath on them.

"You're the most beautiful girl I've ever met, you know that?" He said, staring passionately into her eyes, making the girl blush like crazy.  She bit her lip as the two of them held eyes contact, the hand was previously resting on his face moving over to his lips, her index finger dragging the bottom on down.

"You're not too bad yourself." She whispered as her finger let go of his lips and her hand moved back to his cheek, their eyes still locked together. Suddenly, the smile on Kylian's face faded, but it was replaced with a look that the girl couldn't quite describe. It was a mix of admiration, lust and softness, and Brielle truly thought she was going to melt in his touch. His hand was resting on her hip slowly started moving up and down her waist and the girl couldn't contain herself anymore, she leaned in enough to finally connect their lips together, a content sigh leaving both of their mouths.

If her parents could see what was happening at the moment, she'd be on the next flight home, her parents had always hated the idea of their precious daughter dating other people, when they met her previous and only boyfriend, it took them months to finally warm up to him. So seeing their daughter kissing a boy she had met only a couple of days ago would definitely drive them insane. But Brielle didn't care, she wanted this, she wanted it so so much.

Ever since the two of them had sat down on the couch, talking for almost an hour and half before watching the movie, there was only one thing on her, and that was Kylian's lips on hers. And it was finally happening, their lips moved together for minutes, pulling away every here and there to catch their breaths, before leaning in again, small smiles being exchange every once in a while.

"It's late." The girl stated as she pulled away from him, this time leaving a little more space between their lips than the previous times.

"Mmm, one more." Kylian insisted before placing one last big kiss on her lips. Once they pulled away, he rested his forehead on hers, a sigh leaving his mouth. A silence set over the room, sleep slowly taking over them, but the city outside stayed alive, the sounds of cars passing by, airplanes, the chaos Brielle slowly started to love falling asleep to.

"You drive me insane, Bri, and I love it so fucking much you have no idea." Was the last thing the girl heard before falling asleep, a giant smile plastered on her face.

- June 29 2019 -

𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐍𝐄𝐗𝐓 𝐌𝐎𝐑𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐆, 𝐁𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐋𝐋𝐄 woke up with a big smile on her face, the events of last night playing over and over in her head. The two young adults had woken up in the early hours of the morning from the sounds of police sirens go off, making the two of them very confused. They shared a couple of more kissed before falling asleep once again, the girl before the boy. The soft sound of his voice whispering sweet words in her ear slowly drifting her off to sleep. Part of her felt like it was all just a dream.

Only that smile quickly disappeared when she realized she was all alone in the her, the side were Kylian once laid completely empty. She reached her hand out to see if maybe it was just her eyes playing a trick on her, but the space was in fact bodiless, no Kylian in view. But the spot was still a little warm, meaning he hadn't left that long ago, but a frown still took over the girls face.

Then, the sound of the toilet in the unsuited bathroom filled her ears, making her let out a sigh a relief when the door opened and the Mbappé appeared.

"You okay?" He asked as he laid back down next to her, throwing his arm around her shoulders and bringing her close to him. Brielle wrapped her arms around his torso, placing her head against his chest. He pressed a small kiss to the top of her head before wrapping his other arm around her frame, keeping her close to him as they now laid face to face sideways.

"Yeah. I just... I kinda got scared that you left." She admitted softly, rubbing his back a bit as she looked up at him with a shy smile, only to find the boy already looking down at her with a soft look on his face.

"T'es mignonne quand t'es nerveuse." He whispered, making her let out a groan.

"English, Kyky. English."

"You're cute when you're nervous."

"I'm not nervous!" She defended herself but it was a big lie and Kylian knew that, her heart beating against his chest and the way her leg slightly bouncing on the mattress told the complete opposite of her words.

"Keep telling yourself that, Bri." He laughed, making her fur her brows at him before slightly hitting his chest, not too hard, but hard enough for him to feel a slight pinch.

"Shut up!"

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user83 im lost did she go on a date with someone??!!

briellehealy @user83 no lol i forced mike to take pictures of me during our meeting

user83 @briellehealy girl--

briellehealy @user83 i thought i looked cute... a girls got to do what she's got to do to get her pictures

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- June 29 2019 -

𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐋𝐘 𝐆𝐈𝐑𝐋 𝐒𝐌𝐈𝐋𝐄𝐃 as her eyes stayed glued on her phone, her fingers flying over her keyboard every once in a while. The two young adults had finally exchange their numbers before Kylian needed to leave, promising to come back later with dinner.

kyky 🤍🤍

i miss you already

bri bri 💕😍

it's been 10 minutes ky...

kyky 🤍🤍

what's your point here missy?

am i not allowed to miss my

beautiful neighbor?

