#i use it for references when im crocheting

[fruit-snacker]

Are they at least gonna update the website ooooorr.....

[grubcakes]

If u don't mind would u like to share 8 of your juiciest ludwig von koopa Headcanons with me pweez 😁

HIEEE IM SO SORRY IM JUST RESPONSING TO RHIS ..., i had a response written when u sent ir and then my tumblr bugged out and got rid of it so i got mad and pretended it didnt exist. IM SO SORRYYY AHHH YES I CAN DO THIS!!

💙 ⊹₊ ⋆ Ludwig is Autistic. Because I am!! He also has BPD.. BECAUSE I DO!!! whoopee!!! He doesn't especially like being touched by people and hasn't since he was Firstborn. Every time somebody touches him, he says "Touching." in a very crabby tone (bee and puppycat reference) and stares at them until they stop touching him. Cicada is exempt from this both because he likes them and because they have soft hands so it's ok. He has a special interest in music as a whole and loves composing his own pieces!!... Many of which are unfinished because he has big boy work to take care of, and because he keeps making more. He is organized with everything but his own music ... what a goober

🎼 ⊹₊ ⋆ Lore dump for context..... Bowser made a deal with this goddess lady because she doesn't like peach (lore reasons, please ask me about it) and the deal is to capture her yadda yadda ... In exchange for his compliance, the goddess gave him the seven rainbow kids (Koopalings!! wao) so that they could assist him in his mission. Bowser, now with this new stressful mission, ended up shoving Junior in Ludwig's hands..... for a while, Ludwig was Junior's primary caretaker while Bowser was stressing over the mission and other things, and he Hated it. This was pre-transition, so Junior would call Ludwig 'mini-mama' which he hated even more. While Ludwig doesn't hold any grudges against Junior for obvious reasons, he still feels weird if he has to take care of him for any reason. (Also, Junior's favorite sibling is Ludwig.. for obvious reasons!)

🪼 ⊹₊ ⋆ All of the Koopalings and Junior watch my little pony because its goated. Ludwig's favorite is Rarity (obvious, I know).. not because they have similar personalities, but because she has impeccable fashion sense. She also mildly inspired his little interest in sewing, an interest he carries that he'd never admit to anybody but Cicada. He sewed some of the outfits they wore when they were considered a 'captive'. (He would like to get into crocheting, maybe.)

🎧 ⊹₊ ⋆ In public, he obviously likes to keep a posh and professional appearance. He rarely smiles, always looks straight ahead, never breaking eye contact when speaking (which unnerves people sometimes)... And hides his real laugh. The fake laugh he shows people is very quiet, think of like... a "hmhmhm-" or liek silverspoon from III. Buuut, if you show him something real funny, and you're not in front of anyone else........ "PFFOHOHO!!(๑`▽´๑)" !!!! (if youre in public, he tries to hold it in and he sounds like he is choking)

💠 ⊹₊ ⋆ I already kinda stated he is trans two facts ago but he is trans. His hair used to be entirely white and a little less coily and kinda droopier.... He was very sad before he transitioned. He would isolate himself much more than he does now, to the point where he wouldn't eat for days at a time sometimes. He was also much crabbier. He had frequent episodes that would result in isolation or worse (s/h) and one day he ended up exploding and having a meltdown in front of Iggy and Iggy's response was to promptly knock him out and give him both top and bottom surgery and pump him full of hormones which made him sick for like a week!!!! He obviously recovered nicely, though- he stopped isolating as much and began EATING YAY!!!.!.@?@?. After he went on hormones his hair started to turn blue. Why? lunno. Sometimes he gets a white hair every now and again (from stress) and he very quickly plucks it because 1. He's scared he'll look like how he used to and 2. Не doesn't wanna get old and wrinkly. Even tho him and Iggy have a complex rivalry brotherhood type thing going on, he will forever hold Iggy in high mental regards for playing doctor that day.

🖤 ⊹₊ ⋆ I'm sure this is a very common headcanon for him (i know it is but IDC!!) Him and Wendy are gossip buddies. They have stupid nicknames for each other to let each other know its gossip time (DeeDee and Wiggy). Obviously they hate these nicknames, but hey!! its fun. Ludwig also gets weirded out when others call him Wiggy. Roy is on thin ice because she calls him Wigzy, which is just one letter off.

🦋 ⊹₊ ⋆ Another common one obviously buuut ,,, He can play Many instruments!!! Piano, trumpet, tuba, organ, violin, viola, and saxophone. How does he get the time for all of it?? who knows!!! (he has occasional 3-am moments in his studio) ... also he wants to learn more. Cicada will eventually teach him Kalimba and Harp and this other instrument i created that doesn't have a name yet!!

🐦‍⬛ ⊹₊ ⋆ He is Romantically complicated. He's a gay man which is like semirelated butANYWAY like .... He reads romance because he feels like he has no time to feel romantic feelings. But at the same time he thinks romance is dumb and would probably waste his time, but then he also really wants to know what it's like to kiss somebody and be romantic and stuff. But also hates touching and being touched but he wants to be held. (Cue Cicada♡) He's just very complicated!!! (After he developes his weird little feelings for Cicada he feels gross and weird sometimes because he's like wow this is so weird. what is going on. why. i wanna kiss him. im gonna hurl)

THANK YOU IM SO SORRY I DIDNT RESPONS TO THIS SOONER OWJEKSBSS..,., YAYAYAYAYYY

[bluedeedeedoop]

Hello I bring you some Barrissoka ask game questions!

