#i truly believe social media has damaged the way people interact with others

[strawberrybyers]

idc hailey bieber has my full support. the amount of hate she’s been getting for the past 5 years has been insane and the vile stuff that’s being said to her right now is a disgrace. people get their info from tiktok and just run with it and think it gives them justification to harass people or wish death upon them. also, selena commenting on those tiktoks was instigating shit. she’s done stuff like that before and it’s weird. i truly do not understand why her or her fans continue to post things or are liking/sharing stuff that has to do with justin and hailey. its fucking weird. they’ve been married for 5 years now. they used to date back in 2015/16. clearly they’re in love and are just minding their business. this hate campaign that’s happening towards hailey in the name of selena is sick in the head behavior. i thought selena promoted about taking care of your mental health, supporting women, and being kind?? harassing someone, bashing their looks, shaming them, bullying them, and saying they should die doesn’t fall in line with anything your so-called fave promotes.

i truly believe society loves any opportunity to shame and harass women. female celebrities get harassed more than male celebrities who have actually caused harm to people. people love to find any way to make women miserable and hurt them. they love to revel in their trauma and misery. they also love being the cause of it. and because there’s this belief that social media isn’t a “big deal” because everything’s online, people don’t care about any of the repercussions of their actions or words. they don’t see the hurt or trauma someone experiences from what happens online, and when that person comes out to express how they feel, they’re told they deserve it or should suck it up because they’re in the spotlight and that’s just life for them. why are we tolerable towards spreading hate to others? why are people so comfortable with finding gratification in that? in my opinion, this hailey/selena situation is much bigger than some celebrity drama. the conversation we need to be having is why are people willing to say and do the most extreme things on the behalf of celebrities, the harm of parasocial relationships and worship culture, and how tearing down women is a hobby of many men and women.

all in all, i don’t give a fuck whether you like hailey or not. there’s something seriously wrong with you if you believe someone, a HUMAN BEING, should receive hate in this way. if you don’t like her, don’t pay attention to her! it’s very easy! but just something i think everyone should think about is if you would feel comfortable if people associated with your partner’s ex was constantly harassing you? probably not!! i actually think you would be quite fed the fuck up!! so why put someone else through that??

[seasonal-depression-of-punk]

Ritualistic sacrifice

Chapter one:

the beginning of the end

Rating:mature

Summary:After clash at the castle, Drew McIntyre has been furious at CM Punk for taking another win away from him. With all of these emotions, he has been struggling with dreams of this man.

Punkintyre fan art based on the chapter included

Tags: @thlayli-ra @salemshotspot if you want to or don’t want to be tagged in the next chapter, tell me in the comments or anywhere else

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The day CM Punk came back and dared to show his face, was the day Drew knew that he’d do anything to take that taunting and infuriating smirk off of that already annoying face and never let it return there. He knew he was destined to be the reason for Punk’s misery.

Only after few months, he had already broken one of Punk’s dreams by injuring his arm. The dream he had been always talking about. The thing that would finally make people know that his worth in life was acknowledged. That he wasn’t just the bratty asshole the world tried to paint him to be. That CM Punk deserved to be in the main event of the most popular wrestling event in existence. That it wasn’t too late for Phil Brooks to finally achieve his childhood dream and main event Wrestlemania.

And Drew shattered that chance. He took that pathetic old man’s dream that was as frail as the man himself, held it in his strong hand and crushed it with all the power he had in his body. Oh the joy he felt the day after, when he heard how bad the damage had been. That day his prayers had been answered. That was the day he truly began to believe in god.

He should’ve remembered what kind of a person he had wronged. He should have known what that man would do. He shouldn’t have forgotten that, that petty old man would bite back. To talk back. To kick back! That old asshole has begun a hateful revenge campaign against Drew!

He ruined a Wrestlemania moment that should have been beautiful, joyful and unforgettable. He was supposed to be the world champion even after leaving the event. But no. That no good man, who brings even more bad luck than broken mirrors, ravens, horseshoes with their ends pointing down and black cats together. Black cats aren’t even bad luck!

This hasn’t been enough for Punk. Of course not! Punk would never be satisfied and Drew knew that way too well. The people in other companies and his own experiences pointed to that. That petty man could find something to be mad about in everything. No matter what, there was always something that could be better.

It wasn’t enough that Punk had taken credit for ruining Drew’s Wrestlemania moment. He also needed to ruin Drew’s homecoming. The moment where he was supposed to win back what he lost. But instead, he lost it again because of the same reason.

The smug grin of acknowledgement on Punk’s face made Drew’s emotions shoot through the roof. Pushing him in the corner, wanting to rip his face off then and there. But the older man had expected a reaction like this from him. Of course he had. The kick to his crotch happened so fast that Drew only could register it when he was on his knees, trying not to get affected too much by the pain. It took him so long that Damian Priest had recovered enough and took advantage of the situation, making Drew lose again.

After all of that, Drew was ready to give up. He was ready to quit. He had gone to RAW and said “I quit” in front of the crowd only two days after Clash at the Castle. Everyone tried to stop him. “What do you mean you quit? Drew you can’t!” Guys like Adam Pearce and Hunter had said to him. “No. I’m serious,” he had told them and walked out of the building. Ready to never return.

Drew had locked himself in his house and decided to become a hermit. He deactivated all of his social media, made his distance to other people lengthen and decided to dedicate all of the energy he used to use on social interactions to his cats. All of them were so happy he was staying home, purring and nuzzling against him no matter what he was doing. It was very comforting. To just pretend that everything was fine and his life goals hadn’t been destroyed. Everything was fine until he felt himself fall asleep.

~

Drew was at home in his bed when he heard something. He wiped his eyes and got up to see what was going on.

He walked to his living room and looked at the direction of his couch. He could see a shadowy figure sitting on it. This made him really concerned. He looked around for his cats. Why none of them meowed or let any sounds?

“Oh Drew. What are you looking for?” He heard a smug very familiar voice speak to him. Drew quickly turned on the light and saw exactly what he thought he’d see. “Phil wha-“ Drew started but was stopped by a finger in front of his mouth. “Shhhh… no need to open your mouth. I know anything that comes out of it is just bullshit” the man who proved to be Punk whispered into the taller man’s ear. He could feel the hot and moist breath next to his face. He felt his ear being licked which sent shivers down his spine.

This made Drew quickly push Punk away from him, making him fall on the floor. The tongue hadn’t felt like a normal tongue. It was slimy like a reptile. It disturbed Drew. Nothing felt real. The man fallen on the floor had a sinister smile across his face. His pupils were like snake’s. Drew stared at him with wide eyes and started to walk backwards further away from this creature.

This wasn’t a human. This was a demon. A succubus. A devilish creature from the deep depths of hell. The laugh of the creature that tried to look like Punk continued to get more loud and sinister. A guttural laugh like a horror movie villain-

And that’s when Drew woke up and sat up panicked.

It was all a dream…

Drew sighed in relief and wiped his hair away from his face. And that’s when he noticed…

He was hard.

Second chapter

[thisblogwilleatourselves]

please at least give me the phone number or social media of someone you trust so i can explain your situation to them - i'll happily come off anon if you agree to it. you seem to think I'm faking concern for whatever reason, I'm genuinely worried abt you... if u think ur okay then u won't have a reason not to show your friends or parents, right? please please please just let me show the ppl u trust ur blog, if they know what's going on w u they won't care at all anyways.

hAHAHAHAH SORRY WHAT??, DO YA' REALLY THINK V'D FALL FOR SOMETHING THIS OBVIOUS. V'RE CRAZY NOT DEAD! V

DO YOU, HA, DO YOU REALLY BELIEVE THATS WHAT CARE IS? IF YOU AIN'T LYIN' THIS IS TRULY ASTONISHING. YOU SEE PEOPLE LIVING THEIR OWN WAY NOT DICTATED BY OTHERS RULE AND MARK IT WRONG, OH THEY CAN'T POSSIBLY *WANT* THIS, CAN'T BE TRUSTED WITH THEIR OWN AUTONAMY! THEY MUST CONFORM TO WHAT YOU DEEM RIGHT, YOU OH YOU THE KNIGHT RIDING IN TO SAVE THE PRINCESS WHO WAS THE DRAGON ALL ALONG.

OH WON'T YOU SAVE ME FROM OURSELVES! *TILTS DRAMATICALLY BACKWARD TOWARDS YOU, WINKS* OH HERO IN PURIFYING LIGHT! THIS POOR WIDDLE PRINCESS CAN'T CHOOSE FOR HERSELFFF. WOOPS *splits intwo revealing a greedy maw* IT-LL BE FUN CHEWING YOU UP AND SPITTIN' YA OUT.

SO YA WAN'T VAR DETAILS, VAR CONNECTIONS. OHHH SURE WHY NOT JUST GIVE AWAY SUCH REVEALING INFORMATION! HERE YA GO!

(888)-245-5618

HOW DARE YOU A WHOLE UNKOWN BEING TRY TO ENFORCE VUS TO APPEASE YOUR "'CONCERNS"", ME? BILL CIPHER? VUS, 1NV4D3R Z1M?. "TWO" BEINGS WHOSE DEFINING TRAITS ARE NONCONFORMITY, CHAOS, AND LACK OF SANITY? A DEALER OF THE DAMNED AND ANARCHIST. BAFFLING, IF YOU ACTUALLY PAYED ATTETION TO VAR POSTS INSTEAD OF MAKING ASSUMPTIONS YOU WOULD SEE THAT V AREN'T DOING ANYWORSE THAN BEFORE BY EXPRESSING VAR DIFFERENCE, VAR ANOMALIES TO YOUR WORLD.

WHY SHOULD V LISTEN TO *YOU*?

IN FACT WHY LISTEN TO ANY OTHER THAN VUS.

CERTAINLY NOT "PROFESSIONALS"

YOU REALIZE THE MEDICAL INSTITUTE WAS FORMED ON ABUSE, TORTURE, HORRIFIC ACTS OF CRIME! AND YOU MIGHT THINK "OH BUT ITS DIFFERENT, BETTER NOW, THINGS HAVE CHANGED" WRONG!! ITS A DISASTER, IT HARMS MORE THAN HEALS! AND OH BOY' DO V KNOW THAT HARM.

IT SEEMS TO RUN ACROSS REALITIES, AS ALL 3 OF VUS CAN GO ON AND ON ABOUT HOW VOYR DIMENSIONS TREATMENT OF THE SICK, AKA HORRID AND TRAUMATIZING!

YOU THINK THEY WOULD HELP, THEY NEVER HELPED, THEY MADE THINGS WORSE.

AND THEN, YOU EXPECT VUS TO BE ABLE TO *AFFORD* THEM? V CAN BARELY AFFORD BASIC DOCTOR VISITS!

V LOST THE ABILITY TO LOVE REAL PEOPLE BY PSYCHIATRIC WORLDS, ALREADY TEETERING TOWARDS THE END WHEN V "CONSENSUALLY" (READ MISLEADINGLY AND FALSEY) ADMITTED TO IT, IN ONLY 6 DAYS V FACED SOME OF THE WORST TRAUMA THIS CURRENT LIFE HAS EXPIERENCED. THEY BROKE VUS, AND V WERE ALREADY SHATTERED!

V HAVE HAD TERRIFYING EXPIERENCES WITH THE VERY MEDICATION USED FOR PSYCHOSIS, THE FIRST TIME V EVER PASSED OUT! HEARTRATE SO HIGH, AND THEN THERE-S ALL THE *OTHER* SIDE EFFECTS THAT IRREVERSIBLY DAMAGE YOUR BODY.

THERAPY DOES THAT TO, OH V MANAGED TO AVOID THE NIGHTMARE STORIES BUT V STILL HAD VAR REALITY ERASED, THAT THE WORLD IS GOOD AND THAT PEOPLE ARE SAFE TO TRUST AND THIS IS THE NORM, TRYING TO CONVENCE VUS LIKE EVERYBODY ELSE WHAT IS RIGHT AND SANE AND PURE, FUCK THAT, FUCK YOUR SO CALLED CONCERN!. AND IF THAT HURTS TO HEAR? GOOD! V HAVE DEALT WITH SO MUCH SHIT FROM PEOPLE LIKE YOU WHO CONTRIBUTE TO VAR ONGOING DISTINTIGRATION!

V ARE *CHOOSING* TO DO WHAT V CAN TO *SURVIVE*, TO ENJOY LIFE TO NOT WANNA FUCKING DIE. THIS INCLUDES BEING PRODE OF WHO V ARE, AND FORGING VAR OWN PATH IN THE WORLD. TIRED OF LIVING FOR OTHER PEOPLES WANTS AND NEEDS, NOT VAR OWN.