bri bri 💕😍

never said you weren't ;)

but we litteraly saw each other

10 minutes ago love

kyky 🤍🤍

yeah and we won't see each

other until forever

bri bri 💕😍

drama queen much

kyky 🤍🤍

are you saying you don't

miss me? 🤨

bri bri 💕😍

i miss you too bubs

my bed's cold without you :(

kyky 🤍🤍

im sure we can fix that later 😏

bri bri  💕😍

yuck

kyky 🤍🤍

shut up

bri bri 💕😍

you first

kyky 🤍🤍

...

i have to go

i'll text you when im

done xxx

bri bri 💕😍

don't miss me too much !!

be careful xxx

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"𝐘𝐎𝐔 𝐆𝐔𝐘𝐒 𝐊𝐈𝐒𝐒𝐄𝐃? 𝐁𝐑𝐈 what the fuck! Oh, my God, oh, my God!" Mackenzie freaked out as her best friend finished telling her about her previous night, a giant smile on her face.

"Kenz, calm down."

"No! Bri you litteraly kissed one of the most famous footballer in the world! How are you being so calm about this?"

"I don't know. I guess I just don't really care about it." The Healy girl shrugged as she took a bit of her snack bar. It was currently almost 5, meaning Kylian would be coming back from training soon, meanwhile the girl spent the whole day in her apartment doing pretty much nothing.

"Do you realize how many girls would kill to be in your place right now? I did some little digging on him before going to bed, and he's quite popular with the ladies, like I'm talking teens to grandmas, everyone loves him." The Turner girl emphasized, but her words didn't seem to change much about how her best friend felt about it.

"Good for them, then."

"Jeez, you're so boring. Bri, you've been in Paris for 5 days, and you've already kissed some hot French guy! Not to mention the comments he left on your post, girl if I was you I'd already be planning my wedding." Mackenzie sassed, making Brielle roll her eyes at her words.

"I've known him for five days Ken--"

"Five days and twenty million of kisses. You clearly like him and he clearly likes you, so you better put on your big girl pants the next time you see him and tell him how you feel before I buy a plane ticket, fly over to you and force it out of you." She threatened, but the Healy girl knew there was no actual harm meant behind her words, it was simply her best friend being the dramatic person she is.

"I don't wanna rush it, especially with what happened last time. You're right, I really like him and if we rush into it then it's just not gonna be good. I mean he's litteraly perfect Kenzie, and I don't want to mess my chance up." She admitted to her best friend, quickly going over what happened in the last couple of months with her millions of failed talking stage because she had listened to Mackenzie. But her words made a big smile grow in the Turner girl's face.

"You're in love." She sang, smirking at her phone, making Brielle roll her eyes, but the girl stayed quiet for a couple of seconds.

"I'm not in love with him."

"Not yet!" Mackenzie was quick to say, making her best friend look away from the screen, a small tint of red taking over her cheeks.

"I better be the bridesmaid."

"And that's enough for today. Love you Kenz!" Brielle spoke before hanging up the face time call, a small sigh leaving her mouth. The small home was quiet for a bit before a small knock on her front door broke the peace.

kyky 🤍🤍

i'm here :)

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Curiou Cat Q+A Compilation

So since Curious Cat is officially dead (rip), I decided to put some of the Q+A's I answered in like 2019 here. Most of them are Mafumafu-related song analyses and some of my basic opinions on Vocaloid and utaite, so if you wanna read some yap, knock yourself out. Also, I like yapping. So feel free to submit more asks LOL

What are your thoughts on 'last stop' by mafu (lyrically n musically) ?

Sometimes I feel like Shuuten (Last Stop) has lyrics that are really dark compared to Mafumafu's other songs, but then I listen to them and realize that they're not really haha. I think, to me at least, that they come off darker, because of the song's execution and composition. I think Mafumafu mentioned that when he was writing this song, he was basically having an existentialism crisis but then realized that, "oh, well, in the end we all die anyways…". So yes it's really dark, but then in end it's kind of comforting? I mean I don't think anything's harder than this life, honestly haha. And I think another thing Mafumafu said is that he realized it doesn't matter who we are, we all get off at the same last stop. I think the song follows this thought process, as it goes from rolling in angst, to reveling in angst, to accepting that angst.

The one thing that did stand out to me in the lyrics is that he referenced "Swaying from Season to Season". In my head, I divide Mafumafu's songs into different categories. So we have songs that are more rock and dark (like Shuuten), songs that are related to Yume Hanabi, and then… I guess I just stick Swaying from Season to Season with Ouka ni Tsukuyo to Sodeshigure lol. Anyways, my point is, he doesn't mix the lyrics he uses with songs in these separate categories too often, but for some reason he referenced Swaying from Season to Season in Shuuten. Why he did that? I really don't know lol. It might just be another contrast thing, since that song is everything Shuuten isn't.