6,9,10,13,21,22,34,41,43, 45, 49, and 50

You don’t have to answer all of them if you don’t want to ;)

OHOHO U BET IMMA ANSWER THEM ALL MWAHAHHA 6.) Whose Master is more likely to walk in on them in a compromising position? ANAKIN. 100% ANAKIN. he sometimes forgets how to knock so like he barges in Ahsoka's quarters like "hey snips i ju- oH KRIFF-" I can see it all. also found this barrissoka mini comic thing on insta thats rlly funny with that just lmk if u want it^^ 9.) Ahsoka’s favorite thing about Barriss. HER VOICEEEEEE its just so soothing to her! The times Barriss will go on ranting sprees about anything or when Barriss is trying to explain something to her she just like *Intensely gay staring but nodding her head along* 10.) Barriss’s favorite thing about Ahsoka I would have to say probably how forward she can be! For Barriss, I imagine being able to come forward and tell Ahsoka things on her own can be very hard, but when prompted by Ahsoka, it usually helps her begin to explain things better! Also Ahsoka is there to help her find the right words <3 12.) What is something about Barriss that drives Ahsoka crazy? PrOBAbly the amount of time she spends in the archives LMAODSJK Ahsoka just wants to do fun fluffy stuff (or not who knows) and Barriss is just like "bAbe iM rEaDiNG hArrY pOttER aNd tHE prISOnER oF azKabAN, whAT dO yOu wAnt?" JNMDBFJ 21.) Whose more likely to initiate intimacy first? ohoho i gotta say it depends on the timing. A lot of times, it's Ahsoka but Barriss is quick to follow though it makes her gay panic a LOT. And then there's the few times Barriss is just had enough that day and is like "jusT COME OVER HERE BEFORE I KRIFFING MURDER YOU" (she doesn't mean it ofc, they both establish boundaries on what's okay and what's not <3)

22.) Whose the “top” and whose the “bottom” or do they switch? OKOK so i believe it is majority of the time Ahsoka on top and Barriss on bottom, but i do believe they switch quite a lot. I can also see them both taking turns as power bottoms (again, depending on timing as referred to in prev question) 34.) Whose more likely to get jealous if someone made a pass on their partner? OKAY SO BARRISS- but she won't show it. like she'll be VERY passive aggressive but just INTERNALLY FUMING while she tries to ground herself. Ahsoka i feel like would also be pretty pissed, but be more straight forward about it, therefore the anger wont be pent up like Barriss's would. HOPE THAT MAKES SENSE^^ 41.) Are there any kinks? y e e eeeeeeeee e e e e e eee e e e e e es yes. mhm.

IDK IF YALL WANT ME TO LIST THEM BUT YOU GUYS CAN ASK ME AB THEM AT SOME POINT IDC I JUST- YEAH. 43.) When they're old, who would be the sweet knitting "tweety bird" granny and who would be the baseball bat wielding "get off my lawn" granny? Oh for SURE Barriss will be the tweety bird granny, i can see her loving to knit and crochet. LMAOJKDF I CAN SEE AHSOKA BEING LIKE "GET THE FUCK OFF MY DAMN LAWN YOU FUCK TROPHIES!" 45.) Share your Barrissoka headcanon. Ahsoka sends Barriss stuff while she's on deployment and Barriss collects them and keeps them. She carries at least something Ahsoka's sent her with her at all times. They are so cute they make me wanna die <3<3 49.) What nicknames if any would they give each other? Oh Ahsoka has definitely tried giving Barriss cringe worthy nicknames/petnames and she was just not having it, which Ahsoka found extremely rude.(She would pretend to get offended but it was actually her just messing with Barriss). They both settle for the normal "sweetheart, sweetie, hun, babe" kinda shit ykyk. Barriss does sometimes use just "'Soka" tho cuz why the fUCK not?

50.) What are some songs/quotes/poems/stories/movies that make you think of Barrissoka? ALRIGHTY SO-

I have a whole ass Barrissoka playlist on spotify (which i have linked here at some point) for this purpose. here are some of the ones have cried to thinking about them the most:

"Skeleton Song" By Kate Nash (IM ACTUALLY MAKING AN ANIMATIC WITH THIS ONE "Don't speak" By No Doubt (I saw it in an edit once i cried multiple times) "Me gustas tu" By Manu Chao (Look it was a scrap idea for the human au fic but it's all i think of when I hear this song) "Training Wheels" By Melanie Martinez (for uh.....certain times) "The Contortionist" By Melanie Martinez (FOR UH... CERTAIN TIMES) "Lost on you" By LP (LITERALLY THE ONE THAT TRIGGERS THE MOST TEARS!! also saw in an edit-)

IF YOU MADE IT THROUGH THIS WHOLE THING I THANK YOU AND ALSO APOLOGIZE FOR ANY BRAIN CELLS U MAY HAVE LOST DUE TO MY EXPLANATIONS :D AGAIN THANK U SM FOR THE ASK!!! <3<3

[the-november-system]

Hello, I’m M, and hello to our blog.

This is for our system. We have recently been diagnosed with DID. we have very little understanding of official terms and things because of this. We’re still learning about what being a system is. Please don’t treat us poorly for this reason.

I (M speaking) , am the host.

This blog is just a place for me and everyone else to hang out and feel like we can share social media together and stuff without secrets. This is a part of myself nobody else knows about and we all intend to keep it that way. This is anonymous for that reason.

Below are bio’s for all of us. Everyone at this time wanted to be included. They wrote their own descriptions (minus click who doesn’t like to really talk, I wrote it for them.)

M: Main host, does a majority of the fronting. I am usually gonna be the one responding and doing things.

Pronouns: They/Them

Likes: Tea, drawing, Crochet, transformers

Dislikes: Flying bugs, overstimulation, confrontation

Niki: Hello, I am Niki :-) I'm the oldest individual within the system. I don't really front by myself, but I will do so from time to time. M tells me that I appear as a Guardian Angel to others, but I see myself more as just an assistant than something so grand. M seemed excited to have us all write down this Bio, so i was happy to do so. Thank you for reading.

Pronouns: He/Him

Likes: vintage aesthetics, naps, asmr, meditation

Dislikes: Maybe long work days? The others seem stressed by those which of course worries me.

Winslow: Hello everyone! The name’s Winslow, I'm not quite sure what to put here, so i guess i’ll just describe my interests? I'm super into dad rock, and love to have jam sessions while I clean and stuff. I'm also a sucker for Cozy games. The others find it funny that a tough guy like me enjoys some animal crossing, but hey, this guy knows what he likes! I'm also a lover of customization, pins, patches, piercings, ect. If I can make myself stand out I would like to do it! I aint livin my life as the color beige.

Pronouns: He/Him

Likes: Animal Crossing, Stardew Valley, patches and pins and stickers

Dislikes: idiots on the road, hypocrites

Note: Winslow is proudly trans, FTM.

