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....you really didn't read my post carefully, did you l.
First of all, I think though in the beginning that yes, Eliot is pro-state, which is why he doesn't punch cops. But knowing that they wanted his dad to be Black since season 1 of the OG series? That changed my perspective a little. Eliot beat up military personnel, agents, etc. Just not cops. He specifically said NOT COPS.
You also completely misinterpreted that sentence. I never said Eliot GAVE anyone the talk, rather that he either heard it from his parents directly or indirectly.
And if you think the showrunners are pro cops, you have ENTIRELY missed John Rogers' Twitter history. That man hates cops and the government. You also missed everything in the show that calls out cops, military, governments, and federal agencies as complete shit.
Maybe the use of "Good Boy" was a mistake. I probably should have said "Good Kid". It was never intended as anything sexual. I'm on the ace spectrum, that shit doesn't occur to me like that often.
I'm not putting him under any sort of white liberal progressiveness. The only way I can think you think I did is because of your one misreading of a sentence. I did not fetishize his family. I'm not even sure you know what that word means.
Please learn to read more carefully, both on Tumblr and the media you consume. You might not get as angry if you stop misreading things.
Well, a realization just hit me. Don't know if this is true of not, I don't remember the timing.
Eliot said he didn't hit cops in the OG show. Well now that makes sense. His dad is Black. What do Black parents teach their kids when it comes to dealing with the cops? Part of The Talk. Just do as they say, not that that always work.
He would have at least heard that talk with other foster kids, or teammates, if not given it himself.
And why would he stick to that? Because his dad was upset with him and he was still trying to be a Good Boy in one way.
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Even if I haven't been very active lately, 9 years is still pretty significant- happy birthday to the blog!
So like Percy up there I'm gonna do so dome reflecting. This blog's where I've often done that for some reason, but here's the tl'dr for blog related stuff.
• I would like to keep drawing stuff but feeling generally unsure in myself, and I'm wondering if all the years of fandom harrassment have caught up with me • I have one big project in mind, I've been dipping my toe into what I'd need to do it. No spoilers but it was one of the first things I played around with this series, so do with that what you will • If I can keep myself drawing, I want to use more of the original source material since I'm struggling with original ideas. So stuff like redraws, hOpEfULlY even animatics, just like what originally got me so into trains yknow? Because that's fun and sparks joy. And that always goes down a treat with you guys so bonus • As always I appreciate you guys not coming after me for being so inconsistent
The rest of this is me doing what Percy's doing in the drawing and reflecting, as there is indeed much 2 think about. It's also a little sad and venty so, there's your warning there.
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Ok so obviously a busy year, we moved into our new house that we actually own, I spent most of the year planning our wedding, and then got married. Big stuff. Also! I came off antidepressants in the summer. I've been on them for...basically as long as this blog, 6 months after I started it I think. Which also means I'd been on antidepressants my entire adult life. Feels like a big deal and I guess I'm still adjusting.
Another big thing, but sad, is that my dog died about two weeks ago. If you follow me on twitter you'll have seen her but she did make an appearance here a few Halloweens ago
I got her when she was 13 and had her 8 years after that. So that's been difficult. Unrelated to that (probably), but I just feel...really mediocre. And before you point out the obvious, this has been present even before I came off antidepressants. But yeah just... mediocrity. In myself as a person, how I look, what I draw, my whole life really (barring my marriage thankfully). What have I achieved? I'm 26, I'm not working, I don't feel well, my art isn't good (I don't think so anyway- like yeah it's technically fine I guess but it's not, and has never been, very stand-out or impressive). And lately art doesn't bring me the same joy it once did, and I'm wondering if all the years of harrassment from this fandom (mostly the twitter side, tumblr's been pretty good to me) has finally caught up with me and put me off the whole thing. Or worse, that I just don't have as much of an interest in it anymore. I don't think I'll ever be like "ok yep I'm officially done with this blog" because I'm so stubborn but idk. I want to make things and be creative, I want to make more train art, but it doesn't feel the same. I don't know what's wrong. What do you listen to? What you want vs what you feel? I still enjoy train stuff, I love going to Awdry Ex every year. It's been like this for awhile. It's not even like I have a strong feeling of what I'd rather be doing as far as careers go. And even if I did, oh yeah I'm sure my two degrees in animation will be very relevant in another field (sarcasm). I feel adrift. My sails are open but there is just no wind. Planning my wedding gave me something to do and work on and just, feel useful but now that that's over I feel lost again. Losing my dog, who had become the center of my life because of how vulnerable she had become, hasn't helped.