Musically, Shuuten is fantastic. The whole song seems to be built on contrasts. I love how the verses are sung low and fast and are paired with an uncomplicated instrumental that has no bass guitar. I think this makes it sound like mumbling and causes the chorus to be that much more startling. When bass is introduced, the instrumental gets more complicated and Mafumafu starts screaming (lol). Usually in music, high notes and melodies are associated with fast tempos, but I like how Mafumafu did the opposite in Shuuten by having the lyrics slow down when he reaches the chorus. Not only is there a build up when the chorus is reached, but there's one continuous build up throughout the whole song until it reaches the last chorus but then falls again. I guess you could say that the chorus is our… Last Stop *ba dum tsh*

What are your thoughts on Sekai Shikku ni Shounen Shoujo?

Ahhhh I really like this song. Yes, while it is full of existentialism like mafu's other songs, it still makes me feel happy. For me, I really think about it as a song that ties all of us fans together. We're all sick of the world, and nameless boys and girls who haven't really found our place in the world. I also like how the lyrics mention the Summer Triangle. When I think of the summer triangle, I think of the Japanese holiday Tanabata. In the Tanabata story, Orihime and Hikoboshi (represented by the stars Vega and Altair, which are two corners of the Summer Triangle) can only meet once a year. I think it's really similar to how fans and After the Rain don't meet very often and basically only do through their live concerts. So it's bittersweet but something every one looks forward to every year.

Since people are asking about your thoughts on certain songs, I was wondering what your thoughts are on Mafumafu's Nuko series?

I probably don't have as much to say about this series as I do about others lol. I think they're really cute and fun songs. My favorite song in the series is Neko ga Maruku Natta (actually, is this song even in the series haha). It's a lot calmer compared to the other songs but surprisingly deep. I love it's message about how we should try to do our best with the life we're given and make the world rounder by trying to understand each other. This may be different than what Mafumafu means, but I'm literally trying to do that by studying and translating Japanese lol. Also, it has all of Mafu's friends as cats in the MV???? And that's super adorable???

What are your thoughts on Antivirus from Izanaware Traveler?

I mentioned this in my translation, but I feel like Antivirus has a similar meaning to Merry Bad End and Hello Dystopia. I don't want to assume anything, but to me at least it seems like the lyrics talk about toxic fans.

I feel like AtR had a really rough year last year. I mean, they've written a couple other songs before last year that were kinda calling out how their fans conduct themselves online, but I think last year had about 4 songs that were like that…

Um, so, I guess rather than going through Antivirus and highlighting what destructive behavior fans could be doing, I rather talk about what good things fans can do. I think it's important to not just be a fan, but also a supporter of your favorite artists. It's good to send them good messages, fanart, etc. In fact, I'm sure they love it so much! I wanna just shower everyone in good vibes and affection gah. On the other hand though, it's not ok to treat them like they're an anime character. They are very real people. This has kind of been on my mind since I started translating and interacting more with the international utaite fandom, but I think we're just as accountable, if not more, for what we post online about utaite. I feel like the English fandom is kind of like the wild west and people can get away with saying a lot of things because most utaites don't speak English. However, this also means that they can't address problems that may arise in the fandom. I've been really surprised about some of the things I've seen posted, and if the same things were posted in Japanese, I know that they would affect utaites and their fans. More than anything though, I get really sad about it because I respect these musicians so much because they've played such a positive influence in my life. It's also good to be mindful of what content we post because perpetuating misleading or toxic ideas doesn't set a good example to new international utaite fans. I want a lot of artists to get popular and perform internationally (and in the states, where I'm from), but when that time comes, I want to welcome them as a proud international utaite fan and not someone that is embarrassed about what their peers post online.

Sorry, this got really heavy and long :< On a lighter note, I thought Mafumafu's choice of using the word "Antivirus" was really funny because I work in cyber security and the song was using the definition as more as medical term. But then again, maybe it was intentional, considering that the virus AtR has had to deal with is online.

Who is your favorite utaite and why? (Or I guess who are your favorites, if it's too hard to choose one!)

EASY. My favorite utaite is Soraru and everyone that knows me knows that LOL. My friends ask me "How's Soraru?" instead of asking how I am. It's been super fun seeing how much he's improved over the years and how hard he works. I'm also just very used to his voice so I guess out of all utaites I prefer his.

I think I got attached to him pretty fast forever ago because we had similar interests? Like idk, a lot of the games he played and songs he recorded were my favorites too. I didn't understand Japanese when I first became his fan, but after learning Japanese I've come to really appreciate his personality. I've had tooooooo many times in my life where I would be struggling with an issue or feeling down, and somehow Soraru would say something that would help me out. And he's just so nice and takes care of his friends and is really thoughtful and considerate towards his fans but still blunt and true to himself.

I mentioned this in a previous ask, but yeah I learned Japanese because of Soraru. And Japanese has had such a huge influence on my life, that I can't imagine my life without it. I've made so many good friends, and ended up focusing my career and schooling on Japanese. I literally have no idea where I would be if I didn't learn Japanese because of him. He ruined my life because I was supposed to be a STEM girlie XD but I love him for it :D

What are your favorite vocaloid songs and who are your favorite vocaloid producers (and why)?