Click: Click is almost entirely non-talking. For the longest time, Click was very protective of their form, not showing themselves to anybody, but recently they drew themselves as a cloaked clown. Click communicates through noises, flapping, and only when necessary, speaking. They are able to, but it causes great discomfort. Click is able to clean and do tasks, but generally only enjoys fronting when alone. They’re very shy. Click commonly fronts when I need a break, and is great at self -care and soothing everyone else, however, they do struggle to soothe themself.

Pronouns: They/Them, or just refer to them by their name

Likes: colorful object, stim toys, liminal spaces, exploration, ambient music

Dislikes: speaking, loud sounds

Note: Click does want to be included in this, there is always a possibility they will want to be removed, but as of right now they were excited and enthusiastic on being included.

Melody: hi!!! I’m melody✨💕 I am a lover of all things pink, i'm a bit of a y2k girlie but i also like other stuff as well, i'm also super into Crochet like M, and i've been making such cute stuff and it's making me so dang happy! Ooh and i also like Godzilla, a weird one but I’m not gonna let someone stop me 💁‍♀️

Pronouns: She/Her

Likes: Godzilla, Pink, Space, Crochet

Dislikes: Looking like a man

Flora: Hello, I'm flora 🌼 im kind of new to the system, but am happy to be here. I am a lover of nature, and am a spiritual person, believing in nature and its many gifts. I'm an eclectic witch (Me and M share this trait.), though we’re both new to this path. I will admit i'm a bit shy, but would love to try and be a bit more adventurous so feel free to say hello :)

Pronouns: She/ They

Likes: Flowers, green, the beach, candles

Dislikes: Catholicism/ Christianity (it's not necessarily a trigger but i don't like to talk about this, thank you :) ), Soda

Timothy: Sup I'm Tim. I don't get to be on here a lot because I'm not as “pretty” on paper as the others, so I'm honestly kinda surprised I was allowed to write this but whatever. I'm into horror movies and Metal music. I like hoodies too, my favorite color’s are blue and red. I also enjoy taking walks, I can be a bit of a hothead so it's nice to take a walk and get some fresh air.

Yeah I'm not that interested, but thanks for reading.

Pronouns: He/Him

Likes: Horror movies, Metal music, poetry, walks

Dislikes: Assholes

Thank you for reading everything!

[solar-halos]

tag game: 15 questions for 15 friends

name of the game (aka the rules): Answer 15 questions, tag 15 friends!

thank you for the tag @thelettersfromnoone <3

Are you named after anyone?

my moms hs bestie lol

When was the last time you cried?

a couple hrs ago but that’s just cos i cry rlly easily

Do you have kids?

not yet

What sport do you play / have played?

basketball, softball, cross country, dance, cheer, soccer (soccer will remain my one true love)

Do you use sarcasm?

never (lol)

What’s the first thing you notice about people?

hair probably

What's your eye color?

brown

Scary movies or happy endings?

happy endings! <3

Any talents?

i’m a master hula hooper

Where were you born?

from my mother

What are your hobbies?

reading, crocheting, scrapbooking. i’ve been wanting to get into embroidery and knitting but that’s abt it. would love some hobby recs tho i’ve heard jewelry making is lit

Do you have any pets?

no </3

How tall are you?

haters will say not very

Favorite subject in school?

history

Dream job?

recently i’ve been thinking that it might be pretty cool to be edward cullen except that instead of repeating hs id just keep attending college and never have to worry abt money bc the volturi have me covered. but then again maybe i wouldn’t go to college maybe id just travel around in a van (that’s a fredo disco reference)

tagging: not to sound like a nerd but i don’t have 15 mutuals and most of the ones i do have already been tagged so likeee… that’s awkward. i suppose i could just tag the few that haven’t but im shy so if ur my mutual and u haven’t been tagged this ur tag

[quillheel]

ALIAS / NAME: Captain! I used to be called Honey, Lovely, and Nyx in the past, though that was LONG before Tumblr. Twas my amino days, baby. ( I also semi-recently tried out 'King' but the vibes don't quite fit yknow! prefer the vibe of that as a term of referral - ex: my liege - rather than a name weirdly enough BHGKTRB )

BIRTHDAY: july 7th!

ZODIAC: cancer! i forgot my exact stuff, like rising sign or the like, but i do know that! i got into zodiacs when i was like 13 i think so I know at least MY sign by heart lol

HEIGHT: 5'6! something like that, I think :] which is also 167 centimeters

HOBBIES: drawing, writing ( I have an ao3 I've been neglecting for so long ), dungeons & dragons / general ttrpgs which take up SO much of my week <3, video games, content analysis ( kinda? ), baking, penpal, learning ukulele, learning to sew, learning crochet!

FAV. COLOR: im terrible when it comes to this question because i love a lot of very specific colors because artist brain BUT... If I had to pick one. Probably a red-y brown-y color. I REALLY like warm and neutral colors ( though Quillheel's pallet probably wouldn't invoke that thought ) though i also like a lot of neutral and cooler colors. you can basically reference a rainbow for my preferred colors but even with blue at the bottom ( I'm a big purple-enjoyer ) i still enjoy what good usage of it can do <3

FAV. BOOK: the long walk by stephen king, inkheart by cornelia funke, or frankenstein by mary shelley <3 love different aspects of all of them, though inkheart was a big part of my childhood so i'm biased BHHGTR

LAST SONG: be nice to me by the front bottoms :] i've been listening to a lot of Hozier lately though

LAST MOVIE / SHOW: UHHH wolfwalkers! VERY good i really liked it <3 i wanna rewatch song of the sea eventually, too! that ones also a favorite. the last show would probably be season 3 of infinity train ( I still resist the temptation to add Simon sometimes. he is such a terrible yet interesting little man ) or finally finishing watching hisuian snow :]

RECENT READ: if fanfiction doesnt count ( if it Does then wander boy by poptod, which is surprising its not one of the HUGE amounts of disco elysium fanfiction i've been chewing on lately ) then probably i think frankenstein by mary shelley, which i picked up and began reading but didn't finish :( still the most recent though! I wanna actually finish that + reread the long walk + read a bunch of other books, like the song of achilles by madeline miller, circe by madeline miller, orange world and other stories by karen russle, memorial: a version of homers illiad by alice oswald, the haunting of hill house by shirley jackson, good omens by neil gaiman and terry pratchett, the city & the city by china mieville, etc etc etc! ( if you guys have any suggestions actually, feel free to send em my way! )