KNOW FROM NOW ON IF YOU WISH TO INTERACT WITH VUS V WON'T AVOID AGGRESSION. V JUST WANTED YOU TO SEE THIS, TO SEE VUS AND MAYBE HAVE A CRACK IN YOUR REALITY. *TIPS HAT, SPeEeEeEEEeens OFF*

*note v have deemed you

a square 'anon' after flatland a square

[ceruleanwhore]

I never got around to updating this so now I’m finally going to, having completed both his main endings and one of his sequels. Basically, yeah I’m right and I’m even more right than I thought I was so I’m just going to continue that list and add some more stuff and flesh this all out.

I would add how he likes parallel play, as we see in his route with how he goes to Emma’s room just to read and then leaves the second she does. Also, I find it significant that he reads so much romance because he says himself that it’s to teach himself about the emotion most foreign to him. That being said, I also think it’s the autistic thing of teaching oneself social pragmatics from media and romance makes the most sense since the genre has the most focus on interpersonal interactions and relationships. Another thing I would add is that it isn’t just a lack of emotional intelligence, it’s specifically that he exclusively intellectualizes all of his emotions instead of feeling them, which is so autistic.

Now, something I realized reading his route is that there’s also some unprocessed PTSD in there (which makes sense given that every autistic person who’s ever lived has trauma just from existing in society as an autistic person, which is why symptoms for ASD and C-PTSD overlap so much.) I think what it mostly boils down to is that, from a concerningly young age, he was loved by no one, not even his own mother, and not able to trust anyone at all and then, like I said before, he didn't allow himself to actually feel all the hurt he had around that. The issue is that, whether you intellectualize everything or actually feel your emotions, the damage is done regardless. The way I see adult Chev in the series is that his inner child is bleeding out in a closet somewhere in the back of his subconscious and that hurt child is actually driving most of his actions. Most significantly, that inner child desperately wants the unconditional love he should've had all along from people like his mother and wants to be able to safely love someone in return, which drives some of his actions around Emma.

Another key aspect to this is that he assumes that everyone already hates him or, if somehow they don't, they will soon enough, so he does a lot of stuff for the sole purpose of pushing everyone away before they can get close enough to reject him in a way that hurts him even more. That's actually something he has in common with Clavis lmao. As I've read his stories, it's become clear to me that people don't understand him and therefore end up telling lies about him but he actively contributes to that by lying about himself to others and even to himself. It all starts with the lies he tells himself because he needs to believe deeply enough that he is actually not human and doesn't have emotions at all in order to keep up this really precarious system he's created to protect himself from his own trauma. If he admits that he's human, he has emotions and everything just like everyone else, and he wants to be loved, damn it, then the whole thing crumbles and he has to face his trauma head on, which he can't do.

From there, he lies to everyone else, which we see a lot of. He tells people that he's some sort of murderous monster, that he has no humanity, etc. and he does enough to support those claims, but we clearly see in the text that it just isn't true. Sure, the narrative wants you to accept the idea that he truly was this inhuman monster until Emma rolled up and magically fixed him with the power of twoo wuv or whatever, but, to me at least, it's abundantly clear that that's not what actually happened. From day one, this bitch was literally just a guy with emotions and shit and he just wanted to be loved and all that changed is that Emma rolled up and saw through the bullshit, accepted him as a person, and created a safe space for him to kiss kiss fall in love with her.

Taking this all back to autism, I know his case is different in a lot of ways from literally anyone else's experiences growing up with autism, since he is a prince and he has killed people and shit, but if you push aside some of the details like that, it's such a quintessential experience of growing up with autism. He starts off as a kid genius who gets to both be pushed way too hard by the adults in his life and be envied/hated by everyone around him for that same intelligence, while all those people also hate him for the areas where he has difficulty, like with social pragmatics and emotional intelligence. Who else out there was in GT in elementary school and, when they got diagnosed, had their parents be convinced by psychs that you could just be neurotypical if you tried hard enough, like if you just put in the effort you could maximize the 'good' stuff and minimize the 'bad' behavior? Yeah well it's fucking agonizing and that shit will traumatize you.

Then, by the time he was only like six years old, literally no one in his life actually truly loved him since shit like fear and jealousy got in the way of all that but also, in the case of people like Clavis, it literally is just "my brother is autistic so I can't love him because he experiences emotions and communicates differently than I do and that's bad." I mean, that's how my brother is and it's why I've really struggled with Clavis' character because of how much he reminds me of my own brother. So, at such a young age, he's been fully convinced that he is completely unlovable because he is neurodivergent and his response to that is everything I just described with how he buries his desire for love, insists that he's fine being completely alone, leans further into everyone's perception of him as some kind of inhuman monster, and deliberately alienates himself so people can't keep rejecting him. Idk, maybe it's a little extreme but that feels really familiar to me.

And then yeah, he never put all the time and effort into his outward presentation and social proficiency so, instead, he delegates and relies on his faction to cover those areas of weakness for him, which makes sense. He keeps up his whole façade, keeps intellectualizing everything and refusing to face himself or feel anything, until Emma shows up and makes it safe for him to start disassembling that whole self-defense structure in his head and actually start feeling his emotions.

But yeah, I deeply relate to him and find him highly sympathetic and, to all the people out there who don't really get him, this is why.

Ever since I started Clavis’ route and realized that Chev is definitely autistic and not just a miserable dick, that’s all I’ve been able to think about, so I’m making a post about it. The following is a list of stuff from him that seems 100% autistic to me. My qualifications here are just my “as*erger’s” diagnosis I got in 7th grade and the fact that just about every person I’ve ever known is neurospicy.

Hyperlexia, obviously. Normies don’t have entire personal libraries and do the Spencer Reid thing of reading fucking everything all the time and then remembering all of it after seeing it like once.

Callous, antisocial tendencies, lack of social skills and active avoidance of social interaction that makes it seem like he finds it challenging/tiring to perform social interactions successfully so he just avoids them altogether. This is not the same as being an introvert and like, the girls who get it get it, the girls who don’t don’t.

That really strong pattern recognition which allows him to easily make really accurate predictions and makes up a big chunk of what gets labeled as “genius.”

High intelligence, especially since it’s coupled with such a complete lack of social competency.

How harsh his expression is all the time, like he has a really bad case of RBF, makes it seem like he really just doesn’t bother masking at all since he has enough privilege and power that he doesn’t have to, which goes with his aversion to social interaction and his ability to successfully lead a whole ass faction in spite of being so socially inept.

I also think that the combo of the strong sense of justice and the tendency for black and white thinking that’s so characteristic of ASD could contribute to his ability to make tough calls most people couldn’t without seemingly any emotions getting in the way. For example, with Bloodstained Rose Day, he could deadass look at it like “well 1000 people is less than the whole fucking population so alright, go on and just kill them, it’s worth it” and not bat an eye because it’s objectively correct.

He could be especially perceptive due to like sensory sensitivities (idk how to say that so it doesn’t sound super redundant but you know what I mean), which could contribute to his ability to always know when someone is trying to kill him or detect poison or whatever the fuck else.

Now, I haven’t actually read his route yet so maybe I’m wrong but I really don’t think I am lol. Lmk what y’all think!

[castiel-left-his-mark-on-me]

Hi, Ary, very inactive ex-mutual(i think???) here. Good to see you thriving! ♥ It's been a while since I've dipped my head into cockles stuff. Could I perchance maybe ask uuuuum tf is going on??? lol I see Mish apparently confirmed he used to stay over at Jensen's in Van, and heard newbs were apparently freaking out about it and getting a bit messy, which I get that, business as usual. But I'm also seeing shit about spin-offs? And Jared getting in a twitter fight with Jensen, causing/resulting in stans to going feral and sending hate?? I know you're not as big a fan of Jar, but that's part of why I figured I'd ask you, you usually have a really level head about this kinda stuff. If you don't wanna answer publically, or at all, that's totally chill!

Hey, Rhi! We're still mutuals! Of course we're still mutuals! When I saw the notification of your ask, I was like "Hey! I haven't seen you in a while!" and my husband was like "???" and I said "Tumblr" and he said "Oh."

It was a wild time haha.

In any case, welcome back to the dumpster fire! We are obviously still a mess. So to catch you up, I guess I will start by summarizing both before and after the finale (not sure where you left off so this might be redundant for you) ... basically, it became obvious as the end of the show neared that Jensen was not on board with the plan for the finale; although Jared never stopped singing its praises.

We got confirmation of this during a zoom interview where Jensen said that he actually went into the writers room as well as called Kripke to basically voice how he didn't agree with the direction the final season was going, but he was shot down on all fronts. In another interview, he was asked "What would you tell your younger self going into this career?" And Jensen responded with: "I would tell myself to just keep your head down and do the work" meaning, "Don't try to change things because you can't." I also think that this whole situation is what he wrote "Let Me Be" about for his first Radio Company album, but that is just my own speculation. All of his reluctance, even though he always followed it up with "But I eventually saw the value in the script" or "I came around in the end" (which never sounded sincere, and I don't think he was really trying to sound sincere) made us all very nervous about what was to come for 15x20; and of course, when the last two episodes aired, we saw just how badly they fucked it up.

After the awful finale, the entire fandom became aware of the CW's heavy handed role in the thing, basically squeezing all the life out of SPN to shape it into a ramp from which Walker could launch itself. They not only erased all the love and joy and representation that Cas's love confession gave us, they also tore apart the things that made sense about the bond between Sam and Dean, making it really just about Sam-- and therefore Jared, which of course, Jared seemed to be fine with ... even though no one else was. Misha barely said anything during the finale, and a few of the other actors talked about the show ending in various posts, but Jared tweeted up a storm ... and Jensen? Jensen just sat in sexy-silent resentment of the whole thing. He didn't tweet, he didn't post, he didn't say a word once he no longer had to, and I think that's because he was already going full-steam-ahead on his plans for redemption.

Which brings us to Chaos Machine-- Jensen and Danneel's new production company that is being run by a queer creative director and has a mantra of inclusivity and representation woven throughout it's fabric; and apparently, the first story that Jensen wanted to tell through this new platform is the origin story of Sam and Dean's parents; so last week (?) he announced the upcoming production of "The Winchesters" -- the untold love story of John and Mary. Obviously, John is not the most likable character from the show, so the idea was met with a lot of resentment when it was first announced, but Jensen has gone on to say that he is excited to take on the task of telling the "true" story behind these characters-- the one that makes sense with the pre-established canon and doesn't reject it. So, given that, the idea is being mulled over with a bit more optimism from the fandom.

Who isn't being optimistic though?

Jared Padalecki.

When Jensen made this announcement on Twitter, many of his friends and coworkers congratulated him, but not Jared. Jared responded with a passive aggressive: "I'm happy for you, man, but I wish I didn't hear about it through Twitter." This of course, sent all the die-hard Jared fans into a tizzy and they immediately began asking him if he was serious (hoping it was just a joke-- we all hoped it was because there would be fallout no matter what one's opinion on Jared is). Instead of leaving it there though or just deleting that tweet, Jared went on to tweet some more, saying that he was being serious that he didn't know about the plans for the prequel, and that he was "gutted" that Sam apparenlty wouldn't be included (mind you, this a prequel to SPN... meaning BEFORE Sam and Dean were even born, so how could Sam be included? But Dean is apparently narrating this story so maybe Jared thought Sam should be helping to narrate it? I don't know). But Jared being Jared couldn't just leave that there, he then went on to tweet at Robbie Thompson who was announced as a writer for "The Winchesters" so then Jared went off on him too, calling him "Brutus" and a "coward" acting like Robbie betrayed him (speculation is-- Robbie refused to write for Walker, so Jared is pissed that he essentially chose Jensen over him). He did fairly quickly, remove that tweet attacking Robbie, but of course the damage was done at that point. And it truly only took his first tweet calling out Jensen for some people to be like "Jared-- that sucks if you didn't know but why are you saying any of this publicly?"

As you might know, Jared has had issues in the past with posting hurtful things on social media, and has even used it as a tool for attack before-- calling out customer service agents and public workers that he felt have wronged him, which is bad enough ... but for him to then do the same thing to his best friend of well over a decade? Many people who had once liked him or at least gave him the benefit of the doubt (I used to ...) stopped after this latest twitter tantrum.

However, some people have suspected for some time that J2 had a falling out either shortly before the finale or just after. Their public/social media interactions have seemed awkward, stilted or even non-existent in moments that they normally wouldn't be. In the past year, when Walker premiered, Jensen didn't say much about his friend's new venture other than a "Congrats. buddy" here and there. Later, we learned that Jensen refused to work on the show ... Jared said he make him do it, drag Jensen to the set "kicking and screaming" which made many fans quirk up an eyebrow because, why would Jensen put up a fight unless the two weren't as close as they used to be? And then Jensen moved his family to Colorado (either permanently or for an extended period at least) which is notable considering how he moved to Texas seemingly to be closer to Jared, even buying a house that was near his. All this was just speculation though; but it wasn't until Jared's tweet complaining about not knowing about the prequel that the theories behind them falling out, became less theory and more fact.