To make it easier for me to answer, I'm going to focus on your second question first lol. My favorite producer's are Deco*27 and MikitoP.

When I was in 7th grade, I was convinced that I would never need to fall in love if Deco*27 kept writing music. Love seems like a really basic feeling, but Deco*27 never fails to capture both the good and bad sides of it. It's been fun seeing how his songs have progressed from cute/normal/sad love songs, to twisted ones. I like how his songs are both pop but rock at the same time? And while his music has definitely changed a lot from when he first started, he somehow still manages to use the same distinguishing synths lol. Also, his lyrics are just straight up amazing. They have so many puns and double meanings. He references and recycles the same words a lot, so it's fun listening to recent songs and then hearing him reference a song he wrote 10 years ago. Also, in terms of actual Vocaloid usage, I like how his songs still sound like they use Vocaloid (like he doesn't try to make them sound human) but are still really easy to listen to. My favorite songs by him include Chocolate Beats, Mukashi Mukashi no Kyou no Boku, Dokusenyoku, Starlight Girl… there are too many lol

MikitoP is my other favorite because I feel like his music is really similar to classical Japanese poetry. Instead of telling a story, he captures a single moment and uses that scene to convey a certain emotion. His use of seasonal words really help in painting the scene and making the songs more Japanese-y too. In his songs that do tell a story, they're never super specific and so it's fun to speculate what's going on. So lyrically wise, they're amazing enough, but then he somehow manages to create the perfect instrumentals and melodies to go along with everything. Also, I feel like a lot of his songs are summer themed and summer's my favorite season :D Idk how he makes his music so chill, but then manages write freaking bangers too. My favorite songs by him include Yuugure Twitter, Yuudachi no Ribbon, Shutter Chance, Natsu no Hanken, Ballerina Girl, and Boku wa Hatsune Miku to Kiss wo Shita.

What's your favorite song written by Soraru and what's your favorite Soraru song regardless of the writer?

My favorite song written by Soraru is poco from After Rain Quest and my favorite Soraru song in general is... oof that's a really tough question XD I'm pretty sure I've heard like 500 or something songs by him. Yeah, I don't think I can answer haha. Sorry! There's just too many and I love them all

Do you have any advice for someone who also wants to start posting covers online? Also, what's your favorite Vocaloid/Utaite song to sing?

I might not be the best person to ask about this, considering I've only posted one video, but Soraru said something before in an interview that helped push me to upload something. He said that it's really hard and scary in the beginning to post things because you're a beginner and obviously not perfect or the best, so what he did was find one thing that he really liked about his cover that no other cover had, and used that as motivation to upload and contribute to the community. It could be something really small, like just one note or how you pronounce something, but take that and embrace it so you don't get scared of putting yourself out there.

However, even though no one's perfect in the beginning, I think that's one of the things that's the most fun about utaites. I love going back through utaite mylists and seeing how much they're improved over the years. It makes me excited to see how much I'll improve in the future and uploading stuff will give me an easy way to track my progress.

To answer your other question, I really like singing everything by MikitoP and Deco*27 hahaha. But aside from them, I really like singing songs by Ishifuro like Yuugure Sensei :D

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Do you like Dr. Stone?

If so, Can you info dump dr.Stone to me? If you want to, of course.

I could look it up myself but i mostly just want to get some of that info dump and that energy that only a fan who is hyperfixating can give often leads me to look into the media and it's fun. Idk

Hearing/seeing people (especially those i know or have interacted with) be happy and geek out about stuff is fun and i often end up wanting to check it out afterwards because of that

No worries if you don't wanna tho

no. no worries at all. in fact. you should worry.

im going to start from the beginning. and then explain each character in sequence.

senku, taiju, and yuzuriha are all best friends. senku is the extreme science guy, taiju is the brawny loud and energetic guy who has a crush on yuzuriha, and yuzuriha is a determined but reserved girl who is into crafts. (senku n taiju met during childhood while taiju met yuzuriha in middle school n introduced her to senku in the same timeframe bc she offered helped in making lightweight objects)

one day, (june 3rd 2019) taiju says to senku that hes finally gonna confess after 5 years. however when he finally meets her, bright green light envelops the whole world, and turns everyone to stone.

however, taiju retains his consciousness out of sheer willpower. Esxactly 3718 years pass, and with humans turned to stone, civilization crumbles. buildings fall down, animals take over, nature overrun cities. (note: the only creatures petrified were humans and swallow birds)

Taiju wakes n breaks from stone, naked, n is surrounded by nature. he finds senku, who was actually awake 6 monthz earlier. The only way they found out 3,718 years had passed was bc senku counted the days, and seconde in his consciousness ever since being petrified.

senku and taiju spend 6 months experimenting with petrified swallows for the revival/miracle fluid (depends on translation). in the end, its a success, but just as theyr about to revive yuzuriha they end up being cornered by lions and revive tsukasa shishio, the worlds strongest primate highschooler.

they work together n have 2 wait again to make the revival fluid. however tsukasa sees senkus abilities, and proposes to him an idea. that they should only revive the 'pure hearted youth', bc in this new world, it should be a paradise not tainted by the old world's philosophies where the greedy elders had the power. However, senku disagrees n it becomes tense between them.