INSPIRATION: horror! especially slashers, psychological horror, and 'bloodbath' horror ( selectively! carrie's got the vibes, saw does NOT ), psychological writing in general, a bunch of the books i have or plan on reading, mythology & legends, fanfiction and composition, music ( especially the weakerthans, the narcissist cookbook, hozier, etc ), poetry, and just!! learning methods of how things Generally are made, ig! how people paint, how people make clothes and make fabric, how people grow plants. i take a lot of inspiration from unexpected places, but a lot of those places are the act of creation in of itself. my writing might only be writing, but i try to embody a sense of color to it, of an artstyle you can almost taste, yknow? the composition in shows where blues look almost green and its like the world is basked in paint and there's just a feeling, indescribable, contextual but potent in of itself, the feeling of small moments everywhere, all at once, all the time. THAT SOUNDS REALLY PRETENTIOUS BUT LIKE... its true, yknow!! i like to embody a feeling in my writing, and i go to a lot of places to find it.

STORY BEHIND URL: once, a long time ago, my oc multimuse @cassiopiia was named orphic-ruin, and quillheel came second in my blogs list. i wanted them to match! so i thought of storytelling, which went to writing, then to pens, then to quills! and the 'heel' part comes from achilles heel, or the achilles tendon! as well as having ties to hermes' winged feet. in a way, its kinda saying 'vulnerable storyteller' or 'half-divine legend' or even kinda like a title or epithet vibe wise like you might find on a mythological figure ( ex: quill-heeled ) or something like that, which i think still fits the vibe p well to this day! if i did change the URL, idk what I'd make it now! i might eventually, but yeah!

tagged: @disassnbler ty ender!!!! <333

tagging: uhhhhhhhhhhhhh @littlelonesomestars @slaughterlocked @underworldslibrary @rebellionhearted aaaand anyone wearing blue, green or red <3

[sausaigey]

a bracelet in soap

i lost our friendship bracelet. i left it in the shower and i think it all disintegrated. it wasn't even that special. we didn't craft it ourselves, we couldn't crochet, we never touched yarn. it was just one simple black hair tie, store bought, wholesale. it's funny how it reminds me of you two.

the way you walk into the room, say hi out loud. with your chin up and a smile. you looked so cheerful yet it felt fabricated. I'm used to you shouting, complaining about god knows what. you would ask me the answers for number one through twenty, call my name a bunch of times, is this the answer to number twelve? but I'll always laugh, I'll do yours after I'm done with mine.

you'll hold my hand, when you need to. drag me all across the hall filled with people. sometimes i get lost in the crowd, but you wouldn't let me go. there i felt seen, even if i had to walk on the grass with you both on the pavement. it just wasn't built for three.

i wont understand anything you're saying, I'm out of the loop, scrolling through emptiness on my phone while i'm trying to figure out what you were referring to. i'll be far away cheering you on, even if we aren't close at all

still, you'll hold my arms, fidget with my fingers, sometimes for too long. but i'll let you do it even until my fingers bleed. we never talked much, but you'll tell me which senior is dating who even though i'll forget their names again. you're gullible, loud, animated. you take too much space. ask me again how i did my work, i'll let you replicate it, even if in the end i'll do your job for you.

we're like puzzle pieces and you both fit perfectly. im just an extra piece, missing from a different board. also it has been two hours, haven't heard back from you, i'll cancel last minute again

even numbers look better. just them against the odds. you two are great together and I'm glad the odd will leave soon.

i found the bracelet, sitting on the shower drain, just one singular string left, covered in dried soap stains. well now it's unsalvageable -- the bracelet and the friendship itself, but for our last few moments, i'll try to survive, i'm still a person, just ask me how my day has been.

[deutoplasmic]

HELP SUSPICIOUS SHOSEI 😭 it’s like hes secretly a tanuki getting into all sorts of trouble

FENGFAN BEST BOY ITS TRUE ITS TRUE

omg same though my chinese isnt good enough to keep up with people especially if theyre from 东北 😭 theyll be saying stuff so fast and im like :D what

i love all kinds of cookies!! as long as they dont have raisins in them,,, i have the taste buds of a toddler

thats okay 😔 if we wanted to stan smart people we would be stanning men 😔 OOOO WHOS YOUR DXTEEN BIAS? i havent gotten around to most of their content yet so i dont know the braincell count ranking

okay so lets just say (jo1’s fandom name)(jo1’s fandom name)subs. has a carrd. 🫡🏴‍☠️ u get me? 🫡🏴‍☠️ have fun 😙

uh. honestly animation just takes a lot of training and patience lmaO you just keep practicing till your brain explodes 😭 and yea knitting and crocheting are so much fun to me!! i feel like a cat playing with yarn lmao

RIGHT YOU GET ME!!! i love a good ruined boy. makes me wanna give rihito head pats

i like. a bunch of artists lmao the songs i sent you are barely the tip of the iceberg 😭

you're not here to ask questions you're here to take his laundry and get paid 🤑🤑🤑 BUT TANUKI SHOSEI IS SO REAL. hes too cute and wholesome he has to be doing smth nefarious

omg i remember poking the ini ao3 tag and there are a bunch of chinese fans who keep writing kimunishi smut LMAO like goddamn nothing about your homeland boy

OK same boat same boat 😔🤝 aforementioned irl's mother is from 东北 and she's honestly pretty easy to understand but. yeah. it's the 儿话 for me bro 😔😔😔 fake it til you make it i suppose

oh my GOD YOURE SO REAL FOR NO SULTANAS cannot stand them they're so bad. sultana bread my beloathed. i can't lie sometimes i buy the custard thingies meant to introduce infants to different foods bc it's cheaper than actually buying a proper custard carton 😰

ofc 😔 all the smart people are off getting office jobs or whatever not becoming idols 😔 omg i like koshin but at like certain angles he looks disturbingly like 周深 it's a bit scary. tbh i only watch the dxteen content with premises that i find interesting...... bc i can't be bothered to watch them all.......... if it helps their academic test had 2 people get under 10/50. koshin highest scorer got 32 (?)/50 and second place nalu (?) got 25/50. so. yknow. but the quiz was a bit silly there was a quote in it which was by from some american guy in the 1800s or smth that was apparently part of like the civil smth subject

i do get you 🙏 thank you very much. i will keep it for reference 🙏

wait that is genuinely so cool. damn it (me when things take effort) ...... but YES omg i made like two beanies in like may to prepare for the winter and . never used them . it's like nearly spring so um. either way what kind of stuff do you make???