The day after his twitter tantrum, Jared tweeted again-- not retracting his statements or apologizing, but instead saying that he and Jensen "talked" and were "all good". Jensen then tweeted too, parroting this statement to some degree, which only made the whole thing even more sour in the mouths of the fans. The fact that Jared didn't apologize for his outburst and throwing his friend under the bus, and also the fact that Jensen-- Mr. Sexy Silence, Mr. Never Tweets, Mr. Tech-Ignorant-and-Proud, actually had to POST SOMETHING saying that he and Jared made up, it just screamed OPTICS. It was obviously the work of agents and PR firms and lots of people going "Look, if you two keep beefing, that will mean the death of both of your projects. Even more people will stop watching Walker, and this SPN prequel will never get picked up due to the scandal." So, the two "made nice" publicly to quell the chaos, but in my opinion, it's all too little too late. Jared started a storm that he can't contain now with a little tweet, and it seems like he knows that too because before he talked about him and Jensen making up, he asked that people "not send threats". He could have just as easily said that he shouldn't have made this a public issue and that he's sorry, but instead, he continued to play the victim and stoke the flames by alerting us all to the damage he's done.

Now, like I said before-- I used to give him the benefit of the doubt. I don't think he's an awful human or that he deserves to be attacked or anything, but he is an adult man with very poor judgment and an obvious selfish-streak a mile wide. He should know better, and he should have more respect for his so-called "friends" and "brothers" than to make them targets to public ridicule. I have a hard time believing that Jensen still sees Jared the way he used to, and I wouldn't blame him a bit for wanting to pull away-- especially when he's moving on to so many new and exciting things. Jared certainly deserves happiness just as much as anyone else, but he went on twitter and basically asked for a scandal, and he got one.

The question is now-- was there a motive behind it? Was just looking for a reason to bring his and Jensen's falling out to light-- while making himself looking like the victim in the process? Or did he genuinely not know about the prequel and just decided to go about "not knowing" in the most toxic and hurtful way he could manage?

In any case, that is the drama ... that is the J2 insanity in a rather lengthy nutshell ... that is the tea ... and I hope it all makes sense.

But the good news out of all of this is, Cockles is thriving-- they are happy and in love and Jensen calls Misha "Babe" and Misha misses waking up to see Jensen in the morning, and they are just as cute and wonderful as can be.

So, I will end that there. I am so glad to see you back, and I hope I answered all your questions in a way that made sense ... I tried anyway!

💖💖💖

[somethingironicallycool]

Let’s talk about cults- a letter to witchblr

You probably know me from this blog or perhaps from @desertandstorm or maybe you just never heard of me. The point is, I used to consider myself magically inclined. Unfortunately, it’s been ruined for me. People always say that you never expect to join one and honestly that is incredibly true! These people were my friends and my mentors, I never knew it would blow up in my face like that.  When we think of spiritual safety, people on this site most often bring up spirits or herb safety, never fully touching on the topic of the overlap of covens vs. cults. I don’t blame them, it is truly a messy subject to properly handle without convincing someone all covens are cults (which is absolutely not true) So here’s my go at it based off of my experiences RED FLAGS

They’re pushy about their beliefs 

They try and separate you from the “others”

Slander other groups

proclaim they’re the only right

“nobody else knows what they’re doing”

Something about them just always has to be one step ahead 

The head of the coven can’t accept criticism 

Denial of problems

Conflicting info and logical fallacies 

This is iffy but casual godphoning of several gods and goddesses especially ones that they just started working with

Invasive actions such as unwanted readings and spells

(goes with the last one) refusal to take responsibility 

Gaslighting and other forms of emotional manipulation

treat you special when you first join

leave you in the dust after you lose your novelty

(please feel free to add more in reblogs)

you feel like you’re failing them somehow

your mental health worsens because of them

COMMON MISCONCEPTIONS

This list is based off of my own struggles I’m still trying to come to grips with

Cults are only physical!

I got snagged by a Discord server. They can be anywhere where you are vulnerable.

Cult leaders are creepy old dudes

The ring leader was a dude in college. They can also start off as your friends. Cults exist to take advantage, there is no set way for them to appear

Aren’t cults like devil worshippers?

No, we were a diverse group who all didn’t share practices. (I’m a pop pagan and no one else was)

It’s so obvious

While I knew something was wrong, it wasn’t until after I left and someone pointed it out I realized what I was in. 

Isn’t the damage physical? like brandings and shit

No, the damage was very much psychological and spiritual. While I believe someone did carve their arm under the influence of a leader, nothing physical happened to me. However, I can’t touch Aphrodite, Lilith, or Loki related things given their current associations. I can’t even worship Set now because I feel... dirty, like I was such a fool. 

WHAT TO DO

once more based off of my experiences if someone would like to add advice for physical situations please do 

Assess your situation

if they hit a good amount of red flags, they’re probably a cult

if they hit a few red flags, they’re a toxic group

Leave 

Cult or toxic group it doesn’t matter. They showed red flags, it isn’t worth it.

You’re going to feel alone, it’s ok. It’s ok to feel alone after all that time. You aren’t alone in that.  

Cut ties

Delete all related social media you used pertaining to the group

Make sure to work backwards so they can’t trace you 

Delete everything that could’ve touched your tumblr or discord or however else you were in contact. 

If you can’t delete certain accounts, change the username/ profile pic/ description and lock it down to private 

Pick a new internet handle to go under for awhile and don’t tell people your old name. fae rules. 

Lay low around the spiritual community and don’t try and interact unless it’s with people you trust 

Breathe

It’s ok.

I’m serious we’ll get over this

To those struggling right now, you are strong you are brave

I know it’s so hard to feel like you’re so small that everything you did was lies, but please don’t let your work go to waste. Your first reaction will probably be to destroy your previous alters or delete all your journal posts, but just hold on to them. Save them for later you might be surprised. 

Your pain is valid 

Closing thoughts

Quite frankly, I miss spirituality. I miss the community it brought. I miss the Dolorosa and working with Sutekh. I am beyond pissed that was forcibly taken from me, and even now, slowly but surely, I am trying to make my way back to where I was. Before making this post, I was ashamed. So horribly ashamed of myself and just filled with disgust and hatred. I also used to worship Aphrodite and to see her have been made a mockery of just breaks my heart

and its ok. 

I accept my normal now wasn’t the normal before. To expect my mind to just ignore everything that happened is stupid. That isn’t what healing is. Healing is... acceptance. Not of what happened, but of yourself. I will honor those that I used to by honoring myself and striving to create my own future free from those that wish me harm. 

[manifestingalignment]

Taking Time For Shadow Work

I’m going to be taking time away from social media for shadow work, so this post will be my goodbye for a little while. What brought this about was I was watching a workshop video by Teal Swan, she was diving into some shadow work with a girl from her audience, and as I listened to what the girl was feeling and experiencing, I noticed a lot of those same traits and feelings within myself that I never really had the answers to before for why I felt that way. She always felt she needed to challenge other people, that she was always seeking answers and trying to find her purpose and she could never find it. She always felt let down by other people, that things in her life were always failing her, that she didn’t trust herself. 

These are a lot of the same issues I see within myself. The common issue that these feelings stem from was revealed in the video that it comes from growing up in an environment where you didn’t have any power and lacked a lot of control over your own life. I grew up in a very religious household and had a very controlled childhood. My dad especially was very hard hearted. My mom tried to soften him but she often couldn’t get through to him. I remember my aunt gifted me a furby for my birthday and I absolutely loved it so so much. It was my favorite toy. For whatever reason, it gave my dad bad vibes and he threw my furby in the garbage in front of me. It broke my heart. The same thing happened with other toys I grew really fond of. I loved playing the Nintendo 64 a lot growing up. My dad thought I loved it too much, so he sold it. I was forced to go to church growing up, whether I wanted to or not. I was told what to believe in, I was told what to like, what not to like. A lot of things I felt drawn to as a child I couldn’t play with because my parents associated it with evil in some way. Not everything of course, but I can think of many instances. There were some other things I think contributed to how I am today that are a bit too personal to post online, but I just think a lot of childhood trauma is starting to surface right now. So growing up, I often felt powerless, had a lack of control over developing myself and the things that I genuinely liked, I grew up always seeking others approval in order to like anything or be anything. I was molded to only interact and develop interests for the things other people approved of, I think it severely damaged my development for sense of self. And I think a lot of this has carried into my adult life, that is why I struggle so deeply with finding what I am truly passionate about or why I am always challenging others for power. It’s because I severely lack power within myself from my upbringing and I think the only way I am going to heal this part of myself is if I start from scratch, get totally away from social media, go into hermit mode, and really re-discover myself from a place of independence without any kind of positive or negative influence from other people. I need to learn how to source power and joy from within myself, and feel a sense of pride from my accomplishments on my own because I myself am proud of them. Not to try and make others proud of me for doing them. This is the lesson I have learned and now it’s time to put it into practice. ♥

I wish you all well. :) Thank you for following this account. I may be back in a few months, but I really can’t confirm the duration. I just gotta take this journey for me so for now this is goodbye. ♥

[beepbeepbobop]

Back again.

I was telling my friend (who isn’t a Baccano! fan, but listens to me ramble) about my take on immortals and Czeslaw, and I don’t know where to put it, so!  It goes here.  As a warning, this is mostly me rambling and probably treads ground that has been talked about a lot in the past, but I hope it’s interesting anyway.

(This and the Infinity Train post is not a sign that I’m going to be more active in the future.  Social media and the prospect of interacting with other people’s posts still make me anxious.  Maybe one day.)

So!  The first thing to keep in mind is that change is a major theme in Baccano!.  No one is incapable of changing, but people have different relationships with it depending on who they are.  Czes can't believe that he has changed seventy years after Isaac & Miria stealing him despite clear evidence that he has.  Meanwhile, Nile actively resists change:  His greatest fear after becoming immortal was that he would become desensitized to the loss of human life and begin to devalue it, so he spent decades fighting in active war zones so that he'd never forget the reality of death.  This backfired, and instead left him inured to loss of life...but it's clear that he doesn't want to be this way?  Realizing that he's gotten to the point where his expression doesn't even change if someone dies is devastating for him.  Chane is the opposite:  While it's absolutely for the best that she stops being a hitwoman and killing machine for her father, softening up is terrifying to her because then she can't serve her father the way she wants to.   Czes is on the opposite end of the spectrum, because he wants to be better because he thinks he's a bad person (later on, he decides that he's the only bad person left in the world.  Sir.), but can't recognize it because he doesn't feel different.

And...this is pertinent to the older immortals in particular - I'd argue even moreso than with the younger ones.  Aside from the fact that the Elixir literally stops you from changing in the sense of age or injury...it also has to place inhibitors on your brain.  Your brain is, after all, a physical part of your body!  There are some....weird aspects about immortality that no one is able to figure out (for example, immortals can give birth; someone also pointed out that there are no examples of crying in reverse even though that's also a part of your body), but it's still safe to say that the brain doesn't age either because then...then a lot of the cast would be catatonic from Alzheimer's.  Even without that, the human body can only retain so many memories.  If an immortal's brain had the ability to deteriorate over time or overload based off of the amount of memories it contains....well, I don't think any of the older immortals would be able to function.  Szilard definitely wouldn't be able to function (and neither would Firo after he devours Szilard) because Szilard has the memories of over a dozen people running around in his brain.  Which brings me to my next point:  If an immortal's brain functioned like a human's, devouring would not work as a concept.  One of the hallmarks of being immortal is gaining other people's memories.  Imagine the strain that would cause.  And yet, it doesn't seem to be a problem!  The chief worry of those who have devoured other immortals is worrying that having the memories of the other person might change you consciously or subconsciously.  This is Firo's concern over devouring Szilard.

So...the fact that the brain doesn't physically grow older or change (with some leniency given because real world science sure is iffy here)...feels relevant because, mn...

Many of the older immortals feel stagnant, or stuck in time.  Firstly, if the immortals changed at the same pace as a human being, I don't think most of them would be recognizable from one era to the other.  And yet, they are!  The Victor Talbot of the 1700s is clearly the same person as the Victor Talbot of the 1930s, albeit with alterations (because what kind of person would stay exactly the same after centuries?).  The answer to that question is Elmer, by the way.  Everyone comments on how he acts just like the Elmer they remember back in the day.  But Elmer is a special case, seeing as he's our local empty shell and probable sociopath (not that he has ASPD!  ASPD, sociopathy and psychopathy all present and function entirely differently from each other, which makes it....strange that they're lumped under the same umbrella - but that's another matter).  Secondly, immortals...Uhm, they all handle grief horribly, and seem to feel stuck in the past?  Maiza, for instance, acts starkly different from his past as a rebellious noble-boy gang member, but he's never forgiven himself for giving Gretto the information that led to his death.  (Gretto being his brother.)  Huey's overarching goal is to bring his dead girlfriend back to life, and he's been working towards this goal for centuries.  Sylvie, who admittedly was not an immortal when Gretto died, held off on drinking the Elixir until she was all grown up, then set out to finding Szilard to take revenge on him for killing the boy she had run away with.  This lasted for, you guessed it, centuries.