Long story short they revive yuzuriha n after a little scuffle, run away to Hakone, where they can get sulfur for gunpowder to defeat tsukasa. but after accidentally lighting a fire they find out that ther r other ppl asides from them who r alive when they get a smoke signal response to their fire. sadly, tsukasa finds them, n after finding out the revival fluid formula, he kills senku.

taiju n yuzuriha run away wit senkus body n miraculously revive him using the science of the revival fluid. But since senkus known as dead, taiju n yuzuriha seprate from him. senku goes to find who made the smoke signal, while taiju n yuzuriha go to tsukasas new 'empire' as spies.

senku manages to find the mysterious person, who is trapped under a tree after they attempted to fight tsukasa. A girl named kohaku (shes blonde, and as senku finds out later, scarily strong and agile.) he eventually deduces that shes not a revived, but rather, a descendant of a revived. senku demonstrates his use of science by making a pulley and lifting the tree log. kohaku thanks him, and after camping out for the night, brings him to her village. its a primitive village, and there he meets chrome, a guy whos another 'sorcerer' (since they dont know science, they call it 'sorcery').

from then on, this is where the first arc starts.

now for my personal opinions.

i love dr stone so much because the anime is a serious, but not totally serious anime. Theres so many goofy scenes, and there are rare emotional moments. When there are, they arent overly cheesy or monologuey. also because the theme is a sort of fantasy, but its also somewhat relatable in terms of how ppl interact with each other. idk it just feels so real. everyone (EVERYONE) has their own unique personalities and features that differentiate them from each other. (except ahmm 4 some side charctrs)

the story has lots of lighthearted funny moments in every episode, n the humor is nice too. overall i am insane over this and it inspired me so much bc throughout the series senkus whole motto is to try and try and try again. it appeals very much to me bc his problems arent solved by some magical miracle. he works, and individually gathers the tools and ingredients needed for each thing he needs. and not just that, he relies on others, and others rely on him. For me, it teaches a lot of lessons about perseverance. n it feels more impacting even he doesnt do things in a snap. he sometimes finishes things in a week, a month, a day. progress takes time. and any bit of progress, even if its just a little, is still worth it. when conflict happens, he does not aim for the best scenario, but something thats atleast not the worst scenario. aside from that, he also gets nervous, he gets scared, he also gets sentimental, though ull barely notice.

in fact, he inspired me so much ive been getting into astronomy lately. Also, another thing another character taught me in this series is passion. like, pursue what you love, it doesnt have to be some long term passion. even if u feel like u shouldnt, pursue it. lets say uve taken interest in painting, paint as much as you can. never limit the desires of ur heart. tho this character was like, an heir of a huge company, rich asf. but the thing is even when he isnt rich (revived in the stone world. the title of heir means nothing now), he still manages to pursue whatever he wanted. he even says in a q and a, that "everything i did i could do through money. But if you truly love it, youll be able to find a way, even without money!!" and thats true. This type of passion also showed in tsukasas backstory. He trained, for years and years since childhood. he went boxing against full adults as a kid, accepted every interview his way, went to every show. until 18 he did so because he wanted to provide for his hospitalized sister (she was announced clinically braindead). his dad was a unemployed drunkard, and of course he needed money to keep his sister well in the hospital. he wasnt even born strong or anything. he was just an ordinary kid. but from then on he would go to free playground parks at night. hed train and train, and at his age signed himself up for ring fights. hed train hard to win against everyone hes pitted against. Just so he could give his sister gifts, and a nice hospital room.

anyways thats a super big example ramble thats what i think of dr stone yah

[baifengxis]

What are some of your fave cdramas that you would highly rec? I’m looking for something to watch and I would be grateful if you can share some. Thank you!!

Oh, thanks so much for this question, I love recommending cdramas haha!

LEGEND OF FEI [2020] Gotta start with the obvious, because I'll recommend this drama forever even to everyone who has started and can't get into it, I'll always be like, please try again lol It's feminist, fun, feel-good but with very nicely done heavy moments every few episodes, important messages about life and about becoming who you want to be, it has my, at this point, favorite cdrama ship ever, yunfei my beloved!! relationship goals! friendships, funny dynamics, siblings, AMAZING characters and...so much more, I won't continue because I'll never stop lmao

UNEXPECTED [2018] Such an underrated Drama! I don't know why it's so underrated, especially because it's made by the same writer as a very popular drama (The Romance of Tiger and Rose) and the stories are very similar, which I know can be boring but they also have differences that make each drama unique, there's just the same premise of a writer traveling into their own story.