YES idk something about a pathetic flop fail boy.... so very tasteful....... rihito trying to practice confessing by pretending his cat is you and not noticing you walking in and witnessing it all.... and when he sees you he's like "UHHHH WELL GOTTA FIND THE CAT LOL" and speeds out the door like it's life or death. and his cat is still sitting there

[cherrybomboyfriend]

prince of egypt prince of persia prince of paris, you’re the prince of serving me poison on the terrace

may 10th, 2024.

listening to my current favorite song while crying over a possibility of me being talentless. i hate asking other people for opinions on my art because it fucking wrecks me whenever i get criticized for it. i’ve always thought that i was some artistic genius so whenever people tell me that im not it slams cracks into the foundation of my entire body. my desire for expertise will tear me apart. a girl in sophomore year told me that my poetry was bad and it caused me to never write the same ever again. i used to be so innovative before she laughed at my work. now i can’t find myself anywhere near the amount of creativity at that point in my poetic journey. every time i go a little abstract i slide my tail between my legs and stare at the ground. what if i am nothing? i’ve been making music for around a year now and it’s been the funnest yet scariest experience ever. i really fucking like making music. i’ve had a lot of medical complications over the past two years so creating art has helped me immensely. i feel myself starting to fall in love with producing and making little melodies over my computer-born beats. despite this honeymoon phase i still have moments of frustration. i needed help to see which version of my second verse for this song sounded better so i asked my friend for help. she told me that it sounded weird and tried to tell me how to fix it (which annoyed me to the gods), so i sent her a song of reference (being the song that i mentioned at the top of this text) for her to get my point. she listened to the song then proceeded to say “that sounds good, but whatever you’re trying to do doesn’t. it won’t sound like that at all.” which made me burst into tears! i slammed my macbook shut and buried myself into the covers. i don’t want anyone to see me anymore. you don’t think my art has potential? fine! then maybe i should just go fucking kill myself! i’ll end my fucking life if that’s what you want! since the thing that brings me the most joy humiliates me then i deserve to swing from the ceiling by sweaters ive crocheted but never sold. play these awful fucking tunes at my funeral since i apparently suck at making them. read aloud the poetry i wrote when i was 15 for everyone to hear and coil up in disgust at! i don’t care! i wish that criticism of my art didn’t affect me so much i pretend that it doesn’t to seem well put together but it does. everything hurts me. i said that i was falling in love with the new song earlier but now i look at it like a lost child. you disgust me. you do nothing good. you’re going nowhere in life. get out of my garageband library. you’re not allowed to come back until you make a name for yourself. until you make me money. i’m sorry, i shouldn’t have said that. i love you. you’re my baby. you came out of my sweaty pointer fingers. i’ll never leave you. here, i’ll sing you my favorite song, the one that inspired you.

Prince of Egypt, prince of Persia, Prince of Paris

You’re the prince of champagne and sunning on the terrace

You’re the prince of bubble bath, the crush i have is terrifying

Suffer, but i bear it. i know love will tear us apart again

LOVE WILL NEVER TEAR ME AND MY MACBOOK APART AGAIN!!! ILL BURY MYSELF WITH THESE TUNES AND MY BAD POETRY.

[yourlittlebootyhole]

this is my the progress i’ve got on a blanket that i started in summer 2023 so it’s been freaking MONTHS since i started it but also i keep putting it off so that’s probably why i haven’t finished it

my goal for this blanket was to have it done by winter so that i could have used it for the winter and like IF I HAD IT DONE IT WOULD HAVE BEEN USEFUL it was so fucking cold ugh

but whatever i’ll definitely have it done for winter this year instead 😭

this blanket was actually my first crochet project i ever started!! the photo doesn’t show it much but the beginning rows are janky and the edges are lopsided since i was still learning the ropes of crocheting!! so i’ve been crocheting for about 7 months now which like WOW that’s so crazy to think about haha

i ended up doing other smaller projects on the side because i felt like i wasn’t learning much while sticking to this blanket, mainly since this blanket is just rows upon rows of HDC (American terms)

let me tell you guys i thought i was so creative when i started this project and i knew nothing about any of the stitches so i just did something random which turned out to be a HDC but i didn’t know that so i was like “wow i totally came up with something new!” NOPE

but i’m glad i didn’t spend a bunch of time grinding to get this blanket done because when i started trying other stitches and learning stuff like granny squares and magic rings and all that i was SO LOST i was like what the fuck is this and i almost just quit

when i started crocheting in the summer i thought it would be one of those things that i try and don’t do again for a long time and im pleasantly surprised to say that i haven’t dropped it yet! i love picking up new hobbies such as jewelry making and cross-stitching and just creative stuff in general but i only ever do it for a month and then forget about it for a while

don’t get me wrong it’s not like i drop all my other hobbies but i just don’t remember to put time into them, and for crocheting i’d leave it for like a week or two but id end up coming back to it ahah

at this point it’ll be hard to drop or forget about because of the insane amount of yarn i bought, i had to put drawers and stuff in my room to keep all of the stuff organized and not all over my floor lmao

back to the blanket, i have a 5mm crochet hook sitting at the bottom for size reference, the width is a bit longer than my height (5’5”) and in my original plan i wanted to make it double my height length wise but that is definitely NOT happening

it’s about 3’ right now and it’s already heavy and chunky when i fold it all up and i already have no room for it so i’m only going to make it long enough to cover my mattress (which is like 1’ taller than me)

the yarn i’m using is the ombré red heart super saver yarn and it feels really nice and soft! and also a 5mm hook as mentioned before

i’m gonna try and just invest all my crochet time in this blanket instead of my other projects so i can maybe use it before the cold is completely gone 😭 this is my first time posting anything about crochet stuff and i’ll definitely be posting more in the future and showing the completed blanket whenever i finish it lol but anyway!!! that’s my blanket :)

[tiesthatbindery]

The @renegadepublishing Bound Book Exchange is complete and the books I made have been received.