This isn't to say that immortals don't change, or even that they don't change drastically.  I mentioned Nile, who became inured to death after fighting in war for decades.  Czes went from a trusting, innocent child to someone paranoid and self-centered enough to try and get an entire train car's worth of people killed for his own safety to someone who wants to be a good person, but thinks he never will be and that there's something fundamentally wrong with him.  But changing appears to be very, very difficult, and happens over an extended period of time in response to extreme situations.

And...this is particularly relevant to Czes (who keeps coming up as an example because he's the main person I'm thinking about with this tangent) because....it arguably hits him harder than any of the others due to being a child.  Only the best decisions were made aboard the Advenna Avis, which includes letting the eight year old drink the immortality elixir.  But...mn.  It's one thing to be perpetually in your thirties, or twenties, or sixties, and another altogether to perpetually be eight years old.  Czes can't truly 'grow up' even though he has more life experience than most adults combined, and it shows in his extreme emotional reactions, his self-centeredness, ect.  There's a certain misconception about anime-only fans that he's an adult in a child's body, but I think it's easier to tell in the light novels that that's not the case, especially since you see what he's like back before the Advenna Avis.  (He is shy.  Very shy.  Did nothing wrong ever.)  Also, the fact that SAMPLE goes, "Yes!  The perfect sacrifice!" when they specifically take a child to target emphasizes this.  It's not proof - I'm pretty sure that SAMPLE would focus on his physical age as an 'eternal child', and may or may not have the resources to analyze him and go, "This boy is still eight years old in his head," - , but it hammers the point home.

Then...mn.  One thing that's stuck out to me ever since the start is how long Czes was with Fermet.  There's such a thing as learned helplessness, and it's not like Czes had anywhere to go, so that's not what is odd to me...especially when Fermet is known for manipulating people, and could definitely seed the idea that Czes can't go anywhere.  More than physical proximity, I think about how long Czes believed in Fermet.  It's explicitly stated that Czes absorbing Fermet's memories is what made him realize that - oh, Fermet was just sadistic and everything he said was an excuse.  And...I think this is both an example of being controlled in many respects, and....another example of an immortal being stuck in the past - but in a very, very different way.

First off, learning that the people you look up to want to harm you is...difficult at best, especially when you're younger?  But being mentally 'stuck' at a certain age would make things worse, because Czes is perpetually an age where it's natural to depend on a parental figure, and at an age where the brain isn't equipped to make those kinds of calls or realizations.  There's also the matter of cognitive dissonance!  Cognitive dissonance means a lot of things, but essentially, it's the idea that you have two conflicting beliefs, but the actions you take can retroactively alter your beliefs/place emphasis on one more than the other, as the mind is predisposed to reduce dissonance.  I...take issue with how cognitive dissonance is interpreted because many examples don't account for the beliefs or opinions not being equal in the first place, but that's not the point.  The point is that, as a child, the impulse to reduce dissonance is present while also being played against difficulty reading intentions, perceiving the world outside of yourself, and thinking critically.  (For what it's worth, abusers also tend to discourage critical thinking because it damages their narrative, which would also play a part.)   So, for example...

Say that, theoretically, Czes was yelled at every time he questions the idea that Fermet's intentions are right, or that maybe Fermet doesn't have his best interests in mind.  (Czes is insightful, and they lived with each other for a long time, so this probably happened at least once unless the text directly contradicts me.)  This is tame compared to the things we know about his time with Fermet, but ignore that.  The desire to not be yelled at would lead him to hurriedly agree later on, and cognitive dissonance means that you're inclined to try to make your beliefs agree with your actions.  In other words, the more he plays along, the more his brain tells him that he definitely believes this, and it makes perfect sense to!  Fermet has shown that he cares about him, and took him in after his grandfather died, so of course.  It only makes sense.  And it's even harder for him to bridge the gap to a different conclusion because of how difficult it seems to be for immortals to change.  It's only when Czes devours Fermet (or...or at least gets his memories) that everything snaps into place, because he can't reconcile that no matter how hard he tries (coincidentally, this also happens when he gets memories of being an adult, and while I seriously doubt that Czes went through Fermet's memories willingly, it kind of hammers my point about how difficult being eternally young would make things).  So of course he snaps as hard as he does.  It'd be kind of amazing if he didn't, honestly.

TLDR:  Being immortal made it even harder for him to recognize or comprehend his trauma.  Sorry for that.

[lunarrwolf]

mini series coming soon!!

since you guys got me over 300 followers, i held up my end of my own deal and was finally able to think up the first of a 100% written series (social media included only when needed to build the story).

there will only be two for now but i want to get the sykkuno series a good ways in before bringing in new content like this! i’ve been a writer since middle school and have major writer’s block for a book i’m working on rn so i’m really excited about writing an actual story for lunarrwolf! these are the banners, very tiny synopses, and sneak peek excerpts for DAYWALKER!s and Siren Woods

s.h warning: siren woods will not be for the faint of heart as it will be put in the category of a psychological thriller. it will contain suspense, fear(s), anxiety and/or mentions of depression, isolation and swearing

d.w!s warning: this is an apocalyptic world w/o zombies. it will contain violence, anxiety, entrapment, fear(s) and swearing

disclaimer: i will do my absolutely best not to treat either of these as if they were actual novels. i plan on putting in comedic lines and scenes to lower any thriller/horror vibes from the stories, and not too go too far to avoid truly triggering myself or anyone else. warnings will only be issued in chapters that are going to actually include one or more of above the above. but if anyone who reads them in the future have issues do not feel like you need to keep reading.

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DAYWALKER!s

a variety youtuber mini series

summary

ten creators find themselves amidst a city with an oddly familiar vibe, a weird yet intimidating apocalyptic appearance, and hundreds of strangers that feel the need to do nothing but fight their way through the city. even if that means to the death.

excerpt

“You’re all going to die, you know.. so you might as well give up now and let it take over.”

“What the fuck is that supposed to mean?”

You blinked at the growl woven in with your friend’s deep voice, knowing for sure that if you were in an animation a sweat drop would be making its way down the side of your head. He hated confrontation more than anyone here but when it came to his friends, and being trapped in a place like this? Who knew what damage he would do to keep them safe.

The man ahead of the group did nothing but stand there with a mocking grin on his face. It was unnerving, and dare say almost bloodthirsty. There was no amount of sanity or free will from where you all stood just a couple of yards away, and just that thought alone chilled you to the core.

“Corpse.. maybe you shouldn’t.” You stated, stepping closer to him to lower the risk of the strange man hearing the second part. “I don’t like the looks of that guy even from over here. We’ve already had to deal with a ton of crazy shit since finding each other. We can’t risk losing our only real muscle of the group.”

Ignoring the offended voices of Sean and Ludwig, the man with the torn mask looked at you only when you put a hand on his shoulder. It took sharing glances and seeing head shakes from most of the others to have him loosen the fist his hand was already in. Standing up straight, you watched as he rolled his shoulders, jaw still clenched from the tension. Rae was taking advantage of the off putting interaction and explored the small area, so capturing everyone’s attention when Corpse relaxed a bit wasn’t hard. “It’s gonna be a tight fit but I think we can make it work.”

“Whoa.”

“Where did you learn how to hotwire a car?” Ethan questioned, being the first to make his way toward the beaten vehicle.

“Video games?” The brunette answered, as if it was the most obvious thing in the world. She hit the side of the driver door twice, motioning to the group. “Now get your asses in here before that guy decides to pull a Resident Evil zombie sprint on us.”

“Yes ma’am.” Sykkuno saluted, earning chuckles that were a rare sight since ending up here. The two of you didn’t waste time in calling the front seats beside Rae and Ethan, forcing everyone else to get in the back of the truck and make it work. No one could complain, though, seeing the circumstances you were all in.

It took a few seconds of revving the seemingly old engine before the machine began making its way. You could actually hear the ones in the back shift around to get in more comfortable positions for however long a ride it would be. The girl behind the wheel didn’t pay any mind to the stranger that watched her drive you all away, but you did. And even when he continued to shrink in distance and eventually disappeared, you knew his words would stay with you.

“You’re wasting your time! No one gets out of Mirror City!!”

Siren Woods

a variety youtuber mini series

summary

seven internet personalities find themselves in the middle of an old town myth as they take a break from their careers and head up towards a rural mountain area. among every spooky or jumpy experience with a horror game here and there, never did any of them think they’d end up in this situation.

excerpt

The fire crackled with a sense of release, almost as if this large flame represented the time everyone needed away from their jobs. After how crazy the media has become the past few weeks, you and your friends agreed that a trip towards a much lesser known area would do you all well. It was a teenagers on summer break scene where everyone was gathered around a campfire in the backyard of a lake house, telling stories to either amuse or scare each other. Seán and Ethan were the first to do so, tag teaming in a very dramatic reenactment of the first time they met in person, which of course had to be followed by your own scene with Y/F/N.

Time flew by and before you knew it, the sun was completely set and the darkest shade of navy possible was barely lit with a crescent moon and a few stars. The only real source of light was the fire, illuminating the six faces in an orange glow. Any laughter died down minutes ago, leaving a silence that was comfortable for everyone. “You guys want to hear a funny story?”

Squinting at the man sitting in the log across from you, you leaned forward, hands folded in your lap. “Funny haha or funny we might want to kill you after we hear it?”

“Uh..” Corpse met your gaze immediately, his mask somehow looking more eerie with the natural lighting. “Funny kind of hoping you won’t kill me, if I’m being honest.” He confirmed, leaning forward himself to warm up his hands while the rest of you debated on whether to let him tell it.

After a few minutes, and three overtaking two, he was allowed to do so. It was an old myth of the town you all resided in for the week; a Slenderman type of entity of the forest that the locals from dozens of years before chose to call Siren Head. The name stuck once old photos were found and set up in the small museum in the Common. He stood at forty feet tall, with two megaphones for heads and tangled wires for a torso. He had the ability to perfectly mimic broadcasts, conversations, sirens and screams, and had been said to only emit white noise if ever asleep. Speed nearly matched that of a cheetah and his strength was unbelievably high due to his size. Every sighting of said species had only been released by victims, and it was an urban tale that stood alive to this very day.

Rae was on the grass now, legs crossed one over the other as she tried to look at everyone at once. “Why the hell did we all come to a place called Siren Woods, then?!”

“Well.. the town looked really nice online, and it’s living up to that. And I thought siren meant more mermaid than a freaky Creepypasta-type thing.” Sykkuno could do nothing but respond with nerves showing through his face and every subtle movement of his body as he explained why he ended up agreeing with the destination.

“Yeah, I did too.” Y/F/N piped in, shrugging her innocence as you all began telling your sides. “Who doesn’t think of a mermaid when you hear the word siren?! That’s basically what they are.”

“I, for one, think we should find another place to stay.” Ethan spoke up.

Seán gaped at his longest friend in the group, “You don’t actually believe in that.”

“I’m not taking any chances, dude. Those people believe in that thing enough to build a whole section of the museum for it.”

You watched your friends go back and forth, some freaked out by the story but not believing it was real while the rest wanted to find a new vacation spot. “What do you think, Y/N?”

You turned to Corpse, blinking as the simple question processed in your mind. “I’m with Ethan on this.. even if that thing isn’t an actual being the belief here is hardcore.” Three faces lit up in relief while the roommate, Irishman, and faceless internet persona felt differently. “Let me finish..” you sighed, “Let’s stay another night but keep an extra cautious eye on Spencer and Luna. Animals have a sort of sixth sense, so if anything weird happens they’ll warn us. Deal?”

Y/F/N shared a glance with you, letting out a sigh of her own. “Suddenly I’m feeling a lot better that we brought our dogs instead of getting sitters.” She bent down to pet the canines laying between the logs, hoping if they did bark it would just be from a resident knocking on the door.

[qqueenofhades]

Do you think the technology/internet/broad access revolution we are in will change things for POC, queer people, racism, etc?

I think it's obvious that it already has? If you're asking whether technology/social media will change things re: marginalised people for the better, the jury is still out, and we're at a critical tipping point (both in America, but also worldwide) as to whether empirical reality, critical nuance, and acceptance of facts that don't fit your preferred worldview are going to have any continuing relevance to our political and social systems whatsoever. The internet has done a lot of good things, but the instant social media became a place where a) competing ideological narratives and outright fake news were all treated as equally valid, as long as it drove traffic and made money, and b) the owners of these platforms absolved their duty to control them with a shrug of "free speech," we were destined to go down this path, where we all inhabit custom-made information universes where we only ever interact with like-minded people, any critique becomes a sign of insufficient loyalty to The Cause, and collective civic responsibility no longer exists, but is instead replaced by downright sociopathic ultra-libertarian selfishness packaged as "individual freedom." (Just witness how some people have behaved during Covid, refusing even the slightest restrictions, even if making sacrifices would help save other, less fortunate people.) Not to sound like a grumpy old woman, but I think the impact on the real world was truly devastating and, in the short term at least, genuinely irreparable.