On the more creative side of things, I also don't really know what to do with this blog's story either. The show's ended as far as most people are concerned, and I kiiinda wrote myself into a corner because once Thomas turns 18 he's going to leave for university, and that sets off this whole arc with James but basically the problem is it involves characters leaving and for some reason that feels like a no-no here. Don't get me started on the timeline lol. But Thomas works on a railway on Sodor, that's how it has to be...right? I guess I'm sort of at a crossroads of, ok do I want this to be close to the source material, and thus easily digestible to newcombers? Or do I want to make it more and more my thing and distanced from the source material? I doubt there's many new people coming since the series ended. And even then, there's a lot more humanization artists around now than when I started, so it's not like I'm filling a niche anymore. Just to be clear it's fine and also good that there's more humanization artists, variety is good, I just don't feel as "needed" anymore (which is 100% in my head and not an actual role that belongs to me or something). I started this blog when I was 17, so my interests and what I relate to have changed obviously. The character designs certainly have. It's never followed a super rigid story plan, but the core of it has always been the central cast doing things on Sodor. I however have always had a scene/project/animatic/whatEver in mind for when this 'series' would '''officially''' ''''end''''. But then what comes after that? I've always tried to run this blog like they are Real People that You interact with. But in real life there is no ending to the story, there's always more stuff to come. You get married, and it's wonderful, and then life goes on. The credits never roll. So maybe that's what I'm having trouble coping with...the progression of time. Ah, my old nemesis. I've always had trouble with letting go of things. There's nothing to say that I couldn't still draw stuff after the series "ends". I guess any story after Thomas leaves could be like... a sequel series or a spin off or something. Spin-off of a spin-off. Famous 8 All Grown Up. Famous 8 Qurter Life Crisis. Who knows. I certainly don't.
I've also been really into an original project unrelated to this but those don't get as much attention and while I'd like to do something with it one day, I don't feel very confident in being able to make that happen right now. But you know... as far my as art not being super spectacular goes... I think my individual talent has always been is my ideas, like the writing side of things. And then brought to life with my art, which normally isn't anything to write home about but is good enough to convey the idea and be not-awful to look at, lifts both of them beyond what they were individually. Maybe that's what I should focus on. Maybe that's wishful thinking.
So....idk. Idk what I'm doing but I'm trying to be gentle on myself and just let myself continue to drift, to heal from this heavy loss, and then in the New Year I'll try and pick myself up. Then there will be no more big once-in-a-lifetime events coming up, no more just-moved-into-a-house-and-oh-no-there's-a-bunch-of-things-that-need-attention-NOW scenarios, and no more big holidays for awhile. I guess we'll see.
If you read all of this I am so sorry but also thank you for reading my ramblings. And thank you for being around, whether that's been for a few months or for several years, but especially if it's been several years
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Grr grr thinking about my con stand fr im so hyped (I will have to wait a year for it)
#GRAHH i jsut wanna be silly#big things coming fr#thinking of like rebranding myself for it even tho it doesnt matter#pyrechimera#x1702x#it both works#pyrechimera is how im mostly known but x1702x is my current lil serial number#feeling like a lab rat#teehee#i just liked the numbers for the aesthetic#what i get scared of is like#pulling up w my stand and people going “Oh I know you! I saw your [stupid drawing i made] on tumblr”#its unlikely#i think i should expand my social medias#since i only posess tumblr#sorry i HATE twitter#and idk how insta works well#but i'll try weeehh#i used to have a twitter but i gave up on it#if yall see _x1702x_ there thats me and my account is DEAD#soooo teehee#sorry too many tags#the crypt opens once again
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Quackity: Oh, it's gonna be so cool to see how this develops. I'm excited, I'm gonna try my best. I'm not the greatest at Minecraft whatsoever, I did nerf Green Team a little bit by accident on the second day. My bad! But, you know, I'm so ready to just grind out and see what we can do, and I just–
I wish everyone saw it with the same amount of, like, kind of enthusiasm. I think all of this and all the development and all the potential arcs, that's going to fcking allow for something absolutely incredible.