I was very lucky in that my recipient, @rhipidurafan, had multiple amazing picks for fics she'd like to receive and two spoke to me immediately. I got even more lucky when both @neverwaswise and @shinyopals gave me permission to bind their fics for this exchange.

I got less lucky when my Cameo 4 decided it wasn't going to foil my titles and tentacles for me, but I think it came out Not Too Bad doing it by hand.

Ship In A Bottle by Neverwaswise (rated T) is a modern AU for OFMD and it starts with Stede moving into a lighthouse and doing some interior decorating. This decorating scheme influenced my choices for the case where I tried to match the paper to the wallpaper he was installing and the bookcloth and endbands to the orange brick of the interior of the lighthouse. I also knew early on that I wanted to reference the kraken tentacles on the case or end papers, but I couldn't find anything that felt right, so drawing my own tentacles it was. I'm so happy that the two that ended up making a kind of heart shape wrapped around to be on the front of the book.

The Magnus Institute vs the 21st Century by Shinyopals (rated T) is a series of four epistolary fics (well, 3 epistolary fics and one scriptbook style fic). I discovered very early that there is a very disappointing lack of good eye imagery for decorative paper and cloth options. I decided to lean heavily into the fact that the Magnus Institute may be dragged into the 21st century against their wills, but that doesn't mean they won't still keep things as old school as possible. For the emails and IMs, I tried to replicate the fonts that would be used in Outlook and on the cellphones, and then I matched fonts for the scriptbook as well.

But for the titles, I picked out a nice crunchy Punk Typewriter font. My Cameo 4 tried its best to destroy that on the spine, twice getting caught in one space and ruining it. And foiling by hand made it a little extra crunchy but I kind of enjoy the effect that happened. Yes, technically it's not perfect. But by this point I'd already decided on making my own cover paper art as a manila folder with post notes on it, so I actually enjoy the way that the imperfections in the spine titling make it look even more like this book is the result of the archival assistants printing off all the emails and IMs to file hard copies and then needing to hand adjust when the typewriter didn't quite label perfectly.

I also had a lot of fun coming up with some of the things to have on the post notes on the back cover.

And what would a TMA series be without some tea? I made the little tea bookmark and realized I didn't have any particularly tea colored size 10 crochet thread, so I did the reasonable thing and used gold with metallic and it's fancy tea. That's my story.

Link to cup of tea bookmark pattern Link to corner bookmark pattern Fonts: Punk Typewriter Seaside Wave Initials With Curls

[mouthfulloftoothpasterry]

MORE COWBOYRRY PLEASE IM IN LOVE WITH THAT BOY

YOU DONT EVEN HAVE TO ASK

i feel like he loves showers with y/n and not even because he’s a horny pest 😔

Like he likes just watching her… exist? Like he’s doing his own thing, washing his hair and she has her leg propped up on the chunk of marble that they sometimes use as a seat when doing… things that aren’t showering and she’s washing her legs

Ugh and I feel like he would get out of the shower first, toss her favorite fluffy towel in the dryer because he knew she would be an extra fifteen minutes and once she’s out he would welcome her out with his arms wide holding out her towel so he would wrap her up in it and once they are back in their bedroom he would rub lotion up her arms and legs and always help her get her back and when she’s pregnant he would put lotions and oils over her belly and give it little pecks :(

Ugh and he’s def a big cuddler especially after showers when they are still all warm from the hot water and he hurries and gets under the blankets to have naked cuddles with his wife 😔

Ugh and I feel like he’s a baker too

Like he wasn’t so much but y/n is a really good cook and baker because she’s been cooking for her family basically her whole life so when ever she is busy or craving it he whips up a strawberry pie from his home grown strawberries and feeds it to her while she crochets socks or something

And ugh let’s talk about when she’s pregnant

I think he would definitely wait on her hand a foot, running around to get anything and everything she wanted or needed

And he would give her all the belly and back rubs she wanted like she was a puppy

And he would be so obsessed Ugh :(

Like when they were having dinner at her folks house and she was standing around the island, talking to everyone, harry would be standing behind her, rubbing over her hips he would get so worried when she started to shift her weight on a different foot every couple seconds

He would pull out and chair and make her sit down while he played with her hair

Idk he just seems like the softest lover :(

Pregnancy sex… omg he would be obsessed with it but also annoy the shit out of her with his checking in every five seconds

And their country asses plz they would already be referring to each other as “mama” and “daddy”

“Alright? Alright, darlin’? Are you sure you’re feeling okay, mama?” She would be so annoyed and eventually have to be honest with him like “could you maybe stop…stopping every five minutes because I can’t exactly cum then and I thought that was the whole point?” He would be so upset like “I’m sorry:( I didn’t know, just want to take you feel good and make sure you’re okay.”

And since she didn’t want to go out as often because if she was out and got all hot or something annoyed him she would get in a bad mood and be stuck like that for a while

So then he would plan out little picnic dates, packing her pregnancy cravings and cuddling on the picnic blanket until they end up fucking under the stars 🙏 and Harry would tease her that the chickens saw them doing it 😭

Ugh and once she got closer and closer to her due date Harry wouldn’t let her out of his sight

But I think we would be surprisingly calm once she went into labor, dancing around and feeding her while she’s in the hospital bed, talking about names and talking about the most random things, getting all excited for their baby to come

And while she was giving birth he would be so gentle and so calm, holding her hand and pecking her forehead or lips every now and then

and after she gave birth he would just sit and smile while watching her with their baby, the hospital blankets pulled up on them while she does skin to skin with the baby

Ugh he would just be so in love :(( brushing back her hair with a smile on his lips

And when he finally broke his silence and said something he would have to stop himself from crying

“Y’so beautiful, darlin’. Grew the most beautiful baby in y’belly. I can’t believe I got so lucky with the two of you.”