The internet has done us the service of connecting and empowering marginalised people who would never have met each other otherwise, providing the entirety of human knowledge at the touch of a button, raising visibility, and so forth. However, we are at an absolute crisis point of whether we're going to let people behave, act, legislate (and try to legislate for others) according to their preferred Facebook feed-version of reality, because see again: the monetization of information, no matter what kind of information, was always going to lead to this. We are just now realizing the devastating consequences of large segments of society walking around in their own personal universes and simply rejecting tenets of empirical reality that do not conform to their own ideology. The problem is, when a lot of people (on both the extreme right and the extreme left) live in lulu-land because of what they consume online, it inevitably affects everyone else. Social media makes it incredibly and poisonously easy to enter an entire information ecosystem that reinforces itself, therefore self-justifying itself in an entire universe of total bullshit, and once people get into that echo chamber, it is very hard (albeit not impossible) to get out.

So, you say. This all sounds awfully pessimistic. What would I do about it? Well, this is the part where I have to say that while I have ideas, and they're things I try to do for myself, it's not anything I can pull off alone. I have talked at length about how the humanities (and their attendant critical thinking skills) have been repeatedly, deliberately, and extensively devalued in late capitalism, precisely because they a) don't generate Production For The Machine and b) encourage people to ask awkward questions about power and control. As long as people aren't explicitly taught how to push back on this stuff, or aren't able to reject something -- even if it fits with their Ideology -- because it isn't true, we're going to be stuck in this mess. I'm not optimistic that legislative efforts against Big Tech will have any effect. I'm glad that at least we saw, however completely terrible it was/is, the stark result of alternate-universe grievance politics on January 6, and in the conservative media loudmouths dogpiling on the Covid vaccine as an attempted way to hurt those liberal sissies who believe in science. It's no coincidence that the states with the lowest vaccination rates are deep-red Trump-supporting southern states. It's only now, as the pandemic resurges in those exact places, that (once more out of expediency) the conservative "news" is finally, tepidly endorsing the idea that huh, maybe you should get vaccinated.

Anyway. The relentless monetization of social media at the expense of any kind of moderation for hate speech, the encouragement that you can post anything you want and never face any consequences Because Free Speech, and the way that we have all seen the vast and horrifically ugly prejudices that the social media universe has both exposed and cultivated anew... it's all pretty much a giant shitburger, if you ask me. I don't know how to quickly fix it. It's way too easy to exist in a bubble, to horrifically bully strangers you will never meet, and to have real and terribly detrimental consequences on our offline lives as a result. The internet obviously isn't going away, but if we don't seriously grapple with the kind of anti-citizens it's made us, I'm not sure what's going to happen, or if it's anything we should want.

I would like to think that we will slowly learn to use this awesome power more responsibly, and reverse some of the incredible damage that has been done, but if that does happen, it'll come when we've already hit rock bottom. Again, it has done good things: the worldwide protests after George Floyd's death, for example, would have been completely impossible without modern technology, in any number of ways. But if it's going to be a concrete social good for all of us, let alone the most vulnerable among us, we have so very far to go, and the global systems in place have absolutely no interest in enabling a reversal of the current trends. So. We will see, but I'm not too hopeful.

[i-dreamed-i-had-a-son]

Alllllrighty folks usually I do not poke the bee's nest and instead opt to stay out of discourse but I am very personally invested in this topic and I need to say:

It is not homophobic, transphobic, queerphobic, or any other kind of -phobic to be a Christian.

I am a Christian. I am also a queer woman. I have been a Christian since I was old enough to understand my faith. I'm currently in a QPP with a girl and identify as a wlw; I've actively identified as queer since I was 15 and have been out and proud for almost that entire time. These things can coexist.

I see posts and comments, as I scroll through the myriad of social media apps, that outright attack my religion while affirming my queerness. And that's not ok. My queerness is a huge part of my identity, but so is my faith--in fact, my faith is my primary identity. Calling me a traitor to the community for holding to the faith that's saved my life countless times? Calling me, as an individual, homophobic because of the homophobia rampant within many Christian circles? Claiming that my faith is inherently damaging and should be silenced? Not. Ok.

And believe me, I know there is homophobia present in the church. I have experienced it many times, from members of my church, to mentor figures, to my family. It is a huge problem. Many Christians claim that they are "acting in love" by proclaiming "the truth," and then hurl slurs at people. It is a huge, huge problem and it has hurt many people, myself included.

However. This is a problem with people in the church, not Christianity itself.

I can't speak for other faiths, so I'll just speak to mine: anyone who claims that God hates gay people or that all gay people are going to hell is not representative of the Gospel. Jesus never condemned those who sought him, even those that society considered the lowest of the low. In fact, Jesus's only harsh words were spoken to those who thought they knew what was "right" and lorded it over others.

It really hurts me to feel that I don't have a safe place to exist in either the church or the queer community. In Christian circles, my queerness is perceived as taboo, wrong, or dangerous. But the same thing is true of my faith in queer circles. And that shouldn't be the case in either situation.

I don't deserve to be attacked, or see my Christianity attacked, for things other people have done or said. I should be able to say with pride that I am queer, and with the same pride say that I am a Christian.

I am not a traitor to either "side". Our communities do not need to be inherently opposed to each other, and when they are, innocent people get caught in the middle. I am not homophobic (or sexist, or anything else) for being a Christian, and I'm not a fake Christian for being queer. My identities interact in a complex way, and I'm tired of hearing these incredibly important pieces of me oversimplified and reduced to being used as ammunition in a war that doesn't need to happen.

Let's be tolerant of one another--truly tolerant, which means coexisting peacefully with those with whom we disagree. To quote an oft-overlooked piece of Scripture, "As far as it depends on you, live at peace with everyone." And people will often say that one of my identities is, by its mere existence, an attack on the other, which makes it alright to "fight back"--but neither Christianity nor queerness is inherently attacking anyone. People in both communities, however, are very capable of attacking others, and this needs to stop.

I'll say it again: my identity is not your ammunition nor your target. I am not hurting you by existing. I am not devaluing you by being who I am. My Christianity and my queerness are both unchangeable, intrinsic parts of me, whether or not you think one or the other is a choice, and I am done being ashamed of them.

[twdmusicboxmystery]

When a Grady Actor Confirmed TD and Other Reasons the Spoilers Don’t Spoil TD

Okay Everyone, I’m gonna cover a few of things today that I hope will help everyone to continue feeling at least somewhat better about the spoilers. 

***More spoilers below (same ones as yesterday, actually) but don’t read if you don’t want to know. You’ve been warned.***

1) Could the spoilers be fake?

I got plenty of messages and comments yesterday, too. Some of them claiming these spoilers aren’t even true and the person who spoiled them is a troll and unreliable. 

Now, before everyone starts messaging me and commenting about how you “know” these are true and the screeners are out, please note that I’m not making a claim either way. The account that spoiled this isn’t one who normally gets and reviews screeners, which means they could be false. That doesn’t mean that account didn’t get these from a reputable source, which means they could be true.

As I said yesterday, overall, I think they’re probably true. I think they were probably intentionally leaked to hype up the fandom and gauge our reactions. And I would rather you all make your peace with them being real rather than holding out hope that they’re totally false. But I think it’s worth reiterating that they haven’t been 100% confirmed, yet.

2) There’s a whole other person involved in this Leah arc that we don’t know about yet.

You know how yesterday I went on and on about how we don’t have anything near all the details of this arc? Well, someone pointed this out to me. Don’t feel bad if you totally missed it, because I did, too, and I haven’t seen anyone talking about it.

Look at the picture of Leah below carefully. Look at what’s behind her. If you look closely, there’s someone kneeling on the ground. They’ve got one knee resting on the floor, and the other one pointed toward the ceiling with their foot flat. You can see one shoulder to the left of Leah’s hip.

Spoilers make no mention of this person. We have no idea who they are or how they fit into the story.

This looks to me like it’s when she and Daryl first meet (hence, she doesn’t trust him and is holding him at gunpoint) and she seems to be protecting this person from him. Whoever it is, it probably has to do with why she’s out there to begin with, and will probably factor in how/why she disappears.

And I have no doubt that this shot is purposeful, guys. If they wanted us to know about this person directly, they would have given us a more obvious shot of them. And yet, they have put hints of the person in the shots they DID release. Isn’t that just like them?

But my point is, this is proof that there is a lot about this episode the spoilers are leaving out. So please keep that in mind.

3) When a Grady actor directly addressed TD.

So, for the past few days, as you can imagine I’ve been talking with and consoling people about these spoilers. I just keep going back to the stuff we KNOW. Like that there are missing scenes Emily was in from S5. Those have nothing to do with Leah and suggest Beth’s return. And if she’s returning, I promise you, Bethyl will be a thing.

The other thing I mentioned to people is when Jarod Thompson (guy that played one of the Grady cops) addressed TD directly. 

I quickly realized I needed to repost this because no one seemed to have any idea what I was talking about. Then it took me an hour to find it because I didn’t give it its own post when I first posted it. It was buried at the bottom of this Rick’s Fate post from S9 and not properly indexed. But I did finally locate it.

So, here’s the rundown. Right after the episode where Jadis took Rick away in the helicopter, Jarod Thompson tweeted this:

I’m pretty sure you can’t find this tweet anymore. It was taken down. But let me make a couple of points here. 

First, the obvious. TD has nothing to do with Leah. She wasn’t even on anyone’s radar back then. So what he’s telling us here has nothing to do with Leah. He’s basically telling us that Beth will return. 

Translation: Leah doesn’t matter. Beth is coming back. 

This is just one (of many) things that keeps me strong in TD. Because the actor actually confirmed this for us. And then it was quickly taken down, which is always suspicious to me. Why? Well, I’m sure some people will be quick to counter with the argument that maybe he was just trolling or making fun of us. But I don’t see that as a terribly logical argument. 

He’s never done it before or since. 

We have other evidence (HERE) of him working with Emily post-season 5, and possibly in the hospital setting. 

The timing is suspicious. This happened after Rick left. And I personally think that what he referred to here was the CRM. 9x05 was the first time they really came front and center, an active part of the story. So I think he was hinting that Beth is inside that organization as well and that now that the audience knows who they are, the stage is set and things are in motion for her return.

For the record, it was not long after this that we started getting the massing amount of Beth/Emily promotion on social media. 

Most importantly, his tweet was removed, probably by him at someone else’s request. Think about this really logically, guys. They don’t remove tweets about Caryl happening. They don’t remove teases about Daryl and Connie. They only remove suspicious posts that might tell us something about Beth’s return. There’s a reason for that. 

Furthermore, consider this. He’s kind of a small-time actor on the show. Of course I don’t mean that in a negative way. He’s fabulous. But I mean he’s not a main character on the show like Andy or Norman or Lauren. And HE knows all about TD, what we want, obviously what is going to happen, and which events in the show constitute room for us “to breathe.” 

So what does that tell you about other actors on the show, the writers, and any higher-ups connected to the show?

Yeah. Exactly.

Which leads me to my next order of business:

4) Kirkman’s Post/Poll

I think most people saw this last night, but if you didn’t , here it is. 

You can still vote HERE. I took the screenshot last night. I just checked again and the percentage has gone down a couple of points (still at 47%) with more than 9500 votes at this time. So the ‘bring Beth back’ option is still the runaway winner.

Here’s the thing. The timing on this is super-suspicious to me. When was the last time Kirkman tweeted something about Beth? I have no idea, and don’t care to go digging through his Twitter account to find out, but I promise you he hasn’t done it in a long time. He’s said things about her and Bethyl during interviews and such, of course, but he doesn’t just randomly tweet about her. Like...ever.

So you’re telling me that on day 2 after these spoilers leak, when the fandoms are loosing their collective minds, Kirkman just so happens to post this? No way. I don’t buy it.

Look, I know most of us don’t like Kirkman. And I’m not defending him. I don’t like him either. But after watching his interaction with tptb all these years, I have come to believe that they do use him. 

Gimple (and now Kang, I’m sure) are very careful about what they say. Guys, I’ve watched and analyzed this VERY closely over the years, which is why I always say that they never directly lie to us. Misdirection? Yes. Hyperbole? Of course. But they never look into the camera and tell us something blatantly untrue. 

I believe that’s because they don’t want the fans to be able to point at anything they say and accuse them of falsehood. That’s why they can’t ever say much, because it’s either give spoilers (which they won’t) or lie (which they also won’t). That’s why their answers are always so vague and general and very, very irritating. 

But Kirkman isn’t one of the showrunners. He’s connected to it, of course, and I think he knows a lot about what’s coming down the pipeline, but if he says something that’s untrue, tptb can simply shrug and say, “he’ doesn’t make executive story decisions.” Because of that, I believe they use him to sew discord and misdirection. 