I'VE FALLEN FOR YOU [2020] The perfect rom-com historical drama, with a very fun plot and with plot twists you don't expect, such good characters and two amazing ships! Comfort drama for sure!

THE LOVE BY HYPNOTIC [2019] If you love palace romance, arranged marriage turned true love, a few crazy (but very entertaining) villains and a love story for the ages! Even though it has some very heavy moments, it's one of my comfort dramas as well, because it also includes some VERY FUNNY moments, like I just love dramas that can somehow balance comedy, romance and serious moments so well!

THE QUEEN OF ATTACK [2021] There's so many short dramas nowadays and 80% of them have the same plot of someone traveling into a story lol and yes, this is one of them BUT it's such a good drama like it's insane, I'll wish forever it was a normal length one, but it's still so good, the episodes are 9-10 mins each but there are two seasons, and the episodes have been combined, so eventually it's like having a normal drama with 12 normal length episodes (6 for s1 and 6 for s2). It's so worth it and the two actors are so talented and have such good chemistry, plus the story is unique too, yes this premise has been done many times but I think they still made it so unique and different from others.

THE STARRY LOVE [2023] A recent drama and quite popular, but I'll still recommend it always. Other than the last episode that was a bit disappointing and rushed (still a happy-ish ending though), it's my favorite Xianxia and it was just so good, the story, the cinematography, THE OST, the actors, the ships, the friendships, the sisters, ALL THE WOMEN, youqin literally making all other MLs take notes from him on how to be the best ml out there, so many reasons to watch this drama, just ignore the last part and pretend we saw what they forgot to show us lol

LOVE LIKE THE GALAXY [2022] Where do I even begin??? (This is the first Zhao Lusi drama i recommend in this list, but I just wanna mention, I recommend almost all of them.) Anyway, LLTG is by far my favorite political drama, and non wuxia/xianxia historical cdrama. It's so different and unique, there's literally nothing like it. It's a slow paced drama, with very long scenes (you might only have 3-4 scenes in one episode for example) and it's the reason why It got me a while to get to it, but now I'M SO IN LOVE WITH IT!!! There is not an episode I don't enjoy, it's pure art. Cheng Shao Shang is one of my favorite girls ever and her and Ling Buyi???? I'D DIE FOR THEIR LOVE. Their chemistry is so so so good, now Zhao Lusi can have chemistry with a tree, it's true but still, one of the best cdrama ships out there. Even though I never truly watched classic cdramas like Nirvana on Fire and those "older" ones, I think LLTG somehow is the closest to those except it also loves its characters and focuses on romance more than any older political cdrama did but it works so so well.

LIGHTER AND PRINCESS [2022] Favorite modern drama! I gotta be honest I'm not verrrryyyy into modern cdramas, I like a few, even love some, but generally it's hard to find a modern cdrama I'll go crazy over...but L&P changed that. Or well, it's still hard, maybe even harder now, to find something that tops it, but L&P is just so so good. Again, a quite popular drama, maybe it doesn't need the recommendation, but I have to mention it anyway 'cause it's my baby and I just cannot make a favorite cdramas list without it! Some reasons to watch: One of the best love stories out there, with such good angst and just everything you need on a ship, two main characters so unique that you'll definitely relate to (at least in some aspects), one of the best OSTS ever, perfect cinematography, directing and writing and one of my favorite endings on any show ever!

Some more dramas I recommend but I won't dig deeper (I talked a lot already):

Couple of Mirrors [2021]

Who Rules The World [2022]

Love Between Fairy and Devil [2022]

Young Blood [2019 - S2 starts tomorrow!]

Wait, My Youth [2019]

Zhaoyao/The Legends [2019]

Arsenal Military Academy [2019]

There's probably more but I think that's good for now, I hope I helped you find something to watch and I'm always here for more recs if you want :P <3

[disorganizedkitten]

Bursting Bubbles of Bad Luck Chapter 8

Miraculous Ladybug | 2019 | 1,817 | Ao3 | Prev | Masterlist | Next

November 18th-Frenemies

Dupain-Cheng was watching him again.

 Felix did not know what he had done to get her attention but he wanted to be rid of it. Honestly, it was probably just because he was rich and famous. That was what it tended to be.

 “She doesn’t drool over anyone else in your class,” Plagg pointed out glibly.

 Felix, who had been pretending to read as he tried to spy on her in return, flinched. “Plagg,” he warned.

 “She doesn’t! Maybe she just wants to be friends.”

 Felix scoffed. “I doubt it.” That didn’t happen.

 “Ohh Felix!” Felix shot Plagg a look as though to say ‘this is your fault’. Plagg dove into the bench. Felix looked up at the interloper and smiled like he hated her. He nearly did.