And once he finally got to hold the little one he would be so emotional, doing skin to skin and rubbing over their little chubby back :(

Letting them cuddle their face on his shoulder while they squirm with their little arms raising and moving every now and then

And he never though he would find anyone so it makes him so emotional to have his baby laying on his chest while the love of his life watches their first interactions ☹️☹️☹️

Ugh he would be so excited to bring the little sprout home :(

Once he wasn’t scared enough to walk around and hold them he would be showing them around the farm :(

And I could imagine when they were like six months old Harry would take them out to pet the horses again and the horse would try and take a lick at the babies hand or foot or something and the baby would start giggling so loud

And Harry would be all like ☹️🥺 because that was the first time they let out a proper giggle and him and y/n would just be sitting there like 🥺🥺🥺

Ugh and tbh I imagine them having a boy first

So that would be Harry’s little buddy on the farm and once he was old enough, maybe a toddler where he would actually help out with a few things like collecting the eggs from the chickens

Him and Harry would sit and joke around and tease each other the whole time but as soon as he got around him mama he would be cuddling into her and want her to play with his hair

I think he would be too close to both of his parents to be more of a mommy or daddy’s boy like he could pick because he loved working on the farm with his daddy and he loved when he would go on little horse rides and bath time when Harry would make his little hair into different shapes and when they would cuddle after bath time

But he also loved cooking with his mama, helping her around the house, sitting with her while she reads her books and he tried to read his own

Ugh:( he’s like the perfect baby

I could sit and talk about cowboy!harry forever

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Fanfiction is more than valid.

Acts like I’ve had too much coffee 24/7.

I don’t experience gender in the same way lots of other people do, so I’d like to be respected there. Lots of people have a connection to their gender and can find a place within that, and I’m happy for you but I don’t understand it and it doesn’t work for me. (Yes, I tag some things as gender or gender envy, but that’s pretty much me wanting every speck of my existence to encompass that picture or word or whatever.) For terms to use and not use see here.

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[gibbearish]

hi i’m not really sure how to do this but i came from your uquiz and you seem knowledgeable and nice and so i’m asking you a question now i’m sorry

uhm, so, i think i maybe might be trans (ftm) because i’m super dysphoric and i sometimes look at guys and i get really jealous because they just get to, like, exist like that (i’m not really sure what the “that” is, but god, do i want it) and i very much don’t and when i refer to myself using he/him pronouns in my head it feels, uhm, at the risk of being a cliche, right, i guess.

but the thing is that i don’t really fit into any of the stereotypical trans guy things. like a lot of my friends when i was little were girls and though i have some stereotypically masculine hobbies (sports and physics) i also sew, and when i was little i was obsessed with being a princess for like a month before i started refusing to wear dresses.

i don’t think i’m non-binary, i tried using they/them pronouns this summer and while they didn’t actively hurt like she does, they didn’t really feel right.

so, like, am i lying to myself? i don’t know, maybe i just want to be special (i don’t want it, though, if i could just be happy as a girl i would).

sorry i just unloaded half an essay on you you obviously don’t have to reply and i know you’re probably not qualified to answer anyway, i just needed to tell someone, you know?

anyways, i hope you’re having a nice night or day or whatever. thank you, for, like, existing on the internet i guess. your quiz was very nice. bye.

howdy anon! dw i am always glad to answer questions abt this stuff even tho it make take me a while lol

my best advice for situations like this is i know its easy but don't let yourself get caught up in the trap of "well this is the label that makes me feel best but i dont technically check off every single box for it so am i just lying?" people arent video game quests, you dont have to hit every single box for it to count, youre allowed to have stuff fall outside the technical definition of a term while still calling yourself it. im very similar to you, i was in tap and ballet growing up, wore dresses and makeup for most of highschool, sewing crocheting knitting the whole shebang. but the important part is that none of those things make a difference to your identity. knowing how to sew doesnt make you a girl, it can just make you a guy who knows how to sew. its a thing you do, not who you are.

all that being said, i think another helpful angle to look at things is "does the distinction between two similar labels actually make a difference to me?" using myself as an example again, i dont call myself a trans man because while i do prefer presenting masculine, for some reason the term 'man' just doesnt feel right for me. but at the same time, to the rest of the world that's functionally what i am, right? so does that change /who/ i am? no. so for me personally, ive deliberately chosen not to file myself into either "trans man" or "nonbinary" and just move on with my day, because to me it doesnt actually make a difference which one i am, im still gonna stay on t, i still want top surgery, i still want to be perceived masculine, and thats not gonna change no matter what name is on the box so who gives a shit. just do what makes you happy

[aquariusshadow]

Live!Blogging HSMTMTS s2x8

Well, well, well, who would’ve thought my streaming site would have the episode up early. I can finally get a Live!Blog done at a decent time for once.

Rip Rini. That’s my only prediction for this ep.

Lesss goooooo

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“napoleon over here” jfc haha

“because winners don’t freak out” good mantra miss jenn

Lets take a shot how many times Ricky says “Nini”—I’m at 2 already with one minute in

Awwwwwwww look at gina giving ej pointers for the dancing

“biggie” idk how I feel about that nickname for big red but you do you Ashlyn

Why am I surprised that this rendition is really good

Big red you’re killing it

To any of yall who remember Unus Annus (memento mori ☹ ) plz tell me you remember their “version” of the gaston song???

Cuz that’s all im thinking about

EJ your voice is so good we’ve been robbed this entire show

Beautiful, absolutely beautiful, well done well done

Awwww poor seb

Tbf I’d probably try that out too ngl haha

We’re already calling ricky ‘you-know-who’ and this show is well known for it’s harry potter references…..yikes

3

Asdlhjsdlhfasdfh

“No offense Ricky, but it’s not all about you.” Daaaaaaaaamn

Ricky

Sir

What are you doing

Why

Aldfaksjdfahsdf

Yes asking people to collab is legit

Yes this could also be some creep

But stop being clingy and obsessive ricky good lord

Oh so NOW he regrets one of his bad choices with nini

4

Hehe portwell smiling at each other all throughout the ep

HFLDKJHGJFGGH

WAIT

ARE WE ADDRESSING IT

EJ LIKES HER HOLY SHIT

AJDFALHSDJFASDLFHASDFJASDFLASDFJASDFHASKFDJASDLFS

I MEAN IT WAS OBVIOUS

BUT I DIDN’T KNOW IF/WHEN/HOW THEY WERE GONNA ADDRESS IT

I stg if my video doesn’t stop glitching imma sue something

Oooooooooo ej’s dad

Oh

Oh no

Ej never told his dad about duke

WAIT

HIS DAD PULLED STRINGS TO GET HIM IN

Sir

Mr sir

Mr fucking sir

Of course he’s one of those parents

Miss jenn does have a strong soprano range I’ll give her that

Poor seb

He just wanted some rehearsal time

5

Honestly ricky I think you can still call her nini

6

Even big red is tired of listening to the same shit with ricky

7

I do feel for the kid but man

Ooooo kourt’s mom

I like how we’re seeing more of the parents

Her mom is so supportive

That’s so nice to see

Yaaay some of their relationship was real afterall

Even tho Howie scuffed up

Yea kourt you tell him

Yea I have a feeling ricky just kinda froze while taking the career apititude test

8

“I did not come home for you” hell yea nini you tell him

Everyone in the restaraunt is just staring lmao

Rip Rini?