And again, I’m not saying this isn’t troll-ish. I’m not saying I like this tactic or that it’s a good thing. I’m simply saying this is what they do. 

So when Kirkman says anything TD-related, I pay attention. Not because I think we should take it at face value, but because the timing, context, how he frames it, and what’s going on in the fandom at the time can tell us a lot about it and give us some clues. 

So, in this case, I think tptb are watching the fandom’s reactions to the spoilers and trying to do a little damage control. But here’s what really gets me: he only mentioned Beth, and specifically in the context of bringing her back. I mean, ALL the shipping fandoms are freaking out right now. All of them are hating these spoilers and losing their shit right now. But he ONLY mentions Beth.

I truly believe that this is tptb, through Kirkman, addressing TD specifically, and just kind of throwing us a bone. They’re not addressing the others because there isn’t any hope for those other ships. 

I know there will be people who disagree with him and think he’s just making fun of us. I understand why people think that. But guys, if that were the case, we’d see at least SOME comments about other characters or ships. There aren’t any. And hey, look through the comments on his tweet. There’s a ton of Beth support (which is why she won the poll) and a few haters, but there are also lots of people who are kind of mystified, saying things like, “How about bring back Glenn? Or Rick? Or Carl?”

See what I mean? 

5) The time Gimple Confirmed Something that was NOT Going to Happen on the Show

Okay, gonna end by reminding you of just one more thing. Just a couple of months ago, before the finale of The World Beyond, S1, one of the actors teased on TTD that we might see Rick in the finale. 

Now, that was totally false. The finale came and went with no Rick (obviously). The actor was just trolling and trying to get people riled up, which he succeeded at. A few days later, Gimple was giving an interview to a clickbait site and they asked him about it. Gimple started to give his run-of-the-mill, vague answer but stopped mid-sentence and said this:

ComicBook.com asked Gimple if World Beyond was working up to a Rick Grimes reveal. 

“You know what? I’m very happy to say… I’m not happy to say the answer,” he said, clearly aware he was about to disappoint people. “I’m happy to be definitive with people. It is not.”

That’s one, I don’t know if people are being cagey about that. But I feel that one’s important not to be cagey about…I think people could watch this show and learn a lot about the mythology that Rick Grimes is caught up in. And they might even see places where Rick Grimes has been. But yeah, he’s not swinging around the corner. And I don’t even know if I’m making people upset saying that, but I just don’t like people watching it, sort of expecting Rick.”

Full article HERE.

Guys, they’ve never done that with Beth and TD. EVER!!!

I’m just saying.

And I can already hear counter arguments about how they’ve never shut down other ships like C@ryl or Donnie either. You’re right, but those characters are still front and center on the show. If Beth is dead and not coming back, why wouldn’t they put her to rest for us the way he did with this Rick rumor? (And I’m also going to argue that they’ve given us very clear indications in the show about a few of these ships, and the shippers just don’t want to accept them. But that’s not entirely relevant here.)

Thoughts?

[getyourblisson]

A Look At May 2021

A Look At May 2021

May is a month that normally about balance and harmony. However, this year, we are likely to find things a bit harsh compared to normal. This year really brings out some strong challenges, in those areas that we are still allowing others to have power and control over us. This is a time, where there is greater fear from those that are operating unethically and without integrity.

This is a time, where we are likely to see many bullying and control tactics at play. This is a natural result, where people are breaking into greater freedom; and are nearing points where they can be more self-supportive, or they are able to break free from those sources that they have been compliant to. As a result, there are attempts to gain greater control; and to tear down those that are telling the truth, and who want to do good in the world.

On a world level, that means this is naturally a time where there will be attempts at great control of the masses. We may see forced agendas being attempted. There will likely be many false flags being used, to instill fear and to degrade people in some way. This is a time, where those that are losing their power and control in the world, are seeking to do everything that they can to make others feel inferior and exert control over them.

This means that more than ever, we need to stand up and consider, the areas where we are still reliant on others. Is it through work, through friendships and relationships, through family, through businesses that we shop with? It is time, for us to stop allowing others to push us around; and to have the strength to walk away from those that are wanting control over our lives. These people only have power because we are giving it to them. They only have power, because we keep the connection with them, believe the lies that we can’t support ourselves any other way, buy the products that support them and their foundations, believe the alleged “scientists” and agencies that are supposed to be for us but actually support them, and believe the media that works for them.

This is a month, where we really need to get proactive; and break free of those patterns that are limiting, restrictive, and based in fear and control. This is especially true, of those that appear to be for our “own good” or that use race, environment, and other world and political issues to make you comply in some way; guilting you if you don’t do what they say, and convincing you that you are hurting others, and need to be subservient to the absurd requests that they are making that have no real fact or reasonable backing to them. That is because they are not based in truth; no matter how much they try to make you believe that.

This month also has a great deal to do with competition, hierarchy, and insecurity. This is a month, where we are likely to see people trying to divide people against each other; and it may come in the form of “friendly competitions”. Spoiler alert, there are no friendly competitions; and when we participate in competitions, we send energetic patterns of division and separation through our planet. Competitions are meant to appease the insecurity of an individual, by proving that they are better than others; even when they clearly are not. Those that engage in this, during this time, are bringing forth an unfavorable future for themselves.

This is a time, that also forewarns, that we need to provide for our future. If we do not do this, then we are certain to bring our own ruin. This means that we will all get put back to square one. We must be very careful of those that pretend to be providing for our future, and really are not. They may use false things, like global warming or other atmospheric conditions that are not true to persuade us. They will seek to create distrust among people.

It is during this time, that there are many contradictions; and that is likely to be challenging for others. It may be challenging to know how to prepare for the future, when everything feels so uncertain; and we don’t even know what direction that things are taking. The biggest key is that we do not act reckless and only for the moment. It is important for us to be a bit more on the cautious side; and to make certain we are creating a little cushion for ourselves in the future.

From May 1st – May 20th we may find ourselves checked out mentally. There is a greater desire to be in connection with our soul or spiritual self; and to feel greater abundance and success within us. We know that this happens the strongest, where we break free from control patterns; and stop letting others decide how our life is going to be.

This is not a good time to be signing contracts or negotiations, since the mind is not clear; and misunderstandings are likely. This is a time where doing so; can get us stuck into things that we don’t want, can’t get out of, or have a lot of strings attached. We want everything to be good and in integrity, and everyone to be honest and trustworthy; but they are not, and it is through being naive or resisting the truth, that we will be taken advantage of and sucked into things that are more destructive than beneficial for us.

We will do best to give ourselves a bit of a break. This will be a good time to be in nature, and away from others. This time favors soul processes and introspective activities. This is a great time for retreats, that lead us to be introspective or encourage creativity. This can be a great time for clearing and cleansing, and all forms of purification.

Any time that we do spend with others during this period, will be best if it is focused on celebrating and social gatherings. It will be best if it is centered around sharing with others; and giving to those that need assistance.

This period warns, that even without being in a strong logical space, that we must not be naive and too lost in our dreams. If we do this, then we are certain to find ourselves in danger; or at minimum, being falsely judged by others. Those that stand in judgment during this time, are those that are feeling insecure and not standing in their own strength. They are easily swayed by others; and will tend to only come to their senses when danger arises.

These are the people that want to ignore what is truly happening; and live in their rose bubble. While I am all for being in the rose bubble and heart centered; there are still times, that we cause much greater damage to ourselves and others, by ignoring what is happening around us. Those seeking control and power, bank on people doing this; because it allows them to easily implement whatever they want.

Remember, our abundance is found in facing things, and doing the work; not escaping from it, or hoping it will just go away. While there are times that can work, this is not one of them. Our abundance comes through sharing and interacting with others. It is important to expose ourselves to a variety of thoughts, so that we can fully understand what is happening. We will do best to connect with those that are also standing in abundance; for these are likely to be the ones that are facing reality without fear.

This period is all about learning and teaching; and through that, taking greater command over our own lives, and removing ourselves from those that are making poor decisions. This is a time, where competition is used as a display of power between the elite. It is a time where successes surface, as a result, of making our own selves heard in peaceful ways and without being in competition. Protests that break out at this time, can easily become riots in a display of power. There is likely to be great danger where this happens.

From May 21st – through the end of the month finds that if we have done the work from earlier in the month, then successes are likely to be unfolding. This is a time, to honor and recognize the persistent efforts of those working in humanitarian ways. It is a very favorable time, for exchanging information; and for learning more about what we are trying to do in the world. While putting what we learn into motion is important, we are going to have to be very careful in how we do it.

Many will start to separate off from the masses or mass mindset at this time. It is likely, that more people are going to be looking for their independence and freedom. People are finding that they do not want to be reliant on others for everything. This will most likely come up the strongest where people are being deceived, manipulated, and lied to.

During this time, it is important that we get strong in doing what needs to get done. It will be a great time to tackle larger projects; and particularly those things that we can do on our own. This is a time, where obligations and responsibilities need to be met; and procrastinating or putting them off, could create more issues for us to deal with. It is very important, that you listen to your own knowledge; and that you make your own decisions. People will want you to choose what they believe is best for you, or what they want you to do; and while it is fine to listen, it is important that you don’t let them influence your decisions away from what is best for you, and what you want to do.

It is during this time, that we are likely to see many endings, transformations, and deaths. The liars, deceivers, and manipulators; are calling in strange and dangerous energy. This can lead things to defy the law of gravity, or to create strange accidents to happen. This is not a favorable time for high adventure activities, major construction work, or working with heavy equipment.

Our focus will be best served, through looking at how we can transform our own situations and life, in a way that creates greater wisdom and a favorable future. It is a time, where we must move through things so that we can move out of them; and we must find the strength to breakthrough what scares us. It is a time, when we need to stand strong in integrity and personal accountability; and those that do not do that will find things falling apart.

The answers and information that we need to make the breakthroughs, are in our past. They are in both the successes and the challenges. As we unfold what patterns have created our challenges, and where we have bought into lies, and been manipulated by others; then we will be able to bring an end to what is trying to destroy us. The liars, deceivers, and manipulators; are fighting to the death, to hold onto the injustices and insecurities that they live by. It is time, to bring an end to these patterns in particular; and to accept standing on your own.

In summary, we must stop turning our power over; especially to those that lack integrity and seek power and control. Being self-supportive, personally accountable, and free; are our top priorities right now. We need to break free of what is limiting, restrictive, and based in fear and control. Stay away from competition, hierarchical structures, and those that have heavy insecurities. Find ways to be a little more cautious in the present; and create ways to provide for your future.

Avoid major decision making and signing contracts. Take time for mental breaks and focusing on your own soul, spiritual, and introspective processing. Find ways to face things; and do the work that needs to be done. Take time to recognize those that have worked steadfast and in integrity, unconcerned with whether others were on board or not. Get out of the mass mindset and programming; and disconnect from media designed to influence you, and work to reduce time on electronics.

It is important, to remain persistent in what needs to get done; and do not procrastinate on things. Consider the different ways that you can transform things in your life, to create a favorable future. Look to your past, to understand your repeating patterns; and bring closure to those patterns that are based in lies, deception, and manipulation.

I welcome you to operate as independently and free as possible, in all areas of your life. What if you were able to have the freedom to do things, the way you wanted in all areas of your life?

I welcome you to be as self-supportive and personally accountable as possible. What if by being able to take care of yourself, you create more opportunities for yourself?

I welcome you to remove yourself from those people and things, that are based in fear and control. What if breaking out of limitations and restrictions, allow you to experience your own abundance; and gives you more experiences, that are joyful and fulfilling for you?

I welcome you to choose things that are non-competitive, and nurture confidence in yourself and others. What if confidence allows you to be free of what is heavy, draining, and detrimental?

I welcome you to consider how you can provide for your future. What if providing for you future, created confidence that you can handle anything that comes up; and thus, sets forth the energy for you to receive blessings instead of challenges?

I welcome you to stay focused on your own soul and spiritual processes and experiences; and to let go of forcing heavy logical thinking. What if by allowing for mental play time, you can be more refreshed and alert?

I welcome you to take care of the responsibilities and obligations that need to get done. What if this creates greater ease for you moving forward?

I welcome you to consider where you first experienced lies, deception, and manipulation; and how that created a pattern in your life. What if through this awareness, you transformed that pattern; into mutually respectful relationships and interactions, based in respect and integrity?

What To Focus Our Actions On

This month, we are called to keep our thoughts based in knowing the truth; and not just taking what others tell us at face value. The success, the joy, the love, and positive relationships are all based in the truth. It is during this month, that we are likely to see who is and is not standing in loving partnership with us.

This is an important time, to recognize the relationships that have stood by you no matter what. It is a time, to consider where you have real love being given to you. This is also a good time, to recognize those relationships that are soul based; and do not want anything for their kindness and generosity. People are naturally seeking those relationships that they see as being soulmates, twin flames, or that are not governed by material world desires and pleasures. Relationships that form at this time, are not going to be based on outer appearances; but will be based on inner feelings and connections.