And if anyone ends up clipping any of this, something I do want to say is I implore people to view everything with a lot of enthusiasm. No stress, no anxiety, just a lot of enthusiasm. Because, again, this is going to allow for a lot of cool things in the server. Not just now, but in the future, too.
#Quackity#OiBagi#QSMP#QSMP Purgatory#Purgatory#Green Team#Bagi#Alright last one for tonight I got things to do#But Quackity did say ''if anyone clips any of this'' so I wanted to make sure I shared that final message he gave everyone#Because I agree!#I know fandoms can be toxic and people can have POV brainrot#But I hope everyone is still able to remember the reasons why they love QSMP so much#and I hope they're still able to find enjoyment -- if not with the event itself then with your streamers#I personally wasn't a fan of the Debate part of the Election Arc#But I still enjoyed myself because the people I watched made it funny or they poked fun at it or they avoided it completely#Don't be afraid to block people or mute / block tags or anything#And for the love of god stop using Twitter if you can#I've significantly reduced my usage (even though I love seeing fanart -- though many fanartists are moving to Tumblr; which is nice)#I primarily use it to keep up with the update accounts and see what the CCs are up to#But anyways. Take care of yourselves guys. The toxic people can be loud but they are just a very vocal (very annoying) minority#Love and enthusiasm is always the majority. After all; that's why we're here in the first place!
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why must everything that the text clearly states atp be misconstrued like i really dont get it he has plenty of flaws in that relationship but we, and cersei, know that he was ready to kill robert for just the disrespect of the cheating if cersei said the word. he doesnt concern himself with the personal consequences, he is reckless, detached from a lot of things, and can close his eyes at the future if he doesn’t want to acknowledge it. also the concern over the “shame” and ned type judgement feels so overestimated to me atp. he never regrets aerys, he is mad at how he is perceived (but again, notably doesnt try to rectify it by telling the truth for a lot of complex reasons), but he would never take it back. if he believes its the right thing to do, and is not overdosing on copium trying to juggle vows he cares about, he will do it, reputation be damned. though he has selfish concerns regarding being viewed as good, the internal matters so much more than the external: see weirwood dream: who actually shows up? what makes the fire go out? “it was not him. it was never him”, see the trebuchet fiasco, see the choice in adwd. why shouldnt we take cersei at face value when she implies that if jaime knew about the physical abuse he would have killed him? he loves and cares about cersei to an insane degree, even if he can be selfish toxic and unhealthy too. not to mention he would be glad to kill robert anyway lol. i really find it very very difficult to imagine that he wouldnt have killed him based on almost every single part of his characterization.
#ik its better to reply than to do this but i dont use my twitter for fandom and i keep seeing this general sentiment over and over again#like it makes him so inconsistent and nonsensical#i don’t understand this whole jaime was never there for cersei prehandloss he was at her disposal for almost everything he would have maime#a child just bc she asked like what???#u think that wouldnt have shamed him??#he gave up almost everything for her at 15#and im gonna be real if u r frustrated by jaime burning the letter being framed as this grand triumphant redemptive choice#by people#which i get i dont think its framed like that either#its just as unfair to treat it as the opposite#it is the end of a certain delusion#which is why the joanna dream is the focal point#and#he can divorce himself he has no obligation to die to try save her atp#and remain her sword#i dont see him as the literal devil for that sorry#i feel like some of u feel the need to misconstrue his character to make some of these choices out to be as bad as possible
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i had a bunch of those fangames played for me ages back and unfortunately my general impression was that they were kind of needlessly complicated without actually having much flavour to the characters themselves. most of the designs aren't particularly distinct or memorable either so it's just. it just kinda ends up an unsatisfying meal. also most of the music is kinda whatever i gotta be real
#a lot of them also have the issue of having Way Too Many Characters which definitely doesn't help with. y'know. distinct characterisation#the last one i remember being played for me was the bird one with the twitter gag which drove me nuts bc of the misremembered egyptian myth#just straight up the wrong god that that happened to. it can't be that hard to double check that. it drives me to madness#but also the last comer gave us iesua nazarenus so it's impossible to say if it's bad or not#but yeah the only characters i remember now are like. iesua. mumumu. abe no kiyohime
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i'm not saying "i saw this coming" in an "i told you so" way but more than i happened to remake my account earlier this year so i ended up getting the "new user" experience and it seems pretty clear they were using new users as guinea pigs for their non-chronological following dashboard. and it sucks. you have to switch your dashboard over to "following" every time you refresh and there's no way to change the default to following. they said they were working on adding a way to change your default dashboard but i was always pretty damn skeptical of that given they went to the effort to making things DIFFERENT for newer accounts like, that does not show good intentions that shows going after people who don't know that they could have a better experience. and now they're trying to push it onto older users too, which was clearly always the plan. maybe i should've made more of a fuss but... honestly.... I am not a blogging warrior i am a sleepy insect. i just want to use tumblr to talk to friends and look at cool art and the weird dashboard stuff on my new account definitely gets in the way of that. basically the main feature that still makes tumblr worthwhile is our desktop blogs and the ability to sort and search posts using tags through someone's archive. but they're probably going to want to take that away too.