I will be very very very mad if they make up at the end of the ep and continue on like nothing happened

Awwwwww Ashlyn made a Big Red career collage that’s so cute

Oooooooooh I see the conflict now ok

Big red you should tell her what you really want

There you go

Look at that communication

Rini take notes

Awwwwww mazzarra made her a lil mini snack/coffee table to help her relax

That’s very sweet

And he’s the only one of her love-interests that actually knows how to HELP her

Man he’s smitten with her isn’t he

Gina’s hair is so pretty here I love it

She smiles every time she sees ej ehehe

And he’s helping her crochet <3

Look at portwell’s communication skills here

Maaaaaaaan

Even tho they are different

Both of them are listening to each other and are still helping each other

While rina had stuff like that in common

Season 2 scuffed them so bad gina was just unhappy

Aka gina’s list on why she likes ej

This is so cute

Jasljdsflhasdf

“you’d see what I-the rest of us see”

Plz don’t play with my heart yall

I wasn’t sure if Gina liked him back romantically or not

Portwell Nation rise up

Ashlyn I love you but whyyyyy did you ruin the momenttttttt

Oh my god

Why are Rini being happy and cute when they JUST blew up at each other

Im so confused

Is that normal for relationships?

To go from a major fight then being super cute and happy like nothing happened????

Ok now we’re talking about it…..

“At YAC I liked who I was there” uh…Nini weren’t you kinda miserable there?

Oooooooooo

Here’s the thing

Right now Ricky is clinging onto the safety feeling

And Nini JUST said she didn’t want to be ‘safe’

Im glad he told her about the insta comment

Are they….are they actually breaking up now?

Alright this is probably the best way they both could’ve ended things

A mutual, understanding, emotion filled break up with no hard feelings

That’s gonna help both of them in the future I think

Assuming the writers don’t throw them back together at the end of the episode

9

My heart does go out to them tho :/

Howie does have a very nice voice

LOOK AT DOMESTIC PORTWELL

GUYS LOOK AT THAT

THAT’S SO CUTE

HE PUT A BLANKET OVER HER LIKE COME ON

SHE FELT SAFE ENOUGH TO SLEEP ON THE COUCH NEXT TO HIM

rina could never at least right now

Ok we got all the ships in this song

Except for Rini

If this is foreshadowing im very content

Awwww ricky ☹

Beautiful Howie

I loved that so much

Great voice

Great ending to an episode

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Did I actually keep track of how many times Ricky said “Nini” in this episode? Yes, yes I did. It helped me stay more focused ironically enough. Luckily half of those were in conversation with Nini so that wasn’t awful lmao.

So I was right about Rip Rini. Incredible. Hopefully they stay broken up for a while and focus on themselves. RICKERAPY CAN FINALLY SHINE!!!!!

Also, EJ likes Gina confirmed? Portwell nation, how we feelin today?

[fixing-bad-comic-art]

fun asks for boredom: do you read books? have you been to the LIBRARY lately now that it’s open again? do you want book recs? (bc im full of them PLS) - if not books, what are you doing with your free time? tv video games movies? what’s occupying your thoughts, what are you obsessed with right now? wanna infodump on anything? or vent? i want to listen :D

ive been a few times! i love the work area at my local library bc its always quiet and its got really nice views, so i visit it a lot. but im not a big reader tbh. im dyslexic and a lot of books are just too hard to get through unless theyre digital and i can change the font to something thats easier to parse which not all books/apps/websites let you do. and anybody who says the built in tts systems that these apps have are good enough, are lying to themselves. so most of the time when i buy/burrow a book its usually just a reference book of some kind.

and on that note, this is a Big reason i dont read a lot of comics, that crowded faux handwritten font a lot of them use is hellish for me to try and parse.

and its a bit of a joke amongst my friends that if im not actively making something im probably yakking on deaths doormat, lmao. right now im mostly into writting and doing digital paintings, but spinning and crochet are old favorites

and like, right now my biggest obsession is dnd, i love dming and the more role play focused sand box campaigns. and before anyone points out that theres better systems for role play focused games, i know, i actually like how janky dnd is on this front because it gives both sides of the table way more freedom to do what feels right.

like This is my rant, letting the players Genuinely argue through their character to try and get something done is Way more interesting than just making them role 1 die and do some math.

like, theres this one moment in the first campaign i ran for my best friend that i keep coming back too.

she had accidentally (on her part, this was my plan all along) traded away a mcguffin to the absolute last person she would want to have that.

when Summer(the npc) came to collect the mcguffin from Shiana(the pc) i Could have had zen(my bff) role 1 d20 and add shiana's persuasion modifier to it. and just on a role of the dice i could have decided where this litteraly game ending mcguffin would land.

if Summer gets it an eternal summer would ravenge the world. but her brother in law would be given more time with his family and a chance at survival.

if he didn't Shiana's brother in law and close friend was more likely to... not die, but also not exist anymore. but her holding onto it gave her time to maybe save both him and the world.

by not basing this on a dice role shiana got to Argue with this fairy to try and get her way out of this deal. zen got the experience of him arguing right back and trying just as hard as she was to get the damn thing.

and because she couldn't just role to persuade him they ended up having one of the most intense fights while she was Running For Her Life because she, Zen and shiana, not a trick of luck, royally pissed off the embodiment of Summer. she got to call on the power of both gods she had a connection to and nearly died from overwhelming herself with their power in a desperate bid to buy herself some time.

because we weren't using any strict rules for this, or really Any rules, we were able to tell a story that was much more engaging than one dice roll ever could be.

like, tldr, dnd Is good for role play because its Very easy to just ignore the clunky/underdeveloped rp rules when needed.

also dnd has tieflings. i like tieflings. think theyre Real Neat.