 “Rossi.”

 “I was thinking-” she ran her fingers up his chest, and he shoved them off with contempt. “-maybe we could go get ice cream after class?”

 “Not a chance,” Felix said coldly. Rossi frowned.

 “Are you sure? It could be fun! Or we could go to a museum?”

 “No.”

 “What about-”

 “I’m not going out with you, Rossi.”

 For a moment, she looked like she hated him. Then she smiled and shrugged lightly. “Alright. Let me know if you change your mind.”

 He’s not going to.

 “Girls would bug you less if you had a girlfriend,” Plagg said, poking his head out of the bench. Felix glared.

 “I am fifteen,” he snarled under his breath. “I don’t want a girlfriend.”

 “Just because you’re old-”

 “I am not old!”

 Plagg blinked at him. “Huh. I was sure fourteen was marrying age.” He shrugged and took a bite of cheese. Felix hoped he choked. “Math isn’t my thing.”

 Felix looked over at Lavillant. “Lavillant!”

 She looked up with a smile. “Yes Felix?”

 “Was there a time when people married in their teens?”

 It shouldn’t have been possible, but she lit up. Lavillant’s resting face was The World Is Lovely as an expression instead of a scent, and her smile now was something like The Joy Of Life. It was impressive. Contagious too, as Felix found himself smiling back. “Oh yes! Before medicines and vaccines and hospitals were commonplace, it was very common to marry young. Although in their cases it wasn’t really young- few people would live past their thirties. They’d lived nearly half their life without love!”

 Felix stared. “That sounds terrible.”

 “I know right!” Lavillant squeaked. “Imagine if no one fell in love before they were forty! I’d be so lonely!”

 That wasn’t the part Felix meant, but this conversation was going well so he wasn’t going to clarify.

 “Plus a lot of women died in childbirth, so sometimes men would go through four or more wives before they died,” Dupain-Cheng added.

 “And not all of the babies survived,” Couffaine pointed out quietly. “Labor had a high mortality rate.”

 “I’m so happy we have doctors,” Le Chein said. Felix jumped, having missed him coming in.

 A couple murmurs of assent passed around, and Mme. Bustier walked in.

 Perfect timing.

***

 “What did you get for seven?” Haprele asked.

 “False,” Felix said at the same time as Dupain-Cheng. He glanced at her, and she sent him a cute little smile.

 He hated it.

***

 “Dupain-Cheng, wanna show me that book you were talking about? In the library?”

 Marinette blinked at curseboy. He had never talked to her before, she didn’t think. What was he- oh. His smile was more fixed than usual, and he shot a meaningful glance to the side. Lila was storming up to them.

 “I’d love to, Felix, come on.” She held out her hand and took off, dragging him with her.

 The gloves he wore, that he’d worn the entire semester, were scratchy and worn, like they were trying to fall apart.

 Destruction magic.

***

 “Duck!”

 Dupain-Cheng tackled him. Felix tumbled to the floor under her weight. Above their heads, a beam of terrifying light slammed into the wall. He glanced from it to her face in time to see her blue eyes turn yellow, and then violet when she looked up.

 Just how many sorceressex lived in Paris?

 She climbed off him and offered him a hand up. “You okay?”

 “I’m fine,” he told her shortly. “Thank you. Yourself?”

 She smiled, eyes bleeding back into blue. “I’m fine. But I’m going to go hide now.” She pointed at the hallway. The hallway that had half a wall missing and a rampaging akuma in it. He raised an eyebrow. She flushed.

 Felix rolled his eyes. “I’ll just go hide this way then,” he said lightly. She grinned, a little guilty, but they parted ways. Her odd reaction stayed in his thoughts as he found a corner to transform in. Maybe she was trying to reclaim the akuma? Was that possible?

 “Kid,” Plagg said warningly.

 “Claws out,” Felix murmured. He needed to learn more about magic.

 Something exploded in the courtyard.

 Learning about magic could wait.

***

 “You good, Mari?” Cesaire was asking when Felix entered. He found his eyes drawn to their bench, where Dupain-Cheng was elbow deep in her backpack.

 “Yeah, I’m just trying to find my pen.”

 “Here,” Felix said, dropping one of his onto her desk. She looked up and blushed furiously.

 “Thanks, Felix,” she said. Her eyes didn’t change color.

 “You’re welcome.” Now that he knew it could happen, he was hyperaware of it, and her.

 A part of him hated it, but another part was relieved for the distraction. He was still dusting things, although it didn’t happen for a while after akuma attacks. He probably used up the energy that way- he’d have to ask someone.

***

 Marinette rolled over in her bed, restlessly flicking through her phone. It was late, but she wanted to do something. ADHD was terrible.

The Dead Fandoms Discord - Channel #Magic-Troubles

21:57

Snow Cone King: Can magic… overload?

Coracle Miracle: It can happen but doesn’t often - it’s a repression thing, I think?