#Unfortunately i find cohost kind of obnoxious it feels like people press this idea of like ''responsibility to make a site better than twitt#er'' like culturally but i never used twitter much and it just feels weird and kind of oppressive atmosphere that everyone needs to post#''in good faith'' and i just think maybe i get different things out of websites than the crowd over there bc i really don't get it.#i don't really feel like i join websites to be part of a collective culture im just there for my interests and friends and i have like mayb#three friends on there so i just feel like i'm standing in the corner and sort of gave up on posting because i wasn't seeing much of what i#was interested in happening there. But i guess it could still make a good gallery website it would just suck to reupload everything i've#posted to my tumblr art blog on there especially the older stuff that doesn't feel representative of me but still like to have because it's#nice to be able to trace back my artistic development#ALSO their post backgrounds are bright white with no way to change it as far as i've seen so that's also a big minus
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Do you like any other social media app besides Tumblr?
I watch YouTube a lot but I dont know if that counts as social media? I really don't use any social media these days except tumblr to post things myself
#i use tumblr and i use media tracking ones like letterboxd and goodreads#i used to use twitter and instagram but after deleting my insta a few times i couldnt seem to log in anymore and just gave up#also twitter was the same#i have tiktok just to binge watch some faves like hellotefi every couple months as well#OH and discord which i use very sporadically as well#ask#anon#p
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some backlog of scuffed art to commemorate our dear overlord’s return \o/
#millie parfait#nijisanji en#drawmillie#hi allow me to ramble in tags bc i find that sm more comfortable than on twitter LMFAO#i drew the first one on my sib's ipad and it was so fun ahhahahh im not used to drawing on a tablet as well as on such a responsive program#such as procreate so i had a bit of trouble navigating#my dream is to just. own a graphic tablet one day i want to LEARN#that said the next two drawings are so OLDD wanted to finish them to celebrate millie coming back! but i struggled sm w lineart i gave up-#on coloringkjahkhfkajh#but its okay <3 have u watched her kikuo concert btw#if not what the fuck are ytou doing with your life go watch it right now you cretin
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i’ve really been an army for over six years huh. i’ve been an army for almost a third of my life
#i was 15 when i discovered them. jk was fucking 19 and now i’m 21 and hes turning 26 like i’ve actually grown up with them#i’m so excited and impatient for the future with them but im also sad for all the experiences i had as a baby army that i can never get back#my first year as an army was almost entirely on tumblr and the community used to be so big and social and just. so much fun#even my first couple years on army twt feel so nostalgic now. there were bad things of course but also so many great things#i just feel so lucky to have lived through these last few years with them and i never want to lose those feelings#aeron.txt#it’s so cliche but there really are so many things that you just had to be there for#the struggle of joining their fancafe (i definitely gave up after the first few tries)#the first bangtan bomb they added closed captions to (and when they took them away as punishment for spreading an exclusive fancafe video)#(i still hold that video of the tannies taking turns kissing taehyung so very close to my heart)#their first ever bbma. their first performance at the amas#the creation of bt21#the post-concert vlives during tours#bon voyage to look forward to every summer#jimin’s silent twitter videos#we’ve consistently gotten so much from them and i’m so happy for all that we’re continuing to get#i never want to seem like i think the old days were ‘better’ or like i’m not just as grateful for what they give us now#i just get so nostalgic and melancholy when i think of all the things that we don’t get to experience anymore#i was so young and going through some of my most formative years and it’s such a unique feeling to have grown up alongside bts#i’m still growing up with them. so much of what they taught me years ago is only now showing up in the decisions i make about my life#god i love them so much i love them so so so much
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An option to go live? Does @staff not know us? We’re scrolling in our dungeons, content with likes from our fav 10 strangers — strangers we happen to have known for an alarming amount of time w/o knowing their first name…. But they think we wanna go live?