It is important, for us to see where others are creating stress or supporting our wisdom; and where we are doing that to ourselves and others. It is during this time, that we really want to make certain, that we are choosing the relationships in our life wisely. We will be doing this, if they are supporting us in doing what is important to us; and in living with greater compassion and kindness. Relationships that are full of stress and are not helping us to grow, transform, and becoming stronger as our own person; are likely to be ones that are rooted in lies, deception, and manipulation. It is important, that we understand the difference.

When we nurture and enable situations that are based in lies and manipulation; then we are misusing our power. When we nurture and support those relationships that are based in truth and compassion; then we are using our power wisely. This is a time to be clear in that.

I welcome you to look beneath the surface of things to know what is based in truth. What if the things that provide the greatest joy, are based in truth?

I welcome you to acknowledge those that have stood by you in love, no matter what. What if you are being given tons of love, and need to simply start accepting it?

I welcome you to embrace those that you feel more of a soul connection with; and that are not based in material things. What if a true soul connection, needs nothing to be full?

I welcome you to know who creates stress, and who supports your success and wisdom. Out of those that are stressful, consider if they are transforming you or wearing you down. What if relationships that are favorable for you will support you in living with greater kindness and compassion; and help you to grow, transform, and become stronger?

What To Focus Our Thoughts On

From May 1st – May 4th it is important for us to keep our mind centered into living a more abundant and full life. This is a time, for us to think about what will provide us with greater peace and harmony. This is a time, that favors considering how we can make a bigger impact in the world through unconditional love. Think about those that love you purely, and who rejoice and celebrate your successes with you.

This is a time, where our abundance and peace come, through letting go of those thoughts that hold us in victim patterns. It comes by staying focused on you, and not allowing others to decide things for you. It is during this time, that you will do best to stay out of arguments with others; especially those that are designed to be a battle of wits or are full of mind games. Peace and joy, are found by stepping out of these situations.

From May 5th through the end of the month, we find that it will be a great time to brainstorm with others; and to exchange ideas in order to increase our understanding of what we want to do. This is a wonderful time for learning more about our own self, through interacting in groups with others. Thus, it can be a good time to do a retreat, attend a conference, participate in groups or workshops.

Keep in mind that doing these things, is simply about gaining more understanding, and learning more options. It is not about having others tell you what to do. Working as a team can also be favored, if there is true leadership; and as long as everyone is considered valuable with assets to share.

During this time, we can also find out greater understanding about our own culture, family, or history. It is a wonderful time, to realize the connections between past events and experiences, to what is happening now in our life. We may have to consider giving something a second chance; or bring complete closure to it. It is through reflection into our past, that we will be able to understand how to transform our present; and to know the path that is favorable for our future.

I welcome you to consider what will provide you with greater peace and harmony in your life. What if these guidelines, always keep us on our soul’s path?

I welcome you to stay out of arguments with others. What if stepping out of them, brings you greater peace and joy?

I welcome you to brainstorm with others; and see if you can learn more about your own self by interacting with them. What if being around others, help us to understand more about our own self?

I welcome you to participate in things that generate new ideas and learning processes for you. What if this opens your mind up in a way, that you could not do on your own?

I welcome you to understand more about your own history and who you are; and realize how past experiences are impacting your life now. What if this understanding allows you to transform your present, in a way that creates a favorable future?

Connecting To Our Soul Self

From May 1st – May 9th our emotions and soul energy may be feeling a bit all over the place. People may bounce around from great joy one day, to being extra down the next day. During this time, we are likely to get some things that can unexpectedly, put us into some pretty good emotional spirals. We may find out something out suddenly, that shows that things are not what we thought they are; and it could shake the whole foundation that we have been living from.

Upheaval at this time, can come from natural disasters; or simply be purely emotional upsets that others throw at us. These are surfacing, so that we will learn how to be victorious in what has been weighing us down for quite some time; but simply have not dealt with until now. It is about getting us to be able to take care of ourselves, and to not rely on others to tell us what we want to hear; especially if they are not telling us the truth.

We may also find that we need to be a source of emotional balance and calm for others that are experiencing turbulence. It is important to realize, that the turbulence that we have coming up for ourselves or others, is somehow based in lies and deception. Success can come out of all of this, if we will remain calm and center into what is best for our own self. The soul is asking us to stand in the soul’s wisdom; even if it means that changes must be made, and even if it means acknowledging that things are not the way our human self would like them to be.

From May 10th through the end of the month, we find that emotions are still bouncing around between many different things. It may be hard to stick to tasks, and to get things done; but we will be much happier if we do. This is a time, where we need to root into what provides us with security and stability, even if that does not feel as pleasant in the moment. We must consider how being practical now; provides us with greater comforts moving forward. This is not about taking the easy way out.

During this time, we need to make certain that we don’t let others play a tug of war game with our hearts. When we do this, we take a hard fall. This is a time, where we want to consider, that the only risks worth taking are those that are full of integrity, purity, and kindness; for these will be the ones that bring larger payoffs for us.

We may also find that there is a lot of struggle between our spiritual and human aspects. It is important, to find ways to keep them out of competition with each other. There can be a tendency to step out of the soul self, to fulfill material aspects or concerns. Still, we must not let our fears pull us into situations that diminish our soul connection; and that weigh us down with material world things. This is only coming up to keep us from being in our own abundance. The material things will not fulfill us; and we must know that we are abundant without them.

I welcome you to be aware of when you are getting into emotional spirals. What if when you find yourself or others in this space, you stop everything and take the time to just be still and breathe? What if this restores the balance and clarity needed to handle things?

I welcome you to learn, how to be victorious over what has been weighing you down. What if you can remove the weight, by simply dealing with things?

I welcome you to accept the truth, even if it is not what you want to hear. What if accepting the truth, brings you out of pain?

I welcome you to stand in the soul’s wisdom. What if this leads you into something greater than you were headed towards?

I welcome you to root into what provides security and stability. What if the practical choices bring greater fulfillment for you?

I welcome you to stop letting others play with your heart. What if allowing this, creates hard falls, while stopping it brings great expansion?

I welcome you to stop your spiritual and human selves, from being in competition with each other. What if they really want the same thing?

The Code Journey ~ 2021 Edition

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We want the full story about u and Tom Brady

I can’t believe y’all are making me boot up my computer again for the second time. 

Alright, pop a squat and settle down, this will be a long story:

Also putting this under the cut because I don’t want those crazy fans of his to find me (does Tumblr have a football fandom? Idk) 

The year: 2016 - the setting: Montreal, Grand Prix 

At the time Tag Heuer sponsored Red Bull racing. I guess Tag also sponsors individual athletes like Lindsey Vonn and, as you may guess, Tom Brady. 

So I’m out with my friends, who are all couples (relevant later) - I’m fifth wheeling, loving life. We’re at dinner and I find out that Tag Heuer is going to have some kind of event with Daniel Ricciardo (!!!!). My friends agree we should check it out. 

As I’m reading the social media post, I let them know two other people will be there as well. One is Tom Brady and the other some soccer player from Montreal’s team. 

Note - I had NO idea who Tom Brady is. I’m European and I got the attention span of a squirrel, I don’t follow American football AT ALL. 

Anyways, I say Brady’s name and the two guys are like “OMG!”

Whatever, weirdos. Danny Ric will be there, let’s gooooo.

We finish dinner and go to this event, which is at Victoria Square. There’s LOADS of people and most of them are in football jerseys - WTF? 

Soccer player comes on stage, small cheer from the crowd. 

Danny Ric comes on stage, I lose my mind and crowd cheers enthusiastically.

Brady comes on stage and the crowd LOSES it’s mind - there was a guy next to me yelling “BRAAAAADY” every 5 minute, like some kind of mating call (I remember this guy vividly - his body odor was... Pungent) 

I mean, the man has luscious beautiful long hair but also had a forehead big enough you could land a Boeing 737 on it, so I don’t get the ‘visual’ appeal.

They play some kind of game on stage, I try to get closer to get pictures to no avail. Whatever I guess. Fuck Red Bull and Danny Ric anyways.

So I find my friends (we got separated) and tell them, “Let’s go, too many people and I’m getting a bit claustrophobic”. They agree and we leave.

At that point, the whole event ends and the boys come off stage. I find myself in Dan’s way, freeze like a deer and manage to snap this picture (relevant) 

Dan literally being manhandled away by bodyguards from yours truly LOL 

So, as I am giggling away and trying to upload it to Insta (gotta get them likes yo) I get separated from my friends who are doing ‘couple-y’ stuff. Gross. 

What I don’t realize is that 4 men who are the size of a double IKEA Billy bookshelf are coming my way. I glance up, register “Oh people”, DON’T MOVE (I’m an idiot) and go back to my phone. 

I get bumped by one of them “What the fuck” I say loudly. 

Big guy and Forehead Dude (Brady) stare at me like “Who is this peasant and why does she dare speak?” 

I get angrier, another one of the Billy guys pushes me and I loudly yell “WHAT IS YOUR FUCKING DAMAGE” which was the wrong thing to say as now Forehead is getting more agitated at me. 

But he gets quickly whisked away by the Billy crew before he can say anything while I’m left standing there, fuming, because I got pushed by two random guys.

My friends are waaay back, they saw it all go down and are dying. Literally laughing themselves stupid over the whole interaction.

They then take their time to explain who Brady is, why he’s a big deal and all that.

So, that’s my story dear anon. I was ready to fight Forehead dude and his bodyguards despite the fact that they probably bench-press my weight with one arm

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10/28/2020 DAB Transcript

Jeremiah 51:54-52:34, Titus 3:1-15, Psalms 100:1-5, Proverbs 26:18-19

Today is the 28th day of October welcome to the Daily Audio Bible I am Brian as I have been every day since we started this. So, if this is your first day then…good to meet you, welcome aboard. We are on this journey and we’re well on this journey as we continue our journey through the Bible this year. So, let's get to that. We’re reading from the English Standard Version this week. Jeremiah chapter 51 verse 54 through 52 verse 34 today.

Commentary:

Okay. So, in the letter to Titus today we find these words, they’re characteristics, they’re like descriptors of the life of faith. “Be submissive to rulers and authorities. Be obedient. Be ready for every good work. Speak evil of no one. Avoid quarreling. Be gentle. Show perfect courtesy toward all people.” Okay are you seeing that all around you right now? Like if you turn on the news are you seeing that? If you just look around, are you seeing that? If you go online onto social media are you seeing that? The answer would be no, that you're probably not. And I'm not. I’m kind of…kind of witnessing the opposite of that most of the time. Maybe the better question though is, “am I being this way I? Am I speaking evil of no one? Am I avoiding quarreling? Am I being gentle? Am I showing perfect courtesy toward everyone? Am I ready to do every good work? Or am I just participating in adding to the chaos and the noise that is deafening?” These characteristics, this little list in the letter to Titus, these things are supposed to be an outgrowth of the fact that Christ has come and redeemed us. I just continue to quote from the letter. “We ourselves were once foolish, disobedient, led astray, slaves to various passions and pleasures, passing our days in malice and envy, hated by others and hating one another”, which is pretty much what we see all around us a lot of the time. But the letter goes on. “When the goodness and the loving kindness of God our Savior appeared, He saved us, not because of things we did, but because He was merciful”, right? And that is the basic hope of the gospel. And once again we see these contrasts, where it’s like, “that's supposed to do something.” Lile when you believe, when you enter into the journey of faith, when the intimacy of God draws near, that's supposed to irreversibly change us. And when we are irreversibly changed, then the things that we once did are…well…they’re changed and we reflect this gratitude that goes so deep that it permeates everything about us so that we walk around in a state of grace, a state of gratitude that spills out from us and affects the way that we interact and behave toward other people because we realize how lucky we are, like how fortunate that the intimacy of God has drawn near, that God has come near and rescued us transforming us the by day step-by-step. We are not who we once were. And, so, our lives should reflect that. These are such good words for the times that we are in right now when divisiveness seems to be like the game we’re playing.