 My bedroom is full of little things to transfigure because if I don’t do it on purpose I’ll do it on accident.

 Flutetastic: Blew out someone’s eardrums doing that once.

 Speedster: I crashed into a wall. A lot of walls, actually. Mom says I once broke a window. It’s how they found out I was a sorcerer

 Penny Could Kick Me: How much do you repress your magic?

 That’s terrifying!

 Coracle-Miracle: Ha

Ha

Ha

Haaaaaaaaaaa

 Have you seen Paris? They can’t decide if we’re victims or all working with Hawkmoth

 Snow Cone King: They actually think that?!

 Coracle-Miracle: It’s certainly what people are saying.

 Snow Cone King: That’s reprehensible.

 Coracle-Miracle: Thanks, King.

***

“Oh Felix, there you are!”

 Felix flinched, expecting Rossi to show up again. He’d gotten his parents involved, but she kept at it. The hand that grabbed his was smaller, though, and not followed by an octopus hug for him to shake off. “Hide me,” she hissed into his ear.

 Felix blinked at Marinette. Her eyes were a neon green that looked sickly. He wasn’t sure what that meant but he doubted it was anything good. He forced a smile. “Marinette! I was wondering when you’d get here.”

 “You didn’t say you invited a friend,” Dianora said, sounding betrayed and sad. Felix flinched.

 He knelt down. “I didn’t,” he said softly.

 Marinette let go of his hand. “He’s gone,” she said. “Thank you, Felix. Sorry about the interruption.”

 “Interruption?” Dira asked suspiciously.

 “I don’t have a buddy today,” Marinette admitted, looking straight at Dira. Grudgingly, Felix was impressed. Anyone who could accept children needed talked to as adults had some sense. “So when I noticed someone following me I looked for one instead.”

 Dira squinted, and then looked between them. “Alright. You can stay.”

 Marinette flushed, and jumped. “Oh no! Don’t worry about it, I’ll just wait another few minutes and slip away, I’ll be fine. I just needed to scare him away.”

 “But you’re one of Felix’s friends?”

 “Yes?” Felix wanted to facepalm. Marinette had no idea the trap she was walking into. 

 “So you should stay, and we’ll walk you home after!”

 “What?” Marinette squeaked. “Oh no, no! I’m fine, you obviously already have plans-” 

 Felix rolled his eyes. Could she get any more fidgety? How could anyone stand to be that nice all the time? Someone was going to walk all over her. “Accept it,” Felix said, resigned. “Do you have other plans?”

 “No, I just finished running deliveries for the bakery.”

 “You work at a bakery?”

 “My parents own it,” Marinette said proudly.

 Felix raised an eyebrow. “Interesting. They’re good at it, I assume?”

 “Yes,” Marinette said, a challenge in her gaze. Felix met it evenly.

 “So she’s staying, right?” Dira asked. She tugged on Felix’s hand, and then turned to Marinette. “You are staying?”

 “I- Felix?”

 “We’ll make sure you get home on time. We’re chasing down Andre.”

 Marinette grinned. Her eyes were blue again. “Sounds like a lot of fun. Let me tell my parents where I’ll be.”

 Dira shrieked and bounced.

***

 “Thanks for yesterday,” Marinette said, carefully setting the pen down on Felix’s desk. He looked up at her.

 “You’re welcome.” He said. She could never tell his mood from his tone, it was a bit unsettling. “Just don’t go spreading rumors about us actually dating.”

 Marinette puffed up, offended. “I would never!”

 He scrutinized her for a moment, and Marinette wasn’t sure if her internal tirade on how unjust that would be was happening aloud too. He reached out and pushed the pen back towards her. “I’ll be your distraction, or excuse, whenever you need one, if you’ll do the same.”

 Marinette drew up short. “I- uh, sure?”

 He smirked and nudged the pen in her direction again. “Take it. Then we’ll always have an excuse to talk.”

 She smiled, relaxing. “Thank you, Felix.”

 “Don’t mention it,” he said, picking up his book again. “Seriously, don’t.” He wasn’t even looking at her.

 Marinette prepared to leave, but a gasp and thud drew her attention instead. She spun, and found Felix glaring at his hands. His gloves were gone, and the edges of the book were blackened.

 Marinette reached forward before she was aware of it, changing the ash back to its previous form. “Here. I don’t-” she looked at the pile of dust that had been his gloves and grimaced. “I don’t think I can fix those, I’m sorry.”

 He was looking at her askance. Marinette grimaced, curling in on herself. He’d been cursed- it would make sense if he didn’t like or trust magic and mages. Add in that Hawkmoth showed up soon after and her magic residue was still purple…

 “Don’t worry about it,” Felix said softly, pulling another pair of gloves out of his bag. “Thank you, for the book.”

 Marinette smiled again, although it was a little smaller this time. Softer. “Don’t mention it.”