#Have fun to whomever this feature is for#And if it’s for the Twitter users I call bull bc Twitter had that space thingy and everyday we’re arguing till it crashed so hard ppl eithe#Gave up or grew stronger then the system 💀#We are introverts damnit! And those of us who aren’t understand the vibe here#thoughts
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#hes so sad and pathetic :(#dreamwastaken#you'll never guess what comes up when you start to type 'dream an' on twitter#I have so many penguins on my laptop rn#at least jimmy beast gave us this
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the most fun part of being trans is that after you come up with a few names for yourself, you'll start thinking but what if i made up a surname too
#wl26#i never did quite succeed at that...#like my wip idea for years have been stevenson#because#when i was a kid i made this oc / minecraft sona named smetana (russian word for sour cream)#and its like. smit for short#then that turned into smith#which in turn turned into steve bc haha funny bc similar#and so when i got a twitter and had to put a name in my bio#one of the first ones i used was stevenson. like just as a straight up name gkdjfnd#but i didnt have any online friends back then so nobody called me that so i gave it up <3#i probably wont stick with it but just a fun lil bit of willy lore for u guys
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i’m going to try to be more active on tumblr because of the way twitter’s going, just a heads up
#im not sure if i will actually 'be more active' but ive been stayin off of twitter bc like#seein a lot of transphobic shit trend and also just .. the general Bad Direction twitter has been going thru#makes me just not want to use it as much#ive been off it for a bit and honestly i think its been workin somewhat well??#tumblr feels a lot more comfy tbh#it feels weird to just make random text posts now#also uh. extra random heads up but im gonna be postin fanart for random ass things#i feel like theyre random bc i havent really expressed interest on here but i did mention some of it on twitter#for example i have a hades fanart im working on#i also have some hermitcraft doodles which. might come out of left field but yeah#honestly i got slightly into traffic life series because of the fanart and a bit of hermitcraft because of the fanart#i feel like its kinda really out of left field for me but i did make mcyt art before#oh yeah since im rambling i just wanna mention. hermitcraft/life series fanart SLAP so hard. who gave the fanartists the right#thats why i got into it in the first place. i love browsing the fanart of them bc theyre so good#i feel like im more of a fan of the fanart more than the actual thing#i just feel like. my interests are so fuckin random. and they dont go together at all#we got... hades game (kinda) mp100 and then hermitcraft/life series like WHAT#i think the one thing they have in common is that theyve offered some great distraction for my shit brain when ive been going Through It#still coping a bit with my mental state and how things got there but im. gettin better i think#seriously its been a while since the bad stuff happened and yet im still. dealing with it. it SUCKS#i wanna make a new text tag but idk what it should be#ill figure it out later. i think
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Btw updated that meme, so new version with two arts is here.
Finally, second art for monsterfucker meme! Version without braided cheese on twitter.
#nsft#monster fucker#orc#terato#aaaand next is the werewolf but also i'm cooking the last one which is free space#and i chose my fav monster probably#well#among other ones#no one reads those but i won't say who it is anyway gkfjgdkfg#also i gave up on mermay kinda#cause work is killing me but i'll draw some prompts later anyway cause they gave me IDEAS#and ideas MUST be drawn#monster lover#i hate that i have to use twitter for uncensored versions cause honestly i'm so used to tumblr and i love it#but also don't wanna get banned so yea#cheesy art
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hey i have a bluesky now!!
#follow me :D#i have no idea how to use it tho#(only had twitter once for like 3 months and gave up on it years ago)#bluesky social
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