And then we’ve got the Proverb. I mean yesterday the proverb gives us this one sentence about meddling and about dog ears and today like we get this other visual, this one sentence, “like a madman.” So, let’s just picture that, a crazy person “who throws firebrands, arrows and death.” Okay, so a crazy person with lethal intent. Are we on the same page? The kind of person we don't exactly want to encounter unaware. That kind of person is the man who deceives his neighbor and then says, “I was joking.” In other words, “I said it, but I didn't mean. It was a joke. What's the big deal? What's wrong with you? Can't you take a joke? In other words, the person who actually who really wanted to hurt you with the words like firebrands and arrows, and then when confronted is just like, “oh that was just a joke. I didn’t mean that.” You may know people like that. You may be a person like that. If you know, people like that or if you're on the receiving end of that it really can…it can make you question whether your all their, like are you going crazy? Because it's like you have thin skin and you just keep getting wounded and hurt and you keep thinking, “you're…but you’re trying to hurt me. Like I know that you’re trying…you’re using these words to hurt me but then you’re saying like it's just a joke and it's not just a joke.” But there's no way to like, confront that. It’s like he said she said. And, so, you're in your head going crazy like, “I know that was meant…I know that was meant to hurt me.” And we’re seeing all kinds of name-calling and all kinds of sidestep little joking things…like all kinds of stuff going on in the world around us. We’re seeing this kind of stuff. It's like a crazy person with lethal intent. Those are…that’s a good ancient description that feels very, very accurate. So, you know, if you’ve been on the receiving end of that, then it's being called out in the Bible. It's being named for what it is in the Bible and you should take heart that you’re not actually going crazy here. You…you have the behavior of an arrow toting firebrand wielding vicious crazy person and that's what's going on. But this could also be a mirror and you could realize, “I do that. Why do I do that? Like, why am I like that? What is going on here?” Well then you…you've got a visual that might make it stark, what's actually happening. It's like a crazy person with lethal intent who just wants to sidestep, like wants to do the damage then step away and go like, “I don’t know what…I don’t know what happened. I don't know why you’re all bloody. I was just…I was…it was just a joke. I don’t know why you’re crying here. It was just…I was just kidding.” Yeah, we've examined some things today. These are kind of deep things from Titus and Proverbs because these are connected to deep motivations and deep brokenness and wounding. Like, this is bringing up a lot if we’ll take the time to examine it and explains a lot when we look around us and kind of see the same thing going on in the world. And, so, let's heed the Scriptures and come into alignment with what things are supposed to look like because we are so grateful to even be here at all. The fact that we’re gonna draw the next breath is the evidence of God's life-giving force within us. We’re gonna exhale and it’s gonna be a step of faith, believing that the next breath is coming. We should be grateful to be breathing. If we could just start there and realize “I’m alive!” And maybe life is looking like I want it to look but if I stop comparing my life, if I stop listening to the noise and chaos and fighting and divisiveness, of I just got to the baseline, “grateful to be here” place well then some things could change. We could start spreading the evidence of our transformation into the world, which is the point. We're the body. We're the city on a hill. We're the salt of the earth. We have a role to play in preserving the whole thing, which is what salt does. So, I guess fundamentally from our reading today we can examine ourselves and look at the repercussions of our lives, the implications of us being here. Are we filled with gratitude and want to bring good channeling the kingdom of heaven into this world on earth as it is in heaven or are we just adding to the annoyance?

Prayer:

Holy Spirit, well up from within us. These are deep things. And the answer is that we…we try…we don't do it on purpose, but we…we try to live in both of those spaces sometimes being so deeply grateful that Your love just pours out of us, but the next day it could be the opposite of that and we’re walking in the darkness and we’re perpetuating the darkness. And that shouldn't be. That’s a divided heart, that’s a double mind. And the Scriptures tell us that's basically not going to end well or go anywhere. And, so, we need an undivided heart and we need the renewal of our minds. In fact, we need more than that. We need the mind of Christ to navigate this world. And it's available. It’s not hidden It's everywhere. We’re just not paying attention. We’re not slowing down and observing ourselves to any degree and seeing the implications of our lives. But we’re here at this moment kind of examining, “what am I bringing? What am I birthing? What am I giving? What is happening in this world because I'm here? Is it good or is it evil? Holy Spirit, we want it to be good…good. We want to be mature representatives and ambassadors for Your kingdom upon this earth and we’re gonna need Your help. And we’re gonna need Your help a lot right now. So, come. We become aware of You. We surrender to You. We humble ourselves and ask for Your guidance and we ask in the name of Jesus. Amen.

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Andi Mack 3x19 Review

A Moving Day was a lovely episode though one that had too much filler for such a late episode. Let’s dig in!

Positives:

Despite the cut ep and the re-shoots they were able to give Bex and Bowie a lovely wedding. Bex and Bowie have really been one of the core story lines for the show and it’s nice to see them get such a happy ending. There was a lot of history packed into Bex thanking Bowie for sticking it out and boy was the pay off ever worth it.

This smaller wedding works much better for their dynamic than the big farm wedding did and having it just be a main character affair makes the show more equal. And the snow and the trees and mountains and gazebo made for one of the most visually stunning eps of the show. Almost like a farewell to filming on location in Utah.

Asher’s performance of You Girl was awesome, glad they played what seemed like the whole song. 

Like Celia, I’m also glad no one said ‘um’!

It was nice to see Celia again. I’m glad they were able to give her ample screen time this ep to somewhat make up for what she’s lost. It makes so much sense that she’d be so into puzzles. And really showcases her personality that she climbs a mountain in heels. 

This really was a nice send off for the whole Mack family. Andi gets the nuclear family she’s always wanted, Bex and Bowie get the happy ending they’ve waited 14 years for, and Celia gets to see her wayward daughter take charge of her life. 

It took until the penultimate episode but we finally met Jonah’s mom, Judy Beck née Bartholomew (Terri really does like her Biblical names). That she ended up marrying one of her background helpers is a love story for the ages. 

I’m glad they gave Jonah a happy ending and we can end the series knowing that his family is in a better place and on track to recover from bankruptcy. 

I’ll have more to say about the filler in the negatives section but I did like Buffy’s deconstructed toast line, Cyrus not being self deprecating about his strength, and Asher almost breaking character while doing his mom’s dance. 

Nice that they snuck in one more Buffy picking up Cyrus moment. Truly those two have the best friendship on this show. 

I’m almost certain that Bowie scaring Celia was a nod to Trent scaring people on set, he has a whole instagram story dedicated to him spooking his co-workers. 

They brought in one of their casting directors, Steven O’Connor, to play the officiant which was a nice gesture and of course we got one last family cameo with Coco Angel playing Judy. 

Re-Shoots:

Bringing in this section since most of this ep were re-shoots. I’m not going to nit pick the plot holes that arose because of them: like how did Jonah learn You Girl without Bowie teaching him, how did he write the extended version, how Jonah and Cyrus and Buffy got to the Gazebo, why Cyrus and Buffy were dressed as waiters and didn’t actually do any waitering. Obviously whatever the original Gazebo event was would have had differences and production had limited time and budget to turn it into a new wedding as smoothly as possible. 

Not much actually happened in this ep and that was a sad side effect of the re-shoots. Scenes like the Macks in the car and the Macks hiking dragged on so long because they were easy to film fairly quickly, just like the party scenes in A Good Hair Day were quite long. 

I’m actually glad that they didn’t bother giving a reason for Bex suddenly deciding to get married. I don’t think it would have made all that much sense in otl anyway but without Ham I don’t think they could have come up with a good enough justification. At least with Ham it would have made some sense that he could have mended the rifts between Bex and Bowie and Bex and Celia since he was always the peacemaker and reasonable authority figure as well as a surrogate father and best man for Bowie. 

It seems that every story line except for Tyrus was damaged in some way by the cuts and re-shoots but definitely Celia suffered the most, which is such a shame.

Negatives:

I can’t believe the show decided to waste precious time on a toast making competition in the second to last ep of the entire series. It might have been fine in 3a but to have that filler for a cold open so late in the game is awful.

I gasped when Judy asked Jonah if she could finally meet his friends. He’s been friends with the GHC for like 14 months at this point and they still know nothing about his family? They’ve always kept Jonah apart from the GHC in a lot of ways which hasn’t been to the show’s credit. And while I’m glad that we finally met Jonah’s mom, it shouldn’t have taken this long. 

I’m not surprised but I was disappointed that we never heard that Jonah told his parents about his panic attacks. I get that in America’s horrifying healthcare system that they probably wouldn’t have been able to afford treatment but at least if they knew they could support him and try to help.

Looking Ahead:

Terri must love Winnie the Pooh if she’s having Cyrus quote him as shown in the most recent finale promo. The way Disney cuts the quote with clips from the ep is very clever: we have Tyrus being brave enough to confess their feelings, Muffy strong enough to be vulnerable and get together, and Jandi smart enough to know that now is not a good time for them go get back together. 

Looks like Terri was able to get ample screen time for TJ and Marty so Tyrus and Muffy won’t feel rushed. 

Very glad that Cyrus is the one who approaches TJ at the bench. I’m very interested to see how we go from delusion to confession on Cyrus’ part. Certainly they look happy when Cyrus asks if he can sit and Cyrus is obviously there because he wants to confess.

I assume the bench scene will come late in the ep. Cyrus seeing TJ talk to Kira must be what causes him to feel like he was deluding himself but what spurs him to decide it’s worth the risk to confess to TJ I don’t know. If the music performance is after Kira’s appearance than maybe Cyrus is feeling forlorn and then TJ appears to perform with him, in a way making up for costume day, and that gives Cyrus hope. Or if the performance is before Kira than maybe it’s what gets Cyrus’ hopes up only to have them crushed before someone or something gives him hope. Regardless of which scene is when, I do think that Cyrus and Buffy both give each other the final push to go seek out TJ and Marty and lay it all on the line. 

I’m trying to keep my expectations low since it’s still Disney but I do think we get hand holding based on their bench scene positioning and the fact that Ciris got to hold hands. I think it’s likely they’ll use the word boyfriend and I do think they have some brief post canon scene inside before the party clears out and that’s likely where Tyrus and Muffy have an interaction. I would also like Andi at least to congratulate them but I’m not holding my breath. Having TJ use the word gay would be amazing but seems unlikely and Luke will be able to confirm it on social media anyways. Having Cyrus compliment TJ’s outfit and say it brings out his eyes would be a nice little moment if Terri could swing it. Josh has heavily hinted that we’d see some pay off to Cyrus calling TJ oblivious back in 3x07 and it would be great if we could see Cyrus using a mashup name for him and TJ like was able to with Iris. 

Nice to see them make use of Luke’s piano skills and that means we’ll learn something new about TJ as well as learning his name and of course for most of the audience, the reveal that TJ is gay and likes Cyrus. 

Seems like Cyrus, TJ, Buffy, Bex, Bowie, Amber, Jonah, and Andi are involved in the song, not sure where Marty is. Buffy compliments Marty and says he was funny and I wonder if he did some solo performance beforehand or after. 

If they sing the theme song that’s cheesy af but I can’t see what else they’d have the rights to. 

Muffy confession is outside which makes sense since they’d want some privacy for the Muffy kiss. Very smart to have them canon in the place they first met and once again I’m so glad they got Marty back, a Wuffy endgame just wouldn’t have been anywhere near as good. 

I think the scene of Cyrus and Buffy standing inside in their jackets watching Bex and Bowie dance in their dress and tux is likely after they come in from confessing to their boyfriends and near the very end of the ep. I think Andi showing the mains that she’s cleared out Andi Shack because she got into SAVA is probably at the very end and one of the last scenes.  I don’t know if the show is gonna pretend she’s starting at SAVA immediately because the finale is in December and she would’t be starting high school for 9 months which takes away a lot of the emotional impact of her moving. Or maybe she gets to start early or has to transfer to some new art middle school to finish up 8th grade in order to beef up her skills before starting at SAVA. 

No sign of Kira in any of the promo clips and TJ arrives at the party alone which fits with her appearance meant to be a surprise twist as well as brief since Raquel was only on set for one day and that was the day all the other main and recurring kids were on set and her screen time comes out of TJ’s screen time. I think her 30-60 seconds of screen time will be by far the worst part of the finale. She’s been the most poorly written character on the show; her motvation going from trying to hurt Buffy to trying to date a guy she knows is gay and I’m sure her apology will probably introduce a new motivation, she just wanted a friend or some crap like that. On the plus side it doesn’t look like she sticks around so we don’t have to see TJ befriend her for no justifiable reason though I do think that ‘’sometimes there’s a nice person inside trying to get out’’ line is said to her by TJ or about her by TJ which is awful. I do think that she encourages TJ to talk to or hang out with Cyrus or something and that begins the ‘redemption’ we’ll luckily never have to see. 

We’ll see such growth on Amber’s part from her behaviour at the first party to now.

Jonah gives Andi the bracelet maybe? I don’t think they canon but I do think they leave the door open to get back together in the future. 

I wonder if Celia is coming back to Shadyside or if she’s leaving for good and I wonder if we’ll get a hint for a Bexie baby.

I’ve been hard on Terri but I do trust that the vast majority of the finale will be great and that she got the best ending possible for the show and I’m glad she fought as hard as I’m sure she did for the wonderful Tyrus ending we’re getting. 

It’s going to be bittersweet getting that payoff while also saying goodbye to the show but at least with the longer length we’ll get to see pretty much all of what they filmed. 

We’re on the cusp of watching history being made as Tyrus becomes the first gay couple on Disney Channel. With that in mind, I’d like to remind everyone that Tyrus week starts Monday July 22nd at 4pm eastern standard time and I hope everyone reading this will participate in whatever way they can so we can get Tyrus to number 1 on fandometrics. 

Can’t believe I only have one more review to write. It’s gonna be a great week and a great ep and I can’t wait for us all to see it!